I left a note once… I had a place where I wanted to do it, I didn’t want my mother or sister to find me after so I planned to do it outside of the house. On the note I told them that I love them, don’t blame yourself, thanks for loving me, and where the police could retrieve me when it was all said and done. Fortunately not long after I finished the note my mother got home from work. I quickly grabbed the note ran to my room ripped it up and threw it in my bin. This was 6 years ago and I never told anyone about it. (I’m 18 btw)
My online friend committed suicide this year. I wish I was dead in his place and I really miss him. I have been struggling with suicidal thoughts for a while, so this is comforting. Thank you.
I'm crying... I'll cherish this audio in my heart. For the last 8 months I had been bullied and humiliated by someone that was my life light at that moment... and it hurt so much that at times I felt like going completely dark... Thank you for this audio and for all of your audios Sarah, they are a safe refugee ❤ Edit: I really hope this video wasn't too difficult to make, I'm sorry
I am so sorry, that this is happening to you. Please know you are not alone. I actually went through the exact same thing some years ago and it breaks my heart, that things like this still happen. Just know, that it eventually gets better and if you need to talk, I am here.
I’m so so sorry..Getting hurt by someone close to you is incredibly hurtfull. You deserve better and I know it might not feel like that now but you’re much better of without someone that treats you like that. I’m happy the audio could help in anyway at all. I think this is a topic that needs to be talked about ❤️🫂
@@YourgirlfriendASMR That is true. I felt so alone, when it happened, like the whole world was suddenly turning their back against me. But I quickly realized, that I might have lost them, but due to that I found new people later and eventually the person even apologized to me and explained why they did it back then. That finally provided some closure.
This came at such a perfect time, i really needed it today. Thank you, Sarah - this was so beautifully done. I hope you realise how many lives you will save through this audio alone 🫶🏼🤍
I’m thinking about writing notes. I don’t have an actual plan to die I just want it to end and it just feels so relieving to know of this way out and stuff and thank you for this, it finally made me cry after so long of feeling the need to cry but not being able to. I’m glad I found this. Thank you. It gives me comfort I won’t have irl
Thank you Sarah, and I'm sorry that you know how it feels. I'm so glad you're here for us, but specially that you're here for you ❤. How I wish this was real, how I wish I had someone like this, how I wish there was just one person that would dare ask me if it's true that I don't want to be here anymore. Because I really, really don't.
I noticed, this was posted when i realized my significant other admitted she had lost interest. 2 weeks later things broke off. Thank you for an audio like this. Facing withdrawals from a weed addiction and this is really hitting me in the feels. Thank you, you are appreciated.
I needed this so badly, even just the sound of someone pretending like they care about me. I came here on my 15 minute break at work and am breaking down completely in my office. I've been listening to a horror podcast while working, and the episode I started had mentions of suicide and a note at the beginning from one of the people who works in prevention and when they emphasized *listening*, I started hyperventilating realizing I haven't had anyone in my life who would. I'll be 30 in October, and I am isolated. Men don't talk about our problems with other men, and when we do, 9 times out of 10 the suggestion is just to get drinks. I'm terrified to open up to any women I know about it because I've been sneered at for being weak and have had it used against me before, too. I can't seem to make any new connections. I am just... So alone. And even just someone acting like they care, pretending to listen and that they want me around... It's got a fully-grown man covered in tattoos and piercings who hauls furniture around at a nonprofit for his 2nd job breaking down entirely. Something is wrong, in our society. I don't understand why everyone is so hostile to anyone they don't already know all the time. But god, I wish I could actually reach out. I wish.
You can tell how hard this was for her to make, either that or she’s amazing acting, actually no will be both. Even tho suicide isn’t the thing I have thoughts about. This is so wonderful to listen to, hearing someone helping and caring, you can really feel the emotions. Knowing me I’ll listen to this to help get my constant sad emotions out of me. Hope this audio helps for those who have thought about suicide, and that you get the help you deserve. Beautiful job as always. ❤️🩹
I just found this. My partner of 5 years (and best friend of 14) separated from me asking for no contact and space last summer, as of this Christmas she was found in her apartment having overdosed. I don’t know anything else because her parents hated me, I will never know what was on her note, or where she was finally laid to rest because she had just been taken away to wherever they saw fit. I had a ring, and I had planned to propose on Christmas, if she hadn’t have withdrawn. I partly blame myself I think. I kept bothering her. She asked for space and I was to selfish and worried about her to just trust her. So she had decided to start ignoring me. I won’t ever get to know why she didn’t want to tell me anything. Or why she chose to push me away so harshly. I’m not even sure if there is anything I could have done. I’m not sure what posting this accomplishes. Maybe just, a word of advice then, not everyone wants or is willing to accept help, even if you feel like they have no reason for refusing it. Don’t let that eat you up like it has me.
This was so emotionally raw and beautiful, thank you for so much for this Sarah, and as someone else who has said that prayer countless times, I'm so grateful that you're here, helping to bring colour back into peoples lives. ❤❤
When this ASMR showed up on my feed I kinda prepared myself for a journey. You are so articulate and have such a calming demenor. Please keep up the amazing work you deserve a huge following for all the hard work you put in this and all your videos.
Thank you Sarah. I just found this video during a very trying time, and this has for the time being put me off from writing notes. Thank you for being the only person successful in bringing an iota of comfort, and even the slightest shade of grey to the blackness
Attempted back in February, I was with 2 friend and did it as they watched. They leave me alone about it and don’t bring it up unless I do as it makes me uncomfortable. But they make sure I know they’re there for me. I had previously struggled a bit with sh but I’ve been clean since April which them and I are proud of. I have had thoughts of committing and have come close to relapsing. And this very morning, I almost attempted again, but stopped myself. Im currently not doing okay, but pushing through.
This video make me cry (but a good cry), i really want to have a gf like this (i'm alone 😢) who support me all time. I have depression for a year, i tried 3 or 4 times to do the worst act. I can't sleep without asmr since i've depression. Thank you to always do your asmr❤
As someone who has survived 3 self attempts on my own life and helped prevent 2 attempts others tried to make on theirs, thank you for this. I found myself in both listener and speaker.
100 reasons to keep living 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get a tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you as you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open-mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek) 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping on clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains. 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64. Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theatre. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. a feeling of being loved 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realising that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you love. 75. Spending the whole day in bed. 76. Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream. 77. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky. 78. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.) 79. Bonfires and smokes. 80. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them. 81. Coming home to someone you love. 82. The color of autumn leaves when they change. Summer. 83. Sing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends. 84. Cuddling. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Someone’s skin against yours. 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on New-Year Morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look at this moment in 10 years' time and realize you did it. PS: there are so many beautiful things to live. so live, and live, and live In my opinion I think the cure of loneliness mental health disorders is to find spirituality within yourself, and faith in God to help you during dark times. Advice I can give is don't go a day without a prayer or meditation to remind yourself to keep hope in life and that as long as god is with you, you're never truly alone. Also stand back and take time for seeing a view of natural sites like the forest or stars to remind you that if any negative thoughts arrive, take a look at the beautiful planet you would be leaving ❤❤
This audios are fine to be honest but i think that we as people should aim for healing the pain from the root, instead of just anesthesia. i felt lonely almost my whole life, also very depressed in many moments and i can say for sure that i found the most loving person ever in my life is jesus christ, and i dont ask you to become a debote christian, and go to church everyday, or anything. but if you want advice in this topic, my advice is really to just, Put your faith in christ, and persue a relationship with him. jesus loves you brother ✝ May god bless you
Idk why but I felt the need to share a story. My uncle committed the summer of my freshman year of high school, going into sophomore year. I just remember sitting at my desk playing games and hearing the news, I was never the same person again. It’s been years and yet I still think about it all the time. I’ve even had thoughts of suicide myself, and luckily things like this and my friends really talked me out of it. I’m glad I never went through with it. I’ve had really low moments in my life, but this was the lowest low ever, and it hurt….still hurts to this day. This video definitely helps relieve some of that pain, and puts me in a better mindset. Thank you for this
I felt her sadness, and her love. Knowing that I have more people like her in my life is why I haven't taken action on my thoughts. I don't know wgat I can say about myself, but I can say so much about them.
I'm in a really dysfunctional family, and I'm also trans, this is something I really struggle with, specially on bad dysphoria days. Knowing we all fight the same monster makes me feel less alone. Everyone out there you are so damn strong and brave! Thank you for making this kind of comfort, it made me feel warm inside. Something I once read and want to share: "No matter how rainy it is, one day you'll be able to see a rainbow in the middle of the storm" 🌈
I had a good day today, something I don't have often. I wasn't sure if it would be smart to listen to this, but I'm glad I did. My good day got better and perhaps tomorrow won't be worse.
First time I was 11, I’m 22 now. If there’s one thing that came out of my failures it’s that death became a friend, my oldest and possibly closest. Always there lurking in the corner. But he doesn’t scare me, always just out of view and on the day he comes back into sight, I will treat him as old friends treat one another. My dog, loved ones, all with my friend just out of sight but never out of mind.
Perfect timing! Wow! Thank you so much! I’ll continue listening to this, right now 😊 It’s definitely what I need, right now. Despite me, and many others, feeling grateful, remember to take care of yourself as well 😊 Remember that your health, matters too:) Sorry, I don’t mean to lecture you, I just want to remind you 😊
I been through a lot, and I usually don’t let my more vulnerable side show, but sometimes I just break. Bless you for making this. You’ll never how much it helps people like me.
Thank you for making this. I think about that constantly but i cant act upon those thoughts for different reasosn Slit wrists: Im too weak to even cut myself Noose(idk how to spell it): i cant buy rope and im not good at tying knots Toaster bath: no plug near a tub Jump: i dont wanna make a scene I just feel trapped not having a choice to just leave and this helps a bit thank you so much
Sarah, if possible, can you pin this important comment so it reaches out to everyone ❤? 100 reasons to keep living 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get a tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you as you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open-mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek) 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping on clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains. 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64. Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theatre. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. a feeling of being loved 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realising that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you love. 75. Spending the whole day in bed. 76. Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream. 77. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky. 78. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.) 79. Bonfires and smokes. 80. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them. 81. Coming home to someone you love. 82. The color of autumn leaves when they change. Summer. 83. Sing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends. 84. Cuddling. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Someone’s skin against yours. 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on New-Year Morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look at this moment in 10 years' time and realize you did it. PS: there are so many beautiful things to live. so live, and live, and live In my opinion I think the cure of loneliness mental health disorders is to find spirituality within yourself, and faith in God to help you during dark times. Advice I can give is don't go a day without a prayer or meditation to remind yourself to keep hope in life and that as long as god is with you, you're never truly alone. Also stand back and take time for seeing a view of natural sites like the forest or stars to remind you that if any negative thoughts arrive, take a look at the beautiful planet you would be leaving ❤❤
My friend Khel McKegan sadly took her own life four years ago on Valentine's Day. Everyday since then I have been overwhelmed with guilt and shame that I didn't see the signs and had done something to prevent it. She was so beautiful. She was such a tender, innocent soul. Her family accepted her. Her friends accepted her and yet she was always afraid so timid so soft-spoken. I miss her terribly every day. She was such an inspiration for me to finally come out as transgender female. I Will never get a chance to thank her and tell her how much she meant to so many people. What must have sheep been going through? That was so horrible. That she took her life in desperation to escape from the pain and torment she must have felt. That comes to my mind is when she took her life and she got past that point of no return. Did she regret it? Did she panic and die in total fear? I miss you Khel and I will love you forever. 🥺😢😭❤️❤️❤️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️💕💕💕
I struggle with suicidal thoughts a lot, a lot of my friends and the family I have left don't really understand how bad it is. I wish I had someone who could say this to me irl. maybe one day I will but this helps a bit in the meantime.
@@eranodelpum9752 it's not even that, it's just this feeling of isolation. wishing that there was someone I could talk to who wouldn't call me weak or invalidate me. It hurts and it just makes everything feels worse, like no one really cares.
I don't know why I'm typing this, but I genuinely don't think I deserve to be loved or be happy. I don't think just because I exist or I'm human that I deserve any of these things. I don't deserve these things because I haven't earned them. I haven't healed from my trauma, I haven't tried to do better, i haven't even given myself a chance. I don't know what warents me to deserve anything really cause I'm not special. I think that I'm just a burden who has stopped chasing anything for myself. So can anyone please explain to me why I deserve happiness and to be loved?
Hey, Sarah. All these stories in the comments inspired me to share mine. I hope you don't mind another story to read. About six years ago, I tried committing suicide, too. I was just unhappy with life in general, and I wanted it to end. But, I never went through with it. When I first brought that knife to my arm, I had a moment of clarity, and thought of all the people that would miss me if I was gone, and I realised I couldn't go through with it. So, I put that knife away, and I talked to some people that made me feel better. Not a therapist, because I didn't have, and still don't have, the money for one, but some friends, and my family. Unfortunately, I still get urges sometimes, but they're less frequent now. I'm sorry for the story, because I know how many you get, but I really wanted to share it.
I feel like ending my life everyday. I feel like I will never find love. I feel like I would never find any love. I feel like the world's against me every day telling me to die. My family doesn't care. No one cares. I have no friends, no love. My dog died last year and I'm still grieving. I just can't take this life anymore. It's horrible. I'm weird. I'm ugly. I'm too short and I don't sound right. I hate the way I talk. I hate the way I look. I can't even look in the mirror without saying eww That's how I feel about myself. I really don't feel like there's no purpose anymore. I reached out to help. They all think I'm seeking attention. That's what they all always think. I've been trying to get help for years doors slammed in my face and no one cares. Everyone thinks I'm seeking attention. All I want is help but I can't because I get doors slammed in my face and they all keep saying I'm seeking attention like there's no point. I feel like I'm a failure. I am a failure. I failed everyone. I failed god. I'm a failure in a horrible worthless bug under the rug
I have been so lonely this whole year, I am so tired. This audio feels good but wrong at the same time, because noone will say this kind of things to me... Seriously, ending it all... Soon
!!TW!! My best friend commited a while back she was so kind loving and gentle literal incarnation of perfection and i was too stupid too slow too young to realise that she was hurting and i found a note in a gift she gave me and it was too late by the time i got there i found her on the ceiling it broke me and to be honest i still havent recovered from it even 7 years later im a dude and i allmost cry to the thought of it and i tried to take my own life shortly after 2 times and both of them failed even though its just some either really shitty luck or a blessing i like to think she stopped it yeah ik its goofy but it helps me so yk anyway sorry for the vent
There's something really comforting about the idea of sleeping all alone in your house and then being gently roused by your benevolent gf coming over to check on you.
My girlfriend Lillith commited on March 22nd, 2022. I still remember her last message to me. She said she'd never abandon me. I still blame myself alot. I miss her every day. Im in a new relationship now, but i still think about her alot.
Ive tried to harm myself before i backed down because i couldnt do that to my family they are the only thing keeping me going even when i want to give up i just think about my mom having to find me like that but the pain is still there i just feel numb things that made me happy dont anymore im just trying my hardest to survive day after day like im just stuck in a loop and nothing will break it
I wish this video pertained to me. But I wasn't meant to be put into this world. Everything is too exhausting, pills don't work, therapy doesn't work. Everyone has given up on me. There is nothing to look forward to in this world. I'm already dead anyway as everyone has forgotten my existence.
Listen mate, I’m gonna tell you this from my own perspective and beliefs. You were brought into this world for a reason, your parents dreamed to have you as their child. Your family do love you and your mother and father are the ones that love you more than anyone else does. If you took your own life, you would cause a lot of upset towards your friends and family because then they would be carrying the burden for the rest of their lives knowing that they could have helped you through your tough times. Stay strong, find faith because their is something higher than us humans. Finding faith in religion is the best therapy for you. From my personal thoughts that I wish I never existed and that my friends and family don’t care about me was all crushed when I put my faith in Allah (Islamic god). I hope I have somewhat provided a sense of hope stability for you.
My friend killed herself a few years ago. I woke up and saw her texts telling me it wasn't my fault. I was in a much worse place after it happened and tried committing myself last year. I'm feeling better than before but I'm still on and off suicidal and i feel like I'm just drifting in an empty sea right now with nothing in sight. I feel so isolated from the rest of the world and i don't want to change that because i hate getting closer to people cause ill just end up getting attached again and the loneliness is eating me up inside. I feel selfish saying i wish she was still here just so i could talk to someone again
I was not prepared for the sentence "did you take anything?". I don't have anywhere I feel like I can talk or vent about all the pain. so I'm just going to write it here. I just took some tablets, shouldn't be a deadly dose, but I don't know if I'm going to keep taking until it is. I am really scared, I wish I had someone I could trust, talk to, or get any type of emotional support from. I'm really afraid of dying, afraid of pain, but I can't see any other way out. if anyone reads this, don't worry, I'm probably going to live, I have been failing all my attempts since I was 7 after all.
Someone found my note, without telling me they asked me how I was doing. Naturally I lied to them, and they didn't leave me alone for 3 days. They told my on the 2nd day about the note. Istg if real life had a cutscene it was that moment.
I was at an archery tourney a few days ago and showing my friends how I shoot and one of them noticed my cuts and asked what those were. I made up some excuse on how I cut myself on accident and went on with my day. Kind of just interesting because no one had noticed beforehand so yea cool ig 👍
Hearing this having someone to help you while your suicidal it must be a great feeling. But for me I've never had anyone to have while I'm depressed or suicidal all I've had is have people tell me to kill myself. But apart from that this a very good audio.
TW: my story I was 15, being bullied online and in my family. I was also being groomed for a romantic and sexual relationship by a family friend, and a "friend" i tried to have a relationship with began to send me videos of people drinking bleach, and pressured me to think about it, he hated me and i was so tired of living, i had no one to talk to. I did not write a note, but i did almost drink bleach, the only thing that stopped me was a little voice telling me id have something to live for, if i waited a few months. I did. I met a girl. Finally had someone to talk to, until 5 years passed and her family was stuck in tragedy. She had an awful year, so did I, we split and my year got worse and worse, but i managed to get thru it with faith and personal work. Eventually I got COVID, and i nearly offed myself, I had to bind my hands together, had a song on loop for 6 hours straight (1800 by logic), and had my dad on the phone all day. My mind was nothing but panic and pain. bought momentos for it and everything to remember what I've gone through, and where i am now. It gets better, things ebb and flow like the ocean water, sometimes the waves are tidal, sometimes they only just lap at the shore, but we won't know the beauty of making it through the waves if we don't try to stick it out. Thank you for this video Sarah, if that story was true you told, I hope you are very blessed and loved in this world. Thank you for what you do, you're great. Sincerely, an anxious nurse lol.
When i was 10, I really wanted to kill myself beacuse i had anger problems, but i didnt dear to. I knew that the world would be better, but i didnt dear. Wish i had someone like you when i was 10❤you make the world a better place, mine too. And after all this years, when i get the problems back, i can force myself to punch or scream all alone, and im so greatfull that your voice can always be there when no one else are❤❤ Tusen takk
Listen guys, I’m gonna tell you this from my own perspective and beliefs. This is for anyone who is having thoughts of taking their own life. You were brought into this world for a reason, your parents dreamed to have you as their child. Your family and friends do love you and your mother and father are the ones that love you more than anyone else does. If you took your own life, you would cause a lot of upset towards your friends and family because then they would be carrying the burden for the rest of their lives knowing that they could have helped you through your tough times. Stay strong, find faith because there is something higher than us humans. Finding faith in religion is the best therapy for you. From my personal thoughts that I wish I never existed and that my friends and family don’t care about me was all crushed when I put my faith in Allah (Islamic god). I hope I have somewhat provided a sense of hope stability for you.
Sarah, I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again! I’d love to have you as a girlfriend! I am lonely sometimes. All I wanna do is hangout in my room most nights after work listening to you as I try and sleep! You make my days better when there crappy! You make me feel better when you “kiss me” I just feel better when I hear your voice in general! I really would love to meet you! 😭. Thank you for all you do!! WE ALLL LOVE YOUU❤❤❤ (Sorry for the sappy post😂. I just wanted to explain how your Audios comfort me🥹🥹🥹)
Idek why dawg. Like, theres nothing fucking wrong with my life. Im young, my parents love me, i have some friends, I live in a good spot. I don’t know. I just dont want to be here man.
I don't know why I watch this. I don't know if it scratches some itch in my brain or if In trying to convinve myself it's not worth it but either way it doesn't work and doesn't shake off. I need to just stop
You are such a beautiful angel Sarah. Love from your friend Adam ❤❤❤❤😅😊❤. Take care of yourself Sarah. You deserve all the best things in life especially a wonderful husband to love you for ever sweetheart Sarah. You would be great wife to me for ever Sarah.
Apparently im so lonely i forget this was a video and said out loud “your the onl-“ and thought oh yeah its a video i was gonna say your the only person whos ever cares this much about me but yeah, its a video so, nevermind kill me
I have just started entertaining thoughts of offing myself, can someone recommend me some resources. I’m Christian so religious ones are chill. Thanks for your time
the thing with suicide is that, it is murder to yourself, because is premeditated, and it is rooted in a lie that says "youre worthless, life is pointless, your suffering wont end" you see, the enemy often attacks believrs with the idea that god doesnt love you, and that he only wants you to be an obdient slave with no will. is the original Lie thats why i preach the most beautifull verse on the bible (from my POV) is romans 8:18 "The pain youre experiencing cant compare to teh JOY that is coming" I ask that you trust god, and that any burden or pain you have, to put it on him, for he is wiser than you and i combined and he is more loving than the entire world convined. always remember the one truth Jesus loves you ✝
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I left a note once… I had a place where I wanted to do it, I didn’t want my mother or sister to find me after so I planned to do it outside of the house. On the note I told them that I love them, don’t blame yourself, thanks for loving me, and where the police could retrieve me when it was all said and done. Fortunately not long after I finished the note my mother got home from work. I quickly grabbed the note ran to my room ripped it up and threw it in my bin. This was 6 years ago and I never told anyone about it. (I’m 18 btw)
That's so sad that you were so young
My online friend committed suicide this year. I wish I was dead in his place and I really miss him. I have been struggling with suicidal thoughts for a while, so this is comforting. Thank you.
@@JustExisting1 you dont have proof of that
@@eranodelpum9752 what are you on about?
I'm crying... I'll cherish this audio in my heart. For the last 8 months I had been bullied and humiliated by someone that was my life light at that moment... and it hurt so much that at times I felt like going completely dark... Thank you for this audio and for all of your audios Sarah, they are a safe refugee ❤
Edit: I really hope this video wasn't too difficult to make, I'm sorry
I am so sorry, that this is happening to you. Please know you are not alone. I actually went through the exact same thing some years ago and it breaks my heart, that things like this still happen. Just know, that it eventually gets better and if you need to talk, I am here.
@@katyajohanna thank you so much for your words, it does make me feel like I'm not alone
I’m so so sorry..Getting hurt by someone close to you is incredibly hurtfull. You deserve better and I know it might not feel like that now but you’re much better of without someone that treats you like that.
I’m happy the audio could help in anyway at all. I think this is a topic that needs to be talked about ❤️🫂
@@YourgirlfriendASMR yes... It is a very important topic, thank you so much for sharing this video with us, lots of love for you Sarah
@@YourgirlfriendASMR That is true. I felt so alone, when it happened, like the whole world was suddenly turning their back against me. But I quickly realized, that I might have lost them, but due to that I found new people later and eventually the person even apologized to me and explained why they did it back then. That finally provided some closure.
This came at such a perfect time, i really needed it today. Thank you, Sarah - this was so beautifully done. I hope you realise how many lives you will save through this audio alone 🫶🏼🤍
my best friend commited two years ago...I also found her letter but it was too late. thank you for spreading awareness❤️🩹
I’m so sorry for your loss 🫂
I'm sorry. 💛
Sorry for your loss
Hope you recover from the loss
God bless her. She is in heaven now.
I’m thinking about writing notes. I don’t have an actual plan to die I just want it to end and it just feels so relieving to know of this way out and stuff and thank you for this, it finally made me cry after so long of feeling the need to cry but not being able to. I’m glad I found this. Thank you. It gives me comfort I won’t have irl
I just discovered your audios this week… but they’ve been one of the most comforting and helpful things I’ve had in ages… thank you..
❤️
Thank you Sarah, and I'm sorry that you know how it feels. I'm so glad you're here for us, but specially that you're here for you ❤. How I wish this was real, how I wish I had someone like this, how I wish there was just one person that would dare ask me if it's true that I don't want to be here anymore. Because I really, really don't.
Know that there is atleast one person that is happy that you are here. ❤️❤️🫂
I am also so happy that you are here. 🌻
Me too🫂
@@YourgirlfriendASMR I'm sure there is, but that's not enough ❤️
@@katyajohanna thank you, I really appreciate it ❤️
Seeing how I've tried to meet God two times now I probably should listen this
Same, but only tried once.
Eh, once
Dido but once
As someone who has tried to end it all multiple times this audio is so comforting Sarah ❤
Sarah..you indeed made us believe in angels 😢❤
hits different when ur going through this, this is really comforting. thank you sarah 🤍
I noticed, this was posted when i realized my significant other admitted she had lost interest. 2 weeks later things broke off. Thank you for an audio like this. Facing withdrawals from a weed addiction and this is really hitting me in the feels. Thank you, you are appreciated.
I needed this so badly, even just the sound of someone pretending like they care about me. I came here on my 15 minute break at work and am breaking down completely in my office. I've been listening to a horror podcast while working, and the episode I started had mentions of suicide and a note at the beginning from one of the people who works in prevention and when they emphasized *listening*, I started hyperventilating realizing I haven't had anyone in my life who would. I'll be 30 in October, and I am isolated. Men don't talk about our problems with other men, and when we do, 9 times out of 10 the suggestion is just to get drinks. I'm terrified to open up to any women I know about it because I've been sneered at for being weak and have had it used against me before, too. I can't seem to make any new connections. I am just... So alone. And even just someone acting like they care, pretending to listen and that they want me around... It's got a fully-grown man covered in tattoos and piercings who hauls furniture around at a nonprofit for his 2nd job breaking down entirely.
Something is wrong, in our society. I don't understand why everyone is so hostile to anyone they don't already know all the time. But god, I wish I could actually reach out. I wish.
How must one feel when someone tell them their world is beautiful because they have them in their life...must be an incredible feeling
I’m In a better place now, but these videos always make me feel better and still steer me away from it. Loved this audio ❤
You can tell how hard this was for her to make, either that or she’s amazing acting, actually no will be both. Even tho suicide isn’t the thing I have thoughts about. This is so wonderful to listen to, hearing someone helping and caring, you can really feel the emotions. Knowing me I’ll listen to this to help get my constant sad emotions out of me. Hope this audio helps for those who have thought about suicide, and that you get the help you deserve. Beautiful job as always. ❤️🩹
I just found this.
My partner of 5 years (and best friend of 14) separated from me asking for no contact and space last summer, as of this Christmas she was found in her apartment having overdosed.
I don’t know anything else because her parents hated me, I will never know what was on her note, or where she was finally laid to rest because she had just been taken away to wherever they saw fit.
I had a ring, and I had planned to propose on Christmas, if she hadn’t have withdrawn.
I partly blame myself I think. I kept bothering her. She asked for space and I was to selfish and worried about her to just trust her. So she had decided to start ignoring me.
I won’t ever get to know why she didn’t want to tell me anything. Or why she chose to push me away so harshly.
I’m not even sure if there is anything I could have done.
I’m not sure what posting this accomplishes.
Maybe just, a word of advice then, not everyone wants or is willing to accept help, even if you feel like they have no reason for refusing it. Don’t let that eat you up like it has me.
I've had such a shitty week, so this genuinely helped a lot. Thank you.
This was so emotionally raw and beautiful, thank you for so much for this Sarah, and as someone else who has said that prayer countless times, I'm so grateful that you're here, helping to bring colour back into peoples lives. ❤❤
I’m glad you’re here too ❤️🫂
Jesus this hit me hard. I do appreciate you doing something like this. I hope you're doing ok love
When this ASMR showed up on my feed I kinda prepared myself for a journey. You are so articulate and have such a calming demenor. Please keep up the amazing work you deserve a huge following for all the hard work you put in this and all your videos.
Thank you Sarah. I just found this video during a very trying time, and this has for the time being put me off from writing notes. Thank you for being the only person successful in bringing an iota of comfort, and even the slightest shade of grey to the blackness
Attempted back in February, I was with 2 friend and did it as they watched. They leave me alone about it and don’t bring it up unless I do as it makes me uncomfortable. But they make sure I know they’re there for me. I had previously struggled a bit with sh but I’ve been clean since April which them and I are proud of.
I have had thoughts of committing and have come close to relapsing. And this very morning, I almost attempted again, but stopped myself. Im currently not doing okay, but pushing through.
Glad i dint even have friends sooooo if i killmyself infront of everyone nobody will even care
@@eranodelpum9752 i would
This video make me cry (but a good cry), i really want to have a gf like this (i'm alone 😢) who support me all time. I have depression for a year, i tried 3 or 4 times to do the worst act. I can't sleep without asmr since i've depression.
Thank you to always do your asmr❤
As someone who has survived 3 self attempts on my own life and helped prevent 2 attempts others tried to make on theirs, thank you for this. I found myself in both listener and speaker.
100 reasons to keep living
1. to make your parents proud
2. to conquer your fears
3. to see your family again
4. to see your favorite artist live
5. to listen to music again
6. to experience a new culture
7. to make new friends
8. to inspire
9. to have your own children
10. to adopt your own pet
11. to make yourself proud
12. to meet your idols
13. to laugh until you cry
14. to feel tears of happiness
15. to eat your favorite food
16. to see your siblings grow
17. to pass school
18. to get a tattoo
19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
20. to meet your internet friends
21. to find someone who loves you as you deserve
22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
24. to see untouched snow in the morning
25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
26. to see stars light up the sky
27. to read a book that changes your life
28. to see the flowers in the spring
29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
30. to travel abroad
31. to learn a new language
32. to learn to draw
33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
34. Puppy kisses.
35. Baby kisses (the open-mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek)
36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
37. Trampolines.
38. Ice cream.
39. Stargazing.
40. Cloud watching.
41. Taking a shower and then sleeping on clean sheets.
42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
43. “I saw this and thought of you."
44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
45. The relief you feel after crying.
46. Sunshine.
47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
48. Your future wedding.
49. Your favorite candy bar.
50. New clothes.
51. Witty puns.
52. Really good bread.
53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
56. The smell before and after it rains.
57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
60. Trying out new recipes.
61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
64. Breakfast in bed.
65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theatre.
66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
67. a feeling of being loved
68. Forgiveness.
69. Water balloon fights.
70. New books by your favorite authors.
71. Fireflies.
72. Birthdays.
73. Realising that someone loves you.
74. Spending the day with someone you love.
75. Spending the whole day in bed.
76. Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream.
77. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky.
78. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.)
79. Bonfires and smokes.
80. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them.
81. Coming home to someone you love.
82. The color of autumn leaves when they change. Summer.
83. Sing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends.
84. Cuddling.
85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
86. Someone’s skin against yours.
87. Holding hands.
88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
89. Singing off key with your best friends.
90. Road trips.
91. Spontaneous adventures.
92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
94. Thunderstorms.
95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
96. The taste of your favorite food.
97. The child-like feeling you get on New-Year Morning.
98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
99. Compliments and praise.
100. to look at this moment in 10 years' time and realize you did it.
PS: there are so many beautiful things to live. so live, and live, and live
In my opinion I think the cure of loneliness mental health disorders is to find spirituality within yourself, and faith in God to help you during dark times. Advice I can give is don't go a day without a prayer or meditation to remind yourself to keep hope in life and that as long as god is with you, you're never truly alone. Also stand back and take time for seeing a view of natural sites like the forest or stars to remind you that if any negative thoughts arrive, take a look at the beautiful planet you would be leaving ❤❤
this could not have come at a more perfect time. thank you 🫶
You are saving lives by making these audios ;
This audios are fine to be honest
but i think that we as people should aim for healing the pain from the root, instead of just anesthesia.
i felt lonely almost my whole life, also very depressed in many moments
and i can say for sure that i found the most loving person ever in my life
is jesus christ, and i dont ask you to become a debote christian, and go to church everyday, or anything.
but if you want advice in this topic, my advice is really to just, Put your faith in christ, and persue a relationship with him.
jesus loves you brother ✝
May god bless you
Thank you Sarah, you are a really amazing and caring person, I hope you know that. ❤️
you are such an angel 💛
This is very helpful, i dont have anyone i can trust in real life and this helps especially at night, i have a lot of thanks
Idk why but I felt the need to share a story.
My uncle committed the summer of my freshman year of high school, going into sophomore year. I just remember sitting at my desk playing games and hearing the news, I was never the same person again. It’s been years and yet I still think about it all the time. I’ve even had thoughts of suicide myself, and luckily things like this and my friends really talked me out of it. I’m glad I never went through with it. I’ve had really low moments in my life, but this was the lowest low ever, and it hurt….still hurts to this day.
This video definitely helps relieve some of that pain, and puts me in a better mindset. Thank you for this
Nothing's better than to hear words that I wouldn't hear coming from anyone
I felt her sadness, and her love. Knowing that I have more people like her in my life is why I haven't taken action on my thoughts. I don't know wgat I can say about myself, but I can say so much about them.
I have had many moments where ive considered comitting. These audios help a lot
Here and ready to watch it ❤
Thank you!
This saved me. I was no ready to go but i found this and it saved me. I don't know what I would've done if i hadn't found this.
I'm in a really dysfunctional family, and I'm also trans, this is something I really struggle with, specially on bad dysphoria days. Knowing we all fight the same monster makes me feel less alone. Everyone out there you are so damn strong and brave!
Thank you for making this kind of comfort, it made me feel warm inside.
Something I once read and want to share:
"No matter how rainy it is, one day you'll be able to see a rainbow in the middle of the storm" 🌈
Thank you 🤍
Thank you so much for this, this ASMR is very helpful for me 🙏
I had a good day today, something I don't have often.
I wasn't sure if it would be smart to listen to this, but I'm glad I did.
My good day got better and perhaps tomorrow won't be worse.
Love you Sarah, thanks for this video ❤
First time I was 11, I’m 22 now. If there’s one thing that came out of my failures it’s that death became a friend, my oldest and possibly closest. Always there lurking in the corner. But he doesn’t scare me, always just out of view and on the day he comes back into sight, I will treat him as old friends treat one another. My dog, loved ones, all with my friend just out of sight but never out of mind.
Perfect timing! Wow! Thank you so much! I’ll continue listening to this, right now 😊 It’s definitely what I need, right now.
Despite me, and many others, feeling grateful, remember to take care of yourself as well 😊
Remember that your health, matters too:)
Sorry, I don’t mean to lecture you, I just want to remind you 😊
From someone who still sees the world in grey and black: Thank you for this. It helps.
Really needed this one, tysm
Some real good comfort
I been through a lot, and I usually don’t let my more vulnerable side show, but sometimes I just break.
Bless you for making this. You’ll never how much it helps people like me.
Thank you for making this. I think about that constantly but i cant act upon those thoughts for different reasosn
Slit wrists: Im too weak to even cut myself
Noose(idk how to spell it): i cant buy rope and im not good at tying knots
Toaster bath: no plug near a tub
Jump: i dont wanna make a scene
I just feel trapped not having a choice to just leave and this helps a bit thank you so much
Sarah, if possible, can you pin this important comment so it reaches out to everyone ❤?
100 reasons to keep living
1. to make your parents proud
2. to conquer your fears
3. to see your family again
4. to see your favorite artist live
5. to listen to music again
6. to experience a new culture
7. to make new friends
8. to inspire
9. to have your own children
10. to adopt your own pet
11. to make yourself proud
12. to meet your idols
13. to laugh until you cry
14. to feel tears of happiness
15. to eat your favorite food
16. to see your siblings grow
17. to pass school
18. to get a tattoo
19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
20. to meet your internet friends
21. to find someone who loves you as you deserve
22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
24. to see untouched snow in the morning
25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
26. to see stars light up the sky
27. to read a book that changes your life
28. to see the flowers in the spring
29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
30. to travel abroad
31. to learn a new language
32. to learn to draw
33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
34. Puppy kisses.
35. Baby kisses (the open-mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek)
36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
37. Trampolines.
38. Ice cream.
39. Stargazing.
40. Cloud watching.
41. Taking a shower and then sleeping on clean sheets.
42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
43. “I saw this and thought of you."
44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
45. The relief you feel after crying.
46. Sunshine.
47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
48. Your future wedding.
49. Your favorite candy bar.
50. New clothes.
51. Witty puns.
52. Really good bread.
53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
56. The smell before and after it rains.
57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
60. Trying out new recipes.
61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
64. Breakfast in bed.
65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theatre.
66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
67. a feeling of being loved
68. Forgiveness.
69. Water balloon fights.
70. New books by your favorite authors.
71. Fireflies.
72. Birthdays.
73. Realising that someone loves you.
74. Spending the day with someone you love.
75. Spending the whole day in bed.
76. Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream.
77. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky.
78. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.)
79. Bonfires and smokes.
80. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them.
81. Coming home to someone you love.
82. The color of autumn leaves when they change. Summer.
83. Sing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends.
84. Cuddling.
85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
86. Someone’s skin against yours.
87. Holding hands.
88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
89. Singing off key with your best friends.
90. Road trips.
91. Spontaneous adventures.
92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
94. Thunderstorms.
95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
96. The taste of your favorite food.
97. The child-like feeling you get on New-Year Morning.
98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
99. Compliments and praise.
100. to look at this moment in 10 years' time and realize you did it.
PS: there are so many beautiful things to live. so live, and live, and live
In my opinion I think the cure of loneliness mental health disorders is to find spirituality within yourself, and faith in God to help you during dark times. Advice I can give is don't go a day without a prayer or meditation to remind yourself to keep hope in life and that as long as god is with you, you're never truly alone. Also stand back and take time for seeing a view of natural sites like the forest or stars to remind you that if any negative thoughts arrive, take a look at the beautiful planet you would be leaving ❤❤
My friend Khel McKegan sadly took her own life four years ago on Valentine's Day.
Everyday since then I have been overwhelmed with guilt and shame that I didn't see the signs and had done something to prevent it.
She was so beautiful. She was such a tender, innocent soul.
Her family accepted her. Her friends accepted her and yet she was always afraid so timid so soft-spoken.
I miss her terribly every day.
She was such an inspiration for me to finally come out as transgender female.
I Will never get a chance to thank her and tell her how much she meant to so many people. What must have sheep been going through? That was so horrible. That she took her life in desperation to escape from the pain and torment she must have felt.
That comes to my mind is when she took her life and she got past that point of no return. Did she regret it? Did she panic and die in total fear?
I miss you Khel and I will love you forever. 🥺😢😭❤️❤️❤️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️💕💕💕
I struggle with suicidal thoughts a lot, a lot of my friends and the family I have left don't really understand how bad it is. I wish I had someone who could say this to me irl. maybe one day I will but this helps a bit in the meantime.
And the worst part that you would start losing social skill until you cant barely comunicate
@@eranodelpum9752 it's not even that, it's just this feeling of isolation. wishing that there was someone I could talk to who wouldn't call me weak or invalidate me. It hurts and it just makes everything feels worse, like no one really cares.
If I only had a ray of light like this in the bottomless dark pit that is my life.
i literally want to give you the biggest hug right now sarebear. the tightest warmest hug known to man. i hate that you know how this feels like :’(
I don't know why I'm typing this, but I genuinely don't think I deserve to be loved or be happy. I don't think just because I exist or I'm human that I deserve any of these things. I don't deserve these things because I haven't earned them. I haven't healed from my trauma, I haven't tried to do better, i haven't even given myself a chance. I don't know what warents me to deserve anything really cause I'm not special. I think that I'm just a burden who has stopped chasing anything for myself.
So can anyone please explain to me why I deserve happiness and to be loved?
Hey, Sarah. All these stories in the comments inspired me to share mine. I hope you don't mind another story to read.
About six years ago, I tried committing suicide, too. I was just unhappy with life in general, and I wanted it to end. But, I never went through with it. When I first brought that knife to my arm, I had a moment of clarity, and thought of all the people that would miss me if I was gone, and I realised I couldn't go through with it. So, I put that knife away, and I talked to some people that made me feel better. Not a therapist, because I didn't have, and still don't have, the money for one, but some friends, and my family. Unfortunately, I still get urges sometimes, but they're less frequent now.
I'm sorry for the story, because I know how many you get, but I really wanted to share it.
It helps not just me but so many others to know that we’re not alone and that it can get better 🫂 Thank you for being brave and sharing your story ❤️
Hope you’re doing okay
I feel like ending my life everyday. I feel like I will never find love. I feel like I would never find any love. I feel like the world's against me every day telling me to die. My family doesn't care. No one cares. I have no friends, no love. My dog died last year and I'm still grieving. I just can't take this life anymore. It's horrible. I'm weird. I'm ugly. I'm too short and I don't sound right. I hate the way I talk. I hate the way I look. I can't even look in the mirror without saying eww That's how I feel about myself. I really don't feel like there's no purpose anymore. I reached out to help. They all think I'm seeking attention. That's what they all always think. I've been trying to get help for years doors slammed in my face and no one cares. Everyone thinks I'm seeking attention. All I want is help but I can't because I get doors slammed in my face and they all keep saying I'm seeking attention like there's no point. I feel like I'm a failure. I am a failure. I failed everyone. I failed god. I'm a failure in a horrible worthless bug under the rug
i always end up back here somehow
Remember, no feeling is final
At least the guy in the vid has someone but i dont know if i can thug it out much longer
I have been so lonely this whole year, I am so tired. This audio feels good but wrong at the same time, because noone will say this kind of things to me... Seriously, ending it all... Soon
Great video! ❤ I hope you’re doing well!
Should i leave a note🖤?
!!TW!!
My best friend commited a while back she was so kind loving and gentle literal incarnation of perfection and i was too stupid too slow too young to realise that she was hurting and i found a note in a gift she gave me and it was too late by the time i got there i found her on the ceiling it broke me and to be honest i still havent recovered from it even 7 years later im a dude and i allmost cry to the thought of it and i tried to take my own life shortly after 2 times and both of them failed even though its just some either really shitty luck or a blessing i like to think she stopped it yeah ik its goofy but it helps me so yk anyway sorry for the vent
It’s not goofy, it’s very sweet.
@@readinginsolitude thank you for that it means alot to me
thank you.
Thank you.
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There's something really comforting about the idea of sleeping all alone in your house and then being gently roused by your benevolent gf coming over to check on you.
My girlfriend Lillith commited on March 22nd, 2022. I still remember her last message to me. She said she'd never abandon me. I still blame myself alot. I miss her every day. Im in a new relationship now, but i still think about her alot.
Ive tried to harm myself before i backed down because i couldnt do that to my family they are the only thing keeping me going even when i want to give up i just think about my mom having to find me like that but the pain is still there i just feel numb things that made me happy dont anymore im just trying my hardest to survive day after day like im just stuck in a loop and nothing will break it
I wish this video pertained to me. But I wasn't meant to be put into this world. Everything is too exhausting, pills don't work, therapy doesn't work. Everyone has given up on me. There is nothing to look forward to in this world. I'm already dead anyway as everyone has forgotten my existence.
Listen mate, I’m gonna tell you this from my own perspective and beliefs. You were brought into this world for a reason, your parents dreamed to have you as their child. Your family do love you and your mother and father are the ones that love you more than anyone else does. If you took your own life, you would cause a lot of upset towards your friends and family because then they would be carrying the burden for the rest of their lives knowing that they could have helped you through your tough times. Stay strong, find faith because their is something higher than us humans. Finding faith in religion is the best therapy for you. From my personal thoughts that I wish I never existed and that my friends and family don’t care about me was all crushed when I put my faith in Allah (Islamic god). I hope I have somewhat provided a sense of hope stability for you.
My friend killed herself a few years ago. I woke up and saw her texts telling me it wasn't my fault. I was in a much worse place after it happened and tried committing myself last year. I'm feeling better than before but I'm still on and off suicidal and i feel like I'm just drifting in an empty sea right now with nothing in sight.
I feel so isolated from the rest of the world and i don't want to change that because i hate getting closer to people cause ill just end up getting attached again and the loneliness is eating me up inside. I feel selfish saying i wish she was still here just so i could talk to someone again
She had a purpose, but I do not not so goodbye ❤
I was not prepared for the sentence "did you take anything?". I don't have anywhere I feel like I can talk or vent about all the pain. so I'm just going to write it here.
I just took some tablets, shouldn't be a deadly dose, but I don't know if I'm going to keep taking until it is.
I am really scared, I wish I had someone I could trust, talk to, or get any type of emotional support from. I'm really afraid of dying, afraid of pain, but I can't see any other way out.
if anyone reads this, don't worry, I'm probably going to live, I have been failing all my attempts since I was 7 after all.
Someone found my note, without telling me they asked me how I was doing. Naturally I lied to them, and they didn't leave me alone for 3 days. They told my on the 2nd day about the note. Istg if real life had a cutscene it was that moment.
I wish I had someone
Great video❤If you are still doing bedtime stories, can you do Cinderella? It’s one of my favorite stories 💙
Ok, is it a bad thing that I got way too immersed and actually cried?
Thank you❤
Skippy suïcide letter 🔊🎶 is a song that i listen every day 😔 no body cares about me and I can’t even imagine that i will be missed
Maybe I should listen to It maybe it will end my suffering 🖤
I was at an archery tourney a few days ago and showing my friends how I shoot and one of them noticed my cuts and asked what those were. I made up some excuse on how I cut myself on accident and went on with my day. Kind of just interesting because no one had noticed beforehand so yea cool ig 👍
WE HANGING OURSELVES IN A KNEELING POSITION WITH AN AMP LEAD WEDGED IN A CLOSET DOOR WITH THIS ONE 🗣🗣🗣🗣🔥🔥🔥🔥
Hearing this having someone to help you while your suicidal it must be a great feeling. But for me I've never had anyone to have while I'm depressed or suicidal all I've had is have people tell me to kill myself. But apart from that this a very good audio.
Wonderful
Listening to this while eating a fire ahh sandwich❤❤❤
TW: my story
I was 15, being bullied online and in my family. I was also being groomed for a romantic and sexual relationship by a family friend, and a "friend" i tried to have a relationship with began to send me videos of people drinking bleach, and pressured me to think about it, he hated me and i was so tired of living, i had no one to talk to. I did not write a note, but i did almost drink bleach, the only thing that stopped me was a little voice telling me id have something to live for, if i waited a few months.
I did. I met a girl. Finally had someone to talk to, until 5 years passed and her family was stuck in tragedy. She had an awful year, so did I, we split and my year got worse and worse, but i managed to get thru it with faith and personal work. Eventually I got COVID, and i nearly offed myself, I had to bind my hands together, had a song on loop for 6 hours straight (1800 by logic), and had my dad on the phone all day. My mind was nothing but panic and pain. bought momentos for it and everything to remember what I've gone through, and where i am now.
It gets better, things ebb and flow like the ocean water, sometimes the waves are tidal, sometimes they only just lap at the shore, but we won't know the beauty of making it through the waves if we don't try to stick it out. Thank you for this video Sarah, if that story was true you told, I hope you are very blessed and loved in this world. Thank you for what you do, you're great.
Sincerely, an anxious nurse lol.
When i was 10, I really wanted to kill myself beacuse i had anger problems, but i didnt dear to. I knew that the world would be better, but i didnt dear. Wish i had someone like you when i was 10❤you make the world a better place, mine too. And after all this years, when i get the problems back, i can force myself to punch or scream all alone, and im so greatfull that your voice can always be there when no one else are❤❤ Tusen takk
Listen guys, I’m gonna tell you this from my own perspective and beliefs. This is for anyone who is having thoughts of taking their own life. You were brought into this world for a reason, your parents dreamed to have you as their child. Your family and friends do love you and your mother and father are the ones that love you more than anyone else does. If you took your own life, you would cause a lot of upset towards your friends and family because then they would be carrying the burden for the rest of their lives knowing that they could have helped you through your tough times. Stay strong, find faith because there is something higher than us humans. Finding faith in religion is the best therapy for you. From my personal thoughts that I wish I never existed and that my friends and family don’t care about me was all crushed when I put my faith in Allah (Islamic god). I hope I have somewhat provided a sense of hope stability for you.
If my family cared,I would not be here I'm just a piece of trash to them if my friend didn't leave me then I wouldn't be here
Sarah, I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again! I’d love to have you as a girlfriend! I am lonely sometimes. All I wanna do is hangout in my room most nights after work listening to you as I try and sleep!
You make my days better when there crappy!
You make me feel better when you “kiss me”
I just feel better when I hear your voice in general! I really would love to meet you! 😭. Thank you for all you do!! WE ALLL LOVE YOUU❤❤❤
(Sorry for the sappy post😂. I just wanted to explain how your Audios comfort me🥹🥹🥹)
Idek why dawg. Like, theres nothing fucking wrong with my life. Im young, my parents love me, i have some friends, I live in a good spot. I don’t know. I just dont want to be here man.
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I don't know why I watch this. I don't know if it scratches some itch in my brain or if In trying to convinve myself it's not worth it but either way it doesn't work and doesn't shake off. I need to just stop
Very nice
Honestly just kill me no one is ever gonna love me like this
I almost committed
I hate me
You are such a beautiful angel Sarah. Love from your friend Adam ❤❤❤❤😅😊❤. Take care of yourself Sarah. You deserve all the best things in life especially a wonderful husband to love you for ever sweetheart Sarah. You would be great wife to me for ever Sarah.
Apparently im so lonely i forget this was a video and said out loud “your the onl-“ and thought oh yeah its a video i was gonna say your the only person whos ever cares this much about me but yeah, its a video so, nevermind kill me
I have just started entertaining thoughts of offing myself, can someone recommend me some resources. I’m Christian so religious ones are chill. Thanks for your time
the thing with suicide is that, it is murder to yourself, because is premeditated, and it is rooted in a lie that says "youre worthless, life is pointless, your suffering wont end"
you see, the enemy often attacks believrs with the idea that god doesnt love you, and that he only wants you to be an obdient slave with no will.
is the original Lie
thats why i preach the most beautifull verse on the bible (from my POV) is romans 8:18 "The pain youre experiencing cant compare to teh JOY that is coming"
I ask that you trust god, and that any burden or pain you have, to put it on him, for he is wiser than you and i combined
and he is more loving than the entire world convined.
always remember the one truth
Jesus loves you ✝
I am in a hard place right now. My wife would be better off without me I have mentals and can’t hold down a job I’m useless
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