Alcoholic Sex Worker-Jessica
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- Опубліковано 1 лип 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Jessica, a stripper and prostitute who struggles with alcoholism.
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I honestly had hope for this girl and then I saw on FB she passed away. As a recovering alcoholic of more years than she was alive, I know how difficult and shame filled the hole of alcoholism can be. Every minute of every day is spent in dread of how you know your day will end. I'm currently sober 2+ years and never looking back. I've learned that when I focus on the past, I'm controlled by shame. When I focus on the future I'm controlled by fear. I focus on my now because that's the only thing I have. My now is what defines me. I could've easily been Jessica in a thousand different ways. Mark, you allowed her voice to be heard. Her fears to be shared. Her burden to be lightened. At least for a brief moment in time. I'm so grateful for your channel. You give a voice to those who otherwise would remain in the shadows. RIP Jei Bee. You mattered.
Great work on your years sober you deserve it.
@@mattberg6816 thank you! 👍
Glynda, congratulations on your sobriety!
@@garyhoe466 thanks! Just passed 2.5 years. Nothing but up! ODAAT
So Sorry to Hear she Passed :(
They should really show this guys channel in high school and let people see the cause and effect
K G I just looked her up !!!!
I Agree.
@@rebeccaowusu7173 you see what I mean
WalkUpChalkUp Gang I’m gonna assume he found her at a rough patch in her life and she got better because I’d hate to see folks coming up on her lying for UA-cam !!!!! He fb says otherwise
@@rebeccaowusu7173 naw she ain't got better she scamming i see her all the time she lives in a big ass house on the same block as my sister
I’ve learned from watching these videos that when kids aren’t cared for they are sitting ducks for predators.
You are correct.💯
It's disgusting that there are people that prey on the vulnerable but it's a sad reality ☹️
I feel for this girl. Somebody tell her about Jesus. He loves her.
The lack of care and love also creates the predators.
Yeah when their parents dont guide, gove them direction, a predator will have them follow.
“School was my get-away.” THIS is why I’m a teacher. Because so many kids have a safe place away from their messed up homes for at least a part of the day with someone who genuinely cares about them as a person. I think a lot of people don’t realize this aspect of school. It means the world to me.
@Tula Bear You are an awesome teacher to be so intuitive. Good work. I'm a caretaker who often calls Kids' Helpline when an on site minor appears to require it. Last week I waved my hand near a child and he cringed and tightly closed his eyes 😢
Thank you for your service in education
Do you indoctrinate your kids into Communism and victimhood and teach them to hate their own country?
@@JohnSmith-su3ze didn’t you read the line about how she collects everyone’s lunch money and divides it evenly between the students? 😫 if you’re so concerned about what’s taught in schools it’s never too late to get a teaching degree. Go fight it on the front line rather than in the youtube comments section of a channel about how we should have compassion for and support people
@@mattberg6816 There is no fixing our corrupt Communist school system
Every time she mentions or hears about “family” she breaks down and starts crying. You can seriously tell that’s where she hurts the most and struggles the most.
What’s really is even more sad is she is truly an alcoholic... she even said she doesn’t want to give it up /:
Yes she knows were the problems are. She just doesn’t know HOW TO DO IT OR GET THERE! I work with street kids. She is saveable she just needs the right help&support!! And YES SHE IS STILL HURTING ABOUT NOT HAVING A FAMILY SUPPORT SYSTEM. As she stated she does have family just they are NOT CLOSE! So that’s why she feels so alone. And she looks to the streets for 💕 LOVE! this will go around &around until SHE WANTS TO GET &ACCEPT HELP! The drinking is I think the biggest problem .
Your totally right, having a support system especially with a family that still loves you and really cares for you helps a lot. It helped me I'm recovering and I'm loving myself to the fullest now, I can't lie I went back plenty of times back todo the same things that destroyed me but now I'm seeing I have so much potential and this is about me but then again it isn't all about me, people look up to me and love me so I must do right cause changing my life I can change others with my story and that's what motivates me more.
Juan gutierrez @AMEN MY BROTHER!✊🏾👏🏼 first congratulations on your recovery! Second I look up to you!!! Third yes you did it for YOURSELF!! 👏🏼👏🏼 but like you said you have family and now people that look up to you. Yes yes my brother like you said u had a few slip ups were you went back! BUT YOU LEARNT FROM YOUR MISTAKE!! YOU PICKED YOUR SELF UP!! And picked your self UP AGAIN!! NOW LOOK AT YOU!! There is no stopping you!! Never look back, as your pass does not define you!! 🙏❤️ your family is PROUD OF YOU! YOUR PROUD OF YOUR SELF!! I AM PROUD OF YOU!! Hats 🎩 off to you my brother. You can do ANYTHING YOU PUT YOUR MIND&HEART 2! I wish nothing but the best for you& your family. With your story YOUR TRUTH !! U WILL HELP MORE PEOPLE THEN YOU KNOW. So my brother keep on keeping on!! ✊🏾 sooo proud of you!! see you did this!!!! AMEN! 🙏 sending Love&Prayers to you&your family. Stay safe! God bless! Love from Toronto Canada 🇨🇦🙏❤️
Somebody please help this young woman. Give her a place to sleep and shower and eat. There has to be someone feeling like I do that has the resources to help her with getting help and adopting her into a family. I wish I had what she needs. She cries every time she mentions family. I’m so sad watching her😢
You can just tell that she’s tired of this lifestyle and wants help but doesn’t have a good support system
‘It’s the American way’
I offered her one 🔥
You're welcome too ...'Brad From Carolina' channel is a ministry with a powerful community in the live chat.
Good way to find your way, Lost.
🙏🏻❤👊🏻
She's not tired....she just said she rayher prostitute herself than strip and pay taxes even tho she has no bills. Sounds like she's okay with it to me
datchiq-kae did you watch the video? she’s clearly not happy with the life she’s living she has goals of opening a restaurant etc but has no support to do this
I'm getting tired of my lifestyle to and I'm only 44...
When she said "Growing up I didn't have anyone. I dont have anyone."
I felt that. That hit hard
Yes very hard! I feel her pain. 🥺💔
I also feel her pain 😥
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0:45 School was her safe place. My heartbreaks for all the children that, due to covid, are isolated and suffering because they can’t go to school.
This pandemic will see more people suffer from mandatory isolation than the virus itself.
Melissa B I Thank God for school, both my parents were physically abusive... and my dad was also sexually abusive. School was my place of peace
well dying from the virus presents itself as the first threat, the mental health affects will definitely come in time...but immediately I am concerned about the virus for my kids. Of course children in abusive households it is more immediate because they are overdue from being removed from their homes in the first place. But if you have a "normal " household, the virus feels like the most immediate obstacle.
School was where I went 2 hv fun. Home was my parents yelling & fighting. We never knew what 2 expect. I got a bad grade & I was Grounded for the entire semester. It's not like I was allowed 2 go much of anywhere when I wasn't grounded. So I just went to school 2 enjoy the freedom of not being abused. A class clown who didn't take classes seriously because no matter how hard I tried, it wasn't going 2 b good enough.
I worry about the kids eating when school's not in session.
@aryianna Powell mental health is just as an important as physical health just be thankful all you have to worry about health wise is COVID
@AandA You're telling the truth.
Girl, you can do it. You’re only 28. And you are smart. You can do it. Get your cleaning business. Get your restaurant. You don’t give up girl 😘
One step at a time, one day at a time. Focus on AA and begin your best new life. We are worth it!
She said she was 30 not 28.
@@emanualcarr7408 actually 29 😃
she's 27
@IVELINA How do u know?
SHE CRIES WHEN SHE MENTIONS HER MOTHER AND FAMILY.... SHE'S BROKEN IN THE WORST WAY
I totally felt her on this. Anyone can be a mom, but if that mom doesn’t give you direction, make you feel good about yourself and is just a POS to their kids , it’s neglect and leaves you feeling like nothing and no one can be trusted and life is worthless. I felt her when she kept saying “I have no one , no one”
Her Facebook is Jei Bee she is a liar
WalkUpChalkUp Gang
The one on fb has a tattoo under her chin, she doesn’t
WalkUpChalkUp Gang ain’t nigga
@@lenal8314 I know this girl man i grew up wit her in Inglewood and she is lying for the money she is a scammer
"Alcohol and drugs will convince you that you can't do anything without it." -Joe Walsh
So true
This is true af
First time hearing that quote. I thought I’d heard them all. 100% true.
And the thing about opiates/painkillers is that they work
Amen the only drugs booze especially can convince you you're 👌 and something wrong with people places and things if only they would be as I wish I'd be alright been there she's still has a chance!! I was 32 when I finally got sick and tired of being sick and tired!! She'll need to want to live more than she wants to die!! I 🙏 she's gets the help she needs a beautiful young woman with a story to tell she's made a beginning she's speaking to the world it's her story real or unreal 🙏 💕
People have children for their own selfishness, how about having a child and treat it like a blessing!
Daniël VB Amen. And after saying she has son she says she has no one. Very telling.
I've been saying this exact same thing for years. When I was raising my son (now 30), I used to observe other mothers that were just checked out and selfish. It used to frustrate me a lot.
@@nhlibra Thanks
Daniël VB yes facts
Ego children.
She’s a little girl in a 29 y/o body. You can turn it around but only you can do it. You won’t magically wake up sober. You gotta start caring for yourself
Make it your priority. She has nobody to tell her that she has to do this.
God anyone????
@@reddwing4368 doesn't exist
Rushia J she’s 30 some people don’t even make it passed 18 she’s blessed
@@fghfghsrtsrthsrthsrt5968 ok
But I think he does
For me
I m not religeous but very spiritual
Religion s
Man made
God's everywhere and everything
It I get ya
I didn t believe for a long time either
Then he saved me
And I realized he d been with me all along
I ve bee a criminal a junkie a violent perpetrator
And a victim of all forms of abuse
But I m happy and free today
With lots of work and God I achieved it
I have ptsd and some mental health issues but sober and alive
So
Thanks
This lady is gorgeous. I truly hope she finds her way . she has been through the mill it sounds.
I'll help her WIREDUPT.V4U@gmail.com
@@wiredupt.v9072 rofl you trying to bag her ahaha
Lol
@Jonathan Walker im sure youre a real fucking looker. Its always actually ugly men calling others ugly.
@Robert Britton and you need braces. Stfu uglass
I HATE when people say that because you're an adult, you should be able to get past your childhood. What do THEY know if they were never abused or abandoned or saw abuse?! What do they really know? I'm living proof that it does not work that way. To some degree I'm a functioning adult who has done well, but that hurt child will never leave me. Never.
The truth is most aren't 'past it', especially the people who tell you that. At best, they've just buried it and it's coming out in other parts of their lives, particularly relationships, and they don't even realize it.
@@vocexseta ❤
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Agree with you 💯
100%. I’m still struggling and always will.
Childhood Trauma...i feel her pain, her despair, hopelessness. She has said numerous times, "I don't have anyone". She is lost, and needs someone who can see her for the vulnerable lady, who is stuck as that young little girl, who only wanted to be loved.
Omg. Well said. I'm 2 seconds away from her situation
@@missmiss975 I hope your situation has improved.
I have become freaking hooked on these interviews man keep it up
I'm hooked on donating money and learning empathy.
Bobby Schaffer yeah thru my journey of getting clean I found service work and volunteering to help people to be very rewarding to me and I takes a whole lot for me to judge or at least look down upon someone for anything now as long as you and abusing kids in anyway at all or putting your hands on a woman who am I to say anything cuz I’ve been there to anyone struggling right now just know your an amazing person and you can do it whatever it is
im hooked on phonics…and crack. But mostly phonics
Having a stable home and loving parents will shape you for your entire life. Children are so impressionable. So many of these people in the interviews I’ve watched were failed so tragically by their parents. It makes me cherish more that I grew up in a stable home with both my mom and dad who loved and protected me
School was her only safe place, this is why the pandemic has been especially cruel to some school age students. School is where they found love and acceptance, poor kids, damn life can be hard!
Jess!! Congrats on your job at the pizza place! I'm so proud of you!! You're doing great, I promise!
shes dead
@Slim Arcane Z she passed away back in december 26, 2020 by overdosed
@@xcalypso4077 Oh my god :(
@@xcalypso4077 still making wise life choices all over the place
@@xcalypso4077 omg 😭
The lack of motherly love is deeply rooted . I hope she can find the healing, acceptance, and manifestation that she deserves. ❤️
This young woman hurts and longs for her family.
All women want a family. It’s their nature.
i think she is longing for what family represents, love, security, acceptance. it doesnt seem her family gave her that.
@@chriscurtis8344 all PEOPLE want a family.
Watched this interview and read the comments. Mostly supportive, which is great but some claiming she is a fraud etc. Well, since this interview she has died.
For those of you who claimed fraud and doubted, as i see on many of these videos. Your inability to have human empathy is a reflection of the society that ends up creating the tragic situations, stories and outcomes that this channel shows. They should not have to die to be believed. Take a good long look at your broken selves and realise, in another life, it could have been you.
Soft white underbelly - keep up the amazing work.
Very sad and rest in peace. Hoping you find the peace you never got to find in this life.
OMG, im watching this a year later. I feel so bad for her. I hope she is finally at peace 🙏
Wow. This poor girl broke my heart. “I have absolutely no one.” Just awful. This news is so sad.
I believed every word she said and when she was talking about her hopes and dreams I was routing for her !!! Rest In Peace sweet lady 🙏
As a Dad I just wish I could wrap my arms around these girls who've been cheated out of their childhood and somehow convince them that there are people in the world who care about them. It breaks my heart that they've been used and abused like they have. Jessica and others that he's interviewed didn't have to end up this way, all they needed was a little love and encouragement.
Excellent comment
Youre a good Dad.I wish I had that too
Your children are blessed to have a father like you. I was in an abusive relationship, and I called my father to ask him for help to get away from my abuser. He told me I need to suck it up and figure it out on my own. I had never asked him for anything in my life.
Please teach your daughters how to love and respect themselves and teach them how to set boundaries and never compromise on them. I was never taught any of this, and I ended up in abusive relationship after abusive relationship.
@@jewelsbarbie I'm so sorry Dads should PROTECT THEIR DAUGHTERS TIL THE DAY THEY DIE....YOUR Heavenly FATHER will never let you down...KNOW that
.GOOD LUCK
@@hoosierlady9500 thank you 🙏❤️
I truly admire her honesty. She says “I have a really bad drinking problem” which is rare to hear, even though that problem is all too common. I feel like she has sooooo much potential to get it together. But then again we aren’t seeing the problem she’s speaking of, and with a 7 year old son this problem has clearly gone on for a long time. Prayers to her
Apparently she has passed away.
As a mother, I could not ever even imagine treating my kid badly. So sad!
I just found your channel today and it is one of the best on UA-cam. Thank you for telling stories about forgotten people.
She broke my heart when she said “ Every time I think I know, I’m wrong “ poor baby... I hope she can get it together
I like her so much. She's the most relatable person on here that ive seen. Shes STRONG. you can tell. If you are that strong girl you can pull yourself up. Shes very much able to turn shit around. 💗💗💗💗 If you see this girl.. Don't give up
She passed away but I hope she got to read this it’s beautiful 🥰🥰
@@pureenergy3402 she died? how do you know?
@@pureenergy3402 Oh no. Did she really? When?
I used to feel like this girl and my family situation was VERY similar, I crawled out of the hole with spirituality, therapy, studying people I wanted to be like, and journaling... the sooner I realized that nobody was gonna love me until I loved myself the better off I was.
Facts.
Im in my journey as well and the only way out is how you said it
I'm 6 months sober, giving up was a nightmare...hallucinating, vomiting, shaking, not sleeping for 3 straight days. It was awful. After going through all that, I was told that there are drugs out there that prevent the craving and others that make you physically sick if alcohol is consumed...good luck girl, I hope you manage it
I know where she is coming from. I had a very traumatic, lonely childhood. I battled with alcohol addiction from my teenager years till I was 30. It's hard to know where to go or what to do when you have no one. She has so much potential, she just has low self esteem. She deserves happiness, she just needs help.
Alcohol is scary
All addictions are scary
there is help available.....it is called Sobriety through Recovery. She does not want it and know one can force her to get clean. It starts with her !
Booze was the one thing my mom used to kick my ass for. She knew I smoked weed for a reason so she didn’t necessarily leave it alone, she one day just asked me what’s wring. All addictions aren’t it, but being a drunk is heavy shit...
It's the gateway to Hell!! 👿
@@keciapowell4608 I agree meth is also another drug that is a gateway to hell
Pray that you get real genuine support out here 🙏🏽
I love how so many of these people at the end of the interview say they were not expecting such an emotional experience and how they feel better for having expressed their feelings and spoken their story. Mark you know you are doing something good for humanity when you hear that at the end.
Mark, thank you for these interviews - this one especially I felt really touched by.
I do have a completely different life than she has, but still could feel similaritys. Thank you Mark and Jessica for sharing your story.
Hope you get back on track, I feel you, keep it up.
Jessica please start fighting for yourself and your son! You do have someone, Your Son needs his mother. This is why in order to recover we must get out of our own heads, I know I used to feel sorry for myself and didn't think I deserved better and I was very selfish. Please get into recovery, praying for you🖤
She passed away in December 😢
She needs a strong mentor.
It would be great if she gave AA a try and got connected with a Sponser and also got into therapy.
What does a strong mentor mean and what can such a person offer too her?
She needs a Agent 😂😂😂
@@dirkdiggler1685 👎🙄
She needs a glass of water.
She looks so tired.. I wish there was a place where these women could stay without being on the street
Me too but women homeless shelters are not safe alot of drama goes on in there ppl stealing your stuff
Yes a safe place no sex fo money just be kind to women a shower and warm bed and warm meals.
Christel M exactly
Yeah, there is a place where she can stay. Your house
John Smith how about your house
Sweet Jessica.
I'm an alcoholic too. My heart breaks for you, beautiful soul. God bless
God bless YOUR soul
"People say I need AA, but I think I need counseling"
She needs rehab!
She very well may need outside counseling to deal with trauma, but she most certainly needs the 12 steps of AA. Sometimes rehab is good at first as well though
My gf went to rehab and was doing AA. I went with her to support her, jeez that was incredibly hard. I broke down listening to all their storys, it definitely seemed to work for them though! Half the ladies there were seniors and had been going for years.
Bill Jones I don’t remember it being a religious thing. But it was quite a while ago now. Is it normally religious? I didn’t think it was.
Rehab and AA are band-aids for the actual root of the issue ....
Which stems from childhood.
You can't recover an addict until you recover the inner child.
@Bill Jones no you don't need to profess a belief in a God.
It's about having faith in a higher power... That can translate to nature or the universe.
AA, ACoA and Alanon are all non secular and don't require a God.
I'm an atheist and a member of ACoA.
She’s Damaged but not yet Broken...... God Please Protect her and I pray she accepts you.....Jessica you will make it! In Jesus name... AMEN 🙏
EXPECT THABEST Amen 🙏🏽!
Yes, God please don’t keep damaging her just because she hasn’t accepted you. And please don’t think about breaking her. She has suffered enough.
God please don't break her? Are you serious? And God can't make her do anything, not even accept Him. God doesn't make people end up like her, Satan is the one. He works through others to help her destroy her life.
Talon Sharp thank you saw that too. It’s Satan and his minions who are doing the “damaging” our Father in heaven is long suffering He will wait for her. The Lord will never EVER violate anyone free will.
This girl is a liar, don't waste your prayers keep them for someone who deserves them, look up jei bee on fb.
This chick is full of shit
She was a sweet person. I never forgot her. Rest In Peace 🙏🏽
what happened to her? that’s sad
Are you talking Amanda?
Did Jess died
i did some research found her fb and it did say RIP no further details pertaining to her death tho
@@ShawnieTheUno what's her fb ? This jae bae?
I'm deeply saddened to read that Jessica passed. She had great potential I think. I was going to write her a message but now I see this. I'm so sorry Jessica. You deserved your dreams. 😢❤
So sad.
so so sad.....my god this woman deserved love
Mark, always coming in with listening ears and tissues for their tears. ❤
First of all hugs to Jessica! I am so glad you talked to Mark, it was clearly therapeutic for you. I could tell it made you feel better. Keep at, go talk to a therapist, you can do it!
Both my dad and oldest brother are alcoholics and I love them but they have broken the family. We are so enmeshed with one another we all need counseling.
I know Jessica can do it! Gonna pray for her.
I’ve been binge watching these videos and so many of these girls are so intelligent, well spoken, and introspective despite their traumas and addictions. So many are desperate to help themselves. As a society, as a country, we must find ways to help them. Jessica, I’m sending a virtual hug and sincere wishes that you get your cleaning business off the ground before too long. And then on to the restaurant!
I’m so sorry for this lady. How can someone be expected to know what to do if they’ve had any guidance. A previous comment mentions that she has passed away. That’s sad. All of us deserve a chance no matter what our life has been. Soft white underbelly gives the stories of those who don’t have a voice. Thank you. When I can I will be supporting your channel. You guys are doing what Studs Turkel used to do. He interviewed the regular folks and gave them a voice, just like you. Bless you and the folks you talk to. No one should be forgotten. 🙏
When she said “someone like me” it broke my heart.she seems honest; so she has great potential to have a better life.
It's so frustrating to hear the classic, I did this to screw up, so I did this thing to make myself feel better about screwing up. And then they drop the bomb in the middle of it that they have kid(s). The spiral of abuse is a merry go round that people very rarely get off.
Erich's Insight yeah the only ones I feel sorry for are the innocent children.
@@TaylorM6668 yeah and at one time she was one of those innocent children. Just feels like there's so many that grow up with no hope
@@TaylorM6668 So tell me, assuming that the cycle of abuse and neglect repeats into the next generation, at what point will you stop feeling sorry for the children and write them off as you do their mother? At what point are the children no longer innocent?
Laurie Herdman This grown ADULT is exactly that an ADULT who knows better. I stick by my original statement. They should also stop the abusive cycles by NOT having children. ✌️
@@TaylorM6668 people can't handle that apparently. The more poor and careless they are, the more unprotected sex they have. It's like asking a hungry person not to eat. They will never be able to handle having safe sex
Through out my covid lockdown here ive been binging on these interviews... and I hope it makes me a better father and person. Its opened my eyes not to judge folk so quickly cause you just never know
You're a beautiful lady & 29 is a good age to get sober for us alcoholics . It's encouraging to hear you mention A.A. There's some great ladies in A.A. who once felt or feel the way you do . You don't have to be alone . One alcoholic helping another . You have alot to live for & you are definitely worth it . May God keep you till then . Praying helps alot especially when we're down on our selves . ( Edited I just read comments that she died ). I'm sad . I will think of you to remember today maybe all we have to take a moment & not shy away from making contact in someone's life & extending a hand & a smile .. Or a tear
This is a Failed society 😔I wish the Best for her.
Praying for her!!
Amen
🤣🤣🤣
Your so awesome man... You come across so many amazing people who don’t have the opportunity... I wish I could help at this point, but I will definitely continue to strive to get to a position to help people the way that you do... This pain sucks really bad, but I keep watching and pushing to be able to do the type of things you do right now
Every single person on these videos needs a hug. Maybe some don’t deserve one, but everyone needs one.
You can tell she’s genuinely tired & she wants more out of life. She needs to learn how to celebrate her accomplishments. She has a job, most don’t she should pat herself on the back for accomplishing that milestone.
This is a prime example of the need for understanding and mercy. Lost souls, the hard- hearted, and those that are “criminals”, many truly never had support, love, and care. Babies that raise themselves. Imagine that. We can’t change the past, but we can be kinder to one another.
This channel needs to start allowing the viewers to help the ones that want out. Reaching out and communicating with them etc.
Sometimes when you drink repetitively it all goes by so swiftly and smooth you don’t even realize how badly you’ve hurt yourself. She needs a chance. 😔
I had to stop and say that's such an amazing comment, really hit me. It really sums up why recovery is so tough once you get past the physical withdrawals. You are left to think about all that damage, support is the only way you can start to heal
I truly pray you are able to "walk into the building" soon. If you work AA you will find the family you crave. I promise you that there is light and life out there for you.
Yes, she can do it. Choosing not to.
@@sarahdixon6011 ur timing 4 her isn't her time.
@@marylougeorge9890 You're right, occasionally I get frustrated with certain people on SWU I'm sure that says as much about me as it does about that person.
Sending love out to you Jessica. Everyone wants to be loved and wanted. We are all rooting for you to do better!
Your describing people not understanding your not having anyone resonates w me. It’s a terrible empty feeling and makes you feel unwanted unloved alone worthless at times, at least it does me. I’m so so so sorry you’re experiencing these things. Mark hit the nail on the head...stability. Support and love is absolutely something you need and deserve...you’re likely going to have to be that for yourself which is so hard to understand and really feel/get bc if you weren’t taught how do you know what self love is feels like means etc and then when you don’t feel worth anything it’s all the more confusing. It’s not as easy as people make it out to be. Ive heard it endless times too. I really have. I believe a way of going about it sometimes is just going through the motion, you may not be connected to it mentally emotionally etc but just do it, like a robot, until you get it, it will come to you, believe in the process 🙏🏽 and talking to someone you’re comfortable with and someone you believe in (LCSW therapist psychologist etc) is going to be extraordinarily helpful to you. You’re loved and cared for by a bunch of strangers I promise you that Jessica ❤️
Praying for her, she can turn this around she’s so young and has so much potential. So sad to see these people having to turn to these things to survive. Breaks my heart.
She does NOT have no one!!! She has a child, she has someone who has no one!!
Amen. Yell it again, for the b*tch*s in the back!
Yep my sentiments exactly xx
Sarah Dixon deep statement but sooo True
To you and the the people co-signing this comment you don’t know that. Her son is living with his father. So more than likely he has him. And he probably has a lot of people that love him of his fathers side of the family. His upbringing could literally be the total opposite of his moms. That’s a big assumption that y’all are making blindly.
Exactly!!!! You feel like no-one was there for you and didn't love you don't do that to your baby! He needs a healthy mom to love him and to love!!
I can relate to her so much. I had a son at the same age as her, I’m 4 years younger than her but I’m really lucky my parents help me out. She seems to have a really good head on her shoulders and I hope she gets the love and guidance she deserves. It sucks not knowing what the hell your are doing
At the end, she said "i kinda needed this." Damn, broke my heart
Being a alcoholic is rough but can be overcome with time..
Randy Ledford Can be overcome with Prayer and Action!
@@paranoidpreppa6038 prayers definitely..
@@hdeniro1106 well it's the easiest to get and cheap so alot suffer from it and I did myself. We all pick our own poisons.
Hill Banx why? Because mainlining crystal meth or heroin laced with fentanyl is “better”? I’m just curious. I did hard drugs and mainly switched to alcohol and although in a way I feel weak because of it some days, a numbing agent is just that. I feel where she is at, knowing what she needs to do, lacking the support or momentum to move towards it. If you read this, Jessica you can get there and find people to hold you up until you can hold yourself up. Alcohol will kill us if we continue to drink. I’m on a similar journey. I hope you can find a woman’s recovery house or long term treatment maybe..
@djbusdown well I just got out of ip. I relapsed on it 3 weeks ago I scored it in bmore and fell out pretty fast I can say that and it didn’t feel like my “old days” tastes it was pretty scary but apparently nothing is scary enough for some... I’m not sure what I’m thinking anymore
idky, but of all the interviews i am drawn to Jessica the most. she reminds me so much of my sister.
I want her to know her worth. I want her to know that she can change her life with just a little help. Everyone is so quick to say she needs rehab or AA, but therapy will touch the depression and the trauma. She needs to see the beauty that is within her
Yeah I agree. Therapy would be such a big help for her. A good start at least❤️
Kay Jeanae you made me cry with your statement. You are so right 💜💕 I want so deeply in my soul for this girl to change for the better and make the right choices in her life that will lead her back to her son with no chains or shame 💜🙏🦋
Jessica Bullock is a liar just look at her life on Facebook:Jei Bee
@@minibikemedia you dont know what a person is going through or what they have been through by what their social media says... she might have lied about some things... but doesnt mean its all a lie
@@kayjeanae919 she didn’t lie about anything westmontvtv is a troll trying to draw attention to his account. If anything she held back. A lot of the pictures on her face book are recycled and old as a lot of females do. R.I.P Jessica bullock.
She said she doesn’t think she’s STRONG ENOUGH to commit suicide but I think she’s strong for NOT committing
Your goals are more than realistic! Make posts on Facebook to do cleaning. You don’t need a whole lot to get it started. My aunt started her own cleaning business like 30 years ago. She went from nothing, to very comfortable. You can do it. I believe in you. There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel, even if you don’t see it, it’s there. It’s awesome that you have a job. It’s rare to see that on this channel. You’re blessed to have a job during this pandemic. I can definitely relate to you about your mother. My mom and I do not get along AT ALL. She has told me she hates me and wish she never had me as well. I moved out at 18 and was “stuck” in an abusive relationship for 3 years. Had a son with him. My mom is an addict. So I could never become how she is. After YEARS of suffering. Working shitty jobs, being abused by my sons dad. I escaped. I always have had anger and attitude problems so it has made it hard for people to love me. But I found my other half. We have a home and I have a decent job. I never thought I’d make it out. And I did. You can too. I promise
I like your positive comment !
Watching this girl breaks my heart. It makes my problems seem so silly. When she says she has these guys helping me, and starts crying, she knows they arent helping her. They are using and abusing her.
Yiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikes I can relate so badly. I remember getting into jail for public intoxication. That shit scared the shit outta me. I worked regularly for 3 years and lost my job now to covid so now I'm just floating. Man she really speak to me. I hope she pulls through!!!! Much luv to her!
Yup same . It was a message I needed to hear as well. Did you know she passed away too??? Sooo sad. Sending prayers her way still and forever ❤️🙏🏻 and to you too ☺️👍🏻
I cried when she talked about her mom hating her..she feels she has no one to love her .. heartbreaking how overwhelming her pain is.
I’m so happy I was strong enough to not fall on my dads foot steps . I was around drugs with friends but even at 15 I knew better to say no. . Now I’m happy still living with my parents to help them and help me save money for my own home . Stay strong everyone
She passed away a year ago
sweet angel needs a hug. you are beautiful, strong, smart, well spoken and loved by everyone out in the youtube world watching this
i hope this interview helps her do enough reflecting to get to a place where shes ready to become sober. im praying for her
God I feel so sorry for her she seems so sweet and genuine 💔
She needed this. She needed to pour her thoughts and emotions out. I hope this helps her gather herself and start a path to a better life.
Hey Bro... I feel like you showld hug these people when you finish the interview, a Hug is more medicinal than words... I just feel this is the only thing missing to this channel... Some people you just have to hug them. Love
She just looks empty .. completely drained and no emotions at all . She doesn’t show her personality or has learnt that she shouldn’t , so so sad
Spot on
Her story is similar to mine. My single mom and my step mom were both very crazy women (I don't blame any of them but it wasn't ideal for kids to be around them at times). I moved out at 15 and school was also my getaway. Had too many boyfriends and I was abused, but luckily I also had good people who helped me to grow up with more confidence.
I admire how honest and self-aware she is. She says she lacks confidence but honesty takes alot of courage which will take her far. You can do this Jessica!
I absolutely love this girl and relate to her so much. I'm on the cusp of homeless too and it's scary as heck. All you can do is try.
You're amazing ! You can do this! Life is absolutely brutal. It IS SO hard to get one's life off the ground and especially without support! Not everyone gets a paid education and home to stay while doing so. Or was born with mega brains and grit.
:(
She just needs an opportunity, a safe place to stay, some love and help.
We love you girl and know you have what it takes! Keep it up at the pizza place! Save your money and work towards getting a place and a cleaning job IS attainable!
We Love you and see your value even if you don't ♥️ Home or not you're precious.
I keep seeing comments about how these videos should be shown in high schools. As a high school teacher for 15 years, I'm here to tell you that will never happen. Even if every parent was ok with it (which will never happen) the school board would shut that idea down asap. I got in big trouble for showing episodes of Intervention in my high school health class during our unit on drugs and alcohol. Yes, some parents would be ok with it but again, that depends on where you live and when it comes to making something part of a curriculum, you're going to need a large majority of parents giving the "ok" and then the school board needs to also agree. A lot of you don't understand how many students in each class come from super religious families who demand that they preview movies before they're shown to their child and sex ed classes are taboo for them, as well as certain holidays. Yes, some teachers can show these videos but making it mandatory across the nation? Keep dreaming. I would love to see these videos as part of the curriculum but after the hell I went through after showing Intervention, I've let go of that idea a long time ago.
Why would the school board be opposed to including videos of this nature to classroom curriculum?
@@Inkironnrum everyone is a snowflake these days
@@monicapyle Turning a blind eye is leading children into a dark world.
@@Inkironnrum I
agree. it should be in schools. Unfortunately, others don't feel the same
@@monicapyle i have to wonder…if those who are in position of power within the school districts are mentally healthy. If they are not, then how can they make mentally sound decisions for children if they themselves are not mentally healthy. Which leads them incapable of understanding of, self awareness. Children are committing serious crimes and fatally harming themselves. Yeah, am beginning to believe the school system is partially to blame. Thank you for helping me understand.
Yikes California seems to be the worst...
It's bad everywhere, Mark is just shining a light on it in one spot in California. Look at his interviews of people in West Virginia. It is everywhere, all over the world...
KDubya W yeah I know...but it feels like most of it is in California.
California is pretty shitty and to add to that high rent. I hate it but to each its own!
That's why Joe Rogan is moving out
I love California im glad i live here i do not like people from NYC they talk a lot of mad shit about cali and brag about about their 5 Burroughs in NYC,Fuck NY AND NYC!
She’s very smart and she’s not gone so she can still turn her life around. I know it’s difficult, being that she hasn’t had any guidance, but she’s very aware of what she needs to change so that’s a start right there. I really enjoyed listening to her and some of the things she mentioned reminds me of my upbringing. I think counseling would definitely help like she mentioned. Stay strong Jessica! I know you can and will overcome your hardships ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I look and her and I listen to her story and it’s like I’m looking into a mirror that shows what my life could have been... I look at her and I see myself. If it hadn’t been for me becoming a mother at 19 and pushing to be the mother I never had, I would be this young lady right here. Bless her soul. I hope she sees her worth someday and fights for the happiness she deserves.
Its crazy to me How in America we charge Young women for being intoxicated and unconscious, us putting them in jail Will only make it worse, THEY NEED HELP
I agree, they dont need jail. I Honestly dont see too many intoxicated women going to jail..I see more men going to jail from being intoxicated on the streets..women tend to get more help especially when they're pretty.
Any one in general especially young kids.
Yeah for real because they are not harming anyone but themselves and then society is built to harm them because they are easy prey for this corrupt Jail/prison system just to make money for the people in charge by taking our money and put the inmate in misery while they take the money for themselves when they could easily put them in a rehab program and set them up. We need change! So much corruption, this is not what America is supposed to be like! This nation is built on a dream and it needs to take that dream back by getting rid of these cold blooded reptiles!
This should show you that our country doesn't actually serve the people the way it pretends to
Effort has to be put forth for a change to come about. Nothing is going to just land in ur lap. Do it for u/ur son Jessica. U have someone...him and he's waiting on Mommy to return for him in a better mental and physical capacity. 😘
Amen
That be the truth !!
Jessica, you said that you didn't know where to start, but this is you starting. At the end you said your really needed this, and there is so much truth to that. There are a lot of people out there that would say your honesty and openness helped them as well. Seek the help that you can get. Whatever is available. And remember that its ok to go to AA drunk. Ive done it before. They will accept u how u r, not just how u think u should be. Lots of love girl.
Oh, girl( Your family is your son . That’s what should bring to you a lot of motivation being a mother and you should. make the best for you and your son! Good luck and all the best to you and your son! I hope all things get better for you soon ! Thank you for sharing your story! Bless you!
She still has a chance. I'm happy she has a job and I think with the proper mentor she can get herself on her feet and in a better place. God bless her.
"A man, has as many masters, as he has vices". Saint Augustine.
True, but who pedals, profits, and Permits the"Vices"?
What does that mean?
It means that if you don't control your appetites, whoever controls the appetites will control you.
mizrel61 mizrel61 drug dealers, but there could be a billion drug dealers, but it’s up to the individuals to stop. So what you’re saying doesn’t really matter
Devansh Kamdar hahaha
Your presentations are always interesting and good. Thank you
I can relate to this.. in so many ways.. my heart goes out to you my love.. I'm estranged from my mother also. And I often feel so desperately alone at times. Hope and pray you find inner peace. We are strong and we can live our lives the way we see fit. I hope you get the support and help you need. You ate not alone 🙏Big hugs 🤗 xx
this is truly heartbreaking..
All addiction is bad. However, alcohol is straight up nasty. Alcoholics are some of the meanest, most destructive people there are. Not to mention it's one of the most dangerous addictions.
Ruined families for centuries! Definitely a downer in society
My Dad was an alcoholic who got sober in AA. He was sober for 21 years before he died. He was a kind, funny, smart & hard working man. I am not ashamed that he was an alcoholic. He was an orphan at 11 years old & was abused in foster care. My Mom who supposedly wasn't an alcoholic was physically abusive but I do not remember my Dad being physically abusive. Even when he was drinking. My brother is an active alcoholic but I know underneath he is a very good compassionate person. He hasn't hit his bottom. His wife has stayed & he has a phenomal job making 6 figures. His kids have lots of problems though. I went to Alanon for many years as an Adult Child of an alcoholic. Alcoholism is a family disease. I am currently a member of OA. I compulsively overate to deal with life. I never had a drinking problem. It wasn't for me. I think my Dad was the good example & my older brother a bad example.
This lol
There is nothing worse
Hmm I disagree.
Thank you for sharing all. It helps me in a way I don't understand
You really inspire me. I want to do interviews like this in Las Vegas but... I'm nervous and also not wanting to legit steal your work... but I think it's important to show the side of the city people openly banish without understanding it or caring about it. How much it costs all of us to support, etc.