This is so horrible. I’m so sorry for your loss and angry that your dad thought he had the right to take her life, and abused his family for years. I wish you peace and healing and please know this was never your fault. I wish domestic violence was taken more seriously. It’s truly a dangerous red flag but it’s never taken seriously.
The audacity to blame you for all of his actions. My heart aches for you, that's an incredibly heavy weight to have on your shoulders. I really do appreciate you're allowing people to take a peek into your feelings. I hope as you go about this journey you find moments of healing and of peace.
This is the part that we often don't know: How do the children move on with their lives.... I hope for you and your brother, joy, peace, love come flowing heavy into your lives to heal the pain...I hope you both find light that will soothe you and give you peace...you never get over, but you can make your way through each step..
Your mother's courage will never be discredited by such a monster. I can't imagine trying to deal with this, but the fact you're still here to be trying to figure it out says you inherited your mother's bravery. I hope you're able to recognize that this had nothing to do with you, that pathetic coward was desperate to not take accountability and would stop at nothing to do so. Saying it's not your fault is obvious, and something I'm sure you've heard before, but that's only because it's a fact. He does not have the power to rewrite the facts. It was always and will always be entirely his own fault. History will happily forget this monster, and you will carry on your mother's light. 💜 Sending love and strength your way.
That could never be your fault. I am so sorry for all the hurt and heartache that man has put you and your family through. You are so brave for telling this story, for not rotting. I hope you know how very loved you are.
You saying that you're ok with things because your mom is finally safe (essentially what you said).... wrecked me. I pray for your continued strength. I pray for your heart and the ways it has changes because of this. I pray for your hard days and that you will always feel her around you. I pray that there isnt a single day or hour or minute or second that you will ever think this was your fault. I pray that your story reaches every corner of this earth so that other people in your situation can find peace and healing. I pray for your future husband and children. I don't know either of you but I know that your mother is so proud of you! ❤❤❤
What happened to you is horrible. I hope you find a way to deal with the trauma. Thanks for sharing, its inspiring for me to deal with my own issues. All the best for your future 😊
Wow I am crying right now, this is something out of a movie.... I lost my mom at 12 and it was just me and her, I understand your grief but this is beyond anything I could have went through.
I’m so sorry this has happened to you. Please know it’s not your fault in the slightest. No matter what twisted psycho tricks he’s tried to make you believe for years. You grew up in that. No one should’ve done that to you, and someone should’ve protected you. Society should have protected you, and we failed you. You’re not at fault in any way-in fact, you’re handling this better than many people could. If you were my daughter and I was taken from this world too soon, I’d be so grateful for all of your strength and openness. I’d know my baby would make it and I’d be at peace because of that.
I am SO sorry that this happened. I hope you’re finding peace and that your mom knew the Lord and is sending you signs all the time that she’s truly safer than she’s ever been. God bless you.
God bless you and your strength in sharing your story❤❤ I just watched your shorts...Keep it up and keep going strong. You are helping so many more than you'll ever be acknowledged for. My best friend from middle and high school was murdered by her estranged husband, and I wonder all the time how her 4 girls are doing❤
Awe, sweet Kait. Thank you for sharing- your story has brought so much awareness to so many others who have a similar story, some not as tragic, but have experienced abuse first hand. Keep sharing, never silence yourself, it helps so many 💕
Even if you were the worst daughter ever - which you of course were not and your amazing mum chose you - but EVEN IF you were going through it because you grew up in an unsafe environment and rebeled and did who knows what, it would STILL not be your fault nor your responsibility.
I am sending you so much love as you heal from this absolutely horrific situation. I can not begin to imagine. You carry your mother’s light with you wherever you go. May God bring you peace that she is home🕊️ 🤍 and may you continue to lead a life that would make her proud.
What a horrific man. I am so sorry. You’re right- your sweet Mom is safe in the arms of Jesus. And her joy is FULL in His presence “In Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.” ❤ Praying for you as you live without her and heal.
I’m sorry you went through such a horrible trauma. Thankyou for sharing your story. You’re truly an inspiration. Sending you all the love and light, keep healing ❤
Thank you for sharing your story and showing immense resilience. Words cannot express my sadness at the loss you’ve experienced and the abuse you’ve had to live with. I’m starting EMDR therapy to process my childhood trauma, and this helps remind me of the strength we all have in us to overcome the pain and grief we’ve experienced in our lives. I hope you are able to heal as much as able, and find joy, safety, love, and contentment.
Wow you are so strong thank you for sharing. I’m sure you know already but truly this isn’t your fault. I hope you never hold an ounce of guilt for this as you went above and beyond to helo save her ❤
You are so precious and loved sweet sister. Jesus holds you in his arms. ❤️🩹 I will never understand fully what you've walked, although I have walked through some heavy traumatic things myself. Many times, I don't even know how to exist, Yet Jesus carries me. I just want you to know you are so deeply cares for and loved!❤
F his letter. First I was like you don’t owe it to anyone to share it. That’s so personal. But then you gave us the summary and f that letter and everything it contains. How dare he even say those things in general as a father. But to say such things knowing you’re going to do what you do/did what you did. How dare he. HE is the one at fault. For all of it. You were a child, he was an adult. Whatever happened back then isn’t on a child, it’s on the adult. For the trauma he inflicted emotionally, mentally, physically, he made those choices. He is responsible. You were there for your mom and I bet living together was the best time for her as well. He can never take those memories away. Remember the good times. I was 19 when my mom passed away unexpectedly. She was totally healthy and got sick one weekend in October and was gone February. My sister had gone away to college when I was 15 and during that first year my mom and step dad split. My dad had passed when I was 3 so no memories or relationship with him. I had been wanting them to split after years of emotional and verbal abuse but then his drug addiction started, already an alcoholic, and things were getting close to physical. We moved out into my aunts house for a while and then into the small home her parents built snd raised their 9 kids in. It was that house my mom and I got to live together just us and made the best memories. I felt like I lost her right when our journey was just beginning. I felt like she was stolen from me. I couldn’t imagine losing her the way you did. You are so strong. I’m almost 40 now. This year marked more years I’ve been alive without my mom then the years I was with her. I hadn’t even thought about that “milestone” until the year before and then it was something I couldn’t stop thinking about. Is that even a milestone? It shouldn’t be. Hearing your story broke my heart and put me back in that 19 year old mind. You are doing so well. She is proud. As a mom now, I know she is. You are not rotting AT ALL. I was numb for a year, until my first panic attack shopping alone in a kohls. Then I was an absolute mess and used medication and drinking to survive. But I wasn’t surviving at all. I was self destructing and it had to end. I’ve got 15 years sober now and am raising an amazing teenage son. There is a future as an adult orphan. You’re not alone. It’s a club none of us want to be in, but we are and we’re there for each other. Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable part of yourself. You’re far from rotting. Hugs.
Holy freakin crap. I cant even imagine.... Im so sorry. And none of that was your fault. Your dad was mentally ill or something that had nothing to do with you.
I hate that your own parent put this weight on you. Like everything that he had done was okay in his eyes and passed the blame to the closest innocent person. It is not your fault. It is his fault.
I'm so sorry. TW just in case you (or anyone) doesn't wanna take in more sadness at the moment ★★★ The last thing I received from my dad before he hanged himself was a text berating me for "betraying" him for finally telling someone about something he'd done to me that was...illegal. It was this long accusatory paragraph. And then a little while later I come home from an eighth grade schoolday to the news he'd killed himself and left a vengeful statement to the mothers of his children. - You're not alone, and I commend your efforts to heal. I know it can be so hard to even try. I'm so sorry you've gone through such a trauma and I know how such heavy things change us forever. The good memories are so valuable, and even if they fade with time, your body remembers them forever, they will be there in your system to help you push on and smile and breathe again. When you feel okay even for just a second, you have every right to cherish that. Here's to embracing happinesses and progress. Hugs.
You are not the reason for his heinous actions.. I will pray for you my friend, I hope life gets better and you find peace again. Sending you my love and prayers 🙏❤
Is the little white dog in all of your videos the family dog you are talking about? I’m also wondering if you and your brother are close and able to lean on each other.
Abusing & murdering wife and blaming daughter about family trouble, kinda sounds like dad had a gender base racism motives in addition to all madness. All love for you Kait
I’ve been abused and although my story did not end the same my mom just never chose to leave and I don’t speak to either parent anymore. I’ll never understand your grief but I just wanted to say you’re not alone. Healing is insanely hard and the invalidation from people really doesn’t help anything. I’m sorry if you blame yourself still and I’m sorry this happened to you at all. I hope each day you find out how to keep going more and more, it’s really just about enjoying the good moments as much as you can and fighting through the bad. I wish you well though and hope you have more good days than bad eventually❤️🩹
“My mom is safer than she’s ever been.” I hold onto that too. Thank you for sharing your story with us, it has truly made me feel so much less alone
It's NOT Your Fault.
You know what, your mom fought! She fought to the very end, she had the courage to leave and that alone says so much! I’m so sorry for your loss 🤍
This is so horrible. I’m so sorry for your loss and angry that your dad thought he had the right to take her life, and abused his family for years. I wish you peace and healing and please know this was never your fault.
I wish domestic violence was taken more seriously. It’s truly a dangerous red flag but it’s never taken seriously.
The audacity to blame you for all of his actions.
My heart aches for you, that's an incredibly heavy weight to have on your shoulders. I really do appreciate you're allowing people to take a peek into your feelings. I hope as you go about this journey you find moments of healing and of peace.
This is the part that we often don't know: How do the children move on with their lives....
I hope for you and your brother, joy, peace, love come flowing heavy into your lives to heal the pain...I hope you both find light that will soothe you and give you peace...you never get over, but you can make your way through each step..
Your mother's courage will never be discredited by such a monster. I can't imagine trying to deal with this, but the fact you're still here to be trying to figure it out says you inherited your mother's bravery. I hope you're able to recognize that this had nothing to do with you, that pathetic coward was desperate to not take accountability and would stop at nothing to do so. Saying it's not your fault is obvious, and something I'm sure you've heard before, but that's only because it's a fact. He does not have the power to rewrite the facts. It was always and will always be entirely his own fault. History will happily forget this monster, and you will carry on your mother's light. 💜 Sending love and strength your way.
I’m so sorry….. you’re hurt and pain will never be underestimated…. i cannot fathom that’s amount of anguish and pain…
That could never be your fault. I am so sorry for all the hurt and heartache that man has put you and your family through. You are so brave for telling this story, for not rotting. I hope you know how very loved you are.
You saying that you're ok with things because your mom is finally safe (essentially what you said).... wrecked me. I pray for your continued strength. I pray for your heart and the ways it has changes because of this. I pray for your hard days and that you will always feel her around you. I pray that there isnt a single day or hour or minute or second that you will ever think this was your fault. I pray that your story reaches every corner of this earth so that other people in your situation can find peace and healing. I pray for your future husband and children. I don't know either of you but I know that your mother is so proud of you! ❤❤❤
GOD BLESS YOU, I am so sorry this happened to you and your brother, but it was NOT your fault. Praying for you. ❤️
What happened to you is horrible. I hope you find a way to deal with the trauma. Thanks for sharing, its inspiring for me to deal with my own issues. All the best for your future 😊
The way you say, “sick” I love how you cope. I’m the same way. You’re so damn strong. ❤
Wow I am crying right now, this is something out of a movie.... I lost my mom at 12 and it was just me and her, I understand your grief but this is beyond anything I could have went through.
I’m glad your not completely alone and have a brother
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my best friend to domestic violence 2 years ago and every day is a challenge. Stay strong ♥️
I’m so sorry this has happened to you. Please know it’s not your fault in the slightest. No matter what twisted psycho tricks he’s tried to make you believe for years. You grew up in that. No one should’ve done that to you, and someone should’ve protected you. Society should have protected you, and we failed you. You’re not at fault in any way-in fact, you’re handling this better than many people could.
If you were my daughter and I was taken from this world too soon, I’d be so grateful for all of your strength and openness. I’d know my baby would make it and I’d be at peace because of that.
I am SO sorry that this happened. I hope you’re finding peace and that your mom knew the Lord and is sending you signs all the time that she’s truly safer than she’s ever been. God bless you.
I’m so very sorry
You’re helping so many. You’re a blessing.
God bless you and your strength in sharing your story❤❤ I just watched your shorts...Keep it up and keep going strong. You are helping so many more than you'll ever be acknowledged for. My best friend from middle and high school was murdered by her estranged husband, and I wonder all the time how her 4 girls are doing❤
From the picture , you have kind eyes just like your Mom. God Bless you and may He help you find some peace.
Your mother was beautiful, she just lives in heaven now.
Awe, sweet Kait. Thank you for sharing- your story has brought so much awareness to so many others who have a similar story, some not as tragic, but have experienced abuse first hand. Keep sharing, never silence yourself, it helps so many 💕
I started crying listening to this :(
It’s awful 😢
what a cowardly man. My thoughts are with you during your healing ❤️🩹
Even if you were the worst daughter ever - which you of course were not and your amazing mum chose you - but EVEN IF you were going through it because you grew up in an unsafe environment and rebeled and did who knows what, it would STILL not be your fault nor your responsibility.
Thank you Kait for sharing your story and being vulnerable. Continue to stay strong!
Thank you for sharing.. sending you prayers for peace
I am sending you so much love as you heal from this absolutely horrific situation. I can not begin to imagine. You carry your mother’s light with you wherever you go. May God bring you peace that she is home🕊️ 🤍 and may you continue to lead a life that would make her proud.
So sorry for your immense loss . My heart goes out to you and your family
What a horrific man. I am so sorry. You’re right- your sweet Mom is safe in the arms of Jesus. And her joy is FULL in His presence “In Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.” ❤ Praying for you as you live without her and heal.
I am so glad you are ok, I have been watching all of your videos and I feel so bad. I can’t imagine losing my mom.☹️
I’m sorry you went through such a horrible trauma. Thankyou for sharing your story. You’re truly an inspiration. Sending you all the love and light, keep healing ❤
I'm so sorry I hope you're in a better place mentally ❤
Oh how my heart hurts for you. Thank you for sharing your story. Your courage is inspiring. ❤
Thanks for sharing this, you are so brave. ❤
Thank you for sharing your story and showing immense resilience. Words cannot express my sadness at the loss you’ve experienced and the abuse you’ve had to live with. I’m starting EMDR therapy to process my childhood trauma, and this helps remind me of the strength we all have in us to overcome the pain and grief we’ve experienced in our lives. I hope you are able to heal as much as able, and find joy, safety, love, and contentment.
Wow you are so strong thank you for sharing. I’m sure you know already but truly this isn’t your fault. I hope you never hold an ounce of guilt for this as you went above and beyond to helo save her ❤
Praying for your heart and soul! ❤
I’m so sorry for your loss and admire your strength. Your mom is so proud. Was anyone in your family able to reunite with the dog?
You are so precious and loved sweet sister. Jesus holds you in his arms. ❤️🩹
I will never understand fully what you've walked, although I have walked through some heavy traumatic things myself. Many times, I don't even know how to exist, Yet Jesus carries me.
I just want you to know you are so deeply cares for and loved!❤
God bless you, I pray you will experience God's comfort, healing and presence continuously
F his letter.
First I was like you don’t owe it to anyone to share it. That’s so personal. But then you gave us the summary and f that letter and everything it contains. How dare he even say those things in general as a father. But to say such things knowing you’re going to do what you do/did what you did. How dare he. HE is the one at fault. For all of it. You were a child, he was an adult. Whatever happened back then isn’t on a child, it’s on the adult. For the trauma he inflicted emotionally, mentally, physically, he made those choices. He is responsible. You were there for your mom and I bet living together was the best time for her as well. He can never take those memories away. Remember the good times.
I was 19 when my mom passed away unexpectedly. She was totally healthy and got sick one weekend in October and was gone February. My sister had gone away to college when I was 15 and during that first year my mom and step dad split. My dad had passed when I was 3 so no memories or relationship with him. I had been wanting them to split after years of emotional and verbal abuse but then his drug addiction started, already an alcoholic, and things were getting close to physical. We moved out into my aunts house for a while and then into the small home her parents built snd raised their 9 kids in. It was that house my mom and I got to live together just us and made the best memories. I felt like I lost her right when our journey was just beginning. I felt like she was stolen from me. I couldn’t imagine losing her the way you did. You are so strong. I’m almost 40 now. This year marked more years I’ve been alive without my mom then the years I was with her. I hadn’t even thought about that “milestone” until the year before and then it was something I couldn’t stop thinking about. Is that even a milestone? It shouldn’t be. Hearing your story broke my heart and put me back in that 19 year old mind. You are doing so well. She is proud. As a mom now, I know she is. You are not rotting AT ALL. I was numb for a year, until my first panic attack shopping alone in a kohls. Then I was an absolute mess and used medication and drinking to survive. But I wasn’t surviving at all. I was self destructing and it had to end. I’ve got 15 years sober now and am raising an amazing teenage son. There is a future as an adult orphan. You’re not alone. It’s a club none of us want to be in, but we are and we’re there for each other. Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable part of yourself. You’re far from rotting. Hugs.
❤️ You are so brave and strong too.
Poor girl xx no one deserves this
We love you ❤️
Holy freakin crap. I cant even imagine.... Im so sorry. And none of that was your fault. Your dad was mentally ill or something that had nothing to do with you.
Cannot imagine. 😢
I Hope one day you can fully heal ❤️
I am sooo sorry this happened to you. Your Dad was a sick, sick man. It was your Dad’s fault. I am sorry you lost your Mom because of his issues.
I hate that your own parent put this weight on you. Like everything that he had done was okay in his eyes and passed the blame to the closest innocent person. It is not your fault. It is his fault.
It makes me thankful that I have my mom
I'm so sorry. TW just in case you (or anyone) doesn't wanna take in more sadness at the moment ★★★ The last thing I received from my dad before he hanged himself was a text berating me for "betraying" him for finally telling someone about something he'd done to me that was...illegal. It was this long accusatory paragraph. And then a little while later I come home from an eighth grade schoolday to the news he'd killed himself and left a vengeful statement to the mothers of his children. - You're not alone, and I commend your efforts to heal. I know it can be so hard to even try. I'm so sorry you've gone through such a trauma and I know how such heavy things change us forever. The good memories are so valuable, and even if they fade with time, your body remembers them forever, they will be there in your system to help you push on and smile and breathe again. When you feel okay even for just a second, you have every right to cherish that. Here's to embracing happinesses and progress. Hugs.
My gosh, my heart aches for you. What a horrible thing that happened to you and your mom. It was not your fault. God bless you.
You are not the reason for his heinous actions.. I will pray for you my friend, I hope life gets better and you find peace again. Sending you my love and prayers 🙏❤
Sending you love and light.
God bless you in jesus mighty name Amen ❤
I am so very sorry
Is the little white dog in all of your videos the family dog you are talking about? I’m also wondering if you and your brother are close and able to lean on each other.
God bless ❤
❤ sending love
Abusing & murdering wife and blaming daughter about family trouble, kinda sounds like dad had a gender base racism motives in addition to all madness. All love for you Kait
Please be very forgiving with yourself
Jesus loves you❤ when our parents forsake us our father in heaven lifts us up
I am soooo sorry. Did u save your dog?
I'm so sorry. I'm praying for your happiness and peace. God bless you.
It's not your fault
Did she not care that here mom died?
What a stupid question.
Are you OK? 😮. Get help.
I’m sorry for your unbelievable loss. I invite you to read the Holy Quran so you may find the peace you’re looking for ❤
I’ve been abused and although my story did not end the same my mom just never chose to leave and I don’t speak to either parent anymore. I’ll never understand your grief but I just wanted to say you’re not alone. Healing is insanely hard and the invalidation from people really doesn’t help anything. I’m sorry if you blame yourself still and I’m sorry this happened to you at all. I hope each day you find out how to keep going more and more, it’s really just about enjoying the good moments as much as you can and fighting through the bad. I wish you well though and hope you have more good days than bad eventually❤️🩹
You are so strong 🩷
Thank you for sharing something so intimate and difficult, it's not easy.
You deserve only and only the best 🩷