That's a really good point. I think a lot of us cant help questioning ourselves because of being doubted by authority figures or healthcare workers in tje past. I've been doubted for my fibromyalgia, abuse and assaults, and even being accused by a psychiatrist of being on drugs when in was basically in a ptsd state of shock the dilated pupils cold sweats and so on. It just programs you to question yourself almost constantly. I try and refer to all the evidence but theres a very rational part I have that doesnt easily remember all the obvious and really repressrs and is just like "stop that now"
Is it bad that I’m like “but what if I *did* make an active decision but without wanting to? What if my brain decided it in the background like some strange placebo type thing after watching videos I really related to? Oooh noooo!!” Long story short, I’m emailing my therapist lol
I've had a weird experience with my possibility of having DID/OSSD, I found about the condition through DissociaDID and thought that I've been experiencing something similar but on a minor scale. I do dissociate quite frequently but my reasons for thinking I'm faking come from that fact that I thought to myself that I might have alters. I've known for a while that I have different 'mindsets' as I used to call them where I would switch between 5-7 different distinct 'personalities' that we're greatly different from each other and always consistent. When I thought for the first time 'what if they're alters?' It was like opening a locked box, suddenly my head started to spin with names and visions of people I've never met and yet it felt like I'd known them my whole life. I realised these people in my head acted and behaved exactly like my various 'mindsets'. To use subject-specific roles I would say I have a primary protector and a little in my system at least, but everyone in my 'system' is entirely co-concious, it's more like we inhabit the body and mind together (with the relevant alter having more control.) Does this sound like DID/OSDD? I'm in a really weird place at the moment where I don't want to call myself a system incase I'm faking and attention seeking :(
I'm not a therapist, nor could I diagnose you through the internet if I was. However, from the standpoint of a fellow community member, I relate to what you're talking about - and it doesn't make you invalid to discover it through someone else. We found out while researching the disorder out of curiosity. It's totally valid to experiment with diagnostic labels while self diagnosing (as they are just that - labels). See what coping mechanisms help, and what feels to fit your experience the best. The self diagnosis road is a valid one, but one you have to take yourself(ves). Best of luck to (all of) you, and I hope it's easy to figure out.
@@TheRingsSystem Thank you so much for taking the time to respond! I'm slowly learning more about these disorders and just trying to take it slow, (I have a bad habit of trying to rush things). At the moment I'm working on recognising when certain alters are 'fronting' (as I said, everyone is pretty much Co-con). And learning how they affect the body, things such as their speech patterns, how they use the body and some of us even have really different accents! Watching your videos is being a big help, thank you for everything you're doing for the community!
Why does this sound familiar? I’m not really in contact with alters of my knowledge, but after i found out what DID was (through DissociaDID) I felt just like what you say. Only problem is that I don’t know how I can communicate with alter, but I can feel when someone’s close by the way I start thinking/feeling. (Yes I use still I because I’m not sure if I’m unknowingly faking it)
God, I really really needed to hear that... I'm still struggling to accept it, especially because it seems like there is a lot of blending and fragments... I'm trying to learn and explore more.
I wonder if maybe a lot of people with DID and OSDD-1 disorders try really hard to rationalize it away... I know I do. It's not just having self-doubts, it's like I keep forgetting. I don't want to accept it. (This is where the importance of writing things down comes in, but lately I don't even want to do that... ^_^; )
It took me watching videos talking about amnesia to realize I actually do have it. Before I did just that, rationalize it. Oh, everyone forgets things. Everyone has a very spotty memory of their childhood. And then I learned about selective amnesia and micro-amnesia, grey outs rather than black outs, and it started getting harder to deny that I experience amnesia especially when overwhelming feelings are involved. Of course, memory issues can be symptoms of other mental health issues, but it's clear that unless I have reason to think otherwise, I generally just brush things off as normal if that's how it's always been.
i use to think i was faking and then i disassociated for the millionth time in that day and kept it pushing. these thoughts can de-stabilize a person;s system and cause persecutor alters to front which is not fun...in the slightest. basically if you really believe you have D.I.D please just do whatever you can to help yourself, not harm.
this reminds me a lot abt the gatekeeping in the trans community. there is so much uneeded discourse abt "transtrenders" (i hate that word) and whether trans ppl need dysphoria, etc etc and it just pushes us all further apart and makes so many ppl forget abt the actual issues in the community
I'm frustrated but thankful that this video is here. I'm desperately scared and clutching at straws to debunk my OSDD. However, if this is the case, then... The reason I think I'm faking is because I only started realising symptoms after I began watching these videos. However as I write this, that kind of makes sense.
I'm not Daijobou hey do you have any updates? Apologies if im being intrusive or anything! I just thought id ask since im having many doubts on my possible system since im experiencing the same thing as you
I feel this too~ I knew about DID/OSDD before symptoms showed up but lately with a new traumatic experience in my life, it's been a lot more prominent. I just have to trust the process.... and trust the people who know and get back into therapy lol
Same here - I only started being aware of what was going on in my head and started re-experiencing dissociation after thinking 'oh maybe I have something similar' after watching videos on DID (although it wasn't the first video on DID I had watched, it was one of many).
Sorry I’m late but, I’m feeling the same way. After I started watching the DissociaDID channel I started experiencing strange things (ie. hearing a voice with a different accent than my own, having dreams where the words ‘primary protector’ were prominent, having intense mood swings, writing&texting differently.) which were new additions to me dissociating&depersonalizing, and my social anxiety&depressive thoughts. I’m not sure if I’ve just been consuming so much content that the idea of DID is in my subconscious, or if I’ve discovered something about myself. I assume it’s something similar to OSDD-1B because I lack the amnesia. I’m waiting for the ‘right’ time to visit my doctor. Edit: typos
Oh this video made me cry! I've just recently found out about my system (suspecting OSDD-b) and because I'm self diagnosed (I do eventually want to talk to a therapist about it but right now it's just not an option) and have unusual experiences (i.e high communication, lots of fictives, and inability to switch fully/can only give partial control of the body to alters) I was labeled fake by someone in my friend group and harassed for it and now I'm so scared of the community as a whole. There's so much of that so it's just SO so nice to see a channel that is giving information that systems themselves can benefit from and just in general I'm so emotional thank you SO much!
I'm glad we could help and so sorry someone said that to you! Self diagnosis is SO valid, we were self diagnosed years before we ever got professionally diagnosed. I hope things get better and you don't have a repeat experience like that! ❤️
For a while, I kept telling myself I must be faking because I never thought about any of this before. But in reality, I did, I just completely shut out the rest of the system, tried to say they were just “voices” So instead of me “making this up because it’s a sudden thing” It’s actually “I’ve finally acknowledged the fact, and am trying to get to know the others who I pushed away”
SOOOOO needed this right now. I feel like every system needs this message when they are starting to realise they ARE a system, in those first few months. Thank you for helping subside my anxieties
I feel a lot of the reason I’m so dead set sometimes on trying to “disprove” our disorder is because honestly it’s not fun to have it. And honestly communicating my diagnosis to my family is going to be /hard/. So if it’s not real. I don’t have to. Also accepting your childhood trauma is fun. Especially explaining why it happened and admitting hidden abuse to family and friends. Thank you for making such educational videos, a lot of them are on my playlist that I’m sending to family and friends that have questions. Y’all have helped so much with the transition. Much love from one OSDD-1b system to another -The Gem System
But when youre just starting to think you might be a system, "looking" for alters/trying to draw them out or get to know them can feel very much like your faking it. This is what ive struggled with so much. Thinking that i am making it up because i have a vivid imagination and am lonely/bored/or posiblt have some other mental health issue that might explain what i am doing.
Basically my mind just thinks of all the possible alternatives, calling me a hypochondriac or just wanting to be special. Its really hard to deal with all the negative self talk.
That's really valid and I totally understand that. It can 100% feel like you're faking it, but always remember that baseline experiences, writing down what you feel and experience without any labels or judgments is always valid and real 💓
I’m questioning being a system of 3, however I can’t really remember my trauma, but I was bullied physically and mentally from age of about 8 - 14. I’ve always had different personalities and switch between being gay, to bi, to straight and so on. But there’s a lot of blending and most of the time the others are co-conscious or can co-host so I believe I have osdd-1a, ty for this video!
I loved this video! Although I don't have DID or OSDD myself, I often feel like I'm making things up like my sexuality for example. This really helped!
Wow i really needed this. I’ve been seeing a lot online lately about faking DID/OSDD and have been feeling super insecure about my own symptoms. Thank you for this video
❤️❤️❤️ (If you want to send us some of the stuff you've seen online, we might be doing a collab w Alexandrite system debunking some of that stuff soon!!)
This made me feel so much better, I’m not diagnosed with anything but I can hear and see 2 others inside of my head of whoms emotions and urges sometimes affect my actions and feelings while I’m still conscious. They’ve helped me through tough times and have even made me feel like I belong somewhere. I’ve felt like people wouldn’t believe me if I spoke out about it tho bc I feel it sounds imaginary even tho I’m experiencing it myself. 🥺
If I'm not faking then what if I'm just misreading all my symptoms and assuming its OSDD when it's actually not, then subconsciously filling in all the gaps by picking out certain behaviors of my own and giving them names and then choosing not to connect to those memories because I believe I have the disorder and I believe I shouldn't' so I prevent myself from it?
Then what you’re experiencing is still real, still valid, and deserves to be heard - even if the label is wrong. You still deserve the space to talk about your experiences, and it’s worthwhile to get professional help, try our coping mechanisms, start a journal, and attempt to put the puzzle pieces together. It’ll all fall into place with time 💕
I went through this with my ED: “I’m not ___ enough time have an ED” “I’m faking this arent i” etc etc. I know now, that that isn’t how mental Illness works. But still, I’m struggling to accept my system. I feel horrible even just using DID/OSDD terminology but I have nothing else to call it! I feel like I’m appropriating something that isn’t mine. Like I just have to use these terms in private and not talk about it at all with anyone else. But I have alters. I just... don’t know what to do with that. I don’t know what I am.
If you feel uncomfortable with alters, you can always use 'parts!' :) And even if you're undiagnosed, it's ok to use DID/OSDD terminology. Disagnosis and Therapy are hard to achieve, and no one should hold that against you ❤️
@@TheRingsSystem Yes! I love the use of "parts" because you can even use the term in company who don't understand what an alter is and not technically be lying or giving yourself away. Singlets can relate to, for instance, a "part" of them wanting ice cream but a "part" of them wanting a brownie instead. At least that's what I'm told lol. People don't bat an eyelash at me when I talk about ambivalence like that, when really using that analogy it's that I want a brownie but my system mate wants ice cream. Also, IFS (internal family systems) uses the term "parts" and that's how I've been able to discuss my work with my system through a therapist while still being too afraid of telling her we suspect we are multiple, but then she's also mentioned noticing we dissociate so I don't know how well that's working lol.
Be a little careful with IFS for systems without your therapist knowing - while you can use IFS therapy for DID/OSDD, it requires special training for the therapist and is different than the singlet version of IFS! But otherwise, I'm glad you've found a way to express stuff before you're ready ❤️
1:45 See I don’t know... I was watching a DissociaDID video and I was like “how hard would that be to have DID?” And then... I started realising I have *a lot* of the symptoms but then again I remember my trauma? I would have been around 7 years old when the traumas happened . We don’t know... do we have it or not?
I can’t actually tell you as we’re not a professional! But if you notice dissociative symptoms in yourself I would highly recommend finding a professional and getting that checked out :)
You're a life saver. Recently i have been wondering if i have DID or OSDD. And i've been so scared beause i feel like im faking this. I mean, i have this feeling for a long time that something in me was not right, but i could never put my finger on it. I have basically all the symptoms of DID except the strong amnesia i believe. And the voices arent often very loud but im pretty sure they are there. And i only started realising the possibility i may have it when i saw discociaDID (i cant spell) and anthonys videos. But thanks to your videos i think i feel a little bit of the weight off my shoulders.
Thank you! This means a lot to me. I’m helping a dear friend cope and understand their system and in the process I have dredged up a bunch of my own trauma. I don’t know what’s up since I don’t really fit any classification. But the kind words are nice to hear.
thank you, that just happened to me, the other day and I can't really get over it... even though I don't even know the person. It hits, sort of, hard into my fear-cycle... thank you, I like your way of dear speech :)
I wonder about this sometimes not because I have DID but because I’ve had someone convince me I did. My brain actually started to split and fragment my personality into pieces and it was really confusing for a while. I really try not to do it because I think it’s just an obsessive thing and I don’t actually have this disorder but I do like to learn about these things. I think my brain might try to imitate other disorders while trying to cope sometimes and it’s confusing and a little annoying but this video did help. So thanks
I do wish I knew if imitating disorders you don’t have as a coping mechanism was a thing though, it’s not really something I want to do but more like a compulsion.
Hello dear! Just to help your worrying, here's some things: you have to have dissociation to have DID/OSDD, both between alters, and in a daily sense, because it's a dissociative disorder. If you were in an abusive situation, it's not uncommon to believe what the other person says, even if it's wrong, and desperately try to find a way to make it true as a way to survive the situation. It's also normal to compartmentalize yourself/emotions to make hard situations easier to get through - everyone does this to some extent, in daily life too, even individual alters in a system. I, as Silver, act differently at work vs at home with my girlfriend vs with my close friends, ect! However, if you're experiencing dissociation, full amnesia, time loss, or emotional amnesia, I'd encourage you to reach out to a trauma/dissociative disorder specialist! ❤️
Hey, thank you so much for this video. One of my friends and I recently figured out that I had OSDD because I could feel and hear people who sort of just came into existence in my head. As a new system, I'm still really worried that I'm just faking everything and I could stop if I tried hard enough (the others aren't though). Others have only fronted that I've known about 3 times and for all of them, I've been co-fronting. I'm also having a bit of difficulty finding the headspace of our system and hearing them thinking but that's probably normal for new systems I guess? This video has helped convince me further that I'm not lying to myself and those around me. Thank you so much from all of us. -The Ace System P.S. Thank yous from Noc. Just saying because it is very helpful to our host (she does not really want me to use her name) because she has a lot of anxiety about lot of disorders she thinks or we establish she has. Peace towards you.
I really don’t know if I’m fakeing or not because I can’t remember any childhood trauma at all and when I do feel some sort of switch I remember things just like Osdd-1b I’ve talk to my therapist and she is convinced I don’t have it and so is my mother. But it’s just so weird because I know it’s not just me. Like in my head.
I think I have been avoiding the answer to this question by even asking it in the first place. I have been watching & interacting with the mindspace more & more, and I can see it. I want to run and hide but there is no where left to go. Thank you for providing these resources for those of us who are still discovering themselves.
I've known that I was a multiple long before I ever discovered OSDD or DID. Discovering that the symptoms of OSDD-1b align almost perfectly with my own has been an incredibly validating journey.
Thank you so much for this video. It's nice to know that someone cares. As a system who is new to this whole thing I'm glad to have found a channel like this. You guys are truly a gift to new system, old systems, and singlets that support. So, thank you Ring System. From, The Phoenix System
Our therapist always told us if we worry we are faking, its a good sign we are not.but sometimes we wish we were! We have a couple teenage insiders who will say things like “i dont have DID …. But They (other insiders) DO!” LOL. Interesting logic,
I'm late (Literally- four years late-) but you guys are literally the best channel to ever happen to us! Thank you for all of your amazing that you post and share
I always feel like I'm faking osdd-1b because my own anxiety CONSTANTLY leeches through to other alters. I have such strong impulses from trichotillomania/dermotillomania and I have an anxious leg shake. They seem to leech through to other alters and it makes me feel invalid. Also my alters don't talk to me often and almost all of us have the same handwriting and the same skill set. Thank you for this video, it helps a little ♥️
I experience the same thing!! I'm so anxious all the time, and Mia constantly snaps at me when my anxiety starts bleeding into her. We also have dermotillomania and that leeches through as well. You're not alone in any of those things ❤️❤️❤️❤️
i've been thinking about this way too much after i found out i was an osdd 1b system literally a MONTH ago and oh my god, thank you so much for this.. it's been on my mind for way too long, so much so that it's been hurting not just myself but all of us. i can finally be at peace with this dilemma. once again, thank you SO much.
under recent timing, i've realized (not in a stable enough environment to get a professional disgnosis) that i'm the host of an OSDD-1b system. it's been difficult questioning the validity of our system, not being used to it, and especially lacking amnesia, things like that. one of our alters, katsuki (a fictive and the physical protector of the system) also tends to feel like he's fake because he tends to stray away from his source. there are so many small aspects of each of us and i don't think it's quite dawned on _me_ that i'm not the only one in this body- i think i have yet to accept it, in a way. this video was very validating of our experiences, and very comforting to watch. thank you. - milo
I’m so glad it’s helpful! And for katsuki - know that’s it’s totally ok to stray from your source! We have a fictive that’s strayed so much she rarely uses the fictive label anymore :)
Thank you 😭 I’ve been so confused. I’ve always struggled with dissociation but the quarantine stopped my therapy right when I realized I was having amnesia weekly and just a lot of self realization and I was so confused. This video helps so much thank you ❤️🙏🏼 bless you and sending love
can systems have no feeling of switching but act in ways that suprise them when they look back. beacuse ever since i was little i told my friend that i have many diffrent personalities, but each one was still me but like more extroverted and another would be more like anxiety ridden and one was even emotionless! but i cant feel switching. sometimes i think back and go yup iv definetly got diffrent personalities, but other times i think im faking it because i can remeber some memories of those seperate identities. its distressed me so much because i dont want to offend people with DID or OSDD (by pretending to fake it) but i dont want to pretend what im not too. my mum thinks i make up these syntoms when i tell her because she knows i watch a lot of DID or OSDD educational vids. thx for reading
Yes! Sometimes I don't realize I've switched until after I come back to the front. I think watching our emotional amnesia video would be helpful for you guys! :) (also, if you're questioning, it's totally ok to use terms! You won't offend anyone :) )
I LOVE YOU!!!!! we really needed to hear this more than anything recently, we’ve been working on trying to come out to our friends as a system, and it’s been super hard because we’ve all (especially me, i have rly bad anxiety lmao) been really worried they might think we’re faking it or maybe we, in fact, are faking it for attention, and misleading our friends.. but we all know that’s something none of us (with the exclusion of a few prosecutors) would ever intentionally, consciously do. i was looking for videos from other systems because i was bored, and i stumbled across this one, thank you, like i said, we all really needed to hear this :) sorry this comment is so late or if it comes off weird eheisbdkdhfkdjdksdjskhssihs-
i always have the fear of subconscious 'faking' because i used to have certain characters, kind of tried to ignore them, and then recently when i started psychodynamic therapy and started to dig up my own trauma at the same time i started watching this new tv show, have my main mental character be from the show. some of them i noticed this year from things i've watched aren't really fully separate and they're mostly fictive so i don't know if that just means that i'm holding them in my head as a comfort the same way i hear a lot of music in my head or if they're genuine alters. either way it sounds like a really complex and individual disorder so there's no black and white
Personally my worry is not exactly if I'm faking (because as you point out, that implies conscious effort), but whether I may have simply watched so many UA-cam videos (and read so much general info) on the topic, that I somehow just started taking on the facets of the disorder (I hate that word) by accident (subconsciously), and like some kind of hypochondriac now have convinced myself that this [label] is what's going on. :/
there is possibilities that there could be other stuff going on that presents as DID type symptoms or suffering from things that are frequently comorbid. it's more a matter of getting to know yourself than being fake, and the fact that you are changing everyday even if your diagnosis is constant. Whether someone is or isn't, they can figure it out and there shouldn't be any value judgement attached to being wrong. I'm probably whichever OSDD which features lots of depersonalization and amnesia but not so much of the alters (I'm old so it was DDNOS back in my day) but that doesn't make the time I spent building a physical mailbox thing in my room to send letters to myselves an affront to other systems. It was just something we did that didn't work out like I'd hoped it would
as a suspected OSDD1B system i really appreciate this video-- there are so many parts of what i experience that i definitely would NOT have chosen or decided to fake, but the internet does what the internet does and impostor syndrome runs rampant in me lol. not to mention we're a fictive/introject heavy system... thank y'all for this, silver 💕 hope you're doing good
THANK. YOU. FOR THIS. i found this in our recommendations earlier today and put it in watch later bc i didnt have time then to watch it, but just a little bit ago i found a video invalidating a certain aspect of "fake" systems that we have in our system so i decided to pull this up. and while ive known the points you make in this video for a long time now, hearing it from someone else actually... helps a lot. the DID/OSDD community is always full of invalidation, discourse, and callouts, and it makes me feel so sickened... im not against everyone for that but it needs to change. we need to learn that hey, just because that system isnt like yours, whether it be because the amount of introjects, the frequency or easy control of switching, whatever the case may be, IT DOESNT MEAN THEYRE FAKE. in conclusion thank you for this video and i hope this community turns around for the better soon and we can all become more accepting of other systems as a whole. -chlo, enchanted soul system
Hey, I loved this video! My partner is part of a system (we believe that its a OSDD-1b system too, but they doesnt have the dianosis yet). We are from Brazil and I understend english, but they dont, so I'm here to ask you guys if I can make portuguese subtitles for this video, cause I think it would be very very helpful for them. I think you have to enable something here on youtube so I can do it. Unfortunately we dont have much information on this subject on portuguese, then I do my best to help translating all I can to help them to undertend a little bit more of themselves. Thanks for doing those videos, youre helping a lot of people/alters to feel less lonely and more understood
I need this so so much. I just recently started being open about living with this and I've yet to find a therapist I can trust with this. I've been struggling for such a long time, thinking I'm just imagining things. -Sarah
We're going to get a full psych evaluation this week with a focus on DID and OSDD because we've come out to our therapist as believing we are a polyfrag DID system, and we've been so nervous. like, what if we answer everything completely truthfully and it doesn't meet the criteria for anything? and then we've been feeling even less valid when some alters (including me) have had intrusive thoughts about exaggerating our symptoms on the test to be sure, even though we don't really want an official document telling us this scary thing is real. we really needed to hear this. one night, we decided to write names out for the voices in our head and we had been watching DID/OSDD videos prior to this, and that's why we think we're faking. but we didn't think "oh imma pretend I have DID", we thought "there's so many people in my head and I'm already suspicious of DID, so let's learn their names." thanks so much, you guys! stay safe
Thankyou for this - while i spend most of my days trying to figure out what my thoughts are about something, where that is coming from, is it influenced by . . . . ya, daily therapy - 24/7 - - - and yet i wonder this. i've known since i was 7 there was someone other that me, and who is me??right - by the time i was 14 - well. .. .and i'm 61 now. my husband made some stupid joke about my father and I've been trying to calm down more than 5 that are not happy about the reference - this is a week long now without sleep. i can relate to the commenter that said 'am i faking? and the alters saying 'oh, shit here we go again' Cheers - i've only watched a couple of your vids- but you seem cool.
I figured out about the disorder a while ago. I can't remember any trauma, so I passed it off. Recently, I've been feeling super dissociated and actually lost some time today. How was it for you figuring out you had OSDD and do you have any tips for younger people who are scared to see a therapist?
I do! The next video is all about talking to a therapist the first time, so keep an eye open for that. Also, I still don't remember the majority of our trauma. It's ok if you don't know - or even if you never know. What matters is that you're experiencing symptoms. (Specifically lost time!! Go see a therapist if you can :) )
I never heard of the disorder till a few years ago & when I did it resonated with me and I was like I’ve always felt like different people in one. And since then I’ve become more & more aware of it. But I still feel like I’m just making it up 😩😩 I have a cPTSD diagnosis but it just feels like there’s something more going on.
Oh maaan thank you so much! =)) I love my tribe =) ♡ some things we cant hear to much. Sadly struggeling to belive us selfe is a realy big issue. It causes so much Stress and pain and I am sure that counts for others too. So: to everyone Who wants to hunt the "fakers" down, Please Dont add to this confusion and anxiety manny of us allready have. Thank you for making this Video! =) ♡ THANK you to all the brave Systems who put them selfes out there! YOU ARE AWESOME! =)) ~ a System on the beginning of figuring them selfes out ^^
I started to watch videos from you, DissociaDID, The Entropy System, and others a month or two ago and I realized that what you guys are describing defines how I feel. I don’t know if I have DID or OSDD because I’m still living with my parents on account of me not being old enough to live alone. I feel like I’m just a dumb kid making this stuff up so I can be special, but the symptoms describe mine perfectly. I researched a ton of information about these two disorders and so far OSDD fits what I go through perfectly. I don’t know what to do to find help, the only one that is accessible is my school’s counselor, and she never helps with anything. Watching this video made me feel a little better, but I need a professional’s opinion. Does anyone have any ideas of what to do?
Me (Host): I must be accidentally faking! I'm a terrible person, people actually suffer from this and here I am faking it! Persecuter: .....yall really that stupid? What am I? Huh? A potato?
I am really curious as to why I keep seeing the reference to "faking" DID/OSDD in many vidros. Of all disorders, it's the 1st time I see it as a recurring theme. We never talk about people faking depression, anxiety, BPD, bipolar, etc. And from the comments, I feel like people are just confused and doubting whether they have the disorder as it is a very misunderstood one. Many people have alters and the many facets of the ego can be a very complicated thing to grasp so it is understandable that people are questionning.
I have been hearing voices that have a different pitch different style constantly ignored it from when I was a kid thinking they were just my imaginary friend and only recently because of other mental health disorders that I’ve come up my alters have been coming out one at a time and most of them don’t think they’re a part of a system one alter she pretty much can talk to all of the system except for those that are just like a whisper in the back of my head in in the back of my head space and she has been trying to get them all to communicate with one another and to also except that they are a part of a system I have limited access into the headspace with just seeing my place that I live at within the system and my little three-year-old altar that lives with Lesa she takes care of her and then I have a fairy lives in the garden at where I live in this headspace that’s about all that I can but I also have a new alter that showed up and I don’t know her name yet she has it told me what her name is Karen I don’t think she knows but she’s a fourth grader she was around ever since when I was very young and she disappeared when I got in fourth grade or she got developed then I don’t entirely know and also I have a persecutor he keeps trying to talk me into harming myself but Lisa she talked me down by pushing him out of the call conscious which I’ve been getting headaches every time somebody tries to come up front but then they only just do Coke conch how conscious and fourth graders she does not know her name at all or at least she won’t tell me her name yet but I with Lesa‘s help have named the entire system and apparently from Lesa the others do agree but they still are trying to deny that they are a part of a system they just can’t make sense of why Lesa is there and being able to talk with them and they won’t talk with the others so I thought I would relay that because my system is called chaos system and this is all new to me and I’m afraid of the stigma and I really did not want this I am scared of this and I’m scared how people are going to react especially my behavioral consultant and the provider that I have in my waiver case manager but my therapist is working with me and she said even though my alters will not come completely to the front just because conscious as long as I can translate from them to her then she said it shouldn’t be a problem but I just want them eventually to feel safe enough to come up to the front completely I’m just afraid of how people are going to react I just need a safe place to talk with others and to get advice on how to deal with all of this I don’t want this I don’t need this because I also have borderline personality disorder bipolar to PTSD and generalized anxiety disorder and then I also have insomnia I hope I share this and I hope I don’t get any bad comments back from haters and those that don’t believe that this is real thank you for reading my message
We hear you about that fear, and emphasize with it. DID can be incredibly scary at first. Sending lots of love to y’all, and I hope you guys can get to a safe place where everyone can feel comfortable fronting. ❤️ (And don’t worry about hate comments - everything is held for review, so we make sure no one gets hateful or harmful responses on our videos 😊)
I don't know if I have Osdd/Did because I don't think I have alters. At least, not very separated ones if that makes sense lol; sometimes there is a thought that didn't feel entirely mine, or most of the time more of a passive influence I guess? I dont know weather I actually have Osdd/Did or if I have another disorder that does something similar to Osdd/Did
I'm really over here searching through youtube and google wondering if we're faking all this. Especially with the fact that we experience little amnesia unless it's a traumatic event, and the fact that there's 3 people around me with DID or OSDD. I'm scared that I am faking it and that I'm hurting my friends feelings- (Which is the reason I rarely say 'we')
Im thinking I have OSDD but I don’t think I have any trauma? I mean I have had some sort of scary, stressful and upsetting things happen, but Im not sure. I most definitely have alters, but they only co-con. I’ve never remembered or heard from people that I’ve ‘ been someone else ‘.
I honestly think I'm faking. I found out that I might be plural back in December last year when an alter fronted and tried to break up with my partner. Since then I've been trying to make contact with them, with little success. I've seen visions, I've heard voices, but when I try to talk to them, they don't respond. I've talked to a therapist about this, and they just wrote it off as a one off dissociative episode, but that doesn't explain everything that's happened since then. My partner has talked to my alters, briefly, but they don't seem to want to talk to me.
Sometimes it is an experience for alters to ignore the host, or try to cut off internal contact. I'm sorry it's been so hard to connect with them - it can take a lot of work to build good internal communication in systems. I'd 100% bring this back up with your therapist and talk about the "everything that's happened since then" and how you feel like "one dissociative episode" does not account for what you're experiencing ❤️
So this is going to be long I just need some advice from someone with DID. Ok so two days ago idk what it was that made go into a total freak out I was in a lockeroom in a different town cause I'm a wrestler and had to travel for a match. Anyways I was shaking and rocking back and forth my head felt like it was going to explode and for some reason I was just absolutely terrified. And I was really scared cause I was hearing this one creepy voice I don't remember what it was saying but it was saying really negative things. And so I was just really freaking out and I couldn't stop. But at the same time when the voice was speaking I was convinced that I was making the words up in the my head. That I was just telling myself to think that something was talking to me. And that day wasn't already going good. I had lost all 4 matches I was in and me and someone on my team had a little fight or u could say argument. And someone I new told me when she met the person on my team in the locker room that she did not like me and idk why but when she told me that she said that I felt really sad. And I pretended like it was somehow funny that someone on my team doesn't like me. But I really did feel hurt from it and idk why I was trying to hide it. That was my day before I had to freak out thing. Than one of my team mates saw me freaking out and plugging my ears, slapping them and just doing that stuff from blocking out my thoughts of course that didn't work. Then my team mate makes me step put into the hallways she was basically dragging me I guess I didn't want to move. Then she goes to get her mom. And i didn't know much about her mom and she told me she works in the mental health field. Anyways my teammate told her about what was all happening. And she had me calmed down and told me if I was aware with DID. And I had seen some things about it in the past cause one of my cosplaying youtubers has DID and so new some things about it. And so the mom told me more about DID and the sighs and everything and I was kinda happy that she was saying that. But at the same time my brain was like that I'm just faking the voices and everything. And then she asked me if I had any trama in my childhood and Idk why but I just said yes that I did. Even though I don't remember any trama maybe some few tramtic events. And my sister had told me before when we were little that our father would hit us alot. But I just don't want to believe that my dad would do anything really bad even though I remember little things. And I thought that not remembering alot of your childhood or have big gaps in your childhood was a normal thing for everyone until I found out that was a sign of DID. But what if I'm just faking this. To be honest I think I am yesterday I know for a fact I was dissociating alot that whole day and I all I did was look at DID videos cause my team mates mom said it might help to understand DID so I did alot of research and everything but I'm still convinced that I'm just faking it. Today I don't think I dissociated and didn't hear any voices. Although I don't know if this is strange but does anyone with DID have like pain in their back of their eye it's almost like a migrane or even like wear your temples are at. I honestly feel really crazy if I do have DID how is it even possible how could this happen to me I don't have DID it's just not possible. Help me pls I need some help
I'm not diagnosed (I'm waiting to go to a therapist about my mental health to talk about maybe having OSDD-1B) but I relate a lot to the symptoms of OSDD-1b. But the thing is though after watching your videos I started noticing that there are other people in my head (like I can see them from time to time) but I could always hear different voices I'm my head. And I've been switching a few times a day but I know what's going on, but I can't control what I think, do or say. And not only that when I come back I can't remember what I said before. I think I'm faking but whenever I say that all of my head mates or alters (I'm not sure if I can call them head mates since I'm new to this) get mad at me. So I think I'm faking but I could be wrong. -Ash
Honestly I'm just learning what osdd is and honestly is ringing some bells for me, but still questioning if it is something I'm dealing with or if it's just me autistic brain overthinking the whole thing. My friend suggested I look into it because I described an incident that happened at a con and I said "it didn't feel like me" and had had cases similar in the past.
*me* okay, so my therapist has told me that I have OSDD, I definitely have other people around my head, AND I have researched it for a while and people with it feel the same way if not the EXACT same way the the disorder makes me feel.....but maybe I'm making this up-
One thing that helped convince my about having OSDD was the names of our sysmates. Lanzo? Literally never heard of that name before. Spick? Yeah really random. Kami? Is this Japanese, I think it's Japanese? So yeah (idk if this comment makes any sense my train of thought just died-) -Five
The problem is that when I discovered DissociaDID channel I started questioning myself, and thinking about and understanding that I have some symptoms(now i found you and I think i have osdd-1b). And now I question what if my memories of talking with someone different in my head are just me imagining it.
It’s ok to not know ❤️ take as much time and as many notes as you need! Also know that many people are in the same boat of “I didn’t know until I encountered some form of media or information about DID/OSDD” because were never even told it’s a possibility or could be something that’s happening! It doesn’t make you invalid or faking ❤️
@@TheRingsSystem yeah. Our first encounter was in March with the trisha paytas drama. Slowly we began to watch more and in late July I felt something was up. Early August jake and lizzie came to me. Then it was Lili and so on until we have Kim from a few days ago. Also, around the time jake and lizzie came I looked up symptoms and we matched them all (there's not always complete amnesia but most of the time). So yeah sometimes systems choose to show themselves when they see the disorder. For us it was like bribing a puppy (our system) out from under a bus using treats (DID/OSSD information)
Tbh, I think I might have DID or OSDD but I cant tell if its just my brain putting up things that aren't there. It sounds like I do have it but I'm completely unsure. I mean, sure, I'll talk to the characters in my head but I always put that up to me being too invested in my DnD campaigns but now I'm seeing all this stuff about DID and OSDD and its really starting to make sense. I know that I have a traumatic past but I can barely ever actually remember it and I don't remember anything prior to the age of 10/11 years old. How would you suggest going about getting help for this?
I'd look for a professional that specializes in trauma and dissociation, watch our video about talking to a therapist about questioning DID/OSDD/trauma, and lead with "hey, I think I have trauma and might be experiencing something similar to DID/OSDD, do you feel equipped to handle this?"
I can't tell if I'm faking (Alters started coming in when I was 10 ish ab 2-3 yrs ago) When I started researching DID something just clicked, like that set off a switch that just made everyone come in,I don't like thinking I have did and don't know if I have it or not
Hello friend! I know the feeling of “oh god I don’t want to have this.” Know that it’s ok to say “I don’t know” and exist in that space as long as you want. Take lots of notes, and know that you can take your time ❤️
The Rings System Thankyou, I feel like I'm faking, but it's not something that will go away, I feel like they are apart of me My parents refuse to see a doctor for me
Idk I might need more advise on that because I have these alters and fronting room and all, but I wanted to ask if it is normal that we can’t really communicate. It’s my biggest doubt so far because we simply cannot or just barely can communicate and idk if I can count myself as a system like that
If you're questioning whether or not you are faking a disorder, that's a good indication that No, you're not. Fakers know dang well they're faking.
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That's brilliant
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That's a really good point. I think a lot of us cant help questioning ourselves because of being doubted by authority figures or healthcare workers in tje past. I've been doubted for my fibromyalgia, abuse and assaults, and even being accused by a psychiatrist of being on drugs when in was basically in a ptsd state of shock the dilated pupils cold sweats and so on. It just programs you to question yourself almost constantly. I try and refer to all the evidence but theres a very rational part I have that doesnt easily remember all the obvious and really repressrs and is just like "stop that now"
This is a good point. Before I realized that I was trans, the impostor syndrome always attacked me, the same when I was diagnosed with depression.
Me: Am I faking being a system?
Everyone else: *long, loud sigh*
Is it bad that I’m like “but what if I *did* make an active decision but without wanting to? What if my brain decided it in the background like some strange placebo type thing after watching videos I really related to? Oooh noooo!!” Long story short, I’m emailing my therapist lol
I've had a weird experience with my possibility of having DID/OSSD, I found about the condition through DissociaDID and thought that I've been experiencing something similar but on a minor scale. I do dissociate quite frequently but my reasons for thinking I'm faking come from that fact that I thought to myself that I might have alters.
I've known for a while that I have different 'mindsets' as I used to call them where I would switch between 5-7 different distinct 'personalities' that we're greatly different from each other and always consistent. When I thought for the first time 'what if they're alters?' It was like opening a locked box, suddenly my head started to spin with names and visions of people I've never met and yet it felt like I'd known them my whole life.
I realised these people in my head acted and behaved exactly like my various 'mindsets'. To use subject-specific roles I would say I have a primary protector and a little in my system at least, but everyone in my 'system' is entirely co-concious, it's more like we inhabit the body and mind together (with the relevant alter having more control.) Does this sound like DID/OSDD? I'm in a really weird place at the moment where I don't want to call myself a system incase I'm faking and attention seeking :(
I'm not a therapist, nor could I diagnose you through the internet if I was.
However, from the standpoint of a fellow community member, I relate to what you're talking about - and it doesn't make you invalid to discover it through someone else. We found out while researching the disorder out of curiosity.
It's totally valid to experiment with diagnostic labels while self diagnosing (as they are just that - labels). See what coping mechanisms help, and what feels to fit your experience the best.
The self diagnosis road is a valid one, but one you have to take yourself(ves). Best of luck to (all of) you, and I hope it's easy to figure out.
@@TheRingsSystem Thank you so much for taking the time to respond! I'm slowly learning more about these disorders and just trying to take it slow, (I have a bad habit of trying to rush things).
At the moment I'm working on recognising when certain alters are 'fronting' (as I said, everyone is pretty much Co-con). And learning how they affect the body, things such as their speech patterns, how they use the body and some of us even have really different accents! Watching your videos is being a big help, thank you for everything you're doing for the community!
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Very late but that is probably PDID
Why does this sound familiar? I’m not really in contact with alters of my knowledge, but after i found out what DID was (through DissociaDID) I felt just like what you say. Only problem is that I don’t know how I can communicate with alter, but I can feel when someone’s close by the way I start thinking/feeling. (Yes I use still I because I’m not sure if I’m unknowingly faking it)
God, I really really needed to hear that... I'm still struggling to accept it, especially because it seems like there is a lot of blending and fragments... I'm trying to learn and explore more.
Yeah blending and passive influence is so anoying. Does not help with the doubt and Stuff -.-
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Yea Im experiencing fragments and blending myself lately and its new and Im so confused
I wonder if maybe a lot of people with DID and OSDD-1 disorders try really hard to rationalize it away... I know I do. It's not just having self-doubts, it's like I keep forgetting. I don't want to accept it. (This is where the importance of writing things down comes in, but lately I don't even want to do that... ^_^; )
It's very very common I believe!
Yeah. Feel you. Without this community I dont know where we would be...
It took me watching videos talking about amnesia to realize I actually do have it. Before I did just that, rationalize it. Oh, everyone forgets things. Everyone has a very spotty memory of their childhood. And then I learned about selective amnesia and micro-amnesia, grey outs rather than black outs, and it started getting harder to deny that I experience amnesia especially when overwhelming feelings are involved. Of course, memory issues can be symptoms of other mental health issues, but it's clear that unless I have reason to think otherwise, I generally just brush things off as normal if that's how it's always been.
i use to think i was faking and then i disassociated for the millionth time in that day and kept it pushing. these thoughts can de-stabilize a person;s system and cause persecutor alters to front which is not fun...in the slightest. basically if you really believe you have D.I.D please just do whatever you can to help yourself, not harm.
this reminds me a lot abt the gatekeeping in the trans community. there is so much uneeded discourse abt "transtrenders" (i hate that word) and whether trans ppl need dysphoria, etc etc and it just pushes us all further apart and makes so many ppl forget abt the actual issues in the community
awful people just love to divide and conquer
I'm frustrated but thankful that this video is here. I'm desperately scared and clutching at straws to debunk my OSDD. However, if this is the case, then...
The reason I think I'm faking is because I only started realising symptoms after I began watching these videos. However as I write this, that kind of makes sense.
I'm not Daijobou hey do you have any updates? Apologies if im being intrusive or anything! I just thought id ask since im having many doubts on my possible system since im experiencing the same thing as you
I feel this too~
I knew about DID/OSDD before symptoms showed up but lately with a new traumatic experience in my life, it's been a lot more prominent.
I just have to trust the process....
and trust the people who know
and get back into therapy lol
Same here - I only started being aware of what was going on in my head and started re-experiencing dissociation after thinking 'oh maybe I have something similar' after watching videos on DID (although it wasn't the first video on DID I had watched, it was one of many).
i watched dissociadid for months without experiencing anything and then suddenly when i was having a breakdown one of my alters started talking
Sorry I’m late but,
I’m feeling the same way. After I started watching the DissociaDID channel I started experiencing strange things (ie. hearing a voice with a different accent than my own, having dreams where the words ‘primary protector’ were prominent, having intense mood swings, writing&texting differently.) which were new additions to me dissociating&depersonalizing, and my social anxiety&depressive thoughts.
I’m not sure if I’ve just been consuming so much content that the idea of DID is in my subconscious, or if I’ve discovered something about myself. I assume it’s something similar to OSDD-1B because I lack the amnesia. I’m waiting for the ‘right’ time to visit my doctor.
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Oh this video made me cry! I've just recently found out about my system (suspecting OSDD-b) and because I'm self diagnosed (I do eventually want to talk to a therapist about it but right now it's just not an option) and have unusual experiences (i.e high communication, lots of fictives, and inability to switch fully/can only give partial control of the body to alters) I was labeled fake by someone in my friend group and harassed for it and now I'm so scared of the community as a whole. There's so much of that so it's just SO so nice to see a channel that is giving information that systems themselves can benefit from and just in general I'm so emotional thank you SO much!
I'm glad we could help and so sorry someone said that to you! Self diagnosis is SO valid, we were self diagnosed years before we ever got professionally diagnosed. I hope things get better and you don't have a repeat experience like that! ❤️
For a while, I kept telling myself I must be faking because I never thought about any of this before. But in reality, I did, I just completely shut out the rest of the system, tried to say they were just “voices”
So instead of me “making this up because it’s a sudden thing”
It’s actually
“I’ve finally acknowledged the fact, and am trying to get to know the others who I pushed away”
SOOOOO needed this right now. I feel like every system needs this message when they are starting to realise they ARE a system, in those first few months. Thank you for helping subside my anxieties
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I feel a lot of the reason I’m so dead set sometimes on trying to “disprove” our disorder is because honestly it’s not fun to have it. And honestly communicating my diagnosis to my family is going to be /hard/.
So if it’s not real. I don’t have to.
Also accepting your childhood trauma is fun. Especially explaining why it happened and admitting hidden abuse to family and friends.
Thank you for making such educational videos, a lot of them are on my playlist that I’m sending to family and friends that have questions. Y’all have helped so much with the transition.
Much love from one OSDD-1b system to another
-The Gem System
But when youre just starting to think you might be a system, "looking" for alters/trying to draw them out or get to know them can feel very much like your faking it. This is what ive struggled with so much. Thinking that i am making it up because i have a vivid imagination and am lonely/bored/or posiblt have some other mental health issue that might explain what i am doing.
Basically my mind just thinks of all the possible alternatives, calling me a hypochondriac or just wanting to be special. Its really hard to deal with all the negative self talk.
That's really valid and I totally understand that. It can 100% feel like you're faking it, but always remember that baseline experiences, writing down what you feel and experience without any labels or judgments is always valid and real 💓
this is exactly how it is for me too… i’m so confused. did you end up having an update on how things are going for you now?
I’m questioning being a system of 3, however I can’t really remember my trauma, but I was bullied physically and mentally from age of about 8 - 14. I’ve always had different personalities and switch between being gay, to bi, to straight and so on. But there’s a lot of blending and most of the time the others are co-conscious or can co-host so I believe I have osdd-1a, ty for this video!
Me and the “first alter” I had are always thinking about being faking and the other are like "does it matter?"
I loved this video! Although I don't have DID or OSDD myself, I often feel like I'm making things up like my sexuality for example. This really helped!
Wow i really needed this. I’ve been seeing a lot online lately about faking DID/OSDD and have been feeling super insecure about my own symptoms. Thank you for this video
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This made me feel so much better, I’m not diagnosed with anything but I can hear and see 2 others inside of my head of whoms emotions and urges sometimes affect my actions and feelings while I’m still conscious. They’ve helped me through tough times and have even made me feel like I belong somewhere. I’ve felt like people wouldn’t believe me if I spoke out about it tho bc I feel it sounds imaginary even tho I’m experiencing it myself. 🥺
If I'm not faking then what if I'm just misreading all my symptoms and assuming its OSDD when it's actually not, then subconsciously filling in all the gaps by picking out certain behaviors of my own and giving them names and then choosing not to connect to those memories because I believe I have the disorder and I believe I shouldn't' so I prevent myself from it?
Then what you’re experiencing is still real, still valid, and deserves to be heard - even if the label is wrong. You still deserve the space to talk about your experiences, and it’s worthwhile to get professional help, try our coping mechanisms, start a journal, and attempt to put the puzzle pieces together. It’ll all fall into place with time 💕
Thank you so much! ;_;
Aaaa I’m glad you liked it so much 💕💕
Wow, I relate so much I almost feel like I wrote this!
I went through this with my ED: “I’m not ___ enough time have an ED” “I’m faking this arent i” etc etc. I know now, that that isn’t how mental Illness works. But still, I’m struggling to accept my system. I feel horrible even just using DID/OSDD terminology but I have nothing else to call it! I feel like I’m appropriating something that isn’t mine. Like I just have to use these terms in private and not talk about it at all with anyone else. But I have alters. I just... don’t know what to do with that. I don’t know what I am.
If you feel uncomfortable with alters, you can always use 'parts!' :)
And even if you're undiagnosed, it's ok to use DID/OSDD terminology. Disagnosis and Therapy are hard to achieve, and no one should hold that against you ❤️
The Rings System thank you for your kind words 💖
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@@TheRingsSystem Yes! I love the use of "parts" because you can even use the term in company who don't understand what an alter is and not technically be lying or giving yourself away. Singlets can relate to, for instance, a "part" of them wanting ice cream but a "part" of them wanting a brownie instead. At least that's what I'm told lol. People don't bat an eyelash at me when I talk about ambivalence like that, when really using that analogy it's that I want a brownie but my system mate wants ice cream. Also, IFS (internal family systems) uses the term "parts" and that's how I've been able to discuss my work with my system through a therapist while still being too afraid of telling her we suspect we are multiple, but then she's also mentioned noticing we dissociate so I don't know how well that's working lol.
Be a little careful with IFS for systems without your therapist knowing - while you can use IFS therapy for DID/OSDD, it requires special training for the therapist and is different than the singlet version of IFS! But otherwise, I'm glad you've found a way to express stuff before you're ready ❤️
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See I don’t know... I was watching a DissociaDID video and I was like “how hard would that be to have DID?” And then... I started realising I have *a lot* of the symptoms but then again I remember my trauma? I would have been around 7 years old when the traumas happened .
We don’t know... do we have it or not?
I can’t actually tell you as we’re not a professional! But if you notice dissociative symptoms in yourself I would highly recommend finding a professional and getting that checked out :)
You're a life saver. Recently i have been wondering if i have DID or OSDD. And i've been so scared beause i feel like im faking this. I mean, i have this feeling for a long time that something in me was not right, but i could never put my finger on it. I have basically all the symptoms of DID except the strong amnesia i believe. And the voices arent often very loud but im pretty sure they are there. And i only started realising the possibility i may have it when i saw discociaDID (i cant spell) and anthonys videos. But thanks to your videos i think i feel a little bit of the weight off my shoulders.
I'm so glad we could take that weight off ❤️
Thank you! This means a lot to me. I’m helping a dear friend cope and understand their system and in the process I have dredged up a bunch of my own trauma. I don’t know what’s up since I don’t really fit any classification. But the kind words are nice to hear.
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Another wonderful video, and one I know a lot of systems need to hear.
Also I love the butterflies on the wall~ 🦋
Thank you! I’ve been secretly planning for butterflies for a long time :)
thank you, that just happened to me, the other day and I can't really get over it... even though I don't even know the person.
It hits, sort of, hard into my fear-cycle...
thank you, I like your way of dear speech :)
I wonder about this sometimes not because I have DID but because I’ve had someone convince me I did. My brain actually started to split and fragment my personality into pieces and it was really confusing for a while. I really try not to do it because I think it’s just an obsessive thing and I don’t actually have this disorder but I do like to learn about these things. I think my brain might try to imitate other disorders while trying to cope sometimes and it’s confusing and a little annoying but this video did help. So thanks
I do wish I knew if imitating disorders you don’t have as a coping mechanism was a thing though, it’s not really something I want to do but more like a compulsion.
Hello dear!
Just to help your worrying, here's some things: you have to have dissociation to have DID/OSDD, both between alters, and in a daily sense, because it's a dissociative disorder. If you were in an abusive situation, it's not uncommon to believe what the other person says, even if it's wrong, and desperately try to find a way to make it true as a way to survive the situation. It's also normal to compartmentalize yourself/emotions to make hard situations easier to get through - everyone does this to some extent, in daily life too, even individual alters in a system. I, as Silver, act differently at work vs at home with my girlfriend vs with my close friends, ect!
However, if you're experiencing dissociation, full amnesia, time loss, or emotional amnesia, I'd encourage you to reach out to a trauma/dissociative disorder specialist! ❤️
You beautiful beings. This made us cry. Thank you silver & all in the ring system, you all are wonderfully iridescent in a world of grey ^.^
Thank you. To date I think this is one of our favorite comments ❤️
Hey, thank you so much for this video. One of my friends and I recently figured out that I had OSDD because I could feel and hear people who sort of just came into existence in my head. As a new system, I'm still really worried that I'm just faking everything and I could stop if I tried hard enough (the others aren't though). Others have only fronted that I've known about 3 times and for all of them, I've been co-fronting. I'm also having a bit of difficulty finding the headspace of our system and hearing them thinking but that's probably normal for new systems I guess? This video has helped convince me further that I'm not lying to myself and those around me. Thank you so much from all of us.
-The Ace System
P.S. Thank yous from Noc. Just saying because it is very helpful to our host (she does not really want me to use her name) because she has a lot of anxiety about lot of disorders she thinks or we establish she has. Peace towards you.
I’m glad we could help ❤️❤️
I really don’t know if I’m fakeing or not because I can’t remember any childhood trauma at all and when I do feel some sort of switch I remember things just like Osdd-1b I’ve talk to my therapist and she is convinced I don’t have it and so is my mother. But it’s just so weird because I know it’s not just me. Like in my head.
Hi! We put out a video recently on not remembering trauma. Lot of love to you and I hope it goes well ❤️❤️
I think I have been avoiding the answer to this question by even asking it in the first place. I have been watching & interacting with the mindspace more & more, and I can see it. I want to run and hide but there is no where left to go. Thank you for providing these resources for those of us who are still discovering themselves.
I've known that I was a multiple long before I ever discovered OSDD or DID. Discovering that the symptoms of OSDD-1b align almost perfectly with my own has been an incredibly validating journey.
I’m so glad to hear that for y’all, and I’m so happy you’ve found a good label for yourselves ❤️
Thank you so much for this video. It's nice to know that someone cares. As a system who is new to this whole thing I'm glad to have found a channel like this. You guys are truly a gift to new system, old systems, and singlets that support. So, thank you Ring System.
From,
The Phoenix System
Our therapist always told us if we worry we are faking, its a good sign we are not.but sometimes we wish we were! We have a couple teenage insiders who will say things like “i dont have DID …. But They (other insiders) DO!” LOL. Interesting logic,
I'm late (Literally- four years late-) but you guys are literally the best channel to ever happen to us! Thank you for all of your amazing that you post and share
This is a very important video for as many people to see. Thank you for sharing this❤️
Thank you 💕
I always feel like I'm faking osdd-1b because my own anxiety CONSTANTLY leeches through to other alters. I have such strong impulses from trichotillomania/dermotillomania and I have an anxious leg shake. They seem to leech through to other alters and it makes me feel invalid. Also my alters don't talk to me often and almost all of us have the same handwriting and the same skill set. Thank you for this video, it helps a little ♥️
I experience the same thing!! I'm so anxious all the time, and Mia constantly snaps at me when my anxiety starts bleeding into her. We also have dermotillomania and that leeches through as well. You're not alone in any of those things ❤️❤️❤️❤️
i've been thinking about this way too much after i found out i was an osdd 1b system literally a MONTH ago and oh my god, thank you so much for this.. it's been on my mind for way too long, so much so that it's been hurting not just myself but all of us. i can finally be at peace with this dilemma. once again, thank you SO much.
under recent timing, i've realized (not in a stable enough environment to get a professional disgnosis) that i'm the host of an OSDD-1b system. it's been difficult questioning the validity of our system, not being used to it, and especially lacking amnesia, things like that. one of our alters, katsuki (a fictive and the physical protector of the system) also tends to feel like he's fake because he tends to stray away from his source. there are so many small aspects of each of us and i don't think it's quite dawned on _me_ that i'm not the only one in this body- i think i have yet to accept it, in a way. this video was very validating of our experiences, and very comforting to watch. thank you. - milo
I’m so glad it’s helpful! And for katsuki - know that’s it’s totally ok to stray from your source! We have a fictive that’s strayed so much she rarely uses the fictive label anymore :)
Thank you 😭 I’ve been so confused. I’ve always struggled with dissociation but the quarantine stopped my therapy right when I realized I was having amnesia weekly and just a lot of self realization and I was so confused. This video helps so much thank you ❤️🙏🏼 bless you and sending love
can systems have no feeling of switching but act in ways that suprise them when they look back. beacuse ever since i was little i told my friend that i have many diffrent personalities, but each one was still me but like more extroverted and another would be more like anxiety ridden and one was even emotionless! but i cant feel switching. sometimes i think back and go yup iv definetly got diffrent personalities, but other times i think im faking it because i can remeber some memories of those seperate identities. its distressed me so much because i dont want to offend people with DID or OSDD (by pretending to fake it) but i dont want to pretend what im not too. my mum thinks i make up these syntoms when i tell her because she knows i watch a lot of DID or OSDD educational vids. thx for reading
Yes! Sometimes I don't realize I've switched until after I come back to the front. I think watching our emotional amnesia video would be helpful for you guys! :)
(also, if you're questioning, it's totally ok to use terms! You won't offend anyone :) )
@@TheRingsSystem thank you
@@TheRingsSystem thanks for repleying
Thank you, we really needed to hear this, I know this video is old, but every time we are having doubts, this is the video we always come back to.
I LOVE YOU!!!!! we really needed to hear this more than anything recently, we’ve been working on trying to come out to our friends as a system, and it’s been super hard because we’ve all (especially me, i have rly bad anxiety lmao) been really worried they might think we’re faking it or maybe we, in fact, are faking it for attention, and misleading our friends.. but we all know that’s something none of us (with the exclusion of a few prosecutors) would ever intentionally, consciously do. i was looking for videos from other systems because i was bored, and i stumbled across this one, thank you, like i said, we all really needed to hear this :) sorry this comment is so late or if it comes off weird eheisbdkdhfkdjdksdjskhssihs-
i always have the fear of subconscious 'faking' because i used to have certain characters, kind of tried to ignore them, and then recently when i started psychodynamic therapy and started to dig up my own trauma at the same time i started watching this new tv show, have my main mental character be from the show. some of them i noticed this year from things i've watched aren't really fully separate and they're mostly fictive so i don't know if that just means that i'm holding them in my head as a comfort the same way i hear a lot of music in my head or if they're genuine alters. either way it sounds like a really complex and individual disorder so there's no black and white
Personally my worry is not exactly if I'm faking (because as you point out, that implies conscious effort), but whether I may have simply watched so many UA-cam videos (and read so much general info) on the topic, that I somehow just started taking on the facets of the disorder (I hate that word) by accident (subconsciously), and like some kind of hypochondriac now have convinced myself that this [label] is what's going on. :/
Thank you this helped me exponentially today
there is possibilities that there could be other stuff going on that presents as DID type symptoms or suffering from things that are frequently comorbid. it's more a matter of getting to know yourself than being fake, and the fact that you are changing everyday even if your diagnosis is constant. Whether someone is or isn't, they can figure it out and there shouldn't be any value judgement attached to being wrong.
I'm probably whichever OSDD which features lots of depersonalization and amnesia but not so much of the alters (I'm old so it was DDNOS back in my day) but that doesn't make the time I spent building a physical mailbox thing in my room to send letters to myselves an affront to other systems. It was just something we did that didn't work out like I'd hoped it would
as a suspected OSDD1B system i really appreciate this video-- there are so many parts of what i experience that i definitely would NOT have chosen or decided to fake, but the internet does what the internet does and impostor syndrome runs rampant in me lol. not to mention we're a fictive/introject heavy system...
thank y'all for this, silver 💕 hope you're doing good
THANK. YOU. FOR THIS.
i found this in our recommendations earlier today and put it in watch later bc i didnt have time then to watch it, but just a little bit ago i found a video invalidating a certain aspect of "fake" systems that we have in our system so i decided to pull this up. and while ive known the points you make in this video for a long time now, hearing it from someone else actually... helps a lot.
the DID/OSDD community is always full of invalidation, discourse, and callouts, and it makes me feel so sickened... im not against everyone for that but it needs to change. we need to learn that hey, just because that system isnt like yours, whether it be because the amount of introjects, the frequency or easy control of switching, whatever the case may be, IT DOESNT MEAN THEYRE FAKE.
in conclusion thank you for this video and i hope this community turns around for the better soon and we can all become more accepting of other systems as a whole. -chlo, enchanted soul system
I'm so glad we could help!! ❤️
Hey, I loved this video! My partner is part of a system (we believe that its a OSDD-1b system too, but they doesnt have the dianosis yet). We are from Brazil and I understend english, but they dont, so I'm here to ask you guys if I can make portuguese subtitles for this video, cause I think it would be very very helpful for them. I think you have to enable something here on youtube so I can do it. Unfortunately we dont have much information on this subject on portuguese, then I do my best to help translating all I can to help them to undertend a little bit more of themselves. Thanks for doing those videos, youre helping a lot of people/alters to feel less lonely and more understood
Translations should be on now!
@@TheRingsSystem Thank you very much! I already finished translating :)
You're amazing and more people/systems need to hear your voices!!
I just because aware about 4 days ago… I’m in a constant argument with myself in my head
I need this so so much. I just recently started being open about living with this and I've yet to find a therapist I can trust with this. I've been struggling for such a long time, thinking I'm just imagining things. -Sarah
Ik this is random and I'm dissociation but I'm called Sarah as well (I'm a part of a system)
We're going to get a full psych evaluation this week with a focus on DID and OSDD because we've come out to our therapist as believing we are a polyfrag DID system, and we've been so nervous. like, what if we answer everything completely truthfully and it doesn't meet the criteria for anything? and then we've been feeling even less valid when some alters (including me) have had intrusive thoughts about exaggerating our symptoms on the test to be sure, even though we don't really want an official document telling us this scary thing is real. we really needed to hear this. one night, we decided to write names out for the voices in our head and we had been watching DID/OSDD videos prior to this, and that's why we think we're faking. but we didn't think "oh imma pretend I have DID", we thought "there's so many people in my head and I'm already suspicious of DID, so let's learn their names." thanks so much, you guys! stay safe
I hope the psych evaluation goes well! You got this. Sending love and good vibes ❤️
Thankyou for this - while i spend most of my days trying to figure out what my thoughts are about something, where that is coming from, is it influenced by . . . . ya, daily therapy - 24/7 - - - and yet i wonder this. i've known since i was 7 there was someone other that me, and who is me??right - by the time i was 14 - well. .. .and i'm 61 now. my husband made some stupid joke about my father and I've been trying to calm down more than 5 that are not happy about the reference - this is a week long now without sleep. i can relate to the commenter that said 'am i faking? and the alters saying 'oh, shit here we go again' Cheers - i've only watched a couple of your vids- but you seem cool.
I figured out about the disorder a while ago. I can't remember any trauma, so I passed it off. Recently, I've been feeling super dissociated and actually lost some time today. How was it for you figuring out you had OSDD and do you have any tips for younger people who are scared to see a therapist?
I do!
The next video is all about talking to a therapist the first time, so keep an eye open for that.
Also, I still don't remember the majority of our trauma. It's ok if you don't know - or even if you never know. What matters is that you're experiencing symptoms. (Specifically lost time!! Go see a therapist if you can :) )
I really appreciate your proud advocacy for systems❤ this was just what I needed to hear
We very much needed to hear this. Thank you.
Also I really like the succulents on your desk!
Thank you! I got them from the local queer center and friends :)
@@TheRingsSystem oh hell yeah, queer succulents are even better!
Thank you 🙏
I never heard of the disorder till a few years ago & when I did it resonated with me and I was like I’ve always felt like different people in one. And since then I’ve become more & more aware of it. But I still feel like I’m just making it up 😩😩 I have a cPTSD diagnosis but it just feels like there’s something more going on.
Oh maaan thank you so much! =)) I love my tribe =) ♡
some things we cant hear to much.
Sadly struggeling to belive us selfe is a realy big issue. It causes so much Stress and pain and I am sure that counts for others too.
So: to everyone Who wants to hunt the "fakers" down, Please Dont add to this confusion and anxiety manny of us allready have.
Thank you for making this Video! =) ♡
THANK you to all the brave Systems who put them selfes out there!
YOU ARE AWESOME! =))
~ a System on the beginning of figuring them selfes out ^^
I started to watch videos from you, DissociaDID, The Entropy System, and others a month or two ago and I realized that what you guys are describing defines how I feel. I don’t know if I have DID or OSDD because I’m still living with my parents on account of me not being old enough to live alone. I feel like I’m just a dumb kid making this stuff up so I can be special, but the symptoms describe mine perfectly. I researched a ton of information about these two disorders and so far OSDD fits what I go through perfectly. I don’t know what to do to find help, the only one that is accessible is my school’s counselor, and she never helps with anything. Watching this video made me feel a little better, but I need a professional’s opinion. Does anyone have any ideas of what to do?
Thank you. I often need reassurance. It means a lot. ♥️
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Me (Host): I must be accidentally faking! I'm a terrible person, people actually suffer from this and here I am faking it!
Persecuter: .....yall really that stupid? What am I? Huh? A potato?
Haha! Very relatable ❤️
WHO IS HERE BECAUSE OF TRISHA'S VIDEO?
her video(s) made me cry. ive neveer been in so much denial before
❤️💕 One video doesn’t erase you’re validity. Stay strong 💕
This was beautiful, and I really needed to hear this...thank you so so much
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Thank you so much for this! We love you and your videos!
Thank you!!
I am really curious as to why I keep seeing the reference to "faking" DID/OSDD in many vidros. Of all disorders, it's the 1st time I see it as a recurring theme. We never talk about people faking depression, anxiety, BPD, bipolar, etc. And from the comments, I feel like people are just confused and doubting whether they have the disorder as it is a very misunderstood one. Many people have alters and the many facets of the ego can be a very complicated thing to grasp so it is understandable that people are questionning.
I have been hearing voices that have a different pitch different style constantly ignored it from when I was a kid thinking they were just my imaginary friend and only recently because of other mental health disorders that I’ve come up my alters have been coming out one at a time and most of them don’t think they’re a part of a system one alter she pretty much can talk to all of the system except for those that are just like a whisper in the back of my head in in the back of my head space and she has been trying to get them all to communicate with one another and to also except that they are a part of a system I have limited access into the headspace with just seeing my place that I live at within the system and my little three-year-old altar that lives with Lesa she takes care of her and then I have a fairy lives in the garden at where I live in this headspace that’s about all that I can but I also have a new alter that showed up and I don’t know her name yet she has it told me what her name is Karen I don’t think she knows but she’s a fourth grader she was around ever since when I was very young and she disappeared when I got in fourth grade or she got developed then I don’t entirely know and also I have a persecutor he keeps trying to talk me into harming myself but Lisa she talked me down by pushing him out of the call conscious which I’ve been getting headaches every time somebody tries to come up front but then they only just do Coke conch how conscious and fourth graders she does not know her name at all or at least she won’t tell me her name yet but I with Lesa‘s help have named the entire system and apparently from Lesa the others do agree but they still are trying to deny that they are a part of a system they just can’t make sense of why Lesa is there and being able to talk with them and they won’t talk with the others so I thought I would relay that because my system is called chaos system and this is all new to me and I’m afraid of the stigma and I really did not want this I am scared of this and I’m scared how people are going to react especially my behavioral consultant and the provider that I have in my waiver case manager but my therapist is working with me and she said even though my alters will not come completely to the front just because conscious as long as I can translate from them to her then she said it shouldn’t be a problem but I just want them eventually to feel safe enough to come up to the front completely I’m just afraid of how people are going to react I just need a safe place to talk with others and to get advice on how to deal with all of this I don’t want this I don’t need this because I also have borderline personality disorder bipolar to PTSD and generalized anxiety disorder and then I also have insomnia I hope I share this and I hope I don’t get any bad comments back from haters and those that don’t believe that this is real thank you for reading my message
PS I should’ve also mentioned I do kind of feel like I’m faking but a lot of me says I’m not
We hear you about that fear, and emphasize with it. DID can be incredibly scary at first. Sending lots of love to y’all, and I hope you guys can get to a safe place where everyone can feel comfortable fronting. ❤️
(And don’t worry about hate comments - everything is held for review, so we make sure no one gets hateful or harmful responses on our videos 😊)
Thank you so much for sharing! I love how you do your videos and how much information you provide. 😊
Thanks!
thank you ♥ we needed to hear this tonight
ANother OSDD-1b system of 30+ !!
host: "what if I'm faking?"
nova: "You're not"
host: "WHAT IF I PRETENDED TO COMFORT MYSELF AND YOU'RE NOT REAL"
nova: 😑...
I don't know if I have Osdd/Did because I don't think I have alters. At least, not very separated ones if that makes sense lol; sometimes there is a thought that didn't feel entirely mine, or most of the time more of a passive influence I guess? I dont know weather I actually have Osdd/Did or if I have another disorder that does something similar to Osdd/Did
Have you thought about Median / mid-continuum or P-DID maybe?
Also OSDD-1a
I'm really over here searching through youtube and google wondering if we're faking all this. Especially with the fact that we experience little amnesia unless it's a traumatic event, and the fact that there's 3 people around me with DID or OSDD. I'm scared that I am faking it and that I'm hurting my friends feelings- (Which is the reason I rarely say 'we')
Im thinking I have OSDD but I don’t think I have any trauma? I mean I have had some sort of scary, stressful and upsetting things happen, but Im not sure. I most definitely have alters, but they only co-con. I’ve never remembered or heard from people that I’ve ‘ been someone else ‘.
I honestly think I'm faking. I found out that I might be plural back in December last year when an alter fronted and tried to break up with my partner. Since then I've been trying to make contact with them, with little success. I've seen visions, I've heard voices, but when I try to talk to them, they don't respond.
I've talked to a therapist about this, and they just wrote it off as a one off dissociative episode, but that doesn't explain everything that's happened since then. My partner has talked to my alters, briefly, but they don't seem to want to talk to me.
Sometimes it is an experience for alters to ignore the host, or try to cut off internal contact. I'm sorry it's been so hard to connect with them - it can take a lot of work to build good internal communication in systems. I'd 100% bring this back up with your therapist and talk about the "everything that's happened since then" and how you feel like "one dissociative episode" does not account for what you're experiencing ❤️
So this is going to be long I just need some advice from someone with DID. Ok so two days ago idk what it was that made go into a total freak out I was in a lockeroom in a different town cause I'm a wrestler and had to travel for a match. Anyways I was shaking and rocking back and forth my head felt like it was going to explode and for some reason I was just absolutely terrified. And I was really scared cause I was hearing this one creepy voice I don't remember what it was saying but it was saying really negative things. And so I was just really freaking out and I couldn't stop. But at the same time when the voice was speaking I was convinced that I was making the words up in the my head. That I was just telling myself to think that something was talking to me. And that day wasn't already going good. I had lost all 4 matches I was in and me and someone on my team had a little fight or u could say argument. And someone I new told me when she met the person on my team in the locker room that she did not like me and idk why but when she told me that she said that I felt really sad. And I pretended like it was somehow funny that someone on my team doesn't like me. But I really did feel hurt from it and idk why I was trying to hide it. That was my day before I had to freak out thing. Than one of my team mates saw me freaking out and plugging my ears, slapping them and just doing that stuff from blocking out my thoughts of course that didn't work. Then my team mate makes me step put into the hallways she was basically dragging me I guess I didn't want to move. Then she goes to get her mom. And i didn't know much about her mom and she told me she works in the mental health field. Anyways my teammate told her about what was all happening. And she had me calmed down and told me if I was aware with DID. And I had seen some things about it in the past cause one of my cosplaying youtubers has DID and so new some things about it. And so the mom told me more about DID and the sighs and everything and I was kinda happy that she was saying that. But at the same time my brain was like that I'm just faking the voices and everything. And then she asked me if I had any trama in my childhood and Idk why but I just said yes that I did. Even though I don't remember any trama maybe some few tramtic events. And my sister had told me before when we were little that our father would hit us alot. But I just don't want to believe that my dad would do anything really bad even though I remember little things. And I thought that not remembering alot of your childhood or have big gaps in your childhood was a normal thing for everyone until I found out that was a sign of DID. But what if I'm just faking this. To be honest I think I am yesterday I know for a fact I was dissociating alot that whole day and I all I did was look at DID videos cause my team mates mom said it might help to understand DID so I did alot of research and everything but I'm still convinced that I'm just faking it. Today I don't think I dissociated and didn't hear any voices. Although I don't know if this is strange but does anyone with DID have like pain in their back of their eye it's almost like a migrane or even like wear your temples are at. I honestly feel really crazy if I do have DID how is it even possible how could this happen to me I don't have DID it's just not possible. Help me pls I need some help
Hey Rings! I hope you all are doing well! ♥️
Thank you, I needed to hear this today.
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thank you! ur awesome!
You are kind helpful and insightful.
I'm not diagnosed (I'm waiting to go to a therapist about my mental health to talk about maybe having OSDD-1B) but I relate a lot to the symptoms of OSDD-1b. But the thing is though after watching your videos I started noticing that there are other people in my head (like I can see them from time to time) but I could always hear different voices I'm my head. And I've been switching a few times a day but I know what's going on, but I can't control what I think, do or say. And not only that when I come back I can't remember what I said before.
I think I'm faking but whenever I say that all of my head mates or alters (I'm not sure if I can call them head mates since I'm new to this) get mad at me.
So I think I'm faking but I could be wrong. -Ash
Sending lots of love ❤️️ ❤️️ I hope things settle out soon for y'all :)
@@TheRingsSystem thank you :)
Honestly I'm just learning what osdd is and honestly is ringing some bells for me, but still questioning if it is something I'm dealing with or if it's just me autistic brain overthinking the whole thing. My friend suggested I look into it because I described an incident that happened at a con and I said "it didn't feel like me" and had had cases similar in the past.
I wish you luck on your journey! I recommend did-research.org and traumadissociation.com ! ❤️
Thank you I needed that
Snaps and claps for this video!
Thank you!!
*me* okay, so my therapist has told me that I have OSDD, I definitely have other people around my head, AND I have researched it for a while and people with it feel the same way if not the EXACT same way the the disorder makes me feel.....but maybe I'm making this up-
#question : how to tell the difference between osdd switching and audhd masking?
I needed this. Thank you.
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One thing that helped convince my about having OSDD was the names of our sysmates. Lanzo? Literally never heard of that name before. Spick? Yeah really random. Kami? Is this Japanese, I think it's Japanese? So yeah (idk if this comment makes any sense my train of thought just died-) -Five
I love you so much!! I’m gonna put this in a playlist for my headmate to watch because it started crying because it felt like it was faking 😭🫶
The problem is that when I discovered DissociaDID channel I started questioning myself, and thinking about and understanding that I have some symptoms(now i found you and I think i have osdd-1b). And now I question what if my memories of talking with someone different in my head are just me imagining it.
It’s ok to not know ❤️ take as much time and as many notes as you need! Also know that many people are in the same boat of “I didn’t know until I encountered some form of media or information about DID/OSDD” because were never even told it’s a possibility or could be something that’s happening! It doesn’t make you invalid or faking ❤️
@@TheRingsSystem yeah. Our first encounter was in March with the trisha paytas drama. Slowly we began to watch more and in late July I felt something was up. Early August jake and lizzie came to me. Then it was Lili and so on until we have Kim from a few days ago. Also, around the time jake and lizzie came I looked up symptoms and we matched them all (there's not always complete amnesia but most of the time). So yeah sometimes systems choose to show themselves when they see the disorder. For us it was like bribing a puppy (our system) out from under a bus using treats (DID/OSSD information)
Tbh, I think I might have DID or OSDD but I cant tell if its just my brain putting up things that aren't there. It sounds like I do have it but I'm completely unsure. I mean, sure, I'll talk to the characters in my head but I always put that up to me being too invested in my DnD campaigns but now I'm seeing all this stuff about DID and OSDD and its really starting to make sense. I know that I have a traumatic past but I can barely ever actually remember it and I don't remember anything prior to the age of 10/11 years old. How would you suggest going about getting help for this?
I'd look for a professional that specializes in trauma and dissociation, watch our video about talking to a therapist about questioning DID/OSDD/trauma, and lead with "hey, I think I have trauma and might be experiencing something similar to DID/OSDD, do you feel equipped to handle this?"
I can't tell if I'm faking
(Alters started coming in when I was 10 ish ab 2-3 yrs ago)
When I started researching DID something just clicked, like that set off a switch that just made everyone come in,I don't like thinking I have did and don't know if I have it or not
Hello friend! I know the feeling of “oh god I don’t want to have this.” Know that it’s ok to say “I don’t know” and exist in that space as long as you want. Take lots of notes, and know that you can take your time ❤️
The Rings System Thankyou, I feel like I'm faking, but it's not something that will go away, I feel like they are apart of me
My parents refuse to see a doctor for me
*sends good vibes* I hope things work out for seeking professional help either soon or someday
Idk I might need more advise on that because I have these alters and fronting room and all, but I wanted to ask if it is normal that we can’t really communicate. It’s my biggest doubt so far because we simply cannot or just barely can communicate and idk if I can count myself as a system like that
I'm not sure how common it is, but I've definitely seen other people say the same thing, so you're not alone
I wonder too
Thanks you so much
I'm so glad it helped ❤️
Well said!
A really need this thanks for the video 😁😁😁
What about people who claim to be systems when they don't come from trauma? Like i guess called endo systems