What Now...? | AMH LEVEL + MORE IVF? EGG DONOR? EMBRYO DONATION? // 7 Year Infertility Journey

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    What Now...? | AMH LEVEL + MORE IVF? EGG DONOR? EMBRYO DONATION? // 7 Year Infertility Journey
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    HNY, friends!
    We have made a MASSIVE decision to begin 2021...
    Thank you for your continued love and support!
    xo
    Donor conception support as mentioned:
    Paths To Parenthub: / paths_to_parenthub
    @definingmum on instagram: / definingmum
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    OUR TTC BACKGROUND:
    ~ Married - May 2013
    ~ Conceived naturally after a couple months trying, ended in missed miscarriage at 9w4d - Oct 2014
    ~ D&C
    ~ Laparoscopy surgery after 1 unsuccessful year of TTC following first miscarriage - Nov 2015
    ~ Surgery revealed blocked tubes due to infection following D&C
    ~ Conceived naturally prior to starting IVF, ended in another missed miscarriage at 7w6d- Feb 2016
    ~ Another D&C
    ~ Conceived naturally again prior to starting IVF, ended in chemical pregnancy- March 2016
    ~ IVF egg retrieval #1 - April 2016
    ~ Fresh embryo transfer ended in chemical pregnancy with 0 embryos frozen
    ~ IVF egg retrieval #2 - June 2016
    ~ Fresh embryo transfer ended in chemical pregnancy with 1 embryo frozen
    ~ Conceived naturally, slow rising HCG & ended in blighted ovum - Sept 2016
    ~ Yet another D&C
    ~ FET #1, never happened as our 1 frozen embryo didn't survive the thawing process - Dec 2016
    ~ IVF egg retrieval #3 - May 2017
    ~ FET #2- September 2017 - Heartbreaking BFN with PGS normal embryo...
    ~ Another Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy surgery - November 2017.... TUBES NO LONGER BLOCKED!
    ~ DQ Alpha gene partial match - unexplained infertility FINALLY explained! = alloimmune implantation dysfunction
    ~ IVF egg retrieval #4 - June 2019 - total fertlization failure
    ~ IVF egg retrieval #5 - September 2019 - 2 PGS normal embryos frozen
    ~ Gestational surrogacy process started - Nov 2019
    ~ Gestational surrogacy application hearing to get approval - March 2020
    ~ FET preparation with gestational surrogate - March 2020
    ~ Gestational Surrogacy FET #1 with PGS tested embryo - April 2020 - chemical pregnancy
    ~ Gestational Surrogacy FET #2 with PGS tested embryo - August 2020 - miscarriage at 6w
    ~ Gestational Surrogacy FET #3 with untested hatching embryo - Oct 2020 - BFN
    After 8 pregnancy losses, 11 surgeries, (including egg collections), & 7 long years of receiving constant bad news, we are so ready to finally hold our longed for rainbow baby in our arms!

КОМЕНТАРІ • 347

  • @donandjessica9782
    @donandjessica9782 3 роки тому +131

    We did embryo donation and currently 10 weeks pregnant after 13 years of infertility. Sending you guys the very best on this journey!💗

    • @TimandCeleste
      @TimandCeleste  3 роки тому +1

      Ahhh congratulations!! 💓✨

    • @gg-mg7mc
      @gg-mg7mc 3 роки тому +4

      Congrats!!! I am a proud momma to a sweet 2.5 year old after a 13 years wait also. The wait makes motherhood that much sweeter. Enjoy every single second, it's worth it all.

    • @donandjessica9782
      @donandjessica9782 3 роки тому

      @@gg-mg7mc Oh my goodness that's awesome! Thank you for your comment! It has been a long time as you know, but yeah we're super excited! Can't wait to experience Parenthood!💕

    • @gg-mg7mc
      @gg-mg7mc 3 роки тому +1

      @@donandjessica9782 Infertility will always be on the surface of my heart. Soak it in, time flies.

    • @melanierose3909
      @melanierose3909 3 роки тому +2

      I heard a story similar to your story. A couple tried for ten years for to get pregent. They had six failed IVF. Had one egg donor suggest pregnancy. One year latter they got pregnant naturally after!

  • @bumblebees1561
    @bumblebees1561 3 роки тому +49

    Your beauty is magical. You can see the pain in your eyes and I wish I could take that away, I wish I had the ability to fix all of this and give you your rainbow. But your rainbow will come, no matter how.

    • @TimandCeleste
      @TimandCeleste  3 роки тому

      You’re the sweetest - thank you so much x

  • @ItsKelsiesLife
    @ItsKelsiesLife 3 роки тому +66

    The conversations you and Tim have had to endure are ones that most can’t even fathom. The difficulty behind these choices are immense and you 2 are handling this the absolute best you can ❤️
    I’m holding onto hope that the baby(s) that are destined to be yours come your way so soon ❤️

    • @TimandCeleste
      @TimandCeleste  3 роки тому +3

      Thank you so much, gorgeous. Continued prayers for you, too! ❤️

    • @uncutjems
      @uncutjems 3 роки тому

      @@TimandCeleste Have you tried Accupuncture and chinese herbs. Drugs can be harsh on the body. You might find it easier to try alternative type treatments. Also Enzyme therapy for immune issues! Research it. Drugs are bad mmmmmkay xx

    • @missbee89sweazy
      @missbee89sweazy 3 роки тому +10

      @@uncutjems she didn’t ask for your medical advice. People who struggle with infertility have literally tried EVERYTHING. You coming in and suggesting something is insensitive and intrusive. The best thing to do for someone is to be encouraging and cheer them on.

    • @uncutjems
      @uncutjems 3 роки тому +1

      @@missbee89sweazy No she didn't however when you create a youtube channel of your suffering one assumes you are going to get advice from people touched by your story, wanting to help you. I was offering well researched and helpful advice. Cheering them on while they inject synthetic drugs and wasting money on embryo implantation is not what I do. Encouraging people to try herbs, progesterone cream, healthy animal fats is what I do. So you do you and I will do me thanks very much. Also I am glad that being a vegan is trending these days, less animals suffer and this world is too populated anyway so veganism helps depopulation. However it is sad seeing women like this. Before veganism became trendy real vegans would NEVER inject synthetic drugs into themselves. Trying drugs and embryo transfers before trying a diet change that includes healthy organic animal fats and fish oil is a new level of ridiculous. I really hope she reads my helpful tips, takes my advice and falls pregnant. I am passionate about helping people are you passionate about telling stranger off on the internet??

    • @leah6015
      @leah6015 3 роки тому +1

      @@uncutjems yeah....sometimes herbs just don’t cut it-I’m just quoting medical literature.

  • @clintandbecky7198
    @clintandbecky7198 3 роки тому +73

    We had our son through donor embryos. I couldn’t imagine life without him. He feels like he was always meant to be ours.

  • @JVHarberden
    @JVHarberden 3 роки тому +7

    I know how hard it is to make the decision to say goodbye to genetics. But I also know how beautiful embryo donation/adoption is. I have 15 month old twins that came to us that way. I am so grateful to our donor family for the amazing gift they have given us. We are parents because of them.

    • @kelleyryanvlogs
      @kelleyryanvlogs 3 роки тому +1

      Oh my goodness what a beautiful testimony for your family! Praying they have the same outcome 🤍🤍 this has to be their year ❤️❤️❤️

  • @MidnightStarRuby
    @MidnightStarRuby 3 роки тому +9

    I miss your updates. Always thinking of you xx

  • @johannahellingh37
    @johannahellingh37 3 роки тому +4

    I pray that this will be your path to baby. We got our daughter with donor eggs four years ago. Genetics is there with your decision but fades when you hold your precious baby 💖 and the baby actually gets a part of your DNA in the womb!

  • @scarlettlilly6988
    @scarlettlilly6988 3 роки тому +2

    I’ve been following you since before I became a surrogate early last year. I was just looking up info on IVF and stumbled upon your channel. I’ve been rooting for you all year. I’m so happy for you taking this next big step. I gave birth last November. The intended mother used a donor and she shared with me how she had to come to terms with it. But when she held her baby for the first time she was the proudest mama in the world and is completely in love. “Biology is the least of what makes someone a mother.” I wish you the best! 🌈

  • @evaschneider8659
    @evaschneider8659 3 роки тому +9

    Like many others, I was so hopeful for you when you started your surrogacy journey and my heart bleeds for you and the tough choices you have to make.
    I choose to believe that your book foreshadows what's to come. That your little dream is already out there, waiting, frozen in time and dreaming of you and the day you'll come to pick them up, and listening to grandma talking about how much their mom and dad love them to go through so much.

    • @TimandCeleste
      @TimandCeleste  3 роки тому

      Thank you 😭💓🙏🏼

    • @evaschneider8659
      @evaschneider8659 3 роки тому +2

      I also want to add, you and Tim give so much hope to me because if genuinely pure souls like you two who fight so hard to be able to give their love to a child exist out there, the world isn't completely lost.
      I do hope so much that I succeed in giving the same kind of love to my daughter, whom we waited 8 years for, every day.

    • @TimandCeleste
      @TimandCeleste  3 роки тому +1

      @@evaschneider8659 You and your words are so beautiful ✨ So glad your precious daughter finally arrived after 8 long years. Sending my love xx

  • @candice1440
    @candice1440 3 роки тому +2

    My husband and I have been trying for 7 years as well. 7 IUIs and now onto my 2nd and final ivf. It is mentally draining. I send you nothing but best wishes and lots of positive thoughts and prayers. :) we can do this!!!

  • @amandawilliams253
    @amandawilliams253 3 роки тому +15

    I sincerely hope 2021 fills your arms with the baby you've been wanting so badly. I've been following you for quite a while now and my heart breaks for you with every loss. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and wish you all the success this year!

    • @TimandCeleste
      @TimandCeleste  3 роки тому +1

      Thank you for your very kind wishes, Amanda! ♥️

  • @nunelevonyan6413
    @nunelevonyan6413 3 роки тому +2

    Here wondering of any news...please update when you can! Thanks and good luck with everything!

  • @cvayers1
    @cvayers1 3 роки тому +7

    Congratulations on your decision! We used a sperm donor for our ivf. Although our son is not genetically my husbands, not a day passes that we aren’t grateful. Honestly I forget that our baby didn’t come from my husband. Being raised by my husband, I think our child will still inherit his mannerisms etc.
    I’m praying embryo adoption is your answer. You are so very brave. ❣️❣️❣️

  • @allisonmertzman2770
    @allisonmertzman2770 3 роки тому +2

    I've been watching you since my own infertility journey started. We used donor sperm. We are a two mom family so we knew this was going to be our only option if we wanted to share any genetics. I am only genetically linked to one of my two children and I can tell you it doesn't feel any different. You love them the same. Children grow into their own little people who then turn into big people. Our job as parents is to guide them, care for them, and love them unconditionally. I highly recommend joining support groups, listen to DC/adopted adults as your children will eventually go through their own journey of grappling with genetics (I don't know that we will ever be prepared for this but we know it will happen as our children get older) and prepare for that too. You and Tim are going to be incredible parents. I'm so excited for this journey for you. And watch Ayla and Caleb if you don't already; they're an amazing resource. So much love and baby dust to you in this new year. xo

  • @brittanyyynicoleee
    @brittanyyynicoleee 3 роки тому +3

    I’ve never wanted something for someone so bad... hearing your videos over the last year have been heartbreaking. I can’t even imagine how you and Tim feel. I’m wishing you both the best that 2021 all the dreams come true finally.

    • @kelleyryanvlogs
      @kelleyryanvlogs 3 роки тому

      Beautiful words. Agree completely 🤍🤍🤍🤍

  • @gg-mg7mc
    @gg-mg7mc 3 роки тому +8

    I've been thinking of you so much. New year, a fresh start. I was going to mention Ayla and Caleb, they're such a beautiful example of the love and bond between child and parents.
    Love makes a family. And you have an abundance to give. Seeing your baby whether genetic or not is proof you never gave up, proof love and faith makes all things possible. I wish you the very best of luck and so much love to you.

  • @fionawilson3211
    @fionawilson3211 3 роки тому +5

    Praying 2021 is a year of restoration and healing for you and Tim, I can see the hurt & desperation in your eyes. I’ve been through infertility and I finally reached the other side after 4 years of losses and IVF. Never lose hope. Will be praying for you 🙏🏼

  • @shonbond8074
    @shonbond8074 3 роки тому +2

    Omg you made me cry. I fill my auntie heart is full but how empty my mama heart feels. That part is me as well. My heart is with you. As a now 43yr woman that has been married and now divorced my heart holds a little hope that with new love one maybe God will grace me with a child of my own. People don't understand you love everybody babies but at the cost of backseating your own feeling. Take care of yourself. God knows your heart and he say he will give us the desires of our heart. God bless you and Tim.

  • @joannawarrens5117
    @joannawarrens5117 3 роки тому +3

    I just wanted to share my experience regarding parenthood. My ivf baby turns 21 years old next week! Because I did infertility treatment I knew about embryo adoption and have wondered how much of a difference having a genetic versus adopted embryo would be.
    The answer is: my boy is my boy.I can’t imagine loving another baby less. The fascinating thing about children is how they are DIFFERENT from us they are. The same just highlights the difference. Yes family genetic sharing is neat but Victor’s grandmother would still have cherished him. Once you have the baby in your arms you will be a Mother. It’s doesn’t matter how they arrived. And they will always be YOUR baby.

  • @ComfortingGrace
    @ComfortingGrace 3 роки тому +5

    My husband and I could not have genetic children and we went the embryo adoption route. We have a now 7 year old son from EA and he is the joy of our lives. He actually does happen to look like a combination of my husband and I. It is definitely a serious decision and you both need to be on board with anything you choose. My son knows where he came from and we are totally open with him about all of it, which is very important. I am telling you, that all the fears and doubts you may have during the journey will melt away once that baby is in your arms...because you will know they were meant to be your child. I am praying for you. ❤

    • @kelleyryanvlogs
      @kelleyryanvlogs 3 роки тому

      What a beautiful testimony 🤍🤍🤍 gave me the goosebumps! Praying they have the perfect testimony this year as well after this choice 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

  • @ninagoks2969
    @ninagoks2969 3 роки тому +17

    Goodness Celeste, this must be such huge huge bag of emotions to sort through. Your vulnerability is hope to so many, and the hope so many of us have for you is strong. Your fear is valid, your mixed emotions are valid. 2021 & embryo donor may just be it. Hopeful and full of love for you as always.

    • @TimandCeleste
      @TimandCeleste  3 роки тому +4

      A very big bag!! Thank you, as always, for so beautifully validating my feelings and showing your warm support. So thankful for you ♥️

  • @marcyb6647
    @marcyb6647 3 роки тому +8

    I think this is a great decision and I’m so proud of your strength! 🙌🏼

    • @kelleyryanvlogs
      @kelleyryanvlogs 3 роки тому

      Agreed! She is so dang strong 😭😭😭
      🤍🤍🤍Kelley and fam

    • @leanneadams2549
      @leanneadams2549 3 роки тому

      Absolutely!!!!! Well done 👍 how was that for an UK accent ?lol anyways, I also applaud your decision!!!!!

  • @jodekelly7861
    @jodekelly7861 3 роки тому +3

    God I am so full of emotion for you. We tried for our daughter for 5 years and finally had success with IVF. The pain and constant dull ache that comes through in your voice feels too real and I look forward to the day you get your baby ♥️

  • @samibeecroft
    @samibeecroft 3 роки тому +3

    We have 6 embryos on freeze and I wish I could send them all to you 😔 My husband is not at a place where he wants to donate, its obviously different for everyone but for me I just want to help some else become a mum in any way I can. All my hopes and prayers that it works out for you and Tim, you both deserve all the happiness after all you've been through 💜

  • @EnglishVirgo
    @EnglishVirgo 3 роки тому +6

    It could be the choice for you for sure. It's still your child, you would still be their mummy and daddy. You would still get to experience the whole gamete of parenthood. Whatever happens, you are both in my heart and thoughts.xx

  • @gibbdavidson888
    @gibbdavidson888 Рік тому

    This popped up on my UA-cam feed and I'm so happy to be in the here and now knowing that you are so happy

  • @paddlekick
    @paddlekick 3 роки тому +1

    You are an inspiring woman. Stepping over the most unfair obstacles over and over again. I wish you both nothing but love and baby dust. 100% behind you, I can't wait to one day see you holding your baby. xx

  • @TheIVFChapters
    @TheIVFChapters 3 роки тому +1

    ‘We’re not going to get anywhere if we don’t try’ - think that sums up the journey for so many of us. The most important objective is to keep moving forward. Wishing you all the best for this next chapter - you deserve a one hell of a happy ending! 🤞🏽

  • @charliewade6859
    @charliewade6859 3 роки тому +2

    Infertility and going through any sort of ivf is so hard .. so many ups and downs. The emotions , the grief etc
    I wish you and Tim all the best with the new part of your journey

  • @Thewelshgrumble
    @Thewelshgrumble 3 роки тому +1

    You do what is best for your family and momma heart. We are all here supporting you. ❤❤

  • @CarlyLorraine89
    @CarlyLorraine89 3 роки тому +2

    Thank you for being so raw and open about your experiences... I wish I could do something to help your heart heal but I know there is nothing I can do or say to do this for you... just know you are not alone and you are seen and appreciated xx

  • @aislinn1991_
    @aislinn1991_ 3 роки тому +3

    Hi celeste, I notice you haven't been on UA-cam in a while. I hope you and Tim are OK, please stay strong, it will happen. You will have your healthy baby soon, very soon. Please have hope, it WILL happen. There is hope for every woman, love always ❤️❤️

  • @annasnow6848
    @annasnow6848 3 роки тому +6

    This is so beautiful, and I really hope that 2021 and this decision will bring you your baby. I've been following you during my ttc journey and me and my husband are in the very early stages of using an egg donor. I love your openness but also understand the difficulties in making that decision xx

    • @TimandCeleste
      @TimandCeleste  3 роки тому +2

      Thank you so much, Anna. Wishing you all the best as you begin your egg donor journey ♥️ xx

  • @JR-wp9un
    @JR-wp9un 3 роки тому +1

    I feel for you and your husband. We have been trying for seven years now and just failed our 7th ivf cycle. I feel like we are forced to go down the donor route. Nothing is wrong with us, they just say egg quality. I’m older now but still feel defeated. You echoed all our same sentiments.
    I wish you both all the very best. Lots of love and light to you. Thank you for sharing your story. Xo

  • @jacintawatts9457
    @jacintawatts9457 3 роки тому +1

    You always communicate in such an eloquent way. I truly hope that this decision as hard as it was for you to make sees that much desired baby in your arms. My husband and I took 5 years to have our daughter, whilst never experiencing infertility but many miscarriages and your strength and willingness to share so openly is just amazing and inspiring. I struggled to even share my feelings with those close to me but you are opening up the doorways to awareness and making these feelings we experience normal. We are strangers and yet I quite often think of you and truly wish you have your rainbow baby like we did. 💕

  • @elleharrison1122
    @elleharrison1122 3 роки тому +6

    My Ivf baby came from donor sperm. My husband brought the concept to me that any child that we end up with chose us to be their parents. Sometimes there are physical barriers that stop them coming earthside the normal way so other options are presented to us for them to come through to us. I 100% believe this now. Our son chose us and the spark of life that is DNA feels like such a tiny aspect now he is here. Everything that makes him who he is now is from his nurturing and my husband doesn't think about the genetics at all since he arrived

    • @TimandCeleste
      @TimandCeleste  3 роки тому +6

      I love that so much and adore the concept that our children choose us. Thank you so much for sharing ♥️

  • @TheMullenFam
    @TheMullenFam 3 роки тому +2

    So much love to you and Tim ❤️ you both have been through so much, and I can’t wait for the day you meet your earth side babies. Embryo adoption is such a beautiful, special, and incredible path. Lots of love 💕

  • @TexasbyStorm
    @TexasbyStorm 3 роки тому +1

    My husband isn't the bio dad of our children. I see him in them every day. Facial expression is just as learned as it is genetic and the way my son and husband act like the exact same person is clearly from my husband's influence on him growing up. I know all of it is so hard and its stifling. Praying for you as you continue thru this journey.

  • @kellyjackson86933
    @kellyjackson86933 3 роки тому +3

    I had my son through donor embryo after 6 years of infertility, multiple failed ivf attempts, failed egg donor. My husband and I finally decided to do embryo donor and also was on an immune protocol of intralilid infusion, prednisone, lovenox and neupogen. Not sure if it was just because it was a donor or a combo of that and those medications but my little one is now 6 months old and so many people say he looks just like my husband. I pray you get your miracle ❤

    • @TimandCeleste
      @TimandCeleste  3 роки тому

      Congratulations on your sweet miracle. Thank you for sharing and for your kind prayers ❤️

  • @sarahsherrod2012
    @sarahsherrod2012 3 роки тому +1

    Bless your heart Celeste...I pray this works for you and Tim. I can’t imagine the heartbreak and heartache. I’ve shared before I myself suffered a loss 16 years ago, but went on to carry 2 beautiful baby boys. I’m not saying that to brag, I’m saying that to give you hope. With all that’s going on here in the states, it’s easy to not realize what others are going thru around the world. Some are just trying to simply have a baby. I pray this is your year and that you get blessed with a beautiful child. You deserve it. God Bless you and Tim. 💙

  • @soniapb7456
    @soniapb7456 3 роки тому +1

    Cheering you on as you bravely move forward! Much love, from the mom of a donor embryo baby.

  • @giselleroman2140
    @giselleroman2140 3 роки тому

    Tim and Celeste your strength as individuals and as a couple is endearing. Your ability to be honest and show others how hard these discussions are is essential. I hope 2021 will be the year that your mum heart is filled, but I'm glad you can find support through us and social media, let us be your backbone when you don't have the strength to keep going. We sincerely care for you and hope all your dreams come true.

  • @rebekahmiller5521
    @rebekahmiller5521 3 роки тому

    You are such an inspiration! I have just found your channel because this video popped up in my feed. You are spot on about all of the emotions and grief that come with the donor embryo route. And I cried at the end when you said it’s perfectly normal to feel both joy and sadness. We’ve been trying for 8 years and have never been able to conceive a genetic child. I’m going for my first FET with donor embryos in February. I totally get the feeling of being afraid to be hopeful. I’ve had so many disappointments that I’m afraid to even get my hopes up. I wish you all the best and I hope 2021 brings your baby to you. ❤️ I am in the states and a resource that has been very helpful to me is the nightlight snowflake adoption webinars here on UA-cam. They cover a lot of the questions embryo recipients may have and they give sound advice about being realistic with yourself and the grief process. I highly recommend for anyone going the embryo donor route.

  • @frodolover58
    @frodolover58 3 роки тому

    As an adoptive mother (we brought our son home at 2 weeks old), you will love that child more than life itself. We couldn’t care less where he came from. Unfortunately I have Turner Syndrome and other issues which made donor embryos a failure for us, but what a blessing to be able to carry and birth your child! Science is incredible.

  • @robatubble
    @robatubble 3 роки тому +1

    Sending you so much love and support. It feels like constantly sitting in a waiting room, waiting for life to start.
    I feel your fear and pain to my core. We just miscarried our last embryo on New years day. This isn't our first loss. I'm feeling so broken and lost after almost 6 years of IVF. It's hard to know the next right thing to do, it's hard to keep looking forward.

    • @pebblesbammbamm9891
      @pebblesbammbamm9891 3 роки тому

      I’m so sorry for you loss! Sending love and hugs ♥️🌈

    • @nebraska418
      @nebraska418 3 роки тому

      💔 I am so sorry. Sending kind thoughts and support to you

  • @sj2451
    @sj2451 3 роки тому

    You have both truly persevered - your resilience will pay off. The comment section highlights how much admiration people have for you. You will overcome this. P.s yours is the only UA-cam channel in which I happily allow ads to play in the hope each little bit of revenue will help.

  • @JadeSmithreviews
    @JadeSmithreviews 3 роки тому +1

    I’m praying for both of you that your egg donation journey finally gives you your long awaited baby! Regardless of genetics I think once your precious baby arrives it’ll be worth everything you both have been through and more... sending love from Scotland ❤️

  • @gothrockfairy
    @gothrockfairy 3 роки тому

    I hear so many wonderful things about embryo adoption. A lot of them result in healthy pregnancies and babies. I’m really hoping 2021 is your year! It has to be! 🌸

  • @julie-annerothfusz2388
    @julie-annerothfusz2388 3 роки тому

    Your love for a beautiful creation of a baby that you are able to hold and love and give your life for will make you a Mommy, not how you genetically got there. I watch your videos often and you amaze me. I did my own rollercoaster ride of IVF in South Africa with eventual success after 5 years. I understand the heartbreaking. But you inspire me. You will be a Mommy!

  • @bethanyhedberg1993
    @bethanyhedberg1993 3 роки тому

    What an emotional decision... We almost did this at at one point and it is hard. But I think it's the right one. I hope and pray this is your and Tim's year... You are so sweet and kind and I can't wait for you to have your miracle after all your heartbreak. ❤️

  • @Heartlandforever14
    @Heartlandforever14 3 роки тому +1

    My husband and I decided to pursue embryo donation/adoption after five years of infertility. It has been a process but we are getting close to doing our first transfer. I feel like I have some hope again! I wish you and Tim all the best moving forward. I have been following you since 2016 I think, and hope so much that this will work out for you. You have been such an encouragement to me on our journey. Even though my husband doesn't watch, he knows who you are as well because I have shared with him about your journey so often! Sending love and baby dust ❤️✨

  • @kimsoto7665
    @kimsoto7665 3 роки тому

    Thank you so much for having the strength to keep posting videos. I am in the exact same situation in our journey. Some days I feel like I have the strength for egg/embryo donation and some days I don’t. So many emotions like you said. Please keep posting your journey as it gives so many women the strength to move forward and not give up.

  • @harrietknighton6303
    @harrietknighton6303 3 роки тому

    Sending you and Tim all the love and success in the world for 2021. I can’t imagine having to go through fertility struggles for 7 years. I’m currently 3 years into the hard work that is TTC and suffered a chemical pregnancy over the new year. Thank you so much for sharing your story and being so open. Ladies like you make me feel more normal with regards to my pain and emotions. Much love and hope from the U.K. xxx

  • @tourdestrantz
    @tourdestrantz 3 роки тому +2

    We will always be in your corner Celeste. I know this was not an easy decision. Sending love and prayers to you both as you embark on this next step in your journey.

  • @amysingh9848
    @amysingh9848 3 роки тому +3

    We haven’t heard from you in a while I keep hoping to see a video where you have adopted 😍 hope you are well

  • @crystalbethseizetheday8669
    @crystalbethseizetheday8669 3 роки тому

    Hi lovely, no pressure I just have been thinking about you. I’m on the same journey, different events but same story. I don’t want you to feel pressure to come back or talk, I’m just hoping that you are ok. You’ve gone through so much and you are so strong and real inspiration to get me through when I can hear you talking about things like this which I would find so hard to do, I think it’s so brave and such a wonderful gift for people like me to learn more and feel less alone. That you would do that for the world whilst going through so much was amazing. If you ever need to jump off we will understand your health and happiness is priority. Just wanted to say hey, hope you’re ok, and I’m just sending you all the love and good thought I have. X

  • @alisonorigel573
    @alisonorigel573 3 роки тому +4

    You and Tim are such a beautiful couple. I have always told you God has the perfect baby for you. You have been in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you all the luck. 💕

    • @kelleyryanvlogs
      @kelleyryanvlogs 3 роки тому

      Could not agree more- could have said this myself. Beautiful.
      🤍🤍🤍Kelley and fam

  • @pinksinger224
    @pinksinger224 3 роки тому

    Just letting you know, I was thinking of you and Tim today! I hope you guys are able to find joy and blessings in each day! Wishing you a happy day! ❤️

  • @seeinglinesttc8599
    @seeinglinesttc8599 3 роки тому

    I cannot imagine the amount of advocating you have had to do for yourself with specialists who have different opinions on immunology. You are so strong! I have heard great things about embryo adoption! Sending good vibes and baby dust your way!! ❤️🙏

  • @littlehouseinthebigapple5716
    @littlehouseinthebigapple5716 3 роки тому

    I really appreciate how you laid out the reality of the choices some families have to make in this journey. I know we are not alone in having thought one cycle of IVF would be the extent of what you had to endure. We had one lucky embryo, but before that we had that breaking point of having to discuss next steps or even harder, a possible stopping point. It's so hard because we both wanted to consider moving on and didn't want to let go at the same time. And in part, I think both of us wanted to talk each other around to giving it one more chance. Just talking about your thought process is going to help so many people sitting in that same place. To know they aren't alone and to know that what they are feeling... the hope and fear and pain is normal under these circumstances. love to you both...

  • @soniacunha4077
    @soniacunha4077 3 роки тому

    You and Tim are such an inspiration to so many couples who are also experiencing infertility. You’re both so strong to keep on seeking that little family that you so long for, and i am hoping and praying that you and Tim get that very soon. I have watched your journey from the very start and I see just how much pain and suffering you have been through, but you always seem to find the strength and keep on kicking infertility in the butt. Lots of love ❤️

  • @LymieMama
    @LymieMama 3 роки тому

    You have been through so much and it sounds like this has been SO much to process and work through both of your feelings on all of these options. It sounds like donor embryos could be a great, albeit very different, way for you to finally have your baby! We have 3 frozen embryos left from our IVF cycle and we have considered donating them and seeing your side of things makes me feel more compelled to take that route when we’re ready. Sending you so much love. ❤️❤️

  • @denasmolins5938
    @denasmolins5938 3 роки тому

    I think this is a great decision and once you start, some of those questions and unsure feelings will vanish. You will be literally the nurturer from inception and your love will surely envelope and develop a beautiful baby. All my love and prayers.

  • @CrystalRichardson6684
    @CrystalRichardson6684 3 роки тому

    Your are beautiful & strong. May 2021 fill your arms & belly 😊with the sweet baby you have so longed for. You have endured so much on this 7 year journey & are so deserving of a happy ending. I think you & Tim are making the right choice ❤️

  • @angelaa983
    @angelaa983 3 роки тому

    With all that you’ve been through you’ve maintained such grace and beauty. I wish you and Tim hope and encouragement and above all success in your next journey to family. I admire your strength and honesty. This is truly exciting and I’m so hopeful for you. New year plus new plan equal new hope.

  • @anastaciazara1787
    @anastaciazara1787 3 роки тому

    I'm so excited for you and Tim! I hope you get to start 2022 as new parents! I used donor sperm to conceive. It's not the same situation as you, but I understand the emotional process you must go through - grief, loss, resentment, anger, disappointment, fear, etc. that come with using donor genetics. One of my best friends used a donor egg, and another friend is going through the emotional process of transitioning to donor embryo. Point being, you're not alone. Once you get past all of the negative emotions associated with using donor genetics, you'll feel this incredible wave of relief come over you. It's so wonderful to finally be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel that you've always known was there, but you didn't know how much further away it was. Baby dust to you!!

  • @emerald_rabbit
    @emerald_rabbit 3 роки тому

    I'm so sorry that you've had to walk such a long and difficult path to parenthood. I feel hopeful that this decision will bring you the baby you've always wanted, but working through those other emotions has to be very tough. I'll be praying that you have peace that surpasses understanding as you and Tim move forward!

  • @foreveraday8560
    @foreveraday8560 3 роки тому

    I have watched your videos from the start & It never fails to amaze me how even when you are going through hard times you still take the time to help lift others up. Your words & posts are a light on those dark days and has helped so many of us feel less alone 💖
    I hope with all my heart that this is your year to have all your dreams come true! 🌻

  • @emu9520
    @emu9520 3 роки тому +1

    My friend is going with donation. She said’ my blood will run through the baby’s to keep them alive. It brought her great hope and peace in her decision

    • @kelleyryanvlogs
      @kelleyryanvlogs 3 роки тому

      Oh my goodness that gave me the goosebumps- how beautiful 😭😭😭😭
      Absolutely 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

  • @cdesjardins1988
    @cdesjardins1988 3 роки тому

    I will continue to pray for you and Tim as you enter a new journey towards parenthood! The rainbow baby will soon come and light your world! Love sent you and Tims way. ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🙏

  • @amandayarbrough4599
    @amandayarbrough4599 3 роки тому

    I am so happy to see this video. Your donor embryos will be some lucky embryos. We thought about this route as well and it is an amazing gift. I am so much hope for you and Tim and soon you will have your baby in your arms! Just take it one day at a time even though it's so hard thinking about the future after all that you guys have gone through. Again, I am so happy for you guys!! Congrats on being an Auntie...you're next hun!

  • @leanneadams2549
    @leanneadams2549 3 роки тому

    Celeste. I don’t know how in the world I care so much for a woman that I’ve only met on these videos but my heart is bleeding for you !!!! SO ! Wipe those tears girl ! Breathe. Put your game face on and get your baby THIS year !!!! ❤️🙏

  • @taliandzelda5006
    @taliandzelda5006 3 роки тому +1

    I am so sorry for your struggle. It has to be heart breaking, I would advocate Embryo Adoption. God bless you. Sending hugs.

  • @KellySmelly12
    @KellySmelly12 3 роки тому

    You are so strong. I think about you a lot as we have started our own infertility journey and hope to have as much strength as you. Praying for you every day xx

  • @bethcoopho2624
    @bethcoopho2624 3 роки тому +8

    i went thru this and gave up. I finally was licensed for foster care/adoption and now just waiting! Its so weird theres a crib in my house lol . i give you credit but im almost 43 and dont want to wait anymore

    • @jennifers2017
      @jennifers2017 3 роки тому +1

      Good luck!

    • @kelleyryanvlogs
      @kelleyryanvlogs 3 роки тому +1

      Prayers for your journey and for the perfect kiddos to land in your home
      🤍🤍🤍🤍Kelley and fam

  • @cassiforest9191
    @cassiforest9191 3 роки тому +2

    I'm so happy you have a plan.
    I think if I was in your situation I would also have gone down the donor path as well.
    Sending you love from the US.

  • @RitaGreen
    @RitaGreen 3 роки тому

    I'm an embryo donation recipient and I think it's a beautiful thing. Praying you get to your babies❤️

  • @sarahgiles5288
    @sarahgiles5288 3 роки тому

    You have so much strength. I pray that this is your year. You deserve it xxx

  • @melissal4682
    @melissal4682 3 роки тому

    We did our first IVF this month, 8 follicles, 4 eggs, 2 fertilise, our number kept dropping, hopefully we get an embryo. Hang on there Celeste you will get your lucky star soon. This is our journey together, wishing for a healthy baby 💕 lots of love all the way from NZ.

  • @Georggia1299
    @Georggia1299 3 роки тому

    I whole heartedly hope and pray that 2021 brings you and Tim nothing but joy and happiness xx

  • @karal5188
    @karal5188 3 роки тому

    My brother and his wife had their son through embryo donation and are about to have another genetic sibling from the same donor. I have never seen them so happy and their hearts so full. Thinking of you guys because it would not be an easy decision to have to make xo

  • @pdore96
    @pdore96 3 роки тому

    God bless you both. You are such an inspiration! Yes it is OK to feel auntie joy and mama sadness at the same time. Prayers that you will be blessed with a baby soon.

  • @carliemichalak5682
    @carliemichalak5682 3 роки тому +3

    There’s nothing that rips a heart out more than holding a newborn when you can’t have your own baby.

  • @polkaroo69
    @polkaroo69 3 роки тому

    You have been through an entire season of storms, and I truly believe the light is just starting to shine for you and Tim. It’s hard to recognise when you’ve had your heart broken so many times. It’s hard to trust, blind faith is out the window as our eyes are opened to the harsh realities that can be. The one thing that has truly gotten me and my husband through our 6+ years of infertility to our daughter, was the belief that we were somehow meant to go down that path we did...
    Perhaps you were meant to meet Ayla and Caleb and their beautiful Nova especially, so that your heart could heal from letting go of genetics. You are completely valid in feeling the way you do, every bit... but I promise you... when you hold your little dream in your arms, everything else will melt away. Sending you so much love and support... hugs from Canada ❤️

  • @niinakukkola6150
    @niinakukkola6150 3 роки тому

    So sorry you have to make these tough decisions. We are here with you, rooting for 2021 to be your year. Sending all the love from cold cold Finland.

  • @candicewillis6682
    @candicewillis6682 3 роки тому

    Oh my heart is so full.. I think embryo donation is a wonderful idea and you'll have such a great choice of couples to choose from. I would give you two one of mine in a heartbeat (if I had any!). Sending so much love to you as we start our second cycle. ❤

  • @PugsInARug
    @PugsInARug 3 роки тому +1

    Thinking of you and Tim, I hope you both are well.

  • @charlenepatton4052
    @charlenepatton4052 3 роки тому

    You are such a lovely person. I dont mean no harm when I say, "you and Tim should adopt". You have so much heart and sole a baby however you deliver it would be such a blessing. There is no shame in filling your home with an adopted baby. Best wishes to you and your family. So sorry to hear of your dad's illness.

  • @charlotteotoole8200
    @charlotteotoole8200 3 роки тому

    Celeste! I'm so excited for you guys! Those arms and that mumma heart will be so happy and full and I can't wait to see your family adventure begin and unfold as your anxieties and grief fades and your excitement (and belly) grow. Thanks for the UK shout out 🇬🇧 it's pretty grim here in Kent but brighter times can't be far away ☀️

  • @melissalong7169
    @melissalong7169 3 роки тому

    Thank you for continuing to share your story. I pray this is your final path to the baby you have waited so long for.

  • @MK-yi6qo
    @MK-yi6qo 3 роки тому

    I first and foremost wish you healing. You have both suffered so much and it is so unfair.
    I wish you all the best for this journey ahead. Rooting for you and your family 💕

  • @klimtkahlo
    @klimtkahlo 3 роки тому

    Just thought of you and came to rewatch this! Same with the auntie heart! I call my twin niece and nephew my heart children! I am their heart mom! But I too would wish for my own genetic baby! Miss you and hope you are well!!!

  • @kaytiemyers2698
    @kaytiemyers2698 3 роки тому +1

    Genetics means so much less than you think.....You deserve a baby,a child,an addition to your life and love and family. Once that rainbow is here the genetics will never matter. It will shock you the similarities you'll see even when you know that's not genetically possible. I'm speaking from experience. I still completely validate your journey though and I recognize this has not been an easy decision for you guys,because nothing about infertility is easy. Hang in there and I truly hope 2021 brings you that baby!!

  • @Bananaslushies
    @Bananaslushies 3 роки тому

    Celeste you are a beautiful soul, your rainbow is waiting for you and I pray that you reach that rainbow in 2021, you are not alone. There is always hope, I am thankful you still have hope

  • @bmoatts
    @bmoatts 3 роки тому +1

    I pray that this new path with lead you to your earthside baby. I have hope and excitement for you that this is a wise decision and takes away all the major reasons your transfers haven't resulted in a live birth before, but I also know this is scary as it's still no guarantee and not exactly what you imagined when you and Tim set out to grow your family. I hope when you finally meet him or her the love in your heart will tell you that you were meant to be that baby's mother and they were meant to be your precious child. And then maybe one day you and Tim can visit Ayla and Caleb in Canada and all your babies can play together and there will be extra sweetness and community in your bond with them. Praying that all the details fall into place in a way that brings you peace and hope and ultimately finally joy and success. 🙏💜

  • @emu9520
    @emu9520 3 роки тому

    You are incredible. Your honesty and vulnerability . You are so strong 💪🏼. Going through recurrent miscarriage myself . It’s utterly crap

  • @FF-pu1yo
    @FF-pu1yo 3 роки тому

    I hope whatever decision you make it brings you a peace of mind . I just wanted to share you my story . After 5 years of infertility we finally got pregnant with our last embryo and now I have the most beautiful boy in the world that I am so grateful for . However infertility really take tolls on relationships and even though my hubby supported every decision I made I felt like he was very emotionally detached in the last few years . I think he reached the point that he was numb about everything and I felt like I was trying for just myself and he wasn’t really in it %100. I feel like now that we have a beautiful baby I hate him sometimes for how he was so emotionally disconnected and that I’m so emotionally exhausted that I don’t want him around anymore . I just hope that you take time to heal and look out for yourself and your hubby . I just couldn’t stop trying as in my head I couldn’t accept defeat and not having a baby . it just consumed my mind so much that I feel like I took on too much when I had to stop and just look after myself . You seem like a strong woman Celeste and remind me a lot of myself just make sure hubby is on the same page x

  • @xunicornskiesx7591
    @xunicornskiesx7591 3 роки тому

    Thanks for sharing your journey Celeste - Such an honest, raw and emotional account of what this rollercoaster is really like. However your little one comes I hope it’s soon. Thinking of you and sending positive thoughts and wishes your way. Keep believing that all things happen for a reason (though I know that never makes it easier). Maybe there’s a little soul out there who needs something that only you and your husband can give, maybe they’re waiting just for you. Sending you support going forward in your grief and hope for the future xx

  • @joseyspraggins6114
    @joseyspraggins6114 3 роки тому

    Lots of prayers and love sent to you! I cannot imagine how difficult of a decision it was. Am excited to keep hearing about your journey and hopefully 2021 finally brings us our babies earth side!

  • @joancorcoran8438
    @joancorcoran8438 3 роки тому +3

    We have a beautiful baby from donor embryo. I struggled with the decision while my husband who was adopted didn't. We tried for 16 years. 2 transfers didn't work. Next one was a chemical pregnancy but finally after a hysteroscopy gave us our miracle. Wishing you every good wish. I sent you a instragram message previously. Reach out if you want to chat.

    • @kelleyryanvlogs
      @kelleyryanvlogs 3 роки тому +1

      What an incredible testimony 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 praying that Tim and Celeste get their miracle this year 🤍🤍🤍