in the world of Zoom BDD has become my nightmare , I hate to look at myself through cameras , or videos . I cant remember the last time i took a selfie . Every time i see myself through a camera its just a lot of self hate , not wanting to be the person who I am , because i feel unattractive . I feel so raw and exposed , as if im opening myself up for everyone to see ...
For me, it started at around 10 years of age. My mother would tell me I'm getting fat and would withhold food from me during meals. My brothers and friends would make fun of me while they would eat all the food they wanted. School mates and friends started giving me fat nicknames. I then started starving myself and finally reached a weight where my family and friends stopped calling me fat. At that point, I decided I needed to look even better and so I continued to starve myself and began to lift weights. I hated being around food and would feel a lot of anxiety. In high school, I started gaining lots of positive attention from school mates and girls as a result of having a lean body. By the time I was in college, I was an avid fitness guy. Then I got married and became depressed and I stopped caring about my appearance. I gained 130 pounds and started to avoid public places and hated being around people. After about 6 years of this, I began to notice the disgust on people's faces everywhere I went. I decided I needed to care again so I started dieting and exercising. I have now lost 130 pounds began to once again feel anxiety every time I am around food or if I have to go to an event that involves food. I now receive a lot of positive attention but I don't believe it. I think those people are just "being nice" and don't really believe I look good. These days I realize I am old (54), half bald and my body is lumpy (disgusting). I hate the feeling of food in my body but I love eating food. So I exercise 2 hours a day, 7 days a week. I try not to be around high-calorie foods because I can't seem to help myself and end up binging. After a day of binging, I add to my exercise routine to try and burn it off.
when Omari said give me something else why this, and then pointed out the fact anyone with mental health will always feel like what they have or going through is the worst, really resonated with me. been through tinnitus anxiety thought that was the WORST, then went thru Eye freckle insecurity/obsession, was severely DEPRESSED wanted to cry every day. then lastly went through BDD which was focused on my Hair, more so anxiety/paranoia around balding...now this nearly took me out. Now I laugh at all these obsessions and think back to why I thought these were so important lmao. but it goes to show you whatever you are going through at the time will always seem like the worst thing
That was so enlightening and informative! I myself as a man has BDD. Although it is not as severe. This was much needed. Keep men and BDD topics coming! I missed this live stream though. Hopefully I’ll catch the next one. 🤗
I got the same condition as omari... My eyes. Whenever I hopefully sees my self as OK in the mirrors, I see myself looking stressed, panda eyes, hard to breath, panic. Worried bout how others sees this and being judged as sick or stressed. When avoiding the mirror or reflection, it's on my mind how I will look and when the opportunity comes to look myself, I'm disappointed and drowning my mood and repetition of scared being judged sick or looking stressed
Im 38 years year and in the last couple of days come to realise I probably have bdd . I can relate to all you guys but mostly callum... my whole life I've struggled like this
Not sure if this is the exact problem I have but basically I'm a 36 year old straight male but 20 years ago when I was 16 I was mistaken for a girl which has had a severe effect on the way I feel as a man to this day, sometimes I think about it more than I do other times but now I always worry about going out somewhere in case it happens again, the only time I don't worry about this is when I have a full beard, if I am completely clean-shaven I worry that I look too feminine, has this happened to any other men out there, or does any other man have this feeling?
I'm having a bad spike atm these videos are helping me feel grounded
in the world of Zoom BDD has become my nightmare , I hate to look at myself through cameras , or videos . I cant remember the last time i took a selfie . Every time i see myself through a camera its just a lot of self hate , not wanting to be the person who I am , because i feel unattractive . I feel so raw and exposed , as if im opening myself up for everyone to see ...
Thanks for giving this inspiration to remove more darkness.
For me, it started at around 10 years of age. My mother would tell me I'm getting fat and would withhold food from me during meals. My brothers and friends would make fun of me while they would eat all the food they wanted. School mates and friends started giving me fat nicknames. I then started starving myself and finally reached a weight where my family and friends stopped calling me fat. At that point, I decided I needed to look even better and so I continued to starve myself and began to lift weights. I hated being around food and would feel a lot of anxiety. In high school, I started gaining lots of positive attention from school mates and girls as a result of having a lean body. By the time I was in college, I was an avid fitness guy. Then I got married and became depressed and I stopped caring about my appearance. I gained 130 pounds and started to avoid public places and hated being around people. After about 6 years of this, I began to notice the disgust on people's faces everywhere I went. I decided I needed to care again so I started dieting and exercising. I have now lost 130 pounds began to once again feel anxiety every time I am around food or if I have to go to an event that involves food. I now receive a lot of positive attention but I don't believe it. I think those people are just "being nice" and don't really believe I look good. These days I realize I am old (54), half bald and my body is lumpy (disgusting). I hate the feeling of food in my body but I love eating food. So I exercise 2 hours a day, 7 days a week. I try not to be around high-calorie foods because I can't seem to help myself and end up binging. After a day of binging, I add to my exercise routine to try and burn it off.
when Omari said give me something else why this, and then pointed out the fact anyone with mental health will always feel like what they have or going through is the worst, really resonated with me. been through tinnitus anxiety thought that was the WORST, then went thru Eye freckle insecurity/obsession, was severely DEPRESSED wanted to cry every day. then lastly went through BDD which was focused on my Hair, more so anxiety/paranoia around balding...now this nearly took me out. Now I laugh at all these obsessions and think back to why I thought these were so important lmao. but it goes to show you whatever you are going through at the time will always seem like the worst thing
This needs more attention
That was so enlightening and informative! I myself as a man has BDD. Although it is not as severe. This was much needed. Keep men and BDD topics coming! I missed this live stream though. Hopefully I’ll catch the next one. 🤗
Thank you this was very informative,
I got the same condition as omari... My eyes. Whenever I hopefully sees my self as OK in the mirrors, I see myself looking stressed, panda eyes, hard to breath, panic. Worried bout how others sees this and being judged as sick or stressed. When avoiding the mirror or reflection, it's on my mind how I will look and when the opportunity comes to look myself, I'm disappointed and drowning my mood and repetition of scared being judged sick or looking stressed
Im 38 years year and in the last couple of days come to realise I probably have bdd . I can relate to all you guys but mostly callum... my whole life I've struggled like this
I can relate all too well with your stories. Thank you for sharing
God...all are so handsome :)
Not sure if this is the exact problem I have but basically I'm a 36 year old straight male but 20 years ago when I was 16 I was mistaken for a girl which has had a severe effect on the way I feel as a man to this day, sometimes I think about it more than I do other times but now I always worry about going out somewhere in case it happens again, the only time I don't worry about this is when I have a full beard, if I am completely clean-shaven I worry that I look too feminine, has this happened to any other men out there, or does any other man have this feeling?
When are you getting back to posting?