From Jason: Hopefully people can take something from my story and think about their choices. He's asked people, to get in touch with our casting account on Instagram to relay any messages - instagram.com/LADbiblecasting/ With thanks to Jason for sharing his story.
I don’t have an IG account to share this through, but I am glad to hear that Jason is taking his pain and the responsibility of his past actions, and using it for good by educating others.
To come through all of his upbringing and that event and still be focussed on helping others and trying to make a difference for the better is amazing. Such a strong person and wish him the best
This channel seems to be growing in my estimations......with the most powerful and thought provoking accounts and stories in existence on utube. It doesn't shy away from ANYTHING in REAL LIFE. This guys story NEEDED to be told. If there's anyone on this planet that can prevent young people from making mistakes...its this man. LIVING PROOF of what can happen.
Jason’s a junk box we can see it in his eyes, fuck him, kid didnt just make a mistake he made a big fucking error, all well and true regretting something once it’s happening it’s the making of a man to make the right decision at the time
Thanks to Jason, and to this channel for giving him a respectful platform to share his story. Life is not always kind, and one moment can change it all.🖤🇨🇦
This is what true remorse looks like. He has taken full responsibility for his actions and has also done everything he can to educate others. I have a lot of respect for this young man.
@@GrandMasterKai he's done his time however he will suffer the consequences of his actions for the rest of his life. I have sympathy and empathy for him I have 3 son's ages 18 20 and 22 I made a whole lot of mistakes at 18 did you ever make any mistakes at age 18? What a pathetic miserable person you are
@@GrandMasterKai As he said, his sentence is living with what he did. He could sit in a prison cell with that, or he could use his experiences to try and help others.
Agreed, but at least he turned his life around, some people with the same type of childhood and growth would spiral down and always go to worse. So the worst scenario led him to a change in the right direction. But actions have consequences, and he will carry that pain and sorrow for the rest of his life to remind him what choices can do
I don't think it's fair to say, "Sad it took the death of his best friend for him to turn his life around." People have no clue what it would be like if he hadn't lost his best friend. He could have changed his life around over less extreme events. I don't think it's fair to assume that in an alternate reality, he would have never improved without such a dire event to shape him.
Addiction is not an easy disease to cope with so unfortunately, the situations that occur are devastating. Some people never wake up despite the awful consequences bc I know someone who killed his best friend drunk driving yet he continues to drink & drive.
His level of sincerity, regret, loss and pain are heartbreaking. Never watched one as real on video like this young gentleman. My heart pours for him. God bless your heart
His remorse is crystal clear. I can`t help but feel that he too was a victim, given the awful circumstances he was raised in, something like this was almost inevitable. I really hope he can find some peace, he deserves it. I`m sure he has made a difference in this world, sharing his story and educating other youngsters. Love and light to you Jason.
Plenty of people grow up like that. I did. We don't end up druggies getting wasted and crashing cars and killing our mates. It's not an excuse or a justification. He had a choice and he made it, that's on him.
My little brother was killed aged 17 in a drink drive accident, his friend who was driving survived. I pray this kid has forgiven himself where ever his now. And you too must forgive yourself. Thankyou for sharing your story ❤
@@agentcodybanx8909 What makes you think that? I've been in cars with drunk drivers before. I knew they weren't fit to drive but I didn't really care because I was drunk.
Jason - you’re not a bad person. we’re all one mistake awake from being in your situation. I was a teenage addict and this hit so hard. you’re incredible. 18 is too young to carry this. you’re worthy of living life.
This man is haunted and I hope he can find forgiveness for himself in whatever shape that comes in. RIP to your boy Reefer. Good on you for making something positive out of this. Stay strong boss.
I really think that Reefer would be happy in heaven if Rocco does not suffer his whole life instead he would wish that he forgive himself and get happy for his children and live with Reefer inside his heart a good life with happy moments. After this life the two soulmates will embrace each other again and will discuss what Rocco have learnt after his death. We are endless souls.
His true feelings about the situation is worse than any legal sentence he could have received god bless him for trying his best to bring any positives about the situation to light
Genuinely feel this man’s pain. 15 years later and still hitting him hard. Glad he has changed his life around and doing good. If you help even 1 young person out of the 10,000’s you w spoken to, you’ve succeeded. You’ve got this.
What a moving story. This guy is clearly very intelligent and very articulate. Hearing his story, you can't help feeling that he too is a victim. With such a dreadful upbringing, what chance did he have as a youngster? This is no act; it's heartbreaking to see the genuine remorse and pain he carries around with him. He needs to forgive his younger self; I'm sure his friend would have. It's great he is trying to achieve something positive out of such a terrible experience. I wish him all the very, very best.
The honesty and pain expressed had me in tears. I work with children who are vulnerable and it doesn't take a whole lot for children and teenagers to get caught up with drugs. God bless this guy for his commitment to incredibly important work.
This got me. Hope this guy realises that through education, he has probably altered the direction and ultimately saved the lives of many people. Really, really hope this guy finds peace.
Jason - we learn who we truly are by how we react in our lowest moments. You are more than your past, you are more than that incident. By the positive work you’re doing, the positive message you’re sharing, you are showing who you truly are. I hope you can forgive yourself. You are loved, you inspire & you have so much more to give in this life. Keep going 🙏🏼
This is one of the most raw and hard hitting interviews I’ve seen from this channel. Jason, If you ever read this brother, these are my words for you - Embrace the emotions you feel. They do not hinder your message. In fact it is what makes your message resonate & worth sharing. Your genuine display of emotion is what makes it all real. And after all you’ve gone through, you’ve made it out the other side of the tunnel & used your past hardships to ultimately do good. I have no doubt Reefer is looking down on you with a smile on his face and a gentle hand on your shoulder, letting you know he loves you and is proud of you, and that one day you and your best friend will be reunited in a better world to come. Keep your head up brother. God bless.
Gods bless this tortured soul. I’m so so sorry that he has to go through this. I hope he knows how much support he has from us all here and how amazing he is for sharing his story to not just us but those who really need to hear it - kids
This the most moving thing I've ever seen on UA-cam, im grown man crying like a little girl. We're all a product or our upbringing and environments. Vids like this can only serve to change this. Top bollocks for putting this content out!
Thank you for sharing. No kid deserves that kind of unpredictable environment to grow up in. After experiencing an event like this, one would do anything to take it back. But life does not work like that, and like you said, one of the things you can do is spread awareness and try to help the kids so they would not have to struggle with drugs or unsafe conditions like you and your friend did. Keep fighting on!!
My eyes filled up with tears listening to this young mans story. The loss he has experienced is one that could have easily made him go deeper into despair, but luckily he has been able to turn himself around. It's a shame he had to go through such a troubled childhood and made some poor choices to have to come out the other side. Your remorse is heart felt and I'm sure your friend would have wanted you to live your life to the fullest.
The odds were against him from the start. So sad. I can't imagine living with the guilt of that for the rest of my life. It is a life sentence in itself. Well done for helping others now. Your buddy would have been proud of you.
And yet people in his position don’t always drink and drive and kill their friend. I feel bad, I do. I wish he had never done it and I know he’d give everything to go back and fix everything but he can’t. No one can
OK then.. I had a 'decillions to one' event of misfortune in the Euromillions lottery in 2014. Most impossible event that's ever happened on Earth, has happened to ME... So the man from my town who I gave my cat's other 2 kittens to 7 years earlier 'Neil Trotter' somehow won the 3rd highest ever Euromillions jackpot of £108 million in March 2014. Obviously I wanted to finally contact him about my cats when I found out about this. I've been wondering about them ever since I gave him them..This unusual occurrence and this connection I have to him made me take interest in playing the same lottery myself, to see if I could win it as well.. About 6 weeks later I came up with my new perfect lottery line. On the cursed day of May 2nd I did not put them down though. It is a long story, but basically there wasn't a pen for me at the picking station to do what I wanted to do in the very end, so I bought Lucky Dips instead of retrieving a pen to put my numbers down. ALL of my numbers then came up in the draw. Jackpot was up to £72 million. Someone else in the country had all of my numbers and took the whole jackpot that we should've shared. Throwing away not just £36 million and 2 Euromillions winners in a row from the same town as e/o, but who share cats with e/o as well, which is beyond impossible. My life instantly ended at this moment. Life has been the most fucked up, warped nightmare anyone has ever had. I had a stroke about a year later which has further ruined my life. Before the stroke, I was one of the most skilled video game players in the world, with loads of WR's for them.. It is a long, complicated story my story. I should probably be interviewed by Unilad about it, so it can finally get out to the public. See, the other interesting thing, is that I was actually the 'Easter Day Unilad' of 2017 with the amazing video that I sent into them about 6 months earlier, of my 'Trials Evolution Sphere' world record that I recorded about 6 months before Trotter won the lottery, and who now lives in a fucking castle, with a massive lake etc that he does NOT deseerve to have. It's NOT fair, or right. That video I sent to Unilad got millions of views on Facebook and Instagram which is very cool, and could be the best video game video they've been sent. Maybe this factor about me will make them want to interview me about the main story about me and the lottery? The original video I sent to them is here if you want to watch it btw... ua-cam.com/video/TMdvQql4tyY/v-deo.html
You've had a hard life which you didn't deserve because you are a good soul. You are teaching others from your sad lessons and I wish you all the best in life ahead.
It’s so shit that sometimes it takes literally the worst of events to happen to you in order for you change ur mind set or way of living, etc… But u can deffo see the sincerity in his eyes and his voice bless him! Head up for real broski deffo helping a lot of ppl with ur story👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
this brought me to tears. It takes a lot of strength to relive and share this experience and I deeply appreciate the amount of empathy you have. keep fighting that good fight
For 15 years this man had worn his heart on his shoulder! He has a soul full of remorse, a heart full of sorrow, and a mind full of guilt. Hats off for the work you're doing, and the education you are teaching the younger generations. RIP Reefa!!
this made me rethink a lot of the decisions i’ve made in the past couple years. thank you. this brought me to tears when you said think about your choices kid. i paused the video and sat and thought about what i could do better. your words are truly powerful again thank you
I feel for you, my guy. We all make stupid mistakes when we are young, some unfortunately affect us for the rest of our lives. Well done for turning your life around and educating others. Your boy Reefer would be so proud.
I found it really endearing when he mentioned how him and his late friend Refer wore blk and wyt matching outfits together…. Its gestures like this between friends who are caught up in a world often centred around hyper-masculinity and detached emotions that make them all the more special. 🥺 Another thing that really stuck with me was their ability to openly say that they loved each other platonically, while living in a very much depressing and loveless environment.
Heartbreaking interview, I've suffered with drug and alcohol issues in my past so I understand the dark path it leads you down. You have such a kind soul and have clearly learned from all this tragic experiences and the past life you had. I'm sure Reefer will be looking down on you proud of the man you've become. I hope you can eventually learn to live with yourself and come at peace. One of the best interviews you've done LadBible, it's so important for people who have been through these experiences to come out and talk about it as it helps so many people.
Such a powerful interview. Roco, you have to forgive yourself. We've all been young and made stupid decisions, but you're making something of your life, creating an impact on young people and changing your corner of the world. Keep going man, he'd be so proud of you. Sending light your way. Keep shining that torch.
So sad that the odds were against him from the very start. It just shows how your habits & lifestyle can affect your kids & even more people in their lives. You showed such remorse in this video Jason and the sorrow in your voice is enough to make anyone cry. So so glad you turned your life around, albeit it took a tragic event like that. Reefer will be smiling down at you, even tho I didn’t know him I know he’d be overjoyed at how far you’ve come since you were 18. Spreading your story to children is the best thing you can do, you’re preventing so many terrible future tragedies from happening. You’re a good man, keep going
In 4 days it'll mark a month that my dad was hit by a drunk driver. I wish the driver showed as much remorse.. it was his 3rd DUI and he was driving without a license. The pain of my father being taken away has been so difficult, confusing, surreal, like a cruel joke.. Drunk driving is never worth it. RIP dad, I love you so much. I'm sad I couldn't see you this Christmas. I was so looking forward to it.
The work that this man is doing by sharing his story is gritty determination, to make things as right as they can be. You can just see the pain in his face, in his body. Such a tragedy., an accident. I hope he finds true peace.
Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your story. Having a childhood that isn’t a childhood makes it far more difficult when we grow up. Thank you for sharing, I hope that we can make it a better place for kids so we don’t have so many broken adults, trying to help ourselves as adults is damn hard.
Wow. Honestly, just wow. I think this has been the hardest one for me to watch. You can feel just how raw all of these emotions still are for him, how much he sincerely regrets his actions and how he still hasn't found the ability to forgive himself. He lost one of his true loves in this life and someone l, who especially with all he had been through growing up, meant the world to him. I truly pray for this man's healing, mental health and ability to forgive himself and begin to live his life without shackles. Reefa would be proud of you, Roco 🧡
As a young lad myself now (mid20’s), I feel you lots on this my man. I’ve lost heaps of mates to drugs and prison and honestly it ruined us all, we still struggle with mental health everyday and only a few of my mates got out of that lifestyle. love that u spread the message and myself I’ve made similar mistakes, not to the extent of death (thankfully) but I feel what u mean. Amazing story mate
Couldn't stop my tears at all, the emotions were overwhelming, the sympathy he has for Reefer's family. And the regret he has. May his story changes someone's life. ❤❤❤
Wow. Such an inspirational man. Good on you for turning your life around and encouraging others to be better. Found it heart wrenching to see how much pain you have, but at least you’re making light out of a dark situation. So inspirational. Stay safe!
A truly tragic situation, but he has completely owned it, and massive respect for bringing light out of the darkness. Your stronger than you know Jason ❤️
your friend must be proud of you and what came out of this, with all the pain, once it happened there could be no better outcome then this. May you find peace, you sharing this will definitely save lives!
Your emotion is what makes it real and what makes people listen to you, please keep it and keep telling your story, for the sake of others and for the sake of you! Furthermore rmbrace your pain, don't try to push it away it will only make it worse. My thought go out to you, I wish you a brighter future you deserve it!
Thats an authentic man right there. I wish he could know that his best friend wouldn't want him to carry this pain. That it was not only him, but the circumstances that killed his friend. He's clearly a fine person, or he wouldn't feel that regret so clearly.
Jason thank you for sharing your story not just here but with children and young people in your educational work. Reefer would be proud of you. You are helping others, there is no greater gift. I hope you find inner peace, because you do deserve that.
'I wanna say this all but without this emotion' - The emotion is why you're so good at sharing your experience and helping to educate others. It's full of impact, depth and honesty - impossible to not engage with. It must be so tough to recount again and again, but I see the emotion as your strength, despite it being extremely painful to go through.
To talk about your vulnerability is true strength . Massive respect to you my friend. I'm sorry you both had to endure tough child hoods. I love your strength and courage. ❤
Jason, if you ever read this, you are incredibly brave for sharing your story like this. Thank you for your efforts to help young people make better choices.
just from seeing this mans interaction online. i sense he will be a much better person going forward. i sense forever gratitude and humility for life. may u be the bestest version of yourself and give back to those that truely need it thru your life experiences
I'm so glad people aren't saying "stupid bloke, what a tw*t" this that and the other. You can feel the remorse this guy has endured through his life after this incident. We all makes mistakes, but at least this guy took responsibility and made something good of it. Credit to you for turning your life around
‘I can’t remember it but I try and imagine it’ - truly sums up how our brains process traumatic memory. I’ve been searching for these words since I held my Mum as she died. What an incredible young man.
if your eyes are dry after watching this, you need a soul clense. The fact that he turned his life around and is now teaching kids to make better choices. That's strength beyond strength. He may not see this but my friend, you are an amazing person and I'm so happy to have heard your story. I love you!
I don’t need a soul cleanse. Yes he’s made some repairs but no matter how many tears he can’t erase his choice. No one made him it was his choice. My heart goes out to this man, but he broke family and friends in a way that can’t be fixed. Drunk driving is a choice. People should know better. It’s not an accident. It’s a choice to drink and drive.
Big respect to this guy, you can tell he’s a decent bloke who just made a mistake in life, we have all made mistakes but this guy gets out of prison and don’t touch drink or drugs and is now helping youngsters to make better choices, you could have saved 10,s of hundreds or kids being killed or in prison from the advice you are given, keep up the good work and don’t beat yourself up so much, you are doing what’s right mate
thank you for showing how much this can ruin someones life and being so real and honest, you can see the guilt and remorse he has for the situation and its heartbreaking, hopefully this can spread awareness
Damn. I came here to judge. Before 1:30 I was in floods of tears for him. By the time he took that break I was sobbing. I hope he finds solace. I really do. I’ll pray for him.
Rocco I'm intensely proud of you fir turning your life around and helping others. You didn't set out to do what happened - you were young and we've ALL made poor choices in our lives for sure. Are you having therapy? Thank you so much for sharing your experience, your pain. RIP Reefer🙏🙏🙏
I don’t know you but I love you Jason. You are not your mistakes. You are not your bad decisions. Your past does not define you. I see that you have grown and matured into an amazing man. One with trauma, pain and scars.. but continue to fight and use that to do good in the world. Thank you for your courage to be completely transparent and so vulnerable in your emotions. It’s honestly commendable 🙏🏽
I do have to give this man credit for changing his life for the better. Congratulations to you on this remarkable change. Thank you for helping others in need.
I cried watching this. He is a good man who was a child victim of bad circumstances. I can easily see myself ending up in the same position at 18 if I wasn't as lucky. Nothing but respect for him and his good work and wish him piece.
@@mydogeatspuke that's like me saying, "plenty of people smoke and don't get cancer". The fact is smoking increases your chances of getting cancer. It's called causation doesn't equal correlation. Maybe look up what the ACE score is and see the major link between a high ACE score and low quality of life. It's literally the main system psychologist use to determine the outcome of people's life, from illness to crime and marriage. The higher your score the more likely you are to have a low quality of life.
I genuinely feel so much empathy for this guy. It's so sad that it took something so extreme to turn this guy around. It's clear that we need proper, clear and consistent guidance from our parent(s) and our communities otherwise things like this are inevitable. Glad this guy keeps his chin up to educate people on how you can turn it around. RIP to his friend!
Thank you for your story. You may not have been able to prevent your friend losing their life but Reefer has saved your life and changed the direction that you are now heading. You know deep down that if the roles were reversed, you'd have forgiven him. It's time to forgive yourself and continue to tell yours and his story and help share that important message.
I feel so much respect and love for this man and wish him all the best in life. This is what taking responsibilty for your actions look like. It's bloody hard to watch but I'm grateful that I did.
Bless you mate... I can't imagine having to live with the pain of that. As you said - it's a life sentence. Thank you for sharing your message- and your emotion- with us ... Xx
I've felt alone all my life, had some pretty bad shit as a kid (mum and step dad died of drugs). Thought that becoming a soldier would help make me stronger ..it did but didn't take away how I felt. I spend most of my days by self now still thinking the same. Good luck to you fella I hope you find your peace ✌️ x
From Jason: Hopefully people can take something from my story and think about their choices.
He's asked people, to get in touch with our casting account on Instagram to relay any messages - instagram.com/LADbiblecasting/
With thanks to Jason for sharing his story.
I don’t have an IG account to share this through, but I am glad to hear that Jason is taking his pain and the responsibility of his past actions, and using it for good by educating others.
To come through all of his upbringing and that event and still be focussed on helping others and trying to make a difference for the better is amazing. Such a strong person and wish him the best
This channel seems to be growing in my estimations......with the most powerful and thought provoking accounts and stories in existence on utube. It doesn't shy away from ANYTHING in REAL LIFE. This guys story NEEDED to be told. If there's anyone on this planet that can prevent young people from making mistakes...its this man. LIVING PROOF of what can happen.
Jason’s a junk box we can see it in his eyes, fuck him, kid didnt just make a mistake he made a big fucking error, all well and true regretting something once it’s happening it’s the making of a man to make the right decision at the time
Thanks to Jason, and to this channel for giving him a respectful platform to share his story. Life is not always kind, and one moment can change it all.🖤🇨🇦
This is what true remorse looks like. He has taken full responsibility for his actions and has also done everything he can to educate others. I have a lot of respect for this young man.
hahaha he isnt that remorseful or he would be in prision still serving life or near life... take a life for a life over a stupid mistake...
@@GrandMasterKai you can be remorseful and not be in prison hahaha you gimp
YEs God bless him
@@GrandMasterKai he's done his time however he will suffer the consequences of his actions for the rest of his life. I have sympathy and empathy for him I have 3 son's ages 18 20 and 22 I made a whole lot of mistakes at 18 did you ever make any mistakes at age 18? What a pathetic miserable person you are
@@GrandMasterKai As he said, his sentence is living with what he did. He could sit in a prison cell with that, or he could use his experiences to try and help others.
To be carrying all that pain and to not turn to drugs to numb it shows incredible strength.
15 years on and this guy is still feeling the consequences of his actions. Sad it took the death of his best friend for him to turn his life around.
Agreed, but at least he turned his life around, some people with the same type of childhood and growth would spiral down and always go to worse. So the worst scenario led him to a change in the right direction. But actions have consequences, and he will carry that pain and sorrow for the rest of his life to remind him what choices can do
I don't think it's fair to say, "Sad it took the death of his best friend for him to turn his life around." People have no clue what it would be like if he hadn't lost his best friend. He could have changed his life around over less extreme events. I don't think it's fair to assume that in an alternate reality, he would have never improved without such a dire event to shape him.
I mean the consequences of drink driving take an entire life.
Addiction is not an easy disease to cope with so unfortunately, the situations that occur are devastating. Some people never wake up despite the awful consequences bc I know someone who killed his best friend drunk driving yet he continues to drink & drive.
unfortunately many addicts have to hit absolute rock bottom before they realize they need to turn their lives around.
His friend would be proud of him for the way he has turned around. You did well, brother.
His dead friend??
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Yeah I bet his dead friend is very pleased. 🙄
I’m sure he’d be happier alive.
What an insensitive comment. I hope you realise this and the family don’t see this comment.
His level of sincerity, regret, loss and pain are heartbreaking. Never watched one as real on video like this young gentleman. My heart pours for him. God bless your heart
His remorse is crystal clear. I can`t help but feel that he too was a victim, given the awful circumstances he was raised in, something like this was almost inevitable. I really hope he can find some peace, he deserves it. I`m sure he has made a difference in this world, sharing his story and educating other youngsters. Love and light to you Jason.
He still chose to drink and drive, tbh he should feel bad for the rest of his life.
@@hanspz5505 terrible mentality nobody is a saint things happen out of circumstance and nothing we can do after it
Plenty of people grow up like that. I did. We don't end up druggies getting wasted and crashing cars and killing our mates. It's not an excuse or a justification. He had a choice and he made it, that's on him.
@@cfcsakeen nobody is a saint so we shouldn't hold drink drivers accountable?
@@cfcsakeen how was not drinking and driving out of his control lmfao
My little brother was killed aged 17 in a drink drive accident, his friend who was driving survived. I pray this kid has forgiven himself where ever his now. And you too must forgive yourself. Thankyou for sharing your story ❤
Isn’t it ironic, the man he killed is the man that saved his life. The greatest friend he’ll ever have. RIP Reefer. 🙏🏻
Makes him seem like even more of a dirt bag. He probably convinced his friend he was OK to drive too
@@agentcodybanx8909 What makes you think that?
I've been in cars with drunk drivers before. I knew they weren't fit to drive but I didn't really care because I was drunk.
@@agentcodybanx8909 Alcohol does have a tendency to do that, reducing inhibition and all.
Lol
Great point
Jason - you’re not a bad person. we’re all one mistake awake from being in your situation. I was a teenage addict and this hit so hard. you’re incredible. 18 is too young to carry this. you’re worthy of living life.
This man is haunted and I hope he can find forgiveness for himself in whatever shape that comes in. RIP to your boy Reefer. Good on you for making something positive out of this. Stay strong boss.
He wont
@@lisanewzealand speaking from experience?
@@LateLastNight of course, no. I never drink
I really think that Reefer would be happy in heaven if Rocco does not suffer his whole life instead he would wish that he forgive himself and get happy for his children and live with Reefer inside his heart a good life with happy moments. After this life the two soulmates will embrace each other again and will discuss what Rocco have learnt after his death. We are endless souls.
His true feelings about the situation is worse than any legal sentence he could have received god bless him for trying his best to bring any positives about the situation to light
This one gives you real feeling of loss for the guy- He feels the greatness that he can bring from his loss.
Genuinely feel this man’s pain. 15 years later and still hitting him hard.
Glad he has changed his life around and doing good. If you help even 1 young person out of the 10,000’s you w spoken to, you’ve succeeded. You’ve got this.
What a moving story. This guy is clearly very intelligent and very articulate. Hearing his story, you can't help feeling that he too is a victim. With such a dreadful upbringing, what chance did he have as a youngster? This is no act; it's heartbreaking to see the genuine remorse and pain he carries around with him. He needs to forgive his younger self; I'm sure his friend would have. It's great he is trying to achieve something positive out of such a terrible experience. I wish him all the very, very best.
The way he spoke from his heart was so poetic. Hope he keeps up with his good work and one day it will hurt less
this was genuinely genuinely one of the most unique and best UNIlad interviews so far, amazing Jason
The honesty and pain expressed had me in tears. I work with children who are vulnerable and it doesn't take a whole lot for children and teenagers to get caught up with drugs. God bless this guy for his commitment to incredibly important work.
this one really hit me as well.
This got me. Hope this guy realises that through education, he has probably altered the direction and ultimately saved the lives of many people. Really, really hope this guy finds peace.
“The most difficult part about prison was when they would shut the door and I knew I was there , alone with my thoughts.” WOW thats so deep 😭😭😭
"My sentence is what I go to sleep with and wake up with." Like Dostoyevsky, he understands the duality of crime and punishment.
Jason - we learn who we truly are by how we react in our lowest moments. You are more than your past, you are more than that incident. By the positive work you’re doing, the positive message you’re sharing, you are showing who you truly are.
I hope you can forgive yourself. You are loved, you inspire & you have so much more to give in this life. Keep going 🙏🏼
Well said 👏 👌
Perfectly said!
This is one of the most raw and hard hitting interviews I’ve seen from this channel.
Jason, If you ever read this brother, these are my words for you -
Embrace the emotions you feel. They do not hinder your message. In fact it is what makes your message resonate & worth sharing. Your genuine display of emotion is what makes it all real.
And after all you’ve gone through, you’ve made it out the other side of the tunnel & used your past hardships to ultimately do good. I have no doubt Reefer is looking down on you with a smile on his face and a gentle hand on your shoulder, letting you know he loves you and is proud of you, and that one day you and your best friend will be reunited in a better world to come.
Keep your head up brother. God bless.
Gods bless this tortured soul. I’m so so sorry that he has to go through this. I hope he knows how much support he has from us all here and how amazing he is for sharing his story to not just us but those who really need to hear it - kids
Brave brave man for reliving this pain over and over in an attempt to help others. Thank you for what you do.
This the most moving thing I've ever seen on UA-cam, im grown man crying like a little girl. We're all a product or our upbringing and environments. Vids like this can only serve to change this. Top bollocks for putting this content out!
Thank you for sharing. No kid deserves that kind of unpredictable environment to grow up in. After experiencing an event like this, one would do anything to take it back. But life does not work like that, and like you said, one of the things you can do is spread awareness and try to help the kids so they would not have to struggle with drugs or unsafe conditions like you and your friend did. Keep fighting on!!
My eyes filled up with tears listening to this young mans story. The loss he has experienced is one that could have easily made him go deeper into despair, but luckily he has been able to turn himself around. It's a shame he had to go through such a troubled childhood and made some poor choices to have to come out the other side. Your remorse is heart felt and I'm sure your friend would have wanted you to live your life to the fullest.
Young? This mf is 30 something.
The odds were against him from the start. So sad. I can't imagine living with the guilt of that for the rest of my life. It is a life sentence in itself. Well done for helping others now. Your buddy would have been proud of you.
And yet people in his position don’t always drink and drive and kill their friend. I feel bad, I do. I wish he had never done it and I know he’d give everything to go back and fix everything but he can’t. No one can
Incredible. Articulate, devastating, honest, brutal - true remorse and compassion. Thank you very much for sharing your story
15 years and he’s still a broken man, really was a hard watch but amazing for the guy to share his story. May Reefer RIP.
Should have been locked up for 15 years.
POWERFUL INTERVIEW! Thanks Jason. My prayers go out to you and all affected
Jason, the emotion is what gives your message depth and true meaning, don't be ashamed of it or hide it
Love hearing about people’s stories and their life experiences it’s always interesting to learn things about people even if you don’t really know them
OK then.. I had a 'decillions to one' event of misfortune in the Euromillions lottery in 2014. Most impossible event that's ever happened on Earth, has happened to ME...
So the man from my town who I gave my cat's other 2 kittens to 7 years earlier 'Neil Trotter' somehow won the 3rd highest ever Euromillions jackpot of £108 million in March 2014. Obviously I wanted to finally contact him about my cats when I found out about this. I've been wondering about them ever since I gave him them..This unusual occurrence and this connection I have to him made me take interest in playing the same lottery myself, to see if I could win it as well..
About 6 weeks later I came up with my new perfect lottery line. On the cursed day of May 2nd I did not put them down though. It is a long story, but basically there wasn't a pen for me at the picking station to do what I wanted to do in the very end, so I bought Lucky Dips instead of retrieving a pen to put my numbers down. ALL of my numbers then came up in the draw. Jackpot was up to £72 million. Someone else in the country had all of my numbers and took the whole jackpot that we should've shared. Throwing away not just £36 million and 2 Euromillions winners in a row from the same town as e/o, but who share cats with e/o as well, which is beyond impossible. My life instantly ended at this moment. Life has been the most fucked up, warped nightmare anyone has ever had. I had a stroke about a year later which has further ruined my life. Before the stroke, I was one of the most skilled video game players in the world, with loads of WR's for them..
It is a long, complicated story my story. I should probably be interviewed by Unilad about it, so it can finally get out to the public. See, the other interesting thing, is that I was actually the 'Easter Day Unilad' of 2017 with the amazing video that I sent into them about 6 months earlier, of my 'Trials Evolution Sphere' world record that I recorded about 6 months before Trotter won the lottery, and who now lives in a fucking castle, with a massive lake etc that he does NOT deseerve to have. It's NOT fair, or right. That video I sent to Unilad got millions of views on Facebook and Instagram which is very cool, and could be the best video game video they've been sent. Maybe this factor about me will make them want to interview me about the main story about me and the lottery? The original video I sent to them is here if you want to watch it btw...
ua-cam.com/video/TMdvQql4tyY/v-deo.html
What a beautiful soul, he shouldn't be ashamed of his emotion, it shows he really means what he says. I wish him the best ♥️
You've had a hard life which you didn't deserve because you are a good soul. You are teaching others from your sad lessons and I wish you all the best in life ahead.
It’s so shit that sometimes it takes literally the worst of events to happen to you in order for you change ur mind set or way of living, etc…
But u can deffo see the sincerity in his eyes and his voice bless him!
Head up for real broski deffo helping a lot of ppl with ur story👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
this brought me to tears. It takes a lot of strength to relive and share this experience and I deeply appreciate the amount of empathy you have. keep fighting that good fight
I feel so sorry for people like Jason. Nobody is born like this, they are born in to it.
The power of your interview is in your emotion, it’s good to shed through tears. Thank you ☘️
Most people are afraid of negative things, this guy is amazing and he is healing himself by projecting his experience
For 15 years this man had worn his heart on his shoulder! He has a soul full of remorse, a heart full of sorrow, and a mind full of guilt. Hats off for the work you're doing, and the education you are teaching the younger generations. RIP Reefa!!
this made me rethink a lot of the decisions i’ve made in the past couple years. thank you. this brought me to tears when you said think about your choices kid. i paused the video and sat and thought about what i could do better. your words are truly powerful again thank you
So tragic. I lost my gf sadly 2 years ago, I feel and relate to the sorrow in his voice ❤
@Iris much love
I am sorry for your loss.
You are deserving of peace man. The world could learn a lot from a person like you, bless. RIP Reefa
That my unit teacher he was actually so kind I didn't know he had this story Jason you was the best person who was so kind to me
I feel for you, my guy. We all make stupid mistakes when we are young, some unfortunately affect us for the rest of our lives. Well done for turning your life around and educating others. Your boy Reefer would be so proud.
I found it really endearing when he mentioned how him and his late friend Refer wore blk and wyt matching outfits together….
Its gestures like this between friends who are caught up in a world often centred around hyper-masculinity and detached emotions that make them all the more special. 🥺
Another thing that really stuck with me was their ability to openly say that they loved each other platonically, while living in a very much depressing and loveless environment.
I agree,Needs to be more love between one another no matter your gender,Men will always be boys at heart.
...even MORE the fact that they TOLD each other they loved one another.
Black* and white*.
Heartbreaking interview, I've suffered with drug and alcohol issues in my past so I understand the dark path it leads you down.
You have such a kind soul and have clearly learned from all this tragic experiences and the past life you had.
I'm sure Reefer will be looking down on you proud of the man you've become. I hope you can eventually learn to live with yourself and come at peace.
One of the best interviews you've done LadBible, it's so important for people who have been through these experiences to come out and talk about it as it helps so many people.
Such a powerful interview. Roco, you have to forgive yourself. We've all been young and made stupid decisions, but you're making something of your life, creating an impact on young people and changing your corner of the world. Keep going man, he'd be so proud of you. Sending light your way. Keep shining that torch.
So sad that the odds were against him from the very start. It just shows how your habits & lifestyle can affect your kids & even more people in their lives. You showed such remorse in this video Jason and the sorrow in your voice is enough to make anyone cry. So so glad you turned your life around, albeit it took a tragic event like that. Reefer will be smiling down at you, even tho I didn’t know him I know he’d be overjoyed at how far you’ve come since you were 18. Spreading your story to children is the best thing you can do, you’re preventing so many terrible future tragedies from happening. You’re a good man, keep going
In 4 days it'll mark a month that my dad was hit by a drunk driver. I wish the driver showed as much remorse.. it was his 3rd DUI and he was driving without a license. The pain of my father being taken away has been so difficult, confusing, surreal, like a cruel joke.. Drunk driving is never worth it. RIP dad, I love you so much. I'm sad I couldn't see you this Christmas. I was so looking forward to it.
I’m so sorry for your loss xx
The work that this man is doing by sharing his story is gritty determination, to make things as right as they can be. You can just see the pain in his face, in his body. Such a tragedy., an accident. I hope he finds true peace.
Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your story.
Having a childhood that isn’t a childhood makes it far more difficult when we grow up.
Thank you for sharing, I hope that we can make it a better place for kids so we don’t have so many broken adults, trying to help ourselves as adults is damn hard.
thank you jason. i lost my older brother 5 years ago today, it felt like a gift to hear you speak.
What a guy, taking a bad situation and turning into a positive one by teaching and advising others to think before they act
So touching, my heart goes out to you, hoping that your continued journey brings you peace. You are bringing the light from the dark x
Wow. Honestly, just wow. I think this has been the hardest one for me to watch. You can feel just how raw all of these emotions still are for him, how much he sincerely regrets his actions and how he still hasn't found the ability to forgive himself. He lost one of his true loves in this life and someone l, who especially with all he had been through growing up, meant the world to him. I truly pray for this man's healing, mental health and ability to forgive himself and begin to live his life without shackles. Reefa would be proud of you, Roco 🧡
As a young lad myself now (mid20’s), I feel you lots on this my man. I’ve lost heaps of mates to drugs and prison and honestly it ruined us all, we still struggle with mental health everyday and only a few of my mates got out of that lifestyle. love that u spread the message and myself I’ve made similar mistakes, not to the extent of death (thankfully) but I feel what u mean. Amazing story mate
Where the hell do you live to lose heaps of mate s
@@johnstonlee The bronx
Couldn't stop my tears at all, the emotions were overwhelming, the sympathy he has for Reefer's family. And the regret he has. May his story changes someone's life.
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Wow. Such an inspirational man. Good on you for turning your life around and encouraging others to be better. Found it heart wrenching to see how much pain you have, but at least you’re making light out of a dark situation. So inspirational. Stay safe!
A truly tragic situation, but he has completely owned it, and massive respect for bringing light out of the darkness. Your stronger than you know Jason ❤️
your friend must be proud of you and what came out of this, with all the pain, once it happened there could be no better outcome then this. May you find peace, you sharing this will definitely save lives!
Your emotion is what makes it real and what makes people listen to you, please keep it and keep telling your story, for the sake of others and for the sake of you! Furthermore rmbrace your pain, don't try to push it away it will only make it worse. My thought go out to you, I wish you a brighter future you deserve it!
Thats an authentic man right there. I wish he could know that his best friend wouldn't want him to carry this pain. That it was not only him, but the circumstances that killed his friend. He's clearly a fine person, or he wouldn't feel that regret so clearly.
Jason thank you for sharing your story not just here but with children and young people in your educational work. Reefer would be proud of you. You are helping others, there is no greater gift. I hope you find inner peace, because you do deserve that.
This is what remorse looks like. A credit to the justice system and I hope he continues leading a purposeful life. All the best to him.
'I wanna say this all but without this emotion' - The emotion is why you're so good at sharing your experience and helping to educate others. It's full of impact, depth and honesty - impossible to not engage with. It must be so tough to recount again and again, but I see the emotion as your strength, despite it being extremely painful to go through.
Absolutely heartbreaking story, But some good came from the tragedy. Such a honest honest young man you are Jason.
To talk about your vulnerability is true strength .
Massive respect to you my friend. I'm sorry you both had to endure tough child hoods. I love your strength and courage. ❤
I'm a bit upset that the interviewer didn't tell him that it's okay to cry when he started talking about his friend's loyalty..
These people are always so articulate. They speak beautifully about awful things. Endless respect to them.
seeing and hearing the pain in him.. tears me up
what a compelling video, extremely powerful. well done for sharing, what is clearly a very painful story :(
I just want to give him a hug so badly
Jason, if you ever read this, you are incredibly brave for sharing your story like this. Thank you for your efforts to help young people make better choices.
This is true guilt and remorse i feel so much for this man. Im sorry that you have to live with that.
just from seeing this mans interaction online. i sense he will be a much better person going forward. i sense forever gratitude and humility for life. may u be the bestest version of yourself and give back to those that truely need it thru your life experiences
Wow! This poor baby! A crack addict at 12! How he’s sitting here today is an absolute miracle! Bless him! I hope his Spirit finds peace!!!
I'm so glad people aren't saying "stupid bloke, what a tw*t" this that and the other.
You can feel the remorse this guy has endured through his life after this incident.
We all makes mistakes, but at least this guy took responsibility and made something good of it.
Credit to you for turning your life around
‘I can’t remember it but I try and imagine it’ - truly sums up how our brains process traumatic memory. I’ve been searching for these words since I held my Mum as she died. What an incredible young man.
if your eyes are dry after watching this, you need a soul clense. The fact that he turned his life around and is now teaching kids to make better choices. That's strength beyond strength. He may not see this but my friend, you are an amazing person and I'm so happy to have heard your story. I love you!
I don’t need a soul cleanse. Yes he’s made some repairs but no matter how many tears he can’t erase his choice. No one made him it was his choice. My heart goes out to this man, but he broke family and friends in a way that can’t be fixed. Drunk driving is a choice. People should know better. It’s not an accident. It’s a choice to drink and drive.
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"The eyes, chico. They never lie."
The pain in this mans eyes tells you everything you need to know.
Big respect to this guy, you can tell he’s a decent bloke who just made a mistake in life, we have all made mistakes but this guy gets out of prison and don’t touch drink or drugs and is now helping youngsters to make better choices, you could have saved 10,s of hundreds or kids being killed or in prison from the advice you are given, keep up the good work and don’t beat yourself up so much, you are doing what’s right mate
That was one of the most heartfelt things I've ever seen
thank you for showing how much this can ruin someones life and being so real and honest, you can see the guilt and remorse he has for the situation and its heartbreaking, hopefully this can spread awareness
Damn. I came here to judge.
Before 1:30 I was in floods of tears for him.
By the time he took that break I was sobbing.
I hope he finds solace.
I really do.
I’ll pray for him.
Rocco I'm intensely proud of you fir turning your life around and helping others. You didn't set out to do what happened - you were young and we've ALL made poor choices in our lives for sure. Are you having therapy? Thank you so much for sharing your experience, your pain. RIP Reefer🙏🙏🙏
My heart goes out to this man. So much pain 😭
One of the hardest to watch & touching videos on UA-cam… Very very powerful message to us all.
I don’t know you but I love you Jason. You are not your mistakes. You are not your bad decisions. Your past does not define you. I see that you have grown and matured into an amazing man. One with trauma, pain and scars.. but continue to fight and use that to do good in the world. Thank you for your courage to be completely transparent and so vulnerable in your emotions. It’s honestly commendable 🙏🏽
I do have to give this man credit for changing his life for the better. Congratulations to you on this remarkable change. Thank you for helping others in need.
Very intelligent guy, can tell life has been so rough to him. Sorry for what happened and I hope you can get peace of mind, you do deserve it!
Thank you for sharing and showing yourself. It takes a lot of courage. Best wishes for your healing journey, Janin
I cried watching this. He is a good man who was a child victim of bad circumstances. I can easily see myself ending up in the same position at 18 if I wasn't as lucky. Nothing but respect for him and his good work and wish him piece.
Nah. It's not how it works. Plenty of people grow up like that and don't turn out like that. It's a choice.
@@mydogeatspuke that's like me saying, "plenty of people smoke and don't get cancer". The fact is smoking increases your chances of getting cancer. It's called causation doesn't equal correlation.
Maybe look up what the ACE score is and see the major link between a high ACE score and low quality of life. It's literally the main system psychologist use to determine the outcome of people's life, from illness to crime and marriage. The higher your score the more likely you are to have a low quality of life.
@@kahyui2486 you've got those the wrong way round mate. And no.
@@mydogeatspuke great rebuttal
@@kahyui2486you didn't say anything that deserved a rebuttal. It was utter nonsense. Hence a clear and succinct "no."
I genuinely feel so much empathy for this guy. It's so sad that it took something so extreme to turn this guy around. It's clear that we need proper, clear and consistent guidance from our parent(s) and our communities otherwise things like this are inevitable. Glad this guy keeps his chin up to educate people on how you can turn it around. RIP to his friend!
Thank you for your story. You may not have been able to prevent your friend losing their life but Reefer has saved your life and changed the direction that you are now heading. You know deep down that if the roles were reversed, you'd have forgiven him. It's time to forgive yourself and continue to tell yours and his story and help share that important message.
I feel so much respect and love for this man and wish him all the best in life. This is what taking responsibilty for your actions look like. It's bloody hard to watch but I'm grateful that I did.
Bless you mate... I can't imagine having to live with the pain of that. As you said - it's a life sentence. Thank you for sharing your message- and your emotion- with us ... Xx
I'm really glad he's out there telling his story. I''m sure he's changed or saved a few lives with this message.
I've felt alone all my life, had some pretty bad shit as a kid (mum and step dad died of drugs). Thought that becoming a soldier would help make me stronger ..it did but didn't take away how I felt. I spend most of my days by self now still thinking the same.
Good luck to you fella I hope you find your peace ✌️ x
Sending you the biggest love xx
Feeling your pain mate. Mindfulness and meditation will help if you work at them
You have to let it fuel you to be stronger, you got this