the Hill Country Devil, "Kerr County Dopesick Blues" // GemsOnVHS™
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- Опубліковано 3 жов 2024
- What many consider the best song off the new album, something i'm tempted to agree with. When I first heard it, I was blown away by the honesty and reality presented by the writing. For those wondering, Kerr county is a rural county in Texas where Hayden spent a good deal of recovery/rehab time. It's dedicated to his friend, who recently passed away to a fentanyl overdose.
The first time we tried to record this song (clips of which can be seen in the beginning of this video) Hayden was too fucked up to finish it and so we had to call it off. This is the second go around.
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Hayden's line about how selfish it would be if he'd followed his buddy into the grave rings through my brain a lot lately. I was a heroin addict for almost 30 years and after 8 years on Suboxone, I've finally been completely free from opiates for a little over a year. But 5 months ago I was in a horrible car accident in which my best friend/fiance was killed, along with 2 others, including a child. I am having a really hard time understanding how and why I am still here. No one, including me, expected me to survive my addiction, and now this crash... It just feels like a giant mistake that I'm still here and at times like this, I wonder if I actually am still here... Maybe I didn't survive and now I'm a sad ghost wandering around unseen among the living, unaware that I am actually supposed to be dead... I'm sure that sounds crazy... Some days the only thing that keeps me from following him into death are Hayden's mumbled words bouncing around my brain. I'm honestly surprised I haven't used heroin again, especially now. I have to admit I am tempted, mostly as a suicidal impulse more than any belief it will actually help. I had a bad enough habit for a long enough time to be immune to that particular lie... I'm not sure exactly what I am trying to say or why... I guess I figured that some of the people who appreciate Hayden's music might be more likely to understand the heartache of the loss that Im experiencing, and hopefully would spare me the cruel bullshit judgement that I have to endure daily on top of this crushing and very lonely grief. I honestly don't know what to do to get through it. I can't believe 5 months have already passed since the crash. In 12 years, I have never been apart from him for this long, and the passage of time so far makes everything harder, not better. I don't have anyone to talk to about it, so pathetically, I am unloading here in a UA-cam comment section, which even annoys me. I guess I will stop my whining and head out in the snow for a late night walk. That's the only thing that even remotely helps right now. Apologies for spreading my self pity among strangers. I guess the relative anonymity is the only way it feels safe to open up at all. My embarrassment is somewhat lessened by my certainty that 99% of people will skip any post as long as this one will likely be, so hopefully this will end up as just another silly note sent into the void. Those can help more than one would think, actually. So, apologies if anyone actually slogged through to this point. I wish I could come up with some hopeful or wise words to end this, but I have nothing right now. I'm just getting through each minute, and barely managing that. For now, that's the absolute best I can do.
Survivor's guilt is rough, you deserve to be alive and to be loved
You are here to spread that message. I know its hard but you must spread you're message of getting clean
It's not a mistake you're still here. 10 months since you wrote this. Hopefully you're still alive and kicking. Keep strong. Those who are still here need each other.
So very sorry for your loss❤you are in my thoughts an prayers tonight. God has plans for you. An he has one for me as well. Lift that spirit. Sending hugs to you right now
Been 11 months....hope your doing well and havnt slipped. If you have there is always someone who's more than willing to help. Just gotta look
Everybody judges this guy because he's an addict. He's a human being first and a great musician.
I am an addict and I definitely judged him because he is an addict. At least scrutinized. If that's any different? My judgements just happen to be positive. Regardless of the stigma, and quite possible negative feedback, he put himself out there honestly and that had to take more courage than I've been able to muster yet. However, the fact that he was able to turn such tragedy and sorrow into something constructive and beautiful. Well damn, he gave my cynical ass hope and inspiration. Two things that have been virtually absent from my life since Christmas of 2015.
Thanks for writing your feelings out loud and for showing that all hope is not lost on humanity. Stay well, and grow stronger daily.
Do people not realize how common this is in the music industry? Most just hide it. I’m glad he’s open and honest about his continued struggle and pray he’s able to defeat it.
If this dude died tomorrow his only claim to fame would be an album that's almost untouchable and that is a fact and speaks volumes
Hayden celebrated 90 days clean, with the help of Arlo McKinnley, with us at the VClub in Huntington, WV!!! Keep pushing homie! We NEED you!
That's bad ass. Everything about this comment makes me happy.
HELL YEAH bro. God bless. Salute for what you're doing for our people
If you have this kind of talent you have unbelievable things awaiting you and begging you to live to greet them.
Magic happens at the v-club. I cant wait to get back to a show.
This is powerful man.... and I don’t know Hayden but damn his music has affected and been a part of my life hard. I’m so happy to hear this. Truly. Fucking truly, truly, truly. Keep fighting brother. ALWAYS FORWARD. ALWAYS. FUCKING. FORWARD.
It's uncanny how much this song resonates with my entire life. Lost my best friend to a fent overdose. Lost the love of my life because i relapsed after 9 years clean. And now it's harder to quit than it ever was before. I'm worried I'm riding this right into my grave
Few men will know themselves as much as you know yourself. In the hells of withdrawal, while puking and shitting your heart out, you'll find a beautiful summer in yourself. I believe this to be true with all my heart.
This is literally the best damn channel on UA-cam and it gives me hope for music in America..
This song could also be the dope sick blues for any county in Kentucky near me.
This could be the dopesick blues for any place in the world friend. I’m in western Canada (at the moment) and I got the dopesick blues through and through. Working my way through suboxone treatment right now and trying to stave off dope sickness as we speak.
@@DIRTYSANCHEZ1995 6 years sober from dope here. Hang in there. There is light at the end of the tunnel. *hugs*
Or Chicago, where its got many of us by the throat
Fucking aye man
I feel you bro
This ain't my first time hearing this song, but that little blurb in the beginning just made this song resonate with me so much more. Beautiful.
"And how selfish it would have been for me to follow suit"
I love that you heard that, I heard it and felt it.
The thing about loving real music: The good feels are really good and The sad feels are just as equally sad.
Crying like a baby at the moment.
Any of you fighting their demons, even in your darkest hour, when it seems nobody cares or that everyone is against you. Please know that is false. I am still rooting for you. I still believe in you. We can and we do, recover.
@@brianstotler9846 I'm fighting the battle, too...
@@brianstotler9846 I cant seem to get 24 hours without a certain substance... dope sick and work dont mix at all..so I convince myself everyday that its necessary...its literally killing me
@@innerselfspark1384 right there with ya man, it's a harsh reality for a lot of us!
This mans music takes me right back to the days of when I was a lesser man fighting for a reason to do the right thing. I pray for nothing but peace and prosperity for him and his, God Bless him.
Ive been clean for eight years as of July 14th this year. Back then everyone but one friend and my grandparents had given up on me and their love gave me a reason to invest in my future and fight to become better. In the end despite how bad things get I know I can and will overcome my personal demons, anyone else reading this and is still in that place needs to know your never "That Far Gone". The strength of the human spirit is a most amazing thing.
Coming back. Powerful.... truly. Chase, I miss you brother. I’ll see you again. Someday brother, someday.
Anyone experienced that withdrawal of being up all night with not wink of sleep, than than the sun comes up again. I can feel the 4 days
I don't know how it is for others, but I just couldn't stop my legs moving, and that was by far the worst part for me. I was on Oxy and fent for 7 years. Had a kid so put myself in my room and suffered. Almost 5 years ago now and I still remember it clearly, you go through a metaphorical death and rebirth. Then the mental battle begins.
Even though I've not been thru these specific things.. I'm no stranger to that same ache and the miserable weight it brings. You have a gift. I've been stuck on a couple of your songs for days now. It is rare to find an artist that captures my attention like this. There is no question that you feel every word you've written in these songs. Stay honest and genuine, good sir. It does us all good to hear such flawless music. If you ever find yourself in a low place.. Remember that you have given us all something beautiful to fall to. I look forward to seeing your name more and more. I've been in those cells and felt very much the same, brother. Keep your head up and be strong. Thank you for putting so much of yourself out there for us.. You have an incredible talent and it will resonate with countless others.
Someone explain to me how such tragic and pain ladden music can be so beautiful and uplifting? This man has got something most artists wish or pretend to have. And I feel like it comes so easily for him.
Playing with the chords if anyone knows them already.
Amen. That is the depth of my soul
I really can't even believe how absolutely beautiful this man's songs are. His pain must be tremendous, and I wish it weren't so- but he has channeled it into some of the finest art ever to exist
God damn, Hayden...the ability you have to translate pain into something meaningful and beautiful, which this absolutely is, isn't something to be taken lightly. Thank you, for creating and sharing this as a fan of your music I'm grateful and happy to have seen this come up on my feed today. After listening to the intro and the song...just as a fellow human being, I'm just happy you're here with us. I appreciate and thank you for that as well, hanging on when it's easy to lay down, well I know that ain't always easy. I hope that moment of clarity you touched on having here with this song and Josh's death also continues to take on different meanings to you with time, as you say the song itself has. It took me hitting rock bottom to know which way I had to go to in order to climb out of a hole I once found myself in, but I did and I'm still climbing. Keep climbing, my friend. And may you RIP Josh Allen.
So beautiful. Here’s my attempt at the lyrics:
It’s my fourth day awake
Oh and Dallas is behind us but I’ll pay for that mistake
And being swallowed by the shadow of these
Picture postcards on the dresser
Reflect the flashing from the street
As the hounds start-a-catching up to me
In a cloak of sheets and the cold concrete
I tremble for defeat
And that golden script from my back pocket
Ain’t worth a god damn thing
‘Cause the judge won’t grant me bail
And what’s another month in jail...
Well you sleep well wrapped in somone else’s arms
And no matter, what I choose
Oh I’m forced to pay my dues
Dream of you, in the Kerr County dopesick blues
It’s my fourth day awake
And the nights are getting longer yet I flinch when morning breaks
And I wonder if you long for me at all
As I trace the cracking stone stretching trails across these walls
And I hope that the whole damn thing will fall
And the sky will bruise in blinding hues
And if god is good it’ll fall down too
And the world will turn as the idols burn
With steadfast follow through
But the ledger spells my name
And that stone won’t ever break
So onward now, through the never ending ache...
And no matter what I choose
Oh I’m forced to pay my dues
Dream of you, in the Kerr County dopesick blues
It's my fourth day awake
Dallas is behind us, but I'll pay for that mistake
And be swallowed by the shadow of the east
Picture postcards on the dresser reflect the flashing from the street
As the hounds start a-catching up to me
In a cloak of sheets on the cold concrete
I tremble before defeat
And that golden script from my back pocket
Aint worth a God damn thing
'Cause the judge won't grant me bail, what's another month in jail
While you sleep well wrapped in someone else's arms
No matter what I choose
I'm forced to pay my dues
And dream of you in the Kerr county dopesick blues
It's my fourth day awake
And the nights are getting longer yet I flinch when morning breaks
I wonder if you long for me at all
As I trace the cracking stone that's stretching trails across these walls
And I hope that the whole damn thing will fall
And the sky will bruise in blinding hues
if god is good it'll fall down too
And the world will turn as the idols burn
with steadfast follow through
But the ledger spells my name and that stone won't ever break
So onward now through the never ending ache
No matter what I choose
I'm forced to pay my dues
And dream of you in the Kerr county dopesick blues
Hayden!
Wow, thanks for the reply, I was almost there! I’m trying to figure it out on guitar, got the picking pattern down but still struggling through the chords/rundowns etc.
This is gonna’ be your year man. Much love and hope to you.
@@haydenk8831 damn dude I'm an instant fan badass shit keep it up I would rather be playing with any of you gems on musicians than this fake crap they're trying to sell us it would mean way more as a musician believe me
@@haydenk8831
Thanks for sharing this beautiful song with us ❤
@@haydenk8831 I lost the love of my life to fentanyl in 2015. Thank you four sharing your story, I know it will help others, whichever side they're on.
Beautiful song. You can feel the hurt in his voice makes me miss my fallen friends rip Josh 💔
I. Think. I. Just. Felt. My. Breath. Stop.
Thank you for making this video, for writing music that makes you remember the pain of every nerve ending being exposed and how you wanna die, you wanna live, you wanna feel, you sure as fuck don't wanna feel, and all you can do is think about some way to change the way you feel.
I can’t get enough of Hayden! Hope he realizes how therapeutic his music is and he finds what’s he needs to win his fight to stay sober. We’re rooting for ya!
i hope he does too. thanks jon
Hope you can get and stay clean brother. If you don't it will be one of the biggest wastes of talent I believe we will ever witness. Praying for you young man.
Hayden-
Maybe one day you’ll stop falling on the needle and finally just let it rest on top of your records- probably not
From one junkie musician to another -
Thank you for the blood cold sweats and tears-
If you’re ever in Orange County and need somewhere to crash or want to record. Hit me up. We have a ton of sober musicians out here that used to be halfway faced down on deaths doorstep just trying to slowly back away from the hell they called home.
Stay up my friend-
Condolences to your brother-
Finally to gems on VHS- thank you for everything you do. You’ve put me in some dark places and gotten me out. You might not read any of these but it’s therapeutic enough to be able to offer up a thank you.
- Adon J.
A. Janse beautifully said
Amen brother amen
@@TheMnimatt yes!
Probably not? Pretty messed up.
Anthony reads them.
He may not have responded to this, but I bet he read it.
Side note, coming from an ex junkie, why add the "probably not" to your comment? I'd say that you are probably an asshole for that, but I am probably wrong. You probably are a great guy who means well.
Birds of a feather. This songs makes me ache to the core.
Yes sir. I like it. Depressingly fuckingly awesomely awesome.
Follow him on instagram, @thehillcountrydevil - we're @gemsonvhs
do you mind if i ask you a question about this artist?
Duck u
So much pain, thank you for sharing it in such an emotional creative way..you make my heart wrench Hayden.
Godspeed Brother , keep moving forward and sharing your Soul .
Beautiful fragile truth... peace & love for your pain. Thank you xo
I hope Hayden gets the recognition that he deserves. Glory is one of the best songs I have ever heard. By anybody. Every Lost Dog Street Band show I have seen, Ben Tod seems to always mention Hayden whether he plays Haydens Lament or not. This Gems on VHS series is the most authentic music I have heard in years and I am grateful.
Rats get fat is my personal favorite. I really like his old song belly ache too.
It's my fourth day awake
Dallas is behind us, but I’ll pay for that mistake
And be swallowed by the shadow of the east
Picture postcards on the dresser reflect the flashing from the street
As the hounds start a-catching up to me
In a cloak of sheets on the cold concrete
I tremble before defeat
And that golden script from my back pocket
Ain't worth a God damn thing
'Cause the judge won’t grant me bail, what's another month in jail
While you sleep well wrapped in someone else's arms
No matter what I choose
I'm forced to pay my dues
And dream of you in the Kerr county dopesick blues
It's my fourth day awake
And the nights are getting longer yet I flinch when morning breaks
I wonder if you long for me at all
As I trace the cracking stone that's stretching trails across these walls
And I hope that the whole damn thing will fall
And the sky will bruise in blinding hues
If god is good it'll fall down too
And the world will turn as the idols burn
With steadfast follow through
But the ledger spells my name and that stone won't ever break
So onward now through the never ending ache
The Hill Country Devil is really a true gem. Ever since "Glory" appeared, I was hooked. Thanks.
great work man, melancholy is tangible
ain't it though..
Youre fucking doing great hayden. You are an inspiration to many now.
We deeply need your music buddy. Hang in there. I'm a mess but I'm magnetized to your music bud. It's beautiful ❤️
My friend Sarah died by overdose last year. Whether it be suicide, or whether it was her drug dealer boyfriend. I don't know. Fly high, hunni. I'll see you again one day.
Thanks so much, Country Devil Man.
We need your music to help heal. Keep singing brother. Keep healing yourself and others.
Very appropriate for me right now. I just lost my best friend of 29 years to that fentanyl shit.
R.I.P. Dirty, I miss you more than you'll ever know friend.
Many thanks to Anthony and all the beautiful people he introduces us to ❤
God damnit. You've got me crying at work now
*Hugs* @Florida Man
@@mazdevalia87
Thank you :)
love ya bud. it's everywhere out there.. stay vigilant.
@@GemsOnVHS
He was actually in Leesburg of all places Anthony.
Thanks for everything Anthony. I love all y'all.
I hope you were able to overcome and defeat that demon we all struggle with and we all fight with everything we have. I'm proud of you and I love your music man.
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After reading the description the beginning is tough to watch... I've lost a lot of good people to overdoses, and watched them struggle with addiction for years before that. I've seen fewer people beat it than not. I wish Hayden all the best, the man is super talented, I just hope he is able to beat it.
I'm a methadone patient my ol man's mom ODed on methadone and Xanax he and I still struggle but clean since March 5 2021
You can sell 1000000 records but yet never wright a song this good
Heart wrenches souls tell miraculous tails of how life can be so decimated to some on different levels
Can see, feel and hear the passion in this song and your performance.. absolutely gorgeous heartfelt song 💜✌
Hayden is still struggling with his drug use unfortunately, posting a "5 days clean again" earlier this year. I really hope he figures it out and stops using.
To many years on the road this hits home hard
Love your honesty man. Thank you for that.
This dude has one of the bets voices ever man.
Then you would like the Felice Brothers too. Check out Rockefeller blues...because you know, these guys have the blues.
@@yeahyeahyeahyeahsbut2089 Appreciate the tip!
The depth of this man's poetry is immeasurable.
Tragically Beautiful.
Beautiful. Thank you.
I've watched this video numerous times the past 3 years during my addiction and my recovery... And I'm saddened I never read the description attached to the video
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Beautiful brother.
This should have millions of views, millions of fans.
His voice is beautiful!
We need you out here, Hayden.
My best friends since the third grade overdosed on a hot shot that he thought was cocaine but was fentanyl well 40% fentanyl anyway. Needless to say his heart stopped before he hit the ground and he is dead. He was dealing pretty serious amounts of drugs in our state and several counties and I think that the person he bought the supposed Coke from was likely competition and they wanted to eliminate him. That was in September of 2019. I remember when he died how many people showed up to his funeral honestly it was incredible there were so many people there. I had asked his parents and wife if it was okay for me to give a speech and I did. I was able to contain my emotion from the time I got the news that he had passed until the moment I finished giving that speech. I miss him a lot I still see his parents often because I grew up a big chunk of my life in his house we called each other brothers as far as I'm concerned we are. I still call his mom mom and his dad dad. After that I would take massive amounts of ecstasy and drink ungodly amounts of alcohol. I was trying to kill myself and it was a nightly thing it wasn't uncommon for me to wake up on his grave during this time. I don't use hard drugs anymore and his daughters doing good she's two now. Sorry if this made any of you reading this uncomfortable so I just felt the need to share this and the song for obvious reasons reminds me a lot of that time in my life reminds me a lot of Aaron. And while reading these other comments on this video I thought that maybe this might be the right circle on the internet to share this with. If you're struggling with addiction or struggling with the death of someone close to you who overdosed, I'm not going to lie to you until you gets easier because so far in my experience it doesn't you just get better at dealing with it. I love you guys.
30days after 13yrs, yesterday.
Wonderful
This song really hits home for me. I overdosed on fentanyl and shooting cocaine in 2005 AND in 2007 while on xanax and acid. I was lucky enough to get pushed out of the moving car in front of the ER door both times. Both times, I went straight from the hospital upon release to get more. Totalled my car on fentanyl, caught myself on fire with a cigarette, saw friends OD, gun stuck in my face by a heroin dealer in St. Louis because I refused to shoot in front of him til my crack to mix in with it got there, lied, cheated, stole to/ from family and friends, the worst of all was the pain I put my loved ones through... the innocent victims... the list goes on... all because of dope. I had an epiphany when some friends and family had an intervention. I had won a settlement, bought 45 fentanyl patches, locked myself in my bedroom, and smoked every single one. A friend busted in my room after nobody had heard from me in so many days. My blanket was covered in vomit and burn marks from cigarettes,... and so was I. Everyone that cared about me came over the same day and it just hit me...sobriety. That was in 2008. I'm still here, I have 2 beautiful boys, 7 and 9. They keep me going. It's not always easy when life gets you down. I just think of them and keep my nose to the grindstone. One day at a time.
cody burk gawh lee🤧
It’s a terrible thing that nobody who hasn’t gone through it can understand. Glad you’re still here man.
Keep it it up man love that subtle Tyler Childers reference at the end
@@chrisnaeter5257 thanks man
@@HIGHWAYATMIDNIGHT thanks man! Was hoping someone noticed! Lol
Well that was powerful.
Hayden reminds me of myself accept I'm having a lot of trouble letting feeling out into music or just out in general....most people only see the "bright" side of musicians.
I have started writing poetry recently to try and improve my words so I can convey them into song like hayden can do wonderfully.
I miss the past and dread the future but I will prevail
Great song
I don’t know if Hayden ever looks at these comments but I hope he knows how many people are pulling for him. It seems he’s walked a long, tough road. Addiction is a stubborn adversary, but I hope he claims true and lasting victory so the rest of his life can be as long and full as it ought to be. Best of luck, Hayden.
This song makes me feel human again
everyone, please buy the album as soon as possible to support our fellow people
Man this cuts deep.jah bless
Fucking beautiful
Bought the album. Don't regret it. You buy it you won't regret it either.
Album name?
@@daltonbrennan8242 It's called Nicotine and China White and you can get it from gemsonvhs.com.
The comment section here has become a safe haven for addicts to relate and speak to one another. Be there for each other, talk about our lost loved ones.. I love you all man.
Lots of memories of shooting up. Some good, a lot bad. But getting off methadone made me want to never get into it again. With smack I could handle the 3-4 day kick, but with methadone (after getting kicked out for drinking) the withdrawal was hell for a month and a half. Went to work with some crazy tremors, and had to call off once after not getting any sleep at alm for 6 days. Methadone got me off dope, but getting off methadone helped me stay off that shit in general.
Mdone & suboxine withdrawal are worse than dope cuz of the half life, went 30days without a meal, just beef jerky & junk food & took least a month to even get 2hrs of sleep, ADDICTION IS A BITCH ESPECIALLY A STRUGGLE WHEN YOUR IN ACTIVE ADDICTION, HOPE EVERYONE OVERCOMES THERE'S DEMONS... LIVE_FREE!!!
Im so proud and excited for Hayden and this album ❤
So good! Hayden you’ve made a masterpiece. Be proud my friend, keep up the good work 🇬🇧🇬🇧
God this song brings me back to every single time I’ve been high on dope or sick from dope. Right from my first shot of dope back in 2013 to my morphine and oxy addiction the last couple years to my first dose of suboxone, dropped off by my buddy on his motorbike as I sat on the porch, shirtless and dopesick and cursing the fucking sun for beaming in my eyes while I waited.
To now. Trying to work, trying to get my shit together. Trying to juggle my suboxone taper with Valium and alcohol addiction. And I count myself lucky I never ended up dead or in the hospital of an overdose and I managed to nip this problem before it spiraled completely out of control.
I spent a good many days hovering over the toilet, either so high I was puking and nodding into the toilet, or so dopesick I couldn’t function enough to leave the bathroom/bedroom.
Hopefully all that is behind me now. Thank you Hayden.
Hope its still goin your way bro, stick with the slow taper if you can, working and doin a msw is fucking hard. I ended up quiting a job id had 6 years and selling shit to pay bills and all that racket. Lived through it but it dont gotta be as hard as I made it on myself. God bless my wife...
Hang in there bro and dont let the lectures from people who dont battle addiction daily get ya fucked up, forgive them for they know not what they do.
Nice work
Found this song in treatment in Nashville. “…and how selfish it would have been for me to follow suit” hit me so hard. It all did. I hope Hayden is well and the rest of the album is fantastic, too. ❤️
I'm here today because of this song, lost so many people I have loved to addictions, as I struggle myself, thank you my friend for your strength it gives me strength my friend
Hayden, I love your music. It's real. Remember to look us up in the slow country of south Carolina. U will always have a free place to stay. God bless. Praying for your recovery. Joyce
I really enjoy and love this song. I hate the pain you have had to go through but I relate. Several people around my area has od'ed due to fentanyl cut herion. Horse was not my thing, fortunately.
You carry a strong message within you Sir maybe you don't know it just yet. I'm just 3 days short of 7 months sober and I get your words because I once lived them not so long ago. One day just melts into the next one..
Can t go here can't go there
It's where we used too
It's not fair
I love the streets
And avenues
A grand parade
On a tree lined Boulevard
Today
In my dreams all the building s are so very tall and clean
I m like a little red dot
I drink it all in
Then I go for a swim
Right on threw again
Many many towns
Downs is where I choose to be
Would love to have you come play a session at the House of Jane in Madison, Indiana
Every body addicted to something it's just depends on if they admitted or not
Kicking dope in jail... torture and this song depicts it all too well
Just got the news that you'd passed last night . Hope you got your wings Dolla .
Fuck fentynal...
There's no Silver lining in a OD
Awesome song, glad you could record this. I love and have loved everything you’ve done. Hope your doing well sorry for your loss.
I hope the songs I write are half as powerful as Hayden's. Absolutely incredible.
this man has a pain and honesty in his voice that you only hear when you come across something special. he manages to encapsulate so many emotions in just a few verses. it's a strange kind of feeling he gives the listener.
"i flinch when morning breaks"...
All the musical legends are rolling over with a smile on their faces knowing another man has stepped in line to keep the human experience harmonized...
now, tell your demons to take a fucking number and go to the back of the line bc the angels are with you now, there's no need nor room for them anymore...
I'm just so happy this is finally happening for you :)
edit: I had to lay my mother to rest earlier this month and a dear friend of mine is knocking at his grave, so I'm so grateful to have music like this to process the re-realization each dawn brings.
just, thanks...
I want a collaboration with Matt Pryor
You may not see this but stay strong my friend , love the tunes keep up the good work 👌❤
Beautiful song, beautiful video.
Benjamin Tod brought me here, fucking beautiful man, truly beautiful and I’m glad I found it.
I feel this soo much cause last year all I wanted was that shit that would send be to go see my dog and all my homies glad you made a song instead
Thank the Lord for the mercy he's shown me. I didn't die selfishly 4:18
RIP Krista, this song is for you. I hope you made it to heaven ❤️
You either get it or you dont nothing more nothing less
So much pain in the voice and the song. I'm glad I found this on Reddit
Hayden if you're out there. When and where can I add this album to my collection? I vibe so well to this stuff. Makes the skin crawl and brings a lot of emotion. I hope nothing but the best for you friend
you can buy it in the description mate
Paycheck is Friday this will be treated as a well thought out expense. Glad to support this man.
fucking beautiful. **wipes single tear**
#1 great video!
❤️ #westernaf