Fi’s Fight Back - increase day and answering some questions!
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- Опубліковано 28 вер 2024
- The day before weigh day… increase day… lots of anxiety. But we managed!
Answering some of the questions I’ve gotten in the comments here.
#anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryispossible #edrecovery #inpatient #dayinthelife #recovery
You’ve got this, Fi! Recovery is not linear. It’s ok to have difficult days. Now get out there and slay the dragon ( weigh day) 😍😍😍
Thank you for explaining I suffer like this daily but with my anxiety and OCD,which I know is totally different but I 100% know about them voices and its a daily battle for me too. One step out of line in the routine and my head with go into overdrive. Keep it up Fi with everyone's support you'll make that tiny break through each and every day x
Yes that how I feel with clinical depression.
Totally get this! Weigh days are the worst! There is no winning with eating disorder voices. One day it will stop shouting and just be an odd whisper every now and then that you will learn to ignore. 👍👍
Yes that it.
You are doing so well Fi. The road to recovery is not smooth or predictable, and that's what makes it such a challenge. You should be very proud of yourself, we all support you ! 😘
When you were describing putting things off for a few days, I do the exact same thing it's so difficult sometimes! I do it because I feel like it needs to be the 'right', perfect moment for it otherwise I've 'wasted' it. Like if I'm not having a perfect day and I want a nice bath or something I'll feel like I'll waste the bath on me not being in a good enough mood and not being able to be in the moment 'properly'. Which part of me knows is silly because it's good things that turn a day around and make it better but oh well! You're doing brilliant by the way!
I can totally relate to all you just said
This is the first video of yours that I've seen, and I am absolutely floored by your courage. I don't have an ED, but I do have anxiety that is periodically very severe, and issues with obsessive thinking. I recognize the agony of it in this video. Your constant battle against your anxiety and fear shows so much strength. I wish you all the best, and I hope your days get easier. ❤️
I get it. You got this and I’m glad you have people who love you. God bless you sweetheart. Sending love from Alabama
You are winning because you are telling us about what anorexia does to your mind and in doing so you are taking away it's power!!
Wow, very interesting and insightful to hear you explain the ins and outs of your anxiety. Thank you for sharing, Fi! You're doing incredible, and you deserve the world! Keep going, girl!
I struggled with an ED all through my teens. I was obsessed with but also terrified of the scale. It was a way for me to make sure I wasn’t gaining weight but also terrified I would see that number go up. So I can sympathize with how ur feeling. I biggest thing for ME was to get rid of my scale (I’m in my 40s) and I haven’t owned one since. I want to share that it is possible to recover but it is, just like mental health, a struggle sometimes to fight the voices but its ok. U got this Fi! I believe in you! Hugs from 🇨🇦
Wishing you well! Sending you all the good vibes I can! Hang in there and keep on pushing to get the Fi back that you want!! 🇺🇸
You’re an inspiration. Keep on fighting. You got this. Sending ❤️🙏🏻❤️
Thankyou Ellen! xxx
I’ve been following your progress for awhile now, and I’m pulling for you every day! You are truly an inspiration!🥰
Hi Fi Ithink your amazing. You are and watching your video's are really helping me so thank you for sharing your recovery with us. X
Your explanation with why weigh day is so anxious for you made so much sense to me- I found myself nodding along. I believe in you 🙂 keep on making small attainable goals for yourself. You will get there!
I understand Fi, it’s all about control, The secret is to accept that your body is amazing and trust that it can control what you need to eat. Let go of this tight hold and let your body do it’s job. ( ex anorectic) x
You explained this all so well. It's like you can read my mind 😉 but you're talking so much more rationally than you were in earlier videos which is a great sign of cognitive improvement 👍🙌 I really hope your weigh day went OK xx you got this 💪❤️💯
You're doing great, Fi ! We believe in you ❤️
I’ve actually been this way all of my life.. but I went from 4th-11th grade with everyone saying I was fat. I started being purging after school, I went back and forth with that and starving myself. I have a beautiful daughter and I exercised a lot when I was pregnant with her. Then I lost my second child at 2 months pregnant because I did the same thing. My 3rd pregnancy I let myself go and started Back at everything after I gave birth. Today I’m 56 and still struggle. It’s not something that just goes away, it’s something that you have to realize that your life is worth the fight, and fight every day.❤️🙏🏻
I bet your dogs just love it when you go on the walks 🥰 keep fighting, you are doing amazing!!
You’re so strong. You’ve got this! We all believe in you❤️
You are doing so well. By the way, love the cardigan you were wearing...colours really suit you..
I’m so, so proud of you. You are such a lovely person and I am sending love to you from Colorado. ❤️
White noise of panic! That’s one of the best ways to describe overwhelming anxiety that I can very much relate to, even though I don’t have an ED
Your bravery is so inspiring Fi you are doing incredible ❤ Im so proud of you. Those socks 🤣 im on a mission to find cheeky socks to send you now.
I just want to say, even if you can’t necessarily see it in the moment sometimes, you do seem like you’re doing better. (I don’t mean physically, especially when that’s a trigger for you). But what I do mean by that, is that watching the last handful of videos, even though you may still be struggling, you’re smiling a lot more than in earlier videos.
…in any case, I’m rooting for you.
Progress is progress - no matter how slow…
I've been working on appreciating myself by like, using my nice crockery and candles on normal days. Bc you don't need to have everything to be perfect in order to do a nice thing, or so I'm learning!
As someone who has been there I couldn’t suggest going to a recovery facility more than anything. I had to to myself out of my home Enviornment in order to really recover. It also gave my family some peace of mind.. not sure how it works over in the UK but there’s so many recovery options to choose from
Is it a particular number on the scale that is intimidating or is it a visual that is intimidating? If it isn't too much, do particular weight in numbers have a particular impact on how you view yourself? I love you. Please keep pushing yourself I'm recovering. You are beautiful and worthy of a happy life. I hope one day you see yourself as the beautiful woman you are as you progress in your program. ❤
You’ve got this
Sending love 💕
Love all your pun socks 🤣👍
You got this girl💫💞
I can totally relate to the not being able to win on a weigh day as if I gain the Ed will give me hell but if I don't my real life will be hell because I will either have to go back to hospital or just not make progress with what I can physically do😭 unfortunately we need to gain weight to quieten down the Ed voice eventually 🤔🤔🙈🙈
You must have so many teaspoons now 🤣😅
Have you considered hypnosis for the anxiety and fears. We looked into it when my autistic son was small as he had a very limited diet but at the time was too young. Considering again now he's older for his anxiety and ocd xxx
Can you do a weigh day and have them not tell you the number? You focus on feeling strong and healthy without a number attached, and they track the numbers and tell you if you are ontrack or not (no number atrached)?
Could you describe what makes an appointment difficult or not difficult?
Hi Fi, do you follow Megsy recovery, I love her channel? You’re so brave, keep going x
the next best thing!!
In addition to being able to do hard things (which you can ABSOLUTELY DO), you can also have nice things-you DO deserve that pretty outfit, you DO deserve to watch the show, and you DO deserve to eat the yummy things/bars you want. You do not have to earn the right to those things.
Hey Fi, I’ve enjoyed watching your videos. I’m curious, do you have a therapist as part of your team and services?
I don’t want to be mean at ALL, but I was just wondering if you have supplements during the day because I know weight restoration requires lots of energy
U are amazing lovely .I love the way you do your hair .what kind of braids are they ? I am sending u love and healing energy. 🫂
My heart goes out to you. I have anxiety and OCD and I'm a recovering alcoholic. It's amazing the torture our minds can put us through!!
I was wondering if you are allowed to drink regular coffee or is it decaf since caffeine can lower appetite? Just curious!
Good luck with your recovery
@@harmonyhope1709 thank you. I am in recovery for OCD after going to OCD therapy for months and I will also have 4 years sober in March 🙂
@@shanahaney3272 you're doing amazingly tackling your demons, keep going x
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I hope that in the near future you will actually look forward to eating a meal without the guilt. I had an ED 30 years ago and the guilt eventually does go away… WE LOVE YOU FI!!!!!
When i was little i went to my beloved grandma to see her. As a curious little girl i was looking her glasses and porcelain plates inside a fine looking furniture. I was so amazed by them. They were so beautiful!!
When i expressed my admiration about them to my grandma; she said that she have them from her wedding but she waits for a special occasion to use them because they are so expensive and beautiful.
When i went home i told my mom what happened. She said my grandma has never use her porcelain plates and glasses. Because she waits that special moment to use them. My grandma is 86 and still waits that special moment.
I leant that moment to never wait to use something because is "too special". Nice and special things are to enjoy them everyday. I adore my grandma; she deserves to eat to that plates every single day.
Awww yes my grandparents were the same I think it's because they lived through the war and felt more attached to the nice things and they held such value?!
@@harmonyhope1709 yes very likely!
My father knew very well to appreciate the special things. He would bring home fast food and serve it up on his Wedgwood China. Miss my dad now.
I love this comment
@@Lunarangst thank you
It's great that your mum asked that question. Keep questioning the anorexia, it will help you find perspective and to know what voice is the anorexia and what one is healthy Fi
What an amazing heartfelt video..thanks for sharing your Journey..Remember YOU are worth it...
Fi the dragon slayer that can do hard things! Every step of the way counts and we are here for you! Sending lot of hugs from the tropic so you won't feel that cold! :)
this is a quote I really love and I hope it brings you some hope because you are amazing and I believe in you:
“One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson
about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said, "My son, the battle is between
two "wolves" inside us all.
One is Evil.
It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed,
arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies,
false pride, superiority, and ego.
The other is Good.
It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."
The grandson thought about it for a minute
and then asked his grandfather:
"Which wolf wins?"
The old Cherokee simply replied,
"The one you feed.”
― Cherokee Metaphor
I thought I'm the only person who has these strange rituals before the weigh day. it makes me sad you struggle with the same problem and anxieties. I also can't explain why it is so intense the day before, but it's true - I tend to plan everything to be perfect and exactly the same as before last weighing. I wish us both to get rid of it as soon as possible. And for now - just keep fighting, you're very strong. xx
Anorexia is an addiction to not eating. All addictions are actually a symptom of other issues. Anxiety from fear of failure, of not being able to control things that you haven’t been willing to accept and found coping strategies to deal with, is what is making you focus on controlling what you eat, which you have perfected. You have to be willing to face your fears and create a strategy for moving forward regarding whatever it is you are trying to avoid. Perhaps your fears are around being independent and leading an adult life? So, instead of focusing on your real issues, you are focusing on your controlling your body and what and how much you eat. If you don’t start focusing on your real issues you will continue to struggle. You are human, so imperfect. It’s fine to try things and fail. Every day is a new beginning! One day at a time! Sometimes it’s one moment at a time! If you are willing to focus your thoughts on what your fears are and devise strategies to handle them, for sure you’ll get better! You can do this! Life can be amazingly wonderful when you stop punishing yourself for being imperfect! Bless you!
Do they allow you to be weighed without being told the number? Can be they give you a thumbs up if you are on goal? I know when I was struggling I found it was easier to not know the number. We perfectionists do this to ourselves because we need control over fear. Eventually you will be able to accept that you do not to be perfect. Here for you and your journey. Hugs
Create a vision board for yourself.
Thank you for explaining xx
Can I ask a question…. When you’ve had weigh day i imagine they don’t tell you if you’ve gained or anything but is it not then a little easier just because you know nothing bad has happened? At one point did it get easier before? Sorry for the questions I’m just so invested in your journey! You’re doing amazing xxxx
You are so incredibly strong to tackle your anorexia and addiction at the same time. I can see how terrifying it must be for you.
I wish you strength and sending you love xx
My ED is very loud atm... its shouting most of the time. I starve all day and then b&p at night. I'm so tired of it..but I also feel hopeless. Its getting stronger and I'm getting weaker. I'm losing 😞 xx
Hi Fi! I understand what you are going through 100%. I react the same way with a lot of foods and I do think a lot of the fear is releted to punishment because its something we enjoy. My weight is always haunting me with the fear of the number going up. Then I will feel very shameful and even more confused. I tend to be at war with myself over portion sizes as well. Lots of anxiety , but try to manage. I think you are doing a great job and you totally got this! Try not to think about your weight focus on recovery. You can do it!! watching your videos have helped feel better about my struggles.I always look forward to watching! Good Luck on weigh day .Love,Loren
Great video, so helpful, and also you are doing really well so happy bout that, and happy you are loving the mail box mail.
Hiya Fi thank you for explaining what you’re going through on the daily!
Sending love to you sweetheart ❤️❤️❤️
Would it help if you didn’t have them tell you your weight? Keep up the good work!
I love your cardigan Fi. Praying you have a good week thinking of you x
Keep going strong u got this. One minute at a time 😘