It's really not a hassle if you make it quick and talk yourself up to it. I have and will end my life this Saturday .. the exact day I was born 45 years ago
I read this a 16, Im 28 and it is still true,I not even sad about it "Life no longer has any charm over me. I simply live and the day will come when even that will not be possible for me." I wont ever pursue death but for sure when the time comes I will welcome it.
Sadly it's so true for many of us. We muddle through the best we can. I've been a pessimistic person for a very long time and I don't get excited by anything. At least I can get solace from this music.
I just love the comment section of depressive songs. it's a safe place where we're not judged. we share our pain to show other people they're not the only ones suffering. they're not the only ones hurted. they're not the only ones, who just need a warm hug. here I feel like none is gonna hold me back, and when i'll go to sleep, it'll be forever.
The brilliant thing is this isn't a safe space at all, we still have the freedom to post whatever we want to each other but almost nobody feels like being assholes here. It's kinda nice, kinda weird. I wish this ambience was sustainable but maybe it isn't meant to be.
Edit 2: this is an update, I fell back into my hole of eternal numb and sadness and it’s my fault again just like always, this time I couldn’t keep my fat fucking mouth shut and I ruined my only shot with the girl of my dreams. I don’t know what to do but come to this video and cry and maybe one day I will completely disappear and then after I do I will end it all that way no one would have to deal with my burden anymore... thank you everyone but I don’t deserve anyone especially not u people or that girl. I’m sorry I let you guys down, I’m sorry for everything. I’ve been walking down this road and had every shitty thing imaginable happen and I can finally say my journey will be coming to an end very soon, I’m sorry to everyone for everything and goodbye .
Donald Winnicott, a psychoanalyst. It was referenced in the book "Healing the Shame that Binds You", by John Bradshaw, when discussing how we hide our true selves, and the role that others play in us finding and knowing ourselves.
I feel so empty all the time. Everything happens so much. I feel nothing for an eternity and a torrential flood for a moment. I'm not a good person. I feel either incapable of love or hopelessly lonely. It's tiring
Have you tried asking for help?To pray? Sometimes God takes curious forms through a stranger who believes you absolutely can love.As everyone does.Ask for forgiveness but also forgive yourself by making something good for any creature in need.And this will push you magically on with a clear heart..Trust me. been there.
No such thing as a good or bad person, in reality. Keep in mind that EVERYTHING in this life and our understanding of it is all RELATIVE. When you come to this realization, it will completely change your perspective on what this life REALLY is- it's only what you CHOOSE to make of it. There's no right or wrong, no good, no bad. Just different. It's all about perspective. It's your CHOICE.
I spent the day laughing with friends, only to come back and go to bed and listen to this while I'm crying. I'm tired of life, tired of disability, of not being enough, not belonging... Whenever I go, I don't feel at home, I'm searching for something I don't even know. But I'm hanging on, for what? Because I don't want to hurt my family and friends, I don't belong with them, but I don't want them to end up like me.
Reporter: If you could pick one song that you'd like to be remembered by - Thom (abruptly and without hesitation): How to Disappear, off Kid A. Reporter: Why? Thom: Um, because it's the most beautiful thing we ever did, I think. I concur Thom, I concur.
This song doesn’t make me sad or happy. It simply makes me feel irrelevant to this world. I’m just an organism walking around this world and there’s nothing good or bad about that.
Towards the end of a depression spanning around three years (with minor and short periods of happiness scattered throughout it) I started listening to this song a lot, especially when I was especially sad, cause the lyrics really fitted my feelings. One day I finally got the courage to talk to somebody about my mental health - which I had refused to do for those three years, thinking that I'd have been better off dead. I went to my doctor, given that that was the first step, but all I got out of it was a phone number for somebody to talk to over the phone - which frankly I found useless. I left the doctor's office feeling almost worse than when I came, but with that little fraction of life-lust I had left, I decided to go to the library, cause there was this girl I fancied, who I knew used to work there many years ago. I thought my hopes of meeting her there were very slim, given that it was so many years ago, but I tried anyways. But when I came to the entrance, I could feel my anxiety kick in, and I started to walk past it, and then just as I was about to head outside the building, this song came on the speakers in the entry-hall. I'm not normally a religious or spiritual person, and never really believed in destiny, but I thought this had to be some sort of sign. So I gathered the courage to enter the library. The girl wasn't there (life isn't a hollywood movie) but it still taught me a lot about decision-making, and it taught me that I had to start digging myself free from the depression, and change my life for the better, rather than just living in my dreams, hoping that good things would come to me automatically. That day felt like the last time I lived in a world of destiny; destiny gave me one final chance to save my life, and from then on I was on my own, in a world of existentialism. Every choice I've made since then has felt like a self-conscious one, and almost all of them have led my towards a better and happier life. Thank you, Radiohead.
I've experienced similar things like your library story. I understand how you feel and it makes me feel like I'm not alone, thank you for sharing your story. I hope everything is going well for you my friend.
It's a beautiful story, thank you for sharing it - I am sure it will offer comfort to the people who've been hurting in these times. I can't even explain how I feel when I listen to Radiohead's music in general, let alone this song and I sadly often come across people sharing their darkest thoughts to it. The music is very unusual-it tears you to pieces and yet offers a sprinkle of comfort- letting you know that this awful feeling of dread that is playing with you;dragging you away from your hopes and at the same time lifting you up, waking you up to the realisation that you are able to help yourself no matter what gets to you by controlling the way your thoughts shape out your mind. A human's mind and consciousness is, in my opinion, the most powerful thing and as much as it has the ability to destroy it has the ability to heal. And this song captures that so well, that it is almost terrifying. I am really glad that you fought your way out of your situation and I wish you all the best at what is yet to come.
spoofmeistro Hmmmm. I blast this song at least like 10 times a month. Not once have my neighbors ever checked on me. Is that bad??? If anything I get more of a “there goes that fucking white girl again with her depressing ass music” vibe from them.
I come here often. Depression and pure sadness are no joke. Seeing as you all seem to be sharing your reasons for your love to this song, and the strange comfort we find within it, I will share mine. Once I had a job that I loved, a busy social life and a loving family. I had to leave my job and when I did my mother got Parkinson's. It seemed to help my father out a lot - who was running his own business - to be at home with her while he worked so naturally, I did. She declined rather quickly and then before I knew it, it had become imperative for me to be at home all the time to help with her. A few years later my father got diagnosed cancer. Then it became a struggle for all of us and we all became housebound. During that time, I lost my social status (which didn't matter as my family was most important to me), but it wasn't just the outings I lost - lost all my friends, too. Then a few years later I lost both of my parents. This song I often turn to, because I feel nobody understands my sadness, grief, emptiness and pain. I hope if anybody else is going through these situations and emotions, that they find their safe place somewhere, anywhere. For me, it's here in this song. (edit) thanks for all the likes. I appreciate you all.
You’ve come a long way, I can’t imagine how it feels to be in such a situation where you can’t help but accept the tragic reality for what it is. Good luck
Not sure if this brings you a comfort but in a way you didn't lose all your friends - all the people who wrote your comment thought about you and somehow they became your friends.
Stay strong. I was where you were at several points in my life and I just want to say that it gets better. It gets so much fucking better. The pain is worth fighting through for what lies on the other side of it.
My wife died 18 days ago for unknown reason in our bedroom, and our marriage is only just about 6 months. This song actually reminds me on that day, my life felt so unreal afterwards. And to me this song somehow calming yet devastating.
This song hits me really hard... I suffer from dissociation and i pass every time of my day wondering why i fell so disconnected from my life. Everybody seems like strangers and everything slowly stars to disappear... I can't get it anymore
3 years are passed and I learn a lot since than about my self and the world. I have an advice for you all if you want to embrace my words. I understand how self care and self compassion are the key to heal from all the scar that past esperiences left to us. Is more important to understand how blessed we are to improve our self every day rather than fossilize on what we cannot control. The power and the wonder live whitin us every where. we are enough for what we are and we must accept this to truly grasp how much courage we have to live on this earth every day and every night. this makes us special, unique and really reminds us of the stainless value we have in continuously being ourselves without fear and judgement. it's more the thoughts and judgments we have about ourselves that make us suffer and hurt us... this has allowed me to understand how much I am actually continuously surrounded by people who really love me unconditionally and how much in reality I am the one who has never managed to be the first person to truly value myself and support myself every day.we have the power of the infinite within us and here we find all the answers we need to allow us to walk. we can truly be the best version of ourselves every day... we just need to be able to give a different voice about ourselves and the world, because we are incredible people and the fact that we are us every day gives meaning to how wonderful and unique we are. it is not an easy path and life puts pitfalls and unexpected events in our path. I still suffer a lot from this type of disorder and the diagnoses given to me confirmed a C-ptsd disorder that I have been carrying since I was little. However, I am trying every day to be my own best friend and to give the infinite love that each of us deserves. we are much more than we can imagine and our life is the greatest gift we could have. even if you are in the dark, alone, it seems to you that there are no ways out and that nothing can really pull you out of the fear of living... always remember that we have the ability to look at a different point and our eternal light will come out like a waterfall from our heart and we will be able to walk again on the wonderful and mysterious path of life. I wish you the best of everything because you deserve whatever you want. take care... you are safe
My son used to listen to Radiohead back in the early 90s. At the time, I thought they were too depressing to listen to. Looking back, I know now that it is because their music touched a place deep inside from which I was running. I feared being in touch with those feelings of overwhelming sadness and grief. I believed I would be swallowed up and overcome, never to emerge and live life again. I had come close to taking my life as a young woman. I contemplated which was the easiest way to exit - staring at a bottle of pills, then staring at a razor blade. In the midst of that struggle I heard a voice, much like the sound of my own voice, "Don't do it". I recognized it as a warning. I heeded that voice and put away the pills and razor blade. Fast forward over 40 plus years and I have no regrets that I didn't go through with ending my life. I could give all the reasons as to the why's and wherefore's; suffice it to say that living is better than dying. Pain and suffering are part of life - a means to mold and shape our character, and in the process encourage our fellow human beings that there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
My ex from long ago, whom I loved deeply, committed suicide five years ago. I think of him whenever I listen to Radiohead, because we found them together and listened to them constantly, but I think specifically of how he must have felt up until his final moment every time I listen to this song. I’ve been there myself, too many times to count. Thank you for saving me, again and again.
i'm sorry for your loss. your mom is in a better place now, and if you miss her, i assume she was a good mother, and probably an exemplar, lovable one. i know my words won't ease your pain but there's just so much beauty out there, man. so many things to experience, relationships with who care about you, places to visit, music, films, paintings art in general, everything... it's worth it, to keep living. and that's coming from somebody who's still going thru some shit. anyways, i hope you'll get better.
I hope you're OK 🙏 I lost my dad in 2019 and there were times that I felt like this. I was already suffering from depression, cptsd and disassociative disorder disease (DID). When he died after I took care of him for two years with dementia I felt like I had no purpose anymore. I was his sole caregiver for that two years and got up everyday just to take care of him. What good was I to anyone anymore? What purpose did I serve? I had actually moved to Arizona to live with him and take care of him, so everywhere I went was memories of him. I was still living in his mobile home so I was surrounded by constant sadness and thoughts of his last moments. I spent nearly 9 months like this. Then I realized I had to make a change. I had to move on with my life. I will always remember my dad and miss him dearly. But I'm still alive. So I had to move on. So I sold the mobile home and used the money to move out of state and start a new life. Things are looking up for me. I looked at your channel and see that you play some guitar. It looks like you're quite talented. Don't give up on life. I'm sure your mom wouldn't want that for you. Blessings and I hope things get better for you sooner rather than later.
this song is very bittersweet to me. I was a drug addict for a few years. I would quietly sit and listen to this song in my house or go for a drive alone. I would just cry and cry. Now that I've been off drugs and alcohol, I listen to it and I'm reminded of how badly my brain health has suffered. I'll never return to my old self. I didn't think growing up, that I would be an addict, so the opening line, "that there, that's not me" really strikes a chord with me. Sorry for the rambles. Just thought I'd share.
Brain/Body can (and should) repair itself. Forget, just believe you'll fully recover... Maybe you won't find your "old self", but maybe something new, learn how to see the beauty in it. You don't want to be your old self, you were so unhappy you needed drugs, maybe to survive. I know this. Just the best!!!
My wife just passed away and leave me with a 2 years child. Radiohead is helping me unburdern all my pain EDIT: thank you all for still checking on me. There's so much love out there even from people you don't know
I love the comment section here it’s so welcoming and it’s what helped me push through my depression for as long as I did and I want to thank everyone here for caring but it was originally every so often I felt bad then every night and now it’s all the time, I can’t take it anymore and I want to thank you all for caring and be one of my only sources of happiness but I think this will be the end of my journey -November 4 2019
@@bimisha2040 I'm not Kat but If you need someone to talk to find me on Facebook or Instagram and message me. Zackary Fender from Florida. I have to work tomorrow but after work I promise if you just need someone to talk to I'll reply when I can. Don't give up yet.
It's extremely depressing seeing other's comments about how bad they want to end their lives. I think some of them have actually done it by now. This song used to make me depressed and has worsen my mental state 2 years ago. I was completely numb. But now that I'm back I feel comforted by it. The ending even gives me hope because for me this song feels like a ray of twilight in a cold sunrise. It puts me at peace.
I cry when I hear the lyrics because it perfectly demonstrates my constant battle with anxiety and depression. Medication is only a temporary fix not a permanent solution...been searching since I was 21 and it's been 18 years of constant battles...yet I fight on because of my wife and 3 kids. It's not easy and its fucking exhausting, I just want a break....just a god damn break and feel that happiness again
Toye Contracting I’m 19, I’ve had anxiety and depression for 3 years, I was told it was supposed to be short term as it was caused by ptsd, but that’s only what triggered it. I’ve come to accept I might have it for life and to learn the possible areas of my life I need to strengthen in order to... well, survive. /:
Mine too, buddy. 11 years now, almost. He really fucked this all up. He left part of these lyrics in his note. I'm still trying to salvage what's left of life. I'm not going anywhere myself, but my ambition is perpetually zero, and I'm likely set to float through this world til my ride's here.
fatis dead people who take their own lives are not “selfish,” they are lost and hurting. Sure, they made the wrong decision, but that’s no reason to claim that they didn’t care about the people in their lives
I don't think this is about suicide, but dissociation, as a coping mechanism to survive trauma. Edit: Thanks for the likes (and the spelling correction, I suppose;-)
This song just helped me get through a panic attack. The lyrics and tone nailed how I was feeling, the huge wave of dissonance and chaos hit me, then clarity, light and beauty came in at the end. Music can be the best medicine there is. Hours of awful feelings ended by one song
Listening to this on New Year's eve sitting alone. 2019 was very painful for me and this song really helped me at various points to accept the situation and move on.I hope new year will be better for me and everyone who was disappointed with this year.
@@AnthonyRodriguez-vk9fi Man what a sad situation really. It seems like the whole world is in some kind of turmoil this year Protests,Environmental disasters,geopolitical tensions and what not.
this song always makes me feel emotionally overstimulated. Like a feeling of euphoria that puts me in a 6 minute coma where i forget everything and everyone and just vibrations and vibrations and vibrations and vibrations and vibrations
care to share any other pieces of music that make you feel like this mate? i know almost exactly what you mean. this is just not that kind of song for me just yet. i enjoy entering this trance state through "lalibela", "irene", "dive", and "silver" by caribou; "blast" by clams casino; "impossible soul" by sufjan stevens; "poor leno" by royksopp; "amazing day", "o", and "o (part 2 - reprise)" by coldplay and "true love waits" and "daydreaming" by radiohead. play.google.com/music/playlist/AMaBXylioBHaw2X5K7f05hix_G7D_I4G8BZeuz1LTqVEn1l2riCnfxw80JxADEPaoMKzIQ3XXMEa4VGn8FQsTEj_fM142sDsTA==
some good news. radiohead's label had taken this video down temporarily but have sent me a letter saying due to its popularity among fans, the band, their record label and its critical reception, it will remain here and available from now on. thanks for the love everyone :D
I don't know if you will get this, but I would love to understand what was the creative process behind the direction of the video. I would love for you to give us some insights.Please?
I have depression, and no song really captures the day to day panic, the dread of each morning, each day feeling like a near mental break. This song captures all of that perfectly, the tension in the strings as they build to what I interpret to be a panic attack/meltdown. Depression makes you want to disappear forever.
To me, this song is about how truly insignificant our time alive is. Most of us will not accomplish anything useful during our lives. We're wasting time, space and food, and our lives will pass in a flash. Before we know it, we'll all be old and regretting out life choices, every single mistake, every minute we took for granted. And all this time it will feel like we're not truly living, just existing. Nothing that matters, nothing that people appreciate. Am I projecting my own fears and insecurities too hard?
We all love you. You are being fully supported by the universe in this very moment and have been and will be for all of your life. The purpose of your existence will be revealed to you upon request. All you must do is go within and ask the Creator for it. On that day you will see that there is nothing to fear. All is well and going according to the Creators perfect will. Amen. "Come to me all ye who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." -Jesus the Christ
I, for one, find comfort in the fact that nothing means anything in this universe. The concept of meaning and reason is just a human thing, anyway, so just go have fun. That's heroism enough, as my dad says.
I feel absolutely the same. Lately one of my only ways to find some point in my life has been doing everything I do in the best way possible. I am trying to feel useful and avoiding a potential feeling of remorse because of lost chances to be better at something, to be someone whose life has a point, a function. And the more I live, the more I notice that every chance I have lost has been only my own responsibility. I notice myself as the biggest obstacle to being something more. And it makes me feel helpless.
To anyone who's here because they're feeling depressed or suicidal please don't take your own life. I've seen the consequences of it and it isn't pretty. On the January of 2018 my uncle killed himself after battling depression for years. I remember seeing him at Christmas and he seemed fine. He was always so intersted in my life and whenever I saw him he gave me loads of money. When my grandad was in the final stages of liver cancer my uncle would go to see him every day and spend hours with him. That was the man I knew kind generous, smart and funny , but deep down he was battling his own demons and sadly it was a battle that he lost. His death devasted my family especially my grandmother who was in utter shock after losing her youngest child. It was very hard on my dad aswell because my unlce was not only his broher but his godson aswell. My dad wears some of my uncle's old clothes because it makes him feel closer to him. My dad's family consisted of ten children four boys and six girls. Now its a family of nine children three boys and six girls. My uncle was a brother , a son , a best friend and a godfather. Another life taken too soon due to this cruel and unforgivable world. Please don't be like my uncle. Whether you belive it or not you are important. There are people who care about you and you will be missed deeply if you decide to depart from this world too soon. So please stay here and don't leave.
Achingly sweet. But your uncle's life was his own and it feels disrespectful somehow to use the effect it had on his loved ones as a deterrent to others who don't want to live anymore. Conscientious and empathic people are always going to be depressingly aware of the pain they'll cause with or without your guilt-tripping. Leave the poor souls alone. Sometimes suicide is just fated and beyond our comprehension. And pleading for them to cling to life just makes them feel shittier without actually deterring them at all. The kicker is you people will go to bed convinced you did the right thing and will keep on spreading this desperation to cling to life. If you want to help, make them want to stay alive instead of telling them how much worse things will get if they died. This fear-mongering is just another poison in all its benevolence and I'm convinced it does nothing but help sneak them closer to the edge.
I just came back from the hospital this morning. One of my closest friends got diagnosed with colon cancer about a week ago and last night the doctors had to remove half of his colon. He's only 25. While I was in the waiting room I couldn't help but repeat the lyrics in my head over and over again "I'm not here, this isn't happening"… Sometimes it feels like life is a bitch and then you die.
Interviewer: Which song would you like to be remembered by...(intrerrupted) Thom: How to disappear., off Kid A, I think it's the most beautiful thing we ever did.
+Qjdhdnwheuxjjs Refrigerator sadly they will be remember as the "that band that sand that I'm a creep song and I think they have another one I think it goes like 'don't leave me high' or something "
those are just people who don't bother to explore more music,can't blame them though,it took me a while to get to Radiohead and most people I know that know of Radiohead know them best for Paranoid Android
This is a song you cant listen 2 it just once. It makes you put it on repeat. It haunts you yet comforts you. Such a masterpiece. I am so in love with this song.
My mom told me she used to date this crazy abusive guy. He would lock her in his basement for days and hit her, cheat, lie, fight, abuse, manipulate her, drink excessively. He was years older than her. When something reallyyyyy bad would happen, she would sing this song to herself to get through the days, "I'm not here, this isn't happening," breaks my heart. She cries whenever we listen, I hope her life's better now.
bless her and all those who suffer from domestic abuse. its an awful world we live in, but im glad we can confide here on the internet and somewhat relieve the burden of nobody knowing the story. Bless you for caring for her too.
Me to except it was me in a basement and on a hunger strike but when I listen to this song it makes me feel pain and nostalgia the only times I can cry is to this song sorry I just feel your pain absolutely.
It's like my trying to explain feeling like a ghost. I think I died a thousand years ago and this life is some sort of remnant energy wave. impossible manifestations.
Don't do it don't do it don't do it don't do it don't do it mom called yesterday she said to please don't do anything rash to please talk to someone . She wouldn't be able to live with herself if I do something so don't do it don't do it don't it don't don't do it don't do it . These feeling will pass it's not that bad it's just a rough patch . If not for yourself then for her, she's a million miles away don't give her that pain the helpless feeling . So don't do it . Don't do it . Just please don't do it
This song captures how I feel better than any other. I've been so depressed and while things have been looking up lately, there are just days when i wonder what I'm doing here.
I listened to this song a lot when my girlfriend was diagnosed with cancer. Just that feeling of going through something so traumatic you have to disassociate yourself with it and deny the reality in order to keep going.
That there That's not me I go Where I please I walk through walls I float down the Liffey I'm not here This isn't happening I'm not here I'm not here In a little while I'll be gone The moment's already passed Yeah it's gone And I'm not here This isn't happening I'm not here I'm not here Strobe lights and blown speakers Fireworks and hurricanes I'm not here I'm not here This isn't happening I'm not here I'm not here
It is probably not "Liffey" but Lethe, the river of forgetfulness in greek mythology. It ties in with the song? But perhaps the river in Dublin has some significance too!
"I'm not here This isn't happening I'm not here, I'm not here" When my wife left me and took the kids. It was like an out of body experience. It was so traumatic it was impossible to accept and this song captures it.
New years eve 2019 was one of the lowest points I've been in my life. I told my parents i was having some friends over to celebrate, while they were off celebrating with someone else. I did so, when really, i was just saying it so i could spend the night all alone, and though i would've liked having some friends over, nobody was able to come anyways. So there i was, drinking alone and listening to music. Though i don't remember particularly much from that night, one certain moment really sticked with me. I can remember going outside after the fireworks had started coming, and listening to this very song on full volume through all the noise. It was a moment so hauntingly beautiful as well as extremely depressing. And I've never enjoyed feeling low more than i did that exact moment. It's hard to explain why, but feeling depressed has somehow grown on me as something comforting. I will always love this song, but for some reason i never play it during the day. It's just a "night song" to me if you could call it that. I just love how this song makes me feel, even if it makes me anxious, stressed and sad. Edit: I just came back to this comment after a year, quite randomly. Man, a lot of shit has happened this year, but I'm only talking for myself here. About three months ago, i tried to take my own life. I was straying down that dark tunnel, disintegrating more each day, until one day, i broke on the act of an impulse. I can't explain how thankful i am to still be here right now. I got help, and i got better. Having all those surpressed emotions hidden away for so long, it blurs the view of yourself and the world around you. And you're not even aware of it. But then, life suddenly does a 180, and people know what you've been carrying. There's this sense of relief, because you don't have to hide anymore, though you did everything you could to hold it all to youself in the past. I might sound strange here, but I truly have a whole new perspective on life. It seems that for the first time, in a long time, im living again. Please, remember that you are loved, and that anyones life can change in a heartbeat. But believe me when I say that you can't simply carry all that weight by yourself. That's what i tried to do. Seek help, and be loving and understanding if someone close to you is feeling low. Lots of love
'The miss the comfort in feeling sad' I understand. Just don't get too comfortable. It can be a habit. Some people complain and complain about being down or depressed but don't take the chance to pull themselves out of it when the opportunity arrives because part of them likes the misery. There is comfort in it's own way.
The most lonely song sparks the biggest feeling of unity. Now you're lonely, but realize how we all share this feeling, and it makes life a little bit more bearable
I have never felt so emotionally connected to song in my life, and I feel like I never will. It's truly stunning how something can be so soothing yet utterly unnerving at the same time. Bless Thom Yorke, for giving a voice to the lonely people of the world.
This song is haunting. For me it is the kind of song which makes me look deep inside myself and think about life and it's purpose. The instrumentals of this song are the reason this song is so sombre and melancholic.
A lot of people talk about how depressing this song is, but to me it has the effect I think it was meant to have. It is an escapism tool, it grounds me in the middle of sadness and happiness. Its soothing melodies and thoms voice are like a comforting embrace.
That song is about the whole period of time that OK Computer was happening. We did the Glastonbury Festival and this thing in Ireland. Something snapped in me. I just said, ‘That’s it. I can’t take it anymore.’ And more than a year later, we were still on the road. I hadn’t had time to address things. The lyrics came from something Michael Stipe said to me. I rang him and said, ‘I cannot cope with this.’ And he said, ‘Pull the shutters down and keep saying, ‘I’m not here, this is not happening.“
I agree. After going through Radiohead's entire discography and doing a lot of critical thinking, this is their most emotional and hard hitting song, Thom's right. I would put it as no. 1 too. Maybe Pyramid Song and There There close behind.
This is their crowning achievement. The notes compliment the lyrics and his vocal performance (as with most Radiohead songs) is really exceptional. Honestly they are in the same league as Pink Floyd maybe even sometimes better. (which doesn't come out of mouth too often when it comes to a modern band versus Floyd.)
Mark Ayt Maybe not his fault entirely, but he sure as hell supports this. He literally compared UA-cam uploading music to Nazis stealing art during WWII.
I love Thom because he is hands down one of the greatest musicians of the past 100 years, but damn he annoys the shit out of me with how butthurt he gets about his music being shared elsewhere that isn't "official" or passed by him or his people. Like damn dude, youtube uploading music is helping spread your art to wider audiences.
Depression is the instrument you can't hear because you're so numb to everything in life. So if you do have depression, I just want to say don't take the anti-depressants. Don't see a psychiatrist. I strongly recommend marijuana, do some self discovery, and go find somebody to love.
For me, this song is simply about the time passing by. Life is nothing more than a collection of brief moments, both happy and sad. You are just talking to someone and suddenly the moment's gone. Sometimes I just get that feeling that nothing is really happening and my past doesn't really belong to me as it was all gone so quickly. And then my mind starts floating away and it isn't me, who you are talking to, anymore. The speed of time can truly make you doubt your existence.
when hearing the line "I'm not here, this isn't happening" for the first time, I was struck by vivid flashbacks of repressed childhood trauma. I remembered that I would tell myself exactly "this isn't really happening to me" when i was facing abuse and knew that I was helpless in the situation I developed dissociation at a pretty young age (5 or 6) and I was absolutely terrified whenever I started to dissociate, I at some point firmly believed that I was in hell and I was forced to live through someone else's memory as a punishment I appear a pretty happy person today. But I am still plagued by the feeling of alienation from my own body/mind. Often when I've achieved something, or when I'm having fun with good company, I feel absolutely no joy. I feel like I am just not there so yea pretty cool song. really inspiring how seemingly simple composition / lyrics can convey such strong emotions (or more like a strong lack of emotions)
I still can't get over this song...what I mean is that it feels like it was made on a different planet. It is so mesmerizing and the most depressing song I have ever listened to. I feel like I'm not here constantly, with depersonalization disorder. For me, that is what this song portrays. That's why I say it feels like it was made on another planet, because I feel that way, and so did/does Thom Yorke apparently. Sorry about the ramble and poor writing.
Shakespeare Olive You just described the feeling I receive fron this song completely. That is a great way to describe it- "it sounds as if it was made on another planet."
This video is a gem. Not only is it one of the oldest videos on this platform being posted less than 7 months after UA-cam’s iconic ‘Me at the Zoo’ video, but the video itself utilizes the symbolism of a tree to almost perfectly represent the sadness this song evokes. Of course, the video isn't perfect. I believe that the free digital museum ‘Kid A Mnesia Exhibition’ (free on PlayStation 5 and PC’s) more accurately depicts this song’s (and the entirety of the Kid a and Amnesiac albums’) emotion.
This song reminds me of a person who I know. And, our "friendship" is very weird and off going. I somehow brought myself to gain feelings for him, not sure of how. He has been going through difficult times, and been suffering addiction. We haven't known eachother for too long, but, his mind is very different from others. Everything he does, brings my attention up. I love getting phone calls from him, and hearing him pour his heart out into lyrics. He has a very very pure heart.. he may be leaving today, to get help. And I just really, truly hope he gets better. I want to see him smile, because its greatly enjoyed. And I really want to see him happy. Hopefully by getting help, you'll grow into your pure state. But, thank you for coming into my life. You've opened my eyes on a few more things. I love you, tru.
So many times I’ve come back to this one song. I always feel like I’m a forgettable person. People may talk to me one day then never again speak to me. I always feel like I’m not here, but I am here. There’s always someone Someone that can help you Someone that cares That’s why I want to keep living I want to be that someone If I can’t be happy with myself, then I want to make people happy Make people smile Make people laugh Give people hope I want to share the little happiness I have with everyone As long as I can help even if it’s a little bit, I can be happy too :)
That there that's not me i go where i please i walk through walls i float down the liffey i'm not here this isn't happening i'm not here i'm not here In a little while i'll be gone the moment's already passed yeah it's gone and i'm not here this isn't happening i'm not here i'm not here Strobe lights and blown speakers fireworks and hurricanes i'm not here this isn't happening i'm not here i'm not here
SOundtrack - back in the day - to expose the abuse of mental health patients - how they were left to their own devices in prisons instead of being offered treatment. Which often led to self harm and even worse. Mental Health patients like me and you are deserving of space and time and access to "medication" so we can heal and rest and recover. Using tasers and then pulling guns and eventually killing them/us is ... I'm not here this isn't happening i'm not here i'm not here #mentalhealth #zerowaste #mindfulness
5:21 is so impactful because of the complete chaos and dissonance that happens beforehand, it's genius. Feels like you just went through a hurricane and came out the other side to be greated by clear skies and the sun shining and that everything is gonna be alright. Easily my favourite part of the song.
Radiohead only play once in my country, Argentina. That time was March 24 from 2009. Years ago, in that exact same day but in 1976, started the Infamous Millitary Dictatorship known as Process of National Reorganization (and wrongfully knew in the US as Dirty War) where 30000 people dissapear in cause of the acts of State Terrorism. The band played this song during that show and Ed o Brien dedicates it to them, and the families of the dead and dissapear. Such i great gesture from they kind. Love this guys forever!
Nicolás Riveros while I was reading the book, “Alive” about the Argentina soccer team that was in a plane crash, I listened to KidA and the two things seemed to perfectly go together. As I read the pages, tears would roll down my cheeks as I listened to this.
i remember the first time i hearing this song in this album, i've always skip this song because it is a boring song and then play optimistic after that. but now, after repeat and repeat again this song, this song literally blows my mind and outstanding. loving radiohead was not like a cup of tea for everyone. their music is for our soul and it is different. cheers from malaysia
you have to replay almost all of radioheads songs to get the most out of them but when you eventually get what Thom and the boys are sending us ,we mere mortals, find its an awesome place to be.. this work to me is bordering on genius material..as hes done many times
This is radioheads best song by far. This song isn’t about sadness or depression but it definitely brings those feelings out of us when we listen to it. This song mostly incapsulates the feeling or nothingness and the feeling of unimportance and that usually hits us on a personal level. “I’m not here, this isn’t happening” this lyric I feel is the reason why so many people resonate with this song. We all get that unworldly feeling when listening to this song and it truly makes you feel like you’re not there or that none of this is real. It’s a true and unnatural feeling that I’ve never gotten with any other song. People say Radiohead is just a depressing band but it’s not like that at all. Radiohead isn’t depressing in the sense that they are literally talking about death and suicide. The reason why people think they’re depressing because there music brings out those feelings of emptiness, mostly shown with this song. Well it all depends, not all songs are like How to disappear completely or like the album Kid A. Overall I believe How to disappear completely is Radioheads best song, not only because it’s a beautifully sung song but because it is the song that incapsulates who Radiohead is as a band. Honestly one of best bands ever.
That there, that's not me I go where I please I walk through walls I float down the Liffey I'm not here This isn't happening I'm not here I'm not here In a little while I'll be gone The moment's already passed Yeah, it's gone And I'm not here This isn't happening I'm not here I'm not here Strobe lights and blown speakers Fireworks and hurricanes [Chorus] I'm not here This isn't happening I'm not here I'm not here
This is the only song that has ever made me burst out in tears. I feel the emotions that this song creates on such a personal level, it really feels like I become one with this song.
It really is a beautiful thing to experience/ release such emotion by listening to music. There are people who cant do that or wont? Or just don't use music like that? I don't understand that. I just don't get it. (I am not judging.) Without music, I would have been Dead a Long Time Ago. #Greg
The impact music has on an individual is just remarkable to me. The sadness, the loneliness, the heartbreak, it can all be encapsulated and interpreted to a rhythm and bring so much healing simply because it’s relatable and I love it. Music has saved my life along with countless others. Don’t take it for granted.
I love this song but at 5:13 I start getting a sense of doom and impending danger and it makes me really emotional and then it stops around 5:25 almost like a storm cleared. It’s incredible
It's one of those nights again, isn't it?
yes.
I've been happier, but I wish I could say the same for everyone else. The weights are heavy, and I don't know if I can bear it forever.
Exactly
Yea
11:44 pm not even knowing why i'm depressed but writing about it and soaking in it
Does anyone else find a strange sense of comfort in the pain and sadness of certain songs?
Donald Smith everyday
Yeah
yes, i do.. and radiohead's songs are pure catharsis
Always
Not just in songs but also in the sadness itself
Dying is such a hassle, I just wanna disappear completely like I was never here to begin with
I feel that way from the time I wake til i sleep. Always need to distract myself with anything to make it through the day.
You never were.
I feel you
But then you'd never have experienced the goose bumps you get when listening to songs like this
It's really not a hassle if you make it quick and talk yourself up to it. I have and will end my life this Saturday .. the exact day I was born 45 years ago
The worst feeling is having to live your life surviving, and not enjoying it anymore.
I read this a 16, Im 28 and it is still true,I not even sad about it "Life no longer has any charm over me. I simply live and the day will come when even that will not be possible for me."
I wont ever pursue death but for sure when the time comes I will welcome it.
It is difficult but things get better eventually ❤️ being patient and positive. It's like a video game in hard mode but it can get fun too.
so high school, then? Or you mean middle school?
"I'm not living, i'm just killing time.."
Sadly it's so true for many of us. We muddle through the best we can. I've been a pessimistic person for a very long time and I don't get excited by anything. At least I can get solace from this music.
I just love the comment section of depressive songs. it's a safe place where we're not judged. we share our pain to show other people they're not the only ones suffering. they're not the only ones hurted. they're not the only ones, who just need a warm hug. here I feel like none is gonna hold me back, and when i'll go to sleep, it'll be forever.
Hugs 🧚♂️
Hi, I. Hope you are still here and doing ok??
The brilliant thing is this isn't a safe space at all, we still have the freedom to post whatever we want to each other but almost nobody feels like being assholes here. It's kinda nice, kinda weird. I wish this ambience was sustainable but maybe it isn't meant to be.
Edit 2: this is an update, I fell back into my hole of eternal numb and sadness and it’s my fault again just like always, this time I couldn’t keep my fat fucking mouth shut and I ruined my only shot with the girl of my dreams. I don’t know what to do but come to this video and cry and maybe one day I will completely disappear and then after I do I will end it all that way no one would have to deal with my burden anymore... thank you everyone but I don’t deserve anyone especially not u people or that girl. I’m sorry I let you guys down, I’m sorry for everything. I’ve been walking down this road and had every shitty thing imaginable happen and I can finally say my journey will be coming to an end very soon, I’m sorry to everyone for everything and goodbye .
Loudmouth58 But you have to stay. We care about you. 💕🤗🥰
"It is a joy to be hidden and a disaster not to be found"
Chris Gewirtz by whom is that quote?
Donald Winnicott, a psychoanalyst. It was referenced in the book "Healing the Shame that Binds You", by John Bradshaw, when discussing how we hide our true selves, and the role that others play in us finding and knowing ourselves.
"Healing the Shame that Binds You". That book is like some robotic code for humans
Thanks for this
It really should be "it's a joy to be hidden and a disaster to be found"
I feel so empty all the time. Everything happens so much. I feel nothing for an eternity and a torrential flood for a moment. I'm not a good person. I feel either incapable of love or hopelessly lonely. It's tiring
Wanna talk on insta? Im willing to listen to anything.
Your capable
Have you tried asking for help?To pray? Sometimes God takes curious forms through a stranger who believes you absolutely can love.As everyone does.Ask for forgiveness but also forgive yourself by making something good for any creature in need.And this will push you magically on with a clear heart..Trust me. been there.
Don't let other people project their nonsense onto you. You are as good a person as you choose to be. Whatever anyone tells you to the contrary is BS
No such thing as a good or bad person, in reality. Keep in mind that EVERYTHING in this life and our understanding of it is all RELATIVE. When you come to this realization, it will completely change your perspective on what this life REALLY is- it's only what you CHOOSE to make of it. There's no right or wrong, no good, no bad. Just different. It's all about perspective. It's your CHOICE.
I spent the day laughing with friends, only to come back and go to bed and listen to this while I'm crying.
I'm tired of life, tired of disability, of not being enough, not belonging...
Whenever I go, I don't feel at home, I'm searching for something I don't even know.
But I'm hanging on, for what? Because I don't want to hurt my family and friends, I don't belong with them, but I don't want them to end up like me.
You are not alone, and i know it's fucking hurt but your are brave, we are brave and we'll get through this. Love❤
Love ya, you're not alone.
🖤
yes
I too have felt this way, sort of still am.. Home doesn't feel like home.
Exactly same feeling
Reporter: If you could pick one song that you'd like to be remembered by -
Thom (abruptly and without hesitation): How to Disappear, off Kid A.
Reporter: Why?
Thom: Um, because it's the most beautiful thing we ever did, I think.
I concur Thom, I concur.
Dr. Jones i don't want thom to die.
Is that interview on youtube?
When was the interview made? Is it after the release of their last album?
@Phosphorus Styx thank you so much
@@saharbouzidi2 Before In Rainbows
The amount of times I’ve cried to this song is unreal
@George W. Bush He won't even be able to cry all he will do is laugh in agony
@@donhawwan8732 on the bathroom floor
@George W. Bush damn, Bush going through it
@@thenavigator2559
With a loaded gun.
Seriously?! Why try turning depression into some sort of competition? Real mature...
This song doesn’t make me sad or happy. It simply makes me feel irrelevant to this world. I’m just an organism walking around this world and there’s nothing good or bad about that.
Exactly. this song makes me feel like just a being. No purpose, just an animal, living it's life.
We all hope it's not true somehow, but the reality of our situation is hard to escape.
But I hate how true that is
Yep, non duality...easiest to accept
Beautiful
Towards the end of a depression spanning around three years (with minor and short periods of happiness scattered throughout it) I started listening to this song a lot, especially when I was especially sad, cause the lyrics really fitted my feelings. One day I finally got the courage to talk to somebody about my mental health - which I had refused to do for those three years, thinking that I'd have been better off dead. I went to my doctor, given that that was the first step, but all I got out of it was a phone number for somebody to talk to over the phone - which frankly I found useless. I left the doctor's office feeling almost worse than when I came, but with that little fraction of life-lust I had left, I decided to go to the library, cause there was this girl I fancied, who I knew used to work there many years ago. I thought my hopes of meeting her there were very slim, given that it was so many years ago, but I tried anyways. But when I came to the entrance, I could feel my anxiety kick in, and I started to walk past it, and then just as I was about to head outside the building, this song came on the speakers in the entry-hall. I'm not normally a religious or spiritual person, and never really believed in destiny, but I thought this had to be some sort of sign. So I gathered the courage to enter the library. The girl wasn't there (life isn't a hollywood movie) but it still taught me a lot about decision-making, and it taught me that I had to start digging myself free from the depression, and change my life for the better, rather than just living in my dreams, hoping that good things would come to me automatically. That day felt like the last time I lived in a world of destiny; destiny gave me one final chance to save my life, and from then on I was on my own, in a world of existentialism. Every choice I've made since then has felt like a self-conscious one, and almost all of them have led my towards a better and happier life.
Thank you, Radiohead.
Thanks to you Herta
What a beautiful comment, I hope you're doing better now
I've experienced similar things like your library story. I understand how you feel and it makes me feel like I'm not alone, thank you for sharing your story. I hope everything is going well for you my friend.
It's a beautiful story, thank you for sharing it - I am sure it will offer comfort to the people who've been hurting in these times.
I can't even explain how I feel when I listen to Radiohead's music in general, let alone this song and I sadly often come across people sharing their darkest thoughts to it. The music is very unusual-it tears you to pieces and yet offers a sprinkle of comfort- letting you know that this awful feeling of dread that is playing with you;dragging you away from your hopes and at the same time lifting you up, waking you up to the realisation that you are able to help yourself no matter what gets to you by controlling the way your thoughts shape out your mind. A human's mind and consciousness is, in my opinion, the most powerful thing and as much as it has the ability to destroy it has the ability to heal. And this song captures that so well, that it is almost terrifying. I am really glad that you fought your way out of your situation and I wish you all the best at what is yet to come.
Awww ❤️🩹
If you hear your neighbor blasting this song, please do the right thing and check on them to make sure they're okay.
spoofmeistro Hmmmm. I blast this song at least like 10 times a month. Not once have my neighbors ever checked on me. Is that bad???
If anything I get more of a “there goes that fucking white girl again with her depressing ass music” vibe from them.
Maybe they’re just bumpin Kid A
My neighbor did indeed check on me 🥺♥️
@@ronidarko3283 lmao did they want too listen to Radiohead with you?
They're just enjoying some bangers
I come here often. Depression and pure sadness are no joke. Seeing as you all seem to be sharing your reasons for your love to this song, and the strange comfort we find within it, I will share mine. Once I had a job that I loved, a busy social life and a loving family. I had to leave my job and when I did my mother got Parkinson's. It seemed to help my father out a lot - who was running his own business - to be at home with her while he worked so naturally, I did. She declined rather quickly and then before I knew it, it had become imperative for me to be at home all the time to help with her.
A few years later my father got diagnosed cancer. Then it became a struggle for all of us and we all became housebound. During that time, I lost my social status (which didn't matter as my family was most important to me), but it wasn't just the outings I lost - lost all my friends, too. Then a few years later I lost both of my parents.
This song I often turn to, because I feel nobody understands my sadness, grief, emptiness and pain. I hope if anybody else is going through these situations and emotions, that they find their safe place somewhere, anywhere. For me, it's here in this song.
(edit) thanks for all the likes. I appreciate you all.
You’ve come a long way, I can’t imagine how it feels to be in such a situation where you can’t help but accept the tragic reality for what it is. Good luck
Not sure if this brings you a comfort but in a way you didn't lose all your friends - all the people who wrote your comment thought about you and somehow they became your friends.
@@thenewexeptor thank you for the comment, I appreciate the thoughtful words and sentiment.
Oh dear, you've suffered so much, makes me think of my losses too. I hope you could overcome the sadness. Take care ❤️
Can't imagine, hope it's gotten better for you...
i honestly can't remember a time when i didnt think about ending it all every day. its so.. exhausting. but im never gonna give in.
rvre candy
Stay strong. I was where you were at several points in my life and I just want to say that it gets better. It gets so much fucking better. The pain is worth fighting through for what lies on the other side of it.
Live.
fucking live.
It's worth the pain.
Just remember that life has or can have so many chapters. Despite the downs there will be great highs. Chin up.
I hope you're okay. This stranger really cares for you.
My wife died 18 days ago for unknown reason in our bedroom, and our marriage is only just about 6 months. This song actually reminds me on that day, my life felt so unreal afterwards. And to me this song somehow calming yet devastating.
Stay strong
I'm so sorry for your loss, I hope things get better
Ratio + my marriage better + slide for your wife
Please stay strong and hang in there my friend.. I'm sorry for your loss...stay strong friend
Sorry for your loss, Stay strong friend.
It's weird how the 240p makes the video better
it's that lofi aesthetic
MioNami cease to exist
@@vomitagent7305 idk how to dissappear completely
MioNami yes 🙌 were stuck in "it" forever
Pablo Grifo = peter griffin
This doesn't need high resolution. The bad resolution makes it perfectly imperfect.
Like how things should be...
@@agent3912this is a beautiful comment❤
Agree.
yeah
The kids these days call it "lo-fi", or "low fidelity". Makes it cozy to us or something like that.
This song hits me really hard... I suffer from dissociation and i pass every time of my day wondering why i fell so disconnected from my life. Everybody seems like strangers and everything slowly stars to disappear... I can't get it anymore
Hey I don't know if this will make you feel any better. But dissociation is more common than you think...you're not alone. Keep going.
dpdr?
Hey hang in there my friend
This comment could be mine ... I am already a ghost.
3 years are passed and I learn a lot since than about my self and the world. I have an advice for you all if you want to embrace my words. I understand how self care and self compassion are the key to heal from all the scar that past esperiences left to us. Is more important to understand how blessed we are to improve our self every day rather than fossilize on what we cannot control. The power and the wonder live whitin us every where. we are enough for what we are and we must accept this to truly grasp how much courage we have to live on this earth every day and every night. this makes us special, unique and really reminds us of the stainless value we have in continuously being ourselves without fear and judgement.
it's more the thoughts and judgments we have about ourselves that make us suffer and hurt us... this has allowed me to understand how much I am actually continuously surrounded by people who really love me unconditionally and how much in reality I am the one who has never managed to be the first person to truly value myself and support myself every day.we have the power of the infinite within us and here we find all the answers we need to allow us to walk. we can truly be the best version of ourselves every day... we just need to be able to give a different voice about ourselves and the world, because we are incredible people and the fact that we are us every day gives meaning to how wonderful and unique we are.
it is not an easy path and life puts pitfalls and unexpected events in our path. I still suffer a lot from this type of disorder and the diagnoses given to me confirmed a C-ptsd disorder that I have been carrying since I was little. However, I am trying every day to be my own best friend and to give the infinite love that each of us deserves.
we are much more than we can imagine and our life is the greatest gift we could have.
even if you are in the dark, alone, it seems to you that there are no ways out and that nothing can really pull you out of the fear of living... always remember that we have the ability to look at a different point and our eternal light will come out like a waterfall from our heart and we will be able to walk again on the wonderful and mysterious path of life. I wish you the best of everything because you deserve whatever you want.
take care... you are safe
My son used to listen to Radiohead back in the early 90s. At the time, I thought they were too depressing to listen to. Looking back, I know now that it is because their music touched a place deep inside from which I was running. I feared being in touch with those feelings of overwhelming sadness and grief. I believed I would be swallowed up and overcome, never to emerge and live life again.
I had come close to taking my life as a young woman. I contemplated which was the easiest way to exit - staring at a bottle of pills, then staring at a razor blade. In the midst of that struggle I heard a voice, much like the sound of my own voice, "Don't do it". I recognized it as a warning. I heeded that voice and put away the pills and razor blade.
Fast forward over 40 plus years and I have no regrets that I didn't go through with ending my life. I could give all the reasons as to the why's and wherefore's; suffice it to say that living is better than dying. Pain and suffering are part of life - a means to mold and shape our character, and in the process encourage our fellow human beings that there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
Well said 👏
Darlene Griffith We're glad you're here with us.
Bit sometimes the light is Hard to see
@poopie fart No shit
glad ur still here
My ex from long ago, whom I loved deeply, committed suicide five years ago. I think of him whenever I listen to Radiohead, because we found them together and listened to them constantly, but I think specifically of how he must have felt up until his final moment every time I listen to this song. I’ve been there myself, too many times to count. Thank you for saving me, again and again.
I came depressed and left depressed but with a better understanding
thanks for the mid cry chuckle :)
radiohead is always excellent for making you think
My mother passed away two days ago. I've been in my apartment with this song on repeat. Not sure when I'm going to leave.
i'm sorry for your loss. your mom is in a better place now, and if you miss her, i assume she was a good mother, and probably an exemplar, lovable one. i know my words won't ease your pain but there's just so much beauty out there, man. so many things to experience, relationships with who care about you, places to visit, music, films, paintings art in general, everything... it's worth it, to keep living. and that's coming from somebody who's still going thru some shit. anyways, i hope you'll get better.
I can’t even imagine my mom not being here. I’m very sorry for you, truly.
really hope you’re doing okay
I hope you're OK 🙏 I lost my dad in 2019 and there were times that I felt like this. I was already suffering from depression, cptsd and disassociative disorder disease (DID). When he died after I took care of him for two years with dementia I felt like I had no purpose anymore. I was his sole caregiver for that two years and got up everyday just to take care of him. What good was I to anyone anymore? What purpose did I serve? I had actually moved to Arizona to live with him and take care of him, so everywhere I went was memories of him. I was still living in his mobile home so I was surrounded by constant sadness and thoughts of his last moments. I spent nearly 9 months like this. Then I realized I had to make a change. I had to move on with my life. I will always remember my dad and miss him dearly. But I'm still alive. So I had to move on.
So I sold the mobile home and used the money to move out of state and start a new life. Things are looking up for me.
I looked at your channel and see that you play some guitar. It looks like you're quite talented. Don't give up on life. I'm sure your mom wouldn't want that for you. Blessings and I hope things get better for you sooner rather than later.
I am so sorry. Scream it out
instructions were not clear,ended up crying on the bathroom...
Legit cryin in the club rn Thom would never do this
Best comment so far!!!
lol
S ame
same
this song is very bittersweet to me. I was a drug addict for a few years. I would quietly sit and listen to this song in my house or go for a drive alone. I would just cry and cry. Now that I've been off drugs and alcohol, I listen to it and I'm reminded of how badly my brain health has suffered. I'll never return to my old self.
I didn't think growing up, that I would be an addict, so the opening line, "that there, that's not me" really strikes a chord with me. Sorry for the rambles. Just thought I'd share.
Brent Prieur you are loved
Thanks for sharing, man.
No entendí nada pero quiero imaginar es algo bueno, como que dejó drogas o algo asi.....solo entendí drugs
Brain/Body can (and should) repair itself. Forget, just believe you'll fully recover... Maybe you won't find your "old self", but maybe something new, learn how to see the beauty in it. You don't want to be your old self, you were so unhappy you needed drugs, maybe to survive. I know this. Just the best!!!
Has nothing to do with drugs but thanks for your input. Interesting.
I think this may be the best song ever made.
without a doubt
It is
True.
Definitive.
This shit goes on forever. You'll be back in all of your many forms, back to this song again and again.
it doesn't end
yup im back tonight.
This comment section feels like a therapy room
Ryan Priest31 truly.
it iszz
BMO fuck off then
Ryan Priest31 it’s comforting me somehow
This video is gonna be 15 next November.
My wife just passed away and leave me with a 2 years child. Radiohead is helping me unburdern all my pain
EDIT: thank you all for still checking on me. There's so much love out there even from people you don't know
@Ember Enfierno sure, my family is helping me to pass through all this
I love the comment section here it’s so welcoming and it’s what helped me push through my depression for as long as I did and I want to thank everyone here for caring but it was originally every so often I felt bad then every night and now it’s all the time, I can’t take it anymore and I want to thank you all for caring and be one of my only sources of happiness but I think this will be the end of my journey
-November 4 2019
Sergio Molina sending my love, your way brother ♥️
I'm so very sorry. Sending much love and light.
Be strong for your child and all who love you.Your loss is huge but the pain will lessen in time.
This song reminds me of the nights I thought about dying, and of how I conquered those nights. Made me cry. Music like this keeps me alive.
Kat Jenny i am so suicidal ... help me
@@bimisha2040 I'm not Kat but If you need someone to talk to find me on Facebook or Instagram and message me. Zackary Fender from Florida. I have to work tomorrow but after work I promise if you just need someone to talk to I'll reply when I can. Don't give up yet.
You're not alone. Let's fight together. Don't give up.@@bimisha2040
Real shit
Todd Hamlit you’re so edgy
It's extremely depressing seeing other's comments about how bad they want to end their lives. I think some of them have actually done it by now.
This song used to make me depressed and has worsen my mental state 2 years ago. I was completely numb. But now that I'm back I feel comforted by it. The ending even gives me hope because for me this song feels like a ray of twilight in a cold sunrise. It puts me at peace.
Reality is brutal for some people 💔💔
I cry when I hear the lyrics because it perfectly demonstrates my constant battle with anxiety and depression. Medication is only a temporary fix not a permanent solution...been searching since I was 21 and it's been 18 years of constant battles...yet I fight on because of my wife and 3 kids. It's not easy and its fucking exhausting, I just want a break....just a god damn break and feel that happiness again
Toye Contracting I know that feel
Hey man. How are you doing these days?
💗
Toye Contracting Talk to me, man. You seem cool. Please don’t give in to it.
Toye Contracting I’m 19, I’ve had anxiety and depression for 3 years, I was told it was supposed to be short term as it was caused by ptsd, but that’s only what triggered it. I’ve come to accept I might have it for life and to learn the possible areas of my life I need to strengthen in order to... well, survive. /:
My friend hung himself. He loved ok computer. I loved this album more. This song reminds me of him. I wish he saw how great he was.
Sorry
Mine too, buddy. 11 years now, almost. He really fucked this all up. He left part of these lyrics in his note.
I'm still trying to salvage what's left of life. I'm not going anywhere myself, but my ambition is perpetually zero, and I'm likely set to float through this world til my ride's here.
@@markvandompseler5562 can't even imagine. Hope you find something worthwhile
I wish he saw how great he was that hits me hard :( rip to your friend.
fatis dead people who take their own lives are not “selfish,” they are lost and hurting. Sure, they made the wrong decision, but that’s no reason to claim that they didn’t care about the people in their lives
I don't think this is about suicide, but dissociation, as a coping mechanism to survive trauma.
Edit: Thanks for the likes (and the spelling correction, I suppose;-)
I think you're perfectly correct
It is in deed
Yeah it's really relatable to me and I have PTSD
It’s dissociation. I swear no one ever knows how to spell that.
@@cloroxbleach8986 It still isn't half as annoying as the "should of" typo
This song just helped me get through a panic attack. The lyrics and tone nailed how I was feeling, the huge wave of dissonance and chaos hit me, then clarity, light and beauty came in at the end. Music can be the best medicine there is. Hours of awful feelings ended by one song
Listening to this on New Year's eve sitting alone. 2019 was very painful for me and this song really helped me at various points to accept the situation and move on.I hope new year will be better for me and everyone who was disappointed with this year.
Salutes, my good man. I hope this week has already given you something to look forward to
@@idnswmh Thanks man
Yeah this year is going fine so far, I am busy in my work so I don't feel lonely at all. I hope you'll have a nice year too.
@@aakarshmayank4117 one day at a time, better and better as we keep moving towards spring
Australia lights out on a billion animal life forms . Bang up new year !
@@AnthonyRodriguez-vk9fi Man what a sad situation really. It seems like the whole world is in some kind of turmoil this year Protests,Environmental disasters,geopolitical tensions and what not.
this song always makes me feel emotionally overstimulated. Like a feeling of euphoria that puts me in a 6 minute coma where i forget everything and everyone and just vibrations and vibrations and vibrations and vibrations and vibrations
... put the Rampant Rabbit down Benji and step outside. You'll feel better for it. #GoodVibrations
care to share any other pieces of music that make you feel like this mate?
i know almost exactly what you mean. this is just not that kind of song for me just yet. i enjoy entering this trance state through "lalibela", "irene", "dive", and "silver" by caribou; "blast" by clams casino; "impossible soul" by sufjan stevens; "poor leno" by royksopp; "amazing day", "o", and "o (part 2 - reprise)" by coldplay and "true love waits" and "daydreaming" by radiohead. play.google.com/music/playlist/AMaBXylioBHaw2X5K7f05hix_G7D_I4G8BZeuz1LTqVEn1l2riCnfxw80JxADEPaoMKzIQ3XXMEa4VGn8FQsTEj_fM142sDsTA==
Song always makes me cry. Reminds me of my grandmother. Listened to it for almost a year after she passed on my way to work.
Me too! I lose myself
benji wilson me too :^) same with "Go Slowly".
some good news. radiohead's label had taken this video down temporarily but have sent me a letter saying due to its popularity among fans, the band, their record label and its critical reception, it will remain here and available from now on. thanks for the love everyone :D
David Herrera That's awesome!
David Herrera
Radiohead is so fucking awesome
i love the song and i can't imagine it without this video. you really portrayed it well.
I don't know if you will get this, but I would love to understand what was the creative process behind the direction of the video. I would love for you to give us some insights.Please?
That's great news, and a true token of recognition. Kudos to you!!
I have depression, and no song really captures the day to day panic, the dread of each morning, each day feeling like a near mental break. This song captures all of that perfectly, the tension in the strings as they build to what I interpret to be a panic attack/meltdown. Depression makes you want to disappear forever.
this tutorial didn't teach me how to disappear, clickbait
i could see through my hands, you aren't listening correctly.
How to disappear: live in the 20th century.
I know it's a Radiohead song, still I was looking for a suggestion here.
lol
feel the song and i get it indeed
To me, this song is about how truly insignificant our time alive is. Most of us will not accomplish anything useful during our lives. We're wasting time, space and food, and our lives will pass in a flash. Before we know it, we'll all be old and regretting out life choices, every single mistake, every minute we took for granted. And all this time it will feel like we're not truly living, just existing. Nothing that matters, nothing that people appreciate.
Am I projecting my own fears and insecurities too hard?
We all love you. You are being fully supported by the universe in this very moment and have been and will be for all of your life.
The purpose of your existence will be revealed to you upon request. All you must do is go within and ask the Creator for it.
On that day you will see that there is nothing to fear.
All is well and going according to the Creators perfect will. Amen.
"Come to me all ye who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." -Jesus the Christ
You’re allowed to think life is meaningless knowing that doesn’t have to take away from the joys of living
I, for one, find comfort in the fact that nothing means anything in this universe. The concept of meaning and reason is just a human thing, anyway, so just go have fun. That's heroism enough, as my dad says.
i feel the same what u wrote.. whats this feeling..i hate.. can u share..has it happened to you too
I feel absolutely the same. Lately one of my only ways to find some point in my life has been doing everything I do in the best way possible. I am trying to feel useful and avoiding a potential feeling of remorse because of lost chances to be better at something, to be someone whose life has a point, a function. And the more I live, the more I notice that every chance I have lost has been only my own responsibility. I notice myself as the biggest obstacle to being something more. And it makes me feel helpless.
To anyone who's here because they're feeling depressed or suicidal please don't take your own life. I've seen the consequences of it and it isn't pretty. On the January of 2018 my uncle killed himself after battling depression for years. I remember seeing him at Christmas and he seemed fine. He was always so intersted in my life and whenever I saw him he gave me loads of money. When my grandad was in the final stages of liver cancer my uncle would go to see him every day and spend hours with him. That was the man I knew kind generous, smart and funny , but deep down he was battling his own demons and sadly it was a battle that he lost. His death devasted my family especially my grandmother who was in utter shock after losing her youngest child. It was very hard on my dad aswell because my unlce was not only his broher but his godson aswell. My dad wears some of my uncle's old clothes because it makes him feel closer to him.
My dad's family consisted of ten children four boys and six girls. Now its a family of nine children three boys and six girls. My uncle was a brother , a son , a best friend and a godfather. Another life taken too soon due to this cruel and unforgivable world. Please don't be like my uncle. Whether you belive it or not you are important. There are people who care about you and you will be missed deeply if you decide to depart from this world too soon.
So please stay here and don't leave.
I'm sorry for what happened. That was a beautiful text that may help many people. Thank you for writing it and sharing your story.
Achingly sweet. But your uncle's life was his own and it feels disrespectful somehow to use the effect it had on his loved ones as a deterrent to others who don't want to live anymore. Conscientious and empathic people are always going to be depressingly aware of the pain they'll cause with or without your guilt-tripping. Leave the poor souls alone. Sometimes suicide is just fated and beyond our comprehension. And pleading for them to cling to life just makes them feel shittier without actually deterring them at all. The kicker is you people will go to bed convinced you did the right thing and will keep on spreading this desperation to cling to life. If you want to help, make them want to stay alive instead of telling them how much worse things will get if they died. This fear-mongering is just another poison in all its benevolence and I'm convinced it does nothing but help sneak them closer to the edge.
Thank you and I am very sorry for your loss.
But it’s so. fucking. hard.
The Polaroid Bear nice words but some people are too far gone to see it the way others do. That is what suïcide is all about.
I just came back from the hospital this morning. One of my closest friends got diagnosed with colon cancer about a week ago and last night the doctors had to remove half of his colon. He's only 25.
While I was in the waiting room I couldn't help but repeat the lyrics in my head over and over again "I'm not here, this isn't happening"…
Sometimes it feels like life is a bitch and then you die.
hope y'all doing fine nowadays
sometimes lifes a bitch and then you keep on living
thats why we get high, cuz you never now when youre gonna go
Interviewer: Which song would you like to be remembered by...(intrerrupted)
Thom: How to disappear., off Kid A, I think it's the most beautiful thing we ever did.
sadly they wont but hey being remembered for paranoid android isn't a bad thing
+Qjdhdnwheuxjjs Refrigerator sadly they will be remember as the "that band that sand that I'm a creep song and I think they have another one I think it goes like 'don't leave me high' or something "
those are just people who don't bother to explore more music,can't blame them though,it took me a while to get to Radiohead and most people I know that know of Radiohead know them best for Paranoid Android
you have your own sort of ignorance to deal with aswell, by that comment
apeazy4 ... to whom were you speaking?
I know many people ignorant of the majesty which is Radiohead. It just doesn't match their tastes. It is sad.
Sitting in my car at 1 am in the rain, just trying to find some comfort in my sadness
Rich Franklin I see you there.. and sit down to join you..
How are you doing since you posted this? Well I hope...
Whoosh
I feel you. I did the same, but I was outside the car sobbing uncontrollably. Things got better.
Appreciate your sadness before you don't feel anything at all.
This is a song you cant listen 2 it just once. It makes you put it on repeat. It haunts you yet comforts you. Such a masterpiece. I am so in love with this song.
You read my mind
thanks I guess
totally agree
The fact that this was written by living breathing human beings is a testament to the potential of mankind as a species.
Someone is going to find me in a room one day with this playing.
Don't give up
Hey buddy, hope you're doing well!
Hope that someone finds you, picks the guitar and starts jamming with you while you're singing this song.
Never give up.
Hey friend.. You ok?
You have a purpose, never forget how important you are.
😢
My mom told me she used to date this crazy abusive guy. He would lock her in his basement for days and hit her, cheat, lie, fight, abuse, manipulate her, drink excessively. He was years older than her. When something reallyyyyy bad would happen, she would sing this song to herself to get through the days, "I'm not here, this isn't happening," breaks my heart. She cries whenever we listen, I hope her life's better now.
bless her and all those who suffer from domestic abuse. its an awful world we live in, but im glad we can confide here on the internet and somewhat relieve the burden of nobody knowing the story. Bless you for caring for her too.
Thank you for sharing that's really tough man. Best of luck to you and her in future relationships.
Heartbreaking, I send lots of love to your mom
I can’t imagine how that must have felt, you never truly forget something like that, I hope she is alright now and continues to stay safe.
Me to except it was me in a basement and on a hunger strike but when I listen to this song it makes me feel pain and nostalgia the only times I can cry is to this song sorry I just feel your pain absolutely.
This song is how I felt my whole life.
Ur ExBoyfriend me too
Me too I often feel like I'm living someone else's life for them
It's like my trying to explain feeling like a ghost. I think I died a thousand years ago and this life is some sort of remnant energy wave. impossible manifestations.
@@amandapatrie8952 me to
"impossible manifestations" what a great book title....write your story!
Don't do it don't do it don't do it don't do it don't do it mom called yesterday she said to please don't do anything rash to please talk to someone . She wouldn't be able to live with herself if I do something so don't do it don't do it don't it don't don't do it don't do it . These feeling will pass it's not that bad it's just a rough patch . If not for yourself then for her, she's a million miles away don't give her that pain the helpless feeling . So don't do it . Don't do it . Just please don't do it
please dont
i hope you're okay man. your plight wont persist, but you will. you will get through this, please talk to someone. take care of yourself
I’ve been that mom.
i hope you're okay. well okay is the wrong word to use since no one is okay but please dont do it
This song captures how I feel better than any other. I've been so depressed and while things have been looking up lately, there are just days when i wonder what I'm doing here.
Grim this song keeps me alive.
Hold on...
Same here, just have to carry on faking
Grim same reason why I'm here right now. It's so hard to exist man...
Dammm depressed people really do listen to a wide variety of music lmaoo. U listen to childish gambino?
I listened to this song a lot when my girlfriend was diagnosed with cancer. Just that feeling of going through something so traumatic you have to disassociate yourself with it and deny the reality in order to keep going.
This song makes me feel like life is just a simulation. And I'm ok with that. Peace and love to all.
Kevin Pellet I got that same feeling too! I can’t explain it
I'd prefer if it was a simulation than something real
Well whoever is behind this simulation can honestly fuck himself
that bass. years of listening to this song and album and i never picked up on how beautiful that cyclical bass is.
That there
That's not me
I go
Where I please
I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
In a little while
I'll be gone
The moment's already passed
Yeah it's gone
And I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
Strobe lights and blown speakers
Fireworks and hurricanes
I'm not here
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
Thanks man. He's kinda difficult to understand sometimes.
Always wondered if he actually said "float down the Liffey". That's a river in Dublin City, where I'm from.
It is probably not "Liffey" but Lethe, the river of forgetfulness in greek mythology. It ties in with the song? But perhaps the river in Dublin has some significance too!
@@MarkTheBastardCassidy I always heard it as "I float down on lithium" as it was a common antidepressent.
@@logodaedalus1884 that would make more sense but also if you think about thome York is from over around the liffey
"I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here, I'm not here"
When my wife left me and took the kids. It was like an out of body experience. It was so traumatic it was impossible to accept and this song captures it.
Stay strong my friend.
Time will dull it.
Sadly, that's sort of why I'm here too...
Im so sorry to hear may you find the comfort and peace you seek soon.
I truly hope you have a positive change of events in your life. im so sorry.
New years eve 2019 was one of the lowest points I've been in my life. I told my parents i was having some friends over to celebrate, while they were off celebrating with someone else. I did so, when really, i was just saying it so i could spend the night all alone, and though i would've liked having some friends over, nobody was able to come anyways. So there i was, drinking alone and listening to music.
Though i don't remember particularly much from that night, one certain moment really sticked with me. I can remember going outside after the fireworks had started coming, and listening to this very song on full volume through all the noise. It was a moment so hauntingly beautiful as well as extremely depressing. And I've never enjoyed feeling low more than i did that exact moment. It's hard to explain why, but feeling depressed has somehow grown on me as something comforting.
I will always love this song, but for some reason i never play it during the day. It's just a "night song" to me if you could call it that. I just love how this song makes me feel, even if it makes me anxious, stressed and sad.
Edit:
I just came back to this comment after a year, quite randomly. Man, a lot of shit has happened this year, but I'm only talking for myself here. About three months ago, i tried to take my own life. I was straying down that dark tunnel, disintegrating more each day, until one day, i broke on the act of an impulse. I can't explain how thankful i am to still be here right now. I got help, and i got better. Having all those surpressed emotions hidden away for so long, it blurs the view of yourself and the world around you. And you're not even aware of it.
But then, life suddenly does a 180, and people know what you've been carrying. There's this sense of relief, because you don't have to hide anymore, though you did everything you could to hold it all to youself in the past. I might sound strange here, but I truly have a whole new perspective on life. It seems that for the first time, in a long time, im living again. Please, remember that you are loved, and that anyones life can change in a heartbeat. But believe me when I say that you can't simply carry all that weight by yourself. That's what i tried to do. Seek help, and be loving and understanding if someone close to you is feeling low. Lots of love
Northo Boggo this was really powerful to read
And I think many of us including myself can relate to that feeling
It’s too bad we can’t have a meetup of all those who have felt that feeling
'The miss the comfort in feeling sad'
I understand. Just don't get too comfortable. It can be a habit. Some people complain and complain about being down or depressed but don't take the chance to pull themselves out of it when the opportunity arrives because part of them likes the misery. There is comfort in it's own way.
Here, in my solitude, I have the feeling that I contain too much humanity. (Ingmar Bergman)
The most lonely song sparks the biggest feeling of unity. Now you're lonely, but realize how we all share this feeling, and it makes life a little bit more bearable
All the lonely people…
Thank you for sharing this with me.
I have never felt so emotionally connected to song in my life, and I feel like I never will. It's truly stunning how something can be so soothing yet utterly unnerving at the same time. Bless Thom Yorke, for giving a voice to the lonely people of the world.
This song is haunting. For me it is the kind of song which makes me look deep inside myself and think about life and it's purpose. The instrumentals of this song are the reason this song is so sombre and melancholic.
Radiohead is like the soundtrack to my depression.
The moments already passed..
My friend passed away 4 months ago
i listened to this song at the day they told me he passed away
when ever i listen to it now
i can't help but cry.
Sorry to hear of your loss.
it's fine :)
Really sorry to hear that.
HAHAHAHAHAHA
+Gordan freeman Why are you laughing wtf
A lot of people talk about how depressing this song is, but to me it has the effect I think it was meant to have. It is an escapism tool, it grounds me in the middle of sadness and happiness. Its soothing melodies and thoms voice are like a comforting embrace.
Love the lyrics. "That there, that's not me. I'm not here, this isn't happening."
Disbelief and denial, what a crazy feeling.
:'( I will walk from this pain
Ditto
Dissociation and alienation
It also has a literal sense to it, if you have had ego death, you'll know what i mean.
That song is about the whole period of time that OK Computer was happening. We did the Glastonbury Festival and this thing in Ireland. Something snapped in me. I just said, ‘That’s it. I can’t take it anymore.’ And more than a year later, we were still on the road. I hadn’t had time to address things. The lyrics came from something Michael Stipe said to me. I rang him and said, ‘I cannot cope with this.’ And he said, ‘Pull the shutters down and keep saying, ‘I’m not here, this is not happening.“
makes me want to go away
far away............
away from this, no more
no more.
This is Major Thom to ground control
Warren Ser 😂 yesss
Yorke really made the grade
david bowie?
Thom Yorke likes your coment... For sure, David as well...
_Can you hear me major thom?
_thom : i'm not here
The dislikes are from the people who mistakenly clicked dislike cause they couldn't see properly through their tears.
The best song Radiohead has ever made, in my opinion
I agree. After going through Radiohead's entire discography and doing a lot of critical thinking, this is their most emotional and hard hitting song, Thom's right. I would put it as no. 1 too. Maybe Pyramid Song and There There close behind.
Agree. Radiohead's masterpiece.
Thanks, gay Jew
This is their crowning achievement. The notes compliment the lyrics and his vocal performance (as with most Radiohead songs) is really exceptional. Honestly they are in the same league as Pink Floyd maybe even sometimes better. (which doesn't come out of mouth too often when it comes to a modern band versus Floyd.)
Timm 😂😂
One of those long nights
I can breathe once more
This is one of the last remaining studio versions of this song on UA-cam.
Great job, Thom.
It's not Thom's fault!
Mark Ayt Maybe not his fault entirely, but he sure as hell supports this. He literally compared UA-cam uploading music to Nazis stealing art during WWII.
***** That's quite true.
I love Thom because he is hands down one of the greatest musicians of the past 100 years, but damn he annoys the shit out of me with how butthurt he gets about his music being shared elsewhere that isn't "official" or passed by him or his people. Like damn dude, youtube uploading music is helping spread your art to wider audiences.
cinnawaffls My point exactly.
Whenever I feel empty, I just come here..
Me too
If depression was an instrument
It's not?
that would be the way it is......
No Patrick mayonnaise is not an instrument.
Coleminer if depression was a song..
Depression is the instrument you can't hear because you're so numb to everything in life. So if you do have depression, I just want to say don't take the anti-depressants. Don't see a psychiatrist. I strongly recommend marijuana, do some self discovery, and go find somebody to love.
4:51 this chord progression is imo the best part of this masterpiece
TheRealMysteryMan that part gave me chills
Absolutely!
For me, this song is simply about the time passing by. Life is nothing more than a collection of brief moments, both happy and sad. You are just talking to someone and suddenly the moment's gone. Sometimes I just get that feeling that nothing is really happening and my past doesn't really belong to me as it was all gone so quickly. And then my mind starts floating away and it isn't me, who you are talking to, anymore. The speed of time can truly make you doubt your existence.
when hearing the line "I'm not here, this isn't happening" for the first time, I was struck by vivid flashbacks of repressed childhood trauma. I remembered that I would tell myself exactly "this isn't really happening to me" when i was facing abuse and knew that I was helpless in the situation
I developed dissociation at a pretty young age (5 or 6) and I was absolutely terrified whenever I started to dissociate, I at some point firmly believed that I was in hell and I was forced to live through someone else's memory as a punishment
I appear a pretty happy person today. But I am still plagued by the feeling of alienation from my own body/mind. Often when I've achieved something, or when I'm having fun with good company, I feel absolutely no joy. I feel like I am just not there
so yea pretty cool song. really inspiring how seemingly simple composition / lyrics can convey such strong emotions (or more like a strong lack of emotions)
I still can't get over this song...what I mean is that it feels like it was made on a different planet. It is so mesmerizing and the most depressing song I have ever listened to. I feel like I'm not here constantly, with depersonalization disorder. For me, that is what this song portrays. That's why I say it feels like it was made on another planet, because I feel that way, and so did/does Thom Yorke apparently. Sorry about the ramble and poor writing.
Welcome to the world of obsessional neurosis, where Thome Yorke is probably one of the artist that sums it up the best.
Don't see it as a disorder because everyone have symptoms, see it as a way to apprehend the world and structure yourself.
Shakespeare Olive You just described the feeling I receive fron this song completely. That is a great way to describe it- "it sounds as if it was made on another planet."
I am agree with u..
What is depersonalisation disorder? Please explain. I'm guessing it's based around anxiety and depression but I would love to know the specifics.
I come here every time i feel unable to do something about my low self-esteem and my insecurities.
Hey how about we be insecure and depressed together
My best friend took his own life... this song breaks my heart thinking about his decision.
md1080 I'm very Sorry for your loss ;(
I'm sorry... I hope that light has come back to your life after this tragedy.
This video is a gem. Not only is it one of the oldest videos on this platform being posted less than 7 months after UA-cam’s iconic ‘Me at the Zoo’ video, but the video itself utilizes the symbolism of a tree to almost perfectly represent the sadness this song evokes. Of course, the video isn't perfect. I believe that the free digital museum ‘Kid A Mnesia Exhibition’ (free on PlayStation 5 and PC’s) more accurately depicts this song’s (and the entirety of the Kid a and Amnesiac albums’) emotion.
This song reminds me of a person who I know. And, our "friendship" is very weird and off going. I somehow brought myself to gain feelings for him, not sure of how. He has been going through difficult times, and been suffering addiction. We haven't known eachother for too long, but, his mind is very different from others. Everything he does, brings my attention up. I love getting phone calls from him, and hearing him pour his heart out into lyrics. He has a very very pure heart.. he may be leaving today, to get help. And I just really, truly hope he gets better. I want to see him smile, because its greatly enjoyed. And I really want to see him happy. Hopefully by getting help, you'll grow into your pure state. But, thank you for coming into my life. You've opened my eyes on a few more things. I love you, tru.
kaitlin perkins How is your friend doing?
@@kartgal I'm not sure, honestly. He hasn't made contact with me since he left. But I really hope he's doing well.
@@kaitlinperkins6273 update?
So many times I’ve come back to this one song. I always feel like I’m a forgettable person. People may talk to me one day then never again speak to me. I always feel like I’m not here,
but I am here. There’s always someone
Someone that can help you
Someone that cares
That’s why I want to keep living
I want to be that someone
If I can’t be happy with myself, then I want to make people happy
Make people smile
Make people laugh
Give people hope
I want to share the little happiness I have with everyone
As long as I can help even if it’s a little bit, I can be happy too :)
Christopher DeBlasio well said my friend :)
bless yr beautiful soul😢❤️
real
That there
that's not me
i go
where i please
i walk through walls
i float down the liffey
i'm not here
this isn't happening
i'm not here
i'm not here
In a little while
i'll be gone
the moment's already passed
yeah it's gone
and i'm not here
this isn't happening
i'm not here
i'm not here
Strobe lights and blown speakers
fireworks and hurricanes
i'm not here
this isn't happening
i'm not here
i'm not here
Mrs. Astronaut í
up
Mrs. Astronaut I
Mrs. Astronaut 💜
SOundtrack - back in the day - to expose the abuse of mental health patients - how they were left to their own devices in prisons instead of being offered treatment. Which often led to self harm and even worse.
Mental Health patients like me and you are deserving of space and time and access to "medication" so we can heal and rest and recover.
Using tasers and then pulling guns and eventually killing them/us is ...
I'm not here
this isn't happening
i'm not here
i'm not here
#mentalhealth #zerowaste #mindfulness
5:21 is so impactful because of the complete chaos and dissonance that happens beforehand, it's genius. Feels like you just went through a hurricane and came out the other side to be greated by clear skies and the sun shining and that everything is gonna be alright.
Easily my favourite part of the song.
It fucks you up that part like life exactly
this is one of those 2:00am head in the clouds glazed eyes song that makes you feel every thing and nothing all at once
its literally 2:00 i wish i were high but i am lisitening to this
my favorite feeling
It's literally 2:00 a.m. and I'm listening this masterpiece
Am ouheret
One day, we will all be dust. Enjoy each breath and never waste a moment feeling empty.
Radiohead only play once in my country, Argentina. That time was March 24 from 2009. Years ago, in that exact same day but in 1976, started the Infamous Millitary Dictatorship known as Process of National Reorganization (and wrongfully knew in the US as Dirty War) where 30000 people dissapear in cause of the acts of State Terrorism. The band played this song during that show and Ed o Brien dedicates it to them, and the families of the dead and dissapear. Such i great gesture from they kind. Love this guys forever!
Nicolás Riveros 1976 my friend
Nicolás Riveros fue en el 76
thank you for sharing this. made me shiver.
Nicolás Riveros while I was reading the book, “Alive” about the Argentina soccer team that was in a plane crash, I listened to KidA and the two things seemed to perfectly go together. As I read the pages, tears would roll down my cheeks as I listened to this.
"..Years ago, in that exact same day but in 1976...." lo dice claramente
i remember the first time i hearing this song in this album, i've always skip this song because it is a boring song and then play optimistic after that. but now, after repeat and repeat again this song, this song literally blows my mind and outstanding. loving radiohead was not like a cup of tea for everyone. their music is for our soul and it is different. cheers from malaysia
you have to replay almost all of radioheads songs to get the most out of them
but when you eventually get what Thom and the boys are sending us ,we mere mortals, find its an awesome place to be.. this work to me is bordering on genius material..as hes done many times
this sounds like my depression
No one gives a shit go and get help instead of posting a comment on a music video and that goes to all of you "depressed" people
for ur information I go to counselling so yeah I am getting help, stop shitting on people for silly harmless comments
+ge im glad you go to counselling but its not doing the world any good when you are posting comments on a music video
Daniel Woods thank you, I doubt that but let's agree to disagree
Sounds like Daniel needs some of his own counseling
This is undeniably my favorite song of all time. Nothing comes close to the way it makes me feel.
That bassline:)
Kid A is still fanasic.
Oh, and great, great video.:)
This is radioheads best song by far. This song isn’t about sadness or depression but it definitely brings those feelings out of us when we listen to it. This song mostly incapsulates the feeling or nothingness and the feeling of unimportance and that usually hits us on a personal level.
“I’m not here, this isn’t happening” this lyric I feel is the reason why so many people resonate with this song. We all get that unworldly feeling when listening to this song and it truly makes you feel like you’re not there or that none of this is real. It’s a true and unnatural feeling that I’ve never gotten with any other song.
People say Radiohead is just a depressing band but it’s not like that at all. Radiohead isn’t depressing in the sense that they are literally talking about death and suicide. The reason why people think they’re depressing because there music brings out those feelings of emptiness, mostly shown with this song. Well it all depends, not all songs are like How to disappear completely or like the album Kid A.
Overall I believe How to disappear completely is Radioheads best song, not only because it’s a beautifully sung song but because it is the song that incapsulates who Radiohead is as a band. Honestly one of best bands ever.
That there, that's not me
I go where I please
I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
In a little while
I'll be gone
The moment's already passed
Yeah, it's gone
And I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
Strobe lights and blown speakers
Fireworks and hurricanes
[Chorus]
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
I just did:)
Thats what just happened to me
What a beauty of a sentiment
I just typed "depressing music" and I found this
Me baisicly
This is the only song that has ever made me burst out in tears. I feel the emotions that this song creates on such a personal level, it really feels like I become one with this song.
It really is a beautiful thing to experience/ release such emotion by listening to music. There are people who cant do that or wont? Or just don't use music like that? I don't understand that. I just don't get it. (I am not judging.) Without music, I would have been Dead a Long Time Ago. #Greg
I know exactly what you feel. To me this doesn't feel like a song, it feels like you're listening to an emotion.
Beautifully described.
Cannot take u seriously with that thumbnail
I'm crying right now btw
I suffer from paranoia. I understand and feel most of the songs and brings calm and sometimes tears. It brings even spiritual like feelings.
What happens with you?
The impact music has on an individual is just remarkable to me. The sadness, the loneliness, the heartbreak, it can all be encapsulated and interpreted to a rhythm and bring so much healing simply because it’s relatable and I love it. Music has saved my life along with countless others. Don’t take it for granted.
What a powerful, hauntingly beautiful song... truly a masterpiece
I was in the military when this album came out. And the military taught me exactly what this song felt like played out in real time.
Play this at my funeral
Eloisa Adriana Pinheiro That is not the right song, and those are not the correct lyrics.
SquareMax dont tell me xDddd
Nah I. Having upbeat.... like the loony tunes
I dedicate this to my old roommate James Cohea who passed away on Xmas of 2018. The struggles over buddy, rest easy
Joey Casablancas sorry for your loss brother. Lost my best friend of 17 years in 2017. I’m still grieving everyday.
Rest easy James ❤️
I love this song but at 5:13 I start getting a sense of doom and impending danger and it makes me really emotional and then it stops around 5:25 almost like a storm cleared. It’s incredible