Or like that one episode of Black Mirror: a game mod where you're playing as a soldier killing enemies but turned out to be just random civillians. Sort of like an unhinged and twist-filled MyHouse.wad.
@@conniehankosky5750 for me it's a mix of both, sometimes with slight euphoria because the disconnection from reality removes feelings of responsibility and expectations
You fuckers need to eat a banana and get some sunlight and quit romanticizing mental illness. Call your mothers and do some pushups or something. Christ.
same! I was slightly too young to catch the heyday of the CS games before CS:GO, but I got into the already dying CS:S as a teen, and it always hit me with such a powerful sense of historical nostalgia, like I had just missed something really special but still had the chance to watch it slowly move into the distance.
This strangely captures my experiences with derealization very well. It nails the floaty, washed out feeling and the kinetic elements simulate what it's like to feel like the world is zooming passed you. The wireframe in particular is brilliant, because it gives you the impression of what's supposed to be there but the lack of textures makes it feel ungrounded and abstract.
Guys. To explain derealization as someone who experiences it daily (and its getting worse due to new medication) its being a spectator in your own body. Sometimes you tunnel vision but cab still fully see. The tunnel vision being entirely mental and almost a feeling like your in a dark room watching it happen rather than experiencing whats going on. Typically when its bad reality becomes warped. Proportions of objects will seem off even if they arent, typically theres hallucinations, as the term "derealization" goes a lot of the time you feel disconnected from reality like you arent real and shouldnt exist or like your misplaced in this universe and dont belong. Typically your vision will also go almost cartoonish and the world will seem plasticy or dreamlike. It will look almost animated and unrealistic, something about it is just off. So slightly not right that you know its wrong but its like an uncomfortable itch that you cant reach because it physically looks normal but mentally it feels wrong. Everything about it is mental but the way you process and feel makes it almost seem like the physical world your interacting with is wrong. Recently alongside everything i mentioned ive been getting very confused, ill lose memory or forget how i got somewhere or what im doing/why, my body is in almost constant discomfort no matter what i do. Theres always something off and i dont know what its almost like theres a mental disconnect with my nerves, i can physically feel but its just not right. I literally cant explain it as i dont even know what it is myself but its just wrong and its at a point where when it gets bad id almost rather rip out my nerves than feel it because theres something wrong with how everything feels. Theres a lot of feelings ive gotten and that have gotten worse recently that i cannot place or explain but its so uncomfortable because it feels so wrong that i quite literally wanna crawl out of my skin
Depersonalization/ derealization is some of the weirdest things I've ever experienced. Especially considering I first experienced it before I even got into drugs
before i tried weed, i would randomly zone out as a kid and it would feel like im just a spectator of someones life for a second, but i would quickly snap out of it. then after i started smoking weed, one day at work the same thing happened but it didnt go away, and i started freaking out on the inside but my body stopped me from acting funny and i was too scared to tell someone the weirdest shit was happening. it slowly ramped down in severity and i went home after work and i slept and woke up and life just never felt as carefree since. i still dont know if it was an anxiety attack or derealisation though, because it would happen every now and again and i learnt to just try to focus really hard on staying calm and it would go away.
when i first experienced derealization i was in year 7 or 8 with far too much awareness and understanding. it did take quite a toll on my mental health all throughout secondary
@@bluestraw4060 I had it for about 10 years straight 24/7, 365. It was horrifying and I'm not sure how I made it out alive. I almost offed myself multiple times and got addicted to benzos and alcohol to try to get some relief. It was straight up mental torture. People don't really understand how weird and jarring it is until you exp it.
You know derealization is possible to overcome, and when you do, you gain. I thought I would suffer from that shit forever, until I embraced my position and welcomed change. "Powerful substances are a tool for you to use, but if it uses you, who becomes the tool?"
Wiki says: "Derealization is a mental state where you feel detached from your surroundings. People and objects around you may seem unreal." P.s. I'm suffering from it right now actually, it feels like you're sleeping all the time, watching a dream, not living a life. I remember how it started one morning and every day this stupid feeling only got stronger. It turned my life the wrong way.
im in the process of editing something very similar and now im not quite sure if i should pivot and change the aesthetic up. regardless this is incredible, enough to make me unsure of myself.
as an editor, this is one of the most beautiful aesthetics i've seen in a montage. keep it! nothing wrong with being inspired. i will take heavy inspiration from this to help morph my own style.
I remember playing with my old vhs camcorder and discovering the trippy feedback loop you get by pointing it back at its output on a monitor. Really cool to see it out in the wild, nice video my guy
I love how you displayed the map in relation to derealization. It's familiar, yet it has that ambient weirdness which comes with the disorder. What a lovely piece of art you've made here.
Got it for about a year now. Sucks because I haven’t felt alive in a very long time and emotions are also only at 10%. My symptoms make me not really depressed but very similar to that
@@danielpadilla7601damn you guys have it too? I can't even feel slight pain like a cut or a burn at this point. My self preservation instinct is getting dull too. It feels shitty, like I'm actually living inside my mind only and outside is just... outside
I felt like I had something like that in elementary school. I was playing and fully aware of my surroundings and then suddenly everything started to feel unreal or unnatural. It felt like I wasn't there. I don't know how to explain it, and I don't know if I have fully recovered from it. Even when I take cold showers, it doesn't fully seem to wake me up.
hang in there, buddy. I had it for ten years straight. 24/7. I fully believe if I can recover from it, having such a severe case for so long that almost anyone can. I truly never thought I would ever get out of it. Many days I had thoughts of ending it all, in fact there wasn't a day that didn't go by that I wasn't thinking of unaliving. Try therapy,meds (lamictal in particular can help a lot) and find ways to control your anxiety. Meditate, quit drinking or drugs if you still use them. There is hope I'm living proof of it!
this captures derealization while gaming pretty well i had it once or twice where i just go into background mode while someone played at insane speed and precision for me kinda
I think you guys might not really understand derealization; it's hard to explain because it feels like you're not fully in control of your body. It's like talking to someone and watching yourself do it, then suddenly losing your memory because you weren't mentally present. It's like all your memories have vanished, as if you didn't exist before today. It's like being trapped in a cell in your own head; the visual perspective doesn't change much, similar to a quake pro vision in minecraft ; Colors lose their vibrancy, and noises become overwhelmingly loud. It's like being stuck in a nightmare every time you open your eyes.
de_realization sounds like a map where you constantly are refiguring out where the bombsite is
non euclidean map
Or like that one episode of Black Mirror: a game mod where you're playing as a soldier killing enemies but turned out to be just random civillians.
Sort of like an unhinged and twist-filled MyHouse.wad.
"guys theyre pushing"
"where"
"uhhhhhhh"
@@geg5274dimension 4.3
Yay! My like is 1000!
This has to be the most stylish frag video I've seen in a long time
killfeed added in might go hard on this
Oh wait it's a frag video?
The words "frag video" gave me major nostalgia...damn
I got played into watching a frag
first time im actually impressed to this point
this is such a unique and cool way of editing, i love it
what is the style?
derealization feels like sitting in a dark room, watching your life happen on an old CRT
Perfectly described
This is actually hits so deep, this is exactly how i feel
For me it’s like watching a memory
@@conniehankosky5750 for me it's a mix of both, sometimes with slight euphoria because the disconnection from reality removes feelings of responsibility and expectations
You fuckers need to eat a banana and get some sunlight and quit romanticizing mental illness. Call your mothers and do some pushups or something. Christ.
my ass is never gonna buy shrooms in eco round ever again
LOL
lmfaoo
I don't know how to explain it, but this is the exact vibe I get when playing a Source Engine/gold source game
yeh shouldnt uf been a gold source thing
@@vepply also Gold src
same! I was slightly too young to catch the heyday of the CS games before CS:GO, but I got into the already dying CS:S as a teen, and it always hit me with such a powerful sense of historical nostalgia, like I had just missed something really special but still had the chance to watch it slowly move into the distance.
@@CraftingStudios1337 yea!
I know exactly what u mean GoldSrc and Source are two magical game engines with a "feeling" no other game engine has.
This strangely captures my experiences with derealization very well. It nails the floaty, washed out feeling and the kinetic elements simulate what it's like to feel like the world is zooming passed you. The wireframe in particular is brilliant, because it gives you the impression of what's supposed to be there but the lack of textures makes it feel ungrounded and abstract.
described my derealiztion phase perfectly
when the gas station cart hits
Same here, I've been mostly better for let's say about a year now gladly but this made me feel fucking weird again for a minute.
Yep that’s exactly how it feels for me too
glad i'm not the only one. just by the thumbnail i didn't expect this to hit so hard
0:16 - de_inferno
0:20 - de_nuke
0:24 -de_dust2
Wow. I think you've played too much.
okay I saw inferno and dust2 but I did not notice nuke until I slowed it down and saw hut lol
I knew it was csgo just from the silhouette
@@smallcheesebread6531 its 1.6
@@smallcheesebread6531 thats 1.6 and not go
I instantly recognize the song as "Oni" by Sewerslvt but minimally slowed down. An absolute banger.
same.
fr. i miss her music
i thought this was a slowed down sample taken from aphex twin
sounds like th1 slo and #24 but i remember an even closer sounding track from the soundcloud dump
bro, it's laterally just Oni from sewerslvt, go to the archive and you'll see.@@Salok_z
спасибо моё тело почти что материализовалось
Звучит пугающе
бро почти забыл о буддизме
Твое тело и так материализовано
вау здесь все ещё есть люди 🫢
@@s3utmrwда
Guys. To explain derealization as someone who experiences it daily (and its getting worse due to new medication) its being a spectator in your own body. Sometimes you tunnel vision but cab still fully see. The tunnel vision being entirely mental and almost a feeling like your in a dark room watching it happen rather than experiencing whats going on. Typically when its bad reality becomes warped. Proportions of objects will seem off even if they arent, typically theres hallucinations, as the term "derealization" goes a lot of the time you feel disconnected from reality like you arent real and shouldnt exist or like your misplaced in this universe and dont belong. Typically your vision will also go almost cartoonish and the world will seem plasticy or dreamlike. It will look almost animated and unrealistic, something about it is just off. So slightly not right that you know its wrong but its like an uncomfortable itch that you cant reach because it physically looks normal but mentally it feels wrong. Everything about it is mental but the way you process and feel makes it almost seem like the physical world your interacting with is wrong. Recently alongside everything i mentioned ive been getting very confused, ill lose memory or forget how i got somewhere or what im doing/why, my body is in almost constant discomfort no matter what i do. Theres always something off and i dont know what its almost like theres a mental disconnect with my nerves, i can physically feel but its just not right. I literally cant explain it as i dont even know what it is myself but its just wrong and its at a point where when it gets bad id almost rather rip out my nerves than feel it because theres something wrong with how everything feels. Theres a lot of feelings ive gotten and that have gotten worse recently that i cannot place or explain but its so uncomfortable because it feels so wrong that i quite literally wanna crawl out of my skin
Wow guys that seemed a lot more mentally ill than I intended 💀 I'm normal I swear ‼️‼️‼️
@@Magnetiic you good, appreciate you sharing your experience
Do you feel awkward and cringe at things during it?!
@@ShortsEntertainmentClips not really? feel awkward yes but idk that i cringe at things.
Depersonalization/ derealization is some of the weirdest things I've ever experienced. Especially considering I first experienced it before I even got into drugs
before i tried weed, i would randomly zone out as a kid and it would feel like im just a spectator of someones life for a second, but i would quickly snap out of it. then after i started smoking weed, one day at work the same thing happened but it didnt go away, and i started freaking out on the inside but my body stopped me from acting funny and i was too scared to tell someone the weirdest shit was happening. it slowly ramped down in severity and i went home after work and i slept and woke up and life just never felt as carefree since. i still dont know if it was an anxiety attack or derealisation though, because it would happen every now and again and i learnt to just try to focus really hard on staying calm and it would go away.
@@bluestraw4060 real, after I experienced this life was never the same
when i first experienced derealization i was in year 7 or 8 with far too much awareness and understanding. it did take quite a toll on my mental health all throughout secondary
@@bluestraw4060 I had it for about 10 years straight 24/7, 365. It was horrifying and I'm not sure how I made it out alive. I almost offed myself multiple times and got addicted to benzos and alcohol to try to get some relief. It was straight up mental torture. People don't really understand how weird and jarring it is until you exp it.
Back when I played this game I didin't suffer from derealization, what a time it was.
same here...
You know derealization is possible to overcome, and when you do, you gain. I thought I would suffer from that shit forever, until I embraced my position and welcomed change. "Powerful substances are a tool for you to use, but if it uses you, who becomes the tool?"
@@3FF4C3 What Is derealisation?
Wiki says: "Derealization is a mental state where you feel detached from your surroundings. People and objects around you may seem unreal."
P.s.
I'm suffering from it right now actually, it feels like you're sleeping all the time, watching a dream, not living a life. I remember how it started one morning and every day this stupid feeling only got stronger. It turned my life the wrong way.
Don't worry m8 you'll get through it I overcame it and I'm doing better now
I've watched this about 25 times within the past month, it always comes up in my feed and I always watch it
Its so good
Mindblowing.
love the song choice too one of my favs off the ep^^
Whats the song?
sewerslvt - oni
it's slowed version@@zxvadcsfbh
@@rombildead5176 I miss sewerslvt. She made some of the best music back then.
@@nosiidda501he
@@nosiidda501 me too :(
Под такую музыку даже срущий кот с эдитом будет выглядеть как нечто неизведанное, старое, напоминающее что-то, о чем ты подсознательно всегда думал.
Наверное где то в душе я срущий кот. Почему бы и нет...
I wait patiently for the shitting cat video
@@seamussmyth1928fr
Обожаю коменты про срущих котов, всегда им лайк ставлю
I don't know if google translate is joking with me but did you actually said "a shitting cat"?
Sewerslvt's Oni playing in the background really fits this.
Was looking for someone who also recognized the music. ❤
🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻
The creativity here is insane, love Sewerslvt as well
Я думал, что я один ловлю дереализацию от звуков дигла на инферне.
определенно в этом есть свой стиль
im in the process of editing something very similar and now im not quite sure if i should pivot and change the aesthetic up. regardless this is incredible, enough to make me unsure of myself.
i believe in you, nbs...
as an editor, this is one of the most beautiful aesthetics i've seen in a montage. keep it! nothing wrong with being inspired. i will take heavy inspiration from this to help morph my own style.
more of this wont hurt
keep it up g
I have seen lots of edits like this before, ultimately thats up to you if you wanna change it up, try new things
How are the shooting scenes made in this?
i love this type of stuff sm such a treat for the brain
Something about the themes and tones here I feel deep in my soul
I just found this in the recommendations, and bro I got goosebumps all over my body, this is very cool, respect for doing such good shit
some of us are a little worse at reading than others and that’s okay
We're continually impressed by the quality and depth of your videos.
best edit ever made hands down
Я требую часовое видео в подобном стиле и с такой же аутентичной музыкой.
big ask
Согласен
Song is Sewerslvt - Oni
@@LeoD.J спасибо тебе большое за то, что открыл мне этого замечательного исполнителя. Очень давно не попадалось такой годноты.
тоже
i come back to this frequently, so good
This is an amazing edit. Best one I've seen
This feels like a fever dream after playing cs late at night
This isnt even cs anymore... just a relatable masterpiece
what, this was amazing. so short and sweet.
i love how short random out if context videos are more entertaining to me than most vids from ppl im subscribed to
I remember playing with my old vhs camcorder and discovering the trippy feedback loop you get by pointing it back at its output on a monitor. Really cool to see it out in the wild, nice video my guy
this is art wow
why are these the hardest cs edits ive ever seen
Este video, sin importar cuántas veces lo vea, me llena de escalofríos. Es simplemente increíble...
this is apparently starting to get blessed by the algorithm, good thing
as it should
@@flouride frfr
Too bad it isn't the original upload getting the recognition
@@broes1962 wdym it's not the original upload?
@@skullzor ua-cam.com/video/fN0W25FJQJ4/v-deo.htmlsi=FOaMko4yVqsnhJQJ
tysm so much for derealization de la realization
that is what essentially plays in my head when I dissociate, especially the audio
I love how you displayed the map in relation to derealization. It's familiar, yet it has that ambient weirdness which comes with the disorder. What a lovely piece of art you've made here.
my mind in mathematics class
id love for a behind the scenes or something on this. God this is so sick.
this is so pretty in a way
I don't know if i like this more for the music,for the aesthetic,for the weapons or for all three mixed up
do NOT watch this shit high 😭
Too late
Man, that is sooo cool. I just can’t imagine what you can do with the cs 1.6
Beautiful music. The type you listen to on a 5am hike
this video has its own beauty
This showed up in my recommended last night and I just wanna say. This is beautiful~
1 million views soon, calling it~
How the hell.
Why do I recognize this?
Why does it give me goosebumps?
It's a dark place in our minds we all posses.
feel like ive been there before. espacially that last clip
1.6 just made my childhood even better.
When you tune in this is literally what everyday feels lije
wtf this goes hard af damn
I suffer from derealization disorder, and this is not how it feels for me, but nice video 👍
What is that
love that artstyle
This is a best art i ever seen.
actually insane
Квантовое бессмертие
this might just be the best editing style ever
This hits a certain core in my brain that i can't even explain.
Sewerslvt - Oni (music)
Arte digital simplemente
watched this while drunk and was looking for it for a week
LOVE COMING HERE ON TUESDAYS, GOOD TIMES. THANK YOU FOR CAPTURING THE ESSENCE OF THIS REALM 🙏
пиздато
а че за трек плиз подскажите
upd: нашел
sewerslvt - oni
I really miss Jvne. Her music got me to survive 2021
You'd be surprised, she's back.
Watching this with derealization is crazy
Got it for about a year now. Sucks because I haven’t felt alive in a very long time and emotions are also only at 10%. My symptoms make me not really depressed but very similar to that
It feels like your always seeing the world through a window right? Like the environment surrounding you doesn't feel fully present, only partial.
@@danielpadilla7601 yup. Or as if I‘m just a in a video game and controlling my body through the screen
@@danielpadilla7601damn you guys have it too? I can't even feel slight pain like a cut or a burn at this point. My self preservation instinct is getting dull too. It feels shitty, like I'm actually living inside my mind only and outside is just... outside
I felt like I had something like that in elementary school. I was playing and fully aware of my surroundings and then suddenly everything started to feel unreal or unnatural. It felt like I wasn't there. I don't know how to explain it, and I don't know if I have fully recovered from it. Even when I take cold showers, it doesn't fully seem to wake me up.
hang in there, buddy. I had it for ten years straight. 24/7. I fully believe if I can recover from it, having such a severe case for so long that almost anyone can. I truly never thought I would ever get out of it. Many days I had thoughts of ending it all, in fact there wasn't a day that didn't go by that I wasn't thinking of unaliving. Try therapy,meds (lamictal in particular can help a lot) and find ways to control your anxiety. Meditate, quit drinking or drugs if you still use them. There is hope I'm living proof of it!
Когда пошёл играть в кс после лоботомии?
i hear sewerslvt, i click like.
(pretty visuals btw! u did a nice job there)
this captures derealization while gaming pretty well
i had it once or twice where i just go into background mode while someone played at insane speed and precision for me kinda
was waiting for dnb beat to kick in
thats breakcore
@@adejdjathis mf is really saying that oni by sewerslvt is breakcore
Да это примерно как я вижу мир с дереализацией
Психи, общий сбор
шизик
Это не так выглядит)
I think you guys might not really understand derealization; it's hard to explain because it feels like you're not fully in control of your body. It's like talking to someone and watching yourself do it, then suddenly losing your memory because you weren't mentally present. It's like all your memories have vanished, as if you didn't exist before today. It's like being trapped in a cell in your own head; the visual perspective doesn't change much, similar to a quake pro vision in minecraft ; Colors lose their vibrancy, and noises become overwhelmingly loud. It's like being stuck in a nightmare every time you open your eyes.
This song feels like recovering from a flashbang but in a slightly calming way
It's like my memories of GoldenEye 64, the early Adult Swim days and Off the Air, and the PS2 startup screen made a little baby memory
Love these types of vids man
лучший эдит который я видел в жизни
bro this is the best cs 1.6 video i ever watched
Как же это красиво
this was inspirational. I want to edit videos in this type of style, thank you
derealisation has changed me fundamentally as a person :/ i wonder if life will ever be as vibrant again
I've watched this so many times and I only wish it was a full song length edit
Derealization feels like when ጮ፪
least edited cs video
love it
Oni is such a mood honestly
This will so easily become a breakcore beat.
This is already a song, i believe its oni from sewerslvt
Oni by Sewerslvt, absolute banger
bro we need a full song
already is, its oni by sewerslvt
this feels like this should be an advertisement for some game in the late 90s or early 2000s
This video made me feel like I was in a parallel dimension
omg im glad i didnt go to sleep early today so i saw this masterpiece
Idk why but this blocky kind of structure gave me nostalgia probably cuz of my old school that i went to years ago
this is so good!
This looks like an old TV chanel intro at 3 am.
This video make me feel nostalgic😢
CS edits have reached the surrealism and meta stage.
gives off serial experiments lain
i have no idea what i just experienced but i love it