When I was in middle school, everyone just saw me as “the ghost/vampire kid that’s probably immortal” I was super pale, spoke in vocabulary unbefitting a 12 year old, and was never seen traveling between places… Though I got uninvited from a lot of stuff because I’d go immediately into “deep talk” mode and bore my classmates.
2:46. You have no idea just how called out I feel, how PERFECTLY this describes my autism, how much this resonates witb my SOUL. I have the literal exact same mindset every day and I've never even thought about it until you pointed it out
It's the same thing for me but with my friends if one of my friends feels like s*** I feel like shitt if one of my friends are happy I'm happy it's just a weird thing that happened that I kind of like but at the same time it's just autism
SAME, this relatable. I fought over a shower not long ago and the reason? I don’t really like showers but it’s also that I needed the sleep from staying up and that I have a specific schedule, you change that schedule, I WILL NOTICE, and that morning was changed so I woke up early to take a shower, and I hated that cause I just wanted a normal morning.
@Mrcooper-u1b I've actually heard about this before, I think I remember it being associated with some kind of reflective empathy? Idk what it's called but I'm the exact same way
@AgentA-381 I know exactly what you mean- that feeling of snowballing one change into a billion more and messing up your routine? Been there done that
@@randomperson4915 somebody who understands! Nobody at my school gets it. And I might use the Pau Environment Chart thing the next time somebody questions my autism. Cause that also is a thing with my Autism, I feel what others feel, but if I get distracted then BOOM, I’m on the default line again, until I loose my distraction and I can’t help but think about if everyone is okay, cause even with the people I hate, I can’t just stand there and let them feel like trash, and like what Pau said, I feel responsible and that I need to help everyone feel better!
A DIARY THAT CAN MANIPULATE HOW OTHER FEEL AND ACT!!! HOLY CRAP THAT IS SUCH A COOL FANTASY POWER!!! AHAHAKDBDDJDNSJ THE INSPIRATION! ITS ALL COMING AT ME!!! GYAAAAH I MUST WRITE!!! The notebook can only be wielded by a precious smol bean that will do anything to make people happy! While she can be easily manipulated she will not hesitate to retaliate against anyone that hurts her, or others! Determined to make the world happier without forcing them to be happy against their free will. Oooobhh…. Mah brain is a tinglin. Thank you so much for being the inspiration behind this new story! :D
Okay. Why does your voice sound so nice? I listen to your videos in the background of making animations, and you voice is always so calming. And we also have a lot in common! I’m also an artist, and I have autism. I love your content so much you are amazing!❤
I RESONATE WITH EVERY CHORD IN THIS STORY TLDR: To circumvent bullying from my diagnosed Asperger’s, from 1st Grade into the 2nd I printed out sprites of Maple Story characters other kids used as a currency & also was dealing under the table to print scary stuff.
hey i'm not blaming you because this isn't particularly common knowledge but for future reference that term has. VERY unsavory origins. the preferred term is autism or autism spectrum disorder (asd)
Very nicely done video! Loved the different artstyles + the 3D models, the smooth transition through the different poses… it all blended together very nicely. Also I don't know if anyone at that school knew what a diary is? Because boundaries are important and that's to be respected. (Which it seems like they didn't), Sorry you had to go through that Pau. This was a great first impression for your channel and I can't wait to see more, I hope you're proud of what you've made because I am definitely proud of you. Stay creative and stay legendary. Hope you get a good sleep.
you know, i always liked to write when i was a child. Creating some stories and characters based on my classmates. almost all classmates wanted to read my things to see what their character did in the story. it was like a book, but instead of only reading for understand the content, they read to see what things their characters would do in story situations. That's a nice video and the 3d too. Pau videos's worth my time ❤
Your voice, your glasses, your hair, everything is too adorable and cute. I wanna hug her and sleep to hear her talk her voice is like pillows with a puppy I don't know how it makes sense but go with it she is adorable we must protect this pillow of cuteness and innocence !!! 😭🥹 I'm new by the way I just found your channel of hugs and stories
I stumbled across Pau’s channel literally less than a day ago and I can confidently say that my life is better after after discovering this silly little human.
Its intriguing how autism can have different levels and symptoms, some might pass under the radar because only have problems that could be easily confused by other things(its like a limbo, when its harder to get a concrete answer, even by the own person), while other have more complex symptoms that may it harder to involve in social situations like this case, that diary helped you somehow by expressing your concerns and ideas, still this could had been better handled with a proper diagnose or self aware from adults. Despise this, im very glad that you were able to get a formal diagnosis in the end, thanks to that you can fill the wholes of awkward situations in the past and in general became a happier person with yourself, so my best wishes for your future, and love your videos too!
Girl, your life needs to become an RPG or anime, and this would be the best plot line in it. Your stories are so insane and sad a lot of the time, but you tell them in the most adorable way imaginable!
People see your UA-cam channel too, and they await the newest videos. This upload is actually really well-timed for me. I'm dealing with my own situation where I wanted to make everyone happy too, but mine backfired terribly. People are so mad at me right now. I'm just glad to hear someone's story on the same sort of thing but it ends well. I also just really like your videos, Pau. Thank you for making them. This made me smile and I really needed to have that possibility! I hope you have an amazing day and a wonderful holidays time
This reminds me of the amazing world of gumball episode where that ice cream gets a book and writes weird stuff, except instead of writing fanfics they socially engineered their ideal environment
Bro I love your artstryle 😭 Btw, nice history, I never thought someone could have something like a deathnote but to change a school's destiny instead of someone's death, that's honestly really cool! So see ya, I'll check your other videos Pau =)
> hey diary wouldn't be it funny if a lot of people gave me $3 each tommorow when they see me heheheh next page > AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA IM SCARED DEAR DIARY AAAAAA 😥
i'd like to get diagnosed for autism but it's scary because what if i don't actually have it and i've been deluding myself into thinking i have? what if i'm really just an idiot and i'm making excuses for it? :
learning social engineering at a young age is just basic autistic experience 101, but man I wish my diary that got stolen worked like this
I do not like the implications of this
When I looked at the thumbnail I almost thought Pau had the death note.
close enough
Same
On god
Same!
Wait lmao that makes sense
Being undiagnosed for your childhood is a canon event for all autistic people with Asian, African or South American parents
Or a parent with a therapy background and a fear of having an autistic child
real, my parents hate me lmao
REAL, I honestly think I’m autistic but I have Asian parents so they will say I’m exaggerating 😭
Pau’s out here playing Scribblenauts in real life. You love to see it.
Thanks for the new video! I hope you have a great Christmas!
awww thank you so much!!! ^w^ you too!!!! I'll use some of this money to buy some s'mores the holidays if you don't mind ehehe c: thank you!!!
having feelings of power at a young age is a feeling like no other and it genuinely scares me
Also, that 3D animation was VERY cool!
thank you!! ^^
Evil girlypop arc we love to see it
When I was in middle school, everyone just saw me as “the ghost/vampire kid that’s probably immortal”
I was super pale, spoke in vocabulary unbefitting a 12 year old, and was never seen traveling between places…
Though I got uninvited from a lot of stuff because I’d go immediately into “deep talk” mode and bore my classmates.
The Death Note but it's a diary and people steal it to read it and punish those who have done misdeeds to her.
@@Nerd-hq9vw would've been a much better anime tbh
PAU WAS THE OG "DORKS DIARIES/ DIARY OF A WIMPY KID" KID
Little Pau is like “YES! BOW DOWN BEFORE ME AND ALL MY CUTENESS! BE HAPPY!”
Seeing the *happy stimming* bit genuinely put a smile on my face. Wonderful as always Pau.
2:46. You have no idea just how called out I feel, how PERFECTLY this describes my autism, how much this resonates witb my SOUL. I have the literal exact same mindset every day and I've never even thought about it until you pointed it out
It's the same thing for me but with my friends if one of my friends feels like s*** I feel like shitt if one of my friends are happy I'm happy it's just a weird thing that happened that I kind of like but at the same time it's just autism
SAME, this relatable. I fought over a shower not long ago and the reason? I don’t really like showers but it’s also that I needed the sleep from staying up and that I have a specific schedule, you change that schedule, I WILL NOTICE, and that morning was changed so I woke up early to take a shower, and I hated that cause I just wanted a normal morning.
@Mrcooper-u1b I've actually heard about this before, I think I remember it being associated with some kind of reflective empathy? Idk what it's called but I'm the exact same way
@AgentA-381 I know exactly what you mean- that feeling of snowballing one change into a billion more and messing up your routine? Been there done that
@@randomperson4915 somebody who understands! Nobody at my school gets it. And I might use the Pau Environment Chart thing the next time somebody questions my autism. Cause that also is a thing with my Autism, I feel what others feel, but if I get distracted then BOOM, I’m on the default line again, until I loose my distraction and I can’t help but think about if everyone is okay, cause even with the people I hate, I can’t just stand there and let them feel like trash, and like what Pau said, I feel responsible and that I need to help everyone feel better!
A DIARY THAT CAN MANIPULATE HOW OTHER FEEL AND ACT!!!
HOLY CRAP THAT IS SUCH A COOL FANTASY POWER!!!
AHAHAKDBDDJDNSJ THE INSPIRATION! ITS ALL COMING AT ME!!!
GYAAAAH I MUST WRITE!!!
The notebook can only be wielded by a precious smol bean that will do anything to make people happy!
While she can be easily manipulated she will not hesitate to retaliate against anyone that hurts her, or others!
Determined to make the world happier without forcing them to be happy against their free will.
Oooobhh…. Mah brain is a tinglin. Thank you so much for being the inspiration behind this new story! :D
Okay. Why does your voice sound so nice? I listen to your videos in the background of making animations, and you voice is always so calming. And we also have a lot in common! I’m also an artist, and I have autism. I love your content so much you are amazing!❤
I RESONATE WITH EVERY CHORD IN THIS STORY
TLDR: To circumvent bullying from my diagnosed Asperger’s, from 1st Grade into the 2nd I printed out sprites of Maple Story characters other kids used as a currency & also was dealing under the table to print scary stuff.
i was bullied but barely remember anything. i barely remember anything with vivid imagery or strong details.
aspergers too.
hey i'm not blaming you because this isn't particularly common knowledge but for future reference that term has. VERY unsavory origins. the preferred term is autism or autism spectrum disorder (asd)
The different art styles throughout the video were amazing :D
thank you!! ^v^
@@silly_pauidk why i’ve never thought of using ^v^ but thank you for the knowledge ,’)
a villan arc at the age of 8 is crazy
I rewatched the video and i don't remember making a comment so here i am, great vid, keep the great work pau!
hehe, that's so sweet thank you!!! ^^
PAU UPLOAD AHHHH NO IM OUTSIDE NOW I CANT WATCH IT RIGHT NOW
Very nicely done video! Loved the different artstyles + the 3D models, the smooth transition through the different poses… it all blended together very nicely.
Also I don't know if anyone at that school knew what a diary is? Because boundaries are important and that's to be respected. (Which it seems like they didn't), Sorry you had to go through that Pau.
This was a great first impression for your channel and I can't wait to see more, I hope you're proud of what you've made because I am definitely proud of you. Stay creative and stay legendary. Hope you get a good sleep.
Pau, you literally turned your inner demons into ACTUAL demons, you're quite impressive :0c
you know, i always liked to write when i was a child. Creating some stories and characters based on my classmates. almost all classmates wanted to read my things to see what their character did in the story. it was like a book, but instead of only reading for understand the content, they read to see what things their characters would do in story situations. That's a nice video and the 3d too. Pau videos's worth my time ❤
Your voice, your glasses, your hair, everything is too adorable and cute. I wanna hug her and sleep to hear her talk her voice is like pillows with a puppy I don't know how it makes sense but go with it she is adorable we must protect this pillow of cuteness and innocence !!! 😭🥹 I'm new by the way I just found your channel of hugs and stories
I stumbled across Pau’s channel literally less than a day ago and I can confidently say that my life is better after after discovering this silly little human.
Its intriguing how autism can have different levels and symptoms, some might pass under the radar because only have problems that could be easily confused by other things(its like a limbo, when its harder to get a concrete answer, even by the own person), while other have more complex symptoms that may it harder to involve in social situations like this case, that diary helped you somehow by expressing your concerns and ideas, still this could had been better handled with a proper diagnose or self aware from adults.
Despise this, im very glad that you were able to get a formal diagnosis in the end, thanks to that you can fill the wholes of awkward situations in the past and in general became a happier person with yourself, so my best wishes for your future, and love your videos too!
5:13
HOLY SHIZ SAYORI POSE!!!
LOOOVED the storytime! You might be one of the best creators on youtube! :D
wowie,, thank you! c:
I just recently stumbled upon this channel and I love her aesthetics and the topics she talks about :OO (keep up the good work!)
Hearing your story, seeing your animation, and seeing your live stream that one time, makes me happy, it’s all I need from you, and nothing more!❤
Girl, your life needs to become an RPG or anime, and this would be the best plot line in it. Your stories are so insane and sad a lot of the time, but you tell them in the most adorable way imaginable!
4:30
EMILE STOLE MA QUESADILLAS TODAY.... *crys in quesadilla*
I genuinely love your stories and art, they are like balm for the soul
I love the mixture of different art styles, also love your voice, its so cuteeee
Pau was playing creative mode in real life
Pau's diary would probably take my soul without me knowing
Why that sounds like an anime title 😭
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It always makes me happy when Pau comes out with a new video. On hard days, her quiet voice calms me down. :3
5 seconds in i’m already saying ‘real’ so hard
love the video :> i hope you have a good day pau!
This makes me so happy, I don't know why, it's like so comforting, not in a weird way though 😭
"For the one who punishes Emli for stealing my quesadillas I will draw you being cool and popular."
Your voice is the most adorable thing >w
As somebody with autism I totaly relate to the line/ environment chart at school also I hope u got ur Quesadillas back ❤😂
Thank you youtube for recommending me this
Pau is a very interesting person. I hope things continue to get better for you.
1:59 hits so hard, a chart like that would have meant so much when I was younger :)
Always a good day when Pau uploads! :)
Let's goooo Pau update
Pau casually bending reality 🛩️
I experienced something like this in fourth grade where everyone just sort of praised me for no reason.
Only diagnosed ASD super recently at 15
I hacked my school IT system when I was 11
And yh
Good upload anyway
Don't push yourself to hard Pau we will wait for the next film! And good to hear you can beter express youself! 😊
5:54 aaaargh.... Pau always knows how to hit you in the feels...
The old school art style is so coo.
this is the most wholesome thing i've ever seen, i love your content pau!
1:45 Kira vibes?
3d animations were so cool
5:32 They were also wrong for peeking in your personal diary too.
Your videos have so many references, it's fun to watch :3
People see your UA-cam channel too, and they await the newest videos. This upload is actually really well-timed for me. I'm dealing with my own situation where I wanted to make everyone happy too, but mine backfired terribly. People are so mad at me right now. I'm just glad to hear someone's story on the same sort of thing but it ends well. I also just really like your videos, Pau. Thank you for making them. This made me smile and I really needed to have that possibility! I hope you have an amazing day and a wonderful holidays time
important work? 🚫
watching Pau? ✅
Pau villain arc.
PAU UPLOADING MAKES ANYONE'S BAD DAY TURN GREAT
babe wake up again, pau uploaded
5:21 I cannot even begin to explain the joy this frame of the animation gives me :33❤
This reminds me of the amazing world of gumball episode where that ice cream gets a book and writes weird stuff, except instead of writing fanfics they socially engineered their ideal environment
I love the style changes ....also You basically became Light Yagami trough the power of Autism XD
This girl was really out here with a burn book and I am absolutely here for it
Bro I love your artstryle 😭
Btw, nice history, I never thought someone could have something like a deathnote but to change a school's destiny instead of someone's death, that's honestly really cool! So see ya, I'll check your other videos Pau =)
"Emil stole my quesadillas"
"I am about to end this man whole career
Moment" XD
I love that your poses are from Ace Attorney! I'm autistic and that game is so neat!
Only trans UA-camr I can watch around my family without outting myself :3 (I’m in a heavy Christian household. 😭😭😭)
Those art styles were amazing. Was that 3D pixilated style based on webfishing?
OMG your channel is so cute, I love your animation style ^^
Wowie the 3d animations are so cool!!!!
4:44 Club Penguin pizza parlor OST? Nice!!
I know it's weird, but seeing this gave me death note vibes.
Omg she had a death note
I thought it said 4 days ago and was surprised I haven't gotten the video in my recommended, then I noticed it actually said 4 HOURS
The first thought I had looking at the title was “Another Burn book incident?”
When I hear the part where Emil stole your quesadillas, I gasped so loud.
Guys, just have a diary to write false things in and have another for actual honest entrys :D
Evil diary with a side of horror paper
HAPPY STIMMING!!! :DDDD YIPPEEE
Your chanel will be popular soon😊 congratulations ❤🎉
Let's go pau video the same day I get discharged
> hey diary wouldn't be it funny if a lot of people gave me $3 each tommorow when they see me heheheh
next page
> AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA IM SCARED DEAR DIARY AAAAAA 😥
Pau’s death note
What’s funny is that I did something very similar back in middle school.
…it didn’t end well.
Love the 3d animation for the pau chart, big ds vibes
damn, pau was a savage. mad respect.
I fall asleep to your videos, your voice is so soothing hehe love your videos!❤
This is just the Storyteller from Phoenix Wright vs Professor Layton but more wholesome
i'd like to get diagnosed for autism but it's scary because what if i don't actually have it and i've been deluding myself into thinking i have? what if i'm really just an idiot and i'm making excuses for it? :
Congratulations on a quick 40k!
Bro got the mood note
I saw this video being sponsored and now I'm subscribed to you!
You are the most adorable precious small bean ever. You must be protecc
i haavent watched the video yet but DEAR GOD was your diary the BURN BOOK or something
greg heffley wont be happy about this...