CHOPIN Nocturne in E flat major Op. 9 No. 2 Cello-Matthew John Ignacio
Вставка
- Опубліковано 15 вер 2024
- THIS IS MY STORY
If I should have a daughter, I will name her Grace. I was taught the song "Amazing Grace" as a young boy, and growing up I got that word "grace" stuck in my head. When I was born, my dad counted my fingers and toes because he was so afraid that I'd be a deformed baby. So when I came out a normal baby, my mom held me in her arms and wept. My parents always tell me, "Matthew, you are God's miracle. You are God's grace."
But I never really appreciated that I was God's miracle until my baby brother Daniel died. Daniel's brain didn't separate into right and left hemispheres because of a genetic disorder that's also in my genes. This was passed on to me by my father, passed on to him by my grandfather.
Doctors expected that I would be born with Down Syndrome or autism, and if my dad had his way, I would have been aborted too. But by God's merciful grace, I was born alive. He didn't know that, inside the darkness of my mother's womb, I was not alone. I was never alone. God was there with me, protecting me from harm.
My parents had made the painful decision of aborting Daniel because of that genetic disorder, and felt guilty about it. I had so many unanswered questions. Questions I felt, but couldn't even speak, because there were no words to express them. Part of me felt that I shouldn't have been born.
When I was 17, I ran away from home because I felt that something was missing. Was there something my parents weren't telling me? Why did I feel I had no right to exist? Why did I spend more time wanting to end my life than live it?
We all keep secrets. My dad confessed that besides the risk I would be born with a genetic disorder, he wanted my mom to have an abortion so he could hide his guilt and shame. He was already married when my mom became pregnant, and his wife at the time was also pregnant with my half-brother, Timothy.
I have learned through personal experience that music is used by God to heal the human spirit. During a piano competition, as I played Beethoven's "Pathetique", tears suddenly streamed down the face of my dad. I'll never forget what he said: "Matthew, you played with such powerful emotions because you're alive by God's grace. And the world would not have heard your music if I'd aborted you. So I asked God to forgive me, and I also wanted to ask your forgiveness."
For many years, my dad was stuck in a place called disgrace. This is how he described his disgrace: "Most days, I know that God has forgiven me. But there are some days that I don't feel I'm worthy of having God forgive me of my sins. I feel like a failure. I feel like I've let God down, and I can't seem to forgive myself." My dad was finally able to forgive himself when grace brought forgiveness and healing to his relationship with Timothy.
Growing up, I shared my dad's guilt and remorse. I felt guilty that he chose to be with me, and that my half-brother, Timothy, grew up without a father. Part of me felt that our dad should have stayed with him, maybe even that I shouldn't have been born. I carried the guilt, humiliation, and shame over the sins of my dad, and it was when the pain was too much to bear that God's grace healed me.
Grace really strikes us when we accept, with unwavering trust, that our sins have not only been forgiven, but forgotten, washed away in the blood of the Lamb. Whatever disgraces might make us ashamed, we just need to remember that all have been crucified with Christ.
Though God does not ignore or encourage our sins, He doesn't withhold His love because there is sin in us either. As forgiven sinners, we are humbly aware that sin is precisely what's caused us to throw ourselves at the mercy of our loving Father. If we weren't sinners and didn't need mercy and grace, we'd have no way of experiencing God's relentless and passionate love. No matter what happens or what I do, He can't stop loving me.
But even the courage to accept that our heavenly Father loves us just as we are, and not as how we should be, is grace. Our receiving of His love itself is grace! Everything that we are and have is grace.
Our family is a living testimony to Romans 5:20 - "Where sin abounded, God's mercy and grace abounded all the more." God's amazing grace delivered our family from our disgrace. For us, grace is God's word for love, expressed through unconditional forgiveness.
I'm a trophy of God's grace. As a child of adultery, I rest in His grace to cover the scandal of my birth. I rest in His mercy to cover my shame. I rest in His love to cover my humiliation. I rest in His blood shed on the cross to cover my sins.
Thanks, ate Christine. I've glad you like it, because this was the tenth piece I played that night, and my body was starting to get sore.:)
This is my favorite song in the whole world, and I didn't belive that someone could make it even MORE beautiful, but you did it! Your talent is incredible, I'm speechless. I congratulate you for embracing the gift you were born with. I actually cried, really! Just beautiful...
Beautiful piece of music and played in such a way that does Chopin so much credit. Superb musicianship and I like and share your philosophy on how music unites people. Music releases the joys and passions of our lives and takes us to beautiful places in our hearts. Credit to you sir, live, love laugh and be happy.
It takes a lot of talent to play it in such way !
Played it with the heart. That was so amazing that words can't explain how much.
Goosebumps, wow!!!!!!!!!! Very nice duet!!
So romantic and nice interpretation.
God bless you.
You are so talented. I think you are the best in the whole world. You played with so much expression. I loved it. I just started playing the cello.
I hope you have a great time.
This is a great performance and arrangement! I wish I could hear this in church.
Bravo. absolutely outstanding. Thank you so much.
You are so talented, Matt! God really spend his extra time creating you! I'm so honored and blessed to have you part of my life. =)
beautiful tone, an absolutely pleasure to listen to - thank you. Mike - UK
So beautiful. May you keep playing for "Soli Deo gloria" (glory to God alone). You're very inspiring. ~CORAM DEO~
Thank you for sharing your faith and talents. Well done!!
i have this on my phone,always listenin to it..u really have the talent..keep it up!
Congrats!! Amazing!
I really love this song, and you did and excellent work :DD you got so much talent!
Mamma mia!!! You're awesome!
truly talented
Can i marry you ? Right now ? ( it's a compliment ) seriously i cried. You're so good ( looking ) !! Cello is my favorite instrument; in your hands, i saw heaven. *-* i can't control myself sry.
BRAVO!!
This was such a beautiful performance and a beautiful message. Thank you for sharing :)
Very beautifully and expressively played, Matthew! What an inspiring performance to listen to. Thank you for sharing! :-)
omg this sounds even better with a cello! :)
That's amazing she can play the piano with her eyes closed.
Speechless..
beautiful
How old were you in this? Matthew John
astonishing
i can hear the tone color of Pierre Fournier
You are so good looking..3 loves
Matt did an amazing job, its just to bad his accompaniment was a little out of synch.