Radiohead "How To Disappear Completely" Original Music Video by David Herrera
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It's one of those nights again, isn't it?
yes.
Every single night is one of those nights for me ....
I've been happier, but I wish I could say the same for everyone else. The weights are heavy, and I don't know if I can bear it forever.
Exactly
Yea
Dying is such a hassle, I just wanna disappear completely like I was never here to begin with
I feel that way from the time I wake til i sleep. Always need to distract myself with anything to make it through the day.
You never were.
I feel you
But then you'd never have experienced the goose bumps you get when listening to songs like this
It's really not a hassle if you make it quick and talk yourself up to it. I have and will end my life this Saturday .. the exact day I was born 45 years ago
Does anyone else find a strange sense of comfort in the pain and sadness of certain songs?
Donald Smith everyday
Yeah
yes, i do.. and radiohead's songs are pure catharsis
Always
Not just in songs but also in the sadness itself
I spent the day laughing with friends, only to come back and go to bed and listen to this while I'm crying.
I'm tired of life, tired of disability, of not being enough, not belonging...
Whenever I go, I don't feel at home, I'm searching for something I don't even know.
But I'm hanging on, for what? Because I don't want to hurt my family and friends, I don't belong with them, but I don't want them to end up like me.
You are not alone, and i know it's fucking hurt but your are brave, we are brave and we'll get through this. Love❤
Love ya, you're not alone.
🖤
yes
I too have felt this way, sort of still am.. Home doesn't feel like home.
Exactly same feeling
"It is a joy to be hidden and a disaster not to be found"
Chris Gewirtz by whom is that quote?
Donald Winnicott, a psychoanalyst. It was referenced in the book "Healing the Shame that Binds You", by John Bradshaw, when discussing how we hide our true selves, and the role that others play in us finding and knowing ourselves.
"Healing the Shame that Binds You". That book is like some robotic code for humans
Thanks for this
It really should be "it's a joy to be hidden and a disaster to be found"
This doesn't need high resolution. The bad resolution makes it perfectly imperfect.
Like how things should be...
@@agent3912this is a beautiful comment❤
Agree.
yeah
The kids these days call it "lo-fi", or "low fidelity". Makes it cozy to us or something like that.
It's weird how the 240p makes the video better
it's that lofi aesthetic
MioNami cease to exist
@@vomitagent7305 idk how to dissappear completely
MioNami yes 🙌 were stuck in "it" forever
Pablo Grifo = peter griffin
I feel so empty all the time. Everything happens so much. I feel nothing for an eternity and a torrential flood for a moment. I'm not a good person. I feel either incapable of love or hopelessly lonely. It's tiring
Wanna talk on insta? Im willing to listen to anything.
Your capable
Have you tried asking for help?To pray? Sometimes God takes curious forms through a stranger who believes you absolutely can love.As everyone does.Ask for forgiveness but also forgive yourself by making something good for any creature in need.And this will push you magically on with a clear heart..Trust me. been there.
Don't let other people project their nonsense onto you. You are as good a person as you choose to be. Whatever anyone tells you to the contrary is BS
No such thing as a good or bad person, in reality. Keep in mind that EVERYTHING in this life and our understanding of it is all RELATIVE. When you come to this realization, it will completely change your perspective on what this life REALLY is- it's only what you CHOOSE to make of it. There's no right or wrong, no good, no bad. Just different. It's all about perspective. It's your CHOICE.
I just love the comment section of depressive songs. it's a safe place where we're not judged. we share our pain to show other people they're not the only ones suffering. they're not the only ones hurted. they're not the only ones, who just need a warm hug. here I feel like none is gonna hold me back, and when i'll go to sleep, it'll be forever.
Hugs 🧚♂️
Hi, I. Hope you are still here and doing ok??
The brilliant thing is this isn't a safe space at all, we still have the freedom to post whatever we want to each other but almost nobody feels like being assholes here. It's kinda nice, kinda weird. I wish this ambience was sustainable but maybe it isn't meant to be.
Edit 2: this is an update, I fell back into my hole of eternal numb and sadness and it’s my fault again just like always, this time I couldn’t keep my fat fucking mouth shut and I ruined my only shot with the girl of my dreams. I don’t know what to do but come to this video and cry and maybe one day I will completely disappear and then after I do I will end it all that way no one would have to deal with my burden anymore... thank you everyone but I don’t deserve anyone especially not u people or that girl. I’m sorry I let you guys down, I’m sorry for everything. I’ve been walking down this road and had every shitty thing imaginable happen and I can finally say my journey will be coming to an end very soon, I’m sorry to everyone for everything and goodbye .
Loudmouth58 But you have to stay. We care about you. 💕🤗🥰
If you hear your neighbor blasting this song, please do the right thing and check on them to make sure they're okay.
spoofmeistro Hmmmm. I blast this song at least like 10 times a month. Not once have my neighbors ever checked on me. Is that bad???
If anything I get more of a “there goes that fucking white girl again with her depressing ass music” vibe from them.
Maybe they’re just bumpin Kid A
My neighbor did indeed check on me 🥺♥️
@@ronidarko3283 lmao did they want too listen to Radiohead with you?
They're just enjoying some bangers
This song doesn’t make me sad or happy. It simply makes me feel irrelevant to this world. I’m just an organism walking around this world and there’s nothing good or bad about that.
Exactly. this song makes me feel like just a being. No purpose, just an animal, living it's life.
We all hope it's not true somehow, but the reality of our situation is hard to escape.
But I hate how true that is
Yep, non duality...easiest to accept
Beautiful
Towards the end of a depression spanning around three years (with minor and short periods of happiness scattered throughout it) I started listening to this song a lot, especially when I was especially sad, cause the lyrics really fitted my feelings. One day I finally got the courage to talk to somebody about my mental health - which I had refused to do for those three years, thinking that I'd have been better off dead. I went to my doctor, given that that was the first step, but all I got out of it was a phone number for somebody to talk to over the phone - which frankly I found useless. I left the doctor's office feeling almost worse than when I came, but with that little fraction of life-lust I had left, I decided to go to the library, cause there was this girl I fancied, who I knew used to work there many years ago. I thought my hopes of meeting her there were very slim, given that it was so many years ago, but I tried anyways. But when I came to the entrance, I could feel my anxiety kick in, and I started to walk past it, and then just as I was about to head outside the building, this song came on the speakers in the entry-hall. I'm not normally a religious or spiritual person, and never really believed in destiny, but I thought this had to be some sort of sign. So I gathered the courage to enter the library. The girl wasn't there (life isn't a hollywood movie) but it still taught me a lot about decision-making, and it taught me that I had to start digging myself free from the depression, and change my life for the better, rather than just living in my dreams, hoping that good things would come to me automatically. That day felt like the last time I lived in a world of destiny; destiny gave me one final chance to save my life, and from then on I was on my own, in a world of existentialism. Every choice I've made since then has felt like a self-conscious one, and almost all of them have led my towards a better and happier life.
Thank you, Radiohead.
Thanks to you Herta
What a beautiful comment, I hope you're doing better now
I've experienced similar things like your library story. I understand how you feel and it makes me feel like I'm not alone, thank you for sharing your story. I hope everything is going well for you my friend.
It's a beautiful story, thank you for sharing it - I am sure it will offer comfort to the people who've been hurting in these times.
I can't even explain how I feel when I listen to Radiohead's music in general, let alone this song and I sadly often come across people sharing their darkest thoughts to it. The music is very unusual-it tears you to pieces and yet offers a sprinkle of comfort- letting you know that this awful feeling of dread that is playing with you;dragging you away from your hopes and at the same time lifting you up, waking you up to the realisation that you are able to help yourself no matter what gets to you by controlling the way your thoughts shape out your mind. A human's mind and consciousness is, in my opinion, the most powerful thing and as much as it has the ability to destroy it has the ability to heal. And this song captures that so well, that it is almost terrifying. I am really glad that you fought your way out of your situation and I wish you all the best at what is yet to come.
Awww ❤️🩹
i honestly can't remember a time when i didnt think about ending it all every day. its so.. exhausting. but im never gonna give in.
rvre candy
Stay strong. I was where you were at several points in my life and I just want to say that it gets better. It gets so much fucking better. The pain is worth fighting through for what lies on the other side of it.
Live.
fucking live.
It's worth the pain.
Just remember that life has or can have so many chapters. Despite the downs there will be great highs. Chin up.
I hope you're okay. This stranger really cares for you.
I don't think this is about suicide, but dissociation, as a coping mechanism to survive trauma.
Edit: Thanks for the likes (and the spelling correction, I suppose;-)
I think you're perfectly correct
It is in deed
Yeah it's really relatable to me and I have PTSD
It’s dissociation. I swear no one ever knows how to spell that.
@@cloroxbleach8986 It still isn't half as annoying as the "should of" typo
My wife just passed away and leave me with a 2 years child. Radiohead is helping me unburdern all my pain
EDIT: thank you all for still checking on me. There's so much love out there even from people you don't know
@Ember Enfierno sure, my family is helping me to pass through all this
I love the comment section here it’s so welcoming and it’s what helped me push through my depression for as long as I did and I want to thank everyone here for caring but it was originally every so often I felt bad then every night and now it’s all the time, I can’t take it anymore and I want to thank you all for caring and be one of my only sources of happiness but I think this will be the end of my journey
-November 4 2019
Sergio Molina sending my love, your way brother ♥️
I'm so very sorry. Sending much love and light.
Be strong for your child and all who love you.Your loss is huge but the pain will lessen in time.
My wife died 18 days ago for unknown reason in our bedroom, and our marriage is only just about 6 months. This song actually reminds me on that day, my life felt so unreal afterwards. And to me this song somehow calming yet devastating.
Stay strong
I'm so sorry for your loss, I hope things get better
Ratio + my marriage better + slide for your wife
Please stay strong and hang in there my friend.. I'm sorry for your loss...stay strong friend
Sorry for your loss, Stay strong friend.
My ex from long ago, whom I loved deeply, committed suicide five years ago. I think of him whenever I listen to Radiohead, because we found them together and listened to them constantly, but I think specifically of how he must have felt up until his final moment every time I listen to this song. I’ve been there myself, too many times to count. Thank you for saving me, again and again.
My son used to listen to Radiohead back in the early 90s. At the time, I thought they were too depressing to listen to. Looking back, I know now that it is because their music touched a place deep inside from which I was running. I feared being in touch with those feelings of overwhelming sadness and grief. I believed I would be swallowed up and overcome, never to emerge and live life again.
I had come close to taking my life as a young woman. I contemplated which was the easiest way to exit - staring at a bottle of pills, then staring at a razor blade. In the midst of that struggle I heard a voice, much like the sound of my own voice, "Don't do it". I recognized it as a warning. I heeded that voice and put away the pills and razor blade.
Fast forward over 40 plus years and I have no regrets that I didn't go through with ending my life. I could give all the reasons as to the why's and wherefore's; suffice it to say that living is better than dying. Pain and suffering are part of life - a means to mold and shape our character, and in the process encourage our fellow human beings that there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
Well said 👏
Darlene Griffith We're glad you're here with us.
Bit sometimes the light is Hard to see
@poopie fart No shit
glad ur still here
some good news. radiohead's label had taken this video down temporarily but have sent me a letter saying due to its popularity among fans, the band, their record label and its critical reception, it will remain here and available from now on. thanks for the love everyone :D
David Herrera That's awesome!
David Herrera
Radiohead is so fucking awesome
i love the song and i can't imagine it without this video. you really portrayed it well.
I don't know if you will get this, but I would love to understand what was the creative process behind the direction of the video. I would love for you to give us some insights.Please?
That's great news, and a true token of recognition. Kudos to you!!
My mother passed away two days ago. I've been in my apartment with this song on repeat. Not sure when I'm going to leave.
i'm sorry for your loss. your mom is in a better place now, and if you miss her, i assume she was a good mother, and probably an exemplar, lovable one. i know my words won't ease your pain but there's just so much beauty out there, man. so many things to experience, relationships with who care about you, places to visit, music, films, paintings art in general, everything... it's worth it, to keep living. and that's coming from somebody who's still going thru some shit. anyways, i hope you'll get better.
I can’t even imagine my mom not being here. I’m very sorry for you, truly.
really hope you’re doing okay
I hope you're OK 🙏 I lost my dad in 2019 and there were times that I felt like this. I was already suffering from depression, cptsd and disassociative disorder disease (DID). When he died after I took care of him for two years with dementia I felt like I had no purpose anymore. I was his sole caregiver for that two years and got up everyday just to take care of him. What good was I to anyone anymore? What purpose did I serve? I had actually moved to Arizona to live with him and take care of him, so everywhere I went was memories of him. I was still living in his mobile home so I was surrounded by constant sadness and thoughts of his last moments. I spent nearly 9 months like this. Then I realized I had to make a change. I had to move on with my life. I will always remember my dad and miss him dearly. But I'm still alive. So I had to move on.
So I sold the mobile home and used the money to move out of state and start a new life. Things are looking up for me.
I looked at your channel and see that you play some guitar. It looks like you're quite talented. Don't give up on life. I'm sure your mom wouldn't want that for you. Blessings and I hope things get better for you sooner rather than later.
I am so sorry. Scream it out
My friend hung himself. He loved ok computer. I loved this album more. This song reminds me of him. I wish he saw how great he was.
Sorry
Mine too, buddy. 11 years now, almost. He really fucked this all up. He left part of these lyrics in his note.
I'm still trying to salvage what's left of life. I'm not going anywhere myself, but my ambition is perpetually zero, and I'm likely set to float through this world til my ride's here.
@@markvandompseler5562 can't even imagine. Hope you find something worthwhile
I wish he saw how great he was that hits me hard :( rip to your friend.
fatis dead people who take their own lives are not “selfish,” they are lost and hurting. Sure, they made the wrong decision, but that’s no reason to claim that they didn’t care about the people in their lives
I think this may be the best song ever made.
without a doubt
It is
True.
Definitive.
This song reminds me of the nights I thought about dying, and of how I conquered those nights. Made me cry. Music like this keeps me alive.
Kat Jenny i am so suicidal ... help me
@@bimisha2040 I'm not Kat but If you need someone to talk to find me on Facebook or Instagram and message me. Zackary Fender from Florida. I have to work tomorrow but after work I promise if you just need someone to talk to I'll reply when I can. Don't give up yet.
You're not alone. Let's fight together. Don't give up.@@bimisha2040
Real shit
Todd Hamlit you’re so edgy
This shit goes on forever. You'll be back in all of your many forms, back to this song again and again.
it doesn't end
yup im back tonight.
My mom told me she used to date this crazy abusive guy. He would lock her in his basement for days and hit her, cheat, lie, fight, abuse, manipulate her, drink excessively. He was years older than her. When something reallyyyyy bad would happen, she would sing this song to herself to get through the days, "I'm not here, this isn't happening," breaks my heart. She cries whenever we listen, I hope her life's better now.
bless her and all those who suffer from domestic abuse. its an awful world we live in, but im glad we can confide here on the internet and somewhat relieve the burden of nobody knowing the story. Bless you for caring for her too.
Thank you for sharing that's really tough man. Best of luck to you and her in future relationships.
Heartbreaking, I send lots of love to your mom
I can’t imagine how that must have felt, you never truly forget something like that, I hope she is alright now and continues to stay safe.
Me to except it was me in a basement and on a hunger strike but when I listen to this song it makes me feel pain and nostalgia the only times I can cry is to this song sorry I just feel your pain absolutely.
I cry when I hear the lyrics because it perfectly demonstrates my constant battle with anxiety and depression. Medication is only a temporary fix not a permanent solution...been searching since I was 21 and it's been 18 years of constant battles...yet I fight on because of my wife and 3 kids. It's not easy and its fucking exhausting, I just want a break....just a god damn break and feel that happiness again
Toye Contracting I know that feel
Hey man. How are you doing these days?
💗
Toye Contracting Talk to me, man. You seem cool. Please don’t give in to it.
Toye Contracting I’m 19, I’ve had anxiety and depression for 3 years, I was told it was supposed to be short term as it was caused by ptsd, but that’s only what triggered it. I’ve come to accept I might have it for life and to learn the possible areas of my life I need to strengthen in order to... well, survive. /:
this song always makes me feel emotionally overstimulated. Like a feeling of euphoria that puts me in a 6 minute coma where i forget everything and everyone and just vibrations and vibrations and vibrations and vibrations and vibrations
... put the Rampant Rabbit down Benji and step outside. You'll feel better for it. #GoodVibrations
care to share any other pieces of music that make you feel like this mate?
i know almost exactly what you mean. this is just not that kind of song for me just yet. i enjoy entering this trance state through "lalibela", "irene", "dive", and "silver" by caribou; "blast" by clams casino; "impossible soul" by sufjan stevens; "poor leno" by royksopp; "amazing day", "o", and "o (part 2 - reprise)" by coldplay and "true love waits" and "daydreaming" by radiohead. play.google.com/music/playlist/AMaBXylioBHaw2X5K7f05hix_G7D_I4G8BZeuz1LTqVEn1l2riCnfxw80JxADEPaoMKzIQ3XXMEa4VGn8FQsTEj_fM142sDsTA==
Song always makes me cry. Reminds me of my grandmother. Listened to it for almost a year after she passed on my way to work.
Me too! I lose myself
benji wilson me too :^) same with "Go Slowly".
Don't do it don't do it don't do it don't do it don't do it mom called yesterday she said to please don't do anything rash to please talk to someone . She wouldn't be able to live with herself if I do something so don't do it don't do it don't it don't don't do it don't do it . These feeling will pass it's not that bad it's just a rough patch . If not for yourself then for her, she's a million miles away don't give her that pain the helpless feeling . So don't do it . Don't do it . Just please don't do it
please dont
i hope you're okay man. your plight wont persist, but you will. you will get through this, please talk to someone. take care of yourself
I’ve been that mom.
i hope you're okay. well okay is the wrong word to use since no one is okay but please dont do it
Sitting in my car at 1 am in the rain, just trying to find some comfort in my sadness
Rich Franklin I see you there.. and sit down to join you..
How are you doing since you posted this? Well I hope...
Whoosh
I feel you. I did the same, but I was outside the car sobbing uncontrollably. Things got better.
Appreciate your sadness before you don't feel anything at all.
This is Major Thom to ground control
Warren Ser 😂 yesss
Yorke really made the grade
david bowie?
Thom Yorke likes your coment... For sure, David as well...
_Can you hear me major thom?
_thom : i'm not here
Someone is going to find me in a room one day with this playing.
Don't give up
Hey buddy, hope you're doing well!
Hope that someone finds you, picks the guitar and starts jamming with you while you're singing this song.
Never give up.
Hey friend.. You ok?
You have a purpose, never forget how important you are.
😢
The dislikes are from the people who mistakenly clicked dislike cause they couldn't see properly through their tears.
"I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here, I'm not here"
When my wife left me and took the kids. It was like an out of body experience. It was so traumatic it was impossible to accept and this song captures it.
Stay strong my friend.
Time will dull it.
Sadly, that's sort of why I'm here too...
Im so sorry to hear may you find the comfort and peace you seek soon.
I truly hope you have a positive change of events in your life. im so sorry.
One of those long nights
I can breathe once more
This comment section feels like a therapy room
Ryan Priest31 truly.
it iszz
BMO fuck off then
Ryan Priest31 it’s comforting me somehow
This video is gonna be 15 next November.
It's extremely depressing seeing other's comments about how bad they want to end their life. I think some of them have actually done it now.
Reality is brutal for some people 💔💔
Reporter: If you could pick one song that you'd like to be remembered by -
Thom (abruptly and without hesitation): How to Disappear, off Kid A.
Reporter: Why?
Thom: Um, because it's the most beautiful thing we ever did, I think.
I concur Thom, I concur.
Dr. Jones i don't want thom to die.
Is that interview on youtube?
When was the interview made? Is it after the release of their last album?
@Phosphorus Styx thank you so much
@@saharbouzidi2 Before In Rainbows
this tutorial didn't teach me how to disappear, clickbait
i could see through my hands, you aren't listening correctly.
How to disappear: live in the 20th century.
I know it's a Radiohead song, still I was looking for a suggestion here.
lol
feel the song and i get it indeed
That there
That's not me
I go
Where I please
I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
In a little while
I'll be gone
The moment's already passed
Yeah it's gone
And I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
Strobe lights and blown speakers
Fireworks and hurricanes
I'm not here
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
Thanks man. He's kinda difficult to understand sometimes.
Always wondered if he actually said "float down the Liffey". That's a river in Dublin City, where I'm from.
It is probably not "Liffey" but Lethe, the river of forgetfulness in greek mythology. It ties in with the song? But perhaps the river in Dublin has some significance too!
@@MarkTheBastardCassidy I always heard it as "I float down on lithium" as it was a common antidepressent.
@@logodaedalus1884 that would make more sense but also if you think about thome York is from over around the liffey
Interviewer: Which song would you like to be remembered by...(intrerrupted)
Thom: How to disappear., off Kid A, I think it's the most beautiful thing we ever did.
sadly they wont but hey being remembered for paranoid android isn't a bad thing
+Qjdhdnwheuxjjs Refrigerator sadly they will be remember as the "that band that sand that I'm a creep song and I think they have another one I think it goes like 'don't leave me high' or something "
those are just people who don't bother to explore more music,can't blame them though,it took me a while to get to Radiohead and most people I know that know of Radiohead know them best for Paranoid Android
you have your own sort of ignorance to deal with aswell, by that comment
apeazy4 ... to whom were you speaking?
I know many people ignorant of the majesty which is Radiohead. It just doesn't match their tastes. It is sad.
This song is how I felt my whole life.
Ur ExBoyfriend me too
Me too I often feel like I'm living someone else's life for them
It's like my trying to explain feeling like a ghost. I think I died a thousand years ago and this life is some sort of remnant energy wave. impossible manifestations.
@@amandapatrie8952 me to
"impossible manifestations" what a great book title....write your story!
I still can't get over this song...what I mean is that it feels like it was made on a different planet. It is so mesmerizing and the most depressing song I have ever listened to. I feel like I'm not here constantly, with depersonalization disorder. For me, that is what this song portrays. That's why I say it feels like it was made on another planet, because I feel that way, and so did/does Thom Yorke apparently. Sorry about the ramble and poor writing.
Welcome to the world of obsessional neurosis, where Thome Yorke is probably one of the artist that sums it up the best.
Don't see it as a disorder because everyone have symptoms, see it as a way to apprehend the world and structure yourself.
Shakespeare Olive You just described the feeling I receive fron this song completely. That is a great way to describe it- "it sounds as if it was made on another planet."
I am agree with u..
What is depersonalisation disorder? Please explain. I'm guessing it's based around anxiety and depression but I would love to know the specifics.
This video is a gem. Not only is it one of the oldest videos on this platform being posted less than 7 months after UA-cam’s iconic ‘Me at the Zoo’ video, but the video itself utilizes the symbolism of a tree to almost perfectly represent the sadness this song evokes. Of course, the video isn't perfect. I believe that the free digital museum ‘Kid A Mnesia Exhibition’ (free on PlayStation 5 and PC’s) more accurately depicts this song’s (and the entirety of the Kid a and Amnesiac albums’) emotion.
4:51 this chord progression is imo the best part of this masterpiece
TheRealMysteryMan that part gave me chills
Absolutely!
This is a song you cant listen 2 it just once. It makes you put it on repeat. It haunts you yet comforts you. Such a masterpiece. I am so in love with this song.
You read my mind
thanks I guess
totally agree
Love the lyrics. "That there, that's not me. I'm not here, this isn't happening."
Disbelief and denial, what a crazy feeling.
:'( I will walk from this pain
Ditto
Dissociation and alienation
It also has a literal sense to it, if you have had ego death, you'll know what i mean.
That song is about the whole period of time that OK Computer was happening. We did the Glastonbury Festival and this thing in Ireland. Something snapped in me. I just said, ‘That’s it. I can’t take it anymore.’ And more than a year later, we were still on the road. I hadn’t had time to address things. The lyrics came from something Michael Stipe said to me. I rang him and said, ‘I cannot cope with this.’ And he said, ‘Pull the shutters down and keep saying, ‘I’m not here, this is not happening.“
I have depression, and no song really captures the day to day panic, the dread of each morning, each day feeling like a near mental break. This song captures all of that perfectly, the tension in the strings as they build to what I interpret to be a panic attack/meltdown. Depression makes you want to disappear forever.
My best friend took his own life... this song breaks my heart thinking about his decision.
md1080 I'm very Sorry for your loss ;(
I'm sorry... I hope that light has come back to your life after this tragedy.
Radiohead is like the soundtrack to my depression.
The moments already passed..
The most lonely song sparks the biggest feeling of unity. Now you're lonely, but realize how we all share this feeling, and it makes life a little bit more bearable
All the lonely people…
Thank you for sharing this with me.
That there, that's not me
I go where I please
I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
In a little while
I'll be gone
The moment's already passed
Yeah, it's gone
And I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
Strobe lights and blown speakers
Fireworks and hurricanes
[Chorus]
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
I just did:)
Thats what just happened to me
What a beauty of a sentiment
I just typed "depressing music" and I found this
Me baisicly
this sounds like my depression
No one gives a shit go and get help instead of posting a comment on a music video and that goes to all of you "depressed" people
for ur information I go to counselling so yeah I am getting help, stop shitting on people for silly harmless comments
+ge im glad you go to counselling but its not doing the world any good when you are posting comments on a music video
Daniel Woods thank you, I doubt that but let's agree to disagree
Sounds like Daniel needs some of his own counseling
Play this at my funeral
Eloisa Adriana Pinheiro That is not the right song, and those are not the correct lyrics.
SquareMax dont tell me xDddd
Nah I. Having upbeat.... like the loony tunes
that bass. years of listening to this song and album and i never picked up on how beautiful that cyclical bass is.
2:04 AM. Room. Dark. Perfect.
3:06am. Room dimly lit. 👌
1:15am dark room, barely any city light coming in from the window, and the black blue sky. just the lonely glow of the screen. The glow of a screen in darkness, is the loneliness light in the world
2,47 darkness talking my friend out of it
3:02 ...
4:30 AM.
My friend passed away 4 months ago
i listened to this song at the day they told me he passed away
when ever i listen to it now
i can't help but cry.
Sorry to hear of your loss.
it's fine :)
Really sorry to hear that.
HAHAHAHAHAHA
+Gordan freeman Why are you laughing wtf
I come here every time i feel unable to do something about my low self-esteem and my insecurities.
Hey how about we be insecure and depressed together
This song just helped me get through a panic attack. The lyrics and tone nailed how I was feeling, the huge wave of dissonance and chaos hit me, then clarity, light and beauty came in at the end. Music can be the best medicine there is. Hours of awful feelings ended by one song
makes me want to go away
far away............
away from this, no more
no more.
If depression was an instrument
It's not?
that would be the way it is......
No Patrick mayonnaise is not an instrument.
Coleminer if depression was a song..
Depression is the instrument you can't hear because you're so numb to everything in life. So if you do have depression, I just want to say don't take the anti-depressants. Don't see a psychiatrist. I strongly recommend marijuana, do some self discovery, and go find somebody to love.
I have never felt so emotionally connected to song in my life, and I feel like I never will. It's truly stunning how something can be so soothing yet utterly unnerving at the same time. Bless Thom Yorke, for giving a voice to the lonely people of the world.
This song is haunting. For me it is the kind of song which makes me look deep inside myself and think about life and it's purpose. The instrumentals of this song are the reason this song is so sombre and melancholic.
The best song Radiohead has ever made, in my opinion
I agree. After going through Radiohead's entire discography and doing a lot of critical thinking, this is their most emotional and hard hitting song, Thom's right. I would put it as no. 1 too. Maybe Pyramid Song and There There close behind.
Agree. Radiohead's masterpiece.
Thanks, gay Jew
This is their crowning achievement. The notes compliment the lyrics and his vocal performance (as with most Radiohead songs) is really exceptional. Honestly they are in the same league as Pink Floyd maybe even sometimes better. (which doesn't come out of mouth too often when it comes to a modern band versus Floyd.)
Timm 😂😂
For me, this song is simply about the time passing by. Life is nothing more than a collection of brief moments, both happy and sad. You are just talking to someone and suddenly the moment's gone. Sometimes I just get that feeling that nothing is really happening and my past doesn't really belong to me as it was all gone so quickly. And then my mind starts floating away and it isn't me, who you are talking to, anymore. The speed of time can truly make you doubt your existence.
This is one of the last remaining studio versions of this song on UA-cam.
Great job, Thom.
It's not Thom's fault!
Mark Ayt Maybe not his fault entirely, but he sure as hell supports this. He literally compared UA-cam uploading music to Nazis stealing art during WWII.
***** That's quite true.
I love Thom because he is hands down one of the greatest musicians of the past 100 years, but damn he annoys the shit out of me with how butthurt he gets about his music being shared elsewhere that isn't "official" or passed by him or his people. Like damn dude, youtube uploading music is helping spread your art to wider audiences.
cinnawaffls My point exactly.
Whenever I feel empty, I just come here..
Me too
I suffer from paranoia. I understand and feel most of the songs and brings calm and sometimes tears. It brings even spiritual like feelings.
What happens with you?
I love this song but at 5:13 I start getting a sense of doom and impending danger and it makes me really emotional and then it stops around 5:25 almost like a storm cleared. It’s incredible
The source of discomfort or sadness you can feel comes from the fact that they chose to play microtonal, which means there are "more notes on an octave" than usual, a larger spectrum of sounds ... it touches the core. There is more to music than meets the eye.
Solongo Boechat Mashbayar
Or ear in this case
neat
I - okay.
Are you talking about when it slides up and down?
I usually think of microtones as sharp or flat. I guess I hear those in some areas...intenionally sharp or flat, right before the slide...
Solongo Boechat Mashbayar this shit u said was so misleading it shouldn’t be legal
Hey
It's 2021
I've barely made it.
I don't wanna be here anymore.
Hey there I know it can be hard and it can feel like there's nothing less but I promise there is something for you, you just need to go out there and find it tbh it probably won't be easy but it is possible if you can't live for yourself live for me because even if I never met you I would miss you
When I first met my ex boyfriend we were making love in the car, afterwards we were lying next to each other and this song started playing. He told me of how he used to listen to this album over and over when his ex gf broke up with him. Tears formed in my eyes and I cried in his lap. When our relationship ended 2 years later I played this album over and over. It helped me get through the pain.
Thank you for sharing ur tragic lovely experience.q
Why did u two break up?
@subjectanarchist We broke up because we did not get along, we fought a lot. He was cheating on me.
Awww.... yah, I went thru a painful break-up last year & a few songs did that to me where I'd just listen to them repeatedly & get sad, but it made me feel better at the same time to get those feelings out. They helped me get thru the pain too.
my heart hurts so much reading this
I dedicate this to my old roommate James Cohea who passed away on Xmas of 2018. The struggles over buddy, rest easy
Joey Casablancas sorry for your loss brother. Lost my best friend of 17 years in 2017. I’m still grieving everyday.
Rest easy James ❤️
I was in the military when this album came out. And the military taught me exactly what this song felt like played out in real time.
This feels like falling asleep in a warm bed after crying your eyes out
this is one of those 2:00am head in the clouds glazed eyes song that makes you feel every thing and nothing all at once
its literally 2:00 i wish i were high but i am lisitening to this
my favorite feeling
It's literally 2:00 a.m. and I'm listening this masterpiece
Am ouheret
Radiohead only play once in my country, Argentina. That time was March 24 from 2009. Years ago, in that exact same day but in 1976, started the Infamous Millitary Dictatorship known as Process of National Reorganization (and wrongfully knew in the US as Dirty War) where 30000 people dissapear in cause of the acts of State Terrorism. The band played this song during that show and Ed o Brien dedicates it to them, and the families of the dead and dissapear. Such i great gesture from they kind. Love this guys forever!
Nicolás Riveros 1976 my friend
Nicolás Riveros fue en el 76
thank you for sharing this. made me shiver.
Nicolás Riveros while I was reading the book, “Alive” about the Argentina soccer team that was in a plane crash, I listened to KidA and the two things seemed to perfectly go together. As I read the pages, tears would roll down my cheeks as I listened to this.
"..Years ago, in that exact same day but in 1976...." lo dice claramente
I was looking for the tutorial but I found one of the greatest songs ever
If you’re reading this, I’m genuinely praying for you.
Jesus I just like the song I didn’t know it was that deep 😭😭
That bassline:)
Kid A is still fanasic.
Oh, and great, great video.:)
So many times I’ve come back to this one song. I always feel like I’m a forgettable person. People may talk to me one day then never again speak to me. I always feel like I’m not here,
but I am here. There’s always someone
Someone that can help you
Someone that cares
That’s why I want to keep living
I want to be that someone
If I can’t be happy with myself, then I want to make people happy
Make people smile
Make people laugh
Give people hope
I want to share the little happiness I have with everyone
As long as I can help even if it’s a little bit, I can be happy too :)
Christopher DeBlasio well said my friend :)
bless yr beautiful soul😢❤️
real
Im still here this is happening
*🙋 I'm curled up in the back seat of my car crying to this song 😭*
I don't feel like I used to. Like the emotions aren't the same. I feel like I'm constantly on auto-pilot, watching days turn to weeks, weeks turn to months, like I'm seeing my life pass before my eyes. Memories I wan't to remember aren't being remembered anymore. Nothing makes sense anymore, I can't cry, all I do is wallow.
This is happening.
We're in the ring of fire
My mantra for the last 15 years. I’m not here, this isn’t happening.
Now that im going to a new school, i just don't wanna be friends with anyone anymore. I don't feel anything better than being alone. This IS happening...
actually realest comment of all time
Isso não vai passar, se você não tiver acompanhamento psicológico. Muita gente vai mentir para você dizendo que vai passar, quando na verdade só piora.
This is the only song that has ever made me burst out in tears. I feel the emotions that this song creates on such a personal level, it really feels like I become one with this song.
It really is a beautiful thing to experience/ release such emotion by listening to music. There are people who cant do that or wont? Or just don't use music like that? I don't understand that. I just don't get it. (I am not judging.) Without music, I would have been Dead a Long Time Ago. #Greg
I know exactly what you feel. To me this doesn't feel like a song, it feels like you're listening to an emotion.
Beautifully described.
Cannot take u seriously with that thumbnail
I'm crying right now btw
This song reminds me of a person who I know. And, our "friendship" is very weird and off going. I somehow brought myself to gain feelings for him, not sure of how. He has been going through difficult times, and been suffering addiction. We haven't known eachother for too long, but, his mind is very different from others. Everything he does, brings my attention up. I love getting phone calls from him, and hearing him pour his heart out into lyrics. He has a very very pure heart.. he may be leaving today, to get help. And I just really, truly hope he gets better. I want to see him smile, because its greatly enjoyed. And I really want to see him happy. Hopefully by getting help, you'll grow into your pure state. But, thank you for coming into my life. You've opened my eyes on a few more things. I love you, tru.
kaitlin perkins How is your friend doing?
@@kartgal I'm not sure, honestly. He hasn't made contact with me since he left. But I really hope he's doing well.
@@kaitlinperkins6273 update?
I'm in a period of my life where I feel extremely worthless and pointless and this song somehow comforts me and breaks me at the same time. It's telling me I'll be alright and that I matter to people but at the same time it's telling me the opposite of both of those: I don't need to be alright. I won't be alright. I'll just be... nothing.
It's OK I know how you feel
Damn 😢 hope you doing good man 💯
whether or not you'll belive me, there's always someone who's looking out for you. even if they don't know you, there's people in this world who truly care about you, especially loved ones. you don't need accomplishments to be "worth" something. we're all just humans, we all have lives and it's okay to just exist. we shouldn't spend all our lives trying to prove ourselves for what? i used to struggle with the same feelings, but i realized that my accomplishments or things i haven't accomplished don't define everything about me. i'm still my own person, with hobbies, interests, etc. i think what's more important is love. we all need to look out for each other, because our existence is enough. you are enough.
Приятель , ты не одинок ! И каждый из нас одинок и мучается в тоске . Но всё не так уж плохо в этом мире и надо жить и верить ! Удачи , тебе , не отчаивайся , всегда найдутся люди которые могут понять тебя и помочь ! Пусть всё у тебя будет хорошо ! Привет из России !
Everyone here is depressed, but I only come to this song to feel ANYTHING lol.
Can relate.
Know this is old but most of what depression is, *is* not feeling anything. Lacking the ability to experience joy, not necessarily being sad all the time.
When numbness hits you too hard
This is undeniably my favorite song of all time. Nothing comes close to the way it makes me feel.
when hearing the line "I'm not here, this isn't happening" for the first time, I was struck by vivid flashbacks of repressed childhood trauma. I remembered that I would tell myself exactly "this isn't really happening to me" when i was facing abuse and knew that I was helpless in the situation
I developed dissociation at a pretty young age (5 or 6) and I was absolutely terrified whenever I started to dissociate, I at some point firmly believed that I was in hell and I was forced to live through someone else's memory as a punishment
I appear a pretty happy person today. But I am still plagued by the feeling of alienation from my own body/mind. Often when I've achieved something, or when I'm having fun with good company, I feel absolutely no joy. I feel like I am just not there
so yea pretty cool song. really inspiring how seemingly simple composition / lyrics can convey such strong emotions (or more like a strong lack of emotions)
how music can change your thought process can make you laugh make you cry and make you disappear completely in a lightning speed. even if you were surrounded by many ten minutes ago, ten minutes later you might be the loneliest soul in the planet of seven billion people. as if you don't exist or even if you exist, exist alone. thats how radiohead can make you feel , maybe thats how they also felt while creating this out of the world masterpiece
I come here to cry
I always do, bro
It’s time to laugh
@@ronnyxas I can do both
I always come back to this song when i am feeling down it gives me a strange sense of comfort.
Aakarsh Mayank same here
Same here it’s the end of the song when it’s harmonic and it’s comes al together again that gives me hope ✌🏽❤️
I'm tired man
It blows my mind that there is a video on UA-cam that was uploaded 17 YEARS AGO
I love reading the comments section. Every story it’s just amazing, it’s make me feel safe being in the comment section :)
Victoria Moreno Muñoz I agree. Sometimes it’s hard to share your perception of music with friends and why you feel or react the way you do to songs. Come here to strangers and they get it. Kinda cool.
definitely :)
Well put! You have a creative mind to know to say something like that. “Safe in the comment section” perfect!
bae once Thanks so much! Cheers ;)
This is the most powerful song I've ever heard
i remember the first time i hearing this song in this album, i've always skip this song because it is a boring song and then play optimistic after that. but now, after repeat and repeat again this song, this song literally blows my mind and outstanding. loving radiohead was not like a cup of tea for everyone. their music is for our soul and it is different. cheers from malaysia
you have to replay almost all of radioheads songs to get the most out of them
but when you eventually get what Thom and the boys are sending us ,we mere mortals, find its an awesome place to be.. this work to me is bordering on genius material..as hes done many times
Dealing with life has this playing on repeat in my head... This song is way too relatable...
I had a stroke and I can't speak anymore... I was could tell anyone how I feel. But I'm in a prison in my head. Im so sad all the time. And im tired of everything. 😢
I remember before snorting my second line and this song came on,
I remember the flow and the song slowly fading in and out and his voice sounding like I was underwater. next thing I know im in my friends bathtub, im laying on top of him and he’s got me curled up in a soaking wet sweater which felt like cardboard with needles impaled through it.
he was whispering my name not wanting to cause a scene from the other people outside the bathroom.
he was crying and holding me desperate for me to respond. I couldn’t respond for the longest time until I started crying.
he dragged me out of the house back to his car and took care of me a week straight without my parents ever caring to notice I was gone.
this song and the amber haze of me opening my eyes from almost dying is forever in my mind.
Emma Dunn hope you’re doing better now
Damn
This is a really touching comment, i wish you the best
Line of what? What was causing what you're describing? Sorry I'm not good reading between the lines, I require things written out plainly and explicitly , I assume due to being on the spectrum Thanks hope youre okay these days ♥
@@HaileyHHP Not to assume but probably cocaine or some other drug