just a reference to the way my chronic suicidal ideation forces me to overvalue every moment i spend with a person, even in casually sexual relationships where romantic attraction may not be reciprocal. however, without any hope for future permanence, they just kind of feel like a waste of time. to the person im seeing, our relationship is just hedonistic fun, but to me its how im choosing to spend what i believe are the final months of my life. im thankfully not a slave to this cycle anymore. if i were destined to kill myself i wouldnt be here writing this verbose bullshit on youtube.
@@nothingissacrosanct you dont know me but im so proud of you for getting through these things! i struggle with them as well and its definitely a tough journey. thank you for making this beautiful piece of art and sharing your experiences online :) you're gonna be huge one day! remember us when that happens
@@nothingissacrosanct At least there are/were those intimate relations. It baffles me what is in this title not to be understandable. We all have little time, whether for reasons abovestated or for the relativity and lack of permanence of anything actually.
Real melancholic. I like it. Wasn't expecting that drop at the start, but it was a welcome surprise just like this song.
This sounds heavenly :)
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just a reference to the way my chronic suicidal ideation forces me to overvalue every moment i spend with a person, even in casually sexual relationships where romantic attraction may not be reciprocal. however, without any hope for future permanence, they just kind of feel like a waste of time. to the person im seeing, our relationship is just hedonistic fun, but to me its how im choosing to spend what i believe are the final months of my life. im thankfully not a slave to this cycle anymore. if i were destined to kill myself i wouldnt be here writing this verbose bullshit on youtube.
@@nothingissacrosanct you dont know me but im so proud of you for getting through these things! i struggle with them as well and its definitely a tough journey. thank you for making this beautiful piece of art and sharing your experiences online :)
you're gonna be huge one day! remember us when that happens
@@nothingissacrosanct At least there are/were those intimate relations. It baffles me what is in this title not to be understandable. We all have little time, whether for reasons abovestated or for the relativity and lack of permanence of anything actually.