The fact that they wanted to have a kid, shows how they don't understand the cycle that they are stuck in. I also noticed she places blame a lot on other people especially in scenarios that she can make choices on. Also mentioning using a kid to make sure she got housing is messed up as well. If you cannot provide a safe stable environment for yourself, you cannot provide a safe environment for a child.
From someone in Recovery over 20 Years, you have a lifelong illness. The only treatment is Choice. Do I chose my Illness(addiction) or choose Sobriety. Fortunately I choose Sobriety one day at a time.
She’s still got her mind. She can get out and really do it. She’s so smart and pretty. He seems like a calm kind soul. Wishing the absolute best for them.
They both still have their minds, guys. They're only in their early 20s. They're immature and need guidance in the worst way. If they continue this lifestyle, it won't be no time at all and they'll both go down and be much,much harder to get their sh*t together. Are they hopeless? No, I don't think so.
my bf & i were both addicted to fentanyl together. we are now 2 yrs sober. it IS possible for couples to recover together. it just takes some time apart to detox & the mutual understanding of codependency in the relationship. it’s real work.
@@kevinloyer1205 people build tolerances for it. the average amount of fentanyl that would kill someone (grain of salt sized) is for people who do not have a tolerance to it. for example- a teenager who bought drugs that were laced with it who has never used fentanyl before would kill that person. people like u see on this video are daily users, so it would take a lot more than a grain of salt size to kill them.
@@kevinloyer1205 people usually get addicted because other drugs are laced with it, fentanyl is cheaper and stronger so people take it mixed with other things
been in this type of relationship more than once. trauma bonding makes you feel instantly connected and drug use definitely helps the honeymoon euphoria stage, but its a tragic fairy tale nonetheless. wish these people well. i moved to the other side of the country away from my girlfriend because it was the only way to stay off drugs without having someone you love there to also enable you. and then if its not them its you- a double ended sword indeed. there is no romance in drug addiction. much love ✌️💫
@@yoyoiven I am not going to share a picture, but my partner when I was running the streets was beautiful. How our relationship turned out is something that I deeply regret. We dealt together, I didn't turn her out and never wanted to or could have. But eventually I got her clean (as I attempted to get clean) and let her go as she let me go. She is also working on her PhD (that is what my wife told me). What she did was of her own powers and what I did was of my own. But I ran the streets of Chicago and LA with other pretty girls. What matters is that they recognize their rock bottom and decide that they want more, and understand that they cannot be a part of each others lives to get that.
6 years opiate free & today I am 2 years, 3 months, & 9 days clean of everything. You both can do this. Reach out, many of us are willing to support you & be of guidance whenever you are ready. I’m so glad that I chose life & recovery.. I wish this blessing on everyone. 💛
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to fentanyl for over 6 years. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. This is something that really need to be use globally to help people with related health challenges.
I was horrifically depressed since childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them again, either. I wish there was a good, organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.
You can tell she’s still fully aware and she’s even reaching out to him to comfort him here and there during his interview. I hope they both get help now before it’s too late, these people clearly just need to be loved a little harder by all of us
These kids have a grave misconception about getting clean. It’s not the first five days that are the hardest. Those are the hardest physically. The emotional and mental aspects don’t show up until after the physical withdrawals are over. The hard part is when you’re a month or two clean and the depression kicks in. Everything you’re running from while getting high comes back all at once, full force. That’s why you need a strong support system. When the anxiety and guilt start kicking your ass, all you want to do is use and you no longer are physically dependent so you justify it as if I use once I won’t get sick. That’s the hard part.
@@prague7706 I’ve been off heroin for around ten years, give or take, and the most challenging part for me was the first time I faced real adversity after being clean for over 4 months. It was an internal battle like I’d never experienced before. I was rationalizing a relapse and blaming everyone else. It was a literal argument between sober me and the addict inside, viciously clawing his way to the surface. I was sweet talking myself while simultaneously laying on a guilt trip, thick and heavy. I didn’t end up relapsing because I have a tremendous support system and faith in God. The key ingredients to a successful recovery is a strong support system and faith.
I detoxed off of a 10 year opiate addiction in a solitary cell in jail. It was the worst and best thing that ever happened to me. God bless all these folks. There is a better life out there for everyone.
U didn't get arrested , you got rescued. That's what we called that in the prison I was at. Those few days to couple weeks seem horrible at first and then it gets easier till it's just easy. I felt more freedom locked up than ever B4. After getting out that trap, I left the opes alone
Jail made me sober too, only got locked up for a week but that week got my mind clear enough to realize I didn't want nothing to do with that shit no more thankfully!!!
Be thankful you were in a solitary cell. I did it in a filthy cell with about 30 screaming monkeys , only iron or concrete to lay on. It was a nightmare. I was so sick it took me 12 days to get my head together to bond out. I had the money the whole time at my house.
As soon as I saw the video thumbnail, I instantly recognized Celeste as the same quiet girl who occasionally attended the same church youth group as me. Hearing that she grew up in Nashville confirmed it. Listening to her story of dealing with drug use as a child/young teen was really eye opening considering she was going through that in silence at the same time that I knew her. I'm happy to see that she still has the same bright creative energy that she did when we were kids. I hope she's doing better now.
I know her as well. I have tried multiple times to help her and each time she goes MIA. She sells her nudes for drug money or will say she needs a bus ticket to get sober but then disappears.I hope they get the help they need.
I’m surprised after Celeste expressed disappointment in her childhood, that she would think is ok for her to have a baby when she hasn’t been clean at all, yet. How does she not realize she’s perpetuating the same cycle of her great aunt/aka mom and birth mother?
Often people like this are on a different plain. In their mind they will have this little baby that will love them, and they will love. They don’t think about getting food, clothes, ect. They just have this idea a baby will fix them mentally, keep them clean, and life will get better.
That’s exactly why cycles exist. Drugs and trauma really alter peoples sanity and ability to think logically. In her mind I’m sure she thinks she would never do what was done to her , while not realizing that her using drugs has already started the process of following in their footsteps.
They are both in denial.. they can't help each other in any way but splitting up and getting clean individually.. she can't help him they are both addicts.. you should try a relationship like that maybe you will understand.. If you don't think he sells her vagina for drugs your crazy.. its a part of their lifestyle..
At 20 I’d roll my eyes if someone said they’re still little kids. I’m 30 now…and now all I can think is “they’re still kids”. Be careful you guys. It doesn’t need to end here.
Wow, I was about to say that about 30 year olds. I think maybe we’re all kids and it’s just a lifelong spectrum that starts with birth and ends with death.
Hearing these poor kids story about they're parents makes me realize how fortunate I was as a kid and still am . I'm calling my parents right now to tell them how much I Love them ❤️
She's probably just excited that she gets the opportunity to tell her story to someone who wants to listen. As a homeless addict, it's probably not an opportunity she comes across very often. One thing I've noticed about these interviews is that a lot of these people are extremely lonely.
so she meet him in october while she had a apartment and no fentanyl addiction, and meeting him made her lose those two things. Anyone see the not so cute picture of a addict dragging another one with them in the hell not to be alone. If he really cared for her he would not accept her losing her apartment and getting hooked to fentanyl to live on the street with him.
It’s easy to say it’s fault. But I been there, as much as it seems like he feeding her habit, you don’t know how they manipulate each other when they are alone. Watch until the end, she’s been a drug addict! No this time it’s not different, this time you just have someone who’s willing to jump off the bridge with you! And they prob do believe themselves when they say “ we do want to get clean “ but hearing her rehab story you can tell they are not ready.
that and him making her see him as her savior, telling her "his tear woke up her up". a lot of emotional details that makes her caught up with him in that world, they are both dragging each other down more and more.
You can only blame him for so much. If she really wanted a place to stay she would have left him and went on about her life. But, she was also an addict before him and she fell in love with another addict. Now they both feed off each other
"He ended up using in front of me" -that wasn't a mistake on his part. I don't judge him, just agreeing with the comment. (Coming from a former addict)
This is why we get in these cycles. Young homeless kids on drugs wanting to have babies and thinking it's going to be this wonderful and blissful thing. It is so much more than that. This is why kids get abused and end up in foster care with trauma and continues the cycle over and over. I hope they get clean and get to live their best lives before opting to bring other lives into the world.
@@smellysock4260 That's not how it works unfortunately. Babies are lovely for sure but they're hard work. Even people with all their shit together who have wanted babies for years struggle sometimes. Having a baby as a homeless drug addict is insanely unfair to the child. I hope they get clean and stable and have the family of their dreams. I hope they heal their trauma and break the cycle. I hope they do this before they have a baby and not just hope it gives them the motivation to get clean.
@@smellysock4260 it’s not the baby’s purpose to fill a void. Having a child test everything about you. The good and bad. You need to be emotionally, physically, mentally, & financially capable to have a child.
@@smellysock4260 I have financial stability, a loving husband, a decent house and I wanted a baby. I ended up having twins and experienced horrible postpartum depression. It's the hardest thing I've ever done, and at times I couldn't even imagine why I ever wanted it. I spent so many nights sobbing because of the exhaustion and lack of freedom. I'm totally fine and happy now, but could you imagine how it'd make someone feel that's already in a bad situation? Babies are an incredibly life changing thing and they take every bit of energy and love that you have. It's SO irresponsible to bring a child into the world in an unstable environment, yet it keeps happening.
Im so sorry for your loss 😢 i can only imagine what your going through. Stay strong and i hope things get better for you. I know ur life will never be the be same but hopefully u have more kids n can look forward to raising them and telling them about ur son n his beautiful soul. GOD BLESS U
@@jonathansegura8900 Thank you for your sweet kind words. I’m nothing can take the place of my beautiful son, I have a fabulous daughter who helps me through. I actually feel very sorry for her as she has lost her only sibling. My heart breaks for all of us x
I almost lost my sister to an overdose (su*cide attempt). It tore my mother apart. Being her sister, I also was torn apart. Seeing all that her overdose has done to my family is heartbreaking. I can’t imagine the extreme amounts of pain you and your daughter have gone through. Sending love and prayers to you and your family❤️❤️
Just the fact that they are still able to care about dressing “fashionable” -wearing accessories, showing strong sense of personal style, have fresh haircuts, clothes were matched and planned intentionally, look clean-tells me that they are both fairly new in their addiction. These kids have a long way to go unfortunately. Eventually drugs won’t seem exciting and fun anymore. Eventually they won’t care what they are wearing, just throw something on to go cop. Won’t care about food, lose weight. I wish them the best but…Long road ahead of these two. I don’t think they even know what they got themselves into yet.
He's been headed there for a while. I kept telling him to come back to orange county (where he went to school with me in garden grove) but he wouldn't listen. Me and bash were really close friends during senior year. He had a job at a retail store. I remember he got that face tattoo and ended up leaving that job, and I told him he's making bad decisions. We had a lot of fun times, we would party and skip school together, sesh at his house. But in the end, all he would talk about was going to LA and becoming a famous rapper. I tried my best as his friend to keep him on a good track. Eventually his mom kicked him out, and I remember seeing him leave his house with nothing but a sack with all his things. I felt sorry and like I couldn't help him, but at that point I couldn't do much. Also, being fashionable was always his thing haha. I remember all the designer he would try wearing to school. I can't see him losing care in that lol 😂 he's a rockstar in his head
There is something disturbing about the kid looking like he's about to cry the whole time while the young woman giddily talks about the drug use. It's like a shame vs. pride, two sides of the same coin when it comes to addiction. I've felt that arrogant pride before as well when I was younger. You think you're cool for doing things different, feeling high, being an "outcast". It really doesn't last long. If I had known the shame that eats at me every day I might have had the sense to find some control. Feeling bad for these kids, it's the calm before the storm. I hope the best for them.
I don’t think she’s “prideful.” Sometimes, actually a lot of the time, your outward expressions may not match your inside thoughts. Have you ever found yourself maybe smiling or giggling/laughing when recounting something traumatic? Doesn’t mean you aren’t/ weren’t effected, it’s just your body doing that.
I saw that too she seemed like she was still excited about her journey in drug use because it hasn’t gotten bad yet, let it get bad and she’ll be just like him she’s just still in a delusional “it’s not that bad I’m just quirky and numbing the pain like the famous ppl do”
@@s_photo1385 He gives money out to a lot of people he has met doing this as well as paying each of them to do the interview. If you watch interviews of Mark he talks all about it.
@@s_photo1385 He helps them outside of filming aswell. He goes in some of the roughest areas to give us insight of different lives. He's been robbed before etc. Not everyone can handle some of the situations he's gone through, most don't even give these people the time of the day.
Would love to see an update on Celeste and Sebastian. It would be interesting to see how their relationship has developed/changed over the course of the year.
I feel like not only are they codependent, but she romanticizes drug use. As someone in recovery, who also works in recovery, this makes my heart so sad. I know how relationships like this tend to end, it isn’t pretty. But I’m hoping for the best, they are young and have such bright futures ahead of them if they choose to get treatment. Would love to see an update on these two.
Yeah I see that too. I’m an ex addict and used to do the same thing. Romanticize the “glamorous” side of drug use - the kind they portray in movies. Someone needs to show her the reality, take her down to Kensington, PA or skid row. There’s nothing glamorous about it. It’s a hard, lonely, and shameful existence once you get to that point.
As a former addict I’m able to say it was pretty shitty of him to give it to her. I know it’s her choice but an ultimatum like “if you use, I walk” and I’m sure that would’ve sufficed. Sometimes we can’t care about being hypocritical if it involves someone you love/care about. Not taking the blame completely off her but damn, c’mon dude….
@@charlottewilson9001 theyll continue to love eachother while high, hate eachother when sober and fight. but the drugs will always bring them back to eachother. one will want to get clean the other wont, theyll both stay addicted until one overdoses the living one will be left alone heart broken and most likely overdose or get sober and forever live missing there other half.
My heart sank at this time stamp ... "I was pregnant and we wanted to like keep the baby and we wanted to like go through with that because we were already like working on housing and we were like well if i'm pregnant we can get housing." Please get clean BEFORE having a child. 😢
They're totally delusional about reality and are far too deep into addiction to have any sense of reality or responsibility. Romanticizing their meeting and their first date for which they were both off their faces on drugs. Children should not be brought into their crazy world. Not a chance she'd have stayed clean or he'd have stayed clean with her through a pregnancy, unfortunately. And her lack of awareness that her friend who had helped her out, didn't want a couple of drug addicts living in her house. She needs a reality check.
They wanted that kid purely for selfish reasons. I wish them all the best, and I think that would be splitting up, sobering up, and then at some point having families when they're in a more stable state of life. I hope they don't bring children into this world of theirs.
I strongly get the feeling she fetishizes their current situation. He obviously is hooked and is starting to go through the harder parts of opioid addiction. He is right on that edge and I’m sure is starting to realize that he’s slipping, but she isn’t at that point yet. She almost tells her story like she tries to get on his level to feel closer to him. 😢 I hope to see an update on them saying they got clean together
I had a similar relationship with my GF when I was deep in opiate addiction, so I can relate to these two quite a lot. That said, couples almost never get clean "together". Getting clean requires a lot of work on yourself emotionally and behaviorally. Relationships built on using introduce a very negative influence in recovery. If one relapses, the other almost always goes back as well.
@@sleeplessdev7204 Can't tell you how many couples I've seen nodding out next to each on the buses from West Palm Beach to Delray Beach Florida...the recovery capital of the country. Can just as easily be called the relapse capital too.
i bought one of those blue percocets before, not knowing it had fentanyl in it and i overdosed and "died" immediately. scary stuff and i will never touch a pill again. life is precious and it can be gone so quickly. please be careful. you two are better than this. i wish you both sobriety and peace
Youre not the only one...so many of us and them out there thats happened to and not even being a addict. Super early in experimentation stage and this has happened...
same! I did a half of one in full blown addiction with high tolerance and as soon as I picked my head up I had no memory........ apparently was still talking too but eventually woke up being revived by ems
The pressed 30s? Most of those come from Mexico, they're cartel products. That shit is no joke- I did less than 1/4 of one and couldn't move. You're so, SO lucky to be alive, and I'm so proud of you for turning your life around. ❤️
I know one of them very well (not going to say who for anonymity) when they lived in an earlier city and i just want to say thank you mark for showing this. I had no clue my friend had done this interview and i’ve known what they’ve been going through, i appreciate you showing everyone Celeste’s and Sebastian’s perspective. Never thought i’d see a close friend on here but small world, thank you so much mark
I owned a business and made hundreds of thousands of dollars a year. I spent it all on opiates for eight years straight. I tried quitting twenty or thirty times. Finally I decided I was done for good. I sat home alone for three weeks. I didn't answer my phone even one time. I knew I was done with that shit. I almost liked the pain of withdrawal at that point because I KNEW it was my last one. It was the worst and best three weeks of my life. I was seeing double, throwing up, shitting the bed, and nearly suicidal. But I was determined to break the cycle. I didn't leave the house for those three weeks because I didn't trust myself to drive. After those three weeks I was shaky, could not sleep, and had a very difficult time working just a couple of days a week. It was hard to do the dishes or even shower. After two months, I was still rattled and could not sleep. The insomnia was terrible. I would drink whisky just to get a couple of hours sleep, and always woke up feeling way worse. It finally culminated when I accidentally drove off the road (sober) at sixty mph, and was nearly killed in a rollover crash. I was so mentally unstable from eight years of heavy abuse that I should not have been driving yet. That accident took away everything I ever felt about opiates. I broke my ribs, dislocated my shoulder, and had nerve damage in my arm. I refused to go to the hospital, and did not take any opiates. I suffered two of the worst weeks of my life then. I was in constant pain, but did not care. I was never using again. My accident was a little over a month ago. It sobered me up completely. I am recovering nicely and I KNOW that I am through using. For the first time in eight years, I feel like ME again, and it feels so fucking good, I can't even tell you... Celeste and Sebastian, you CAN do it!!!! I feel lucky to be alive, and although I have lost much, I am certainly better off now than when I was using. You have to REALLY want it. You have to want it more than you want to use. The fear of the thought of living without opiates was terrifying to me. I was so alone and depressed early on. I eventually told someone I was an addict, and that was unbelievably freeing for my mind and mental state. I hid my addiction from EVERYONE for those eight years. No one knew. That was a heavy burden to carry. I've been clean for about three months now, and I know I am never going back. I'm not one for dates or remembering years that things happened in my life, but I will never forget that I quit opiates for good on the day that Russia invaded Ukraine. February 24th, 2022 will stick with me forever. Contact me anytime if you wish to talk. Doug
@@ARTSIEBECCA Thanks, Guru! Your comment brought a smile to my face! And you know the old saying: if you're gonna be stupid, you'd better be tough, haha....
These two are genuinely decent people that haven’t gotten themselves out of the cycle yet. I hope they make it out and move onwards and upwards in life.
His tears woke her up frm her OD?!?!? Omg man... these kids are in a world of trouble if they don't get away frm each other now!!! There codependency will kill them. Hopefully he doesn't get her pregnant again and they don't ruin that child's life. These dudes here aren't the cute little couple everyone sees in the comments. They are extremely addicted, and think that everything is gonna be fine cause they got each other and they'll make it. Mark interrupted her on one of her rants about how awesome and smart she is and going off about her potential... then he goes, but your a drug addict. Stops her dead in her tracks. I see comments after comments of ohhh there so cute, and smart, and loving... they got each other and they'll make it because of that. He's the worst thing that happened to her period.
Seems like they are completely romanticizing their drug use. Especially the bracelet thanking him for saving her life. Cant help but think she sits around and daydreams about how great he is for reviving her. They are at rock bottom and are too blind to see it.
@@JackBrittsUA-cam hopefully they don't make another child man. I was addicted to heroin for about 4 years, 2 sniffing, 2 shooting, and your always the last to know how fucked up you really are. They got no one In there lives that aren't fucked up on drugs, which is gon a be a huge hurdle to get over. They need to break there relationship off, cause it's not really love it's codependency, and they both need to find a rehab far frm anyone or anything they know. I hope the best for them but it's ain't looking good. They know it all. You can't tell them shit.
I love when couples are interviewed. Selfishly, we get 2 for 1 from mark. But I love seeing the dynamic between the couples. As well as hearing what led them to each other
They’re young, cute, and full of promise but they’re on such a dangerous road that they will regret or not survive. It’s not about young love, it’s about taking responsibly and waking up before it’s too late. I hope dearly they can do that.
Early 20's an entire lifetime ahead of them. A bag of sorrows and trouble around their necks. Make a plan you 2 and get ur azzes in gear. Time waits for no one. If you can't get and stay sober u will not make it. The sweet part u have together won't survive an O.D. I'm rooting for you, tho. Tee
I wasted my 20s on heroin/fent (and meth) addiction. Regret isn’t the right word bc it made me the person I am. I’m compassionate and strong. But it’s deeply sad knowing how much I used to hurt and degrade myself every day… the scars mental and bad physical scars from iv drug use. But I still wouldn’t change it. But if they could figure it out in less years that would be amazing to save some of the trauma .
I hate that the interviewer said they were destined to do drugs. They are so young and impressionable and "destined" sounds so final. They have the power to make their own "destiny" and change their life. They look so cute, they are cute kids and I wish them all the best. This breaks my heart to be honest.
Ah, the neverending cycle: 1. see this channel in the feed 2. binge interviews all day during work 3. forget about channel for awhile 4. see channel in feed 5. there's like 30 new interviews to binge during work
my ex got me addicted to heroin/fentanyl. ill admit i was the happiest i had ever been when we first got together. it was the drugs. even when we weren't high right at that moment, being stuck in the cycle of addiction made us feel like we were connected way more than we were. once we both got sober i realized i didnt like him when we werent high. he acted totally different and so did i. now its been years since we were apart and i dont even know what i saw in him🤦🏻♀️ drugs cloud ur brain so much. like the things that u dont notice when ur using drugs are SO OBVIOUS to ppl who are sober.
All I can say is 'wow. Mark, the way in which your open ended questions prompt so much thought in those being interviewed is utterly astounding. You both genuinely care, and do an astounding job of challenging skewed ideals in a way that prompts such introspection, hopefully leading to change. Amazing.
i really hope & believe they can grow through this. the way she puts her hand on his leg when he’s talking about something she knows is sensitive, its so easy to tell they’ve been through hell together. they deserve so much more than this life
I would love to see a follow-up on this couple. I would really love to see them both talking about how they got off that shit and how things are changing.
I would love to see that too. But in reality, it would kind of like winning the lottery twice in a row. Not going to say it's impossible, but it is very unlikely. Not just for them, but for anyone who is trying to get clean, and also depends on another person to do the same, at the same time.
@Electric982 really? Thats too bad. I know how hard it is too stop especially when you're doing with your gf. He doesn't seem like the abusive type, but a lot can happen in a year especially when being on that beast.
She seems like she's at a point where drugs are still "fun" rather than a point where she feels like she needs it to function. I pray they both find a way to get clean.
I’ve been Celeste and see a lot of myself in her. My bf and I dated in the mid 2000s and we used oxys when it was everywhere. We tried to get clean together many times and ultimately couldn’t do it. I wasn’t strong enough and neither was he. It took me moving states away a few years later to get clean. He ended up passing away from an overdose a few years after I moved and there’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think about him. He was my first love. I have a good life now and don’t regret what I did because I wouldn’t be who I am today. My unsolicited advice would be to focus on yourself. Get clean then work on housing. If you feel the same way about each other after you have sobriety then try to move in together. It’s not impossible to get clean together but it’s rare.
It makes my heart happy to see so many people have sympathy for strangers, but the problem with some people is that you will never get their true personality. Celeste was my best friend . Celeste has lied about cancer , sexually assaulted MANY of her friends and so much more . Celeste was never a loner . She had a different personality for every person she met . At one point, we were in 8th grade and she left me in a ditch so she could go drink with 18 year olds. She always had sleepovers ( where she gave all her friends drugs), she always chose one of her friends to be her girlfriend/boyfriend . She had zero consequences for her actions and zero help for any of her mental health. She was allowed to do whatever , whenever. This fed in to her constant need to always be right and be the center of attention . Because of her excuses, all she has ever gotten was sympathy or praise . Celeste is a very intelligent woman. The last thing she needs is sympathy. She needs honesty and a reality check
I can see this 100%. I hope her BF can see this too. It's never a good look to talk over someone at a joint-interview as much as she did. Her cap says it all. Notice me!
This is heart breaking! Especially his story about his mother abusing him and his sister, good Lord. Such sweet people and beautiful souls, they're babies. I pray that they get it together they seem so sweet and didnt deserve the life they were given.
You seem overly sentimental. They look like young adults and we don't rly know what they are like as people. Empathy is good but there's a point where ur just gullible.
@@charlenedavis6153 I find it kinda hard to find the middle-ground sometimes. I don't trust people, but that's also not healthy, gotta be present and not automatically question everything and everyone either. Hope u have a nice day, best wishes bro
She is pretty clueless and lost but she is right about the dangers of being a functioning addict. Hard to hit a bottom when you're keeping things kinda together
She seems to be pretty transparent and honest ab her past to me. Did you just have an interview in which you did the same? Would love to see it and make an unhelpful judgement call about you after 😄 #LEGGO
@@insatiableme333 calm down he is allowed to have an opinion. Stop allowing your ego to be hurt bc you don’t agree with someone else’s perspective. It comes across as emotionally immature to everyone else
That I’m not someone who counts my likes on UA-cam. Nor am I interested in continuing a conversation going nowhere with someone who does care about others approval, needs the last word, and has no “likes” on his comment himself. Godbless✌🏽😂🙏
When I was in elementary school in the 80s I used to know a kid , Kevin Knott, his mother would buy him his cigarettes. We must have been 10 or 11 years old and while I didn't have the best home life I still remember even then thinking how insane that was. Its mind boggling how messed up some parents are.
This is a really good example of how neglect really emotionally stunts your children. They're not stupid. They're just emotionally undeveloped and with therapy and learning/accepting their issues, they could go on to live happy, healthy lives. They do have potential, they just need help and to do a lot of mental/emotional work.
Seen this all too often growing up with friends. So wrapped up with living a cool life that you get yourself into a situation that’s hard to come back out of. You can tell that she’s just riding it out hoping he gets his shit together and following his lead in the meantime. He’s much more set into this life than she is.
One of the most powerful things about these folks telling their stories is allowing them to string together the events of their life often for the first time which will hopefully provide an impetus for change.
I agree with other commenters. The fact that they actually listen to each other and help each other keeping track seems so genuine and sweet. It tells me that they really want to have a good relationship and be there for each other. I really hope they can leave the drugs behind them and have a good life together...
@@mtbiker4life918 Sooo... you just assume they are "lying and cheating and steer" because... why exactly? Because all Drugaddicts in the wordld are somehow the same or what? Or maybe because you are a disgusting judgemental Douche without and experience outside your little bubble? I know a few addicts myself and have seen almost all videos on this channel. I have quite the grip on how People appear and what it tells the viewer how they are inside. I see good people with bad luck when I meet them! But by all means, go trough life all high and mighty and judge people in the harshest way just because you are luckier than others! it's not like this makes you a disgusting human being and impossible to be around or something! Pathetic Loser. I take ten Drug addicts over such a sad little creep like you any day!
Yes I noticed that. They speak to each other so respectfully. I hope they can find strength in each other to get off these horrible drugs and onto a better path in life.
It is possible! Me and my husband did many different drugs through 12 years of our relationship. We (with God's help) managed to dig ourselves out of the horrible life we were living and now actually are trying to buy a house and have two beautiful little boys. It. Is. Possible. But I believe with my entire being that God is the ONLY reason we are where we are now... It's not easy but life is never easy anyways...
Nothing is admirable about what he contributed to this womans now unfortunate life. I can't really say the same about her as she seems nieve as is obvious from the way she's misjudging their future struggle and the pain that comes with addiction and the eventual realisation her addict partner has exploited her gullibility because If he loved her with the realisation she was highly susceptible towards habitual drug use he wouldn't have ever let her get in the position he did. He had a choice to make between drugs or starting a relationship or drugs and a relationship at the expense of a young woman. Instead he bought one of the most all consuming, destructive drugs into her life supposedly without any realisation in doing so that he was not only normalising its usage but creating a steady supply and adding to the temptation. Worse is when she asked him for some he shows his disgusting behaviour and obliged. So to then claim ignorance and downplay the seriousness of what he just bought about another persons life is either as some might believe down to ignorance or rather a straight up selfish disregard for the person he claims to love which is the option I'm going with. Granted he didn't force her to take anything and ultimately it was her choice but she was already a habitual Ketamine user and may have never taken Opiates or not to the point of gaining dependency so he's at least partially responsible whether down to an unfathomable amount of stupidity or in my opinion a blatant disregard for anyone else's life and like 99 9% of addicts he's hiding the fact that anything he does is only for his own personal gain.
@Sarah Of course, and it’s harder if you have chronic pain and if you have mental illness. The point is no matter what, if you’re not dead there is always a chance.
I love the awareness this channel spreads. It's a blatant acknowledgement that if we don't raise our youth better we're destined to go further downhill as the circle repeats. My generation may not see what that will blossom into but change won't happen if we don't start. Better our youth and we'll better our tomorrow.✌️
20:53 I'm going to be blunt. Her friend's actions are perfectly understandable. That was this girl's chance to better herself and leave this type of environment behind. You won't do it while being in a relationship with another addict, you drag eachother down. If both of you go sober and one of you slips, it pulls the other one one back in as well, it's not a good situation, it's dangerous. You missed that opportunity girl, that's on you, as tough as that sounds.
Yeah exactly, I understand her view but she clearly has enough puppy love to blind her to the truth. When your friend lets you stay with them to help you out and you choose to date a known hard drug addict, no kidding the friend is going to send you on your way. Clearly the friend was right as she wasn't a fent addict before she met him and rapidly become a user after.
The first vibe I got from them is that they have each other. The way she kept reminding him where he was - since he has ADHD and the drugs probably aren't helping - is super sweet and made me emotional. Lord please bless them and keep them 🥺
Oh my, so young yet they feel so experienced and worldly. This is beautiful and tragic all at once, I hope so much that their world becomes less traumatic and they find stability. There is hope otherwise in 12 month's things are going to look a lot different. Misery loves company and young love is all consuming. All the best kids..
Sober from fent since April 27th 2021 I remember sitting there crying watching your videos smoking foilies and thankfully I reached out to family for help cause life’s honestly never been better hurts to see people in the same scenarios you once where me and my ex where heavily into it together and I’ll never forget that toxic love, honestly hope the best for these two
Man i absolutely hate seeing this kind of stuff, these kids are so young and have so much life ahead of them, i genuinely hope they can get better and get their lives together before its too late. I was in active addiction for almost a decade and i know how hard it is to get clean and stay clean you need to hit your absolute lowest of lows most of the time to want to actually get clean and thats different for everyone but i just truly hope they make it and are able to prosper they are both very intelligent and seem like genuine souls that have just been through so much trauma and bad things. Praying for them!
I’m 2 weeks clean from fentanyl but I feel like I’m bound to fail and watching this should motivate me to keep doing better but it’s so much harder than people think it is.
I'm only 23, so sometimes it's still hard for me to clearly identify immaturity in other young people. Still, as they were speaking, I got the sense that they are still very immature despite all that they've gone through. However, that sense was cemented when they talked about how excited they were to have a baby and that that was all they needed to quit the addict life and essentially stop cold turkey. Having and RAISING a child is supposed to be one of the hardest things a person can do. It doesn't heal insecure relationships much less addictions. If anything, some people can be driven into becoming addicts (jk). Also, the fact that they thought they were going to succeed at raising a baby in a healthy environment when Celeste's own family didn't shows again how naive they are.
yea I really hope they hold off on that. even if it's a thing she realizes she wants now, that's gotta be in the distant future a while after quitting drugs and hopefully some therapy. i agree but at the same time I think there's a stage of addiction where you're still in denial even if you're saying things about quitting and maybe it's moreso that. also just to cope with the fact that she has almost died multiple times. another relationship fantasy to keep her distracted from the anxiety about all of that
and they've only been together seven months. I've been in toxic codependent relationships and six or seven months was probably the height of the crazy fantasy talk about the future
Having a baby can 100% turn someone sober and clean, I’m proof of that, I used to be an addict just sofa surfing between friends and as soon as I fell pregnant I didn’t even touch a cigarette, now my baby is 6 months and I’ve been clean well over a year, got my own house and completely turned my life around. For a lot of people their child is the reason they are still alive and fighting to be the best version of themselves everyday
@@jeniilee8158 have to disagree with you there. Worked at a non-profit D&A rehab, more parents than not were completely unfit and chose drugs over their kids in just about any situation. Glad you decided to stop and raise your child though, truly 🙇♂️
Yes they both are veery immature. Esp. her. I did not get maturity until I was 30 years old. Some of the things she says is cringe AND buprenorphine doess NOt have a worse withdrawal then fent..... She was totally talking bullshit there. Immature.
Speaking as someone who was in a similar situation with a severely addicted codependent boyfriend. We also thought a kid would fix things. When you’re in that vicious cycle you don’t see ANYTHING clearly. Proudly have almost 3 years clean from opiates now and almost 3 years away from the psychotic guy that got me hooked on drugs at such a young age
They remind me of when I started using with my GF. We were both fully absorbed in the lifestyle, it seemed so cool and amazing to teenagers. That was before the dependence really set in, then it loses all the “cool and fun” parts…it just turns into misery and constantly trying to evade withdrawal. I hope they can get out before everything turns to shit, I wish them the best of luck.
This is a mixture of puppy love, codependency, and drug use. It has nothing to with " understanding" one another. I can empathize and understand why a lot of people do the things that they do. But that doesn't justify their drug use. A true partner should help uplift the other and vice versa.. All they're doing is enabling each other, and we all know what happens in the end in situations like that.
In a perfect world you're perspective would be true and would come true. This world is a mess and imperfect. Have any of you ever experienced anything like what these two young people are going through?? I have. It's so easy to say what they should or shouldn't do from the outside.... The outside is such a cozy place to be in.... But these are real people with real problems and if any of you were ever in the same situation as either of them, and you chose a different route right off the bat, someone would give you a medal for doing so, because it is that difficult to get out once you get wrapped up in it... Hindsight is 20/20 and looking in from the outside is a view full of cluelessness... Just saying
@@MrTheatre2 Meh, they are kids, I don't really expect them to be very bright. Considering their current situation and their upbringings they seem just as bright as I'd imagine. They don't sound dumb, just immature.
Two drug addicts should not be together in the first place. They will tell you that in rehab. So I've heard. These kids probley just want to do drugs. And what was causing the girls chronic pain? I doubt she had chronic pain. These kids don't seem like they are the type that started drugs for from abuse or chronic pain. Where is the diagnosis? Sorry but these kids just think it's cool to do drugs and I'm sure they are addicted. But they chose to do it. It's a choice not a disease. They don't seem like they want to change either. Give it some time and they will look rough soon.
Being an addict myself; heroin, for over 20 years, it's hard to see these kids talk as if their junkie niche is already so deeply carved. When in fact they are young enough to make this lifestyle a distant memory. I beg you both to please get it right now while you still can. Do NOT settle into thinking you are a drug addict and that's just it; NO! You are both young and can be anything you wish, most of all truly happy, secure, and fulfilled. I've been chasing the temporary happiness for decades and have lost everything, Been homeless for months at a time at least 4 or 5 times. I have lost my self worth, Worst of all I've lost my identity. Instead of being known for my gifts, I am known as a junkie. You two haven't been doing this long enough to surrender yourself to the stereotypes, stop now and save yourselves from the worst type of fear.
Yes, you are speaking the truth. Addiction will take everything. These young people are living a second trauma on top the their early trauma. They don't believe it now but they will lose everything. This is a horrid disease. There is absolutely nothing romantic about it.
@@karynwright-sikora1606 Nothing romantic at all is right. I was such a fool to think anything like that. Nothing romantic about complete isolation and loneliness.
The enabling of each other is off the charts. They are not sick of being dope sick. With fent now in the picture one will die soon and possibly the other will hit bottom. Everyone has a bottom.
Their stories are so sad. And it sounds like they are still seeing something romantic about few of these events. I hope they get housing and find a way to get clean. 🙏🏻
I remember Sebastian from high school chool we both graduated and walked year 2018... Gbc bro.. this man had it tough all his life, sad i pushed him away because of his bad habits
It's really wild having a parent/parents who are addicts. You are young and can't understand wtf is wrong, why do they love drugs more than you, and then they offer you that drug. Something you hate so passionately because it fucked you over in your childhood is now something you're hooked on in your early teens. I don't know if she'll read this but I get it. I lived it. Thankfully I got clean 7 years ago but it's a daily thing to try and control it. So, I'm definitely not judging. I'm 37 now. She said that her mom gave her one for pain, that's her intro it. What pain? What happened... Car accident? Big fall from the roof or a tree? I could be WAY off base but I felt the same thing. I would tell people that I started taking them for pain. It wasn't to get high. You keep that story going because it's the easiest way to rationalize it to yourself and others. "My parents were doing me a favor. They saw I was in pain and so it was out of love they gave me something to help." I didn't realize it until my mid 20s. There's no actual pain. No physical trauma that would justify being on opiates at that age. They take you to the doctor because of the pain.... But it's really just another way for them to score. Sorry, if my grammar is shit. Typing it on the backend of a cigarette break. I really wish you guys the best of luck. If you're wanting to get clean you need to have an extremely important conversation about your relationship. If you're together then sobriety isn't possible for just one of you. You'll bounce back and forth from sobriety, relapse, sobriety, relapse. Good luck guys!
Nick Ovel: Thank you for your insight. It helps me, the wife of an addict, understand a little better. And by the way, your grammar (and spelling) isn't shit . You're one of the few who use periods and who knows the difference between "you're" and "your."
I thought this. No responsible (parent in their right mind)offers heavy drugs to their child....to ease their pain (what about paracetamol), no that was way off and concerning. What that so called mother did was very abusive and wicked.
@@TheFunkybert not even 2 yrs. 6 months tops. Right now its still the honeymoon phase. Reality will set in when they are fighting over who used more of the drugs & whether she will sell her body for the next fix. God forbid they get separated bc 1 of them goes to jail.
He had some nerve returning for holidays with her to her parents' house, bringing their daughter home strung out. And getting her pregnant as if he had any foundation for a family.
You keep posting cringe comments on this channel and begging to be interviewed. You come across as trashy and even more pathetic than anyone ever interviewed by Mark. Stop being a loser
it is their lifestyle...sad...I know 60 year old married couple caught in the opiod/alcoholism roller coaster. so sad. I had to cut them out. known her since 4...
She has an excuse for literally EVERYTHING. And you can tell it's rubbing off on him also. They will literally get NO WHERE in life if they both keep this state of mind. I'm clean after many years of struggling.... and the first step is looking inside yourself and taking accountability and truly realizing you have a PROBLEM.
yeah.... i just don't like her and i typically don't even care about anything like this but for some reason she's just annoyed the fuck out of me.... almost as if she's trying to advertise her cool lifestyle... i don't know.... i'm sleep deprived and cranky and was in the mood to listen and watch an interview from underbelly and poof!! Here this one is.... i'm rambling..... anyway.. Godspeed 💫
This is why Mark has to pay people to come on. Comments like this. If you are put in a worse situation like these people, 9 times out of 10 you will not succeed. Obviously there are significantly better choices they could've made, but in their situation, you most likely would have made the same decisions, if not worse ones. Obviously, they have a long way to go, but you publicly shaming them is not helping or being productive in any way.
@@gurgalaburgala907 Shaming them? What crap. They are shaming themselves on a PUBLIC platform for MONEY. They want the attention and they got it. You reveal yourself as someone who thinks comments about objective reality are OFFENSIVE. That's tough. You can lie to yourself and this pathetic pair can lie to themselves. There are some of us who prefer the simple facts of the matter: the truth.
@@gurgalaburgala907 Some people are uneducated about the effect of ACEs on adults. Sadly the emotional pain of a difficult childhood can have lasting emotional and physical effects. It's not their fault they were handed a shit deal. They need hope that life will and can be better. Hope and support.
I see myself in them. I had an awful childhood and blamed everyone who caused my trauma for my addiction. I'm 27 now and don't want to be a victim anymore... my life is fucked up because I fucked it up. sure, I wasn't dealt a good hand. I consider myself a survivor of what happened to me... but blaming everyone else but myself won't change my life. I'm the only one who can change my life. I'm still struggling, but the realization that I can't keep blaming those who hurt me for how i turned out was a turning point... forgiveness has been super helpful, too. I forgive my parents for my childhood and I don't blame them for the mess I'm in now. I'm in recovery for 2 years and recovering from a relapse... stay strong guys, take your life into your own hands when you're ready (and I hope you are ready soon).
Good on you! Im proud of you. Forgiving someone who hurt you but will never apologise is hard. Extremely hard and painful. But not forgiving is like hoping the person that hurt you will drink poison, but you end up drinking the poison. Be the bigger person than the one who hurt you.
These poor kids lost in a delusion of youth, 5-10 years when they have no teeth, open sores, and all the other hell of addiction….hope they get out before they have to learn the hard way! Keep up the great content SWU!
Funny how shes blasting her friend for basically putting her foot down and setting her own house rules. Just because we are friends that doesn’t mean that i need to openly let you and your opiate addicted boyfriend inside my personal space and just be ok with it. The audacity. Hopefully they grow up soon and realize that they are in control of their own future.
@@christianjward sure. But that doesn’t mean that your friends and family need to condone your addictions. Specially if the person is trying to bring strangers into my house. Also, theres a lot of people that fight their drug addictions and they get out of it. I agree that its a hard situation to be in, but everyone has the power to turn their life around if they want.
She clearly stated that she was rarely there and wasn’t using openly and constantly at the house. It’s reasonable to set rules but even if the person was occasionally using in my house I’d still be willing to provide shelter for them since that’s my friend and I care about their life more than myself being off put by it. It’s clear that you don’t have a good understanding of addiction considering the fact that you believe this is enabling behaviour? It’s one less huge problem they have to deal with and they need to want a better life and the best way they get there is emotional support and encouragement for them to follow through on different steps of their recovery plan. Genuinely sad that people like you don’t truly care about their loved ones. Can’t comprehend how you would make a friend homeless when it’s a crucial point their life that can determine their future, rather than just communicating your needs and being supportive as she was respectful of the fact that her friend didn’t like her boyfriend without even having to set that boundary.
@@breadapex5905 just because you would allow people to “sometimes” use hard drugs in your own house doesn’t mean that the rest of us have to do it too. Have you thought about the fact that some people have kids and other family members ? And some of us don’t want our families and kids exposed to these kind of situations. You are just an enabler and thats ok i guess. Its not my problem. Its easy to say stuff just to say it or to prove someone wrong. But my opinion stays the same. Its not my responsibility to take care of someone that doesn’t even want to take care of themselves and on top of that you disrespect my own house rules. The only rule as a matter a fact. Have a good life in your own little fantasy world 🌈🦄💫where you clearly don’t know how to make others accountable for their own actions that shape the way they live their lives. Instead you want to blame and talk badly of people that set baundaries in their own house.
I know these two. Not personally, but I know them. A young couple, trauma-bonded and in love, with big dreams of getting sober together. It won't work. My best suggestion would be to get sober now on your own. Go to separate detox facilities, rehabs, halfway houses, and recovery houses. If you can both maintain a year of sobriety, then see what happens. But you will never get sober together. Best of luck to you two 💖
I appreciate how much they spoke about withdrawls, ive been dependant on hydromorphone for 20 years and the withdrawals are the only reason.. i wish i had a family that could afford to put me into a treatment center but in canada its very expensive.. i noticed not alot of addicts speak about withdrawls in these interviews, its a major motivating factor behind opioid addiction.. waking up everyday in the worst state, cant go on with your day until you get one in you, then you gotta plan for the next one because you've only got about 6 hours and it goes on like that until 20 years is eaten up! Interview these kids again in 20 years if theyre still here and youll see the toll it takes, ive seen it exactly
I'm wishing you two a complete recovery. You seem to compliment each other & are very respectful of each and definitely love & care for each. Please do a follow up with Mark & keep everyone updated. Much success to the both of you🙏🏻💗💗💗
It happens, it’s rare, but it happens. Especially when one in the relationship is strong willed enough to push it and their love for one another is never ending. I know.
Having an external locus of control is shit, because deep down you feel helpless, too helpless to do what you know you need to do. The only thing you can do is react. It also means that the anguish and regret and shame and guilt that you feel for yourself gets redirected to the outside. Like it's not self-sabotage; it's somehow sabotage, and that gives the relief from hating yourself but on the other hand, convincing yourself that the problem is outside means you'll be wasting your energy on the wrong fight. It is not something you just CHOOSE though. It is something they learned because of what they lived as children, because of their parents. It is an automatic part of how they function and it is hard to change - with drugs in the middle, of course they'd feel even more helpless. Their world revolves around their dependence to a substance. So yeah it's not something to judge but one of the things to address with psychotherapy.
Co-dependency at its finest. You either want to get clean or you don't. Theirs no gray area. As a recovering addict myself it's easy to see they are not ready to get sober
Ray Charles & Stevie Wonder can see that, right? The drug use is the core of their relationship. No responsibilities or stability...except who is going to score the next fix.
PLEASE HELP CELESTE-she’s homeless on the streets again and he apparently beat her and when they moved into an apartment together he beat her so bad that she had to move out-she’s now living homeless on the streets in La
@@baetrxz yes actually, thanks for caring enough to ask!! She is getting out of the abusive situation with him and she believes she will be strong enough to make it permanent this time and that she will never go back to him. Which if you have been in an abusive relationship then you will know it is very hard to “just leave”. She has a go fund me(I believe?) going and she is making edits on Instagram for $5-10 each so she can make enough money for herself to get by- because all she has to her name is a tote bag and a $10 bill- which I assume is gone now two days later after she posted that!! I just hope she can get enough to eat and have enough resources to make her life comfortable :(
they’re sooooooo young 😳☹️ if they don't try to get out rapidly of this addiction to this hard drug, in 10 years they’ll have lost their beauty, their teeth, their youth and all their dreams 🤷🏻 it bothers me a lot to see such a young couple who are already stuck on fentanyl… wow I'm very happy that fentanyl doesn't exist on our streets in Switzerland, we weren't affected by this crap… thank you Mark for this new video even if it bothers me 😉💋❤️ lots of love and hugs from Switzerland 🇨🇭
I agree with the insights below, but I also love how this couple showed respect and courtesy with how they spoke to each other. Treating loved ones with kindness and consideration feels good. They can build on that. Keep doing good things that feel good. There are sooooo many good, upbuilding things on this planet to choose from.
It's admiring how they are respectful of eachothers stories, like when she asked if it was okay to mention his addiction.. it seems like they are really good for each other. They aren't beyond help and recovery. I'm hopeful they will decide to get clean because they seem pretty level headed
I wouldn’t say they’re good for eachother. Anyone who truly cares for another would never let them use much less abuse this drug that kills every day. I know three people who overdosed to their deaths on this drug alone. That’s not “good for eachother”. That’s enabling and opening eachother up to an early grave. Cute and young. Or not.
@@ewechoober3355 aside from them doing drugs, they are there for each other. They've tried getting clean together. They don't beat on each other or abuse each other verbally (that we can see based on the interview) so by saying they're good for each other, I mean just as a couple, drugs aside
It’s like they glorify the lifestyle. You just have to do it. Can’t bring a baby in this world in a mess like that. You’re just offering your child the life you both came out of. You have to break the cycle and do right by your kids.
Yeah, its weird because I grew up emotionally abused and terrified to have any children to potentially hurt unintentionally. They seem to think they are smarter or better or stronger and will just have a child and poof be a good parent because you love the baby. Well, it is very immature, very selfish, very dangerous to have a child and think you are above all this crap. Very into the drug scene and looking glamorous. Yeah, check in a few years and see the brain cells dwindling, not so glamorous then. They should not get housing for being irresponsible and not contributing members of society. Imo
I am a mother of 6 and I wanted to tell you two that I am proud of you for sharing your story! I hope you find the strength to overcome opioids. Its a seriously difficult addiction but that fact your talking about it is the first step! You are both beautiful and you have your whole lives ahead of you! You are not your past! You are you and everyone can overcome this! I did❤ I wish you all the very best!
These kids are way too young and have no idea where they’re headed. I pray to God they realize that this lifestyle leads to nothing but pain and suffering. The streets are unrelenting and they could get out of it so much easier now than later. Thank you, Mark!
They're 24. They are not kids. You're blinded by a postcard view. They are shooting opiates after a 10 years career in her case. It will not have been a happy time.
@@nightmrj I hear your point. But we had been working and living independently since 16. Saving to go through university by 19. I'm 60 so I'm aware this generation is very different
She is such a pretty girl. You can tell how immature they really are. It's like they are living life with not a worry in the world. She does have support at home but doesn't want to go cuz of childish reasons. They still have so much life to live and I hope they find their way b4 it's to late. I was an addict for years, never homeless but still. I had a baby, I lost everything more then once and I finally looked around me one day and realized I didn't want to live that way anymore and wanted more for my child. So almost 6 years later here I am clean and sober and living my best life. We all have past trauma but if you want to get clean you will. No excuses.
You ought not say it's childish reasons, her home life is clearly better than his but it doesn't mean she has support, if it's true her mom was feeding her perks and such it could be a major trigger, I know my relationship with my dad is. She's super immature but these are her lessons to learn, I hope she doesn't have to see him dead to see who that bitch really is. Same for him but I think he's got a better idea already, he just doesn't know a better way.
I really wish nothing but the best for Celeste and Sebastian. Super tough childhoods, super tough circumstances. I hope they can support each other out of addiction and into a nice life, with jobs, kids, stability and joy. Fongers crossed for you two. May you both be blessed and safe. Edit: to all the people being *ssh*les, do you know the one thing all addicts have in common? Trauma. 'But there for the grace of god, go I' the saying goes.
The fact that they wanted to have a kid, shows how they don't understand the cycle that they are stuck in. I also noticed she places blame a lot on other people especially in scenarios that she can make choices on. Also mentioning using a kid to make sure she got housing is messed up as well. If you cannot provide a safe stable environment for yourself, you cannot provide a safe environment for a child.
I couldn’t agree with you more
She's a dude on female hormones. The entire story was a con.
They're damaged from lifetimes of abuse and full on addicts but in their minds they're normal loving people who just got unlucky...
Yup. But young people never listen. I didn't.
From someone in Recovery over 20 Years, you have a lifelong illness. The only treatment is Choice. Do I chose my Illness(addiction) or choose Sobriety. Fortunately I choose Sobriety one day at a time.
She’s still got her mind. She can get out and really do it. She’s so smart and pretty. He seems like a calm kind soul. Wishing the absolute best for them.
Why her & not him? She seems about as clueless as him right now.
which vid are you watching? he seems more strapped in..
Naw shes gone. To her its a game 🎮
They both still have their minds, guys.
They're only in their early 20s. They're immature and need guidance in the worst way. If they continue this lifestyle, it won't be no time at all and they'll both go down and be much,much harder to get their sh*t together.
Are they hopeless? No, I don't think so.
hes a manipulative idiot
The abuse described by Sebastian (his sister being tied up and pissed on, etc) is horrifying. I forget that people out there hate their kids.
They actually hate themselves and project that hatred onto their children.
@@timmywitty1432 it hardly makes any difference at all.
@@timmywitty1432 exactly!
My mom did even worse. It’s sadistic
@@ashdstee im so sorry ... my son is 1.5 & I can’t even fathom hurting a single hair on his head. You didn’t deserve that, no child does.
my bf & i were both addicted to fentanyl together. we are now 2 yrs sober. it IS possible for couples to recover together. it just takes some time apart to detox & the mutual understanding of codependency in the relationship. it’s real work.
How can people even do fentanyl? Doesnt a little grain of salt of that kill you I'm confused
@@kevinloyer1205 people build tolerances for it. the average amount of fentanyl that would kill someone (grain of salt sized) is for people who do not have a tolerance to it. for example- a teenager who bought drugs that were laced with it who has never used fentanyl before would kill that person. people like u see on this video are daily users, so it would take a lot more than a grain of salt size to kill them.
I understand but you once used fentanyl for the 1st time how didnt you or your bf die?
@@kevinloyer1205 people usually get addicted because other drugs are laced with it, fentanyl is cheaper and stronger so people take it mixed with other things
well done
been in this type of relationship more than once. trauma bonding makes you feel instantly connected and drug use definitely helps the honeymoon euphoria stage, but its a tragic fairy tale nonetheless. wish these people well. i moved to the other side of the country away from my girlfriend because it was the only way to stay off drugs without having someone you love there to also enable you. and then if its not them its you- a double ended sword indeed.
there is no romance in drug addiction.
much love ✌️💫
Damn I respect the f*ck outta that
The drugs will always matter more than the "love"
@@PanicGiraffe yeah I loved him when we were high. But I moved 12 hours away to get clean and realized he never would.
Well said.
They can't even afford real opioids. GTFO with fentt
I was one of these kids. I am now working toward my PhD. I hope they see the comments and know that they can get out.
Proud of you
@@user-qq7pg6xe5v thank you.
Do you think you'd be clean if you had a cute girl you could turn out for money? Their relationship is their biggest impediment
@@yoyoiven I am not going to share a picture, but my partner when I was running the streets was beautiful. How our relationship turned out is something that I deeply regret. We dealt together, I didn't turn her out and never wanted to or could have. But eventually I got her clean (as I attempted to get clean) and let her go as she let me go. She is also working on her PhD (that is what my wife told me). What she did was of her own powers and what I did was of my own. But I ran the streets of Chicago and LA with other pretty girls.
What matters is that they recognize their rock bottom and decide that they want more, and understand that they cannot be a part of each others lives to get that.
you’re a strong and loved person congratulations for finding the love and power within yourself to get yourself clean
6 years opiate free & today I am 2 years, 3 months, & 9 days clean of everything. You both can do this. Reach out, many of us are willing to support you & be of guidance whenever you are ready. I’m so glad that I chose life & recovery.. I wish this blessing on everyone. 💛
If I may ask after quitting opiates did you continue to use other substances?
Wow! Good for you I vet that's hard to get off of opiates. Keep it up
Do you feel good, like before starts using ?
beautiful stuff man keep it up
keep spreading the support and positivity
Well done 😎
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to fentanyl for over 6 years. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 3 years totally clean. This is something that really need to be use globally to help people with related health challenges.
Hey! Yes Dr.alishrooms
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
I was horrifically depressed since childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them again, either. I wish there was a good, organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.
Does he ship? Can he deliver to me here in Faroe Island 🇫🇴
Hell yea I feel like a lot of people are scared of shrooms and exploring their own psyche
You can tell she’s still fully aware and she’s even reaching out to him to comfort him here and there during his interview. I hope they both get help now before it’s too late, these people clearly just need to be loved a little harder by all of us
These kids have a grave misconception about getting clean. It’s not the first five days that are the hardest. Those are the hardest physically. The emotional and mental aspects don’t show up until after the physical withdrawals are over. The hard part is when you’re a month or two clean and the depression kicks in. Everything you’re running from while getting high comes back all at once, full force. That’s why you need a strong support system. When the anxiety and guilt start kicking your ass, all you want to do is use and you no longer are physically dependent so you justify it as if I use once I won’t get sick. That’s the hard part.
Very true. The post acute withdrawal may be more challenging than those first days...
@@prague7706 I’ve been off heroin for around ten years, give or take, and the most challenging part for me was the first time I faced real adversity after being clean for over 4 months. It was an internal battle like I’d never experienced before. I was rationalizing a relapse and blaming everyone else. It was a literal argument between sober me and the addict inside, viciously clawing his way to the surface. I was sweet talking myself while simultaneously laying on a guilt trip, thick and heavy. I didn’t end up relapsing because I have a tremendous support system and faith in God. The key ingredients to a successful recovery is a strong support system and faith.
@@subs4794 21 and 23
@@subs4794 21 & 23. Emotionally they are children. I’m over 40. They’re kids to me.
@@subs4794 did you see he said they are kids to him because he is much older. Their immaturity is what makes them like kids. And she is 23 & he is 21.
I detoxed off of a 10 year opiate addiction in a solitary cell in jail. It was the worst and best thing that ever happened to me. God bless all these folks. There is a better life out there for everyone.
U didn't get arrested , you got rescued. That's what we called that in the prison I was at. Those few days to couple weeks seem horrible at first and then it gets easier till it's just easy. I felt more freedom locked up than ever B4. After getting out that trap, I left the opes alone
Fuckin hell lad!
Jail made me sober too, only got locked up for a week but that week got my mind clear enough to realize I didn't want nothing to do with that shit no more thankfully!!!
Wow bro that must've been very painful going through withdrawal in solitary.
Be thankful you were in a solitary cell. I did it in a filthy cell with about 30 screaming monkeys , only iron or concrete to lay on. It was a nightmare.
I was so sick it took me 12 days to get my head together to bond out. I had the money the whole time at my house.
As soon as I saw the video thumbnail, I instantly recognized Celeste as the same quiet girl who occasionally attended the same church youth group as me. Hearing that she grew up in Nashville confirmed it. Listening to her story of dealing with drug use as a child/young teen was really eye opening considering she was going through that in silence at the same time that I knew her. I'm happy to see that she still has the same bright creative energy that she did when we were kids. I hope she's doing better now.
I went to school with her!
I know her as well. I have tried multiple times to help her and each time she goes MIA. She sells her nudes for drug money or will say she needs a bus ticket to get sober but then disappears.I hope they get the help they need.
I’m surprised after Celeste expressed disappointment in her childhood, that she would think is ok for her to have a baby when she hasn’t been clean at all, yet. How does she not realize she’s perpetuating the same cycle of her great aunt/aka mom and birth mother?
Often people like this are on a different plain. In their mind they will have this little baby that will love them, and they will love. They don’t think about getting food, clothes, ect. They just have this idea a baby will fix them mentally, keep them clean, and life will get better.
Because she's young and thinks it's cool and rebellious and her dude and her ride or die. She hasn't hit a bottom and is far from it.
That’s exactly why cycles exist. Drugs and trauma really alter peoples sanity and ability to think logically. In her mind I’m sure she thinks she would never do what was done to her , while not realizing that her using drugs has already started the process of following in their footsteps.
I assume she means have a kid once she's sober
It straightened my ass up. Not immediately but I stayed at it till I kicked a 10 year opioid addiction (5 of them I was shooting Opana and Oxy).
Her helping him stay on track with his thoughts/stories and both of them being so patient while listening to each other touched my heart.
I thought so too. They are a really sweet couple.
I noticed that how she touched his leg to calm him.
They are both in denial.. they can't help each other in any way but splitting up and getting clean individually.. she can't help him they are both addicts.. you should try a relationship like that maybe you will understand..
If you don't think he sells her vagina for drugs your crazy.. its a part of their lifestyle..
@@gembrain7095 no they suck for each other
Because they fried their brains with drugs. Nothing touching about that.
At 20 I’d roll my eyes if someone said they’re still little kids. I’m 30 now…and now all I can think is “they’re still kids”.
Be careful you guys. It doesn’t need to end here.
Isn’t it amazing how 10 years can seem like an entire lifetime away
Wow, I was about to say that about 30 year olds. I think maybe we’re all kids and it’s just a lifelong spectrum that starts with birth and ends with death.
Theyre not kids trust me. Being in your 20s youre not a kid any more
Hearing these poor kids story about they're parents makes me realize how fortunate I was as a kid and still am . I'm calling my parents right now to tell them how much I Love them ❤️
My parents were wonderful. I had no idea there was such horrible people in this world. Sadly I didn’t appreciate them as much as I should of 😭
their*
That is a wonderful idea, I am going to do the exact same thing. Thank you Jayzee
non native speakers don't have to be perfect in english to express themselves@@pcrolandhu
At times during the interview, she sounds like she's proud to be using. They're codependent on each other. I wish them the best.
it is her only accomplishment thus far...
the guy sounds a lot more depressed about it but ive seen tons of addicts who dont really care abt the addiction
Yea she was definitely glorifying it at times
She's probably just excited that she gets the opportunity to tell her story to someone who wants to listen. As a homeless addict, it's probably not an opportunity she comes across very often. One thing I've noticed about these interviews is that a lot of these people are extremely lonely.
She’s the girl who for sociology class will tell everyone that one time she was on molly .
so she meet him in october while she had a apartment and no fentanyl addiction, and meeting him made her lose those two things. Anyone see the not so cute picture of a addict dragging another one with them in the hell not to be alone. If he really cared for her he would not accept her losing her apartment and getting hooked to fentanyl to live on the street with him.
They are terrible for each other
It’s easy to say it’s fault. But I been there, as much as it seems like he feeding her habit, you don’t know how they manipulate each other when they are alone. Watch until the end, she’s been a drug addict! No this time it’s not different, this time you just have someone who’s willing to jump off the bridge with you! And they prob do believe themselves when they say “ we do want to get clean “ but hearing her rehab story you can tell they are not ready.
that and him making her see him as her savior, telling her "his tear woke up her up". a lot of emotional details that makes her caught up with him in that world, they are both dragging each other down more and more.
You can only blame him for so much. If she really wanted a place to stay she would have left him and went on about her life. But, she was also an addict before him and she fell in love with another addict. Now they both feed off each other
"He ended up using in front of me" -that wasn't a mistake on his part. I don't judge him, just agreeing with the comment.
(Coming from a former addict)
This is why we get in these cycles. Young homeless kids on drugs wanting to have babies and thinking it's going to be this wonderful and blissful thing. It is so much more than that. This is why kids get abused and end up in foster care with trauma and continues the cycle over and over.
I hope they get clean and get to live their best lives before opting to bring other lives into the world.
The baby would have filled the void in their lives and made them happy.
@@smellysock4260 That's not how it works unfortunately. Babies are lovely for sure but they're hard work. Even people with all their shit together who have wanted babies for years struggle sometimes. Having a baby as a homeless drug addict is insanely unfair to the child. I hope they get clean and stable and have the family of their dreams. I hope they heal their trauma and break the cycle. I hope they do this before they have a baby and not just hope it gives them the motivation to get clean.
@@smellysock4260 it’s not the baby’s purpose to fill a void. Having a child test everything about you. The good and bad. You need to be emotionally, physically, mentally, & financially capable to have a child.
Babies born to addicted mothers even if their adoptive parents are not users are statistically more likely to become addicted. God bless them.
@@smellysock4260 I have financial stability, a loving husband, a decent house and I wanted a baby. I ended up having twins and experienced horrible postpartum depression. It's the hardest thing I've ever done, and at times I couldn't even imagine why I ever wanted it. I spent so many nights sobbing because of the exhaustion and lack of freedom. I'm totally fine and happy now, but could you imagine how it'd make someone feel that's already in a bad situation? Babies are an incredibly life changing thing and they take every bit of energy and love that you have. It's SO irresponsible to bring a child into the world in an unstable environment, yet it keeps happening.
Lost my son to Fentanyl poisoning. Hope these beautiful souls can find peace ❤
Im so sorry for your loss 😢 i can only imagine what your going through. Stay strong and i hope things get better for you. I know ur life will never be the be same but hopefully u have more kids n can look forward to raising them and telling them about ur son n his beautiful soul. GOD BLESS U
@@jonathansegura8900 Thank you for your sweet kind words. I’m nothing can take the place of my beautiful son, I have a fabulous daughter who helps me through. I actually feel very sorry for her as she has lost her only sibling. My heart breaks for all of us x
I almost lost my sister to an overdose (su*cide attempt). It tore my mother apart. Being her sister, I also was torn apart. Seeing all that her overdose has done to my family is heartbreaking. I can’t imagine the extreme amounts of pain you and your daughter have gone through. Sending love and prayers to you and your family❤️❤️
@@liv-sh5tf Thank you so much, sweetheart. I am so sorry for your hurting hearts , As watching someone struggle can be just as heartbreaking xx
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Just the fact that they are still able to care about dressing “fashionable” -wearing accessories, showing strong sense of personal style, have fresh haircuts, clothes were matched and planned intentionally, look clean-tells me that they are both fairly new in their addiction. These kids have a long way to go unfortunately. Eventually drugs won’t seem exciting and fun anymore. Eventually they won’t care what they are wearing, just throw something on to go cop. Won’t care about food, lose weight. I wish them the best but…Long road ahead of these two. I don’t think they even know what they got themselves into yet.
He's been headed there for a while. I kept telling him to come back to orange county (where he went to school with me in garden grove) but he wouldn't listen. Me and bash were really close friends during senior year. He had a job at a retail store. I remember he got that face tattoo and ended up leaving that job, and I told him he's making bad decisions. We had a lot of fun times, we would party and skip school together, sesh at his house. But in the end, all he would talk about was going to LA and becoming a famous rapper. I tried my best as his friend to keep him on a good track. Eventually his mom kicked him out, and I remember seeing him leave his house with nothing but a sack with all his things. I felt sorry and like I couldn't help him, but at that point I couldn't do much. Also, being fashionable was always his thing haha. I remember all the designer he would try wearing to school. I can't see him losing care in that lol 😂 he's a rockstar in his head
Lesson #1 ... you can't tell a person's story by how they appear.
Not all addicts look like corpses dressed in rags with no teeth.
There's a load of functional addicts that you'd never know were using.
@@Tgrey808 what’s his ig
I definitely relate to just throwing on whatever to pick up, when you’re withdrawing it’s such a drag to even get dressed.
There is something disturbing about the kid looking like he's about to cry the whole time while the young woman giddily talks about the drug use. It's like a shame vs. pride, two sides of the same coin when it comes to addiction. I've felt that arrogant pride before as well when I was younger. You think you're cool for doing things different, feeling high, being an "outcast". It really doesn't last long. If I had known the shame that eats at me every day I might have had the sense to find some control. Feeling bad for these kids, it's the calm before the storm. I hope the best for them.
I don’t think she’s “prideful.” Sometimes, actually a lot of the time, your outward expressions may not match your inside thoughts. Have you ever found yourself maybe smiling or giggling/laughing when recounting something traumatic?
Doesn’t mean you aren’t/ weren’t effected, it’s just your body doing that.
I saw that too she seemed like she was still excited about her journey in drug use because it hasn’t gotten bad yet, let it get bad and she’ll be just like him she’s just still in a delusional “it’s not that bad I’m just quirky and numbing the pain like the famous ppl do”
yeah it's really easy to see who has truly experienced addiction and who has not in this case
That's because she's a hipster that's just having fun and eventually will stop and move on. And he's an actual addict fighting demons.
@@StrawberryFeildsforNever No, it means you're probably not that affected by it.
You’re doing what very few are brave enough to do, Mark. You are changing the perspectives of so many. Thank you for your consistency and bravery.
100% agree with Vicienne
He's brave for filming them and making money from this channel?
@@s_photo1385 He gives money out to a lot of people he has met doing this as well as paying each of them to do the interview. If you watch interviews of Mark he talks all about it.
🤣
@@s_photo1385 He helps them outside of filming aswell. He goes in some of the roughest areas to give us insight of different lives. He's been robbed before etc. Not everyone can handle some of the situations he's gone through, most don't even give these people the time of the day.
Would love to see an update on Celeste and Sebastian. It would be interesting to see how their relationship has developed/changed over the course of the year.
I follow him on Instagram and I don’t think they’re together anymore. Seb still lives in LA tho
What is his Instagram?
@@sisileon9329 @/whokilledbash
@@3pootpoot637whats his ig man
@@sisileon9329whokilledbash. He hasn't posted, he's a friend from high school sewing this broke my heart
They are so young, they can turn this all around if they just set their minds to it. Wishing these kids the best.
@Jack Hideous ....and social media (including youtube).
The eye tattoos are going to be an advantage.
they don't want to. I know a ton of junkies on skid row. All they want to do is drugs. They are narcissistic and lazy
I try bro bash doesn't want the help man, we can only help only if he wants to do it himself and they don't
@Uther Petersen lmaooo don't say that😭
I feel like not only are they codependent, but she romanticizes drug use. As someone in recovery, who also works in recovery, this makes my heart so sad. I know how relationships like this tend to end, it isn’t pretty. But I’m hoping for the best, they are young and have such bright futures ahead of them if they choose to get treatment. Would love to see an update on these two.
How do they end?
@@charlottewilson9001 lol how do you think??
Yeah I see that too. I’m an ex addict and used to do the same thing. Romanticize the “glamorous” side of drug use - the kind they portray in movies. Someone needs to show her the reality, take her down to Kensington, PA or skid row. There’s nothing glamorous about it. It’s a hard, lonely, and shameful existence once you get to that point.
As a former addict I’m able to say it was pretty shitty of him to give it to her. I know it’s her choice but an ultimatum like “if you use, I walk” and I’m sure that would’ve sufficed. Sometimes we can’t care about being hypocritical if it involves someone you love/care about. Not taking the blame completely off her but damn, c’mon dude….
@@charlottewilson9001 theyll continue to love eachother while high, hate eachother when sober and fight. but the drugs will always bring them back to eachother. one will want to get clean the other wont, theyll both stay addicted until one overdoses the living one will be left alone heart broken and most likely overdose or get sober and forever live missing there other half.
My heart sank at this time stamp ... "I was pregnant and we wanted to like keep the baby and we wanted to like go through with that because we were already like working on housing and we were like well if i'm pregnant we can get housing."
Please get clean BEFORE having a child. 😢
They're totally delusional about reality and are far too deep into addiction to have any sense of reality or responsibility. Romanticizing their meeting and their first date for which they were both off their faces on drugs. Children should not be brought into their crazy world. Not a chance she'd have stayed clean or he'd have stayed clean with her through a pregnancy, unfortunately. And her lack of awareness that her friend who had helped her out, didn't want a couple of drug addicts living in her house. She needs a reality check.
They wanted that kid purely for selfish reasons. I wish them all the best, and I think that would be splitting up, sobering up, and then at some point having families when they're in a more stable state of life. I hope they don't bring children into this world of theirs.
@@christophclear1438 not true.
@@extendedpinky you didn't excel at debate club, did you?
@@christophclear1438 you didn’t graduate did you.
I strongly get the feeling she fetishizes their current situation. He obviously is hooked and is starting to go through the harder parts of opioid addiction. He is right on that edge and I’m sure is starting to realize that he’s slipping, but she isn’t at that point yet. She almost tells her story like she tries to get on his level to feel closer to him. 😢 I hope to see an update on them saying they got clean together
Not likely to happen. They need to reach the bottom first. Now they they think it's "manageable"
100%
@@commentsarefree4311 I don't know that there is a bottom. Every time one hits a bottom there is much a deeper bottom to be revealed.
I had a similar relationship with my GF when I was deep in opiate addiction, so I can relate to these two quite a lot.
That said, couples almost never get clean "together". Getting clean requires a lot of work on yourself emotionally and behaviorally.
Relationships built on using introduce a very negative influence in recovery. If one relapses, the other almost always goes back as well.
@@sleeplessdev7204
Can't tell you how many couples I've seen nodding out next to each on the buses from West Palm Beach to Delray Beach Florida...the recovery capital of the country. Can just as easily be called the relapse capital too.
i bought one of those blue percocets before, not knowing it had fentanyl in it and i overdosed and "died" immediately. scary stuff and i will never touch a pill again. life is precious and it can be gone so quickly. please be careful. you two are better than this. i wish you both sobriety and peace
Youre not the only one...so many of us and them out there thats happened to and not even being a addict. Super early in experimentation stage and this has happened...
yup those percs now are 100% fent on the streets, people passing them off as prescription etc but they even feel dirty
same! I did a half of one in full blown addiction with high tolerance and as soon as I picked my head up I had no memory........ apparently was still talking too but eventually woke up being revived by ems
I broke my back and a doctor had prescribe me real pain meds :(( waaa😭 I felt warm and fuzzy 🇺🇸
The pressed 30s? Most of those come from Mexico, they're cartel products. That shit is no joke- I did less than 1/4 of one and couldn't move. You're so, SO lucky to be alive, and I'm so proud of you for turning your life around. ❤️
I know one of them very well (not going to say who for anonymity) when they lived in an earlier city and i just want to say thank you mark for showing this. I had no clue my friend had done this interview and i’ve known what they’ve been going through, i appreciate you showing everyone Celeste’s and Sebastian’s perspective. Never thought i’d see a close friend on here but small world, thank you so much mark
Help them out :)
Def the girl. Hope she doesn’t turn to prostitution
@@tylervoyer74 they need to help themselves before anyone can offer them anything
@@aannalese yup. Help them understand that. People need help sometimes
@@tylervoyer74 that's a tall order. I've helped out, but only after they stop using can anyone really help.
I owned a business and made hundreds of thousands of dollars a year. I spent it all on opiates for eight years straight. I tried quitting twenty or thirty times. Finally I decided I was done for good. I sat home alone for three weeks. I didn't answer my phone even one time. I knew I was done with that shit. I almost liked the pain of withdrawal at that point because I KNEW it was my last one. It was the worst and best three weeks of my life. I was seeing double, throwing up, shitting the bed, and nearly suicidal. But I was determined to break the cycle. I didn't leave the house for those three weeks because I didn't trust myself to drive. After those three weeks I was shaky, could not sleep, and had a very difficult time working just a couple of days a week. It was hard to do the dishes or even shower. After two months, I was still rattled and could not sleep. The insomnia was terrible. I would drink whisky just to get a couple of hours sleep, and always woke up feeling way worse. It finally culminated when I accidentally drove off the road (sober) at sixty mph, and was nearly killed in a rollover crash. I was so mentally unstable from eight years of heavy abuse that I should not have been driving yet. That accident took away everything I ever felt about opiates. I broke my ribs, dislocated my shoulder, and had nerve damage in my arm. I refused to go to the hospital, and did not take any opiates. I suffered two of the worst weeks of my life then. I was in constant pain, but did not care. I was never using again. My accident was a little over a month ago. It sobered me up completely. I am recovering nicely and I KNOW that I am through using. For the first time in eight years, I feel like ME again, and it feels so fucking good, I can't even tell you...
Celeste and Sebastian, you CAN do it!!!! I feel lucky to be alive, and although I have lost much, I am certainly better off now than when I was using.
You have to REALLY want it. You have to want it more than you want to use. The fear of the thought of living without opiates was terrifying to me. I was so alone and depressed early on. I eventually told someone I was an addict, and that was unbelievably freeing for my mind and mental state. I hid my addiction from EVERYONE for those eight years. No one knew. That was a heavy burden to carry.
I've been clean for about three months now, and I know I am never going back. I'm not one for dates or remembering years that things happened in my life, but I will never forget that I quit opiates for good on the day that Russia invaded Ukraine. February 24th, 2022 will stick with me forever. Contact me anytime if you wish to talk.
Doug
Well done, my friend. Stay strong. 💪🏼
Congrats man, you should be really proud :)
Wow you are tough as shit. That is admirable.
Good job!!
@@ARTSIEBECCA Thanks, Guru! Your comment brought a smile to my face! And you know the old saying: if you're gonna be stupid, you'd better be tough, haha....
These two are genuinely decent people that haven’t gotten themselves out of the cycle yet. I hope they make it out and move onwards and upwards in life.
His tears woke her up frm her OD?!?!? Omg man... these kids are in a world of trouble if they don't get away frm each other now!!! There codependency will kill them. Hopefully he doesn't get her pregnant again and they don't ruin that child's life. These dudes here aren't the cute little couple everyone sees in the comments. They are extremely addicted, and think that everything is gonna be fine cause they got each other and they'll make it. Mark interrupted her on one of her rants about how awesome and smart she is and going off about her potential... then he goes, but your a drug addict. Stops her dead in her tracks. I see comments after comments of ohhh there so cute, and smart, and loving... they got each other and they'll make it because of that. He's the worst thing that happened to her period.
No one knows but tears are way more effective than Narcan.
@@a.wanderer5006 lol!!! Dude!!! Couldn't have said it better myself
@@a.wanderer5006 Your idiot lol
Seems like they are completely romanticizing their drug use. Especially the bracelet thanking him for saving her life. Cant help but think she sits around and daydreams about how great he is for reviving her. They are at rock bottom and are too blind to see it.
@@JackBrittsUA-cam hopefully they don't make another child man. I was addicted to heroin for about 4 years, 2 sniffing, 2 shooting, and your always the last to know how fucked up you really are. They got no one In there lives that aren't fucked up on drugs, which is gon a be a huge hurdle to get over. They need to break there relationship off, cause it's not really love it's codependency, and they both need to find a rehab far frm anyone or anything they know. I hope the best for them but it's ain't looking good. They know it all. You can't tell them shit.
I love when couples are interviewed. Selfishly, we get 2 for 1 from mark. But I love seeing the dynamic between the couples. As well as hearing what led them to each other
Yeah, all about the twofers. Freakin’ awesome.
Same I love the couple 💑 interviews
A pornography of their despair ?
Funny, I don't like the couples interviews as much. I don't get each person's story as well.
Me too!
They’re young, cute, and full of promise but they’re on such a dangerous road that they will regret or not survive. It’s not about young love, it’s about taking responsibly and waking up before it’s too late. I hope dearly they can do that.
Early 20's an entire lifetime ahead of them. A bag of sorrows and trouble around their necks. Make a plan you 2 and get ur azzes in gear. Time waits for no one. If you can't get and stay sober u will not make it. The sweet part u have together won't survive an O.D. I'm rooting for you, tho. Tee
Yeah young and cute. They haven't a hope in hell. Just another couple of junkies. They won't see 40.
This
I wasted my 20s on heroin/fent (and meth) addiction. Regret isn’t the right word bc it made me the person I am. I’m compassionate and strong. But it’s deeply sad knowing how much I used to hurt and degrade myself every day… the scars mental and bad physical scars from iv drug use. But I still wouldn’t change it. But if they could figure it out in less years that would be amazing to save some of the trauma .
I hate that the interviewer said they were destined to do drugs. They are so young and impressionable and "destined" sounds so final. They have the power to make their own "destiny" and change their life. They look so cute, they are cute kids and I wish them all the best. This breaks my heart to be honest.
Ah, the neverending cycle:
1. see this channel in the feed
2. binge interviews all day during work
3. forget about channel for awhile
4. see channel in feed
5. there's like 30 new interviews to binge during work
my ex got me addicted to heroin/fentanyl. ill admit i was the happiest i had ever been when we first got together. it was the drugs. even when we weren't high right at that moment, being stuck in the cycle of addiction made us feel like we were connected way more than we were. once we both got sober i realized i didnt like him when we werent high. he acted totally different and so did i. now its been years since we were apart and i dont even know what i saw in him🤦🏻♀️ drugs cloud ur brain so much. like the things that u dont notice when ur using drugs are SO OBVIOUS to ppl who are sober.
Same here. I first started using heroin thru a relationship
Haha
Your ex didn't get you addicted to anything. You made a choice and got addicted.
All I can say is 'wow. Mark, the way in which your open ended questions prompt so much thought in those being interviewed is utterly astounding. You both genuinely care, and do an astounding job of challenging skewed ideals in a way that prompts such introspection, hopefully leading to change. Amazing.
Your such an ass licker. Ohhh Mark you so great. Get a life.
i really hope & believe they can grow through this. the way she puts her hand on his leg when he’s talking about something she knows is sensitive, its so easy to tell they’ve been through hell together. they deserve so much more than this life
I would love to see a follow-up on this couple. I would really love to see them both talking about how they got off that shit and how things are changing.
dude I doubt. I remember this guy in hs and he’s been like this.
@@staceyyeye2861 He still has his high school haircut. lol Thats what my hair looked like in HS except blond
I would love to see that too.
But in reality, it would kind of like winning the lottery twice in a row.
Not going to say it's impossible, but it is very unlikely.
Not just for them, but for anyone who is trying to get clean, and also depends on another person to do the same, at the same time.
@@staceyyeye2861does he have any socials?
@Electric982 really? Thats too bad. I know how hard it is too stop especially when you're doing with your gf.
He doesn't seem like the abusive type, but a lot can happen in a year especially when being on that beast.
She seems like she's at a point where drugs are still "fun" rather than a point where she feels like she needs it to function. I pray they both find a way to get clean.
Yeah I don’t believe this is her second time being addicted. She seems like she has recently started drugs
I’ve been Celeste and see a lot of myself in her. My bf and I dated in the mid 2000s and we used oxys when it was everywhere. We tried to get clean together many times and ultimately couldn’t do it. I wasn’t strong enough and neither was he. It took me moving states away a few years later to get clean. He ended up passing away from an overdose a few years after I moved and there’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think about him. He was my first love. I have a good life now and don’t regret what I did because I wouldn’t be who I am today.
My unsolicited advice would be to focus on yourself. Get clean then work on housing. If you feel the same way about each other after you have sobriety then try to move in together. It’s not impossible to get clean together but it’s rare.
It makes my heart happy to see so many people have sympathy for strangers, but the problem with some people is that you will never get their true personality.
Celeste was my best friend . Celeste has lied about cancer , sexually assaulted MANY of her friends and so much more .
Celeste was never a loner . She had a different personality for every person she met . At one point, we were in 8th grade and she left me in a ditch so she could go drink with 18 year olds. She always had sleepovers ( where she gave all her friends drugs), she always chose one of her friends to be her girlfriend/boyfriend .
She had zero consequences for her actions and zero help for any of her mental health. She was allowed to do whatever , whenever. This fed in to her constant need to always be right and be the center of attention .
Because of her excuses, all she has ever gotten was sympathy or praise . Celeste is a very intelligent woman. The last thing she needs is sympathy. She needs honesty and a reality check
I can see this 100%. I hope her BF can see this too. It's never a good look to talk over someone at a joint-interview as much as she did. Her cap says it all. Notice me!
She probably hace mental health issues
It sounds like you're upset that your bestfriend was a different person than you expected them to be. Maybe even resentment.
This is heart breaking! Especially his story about his mother abusing him and his sister, good Lord. Such sweet people and beautiful souls, they're babies. I pray that they get it together they seem so sweet and didnt deserve the life they were given.
I agree.
They're cute.
And smart.
And I'm glad he got to graduate.
@@javanesemystic I agree its awesome he got to graduate that's huge and they have so much potential I pray they realize it❤🙏🏿
You seem overly sentimental. They look like young adults and we don't rly know what they are like as people.
Empathy is good but there's a point where ur just gullible.
@@ykshay that's fair and you're probably right I do have a bleeding heart, literally.
@@charlenedavis6153 I find it kinda hard to find the middle-ground sometimes. I don't trust people, but that's also not healthy, gotta be present and not automatically question everything and everyone either.
Hope u have a nice day, best wishes bro
She is pretty clueless and lost but she is right about the dangers of being a functioning addict. Hard to hit a bottom when you're keeping things kinda together
She seems to be pretty transparent and honest ab her past to me. Did you just have an interview in which you did the same? Would love to see it and make an unhelpful judgement call about you after 😄 #LEGGO
@@insatiableme333 calm down he is allowed to have an opinion. Stop allowing your ego to be hurt bc you don’t agree with someone else’s perspective. It comes across as emotionally immature to everyone else
I don’t know what you’re projecting but I’m calm. And I’m glad you speak for the entirety of everyone with your own opinion. That’s ironic
@@insatiableme333 I mean.. Its been 4 weeks since your initial response and you got 0 likes. What exactly does that tell us abt your opinion ?
That I’m not someone who counts my likes on UA-cam. Nor am I interested in continuing a conversation going nowhere with someone who does care about others approval, needs the last word, and has no “likes” on his comment himself. Godbless✌🏽😂🙏
When I was in elementary school in the 80s I used to know a kid , Kevin Knott, his mother would buy him his cigarettes. We must have been 10 or 11 years old and while I didn't have the best home life I still remember even then thinking how insane that was. Its mind boggling how messed up some parents are.
And now you are paying 10 bucks a day. Lol
I used to know a family that all of them smoked crack together. Daddy , momma , son and daughter. It was wild some of the shit I seen.
@@shanemiller6982 'where' all of them...It is!
Similar experiecne here. Half my class mates in the fourth grade chewed tobacco or dipped snuff (the kind you chew).
@@shanemiller6982 that’s so sad what kind of parents were they? Obviously Evil parents
This is a really good example of how neglect really emotionally stunts your children. They're not stupid. They're just emotionally undeveloped and with therapy and learning/accepting their issues, they could go on to live happy, healthy lives. They do have potential, they just need help and to do a lot of mental/emotional work.
Seen this all too often growing up with friends. So wrapped up with living a cool life that you get yourself into a situation that’s hard to come back out of. You can tell that she’s just riding it out hoping he gets his shit together and following his lead in the meantime. He’s much more set into this life than she is.
This is it right here
One of the most powerful things about these folks telling their stories is allowing them to string together the events of their life often for the first time which will hopefully provide an impetus for change.
Like a quick and well needed therapy session. Not all heroes wear capes! Mark is an awesome person.
I agree with other commenters. The fact that they actually listen to each other and help each other keeping track seems so genuine and sweet. It tells me that they really want to have a good relationship and be there for each other. I really hope they can leave the drugs behind them and have a good life together...
Please tell me you're joking? They are drug addicts. They lie, cheat and steer in life. But yeah...they communicate very well.
@@mtbiker4life918 Sooo... you just assume they are "lying and cheating and steer" because... why exactly? Because all Drugaddicts in the wordld are somehow the same or what? Or maybe because you are a disgusting judgemental Douche without and experience outside your little bubble?
I know a few addicts myself and have seen almost all videos on this channel. I have quite the grip on how People appear and what it tells the viewer how they are inside. I see good people with bad luck when I meet them!
But by all means, go trough life all high and mighty and judge people in the harshest way just because you are luckier than others! it's not like this makes you a disgusting human being and impossible to be around or something!
Pathetic Loser. I take ten Drug addicts over such a sad little creep like you any day!
Yes I noticed that. They speak to each other so respectfully. I hope they can find strength in each other to get off these horrible drugs and onto a better path in life.
It is possible! Me and my husband did many different drugs through 12 years of our relationship. We (with God's help) managed to dig ourselves out of the horrible life we were living and now actually are trying to buy a house and have two beautiful little boys. It. Is. Possible. But I believe with my entire being that God is the ONLY reason we are where we are now... It's not easy but life is never easy anyways...
Nothing is admirable about what he contributed to this womans now unfortunate life. I can't really say the same about her as she seems nieve as is obvious from the way she's misjudging their future struggle and the pain that comes with addiction and the eventual realisation her addict partner has exploited her gullibility because If he loved her with the realisation she was highly susceptible towards habitual drug use he wouldn't have ever let her get in the position he did. He had a choice to make between drugs or starting a relationship or drugs and a relationship at the expense of a young woman. Instead he bought one of the most all consuming, destructive drugs into her life supposedly without any realisation in doing so that he was not only normalising its usage but creating a steady supply and adding to the temptation. Worse is when she asked him for some he shows his disgusting behaviour and obliged. So to then claim ignorance and downplay the seriousness of what he just bought about another persons life is either as some might believe down to ignorance or rather a straight up selfish disregard for the person he claims to love which is the option I'm going with. Granted he didn't force her to take anything and ultimately it was her choice but she was already a habitual Ketamine user and may have never taken Opiates or not to the point of gaining dependency so he's at least partially responsible whether down to an unfathomable amount of stupidity or in my opinion a blatant disregard for anyone else's life and like 99 9% of addicts he's hiding the fact that anything he does is only for his own personal gain.
I hope they get help soon, they are young enough to turn it around. I hope they keep hope
Your never to old to turn it around. Unless you’re dead you can turn it around. I’m living proof of this.
@Sarah Of course, and it’s harder if you have chronic pain and if you have mental illness. The point is no matter what, if you’re not dead there is always a chance.
At 21:00 we see an addict mad at her friend for trying to help. Hopefully this girl lives long enough to get clean and thank the friend for trying.
The denial was strong at this point of the interview, yes.
@@juliadavis5957 The friend held her boundaries and refused to enable the situation. That girl was actually a real friend .
Yep her addiction has just begun
I love the awareness this channel spreads. It's a blatant acknowledgement that if we don't raise our youth better we're destined to go further downhill as the circle repeats. My generation may not see what that will blossom into but change won't happen if we don't start. Better our youth and we'll better our tomorrow.✌️
20:53 I'm going to be blunt. Her friend's actions are perfectly understandable. That was this girl's chance to better herself and leave this type of environment behind.
You won't do it while being in a relationship with another addict, you drag eachother down. If both of you go sober and one of you slips, it pulls the other one one back in as well, it's not a good situation, it's dangerous.
You missed that opportunity girl, that's on you, as tough as that sounds.
Yep as if it's so weird and judgemental to have a 'no hard drugs' policy in your own house.
Yeah. Hopefully one day she sees that.
Yup until u dich past friends etc u will never change
Agree that why probably why her friend kick her out because she was using
Yeah exactly, I understand her view but she clearly has enough puppy love to blind her to the truth. When your friend lets you stay with them to help you out and you choose to date a known hard drug addict, no kidding the friend is going to send you on your way. Clearly the friend was right as she wasn't a fent addict before she met him and rapidly become a user after.
As a former foster youth. When she said “she GOT me taken away.” I felt that even 25 years later 💗
The first vibe I got from them is that they have each other. The way she kept reminding him where he was - since he has ADHD and the drugs probably aren't helping - is super sweet and made me emotional. Lord please bless them and keep them 🥺
Oh my, so young yet they feel so experienced and worldly. This is beautiful and tragic all at once, I hope so much that their world becomes less traumatic and they find stability. There is hope otherwise in 12 month's things are going to look a lot different. Misery loves company and young love is all consuming. All the best kids..
Sober from fent since April 27th 2021 I remember sitting there crying watching your videos smoking foilies and thankfully I reached out to family for help cause life’s honestly never been better hurts to see people in the same scenarios you once where me and my ex where heavily into it together and I’ll never forget that toxic love, honestly hope the best for these two
Congrads on getting clean .Time to give up all dope. Remember ,''I am sick of being dope sick''.
Damn Senpai, Thats me rn :(
@Kylie Dickenson you good now?
Man i absolutely hate seeing this kind of stuff, these kids are so young and have so much life ahead of them, i genuinely hope they can get better and get their lives together before its too late. I was in active addiction for almost a decade and i know how hard it is to get clean and stay clean you need to hit your absolute lowest of lows most of the time to want to actually get clean and thats different for everyone but i just truly hope they make it and are able to prosper they are both very intelligent and seem like genuine souls that have just been through so much trauma and bad things. Praying for them!
I’m 2 weeks clean from fentanyl but I feel like I’m bound to fail and watching this should motivate me to keep doing better but it’s so much harder than people think it is.
Keep going ❤️
you can do it man
Rooting for you! Everyday is a success.
Sending you all my love and encouragement. Hoping you are still clean and doing well.
How you doing now? Im opiate addict too, you can talk to me. I wont judge you bro, i just wanna see youre alive. If you want we can talk in private.
I'm only 23, so sometimes it's still hard for me to clearly identify immaturity in other young people. Still, as they were speaking, I got the sense that they are still very immature despite all that they've gone through.
However, that sense was cemented when they talked about how excited they were to have a baby and that that was all they needed to quit the addict life and essentially stop cold turkey. Having and RAISING a child is supposed to be one of the hardest things a person can do. It doesn't heal insecure relationships much less addictions. If anything, some people can be driven into becoming addicts (jk). Also, the fact that they thought they were going to succeed at raising a baby in a healthy environment when Celeste's own family didn't shows again how naive they are.
yea I really hope they hold off on that. even if it's a thing she realizes she wants now, that's gotta be in the distant future a while after quitting drugs and hopefully some therapy.
i agree but at the same time I think there's a stage of addiction where you're still in denial even if you're saying things about quitting and maybe it's moreso that. also just to cope with the fact that she has almost died multiple times. another relationship fantasy to keep her distracted from the anxiety about all of that
and they've only been together seven months. I've been in toxic codependent relationships and six or seven months was probably the height of the crazy fantasy talk about the future
Having a baby can 100% turn someone sober and clean, I’m proof of that, I used to be an addict just sofa surfing between friends and as soon as I fell pregnant I didn’t even touch a cigarette, now my baby is 6 months and I’ve been clean well over a year, got my own house and completely turned my life around. For a lot of people their child is the reason they are still alive and fighting to be the best version of themselves everyday
@@jeniilee8158 have to disagree with you there. Worked at a non-profit D&A rehab, more parents than not were completely unfit and chose drugs over their kids in just about any situation. Glad you decided to stop and raise your child though, truly 🙇♂️
Yes they both are veery immature. Esp. her. I did not get maturity until I was 30 years old. Some of the things she says is cringe AND buprenorphine doess NOt have a worse withdrawal then fent..... She was totally talking bullshit there. Immature.
Speaking as someone who was in a similar situation with a severely addicted codependent boyfriend. We also thought a kid would fix things. When you’re in that vicious cycle you don’t see ANYTHING clearly. Proudly have almost 3 years clean from opiates now and almost 3 years away from the psychotic guy that got me hooked on drugs at such a young age
They remind me of when I started using with my GF.
We were both fully absorbed in the lifestyle, it seemed so cool and amazing to teenagers.
That was before the dependence really set in, then it loses all the “cool and fun” parts…it just turns into misery and constantly trying to evade withdrawal.
I hope they can get out before everything turns to shit, I wish them the best of luck.
This is a mixture of puppy love, codependency, and drug use. It has nothing to with " understanding" one another. I can empathize and understand why a lot of people do the things that they do. But that doesn't justify their drug use. A true partner should help uplift the other and vice versa.. All they're doing is enabling each other, and we all know what happens in the end in situations like that.
You nailed it, Shaun. I hope these two don’t read the comments- if feel they’d find some of it almost encouraging, but in the wrong way.
Its sad to say but they are immature and regretably not very bright either
In a perfect world you're perspective would be true and would come true. This world is a mess and imperfect. Have any of you ever experienced anything like what these two young people are going through?? I have. It's so easy to say what they should or shouldn't do from the outside.... The outside is such a cozy place to be in.... But these are real people with real problems and if any of you were ever in the same situation as either of them, and you chose a different route right off the bat, someone would give you a medal for doing so, because it is that difficult to get out once you get wrapped up in it... Hindsight is 20/20 and looking in from the outside is a view full of cluelessness... Just saying
@@MrTheatre2 Meh, they are kids, I don't really expect them to be very bright. Considering their current situation and their upbringings they seem just as bright as I'd imagine. They don't sound dumb, just immature.
Two drug addicts should not be together in the first place. They will tell you that in rehab. So I've heard. These kids probley just want to do drugs. And what was causing the girls chronic pain? I doubt she had chronic pain. These kids don't seem like they are the type that started drugs for from abuse or chronic pain. Where is the diagnosis? Sorry but these kids just think it's cool to do drugs and I'm sure they are addicted. But they chose to do it. It's a choice not a disease. They don't seem like they want to change either. Give it some time and they will look rough soon.
Being an addict myself; heroin, for over 20 years, it's hard to see these kids talk as if their junkie niche is already so deeply carved. When in fact they are young enough to make this lifestyle a distant memory. I beg you both to please get it right now while you still can. Do NOT settle into thinking you are a drug addict and that's just it; NO! You are both young and can be anything you wish, most of all truly happy, secure, and fulfilled. I've been chasing the temporary happiness for decades and have lost everything, Been homeless for months at a time at least 4 or 5 times. I have lost my self worth, Worst of all I've lost my identity. Instead of being known for my gifts, I am known as a junkie. You two haven't been doing this long enough to surrender yourself to the stereotypes, stop now and save yourselves from the worst type of fear.
that is very true time comes quick they could really fight it and win right now after a few years it gets really hard to quit
Yes, you are speaking the truth. Addiction will take everything. These young people are living a second trauma on top the their early trauma. They don't believe it now but they will lose everything. This is a horrid disease. There is absolutely nothing romantic about it.
@@karynwright-sikora1606 Nothing romantic at all is right. I was such a fool to think anything like that. Nothing romantic about complete isolation and loneliness.
The enabling of each other is off the charts. They are not sick of being dope sick. With fent now in the picture one will die soon and possibly the other will hit bottom. Everyone has a bottom.
Sending you all my prayers and hoping you can find some peace
Their stories are so sad. And it sounds like they are still seeing something romantic about few of these events. I hope they get housing and find a way to get clean. 🙏🏻
Exactly. I guess at 20 you can still Romanticize Death
They probably don’t want to get clean. That’s my guess
I remember Sebastian from high school chool we both graduated and walked year 2018... Gbc bro.. this man had it tough all his life, sad i pushed him away because of his bad habits
Being an only child in a family where the adults are always fighting is TOUGH. I feel for you girl. Keep your head up! Stay strong.
It's really wild having a parent/parents who are addicts. You are young and can't understand wtf is wrong, why do they love drugs more than you, and then they offer you that drug. Something you hate so passionately because it fucked you over in your childhood is now something you're hooked on in your early teens. I don't know if she'll read this but I get it. I lived it. Thankfully I got clean 7 years ago but it's a daily thing to try and control it. So, I'm definitely not judging. I'm 37 now. She said that her mom gave her one for pain, that's her intro it. What pain? What happened... Car accident? Big fall from the roof or a tree? I could be WAY off base but I felt the same thing. I would tell people that I started taking them for pain. It wasn't to get high. You keep that story going because it's the easiest way to rationalize it to yourself and others. "My parents were doing me a favor. They saw I was in pain and so it was out of love they gave me something to help." I didn't realize it until my mid 20s. There's no actual pain. No physical trauma that would justify being on opiates at that age. They take you to the doctor because of the pain.... But it's really just another way for them to score.
Sorry, if my grammar is shit. Typing it on the backend of a cigarette break. I really wish you guys the best of luck. If you're wanting to get clean you need to have an extremely important conversation about your relationship. If you're together then sobriety isn't possible for just one of you. You'll bounce back and forth from sobriety, relapse, sobriety, relapse. Good luck guys!
Your story is inspiring. I’m glad you’re on a good path. Thank you for sharing
Nick Ovel: Thank you for your insight. It helps me, the wife of an addict, understand a little better. And by the way, your grammar (and spelling) isn't shit . You're one of the few who use periods and who knows the difference between "you're" and "your."
I thought this. No responsible (parent in their right mind)offers heavy drugs to their child....to ease their pain (what about paracetamol), no that was way off and concerning. What that so called mother did was very abusive and wicked.
Ah man these two are such nice people. Really wish the best for them.
Let’s watch the update in 2 years
@@TheFunkybert I think I'll be scared to ngl
@@TheFunkybert not even 2 yrs. 6 months tops. Right now its still the honeymoon phase. Reality will set in when they are fighting over who used more of the drugs & whether she will sell her body for the next fix. God forbid they get separated bc 1 of them goes to jail.
What makes you think they’re nice?
He had some nerve returning for holidays with her to her parents' house, bringing their daughter home strung out. And getting her pregnant as if he had any foundation for a family.
LMAOO THE “a tear landed on my face and it woke me up” HAS ME CACKLING 😭😭😭😭 she wanna b in a romance movie so bad omfg
You keep posting cringe comments on this channel and begging to be interviewed. You come across as trashy and even more pathetic than anyone ever interviewed by Mark. Stop being a loser
Who watches soft white underbelly and laughs at the videos? Psycho bitch
They seem so excited to talk about the drugs that they use, have used and look forward to using. So heartwrenching.
it is their lifestyle...sad...I know 60 year old married couple caught in the opiod/alcoholism roller coaster. so sad. I had to cut them out. known her since 4...
The new generation and the weird drug culture that’s goin on right now. It’s super wicked
America land of the promise...
That’s because they do
Honestly, the guy looks tired of using. She has so much more energy or just loves to talk about this stuff.
She has an excuse for literally EVERYTHING. And you can tell it's rubbing off on him also. They will literally get NO WHERE in life if they both keep this state of mind. I'm clean after many years of struggling.... and the first step is looking inside yourself and taking accountability and truly realizing you have a PROBLEM.
yeah.... i just don't like her and i typically don't even care about anything like this but for some reason she's just annoyed the fuck out of me.... almost as if she's trying to advertise her cool lifestyle... i don't know.... i'm sleep deprived and cranky and was in the mood to listen and watch an interview from underbelly and poof!! Here this one is.... i'm rambling..... anyway..
Godspeed 💫
This is why Mark has to pay people to come on. Comments like this. If you are put in a worse situation like these people, 9 times out of 10 you will not succeed. Obviously there are significantly better choices they could've made, but in their situation, you most likely would have made the same decisions, if not worse ones. Obviously, they have a long way to go, but you publicly shaming them is not helping or being productive in any way.
@@gurgalaburgala907 Shaming them? What crap. They are shaming themselves on a PUBLIC platform for MONEY. They want the attention and they got it. You reveal yourself as someone who thinks comments about objective reality are OFFENSIVE. That's tough. You can lie to yourself and this pathetic pair can lie to themselves. There are some of us who prefer the simple facts of the matter: the truth.
@@gurgalaburgala907 Some people are uneducated about the effect of ACEs on adults. Sadly the emotional pain of a difficult childhood can have lasting emotional and physical effects. It's not their fault they were handed a shit deal. They need hope that life will and can be better. Hope and support.
Yes she’s very sociopathic. It’s definitely rubbing off on him. Co dependency & trauma bonding is so evident here
I see myself in them. I had an awful childhood and blamed everyone who caused my trauma for my addiction. I'm 27 now and don't want to be a victim anymore... my life is fucked up because I fucked it up. sure, I wasn't dealt a good hand. I consider myself a survivor of what happened to me... but blaming everyone else but myself won't change my life. I'm the only one who can change my life. I'm still struggling, but the realization that I can't keep blaming those who hurt me for how i turned out was a turning point... forgiveness has been super helpful, too. I forgive my parents for my childhood and I don't blame them for the mess I'm in now. I'm in recovery for 2 years and recovering from a relapse... stay strong guys, take your life into your own hands when you're ready (and I hope you are ready soon).
Good on you! Im proud of you. Forgiving someone who hurt you but will never apologise is hard. Extremely hard and painful. But not forgiving is like hoping the person that hurt you will drink poison, but you end up drinking the poison. Be the bigger person than the one who hurt you.
For inner peace, u need to be in the present. Not stuck dwelling on the future or the past. I keep forgetting this.
thanks for this comment. at times i’m angry with my family but the only way forward is healing, keeping positivity, and as you said forgiveness.
@@genericchannel126 exactly it’s all about living in the present. depression is living in the past and anxiety is living in the future
Keep up the good fight
These poor kids lost in a delusion of youth, 5-10 years when they have no teeth, open sores, and all the other hell of addiction….hope they get out before they have to learn the hard way! Keep up the great content SWU!
Funny how shes blasting her friend for basically putting her foot down and setting her own house rules. Just because we are friends that doesn’t mean that i need to openly let you and your opiate addicted boyfriend inside my personal space and just be ok with it. The audacity. Hopefully they grow up soon and realize that they are in control of their own future.
The key to beating addiction isn't "growing up", as you put it. Addicts aren't in control of their own future. You understand it's a disease, right?
@@christianjward sure. But that doesn’t mean that your friends and family need to condone your addictions. Specially if the person is trying to bring strangers into my house.
Also, theres a lot of people that fight their drug addictions and they get out of it. I agree that its a hard situation to be in, but everyone has the power to turn their life around if they want.
She clearly stated that she was rarely there and wasn’t using openly and constantly at the house. It’s reasonable to set rules but even if the person was occasionally using in my house I’d still be willing to provide shelter for them since that’s my friend and I care about their life more than myself being off put by it.
It’s clear that you don’t have a good understanding of addiction considering the fact that you believe this is enabling behaviour? It’s one less huge problem they have to deal with and they need to want a better life and the best way they get there is emotional support and encouragement for them to follow through on different steps of their recovery plan.
Genuinely sad that people like you don’t truly care about their loved ones. Can’t comprehend how you would make a friend homeless when it’s a crucial point their life that can determine their future, rather than just communicating your needs and being supportive as she was respectful of the fact that her friend didn’t like her boyfriend without even having to set that boundary.
Devastating that we have to live amongst people like you that are nothing more than a selfish waste of oxygen
@@breadapex5905 just because you would allow people to “sometimes” use hard drugs in your own house doesn’t mean that the rest of us have to do it too. Have you thought about the fact that some people have kids and other family members ? And some of us don’t want our families and kids exposed to these kind of situations.
You are just an enabler and thats ok i guess. Its not my problem. Its easy to say stuff just to say it or to prove someone wrong. But my opinion stays the same. Its not my responsibility to take care of someone that doesn’t even want to take care of themselves and on top of that you disrespect my own house rules. The only rule as a matter a fact.
Have a good life in your own little fantasy world 🌈🦄💫where you clearly don’t know how to make others accountable for their own actions that shape the way they live their lives. Instead you want to blame and talk badly of people that set baundaries in their own house.
I know these two. Not personally, but I know them. A young couple, trauma-bonded and in love, with big dreams of getting sober together. It won't work. My best suggestion would be to get sober now on your own. Go to separate detox facilities, rehabs, halfway houses, and recovery houses. If you can both maintain a year of sobriety, then see what happens. But you will never get sober together. Best of luck to you two 💖
Right!!
Their codependency may kill them. They’re young, attractive and believe themselves to be bulletproof.
I appreciate how much they spoke about withdrawls, ive been dependant on hydromorphone for 20 years and the withdrawals are the only reason.. i wish i had a family that could afford to put me into a treatment center but in canada its very expensive.. i noticed not alot of addicts speak about withdrawls in these interviews, its a major motivating factor behind opioid addiction.. waking up everyday in the worst state, cant go on with your day until you get one in you, then you gotta plan for the next one because you've only got about 6 hours and it goes on like that until 20 years is eaten up! Interview these kids again in 20 years if theyre still here and youll see the toll it takes, ive seen it exactly
I'm wishing you two a complete recovery. You seem to compliment each other & are very respectful of each and definitely love & care for each. Please do a follow up with Mark & keep everyone updated. Much success to the both of you🙏🏻💗💗💗
You can't "recover" while in a relationship with another addict.
It happens, it’s rare, but it happens. Especially when one in the relationship is strong willed enough to push it and their love for one another is never ending. I know.
You don't know what your talking about. Without the drug co dependency she wouldn't look at him twice.
She always tells stories and reacts to stories as if everything is happening TO them and not them being an active part of the equation
Yes - my sister is in a similar relationship and they blame everything on the world, perpetual victims who are never at fault.
That's a reason why they're struggling to get clean as well when they can just blame it on their situation instead of taking personal responsibility.
Having an external locus of control is shit, because deep down you feel helpless, too helpless to do what you know you need to do. The only thing you can do is react. It also means that the anguish and regret and shame and guilt that you feel for yourself gets redirected to the outside. Like it's not self-sabotage; it's somehow sabotage, and that gives the relief from hating yourself but on the other hand, convincing yourself that the problem is outside means you'll be wasting your energy on the wrong fight. It is not something you just CHOOSE though. It is something they learned because of what they lived as children, because of their parents. It is an automatic part of how they function and it is hard to change - with drugs in the middle, of course they'd feel even more helpless. Their world revolves around their dependence to a substance. So yeah it's not something to judge but one of the things to address with psychotherapy.
Stfu. They didn't choose to be addicts have some empathy.
I agree with the last comment... The mentality comes from being in positions of powerlessness for so many years.
Co-dependency at its finest. You either want to get clean or you don't. Theirs no gray area. As a recovering addict myself it's easy to see they are not ready to get sober
Ray Charles & Stevie Wonder can see that, right? The drug use is the core of their relationship. No responsibilities or stability...except who is going to score the next fix.
Nope to many excuses
Yup, they dnt
There IS a grey area. People have conflicting thoughts and feelings.
PLEASE HELP CELESTE-she’s homeless on the streets again and he apparently beat her and when they moved into an apartment together he beat her so bad that she had to move out-she’s now living homeless on the streets in La
The bang bros will swoop her up. LA is a good place to get noticed.
Any news?
@@baetrxz yes actually, thanks for caring enough to ask!!
She is getting out of the abusive situation with him and she believes she will be strong enough to make it permanent this time and that she will never go back to him. Which if you have been in an abusive relationship then you will know it is very hard to “just leave”. She has a go fund me(I believe?) going and she is making edits on Instagram for $5-10 each so she can make enough money for herself to get by- because all she has to her name is a tote bag and a $10 bill- which I assume is gone now two days later after she posted that!! I just hope she can get enough to eat and have enough resources to make her life comfortable
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@@EB-3002what's her ig?
@EB-84625 whats her @?!!
This couple is so honest. They need help. I hope they both get the help so they could survive. Best wishes God be with you both.
Every storm runs out of rain.
Every dark night ends with a day.
Many prayers for you two.
Love and Light from the Heart of Texas.
where is this from
every heartache will fade away
@@sam-4606 a country song haha
I love your post ❤️
they’re sooooooo young 😳☹️ if they don't try to get out rapidly of this addiction to this hard drug, in 10 years they’ll have lost their beauty, their teeth, their youth and all their dreams 🤷🏻 it bothers me a lot to see such a young couple who are already stuck on fentanyl… wow I'm very happy that fentanyl doesn't exist on our streets in Switzerland, we weren't affected by this crap… thank you Mark for this new video even if it bothers me 😉💋❤️ lots of love and hugs from Switzerland 🇨🇭
@@subs4794 21 isn’t mid 20s
I agree with the insights below, but I also love how this couple showed respect and courtesy with how they spoke to each other. Treating loved ones with kindness and consideration feels good. They can build on that. Keep doing good things that feel good. There are sooooo many good, upbuilding things on this planet to choose from.
The way she touches his leg when he talks about his childhood trauma is something that breaks my heart
Classic abuser controlling behavior
It's admiring how they are respectful of eachothers stories, like when she asked if it was okay to mention his addiction.. it seems like they are really good for each other. They aren't beyond help and recovery. I'm hopeful they will decide to get clean because they seem pretty level headed
I wouldn’t say they’re good for eachother. Anyone who truly cares for another would never let them use much less abuse this drug that kills every day. I know three people who overdosed to their deaths on this drug alone. That’s not “good for eachother”. That’s enabling and opening eachother up to an early grave. Cute and young. Or not.
Totally disagree they are completely co-dependent and enable each other. Addiction causes completely toxic relationships.
@@ewechoober3355 aside from them doing drugs, they are there for each other. They've tried getting clean together. They don't beat on each other or abuse each other verbally (that we can see based on the interview) so by saying they're good for each other, I mean just as a couple, drugs aside
He was respectful. She spoke over him a few times. It seemed like she was just waiting to talk instead of really listening when it was his turn.
It’s like they glorify the lifestyle. You just have to do it. Can’t bring a baby in this world in a mess like that. You’re just offering your child the life you both came out of. You have to break the cycle and do right by your kids.
true, but not everyone is taught that. that is the problem
Yeah, its weird because I grew up emotionally abused and terrified to have any children to potentially hurt unintentionally. They seem to think they are smarter or better or stronger and will just have a child and poof be a good parent because you love the baby. Well, it is very immature, very selfish, very dangerous to have a child and think you are above all this crap. Very into the drug scene and looking glamorous. Yeah, check in a few years and see the brain cells dwindling, not so glamorous then. They should not get housing for being irresponsible and not contributing members of society. Imo
I really wish the best for these people. I wish them all the happiness in the world and I pray that they get clean before it gets worse.
I am a mother of 6 and I wanted to tell you two that I am proud of you for sharing your story! I hope you find the strength to overcome opioids. Its a seriously difficult addiction but that fact your talking about it is the first step! You are both beautiful and you have your whole lives ahead of you! You are not your past! You are you and everyone can overcome this! I did❤ I wish you all the very best!
These kids are way too young and have no idea where they’re headed. I pray to God they realize that this lifestyle leads to nothing but pain and suffering. The streets are unrelenting and they could get out of it so much easier now than later. Thank you, Mark!
That is exactly the comment I just made too. However I think Sebastian knows what this leads to. Idk what the F he’s doing.
They're 24. They are not kids. You're blinded by a postcard view. They are shooting opiates after a 10 years career in her case. It will not have been a happy time.
@@David-og7di 24 is not old what are u talking about how old are u 13? trust me at 24 u have barely started life
@@nightmrj I hear your point. But we had been working and living independently since 16. Saving to go through university by 19.
I'm 60 so I'm aware this generation is very different
You think it’s cool and you’re cool until you can’t stop. It’s sad and you’re right.
She is such a pretty girl. You can tell how immature they really are. It's like they are living life with not a worry in the world. She does have support at home but doesn't want to go cuz of childish reasons. They still have so much life to live and I hope they find their way b4 it's to late. I was an addict for years, never homeless but still. I had a baby, I lost everything more then once and I finally looked around me one day and realized I didn't want to live that way anymore and wanted more for my child. So almost 6 years later here I am clean and sober and living my best life. We all have past trauma but if you want to get clean you will. No excuses.
You ought not say it's childish reasons, her home life is clearly better than his but it doesn't mean she has support, if it's true her mom was feeding her perks and such it could be a major trigger, I know my relationship with my dad is.
She's super immature but these are her lessons to learn, I hope she doesn't have to see him dead to see who that bitch really is. Same for him but I think he's got a better idea already, he just doesn't know a better way.
I really wish nothing but the best for Celeste and Sebastian. Super tough childhoods, super tough circumstances. I hope they can support each other out of addiction and into a nice life, with jobs, kids, stability and joy. Fongers crossed for you two. May you both be blessed and safe. Edit: to all the people being *ssh*les, do you know the one thing all addicts have in common? Trauma. 'But there for the grace of god, go I' the saying goes.
These guys are young and have a great chance of sorting it out. An older and positive role model/mentor is desperately needed here. 💪
The way she holds him when he gets emotional is so adorable
I want to scream 😱 she will not let him get a word in edgewise and he seems like such a sweet soul I would’ve love to hear more of his story smh
I know Sebastian he’s Frm east Los ... his grandmother used to be Frm white fence
I felt the same way. We couldn’t hear any of his story all the way through.
Yes. A follow up interview would be nice.