Benjamin Tod, "What Keeps Me Up Now" // GemsOnVHS™

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  • Опубліковано 8 вер 2024
  • Up to Kentucky again, to visit with our friends Benjamin Tod and Ashley Mae. This time around, a gust of wind catches the old barn on the property on fire. The local fire department comes, blasting their hoses while smoking Marlboros. They weren't able to save the barn, but I don't think anyone minded. Meanwhile, in the other barn, Benjamin plays us a new song.
    He had this to say about the song here;
    I wrote this song after having a mental breakdown and buying a one way ticket to Alaska. I really wanted rehab, but most rehabs nowadays are insurance scams. I couldn’t go anywhere else in the United States because my previous experience anywhere would lead me to use or drink.
    I hitchhiked as far north as Talkeetna and as far south as Homer on that journey. I managed to stay sober the entire time. I ran into some people that lifted my spirit the way sticking out your thumb in a new frontier only can. It gave me strength and peace for many months after.
    This song touches on what a lot of people go through. A crippling anxiety that keeps your mind racing all night and trapped in a cycle of restless fog. It is so incredibly hard to come to terms with your past, get what you need in the present and find inspiration to drive your destiny forward.
    The barn on fire is actually the barn that “Lazy Moonshiner” was filmed. It’s such a stroke of luck that these last shots of the barn got captured thanks to Anthony and Tim from Gems.
    -Benjamin Tod
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  • @user-qv9dw1kq3q
    @user-qv9dw1kq3q 4 роки тому +1006

    I got drunk to your music...these days I'm getting sober to it! I'm right there with every word...you've been at the heart of my worst times and the best, always playing...you've done more for me than you will ever know!

    • @kevmoful
      @kevmoful 4 роки тому +32

      I’m with you . Trying to lay off the gin and get my shit together myself

    • @torvilasulvstle362
      @torvilasulvstle362 3 роки тому +25

      @@garystevenson6582 I like to drink to his music, but beeing 70+ makes me drink just a few beers afternoons on Fridays!
      Love this guy.

    • @psnbausme
      @psnbausme 3 роки тому +2

      That part!

    • @samscharn558
      @samscharn558 3 роки тому +10

      Fight that good fight brother

    • @damionrodriguez5
      @damionrodriguez5 3 роки тому +5

      Couldn’t have said it better

  • @danielscott8867
    @danielscott8867 4 роки тому +545

    We’re watching a legend in the making. Prolific songwriter you see a couple times in a generation. We’re all lucky to have found this music.

  • @lachlandeller6891
    @lachlandeller6891 3 роки тому +64

    "But it hung on my brain like a fresh coat of paint. And I fled on a train headed south. And in New Orleans I wiped my mind on the town." 🔥🔥

    • @STRESSLEVELCHAOS
      @STRESSLEVELCHAOS 3 роки тому +9

      I don’t know god but I heard he is dead, if I am wrong in judgement I’ll stand, I will not repent cause I don’t give a damn, you can send me to hell with the rest of my friends.
      I wish I was who I appear
      Cause I despise the man in the mirror

    • @stevecloum8967
      @stevecloum8967 Рік тому +1

      Most powerful lyrics In history. " I used the dope where I couldn't be found. I burned through a wall of petty cash and bank accounts, with nothing else but w guitar and belt I hawked it and swore off the sound. The belt was a nouse when I came to on the ground.". He is talking about shooting dope as an escape from pain, life. Benjamin Tod has saved and changed more lives through music than anyone ever.

  • @BigGame12
    @BigGame12 4 роки тому +330

    I'm really thrilled about how healthy he's looking! I know I don't know him personally, but he's done so much more for me than he realizes and I'm happy he's belting out tunes like these while looking great!!

    • @ptuffgong8504
      @ptuffgong8504 4 роки тому +8

      Me too man. He's looking great and figuring himself out. We should all so be so fortunate.

    • @t-tn93s95
      @t-tn93s95 4 роки тому

      Well said

    • @Lynq-Oro
      @Lynq-Oro 4 роки тому

      Amen to that.

    • @lopres
      @lopres 4 роки тому

      He does look good. Eyes clear!!!

    • @markoleary7214
      @markoleary7214 3 роки тому +1

      He looks a bit more colorful, but he's also getting way more post-production now. They use LUTS and other color adjustment if not..

  • @JoLoneyMusic
    @JoLoneyMusic 4 роки тому +311

    This guy is the only artist I click on without hesitation.
    From never say surrender, barefoot surrender, lost dog, and anything else he’s been apart of.
    I haven’t found a single bad song out of any of it.

    • @ZombieLife
      @ZombieLife 4 роки тому +3

      Same here. Found lost dog street a few yrs ago and am still blown away.

    • @noelbob1157
      @noelbob1157 4 роки тому +4

      Thank you for the info, going to look up these bands now!

    • @JoLoneyMusic
      @JoLoneyMusic 4 роки тому +3

      Noel Bob
      Give Spitshine a listen too.
      The other guy in the band (Nicholas Ridout) was a hell of a singer/writer as well.

    • @loganharrison9563
      @loganharrison9563 4 роки тому +3

      I Hear Banjos this guy knows i think its only on band camp

    • @kelseystanley7012
      @kelseystanley7012 3 роки тому +1

      Never say surrender was awesome still by far my favorite stuff he's done, but not many know about it

  • @christopherwescott551
    @christopherwescott551 4 роки тому +518

    I swear there's no better musician then Ben. He's 100% pure in all the words he sings. You can feel him sing everything.

    • @mattsallows5896
      @mattsallows5896 4 роки тому +14

      i agree ive loved a lot of artists music but none like lost dogs and Bens truly music of the soul

    • @bronsonstephens5799
      @bronsonstephens5799 4 роки тому +13

      Absolutely love singing to his music. It always just feels so real to me if that makes sense.

    • @Twelvegagesage
      @Twelvegagesage 4 роки тому +2

      Christopher Wescott than*

    • @christopherwescott551
      @christopherwescott551 4 роки тому +10

      @@Twelvegagesage you must be an English teacher if you feel the need to correct my writing. Lol

    • @jleo2707
      @jleo2707 4 роки тому +1

      Agreed. He’s on the level, if not higher, than any song smith that we’ve heard.

  • @shelbycriswellart
    @shelbycriswellart 4 роки тому +247

    This man's music always makes me weep like a fucking baby. I'm head over heels for every word he ever speaks or sings. I appreciate his such brutal honesty, it forces us all to do the same: be honest with ourselves and face our own demons

    • @l.bolton3598
      @l.bolton3598 4 роки тому +4

      This one got me too. Nothing more real. God bless a man who can cry over a good thing.

    • @fluffnstuph85
      @fluffnstuph85 4 роки тому +8

      A fucking men. As a straight white male I'll admit I have a man-crush on him. He's real with himself, real with the world. A throwback to when country music was good, imo. A true singer/songwriter. I first heard Using Again fresh out of rehab, and it hit like a 20lb sledgehammer. Five years later, sober, and that song still makes me cry like a child. Hope this finds you and yours well. Couldn't agree more.

    • @brycemanagement6462
      @brycemanagement6462 4 роки тому

      @@fluffnstuph85 just want us all to pour our energy into our children in these difficult times
      How does that SOUND?
      ua-cam.com/video/fe2x4JRb2do/v-deo.html
      This song is for our kids
      I'll carry you on my Shoulders
      How does That SOUND?

    • @MonkeyBarsEveryday
      @MonkeyBarsEveryday 3 роки тому +2

      Yeah, I cry to a lot of his songs. They cut deep.

    • @jsherrill88
      @jsherrill88 3 роки тому +1

      That is because his songs cut deep to the soul. Not only that, but a lot of the people here commenting can relate to his music! I wont lie, his music makes me cry too!

  • @joshclarkson6921
    @joshclarkson6921 3 роки тому +58

    I used to be addicted to heroin, I was suicidal, things were dark and not looking good. I’d listen to them whenever I was feeling down, which was all the time. There song terrible and true made me feel so guilty bout the life I was living, until one day I decided to get clean. That 5 day detox was hell, and their music is the only reason I stick with it. Thanks for saving my life LDSB🙌

    • @Krowl18
      @Krowl18 3 роки тому +3

      And you will stay clean! I truly believe in you, man! :)

    • @danedonovan5787
      @danedonovan5787 3 роки тому +3

      I dig this song. I also like this guy Brett McDaniel. He isn't as well known. So much talent out there. This guy Brett should open for Ben. That would be sweet. ua-cam.com/video/xVlvlUfiZ34/v-deo.html glad you got better josh

    • @hobbitmansstash
      @hobbitmansstash 3 роки тому +1

      Same

    • @timj3974
      @timj3974 3 роки тому +1

      No matter what you got this. Keep it up!!

    • @tacoman864
      @tacoman864 3 роки тому +2

      Thats some serious shit to come off of. I can relate keep ur head up buddy.

  • @ryanbusche1458
    @ryanbusche1458 4 роки тому +275

    Was not expecting this today, going through one of the rougher times. And Benjamins songs always his so close to home.

    • @Krowl18
      @Krowl18 4 роки тому +5

      You're gonna make it through! It truly hits hard sometimes, but at the same time it's somehow healing.

    • @gavinjohnston8156
      @gavinjohnston8156 4 роки тому +2

      Hang in there. I know it’s an uphill battle, but you’re gonna reach the top

    • @calebchihasz5025
      @calebchihasz5025 4 роки тому +1

      Always

    • @johnboatman6127
      @johnboatman6127 4 роки тому +7

      I feel you buddy. It must be in the air because I'm in a pretty low place myself. Gotta get through these trials or may end up loosing everything and everyone I have that means the most to me.

    • @ethanvotra6151
      @ethanvotra6151 4 роки тому +4

      You are not alone brother 💙

  • @whargoul8890
    @whargoul8890 4 роки тому +42

    Is it sappy that damn near every song this man sings make a grown man cry? Jesus this guy can shake a soul to the core!

    • @mixermanbear.4002
      @mixermanbear.4002 2 роки тому +4

      The personality and lifestyle of those who connect to this mans music is anything but sappy.

  • @01360brown
    @01360brown 4 роки тому +50

    Listening in the Gambia West Africa, but from Scotland 🇬🇲🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

    • @november8039
      @november8039 4 роки тому

      Groovy

    • @craigmc9048
      @craigmc9048 4 роки тому +1

      Also Scottish 👍

    • @silentm999
      @silentm999 4 роки тому

      Everyone around Appalachia are descendants of Scots/Irish.

    • @danedonovan5787
      @danedonovan5787 3 роки тому +1

      I dig this song. I also like this guy Brett McDaniel. He isn't as well known. So much talent out there. This guy Brett should open for Ben. That would be sweet. ua-cam.com/video/xVlvlUfiZ34/v-deo.html

  • @nateandtara1
    @nateandtara1 3 роки тому +70

    Hey Ben. Straight up don't know if you'll ever see or read this but this song and Using Again gave me honestly no shit the courage to go see a therapist about my PTSD. Keep doin you man. 11030.

    • @BlaziingSaddles
      @BlaziingSaddles 3 роки тому +4

      Good for you bro. Keep that shit up.

    • @kenneththomas7582
      @kenneththomas7582 3 роки тому +7

      Right there with ya, keep it up brother.. In the words of Marcus Lutrell, "Never quit!". That it, we just got to keep stepping forward.

    • @sbates1549
      @sbates1549 3 роки тому +4

      @Nate....I'm proud of you...I wish everyone struggling only knew it is ok to talk.....but understand....I almost checked out early twice after oxy addiction...you got this...talking about how you feel is the best feeling once you can accept doing it...xo

    • @aprylbetteridge8919
      @aprylbetteridge8919 Рік тому

      Same

  • @cedarriver
    @cedarriver 4 роки тому +238

    Lyrics and chords below folks, correct me if I'm wrong here and there
    No Capo, Standard Tuning, 3/4 time
    Em7 020000
    Intro: G
    Verses: G C G / Em D G / C D G G/F# Em Em7 / D C D G
    Chorus: C D G G/F# Em Em7 / D C D G
    [Verse 1]
    Do I have what it takes to make it somehow
    What if I fall on my face in front of the crowd
    And all my mistakes are reflected it shapes
    That appear like a self-loathing shroud
    And as I recede in the charm of my grief I am bound
    What keeps me up now
    [Chorus]
    And let nightmares control you and daylight expose you
    When the blood in your head starts to pound
    Its 20 til 3 and you've got a cliff to climb down
    What keeps me up now
    [Verse 2]
    Remember the time you first called me out
    I laughed to pretend not to know what came out of your mouth
    But it clung on my brain like a fresh coat of paint
    And I fled on a train headed south
    And in New Orleans I wiped my mind on the town
    What keeps me up now
    [Chorus]
    And let nightmares control you and daylight expose you
    When the blood in your head starts to pound
    Its 20 til 3 and you've got a cliff to climb down
    What keeps me up now
    [Verse 3]
    And I used the dope to escape where I couldn't be found
    And I burnt through all petty cash and bank accounts
    And with nothing else but a guitar and belt
    I hocked it and swore off the sound
    The belt was a noose when I came to on the ground
    What keeps me up now
    [Chorus]
    And let nightmares control you and daylight expose you
    When the blood in your head starts to pound
    Its 20 til 3 and you've got a cliff to climb down
    What keeps me up now

    • @TheLiquidCanvas
      @TheLiquidCanvas 4 роки тому +21

      I dont care the tune, if someone takes the time to do this (less than 2hrs btw) I always learn it for them. You sir, are awesome.

    • @unknonind9607
      @unknonind9607 4 роки тому +4

      Thanks going to try this later

    • @BabyJesus66
      @BabyJesus66 4 роки тому +13

      Not all heroes wear capes.

    • @CapraObscura
      @CapraObscura 4 роки тому +6

      Love ya for this

    • @121mobman
      @121mobman 4 роки тому +5

      Think it's hocked not hugged

  • @connordempsey6551
    @connordempsey6551 Рік тому +19

    As I sit here broken and lost. At 3:30am listen to Benjamin. I know I’m not alone. Your words make us okay. And I thank you for that. Stay well everybody❤️

    • @STRESSLEVELCHAOS
      @STRESSLEVELCHAOS Рік тому

      I am here with you. Lost, bitter, lonely, and brokenhearted. Hold fast to hope, no matter how tired and lonely, beaten and damned- you are not alone. We are all here with you.

    • @austinh1763
      @austinh1763 Рік тому

      God bless

    • @austinreed341
      @austinreed341 Рік тому

      you too friend

    • @nicke1903
      @nicke1903 Рік тому

      Hang tough my friend, lord there's so much going on that stokes harsh feelings among ppl but I hope everyone struggling gets to hear Ben belting his tunes in better times...The duality is unexplainable, it's something special...hold what you got, and try to make up some ground.

    • @Chinook__
      @Chinook__ Рік тому

      Errr 🤙🏼

  • @LovelyLadyLauraC
    @LovelyLadyLauraC 4 роки тому +77

    When I hear your voice, I remember, This is the right time, the right place and I am supposed to be here. Thank you for sharing your light

    • @francispoivre8903
      @francispoivre8903 3 роки тому

      Maybe you're supposed to be elsewhere at a further date. Keep the doors open.

    • @alexbethune3876
      @alexbethune3876 2 роки тому

      Couldn't have said it better myself👍👍

  • @florida321
    @florida321 3 роки тому +28

    Do I have what it takes to make it somehow
    What if I fall on my face in front of the crowd
    And all my mistakes are reflected in shapes that appear like self loathing shroud
    And as I recede in the charm of my grief I am bound
    What keeps me up now
    And let nightmares control you and daylight expose you when the blood in your head starts to pound
    It's twenty till three and you've got a cliff to climb down
    What keeps me up now
    Remember the time when you first called me out
    I laughed to pretend not to know what came out of your mouth
    But it clung on my brain like a fresh coat of paint and I fled on a train headed south
    And in New Orleans I wiped my mind on the town
    What keeps me up now
    And let nightmares control you and daylight expose you when the blood in your head starts to pound
    It's twenty till three and you've got a cliff to climb down
    What keeps me up now
    And I used the dope to escape where I couldn't be found
    And I burned thru all petty cash and bank accounts
    And with nothing else but a guitar and belt I hawked it and swore of the sound
    The belt was a noose when I came to on the ground
    What keeps me up now
    And let nightmares control you and daylight expose you when the blood in your head starts to pound
    It's twenty till three and you've got a cliff to climb down
    What keeps me up now

  • @greyhoundTex
    @greyhoundTex 4 роки тому +70

    I see Benjamin Tod...I click and blast the volume without even thinking about it!

    • @TouchOfMaddness
      @TouchOfMaddness 4 роки тому +4

      He never disappoints

    • @samsimonson1170
      @samsimonson1170 4 роки тому +2

      Hell yea!

    • @mikecarter8378
      @mikecarter8378 4 роки тому +3

      Ben. I will request many of your songs played at my funeral. Morbid I know but seriously real talk.

    • @SkunkdMonk
      @SkunkdMonk 4 роки тому +1

      Is there any other way?

    • @t-tn93s95
      @t-tn93s95 4 роки тому +1

      Well said...same

  • @abigailsmith2318
    @abigailsmith2318 2 роки тому +13

    When you’re going through a lot and stumble across this song. Damn. Bless this man

  • @michaelkennedy8270
    @michaelkennedy8270 4 роки тому +40

    I first discovered Benjamin Tod on this very channel performing a version of Steve Earle's The Mountain a number of years back. I was totally blown away by it; I still am. I don't think Gems had more than a couple of thousand subscribers at that point. So good to see this incredible musician and Gems still collaborating so strongly and both reputations growing year on year. They both deserve to be huge.

    • @laurahoyle4893
      @laurahoyle4893 4 роки тому +4

      Same here... And from that moment forward..every song he has song I listen without hesitation. Lyrical genius.. one of those artist you feel like you've known the better part of your life..

    • @katieled8909
      @katieled8909 4 роки тому +4

      That's where I first found him too. Back in 2016 or 2017 I think. Obsessed ever since

    • @tippytscafe6337
      @tippytscafe6337 4 роки тому +1

      Katie led obsessed is what I was too :)

    • @daphcliche1584
      @daphcliche1584 2 роки тому +1

      Your absolutly right 👌

  • @harrisonzuno6322
    @harrisonzuno6322 2 роки тому +14

    I look around my Grandpas house without him here now, I look within myself at all of things eating me alive, I look at my gun and then I turn on your music and don't feel as alone. I hope it really does all get better like people have been telling me for the last 14 years since the time I failed at giving up.
    Your words are powerful, and make me feel like I'm not alone in all this.
    Thank you

  • @that1guy899
    @that1guy899 4 роки тому +85

    No notification on UA-cam makes me more excited than a Benjamin Tod on gems on vhs! 👍

  • @FadedJuggalo010
    @FadedJuggalo010 4 роки тому +58

    I saw him play with the devil makes three in Detroit a few years ago and havent stop looking forward to new music since. Thank you!

    • @TouchOfMaddness
      @TouchOfMaddness 4 роки тому +1

      Im jealous I love both of them

    • @godwarrior3403
      @godwarrior3403 4 роки тому +2

      That would have been a dream

    • @carlnelson2425
      @carlnelson2425 4 роки тому

      Saw the same tour in nc. Ldsb stole the show imo.

    • @carlnelson2425
      @carlnelson2425 4 роки тому +2

      Tbh, theyre who sold the show for me. I had no clue who the devil makes 3 was prior

    • @mysticm1736
      @mysticm1736 4 роки тому

      I saw them also open in Georgia for them great show !

  • @twillison8824
    @twillison8824 4 роки тому +844

    One thumbs down already? Must be a luke Bryan fan that accidentally found real music and couldn't handle it!

    • @ethanlane7496
      @ethanlane7496 4 роки тому +33

      I go to the comment section for like-minded people

    • @chasesux5137
      @chasesux5137 4 роки тому +9

      Likewise

    • @brycemanagement6462
      @brycemanagement6462 4 роки тому

      just want us all to pour our energy into our children in these difficult times
      How does that SOUND?
      ua-cam.com/video/fe2x4JRb2do/v-deo.html
      This song is for our kids
      I'll carry you on my Shoulders
      How does That SOUND?

    • @barefootcolby
      @barefootcolby 4 роки тому +9

      Their opinion on any subject is valueless but we got to let everyone in and hope one of the seeds stuck & sprouy

    • @brycemanagement6462
      @brycemanagement6462 4 роки тому

      @@ptuffgong8504 y'all can I share something encouraging with you today, how about a new song to help remind us of what matters? How does that SOUND?
      ua-cam.com/video/mBW8wTDU0QI/v-deo.html

  • @jaybay1120
    @jaybay1120 4 роки тому +11

    I believe in each and every one of you random people. Keep doing you. Much love

  • @Krowl18
    @Krowl18 4 роки тому +41

    There is no way (for me at least) to put into words how you and your music impacted my life. The best part ist that two good friends are just as ecstatic about your (and LDSB's) music as I am. You are an important part of our lives, even though we never met and probably never will. Like that childhood friend supporting you through every hardship no matter what... Benjamin, Ashley and also GemsOnVHS ease every pain there is. From the bottom of my heart: Thank you for always being there for us!
    Much love from southern Bavaria!

    • @twillison8824
      @twillison8824 4 роки тому +2

      Damn, Bavaria? Y'all have good taste in music over there.

    • @asawestcott1242
      @asawestcott1242 4 роки тому +2

      Bavaria! That's awesome.

    • @Krowl18
      @Krowl18 4 роки тому +1

      @@twillison8824 We're hoping that Benjamin will someday play in Europe, Germany or even Bavaria! Otherwise we practically HAVE to come over to the states! ;)

    • @ThisCreaturesFeatures
      @ThisCreaturesFeatures 4 роки тому +2

      Salutations from a black cloud covered burning California

  • @MayberryMafia
    @MayberryMafia 3 роки тому +8

    This music plucks at my heart like he plucks that guitar 🎸
    As a recovered addict and a man who fights the war inside me for the better! Thank you Ben Todd and your lady friend too!!!

    • @christinabennett9687
      @christinabennett9687 2 роки тому

      Hail n blessings to a beautiful Ashley Todd. You complete the beautiful story and music that fills our souls

  • @ericmoore2718
    @ericmoore2718 4 роки тому +10

    Ben has what it takes but this world doesn’t know what it has...
    A modern Tom T Hall. Old souled poet

  • @jennyl.3742
    @jennyl.3742 4 роки тому +165

    I never clicked on something so quickly.

  • @edwardlove8929
    @edwardlove8929 4 роки тому +22

    Fastest response to a youtube notification in the history of maybe ever Thank you Benjamin Todd

    • @totallynotalpharius2283
      @totallynotalpharius2283 4 роки тому

      I sense it
      * Sniffs air*
      They posted Benjamin Todd

    • @danedonovan5787
      @danedonovan5787 3 роки тому

      I dig this song. I also like this guy Brett McDaniel. He isn't as well known. So much talent out there. This guy Brett should open for Ben. That would be sweet. ua-cam.com/video/xVlvlUfiZ34/v-deo.html

  • @socoden2732
    @socoden2732 2 роки тому +2

    About this time 56th to 100 idk how many times I've played this specific song & it still hits harder then any drink I've consumed any drug I've done God bless you ben I've been listening since.. mannn listening was

  • @jeremiahprice2906
    @jeremiahprice2906 4 роки тому +3

    I'm a 39 year old male balling his eyes to this man. Please never stop Ben!

  • @DanielDennison-wb2hy
    @DanielDennison-wb2hy 4 місяці тому +1

    Going through some hard times; wife and best friend ghosted me. Turns out she was tired of my stupid antics and I got strung out on speed. This music speaks volumes to me, as it always has. I need you more than ever brother.. thank you for stickin around Ben.

  • @stonesmith3524
    @stonesmith3524 4 роки тому +9

    You are an absolutely lovely human Benjamin. You words bring quiet comfort to a struggling heroin addict who just can’t seem to get there. Thank you for all your help you’ve unknowingly given me through this journey into terrified sobriety.

    • @xaviermccants7047
      @xaviermccants7047 4 роки тому +3

      As a meth addict I'm just as terrified brother we'll find a way back home I know we will ;)

    • @TouchOfMaddness
      @TouchOfMaddness 4 роки тому +1

      Good luck man. I haven't kicked my habits yet but god knows I'm trying

    • @vernonbrown9193
      @vernonbrown9193 4 роки тому +2

      We will all get there I hope y'all are safe wherever y'all are

    • @dominiquemcclelland7585
      @dominiquemcclelland7585 4 роки тому +2

      You guys have got this. Always remember you are never as alone as you may feel and you are so much stronger than you believe you are! Stay safe!Much love from one junkie/addict (in recovery) to another!💛💛

  • @adl42598
    @adl42598 Рік тому +2

    I hope one day you’re able to come across this Ben, I want to thank you because your music has kept me going strong and staying clean. Today marks 30 days sober, I relate so much to your songs to the point I tear up. Thank you brother, hopefully one day I can come to a show of yours and meet you

  • @timallbritton7329
    @timallbritton7329 4 роки тому +7

    He’s got the blues, deep down inside. I feel for what this man must have been through.

  • @jasonfain4691
    @jasonfain4691 3 роки тому +2

    Musical therapy. Man I feel his music in my bones! I just picked up 8 years clean on Halloween from a 20 year addiction.

  • @moderatepain2003
    @moderatepain2003 3 роки тому +3

    One of the FEW musicians in ANY genre of music who’s live show is actually better then his recorded and edited music. You can feel the energy of his tunes in everything that gems has recorded. Truly amazing.

  • @emilymcfarland2017
    @emilymcfarland2017 3 роки тому +2

    “And I used the dope to escape where I couldn’t be found.” I spent so much time hiding, sometimes in plain sight. I hid from my family and friends, but most of all from myself. I stopped hiding 14 months ago, and Bens music helped so much. It still does.

    • @tacos4uce
      @tacos4uce 3 роки тому

      I'm 2 weeks out of hiding. Using the dope to get where I'm not found I burnt all my bridge's, I got no where left to hide
      And I'm not sure if I have what it takes

    • @longgone696
      @longgone696 3 роки тому

      # meee toooo

  • @clee975
    @clee975 4 роки тому +3

    who else loves Ben ??? such an amazing soul touching voice !

    • @x.otwo.d
      @x.otwo.d 3 роки тому

      Thanks! Ahsley and Ben Are my aunt and uncle

  • @lindabarber1718
    @lindabarber1718 Рік тому +1

    The clarity of that voice could cut diamonds

  • @robertriley9272
    @robertriley9272 4 роки тому +4

    Benjamin paints such a vivid picture with his words.

  • @SawyerDarrell
    @SawyerDarrell 2 роки тому +3

    I found this amazing poet in a Spotify playlist of my fathers, I listened to that one song “I will rise” all night, I haven’t stopped listening and I doubt I ever will

  • @doodmonkey
    @doodmonkey 4 роки тому +3

    Very glad the UA-cam algorithm worked and brought me to Benjamin Todd

  • @THEDIRTYDANGGLER
    @THEDIRTYDANGGLER 3 роки тому +1

    Your music is keeping me closer to God and sobriety thank you

  • @wdbrisky8858
    @wdbrisky8858 4 роки тому +5

    Always happy to see some more of Ben, he's looking healthy nowadays

  • @hobbitmansstash
    @hobbitmansstash 4 роки тому +28

    Your music really helped me while I was getting off of opiates I feel like a new person getting better every day your music is more than enjoyable to listen to thank you for putting it out there into the world. 🙏👍😊☝
    Ps. My mom just moved from Michigan to Kentucky I plan to find work down there sometime soon as well. It'd be really cool to see you live or if not catch an autograph or something. It'd be more than okay with me though maybe sit down and talk in the bar or something but who knows only time will tell.

    • @cyprianofantioch
      @cyprianofantioch 4 роки тому +3

      Great job getting off opiates 🙏 Freedom from being gripped by substances is a great feeling that is priceless. Love your life and be grateful for this beautiful creation in which we are blessed to experience. May God bless you. 🙏

  • @ComplexSkepsisvehementalbeats
    @ComplexSkepsisvehementalbeats 3 роки тому +3

    Not. Well. Heard the resounding oscillations of deep feeling within syllabic rhythm. Its heavy but got damn I needed this. Im sharing to the point people are ignoring me lol this song and others. THANK YOU. I needed this but I know of many that need it as well. just....thanks to all of the people on the channel. thank you times a million. .. even that doesn't seem to be enough for how much it helps the soul....

  • @vitamind1200
    @vitamind1200 3 роки тому +3

    Just found him and lost dog and can't stop listening. I remember the pain of my time dealing with addiction in his music. Loving his voice

  • @ladygeorge505
    @ladygeorge505 4 роки тому +5

    This guys lyrics has helped me through the hardest month Ive ever experienced. I sincerely thank you for that.

  • @davidmcgill5851
    @davidmcgill5851 11 місяців тому +1

    As I set and listen to this I can't help but think about the pain the man must have endured to be able to write a song that just grabs you the way this does

  • @zachwarren8844
    @zachwarren8844 4 роки тому +3

    Benjamin todd never gets old.been listening to your stuff for years everyday and it's still not old.

  • @Kainebadonmusic
    @Kainebadonmusic 9 місяців тому +1

    “The belt was a noose, when I came to on the ground.”
    RIP Georgie, love ya bud. Wish you would’ve came to…. Gonna miss ya forever

  • @clarkkc11
    @clarkkc11 4 роки тому +6

    Another beautiful song.
    Hope to spin this one on vinyl someday.
    Love the torn apart structure. Beautiful location.

  • @matthewcatchpole9216
    @matthewcatchpole9216 3 роки тому +2

    Absolute unreal lyricist .every song I’ve heard from him

  • @taylorgraves2862
    @taylorgraves2862 4 роки тому +3

    He's looking healthier all the time. Love it. I've been thru the same shit. I was like 125 pounds at 6' 3" once upon a time now I'm like 230 and 6'1" lol. Gotta love this music. It's all I've been listening to for like two years now

  • @shanehenkelman1673
    @shanehenkelman1673 3 роки тому +2

    Restores my faith in music. Straight from the heart.

  • @nicklawre8317
    @nicklawre8317 4 роки тому +8

    I get exicted when I see a notification from gems but get really excited when it is bejamin todd

  • @brandonaide4493
    @brandonaide4493 3 роки тому +1

    Benjamin Todd you help my wife and I stay sober your music is amazing and life changing!

  • @thetruth166
    @thetruth166 3 роки тому +3

    At 3:39 it's like he's reliving the verse he's singing. He sings with such passion. Rock on Ben!

  • @orangeiceice12
    @orangeiceice12 4 роки тому +2

    I love this lonesome sound finding its way to drugs and the struggles of our nation and our people. But I'm longing for the war songs. God bless from Buffalo NY

  • @nomanslee1
    @nomanslee1 4 роки тому +13

    I need a hat like his, this man is steezy.

    • @spinblackcircles
      @spinblackcircles 4 роки тому

      Literally any thrift store or estate sale lol.

    • @DA-yb4qf
      @DA-yb4qf 4 роки тому +3

      A rap term used in Outlaw Folk. Congratulations Nolan, that's a first.

    • @ianallen9330
      @ianallen9330 4 роки тому +2

      A Winchester hat at any estate sale ? U must be high

    • @spinblackcircles
      @spinblackcircles 4 роки тому

      Ian Allen well my roommate has gotten a Winchester hat, wall hanging, and a cup like thing he puts his toothbrushes in. And he got them all at estate sales.
      Winchester stuff is like part of the hipster uniform in 2020. At least where I live (Nashville)

  • @MrHabitat009
    @MrHabitat009 2 роки тому +1

    Ben reminds me so much of my older brother.

  • @KineticMind89
    @KineticMind89 4 роки тому +4

    Nightmares do control me and the daylight does expose me. It's a tough life.

  • @munky871
    @munky871 5 місяців тому

    Still one of the most talented musicians ive ever heard...its impossible to listen to any of his songs without feeling something

  • @jeremiahhernandez43
    @jeremiahhernandez43 4 роки тому +3

    Really happy I came across his music, he’s been heavy on my music rotation. I hope I get to see him live one day.

  • @wanderinwatermonkey
    @wanderinwatermonkey 3 роки тому +1

    I've heard this song 100 times and never caught a line that struck hardest with a battle I've slowly been winning but nonstop fighting the past 6 years. My last attempt before giving up and seeking help was perfectly explained by " the belt was a noose when I came too on the ground, what keeps me up now." Never stop fighting because depression don't stop!

  • @letitgrow122
    @letitgrow122 4 роки тому +7

    Dude you keep getting better and better. You and Timmy Ty are the Real face of country music. Thank you for doing what you do. I’ll be seeing you guys on your tour ASAP muchos tiempos.

  • @teamlysergic42
    @teamlysergic42 Рік тому +2

    I want to say thank you although I'm not clean right now you're music is guiding me there so thank you brother and to anyone else struggling keep your head up and you are not alone

  • @AllOutta_Thyme
    @AllOutta_Thyme 4 роки тому +3

    Benjamin Tod is so talented.

  • @caleb5196
    @caleb5196 3 роки тому +2

    Ben has helped me get through a really rough time in my life. This music heals me

  • @TheDezdan
    @TheDezdan 4 роки тому +3

    Another deep song, thank you sir.

  • @katlyncoyl3155
    @katlyncoyl3155 Рік тому

    I remember being high on meth playing guitar in my garage watching my brother pul out his belt before I started shooting, before I got to heroin, feeling the last of my days smoking coming to an end no longer able to get high. It was dark in the garage a dim light with tools and projects everywhere as if my soul was on its last grip to ahold onto something before I fell to the needle. This song captures so much of what I felt and its a heavy love I have for your music. I'm grateful for your talent your magic of capture the beautiful light that is the darkness before the dawn. I got 2 years sober now from alcohol, from meth, from heroin, from pot physcodelics and any mind altering substance thanks for helping me bare the pain and surface it. Much loves.

  • @ptuffgong8504
    @ptuffgong8504 4 роки тому +3

    This hits home on so many levels.

  • @Squatch34
    @Squatch34 3 роки тому +2

    All of his songs cut right to my core and bring tears to me eyes haunting me of my ever lurking past, but it’s necessary to stay on the tracks... maybe one day these memories will be a distant... one day at a time

  • @teresaleonard9215
    @teresaleonard9215 3 роки тому +9

    Do you do tours some where man? My husband feels your music so deep. It gives me a good understanding of the battles he fights inside and has made us a better couple. I would love to take him to see you live some where.

  • @meredithgrubb7027
    @meredithgrubb7027 2 роки тому +1

    This man is a rare gem. That voice just flows thru ur soul as u listen. Everything he's singing about is so damn relatable. This man is singing live in an old barn and sounds like absolute perfection. This is the definition of beauty.

  • @ShittinTrains
    @ShittinTrains 4 роки тому +3

    This man knows. Fantastic as always.

  • @30FramesJames
    @30FramesJames 4 роки тому +1

    One of the few men who can still get right to your soul, in just a few words from life.

  • @thealaskanforever
    @thealaskanforever 4 роки тому +3

    Speaking of Alaska.... hello from Fairbanks Alaska!!! Saw you in Louisville Kentucky right before the covid cancelled the rest of the tour. Was an amazing experience!

    • @kilo-watt
      @kilo-watt 4 роки тому +1

      We were supposed to see them in Newport two nights after that Louisville show, the gig got canceled the day of because the whole world shut down. Get to see them twice this month, it’s fitting that they’re first live show I get to see since then.

  • @Mmeganiyall
    @Mmeganiyall 4 роки тому +1

    So sick of being sad & tired of lonesome thoughts.. when you’ve got someone who loves you, & you just sit allowing your nightmares to revisit you... I just wish I could heal....

  • @vjarizpe
    @vjarizpe 4 роки тому +15

    I was wondering what would come of those shots we saw of Ben in that Barn.

    • @caseybuentello
      @caseybuentello 4 роки тому +3

      Then I run into you here too. Small internet aint it, brother? Haha

    • @joshuapaulcollins1
      @joshuapaulcollins1 4 роки тому +2

      Casey Buentello very small. Haha

  • @jerryallen6680
    @jerryallen6680 2 роки тому +2

    This dude literally saved my life so many times, goin though the similar stuff at the same time. Thank u Benjamin ur the man

  • @eoghancallaghy9254
    @eoghancallaghy9254 3 роки тому +4

    "The belt was a noose but I came to on the ground"
    Jesus Benjamin, that is heavy.

    • @chrisadams7774
      @chrisadams7774 3 роки тому

      I think it is actually “the belt was noose when I came to on the ground”. I think he is referencing using the belt to shoot dope into his arm using the money he got from hocking his guitar. Absolutely heavy nonetheless.

    • @eoghancallaghy9254
      @eoghancallaghy9254 3 роки тому

      @@chrisadams7774 you are probably right. I didn't think about that and I am an ex user myself. Still very heavy.

  • @dwightmaciv4789
    @dwightmaciv4789 4 роки тому +2

    Great song homie I dedicate this to my cousin who died in May of a overdose he was 31 an the oldest of triplets me an his brothers are lost without him may he rest in peace I know Ben feels the pain of a empath an tortured soul God bless y'all

  • @pm8278
    @pm8278 4 роки тому +3

    next song "holes on the roof" and "the rain fall on me"

  • @bonbondolly
    @bonbondolly 4 роки тому +1

    This guy genuinely IS the voice of the soul of America. Simply amazing...

  • @TommyBoyHustle
    @TommyBoyHustle 4 роки тому +3

    It’s 20 to 3 and you’ve got a cliff to climb down.

  • @lilt1282
    @lilt1282 4 роки тому +9

    One of the few artists I feel is genuinely incapable of producing poor content. So sad I'm not gonna see him in NC in October.

  • @arronbaumgarden3005
    @arronbaumgarden3005 2 роки тому

    Mr Todd, if you had any idea how many people you touch every day. It would blow your mind my friend! I have always been a music lover. And I have not claimed any particular genre to be my favorite over the rest. But with the likes of Jason dea West, Arlo McKinley, the Hill country devil, and Benjamin Todd. I never would have thought that folk music would impact me so very much, in my life on a daily. And I have to say. It's people like the above mentioned, that are the true American heroes of our modern time. And you guys are where the rubber meets the road as they say. You all have helped me through my worst of times in life. As well as help me appreciate the great times as well. I will never be able to hear your music, without it burning right to the very core of who I am, as as well as singing it at the top of my lungs. And I know that each and every one of you have made such a great impact on me. I can never thank you enough. And as far as I'm concerned you have saved my life. Please don't stop making truly inspiring music. Much love to all of you! God bless.

  • @josephrricksoileaujr8361
    @josephrricksoileaujr8361 3 місяці тому +1

    Keep up the good work brother ! God bless and keep you and your loved ones in His Hands..YayAmen. ✌️❣️🙏😇🤠

  • @williamedwards8493
    @williamedwards8493 4 місяці тому

    I’m from London ky and this man’s music really speaks volume to the life here and what so many live everyday. God bless you for representing us.

  • @pridemechanical815
    @pridemechanical815 2 роки тому +1

    Saw this song 2 years ago and thought wow another Appalachian white punk tattooed freak drug addiction. Then I remembered my family upbringing in WV and thought wait a minute here! I'm glad we have people like you. People like you make the rest of us feel happy about ourselves. The deeper you can dig into yourself and your individualized upbringing the better. You don't need drugs for that! Stay good my friend!

  • @KBFalin0027
    @KBFalin0027 6 місяців тому

    The scarred knuckles. This a beauty of humanity. His expressions and lyrics are unchained.

  • @godspeed8307
    @godspeed8307 3 роки тому +2

    In the charm of my grief I am bound.....that what’s keeps up now.

  • @shanegebora2710
    @shanegebora2710 3 роки тому +2

    THANK YOU Ben, the blood in my head is pounding a little less after this dose of medicine to my soul...

  • @unknonind9607
    @unknonind9607 4 роки тому +2

    He puts it all out there and I love it

  • @joeybeaulieu8123
    @joeybeaulieu8123 3 роки тому +2

    Damn that guitar has got a life of its own! the story and age it has! Love its sound

  • @joycethomas8868
    @joycethomas8868 4 роки тому +1

    Brutally honest....and God love him for all the folks he’s helping through hard times.

  • @joeokonski3679
    @joeokonski3679 4 роки тому +1

    I've been growing with this music, just as his music grows with him.

  •  3 роки тому +2

    Benjamin Tod, is a rare talent, greetings from Brazil.