I feel you. I had severe anxiety after my last child. Already had some OCD tendencies. I still do have these days even weeks but at least a break in between here and there. The world is such a shitty place how can anyone feel comfortable in it. I try to focus on the good, love, joy, gratitude, God, and of course my lovelies. I feel the same way they are too good for me. At times even like they are more my husband's children than they are mine, crazy town I know, but I can't claim them as mine because they are too precious and good for this dark woman. I pray, I try to make healthy choices, I strive to be the best I can, and I still feel like I'm fighting a losing battle because the darkness is so encompassing at times. How is this? I'm not sure if it will ever go away and why did it ever come? I wish you and your babes the best. You have a beautiful smile RaeAnn! I can definitely see the sun when I see your face! I will pray for you, my sister in sadness muah!
Beck, I am so sorry it took so long to reply. Thank you so much for your kind words and your love and bravery. I hope you are able to look at your babies and see the love and light you have to share and see it shine through them.
Go Rae 💗
I feel you. I had severe anxiety after my last child. Already had some OCD tendencies. I still do have these days even weeks but at least a break in between here and there. The world is such a shitty place how can anyone feel comfortable in it. I try to focus on the good, love, joy, gratitude, God, and of course my lovelies. I feel the same way they are too good for me. At times even like they are more my husband's children than they are mine, crazy town I know, but I can't claim them as mine because they are too precious and good for this dark woman. I pray, I try to make healthy choices, I strive to be the best I can, and I still feel like I'm fighting a losing battle because the darkness is so encompassing at times. How is this? I'm not sure if it will ever go away and why did it ever come? I wish you and your babes the best. You have a beautiful smile RaeAnn! I can definitely see the sun when I see your face! I will pray for you, my sister in sadness muah!
Oh and it's good to know I'm not alone THANK YOU for speaking out loud about this!
Beck, I am so sorry it took so long to reply. Thank you so much for your kind words and your love and bravery. I hope you are able to look at your babies and see the love and light you have to share and see it shine through them.