I remember hearing this at 3:30am, and relating to it so much, and crying. I shared it with my son who was 13-14 at the time. This was way back when it came out. The cd was over and it just went on. Then, boom, this monster hidden track appeared and scared the shit out of me. Here I am 53 yo in 5/2023, crying and still relating even more. My son, who shared the love of Aesop rock with me, is dead. My seemingly splinter-proof brain bone-scaffolding imploded. It’s so unfair the man I have become to so many because of this. I’m trying to get better. Just know this song gets me through sometimes.
I am so sorry for your pain just know you are not alone and the world is a better place with you in it,please don't allow the pain to become a shroud just live your life loud&make your son proud'...☝️❤️
Yo man be strong and live in his memory. He passed on to a better life and we are stuck here listening to Ace rock. That's the brutal beauty of life. I lost my brother and sister so I can relate somewhat.
Lyrics, according to GENIUS. [Intro] One of four My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz. I was born in 1-9-7-6, at Syosset hospital, located in Long Island, NY. I am 6 foot 4, I weigh 2-0-0 pounds. I have brown hair and green eyes. I enjoy writing songs, painting, movies and diner food. I have two brothers; Chris and Graham, and two parents; Paul and Anita. In august of 2-0-0-1 I went crazy. This was originally not for public consumption. This was made for four people-four people that literally saved my life. They know who they are-and, uh-I mean, I could live to be a thousand years old and never re-pay them. I don't think this song would pay for them. But hopefully by putting it out, push the bank a little further [Verse] This ain't a burner for the whips (no it isn't) This ain't even Aesop Rock fly earthworm demeanor (no it isn't) My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz and I was born in Long Island, New York Seventy Six, before Graham and after Chris... OK In August of 2001 my seemingly splinter-proof brain bone scaffolding imploded I kept it on the hush, but nearly tumbling To the cold hard concrete on mere bodega trips For cigarettes and soda, shook me to casper Dizzy with a nausea chaser, motor sensory eraser Gorophobe tunnel vision, guilt, self loathing arrangement Rose rapidly out a bog I'd never fished in That abates three separate foreign meds While I seems to hook lines and syncro simple fishing Simple primitive self taught, easing of soul, mind and body But the symptoms rejected my cave-man modus operandi So now it's one fish belly up, through medicated mileage Shrinks that get 250 an hour for awkward silence And, I'd be lying if I said all of this Made even the slightest fragment of sense to me That's frail... Simply put I don't know what happened, or what's still happening I literally feel like I'm teetering on the blunt edge of my sanity JAIME, I killed the robots and I'm sorry Broke down in front of you, embarrassed But you lent a heart and hand that only you could You're one of my best friends and yes I'd take that bullet for you That's my word, which is about all I have left TONY, I know you know I'm crazy, cause you told me But that didn't ever bother you, I hold you as my brother 'til death And I got your back if ever the drunk goblin step For makin' a cat laugh when I was walking with the dead KATHRYN, mother figure, older sister, concerned beyond limits Letting me know I wasn't the only one with this Continuous offers for vacation, Chicago visits Talked me through repair of a head full of broken pistons RAIA, for the late night movie rentals and the company I needed An' you knew it, but I just wouldn't admit it You listened to me blab about my issues for hours Offer incredible advice, gave me a hug when I was finished Am I a jack of all trades? No... I like to write songs though Are they good? I dunno... But I could tell you that I only write shit down when I believe it So take this how you want, but know I mean it I want you all to know that I'm scared Now my fuckin' crooked soul never faced a monster like the last few months Ever in my whole life... I wish I could explain this better (I can't) But the pieces won't formulate it to anything even close to cohesive So I guess this is my feeble way to thank you Four soldiers that extended something sacred off the purity of kindness I owe you all my life and please don't argue with that statement 'Cause without y'all, I may not have a life to offer, take it [Chorus] Thank you I wish I could explain this better (Thank you) I'm sorry for burdening your pleasures (Thank you) I love you all with all that's left of me (Thank you) For helping try to kill what made a mess of me (Thank you) Somehow, someway (Thank you) I'mma get you back someday (Thank you) Just gotta figure this all out (Thank you) So; [Interlude] I guess it is kind of funny when you look at it from a step back. How one man can literally buckle under the same pressures other men operate normally under. I have scoped this out from all angles, multiple times. I have been over everything in my head, till I can't think anymore. But I guess some times, when you can't breathe, there are people there to breathe for you. I am lucky enough to have those people around me. Thank you for helping me to not die. Thank you for helping me to not die [Outro] Pocket full of pennies, and a soul gone tilt Cockpit full of memories and a drain full of guilt (x4)
I was looking everywhere for this song. It definitely disappeared for awhile. I can understand it due to the personal message but his lyricism and use of metaphor.. it makes me empathasize with the pain and rage and regret in his voice.. this may be one of my favorite songs of Aesop
I know I'm not the first person to say this. And I don't wanna sound corny. But this song saved my life. I didn't think anyone understood. Even the ones trying to help. Wasn't till I heard this that I knew
"I guess it is kind of funny when you look at it from a step back. How one man can literally buckle under the same pressures other men operate normally under. I have scoped this out from all angles, multiple times. I have been over everything in my head, till I can't think anymore. But I guess some times, when you can't breathe, there are people there to breathe for you. I am lucky enough to have those people around me. Thank you for helping me to not die. Thank you for helping me to not die" Goddamn this track
Just was introduced to this song from a friend who this song helped them through dark times so here I am almost a month into losing my wife first time listening to this
"I guess it is kind of funny when you look at it from a step back How one man can literally buckle under the same pressures Other men operate normally under" Did CAD work for 9 years of my life before everyone got laid off in mid 2023. Things were pretty stressful so I took a year off and started the job search again in the Spring this year. Nobody picked up their phones after months, and my only saving grace was a packing job at a glass factory, 12 hours a day, fulltime. I'm losing my fucking mind seeing how far I've slipped back down the ladder of life, but all my coworkers handle the workload as if this is the best it gets and are happy with it. All these men beside me operating normally, meanwhile I'm planning my bailout as soon as I can.
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I remember hearing this at 3:30am, and relating to it so much, and crying. I shared it with my son who was 13-14 at the time. This was way back when it came out. The cd was over and it just went on. Then, boom, this monster hidden track appeared and scared the shit out of me.
Here I am 53 yo in 5/2023, crying and still relating even more. My son, who shared the love of Aesop rock with me, is dead. My seemingly splinter-proof brain bone-scaffolding imploded. It’s so unfair the man I have become to so many because of this. I’m trying to get better. Just know this song gets me through sometimes.
I am so sorry for your pain just know you are not alone and the world is a better place with you in it,please don't allow the pain to become a shroud just live your life loud&make your son proud'...☝️❤️
Men these days -_- or what people call a man
Iv teared up to this song as well
Yo man be strong and live in his memory. He passed on to a better life and we are stuck here listening to Ace rock. That's the brutal beauty of life. I lost my brother and sister so I can relate somewhat.
So sorry for your loss 🕯️RIP
Lyrics, according to GENIUS.
[Intro]
One of four
My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz. I was born in 1-9-7-6, at Syosset hospital, located in Long Island, NY. I am 6 foot 4, I weigh 2-0-0 pounds. I have brown hair and green eyes. I enjoy writing songs, painting, movies and diner food. I have two brothers; Chris and Graham, and two parents; Paul and Anita. In august of 2-0-0-1 I went crazy. This was originally not for public consumption. This was made for four people-four people that literally saved my life. They know who they are-and, uh-I mean, I could live to be a thousand years old and never re-pay them. I don't think this song would pay for them. But hopefully by putting it out, push the bank a little further
[Verse]
This ain't a burner for the whips (no it isn't)
This ain't even Aesop Rock fly earthworm demeanor (no it isn't)
My name is Ian Mathias Bavitz and I was born in Long Island, New York
Seventy Six, before Graham and after Chris... OK
In August of 2001 my seemingly splinter-proof brain bone scaffolding imploded
I kept it on the hush, but nearly tumbling
To the cold hard concrete on mere bodega trips
For cigarettes and soda, shook me to casper
Dizzy with a nausea chaser, motor sensory eraser
Gorophobe tunnel vision, guilt, self loathing arrangement
Rose rapidly out a bog I'd never fished in
That abates three separate foreign meds
While I seems to hook lines and syncro simple fishing
Simple primitive self taught, easing of soul, mind and body
But the symptoms rejected my cave-man modus operandi
So now it's one fish belly up, through medicated mileage
Shrinks that get 250 an hour for awkward silence
And, I'd be lying if I said all of this
Made even the slightest fragment of sense to me
That's frail... Simply put
I don't know what happened, or what's still happening
I literally feel like I'm teetering on the blunt edge of my sanity
JAIME, I killed the robots and I'm sorry
Broke down in front of you, embarrassed
But you lent a heart and hand that only you could
You're one of my best friends and yes I'd take that bullet for you
That's my word, which is about all I have left
TONY, I know you know I'm crazy, cause you told me
But that didn't ever bother you, I hold you as my brother 'til death
And I got your back if ever the drunk goblin step
For makin' a cat laugh when I was walking with the dead
KATHRYN, mother figure, older sister, concerned beyond limits
Letting me know I wasn't the only one with this
Continuous offers for vacation, Chicago visits
Talked me through repair of a head full of broken pistons
RAIA, for the late night movie rentals and the company I needed
An' you knew it, but I just wouldn't admit it
You listened to me blab about my issues for hours
Offer incredible advice, gave me a hug when I was finished
Am I a jack of all trades? No... I like to write songs though
Are they good? I dunno...
But I could tell you that I only write shit down when I believe it
So take this how you want, but know I mean it
I want you all to know that I'm scared
Now my fuckin' crooked soul never faced a monster like the last few months
Ever in my whole life... I wish I could explain this better (I can't)
But the pieces won't formulate it to anything even close to cohesive
So I guess this is my feeble way to thank you
Four soldiers that extended something sacred off the purity of kindness
I owe you all my life and please don't argue with that statement
'Cause without y'all, I may not have a life to offer, take it
[Chorus]
Thank you
I wish I could explain this better (Thank you)
I'm sorry for burdening your pleasures (Thank you)
I love you all with all that's left of me (Thank you)
For helping try to kill what made a mess of me (Thank you)
Somehow, someway (Thank you)
I'mma get you back someday (Thank you)
Just gotta figure this all out (Thank you) So;
[Interlude]
I guess it is kind of funny when you look at it from a step back. How one man can literally buckle under the same pressures other men operate normally under. I have scoped this out from all angles, multiple times. I have been over everything in my head, till I can't think anymore. But I guess some times, when you can't breathe, there are people there to breathe for you. I am lucky enough to have those people around me. Thank you for helping me to not die. Thank you for helping me to not die
[Outro]
Pocket full of pennies, and a soul gone tilt
Cockpit full of memories and a drain full of guilt
(x4)
This song helped me living through depersonalization. If you know, you know. Stay strong
I’m glad I’m not the only one
I was looking everywhere for this song. It definitely disappeared for awhile. I can understand it due to the personal message but his lyricism and use of metaphor.. it makes me empathasize with the pain and rage and regret in his voice.. this may be one of my favorite songs of Aesop
It's on Spotify as a hidden track at the end of the Daylight EP, not separately though.
Love it as well man, a true shot to the heart.
@@njnjnnj100yeah like 10 min after the last song. It’s really hidden lol.
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I've come back to this track a lot in my life, but man it's hittin hard right now.
THANK GOD FINNALY ITS ON ITS OWN
Time to hit play and pour a fresh one 😭
I know I'm not the first person to say this. And I don't wanna sound corny. But this song saved my life. I didn't think anyone understood. Even the ones trying to help. Wasn't till I heard this that I knew
i was having a real hard time tonight, have schizophrenia, and my dreads keep feeling like bugs on my arms and back :'( this help distract, thankyou
"I guess it is kind of funny when you look at it from a step back. How one man can literally buckle under the same pressures other men operate normally under. I have scoped this out from all angles, multiple times. I have been over everything in my head, till I can't think anymore. But I guess some times, when you can't breathe, there are people there to breathe for you. I am lucky enough to have those people around me. Thank you for helping me to not die. Thank you for helping me to not die"
Goddamn this track
Just was introduced to this song from a friend who this song helped them through dark times so here I am almost a month into losing my wife first time listening to this
Finally somebody uploaded this again. I have not been able to find this song for months all of a sudden. Thank you!!!!
I love this guy he really saved my life he’s so relatable I can’t even write anymore because he’s said it all already and i’m at peace that way.
As a bipolar dude who’s lost his mind multiple times I fucking love you Aesop
This is one of those songs where pressing replay is absolutely necessary
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It reminds me of ruby 81'. Oh goodness the cold chills when ruby starts
thanks for keeping this song on the tube dude,
thanks Aes.
One of the incredibly rare reasons they invented the word masterpiece 🌟
I'm so glad this song is back. Thank you.
"But you also tilt when you should withdraw, and that is knightly too."
Holy Moly. 😢❤
This is the song I will loop at my wake
Thank you for helping me to not die *is dead 😂
My best friend overdosed and Aes was his favorite. ❤
This has 10k views. His latest, mindful solution has 250k 10 days in!! Look how far Aes has come.
This song is one of his best works in my opinion
Excellent
Imagine having a mental breakdown a month before 9/11
I think he lived in New York at the time as well, brutal.
@@mazorprime8035"Breaker one-nine, nine-eleven O-one witness, maybe you don't get this". Plus, "I don't like to talk about the UFO crash".
@@ju4408 what song is that
Fist line was from "N.Y. Electric". The second was from "That is Not a Wizard".
Mine was July 2001 this song really was useful to define it all as soon as I discovered it maybe 02? 03?
Absolutely breaks my heart thay him and Jamie arent close anymore hip hop needs that team up again shits sad as fuck
"I guess it is kind of funny when you look at it from a step back
How one man can literally buckle under the same pressures
Other men operate normally under"
Did CAD work for 9 years of my life before everyone got laid off in mid 2023. Things were pretty stressful so I took a year off and started the job search again in the Spring this year. Nobody picked up their phones after months, and my only saving grace was a packing job at a glass factory, 12 hours a day, fulltime. I'm losing my fucking mind seeing how far I've slipped back down the ladder of life, but all my coworkers handle the workload as if this is the best it gets and are happy with it. All these men beside me operating normally, meanwhile I'm planning my bailout as soon as I can.
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Nice Username.
It’ll be okay just stick to the river
@DMCA
Shhhhh don't tattle
Snitch
It’ll be okay just stick to the river