The content you share is better than anything on UA-cam. You are legit brother…. I pray you have millions of subscribers who will listen to what you have to say. Thank you Jesus
Sometimes when this happens to me, I feel grief about my lost childhood. That my parents are dead and I wish I could go back and relive those memories.
Jesus is rebooting, rebuilding me not on the childhood I had within my family, but new from the beginning with and based on Him. Wading through deep mud right now, this brings new hope, thank you
i love you Mark. You taught my wife to understand what kind of issues i face as a mentally ill person. What you teach about depression, anxiety, OCD, and intrusive thoughts, Jesus taught me as well. It has been so refreshing to hear you speak reason, faith, love and hope in Jesus in the crazy world mental illness.
I struggle to that heart connection with Gods Love a lot. I don’t experience peace or nurture in prayer. I feel mistunderstood by God and not really seen… I know about my father and mother wounds and the Influce of my past. But it’s so hard to trust that Gods Love is the best for me when you have a narcissistic father who also Always says: I just want the best for you. And he argues very well but it’s like poison to my soul. I don’t know hot to connect to God on a different level because „the best for me“ was never the best for me… And when I pray to God and look after his presence and leading I get often disappointed. So I feel like its all on me. God is not really a help. It’s not the truth, but it’s hard to connect to a perfect love that you never experienced…
This is exactly the problem I have. I can't trust God, I'm too scared of death and the afterlife. I know God is the truth but I don't know how to accept His promises.
Coping mechanisms that keep you safe. Although you must now wake up to the lies that were put upon you from flesh. Can only learn that there is a better place away from Generational curses. When you realise you will not deny yourself again
Yeah I’m like why can’t I just be content in any situation? Nothing is “wrong.” I’m glad to hear someone else describe it. It makes me feel a fear of time not passing, like the day will never end. I definitely can’t stand to be at home when it happens. I also start wondering how other people “bear” their day (especially if they are stuck at home!).
This makes me wonder how many of us go to churches where many people feel just like us, and yet everyone is afraid to talk about it and so we feel alone.
Yes! This scripture comforts me so much if I get into depression. Darkness is a light to you! I can never escape from your presence! Psalms are so helpful because David suffered so much with mental anguish.
I had this ache, I’m currently feeling it now, I have been trying to numb it with food, masturbation, sugar. This last Christmas I felt it soo much I started to cry to Jesus to help me and take it away. This video seems to shed more light on it. I really pray I can go through it, learn and be healed
Me too. Mark's talks will never age...he brings hope and light to many "hidden" topics. I truly salute him and his wife for the immensely helpful insight they bring.
I think those days where we're really going through it are the days we should draw closer to God and ask him to fill those empty places and heal the broken.places that need gods healing,that really only God can heal.god always wants us to come to him first.
Oh, darling! Don't you have a church where brothers & sisters give you a hug? Even if one person does it. In my church we do before the service. Praying that you'll find this. The Lord knows you need it.
@@barbarasparks3419 hugs are so needed! Yesterday at Costco I turned a corner too fast and almost ran into a lady coming around the other side.. we looked at each other and laughed, apologized… then … we just hugged each other! Complete strangers.. I said “ that’s ok, I think we both just needed a hug❤️My husband who was pushing the cart said “ do you know her?”.. I smiled and said “ no, we just collided and dcidd to turn it into a hug!” Maybe Barbara, you could volunteer at a senior care center, daycare where you just go to read books???
Mark, I’ve been binge watching your channel since I found it a week ago. I appreciate you and your wife and your ministry! You really know how to get to the heart of the matter and you understand all the intricacies of the mind like no one I’ve ever seen. God has really blessed your ministry and you are doing Gods work! I’ve started journaling and trying to get connected to God and receive his love as my father. I’m also reading experiencing the love of the father. You are right- the church as a whole has lost sight of nurturing Gods people and everyone can/will give you a pat answer to an intricate problem you have. Inside we are all struggling but the show must go on. I like how you said maybe some of the pain I’m feeling is how God feels seeing what is happening with his bride. I believe that! I’ve been obsessed with trying to do everything right and by the book but the more I try the worse I feel and most days I’m going in reverse. Then I get overwhelmed thinking God is mad at me which puts me down inside of a deep pit and I wonder how I’ll climb out and be perfect for God. Your material has helped me realize I need to go back to the beginning and understand Gods love for me, his acceptance and grace. Thank you again and bless you
Reminds me of Deuteronomy 28:67, "In the morning you will say, “If only it were evening!” and in the evening, “If only it were morning!”Derek Prince has teaching on YT, "How to go from curse to blessing." All the best!
Oh wowww, I was thinking at my age of 62, I have really screwed up my life, I would often look at my past journey, bad choices, mistakes, living off my negative emotional energy, hurts,& pains, but I finally figured it out,to keep God first, love him more than anything & anyone, & love myself, & everything else will fall in place, so I am on that journey of the next chapter or journey of my life as well, I have been doing a lot of self help, being open within myself, taking countibilies for all my bad decisions in choosing healthy relationships, but now being free gives me the space & time to feel a healthy & happy place, I wish you all the strength & blessings you need to heal, & make a new journey for yourself,
A lady I was listening to on UA-cam said when we do something to stop the ache/fear, we are reinforcing that behavior we wish we would not do. (In my case running away, eating, trying to run to a person to stop the loneliness I am feeling at that moment). Yes, it’s almost like a panic to make it stop.
This really blessed me last night. I had been struggling with an incredible sense of emptiness, fear and those what ifs. Religious scrupulosity is difficult, and I've been a sufferer since I was 5 years old. It comes and goes in cycles, with unique triggers. But the the inability to nuture myself, struck a chord. You're right, I lacked that nurture during childhood, specifically around religious themes. My father was a pastor, and all of the teachings I had absorbed carried frightening images I couldn't escape. All of this I carried secretly. I listened to a song today and I wanted to share it because it allowed me to nurture myself today. As I walked out nuturing myself, it felt good for a change. Thank you for putting this episode together. And thank you to the woman who was so articulate and described many of our aches, and challenges. Look What You've Done by Tasha Layton Look what you've done How could you fall so far You should be ashamed of yourself So I was ashamed of myself The lies I believed They got some roots that run deep I let em take a hold of my life I let em take control of my life Standing in your presence, Lord I can feel you diggin' all the roots up I feel ya healin' all my wounds up All I can say is hallelujah Look what you've done Look what you've done in me You spoke your truth into the lies I let my heart believe Look at me now Look how you made me new The enemy did everything that he could do Oh, but look what you've done Suddenly all the shame is gone I thought I was too broken, now I see You were breaking new ground inside of me Standing in your presence, Lord I can feel you diggin' all my roots up I feel ya healin' all my wounds up All I can say is hallelujah Look what you've done Look what you've done in me You spoke your truth into the lies I let my heart believe Look at me now Look how you made me new The enemy did everything that he could do Oh, but look what you've done On the cross, in a grave With a stone, rolled away All my debt, it was paid Look what you've done In my heart, in my mind In my soul, in my life With my hands lifted high I'm singing Look what you've done Look what you've done in me You spoke your truth into the lies I let my heart believe Look at me now Look how you made me new The enemy did everything that he could do Oh, but look what you've done On the cross, in a grave With a stone, rolled away All my debt, it was paid Look what you've done In my heart, in my mind In my soul, in my life With my hands lifted high I'm singing Look what you've done ua-cam.com/video/YPWHJC7PyYY/v-deo.html
MY GOD!!!! ThIs was for me . I have been feeling this ache this distance , this uneasiness .. unsettled spirit between my thoughts and emotions … and ive been trying to busy myself LIVING life not focusing on my thoughts and emotions and it just won’t go away. This was a blessing!!!!!!! My friend just asked me “do you think God could be calling you deeper ?” And I thought she was absolutely crazy when she said it …. Lol 😂 but ! You just said the same thing . Wow
This is an absolute must watch video and I wish every pastor would watch it instead of staying on the treadmill of churchianity and imposing their religiosity on their poor congregations. For that matter the same goes for parents, teachers and church leaders in any capacity.
Listening to this, I received a revelation about what God is saying to me about "there is nothing new under the sun." It is that the new creation we are to reach and work for is Jesus who is above the sun and all things. In the same way Jesus says don't work for the bread that parishes. But that our hearts desire is to reach for Him and He is True Love and THE Comforter. We present the ache to Him. Thanks I have a portion of NEW hope in a situation where I see no hope under the sun.
I just found this channel. I am amazed how much everything you say resonates with me. I was looking for help and guidance for an honest reevaluation and interpretation of my Christian life. It is-like my thoughts are being organized through what you are saying. Thank God for your life
This has been so helpfullllllll. Now I know I can take what I am feeling to God, i don't have to try and fix it by myself. It also shows that it's a call for healing in my heart that I am not aware of instead of labelling it
This just popped up in my feed, it’s what I’ve been asking God about. Thank you Mark for giving some direction on this, and also the beautiful person that wrote that email for bringing up this subject. ❤ As a HSP and an artist, I thought these feelings I struggled with were just related to that and overthinking etc.
I CAN relate! To it All! It's right where I'm at. I walk with the Lord, but feel a constant ache and heaviness in my heart. I can't seem to fix it. I keep saying, what's wrong with me? I love God so much. BUT I'm not loving me! It's very disheartening. Thank you Mark, thank you for all you do. Patrick
I am afraid of emotions, the allowance feeling all those things you say I should allow. I don't like quiet because I see all my failures. I'm better with others than I am with myself. You say to "slow down", that's hard to accept because I'm playing catch up. I'm heading towards 70 and more than 40 years of that was in addiction, drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling had too much failure in it and failed very well all by myself. I have a heard time sticking to praying and bible reading. I am not a church person that this information is geared towards, I'm hoping for a beginning point, something I can hold on to. I'm retired and somewhat disabled, this drives me crazy because I'm stuck with me, I guess I can't get out of God's way. I don't understand the hug thing even though I've heard that it's good for you. I've done it in NA and AA but I didn't get any results. I guess I've gotten use to not having nurture, compassion, all those soft things. I don't trust myself to do what is required of me to do, success for my has been very limited,
Dude this content has made me feel more seen and more heard than any other content I've ever absorbed. All other content misses the mark. But this really hits home and speaks to me at every level.
Thank you Mark, listening to you helped me realise I’ve stopped loving myself, it’s so freeing just thinking about it, and that I can do it because He loves me and has been showing that to me.. I paused as I listened to you say just be quiet, and asked God to help me reveal why I have this pain feeling I cant tell where its coming from - love you brother for your work, bless you
I hate feeling not so connected to God, yet I kinda appreciate it. I never knew people have these emotional spiritual issues until it hit me. I pray that God will use me someday to help those spiritually hurt. Now I get it.
Thank you! This message really blessed my heart. I am finding crying out to God can start to heal that ache. My controlling perfection mindset comes in and I desire so much to have peace in my heart
An achy heart! I think i've found the words to describe my situation! It comes on in the evenings and nights. This heaviness and achyness is gone by morning. But that's how I can identify how heavy the achyness was the night before! It's awful 😢
I have the same experience but only when I wake up(it can be naps too). Sucks because it seems like all I want to do is sleep but I’m afraid of the feeling I get when I wake up.😪
Often if I start praying in tongues it will release emotions I didn’t realize I was feeling (I start crying and grieving). Also I am making myself try writing about my feelings more.
Yes, youre so right mark, just sum understanding goes a long way and brings relief...we still have to walk thru things but it is a big help just to have sum understanding...
The ache can be a Godly Desire God has given us but is growing you and me through the patience. mine is Godly companionship not in an idol way but a companionship that glorifies God. I know this comes from growth, endurance, trust, sitting with him and lastly action when he says nows the time.
You posted 3 years ago. But I have only just found it - in season!!! Praise God that I found it now when I really need it. And you have highlighted so so much. Thank you. Blessings to you and your wife!!!
I have complex post-traumatic stress from being homeless and having chronic pain, living in my truck. I'm definitely a trooper and not a pooper although you can't trust a fart over 40 as I just turned 40 some sage advice lol. But my process for the calling on my life the wilderness behind that has been brutal and growing, the isolation and the loneliness the need to be seen and understood and really comforted by other spirit-filled brethren it's probably the greatest ache in the heart especially with my prophetic tendencies I need someone to understand me and walk with me. But alas the community I'm a part of they really just don't have a grid for it and I think they look at all the external factors of challenges that I deal with and just kind of stand far off from me and avoid me as if I'm responsible for my issues which I'm but where if the LOVE from the believers. It amazes me how people can be aware of what I'm going through on a daily and nobody in church comes up to say hi or ask how I'm doing or offered to pray for me or drop of an encouraging prophetic word on me.
I can relate so much to the lady who wrote this email. She expressed so well what I couldn't put words to... Hearing her email was so helpful just to be reminded others are experiencing this too. Your input was very very helpful & this is exactly what I needed to hear this morning... Thank you 🙏🥰
Thank you for your talk. You were such a help this evening in encourage me to rest in what the Lord has for me in this moment, this season of life and transition. Some transitions take a lonnnng time.😄 Patience and mercy to myself and others so key. Praying for you!
I am truly pathetic at the relational space. I constantly ache. But your videos like this show me how you "know and have really been there" thanks for your vulnerability
I feel numb after years of longing for nurture and fulfillment.... I long for connecting with Jesus and God.....I try not to lean on my understanding yes I want eden I want everything to be good and right I want life here and now
I obviously need to re-read your books. A couple of years have passed and I am at a different level of healing now, too. I find attending Celebrate Recovery to be very helpful, especially going through the 12 steps.
For me the emptiness was numbness from all the pain I had to feel and go trough because of a trauma. I think ptsd can leave you with emptiness too or numbness maybe those two things are a bit diffrent (numbness vs emptiness)
So good and apropos of the times. I sense that God the Father is prompting me to dig down those roots to reach water. So many of us endured such evil upbringings with an absolute drought of love from parents and from our impression of God. Please make a video for us. Shalom. Great video. I will sow at my first opportunity.
This email is exactly where I am at. I can totally relate. How accurate is this email of me. The only difference is that I’m single. Other than that, it’s totally me.Yearning for more if God yet feeling something is missing and painful. I’m not seeking to be soothed from others any more. I’m waiting, for what? Scary😟
Mark thank you so much for being a light for me, I’ve struggled so long with OCD and it’s seemingly endless unique trials. Your channel and your work has given me so much rest, hope, and wisdom that I can now use to equip myself against these evil principalities and spirits
There is this thing about not ever complaining, complain you remain. Speak as though everything is good and then you are trusting God. Everytime I have a moan about anything I immediately regret it as if 'oh no I've vocalised it now!
Please mark. I'm ocd, overthinking, hsp, etc. I walk closely to and with God. I relate very much to this. PLEASE, PLEASE,TELL WHICH IF YOUR BOOKS I SHOULD START WITH! I have overcome many addictions, but I'm still hanging onto a few others. Please tell me which book. God Bless you both. Your brother from another mother, Patrick ♥️🙏
A friend gave me the Enneagram test and asked me to take it. Not to get involved in the Enneagram, but just to take the test. In someways save my life. I am 4 and I think 4’s struggle more than the rest of other people. It was a game changer for me when I learned that there were other people out there like me that think and feel the same way I do. I didn’t want to do it when I first asked to take the test, but I am so glad and thankful that I did.
Thank you so much for the teaching, it is so encouraging you understand 🙏yes the ache is frightening many years of it, just now starting to know His love for me I need to learn love for me, and experience it. Exactly no interaction
Lack of nurture. Exactly. There is a book about emotional neglect and how not having what you should have had is just as hurtful as having something wrong you shouldn’t have. The fact that we didn’t even know what we were missing and had no cause to point to makes it that much harder to understand the problem.
I feel like I live an empty life and as if I don't really have much value for life b/c I live without a sense of purpose. I have no love, friends, or any sense of support system. God is distant Himself. I feel like with the things I've attempted to persevere in have led to failed expectations on top of already having lived hard life. I've asked to go home, but God didn't answer. I told him that if it wasn't for my concern about hell, I would be gone.
When you think about it, Christs greatest blessing to us in the present is kindness. There’s been so many times where I didn’t know how to be kind to myself and Jesus saved me from that unfruitfulness.
I found out that alcohol would change how I felt about sadness, loneliness at about 13. Of course the feeling you speak of make no sense to me. I've had physical aches and pains but the rest I did my best to rid myself of. Not feeling good enough has tortured me through it all. Alcoholics Anonymous says I need to let God in and let Him help me, neither of these I have no clue how to do. These concepts don't make sense. My wife get mad at me when I tell her not to do something for me. I don't think she needs to because I can do it myself, then I'm considered selfish. I have no idea how to get pass these things. I have learned that I'm best by myself, that way I have only one person that will be mad at me, that one is me. I had two marriages while under the influence and this one straight, it's still the same. I'm approaching 69 so how do I address these issues? Knowing that nothing gets fixed doesn't help, it just makes me want to dig up Adam and Eve and kick them in their butts.
@@iw9338 The phrase "it is impossible to please God without faith." Then it dawned on me that I have been focused on me trying to do things rather than focusing on God while I do thing. I know and have known that I couldn't be here with Him. In spite of knowing this basic concept I got it all twisted. I've been looking in the wrong direction.
This is what I feel confused about. Should I run to God and just sit there in the pain when it is bad, or am I supposed to run to a person to try to connect to someone?
Maybe both :) I don’t know but sometimes it helps to have someone who listens or who prays with you. And sometimes we need to get closer to God on our own. I believe that God wants to heal us through relational connection with him and with others. So try Both Julie and don’t give up on your journey :) I am also in a Season where God wants to heal my broken heart and fill those empty places with Love. It’s very difficult sometimes to go through that pain 🙈 But it’s worth it 😄
@@smokingcrab2290 Me, too! I journal, go on a walk, or sit in my backyard and talk to God. Then if I need to bounce things off of a human or have someone just listen, I pray about who I should go to and He always provides the answers.
Sorry that you have feel that way, if i was were you were you would have a Godly hug from me, God love & hug you every moment in the day, i even learned to love myself & hug myself, there is no greater love , than the love of Christ, at times when i feel alone, or emotional, i gets some were inside or outside & focus on God word& myself, its a good feeling, even when you dont feel a smile, smile anyways, tell yourself you love you, 💖
I was betrayed and left for another woman by my ex husband which I knew for 16 years. It was traumatic because I never expected it. It changed my life. There is a reason for my emptiness. I don’t feel I ever got over that. It’s been 11 years and I have not been able to meet anyone new. My heart is broken and my life is empty. Could you do a teaching on betrayal trauma and reconnecting with God after that trauma. It feels like a punishment.
At best I feel nothing. The other times I feel hopeless that my life will not get better . An abusive alcoholic I’m having trouble escaping doesn’t help. This world is not my home and I long for eternity with Jesus. It seems to be far away in the future.
@@ErictheCleric1 I know it’s so hard when resentment builds up, especially when it feels like the hurt and disappointment keep weighing you down. But through my own healing journey, I’ve learned that Jesus offers us a path to freedom from that bitterness. I used to carry so much anger and resentment, and it was only through forgiveness-allowing myself to release the pain and trust in God’s grace-that I began to heal. Jesus showed us the ultimate example of forgiveness, even when it seemed impossible. He forgave those who hurt Him deeply, and by His strength, we can do the same. I encourage you to bring your hurt to Him and let Him carry it for you. It’s a process, but trust that He’ll guide you through it, giving you the peace and healing you need. It’s okay to feel hurt, but don’t let resentment hold you captive. Jesus’ love can help you heal and find compassion, even for those who’ve hurt you.
Mark, you have so much compassion for people and their struggles. So appreciative of you.
Agree! Thank you for your ministry, Mark!
The content you share is better than anything on UA-cam. You are legit brother…. I pray you have millions of subscribers who will listen to what you have to say. Thank you Jesus
Sometimes when this happens to me, I feel grief about my lost childhood. That my parents are dead and I wish I could go back and relive those memories.
Oh wow that's how I feel you worded it perfectly
@@AdmiringDrone-on5rnme too nothing the same
Jesus is rebooting, rebuilding me not on the childhood I had within my family, but new from the beginning with and based on Him. Wading through deep mud right now, this brings new hope, thank you
"it's not what you're feeling, it's how you interpret it."
Great quote
i love you Mark. You taught my wife to understand what kind of issues i face as a mentally ill person. What you teach about depression, anxiety, OCD, and intrusive thoughts, Jesus taught me as well. It has been so refreshing to hear you speak reason, faith, love and hope in Jesus in the crazy world mental illness.
I struggle to that heart connection with Gods Love a lot. I don’t experience peace or nurture in prayer. I feel mistunderstood by God and not really seen… I know about my father and mother wounds and the Influce of my past. But it’s so hard to trust that Gods Love is the best for me when you have a narcissistic father who also Always says: I just want the best for you. And he argues very well but it’s like poison to my soul.
I don’t know hot to connect to God on a different level because „the best for me“ was never the best for me…
And when I pray to God and look after his presence and leading I get often disappointed. So I feel like its all on me. God is not really a help.
It’s not the truth, but it’s hard to connect to a perfect love that you never experienced…
I hear you. You are not alone (if this helps you to be seen).
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This is exactly the problem I have. I can't trust God, I'm too scared of death and the afterlife. I know God is the truth but I don't know how to accept His promises.
Oh wow I feel really seen.
Coping mechanisms that keep you safe. Although you must now wake up to the lies that were put upon you from flesh. Can only learn that there is a better place away from Generational curses. When you realise you will not deny yourself again
Yeah I’m like why can’t I just be content in any situation? Nothing is “wrong.” I’m glad to hear someone else describe it. It makes me feel a fear of time not passing, like the day will never end. I definitely can’t stand to be at home when it happens. I also start wondering how other people “bear” their day (especially if they are stuck at home!).
This makes me wonder how many of us go to churches where many people feel just like us, and yet everyone is afraid to talk about it and so we feel alone.
EXACTLY!!!!
Yes! This scripture comforts me so much if I get into depression. Darkness is a light to you! I can never escape from your presence! Psalms are so helpful because David suffered so much with mental anguish.
I had this ache, I’m currently feeling it now, I have been trying to numb it with food, masturbation, sugar. This last Christmas I felt it soo much I started to cry to Jesus to help me and take it away. This video seems to shed more light on it. I really pray I can go through it, learn and be healed
I am seeing this three years later, and the timing is perfect. Thank you for allowing God to use you to speak to my heart tonight.❤
I’m getting in touch with these deep feelings at 70 years old
Me too. Mark's talks will never age...he brings hope and light to many "hidden" topics. I truly salute him and his wife for the immensely helpful insight they bring.
I think those days where we're really going through it are the days we should draw closer to God and ask him to fill those empty places and heal the broken.places that need gods healing,that really only God can heal.god always wants us to come to him first.
Yes, I can feel so much hurt sometimes over friends’ health problems or difficult lives. It’s like my empathy goes into overdrive.
Sometimes its such a tangled web we don't know how to begin unweaving it.
I love this image. Yes I feel this. I get so overwhelmed trying to untangle it feels like I make no progress and I’m exhausted.
@@jackienotes Stop. The problem is not the problem!
Yes, I asked Holy Spirit, where do I begin...
Journaling is good for bringing out stuff before God a
your ministry is a breath of fresh air, a slap (in love), and a hug. God bless you, living out your purpose helping us all. 💙
I’ve been a widow 18 years and I can’t remember the last time someone hugged me
Oh, darling! Don't you have a church where brothers & sisters give you a hug? Even if one person does it. In my church we do before the service. Praying that you'll find this. The Lord knows you need it.
@@barbarasparks3419 hugs are so needed! Yesterday at Costco I turned a corner too fast and almost ran into a lady coming around the other side.. we looked at each other and laughed, apologized… then … we just hugged each other! Complete strangers.. I said “ that’s ok, I think we both just needed a hug❤️My husband who was pushing the cart said “ do you know her?”.. I smiled and said “ no, we just collided and dcidd to turn it into a hug!” Maybe Barbara, you could volunteer at a senior care center, daycare where you just go to read books???
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Mark, I’ve been binge watching your channel since I found it a week ago. I appreciate you and your wife and your ministry! You really know how to get to the heart of the matter and you understand all the intricacies of the mind like no one I’ve ever seen. God has really blessed your ministry and you are doing Gods work! I’ve started journaling and trying to get connected to God and receive his love as my father. I’m also reading experiencing the love of the father. You are right- the church as a whole has lost sight of nurturing Gods people and everyone can/will give you a pat answer to an intricate problem you have. Inside we are all struggling but the show must go on. I like how you said maybe some of the pain I’m feeling is how God feels seeing what is happening with his bride. I believe that! I’ve been obsessed with trying to do everything right and by the book but the more I try the worse I feel and most days I’m going in reverse. Then I get overwhelmed thinking God is mad at me which puts me down inside of a deep pit and I wonder how I’ll climb out and be perfect for God. Your material has helped me realize I need to go back to the beginning and understand Gods love for me, his acceptance and grace. Thank you again and bless you
I can't wait for night to get here, and at night, I can't wait for the morning to come
Reminds me of Deuteronomy 28:67, "In the morning you will say, “If only it were evening!” and in the evening, “If only it were morning!”Derek Prince has teaching on YT, "How to go from curse to blessing."
All the best!
I praise God for you brother! What a blessing you truly are to us as the body of CHRIST..
The reality is that sometimes it is just you and God. Nothing should ever usurp your personal walk with God
I really benefited from this so much. It’s exactly what I’ve been working through with God. Thank you!
I'm going to start with the Heart Healing Journey! Thank you. Someone understands me. First time in my life. I'm 62
Oh wowww, I was thinking at my age of 62, I have really screwed up my life, I would often look at my past journey, bad choices, mistakes, living off my negative emotional energy, hurts,& pains, but I finally figured it out,to keep God first, love him more than anything & anyone, & love myself, & everything else will fall in place, so I am on that journey of the next chapter or journey of my life as well, I have been doing a lot of self help, being open within myself, taking countibilies for all my bad decisions in choosing healthy relationships, but now being free gives me the space & time to feel a healthy & happy place, I wish you all the strength & blessings you need to heal, & make a new journey for yourself,
A lady I was listening to on UA-cam said when we do something to stop the ache/fear, we are reinforcing that behavior we wish we would not do. (In my case running away, eating, trying to run to a person to stop the loneliness I am feeling at that moment). Yes, it’s almost like a panic to make it stop.
This really blessed me last night. I had been struggling with an incredible sense of emptiness, fear and those what ifs. Religious scrupulosity is difficult, and I've been a sufferer since I was 5 years old. It comes and goes in cycles, with unique triggers. But the the inability to nuture myself, struck a chord. You're right, I lacked that nurture during childhood, specifically around religious themes. My father was a pastor, and all of the teachings I had absorbed carried frightening images I couldn't escape. All of this I carried secretly.
I listened to a song today and I wanted to share it because it allowed me to nurture myself today. As I walked out nuturing myself, it felt good for a change.
Thank you for putting this episode together. And thank you to the woman who was so articulate and described many of our aches, and challenges.
Look What You've Done
by Tasha Layton
Look what you've done
How could you fall so far
You should be ashamed of yourself
So I was ashamed of myself
The lies I believed
They got some roots that run deep
I let em take a hold of my life
I let em take control of my life
Standing in your presence, Lord
I can feel you diggin' all the roots up
I feel ya healin' all my wounds up
All I can say is hallelujah
Look what you've done
Look what you've done in me
You spoke your truth into the lies I let my heart believe
Look at me now
Look how you made me new
The enemy did everything that he could do
Oh, but look what you've done
Suddenly all the shame is gone
I thought I was too broken, now I see
You were breaking new ground inside of me
Standing in your presence, Lord
I can feel you diggin' all my roots up
I feel ya healin' all my wounds up
All I can say is hallelujah
Look what you've done
Look what you've done in me
You spoke your truth into the lies I let my heart believe
Look at me now
Look how you made me new
The enemy did everything that he could do
Oh, but look what you've done
On the cross, in a grave
With a stone, rolled away
All my debt, it was paid
Look what you've done
In my heart, in my mind
In my soul, in my life
With my hands lifted high
I'm singing
Look what you've done
Look what you've done in me
You spoke your truth into the lies I let my heart believe
Look at me now
Look how you made me new
The enemy did everything that he could do
Oh, but look what you've done
On the cross, in a grave
With a stone, rolled away
All my debt, it was paid
Look what you've done
In my heart, in my mind
In my soul, in my life
With my hands lifted high
I'm singing
Look what you've done
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Thx for sharing the song!!!
Wow
MY GOD!!!! ThIs was for me . I have been feeling this ache this distance , this uneasiness .. unsettled spirit between my thoughts and emotions … and ive been trying to busy myself LIVING life not focusing on my thoughts and emotions and it just won’t go away. This was a blessing!!!!!!! My friend just asked me “do you think God could be calling you deeper ?” And I thought she was absolutely crazy when she said it …. Lol 😂 but ! You just said the same thing . Wow
This is an absolute must watch video and I wish every pastor would watch it instead of staying on the treadmill of churchianity and imposing their religiosity on their poor congregations. For that matter the same goes for parents, teachers and church leaders in any capacity.
Listening to this, I received a revelation about what God is saying to me about "there is nothing new under the sun." It is that the new creation we are to reach and work for is Jesus who is above the sun and all things.
In the same way Jesus says don't work for the bread that parishes. But that our hearts desire is to reach for Him and He is True Love and THE Comforter. We present the ache to Him. Thanks I have a portion of NEW hope in a situation where I see no hope under the sun.
It's interacting with how good God is that brings change.
Another great quote
I appreciate your ministry. Definitely relate to getting way too heady with the OCD repentance cycle. Thank you Mark!
I just found this channel. I am amazed how much everything you say resonates with me. I was looking for help and guidance for an honest reevaluation and interpretation of my Christian life. It is-like my thoughts are being organized through what you are saying. Thank God for your life
This has been so helpfullllllll. Now I know I can take what I am feeling to God, i don't have to try and fix it by myself. It also shows that it's a call for healing in my heart that I am not aware of instead of labelling it
This just popped up in my feed, it’s what I’ve been asking God about. Thank you Mark for giving some direction on this, and also the beautiful person that wrote that email for bringing up this subject. ❤
As a HSP and an artist, I thought these feelings I struggled with were just related to that and overthinking etc.
I CAN relate! To it All! It's right where I'm at. I walk with the Lord, but feel a constant ache and heaviness in my heart. I can't seem to fix it. I keep saying, what's wrong with me?
I love God so much. BUT I'm not loving me!
It's very disheartening. Thank you Mark, thank you for all you do.
Patrick
I am afraid of emotions, the allowance feeling all those things you say I should allow. I don't like quiet because I see all my failures. I'm better with others than I am with myself. You say to "slow down", that's hard to accept because I'm playing catch up. I'm heading towards 70 and more than 40 years of that was in addiction, drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling had too much failure in it and failed very well all by myself. I have a heard time sticking to praying and bible reading. I am not a church person that this information is geared towards, I'm hoping for a beginning point, something I can hold on to. I'm retired and somewhat disabled, this drives me crazy because I'm stuck with me, I guess I can't get out of God's way. I don't understand the hug thing even though I've heard that it's good for you. I've done it in NA and AA but I didn't get any results. I guess I've gotten use to not having nurture, compassion, all those soft things. I don't trust myself to do what is required of me to do, success for my has been very limited,
I love listening to you Mark
You are a comfort to listen too
Dude this content has made me feel more seen and more heard than any other content I've ever absorbed. All other content misses the mark. But this really hits home and speaks to me at every level.
Misses the "Mark" Lol
@@radvibes right XD I thought the same thing lolol
Thank you Mark, listening to you helped me realise I’ve stopped loving myself, it’s so freeing just thinking about it, and that I can do it because He loves me and has been showing that to me.. I paused as I listened to you say just be quiet, and asked God to help me reveal why I have this pain feeling I cant tell where its coming from - love you brother for your work, bless you
I hate feeling not so connected to God, yet I kinda appreciate it. I never knew people have these emotional spiritual issues until it hit me. I pray that God will use me someday to help those spiritually hurt. Now I get it.
Thank you! This message really blessed my heart. I am finding crying out to God can start to heal that ache. My controlling perfection mindset comes in and I desire so much to have peace in my heart
An achy heart! I think i've found the words to describe my situation! It comes on in the evenings and nights. This heaviness and achyness is gone by morning. But that's how I can identify how heavy the achyness was the night before! It's awful 😢
I have the same experience but only when I wake up(it can be naps too).
Sucks because it seems like all I want to do is sleep but I’m afraid of the feeling I get when I wake up.😪
Wow this was so timely and spirit led I believe
And Mark , praise God you got outta The Show. I join you in that. Thanks for leading the way out by following Him!!
You've literally helped open my heart and I can sense my own vulnerability n humanity for once, thank you! U have no idea
Often if I start praying in tongues it will release emotions I didn’t realize I was feeling (I start crying and grieving). Also I am making myself try writing about my feelings more.
Writing is huge….🙏….it really solidifies and frees the soul up quite a bit….i’m just too busy to do it very much.🥲
Yes, youre so right mark, just sum understanding goes a long way and brings relief...we still have to walk thru things but it is a big help just to have sum understanding...
The ache can be a Godly Desire God has given us but is growing you and me through the patience. mine is Godly companionship not in an idol way but a companionship that glorifies God. I know this comes from growth, endurance, trust, sitting with him and lastly action when he says nows the time.
You posted 3 years ago. But I have only just found it - in season!!! Praise God that I found it now when I really need it. And you have highlighted so so much. Thank you. Blessings to you and your wife!!!
The insight about being born again is staggering. So gtrateful to you Mark for this.
I have complex post-traumatic stress from being homeless and having chronic pain, living in my truck. I'm definitely a trooper and not a pooper although you can't trust a fart over 40 as I just turned 40 some sage advice lol. But my process for the calling on my life the wilderness behind that has been brutal and growing, the isolation and the loneliness the need to be seen and understood and really comforted by other spirit-filled brethren it's probably the greatest ache in the heart especially with my prophetic tendencies I need someone to understand me and walk with me. But alas the community I'm a part of they really just don't have a grid for it and I think they look at all the external factors of challenges that I deal with and just kind of stand far off from me and avoid me as if I'm responsible for my issues which I'm but where if the LOVE from the believers. It amazes me how people can be aware of what I'm going through on a daily and nobody in church comes up to say hi or ask how I'm doing or offered to pray for me or drop of an encouraging prophetic word on me.
Spiritually dead- the road is narrow...
Thankyou once again mark for yr words etc...thankyou for yr wisdom and tackling the subjects you do.. grass roots stuff ...
I experience authenticity on this channel. Thank you.
I can relate so much to the lady who wrote this email. She expressed so well what I couldn't put words to... Hearing her email was so helpful just to be reminded others are experiencing this too. Your input was very very helpful & this is exactly what I needed to hear this morning... Thank you 🙏🥰
This is exactly how l feel
Thank you for your talk. You were such a help this evening in encourage me to rest in what the Lord has for me in this moment, this season of life and transition. Some transitions take a lonnnng time.😄 Patience and mercy to myself and others so key. Praying for you!
Mark your messages have given me a new insight of how God really loves ❤ us. Gos Bless you Buddy!😊
I am truly pathetic at the relational space. I constantly ache. But your videos like this show me how you "know and have really been there" thanks for your vulnerability
I feel numb after years of longing for nurture and fulfillment....
I long for connecting with Jesus and God.....I try not to lean on my understanding yes I want eden I want everything to be good and right I want life here and now
I obviously need to re-read your books. A couple of years have passed and I am at a different level of healing now, too. I find attending Celebrate Recovery to be very helpful, especially going through the 12 steps.
For me the emptiness was numbness from all the pain I had to feel and go trough because of a trauma. I think ptsd can leave you with emptiness too or numbness maybe those two things are a bit diffrent (numbness vs emptiness)
So good and apropos of the times. I sense that God the Father is prompting me to dig down those roots to reach water. So many of us endured such evil upbringings with an absolute drought of love from parents and from our impression of God. Please make a video for us. Shalom. Great video. I will sow at my first opportunity.
Yes, so true….missing that childhood nurture, even at my age
19:59 that is where I am at Mark. I will stay there and let God move…in hope.
Such a lifesaver podcast! So real, thank you🙏🏻🙏🏻
This email is exactly where I am at. I can totally relate. How accurate is this email of me. The only difference is that I’m single. Other than that, it’s totally me.Yearning for more if God yet feeling something is missing and painful. I’m not seeking to be soothed from others any
more. I’m waiting, for what? Scary😟
Thank you, this was such a blessing
Thanks!
This is so good! 😊
Mark thank you so much for being a light for me, I’ve struggled so long with OCD and it’s seemingly endless unique trials. Your channel and your work has given me so much rest, hope, and wisdom that I can now use to equip myself against these evil principalities and spirits
There is this thing about not ever complaining, complain you remain. Speak as though everything is good and then you are trusting God. Everytime I have a moan about anything I immediately regret it as if 'oh no I've vocalised it now!
Please mark.
I'm ocd, overthinking, hsp, etc. I walk closely to and with God. I relate very much to this.
PLEASE, PLEASE,TELL WHICH IF YOUR BOOKS I SHOULD START WITH!
I have overcome many addictions, but I'm still hanging onto a few others. Please tell me which book.
God Bless you both.
Your brother from another mother,
Patrick ♥️🙏
A friend gave me the Enneagram test and asked me to take it. Not to get involved in the Enneagram, but just to take the test. In someways save my life. I am 4 and I think 4’s struggle more than the rest of other people. It was a game changer for me when I learned that there were other people out there like me that think and feel the same way I do. I didn’t want to do it when I first asked to take the test, but I am so glad and thankful that I did.
There right now. Be still, pain is rising, so is me talking to God.
2nd time in listening to this. And Amen sister, they help me and make me feel the same way
Thank you so much for the teaching, it is so encouraging you understand 🙏yes the ache is frightening many years of it, just now starting to know His love for me I need to learn love for me, and experience it. Exactly no interaction
Thank you for this.
It’s GOOD Mark!!!! 🙏🏼❤️
Lack of nurture. Exactly. There is a book about emotional neglect and how not having what you should have had is just as hurtful as having something wrong you shouldn’t have. The fact that we didn’t even know what we were missing and had no cause to point to makes it that much harder to understand the problem.
I needed this! Thank you!
This spoke to me so much-- I really tied into childhood nurturing THANKYOU so much!
Amazing! Thank you❤
I feel like I live an empty life and as if I don't really have much value for life b/c I live without a sense of purpose. I have no love, friends, or any sense of support system. God is distant Himself. I feel like with the things I've attempted to persevere in have led to failed expectations on top of already having lived hard life. I've asked to go home, but God didn't answer. I told him that if it wasn't for my concern about hell, I would be gone.
You are loved. your life matters. God doesn’t make junk. Praying for you.
Same here similar journey
I've found really good pastors to disciple seek out those if possible
Thank you dude! God bless you ❤
Thanks Mark
glad I found you
When you think about it, Christs greatest blessing to us in the present is kindness. There’s been so many times where I didn’t know how to be kind to myself and Jesus saved me from that unfruitfulness.
I feel the ache!
I found out that alcohol would change how I felt about sadness, loneliness at about 13. Of course the feeling you speak of make no sense to me. I've had physical aches and pains but the rest I did my best to rid myself of. Not feeling good enough has tortured me through it all. Alcoholics Anonymous says I need to let God in and let Him help me, neither of these I have no clue how to do. These concepts don't make sense. My wife get mad at me when I tell her not to do something for me. I don't think she needs to because I can do it myself, then I'm considered selfish. I have no idea how to get pass these things. I have learned that I'm best by myself, that way I have only one person that will be mad at me, that one is me. I had two marriages while under the influence and this one straight, it's still the same. I'm approaching 69 so how do I address these issues? Knowing that nothing gets fixed doesn't help, it just makes me want to dig up Adam and Eve and kick them in their butts.
I hear you and am praying for you. Maybe a Bible based 12 step group could help.🙏🙏💜
@@iw9338 The phrase "it is impossible to please God without faith." Then it dawned on me that I have been focused on me trying to do things rather than focusing on God while I do thing. I know and have known that I couldn't be here with Him. In spite of knowing this basic concept I got it all twisted. I've been looking in the wrong direction.
Good topic
Thank u bro
I'm emotionally overwhelmed
This is what I feel confused about. Should I run to God and just sit there in the pain when it is bad, or am I supposed to run to a person to try to connect to someone?
Maybe both :)
I don’t know but sometimes it helps to have someone who listens or who prays with you. And sometimes we need to get closer to God on our own. I believe that God wants to heal us through relational connection with him and with others. So try Both Julie and don’t give up on your journey :) I am also in a Season where God wants to heal my broken heart and fill those empty places with Love. It’s very difficult sometimes to go through that pain 🙈 But it’s worth it 😄
I run to God first. I go straight to the source. And then I ask him to bring people into my life, and He does.
@@smokingcrab2290 Me, too! I journal, go on a walk, or sit in my backyard and talk to God. Then if I need to bounce things off of a human or have someone just listen, I pray about who I should go to and He always provides the answers.
I want him I ache all the time but I feel so wrong and I long to be with God
Sorry that you have feel that way, if i was were you were you would have a Godly hug from me, God love & hug you every moment in the day, i even learned to love myself & hug myself, there is no greater love , than the love of Christ, at times when i feel alone, or emotional, i gets some were inside or outside & focus on God word& myself, its a good feeling, even when you dont feel a smile, smile anyways, tell yourself you love you, 💖
off-topic - I was actually waiting for fo r the intro song lol haha...enjoyed the video
“How was your spiritual childhood?” That was an aha moment. Will sit on that in self care.
Nothingness is a great term for it.
I was betrayed and left for another woman by my ex husband which I knew for 16 years. It was traumatic because I never expected it. It changed my life. There is a reason for my emptiness. I don’t feel I ever got over that. It’s been 11 years and I have not been able to meet anyone new. My heart is broken and my life is empty. Could you do a teaching on betrayal trauma and reconnecting with God after that trauma. It feels like a punishment.
At best I feel nothing. The other times I feel hopeless that my life will not get better . An abusive alcoholic I’m having trouble escaping doesn’t help. This world is not my home and I long for eternity with Jesus. It seems to be far away in the future.
I have a problem with deep resentment against my parents for what they did to me and my sister. Find myself cussing at them alone in my room.
@@ErictheCleric1
I know it’s so hard when resentment builds up, especially when it feels like the hurt and disappointment keep weighing you down. But through my own healing journey, I’ve learned that Jesus offers us a path to freedom from that bitterness. I used to carry so much anger and resentment, and it was only through forgiveness-allowing myself to release the pain and trust in God’s grace-that I began to heal. Jesus showed us the ultimate example of forgiveness, even when it seemed impossible. He forgave those who hurt Him deeply, and by His strength, we can do the same. I encourage you to bring your hurt to Him and let Him carry it for you. It’s a process, but trust that He’ll guide you through it, giving you the peace and healing you need. It’s okay to feel hurt, but don’t let resentment hold you captive. Jesus’ love can help you heal and find compassion, even for those who’ve hurt you.