I'm a recovering addict, I lost my husband this past February to an OD after he had been clean for 2 years. I refuse to allow it to ruin my life any further.
This song helps me remember to step back from the people that I thought were my friends, the ones who weaponized their trauma so that I would stay to help them and got mad at me when I did
She obviously has felt the pain of loss from this disease and this drug, you can tell from the way this is written. Clean and sober for 3 years, thankful for everyday.
This song means a lot to me, but in a different way. I was what my therapist calls a "parentified child". To me, this song is an anthem when I decided to stand up for, and take care of, myself first. My older sister says she feels the same way, and she is the one who introduced me to this song. Thank you Eva Under Fire
I can so relate to this song. My little sister was a meth user for 4 years. It was absolute hell. My mom would cry every night, my dad felt so helpless in trying help her. I finally had to break away from it all. I couldn’t save her and I was tired of my parents doing the exact same things with hopes they would be able to get her clean. She just celebrated 2 years sober. She finally decided to get clean cold turkey, on her own. If they don’t have the desire to change, then you can’t make them change. I’m so glad she chose to change.
Your absolutely right, if the addict doesn't want to change then its not gonna happen, they have to be ready to be sick & tired of being sick and tired on their own, Me, I've been heroin addict for over a decade, rehabs, jail, the worst withdrawals you can ever imagine, heroin, methadone, xanax, it was like I was going through a exorcism, it was that bad cuz withdrawal from all 3 at same time, but for 2 years I was good, since covid 19 hit, something brought it back to me and it got horrible all over again, what am I thinking, never start doing anything....the life of a addict is pure hell, & only 10% tidbits of pleasure . Not worth it. Walk away...
Everyone has their own demon they must face in life and if something has damaged them mentally, emotionally or physically then they are just finding ways to cope with their pain that they are going through whatever helps them find peace in their minds. It may cause them harm as well but it's a different kind of pain
@@uks20wwolf26 when people put themselves through something like that it isn't really about hurting themselves it's more of finding ways to help themselves with whatever they are running from even if it means puting themselves more in harm but for them it's a different kind of pain. The word prison isn't only just a physical barrier that surrounds people it could be mentally, emotionally or spiritual to where they feel they can never get out. They would talk to people about their issues but they believe nobody would ever understand what they are going through
Just saw these guys tonight! Got to meet Amanda, i took a picture with her. Told her she put on a good show, and that she was fire. She gave me a fist bump, and held her hand over her chest and said thank you so much. She is really nice :)
Just celebrated 20 years clean on June 6th. I'm 62 years old and the life I used to live was pure hell, but those who loved me suffered more than I did. They were watching me disappear right before their very eyes and they were powerless to stop it. I absolutely love this song!!
Just found out about a year ago that one of my closest friends is a recovering addict of heroine and meth and he's been clean for 16 years now. He has really opened my eyes to the damage it's caused. STAY STRONG you can do this.
Well I'm crying now. I didn't know this band existed, much less this song. So many people I loved are gone, and you just feel angry and helpless watching them slip away.
I TRIED... I TRIED... I TRIED... I TRIED... Her scream is so full emotion, so powerful, it gives me chills every single time I listen.. which is currently over and over again.
Ikr that verse itself those words!! I tried I tried i tried when my hubby was addicted to fetanyl I literally just got enlisted in the Army and if not for Tricare to pay for him to go to rehab I probably would have lost him, that itself was both our saving grace, I tried million ways to help you I tried to do what you want to save your day make you feel better and when nothings works I blamed myself I blamed him but now his clean and sober I never been happier for him.
Song's like this one gives me goosebumps all over. I'm also a recovering addict, clean for 2years and 6 months... My heart goes out to all addicts still lost in addition...
I thought I could not cry listening for the first time to a song of a band I did not know before. Today I was proven wrong. And it could not bother me less.
Lyrics: (I'm not your heroine) I'm not the person you knew yesterday I've been used, abused along the way This is the side of me you pierced with pain These are the hands that couldn't hold your shame I tried to hold on til I realized I can't save you, no I can't change you now Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine I can't save you, now break these chains yourself Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine (I'm not your heroine) You tried to make me take your pain away You tried enlisting me to be your saving grace I'm not responsible for your mistakes There's nothing I can do and you're to blame I tried to hold on slipping farther with time I tried to hold on til I realized I can't save you, no I can't change you now Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine I can't save you, now break these chains yourself Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine I tried a million ways I tried to save the day I tried a thousand more to try to walk away I tried, I tried I tried, I tried I tried, I tried I can't save you, no I can't change you now Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine I can't save you, no I can't change you now Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine I can't save you, now break these chains yourself Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine I tried, I tried I tried, I tried I tried, I tried (Heroine) I'm not your heroine
I have shared these guys to anyone I know that loves rock. Even my oldee sister in GA bought a CD🔥 Met and keep in touch from time to time WRIF'S (Screamin) Scott Randall. Shared with him in hopes of getting them heard even more. I know he can only do so much, but definitely worth the try. If ya's know someone in broadcasting etc. Put this bee🔥 in their bonnet lol Can't imagine anyone not loving them♥️🔥
It's tough when you want to save addicts you know and feel helpless when you can't. This song is deep.❤️❤️ I'll be sharing this with a few. If your still in the fight, keep moving forward.
Speaking as that person.. You can’t, much as you try, till we’re ready. You clearly made an impact though, and for of us resisting.. Our loved ones gave up, everyone gave up. Sometimes it takes only someone willing to cautiously trusting us.. it makes all thd difference. Since feb last year. I had someone like you.. Or I’d be certainly dead.
@@dustinburrows12 I’m the person that loved an addict still do, his clean now my husband was addicted to fetanyl it started with percasets( can’t spell Sorry lol..) but otherwise I feel this song altogether. “ You try enlisting me to be your saving Grace,” I was in the middle of enlisting and I come home for Christmas my in-laws and myself decided we find a rehab for him and that’s how him and I live in Florida now cause we left Baltimore it scares me we go back out there the people who you got it from you’ll be at it again I tried million ways to help him I begged I told him as your wife if I’m not good enough reason then do it for your kids do it for me. There’s times I got pissed felt like I’m not enough reason or your kids to get cleaned, I get an addict thinks differently but it was hard I tried walking and if not for Tricare to pay for rehab I would possibly lost him, there’s time I felt his addictions won his demons won.
After years of being with an addict I understand totally as I tried, and tried, and nothing can save him, even today his children can not saved him. Slamming song!
I was on that verge honestly til I cried and begged him to save himself for his kids even if I’m not good enough reason, it damaged me and made me severely insecured, til I enlisted in the Army last year and it mentally took a toll. Thankfully Tricare paid for his rehab it was a lot before 90% of it his addiction ruled, and I had no idea what I was doing and I didn’t know by making it worst I was at fault to enable it too, I literally tried and prayed for his entire balance but I can’t change him it’s not our job,only God can do that and the effort we put in the work most entirely God, all we can do I was literally depressed most of it cause of this reason sometimes we can only do so much.
I’ve never done any drugs but I love this song and hope that those who have gotten caught up in them can reach out and get the help they need to become sober and live their life again. Such a great and powerful song!
This song hits very close to home, not going into details but if someone doesn't want to help them self you can't help them and it tears you up inside.
I havent struggled with addiction of any kind but reading all the comments and realizing how many people struggled with it and were able to kick the addiction and get clean. You guys are an inspiration to me and everyone else. You guys are the real heroes and I thank you all
Don’t know what rock I’ve been under. Never heard of this band but seeing in concert tonight so had to check out. Definitely excited to see what they bring to the live stage after hearing this!
this song is so powerful and strong, hits the soul hard. Love this band, I am also in Recovery from Alcohol and Drugs. Clean and Sober since May 13, 2015. Completed a Diploma in Addictions and working in a Detox Centre to help the next person gain what I have. Thank you for this beautiful song.
This song gave myself and my sister the strange to finally walk away from our abusive toxic father, because we finally realized it wasn't our job to fix him
I am not a drug user, but I feel some personal connections to anything that this band puts out. It goes to show that no one is alone in suffering regardless of the circumstances. I cannot begin to thank this band enough for putting out some meaningful content.
This song is an absolute banger. I'd never heard of this band before this song popped up in my recommended feed. I'm definitely checking out more music, you guys rock!
I can relate to this , you try and try to get things right but there comes a point when you say iv done all i can., I showed up from south border to little over 5 hr to the northern boarder of the usa. i found place of my own with just myself an the dog winters is brutal to me having grown up in the south. but its mine andmine alone no roommates. I thank God im alive to see every brutal winter!
I'm surprised this isn't a top ten hit out there right now. After hearing this I had to go check the rest of there music and I'm now hooked. One best rock bands making music right now
Been 2 yrs now that I played this on loop for hours, hit close to home. Estranged husband/kids father, was dying because of his choices and it was breaking my heart that I couldn’t help him. I was so angry and this helped me work thru that at a tough time. Still brings tears to my eyes when I hear it…the pain and loss of what could and should have been, I’ve finally dealt with. I’m proud of the ones that break these chains because I know how hard they had to work for it 🥰 keep going and never give up, it’s never your last chance until you draw your last breath.
I get it my husband himself was addicted to fetanyl, and that I tried countless times and my problem was my dumb ass enabled it was anything to make it better anything(and it made it worst it made him sick everyday.) I was at fault just as much as he is I tried and tried and tried and when nothing worked I felt helpless didn’t know how to help him and he did what it took to make me his saving Grace and I felt responsible for all this bullshit Mistakes and he had to want to be helped luckily I was in the middle of my enlistment and that Tricare paid for rehab now his clean it still scares me sometimes.
@@museme6309 glad he was able get help, it’s hard not being an enabler when you love them more than they love themselves. I had good insurance he used several times but he couldn’t stick with it and paid ultimate price in the end. I remind my kids all the time that he was a good man, tell them stories of how it was before them and before he got hooked on pain pills from an injury, addiction that led to heroin when it was cheaper than the pills…and I thank god they were old enough to remember him even if he was high most of the time he did see them, I never said he couldn’t, he chose not to. They are mid teens now and if nothing else, they know the dangers of drugs and what they could lose, one lesson I don’t think he meant to teach them 😢
Man this shit hits home. Two and a half years ago April 28th 2018 my ex died from a heroin overdose, but I tried like hell for 2 years of our relationship to save him cause I loved him and I got to see who he was sober.... the times that he was anyway, and I was in love with that guy and he made me believe that I could save him and I could change him so I tried till the very bitter end. But What hurts the most is when you realize.... You can't save someone that doesn't want to save themselves. And an apology without consistent change is just manipulation. So one day it just hit me and I gave up and I walked away and a month later he died. And the saddest feeling in the world is when you feel like you only prolonged the inevitable.....
It's like they just commented suicide and coming from some who lost a friend to suicide they get so lost that there really is nothing we can do. I'm sorry for your lose.
@@evacody1249 yes especially considering that he messaged me an hour before he died. I thought we were ok and he was actually gunna fix himself this time. Little did I know, he was messed up on heroin while texting me. Makes me sad to know even when I gain faith again that he was going to change, that he was still doin the shit. It's like watching a little kid walk out in the middle of traffic;the little kid keeps walking out in the middle of traffic one of these days he's going to get hit by one of those cars and die and you're going to get hurt or worse-die trying to save him. I learned no matter how bad it hurts.....sometimes you have to save yourself.
Oh wow. I’m sorry. Some are really a Jekyll and Hyde. My cousin was addicted to Adderall and it’s equivalents on and off for the last few years. She ruined her family, her parents, her life, her career, etc. Everyone did what they could but until she finally took responsibility, she never got better. She is now on the right path but she will be getting evicted soon so she is moving back in with her elderly parents. Drugs are terrible
@Evaunderfire Absolutely Beautiful I love the song, speechless right now, absolutely beautiful, amazing song❤ continue the work #evaunderfire live forever #EvaNation
Saw you guys last night in Indianapolis and holy crap man you are an amazing band. Eva your voice sent chills throughout the set...Damn. You are killin it with your vocals and stage presence. I hope you get back out on the road. So happy to meet you after show and get a snap with you. See you out there on the road soon! Mitch
When you came to Arizona with skillet this year, I've never heard of you guys before then and had no clue you would be there that with them but I'm sure glad you all were! I've been listening to your songs almost every single day since then! Definitely regret not getting any merchandise or pictures with you all when you offered everyone. Hopefully I get the chance next year! This song and comatose are definitely my top two favorites! Keep up all the great work! You've definitely earned a huge fan that night. Your songs help on some of my lowest days mentally. Hoping they reach out and help others just as much. Thank you!
My brother died of long-term drug use, my adoptive mom has all the symptoms of Alzheimer's because of the drugs she had done in the past and I have a friend of mine whose son died at 24 from drugs. The band did a great job with this song. I have to separate myself from people that do this to themselves. So many people need help and they are not getting it, I hope I can listen to more stuff like this.
I've buried so many of my friends and family who were taken by addiction. I agree, gone to soon.. Thank you for making this video. Eva Under Fire has been one of very few bands I listen to, that have helped me in so many ways. You've been a big part of my growth, and I couldn't be more grateful to have found you when I did. Been a big fan for a long while now. Thank you again ❤️🙏
*LYRICS* I'm not your heroine (Heroine, heroine) I'm not the person you knew yesterday I've been used, abused along the way This is the side of me you pierced with pain These are the hands that couldn't hold your shame I tried to hold on 'til I realized I can't save you, no I can't change you now Save your own skin I'm not your heroine I can't save you Now break these chains yourself Save your own skin I'm not your heroine (Heroine, heroine) I'm not your heroinе You tried to make me takе your pain away You tried enlisting me to be your saving grace I'm not responsible for your mistakes There's nothing I can do and you're to blame I tried to hold on, slipping far this time I tried to hold on 'til I realized I can't save you, no I can't change you now Save your own skin I'm not your heroine I can't save you Now break these chains yourself Save your own skin I'm not your heroine I tried a million ways I tried to save the day I tried a thousand more to try to walk away I tried, I tried I tried, I tried I tried, I tried I can't save you, no I can't change you now Save your own skin I'm not your heroine I can't save you, no I can't change you now Save your own skin I'm not your heroine I can't save you Now break these chains yourself Save your own skin I'm not your heroine I tried, I tried I tried, I tried I tried, I tried (Heroine) (I'm not your heroine) (Heroine, heroine)
I live in Metro Detroit and attended Wayne State University at the same time as the lead singer, Amanda Lyberg, so I feel a personal connection to these guys. But even if you don't have a connection to them, they're just way too damn good to not have a massive following.
This song hits me hard. My son is in the midst of addiction and it has helped me cope with the fact that I have to pray and let go. I can't fix him. It won't get any easier but I know I have too.
Pray and pray and your in my prayers as a mom I can’t imagine it, but as a wife of recovering addict I get it, it scares me for my kids but praying is the only thing we can do and the work we put in for God to know we need the help spiritually,mentally, emotionally and the will to live altogether you just gotta have the Faith and it will fall in place.
The beauty of music is so amazing. I've struggled on and off for the past 9 years being a heroin addict, so it hits a little different for me. My mom showed me this song a couple of months back and I have kept it at the top of my play list ever since. Thank you for producing this too real, too raw song 💜
WHY WHY DID I LOSE YOU I paid 50 k in rehab and funeral costs I've lost everything but you were worth it NO ONE HELPED NO ONE CARED NO ONE WANTED TO BE THERE BUT MOM AND DAD My Dearest Daughter Melissa Our lives became joined together at an incredibly early age with you, you become My daughter and I would have you as my own baby girl. I loved and enjoyed every moment of our lives together. I was Hard on you while growing up, but you grew up as strong and steadfast as any person could and would. I miss you already and I feel as I failed you in your later years of life. You will always be our baby girl; I am so sorry I did not show you how much I genuinely loved and cared for you. You fought me at every turn, and I admired you for the strength and conviction you showed. Your resolve in your life inspired many people, your kindness and full-hearted love for everyone was unjustified no one deserved it. You did not believe in how I was in my younger years and you my lovely daughter broke me to be a softer and kinder person within my life. So many times, you and I crossed the path of who was right and who was wrong. You helped me see things in a different light and to be kinder to people. You may love have left an everlasting mark on my life; I regret I have not been able to tell and explain how much you have impacted my life. I regret not being able to sit down like we have many times just the two of us and explain how you helped me and molded me into the better person I am today. I just wish I did not fail you and wish I were able to correct the issues you were dealing with. I will forever live with the guilt that I let you down and I will learn and will make sure the Grandbabies will reap the rewards of the failure of my actions for you, my love. I know you are with us at this moment, and I beg for your forgiveness of my failures. The Grandbabies will be the recipients of the corrections to our headstrong head-butting discussions. I always Admired your Strengths and resolve No one was able to steer you in any direction you did not want to go. This is one reason your mother and I had such a problem with your later years, we Begged and Pleaded with you, begged you to return home and we never got our wish to have you back home ALONE so we could help you. I remember the younger years when your mom and I would take you and Jess on road trips in the Trakker. We would pull off the main road and go to the bush areas, you and Jess loved to climb the hills, running, and playing together the four of us! Your mom and I will always remember your tenacious spirit and how you made sure you were the boss of your life and how you wanted to do your life your way and No one could anyone tell you anything different. I miss you already my dearest sweetheart. I was not in any way perfect, and I know you wished you had more when you were younger, but your mom and I tried to give you all we could, and we know it was not enough and I'm sorry. But I love you and always will, you will be forever in my thoughts. I just wish I could turn back time and be there to help you in your most dire time of need. Please forgive me I do and always will love you and you will always be missing from my life. May God Charish you and love you as you disserve and like you are loved today from so many, I was outside today thinking of you and a Monark butterfly flew around Me and the grandbabies I so hope that was you, I'll always miss you and will never forget the wonderful personality you share with everyone. Please rest in peace my Loving daughter you will never be forgotten From your Loving Dad Rest in Peace your Pain is over and ours has just started, not having you with the Family will be the most painful part of your mother and I future. Love you always my dearest Melissa and till we meet again your mom, and I can't wait for that reunion, the Grandbabies are missing Already, I'll tell them how much you loved them and for them to always remember their Tita Melissa.
Dad Melissa Pereira September 11, 1987 ~ June 5, 2021 God Bless My Baby Girl Please she was one of the best people on the face of the planet, she was just lead astray Till I see you again my love Daddy will never forget and will await you to welcome me and mom into the gates of heaven Till them my dearest I will never feel whole and never forget your wild and free spirit I may have lost everything to try and save you but you were worth every moment of the fight I and your mom just wish we succeeded to save you, not only did we lose you my love we lost our lives till we meet again
Amen! We are not responsible to fix people just to love them. That's one of the hardest lessons I've ever had to learn. Some won't be fixed and that hurts. Anyway, I just wanted to say that I love all your music so far. Wish I'd found you sooner.
I had never heard of this band until this morning when I came across their song Blow (with Spencer from INK) and gave it a listen, but they've got a new fan for sure. This song rocks!! Her voice is amazing.
My husband lost his sister to drugs a few years ago. We all lost, as she lost the fight. She was so beautiful, funny, caring and without a doubt would have loved Eva Under 🔥 We tried to help her, but she needed to help herself first. My sister in law is still tormented by believing she didn't do enough. So yeah, this song ugh.. So true. You can only do so much. You can try, love, try harder, it's just a vicious circle and you just hope and pray they will beat it. You can't carry that pain when you've tried till you can't anymore💔 Prayer's to all that have endured the same or fighting the fight yourself. Love you Eva Under Fire🔥♥️ ***How we discovered these guys: Met at Uncle Sam Jam in Woodhaven Mi. years ago. Sadly, my husband and I missed their performance. But the singer and a band member were handing out CDs thankfully. Love supporting local bands. My son and I listened in my car and our jaw's hit the floor. First local band that completely blew us away.(not to say others haven't, but these guys omg♥️) We've both been following ever since. Incredible band with songs that speak volumes hence the story above. Nothing but love for these guys♥️♥️♥️
Lol😁Also tried emailing/messaging Nikki Sixx a few years ago lol Think he was DJ' ing for the wrif can't remember. Not sure he ever got it, but definitely worth a shot. Just knew I couldn't be the only one pushing for this band, and maaaaybe if enough did, they'd get a shout from the big guys ♥️
I have fallen hard for someone with an addiction.She's so beautiful & talented,but the amazing person she once was is fading away. Its so hard loving someone who's not ready to stop using.She'll stop when she decides to or dies.I hope she decides to stop before she becomes a painful memory😑 I have helped some stop using and have happy lives,but I've failed with the one I love and wanted to help the most.
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You forgot me and I need help how QUICKLY YOU CAN SURE and not say all people can not
I'm a recovering addict, I lost my husband this past February to an OD after he had been clean for 2 years. I refuse to allow it to ruin my life any further.
I'm very sorry for your loss I'm trying to get off heroin
This song helps me remember to step back from the people that I thought were my friends, the ones who weaponized their trauma so that I would stay to help them and got mad at me when I did
She obviously has felt the pain of loss from this disease and this drug, you can tell from the way this is written. Clean and sober for 3 years, thankful for everyday.
Her dad overdosed
@@EvaUnderFire thank you for sharing yours in the form of a real, beautiful, bad ass song
This song means a lot to me, but in a different way. I was what my therapist calls a "parentified child". To me, this song is an anthem when I decided to stand up for, and take care of, myself first. My older sister says she feels the same way, and she is the one who introduced me to this song. Thank you Eva Under Fire
The emotion in the vocals here are so raw. Like this is very personal for the lead singer, and I love it so much
Because it is. Ssd he l pi st her dad to a drug overdose.
It is. Her dad died of an overdose. The guy in the picture at the end of this video that she tosses on the ground is her actual dad.
I can so relate to this song. My little sister was a meth user for 4 years. It was absolute hell. My mom would cry every night, my dad felt so helpless in trying help her. I finally had to break away from it all. I couldn’t save her and I was tired of my parents doing the exact same things with hopes they would be able to get her clean. She just celebrated 2 years sober. She finally decided to get clean cold turkey, on her own. If they don’t have the desire to change, then you can’t make them change. I’m so glad she chose to change.
What a tough decision to make, but, good for you! I sincerely hope things are going well for her and you. Hang in there! 💜✌️
Your absolutely right, if the addict doesn't want to change then its not gonna happen, they have to be ready to be sick & tired of being sick and tired on their own, Me, I've been heroin addict for over a decade, rehabs, jail, the worst withdrawals you can ever imagine, heroin, methadone, xanax, it was like I was going through a exorcism, it was that bad cuz withdrawal from all 3 at same time, but for 2 years I was good, since covid 19 hit, something brought it back to me and it got horrible all over again, what am I thinking, never start doing anything....the life of a addict is pure hell, & only 10% tidbits of pleasure . Not worth it. Walk away...
It's,hard loving an addict.I know how hard it is💙
Everyone has their own demon they must face in life and if something has damaged them mentally, emotionally or physically then they are just finding ways to cope with their pain that they are going through whatever helps them find peace in their minds. It may cause them harm as well but it's a different kind of pain
@@uks20wwolf26 when people put themselves through something like that it isn't really about hurting themselves it's more of finding ways to help themselves with whatever they are running from even if it means puting themselves more in harm but for them it's a different kind of pain. The word prison isn't only just a physical barrier that surrounds people it could be mentally, emotionally or spiritual to where they feel they can never get out. They would talk to people about their issues but they believe nobody would ever understand what they are going through
June 2020 I was delivered from a 20 year heroin addiction. This song has been my saving grace since it came out. Your music is precious Amanda Lyberg
Praise God🙏❤
@@frevryngrocks9346 every moment of every day
@@caelinchristante4021 Amen!🙏❤
Just saw these guys tonight! Got to meet Amanda, i took a picture with her. Told her she put on a good show, and that she was fire. She gave me a fist bump, and held her hand over her chest and said thank you so much. She is really nice :)
Just celebrated 20 years clean on June 6th. I'm 62 years old and the life I used to live was pure hell, but those who loved me suffered more than I did. They were watching me disappear right before their very eyes and they were powerless to stop it. I absolutely love this song!!
as being a recovering herion addict this song encourages me to do my best and dont forget the battle i just defeated
Always keep fighting. Much respect
I’m addicted to Adderall and Ritalin and vyvanse I don’t know how to recover been trying the narcotics anonymous on UA-cam
Never give up!! Never surrender!! Never forget the goodness within you! YOU MATTER!!
how is it going for ya so far?
I was an addict from age 14 to 28. I've been clean for 3 years. This song pulls the few heart strings I got left.
Same age here. Really struggling mentally..
Just found out about a year ago that one of my closest friends is a recovering addict of heroine and meth and he's been clean for 16 years now. He has really opened my eyes to the damage it's caused. STAY STRONG you can do this.
Good job budy 🤗
My partner was addicted to meth before he meet Me, he looks 19, he's 31, hard to believe he is 31.
Powerful song
Same
hope you're still going strong 💪
Eva Under Fire is SO UNDERRATED. Dang her voice is incredible!
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Kaden Carpenter
A lot like Amy Lee
I know right
I love her Amanda is gifted
Love her voice, the rock theme, and the recovery message, as I'm in recovery too, and could relate to every lyric she sings!
Well I'm crying now. I didn't know this band existed, much less this song. So many people I loved are gone, and you just feel angry and helpless watching them slip away.
I TRIED... I TRIED...
I TRIED... I TRIED...
Her scream is so full emotion, so powerful, it gives me chills every single time I listen.. which is currently over and over again.
Ikr that verse itself those words!! I tried I tried i tried when my hubby was addicted to fetanyl I literally just got enlisted in the Army and if not for Tricare to pay for him to go to rehab I probably would have lost him, that itself was both our saving grace, I tried million ways to help you I tried to do what you want to save your day make you feel better and when nothings works I blamed myself I blamed him but now his clean and sober I never been happier for him.
Song's like this one gives me goosebumps all over. I'm also a recovering addict, clean for 2years and 6 months... My heart goes out to all addicts still lost in addition...
HOLY SHIT! I saw an ad for this on Instagram and I was like “I need to listen to this RIGHT NOW.” I don’t regret my decision at all.
I thought I was tia Only one to do that 😂. I'm really impressed, loved the song 😍
That's exactly what happened to me right now! :D I love the Song that Insta recommended to me.
Just happened to me a few minutes ago. 😅😆 It's a great song!
Same here 🤣, Just saw it on instagram and was like damn, I HAVE TO LISTEN TO THIS RIGHT NOW
Me too💙
I thought I could not cry listening for the first time to a song of a band I did not know before. Today I was proven wrong. And it could not bother me less.
Lyrics:
(I'm not your heroine)
I'm not the person you knew yesterday
I've been used, abused along the way
This is the side of me you pierced with pain
These are the hands that couldn't hold your shame
I tried to hold on til I realized
I can't save you, no I can't change you now
Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine
I can't save you, now break these chains yourself
Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine
(I'm not your heroine)
You tried to make me take your pain away
You tried enlisting me to be your saving grace
I'm not responsible for your mistakes
There's nothing I can do and you're to blame
I tried to hold on slipping farther with time
I tried to hold on til I realized
I can't save you, no I can't change you now
Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine
I can't save you, now break these chains yourself
Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine
I tried a million ways
I tried to save the day
I tried a thousand more to try to walk away
I tried, I tried
I tried, I tried
I tried, I tried
I can't save you, no I can't change you now
Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine
I can't save you, no I can't change you now
Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine
I can't save you, now break these chains yourself
Save your own skin, I'm not your heroine
I tried, I tried
I tried, I tried
I tried, I tried
(Heroine)
I'm not your heroine
Thank you 🙏🏻
Thanks!!
Uff thanks
Thank you!
These guys need to be more popular. She has a cracking voice and the music is incredible.... great song. Good luck guys..... what a banger
They just got released so definitely keep an eye out! These people are the real deal!
@@EvaUnderFire i cannot wait either.... new tunes from a top band... good luck. I'll be first in line for the album
I used to work with the lead singer of this band before she was a full time musician. Besides her talent, shes an awesome person as well 😎
@@FsKSmooth1 sure
I have shared these guys to anyone I know that loves rock. Even my oldee sister in GA bought a CD🔥 Met and keep in touch from time to time WRIF'S (Screamin) Scott Randall. Shared with him in hopes of getting them heard even more. I know he can only do so much, but definitely worth the try. If ya's know someone in broadcasting etc. Put this bee🔥 in their bonnet lol Can't imagine anyone not loving them♥️🔥
We need more females like her in the music industry! She has vocals!! Great song!
It's tough when you want to save addicts you know and feel helpless when you can't. This song is deep.❤️❤️ I'll be sharing this with a few. If your still in the fight, keep moving forward.
It is tough.❤❤
Speaking as that person.. You can’t, much as you try, till we’re ready. You clearly made an impact though, and for of us resisting.. Our loved ones gave up, everyone gave up. Sometimes it takes only someone willing to cautiously trusting us.. it makes all thd difference.
Since feb last year. I had someone like you.. Or I’d be certainly dead.
@@dustinburrows12 I’m the person that loved an addict still do, his clean now my husband was addicted to fetanyl it started with percasets( can’t spell
Sorry lol..) but otherwise I feel this song altogether. “ You try enlisting me to be your saving Grace,” I was in the middle of enlisting and I come home for Christmas my in-laws and myself decided we find a rehab for him and that’s how him and I live in Florida now cause we left Baltimore it scares me we go back out there the people who you got it from you’ll be at it again I tried million ways to help him I begged I told him as your wife if I’m not good enough reason then do it for your kids do it for me. There’s times I got pissed felt like I’m not enough reason or your kids to get cleaned, I get an addict thinks differently but it was hard I tried walking and if not for Tricare to pay for rehab I would possibly lost him, there’s time I felt his addictions won his demons won.
I have seen and met this band a few times. This band is full of amazing humans. Amanda is such a power house! They deserve 500,000+ views!
After years of being with an addict I understand totally as I tried, and tried, and nothing can save him, even today his children can not saved him. Slamming song!
I was on that verge honestly til I cried and begged him to save himself for his kids even if I’m not good enough reason, it damaged me and made me severely insecured, til I enlisted in the Army last year and it mentally took a toll. Thankfully Tricare paid for his rehab it was a lot before 90% of it his addiction ruled, and I had no idea what I was doing and I didn’t know by making it worst I was at fault to enable it too, I literally tried and prayed for his entire balance but I can’t change him it’s not our job,only God can do that and the effort we put in the work most entirely God, all we can do I was literally depressed most of it cause of this reason sometimes we can only do so much.
I’ve never done any drugs but I love this song and hope that those who have gotten caught up in them can reach out and get the help they need to become sober and live their life again. Such a great and powerful song!
Kick ass… just found this …. Great f***ing message! Top of my playlist!!!
Song is amazing! So true, you can’t save anyone who doesn’t want it
Can Eva even make a bad song? I don’t think they can. Another fantastic masterpiece. Finally new Eva
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I know right
This song hits very close to home, not going into details but if someone doesn't want to help them self you can't help them and it tears you up inside.
@@EvaUnderFire Thank you I love the music and message keep it up
Such a powerful song. I am a recovering addict with 16 years clean and sober
I havent struggled with addiction of any kind but reading all the comments and realizing how many people struggled with it and were able to kick the addiction and get clean. You guys are an inspiration to me and everyone else. You guys are the real heroes and I thank you all
Don’t know what rock I’ve been under. Never heard of this band but seeing in concert tonight so had to check out. Definitely excited to see what they bring to the live stage after hearing this!
I think you will love them!
this song is so powerful and strong, hits the soul hard. Love this band, I am also in Recovery from Alcohol and Drugs. Clean and Sober since May 13, 2015. Completed a Diploma in Addictions and working in a Detox Centre to help the next person gain what I have. Thank you for this beautiful song.
Wow this girl is a beast
This song gave myself and my sister the strange to finally walk away from our abusive toxic father, because we finally realized it wasn't our job to fix him
I'm proud of You two! Good luck
One of the best songs I`ve ever heard! The lyrics remind me of a past relationship and how hard I tried.
I know what you mean. And your an Angel for trying to fight a battle like this that isn't your battle.
Wowwwwwww you guys are awesome simply amazing Eva you have the most amazing and beautiful voice I've ever heard
Her name's Amanda
I am not a drug user, but I feel some personal connections to anything that this band puts out. It goes to show that no one is alone in suffering regardless of the circumstances. I cannot begin to thank this band enough for putting out some meaningful content.
What a VOICE. AWESOME FRICKIN SONG!!
EVA UNDER FIRE KICKS ASS!!!
This song is an absolute banger. I'd never heard of this band before this song popped up in my recommended feed. I'm definitely checking out more music, you guys rock!
This is a great great artist..I've watched her tune her instrument a long time..
So much loss..so much sorrow
Peace and light lady
So good! Eva Under Fire has so many great songs.
I can relate to this , you try and try to get things right but there comes a point when you say iv done all i can., I showed up from south border to little over 5 hr to the northern boarder of the usa. i found place of my own with just myself an the dog winters is brutal to me having grown up in the south. but its mine andmine alone no roommates. I thank God im alive to see every brutal winter!
I'm surprised this isn't a top ten hit out there right now. After hearing this I had to go check the rest of there music and I'm now hooked. One best rock bands making music right now
What an amazing band!
Your pain can be understood so much by your voice...
Vocal Amazing.
PLEASE MAKE MORE SONGS LIKE THIS!! THE SONG IS HARDCORE, BEAUTIFUL, REALISTIC AND RELATABLE.! LOVE THIS SONG
Been 2 yrs now that I played this on loop for hours, hit close to home. Estranged husband/kids father, was dying because of his choices and it was breaking my heart that I couldn’t help him. I was so angry and this helped me work thru that at a tough time. Still brings tears to my eyes when I hear it…the pain and loss of what could and should have been, I’ve finally dealt with. I’m proud of the ones that break these chains because I know how hard they had to work for it 🥰 keep going and never give up, it’s never your last chance until you draw your last breath.
I get it my husband himself was addicted to fetanyl, and that I tried countless times and my problem was my dumb ass enabled it was anything to make it better anything(and it made it worst it made him sick everyday.) I was at fault just as much as he is I tried and tried and tried and when nothing worked I felt helpless didn’t know how to help him and he did what it took to make me his saving Grace and I felt responsible for all this bullshit
Mistakes and he had to want to be helped luckily I was in the middle of my enlistment and that Tricare paid for rehab now his clean it still scares me sometimes.
@@museme6309 glad he was able get help, it’s hard not being an enabler when you love them more than they love themselves. I had good insurance he used several times but he couldn’t stick with it and paid ultimate price in the end. I remind my kids all the time that he was a good man, tell them stories of how it was before them and before he got hooked on pain pills from an injury, addiction that led to heroin when it was cheaper than the pills…and I thank god they were old enough to remember him even if he was high most of the time he did see them, I never said he couldn’t, he chose not to. They are mid teens now and if nothing else, they know the dangers of drugs and what they could lose, one lesson I don’t think he meant to teach them 😢
Man this shit hits home.
Two and a half years ago April 28th 2018 my ex died from a heroin overdose, but I tried like hell for 2 years of our relationship to save him cause I loved him and I got to see who he was sober.... the times that he was anyway, and I was in love with that guy and he made me believe that I could save him and I could change him so I tried till the very bitter end. But What hurts the most is when you realize....
You can't save someone that doesn't want to save themselves. And an apology without consistent change is just manipulation. So one day it just hit me and I gave up and I walked away and a month later he died. And the saddest feeling in the world is when you feel like you only prolonged the inevitable.....
It's like they just commented suicide and coming from some who lost a friend to suicide they get so lost that there really is nothing we can do. I'm sorry for your lose.
@@evacody1249 yes especially considering that he messaged me an hour before he died. I thought we were ok and he was actually gunna fix himself this time. Little did I know, he was messed up on heroin while texting me. Makes me sad to know even when I gain faith again that he was going to change, that he was still doin the shit. It's like watching a little kid walk out in the middle of traffic;the little kid keeps walking out in the middle of traffic one of these days he's going to get hit by one of those cars and die and you're going to get hurt or worse-die trying to save him. I learned no matter how bad it hurts.....sometimes you have to save yourself.
@@alexandrahunt5198 I would say it gets better. But I'm not really sure what words to use.
Oh wow. I’m sorry. Some are really a Jekyll and Hyde. My cousin was addicted to Adderall and it’s equivalents on and off for the last few years. She ruined her family, her parents, her life, her career, etc. Everyone did what they could but until she finally took responsibility, she never got better. She is now on the right path but she will be getting evicted soon so she is moving back in with her elderly parents. Drugs are terrible
So so true 💕
So so excited to see a new single from Eva Under Fire, and I was not at all disappointed! This song will join "The Strong" on my Favorites playlist.
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Omggggg her voice is amazing
Been clean from drugs for year and half now I have two beautiful kids and a lovely fiancé
Congratulations. I’m glad you are doing better
Hell yeah!🤘🏻🤘🏻🤘🏻
Congrats man
Well take it from someone how's Ben there you have a lot to stay clean take it one day at a time 🙏fore you from LA 🐾🐊👣
Walking Through Life With A Cajun. Thanks got two beautiful kids and a fiancé that keep me pushing forward
I was at the Boise idaho skillet concert and you guys rocked as the opening act. Can't stop listening to you guys
@Evaunderfire Absolutely Beautiful I love the song, speechless right now, absolutely beautiful, amazing song❤ continue the work #evaunderfire live forever #EvaNation
Saw you guys last night in Indianapolis and holy crap man you are an amazing band. Eva your voice sent chills throughout the set...Damn. You are killin it with your vocals and stage presence. I hope you get back out on the road. So happy to meet you after show and get a snap with you. See you out there on the road soon!
Mitch
Seen them in Kennewick Washington and they had the whole place rocking..great band
Saw you guys yesterday in Hannover, Germany. Can't express how much i loved it!
Awesome song, talented band !
When you came to Arizona with skillet this year, I've never heard of you guys before then and had no clue you would be there that with them but I'm sure glad you all were! I've been listening to your songs almost every single day since then! Definitely regret not getting any merchandise or pictures with you all when you offered everyone. Hopefully I get the chance next year! This song and comatose are definitely my top two favorites! Keep up all the great work! You've definitely earned a huge fan that night. Your songs help on some of my lowest days mentally. Hoping they reach out and help others just as much. Thank you!
My brother died of long-term drug use, my adoptive mom has all the symptoms of Alzheimer's because of the drugs she had done in the past and I have a friend of mine whose son died at 24 from drugs. The band did a great job with this song. I have to separate myself from people that do this to themselves. So many people need help and they are not getting it, I hope I can listen to more stuff like this.
Idk why some reason you take shit that you know will surely kill you, I know what you mean I do thesame thing has to cut a lot of friends.
This guys are amazing. She is beautiful and has a beautiful voice.
great sound and voice
She has one of the most amazing voices I have ever heard and she has such a great message in all of her songs!
I've buried so many of my friends and family who were taken by addiction. I agree, gone to soon.. Thank you for making this video. Eva Under Fire has been one of very few bands I listen to, that have helped me in so many ways. You've been a big part of my growth, and I couldn't be more grateful to have found you when I did. Been a big fan for a long while now. Thank you again ❤️🙏
*LYRICS*
I'm not your heroine
(Heroine, heroine)
I'm not the person you knew yesterday
I've been used, abused along the way
This is the side of me you pierced with pain
These are the hands that couldn't hold your shame
I tried to hold on 'til I realized
I can't save you, no
I can't change you now
Save your own skin
I'm not your heroine
I can't save you
Now break these chains yourself
Save your own skin
I'm not your heroine
(Heroine, heroine)
I'm not your heroinе
You tried to make me takе your pain away
You tried enlisting me to be your saving grace
I'm not responsible for your mistakes
There's nothing I can do and you're to blame
I tried to hold on, slipping far this time
I tried to hold on 'til I realized
I can't save you, no
I can't change you now
Save your own skin
I'm not your heroine
I can't save you
Now break these chains yourself
Save your own skin
I'm not your heroine
I tried a million ways
I tried to save the day
I tried a thousand more to try to walk away
I tried, I tried
I tried, I tried
I tried, I tried
I can't save you, no
I can't change you now
Save your own skin
I'm not your heroine
I can't save you, no
I can't change you now
Save your own skin
I'm not your heroine
I can't save you
Now break these chains yourself
Save your own skin
I'm not your heroine
I tried, I tried
I tried, I tried
I tried, I tried
(Heroine)
(I'm not your heroine)
(Heroine, heroine)
@@EvaUnderFire I appreciate that! Love all ur songs ♥️
Love u Amanda loved this band from day one huge fan
OMG. New music from my Eva. I had NO doubt it would be amazing and I wasn't disappointed.
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That movie helped me push through withdrawal 🥰
I live in Metro Detroit and attended Wayne State University at the same time as the lead singer, Amanda Lyberg, so I feel a personal connection to these guys. But even if you don't have a connection to them, they're just way too damn good to not have a massive following.
Ohhhh...Snapppp!! Eva Under Fire has done it again, yet another hit!!
Powerful song, video & message by an amazing band!
wow.. this voice. I love it
This song gives me goose bumps
@@EvaUnderFire omg you replied to me! Thank you 😭🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Great sound, had the pleasure of seeing them live in Pittsburgh yesterday. We will definitely be hearing much more from them.
Love their music, found them 4 years ago!! great band.
WOW! my new favorite song my goodness!
This song hits me hard. My son is in the midst of addiction and it has helped me cope with the fact that I have to pray and let go. I can't fix him. It won't get any easier but I know I have too.
Pray and pray and your in my prayers as a mom I can’t imagine it, but as a wife of recovering addict I get it, it scares me for my kids but praying is the only thing we can do and the work we put in for God to know we need the help spiritually,mentally, emotionally and the will to live altogether you just gotta have the Faith and it will fall in place.
The beauty of music is so amazing. I've struggled on and off for the past 9 years being a heroin addict, so it hits a little different for me. My mom showed me this song a couple of months back and I have kept it at the top of my play list ever since. Thank you for producing this too real, too raw song 💜
Thank You, beautiful video
WHY WHY DID I LOSE YOU I paid 50 k in rehab and funeral costs I've lost everything but you were worth it NO ONE HELPED NO ONE CARED NO ONE WANTED TO BE THERE BUT MOM AND DAD
My Dearest Daughter Melissa
Our lives became joined together at an incredibly early age with you, you become My daughter and I would have you as my own baby girl. I loved and enjoyed every moment of our lives together. I was Hard on you while growing up, but you grew up as strong and steadfast as any person could and would. I miss you already and I feel as I failed you in your later years of life. You will always be our baby girl; I am so sorry I did not show you how much I genuinely loved and cared for you. You fought me at every turn, and I admired you for the strength and conviction you showed. Your resolve in your life inspired many people, your kindness and full-hearted love for everyone was unjustified no one deserved it. You did not believe in how I was in my younger years and you my lovely daughter broke me to be a softer and kinder person within my life.
So many times, you and I crossed the path of who was right and who was wrong. You helped me see things in a different light and to be kinder to people. You may love have left an everlasting mark on my life; I regret I have not been able to tell and explain how much you have impacted my life. I regret not being able to sit down like we have many times just the two of us and explain how you helped me and molded me into the better person I am today. I just wish I did not fail you and wish I were able to correct the issues you were dealing with. I will forever live with the guilt that I let you down and I will learn and will make sure the Grandbabies will reap the rewards of the failure of my actions for you, my love. I know you are with us at this moment, and I beg for your forgiveness of my failures. The Grandbabies will be the recipients of the corrections to our headstrong head-butting discussions.
I always Admired your Strengths and resolve No one was able to steer you in any direction you did not want to go. This is one reason your mother and I had such a problem with your later years, we Begged and Pleaded with you, begged you to return home and we never got our wish to have you back home ALONE so we could help you. I remember the younger years when your mom and I would take you and Jess on road trips in the Trakker. We would pull off the main road and go to the bush areas, you and Jess loved to climb the hills, running, and playing together the four of us! Your mom and I will always remember your tenacious spirit and how you made sure you were the boss of your life and how you wanted to do your life your way and No one could anyone tell you anything different.
I miss you already my dearest sweetheart. I was not in any way perfect, and I know you wished you had more when you were younger, but your mom and I tried to give you all we could, and we know it was not enough and I'm sorry. But I love you and always will, you will be forever in my thoughts. I just wish I could turn back time and be there to help you in your most dire time of need. Please forgive me I do and always will love you and you will always be missing from my life. May God Charish you and love you as you disserve and like you are loved today from so many, I was outside today thinking of you and a Monark butterfly flew around Me and the grandbabies I so hope that was you, I'll always miss you and will never forget the wonderful personality you share with everyone.
Please rest in peace my Loving daughter you will never be forgotten
From your Loving Dad
Rest in Peace your Pain is over and ours has just started, not having you with the Family will be the most painful part of your mother and I future.
Love you always my dearest Melissa and till we meet again your mom, and I can't wait for that reunion, the Grandbabies are missing Already, I'll tell them how much you loved them and for them to always remember their Tita Melissa.
Dad
Melissa Pereira
September 11, 1987 ~ June 5, 2021 God Bless My Baby Girl Please she was one of the best people on the face of the planet, she was just lead astray
Till I see you again my love Daddy will never forget and will await you to welcome me and mom into the gates of heaven Till them my dearest I will never feel whole and never forget your wild and free spirit I may have lost everything to try and save you but you were worth every moment of the fight I and your mom just wish we succeeded to save you, not only did we lose you my love we lost our lives till we meet again
Amen! We are not responsible to fix people just to love them. That's one of the hardest lessons I've ever had to learn. Some won't be fixed and that hurts.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that I love all your music so far. Wish I'd found you sooner.
i loved the band
Just got familiar with the Band and I am addicted to their music. F***** awesome
Loving this all day long
I had never heard of this band until this morning when I came across their song Blow (with Spencer from INK) and gave it a listen, but they've got a new fan for sure. This song rocks!! Her voice is amazing.
Her voice is absolutely fire! Everything sounds so full and tight! Love it!
@@EvaUnderFire you’re welcome!! Keep up the great work!!
Amazing song.
I can't believe I didn't hear this song sooner something is wrong with UA-cam this song should have at least 100 million views. underrated
Eva's voice is really fire!
Mahalo! RIP Kaighley 00:32, we love you! I love you Ava!!!!
the dynamics of this song are absolutely awesome and should give anyone who hears it inspiration and strength to carry on like a female jacoby shaddix
Great song and meanings wow
Truly powerful lyrics and so much emotion behind the vocals. Those who have been through the struggle will totally resonate with this song 💕
My husband lost his sister to drugs a few years ago. We all lost, as she lost the fight. She was so beautiful, funny, caring and without a doubt would have loved Eva Under 🔥 We tried to help her, but she needed to help herself first. My sister in law is still tormented by believing she didn't do enough. So yeah, this song ugh.. So true. You can only do so much. You can try, love, try harder, it's just a vicious circle and you just hope and pray they will beat it. You can't carry that pain when you've tried till you can't anymore💔 Prayer's to all that have endured the same or fighting the fight yourself. Love you Eva Under Fire🔥♥️
***How we discovered these guys: Met at Uncle Sam Jam in Woodhaven Mi. years ago. Sadly, my husband and I missed their performance. But the singer and a band member were handing out CDs thankfully. Love supporting local bands. My son and I listened in my car and our jaw's hit the floor. First local band that completely blew us away.(not to say others haven't, but these guys omg♥️) We've both been following ever since. Incredible band with songs that speak volumes hence the story above. Nothing but love for these guys♥️♥️♥️
Lol😁Also tried emailing/messaging Nikki Sixx a few years ago lol Think he was DJ' ing for the wrif can't remember. Not sure he ever got it, but definitely worth a shot. Just knew I couldn't be the only one pushing for this band, and maaaaybe if enough did, they'd get a shout from the big guys ♥️
I have fallen hard for someone with an addiction.She's so beautiful & talented,but the amazing person she once was is fading away.
Its so hard loving someone who's not ready to stop using.She'll stop when she decides to or dies.I hope she decides to stop before she becomes a painful memory😑
I have helped some stop using and have happy lives,but I've failed with the one I love and wanted to help the most.
Beautiful song, and being a recovering addict, its amazing to see contributions to people in recovery.
This song speaks volumes and kicks ass!
Amanda is amazing this song is stunning hits you in the feels love this band and this song so much!
Right on.