Seeing your husband cry makes me cry because I went thru a lot of miscarriages and my husband never cried. In fact he would go to work the next day, and it damaged me even more. You have chosen the best man for this journey!
I'm so sorry you felt that way after your miscarriages. If it helps, after my miscarriage I read that men need structure in their life so that is why they go back to their everyday lives so quickly. ❤️
I went thru 5 miscarriages and felt the same way as you, cause I never saw my husband affected, but after 10 years I opened up to him and let him know how I felt back then and he broke down, he said he was trying to be strong for me and to not make me feel worst
Guys deal with things differently than we do. My son was in the nicu for 2 weeks and I had so much resentment towards my husband because he went to work as soon as our son came home but we were both dealing with things differently and now we have explained to each other how we both truly felt in the moment and he said he felt helpless.
I'm so sorry you went through this it's truly one of the toughest thing to go through, is loosing our babies. It's also tough on our hubbies even if they don't show it the way we do. They cope with grief in their own way. Our true peace and unconditional love is found in our Lord Jesus Christ🙏💞
@@luppe533 it doesn’t have to do with anything girl, she’s just spreading awareness on what happened. many children and a teacher lost their lives today. why ask this anyways. all our hearts are going out to those children, teacher, & their families.
Seeing Brian cry makes me so so sad. Hearing him talk about how most men don’t talk about their emotions when they lose a child made me realize my husband never grieved for our talked about the baby we lost. Now that I’m pregnant i look back and I could see he was nervous to get close to our new baby in the first and second trimester and now he’s opening up and getting close to our daughter. Thank you for sharing 🤍 prayers sent y’all’s way always 🙏🏻
We had a stillborn in 2020. My husband was left with anger from losing our baby boy, a couple of days ago he dreamed he was chasing after him in between a huge crowd our baby finally stopped running and with his back turned to my hubby he said " tell mommy and sissy I love them, you need to let go of your anger because I am in a happy place now with lots of friends in heaven, I'm watching over you and one day I will see you again. My husband woke up crying but this dream made us realize that he's still with us no matter what and that he just wants us to live happy ❤️. I hope this message helps any of you parents have some peace after reading this message 😊
No one expects you guys to be okay. I can’t understand what it’s like to be going through what you two are but grief and healing is a slow process. I’ll keep you guys in my prayers 🙏🏻
I honestly love that Bryan let’s himself be emotional and grieve and he’s not trying to put up a front. I hope this helps other men grieving. I’m happy you guys have each other to lean on! It’s amazing to see that although you guys are going through something so horrific you guys are there for each other loving and uplifting one another. I hope everyday you guys feel a little more peace and happiness 🙏♥️
I came across something today “ If you simply can’t understand why someone is grieving so much ,for so long, then consider yourself fortunate that you do not understand” 🤍🤍🤍Everyday I continue to pray for your little family, there are no words I can say...🥺
Bryan and Mayra, I want to thank you for making this video. I am only 18 years old, never been in a relationship, never been pregnant, never have experienced anything that you and Bryan have gone through in the past year, but this video truly brought me to tears. I think that whether you are a parents, grieving parent or just a person, the things you said in this video were just gold. Thank you for giving people like me a new perspective, a better way to understand others and respect people because we never know what others are going through. Grief is something that never fully goes away but everyone copes with it differently, and you are so right in saying that nobody should judge until they’ve been in that persons shoes. I am praying that one day your dream comes true Mayra, you and Bryan deserve nothing but happiness all while honouring your angel baby Bryancito. I love you two so very much, thank you for taking us on this journey with you and sharing what you want to and can. We are all here for you and never forget how much love you are surrounded with ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Your baby boy would be so proud of you xoxo
When Mayra said “we just love him so muchhh” and they both broke down.. I broke down right there with them😭😭😭 As a mom, I just felt that in my core. A parent’s love is like no other.❤️ No one will everrrr replace Bryancito… but I pray that God blesses them with another little bundle of joy soon🙏🏼 They just have sooo much love to give and deserve it so so much💗💗💗
There are no words that could ever make this better. You don’t have to share your journey or grief and you choose to let us in on that. You’re both amazingly brave people. I pray for healing over your hearts. 🤍
I feel like you can’t never replace a child. Regardless the situation or other people’s opinion. Only you guys that have gone through it know your struggle everyday. Just take it day by day. God bless you guys!
Thank you for this video, I've had 6 miscarriages and a stillborn my Nathaniel Luciano born sleeping at 26 weeks. These show us angel parents were not alone in our feelings. I wish u both nothing but light and love ❤️
I cry every time with you both, I find myself going back and looking at pictures of Bryansito and I wish what you both do. He has touched my life forever! I am a mom of 2 and you both will too be parents again, I know nothing will replace the void in your heart but they give you a reason to smile again.❤️🙏🏻
I lost my daughter on January 24, 2020. I thinking about her everyday and I miss her so much. Grief is so hard but is different for everyone. My husband doesn't show it and I wish he could like Bryan. You guys are so strong together. Our angels might be playing together 🤍🤍
I know this sounds HORRIBLE buut, im so glad to see Bryan cry!! 😭😭 hes always being so strong and holding it in and to finally see him be free and cry on here is just 🤗 its good for him to let it out and not try to be strong all the time! 💙 you guys are so strong! Wishing you guys good days ahead, lots of hugs and love to you guys!! 💙❤️
When you say you hate your life and you can’t believe this is your life, it hit home. I cried so much watching this because I understand the pain of losing a child. I tragically lost my 6 year old son in December 2020. He was murdered. And I also have moments where I think “how is this my life” what did I do to deserve this. So many negative but realistic thoughts. The reason I’ve been able to push through, as you said, is because of my husband. He is my rock and holds me down just like Bryan holds you down and comforts you. My husband also wakes up at 3,4,5 am to my screams and cries. I want to say you guys are shifting the POV of grief by sharing your story of Bryancito. 💞 Grief isn’t something to be fixed. It’s something that is integrated in this new life/nightmare with support of your loved ones. Thank you for doing this.
Thank you Bryan for sharing your emotions with us. I feel like society kind of forgets about the dads after something tragic like this happens. (Not saying that’s the case here at all) Looking at Bryan throughout this video and you can see that he is empty and broken. I see you Bryan and all of us see you. My heart is with you guys❤️ I cannot imagine the immense amount of grief that you guys are feeling. I know this pain will never go away but I know god has so many great blessings ahead for you guys.
I agree seeing other women that were pregnant at the same time as myself and seeing their kids growing up is definitely a trigger and it still is despite the fact that I was blessed to have a daughter after the loss of my son. The pain never goes away you just learn to live with it.
We stand with y’all it’s not easy and seeing parents neglecting or not wanting the blessing that God brought to them it’s a trigger!! Many blessings to y’all y’all are so brave
Mama get your reborn baby!! I had a miscarriage and it was one of the most sad/worst moments in my life. My husband bought me a baby cow plushy (we used to call my baby Becerrita) and I used to hug it and hold it so tight while I cried my eyes out. It helped me “materialize” my baby girl. After some time, my husband and I buried the plushy in our backyard garden. I also put the stuff I had bought for her in the box with the plushy and girl it HURT my heart but I have a place to go talk to her or if I need to I have a spot to go cry for her right here in my backyard. I can honestly say that having that space for her here in my yard helped me So much. Sending you both lots of love and wishing you guys strength! ❤️
I can't imagine losing a Child breaks my heart just thinking of it. I've lost both Parents and a Sister and that was hard enough. My prayers are with you both that God would always flood you both with His Peace, Comfort and Strength 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
You all are so brave, thank you for sharing your story with us. Grief is always in waves I lost my brother in 2020 and it's been one of the hardest things for my family. 🙏
I can’t imagine the pain you are going through and the grief you are dealing with everyday, you do what’s best for you and your mental health even if that means taking some time away from UA-cam. Sending you so much love!
I lost my baby 02/26/22, when I was 9.5cm dilated and it broke my heart. I can’t believe my baby is gone forever! Grief is so hard, and it doesn’t get easy at all. I’m also desperate to have another baby! But it’s all in gods hands❤️Prayers to your family! I feel like we are going through the same thing. I look up to BOTH of you. Especially you Mayra! Everything you said really is what I am feeling. Sending you a big big hug!
I lost my daughter at 20+3 and had to deliver her the next day and my boyfriend went back to work two days later. I had to grieve alone. It was so hard. He also told me he didn't want anymore (he has two older kids from a previous relationship) thank God I got pregnant 9 months later. She is the most amazing daughter and keeps going. I cry with her sometimes just talking about her sister. That hurt never goes away. Some days are great, some are hard to get out of bed. Praying you two get blessed with a healthy baby soon. ❤️❤️
2:30 Seeing Bryan breaks my heart. I pray that god blesses you both with more children 👧🏻 👦🏻 you both are going to be such great loving parents. Bryancito will always be with you guys 👼
Your emotions and feelings are extremely valid. There is nothing anyone can say to make you feel any different than what you have felt since the loss of Briancito. Only you know what you go through daily and I pray for your peace of mind. May God continue to guide you to continue to keep Briancito's memory alive for he will forever live through you two.
Praying for you two. Grief and trauma go hand in hand and your feelings are soooooooo understandable. I’m glad you guys are there for one another, that’s such a blessing. Your love and respect for one another is very apparent in this video. No one is going to understand what you’re going through like the person who chose to live this life with you who also lost their baby. Remember that you’re blessed to have each other and Biancito is with you always ❤️
Baby Bryancito is super blessed to have AMAZINGGGGG PARENTS LIKE YOU GUYS who CONSTANTLY have his MEMORY ALIVE AND VIVID!!!🥺🥺🙏🏽❤️✨ trust me, he sees, hears, and feels all your energy, and I know he is out there skipping and happy to know that he has the unconditional love from his parents🙏🏽💗💗 My prayers and love go to you guys and to lil Bryancito👼🙏🏽❤️🕊
Bryancito still is your purpose. God used him to spread so much light and hope in this world in his short but precious life. You’re incredible people who birthed an angel. Every time you guys talk about him and your griefs on your large platform you help so many grieving parents feel heard and not alone. I pray for you guys everyday. I’m so deeply sorry you beautiful people have to feel this pain. God bless you.
I’ve never been through anything like that, but when I look at my daughter I cry nothing ever happens too her, she is literally such an innocent soul. you guys are so strong mayra and Bryan. i just wanna hug you guys for so long, I cried watching this 😢 my mom has been thru something similar and it’s been about 4 years now & she is the same way, I feel so bad for anyone grieving a loss. I love you guys so much 😥💕❤️
Mayra, you are so strong, this video shows a lot of the healing you have done, I know you guys won’t ever be 100% healed, but I am so proud of you both! Praying you guys will be blessed with your miracle baby soon. 🤍
I just admire you both for the strength and courage you guys have after going through what you guys went through. The fact that Bryan cries in front of the camera is very empowering and it shows that it’s okay for men to cry too.
Don’t “try” just let it be. A family friend lost her daughter and was doing everything to get pregnant again, after she stopped trying she became pregnant
Everyone tells us this and yes it happened to me with my first after years of trying but now for my second after a miscarriage in 2018 and not trying and letting it be and enjoying my relationship we haven’t been blessed.
It's not fair to say that. There's actually women out there who cannot have kids. Whether they try or just let it be. I "just let it be" for 6 years until I actually tried to get pregnant and was successful. At the end of the day everyone is different.
I came upon your video just now. My husband and I just lost our youngest 1 week ago today. Emergency c section at 27 weeks. I was high risk to begin with and it was a 50/50 outcome. But I just had to fight for him. To give him a chance. Some days I have panic attacks, and some days I just cry uncontrollably. Some days I don’t cry as much and I feel so guilty for not grieving him. My husband is such a strong supportive person who always has his guard up and I encourage him to talk to me or even cry if he needs to. At the end of the day we’re his parents and we lost our baby boy. Everything you guys are experiencing both my husband and I are experiencing. Thank you for sharing.
This video hits home. I went through a miscarriage around November and it never gets easier. Thank you for showing that not being okay with loss is okay. There’s a lot of people that pretend everything is ok and want to move forward with life but in all honesty that’s just not how I view it. I love to feel even if it’s sadness. I wish you guys a future with many babies to give your love to. I myself cannot wait till I become a mom. That will be the day of just being in complete awe. Have a great day and always remember to validate your emotions. That’s what makes us human. Best wishes! 💕
I lost 2 babys and this is my therapy listening to y’all I cry through the whole video and feel the pain… it helps with my grieve I know it’s hard for y’all but believe it helps me and so many others. I block out everything because no one in my family knows what I’ve been through and been told to get over it but y’all are my safe place and make me feel like my feelings are valid & help my mental health. Thank you! Thanks you!! I send so much strength to y’all.💕
Y’all are amazing parents and I pray God blesses y’all with healthy babies soon in the mean time I pray for your mental health and heart - sending y’all love and light✨
Aww Bryan crying while Myra explaining the “trying again” question. My heart breaks for you both but I’m sending so much love and positivity and peace 🥺♥️
Broke my heart to hear Myra say" if I could go on top of a mountain & yell out I love you" 😢 My parents lost their first born a son as a baby & my dad had told me he went up to the sierra to cry & scream where no one could hear him. I find the strength you 2 have admirable, you say you aren't strong at all but you are. You both are finding ways to grieve & cope the best way you possibly can & that takes strength. God has big plans for you 2 & it'll be for the glory of bryancito. I love the way you honor his memory, there's so much love 💕
Thank you for opening up and sharing with us your grieving journey. I lost my Mom 6 days before you lost your baby, and I completely understand how much it has changed you, of course it’s not the same , but I understand all the emotions of loss and grief. And I just can’t believe there’s people that tell you to get over it, like the insensitivity of it all! Losing someone you love is part of your life and you carry that everyday for the rest of your life. I just wanna say thank you for sharing this journey because it helps so many people that are grieving to not feel alone. Sending love and healing❤️
I totally understand 💯💯💯 my first pregnancy 🤰🏻 I lost my baby @5months. My water broke & went into labor & I was only 15yrs old. Having to go into full labor & having my baby but she was a still born tore me apart. Holding her & seeing no heartbeat 💗 no sign of life is horrible🥺 I had her cremated so she can be close to me everyday💗 my 2nd pregnancy 🤰🏻 I was so scared cuz I never got answers to why that happened to me. Around my 5months of pregnancy 🤰🏻 I was getting pains & rushed to the hospital & thank god my baby boy was fine & was born @38weeks & he was healthy. I got pregnant a year later & around 5months again my water broke & rushed to the hospital for them to tell me I’m losing my baby boy, there’s a heartbeat 💓 but there’s nothing they can do for me. I was reliving it again I left that hospital to go to another 1 for no1 to help me. I lost my baby boy & again I had to give birth to a still born baby boy holding him knowing I tired to help him🥺🥺🥺 I have him cremated close to me everyday. I’ve asked the doctor why this happens it’s my second time & got no answers. I got pregnant 🤰🏻 again. I noticing a pattern now first baby I lost, 2 baby here with me, 3 baby lost 😞 & now I’m pregnant 🤰🏻 again this time as soon as I found out. I went to best High risk hospital near me. Told the male doctor my story. I’m in tears 😭 askin for him to plz help me with this pregnancy 🤰🏻 I don’t wanna go through that horrible labor & lose my child. He told me there’s nothin he can do for me to let whatever’s meant to happen be!!! THANK GOD‼️ a female doctor I’m guessing over heard me cuz I was not talkin low to him. I’m pretty loud & begging 🙏🏼 for help. This female doctor tells me to go into her office & she was my guardian Angel 👼🏼 she put me on some steroid shots once a week & had a midwife come to my house to give me my shots. I would get ultrasound done weekly also to check up on my baby. & @5 months I was getting bad pain when I went into the hospital where she worked at she had to close my cervix up so my baby wouldn’t come out before time. I gave birth @37 weeks to a healthy baby Girl. After that labor I decided to get my tubes tied only because I’m so scared my next pregnancy 🤰🏻 it will happen again & I can’t handle no more pain. God Blessed 🥲 me wit a boy 💙& girl💗 that I truly love ❤️ & fought for I don’t wanna chance it again. Till this day I never got any answers to why that happened to me. So if my daughter decides to have any kids I don’t know if she will have any issues🥺 it’s so scary to the unknown.. but God will Bless you’s. It crazy what we go through but us women are strong 💪🏼 continue to stay strong❤️ you’s got this💯💯💯
You might not read me but I wanted to let you know we are not alone. Sending you hugs I just went through it myself water broke when I was 21 weeks and they had to go in to labor knowing there was nothing they or I can do to help my baby boy 💙and knowing there was a heart beat and nothing wrong with him that was very sad and it continues to be really hard to cope with this grieving process. There’s no day I don’t pray for pregnant mommy and their baby’s . Just know you have angels looking out for you and one day we will se our baby’s again for an eternal life 🙏
You guys are so strong and the fact you are sharing which is never easy to talk about, we thank you for that. I really hope your guys time will come and sending many blessing your way. Bryancito will always be in your guys heart and watching 💕
From one bereaved mom to another, thank you for shedding light on your grief journey. Sending you and Bryan so much love and a big hug 🤍👼🏻🕊🦋 My due date was 2 weeks before you 🥺
I totally understand you , my husband and I feel the same. We lost our baby girl in December 2020 and yes one of the triggers is seeing all this parents that don’t care for their kids; we question God why those people get that privilege and we that have all the love for one , can’t. I’m still trying to get pregnant but some of us take a bit longer. My niece and I got pregnant the same time. Her baby and mine were due the same day; her baby made it and I thank God for his life but mine didn’t. Every time I see her baby all I can’t think is my baby should have been doing the same milenstones he’s doing. We became his godparents (we are honored), his such a special baby but is a bittersweet feeling; we love him but he remind us so much of our angel. It’s been a year and a half and we still cry, we still miss her. There is not a day that we don’t think of her. You carry this grief for ever; and no future baby will replace our first. I did take therapy but something I did notice is that my husband was such a great support and through the beginning he was the tough one, he only focus in my recovery physically and mentally that he forgot about him. It did get us so close and I felt more in love with my husband; I would of not been able to go thought a child lost with anyone else but my hubby, only a true warrior can try to make it through. Now after more than a year he is finally going to therapy. He held so much in just to help me, he put himself last and put me first☹️ But one of the things that helped us was my family and my church community. I got closer to God; even through my hurt and anger at times I was able to get closer to Him, to know He felt my pain and was with my husband and I in our darkness Days. Our prayers are with you and your hubby eventually you’ll learn to carry this grief and know one day we will meet our angels in heaven and there we will never again be apart from each other. ❤️ my babygirl Luna probably welcomed Bryancito when he made it to heaven. 😭 ❤️
My heart broke when when you said you hate life. I hate it too. But just know that he gave you a purpose when he was born and he will also give a purpose from heaven. Recuerda que no se muere el que se va, solo se muere el que se olvida. Love you girl ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I’m lifting you both up in prayer. Cling on to God, “be still and know that I am God” he will bless your family with a little one. Y’all’s story is helping so many families around the world. God is so proud of the courage and vulnerability that you’re sharing. God is good 🤍🙏🏼
Mama y’all are so strong! I’ve watched you guys since day one and it’s crazy how life changes! I pray that you and Bryan continue to strive ✨ God has given you guys so much strength, patience and knowledge he’s the only one that can bring you at ease, he will be there every step of the way never doubt! 🙏🏼
YOU GUYS ARE STRONG! and you know who gives you that strength? dios and you're baby bryancito, to get up every single day!!! My family lost 3 family members last year and I felt it when you said grief is a weird feeling. But you know what gives me hope? Knowing one day I will get to see and hug my loved one's in paradise. Where no pain, tears or death will be...you both are in my prayers❤️🩹🙏❤️
Bryan and mayra I wish I could give you both a hug. Seeing the emptiness in Bryan’s eyes is truly heart breaking. May god give you the strength and serenity
I really think Mayra would benefit from therapy .. it’s an impossibly difficult situation and like Bryan said a professional might be a great person to learn from. Seeing you lean on each other is a gift from god. Wishing you healing and a blessing of another child to give your love to.
I have a baby myself and you are right mayra , it’s the best love ever , it doesn’t compare to anyone else’s…. Aww made me cry seeing you guys cry 😢 god will give you guys a baby 🤍
I am so sorry for your guys loss. I can't even fathom how hard this must be for you both. It also blows my mind that people would tell you to get over it and move on. I am not someone who ever wants a child, they are just not for me, but I can only imagine the pain of losing one who was so wanted and so loved. There is no way you're just going to snap back and move on. There is no single way to grieve. It's an individual experience for every person. Do what feels right to you. You are both incredible people and I truly hope you are blessed with another child someday.
I lost my grandfather in December and it has been the hardest loss I’ve ever dealt with. He was my hero, father figure and my best friend. He was an award-winning Dirt Track Promoter in California and he is wildly revered within the racing community. We have had two memorial races dedicated to him and for me, seeing people honor him and pay their respects has been huge for my grieving process. Because as his family, we know exactly how much he has done and sacrificed for his passion of racing so to see him honored warms my heart. I know losing a grandparent is no where near the pain of losing a child but I really resonate with what you said about grief being a rollercoaster. I have been learning that healing is not linear and sometimes you have bad days and some days are great. Losing the person you love the most hurts no matter who it is, and I am keeping your family in my thoughts and well wishes. I know that doesn’t help your loss but please know that so many people are rooting for you.
I have a former NICU baby and I can’t imagine your pain. Our NICU time was the worst time in my life, the day he came home it was the best day of my life. NICU life is so hard but I can’t imagine the pain of being a bereaved mother either. Praying for you both that you can find peace and heal.
Grief is a huge rollercoaster! I know this isn’t like loosing a child, but my cat went missing Feb 2021. And there’s not a single day I don’t miss her or randomly cry. I still look for her. I recently got a tattoo of her so it’s helped me a bit. You guys are strong, even with all the breaking down. I truly wish nothing but the best for you guys. Thank you for sharing
I'm so proud of you and Bryan for being so open and honest. I know deep down talking about it is part of you healing, however don't ever feel pressured to talk because you are in social media. Bryan thank you for being a man and being there for Mayra and your son! God is listening I promise you both 🙏 ❤❤❤
Ugh my heart 🥺 I constantly pray for the both of you 🙏🤍🤍🤍 and there are never words to say to make you feel better. Just know you have so much support! And we love you king and queen 🤍🤍
Bryan saying he would relive it again and Mayra saying just to see his face again. If that ain’t strength I don’t know what is!! God bringing you guys closer together is everything! 🙏 ❤️ I literally go by the quote “with pain comes strength” I even got it tattooed. Just go day by day and know that God is more powerful than the enemy.
I am in aww right now! I literally just watched your last video and said out loud I wished you would do a Q&A bc I feel that you and Brian have gotten so much closer. I can see where you two lean on one another. It’s a beautiful thing to see. I think about your family often and you’re always in my prayers❤️
As a loss mom of two, I related to soooo much in this video. I share your feelings and views. Even down to the way you think about him and his friends at his resting spot. I’m so glad that you two have each other. I’m glad that you two acknowledge that these feelings are a forever thing. Knowing that helps to feel your feelings. Sending you both so much love ❤️
Losing a loved one or a child is not only the hardest part of life but the most difficult and you never ever stop grieving. There are so many emotions the breakdowns and many of us simply don’t just get over it all. I lost my brother two years ago we were so close and I recall a doctor who told me life goes on. I said no we all grieve differently externally I may be smiling but internally I’m so broken into pieces. Oh i I wish I could be a mother like you said but my health is always complex so I break down. I understand how you feel take your time, you’re each other’s strength and support 🫶🏼♥️🙏🏼
I’m not a cryer but when I watched this I teared up, prayers to you and Bryan and you whole family, I hope everyday that goes by you can feel a little more peace and hope, and I hope one day your blessed with another beautiful healthy little baby🙏🏼🤍🤍
I don’t have kids yet, but I truly understand. It’s not easy, but you’re pushing through. Things will come into play. I have friends who lost their babies, it’s hard after a few years they got pregnant. As long as you have your support system, that’s all it matters. When you get pregnant, it will happen when you less expect it. Things will get better, I’m glad you’re able to be open up and share your story. Forget everyone asking if you’re trying, like when it happens it will happen.
My prayers are still with you guys.I cried watching this and I don’t know how it to compare what you guys went through.It’s heartbreaking that people are being inconsiderate about you sharing this with us.You are both strong and I’m glad to see that things are getting better with time. The process of grieving is different for everyone but I’m glad that there are projects that are motivating you in a good way and I can’t wait to support it.Much love 🤍
Seeing you be so open with us I know took a lot! Especially when Bryan said the whole kids being neglected because I think it everyday wanting to save those babies and seeing close friends/family go through what you did and it breaks my heart. You’ll never replace him even after a kiddo comes it helps but that void is still there. I love that you make him present in everything! You’re amazing angel baby parents and I can’t wait to see you with future kiddos. Don’t stress it now having gone through a bit of infertility I find when you stress it more it’s when it least happens. God’s timing is perfect. Love that you guys are sharing this because so many of us go through silent trials and seeing people go through it and show the realness of it all helps so much. Praying for your healing and through your grief. 🥺❤️
I completely understand what you’re saying Mayra. I lost my baby at 20 weeks, and I cried and cried for so long, I finally got pregnant again 2 years later and yes of course one baby does not replace another but he gave me purpose again. And that’s honestly when I stopped being so depressed from my loss
My heart 💔 thank you both for being so real, for sharing your story. Praying for God to surround you both in peace, love, and guidance. I can’t even imagine how difficult this season of life has been but to see how much love you both have for your son is so beautiful 🤍🤍🤍
MYRA i do remember you speaking on the topic of therapy but feeling unsafe going. im really proud of bryan taking that step! I think it would benefit you soooo much queen. ive been going for 2 years now and something about a professional a caring one is helpful.
My baby was in the NICU exactly a year ago he’s about to turn 1 and a few months after I found out about your baby’s passing and you’re always in the back of my head when I look at my son hearing you guys story and what you have gone through really makes me cherish my son and love him so much more because if I don’t who will ! Sending you positive vibes you will get pregnant soon gods timing is perfect 🤍
The question about if you would consider a reborn baby for therapeutic reasons was from me 🫶🏼 i know it’s something different and many can find it weird or even creepy i promise its never going to replace a baby its never going to be a real baby and its never easy to hear people say just adopt if your gonna buy a reborn doll. Its something about just living your life and casually seeing a realistic doll sitting at a corner of your house that brings a tiny smile. Its like going out and seeing someone with a puppy and it makes your heart happy. These dolls are weighted to mimic what a newborn would weigh for those to wish to lay it on there chest and feel some weight of a tiny sweet face even if its a realistic doll. Let’s remember that not everyone can actually have babies then theres some that lost babies and are having a hard time trying 💗 Let’s never judge- this kindness will help those feel loved instead of mentally breaking them with harsh comments on how people decide to cope.
I truly admire you guys for how well and vulnerable you guys hold each other. I’ve shed tears for what you guys went through. Im so sorry you had to go through that. Hope you guys heal day by day a lot more. 💗
You guys are so strong even if you do not feel like it. The fact that you guys went thru this hard time, are still going thru it and your marriage continues to be strong thru the hardship is more than what most people have gone thru. I admire you both so much. May God keep giving you guys the strength to keep going because there is so much life to keep living and Bryancito is rooting for his mommy and daddy. God bless 🥹🥹
it’s okay to not be okay. you both are incredibly strong even if you don’t see it or believe it God is giving you both this strength through your faith. it’s beautiful 🤍 psalm 147:3 “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” I can’t begin to understand but I can pray and ask God to help you with this pain 🤍
My heart, I just want to hug y’all! I can truly see that y’all have so much love to Give and who better to give that love to then another child and bryancito💙 One of my best friends went thru something similar and I can see how hard it is every day. I can see it in her eyes, her smile, her laugh that is hard. She and I were pregnant together and when she’s with my son I see how much love she has for him that it breaks my heart because that should be her and her child. I constantly remind her and tell her that her baby girl is with her everyday and walking along side her. I tell her that now she has to live for her. Live everyday to the fullest for her baby girl because that’s what she would want her baby girl to do.
Yes. We talk about our baby girl every day!! Not only with my husband but with my family too everyone is so supportive. No one has expected us to move on. We are definitely changed for the rest of our life now.
I am extremely proud of you guys and look up to you so much ❤ i lost my little boy in feb 2020 and it doesn’t get any easier. The amount of support that your family gives you is amazing. May god bless you guys. All in god’s timing. God’s timing is the best, i got pregnant unexpectedly and I couldn’t have been giving my rainbow baby at such a great timing. Stay strong you guys.
When we say you’re strong we know you still cry and go through the emotions but the fact that you push yourself to keep going and still working making videos makes you so strong , you’re not letting it consume your whole life and its okay to cry and have bad days its part of the grieving process . sending you guys so much love and positivity through these hard times ❤️❤️❤️❤️
It’s very triggering when you want something so bad and see others with it and they take it for granted. Take your time to heal. It’s ok to hurt and be angry. Also remember that God’s timing is perfect and it will happen when it’s supposed to ❤️ you guys are so strong coming on here and being so vulnerable but don’t forget you don’t owe anyone answers either. I pray for your strength and healing.
You keep saying you're not brave or strong but in reality, you're stronger and braver than you give yourself credit for. Not everyone can keep living, like actually living, after losing a child. So many ppl take their own lives after a loss, and yet, here you 2 are! Fighting through it together! Its ok to cry and breakdown, that does not mean you arent brave or strong. To me, it makes you the strongest and bravest for being able to continue on after a loss! 💙❤️ you 2 are stronger than you think 😊😊
Was so excited to see this upload just so we can hear you all express yourself the way you need to. my heart feels so deeply for you both. you are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for, I wish you nothing but absolute love and peace. ✨
I always think of you guys, grief is a process that I think is a never ending cycle because of certain things that remind you of certain other things. You guys are doing great, take it easy, feel it out & let it all out, love you guys so so much & I’m always thinking of you guys🤍
I’m crying so much. I had a loss about two months ago. I want to be positive and understand that it just wasn’t my season. But the jealousy I feel towards other women who are expecting and the extreme envy I hold is so ugly. I pray that you and your husband get blessed soon. You anyone else trying to grow 💕
I’m truly sorry for loss I known that’s a pain and void that will never go away and I see ur guys pain even when u’s try to look that u’s are ok. I know every loss is different and I know losing a baby is the worst pain and I know how excited you guys were waiting for him. I understand that you guys hold certain things to ur self and I know young guys say u;s ain’t strong but u’s are. I’m going through grieving as well but it was the love of my life my sons father. We were together for 11 yrs and he was killed 8yrs ago and that day changed my life for ever especially because I seen him dead on the ground. I’ve talked to people about a lot but that pain doesn’t get any less and it doesn’t help me cause no one knows the pain that i’m going through. I keep his memory a live by always sharing stories about him and keep sharing our pics with him. I love how you guys are keeping ur baby’s life alive and how you have ur living room all for him it’s so beautiful. All you can do is keep taking it day by day and keep having each other’s back and you keep talking about ur baby I love you guys and may God continue to give u’s strength and know it’s ok to grieve how u’s want…….. 🙏🏻❤️
Thank you for making this video. I cannot imagine the pain you guys are going through but can definitely feel it through your videos. One thing I took from my death and dying class in college is that time will heal when you mourn but you will also grieve your loss. Continue to be strong, there will be better days. Sending you both baby dust! 🤍🤍
I am so sorry for your guy’s loss. I hope with time you two find peace. Your baby will never be replaced or forgotten. There’s no timeline for when you’ll, “feel better.” You lost your son. You guys went though and continue to go though so much heartbreak. I’m so sorry for the insensitive comments. You have every right to feel angry and upset. I understand that during a time of loss, many people say, “everything happens for a reason.” But there was NO reason for your son to not be here. I think horrible things can happen to good people. My heart go out to y’all. You two are amazing parents and your son will always be in your heart.
Seeing your husband cry makes me cry because I went thru a lot of miscarriages and my husband never cried. In fact he would go to work the next day, and it damaged me even more. You have chosen the best man for this journey!
I'm so sorry you felt that way after your miscarriages. If it helps, after my miscarriage I read that men need structure in their life so that is why they go back to their everyday lives so quickly. ❤️
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I went thru 5 miscarriages and felt the same way as you, cause I never saw my husband affected, but after 10 years I opened up to him and let him know how I felt back then and he broke down, he said he was trying to be strong for me and to not make me feel worst
Guys deal with things differently than we do. My son was in the nicu for 2 weeks and I had so much resentment towards my husband because he went to work as soon as our son came home but we were both dealing with things differently and now we have explained to each other how we both truly felt in the moment and he said he felt helpless.
I'm so sorry you went through this it's truly one of the toughest thing to go through, is loosing our babies. It's also tough on our hubbies even if they don't show it the way we do. They cope with grief in their own way. Our true peace and unconditional love is found in our Lord Jesus Christ🙏💞
Rip to those children who’s life just got taken in Texas. Stay safe everyone 🙏🏻
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@@luppe533 it doesn’t have to do with anything girl, she’s just spreading awareness on what happened. many children and a teacher lost their lives today. why ask this anyways. all our hearts are going out to those children, teacher, & their families.
i live in texas and i am in just such big disbelief prayers to all the families of those kids who died
@@Jessica-uc9bk I live in San Antonio..1hr away from the shooting and my baby is supposed to start school this year..definitely hits home💔
Im in Long Beach CA and my heart broke i have a child in school and hugged my little one and prayed that events like this dont continue 💔
Seeing Brian cry makes me so so sad. Hearing him talk about how most men don’t talk about their emotions when they lose a child made me realize my husband never grieved for our talked about the baby we lost. Now that I’m pregnant i look back and I could see he was nervous to get close to our new baby in the first and second trimester and now he’s opening up and getting close to our daughter. Thank you for sharing 🤍 prayers sent y’all’s way always 🙏🏻
We had a stillborn in 2020. My husband was left with anger from losing our baby boy, a couple of days ago he dreamed he was chasing after him in between a huge crowd our baby finally stopped running and with his back turned to my hubby he said " tell mommy and sissy I love them, you need to let go of your anger because I am in a happy place now with lots of friends in heaven, I'm watching over you and one day I will see you again. My husband woke up crying but this dream made us realize that he's still with us no matter what and that he just wants us to live happy ❤️. I hope this message helps any of you parents have some peace after reading this message 😊
No one expects you guys to be okay. I can’t understand what it’s like to be going through what you two are but grief and healing is a slow process. I’ll keep you guys in my prayers 🙏🏻
I honestly love that Bryan let’s himself be emotional and grieve and he’s not trying to put up a front. I hope this helps other men grieving. I’m happy you guys have each other to lean on! It’s amazing to see that although you guys are going through something so horrific you guys are there for each other loving and uplifting one another. I hope everyday you guys feel a little more peace and happiness 🙏♥️
I came across something today “ If you simply can’t understand why someone is grieving so much ,for so long, then consider yourself fortunate that you do not understand”
🤍🤍🤍Everyday I continue to pray for your little family, there are no words I can say...🥺
This!
Do you have an address or po box to send you something in memory of your baby? When I lost mine 16yrs ago I was gifted one
Bryan and Mayra, I want to thank you for making this video. I am only 18 years old, never been in a relationship, never been pregnant, never have experienced anything that you and Bryan have gone through in the past year, but this video truly brought me to tears. I think that whether you are a parents, grieving parent or just a person, the things you said in this video were just gold. Thank you for giving people like me a new perspective, a better way to understand others and respect people because we never know what others are going through. Grief is something that never fully goes away but everyone copes with it differently, and you are so right in saying that nobody should judge until they’ve been in that persons shoes. I am praying that one day your dream comes true Mayra, you and Bryan deserve nothing but happiness all while honouring your angel baby Bryancito. I love you two so very much, thank you for taking us on this journey with you and sharing what you want to and can. We are all here for you and never forget how much love you are surrounded with ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Your baby boy would be so proud of you xoxo
Love this!❤️❤️❤️
When Mayra said “we just love him so muchhh” and they both broke down.. I broke down right there with them😭😭😭 As a mom, I just felt that in my core. A parent’s love is like no other.❤️ No one will everrrr replace Bryancito… but I pray that God blesses them with another little bundle of joy soon🙏🏼 They just have sooo much love to give and deserve it so so much💗💗💗
Hearing mayra say “I truly hate my life” 😢 💔keep your heads up you two! 🤍🤍 you two are so strong! 🤍
Bryancito is trying to pick out the perfect baby for you guys. It’ll come when it’s meant to. Sending you prayers. 💕
Seen Bryan cry n see him express how he feels made me cry …love ur support towards one another God bless u guys 💙
There are no words that could ever make this better.
You don’t have to share your journey or grief and you choose to let us in on that.
You’re both amazingly brave people. I pray for healing over your hearts. 🤍
I feel like you can’t never replace a child. Regardless the situation or other people’s opinion. Only you guys that have gone through it know your struggle everyday. Just take it day by day. God bless you guys!
Watching Bryan hold back tears is literally heartbreaking!!! You will get your blessing. Stay strong guys. Praying for you both!!
Thank you for this video, I've had 6 miscarriages and a stillborn my Nathaniel Luciano born sleeping at 26 weeks. These show us angel parents were not alone in our feelings. I wish u both nothing but light and love ❤️
sending all my love and strength to you. 🤍
it is so heartbreaking seeing Brian and Mayra so emotional. May God continue to give them the grace to move forward.
I cry every time with you both, I find myself going back and looking at pictures of Bryansito and I wish what you both do. He has touched my life forever! I am a mom of 2 and you both will too be parents again, I know nothing will replace the void in your heart but they give you a reason to smile again.❤️🙏🏻
I lost my daughter on January 24, 2020. I thinking about her everyday and I miss her so much. Grief is so hard but is different for everyone. My husband doesn't show it and I wish he could like Bryan. You guys are so strong together. Our angels might be playing together 🤍🤍
I know this sounds HORRIBLE buut, im so glad to see Bryan cry!! 😭😭 hes always being so strong and holding it in and to finally see him be free and cry on here is just 🤗 its good for him to let it out and not try to be strong all the time! 💙 you guys are so strong! Wishing you guys good days ahead, lots of hugs and love to you guys!! 💙❤️
When you say you hate your life and you can’t believe this is your life, it hit home. I cried so much watching this because I understand the pain of losing a child. I tragically lost my 6 year old son in December 2020. He was murdered. And I also have moments where I think “how is this my life” what did I do to deserve this.
So many negative but realistic thoughts.
The reason I’ve been able to push through, as you said, is because of my husband. He is my rock and holds me down just like Bryan holds you down and comforts you. My husband also wakes up at 3,4,5 am to my screams and cries.
I want to say you guys are shifting the POV of grief by sharing your story of Bryancito. 💞
Grief isn’t something to be fixed. It’s something that is integrated in this new life/nightmare with support of your loved ones.
Thank you for doing this.
Alan Cordova Robles is my sons name.
Thank you Bryan for sharing your emotions with us. I feel like society kind of forgets about the dads after something tragic like this happens. (Not saying that’s the case here at all) Looking at Bryan throughout this video and you can see that he is empty and broken. I see you Bryan and all of us see you. My heart is with you guys❤️ I cannot imagine the immense amount of grief that you guys are feeling. I know this pain will never go away but I know god has so many great blessings ahead for you guys.
I agree seeing other women that were pregnant at the same time as myself and seeing their kids growing up is definitely a trigger and it still is despite the fact that I was blessed to have a daughter after the loss of my son. The pain never goes away you just learn to live with it.
We stand with y’all it’s not easy and seeing parents neglecting or not wanting the blessing that God brought to them it’s a trigger!! Many blessings to y’all y’all are so brave
Mama get your reborn baby!! I had a miscarriage and it was one of the most sad/worst moments in my life. My husband bought me a baby cow plushy (we used to call my baby Becerrita) and I used to hug it and hold it so tight while I cried my eyes out. It helped me “materialize” my baby girl. After some time, my husband and I buried the plushy in our backyard garden. I also put the stuff I had bought for her in the box with the plushy and girl it HURT my heart but I have a place to go talk to her or if I need to I have a spot to go cry for her right here in my backyard. I can honestly say that having that space for her here in my yard helped me So much. Sending you both lots of love and wishing you guys strength! ❤️
I can't imagine losing a Child breaks my heart just thinking of it. I've lost both Parents and a Sister and that was hard enough. My prayers are with you both that God would always flood you both with His Peace, Comfort and Strength 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
You all are so brave, thank you for sharing your story with us. Grief is always in waves I lost my brother in 2020 and it's been one of the hardest things for my family. 🙏
I agree! It’s waves
As crazy as it sounds, this feels like another sign from Bryancito. After what happened in Texas I can see this helping all of those parents grieving.
I can’t imagine the pain you are going through and the grief you are dealing with everyday, you do what’s best for you and your mental health even if that means taking some time away from UA-cam. Sending you so much love!
I lost my baby 02/26/22, when I was 9.5cm dilated and it broke my heart. I can’t believe my baby is gone forever! Grief is so hard, and it doesn’t get easy at all. I’m also desperate to have another baby! But it’s all in gods hands❤️Prayers to your family! I feel like we are going through the same thing. I look up to BOTH of you. Especially you Mayra! Everything you said really is what I am feeling. Sending you a big big hug!
From one bereaved mom to another, sending you lots of love 🤍🥺
So sorry. Prayers ❤️🥺
I lost my daughter at 20+3 and had to deliver her the next day and my boyfriend went back to work two days later. I had to grieve alone. It was so hard. He also told me he didn't want anymore (he has two older kids from a previous relationship) thank God I got pregnant 9 months later. She is the most amazing daughter and keeps going. I cry with her sometimes just talking about her sister. That hurt never goes away. Some days are great, some are hard to get out of bed. Praying you two get blessed with a healthy baby soon. ❤️❤️
Thank you for being so open ❤️ we love you guys
2:30 Seeing Bryan breaks my heart. I pray that god blesses you both with more children 👧🏻 👦🏻 you both are going to be such great loving parents. Bryancito will always be with you guys 👼
Your emotions and feelings are extremely valid. There is nothing anyone can say to make you feel any different than what you have felt since the loss of Briancito. Only you know what you go through daily and I pray for your peace of mind. May God continue to guide you to continue to keep Briancito's memory alive for he will forever live through you two.
Praying for you two. Grief and trauma go hand in hand and your feelings are soooooooo understandable. I’m glad you guys are there for one another, that’s such a blessing. Your love and respect for one another is very apparent in this video. No one is going to understand what you’re going through like the person who chose to live this life with you who also lost their baby. Remember that you’re blessed to have each other and Biancito is with you always ❤️
Baby Bryancito is super blessed to have AMAZINGGGGG PARENTS LIKE YOU GUYS who CONSTANTLY have his MEMORY ALIVE AND VIVID!!!🥺🥺🙏🏽❤️✨ trust me, he sees, hears, and feels all your energy, and I know he is out there skipping and happy to know that he has the unconditional love from his parents🙏🏽💗💗 My prayers and love go to you guys and to lil Bryancito👼🙏🏽❤️🕊
Bryancito still is your purpose. God used him to spread so much light and hope in this world in his short but precious life. You’re incredible people who birthed an angel. Every time you guys talk about him and your griefs on your large platform you help so many grieving parents feel heard and not alone. I pray for you guys everyday. I’m so deeply sorry you beautiful people have to feel this pain. God bless you.
I’ve never been through anything like that, but when I look at my daughter I cry nothing ever happens too her, she is literally such an innocent soul. you guys are so strong mayra and Bryan. i just wanna hug you guys for so long, I cried watching this 😢 my mom has been thru something similar and it’s been about 4 years now & she is the same way, I feel so bad for anyone grieving a loss. I love you guys so much 😥💕❤️
Mayra, you are so strong, this video shows a lot of the healing you have done, I know you guys won’t ever be 100% healed, but I am so proud of you both! Praying you guys will be blessed with your miracle baby soon. 🤍
I just admire you both for the strength and courage you guys have after going through what you guys went through. The fact that Bryan cries in front of the camera is very empowering and it shows that it’s okay for men to cry too.
Don’t “try” just let it be. A family friend lost her daughter and was doing everything to get pregnant again, after she stopped trying she became pregnant
Everyone tells us this and yes it happened to me with my first after years of trying but now for my second after a miscarriage in 2018 and not trying and letting it be and enjoying my relationship we haven’t been blessed.
It's not fair to say that. There's actually women out there who cannot have kids. Whether they try or just let it be.
I "just let it be" for 6 years until I actually tried to get pregnant and was successful.
At the end of the day everyone is different.
Your comment gmfu. So insensitive.
@@banairh but 114 people agree with her.. sad for them
This is probably one of the most insensitive things to say.
I came upon your video just now. My husband and I just lost our youngest 1 week ago today. Emergency c section at 27 weeks. I was high risk to begin with and it was a 50/50 outcome. But I just had to fight for him. To give him a chance. Some days I have panic attacks, and some days I just cry uncontrollably. Some days I don’t cry as much and I feel so guilty for not grieving him. My husband is such a strong supportive person who always has his guard up and I encourage him to talk to me or even cry if he needs to. At the end of the day we’re his parents and we lost our baby boy. Everything you guys are experiencing both my husband and I are experiencing. Thank you for sharing.
Prayers to you and your husband ❤️ You both are stronger than y’all will ever know.
This video hits home. I went through a miscarriage around November and it never gets easier. Thank you for showing that not being okay with loss is okay. There’s a lot of people that pretend everything is ok and want to move forward with life but in all honesty that’s just not how I view it. I love to feel even if it’s sadness. I wish you guys a future with many babies to give your love to. I myself cannot wait till I become a mom. That will be the day of just being in complete awe. Have a great day and always remember to validate your emotions. That’s what makes us human. Best wishes! 💕
I lost 2 babys and this is my therapy listening to y’all I cry through the whole video and feel the pain… it helps with my grieve I know it’s hard for y’all but believe it helps me and so many others. I block out everything because no one in my family knows what I’ve been through and been told to get over it but y’all are my safe place and make me feel like my feelings are valid & help my mental health. Thank you! Thanks you!! I send so much strength to y’all.💕
Y’all are amazing parents and I pray God blesses y’all with healthy babies soon in the mean time I pray for your mental health and heart - sending y’all love and light✨
Aww Bryan crying while Myra explaining the “trying again” question. My heart breaks for you both but I’m sending so much love and positivity and peace 🥺♥️
Broke my heart to hear Myra say" if I could go on top of a mountain & yell out I love you" 😢 My parents lost their first born a son as a baby & my dad had told me he went up to the sierra to cry & scream where no one could hear him. I find the strength you 2 have admirable, you say you aren't strong at all but you are. You both are finding ways to grieve & cope the best way you possibly can & that takes strength. God has big plans for you 2 & it'll be for the glory of bryancito. I love the way you honor his memory, there's so much love 💕
Thank you for opening up and sharing with us your grieving journey. I lost my Mom 6 days before you lost your baby, and I completely understand how much it has changed you, of course it’s not the same , but I understand all the emotions of loss and grief. And I just can’t believe there’s people that tell you to get over it, like the insensitivity of it all! Losing someone you love is part of your life and you carry that everyday for the rest of your life. I just wanna say thank you for sharing this journey because it helps so many people that are grieving to not feel alone. Sending love and healing❤️
I totally understand 💯💯💯 my first pregnancy 🤰🏻 I lost my baby @5months. My water broke & went into labor & I was only 15yrs old. Having to go into full labor & having my baby but she was a still born tore me apart. Holding her & seeing no heartbeat 💗 no sign of life is horrible🥺 I had her cremated so she can be close to me everyday💗 my 2nd pregnancy 🤰🏻 I was so scared cuz I never got answers to why that happened to me. Around my 5months of pregnancy 🤰🏻 I was getting pains & rushed to the hospital & thank god my baby boy was fine & was born @38weeks & he was healthy. I got pregnant a year later & around 5months again my water broke & rushed to the hospital for them to tell me I’m losing my baby boy, there’s a heartbeat 💓 but there’s nothing they can do for me. I was reliving it again I left that hospital to go to another 1 for no1 to help me. I lost my baby boy & again I had to give birth to a still born baby boy holding him knowing I tired to help him🥺🥺🥺 I have him cremated close to me everyday. I’ve asked the doctor why this happens it’s my second time & got no answers. I got pregnant 🤰🏻 again. I noticing a pattern now first baby I lost, 2 baby here with me, 3 baby lost 😞 & now I’m pregnant 🤰🏻 again this time as soon as I found out. I went to best High risk hospital near me. Told the male doctor my story. I’m in tears 😭 askin for him to plz help me with this pregnancy 🤰🏻 I don’t wanna go through that horrible labor & lose my child. He told me there’s nothin he can do for me to let whatever’s meant to happen be!!! THANK GOD‼️ a female doctor I’m guessing over heard me cuz I was not talkin low to him. I’m pretty loud & begging 🙏🏼 for help. This female doctor tells me to go into her office & she was my guardian Angel 👼🏼 she put me on some steroid shots once a week & had a midwife come to my house to give me my shots. I would get ultrasound done weekly also to check up on my baby. & @5 months I was getting bad pain when I went into the hospital where she worked at she had to close my cervix up so my baby wouldn’t come out before time. I gave birth @37 weeks to a healthy baby Girl. After that labor I decided to get my tubes tied only because I’m so scared my next pregnancy 🤰🏻 it will happen again & I can’t handle no more pain. God Blessed 🥲 me wit a boy 💙& girl💗 that I truly love ❤️ & fought for I don’t wanna chance it again. Till this day I never got any answers to why that happened to me. So if my daughter decides to have any kids I don’t know if she will have any issues🥺 it’s so scary to the unknown.. but God will Bless you’s. It crazy what we go through but us women are strong 💪🏼 continue to stay strong❤️ you’s got this💯💯💯
Wow mama ♡ sending you hugs babe!
You might not read me but I wanted to let you know we are not alone. Sending you hugs I just went through it myself water broke when I was 21 weeks and they had to go in to labor knowing there was nothing they or I can do to help my baby boy 💙and knowing there was a heart beat and nothing wrong with him that was very sad and it continues to be really hard to cope with this grieving process. There’s no day I don’t pray for pregnant mommy and their baby’s . Just know you have angels looking out for you and one day we will se our baby’s again for an eternal life 🙏
You guys are so strong and the fact you are sharing which is never easy to talk about, we thank you for that. I really hope your guys time will come and sending many blessing your way. Bryancito will always be in your guys heart and watching 💕
From one bereaved mom to another, thank you for shedding light on your grief journey. Sending you and Bryan so much love and a big hug 🤍👼🏻🕊🦋 My due date was 2 weeks before you 🥺
I totally understand you , my husband and I feel the same. We lost our baby girl in December 2020 and yes one of the triggers is seeing all this parents that don’t care for their kids; we question God why those people get that privilege and we that have all the love for one , can’t. I’m still trying to get pregnant but some of us take a bit longer.
My niece and I got pregnant the same time. Her baby and mine were due the same day; her baby made it and I thank God for his life but mine didn’t. Every time I see her baby all I can’t think is my baby should have been doing the same milenstones he’s doing. We became his godparents (we are honored), his such a special baby but is a bittersweet feeling; we love him but he remind us so much of our angel.
It’s been a year and a half and we still cry, we still miss her. There is not a day that we don’t think of her. You carry this grief for ever; and no future baby will replace our first. I did take therapy but something I did notice is that my husband was such a great support and through the beginning he was the tough one, he only focus in my recovery physically and mentally that he forgot about him. It did get us so close and I felt more in love with my husband; I would of not been able to go thought a child lost with anyone else but my hubby, only a true warrior can try to make it through. Now after more than a year he is finally going to therapy. He held so much in just to help me, he put himself last and put me first☹️
But one of the things that helped us was my family and my church community. I got closer to God; even through my hurt and anger at times I was able to get closer to Him, to know He felt my pain and was with my husband and I in our darkness Days.
Our prayers are with you and your hubby eventually you’ll learn to carry this grief and know one day we will meet our angels in heaven and there we will never again be apart from each other. ❤️ my babygirl Luna probably welcomed Bryancito when he made it to heaven. 😭 ❤️
My heart broke when when you said you hate life. I hate it too. But just know that he gave you a purpose when he was born and he will also give a purpose from heaven. Recuerda que no se muere el que se va, solo se muere el que se olvida. Love you girl ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I’m lifting you both up in prayer. Cling on to God, “be still and know that I am God” he will bless your family with a little one. Y’all’s story is helping so many families around the world. God is so proud of the courage and vulnerability that you’re sharing. God is good 🤍🙏🏼
Your love for him is beyond this world. It’s beautiful.
Mama y’all are so strong! I’ve watched you guys since day one and it’s crazy how life changes! I pray that you and Bryan continue to strive ✨ God has given you guys so much strength, patience and knowledge he’s the only one that can bring you at ease, he will be there every step of the way never doubt! 🙏🏼
YOU GUYS ARE STRONG! and you know who gives you that strength? dios and you're baby bryancito, to get up every single day!!! My family lost 3 family members last year and I felt it when you said grief is a weird feeling. But you know what gives me hope? Knowing one day I will get to see and hug my loved one's in paradise. Where no pain, tears or death will be...you both are in my prayers❤️🩹🙏❤️
Bryan and mayra I wish I could give you both a hug. Seeing the emptiness in Bryan’s eyes is truly heart breaking. May god give you the strength and serenity
I really think Mayra would benefit from therapy .. it’s an impossibly difficult situation and like Bryan said a professional might be a great person to learn from. Seeing you lean on each other is a gift from god. Wishing you healing and a blessing of another child to give your love to.
I would give yall the hugest hug if i could! Yall are such beautiful people and may god bless yall 🫶🏼🤧
I have a baby myself and you are right mayra , it’s the best love ever , it doesn’t compare to anyone else’s…. Aww made me cry seeing you guys cry 😢 god will give you guys a baby 🤍
I lost my 9 month old daughter in 2016 & the pain is always there. It never goes away we just have to learn to live with it. God will bless you guys!
I am so sorry for your guys loss. I can't even fathom how hard this must be for you both. It also blows my mind that people would tell you to get over it and move on. I am not someone who ever wants a child, they are just not for me, but I can only imagine the pain of losing one who was so wanted and so loved. There is no way you're just going to snap back and move on. There is no single way to grieve. It's an individual experience for every person. Do what feels right to you. You are both incredible people and I truly hope you are blessed with another child someday.
I lost my grandfather in December and it has been the hardest loss I’ve ever dealt with. He was my hero, father figure and my best friend. He was an award-winning Dirt Track Promoter in California and he is wildly revered within the racing community. We have had two memorial races dedicated to him and for me, seeing people honor him and pay their respects has been huge for my grieving process. Because as his family, we know exactly how much he has done and sacrificed for his passion of racing so to see him honored warms my heart. I know losing a grandparent is no where near the pain of losing a child but I really resonate with what you said about grief being a rollercoaster. I have been learning that healing is not linear and sometimes you have bad days and some days are great. Losing the person you love the most hurts no matter who it is, and I am keeping your family in my thoughts and well wishes. I know that doesn’t help your loss but please know that so many people are rooting for you.
I have a former NICU baby and I can’t imagine your pain. Our NICU time was the worst time in my life, the day he came home it was the best day of my life. NICU life is so hard but I can’t imagine the pain of being a bereaved mother either. Praying for you both that you can find peace and heal.
Grief is a huge rollercoaster! I know this isn’t like loosing a child, but my cat went missing Feb 2021. And there’s not a single day I don’t miss her or randomly cry. I still look for her. I recently got a tattoo of her so it’s helped me a bit. You guys are strong, even with all the breaking down. I truly wish nothing but the best for you guys. Thank you for sharing
I'm so proud of you and Bryan for being so open and honest. I know deep down talking about it is part of you healing, however don't ever feel pressured to talk because you are in social media. Bryan thank you for being a man and being there for Mayra and your son! God is listening I promise you both 🙏 ❤❤❤
Ugh my heart 🥺 I constantly pray for the both of you 🙏🤍🤍🤍 and there are never words to say to make you feel better. Just know you have so much support! And we love you king and queen 🤍🤍
Bryan saying he would relive it again and Mayra saying just to see his face again. If that ain’t strength I don’t know what is!! God bringing you guys closer together is everything! 🙏 ❤️ I literally go by the quote “with pain comes strength” I even got it tattooed. Just go day by day and know that God is more powerful than the enemy.
I am in aww right now! I literally just watched your last video and said out loud I wished you would do a Q&A bc I feel that you and Brian have gotten so much closer. I can see where you two lean on one another. It’s a beautiful thing to see. I think about your family often and you’re always in my prayers❤️
As a loss mom of two, I related to soooo much in this video. I share your feelings and views. Even down to the way you think about him and his friends at his resting spot. I’m so glad that you two have each other. I’m glad that you two acknowledge that these feelings are a forever thing. Knowing that helps to feel your feelings. Sending you both so much love ❤️
Thank you for being so vulnerable with us. We appreciate your honesty. We love you guys!
Losing a loved one or a child is not only the hardest part of life but the most difficult and you never ever stop grieving. There are so many emotions the breakdowns and many of us simply don’t just get over it all. I lost my brother two years ago we were so close and I recall a doctor who told me life goes on. I said no we all grieve differently externally I may be smiling but internally I’m so broken into pieces. Oh i I wish I could be a mother like you said but my health is always complex so I break down. I understand how you feel take your time, you’re each other’s strength and support 🫶🏼♥️🙏🏼
Bryan & Mayra, you have no idea how much I look up to you both 🫶🏼 I wish nothing by the best, happiness & love for you both.
I’m not a cryer but when I watched this I teared up, prayers to you and Bryan and you whole family, I hope everyday that goes by you can feel a little more peace and hope, and I hope one day your blessed with another beautiful healthy little baby🙏🏼🤍🤍
I don’t have kids yet, but I truly understand. It’s not easy, but you’re pushing through. Things will come into play. I have friends who lost their babies, it’s hard after a few years they got pregnant. As long as you have your support system, that’s all it matters. When you get pregnant, it will happen when you less expect it. Things will get better, I’m glad you’re able to be open up and share your story. Forget everyone asking if you’re trying, like when it happens it will happen.
My prayers are still with you guys.I cried watching this and I don’t know how it to compare what you guys went through.It’s heartbreaking that people are being inconsiderate about you sharing this with us.You are both strong and I’m glad to see that things are getting better with time. The process of grieving is different for everyone but I’m glad that there are projects that are motivating you in a good way and I can’t wait to support it.Much love 🤍
Seeing you be so open with us I know took a lot! Especially when Bryan said the whole kids being neglected because I think it everyday wanting to save those babies and seeing close friends/family go through what you did and it breaks my heart. You’ll never replace him even after a kiddo comes it helps but that void is still there. I love that you make him present in everything! You’re amazing angel baby parents and I can’t wait to see you with future kiddos. Don’t stress it now having gone through a bit of infertility I find when you stress it more it’s when it least happens. God’s timing is perfect. Love that you guys are sharing this because so many of us go through silent trials and seeing people go through it and show the realness of it all helps so much. Praying for your healing and through your grief. 🥺❤️
I completely understand what you’re saying Mayra. I lost my baby at 20 weeks, and I cried and cried for so long, I finally got pregnant again 2 years later and yes of course one baby does not replace another but he gave me purpose again. And that’s honestly when I stopped being so depressed from my loss
My heart shatters for you two 💔 May God continue to keep you close and give you comfort and peace
My heart 💔 thank you both for being so real, for sharing your story. Praying for God to surround you both in peace, love, and guidance. I can’t even imagine how difficult this season of life has been but to see how much love you both have for your son is so beautiful 🤍🤍🤍
MYRA i do remember you speaking on the topic of therapy but feeling unsafe going. im really proud of bryan taking that step! I think it would benefit you soooo much queen. ive been going for 2 years now and something about a professional a caring one is helpful.
My baby was in the NICU exactly a year ago he’s about to turn 1 and a few months after I found out about your baby’s passing and you’re always in the back of my head when I look at my son hearing you guys story and what you have gone through really makes me cherish my son and love him so much more because if I don’t who will ! Sending you positive vibes you will get pregnant soon gods timing is perfect 🤍
The question about if you would consider a reborn baby for therapeutic reasons was from me 🫶🏼 i know it’s something different and many can find it weird or even creepy i promise its never going to replace a baby its never going to be a real baby and its never easy to hear people say just adopt if your gonna buy a reborn doll. Its something about just living your life and casually seeing a realistic doll sitting at a corner of your house that brings a tiny smile. Its like going out and seeing someone with a puppy and it makes your heart happy. These dolls are weighted to mimic what a newborn would weigh for those to wish to lay it on there chest and feel some weight of a tiny sweet face even if its a realistic doll. Let’s remember that not everyone can actually have babies then theres some that lost babies and are having a hard time trying 💗 Let’s never judge- this kindness will help those feel loved instead of mentally breaking them with harsh comments on how people decide to cope.
I truly admire you guys for how well and vulnerable you guys hold each other. I’ve shed tears for what you guys went through. Im so sorry you had to go through that. Hope you guys heal day by day a lot more. 💗
You guys are so strong even if you do not feel like it. The fact that you guys went thru this hard time, are still going thru it and your marriage continues to be strong thru the hardship is more than what most people have gone thru. I admire you both so much. May God keep giving you guys the strength to keep going because there is so much life to keep living and Bryancito is rooting for his mommy and daddy. God bless 🥹🥹
it’s okay to not be okay. you both are incredibly strong even if you don’t see it or believe it God is giving you both this strength through your faith. it’s beautiful 🤍 psalm 147:3 “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” I can’t begin to understand but I can pray and ask God to help you with this pain 🤍
My heart, I just want to hug y’all! I can truly see that y’all have so much love to
Give and who better to give that love to then another child and bryancito💙
One of my best friends went thru something similar and I can see how hard it is every day. I can see it in her eyes, her smile, her laugh that is hard. She and I were pregnant together and when she’s with my son I see how much love she has for him that it breaks my heart because that should be her and her child.
I constantly remind her and tell her that her baby girl is with her everyday and walking along side her. I tell her that now she has to live for her. Live everyday to the fullest for her baby girl because that’s what she would want her baby girl to do.
It’s something you’ll never get over. That was your baby boy. He’s always and forever be in your hearts. He will always be with you.
Yes. We talk about our baby girl every day!! Not only with my husband but with my family too everyone is so supportive. No one has expected us to move on. We are definitely changed for the rest of our life now.
I am extremely proud of you guys and look up to you so much ❤ i lost my little boy in feb 2020 and it doesn’t get any easier. The amount of support that your family gives you is amazing. May god bless you guys. All in god’s timing. God’s timing is the best, i got pregnant unexpectedly and I couldn’t have been giving my rainbow baby at such a great timing. Stay strong you guys.
When we say you’re strong we know you still cry and go through the emotions but the fact that you push yourself to keep going and still working making videos makes you so strong , you’re not letting it consume your whole life and its okay to cry and have bad days its part of the grieving process . sending you guys so much love and positivity through these hard times ❤️❤️❤️❤️
It’s very triggering when you want something so bad and see others with it and they take it for granted. Take your time to heal. It’s ok to hurt and be angry. Also remember that God’s timing is perfect and it will happen when it’s supposed to ❤️ you guys are so strong coming on here and being so vulnerable but don’t forget you don’t owe anyone answers either. I pray for your strength and healing.
You keep saying you're not brave or strong but in reality, you're stronger and braver than you give yourself credit for. Not everyone can keep living, like actually living, after losing a child. So many ppl take their own lives after a loss, and yet, here you 2 are! Fighting through it together! Its ok to cry and breakdown, that does not mean you arent brave or strong. To me, it makes you the strongest and bravest for being able to continue on after a loss! 💙❤️ you 2 are stronger than you think 😊😊
Was so excited to see this upload just so we can hear you all express yourself the way you need to. my heart feels so deeply for you both. you are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for, I wish you nothing but absolute love and peace. ✨
I always think of you guys, grief is a process that I think is a never ending cycle because of certain things that remind you of certain other things. You guys are doing great, take it easy, feel it out & let it all out, love you guys so so much & I’m always thinking of you guys🤍
I’m crying so much. I had a loss about two months ago. I want to be positive and understand that it just wasn’t my season. But the jealousy I feel towards other women who are expecting and the extreme envy I hold is so ugly. I pray that you and your husband get blessed soon. You anyone else trying to grow 💕
I’m truly sorry for loss I known that’s a pain and void that will never go away and I see ur guys pain even when u’s try to look that u’s are ok. I know every loss is different and I know losing a baby is the worst pain and I know how excited you guys were waiting for him. I understand that you guys hold certain things to ur self and I know young guys say u;s ain’t strong but u’s are. I’m going through grieving as well but it was the love of my life my sons father. We were together for 11 yrs and he was killed 8yrs ago and that day changed my life for ever especially because I seen him dead on the ground. I’ve talked to people about a lot but that pain doesn’t get any less and it doesn’t help me cause no one knows the pain that i’m going through. I keep his memory a live by always sharing stories about him and keep sharing our pics with him. I love how you guys are keeping ur baby’s life alive and how you have ur living room all for him it’s so beautiful. All you can do is keep taking it day by day and keep having each other’s back and you keep talking about ur baby I love you guys and may God continue to give u’s strength and know it’s ok to grieve how u’s want…….. 🙏🏻❤️
Thank you for making this video. I cannot imagine the pain you guys are going through but can definitely feel it through your videos. One thing I took from my death and dying class in college is that time will heal when you mourn but you will also grieve your loss. Continue to be strong, there will be better days. Sending you both baby dust! 🤍🤍
I am so sorry for your guy’s loss. I hope with time you two find peace. Your baby will never be replaced or forgotten. There’s no timeline for when you’ll, “feel better.” You lost your son. You guys went though and continue to go though so much heartbreak. I’m so sorry for the insensitive comments. You have every right to feel angry and upset. I understand that during a time of loss, many people say, “everything happens for a reason.” But there was NO reason for your son to not be here. I think horrible things can happen to good people. My heart go out to y’all. You two are amazing parents and your son will always be in your heart.