evil - original ft. another uni dorm

Always thought I’d see the end far before it comes,
Spent days counting my time since I was young,
Like the clock had started and I’m dearly departed in my dreams,
Like the world was still spinning but death stopped to stare at me,
Romanticized the way I would just give in,
For some heroic cause under the human condition,
Like some sacrificial prophet who’s in debt to their composite- I must pay,
Is it the thought of being a saviour or the end of wanting to be saved?
When you look me in my eyes,
Does it scare you- what’s been inside for so long?
Do you hate it when I cry?
Cleanse this fixed state of mind (life) from my poisoned blood,
maybe I am evil, and you are not,
from the point I was little- my chest was bound to rot,
maybe you are peace, and I am war,
darkness follows- do I shut the door?
When they said what they said I believed it first,
Some explanation for the rotting I endorse,
Like everyone could see it- oh god did I reveal what I’m worth?
Did you really believe you knocked over someone higher then they were?
When they looked me in my eyes,
Did it scare me- they knew that I cried,
You could hate me with a smile,
Say I’m pretty- for a while I tried,
maybe I am evil- though you say I’m the sun,
there’s a reason you must burn, no star outshun,
maybe you aren’t peace- cause you’re always at my door,
do I leave it?
Or become consumed by the source