You should read the book “parenting with love and logic” it’s such a good one and will help you parent & discipline your little girl without crossing boundaries and squashing her independence ❤️❤️
What Priscilla was talking about is called mandated reporting. All the employers at Life Line are mandated reporters, they have to report it, or they can get in trouble. As an educator I am one too. If any student tells me they are abused, then I have to report it, it is illegal not too. I am sure most people watching this know that, I just wanted to let everyone who does not, know what it is. Priscilla, keep telling your truth, it is healthy to get it out and talk about. I cannot imagine what you had to go through, you seem to be trying to work through your trauma. Keep up the fight. Many of us are here to support you in what you need and have went through.
Wow.. this is such a traumatic experience for you all because they wanted to keep you in a traumatic life cycle in the order. I'm so sorry you had to go thru this 😢
I absolutely love these kind of videos, where you sit and chat like this, because it feels like we’re part of it. …. which is really valuable to many of us as some of us don’t have close girlfriends we can sit and chat with about this stuff. So thank you for sharing your conversation with us 💞 it really helps with my recovery
Having genuine girlfriends and a connection with other’s is so important! Thank you for being here with us 🫶🏻 All of you feel like family and friends 🥰
@@PriscillaTucker I’m realising just how important girlfriends and connections with others are. I haven’t had many romantic relationships either but I’ve learned over the years that real girlfriends are definitely important and valuable relationships and that we actually need them 💞 we can live happily without romantic partners but I think girlfriends definitely enrich our lives in ways no other relationships can.
Omg, I'm sorry you went through that Priscilla. Just know that you have an army of supporters rallying behind you. Just know that, we won't let you go through this alone
Thanks for sharing your story and being vulnerable. It's not an easy topic to talk about, but you are a strong person and speaking up is going to help people! The world is becoming more aware of the abuse in cults from brave people like you
Thank you Priscilla for opening up and telling your story/sharing your story with us/the world and breaking the cycle! You both are inspirational! Super proud of both of you! ❤
Omg Priscilla - thank you for telling your story. Amazing you found it less traumatic than being in the order. My story is nowhere close, but dad was LDS and mom was a neurotic narcissist, I went through a rehab & half way house that was dangerous AF. I slept every night with all of my clothes and shoes on - finally got away but was all alone in a border town. Thankfully I got hold of an older woman who wired me funds to travel 800 miles to safety. I was not as young as you and lord knows how you made it through. Appreciate your honesty and courage (also to Amanda for helping to bring this to light). I’m so glad your mother found an opening to try and understand you. And yeah, the mother’s curse - “I hope one day you have a daughter that’s just like you”. Thanks, mom 🙄 Unfortunately my daughter ended up in a poly situation (it was sneaky and unbeknownst to me). It lasted almost 20 years they stole everything from my daughter. He & wife waited until she was barely legal - my ex (her father) and I finally took her w/out much warning & her youngest child. She’s going through a shit ton of counseling and navigating the courts where she’s safe for the most part. Her ex, a predator, tracked her down 1000 miles away while her dad was gone. Then he found the audacity to return the following week. I guarantee it will never happen again. I’m listening to you all so I know how to navigate my own feelings and how to help my daughter w hers - just by listening, being present and giving her time and space. I still want something bad to happen to him - meanwhile my daughter is finally practicing standing up for herself. I keep reinforcing “use your voice”. Meanwhile the first wife has employment at DOD, talk about wanting so bad to drop a dime… Again, thank you to both of you women for helping me. And my adult daughter.
Oh my gosh, what a traumatic experience on all sides. I’m so glad she was able to get out of that. And I’m grateful you got it of your bad situation as well! The world can be such a scary place, whether it’s because of strangers, or your own family. So building a community of good people is so important. So glad your daughter has her parents helping her stick up for herself ❤
While i might not know you off here i feel inspired by both of your stories please never stop sharing because your stories will help others just like you who dont know where to go who can help.
Lovely to see you Priscilla. I love your hair. I’m about to pluck up the courage to make an appointment to get my super long hair cut to how you have yours. Big hugs 🤗 and lots of love to both of you 💞
Thank you! It was so freeing to cut to cut my hair, and I’ve loved it for the past couple years. I’m craving longer hair now finally, so I may get extensions ❤
@@PriscillaTucker yes, it’s the freedom I’m craving. And I’m sure I’ll want my long hair back at some point as it’s a great help in many ways, but I want to feel the freedom of having it short. And I think it does the hair good to cut it back after it’s been long for a long time. Yeah, extensions are an option these days although I’m not sure I could be bothered with all that. But wigs could be a great option and they could be fun :)
I can relate to you and your relationship with your mother. I know what it's like, unfortunately. It's a curse. And unfortunately most people don't have the same experience and are unable to believe it. Very few people who didn't have to go through the same upbringing understand this. Life would be much better if more people would accept that not every mother is a good mother.
Like almost every girl, I wasn't diagnosed with autism until my late 30's, and I'm now dealing with the trauma of growing up like that, and I can look back and see all the ways it hurt me and hindered me. My son is autistic, and I saw it in him before he was two, and now my goal is to protect him from all the things that tore me apart and broke me down growing up, just like you and your daughter. I try to think about how he won't have the scars, and can be a much happier adult.
Same here. I was diagnosed in my late 40’s with autism, then adhd in my early 50’s, and C-PTSD from all the trauma that comes from being undiagnosed and unsupported. Best of luck to you, it’s not easy to get through it 💞💓💞
It feels so good to be able to give them a better experience and life, but it is heartbreaking at the same time… realizing that no one ever took care of you or protected you the same way. But all we can do is heal through the way they get to experience life ❤
@PriscillaTucker It really does, I had a friend watching him play with some other kids and comment how nice it was to see him just doing little aspie thing that we never got to do. He can stim, or need to take time alone, or ask for things to be quiet, and he knows I'm going to have his back. I can intervene if he's starting to struggle because I know what to look for. He'll have his own trauma, but it won't be about his neurodivergence. I try not to cry for the little girl I was, but it's hard not to resent it, and even harder to not resent the difficulty I've had as an adult seeking a diagnosis and the protection it affords. I'm fortunate that I have a good relationship with my mum, so she's learning how to interact with him in better ways, and with me too. It took a while before she actually believed it though, I was so, so, so furious when she kept saying "I never saw that in you as a kid." Yes, I know you didn't, that's the problem.
I was thee very first person to be kicked out of LifeLine. Everytime I stand up I'd push off the shadow who held my belt loop. When our parents came we had that weird group therapy ting other kids and their parents and I kept trying talk to my mom to take me home this place is nuts this isnt the place for me. They kept telling me dont talk to her and they telling my mom don't even look at him. I picked up a computer and threw it at guy that was telling her not to look at me or talk to me. I got tackled and brawled with "security". The Owner dude next morning had me in his office apologizing that I should be with others of my substances (this was 97 I already been shotting heroin coke and meth since 95) that maybe adult program would be better and he wants me out the facility soon as possible. That place wack. One the Adult staff guys Breen worked security at underground illegal raves and then worked lifeline too..smh
If they flat out said no to you then you may continuously ask why not or try and change their mind but by not giving you a straight answer it shuts you up and that’s all they really wanted in my opinion
Exactly. Plus they wanted to manipulate us into doing extra chores and whatever else they wanted, in hopes that they would let us do whatever we had asked to do.
@@tennillepatterson5500 that’s such a good way to put it! It helped me be able to speak my mind to my mom, just for that small period of time. while simultaneously somehow making me even MORE of a people pleaser 😭
Priscilla was your mom your dad first choice to marry and also how many woman did your dad supposed to marry before he died? How many siblings did both of your parents have? How many children did your birth dad and mom decided to have?
I believe so! I never heard of him trying to get another wife, but I’m sure it happened. My dad actually only had 5 siblings from his mom. But I believe my mom has 11 siblings? Possibly 12! And my parents had 3 children together before my dad passed! But I’m sure they planned to have 10+ like all other order families.
Please talk about drugs and alcohol in these cults…it all looks like a weird cult definitely so it’s hard to believe there’s just families with a boat load of dope all tweaked out…if it sounds right this means we got a buncha polygamists just all strung out on drugs and that’s gonna be a factor in all of this…if it sounds right
You should read the book “parenting with love and logic” it’s such a good one and will help you parent & discipline your little girl without crossing boundaries and squashing her independence ❤️❤️
What Priscilla was talking about is called mandated reporting. All the employers at Life Line are mandated reporters, they have to report it, or they can get in trouble. As an educator I am one too. If any student tells me they are abused, then I have to report it, it is illegal not too. I am sure most people watching this know that, I just wanted to let everyone who does not, know what it is.
Priscilla, keep telling your truth, it is healthy to get it out and talk about. I cannot imagine what you had to go through, you seem to be trying to work through your trauma. Keep up the fight. Many of us are here to support you in what you need and have went through.
Wow.. this is such a traumatic experience for you all because they wanted to keep you in a traumatic life cycle in the order. I'm so sorry you had to go thru this 😢
I absolutely love these kind of videos, where you sit and chat like this, because it feels like we’re part of it.
…. which is really valuable to many of us as some of us don’t have close girlfriends we can sit and chat with about this stuff.
So thank you for sharing your conversation with us 💞 it really helps with my recovery
Having genuine girlfriends and a connection with other’s is so important! Thank you for being here with us 🫶🏻
All of you feel like family and friends 🥰
@@PriscillaTucker I’m realising just how important girlfriends and connections with others are.
I haven’t had many romantic relationships either but I’ve learned over the years that real girlfriends are definitely important and valuable relationships and that we actually need them 💞 we can live happily without romantic partners but I think girlfriends definitely enrich our lives in ways no other relationships can.
Omg, I'm sorry you went through that Priscilla. Just know that you have an army of supporters rallying behind you. Just know that, we won't let you go through this alone
Thank you! That means so much ❤
You are not alone. By nine or 10 i had lost the will to live.
Im quite old now. The scars are still there but ive had an amazing life in spite of it.
Thanks for sharing your story and being vulnerable. It's not an easy topic to talk about, but you are a strong person and speaking up is going to help people! The world is becoming more aware of the abuse in cults from brave people like you
Thank you Priscilla for opening up and telling your story/sharing your story with us/the world and breaking the cycle! You both are inspirational! Super proud of both of you! ❤
Thank you so much! ❤
Omg Priscilla - thank you for telling your story. Amazing you found it less traumatic than being in the order. My story is nowhere close, but dad was LDS and mom was a neurotic narcissist, I went through a rehab & half way house that was dangerous AF. I slept every night with all of my clothes and shoes on - finally got away but was all alone in a border town. Thankfully I got hold of an older woman who wired me funds to travel 800 miles to safety. I was not as young as you and lord knows how you made it through.
Appreciate your honesty and courage (also to Amanda for helping to bring this to light).
I’m so glad your mother found an opening to try and understand you.
And yeah, the mother’s curse - “I hope one day you have a daughter that’s just like you”. Thanks, mom 🙄
Unfortunately my daughter ended up in a poly situation (it was sneaky and unbeknownst to me). It lasted almost 20 years they stole everything from my daughter. He & wife waited until she was barely legal - my ex (her father) and I finally took her w/out much warning & her youngest child. She’s going through a shit ton of counseling and navigating the courts where she’s safe for the most part. Her ex, a predator, tracked her down 1000 miles away while her dad was gone. Then he found the audacity to return the following week. I guarantee it will never happen again.
I’m listening to you all so I know how to navigate my own feelings and how to help my daughter w hers - just by listening, being present and giving her time and space.
I still want something bad to happen to him - meanwhile my daughter is finally practicing standing up for herself. I keep reinforcing “use your voice”. Meanwhile the first wife has employment at DOD, talk about wanting so bad to drop a dime…
Again, thank you to both of you women for helping me. And my adult daughter.
Oh my gosh, what a traumatic experience on all sides. I’m so glad she was able to get out of that. And I’m grateful you got it of your bad situation as well!
The world can be such a scary place, whether it’s because of strangers, or your own family. So building a community of good people is so important.
So glad your daughter has her parents helping her stick up for herself ❤
While i might not know you off here i feel inspired by both of your stories please never stop sharing because your stories will help others just like you who dont know where to go who can help.
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Lovely to see you Priscilla.
I love your hair. I’m about to pluck up the courage to make an appointment to get my super long hair cut to how you have yours.
Big hugs 🤗 and lots of love to both of you 💞
Thank you! It was so freeing to cut to cut my hair, and I’ve loved it for the past couple years. I’m craving longer hair now finally, so I may get extensions ❤
@@PriscillaTucker yes, it’s the freedom I’m craving. And I’m sure I’ll want my long hair back at some point as it’s a great help in many ways, but I want to feel the freedom of having it short. And I think it does the hair good to cut it back after it’s been long for a long time.
Yeah, extensions are an option these days although I’m not sure I could be bothered with all that. But wigs could be a great option and they could be fun :)
Thank you for sharing this Priscilla, I’m grateful to have heard it ❤️
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I can relate to you and your relationship with your mother.
I know what it's like, unfortunately. It's a curse.
And unfortunately most people don't have the same experience and are unable to believe it. Very few people who didn't have to go through the same upbringing understand this. Life would be much better if more people would accept that not every mother is a good mother.
Like almost every girl, I wasn't diagnosed with autism until my late 30's, and I'm now dealing with the trauma of growing up like that, and I can look back and see all the ways it hurt me and hindered me. My son is autistic, and I saw it in him before he was two, and now my goal is to protect him from all the things that tore me apart and broke me down growing up, just like you and your daughter. I try to think about how he won't have the scars, and can be a much happier adult.
Same here. I was diagnosed in my late 40’s with autism, then adhd in my early 50’s, and C-PTSD from all the trauma that comes from being undiagnosed and unsupported.
Best of luck to you, it’s not easy to get through it 💞💓💞
@@autumn5852sending love to you, and healing from those experiences ❤
It feels so good to be able to give them a better experience and life, but it is heartbreaking at the same time… realizing that no one ever took care of you or protected you the same way. But all we can do is heal through the way they get to experience life ❤
@PriscillaTucker It really does, I had a friend watching him play with some other kids and comment how nice it was to see him just doing little aspie thing that we never got to do. He can stim, or need to take time alone, or ask for things to be quiet, and he knows I'm going to have his back. I can intervene if he's starting to struggle because I know what to look for. He'll have his own trauma, but it won't be about his neurodivergence. I try not to cry for the little girl I was, but it's hard not to resent it, and even harder to not resent the difficulty I've had as an adult seeking a diagnosis and the protection it affords. I'm fortunate that I have a good relationship with my mum, so she's learning how to interact with him in better ways, and with me too. It took a while before she actually believed it though, I was so, so, so furious when she kept saying "I never saw that in you as a kid." Yes, I know you didn't, that's the problem.
@@PriscillaTucker thank you 🙏🏽 you’re so loving 💞
7:23 imagine being so terrified that that is your option! To just destroy yourself!!
These cults have a lot to answer for 😢
15:54 it's a Tennyson quote, featured in the movie Clue...ours is not to reason why, ours is but to do or die
Child predators, any sexual predators never ever change!!!! My oldest brother was one of them! They are true monsters and there is no excuse!!!!
There's a book titled The Courage to Heal which is about 30 years old and unfortunately it was all centred around the victims being blamed
That facility sounds like it shouldn't exist.
I think it got shut down!
Is drug and alcohol use common in the order? I know it's not allowed, but I'm curious if it was something people got away with
Thank you for sharing your story, Priscilla, and being a cycle breaker.
Priscilla, is your mom from the Petersons?
Yes her mom is a Peterson ❤, guess you were asking her😅
@@Valiant.Unicorn Thank you. Too many of those Petersons.
Yes, my mom is a Peterson and my dad is a kingston.
Errr...
Maybe that poor girl should have been put somewhere else. With good therapists.
I was thee very first person to be kicked out of LifeLine. Everytime I stand up I'd push off the shadow who held my belt loop. When our parents came we had that weird group therapy ting other kids and their parents and I kept trying talk to my mom to take me home this place is nuts this isnt the place for me. They kept telling me dont talk to her and they telling my mom don't even look at him. I picked up a computer and threw it at guy that was telling her not to look at me or talk to me. I got tackled and brawled with "security". The Owner dude next morning had me in his office apologizing that I should be with others of my substances (this was 97 I already been shotting heroin coke and meth since 95) that maybe adult program would be better and he wants me out the facility soon as possible. That place wack. One the Adult staff guys Breen worked security at underground illegal raves and then worked lifeline too..smh
If they flat out said no to you then you may continuously ask why not or try and change their mind but by not giving you a straight answer it shuts you up and that’s all they really wanted in my opinion
Exactly. Plus they wanted to manipulate us into doing extra chores and whatever else they wanted, in hopes that they would let us do whatever we had asked to do.
This facility allowed you to process but then they sent you right back to the trauma. So weird.
@@tennillepatterson5500 that’s such a good way to put it! It helped me be able to speak my mind to my mom, just for that small period of time. while simultaneously somehow making me even MORE of a people pleaser 😭
That rehab should not have let her go home to the same situation that made her an addiction in the first place . That wasn’t her fault
Definitely. I wholeheartedly agree 🫶🏻
Priscilla was your mom your dad first choice to marry and also how many woman did your dad supposed to marry before he died? How many siblings did both of your parents have? How many children did your birth dad and mom decided to have?
I believe so! I never heard of him trying to get another wife, but I’m sure it happened. My dad actually only had 5 siblings from his mom. But I believe my mom has 11 siblings? Possibly 12! And my parents had 3 children together before my dad passed! But I’m sure they planned to have 10+ like all other order families.
Hello Beautiful Ladies 😘
Heartbreaking
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Please talk about drugs and alcohol in these cults…it all looks like a weird cult definitely so it’s hard to believe there’s just families with a boat load of dope all tweaked out…if it sounds right this means we got a buncha polygamists just all strung out on drugs and that’s gonna be a factor in all of this…if it sounds right
We’ll have to do an episode on this!
Welcome Back Priscilla! more stories about the escape in this episode.