x0Kassie0x no it’s not, please be here my love!! you are going to live a long and happy healthy life and die an old lady in many many years... it’s hard right now and i get it but we do not know what’s in the after life, it could be terrible and suffering for eternity, maybe not, but if it is there is no going back ever. please still be here... what will your pets do without you or your parents? instagram: oxits.madisonxo i’m here for you to talk always please dm me if you need help but i might be doing something so if i don’t answer text the suicide prevention hotline but please seek help soon my love.
@@𝘬𝘢𝘴𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘦 please do not kill yourself it isn't worth it. I've been there Feeling like sh*t and wanting to kill myself but I didn't so please don't do it. I love you and we need your beautiful smile here. Just know that everything will be okay soon I promise.
We’re all just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide isn’t the answer. God I hate myself, music is the only thing keeping me from ending it all.
reminder: you are loved very much, you are accepted, you are beautiful, you deserve happiness and love, you are a queen, you are a great person, you are special and you are very very strong 💪
Music is my life.... I'm alive only because of MUSIC.. I wish I could sit alone and sing songs forever... It can make me calm when I'm angry, when I'm sad, when I'm happy... I get over things with the help of music...
Its funny.. Suicidal kids sometimes do more than actual adults to help other suicidal kids And i feel you, music is the only thing that i look forward to
People constantly tell me that i'm one of the strongest people they've ever met, and they always rant to me because i help almost everyone with their problems, but i just wish someone would ask me if im okay. Cause in reality im not that strong, i can't bring myself to fake my smile anymore.
Hey! I am just hopping in here to say that you’re amazing wonderful and good enough. I am so proud of you for getting through yet another rough day, you’re amazing and so very strong, even if you may not feel like it, but just because your strong doesn’t mean you have to fake your feelings and pretend to be okay, I’m sorry know asks you how you’re doing, but just know you’re not going through this alone, if you ever need someone to talk to just know that ill always be here to listen because believe it or not you’re important and your voice matters a whole lot never forget that, i am so very glad you’re here.
I know how you feel. I usually fake a smile when I want to avoid questions on if I’m ok even though I talk/joke about my crippling anxiety a lot. So, are you ok?
Honestly same my friends tell me “your faking” and it got to the point they told me “go kill yourself” because I was trying to get help but there problems where ‘much bigger’..
I hope you are feeling better. Life has to get better, you just need to have hope, even if it’s false, it can turn to real hope. You are going to be ok. ❤️
Life is crap but not perfect either....... People say I'm Not strong cause I cry to much recently, people say "your way to sensitive brush it off". But people don't know I've held on for to long, all these hints are me finally showing how tired I am of being strong all the time. My name is what makes me strong my name, Means "she's will stand strong and not show tears to her enemies" life is crap but remember we are just broken and need a repair
Hey! I saw your comment and I just couldn’t bring myself to scroll past it, I hate to see that you’re hurting and you feel this way, but i am so proud o you for continuing to hang on, thats what makes you strong, its okay to not be okay, and its okay to cry there should be no shame in it, we are only human. You’re amazing good enough and worth so very much in this world, even if you alone just know that you’re not, you don’t have to go through this alone. Life can be tough, but we can tough to, i know its hard and rough but i also know you’re capable of overcoming it and getting through it, I believe in you and just know you don’t have to go through it alone.
@@elijah7441 update, I came by this song and my comments and I’m doing way better rn, I feel like I’m gonna fall through this again but I’m holding tight
I have listened to this so often, still do. It makes me feel a little better. My parents never really cared that I was suicidal so I just trapped inside my body...I've grown but there are still things I need to work on. Anyone reading this, I don't know you, but if you need someone to be your friend and to talk, I'm here ❤ you are not alone. I love you all, you all are special and deserve all the best 💕
after like 3 years i am back listening to this song and wow it hits different when you remember you almost commited to this song fly high to everyone who did it to this song
I can relate I just came past this video and when this song I tried to end it, but I’m doing so much better I think but I don’t wanna fall down into this hole
tired of being that therapist friend. I want to vent but I’m scared to be a burden, scared that I’ll be pushed away and looked down on because other people have it worse. I hate it, it’s so hypocritical. I feel like I only exist for emotional support.
Exactly how I feel. Always the therapist friend but I feel like I can’t vent because I don’t want to be pitied. It’s gonna be ok though it might be hard but it is going to be ok please stay safe
I was crying because this reminded me of my cousin but instead of her mom finding her hanging it was me.i lost the only person that really cared about me,so i asked my parents for a little siser and when i got one she looked so much like my cousin.
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
Just an average girl she always wore a smile, she was cheerful and happy for a short while. Now she's older, things are getting colder. Life's not what she thought, she wishes someone had told her. She told you she was down, you let it slip by. So from then on, she kept it on the inside. She told herself she was alright, but she was telling white lies, can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes. Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night, but she knew there was no chance of feeling alright. Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeve, 'cause those cuts on her wrist were bleeding through you see. She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it. Didn't think she fit it, everyone seemed to miss it. She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound, bleeding out from every cut her body consumed. She had no friends at school, all alone she sat. And if someone were to notice, she would blame the cat. But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake, but no one cared enough to save her from the self hate. Things were going down, never really up. And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut. She knew exactly what she had to do next, just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck. She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild "Look at me now are you proud of your precious child?" But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame, it was the world she would bow down its head in shame. She stood on the chair and looked out at the moon. Just don't think, it'll all be over soon. The chair fell down as she took her final breath. It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting Death. Her mom walks in, falls down to the floor, And nothing can take back what she just saw. Her little girl that she raised it just hanging there, her bodies pale, and her face it violently bare. She sees the note and unfolds it with cars, all she does it stare. "How can this be fair..?" She starts reading as the tears roll down her face, "I'm sorry mom, but this world is just not my place, I've tried for so long to fix this and fit it, I've come to realize, this world is full of sin. There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space, I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race. It's a disgrace, I was misplaced. Born in the wrong time, and in the wrong place. It's okay though, cause you'll see me soon. You'll know when your time is gone, just look at the moon. As it shines bright, throughout the night, just remember everyone's facing their own fight. But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter. You'll make it through the night, just hold your pillow tighter. So let the world know, that I died in vein, cause the world around me is the one to blame. And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone, cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on. That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school, so I'm going by the Law, majority rules. My presence on this earth is not needed any longer. And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger. You're the best friend that I ever had, it's such a shame I had to make you so very sad. But just remember you meant everything to me. And to my heart, you're the only one who held the key. Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write. And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight. I'm watching over you from the clouds above and sending down the most purest and whitest dove, to watch over you, and be my helpful eye. So this is it world, "Goodbye." 🕊
You, yes you reading this... We love you. We may have never met, but WE love you. You matter, no matter what anyone says, YOU are important. Don't listen to the intrusive thoughts, there are SO MANY people that would miss if you were gone, not just your friends or family, but all the people you haven't met yet, your lover, your future friends, your kids... All of them would never know the joy of having you in their lives if you ended it. You just have to find that little thing that makes you happy and CLING TO IT, cling to it with all your might and try and expand it, make it worth living for... Be it a talent, hobby or skill, if you work and focus on YOUR joy and happiness, your mental health, you WILL find that things get better. All things take time. If this message reaches you and keeps you from ending it, THANK YOU and we are proud of you.
All I want is to see my brother again. Life isnt the same without him. He was my bestfriend my idol the person that led the way for me. I may hav said I hated him wen we was young but I'd do anything to have him here beside me. RIP brother I miss you so so much and I'm thinking of you all the time. See you soon❤
I am so very sorry to hear that your so called best friend doesn’t care about you, i know i don’t know you but heck i care! You’re important to, and you’re not alone. I am so proud of you for making it through another day, its goof to have you here
I know this is probably really late. I myself struggle with depression. Recently, I've had an online friend attempt/commit suicide (I do not have any updates on their condition). I've tried to confide in my boyfriend...but he has his own problems. I've also had family issues pop up again, and mostly them just bringing me down again. I've been having those thoughts...I've been about 4 months clean. Yet, I'm trying not to give up hope, and reverting back to old ways. For anyone else out there...stay strong...you'll get through it. I hope I do as well...
@@ollie2478 Hey! I'm doing ok as of right now. Just ups and downs, y'know? It's a roller coaster. I'm still clean, haven't done any self harm. But yeah, I've just been having ups and downs
Everyone talks about life like it’s a game but in reality it’s a maze.. this maze is almost impossible only the strongest and wisest can make it... sadly we lose lots of people on the way.. they see the escape but the chair falls on the floor before they get the chance of escaping..(made by me.. I’m actually kinda proud of this writing...)
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
What hits hard for most people is that people who have Thea’s feeling that are so hard to deal with and you just wanna end it all bu then you remember all the people who you kept so close and seeing yourself let go of them it’s just hurts you more so you just cry all night This hurt you It hurts me
I told my mom that i'm sad ALL the time, she chuckled and said that I just want attention.. why the hell would I hide something for who know how long just for attention. it won't be so called attention when someone is missing.
I have loved this song for 2 or more years now. I listen to this whenever it is the right time and it just makes me feel like I'm not alone. knowing that other people are living this kind of life just.. it hurts but I also like to know I'm not alone
I been wanting too end it for a long time but the main thing stopping me is what my mom said "You're all I've got I don't know what I would do if you weren't here." So I try and try and try all I can too stay here For her But this Dame feeling is still getting worse and I'm fighting it so hard everyday but I just don't know what to do with myself with my life I wanna work I wanna provide too help my mother I have too! but I just can't I guess it's because I'm scared Scared of growing up Scared of failing like I always do Scared of putting my mother threw pain! I'm just so scared and helpless and hopeless!!! I hate it! I hate myself!! I hate this pain!! I hate being selfish! I hate being useless!! I hate being pathetic!!! I wish I was strong I wish I was brave I wish I could just get up out of bed and go make something out of myself and make my mom proud But I just CAN'T! find the courage too and it's tiring I'm tired of feeling this way I just want it too stop!! I'm so weak I'm so worthless I'm just a failure Just wanna be gone from this world it don't want me But I'm afraid if I kill myself My mom It'll undoubtably drive her too do it too I don't want that! I don't want a another death on my hands! It's hard knowing there's someone who's there for you but you still feel that urge It's just getting so much more difficult I just can't find the reason I can't find the spark I can't find that courage I just can't find the hope I tell my mom I'm doing fine of course that's not true I'm far from fine And I'm afraid in the end I'm just gonna end up failing her too I don't wanna end it but I'm getting tired of living if you even call this living I'm afraid of living.
Ahah... yeah.. human skin is tough... I'm sorry to hear that you're going through hard times. Life's not over yet... It will pass, you'll learn how to cope and maybe even find medication or therapist that work for you. This. Isn't. The. End. Please hold on
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
I came back to this song after not listening to it for so long. It used to be such a trigger for me and for such a long time I was in such a dark place and that was when I listened to it. Today, for the first time, I can listen to it without being thrown back into those thoughts. Anyone who still is in that dark place, please have hope. There is light at the end of the tunnel. I'm living proof of it. You are loved
I wish others noticed that I was never fine. Im sick of helping others when they dont even talk to me afterwards. I was never fine, I was never okay, why couldn't you see that? I cant help that Im not perfect, I cant help that Im me and not the person you want me to be.
Cus when people love you so much they end up being in denial... they love you and that’s why they refuse to see your hurt... they don’t talk to you cus they think they hurt you...
But I don’t know, I don’t know what you’ve went through or who you are but somthing in me just wants to help I don’t know if that’s a human reaction or because I know what it’s like
I care about you and it’s going to be ok. Maybe it isn’t now but it has to get better at some point. Please stay strong. I care about you so much and I hope you are feeling better soon. ❤️
My ex bsf once said, “it’ll get better, and I’ll always be here for you” , well , where are you? Where’s the help he said he’d provide? Where’s our friendship? Where’s our memories as kids? Where’s all our old photos? All memories now, o lost him 2 years ago but I still cry over him.. he’s not worth crying over but I needed him. Where’s the promises he made? Where’s my happiness? He took it, and kept it… I have no one, sure, I see him everyday but, I’m just invisible to him now, I can’t take the pain much longer.
Just wanna say this - - You're important no matter what others think or say. You're important no matter how much you tell yourself you're not. There will always be people who care even if it is just one person. If there isn't anyone you can think of someone will eventually come into your life. Love yourself yes i know easier said than done, but just think about all the things you're grateful for. Just start simple if it's eating a whole meal to working out or whatever you think is best for self improvement is what matters. Be confident because being you looks best on you and nobody else. Try different styles to see what fits you best. Take care of your self mentally and physically. Don't push yourself too hard though just one step at a time whatever it may be, just do it because it's what makes you happy. If you ever need someone to reach out too there will always be some one if it's a parent, grandparents, any other family, friends, teacher, just anyone you trust Looks aren't everything just because he/she/they don't like you doesn't mean you should change yourself for them, do it for you and only you. If they can't see beyond looks and don't care about you as a person or your personality they ARE NOT WORTH IT x100000000000. Trust me :D Accept the fact they are not actually a good person. Getting over some one is hard especially if you've liked them for so long, but let them go don't let them hold you back anymore. It's okay to cry, we all do, if there is a day you just feel like crying let it out. It's better to let it all out then keep it in, and let the stress build up. It is okay to not feel okay, you don't have to wear you mask all the time because it will eventually break, and everything you have been holding in for who knows how long comes pouring out. I really hope this helps anyone going through a hard time to crack a small smile even if it's small. To know that this made you feel better makes me happy. Everyone matters no matter what gender, color, religion, who the they, or identify as or what ever you might be. - From your friend, Hayden :-)
i was off a xan and need to sleep but anyone else feel like they’re cursed to only feel pain? and that no word explains their existence other than it? i feel i am cursed with pain, i am cursed to be a merchant of it, a harbinger of it, a creator of it, a bearer of it. i have a weight on my shoulders that i can only escape by going into a drug induced stupor and even then i always have to reremember. it’s like when i have a dream and i dream that people who used to love told me that they love me again, that they forgive me, and that they understand me. but then i wake up. and like sand, it slips through my fingertips. it simply... dissolves. and i remember everything. my 200th worst memory is still terrible. i am a walking scandal. i went on a one year long public breakdown. i have lost almost all of my friends and i no longer connect with anyone. i have turned into a piece of shit that only hurts people
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
“My presence on this earth is not needed any longer, and if anything i hope this makes you stronger” I felt that probably way more than I should’ve.....
“She told you she was down, you let it slip by. So from then on she kept it on the inside.” “She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound.” “Let the world know that I died in vain, cuz the world around me is the one to blame.”
I have been scrolling through the comments and seeing so many people going through so much, i am doing my best to reply to all of them but just know you’re not alone. I know you may feel like it, but you’re not. If you ever need someone to talk to, don’t hesitate to message me ill be there for you, you matter and are so very important to me, and you’re voice matters too, i know i don’t know you, I’m just a random person in the comment section but thats not stopping me from caring a whole bunch about you, you’re amazing good enough, and worth so much, i wish i was able to do more for you guys and help out more because i know you’re hurting, but just know you don’t have to face anything alone, please don’t give up i know things get tough and hard, and that seems like the easier option, but please don’t, you have come so far let’s see how further you can go, you hold so much purpose you really do, i know you can overcome this chapter in your life, it does get better and easier, just hang in there and keep fighting, i am so proud of you and happy to have you here another day. how are you doing today? have you drunk some water? have you ate something? If not please make sure you do, because thats so very important just like you are. You’re loved, and so beautiful/handsome, and worthy. Don’t forget about yourself, you’re important too, treat yourself like you would somebody you love, you’re amazing and you can’t be replaced nor do i want to. Anyways, if you ever need any one to talk to, don’t hesitate to message me
I'm really about to give up. I've fought for so long trying to get where I am happy about almost everything in my life, and climb out of the huge dark hole that I was in, and now...it feels like all of that work has just washed away. And now I'm in the same stop I was in when this all started. I hate my life, and it's not because my family sucks or school sucks. It's just because I hate myself, inside and out. I feel like nothing is going to get better and I'm waiting for something good to happen when deep down inside I know it's not. I love my family, sure they aren't perfect but I love them. I just can't live with this internal hate for myself.
Hey....the world sucks and when their are sh!ty people the world sucks more and I can convince you that “life is worth living” cus I can’t even have that though in my head but keep in mind god gave you a perpose now I’m not saying god is always with you but I am saying that god new what you were like and what you would do before you were born so....maybe you made make a difference in the world... I don’t know like I said I’m in a deep hole to but I’m not gonna say anything personall but what I AM gonna say is...you did good this far...keep going
I know how you feel, but despite it all i am so very proud of you for continuing to hang on even though you want to give up. You’re loved amazing and good enough, you’re worth so much more then you realize. I understand what you’re going through, and i am so very sorry you’re going through this, but just know you’re not going through it alone, and i know you can do this, i believe in you. Don’t give up please, you’re loved and wanted and capable of overcoming this. If you ever need someone to talk to, don’t hesitate messaging me
Lyrics: just an average girl she always wore a smile she was cheerful and happy for a short while now shes older things are getting colder life's not what she thought she wished someone had told her she told you she was down you let it slip by so from then on she kept it on the inside she told herself she was alright but she was telling white lies can't you tell, look at her dull eyes tried to stop herself from crying almost every night but she knew there was no chance of feeling alright summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves 'cause those cuts on her wrist were bleeding through you see she knew she was depressed she didn't want to admit it didn't think she fit in, everyone seemed to miss it she carried on like a soldier with a battle wound bleeding out from every cut her body consumed she had no friends at school, all alone she sat and if someone were to notice she would blame the cat but those cuts on her wrist they were no mistake but no one cared enough to save her from this self hate things were going down, never really up and here she is now stuck in this stupid rut she knew exactly what she had to do next just stand on the chair and tie the rope around her neck She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild, "Look at me now are you proud of your precious child?" But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame, It was the world that should bow down it's head in shame She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon, Just don't think it'll all be over soon The chair fell down as she took her final breath, It's all over all gone, now she's greeting death Her mum walks in, she falls down to the floor, And now nothing can take back what she just saw The little girl that she raised is just hanging there, Her body's pale and her face is violently bare, She sees the note and unfolds it with care, All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?" She starts reading as the tears roll down her face, "I'm sorry Mum, but this world is just not my place, I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in, I've come to realise this world's full of sin, There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space, I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race, It's a disgrace, I was misplaced, Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place, It's ok though, 'cause you'll see me soon, You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon, As it shines bright, throughout the night, And remember everyone's facing their own fights, But i can't deal with this pain, I'm not a fighter, You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter So let the world know that I died in vain, Because the world around me is the one to blame, And I know in a year you'll forget I'm gone, 'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on, That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school, So I'm going by the law majority rules, My presence on this earth is not needed any longer, And if anything I hope this makes you stronger, You're the best friend that I ever had, Such a shame I had to make you so very sad, Just remember that you meant everything to me, And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key, Now it's time to go I'm running out of space to write, And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight I'm watching over you from the clouds above, And sending down the purest and whitest dove, To watch over you and be my helpful eye, So this is it world... Goodbye!"
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
I've been repressing so much recently... I've gotten so good at it that I'm able to block out pain apparently. I got a root canal yesterday, the dentist said that most people wouldn't be able to sleep with the pain... And all I felt was mild/almost non-existant annoyance for a few weeks. It makes me wonder what else I'm not feeling right now, and if it's gonna cause something to go wrong in the future
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
@@leomeade2009 Just keep fighting. Never give up. I know it's hard right now and the world can be a terrible place but suicide is a permanent solution and it cannot be fixed. So, keep fighting. I love you, beautiful human
EVERYONE PLEASE READ THIS You are beautiful and loved i know it may not seem like it but trust me you are. Get all of your feelings out, its better out than in. This is cliche (excuse my spelling lmao) but trust me its worth staying. Have an amazing day :D
This song reminds me of my "therapist friend" She would say i can vent and then say my problems arent the worst problems so they arent problems at all She broke my mental health even more.. And then she pushed me away
yes i hate life and everyone about it is shit, but i am not going to let it kill me. hold on, spit life in the face. help others, don’t let them go through the pain and sadness you had to go through it. you can do it. i believe in you. i love you.
Hey Bud. I may not know you nor do you know me but I want you to know that,They would want you to stay. They wouldn’t want you to go. Please stay,Not for me nor anyone else,But for yourself. Your strong,I know you are. I hope your life had turned for the better fellow friend. I love you 💜 stay safe alright?
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
@@hanjizoe2562 you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
@@ghostlylanturn1294 you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
Everyone who isn't feeling their best rn. I hope u all are okay. I know life may suck rn but trust me it will get better I promise you that. If u need someone to talk to im here :)
I've always been vocal about my depression after it came back to power again. I always talked about it in a joking manner but it's no joke. My friends tell me to call the hotline for help,but there's people who need that help more than me, so I'm just sitting here, messages coming in from the 2 people that care about me, pills in hand, hoping this is the last song i listen to. I hope y'all that are also struggling get better, don't do what I'm about to do..
⚠️trigger warning⚠️ this whole new year i’ve been having crap i might fail school because i have attention issues and my to make it worse i only have like 1 friend and about 2 days ago was cutting themself on a ft and made it seem like nothing they thought i fell asleep but i was really on mute crying and shaking because it was triggering me and i couldn’t handle it by myself and i had to vent to someone and now i just feel like a burden to them and the friend i was on ft with and i feel like i’m gonna lose that friend whether it be suicide or because i can’t hold a friendship because of all the shit i’ve been having in my mind and i know that if i lose them i’ll be alone and i’m to scared to leave this world because pain just brings back more memories from when i didn’t have to fake a smile
I try telling my parents that I’m not right, but they tell me that it’s just a phase… I try telling my sister, but she’s says it’s not medically diagnosed so it’s nothing… I talk to my Nan, but she says that I’m just being a teen… Will I ever get help?
tbh i’ve given up haha 😆 i’m so in pain i’m numb the therapy is isn’t helping at this point it’s over 5 years now i’ve thought long lol 😝 i think about sucide at least 1 time a day i’ve given up hah lol bye
Whenever I vent to my 'friends' they just call me out on being an attention seeker and if I haven't cut yet I'm not really sad at all. I came out to them and all they said was, "Oh really? Your just saying that because (other name) is getting popular.". Sometimes I feel I'm just alone in this world.. my parents are barely there for me, my therapist stopped calling me, my guidance counsellor tells my parent everything I tell her.
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
this song has been depressing moral *history will continue even if you're not there* meaning every if you die no one would care that very scary and the fact she killed herself knowing nothing would get better for her is just sad for her parent but is killing yourself really a good way to solve anything that would be very sad for your love one knowing you are not in their life it just make no sense it was just a bit no a LOT sad to think about those people who can't help themselves so "I hope you all have a good life*
And people tell me that “oh she’s gotta get her grades up or I’ll take her phone for a month.” My phone is the only thing that makes me happy because my so called “friends” call me a liar when I told them my story about my neighbor almost r@ping me.. I almost overdosed a month ago. I was with my bff when I almost overdosed and they didn’t stop me.. I just want to be accepted.. please..
I’m so sorry for what happened to you. I may not be a therapist but I can try to give you comfort. I may not know you but I love and accept you. Just try to think, what goes down must come up. It has to get better. It’s gonna be ok, it may not be right now, but it will be. Please stay strong, because you are so strong. Make sure to drink lots of water and eat. ❤️
reminder: you are loved very much, you are accepted, you are beautiful, you deserve happiness and love, you are a queen, you are a great person, you are special and you are very very strong 💪
This song is perfect for me , this is exactly how I feel, I want the pain to go away but it won’t I’m only a kid I shouldn’t feel like this nor should anyone else, most of the time I think “nobody loves me the world would be better without me” I’ve tried to stab myself before but couldn’t and I tried to suffocate myself that didn’t work either I tried to strangle myself and starve but I can’t it just won’t work I’ve tried to hang my self too, I really can’t handle it but I don’t want to make anybody sad, but I can’t handle the pain, I have therapy but it won’t help I don’t tell anybody how I feel other then my friend but then again what if their not actually my friend? What if their just faking it, I’ve wanted to cut myself but I just cant do it, I listen to this song almost everyday in hopes of finally achieving my goals, people tell me I have a future to live for but nobody would want someone like me, I’m really insecure about my weight and looks sometimes I wish I had the body of some of my classmates and then be treated with respect like them, my parents argue everyday and my best friend got taken away,I try to be happy but I’m dying on the inside, I have break downs in the middle of class and nobody gives af the teacher asks if I’m ok which makes me cry more,I have a crush but I know he doesn’t like me back I wish I didn’t have anxiety, depression and anger isssues I physically and mentally abuse myself and others around but I don’t try too.. I’m only 12 I always wanted to grow up but now I wanna be a kid again, my life is hell, if there’s anybody that sees this just know that no matter how loved you feel I love you I might not know you but I care about you there’s always one person that cares for you, just don’t end up like me and be suicidal and love yourself for who you are something I could never do never give up there’s hope for you and I hope you find it :)
I’m sorry that you have no one to talk to. I’m not in the right mental space to receive venting, but you should try to write it somewhere! It might help. You are loved, and cared for, by people including me. Stay strong and safe I love you❤️
![CAVETOWN - This is Home [Slowed]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/_OqEN0VD8kw/mqdefault.jpg)
"The little girl she raised is just hanging there" Am I the only one imagening me hanging and my mom crying on the floor
No, I imagine the same thing-
It makes me cry because it’s gonna be me tonight
x0Kassie0x no it’s not, please be here my love!! you are going to live a long and happy healthy life and die an old lady in many many years... it’s hard right now and i get it but we do not know what’s in the after life, it could be terrible and suffering for eternity, maybe not, but if it is there is no going back ever. please still be here... what will your pets do without you or your parents? instagram: oxits.madisonxo i’m here for you to talk always please dm me if you need help but i might be doing something so if i don’t answer text the suicide prevention hotline but please seek help soon my love.
@@𝘬𝘢𝘴𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘦 please do not kill yourself it isn't worth it. I've been there Feeling like sh*t and wanting to kill myself but I didn't so please don't do it. I love you and we need your beautiful smile here. Just know that everything will be okay soon I promise.
@@unh4ppyr3frain .... She didn't reply,, 💔
We’re all just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide isn’t the answer. God I hate myself, music is the only thing keeping me from ending it all.
reminder: you are loved very much, you are accepted, you are beautiful, you deserve happiness and love, you are a queen, you are a great person, you are special and you are very very strong 💪
Music is my life.... I'm alive only because of MUSIC.. I wish I could sit alone and sing songs forever... It can make me calm when I'm angry, when I'm sad, when I'm happy... I get over things with the help of music...
Same
Its funny.. Suicidal kids sometimes do more than actual adults to help other suicidal kids
And i feel you, music is the only thing that i look forward to
Yo, things doing a little better? Just checking in ❤️
In this version i can hear the heartbeat in the background holy shit i love it
Animator 11 yeah ;(
@@ikishiion5456 I can hear mine
I love you
People constantly tell me that i'm one of the strongest people they've ever met, and they always rant to me because i help almost everyone with their problems, but i just wish someone would ask me if im okay. Cause in reality im not that strong, i can't bring myself to fake my smile anymore.
Hey! I am just hopping in here to say that you’re amazing wonderful and good enough. I am so proud of you for getting through yet another rough day, you’re amazing and so very strong, even if you may not feel like it, but just because your strong doesn’t mean you have to fake your feelings and pretend to be okay, I’m sorry know asks you how you’re doing, but just know you’re not going through this alone, if you ever need someone to talk to just know that ill always be here to listen because believe it or not you’re important and your voice matters a whole lot never forget that, i am so very glad you’re here.
i feel so alone. i’m constantly in the same situation and it’s just making me feel that much worse.
I love you
I know how you feel. I usually fake a smile when I want to avoid questions on if I’m ok even though I talk/joke about my crippling anxiety a lot. So, are you ok?
WHAT SO RELATABLE
" she carried on like a soilder with a battle wound "
Shit
I love you.
We all love you so much
@@wolfiebrie1393 I love yall. Also you have great music taste SIO is so good.
I don't (:
i love you too,stay safe,stay heathy,remember you ARE loved.
Well mate that sucks *shush♥️*
when you have a lot of problems but you don’t talk about it because you dont want to bring others down and sound dramatic.😔
Honestly same my friends tell me “your faking” and it got to the point they told me “go kill yourself” because I was trying to get help but there problems where ‘much bigger’..
mhm- so relatable to me
Yup
Never related to a comment more than this one
Hits different at 2:55 am
yeh-
𝙸𝚝'𝚜 3:18 𝚊𝚗𝚍 I'm tryna cry myself to sleep 😅
holy shit its 3:01am rn
2.17😀✋
5:22 am 😕
“She told herself that she was alright,but she was telling white lies,can’t you tell? Look at her dull eyes” me-
Uraraka! I didn't expect to see you here
denkiri 😂
@@aditiaryal6379 sup
MOOD MY HAMSTER JUST DIED IM JUST HERE LIKE :,)
I hope you are feeling better. Life has to get better, you just need to have hope, even if it’s false, it can turn to real hope. You are going to be ok. ❤️
Life is crap but not perfect either....... People say I'm Not strong cause I cry to much recently, people say "your way to sensitive brush it off". But people don't know I've held on for to long, all these hints are me finally showing how tired I am of being strong all the time. My name is what makes me strong my name, Means "she's will stand strong and not show tears to her enemies" life is crap but remember we are just broken and need a repair
Hey! I saw your comment and I just couldn’t bring myself to scroll past it, I hate to see that you’re hurting and you feel this way, but i am so proud o you for continuing to hang on, thats what makes you strong, its okay to not be okay, and its okay to cry there should be no shame in it, we are only human. You’re amazing good enough and worth so very much in this world, even if you alone just know that you’re not, you don’t have to go through this alone. Life can be tough, but we can tough to, i know its hard and rough but i also know you’re capable of overcoming it and getting through it, I believe in you and just know you don’t have to go through it alone.
@@elijah7441 update, I came by this song and my comments and I’m doing way better rn, I feel like I’m gonna fall through this again but I’m holding tight
I have listened to this so often, still do. It makes me feel a little better. My parents never really cared that I was suicidal so I just trapped inside my body...I've grown but there are still things I need to work on. Anyone reading this, I don't know you, but if you need someone to be your friend and to talk, I'm here ❤ you are not alone. I love you all, you all are special and deserve all the best 💕
after like 3 years i am back listening to this song and wow it hits different when you remember you almost commited to this song fly high to everyone who did it to this song
Me too
I can relate I just came past this video and when this song I tried to end it, but I’m doing so much better I think but I don’t wanna fall down into this hole
me too :)
tired of being that therapist friend. I want to vent but I’m scared to be a burden, scared that I’ll be pushed away and looked down on because other people have it worse. I hate it, it’s so hypocritical. I feel like I only exist for emotional support.
Me too
damn, you dont need to be scared to be a burden, remember that there are people that always love or will love you.. stay strong king or queen!
Exactly how I feel. Always the therapist friend but I feel like I can’t vent because I don’t want to be pitied. It’s gonna be ok though it might be hard but it is going to be ok please stay safe
im sorry, im always here for you.
At least you exist to someone other than yourself, even if your just there for emotional support some people don't have friends like that....
when you hang out in the living room because being in your room by yourself is too depressing.
I never thought about it that way but if that’s why I kind of hate my room
@@imthemiddlechild971 fr
I was crying because this reminded me of my cousin but instead of her mom finding her hanging it was me.i lost the only person that really cared about me,so i asked my parents for a little siser and when i got one she looked so much like my cousin.
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
I'm so sorry that you had to experience that :(
THIS IS SLOWED TO CREEPY PERFECTION I LOVE THIS-
Maybe slow Doja Cat - tia tamera?-
I'll upload Slowed Doja Cat - tia tamera soon!
ThIs is so funny to me
Just an average girl she always wore a smile, she was cheerful and happy for a short while. Now she's older, things are getting colder. Life's not what she thought, she wishes someone had told her. She told you she was down, you let it slip by. So from then on, she kept it on the inside. She told herself she was alright, but she was telling white lies, can't you tell? Look at her dull eyes. Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night, but she knew there was no chance of feeling alright. Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeve, 'cause those cuts on her wrist were bleeding through you see. She knew she was depressed, didn't want to admit it. Didn't think she fit it, everyone seemed to miss it. She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound, bleeding out from every cut her body consumed. She had no friends at school, all alone she sat. And if someone were to notice, she would blame the cat. But those cuts on her wrist, they were no mistake, but no one cared enough to save her from the self hate. Things were going down, never really up. And here she is now stuck in this stupid rut. She knew exactly what she had to do next, just stand on that chair and tie the rope around her neck. She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild "Look at me now are you proud of your precious child?" But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame, it was the world she would bow down its head in shame. She stood on the chair and looked out at the moon. Just don't think, it'll all be over soon. The chair fell down as she took her final breath. It's all over, all gone, now she's greeting Death. Her mom walks in, falls down to the floor, And nothing can take back what she just saw. Her little girl that she raised it just hanging there, her bodies pale, and her face it violently bare. She sees the note and unfolds it with cars, all she does it stare. "How can this be fair..?" She starts reading as the tears roll down her face, "I'm sorry mom, but this world is just not my place, I've tried for so long to fix this and fit it, I've come to realize, this world is full of sin. There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space, I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race. It's a disgrace, I was misplaced. Born in the wrong time, and in the wrong place. It's okay though, cause you'll see me soon. You'll know when your time is gone, just look at the moon. As it shines bright, throughout the night, just remember everyone's facing their own fight. But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter. You'll make it through the night, just hold your pillow tighter. So let the world know, that I died in vein, cause the world around me is the one to blame. And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone, cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on. That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school, so I'm going by the Law, majority rules. My presence on this earth is not needed any longer. And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger. You're the best friend that I ever had, it's such a shame I had to make you so very sad. But just remember you meant everything to me. And to my heart, you're the only one who held the key. Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write. And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight. I'm watching over you from the clouds above and sending down the most purest and whitest dove, to watch over you, and be my helpful eye. So this is it world, "Goodbye." 🕊
You, yes you reading this... We love you. We may have never met, but WE love you. You matter, no matter what anyone says, YOU are important. Don't listen to the intrusive thoughts, there are SO MANY people that would miss if you were gone, not just your friends or family, but all the people you haven't met yet, your lover, your future friends, your kids... All of them would never know the joy of having you in their lives if you ended it. You just have to find that little thing that makes you happy and CLING TO IT, cling to it with all your might and try and expand it, make it worth living for... Be it a talent, hobby or skill, if you work and focus on YOUR joy and happiness, your mental health, you WILL find that things get better. All things take time. If this message reaches you and keeps you from ending it, THANK YOU and we are proud of you.
Sorry for the cracks at 1:18, 2:37 and 3:57!
i actually think it sounds nice :)
Its ok!
at least u do the best.
Its better and ty for making this.
I love it still.. I didn't even notice it..
All I want is to see my brother again. Life isnt the same without him. He was my bestfriend my idol the person that led the way for me. I may hav said I hated him wen we was young but I'd do anything to have him here beside me. RIP brother I miss you so so much and I'm thinking of you all the time. See you soon❤
The “she told you she was down you let it slip by” reminded me of my “best friend” who doesn’t give a shi* about me
felt that.
I am so very sorry to hear that your so called best friend doesn’t care about you, i know i don’t know you but heck i care! You’re important to, and you’re not alone. I am so proud of you for making it through another day, its goof to have you here
this reminds me of my mom because she says it’s my fault that my step dad abuses me
Ahh me too,it's same with my best friennd
I know this is probably really late. I myself struggle with depression. Recently, I've had an online friend attempt/commit suicide (I do not have any updates on their condition). I've tried to confide in my boyfriend...but he has his own problems. I've also had family issues pop up again, and mostly them just bringing me down again. I've been having those thoughts...I've been about 4 months clean. Yet, I'm trying not to give up hope, and reverting back to old ways. For anyone else out there...stay strong...you'll get through it. I hope I do as well...
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Hey! I saw your comment I’m now in a extremely similar situation, and I wanted to check up and see how you’re were doing?
@@ollie2478 Hey! I'm doing ok as of right now. Just ups and downs, y'know? It's a roller coaster. I'm still clean, haven't done any self harm. But yeah, I've just been having ups and downs
2 hours clean.. yay…..
The worst part is when you don’t have energy to cry. So you just have to sit there, not being able to let out the pain.
it’ll all be over soon
plz tell me your okay :(
Hello, are you alright? :(
you good bro response to us 🥺
do you need help? I’m not a therapist but I can always talk
please reply
I'm sorry Ava.. I wish I saved you
@@slimjimshady7819 💜 thank you
@@slimjimshady7819 💖💖💖
Im sorry I hope ur alright
Everyone talks about life like it’s a game but in reality it’s a maze.. this maze is almost impossible only the strongest and wisest can make it... sadly we lose lots of people on the way.. they see the escape but the chair falls on the floor before they get the chance of escaping..(made by me.. I’m actually kinda proud of this writing...)
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
Me trying to force myself to cry because I'm sad , but I can't.
same
Me right now
Me listening to this in class :)
Me too haha
Same😂
It's been so long since I've heard this song, oh my god does it give me closure
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
@@cloud-hl1kt Im a satanist 👁👁
What hits hard for most people is that people who have Thea’s feeling that are so hard to deal with and you just wanna end it all bu then you remember all the people who you kept so close and seeing yourself let go of them it’s just hurts you more so you just cry all night
This hurt you
It hurts me
『Gxmmy - 』 awww thanks I guess 🙏🏾
Thank you whoever wrote this song!! I can finaly cry!!
i keep coming back to this song
I told my mom that i'm sad ALL the time, she chuckled and said that I just want attention.. why the hell would I hide something for who know how long just for attention. it won't be so called attention when someone is missing.
I have loved this song for 2 or more years now. I listen to this whenever it is the right time and it just makes me feel like I'm not alone. knowing that other people are living this kind of life just.. it hurts but I also like to know I'm not alone
I been wanting too end it for a long time but the main thing stopping me is what my mom said
"You're all I've got I don't know what I would do if you weren't here."
So I try and try and try all I can too stay here
For her
But this Dame feeling is still getting worse and I'm fighting it so hard everyday but I just don't know what to do with myself with my life
I wanna work I wanna provide too help my mother I have too! but I just can't I guess it's because I'm scared
Scared of growing up
Scared of failing like I always do
Scared of putting my mother threw pain!
I'm just so scared and helpless and hopeless!!!
I hate it!
I hate myself!!
I hate this pain!!
I hate being selfish!
I hate being useless!!
I hate being pathetic!!!
I wish I was strong
I wish I was brave
I wish I could just get up out of bed and go make something out of myself and make my mom proud
But I just CAN'T! find the courage too and it's tiring
I'm tired of feeling this way I just want it too stop!! I'm so weak I'm so worthless I'm just a failure
Just wanna be gone from this world it don't want me
But I'm afraid if I kill myself
My mom
It'll undoubtably drive her too do it too
I don't want that!
I don't want a another death on my hands!
It's hard knowing there's someone who's there for you but you still feel that urge
It's just getting so much more difficult
I just can't find the reason
I can't find the spark
I can't find that courage
I just can't find the hope
I tell my mom I'm doing fine
of course that's not true
I'm far from fine
And I'm afraid in the end I'm just gonna end up failing her too
I don't wanna end it but I'm getting tired of living if you even call this living
I'm afraid of living.
This song is comforting for some reason
I know why your here. Same. My blades getting dull.
Felt... You can do this I love you.😊
Ahah... yeah.. human skin is tough...
I'm sorry to hear that you're going through hard times. Life's not over yet... It will pass, you'll learn how to cope and maybe even find medication or therapist that work for you. This. Isn't. The. End. Please hold on
@@Floyie Im holding on, Thank you 😚💞
@@Unknown_Forever123 Love you too 💞
@@Seventhewither 🥰
Idk why im here i just like this song and i have a heachache -_-
I like listening to sad songs while imaging a cat vibing to em. Makes me happier lol
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
I came back to this song after not listening to it for so long. It used to be such a trigger for me and for such a long time I was in such a dark place and that was when I listened to it.
Today, for the first time, I can listen to it without being thrown back into those thoughts.
Anyone who still is in that dark place, please have hope. There is light at the end of the tunnel. I'm living proof of it. You are loved
I don’t want to like but I’m too scared to die
『Gxmmy - 』 ♥️thanks a lot I try to stop myself but negetive thoughts always find a way to my mind...nowadays I’m scared of everything..
『Gxmmy - 』 ok❤️♥️ I will sorry for the trouble
I wish others noticed that I was never fine. Im sick of helping others when they dont even talk to me afterwards. I was never fine, I was never okay, why couldn't you see that? I cant help that Im not perfect, I cant help that Im me and not the person you want me to be.
Cus when people love you so much they end up being in denial... they love you and that’s why they refuse to see your hurt... they don’t talk to you cus they think they hurt you...
But I don’t know, I don’t know what you’ve went through or who you are but somthing in me just wants to help I don’t know if that’s a human reaction or because I know what it’s like
I care about you and it’s going to be ok. Maybe it isn’t now but it has to get better at some point. Please stay strong. I care about you so much and I hope you are feeling better soon. ❤️
My ex bsf once said, “it’ll get better, and I’ll always be here for you” , well , where are you? Where’s the help he said he’d provide?
Where’s our friendship?
Where’s our memories as kids?
Where’s all our old photos?
All memories now, o lost him 2 years ago but I still cry over him.. he’s not worth crying over but I needed him. Where’s the promises he made?
Where’s my happiness?
He took it, and kept it…
I have no one, sure, I see him everyday but, I’m just invisible to him now, I can’t take the pain much longer.
Just wanna say this
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You're important no matter what others think or say. You're important no matter how much you tell yourself you're not.
There will always be people who care even if it is just one person. If there isn't anyone you can think of someone will eventually come into your life.
Love yourself yes i know easier said than done, but just think about all the things you're grateful for. Just start simple if it's eating a whole meal to working out or whatever you think is best for self improvement is what matters.
Be confident because being you looks best on you and nobody else. Try different styles to see what fits you best. Take care of your self mentally and physically. Don't push yourself too hard though just one step at a time whatever it may be, just do it because it's what makes you happy.
If you ever need someone to reach out too there will always be some one if it's a parent, grandparents, any other family, friends, teacher, just anyone you trust
Looks aren't everything just because he/she/they don't like you doesn't mean you should change yourself for them, do it for you and only you. If they can't see beyond looks and don't care about you as a person or your personality they ARE NOT WORTH IT x100000000000. Trust me :D Accept the fact they are not actually a good person. Getting over some one is hard especially if you've liked them for so long, but let them go don't let them hold you back anymore.
It's okay to cry, we all do, if there is a day you just feel like crying let it out. It's better to let it all out then keep it in, and let the stress build up. It is okay to not feel okay, you don't have to wear you mask all the time because it will eventually break, and everything you have been holding in for who knows how long comes pouring out.
I really hope this helps anyone going through a hard time to crack a small smile even if it's small. To know that this made you feel better makes me happy. Everyone matters no matter what gender, color, religion, who the they, or identify as or what ever you might be.
- From your friend,
Hayden :-)
i was off a xan and need to sleep but anyone else feel like they’re cursed to only feel pain? and that no word explains their existence other than it? i feel i am cursed with pain, i am cursed to be a merchant of it, a harbinger of it, a creator of it, a bearer of it. i have a weight on my shoulders that i can only escape by going into a drug induced stupor and even then i always have to reremember. it’s like when i have a dream and i dream that people who used to love told me that they love me again, that they forgive me, and that they understand me. but then i wake up. and like sand, it slips through my fingertips. it simply... dissolves. and i remember everything. my 200th worst memory is still terrible. i am a walking scandal. i went on a one year long public breakdown. i have lost almost all of my friends and i no longer connect with anyone. i have turned into a piece of shit that only hurts people
I feel this
This song triggers me so much, it reminds me of what I went through, makes my stomach feel like a pit.
I feel you
I came back to this song after 4 years...🥺 and this sounds better slowed.. and a lot more sadder.
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
“My presence on this earth is not needed any longer, and if anything i hope this makes you stronger”
I felt that probably way more than I should’ve.....
Lol I almost committed to this song before- it hits different in the moment
I’m listening this without headphones pray for me
“She told you she was down, you let it slip by. So from then on she kept it on the inside.”
“She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound.”
“Let the world know that I died in vain, cuz the world around me is the one to blame.”
i love you. you are an amazing, precious human being and you deserve happiness and one day, you will receive it, just be patient.
i genuinely dont think i have anyone who loves me im gonna put this on loop for whoever finds me
I have been scrolling through the comments and seeing so many people going through so much, i am doing my best to reply to all of them but just know you’re not alone. I know you may feel like it, but you’re not. If you ever need someone to talk to, don’t hesitate to message me ill be there for you, you matter and are so very important to me, and you’re voice matters too, i know i don’t know you, I’m just a random person in the comment section but thats not stopping me from caring a whole bunch about you, you’re amazing good enough, and worth so much, i wish i was able to do more for you guys and help out more because i know you’re hurting, but just know you don’t have to face anything alone, please don’t give up i know things get tough and hard, and that seems like the easier option, but please don’t, you have come so far let’s see how further you can go, you hold so much purpose you really do, i know you can overcome this chapter in your life, it does get better and easier, just hang in there and keep fighting, i am so proud of you and happy to have you here another day. how are you doing today? have you drunk some water? have you ate something? If not please make sure you do, because thats so very important just like you are. You’re loved, and so beautiful/handsome, and worthy. Don’t forget about yourself, you’re important too, treat yourself like you would somebody you love, you’re amazing and you can’t be replaced nor do i want to. Anyways, if you ever need any one to talk to, don’t hesitate to message me
Woahhhhhh right when it started I knew it was gonna be good
I'm really about to give up. I've fought for so long trying to get where I am happy about almost everything in my life, and climb out of the huge dark hole that I was in, and now...it feels like all of that work has just washed away. And now I'm in the same stop I was in when this all started. I hate my life, and it's not because my family sucks or school sucks. It's just because I hate myself, inside and out. I feel like nothing is going to get better and I'm waiting for something good to happen when deep down inside I know it's not. I love my family, sure they aren't perfect but I love them. I just can't live with this internal hate for myself.
Hey....the world sucks and when their are sh!ty people the world sucks more and I can convince you that “life is worth living” cus I can’t even have that though in my head but keep in mind god gave you a perpose now I’m not saying god is always with you but I am saying that god new what you were like and what you would do before you were born so....maybe you made make a difference in the world... I don’t know like I said I’m in a deep hole to but I’m not gonna say anything personall but what I AM gonna say is...you did good this far...keep going
stay strong, soldier!
I know how you feel, but despite it all i am so very proud of you for continuing to hang on even though you want to give up. You’re loved amazing and good enough, you’re worth so much more then you realize. I understand what you’re going through, and i am so very sorry you’re going through this, but just know you’re not going through it alone, and i know you can do this, i believe in you. Don’t give up please, you’re loved and wanted and capable of overcoming this. If you ever need someone to talk to, don’t hesitate messaging me
Lyrics:
just an average girl
she always wore a smile
she was cheerful and happy for a short while
now shes older things are getting colder
life's not what she thought
she wished someone had told her
she told you she was down
you let it slip by
so from then on she kept it on the inside
she told herself she was alright
but she was telling white lies
can't you tell, look at her dull eyes
tried to stop herself from crying almost every night
but she knew there was no chance of feeling alright
summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves
'cause those cuts on her wrist were bleeding through you see
she knew she was depressed she didn't want to admit it
didn't think she fit in, everyone seemed to miss it
she carried on like a soldier with a battle wound
bleeding out from every cut her body consumed
she had no friends at school, all alone she sat
and if someone were to notice she would blame the cat
but those cuts on her wrist they were no mistake
but no one cared enough to save her from this self hate
things were going down, never really up
and here she is now stuck in this stupid rut
she knew exactly what she had to do next
just stand on the chair and tie the rope around her neck
She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild,
"Look at me now are you proud of your precious child?"
But she knew that her parents weren't the ones to blame,
It was the world that should bow down it's head in shame
She stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon,
Just don't think it'll all be over soon
The chair fell down as she took her final breath,
It's all over all gone, now she's greeting death
Her mum walks in, she falls down to the floor,
And now nothing can take back what she just saw
The little girl that she raised is just hanging there,
Her body's pale and her face is violently bare,
She sees the note and unfolds it with care,
All she does is stare, "How can this be fair?"
She starts reading as the tears roll down her face,
"I'm sorry Mum, but this world is just not my place,
I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in,
I've come to realise this world's full of sin,
There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space,
I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race,
It's a disgrace, I was misplaced,
Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place,
It's ok though, 'cause you'll see me soon,
You'll know when your time has come, just look at the moon,
As it shines bright, throughout the night,
And remember everyone's facing their own fights,
But i can't deal with this pain, I'm not a fighter,
You'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter
So let the world know that I died in vain,
Because the world around me is the one to blame,
And I know in a year you'll forget I'm gone,
'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on,
That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school,
So I'm going by the law majority rules,
My presence on this earth is not needed any longer,
And if anything I hope this makes you stronger,
You're the best friend that I ever had,
Such a shame I had to make you so very sad,
Just remember that you meant everything to me,
And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key,
Now it's time to go I'm running out of space to write,
And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight
I'm watching over you from the clouds above,
And sending down the purest and whitest dove,
To watch over you and be my helpful eye,
So this is it world...
Goodbye!"
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
She knew she was depressed. Didn't want to admit it.
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
I've been repressing so much recently... I've gotten so good at it that I'm able to block out pain apparently. I got a root canal yesterday, the dentist said that most people wouldn't be able to sleep with the pain... And all I felt was mild/almost non-existant annoyance for a few weeks. It makes me wonder what else I'm not feeling right now, and if it's gonna cause something to go wrong in the future
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
You're a furry. Literally no one cares lol
this is really slowed to *perfection.*
Thanks❤️
just a little longer.
Just a little longer. i promise you'll make it.
Just a little longer? It’s been 5 years...
@@kinzlee_harman3839 It might take time but it’s going to be ok. I care about you, and Imm sure other people do too. I love you and please stay safez
@@robotz7276 💖💖💖
@@kinzlee_harman3839 Im very late but you can do this. Please don't give up. It'll all get better soon. Stay strong.
I know that my best friend is always there for me and ready to listen but I'm just not ready to talk
I’m that one best friend that’s missing.. have a good day/night!.
can relate to this :,)
I love you all in the world. Remember your worth.
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
This hits different at night
Me listening this every night thinking actually abt ending it
*I'm sorry mom, but this world is just not my place.*
Yea the world sucks but I don’t know I’m just going with the flow and seeing what will happen next
@@leomeade2009 Just keep fighting. Never give up. I know it's hard right now and the world can be a terrible place but suicide is a permanent solution and it cannot be fixed. So, keep fighting.
I love you, beautiful human
Thank you so much, I am littualy crying right now this is inspiring me to keep on moving forward....thank you...😊
Thank you bootiful human
@@leomeade2009 No problem
I’m listening to this before get home so I know at least someone understood.
EVERYONE PLEASE READ THIS
You are beautiful and loved i know it may not seem like it but trust me you are. Get all of your feelings out, its better out than in. This is cliche (excuse my spelling lmao) but trust me its worth staying. Have an amazing day :D
This song reminds me of my "therapist friend"
She would say i can vent and then say my problems arent the worst problems so they arent problems at all
She broke my mental health even more..
And then she pushed me away
this song is helping me go peacefully.
I love you
I just wish someone knew how I felt
hey, im so proud of you. i love you so fucking much.
@@RASONE01634 im actually doing alot better thank u sm
I was told sht that happens make you stronger but I was a kid I don’t need to be strong I need to be fucking safe
it hurts
i love you
*so this is it world goodbye..*
yes i hate life and everyone about it is shit, but i am not going to let it kill me. hold on, spit life in the face. help others, don’t let them go through the pain and sadness you had to go through it. you can do it. i believe in you. i love you.
Music is the only think keeping me going right now
*thing 😭😭😭
Perfect slower UwU 💮🌹
i relate to this so much-
im sorry i left you behind. . . ill prominse to come visit you if I'm not gone. . . I love you ❤
Are you okay? Please hold on
Hey Bud. I may not know you nor do you know me but I want you to know that,They would want you to stay. They wouldn’t want you to go. Please stay,Not for me nor anyone else,But for yourself. Your strong,I know you are. I hope your life had turned for the better fellow friend. I love you 💜 stay safe alright?
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
@@hanjizoe2562 you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
@@ghostlylanturn1294 you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
im in so much mental pain
Everyone who isn't feeling their best rn. I hope u all are okay. I know life may suck rn but trust me it will get better I promise you that. If u need someone to talk to im here :)
i know these lyrics like the back of my head, dont know why.
I've always been vocal about my depression after it came back to power again. I always talked about it in a joking manner but it's no joke.
My friends tell me to call the hotline for help,but there's people who need that help more than me, so I'm just sitting here, messages coming in from the 2 people that care about me, pills in hand, hoping this is the last song i listen to.
I hope y'all that are also struggling get better, don't do what I'm about to do..
Please fucking tell me you're alive. I am here. I know I don't know you. I will listen to ANYTHING you have to say
@@hasankazmi9832 lol sadly i am here :'))
I'm ok tho haha
@@anamache-stan7217 I'm also sadly here. If you ever need an ear. Feel free. Life is tough on all of us.
⚠️trigger warning⚠️ this whole new year i’ve been having crap i might fail school because i have attention issues and my to make it worse i only have like 1 friend and about 2 days ago was cutting themself on a ft and made it seem like nothing they thought i fell asleep but i was really on mute crying and shaking because it was triggering me and i couldn’t handle it by myself and i had to vent to someone and now i just feel like a burden to them and the friend i was on ft with and i feel like i’m gonna lose that friend whether it be suicide or because i can’t hold a friendship because of all the shit i’ve been having in my mind and i know that if i lose them i’ll be alone and i’m to scared to leave this world because pain just brings back more memories from when i didn’t have to fake a smile
just relatable
I try telling my parents that I’m not right, but they tell me that it’s just a phase…
I try telling my sister, but she’s says it’s not medically diagnosed so it’s nothing…
I talk to my Nan, but she says that I’m just being a teen…
Will I ever get help?
tbh i’ve given up haha 😆 i’m so in pain i’m numb the therapy is isn’t helping at this point it’s over 5 years now i’ve thought long lol 😝 i think about sucide at least 1 time a day i’ve given up hah lol bye
Same you described me perfectly man
@@kenztraphouse glad to no i’m not alone
You will get through this love, trust me you aren’t alone.
@@hitoshishinso7749
Whenever I vent to my 'friends' they just call me out on being an attention seeker and if I haven't cut yet I'm not really sad at all. I came out to them and all they said was, "Oh really? Your just saying that because (other name) is getting popular.". Sometimes I feel I'm just alone in this world.. my parents are barely there for me, my therapist stopped calling me, my guidance counsellor tells my parent everything I tell her.
Just thinking about the time I use to cray my eyes out to this song everyday, it's just funny country considering I haven't gotten any better
you! yes, you! your soul is beautiful, jesus loves you and he is waiting for your voice, you are enough, you are so beautiful like the pictures of van gogh ^-^
this song has been depressing moral *history will continue even if you're not there* meaning every if you die no one would care that very scary and the fact she killed herself knowing nothing would get better for her is just sad for her parent but is killing yourself really a good way to solve anything that would be very sad for your love one knowing you are not in their life it just make no sense it was just a bit no a LOT sad to think about those people who can't help themselves so "I hope you all have a good life*
And people tell me that “oh she’s gotta get her grades up or I’ll take her phone for a month.” My phone is the only thing that makes me happy because my so called “friends” call me a liar when I told them my story about my neighbor almost r@ping me.. I almost overdosed a month ago. I was with my bff when I almost overdosed and they didn’t stop me.. I just want to be accepted.. please..
I’m so sorry for what happened to you. I may not be a therapist but I can try to give you comfort. I may not know you but I love and accept you. Just try to think, what goes down must come up. It has to get better. It’s gonna be ok, it may not be right now, but it will be. Please stay strong, because you are so strong. Make sure to drink lots of water and eat. ❤️
reminder: you are loved very much, you are accepted, you are beautiful, you deserve happiness and love, you are a queen, you are a great person, you are special and you are very very strong 💪
This song explains why all the kids are depressed
Take care, I wish you all the best
hi guys. i love you. you can do this. ❤️
i should learn how to play this on guitar
Slowed to depression.
my song for when theres to much going on and i wanna get away from all of it
Here we go again
*you were the best friend that i ever had its such a shame ill have to make you so very sad*
This song is perfect for me , this is exactly how I feel, I want the pain to go away but it won’t I’m only a kid I shouldn’t feel like this nor should anyone else, most of the time I think “nobody loves me the world would be better without me” I’ve tried to stab myself before but couldn’t and I tried to suffocate myself that didn’t work either I tried to strangle myself and starve but I can’t it just won’t work I’ve tried to hang my self too, I really can’t handle it but I don’t want to make anybody sad, but I can’t handle the pain, I have therapy but it won’t help I don’t tell anybody how I feel other then my friend but then again what if their not actually my friend? What if their just faking it, I’ve wanted to cut myself but I just cant do it, I listen to this song almost everyday in hopes of finally achieving my goals, people tell me I have a future to live for but nobody would want someone like me, I’m really insecure about my weight and looks sometimes I wish I had the body of some of my classmates and then be treated with respect like them, my parents argue everyday and my best friend got taken away,I try to be happy but I’m dying on the inside, I have break downs in the middle of class and nobody gives af the teacher asks if I’m ok which makes me cry more,I have a crush but I know he doesn’t like me back I wish I didn’t have anxiety, depression and anger isssues I physically and mentally abuse myself and others around but I don’t try too..
I’m only 12 I always wanted to grow up but now I wanna be a kid again, my life is hell, if there’s anybody that sees this just know that no matter how loved you feel I love you I might not know you but I care about you there’s always one person that cares for you, just don’t end up like me and be suicidal and love yourself for who you are something I could never do never give up there’s hope for you and I hope you find it :)
I have found the perfect song to play while I vent to nobody at all.
I’m sorry that you have no one to talk to. I’m not in the right mental space to receive venting, but you should try to write it somewhere! It might help. You are loved, and cared for, by people including me. Stay strong and safe I love you❤️