As a pastor’s child I totally get you. So many pastor kids have been there. God bless your heart sweetie. Glad your parents stood with you all this time. Grace is there for the pastors’ children as well. If it were not for Jesus not one pastors kid would be saved.
Growth, you now enter another dimension in Christ.. You've now been transformed from being churched to know him for yourself. I understand your journey in Egypt you had to go there to learn, now you can enter Goshen, your ministry has just started.. I can relate to e.v.e.r.y single word in your confession.. Hope they understand what just took place and lay hands and Activate you.. I will pray.... The Lord bless you and Keep you, Aaman🙏
Rachel, I cried with you, you are a brave, strong young lady, Thank God for the parents you have. You are a beautiful child of God .You are in my prayers. I can identify with some of the things you have been through. God bless you, love you my dear.
Rachel I have never met you, but I am well acquainted with your parents. Your testimony has launched your ministry and will initiate healing in thousands if not millions of people around the world. God Bless you! I will keep you in my prayers as you continue to heal and grow!
Thank you for sharing your testimony sister Rachel, one thing that has kept me is the fact that there is nothing that i can do for God to stop loving me. You are Gods child and no one can take that away from you. you are blessed and God loves you with an everlasting love, and he doesn't condemn you. you are so real, and i appreciate you for that. love you always.
By Grace are we saved, because of him who rose from the grave. I am sooooooooo grateful for this grace that was expressed in your life Rachel. Continue to walk there in. Thanks for sharing. Many are more powerful because of this. You are a blessing!
I needed this testimony 🙌 relatable i was one who look up to you still do even more now . you are not alone , I love you girl 💗 . I pray your strength 🙏
Girl you have made me cried 😓😓 when we confess our sins he’s faithful and just to forgive us🙏 you are brave and God has a special plan for your life I’m sure that your testimony has helped others
Sis Rachel, Rachel, Rachel!! God be praised! God kept you through it all. You survived it all because He wouldn't let you go. He knew you before u were conceived and He knew the path you would walk just like how He knew Job's pathway and how church folks would deal with you both. You could not see that you were hand picked to bear this cross..it was not for nought hon..you will be sharing this testimony more than once. This is just the beginning of your HEALING ministry. The irony of it is your name is RACHEL (the favourite) but your experience is of LEAH (rejected and unfavoured)! Only you know exactly the depth of rejection Leah experienced and how inferior she was to her baby sister who was the favourite up till this day. You have both experienced the life of both sisters! Out of Leah came forth praise/worship (Judah) and Grace and Mercy +Love overpowered Rachel. Jacob was with her all the time. Jesus is with you always. I felt a tear in my left eye as you took me back to my past when I was in prep school to primary. You have mentioned things that I was ashamed to mention to my guardians. I pray that the pedophilia hears your heart and repent..that he comes to you and beg forgiveness and turns from this wickedness and that you will pray for him right there and then. This action if unconfessed will be carried by all who suffered molestation, to their grave..the victims never forget. I didn't know that there was a girl in the Bartlett's family. I don't know the children. I heard there was a set of twins but assumed they were 2 boys. I'm so glad you shared and those demons that haunted you are gone. Now sis Rachel, hold your head high you are gonna be speaking at functions and seminars. You will not only share your testimony again but God has already deposited in you scriptures and 'Word of knowledge' to impart and how to dissect the Word. You are now a conduit of God's anointed Word and will be advancing to the level that your dad is at in expounding the Word. I see so much greatness in you and if you have not yet gone to Bible school I'm encouraging you to do so because your ministry/purpose is already established. Turn the mess into a message and help save this young generation. You remind me so much of myself and of Mary Magdaline. Love you girl..hope I'll be honoured to meet you one day. Be blessed thou W.O.G. who art highly favoured.
Such a well executed testimony. You are very courageous. The devil is a liar, he lied to you for a long time. You wrestled with him and won. Just know that those feelings of unworthiness, low self esteem and shame were all for the most part a result of the molestation. Having openly shared your testimony, the devil no longer has any power over you. You are an overcomer. You can only go up from here. I pray Jehovah Shalom will show Himself mighty on your behalf.
Usually I dont comment but I just had to. This was really a blessing so glad that you found the strength in God to open up and spoke about stuff that many of us who have been affected are afraid to talk about. May God continue to strengthen you as you grow from grace to grace. Bless🙏
What a breakthough! God bless you young lady. Thank you for sharing. God bless this ministry as it has provided a space where truth can prevail in safety. Protect them Lord.
Truth is beautiful. Needs no adornment. I was blessed then and now. I have experienced your childhood trauma. You will make it. Love you. God bless you.
Wow wow THANK GOD 👑 my sister in Christ Jesus ,there is a crown awaiting you just keep on living for JESUS. YOU are Beautifully and wonderfully made by him who loves you so so much unconditional love that's who he is. All PRAISES to the King of kings you have been set free indeed!!💝❤👑
I am bawling my eyes out. May God continue to use Rachel. I want to say more but I am in so much pain myself n just want this testimony to minister to me.
Thank you Jesus... I needed to hear this and I am happy that God’s grace won’t let us go... and I am thankful that God has more confidence in Me than self and others 🙏🏾
I thank God that all that you have gone you end on the right side , a lot of people wasted away imn there situation but to G be the glory he kept you n is still keeping you love sis my prayer is with you
I am a pastors kid. My mother, sibs and I would have to knock on the door. The Saints would not. *My father* is a *Stone* and *Serpent* father *(Matthew 7:9-10)* *”Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake?”* My father gave the bread and fish to his church members and gave my mother and us the stone and the serpent. He is the *epitome* of one who washed the outside of the cup and left the inside *dutty!* He is one of the main reasons (if not the reason) my sibs are not in a relationship with God. You just get to the point where you reject your father and his God, but the children still (as per normal) get blamed as being rebellious. Every child wants a relationship with their parents, and your first representation of God is your father, and when your father shows no interest in you, but is so caught up with his church and the members children, how are you to receive God, much more God as your Father from him? *You do not. You don’t believe what he says to you about God. You believe how he acts towards you. You believe God is like him.* And now even after all these years not one of us his children, has a relationship with him as adults, although I have tried and continue trying to. Not even God however, can have a relationship with a person who doesn't want one with Him. It's hurtful to hear disparaging comments made about your sibs by their own father, when some of their issues stem from his neglect of them, yet he can speak in glowing terms about others he has spent time cultivating relationships with, and will even call them his "son's." He will also often state how he can call one of his church members to assist him for whatever he needs. The way he speaks to and treated us however, is not the manner in which he interacts with members of his church. We often have to discontinue direct communication with him because of this. Not one of us his children, have ever heard our father say that he loves us. Yet in recent months, I have heard him express his love to his church members and even an unrelated family member. I hate to say it, but my father is a horrible, ignorant man, who is not saved. I can only imagine how he would have treated me, had I committed an *"unpardonable sin"* and brought *"shame"* to his name... *I do not have a Daddy for a father like Rachel...* The amazing thing is that the church people don’t realize that the way he treats them, is not the way he treats you at home, and they don’t understand why some of us backslide. Many Saints are also quick to make disparaging and judgemental comments about "de Pastor pickney," but no one investigates why you rebelled. The scripture, *”And ye fathers, provoke not your children to wrath; but bring them up in them up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord"* *Ephesians 6:4* is real and something I have lived and am living with. I have a very wrathful and hard heart heart towards my father and am constantly asking the God to soften it and let love cover. That’s a major work in process, but I will not go to hell for this man or his “sons.” I was headed down destruction broad road at one point because of him, but God in His mercy intervened and allowed me to understand He is not like my earthly father and that’s enough for me. The Saints who don't live with the Pastor do not grasp that the person in the pulpit is not the same person behind closed doors, (we’ll have a deliverance service for those of you reading this who can't handle that truth!) but you de Pastor's picney live with and have to contend with that nasty *dichotomy* on a daily basis. They just think, as one individual asserted to me, “your father is a wonderful man” I didn't even answer that statement, because I would have asked them, wonderful to who? I've heard about the hardships that people without father's face and I can relate to that because even though I lived with a man who is my father he was not a father to me or my sibs and at this time it’s kind of too late, because none of us need or want him now. To me, he is just the money I am waiting to receive when he dies so I can purchase a house and expand the Gospel of Jesus Christ. That was *his* choice. I would say that there is a knife in my chest because of this man. I’m grateful to God who continues to work with me through my Spiritual father (who treats me like a daughter) and helps me get through this, and I am so grateful to Him for all that He has done and is doing through His servant on my behalf. *May I be a good return on that investment.* I am only in a relationship with God as my Heavenly Father, Lord and Savior, because much prayers and fastings were made for me by mother and now I am able to distinguish between my Heavenly Father from the other so called one. *When he (God forbid) dies I will not mourn him.* I suppose I will be sad, but what was there to mourn? There was no relationship. I think I will mourn what we could have had as a family and *still* want to have while he is yet alive. I doubt he will make it, although many will put him up in heaven. How he is going to explain the neglect and rejection of his wife and children to God? I do not know and I would not like to be in his shoes. God gave three him souls to cultivate into a relationship with him first as a father, and then God as our ultimate and Heavanly Father, but he did neither. I understand parents aren't perfect and things happen, but this was the *complete* and *utter neglect* and *rejection of his family for the church.* I continue to pray for him, my siblings and my mother (bless her heart) and that God will help me by His grace assisting me to enact *1 Corinthians 13* in regards to him, and in doing so please my Heavenly Daddy, who I *KNOW* loves me with a *fierce* AND *protective, tender* love... I am so grateful to beautiful Rachel who I (one day) hope to meet, and have the opportunity to embrace to thank her for being so brave and transparent to expose her wounds as Christ did. She has demonstrated God's word that states, *"There is no fear in love [dread does not exist], but full-grown (complete perfect) love turns fears out of doors and expels every trace of terror! For fear brings with it the thought of punishment, and so he who is afraid he not reached the full maturity of love [is not yet grown into love's complete perfection].* 1 John 4:19 AMPC. Grace & Peace ✝️☮️🇨🇦
You are can by yourself when we are looking for love we go the wrong way i found out only God can help and I still feel on sometime but when I get to that place i cry out to God and kept me so close to him and the warm of his love kept my sister in the Lord just look to God
Please understand that we all sin. You carried so much guilt and shame growing up. All of which was never your fault. That is not what God wants for us. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Always remember that. Trust in His love for you. But remember to also love yourself.
oh love of God !!!HOW RICH AND PURE!! ---IT SHALL FOREVER MORE ENDURE!! when we have exhausted our store of endurance ,he giveth and giveth and giveth again 1 so that victory wiil be ours Thelma Lewis-MORRIS
May your Destiny come fourth Now in Jesus Christ Name. I prophecy in your life, God Almighty will lift you up and you shall become a pillar in Jesus Christ Kingdom.
Sis you have helped thousands of saints
Jukie Hunter she sure did 💯
As a pastor’s child I totally get you. So many pastor kids have been there. God bless your heart sweetie. Glad your parents stood with you all this time. Grace is there for the pastors’ children as well. If it were not for Jesus not one pastors kid would be saved.
Growth, you now enter another dimension in Christ.. You've now been transformed from being churched to know him for yourself. I understand your journey in Egypt you had to go there to learn, now you can enter Goshen, your ministry has just started.. I can relate to e.v.e.r.y single word in your confession.. Hope they understand what just took place and lay hands and Activate you.. I will pray.... The Lord bless you and Keep you, Aaman🙏
Rachel, I cried with you, you are a brave, strong young lady, Thank God for the parents you have. You are a beautiful child of God .You are in my prayers. I can identify with some of the things you have been through. God bless you, love you my dear.
Rachel I have never met you, but I am well acquainted with your parents. Your testimony has launched your ministry and will initiate healing in thousands if not millions of people around the world. God Bless you! I will keep you in my prayers as you continue to heal and grow!
Pauline Patterson ain’t that the gospel truth Sis. That’s exactly what I say
God have you My Sister ,look at Rehab ,God have a purpose for you sis,i can attest to your testimony
I cannot stop crying 😢 😢😢😢
I am speechless...... I want to hug Rachel
Thank you for sharing your testimony sister Rachel, one thing that has kept me is the fact that there is nothing that i can do for God to stop loving me. You are Gods child and no one can take that away from you. you are blessed and God loves you with an everlasting love, and he doesn't condemn you. you are so real, and i appreciate you for that. love you always.
By Grace are we saved, because of him who rose from the grave. I am sooooooooo grateful for this grace that was expressed in your life Rachel. Continue to walk there in. Thanks for sharing. Many are more powerful because of this. You are a blessing!
Hi my sister god bless your life
I needed this testimony 🙌
relatable i was one who look up to you
still do even more now . you are not alone , I love you girl 💗 . I pray your strength 🙏
This is what I call success!
Girl you have made me cried 😓😓 when we confess our sins he’s faithful and just to forgive us🙏 you are brave and God has a special plan for your life
I’m sure that your testimony has helped others
Wow. Powerful. Made me look within myself. May Jesus continue to use her life to reach others. Grace is a powerful thing.
Glory to God. Such a touching testimony! Without His grace where would we be?
The worst hurt in the world comes from within the church and it's members. Real talk!!!!!
Patricia King , real talk😔
Wow! What a powerful testimony.
Soooo blessed to listen to this testimony!!
Who the Son has set free is free indeed!!
POWERFUL. To God be ALL the glory! 🙌🙌🙌🙌
Sis Rachel, Rachel, Rachel!!
God be praised! God kept you through it all. You survived it all because He wouldn't let you go. He knew you before u were conceived and He knew the path you would walk just like how He knew Job's pathway and how church folks would deal with you both.
You could not see that you were hand picked to bear this cross..it was not for nought hon..you will be sharing this testimony more than once. This is just the beginning of your HEALING ministry.
The irony of it is your name is RACHEL (the favourite) but your experience is of LEAH (rejected and unfavoured)! Only you know exactly the depth of rejection Leah experienced and how inferior she was to her baby sister who was the favourite up till this day. You have both experienced the life of both sisters! Out of Leah came forth praise/worship (Judah) and Grace and Mercy +Love overpowered Rachel. Jacob was with her all the time. Jesus is with you always.
I felt a tear in my left eye as you took me back to my past when I was in prep school to primary. You have mentioned things that I was ashamed to mention to my guardians. I pray that the pedophilia hears your heart and repent..that he comes to you and beg forgiveness and turns from this wickedness and that you will pray for him right there and then.
This action if unconfessed will be carried by all who suffered molestation, to their grave..the victims never forget.
I didn't know that there was a girl in the Bartlett's family. I don't know the children. I heard there was a set of twins but assumed they were 2 boys. I'm so glad you shared and those demons that haunted you are gone. Now sis Rachel, hold your head high you are gonna be speaking at functions and seminars. You will not only share your testimony again but God has already deposited in you scriptures and 'Word of knowledge' to impart and how to dissect the Word. You are now a conduit of God's anointed Word and will be advancing to the level that your dad is at in expounding the Word. I see so much greatness in you and if you have not yet gone to Bible school I'm encouraging you to do so because your ministry/purpose is already established. Turn the mess into a message and help save this young generation. You remind me so much of myself and of Mary Magdaline.
Love you girl..hope I'll be honoured to meet you one day.
Be blessed thou W.O.G. who art highly favoured.
Such a well executed testimony. You are very courageous. The devil is a liar, he lied to you for a long time. You wrestled with him and won. Just know that those feelings of unworthiness, low self esteem and shame were all for the most part a result of the molestation. Having openly shared your testimony, the devil no longer has any power over you. You are an overcomer. You can only go up from here. I pray Jehovah Shalom will show Himself mighty on your behalf.
Thank for sharing this outloud Rachel. Thank you God.
Hi god bless you
Usually I dont comment but I just had to. This was really a blessing so glad that you found the strength in God to open up and spoke about stuff that many of us who have been affected are afraid to talk about. May God continue to strengthen you as you grow from grace to grace. Bless🙏
I don't usually comment either but what a beautiful, powerful young lady.Love you girl.
What a breakthough! God bless you young lady. Thank you for sharing. God bless this ministry as it has provided a space where truth can prevail in safety. Protect them Lord.
What a courageous sister! You a re a living epistle... I am looking forward to more testimonies from you. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏽
This made me bawl! A few times. Thank you for your testimony Rachel...may God use it to bring great glory to His name!
God will surely use this powerful testimony to save many.🙏🙏
Powerful Testimony!! God bless you!! Thank you for being transparent, it will help many from all over the world!
God bless you for sharing. That could not have been easy but God gave the courage. May God continue to keep you until he returns.
May God's grace continue to cover you Sis Rachael. You spoke for many..such strength. Blessings!!
Beautiful! Nothing beats the truth. It sets us free.
Truth is beautiful. Needs no adornment. I was blessed then and now. I have experienced your childhood trauma. You will make it. Love you. God bless you.
WOW, words are not enough, BUT GOD 🙌 teary eyes,soooooo Rich in mercies and GRACE 🙏
Thanks Rachi. Thank you for preaching the Gospel... Jesus saves.
Wow wow THANK GOD 👑 my sister in Christ Jesus ,there is a crown awaiting you just keep on living for JESUS. YOU are Beautifully and wonderfully made by him who loves you so so much unconditional love that's who he is. All PRAISES to the King of kings you have been set free indeed!!💝❤👑
This testimony is so touching. Your prescious sis! Hang in there! God is faithful
I am bawling my eyes out. May God continue to use Rachel. I want to say more but I am in so much pain myself n just want this testimony to minister to me.
Kaye Mcwilly me tooo I’m overwhelmed
@@Trelawnyjamdung so many believers r struggling inside their spirit n it's openness of testimonies like these will help to bring deliverance.
Thank you Jesus... I needed to hear this and I am happy that God’s grace won’t let us go... and I am thankful that God has more confidence in Me than self and others 🙏🏾
I thank God that all that you have gone you end on the right side , a lot of people wasted away imn there situation but to G be the glory he kept you n is still keeping you love sis my prayer is with you
Awesome testimony
I am a pastors kid. My mother, sibs and I would have to knock on the door. The Saints would not. *My father* is a *Stone* and *Serpent* father *(Matthew 7:9-10)* *”Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake?”* My father gave the bread and fish to his church members and gave my mother and us the stone and the serpent. He is the *epitome* of one who washed the outside of the cup and left the inside *dutty!* He is one of the main reasons (if not the reason) my sibs are not in a relationship with God. You just get to the point where you reject your father and his God, but the children still (as per normal) get blamed as being rebellious.
Every child wants a relationship with their parents, and your first representation of God is your father, and when your father shows no interest in you, but is so caught up with his church and the members children, how are you to receive God, much more God as your Father from him? *You do not. You don’t believe what he says to you about God. You believe how he acts towards you. You believe God is like him.* And now even after all these years not one of us his children, has a relationship with him as adults, although I have tried and continue trying to. Not even God however, can have a relationship with a person who doesn't want one with Him. It's hurtful to hear disparaging comments made about your sibs by their own father, when some of their issues stem from his neglect of them, yet he can speak in glowing terms about others he has spent time cultivating relationships with, and will even call them his "son's." He will also often state how he can call one of his church members to assist him for whatever he needs. The way he speaks to and treated us however, is not the manner in which he interacts with members of his church. We often have to discontinue direct communication with him because of this. Not one of us his children, have ever heard our father say that he loves us. Yet in recent months, I have heard him express his love to his church members and even an unrelated family member. I hate to say it, but my father is a horrible, ignorant man, who is not saved. I can only imagine how he would have treated me, had I committed an *"unpardonable sin"* and brought *"shame"* to his name...
*I do not have a Daddy for a father like Rachel...*
The amazing thing is that the church people don’t realize that the way he treats them, is not the way he treats you at home, and they don’t understand why some of us backslide. Many Saints are also quick to make disparaging and judgemental comments about "de Pastor pickney," but no one investigates why you rebelled. The scripture, *”And ye fathers, provoke not your children to wrath; but bring them up in them up in the nurture and admonition of the Lord"* *Ephesians 6:4* is real and something I have lived and am living with. I have a very wrathful and hard heart heart towards my father and am constantly asking the God to soften it and let love cover. That’s a major work in process, but I will not go to hell for this man or his “sons.” I was headed down destruction broad road at one point because of him, but God in His mercy intervened and allowed me to understand He is not like my earthly father and that’s enough for me. The Saints who don't live with the Pastor do not grasp that the person in the pulpit is not the same person behind closed doors, (we’ll have a deliverance service for those of you reading this who can't handle that truth!) but you de Pastor's picney live with and have to contend with that nasty *dichotomy* on a daily basis. They just think, as one individual asserted to me, “your father is a wonderful man” I didn't even answer that statement, because I would have asked them, wonderful to who?
I've heard about the hardships that people without father's face and I can relate to that because even though I lived with a man who is my father he was not a father to me or my sibs and at this time it’s kind of too late, because none of us need or want him now. To me, he is just the money I am waiting to receive when he dies so I can purchase a house and expand the Gospel of Jesus Christ. That was *his* choice. I would say that there is a knife in my chest because of this man. I’m grateful to God who continues to work with me through my Spiritual father (who treats me like a daughter) and helps me get through this, and I am so grateful to Him for all that He has done and is doing through His servant on my behalf.
*May I be a good return on that investment.*
I am only in a relationship with God as my Heavenly Father, Lord and Savior, because much prayers and fastings were made for me by mother and now I am able to distinguish between my Heavenly Father from the other so called one. *When he (God forbid) dies I will not mourn him.* I suppose I will be sad, but what was there to mourn? There was no relationship. I think I will mourn what we could have had as a family and *still* want to have while he is yet alive. I doubt he will make it, although many will put him up in heaven. How he is going to explain the neglect and rejection of his wife and children to God? I do not know and I would not like to be in his shoes.
God gave three him souls to cultivate into a relationship with him first as a father, and then God as our ultimate and Heavanly Father, but he did neither. I understand parents aren't perfect and things happen, but this was the *complete* and *utter neglect* and *rejection of his family for the church.* I continue to pray for him, my siblings and my mother (bless her heart) and that God will help me by His grace assisting me to enact *1 Corinthians 13* in regards to him, and in doing so please my Heavenly Daddy, who I *KNOW* loves me with a *fierce* AND *protective, tender* love...
I am so grateful to beautiful Rachel who I (one day) hope to meet, and have the opportunity to embrace to thank her for being so brave and transparent to expose her wounds as Christ did. She has demonstrated God's word that states, *"There is no fear in love [dread does not exist], but full-grown (complete perfect) love turns fears out of doors and expels every trace of terror! For fear brings with it the thought of punishment, and so he who is afraid he not reached the full maturity of love [is not yet grown into love's complete perfection].* 1 John 4:19 AMPC.
Grace & Peace ✝️☮️🇨🇦
This testimony moves me to God be the glory
I love you sis, you helped me.
You are can by yourself when we are looking for love we go the wrong way i found out only God can help and I still feel on sometime but when I get to that place i cry out to God and kept me so close to him and the warm of his love kept my sister in the Lord just look to God
Praise God for your Testimony! I am encouraged
To God be ALLLL the glory!!! #greatandawesometestimony
Glory to God!
Please understand that we all sin. You carried so much guilt and shame growing up. All of which was never your fault. That is not what God wants for us. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Always remember that. Trust in His love for you. But remember to also love yourself.
Thank you.
oh love of God !!!HOW RICH AND PURE!! ---IT SHALL FOREVER MORE ENDURE!! when we have exhausted our store of endurance ,he giveth and giveth and giveth again 1 so that victory wiil be ours Thelma Lewis-MORRIS
Great testimony my sister❤🙏🙏
Tears 😭 wow 😳
I know what church hurt is... & a lot of what she said resonated with me becuz I am going thru & have gone thru some of how she feels
May your Destiny come fourth Now in Jesus Christ Name. I prophecy in your life, God Almighty will lift you up and you shall become a pillar in Jesus Christ Kingdom.
This is almost too much. What a story!!
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