Old me is dead.
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- Опубліковано 17 тра 2024
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song list:
00:00 First snow - Antent.
2:07 The beach - Lost Hope.
6:50 Dark snowy night - Daniel.mp3.
10:00 Taiyla - Vowl.
13:30 As the light fade - A vow.
15:52 Last breath - Øneheart.
17:34 Empty - Ybyrayy.
19:12 Snowfall - Øneheart/Reidenshi.
21:18 Hope to see you again - Antent.
23:47 Apathy - Øneheart
25:46 Memories - Leadwave.
27:15 Fates intertwined - Alixed.
29:46 Sleepless - Ødyzon.
32:15 Green to blue - Daniel.mp3.
35:15 Stellar - .Diedlonely/Énouement.
37:00 Time dialation clock - Billy Gangas.
39:43 Cosmos temple - Jayan Perera.
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@@NavoTheTrueGod chat is this real
@@DuandaleQingle SEE HE DELETED ME, HE KNOWS BRO, HE KNOWS HES THE SKINWALKER
@@DuandaleQingle DONT LET HIM GET EVERYONE ELSE ...
-gets killed-
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thats why i have YT premium
Getting ads while you’re depressed is another type of hurt
Come to Russia, there has been no advertising here for two years 😔
@@siHfwhy?
@@akshatgupta2407 There are no ads on UA-cam due to the conflict with Ukraine
this made me laugh harder than i should have
ah hhh
i lost my job and failed to apply to new jobs, and now i feel like i am completely a useless person, and that everything i worked, studied for is in vain ... like i spent years to build my CV for just realizing that it is useless and no one look at it ...i am burning and i want to be reborn again into a stronger person, someone who will dig his root very deep, to the point that no one can afford to lose me .... i want to stand up again and keep walking ..i do not want to give up and this is completely smashing me .. feeling pain all over my body
Quisiera escucharte
Relate to this very hard. I hope so both fine our peace in newness
I believe in you brother, you got this! Keep your head up! Sending hugs and kisses!
Keep up man, I believe in you !
Praying for you bro 🙏🏾 Trust in God
Being alone doesn't effect instantly, it kills you with the time without even realizing.
"Time is the only resource for which no creature may bargain..." --DD1
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I like being alone, wake me up when shtf.
No. It strengthens your bond with yourself.
Sometimes God is keeping us safe and keeping our peace safe by keeping us alone
Fr bro this is so true
It's sad how I only find comfort in listening to sad music.
You're not alone though, countless people like us find comfort in the saddest of tunes. But isn't that beautiful?
It’s the best music to think to
Same but it relaxes me, in this really chaotic world..
what makes it sad? just because its mellow and not loud doesnt make it sad, its just peaceful. at the end of the day its just noise.
Not everything is sad lil bro
My old me said "I'll come back to you when you need me, but for now I'll just... have a rest, I guess, I'm... tired, so... tired... of everything, and everyone, so please try and endure some time for me, I'll be back... soon, I hope..."
It's been 7 years, I don't think he's coming back anymore
-A 20 year old boy suffering in uni
I spent two horrible years (2021-mid 2023) I felt alone, useless, unloved, misunderstood. The only friends I had were hypocrites, but I have a friend who kept me in this world, this brother from another mother, he always supported me. He was the only one who was really there for me, now I'm much better because I found a girlfriend, I love her so much, she's beautiful, kind, I'm still with my best friends, but I have a lot of remorse because I didn't enjoy my childhood enough, I wanted to grow up quickly now I want to become a child again, at that time I was really happy, for all the young people who read my comment ENJOY YOUR CHILDHOOD please, don't lose don't spend your time with girls or boys, make real friends and enjoy, be cheerful with everyone.
It’s crazy how the older you get, the more your perspective on life really begins to shift. You don’t take things for granted anymore.
Fr bro
@@mastahkiller9044 ?
I wish I can say that I will or that I can because I felt the same way, in terms of wanting to go back that is. Most of my childhood was me being made to become an adult rather than letting me enjoy myself. Nowadays, my parents call me a child when im an an actual adult and I just sit there knowing that I am not going to relate to as many people as I could have.
You are born confused and disoriented, and you will die that way unless your level of Reflection is exceptionally strong. Even so, you will still die alone. Everyone does.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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I am 19 years old, I’ve done nothing notable within these 19 years. i remember a young me who enjoyed sports, and games. but now, i feel like a shell of who i was. I no longer feel like i belong around others, like i am not human. I created so many versions of myself for others, so many perspectives of me, i fronted so many personalities. I do not know who i am anymore. Which was the real me, that same childish person who enjoyed sports and games, why can’t i find him
I feel you brother. Really.
If I can give you any advice.
It will be, spend time with yourself, stay in silence in a peaceful place, all day, everyday. Pray, ask god for directions and signs, be patient it will come. And while you're doing all that try to fast, it really brings clarity I promise.
maybe the old you is in the process of dying. seek God
nostalgia reinforces the artifice, let go and see the present - no matter if it’d be beautiful or ugly
same. Hopefully you find that thing which will make you find him again. Maybe it will be something new?
I wish i was my younger self again. Not caring what others think, being happy, having a care free life. But now, im older and i can never go back. I miss the old times. 😔
I hear you
But Pray my love 🥹❤️God's got that happiness
You may never go back but you may move forward. Be that person you want to be. It's never too late to have a twist of fate.
@@shezarrine you speak facts my friend.
I was never young.
shhit i used to get bullied because i was skinny and short (elementary ,middle)
My mind is so scrambled i don't even know how to explain the simplest of things anymore. The intrusive thoughts. Constantly imagining scary/horrible things, the flashbacks and relentless deep sorrow. The nightmares. I miss feeling sane. I miss having friends and my drive to make more.
I miss going to bed at 11pm
I think u should try the book "Stop worrying and start living" by Dale Carnegie. The content is really relatable, intuitive and helpful. The examples are real people's life based and u will be able to relate to a lot of things and learn too. In the end, I believe that the book will help u in finding u a path. So try it, it's worth it
Check out Joe dispenza, it will not feel Sane at all but you will learn to accept and redirect, good luck
The Lord comforts the broken hearted ❤ Turn to him
It will be ok maybe one day but idk when that day will come my friend if you watch anime I’d recommend Vinland saga it helped me at least regain my sanity and not feel lost without a purpose
No one can hide from themselves forever.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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It’s like i’ll have this feeling for the rest of my life.
You will if you've decided to make it so. But when Death arrives, the real question will be... are you ready? Reflection is key.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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Me too. We are a different breed, not meant for this world or this time. We'll wake up again one day, and be somewhere else, don't worry. Our time will come, I just don't know when. Live the life you were promised, despite all the tragedy. Lord knows I have my fair share, if not more.
He wasn't asking any of you in the comments for advice at all he was telling you his feelings. Sometimes just listen and wish people well. I hope things turn around for you whatever your going through just know someone is going through something similar.
it'll get better brother.
It keeps coming back and it feels like forever until it will go away again
My favorite teacher passed this morning from a heart attack. He had two kids and a wife.
I talked to him yesterday. Had a pleasant conversation. Nothing could’ve prepared me to get the text that he was gone. I met him 6 months ago when the school year started. His class made the days bearable. I think I would’ve told him what an impact he had on me had I known he would be gone less than 24 hours later.
Davis. Thanks for teaching me what little I was able to retain. But more than that, Thank you for making a space where I could relax and learn about something I was genuinely interested in. I’m sorry that you went out the way you did but damn it you helped a lot of kids and made them proud to be in your class. So thank you.
life can seem so fleeting at times. I hope you deal with this well. Condolences to all that loved this man.
@@drewseth_is_hDeath takes away everyone and we don't know when we are going to die which makes death our biggest problem. Drew, do you think there is an answer to death?
It’s sad what can happen to really good people im sorry for your loss and im sending my love and prayers your way and to his class and his family
A family friend of mine died from a heart attack as well, I spoke with him the day before. Seeing someone who was so lively become a dead man the day after, world is too crazy.
@@29th.death and destruction are the punishments for the sin of humankind. However, Jesus Christ became a sacrifice to pay for the wages of sin, and if we believe, we will gain an eternal life in a new heaven and new earth.
Большинство кто слушает такие плейлисты в депрессии, или просто находят успокоение в такой музыке из-за сложных периодов в жизни, а я просто слушаю это потому что это моя жизнь
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А я просто слушаю из-за того что мне нравится спокойные плейлисты, я жизни радостный человек
@@kikitten333А я просто люблю музыку
So true.
Goals
Sometimes you have to let the old you die, to become the new you
"Reflect upon the Past.
Embrace your Present.
Orchestrate our Futures." --Artemis (DD3)
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Bela perspectiva.
The old me was better and sometimes it still comes out, just to die again
Fully agree. I honestly don't really like the old me and and I'm glad they're gone.
The new me is in pain.
something i’ve realized about being alone all the time is the fact that you find comfort in music like this. even if normal people see it as the type to set the mood low or have them feel down. when you’ve spent almost your entire life alone and feeling that way 24/7, it’s like the only way you can even FEEL at peace, is here.
There is a reason that monks of most faiths go into isolation to find God. In solitude, there is clarity. But that clarity can give way to emptiness if you let it.
We all die alone, but we live amongst men. In your solitude, strive, but never forget that you arent truly alone in the world. You just haven't found your fellow travelers yet. God be with you.
@@jaushuagrahamthefloridaman1124 i wish i could have a mindset like this. i’m not religious but i certainly believe in someone or something like that. i will take this advice and move forward. much appreciated brother/sister 🤝🏽
@yqhlr
be who you need to be, and you'll find your people. Just never lose that hope and mindset.
Hell, i found God down the barrel of my own gun. Life will work out if you decide to work it out, Friend.🤝
@@yqhlrGod is real. He's there for those who have truly been emptied out, for those who see k him with their whole heart. Isaiah 45:16 Truly, You are a God who hides Himself, O God of Israel, Savior!
In Christ is where true wisdom resides, in whom I've found my comfort. Those who are wise in their own eyes can't understand this nor receive it.
You don't realize how beautiful the world really is until you find yourself slowly stopping reacting to everything.
A breakup? It doesn't phase you. Loved one death? Doesn't phase you. You just turned your life around/got married to the love of your life? How about losing interest in sex or hanging out with your friends?
Being dead inside is essentially what this entire mixtape is like...like you took my soul's ambience and put it on UA-cam.
There's a sorrowful vibe from this comment, but I assure you all I'm okay. I just know you all have felt like this before. As have I.
Thank you
It's really sad to see many folks here linking this playlist with negative vibes of loneliness and yearning for something that never truly belonged to them.
But for me, 'Old me is dead.' holds much deeper meaning. It takes me back to darker times, when loneliness and depression were my constant companions.
Yet, now, tuning into this playlist with its powerful title, I feel liberated, as if I'm observing my life from the outside, in peace and wholeness.
Each track serves as a reminder of my journey and how far I've come, living beyond the shadows of my past.
I finally feel like I can breathe and appreciate the beauty of life.
Here's hoping everyone else here can capture a slice of that freedom and renewal as they listen to these tunes.
old me isn't dead, he just left my body and went to live the life i wish i had with her
Not a day has gone by without a thought. I've let it get too far. The chance is gone, has been for a year. I wish I could forget, would def be beneficial. But truth is I don't want to...
@@undraftedboomer5055 we don't want to. pain is the only connection i have with her
@SKYZO4 thing is, I doubt the feelings are mutual. I expect she's moved on by now. I should be glad. She has one of the best guys I know now. Yet here I am.
@@undraftedboomer5055 same here, but she went away and i dont know anything about her
@SKYZO4 she goes to the same college as me. The guy has been a good friend since 6th grade. Feel guilty around him. Had feelings for her for 4 years now, never did anything about it. I'm relatively confident there was something between us at the end. Never did more than the occasional conversation in class. Like I said, should've never entertained the possibility in my mind for so long. It feels childish
no tears left to shed.
i think that you've been crying alot.
I have tears for others I love but none for myself
Ran dry too?
@@CamTooSlow yeah shits been wild the past 2 years
My sister died on February 29th. She was born this winter and died this winter, never having lived to see the calendar spring. Although she saw small unopened yellow flowers, future daffodils and green grass and also felt the warmth of the sun. She had a problem, a genetic abnormality, but one that people can live with and socialize with. We probably couldn't come to terms with it, but we accepted it anyway. I was very scared for her fate. I'm glad that my family didn't abandon her, and she spent most of her short life at home in love, warmth and care, and she met new year with us. She was an incentive for me personally to work harder so that I could help her in the future. But she left quietly and unexpectedly in a dream, before dawn.
It was the most tragic winter, and I don’t remember what I was like before it. I believe that my sister is in a good place now. It seems to me, despite the fact that it’s already the second week of spring, that I’m still in winter 23-24.
I miss my sister and I hope I will see her again.
I’m so sorry for your loss.
May she rest in peace.
Sit in pace soror tua😔
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@Malmorious you're spineless.
To whoever reads this,
i love you
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love you even if you have insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love you even if you have failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you on you even on sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stresses
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you act
i love you even if you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you even if you you're mean
i love you even if you're alone
i love you even if you can't feel
i love you even if you feel too much
i love you even if you can't take life anymore
i love you even if you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you even if you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you even if you don't believe in yourself
i love you even if you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you even if you have problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you even if you're in pain
i love you even if you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love you even if you have wounds
i love you even if you have scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you even if you lie
i love you even if you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you even if you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you even if you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you even if you have headache
i love you even if you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you're mature
i love you even if you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you even if life isn't bright
i love you when you're responsible
i love you even if you're irresponsible
i love you even if you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love even if your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)
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I love you too :)
Reading these comments make me feel like I’m not alone. I see all of you. I wish there were perfect words to soothe a soul. I believe in us still. I believe and trust in our humanity.
I agree. It’s comforting to know that there are others that understand
read this
a year ago i was suffering from depression ever since i was a kid, my parents started seeing cuts on my arms and i wanted to kill myself. they got mad at me multiple times and said if i cut myself more they would ground me or something. i kept doing it and they grounded me and my dad said hes signing up a psychologist and thats what he did. i went to the classes and started healing. the only problem was that i like a girl and i figured out just 3 days later she liked someone else. that really knocked me down and i hit rock bottom. next class my psychologist asked me what was wrong and why i looked so bad and i explained exactly what happend. i broke down in front of her. now im 13 and a bit happier and i want you to enjoy childhood. the main problem is that you will regret having a sad childhood. even now i remember memories and say "oh that was nice" and just immediately feel upset
youre not alone.
Keep going please, and trust me it's okay to feel like this
I feel like i failed in life
Same
i just miss the old times man
same.....things just dont hi like they did before idk its mad sad
Everyone is talking about this. Is it just downhill constantly now?
@@hannah.M73true
Same
@@oreosaysb00it really is theres not hope at the end of the tunnel for everyone I guess
I’ve gone through a lot these past two years, which honestly felt like one long horrible year. 2021 was the best year it could have been and it feels so far away and yet like it was just yesterday. I’ve gone through eating disorder, depression, derealization, suicidal ideation, trauma, hell and back. I’m tired. I’m so very tired. But I’m working towards a good life for 2024. And this music makes me feel better- makes me feel less tired and stressed.
I hope whoever may be reading this is able to achieve that same hope and comfort in the coming year. I hope you can overcome everything you face.
I’ll never be the same person again, but I wanna make a new life for the person I am now. A better life.
@@RemylRuby ???
I wont lie you captured exactly how I think in a single comment- 2021 was bliss, a few shitty desicions later and you're stuck regretting all that you do- but we learn to live with it, learn to cope, and we grow from the experience.
@@aperson673 Exactly. And what I said also holds true in that, I really do wish the best for the people who read it, you included. I want you to be able to at least survive through the struggles you face (cus I know not everyone can overcome and thrive despite them, sometimes we can only hope to survive and can only settle for “got through it alive”)
@@RemylRuby (In advance: I apologize for such a long comment.)
Jesus Christ are you egotistical and rude? Now that I understand what your original comment was saying, please just leave me alone. I’m not even on Twitter. Social media has not had anything to do with the dark times in my life.
You know absolutely nothing about my life other than the fact that in the last two years I’ve gone through: an eating disorder, derealization, anxiety, depression, and suicidal ideation that almost resulted in my suicide had it not been for the people in my life who saved me and whom I am so lucky to have. I have had the energy to smile and crack jokes because I haven’t wanted people to know how shitty I really feel. I didn’t want people to worry or care about me because I didn’t care about myself.
And yeah, some of my problems are ultimately self inflicted, I cannot deny that. But I’ve been depressed since I was 8, passively suicidal since I was 9, it wasn’t until these last two years that I’ve been this depressed. This is a part of me that has not gone away, and it would still be there even if the few habits I have that can make me feel worse weren’t.
Just because you’ve gone through cancer twice doesn’t mean you have any right to tell others they can’t suffer. It doesn’t mean you win whatever suffering game you think you’ve won. It doesn’t mean other people’s suffering is worth less than yours. You’ve gone through cancer twice, but I’ve gone through family trauma my whole life. You’ve gone through cancer twice, but I was starving myself and throwing up because I do not like myself. You’ve gone through cancer twice, but some people have no one to turn to that’ll comfort them on their darkest days. But I don’t think your suffering is less than mine or anyone else’s. Cancer is terrifying. Utterly terrifying and I’m really truly sorry you had to go through that. But you have no right to downplay others’ pain, tell them it’s all because they got “too many mean tweets,” and pretend that others can’t be suffering because you’ve had cancer.
I can’t imagine what it’s like, being the kind of person who hears someone say “I’ve gone through an eating disorder, suicidal ideation, and derealization; but I’ve come out of it stronger” and your response to that is “what, did you get too many mean tweets? Y’know if you just spent less time on your phone, you’d be fine. I’ve gone through cancer twice and I don’t complain.”
Imagine being so bitter that you can’t even spare a shred of empathy to others and pay attention to the actual message of what I said. That I really hope whoever is reading my comment can manage to survive whatever they’re struggling with. Because sometimes life is really fucking hard.
Oh, I'm so sorry that you went through this. The last two years have been really hard. I am really proud that you are working on yourself and striving to feel better. This is a really difficult job. I hope everything works out for you
Old me is dead, and I’m proud of it…
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Who were you
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@@GIGACHAD-dk7zsI used to be sm I don’t even know myself
@@GIGACHAD-dk7zs a depressed piece of sh*t, who had no will of living for tomorrow
To everyone reading this, It hurts me to see how much pain people are going through. But it just reminds me that none of us are alone in our pain, we all are battling hardships and demons. You should remember that too. This isn't your life, it's just a bad season, possibly a very long one. But it gets better, so don't stop fighting. I love you. ❤
Никто этого не заметит, поэтому напишу.
Прочитав большое количество комментариев, я не заметил русскоговорящий.
Многое в жизни идёт через одно место и парой кажется что это тупик, но тупик это начало чего-то нового. Где та целеустремлённость которая у тебя была? Ты так просто оставил её? Смирился с поражением? Разве этого ты хотел?
Читая о том, как люди высказываются о своих проблемах, помни одно: стремись к тому, чтобы не пришлось делиться горьким опытом.
Я не знаю тебя, а ты меня. И ты, читающий это письмо, знай, я верю в тебя и в твой грядущий успех. Ты не можешь мне запретить верить в тебя, поэтому просто встань и живи дальше!
Удачи!
В 13 лет я захотел мотоцикл. В 14 пошёл на работу, так как знал, что мои бедные родители не могут меня обеспечить. В 16 я купил его. Он был в ужасном состоянии, практически не на ходу, но я был так счастлив. За год подзаработал и привёл в рабочее состояние, благо есть какой никакой гараж и инструмент. И вот, лето. 4 месяца я рассекал поля. Один. Я был по настоящему счастлив и решил, что свяжу свою жизнь с дорогой, буду водителем.
Из за работы я не справлялся с учебой в 10 классе, поэтому решил её бросить. Год назад я пошёл получать справку для учёбы на права. Не получил. Мне поставили психиатрический диагноз, и за руль мне нельзя. Сначала я не придал этому значения, думал, что найду, чем можно ещё заняться в жизни. Продолжал пахать по 14 часов, копить деньги. Снял квартиру, сьехал от родителей. Втроём им будет посвободнее в однушке. И вдруг, меня осенило - я, скорее всего, никогда не сяду за руль. Я уже безумно скучал по дороге, я так долго к этому шёл... Через неделю мне 19, и я уже месяц практически не выхожу из дома, сил нет ни на что, живу на деньги, которые откладывал на мечту.. и.. пытаюсь понять, что же я хочу теперь. Ищу то, что заставит меня снова пахать и не замечать тяготы жизни. Ищу старого себя, и, кажется, заблудился сам..
Thank you. Keep your head above the tide and keep finding a way through. God be with you.
@@mrfreeman5286купи права и иди к своей мечте не смотря ни на что!
Ребят, я вас всех очень люблю, честно скажу. Очень сложно осознать тот факт, что я такой не один, если честно. Без шуток, правда сложно. Я уже привык к тому, что мало кто меня поймет и большинство людей скажут "ты страдаешь по пустякам". Типо.. я уже даже и не знаю, может они правы? Все чаще и чаще я этим вопросом задаюсь,но к ответу пока не пришел.
Но.. я же ещё не полностью потерян. Бывают вещи и хуже, поэтому...
Все, кто это читает, я желаю вам удачи. Искренне, от всего сердца.
От горького опыта не убежать никуда. Все, что мы можем - это проживать через него, когда он придет. И жить дальше, пытаться быть счастливыми при малейшей возможности.
Don't give up mate. I'm at the exact same point. It's just a matter of time, and if what is needed is to start again, then, let's go
Time is the only resource. It cannot be bought, crafted, traded, invented, innovated, nor grown. Sadly, it is probably mankind's least respected "commodity".
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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It's just a title, many lofi videos have titles like these because it encourages people to share life stories, experiences and potentially advice among each other, a place of comfort for many where people can just get things off their chest.
You can't usually get away sharing that type of stuff without a "who asked?" type comment or other forms of backlash unless you're smart and know how to write it, most people writing these things typically don't know how to do that or don't think about it at all.
In real life if you just want to say something there's almost never any backlash so they only way to learn how to write something that way is experience- which I have plenty of from making this mistake so many times.
For the past couple months ive been struggling to find a point in life, like whats the point of having good job, making lot of money etc etc etc when after we die its gonna mean nothing to us, sure lot of people say "well enjoy life while you can" but whats the point of it when its gonna mean nothing to us after we die? Everytime when i finally become happy about something or i just get into a good mood i always remember the feel of disgust in my stomach knowing its pointless...
People always told me "it gets better" but day by day it only gets worse
i'm just tired of feeling lost and cut off from the whole world every day and waking up at night with anxiety. sometimes you can be alone, but when you hardly talk to anyone for several years at some point you forget how to do this and begin to be afraid of people. i'm afraid i'll miss out on my 'best years' and spend the rest of my life and die alone. at the moment the only thing that saves me is music and i just hope that one day i'll be able to talk to people
"Music... is *MAGIC*!" --Bardiche (DD1)
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@S.O.W_musictherapythank you
Salut, je pense que tu peut lire ça avec la traduction j'espère que ça sera compréhensible je suis français, j'ai lu ton commentaire j'aimerai te dire que t'es vraiment courageux ! je n'aurais pas fais la moitié de ce que ta vécu, ce vide que tu ressent chaque jours, chaque soirée, tout le temps.. sera ta future force, ne perd pas espoir le jours viendra, toi aussi tu seras heureux comme les autre, on espère tous ici alors, ne lâche rien frérot.
Don't ever let noone take away from what makes you U
I second the comment above me. Don't be afraid of death, instead try your hardest to do your best and dream on there is no end until death
The most frightening thing is that old me is dead, but new me was not born...
I wish I had a piece of advice for you man, I went through a tough breakup, and I found someone who's brightened my day. Just do your thing, please don't give in
I’ve been struggling for half of my life with mental health and I’m exhausted.
I’m tired of running things,I’m tired of living in this constant spiral of sadness and disappointment.
I’ve reached my limit a long time ago,
The old me died on my first suicide attempt and I miss him dearly,I don’t know anymore what it means to look forward in life or how it feels to be excited anymore.
All I feel is so intense that numbs me sometimes.
The worst part is that for the past two years I had found hope and I destroyed it.
She was the light of my life and I destroyed her because I never fixed myself,my inner hatred spilled out of me and stained her forever.
She was everything that I ever asked for and always wanted,with her I felt alive again for the first time in my life in almost a decade I felt alive and hopeful that things would get better.
I still love that woman I still yearn for her touch and her company,although we are still in contact it’s becoming more scarce day by day and I can’t help but to think that soon she’ll leave for good.
I don’t blame her,I blame myself because of my own inner fears and unresolved issues I pushed her away slowly.
I’m tired of trying and I’m tired of losing,I’m tired of being a failure and killing everything I touch.
I miss the old me that brought life to things,that was happy even when a bad day occurred he still managed to find ways to be happy in the mist of all that chaos.
I’d kill to go back and time and do everything differently and change everything.
I’m on my limit and to be honest with you my dear reader,I can’t help but to think that my days are counted and I’m reaching the end of my story.
It seems like it’s closer than expected
I hope you understand I’m not looking for sympathy,I’m just tired of everything and wanted to take a bit of this weight off even if it’s on a meaningless comment on a random video on UA-cam.
I hope you do better in life than I ever did and that things work out for you,there’s still plenty that life can offer waiting for you.
I wish I could say the same for myself
Thank you for reading and goodbye
Thank you for sharing that brother. Hang in there, your old self is still in there somewhere I can promise you that.
We love you dude stay safe
can relate😢
God will never leave you my dear brother
move on, you cant change the past. let that first attempt be your last, please. try to read the bible or anything religious if it would help. you got this man, pull thru, alr?
I took a different path in life than others around me after I graduated. Spent my late teens and early 20's building a business. Pushed aside good friends in the process. Childhood friends that would once give their life for me. I am now in my late 20's and as I sit here in a house that is way too big for one person, I cant help think about all the things I have missed out on. Going out to bars with friends...Being out all night long running the city...Getting into a bit of trouble...All the people I have abandoned. I am alone now and it's no ones fault but my own. Money isn't happiness. Being alone doesn't bring happiness. Being selfish keeps happiness away. I finally realize and I want to be go back. I believe its too late.
its never too late, trust me. get in contact with old friends, i trully belueve that if they're reL, they will forgive you. real friends love you ti the moon and back, and so do you.
The world won't be better without you. The world will NEVER be better without you. We need you. Find an audience and run with it.
You’re still very young, you’re not even in your 30s and 30s is still young.
Dated a girl for 5 years. The love of my life. Life was good man. It’s been over a year since we’ve broken up and stopped all contact. I saw her the other day with her new man. Smiling, laughing, finally living her life. She looked so happy. If you truly love someone, let them know. Show them that you appreciate everything they do for you. And don’t take anything for granted. Because when it all comes crashing down, you realize what you could’ve done different. But it’s too late. Don’t let it be too late.
Show them.
I'm sorry man. They move on so easily because men are everywhere willing to date them. It's hard to move on as a man but all you need to find is one
@@valueoftruthdotorg9713from a girls perspective i can tell you that moving on was the hardest thing to go through in my life… when we really love someone no one can compare to that person no matter how rich, beautiful etc. … and that stays even after a breakup… every man just reminds me of him… so it‘s definetly not easier for a lot of us
@@julieann.6710 things like these simply...aren't about gender. it's that simple. we all experience the same emotions, maybe when different things happen, but...we all feel the same emotions. something that gives you joy may make someone mad. and what makes you mad makes someone happy. everyone at one point felt the same things. and gender doesn't change a thing about what I said before.
Hope you can reunite with your soulmate ❤
my girlfriend recently broke up with and i have been broken and hopeless ever since.. she was everything to me, she was the love of my life.. i will never have someone like her again and knowing that i have to move on from her hurts me so bad.. i can’t even go into my photo gallery and look at her pictures without crying
This music really allows you to view life from a different perspective. I wouldn’t say I suffer from manic depression, but there are definitely times when I’m down and feel like a failure, but I have to keep reminding myself that better days are ahead. Keep your heads up everyone! ✌️
Hey sweetheart. I know you might want to fall asleep and never wake up or just to not deal with anymore, and you have every reason to feel that way. But I promise, it gets better if you keep going. But that’s only going to happen if you try. I want you to know that despite us being strangers, you still are reading this. You. Specifically you. It was meant to happen. Around the age of 10 or 11 I went through depression, and I hated everything about myself. But did I give up? No. I wanted to, but I didn’t. That’s because i deserved to know what it’s like to be happy. To live my life. You deserve to. Whatever you’re going through I want you to know that if you don’t believe anyone loves you, I do. And I’m not just saying that. I hope to see you one day, smiling like you mean it. Having real friends and having great times with your family. Living the life YOU deserve. You’re so strong. You realize how far you’ve gotten? Whether you’re hanging by a thread or starting to feel bad, you will make it if you keep going, love. You know what, why don’t you tell me about yourself? I want to know all about you. What’s your favorite color? Animal? Show or movie? What do you like to do? What music do you like? Who knows, maybe we can be friends or we can be strangers furthermore, but understand that I mean every single word that I’ve said. One day, you’ll look back and realize that despite everything you went through you have been so strong the entire time. You’ll go, ‘Yeah, I went though all of that, and I’m still still standing here today.’ . I love you, my friend. I hope for you to continue your journey of life. No matter how far you fall, you have to keep going. Okay? Say it. You. Have. To. Keep. Going. Alright??? Stay strong sweetheart. I’m so proud.
i cant
thank you...
@@idontknow66664 You can love, I promise. You’re already doing so well !!
@@MrHunterCss Of course sweetheart
hey angel
If you're reading this. Know you got this. Whatever obstacles are in your way, tackle ONE problem before you even Think of touching the next one.
Like I said, You Got This. ❤
A lot of people view this as sad, but I personally feel that it’s freeing, like casting off the chains and bindings of a previous life and pushing forward towards a new and better future. These songs are this persons moment of self insight, reviewing their past and accepting that it will no longer be a part of them.
Deep and thought provoking.
"Being alone doesn't effect instantly, it kills you with the time without even realizing". yeah, most ppl says being alone is the best thing in the world because the peace, no one bother u. etc.. Listen, I have been living alone since I had 24 after my mom pass away, now I have 30 almost 31 and still alone, lately i have been feeling sad because when I want to do something, theres no one around me, all my friends migrated to other countries, I only have 2 sister but 1 migrated too and the lil one lives with her father in another state so.. its just me and my 2 cats (I love both so much). Imagine, arriving at ur home after work everyday and theres no one to talk about ur day or how u feel (its worse in day off). Imagine doing ur best trying to make friends or trying to love someone again and nothing happened because they or she doesnt have time for you. I dont know where Im going to end up but I dont want to give up because life is beautiful.
(sorry for my eng)
i hope you will get better. i dont have any other advice
So many heartbreaked people here...now I know I am not alone
For most of my life ive only knew loss. All of my blood family are either dead or dont care enough to contact me unless someone else has died. Just a few years ago i had a fresh start. New place. New people. No reminders of my past save for my friends who i still talk with. But in the past few months ive been surprised to find that i havent had any negative thoughts about myself or others. Im by no means healthy but I dont think ive ever felt better. My advice to the world is to not let something like blood ties hold you back. A family who couldnt care less about you isnt really a family at all. Theyre just people and you dont owe them anything.
Family doesnt mean blood. Family is whoever cares about you. Family doesnt hold you back. Family elevates you and wants you to be the best version of yourself. Follow your dreams. Even if you dont achieve them, at least you tried. And thats all that matters.
Your old self never truly goes away you just start looking at life from a new perspective.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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Mate those words legitimately made me cry, I wish I had such bright mind to look at things like you do, that last sentence made me realise so much about my life...
Stay strong brothers. I pray for you to go after what you want in this one life. I’m sorry I cannot be your friend in real life but I’m here pulling for all of you. Iron sharpens iron.
“So a man sharpens another.” Like how my favourite game says.
Loved my "friends" i made in the last 2 years. Lost them. All. Just wanted the best for every single person on this earth. Now im a fuckup. Will leave soon.
Live a happy life people. Do what makes you happy. Dont let anyone interfere. And if you are thinking about ending it like i do, seek help. Please. Dont do it for you. Do it for me, as i am no longer here when you read this because i wasnt strong enough. I was a quitter. Thank you for reading this and stop overthinking everything. Thank you for not taking your life.
See you someday somewhere
A unknown, unimportant stranger on the internet. ❤
Dude, please be alive. I don't know any English, so this message will be fully translated.
I've felt this many times, but I want to tell you that you are not alone and that these moments pass. Here's something that helped me. I focused on the reasons why they are worth fighting for, think about the people you love, your goals and your dreams. These are the reasons that will give you the strength to overcome, it's like collecting the tree leaves scattered on the ground, gathering them together and lying down on them. The leaves symbolize the fragments of good things that you are, that were lost and are now together again. And if the wind blows, bring them together once more. It's not easy, I know, but I believe in you.
Take care of you man, don't do a mistake your life is not ended
I hope you're okay man
that' hits me hard...
...it's this comment in particular that's really hitting me.
with the topic of suicide people tend to fling themselves towards one side or the other "don't kill yourself you have so much to live for!!! love yourself!!!!" and "killing yourself is selfish and is the easy way out. think about your friends and family who will miss you. do you really want to put them through that? you are a coward for running from your problems"....... when personally???? i think the answer is *_neither_* of those.
i'm not gonna tell you to kill yourself obviously... but i'm also not going to tell you "don't do it". which, to most people probably sounds kinda fucked up, but notice that i'm not saying EITHER of these; i'm saying "i hope you find an end to your pain." suicide shouldn't be taboo, there are so many more layers to it than "i kill myself bc i dont wanna fix myself hahaha lol
"You can travel back to the past, but no one is there anymore."
I don't think the death of my old personality is anything bad... You're learning to look at things differently
True. After all the end of one chapter is the beginning of a new chapter only. So let's read this new chapter of ours attentively as well.
The death of the old me had character had life and smiled and wore his heart on his sleeve and was great around any environment or obstacle thrown his way. The new me has ruined my life.
@@XxLukeNukemxXmaybe you can try to take your new personality as a chance to build your life in another way
@@XxLukeNukemxX you can find it again. Yes, it may look different, yes, it may never feel exactly like it used to, but it’s still there. Some glimmer, some sparkle. And maybe with this you will find some new brilliance that the old you couldn’t access, find beauty in things you’d never think to before.
Grief is natural; it makes you human. Please be kind to yourself during this time. One step at a time, and you’ll get there.
I never want old me to dead. Old me was the most happiest and taught myself to embrace the happiness but I couldn't catch his lessons. I want old me to live long more than myself.
Amen
I met this girl in my work and we started talking for a few months. Soon I started to catch feelings and I found myself slowly falling in love with her. This girl was everything, after so many years of feeling lonely and feeling like I could never have what other guys and what my friends talked about, this was a breath of fresh air. But in the end I got rejected, same like all the other times I tried. I think I have a built in defense mechanism to where I can't show my affection to what I really want to show since in the past it hasn't been reciprocated to what I wanted. I truly did like this girl, but I feel like I let I slip by, again.
We would have the best talks, we laughed, and we talked deep into conversations about ourselves and our goals and aspirations. At least she made my life a little better for a time. Now I struggle with the internal conflict of staying as just her friend, or leaving her. Because I know while she expects a real friend, I can't be that guy. The friendship wouldn't be real. Maybe in another universe, with a different me.
Let me give you advice, that helped me once: don’t look for love. intentionally. she will find you herself. the true love.
She knows you like her but keeps asking to hangout in the evenings after work?
Be lucky your single some of us out here straight married & in love with another chick lol
@@MrHunterCss i dont even love myself anymore how could anyone else love me ?
Never give up, i spent the last 4 years miserable, my job made me feel useless, the woman who i gave my heart to threw it away after 5 years together, i was failing all my classes because i just couldn't focus on anything anymore. Recently, has been different, I have something that i didn't think i would have again. I have hope, I have feelings aren't just depression. I feel alive for the first time in years. I still carry the same pain with me, but it doesn't define who I am anymore. You won't be sad forever, even if you feel like you will be. You'll come out of this better than you did when you started. You just have to weather the storm a little longer, the sun is just above the clouds if you look hard enough within yourself.
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."
Успехов, брат
I don't know who needs to hear this but keep going. You may think you are going very badly or you are waiting for the right moment but you are perfectly on time my friend. Dont let your mind control you as you are a strong person. If noone has said this to you im happy for what you have achived so far and i know in the future you will be even better. Dont lose hope because of something bad happened to you. Pray to God and you will be saved because he will always listen and never abandon you. I know you can do it. You got this.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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You can easy to say like this but…..
Thank you, I always keep my rosary by the side of my bed constantly. I hope you find peace
@@kynowitch It's not easy to say. It's easy to ignore.
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É adorável os comentários que oscilam entre ajuda entre os que comentam e as reflexoes e tristezas sobre o passado ou a atual vida. No Brasil existe um ditado que diz: "tudo fica bem no final, se ainda não está bem é porque não é o final". Se mantenham sóbrios e sejam tanque de guerra em cima dos problemas, existe uma imensa força interna em forma de reserva de energia que você desconhece, faça suas caminhadas sóbrias, vá a terapia, se apegue a algo espiritual e busque refúgio na arte, a arte salva.
Isso ae mesmo mlk
We all are sad
We all are lost at the fog of life
Now on ,Our body wants deep- rest aside from us
we all are evil , demons , beast in our inner - self
We all wanted to be better
We all wanted to thrive in the deep dark end
We all wanted to be the best version of ourselves
We all wanted to cross the damn limit that we created
We all wanted to stand beneath the surface and beyond the limit .
But at the end it is whom who we all are .
It's crazy how people define happiness like they always say be nice and never expect anything in return but it never works ,i just find myself last and walked over i slowly found myself changing and now i became literally emotionless at only 18 but im happy now i think. thanks to these meaningful songs
All that matters is how you end--how you finish.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." --A.B. (DD1)
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You can’t expect others to be kind to you when you are kind to them. Often in this world people will trick others into false friendship/relationship with false kindness. It is a classic manipulation trick. The day you learn to be kind despite being kicked in the mouth for it, you will feel who you are return. Spread kindness and empathy despite the suffering in and around you, then one day you will be surprised at how little it even affects you anymore because you have overcome it.
Всегда думала о том, что умерла ещё в 2019 году. И тут нашла этот плейлист с говорящим названием. Так странно ощущать, что с каждым годом ты все больше перестаёшь быть похожим на старого себя, становишься совершенно чужим человеком для самого себя. Ещё каких-то пять лет жизнь кардинально отличалась от моей нынешней: друзья, место жительства, семья и ежегодные поездки летом к бабушке. Я помню это, но это было так давно, что кажется, будто ничего и не было. Будто снился какой-то долгий сон с интересным сюжетом, а по итогу ты просыпаешься разбитым с мыслью "я снова чертовски устал и не выспался"
как же я тебя понимаю😢
we might all be lonely.. but we're lonely together
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Hey, y'all, in the comments, it gets better. I spent most of my life feeling the same way. At the lowest of the low, I was struck in the face with destiny, and things started to get better as I finally had something worth living for and working for. If you'd asked me a month before it happening, I'd have told you fate and destiny were made up things to comfort us in the dark.
Still, I struggle, but it's so different now. I feel like I'm fighting forward for something bigger than myself, helping others in a way I never even though would exist. It's not great every day, and the challenges never stop coming, but it's so different now. Here's to all of you. I hope and pray destiny finds each and every one of you and does what it's done to me.
THIS TYPE OF MUSIC MAKES MY BODY UNCONTROLED AND LIQUID...CAN'T TALK - CAN'T MOVE - CAN'T BREATHE...MAKES MY HEART FEEL LIKE IT REALLY BROKEN
Young me is dead. The happy carefree boy & man who loved life!! Im old now & weighed down with life's worries & poor health. Where did the time go & those lovely sunny days.
yeah bro, yeah..
Thats the thing they dont tell you about getting older. the goodness in life doesnt leave, you just have to work to make it, and choose to not be blind to it. You didnt wake up and have to go to work, you GOT to. Every day you wake up alive is a small victory, usually followed by 100 others that same day.
Choose to thank God for the opportunity you have today to share a laugh, hug your mom or even remember somebody who's gone. Even the sad shits a blessing
Ultimate gym music playlist
I’d fall asleep
work for minimum wage. Met a beautiful girl, she was only on vacation. We hit it off anyway, and became long distance as she went to uni, and I helped pay, as she both studied and worked. We talked every morning for 3 years. I started learning Spanish for her, until one day I translated what her 'Coworker' and her were saying on the phone in Spanish together...
Now I'm 25, broke, alone, and worried I'm fast approaching the 'Don't play me, I'm old and broken' territory.
"Maybe for you, there's a tomorrow. Maybe for you, there's one thousand tomorrows, or three thousand, or ten, so much time you can bathe in it, roll around it, let it slide like coins through you fingers. So much time you can waste it. But for some of us, there's only today. And the truth is, you never really know."
My bro you cant be making these comments when you’re channel is full of skibidi toilet 😭😭💀💀
@@cyphoah8748it is a botted comment
I cant even give up , even though I want to end it so badly , that bit of hope we humans have , really does hurt.
Its like even when im void of emotions , my body is just set to autopilot , there's no stopping , because we have souls , a heart with a speck of light that just keep pushing. I won't stop yet.
It's never too late to start again, you're appreciated!.
Old me never left, but the life I used to live has long since passed.
I'm a lot smarter than I used to be, matured and learned from my mistakes and kept moving. I pulled myself out of a sinister imposter syndrome, and reminded myself why I could never hate myself.
In the end you will only have yourself, feel the good company you bring to others, and suddenly the reflection in your mirror becomes easier to look at.
I'm still only 15 years old, but since I was 12 I've been having a lot of existential crises and having a lot of negative thoughts about my life, rethinking my religion and existence over and over, making me very paranoid about anything involving death. Now I'm a little Better to try to forget all these thoughts as much as possible.
As someone who has been suffering from these bad thoughts, I have one thing to say to those who feel the same way: You are not alone, even if you lost your parents, your family, it still doesn't mean you have no one. Even if you feel like a failure Try to keep moving forward, everyone has their time to shine, I haven't had mine yet, but I know everyone will have it no matter how long it takes.
Stay safe, and don't overthink about useless things. :)
She was the love of my life. I don't think I'll ever be the same. I don't even know if I have the energy to wish her happiness, wherever she is now
Сейчас мне 15 лет, а у меня уже ощущение, что я проиграла свою жизнь. Я не могу определиться с профессией, и это давит на меня. Я боюсь ошибиться и жить всю жизнь несчастно, потому что кроме работы у меня ничего не будет, ведь я не люблю общаться с людьми. Да, знаю, это мой возраст, но это чувство меня не отпускает. Время летит слишком быстро, мне просто кажется что я упускаю половину своей жизни. Просто хочу сказать, всем кто сейчас переживает и нервничает, не переживайте, сейчас вам трудно, но это пройдёт, не сейчас, но обязательно... Всем удачи 🤞❤️
I migrated to another country at a young age and that changed not just my life but my entire personality; the cheerful outgoing kid that I was turned into a reserved and quiet person. I'm almost 26 now, working a job I hate at times. I have to interact with lots of people throughout the day and that drain my mental immensely. I do not have a goal in life, nothing to look forward to achieve, nor a fantasy to live up to. As much as I want to express my emotions at time, I really can't. Old me is dead, change killed it. It was a good change in the long run, I am grateful that it happened, but the cost was far to impactful for old me, and now future me is paying its toll.
The change you went through might have been a test from God. Don't give up just because of your loss, but rather learn to cherish it.
Im in a very complicated situation right now, i failed my school, i failed my life, theirs no one out their willing to support me, even when I give the effort to change, they always dismiss me, every small mistake i make is always met with hostility, the only person that can comfort me is my self, im in a new state of low rn, I've never felt this miserable in my life ever, ive already attempted offing my self 4× now and tbh it wasn't fun, Because all never succeeded, no one knows about it though, im scared to tell what im going through, i have no comfort no love no compassion, im always in this passive aggressive relationship it sucks. They make me feel guilty for everything that I've done whether if it was small or big, i feel like im the problem, i might be. Today I'm going to end this misery, today all of the suffering will end, no more worries no more hurt, im seriously done with it all, i can't escape i can't breathe im so confused, even god can't save me from these depths no one can, not even the people around me. It was a short existence but i was happy to experience what life had to offer, i might have had it easy than most people, but everyone has their individual struggles, but sometimes too much is too much, and it could leave those stories into tragedy. Im to tired to stand, im too tired to fight, i surrender, and now i have made the choice to leave everything behind, im done im really done, thank you.
haven't amounted to anything since i got out of school 4y ago other than small shit jobs just to not be dead broke, not getting as much as a drop of joy from any one of the hobbies i used to love.
no more passion, no more life in me at all. starting to think my own soul has left me for a while now...
everyone used to tell me i was gifted.. life wasn't supposed to be like this.
*The old me is dead and I'm what's left.*
What I would do to go back to that January night ten years ago this day, where I ran to the high school basketball court and just shot around for hours and then after sat in center court and looked up at the moon. Crazy that back then I was terrified of the future, not knowing what the future holds but sitting here now thinking about all the times you should have turned right instead of left. Wish I could go back to that walk back home and seeing the sunrise, something that day changed and I thank myself everyday for it. To anyone who is going through anything, please just keep walking. If I would have ended my life that night I wouldn’t have met the love of my life a couple months later.
No family, no friends, no girlfriend. Just another day alone in my room expecting that death choose myself.
Young me was a bright yet clueless boy. Trying his best in everything while he was stuck within a ruthless system. He did all he could to protect the people he loved. And he was violently silenced by the system he was born in.
I still see his body sometimes, just in the corner of my eye. We both rot in our own ways.
I was never meant to have a happy ending.
But I can help others get to theirs, and I’ll keep trying
Ich möchte einfach frei sein von allen Fesseln dieses Lebens, ich möchte frei sein wie ein Kind
To whoever sees this, for weeks i spent my days being depressed after a long relationship for a kid my age i was heart broken. I wish i had someone to tell me this but you need to get up and fight. Prove everyone wrong, your stronger than this, you aren’t just a person that exist, your you. Whether your a guy or girl, you are you and thats what makes you special. Tell someone your not okay, one day your gonna need someone to tell you its okay. Don’t let your depression stop you, be stronger than they thought you were, If your gonna run away or you already are running from it, turn around and run towards it faster than you’ve ever run before and face it head on. Get up and stop letting a stupid pixel on a dang brick ruin your life, don’t let that guy or girl push you down, just get up and put your dang hands up and fight back. from- random stranger that suffered too
Спасибо за мотивацию
Recently connected with an old friend. We hadn't spoken in almost 2 years. I didn't know how much I missed her until she was back in my life. We talk for hours every single day now. Today we were on call for 13 hours, from the early hours of the morning into the evening of the same day. Cutting her out of my life was one of the biggest mistakes I have ever made and every day I regretted my decision, but felt like I couldn't walk it back. She gets me in a way I could never explain.
My other friends don't like her, or feel like she is taking up too much of my time. Is it so wrong to finally find someone who makes you feel happy instead of feeling sad all the time? She makes me want to be a better person.
The old me is long dead. I'm ready to change again. I think I deserve happiness.
Did i just find a youtube checkpoint? Anyways, i just wanted to say I am proud of you all for coming this far into life, and even when it seems to be not worth living for, trust me, it is. I spent roughly half of my life (im 21) with severe depression, only got out of it within the past year.... Life does and will get better. If you never had a loving guardian to tell you they love you or are proud of you, I'm proud of you and love you. Your progress is amazing. Never give up, and strive to become the best version of yourself. Even if nothings going on now, there will be things. Push yourself into the right path despite the risks. Your life will guide you. All the best.
i lost all my friends, my girlfriend, and i'm unsure what to do, than to listen and try to forget about it all.
I'm still a child, but I've lost my innocence. God, do I want it back, man...
same, it makes me feel so bad knowing I've ruined my childhood.
yeah i ruined my innocence when i was a child back in 2012 thats when i got on the internet
Wdym lost your innocence
You can still repent, beg jesus christ for forgivness in a Church, remember than more sinnery you do than more the cross weights...
You are a victim of today's society don't give into the brain rot and poison that is pornography, it will have negative consequences that you may not know of now but years later if you become addicted you will. Guard your mind, be conscious of what you watch, and have good discernment of your own. There is so much propaganda happening today in society, guard your mind from bad influences.
being lonely is a blessing yet a curse
I'm not depressed, but I'm starting to feel the time pass.
Fr. It’s scary. Looking at snap memories. Time is going too fast….
I'm so tired of putting so much effort into things that just fail and I haven't been happy in years I'm tired of everything
real.
God is coming soon brother have faith put your worries and stress into him let him take your pain and when the time comes just as it says in the Bible Romans 8:18 The pain that you have been feeling can't be compared to the joy that is coming!
I don't feel like I'm drowning anymore, I feel like I'm already drowned, there's so many people around, but actually no one to talk to.
this hits so beautifully in a walk.
" I wait see you again " bro this hurt...
Это был ужасный 2023 год, но жизнь действительно становится лучше, со временем, все будет, но не сразу. Life gets better ❤
that picture is real deal for forever loneliness
Everyday just keeps getting harder and harder. Everything’s feels like it’s falling apart and I feel so alone. People keep saying it’ll get better but I don’t think it ever will. More and more I’m miserable, more and more I lose myself in everything. I’m scared I won’t make it in this world.
I know I'll sound like everyone else but i promise you it will get better. Sometimes what you need is something to push you to succeed and trust me you will
It won't get better if you just dwell on it forever though
The old me is dead, a new flower blooms over the ashes of what was
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Since i read like 6 stories i just cannot resist it. This music just drowned me in memories, and i think it started when i was 9 years old.. for sure 11-12 those two years changed me i lost my smile that day what happend was bad.. really bad. But i think i finally got to the point where i can see how my negativity And sadness puts weight on those around me, my family, my friends.. evryone. I need to change i need to grow up i know it, but no one was there only me And its hard... really hard i dont think i can make it anymore. But i wont let my family question So much to those who knew and didnt stay also, life Is hard dont make it yourself harder, im scared im really scared of life. Just for once in my life i will ask for help and Its to you. Just pray for me, thank you.J
i'm a guy from brazil, and give you somme good energys, everyone have bad times, bad vibes, a bad day is not a bad life, a bad week is not a bad life, a bad friend, is not a bad life, and in your case a bad memory is not a bad life boe. Listen, billionaires really want your life now, they would pay billions to change their life with you, make the difference, have a nice day.
Never be too hard on yourself, for a change you need to appreciate the positive aspects of yourself and life. Sometimes they aren't noticed until you lose those too. Love from Italy 🇮🇹
Shut down the schools
Alright listen,
If you’re always alone, you need to embrace the loneliness.
It makes you better and can help you self reflect.
In a strange way, you’re not really alone when others are just as lonely as you and you just don’t know it, but there are a lot of people that are in the same situation as you and are fighting to be better.
Stay strong and push yourself to be stronger, bolder, smarter, and more at peace, but not for anyone other than yourself.
If you agree, hit this button and show others that they are not really alone.
👇🏻
And the sad part is that I don't even miss the old me.
V.7.3 of Drakonia died today 3:13A.M. Time of death. a nice guy with good morals, I lay him here with this fitting music. As he did I contemplate what it is I did wrong in life this time. Tried hard at my job, ended up on E.I.. Tried and failed over and over again to find a single living person who cares for this lump of meat who would do anything for that significant other. Gone to counciling, rehab, church, and became a better person after so much had already gone wrong before and still….still life throws this man to the dirt so he can wallow in self dispair once again. For now may this man roam the earth as the empty husk he’s been for far too long.
(For those worried this is not a cry for help I’m not suicidal, I’m simply done trying, done being alone and done caring for a world with people who give so little a shit about the guy who’s gone his whole life caring just a little too much)
i went from being a high school dropout to rich asf in 6 years. old me can stay gone; forever grateful.
I'm not an adult, I'm not a good son, I was never a good grandson, I wasn't a good boyfriend, I'm not a good student, I'm not a good friend and... I'm not a good human. After my Dad told me he can't buy me the things I want because he doesn't have that kind of money even though he loves me so much more than I could ever love him, after my Mom told me she can't do anything good for anyone and that she's not a good mother to me, I can never be the same. I will stand up, I will push forward to my limits, I will get a great job, I will not stop until my heart gives up on me, I will give my Dad all the freedom he could never get, I will give my Mom all the love she ever needed and I will be a better human than I am now. Remember this, God, you never helped me. I will rise by myself even if I have to walk without you, not by any devilish way but, by my way. I will dash forward anyone who hinders my way. I won't be humiliated, stopped, ridiculed upon, laughed at, mocked, bullied or be told that someone is disappointed by me. Never. Not anymore.
get a therapist
You need to seek help
@@CatsHaveCamerasInTheirEyes I won't need help. I myself am enough for this. This ain't shit u know... People out there are in way worse situations than I am.
I'm not really sure why everyone's first conclusion was therapist, but ok.
That being said however, accepting you have it much better than others is a good thing, but at the same time don't deny yourself of feeling bad.
Others have it worse, of course, but that doesn't mean you suddenly lose the privilege to feel upset or even pity yourself when you're feeling really low.
As long as you can look past that and continue striving to be a better person, without suppressing any negative emotions, then you're on the right path.
Also, if your main goal is to just better yourself, then you really can't be that bad of a human. Not the best, certainly not the worst either.
I wish you the best of luck, regardless of who you turn out to be.
@@DoseOfRandom137 Mm hmm.
i see this as a positive thing, the music feels almost bittersweet at points. to those scrolling the comments to find others who are feeling the same pain you might feel, take a second to breath. you're alive, the "old me is dead" for you to live. for me, i wasn't the best person- inside at least. things ive thought, and things i did only revealed to me through some book were horrible- but whatever wrote those pages died. whatever you might miss- whatever YOU there was, you now will persevere. you're here, right? shit's hard, life is tough and all the things heard a thousand times before but you got this. listen again to the songs, can't you hear the hope? hold it. hold it for as long as you can. you got this :)
despite everything. yes...despite everything, i'm still me. the mind may forget but the heart remembers. to be human is to leave a trace. to be human is to be remembered.
I miss the comfort in being sad.
I hate not feeling anything but unmotivated. Something always feels like it's missing
old but gold.
Why does finding love feel like you’re lost and not knowing you’ll find her, especially in nowadays where people are so untrustworthy and un loyal. I just hope whoever I will be with that God protects her from this corrupt world we live in