i feel so sad that youve been in and out of foster homes and in and out of hospitals, but im sure youre stronger because of it. wish i could adopt u tbh
im 33 so i dont think you'll listen to this but you're ok. just do your best in school while you can. life is not that complicated, its actually way less complicated than you could possibly imagine. also feeling like trash or like a loser is completely normal, it usually goes away with sleep (if your brain is in overdrive at night get a white noise machine) so dont stay up too late.
Why do I relate so hard girl 😭 I know the feeling. I want to do more things but I lack motivation and still feel unfulfilled. I want to be busier but I just am not. I work part time to keep myself busy but it’s super boring and I count the hours until my shift is over. My friends are all away for college and my bf and I are long distance rn so I don’t rly have anyone to regularly hang out with. At school I don’t rly connect deeply with anyone enough to stay friends yk? I’m 20 and in college and I feel like I haven’t fulfilled the expectations. I don’t go out and party but I also don’t feel that studious either because I don’t know what to do for my career. I spend most of my time alone which I know isn’t good for me. I think my issue is I want to go out more but I have no one to do things with so I’m gonna try to push myself to go alone. I’m tired of wasting my life waiting for someone to do things with me. I want to set a schedule for myself too because I waste so much time getting distracted and stuff. I know we can do this sending lots of love 💗
You are not alone! You took the first step and spoke about your problems. You seem very reflected, but as a lot of young peeps your brain is in your way. Keep on going, you are doing great! Be proud of yourself, because every little step in the right direction brings you closer to your destination, even if you dont know yet where it is.
Sometimes, the epiphany of what we want (and the realization of our true worthiness, too, in some cases) lies behind the veil of feeling like "wasting it all away" or maybe "feeling like a worthless, useless and aimless piece of shit". Haha. It's really crazy. But at some point we realize that we chose that because - on some level, usually unconscious - we thought it benefited us. In my case it was the benefit of waking up to the facts that a) just being is completely okay, there is no need for goals, any goals, that aren't mine in the first place. There is no need to impress anyone or to prove myself to anyone. I don't owe anyone anything and nobody owes me anything, at all. Especially not my happiness. With this realization comes a freedom that needs some time to sink in because we propably did not experience that before. Oh, and b) we - all of us - are exactly at the point where we need to be, where we belong, right now, right this moment. We are at the perfect place at the perfect time. It might look like shit to others (But what do they actually know, chasing their dreams that might not be theirs in the game called Rat Race ;D) and maybe it even looks like shit to us but with freedom comes embracing. The embracing of all of it. The good, the bad, the beautiful and the ugly. This world is a heavenly playground if you think about it and - just for a minute - let all the doubts and all the fears fall away. There is everything here. All of the choices are here, for us to see and think about if we actually want to chose any. We don't have to, of course. We can chose to not chose anything. That's a valid choice, too. You'll find yourself, I am pretty sure of that. And I can propably promise it'll won't take you twenty years, like me. Haha. But all of that does not matter. None of it. I just am. That's all. I just am, breathing and walking on this beautiful little marble that we call Earth/Terra/Gaia. I send peace. I send love. You are worthy and you are seen.
i encourage nothing for anyone other than Matthew 6:24, Matthew 10:16 and Ephesians 6:12 - COVER me in MY SELF. I AM who i am, and i know what you know.
I think I've commented something similar on another video of yours, but I relate to these videos so much! I know it's meant to be more of an unfiltered rant kind of video, and maybe I'm just projecting, but I think you really put things into words really well. I'm not very knowledgeable when it comes to adhd and other kinds of mental stuff but if you haven't already, I totally think you should look into seeing if you have undiagnosed adhd. I have adhd myself and experience a lot of the same feelings I think you're describing, which typing it out sounds insignificant but still I'd recommend it! It really sucks not being able to get things done and having the only thing stopping you be a mental block, I know for me personally sometimes it can feel like I've spent my whole life doing nothing but thinking about what I should be doing. Feeling unproductive is the worst and it's hard to knock the feeling because there isn't a specific or tangible problem that I can try and tackle. I think that's why I also really love hyper fixating on school because it gives me a feeling of getting something done, and like I have a way to measure my productivity. What I want to say is that having a diagnosis can be really helpful since it can provide you with an explanation for the mental block, and a bunch of the feelings you might be having, and if it's right for you, medication could also help! Sorry this is so all over the place, I just imagine that in your situation it would be relieving to have an answer that isn't just blaming yourself. It's good to take responsibility for your life but it's not wrong to take a break, even if you think you haven't achieved anything yet. I really wish I could just tell you something that would make things better for you, I wish the very best for you!! I'd love to get in contact, let me know if you'd ever like to chat. No pressure!
your good!! thanks for the comment! yeah that’s not really something i’ve ever considered if i had if i’m being honest. i know it might sound immature but i really don’t want try medication and get reliant on it, but i know it’s helpful for many. sad you can relate but glad you found it relatable lol! yeah the school things very real i love being super focused on an achievable goal
one big question is "what's the point of anything?" people feel bad about not doing what they don't feel like doing. We define a good day and productivity based on someone else's standards, even if we don't realize it. We live in a society that conditions us to think that we need to be famous for doing something, or at least make a lot of money doing something, even though ultimately it is a lot of hard work for nothing. I think the main reason why people procrastinate is that we have created a joyless empty meaningless world where most people aren't allowed to have joy. People think they SHOULD want to do things that they don't want to do. but why? Before world war 2 the Germans actually enacted lots of programs that designed society around people being happy, because they understood that a healthy society is a happy society. They called it "Strength Through Joy". With all the wokeism in our government you'd think that they'd want to create a society that actually is conducive to the population being happy. But strangely this "free society" does everything it can to make us as miserable as possible, forcing us into joyless, pointless lives where we have to go into debt in order to have a vacation. go figure.
i agree with a lot of that, but whether it’s from societal pressures or not, i want to live a life that ends with me feeling that i’ve accomplished a lot. not specifically “become super rich/successful” but more “have many unique and diverse experiences”. Unfortunately a lot of things take money today, even if it can be done on a cheaper budget (ex travel) which is part of the reason even people kinda aware of that still get into that ‘must be productive must work’ mindset. Asking “what’s the meaning to life” can sprout a lot of debates that all have fair points, and everyone will answer differently. I could live my life in leisure, because the is no “meaning to life’’ I must achieve, but even if it’s society set, there are things I want to experience and also impacts I want to leave. Ultimately everything is for nothing, even if I became to president of the world and changed everything I’d still die and nothing’d stop that. Putting meaning to things, even if there is no inherent meaning, is what makes life worth living. But even if you adopt that “nothing matters” mindset, you’re 99% certain to at least sometimes get caught up in societal expectations. I think it’s good to be aware of, but to also be okay with putting meaning on things, to feel like you have motivations to keep living. kinda got off topic lol wasn’t disagreeing with anything you said I just like conversation. I agree that there’s so many (negative/self deprecating) things we believe we should do that we try to make ourselves do, that me and nearly every other modern human engage in even if we shouldn’t, whether we’re aware or not
@@LiliMeltUltimately, only you can decide if something is worth your time and energy, value and meaning is what you assign to something, a thought exercise that you determine either consciously or subconsciously.
I understand how you feel. On some positive notes, I think recording your thoughts in video is just as good as writing them down. For me, I definitely enjoy documenting them no matter how cringe they are lmao. Also, for the college thing, def do not get caught up with trying to graduate early or like swamp yourself with classes. Really wasted my three and a half years, but luckily I have a second chance to try college again. Wishing the best for you!
Go outside and get some sunshine. Go on a walk or hike. It really does make a difference in how you feel. Life is great even when it sucks. Every day we are alive is a blessing. Hope things get better soon ✌️
Girl, Starbucks is sooo good! Expensive, but good. Also I can very much relate to the feeling of just rotting, especially during the Summer. When I sleep too late, I tend to regret it and when I take a nap, I regret it because I tell myself that I don't need to be taking naps and that I'm lazy. It's also like no matter how long I sleep, I'm permanantly tired and I hate it. Like I just wanna lay in bed all day. And I wanna do more things but I'm just unmotivated. I'm also a college student and like you, I don't want to bring this energy into my upcoming (and last before I graduate) semester. On a more positive note, I hope your orientation went well! 🙂
If you like songwriting, check out Townes Van Zandt. He has a good line about wasting time in a song called 'To Live is to Fly'. If you listen to it, I'd recommend a live version from 'Live at the old quarter, Houston Tx, 1973" Won't say I love you, babe, Won't say I need you, babe, But I'm gonna get you babe And I will not do you wrong. Living's mostly wasting time And I waste my share of mine But it never feels to good, So let's don't take to long. You're soft as glass And I'm a gentle man We got the sky to talk about And the world to lie upon. Days, up and down they come Like rain on a congadrum Forget most, remember some But don't turn none away. Everything is not enough And nothin' is to much to bear. Where you been is good and gone All you keep is the getting there. To live is to fly All low and high, So shake the dust off of your wings And the sleep out of your eyes. It's goodbye to all my friends It's time to go again Think of all the poetry And the pickin' down the line I'll miss the system here The bottom's low And the treble's clear But it don't pay to think to much On things you leave behind. I will be gone But it won't be long I will be a bringin' back the melody And rhythm that I find. We all got holes to fill Them holes are all that's real. Some fall on you like a storm, Sometimes you dig your own. The choice is yours to make, Time is yours to take Some dive into the sea, Some toil upon the stone. To live is to fly all low and high, So shake the dust off of your wings And the sleep out of your eyes Shake the dust off of your wings And the tears out of your eyes
Turn to Jesus He loves you, He is the healer of the body And savior of the soul, There is True Hope in Jesus, God protects Psalms 91, He is the God of miracles Acts 2:21 And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved Jesus alone saves Trust Him with your salvation John 3:16 1 Corinthians 15 1-4 Moreover Brethren, i declare unto you the gospel which i preached unto you, which also ye have received, and with wherein ye stand By which also ye are saved, if you keep in memory what i preached unto you, unless ye have believed in vain, For i delivered unto you first of all that which i also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures And that He was buried, and that He rose again the third day according to the scriptures, Take care
Jesus saved me over 10 times from death and major injurys for me to realize Hes real and realize that satan is real too and wanted to kill me many times. Im set free from 6 major additions God is real and He really saves if we come to Him. He will not kidnap no one to heaven! He stands at the door of heart and knocks.
Felt this tbh, one thing that can help is doing things one by one slowly getting yourself into the hang of doing things without burning out. Even half ass doing something is good enough it all leads into something better for yourself. The earth is so depressing rn so dont try to stack too much on yourself🫶🏾
I love lili so much I want her to succeed and enjoy everything in life regardless of people and things that set her back from succeeding and enjoying everything in life, if your reading this, you can succeed from any bad situation in life I care and I have love in my heart for good people to live life to the fullest 🩷
i feel so sad that youve been in and out of foster homes and in and out of hospitals, but im sure youre stronger because of it. wish i could adopt u tbh
Your aura is so beautiful
youtube offered me this super relatable video of a girl talking about rotting and eating a chipotle bowl. nice
im 33 so i dont think you'll listen to this but you're ok. just do your best in school while you can. life is not that complicated, its actually way less complicated than you could possibly imagine. also feeling like trash or like a loser is completely normal, it usually goes away with sleep (if your brain is in overdrive at night get a white noise machine) so dont stay up too late.
Why do I relate so hard girl 😭 I know the feeling. I want to do more things but I lack motivation and still feel unfulfilled. I want to be busier but I just am not. I work part time to keep myself busy but it’s super boring and I count the hours until my shift is over. My friends are all away for college and my bf and I are long distance rn so I don’t rly have anyone to regularly hang out with. At school I don’t rly connect deeply with anyone enough to stay friends yk? I’m 20 and in college and I feel like I haven’t fulfilled the expectations. I don’t go out and party but I also don’t feel that studious either because I don’t know what to do for my career. I spend most of my time alone which I know isn’t good for me. I think my issue is I want to go out more but I have no one to do things with so I’m gonna try to push myself to go alone. I’m tired of wasting my life waiting for someone to do things with me. I want to set a schedule for myself too because I waste so much time getting distracted and stuff. I know we can do this sending lots of love 💗
I feel that, especially with the lack of motivation and working part-time.
You are not alone! You took the first step and spoke about your problems. You seem very reflected, but as a lot of young peeps your brain is in your way. Keep on going, you are doing great! Be proud of yourself, because every little step in the right direction brings you closer to your destination, even if you dont know yet where it is.
I feel you yo, just feeling like trash even though nothings wrong. Just gotta remember that it doesn’t last forever. Keep it up man
Hey girl kinda in the same boat rn but i mean in the past what has helped me the most is having a routine
its the mold in your walls
usually when I dress nicely and journal in the morning my day goes well
Sometimes, the epiphany of what we want (and the realization of our true worthiness, too, in some cases) lies behind the veil of feeling like "wasting it all away" or maybe "feeling like a worthless, useless and aimless piece of shit". Haha. It's really crazy. But at some point we realize that we chose that because - on some level, usually unconscious - we thought it benefited us. In my case it was the benefit of waking up to the facts that a) just being is completely okay, there is no need for goals, any goals, that aren't mine in the first place. There is no need to impress anyone or to prove myself to anyone. I don't owe anyone anything and nobody owes me anything, at all. Especially not my happiness. With this realization comes a freedom that needs some time to sink in because we propably did not experience that before. Oh, and b) we - all of us - are exactly at the point where we need to be, where we belong, right now, right this moment. We are at the perfect place at the perfect time. It might look like shit to others (But what do they actually know, chasing their dreams that might not be theirs in the game called Rat Race ;D) and maybe it even looks like shit to us but with freedom comes embracing. The embracing of all of it. The good, the bad, the beautiful and the ugly. This world is a heavenly playground if you think about it and - just for a minute - let all the doubts and all the fears fall away. There is everything here. All of the choices are here, for us to see and think about if we actually want to chose any. We don't have to, of course. We can chose to not chose anything. That's a valid choice, too. You'll find yourself, I am pretty sure of that. And I can propably promise it'll won't take you twenty years, like me. Haha. But all of that does not matter. None of it. I just am. That's all. I just am, breathing and walking on this beautiful little marble that we call Earth/Terra/Gaia. I send peace. I send love. You are worthy and you are seen.
i encourage nothing for anyone other than Matthew 6:24, Matthew 10:16 and Ephesians 6:12 - COVER me in MY SELF. I AM who i am, and i know what you know.
It’s ok just remember to never give up truly and always be yourself and always be confident in yourself and who you are inside and out. Thank you
I think I've commented something similar on another video of yours, but I relate to these videos so much! I know it's meant to be more of an unfiltered rant kind of video, and maybe I'm just projecting, but I think you really put things into words really well. I'm not very knowledgeable when it comes to adhd and other kinds of mental stuff but if you haven't already, I totally think you should look into seeing if you have undiagnosed adhd. I have adhd myself and experience a lot of the same feelings I think you're describing, which typing it out sounds insignificant but still I'd recommend it!
It really sucks not being able to get things done and having the only thing stopping you be a mental block, I know for me personally sometimes it can feel like I've spent my whole life doing nothing but thinking about what I should be doing. Feeling unproductive is the worst and it's hard to knock the feeling because there isn't a specific or tangible problem that I can try and tackle. I think that's why I also really love hyper fixating on school because it gives me a feeling of getting something done, and like I have a way to measure my productivity. What I want to say is that having a diagnosis can be really helpful since it can provide you with an explanation for the mental block, and a bunch of the feelings you might be having, and if it's right for you, medication could also help! Sorry this is so all over the place, I just imagine that in your situation it would be relieving to have an answer that isn't just blaming yourself. It's good to take responsibility for your life but it's not wrong to take a break, even if you think you haven't achieved anything yet.
I really wish I could just tell you something that would make things better for you, I wish the very best for you!! I'd love to get in contact, let me know if you'd ever like to chat. No pressure!
Also sorry for the weird ass spacing, this was super long winded and I didnt wanna just give you a wall of text lol, even though I still kinda did
your good!! thanks for the comment! yeah that’s not really something i’ve ever considered if i had if i’m being honest. i know it might sound immature but i really don’t want try medication and get reliant on it, but i know it’s helpful for many. sad you can relate but glad you found it relatable lol! yeah the school things very real i love being super focused on an achievable goal
I have such a love hate relationship with the UA-cam algorithm and i am so pleased it decided to drop this one on my home page. Thank you fo sharing
one big question is "what's the point of anything?" people feel bad about not doing what they don't feel like doing. We define a good day and productivity based on someone else's standards, even if we don't realize it. We live in a society that conditions us to think that we need to be famous for doing something, or at least make a lot of money doing something, even though ultimately it is a lot of hard work for nothing. I think the main reason why people procrastinate is that we have created a joyless empty meaningless world where most people aren't allowed to have joy. People think they SHOULD want to do things that they don't want to do. but why? Before world war 2 the Germans actually enacted lots of programs that designed society around people being happy, because they understood that a healthy society is a happy society. They called it "Strength Through Joy". With all the wokeism in our government you'd think that they'd want to create a society that actually is conducive to the population being happy. But strangely this "free society" does everything it can to make us as miserable as possible, forcing us into joyless, pointless lives where we have to go into debt in order to have a vacation. go figure.
i agree with a lot of that, but whether it’s from societal pressures or not, i want to live a life that ends with me feeling that i’ve accomplished a lot. not specifically “become super rich/successful” but more “have many unique and diverse experiences”. Unfortunately a lot of things take money today, even if it can be done on a cheaper budget (ex travel) which is part of the reason even people kinda aware of that still get into that ‘must be productive must work’ mindset. Asking “what’s the meaning to life” can sprout a lot of debates that all have fair points, and everyone will answer differently. I could live my life in leisure, because the is no “meaning to life’’ I must achieve, but even if it’s society set, there are things I want to experience and also impacts I want to leave. Ultimately everything is for nothing, even if I became to president of the world and changed everything I’d still die and nothing’d stop that. Putting meaning to things, even if there is no inherent meaning, is what makes life worth living. But even if you adopt that “nothing matters” mindset, you’re 99% certain to at least sometimes get caught up in societal expectations. I think it’s good to be aware of, but to also be okay with putting meaning on things, to feel like you have motivations to keep living. kinda got off topic lol wasn’t disagreeing with anything you said I just like conversation. I agree that there’s so many (negative/self deprecating) things we believe we should do that we try to make ourselves do, that me and nearly every other modern human engage in even if we shouldn’t, whether we’re aware or not
@@LiliMeltUltimately, only you can decide if something is worth your time and energy, value and meaning is what you assign to something, a thought exercise that you determine either consciously or subconsciously.
I understand how you feel. On some positive notes, I think recording your thoughts in video is just as good as writing them down. For me, I definitely enjoy documenting them no matter how cringe they are lmao. Also, for the college thing, def do not get caught up with trying to graduate early or like swamp yourself with classes. Really wasted my three and a half years, but luckily I have a second chance to try college again. Wishing the best for you!
Best of luck :)
You're doing great don't be too hard on yourself we can waste a life time regretting the time we wasted
Go outside and get some sunshine.
Go on a walk or hike. It really does make a difference in how you feel. Life is great even when it sucks. Every day we are alive is a blessing. Hope things get better soon ✌️
Ur so pretty ❤
@LiliMelt you very good at this, make sure and also write, don't quit, there is something about you girl you got this ok and share more songs
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Girl, Starbucks is sooo good! Expensive, but good. Also I can very much relate to the feeling of just rotting, especially during the Summer. When I sleep too late, I tend to regret it and when I take a nap, I regret it because I tell myself that I don't need to be taking naps and that I'm lazy. It's also like no matter how long I sleep, I'm permanantly tired and I hate it. Like I just wanna lay in bed all day. And I wanna do more things but I'm just unmotivated. I'm also a college student and like you, I don't want to bring this energy into my upcoming (and last before I graduate) semester. On a more positive note, I hope your orientation went well! 🙂
aw thanks! and yeah it went pretty good- got a free comp and school supplies so that’s a major plus!! :)
@@LiliMelt That's awesome :)
chose the greasiest character model, still swamped by simps
easy mode is real
If you like songwriting, check out Townes Van Zandt. He has a good line about wasting time in a song called 'To Live is to Fly'.
If you listen to it, I'd recommend a live version from 'Live at the old quarter, Houston Tx, 1973"
Won't say I love you, babe,
Won't say I need you, babe,
But I'm gonna get you babe
And I will not do you wrong.
Living's mostly wasting time
And I waste my share of mine
But it never feels to good,
So let's don't take to long.
You're soft as glass
And I'm a gentle man
We got the sky to talk about
And the world to lie upon.
Days, up and down they come
Like rain on a congadrum
Forget most, remember some
But don't turn none away.
Everything is not enough
And nothin' is to much to bear.
Where you been is good and gone
All you keep is the getting there.
To live is to fly
All low and high,
So shake the dust off of your wings
And the sleep out of your eyes.
It's goodbye to all my friends
It's time to go again
Think of all the poetry
And the pickin' down the line
I'll miss the system here
The bottom's low
And the treble's clear
But it don't pay to think to much
On things you leave behind.
I will be gone
But it won't be long
I will be a bringin' back the melody
And rhythm that I find.
We all got holes to fill
Them holes are all that's real.
Some fall on you like a storm,
Sometimes you dig your own.
The choice is yours to make,
Time is yours to take
Some dive into the sea,
Some toil upon the stone.
To live is to fly
all low and high,
So shake the dust off of your wings
And the sleep out of your eyes
Shake the dust off of your wings
And the tears out of your eyes
i dont know you but, i love you :)
Same
💐😊
Hello
Is that your knee or a booner?
@ascencio-o7b what?
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start play rocket league
join me
Turn to Jesus He loves you, He is the healer of the body And savior of the soul, There is True Hope in Jesus, God protects Psalms 91, He is the God of miracles Acts 2:21 And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved Jesus alone saves Trust Him with your salvation John 3:16
1 Corinthians 15 1-4
Moreover Brethren, i declare unto you the gospel which i preached unto you, which also ye have received, and with wherein ye stand
By which also ye are saved, if you keep in memory what i preached unto you, unless ye have believed in vain,
For i delivered unto you first of all that which i also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures
And that He was buried, and that He rose again the third day according to the scriptures, Take care
xd
Jesus saved me over 10 times from death and major injurys for me to realize Hes real and realize that satan is real too and wanted to kill me many times. Im set free from 6 major additions God is real and He really saves if we come to Him. He will not kidnap no one to heaven! He stands at the door of heart and knocks.
U single tho?
LoL. Shower some of that smelly grease off, please
she doesn't answer to you pig
Tick Tock Mr Wick... TICK TOCK..... tick tock, tick tock,tick tock NO TIME to DILLY DALLY Mr WICK!!🕐⏲️🕰️⏳😅
Felt this tbh, one thing that can help is doing things one by one slowly getting yourself into the hang of doing things without burning out. Even half ass doing something is good enough it all leads into something better for yourself. The earth is so depressing rn so dont try to stack too much on yourself🫶🏾
I love lili so much I want her to succeed and enjoy everything in life regardless of people and things that set her back from succeeding and enjoying everything in life, if your reading this, you can succeed from any bad situation in life I care and I have love in my heart for good people to live life to the fullest 🩷