As a mom of 3, the house does not matter as long as your being a mom. Those comments are just people who don't know what it's like having children. Don't listen to them. Be you. And continue being with your family! That's all that matters. My house will never be perfect but I do have a wonderful family.
Porter is fed, happy and safe. That's all that matters. We are so hard on ourselves as mums for no good reason, and it creates so much stress we don't need. You are doing an amazing job, Shan. Trust me, you will never look back and think, "I wish I had cleaned more." Ignore the bitter people who take time to leave nasty comments. They are not deserving of your energy 💜
What's wrong with being average and amazing at the same time? It means you are relateable and goals at the same time. Thank you for posting and being real.
I think its to important to share your vulnerability because everyone have to deal with bad emotions sometimes and its good to know that we are not alone in this experience 💖
You are NOT alone Shan. My anxiety creeps in and my mind races and races with all of these irrational terrible thoughts when I’m not sleeping well , stressed, or sick. I just keep telling myself “this too shall pass”. I’m not even a mom yet so I can’t imagine how difficult it is for you! Thank you for being so vulnerable ❤
I honestly feel as though we were never meant to know everyones thoughts, opinions, experiences. Social media can be a toxic place where all we do is compare ourselves to others and their milestones. Its overwhelimg to know so much about so many different people, i feel like we lose ourselves as individuals. Ive made the decision to be admitted for 2 weeks to do a stress tolerance program, mental health is so improtant ❤
Shannon your honesty about your feelings has really hit my heart, if anyone does you a negative comment please just block them they are not worth your time, energy or thought process. Your a a beautiful, creative, incredible young woman with an equally beautiful family, put you and your family first always. We love and support you 💜 Thank you for your content x
Thank you for sharing Shannon. More people than you realize are dealing with anxiety and or depression but fail to talk about it. It makes a huge difference and shows us all that we are not alone. Also please know you are worth it.
I totally feel you as a woman turning 55 years old August 19......I have struggled with severe depression and anxiety. It is a mental illness that attacks all types of people and is totally misunderstood. Anxiety doesn't care who you are or what type of life you have. It doesn't mean your crazy. It's totally uncontrollable sometimes. It's OK to talk about mental health and it helps people know they are not alone in their struggle. One day or moment at a time we will get through each episode of anxiety. Take care of yourself. ❤
Shan, you are a business owner, a content creator, a wife, and a mother to a young child. As long as you and your family are happy and healthy screw the rest of it! And screw whatever it is it made you feel bad because of it! You're amazing, don't ever forget it!❤
You are wonderful, you are more than good enough ❤️ Nostalgia brings these emotions out of the blue for me also. I've been a follower for a long time and feel like you are doing incredible since becoming a mum. It is such a huge life transformation and you are excelling. Porter is thriving because of the loving environment you have created ❤️
I can’t imagine what it would be like to be able to go back so many years and watch closeup footage of myself talking… I have social anxiety and judge myself sooo hard all the time. I can barely stand hearing my own voicemail message lol. so I think you’re very brave for putting yourself out there. it’s crazy to look back on pictures of ourselves and to look in the mirror and see ourselves changing. I’ll be turning 35. but I try to remind myself that I am so much more experienced, wiser, calmer, etc. now that I’m older. you’re doing great and so many people appreciate your openness and honesty, because we all feel alone sometimes. thank you, shannon!
Thank you for being honest and open about mental health. It makes me feel like I'm not alone. My mom always told me "this too shall pass" and i always try to remember that. It is likely the fact that you haven't been to the gym. In your older vlogs you always told us how great it makes you feel so im sure those feelings will come back! Keep your chin up girl! You're a strong, beautiful woman & a great mom! ❤❤❤
Motherhood is the greatest and the hardest that I have ever felt. Your feelings are completely valid and I hope that more people talk about this other part of motherhood. You know, acknowledging how difficult it can be sometimes.
Reckon it's the season for feeling like crap... yep my depression and anxiety flared up big time a couple of weeks ago, sucks so bad. Fresh air, exercise and the odd day of sunshine has helped but will always be a battle. Thanks for posting this, you're definitely not alone! xx
Same here and I couldn’t figure it out. Hit me like a tonne of bricks. I had a neck shoulder and back massage yesterday with cupping and I feel a bit lighter mentally. Hope you feel better soon 🫶🏽
0:25 it was a wasp fly nest (harmless) but the nest is gone. That's just the footprint left, not eggs. They're even known to be called mud flies because they build their nest with dirt /mud. They're harmless despite the name.
You are so amazing and I felt this video so so much! Being a Mom is so tough and lack of sleep messes everything up. I adore how relatable and down to earth you are ❤
Sending all the love Shan! ❤ I'm a mum for almost 3 years now and I still struggle with these emotions very often. The "loss" of identity as beeing only a mum all the time, little to no metime, always putting yourself last, not sleeping properly and trying hard to keep everything going is emotionally very draining. I feel you I'm fighting too. Our brains suck! 😆 You are more than enough my dear, we all are. You are a rockstar! Don't be so hard on yourself you're doing great. Porter is a happy healthy little man, you and Hamish make him happy, not a sparkly clean house. Stay strong mama you got this! ❤
Shannon, you're entitled to your bad moments. You are a mother, wife, businesswoman, an animal lover and my favourite UA-camr in New Zealand. You have worth in this world so in my books that's good enough, Blessings xoxoxo
Do you know how relatable this is? 🥺 im so glad you keep it real and post real content! Thats how life is when you're a mom i think. We're so hard on ourselves and make our own life hard overthinking things and trying to fit into everyone elses standards... thats now how it works! We're all different, as long as porter is safe, healthy and fed, you're doing what you need to do! 😊❤️💙 you are a great mom and thats all that matters! I know its hard to shut off your thoughts, because i have the same issue but, try to shut it off and out. You're doing great! Your son is great! Be easier on yourself and enjoy it as much as you can! ❤️❤️
Dearest Shannon, just remember that it’s ok to not be ok sometimes. I’ve raised 4 children and now have the pleasure of grand babies. The way of the world makes us all question/doubt ourselves - growing older, life changes, body changes, stretch marks, children, messy homes, not dirty but messy and family are all blessings that we sometimes forget to stop and embrace, lots of us are guilty too of looking backwards,how it was, but living in the moment is the best therapy, and remember it’s ok to look back, but look back at all the good and how far you have come, remember it’s ok to not be ok sometimes, we are not machines, sending strength and you do amazing hugs to you and your precious family ❤❤❤❤ and look forward to being a granny one day like me 😉😉
I feel the exact same way sometimes. The best thing I find is being able to talk to someone that brings me up and can talk through my anxieties and make them make sense. I feel this way about going back to work and sending my son to daycare.
I’m sure I’m just another drop in the water, but I’m happy to be another drop in the Shan body of water 😂. You’re still one of my fav UA-camrs after all of these years and every video you put out brings me joy! ❤
Love you so much Shan!!! YOU ARE ENOUGH, YOU ARE AMAZING, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! Keep going , We are all rooting for you Beauty 💖✨ side note : THAT MAKEUP LOOK AT THE END 😍🙌🏻!!
I love you so much Shan!!! 💗 Been watching you forever, I think postpartum is so hard and you’ve always exercised consistently. Having that change in routine can be difficult, but I know you’ll get back to it! I promise everything is going to be okay. Thank you for your vulnerability and authenticity always! 💕💗😘
Dearest Shannon, you are not alone. You are beautiful and strong. Mental health does not discriminate and you need to take care of you. Your people will be here for you. We support you and we want the best for you. People who make nasty comments and don’t do what you do and do not have children will never understand how challenging it is to keep up with life. Sending you positive vibes, hugs and support. We love you.💜
Thanks so much for opening up shan! Its so refreshing seeing somebodys house a little untidy because nobody’s house is clean 24/7 especially if you have a partner and a child 🤣 thanks for always being real
Man I’m so late watching this but wow. I get these weird anxiety vibes too. It’s so awful. I feel like mine is always brought on by poor sleep, bad food and hormones. You’re not alone.
You cant be everyone's answer be good too you first ,no one is perfect you are a classic example of life real life no filters stay strong girl ,the blues will pass so keep being you ,you have a beautiful family Hamish and Porter keep doing you take care a long life supporter x
Everyone has anxiety… I find it helpful when I’m feeling like that to try to quiet my mind by shutting out the outside world. I also highly recommend self affirmations. I basically have to give myself a pep talk in the mirror everyday just to get through it. ❤
Despite what your anxiety is telling you, you are worthy and you are loved. Also the amount of pressure some viewer's put on content creators to be surrounded by perfection is ridiculous. We are all HUMAN. Everyone is allowed to have a dirty coffee machine. We love you for all the ways that you're perfectly imperfect. Tell your anxious mind to stfu because you are a ROCKSTAR. ❤
I hate days like these. They're the worst. They say no one is as hard on us as we are on ourselves, and that's very true. I'm glad it looked like you were feeling better by the end of the video! 💗
We get older chook, and it is a bit depressing at times and trust me when I say u r not alone. No matter what u have, or what you achieve, life just be exhausting sometimes. I truly love ur journey from practically a baby to a beautiful mum with a gorgeous family. Mum life is a new chapter and it gets very overwhelming at times. Not really sure what I'm trying to say except i love u n the realness cos it helps us too, i love your voice now btw you've grown up in front of us and I am really proud of what you've become and you should b too xxxx
I think winter time the emotions can catch up on you more the weather is often bad and I can find myself feeling gloomy and sitting around over thinking or if it’s been a few weeks of unwell with my health issues it’s easy to start to have the anxiety and depression take over. Talking bout it does help and finding little things to do to feel better. Don’t feel you have to justify anything to others, you are still learning as you go with Porter as he gets older and that’s ok. I think you are doing really well and don’t be too hard on yourself. You have achieved a lot over the years and now you are a parent you might not do as much but it doesn’t make you any less of a person. Hope the weather is good down there the sun is out today in New Plymouth. Enjoying your vlogs and other videos have a good weekend 💖💖
Hey Shan just remember you are perfectly you! You are beautiful, you are strong, you are a great mum and it’s okey if you have right days, you are only human. You keep doing you and we will keep backing you xx
Going through exactly almost word for word what you’re going through. Not fully blaming it on being a mother bcuz I have insomnia but still becoming a mother is 100% a huge change in life. I just also have to say you look and sound so young like you look 23 no cap💯
Hello I get you I'm the same as you I had a mini stroke through it I have anxiety and depression I feel lost and just so tired so tired. But I push past it and make the day what I'm saying is your not alone you want to vent gohead we're here for you.
I’m newly pregnant and I’ve just been having crisis after crisis. I feel lazy and like a quitter, but I know it’s just these damn hormones thinking the worst of myself. Sometimes you need to realize it’s your brain being unfair, acknowledge it and just look forward. Some days you’ll feel like the worst person, but the next you’re completely fine. That’s just life ❤
Aw Shan i never cry at videos but i cried when you did. I really felt your heart ache. You're amazing and doing such an amazing job in all your roles as mum business owner & content creator and a wife! I can really relate to your emotions and sleeping. I was at a doctors appointment and he said being a women is difficult as your hormones and emotions are so complex. It helped me understand in a weird way its okay not to be feeling tippy top every day. Stay strong you're amazing and not alone ❤❤ your videos have helped me through some seriously difficult times so thank you so much i hope my comment reaches you❤❤
Hey Sharon.. Sorry, to hear that you were struggling with your anxiety. I hope that you're feeling much better. As a woman who struggles with anxiety and OCD I just want to say thank you so much for sharing. I am sure there are so many people that can relate.
Shan I’ve been watching you since forever!! We have a baby girl who will be one in 2 weeks. I went from being a full time healthcare worker here in the US and now I’m a stay at home mama. I’m so so great full we are able to do this, but I’ve had a difficult time as well. My anxiety and the pressure of having the house always perfect since I’m at home was making me feel awful. You’re not alone, love always!!
I am so sorry you feel like this. Thanks for sharing such a vulnerable time. I am a new first time mum and I am pregnant again and feel every emotion under the sun. You are not alone ❤
Girllllll I have felt like I’m not good enough and not attractive and shit lately just numb and emotional I feel you!! So nice to know someonelse is feeling the same I mean not really but it’s nice to relate with someone ❤ thanks love you
I can relate to this so much so Thankyou for sharing and making me feel less alone in these feelings x i have had anxiety really badly lately and been through this not sleeping well and feeling not enough, i also have a toddler so totally feel you on that as well! I've just restarted my working out journey as well and feeling better already ❤
Thank you for sharing this. I needed this today! I too woke up and have “chosen violence” ( not violence of course but a feeling of not myself) I am 3 months PP and feel like I have had a random trigger of PPD. I feel like the only reason I smile is my baby. The rest of the time I don’t know what I am doing. I feel like a shell of my former self. But, in the same breath I know this will pass. It’s part of my journey and if this is a byproduct of having my baby girl I would do it a million times over. This is baby number 3 for me and went through it with all my babies hence why I know it will pass. I have an amazing support system and am blessed
I like the term “reasonably okay” it’s a nice way to reframe success 🙂 I can’t help with the eggs but there are these really good extendable piles that come with a brush and you can connect the hose to them, I think they’re considered a house/ window hose brush. Might work to help clean them! Thinking of you, anxiety is difficult as faaarkkkk!!! Your emotions and feelings are totally normal and valid💗 Ps hair looks goooorg!
Is this hormonal as well Shan? I struggle with anxiety, too, but at the time of the month, it can ramp up? As for working out don’t beat yourself up about it, just get back a little at a time. If we think of how far we have to go, it can often seem like a huge mountain to climb. I too do exercise for my mental health, I live in Wales and go hiking, I never lookup when there's a big climb, I purposely look down, because if I look up and see how far I have left to go it makes everything so much harder and I feel like I won't make it. I hope this makes some sense 😂❤ I just wanted to also add you are doing a great job, all you need to do is look at your son, he's thriving, healthy and happy, who cares about baby mess or any mess for that matter he's the most important thing right now Xx
I am exactly here with you babe. My bub is nearly 2 and I'm in such a similar rut. It's so damn hard juggling everything with a baby- work, gym, friends and wanting to be the best version of yourself for your precious child. It's hard. And you're not alone. I find it weirdly triggering to see myself pre-bub, almost like I'm grieving her, even though I love motherhood. Man, it's a vibe. A very confusing vibe 😢 thinking of you xxxx
Than, you for being so real and vulnerable. Remember the only people you need to worry about or listen to are Porter and Hamish. Lastly, your home looks normal. My mother-in-law always critiqued my home and when my husband and I had children she went off the rails. I finally told her if she wanted to clean my house she was more than welcome to. She learned in that moment my kids and husband are the important. I guess I am saying fuck the coffee machine!
You’re a super star. I just found out I’m 4 weeks pregnant and I already feel anxious and so scared of doing something wrong during my pregnancy Ive been re watching your videos from your pregnancy.
It's weird you said about watching old footage of yourself, I was looking back on yours Chloes and Lauren's channels for inspo, and I noticed how bouncy and energetic you all were. So they probably notice it too. There's absolutely nothing wrong with changing , maturing and evolving through the years. It's also ok to feel nostalgic as well and feel all the feels. We all do it. You've worked so hard and never given up on giving us continual content, which is amazing in itself. Take care of yourself and take time for yourself, self care,love etc is so important. Xx
I have been experiencing very similar things as well. I haven't been sleeping well, haven't felt as motivated like I was like a couple weeks ago. I have been feeling the not good enough stuff as well, I'm a solo mother and I have health stuff to deal with and oh my gosh it has been rough lately. I don't know if it's just because of winter or what but yeah, had a good cry about things and talked to my sister and felt better. Today was a much better day and I got a lot done in comparison to recent days. Hope you start feeling better too, it is a struggle at times being a parent but it's so rewarding as well. Ignore the shitty comments, clearly they just don't know what it's like
I think those eggs are lawn grub eggs x make sure they don't fall on the grass it takes ages to get them if they get in the grass theu eat everything we had them so bad after we built our house ,
Shannon you dont know how special you truly are and it really hurts me and im crying when you feel like that bc you have doneso much for my life. When i was feeling anxious or when i was feeling sad, i would watch you and you would make me feel better! When i was lonely with my friends, i watched you and you just seemed like a girl i would want to hangout and be friends with. Your just as pretty now then you were then! When you were triggered by your old self in a video, did you feel sad bc you miss the young shannon or do you miss your old life? We all change drastically as we get older and you have aged gracefully. Ive watched you grow and transform as a humane being. Your more then enough, people adore you, we love your personality and we love the way you look. You look better then ever! I have a big nose and i envy your small one. You inspired so many woman to feel good about themselves by feeling and looking our best with make up. I truly care for you shan and your bot alone bc all of us struggle with anxiety and our mental health. Its a battle everyday for lots of people. Your not alone. Shannon make exercising a priority. I know for a fact it would help not only release endorphins but your anxiety will go way down!! You need to go back to exercising bc thats when you feel so good about yourself and your more positive. When your feeling that way go to the gym! You can do it!
You're a mum, you're you, a wife and you work. My mum had anxiety hers was so bad that she couldn't walk even with meds. Its not to be taken lightly. Talking to someone helps and it depends on how bad it gets you might need medication even for a little bit.
Can totally relate to the anxiety, my baby is about the same age as yours and it’s been hitting me hard lately. I’m speaking to a doctor to try and get some help because it’s taking a toll on my life 💗 we are trying our best as mums and that’s all we can do.
I fully understand how you are feeling. I'm going through the same thing. I have 3 kids and I feel like iv lost myself. I don't know who I am any more other then a mum. The mental load of a parent and partner is full on. We know Hamish is an amazing partner tho so that definitely helps.
I think ur amazing. Have watched you since ur clubbing GRWM days and have grown through the years with you ❤ but totally get where ur coming from. I found old photos of myself back in 2016 and I smiled and silently cried.. because I looked so different back then. I looked skinnier, younger etc. And 2016 felt like it wasnt that long ago, even going back to 2012, 2014. Omg those were the eras! I felt like I was a completely different person and it made me feel sad, now I'm a mum and do mum things. Wouldnt change it for the world tho ofc. Anyway just wanted to comment and say you look gorgeous and are aging gracefully! Thanks for talking about anxiety, i have it everyday and sometimes cry randomly and i dont even know why. Our brains are funny lol. Porter is sooo cute and got so big btw! U slaaay motherhood!! 🥰❤
I get what you mean. I have a ten month old and have on and off depressing phases especially when looking back at old pictures and videos. Seeing how I've changed after childbirth. Just recently gotten back into the gym it's definitely helped. When you were talking about how crappy you were feeling I was thinking maybe you going back to the gym might help as it helped me you then you went ahead and said it 😅 xx
It looks like an egg casing, but I don't know much about the fauna in NZ. Geez I hate seeing you down, but as someone who's suffered anxiety and depression for 40 years I can assure you it will pass. Your hair looks amazing! I am amazed at how much Porter has grown, watch little videos of him to give your ❤ a lift.🥰
I can relate. A year ago I started practicing mindfulness meditation to calm anxiety and have a base, and that's been a huge help. The book "30 Days to Reduce Anxiety" by Harper Daniels helped me a lot. I do about 10-20 min a day, without it it's hard to find my balance and then it spills over into my home.
You don’t even want to know the last time I cleaned my coffee machine 😂 You are enough Shan, we love you! I would imagine that basically growing up on UA-cam gives you a real sense of imposter syndrome when you watch your videos again. Hang in there! ❤
Shan, give yourself a break. It's heartbreaking to hear you feeling this way. This last year and a half was brutal, with Covid, problems with shipping and receiving, the isolation, going through your first pregnancy then having such a horrific and painful birth, on top of moving house with all the stress and work that goes with that, not to mention the cost when the world came to a standstill because of Covid and then to go through all that trouble trying to remove losers from your grandparents' house after they trashed it. Then, because of all those stressors having to sell that home that held so many wonderful memories. You are still that same person in your older videos, the only difference is the stress and experiences since then. Shan, YOU are YOU, and your value isn't in anything that can be measured in a video, old or recent. You are doing very well, you're starting to look yourself again and everything will be ok. You are extraordinarily beautiful naturally. You know how to take care of yourself and will never let yourself go. Your value as a person has only increased as you now have your number one fan growing and blossoming into a fine little man. That said, some days suck. Edpecially when we can't pinpoint a reason, in fact that adds guilt which makes it feel worse because we feel like we should be appreciating our lives and loved ones. That feeling can be paralyzing. I hope you feel better soon, girl, don't be so hard on yourself, most people would have thrown in the towel before they got to your level of success. You are a very hard worker, you're talented and creative and no one feels great about their appearance after their first born. I hope you can see the you that we see. A kind, warm and generous spirit who's highly intelligent. You are you, Shan and no one can take that from you! Sending loves and hugs from Seattle. 🤗❤️
Shan i need to see Zeus please😂 Don't worry about the house they get messy its that way for everyone! You are both amazing parents and sometimes even mums need a break ok! ❤❤😊
A dirty coffee machine doesn’t matter ! Or toys on the floor etc life happens you have a baby that is thriving you are doing amazing ! Give yourself some grace it takes awhile also to find you again after having a baby ❤
Hey girl, I have Hypothyroid and I didn’t realize for the longest time that I had it. It made me have a lot of the symptoms and it still does to this day with medication! Have you ever been checked to see if you have hypothyroid? I feel like you have in one of your previous vlogs… but I can’t remember. But regardless, you’ve got this girl, you’re a good mama and you’re a tough woman! You’re just going through it right now. Just do things that make you happy.❤❤❤❤
As a mom of 3, the house does not matter as long as your being a mom. Those comments are just people who don't know what it's like having children. Don't listen to them. Be you. And continue being with your family! That's all that matters. My house will never be perfect but I do have a wonderful family.
Mum of three here too. Couldn’t agree with you more!!
Same here couldn't agree more 👏🏻 ❤
Porter is fed, happy and safe. That's all that matters. We are so hard on ourselves as mums for no good reason, and it creates so much stress we don't need. You are doing an amazing job, Shan. Trust me, you will never look back and think, "I wish I had cleaned more." Ignore the bitter people who take time to leave nasty comments. They are not deserving of your energy 💜
What's wrong with being average and amazing at the same time? It means you are relateable and goals at the same time. Thank you for posting and being real.
I think its to important to share your vulnerability because everyone have to deal with bad emotions sometimes and its good to know that we are not alone in this experience 💖
You are NOT alone Shan. My anxiety creeps in and my mind races and races with all of these irrational terrible thoughts when I’m not sleeping well , stressed, or sick. I just keep telling myself “this too shall pass”. I’m not even a mom yet so I can’t imagine how difficult it is for you! Thank you for being so vulnerable ❤
I honestly feel as though we were never meant to know everyones thoughts, opinions, experiences.
Social media can be a toxic place where all we do is compare ourselves to others and their milestones. Its overwhelimg to know so much about so many different people, i feel like we lose ourselves as individuals.
Ive made the decision to be admitted for 2 weeks to do a stress tolerance program, mental health is so improtant ❤
Shannon your honesty about your feelings has really hit my heart, if anyone does you a negative comment please just block them they are not worth your time, energy or thought process. Your a a beautiful, creative, incredible young woman with an equally beautiful family, put you and your family first always. We love and support you 💜
Thank you for your content x
Thank you for sharing Shannon. More people than you realize are dealing with anxiety and or depression but fail to talk about it. It makes a huge difference and shows us all that we are not alone. Also please know you are worth it.
I totally feel you as a woman turning 55 years old August 19......I have struggled with severe depression and anxiety. It is a mental illness that attacks all types of people and is totally misunderstood. Anxiety doesn't care who you are or what type of life you have. It doesn't mean your crazy. It's totally uncontrollable sometimes. It's OK to talk about mental health and it helps people know they are not alone in their struggle. One day or moment at a time we will get through each episode of anxiety. Take care of yourself. ❤
Shan, you are a business owner, a content creator, a wife, and a mother to a young child. As long as you and your family are happy and healthy screw the rest of it! And screw whatever it is it made you feel bad because of it! You're amazing, don't ever forget it!❤
You are wonderful, you are more than good enough ❤️ Nostalgia brings these emotions out of the blue for me also.
I've been a follower for a long time and feel like you are doing incredible since becoming a mum. It is such a huge life transformation and you are excelling. Porter is thriving because of the loving environment you have created ❤️
You are not alone beauts. A truly beautiful, honest soul. Xx
I can’t imagine what it would be like to be able to go back so many years and watch closeup footage of myself talking… I have social anxiety and judge myself sooo hard all the time. I can barely stand hearing my own voicemail message lol. so I think you’re very brave for putting yourself out there.
it’s crazy to look back on pictures of ourselves and to look in the mirror and see ourselves changing. I’ll be turning 35. but I try to remind myself that I am so much more experienced, wiser, calmer, etc. now that I’m older.
you’re doing great and so many people appreciate your openness and honesty, because we all feel alone sometimes. thank you, shannon!
Thank you for being honest and open about mental health. It makes me feel like I'm not alone. My mom always told me "this too shall pass" and i always try to remember that. It is likely the fact that you haven't been to the gym. In your older vlogs you always told us how great it makes you feel so im sure those feelings will come back! Keep your chin up girl! You're a strong, beautiful woman & a great mom! ❤❤❤
Motherhood is the greatest and the hardest that I have ever felt. Your feelings are completely valid and I hope that more people talk about this other part of motherhood. You know, acknowledging how difficult it can be sometimes.
Reckon it's the season for feeling like crap... yep my depression and anxiety flared up big time a couple of weeks ago, sucks so bad. Fresh air, exercise and the odd day of sunshine has helped but will always be a battle. Thanks for posting this, you're definitely not alone! xx
Same here and I couldn’t figure it out. Hit me like a tonne of bricks. I had a neck shoulder and back massage yesterday with cupping and I feel a bit lighter mentally. Hope you feel better soon 🫶🏽
Yes! Its winter here in NZ and its so depressing cold wet and misreable... roll on summer
0:25 it was a wasp fly nest (harmless) but the nest is gone. That's just the footprint left, not eggs. They're even known to be called mud flies because they build their nest with dirt /mud. They're harmless despite the name.
You are so amazing and I felt this video so so much! Being a Mom is so tough and lack of sleep messes everything up. I adore how relatable and down to earth you are ❤
I hope you feel better soon ❤❤ anxiety is awful and debilitating sometimes xx you are loved by so many people
Babe the BEST thing you could do is get off social media/ your phone for a few days if you can I felt that really helped me xx
I just gave birth and am struggling with ppa. I appreciate you’re honestly in this vlog. You are not alone.
So pleased that you are honest with your viewers. You are so relateable. Never apologise for being human; keep being you. We love you! x
Just take care of u and ur family, your u tube family will still be there
Anxiety can be awful and hit anyone at any time. You're doing doing great! I love how real you are in your videos. Thank you. ❤️
Sending all the love Shan! ❤ I'm a mum for almost 3 years now and I still struggle with these emotions very often. The "loss" of identity as beeing only a mum all the time, little to no metime, always putting yourself last, not sleeping properly and trying hard to keep everything going is emotionally very draining. I feel you I'm fighting too. Our brains suck! 😆 You are more than enough my dear, we all are. You are a rockstar! Don't be so hard on yourself you're doing great. Porter is a happy healthy little man, you and Hamish make him happy, not a sparkly clean house. Stay strong mama you got this! ❤
Shannon, you're entitled to your bad moments. You are a mother, wife, businesswoman, an animal lover and my favourite UA-camr in New Zealand. You have worth in this world so in my books that's good enough, Blessings xoxoxo
Do you know how relatable this is? 🥺 im so glad you keep it real and post real content! Thats how life is when you're a mom i think. We're so hard on ourselves and make our own life hard overthinking things and trying to fit into everyone elses standards... thats now how it works! We're all different, as long as porter is safe, healthy and fed, you're doing what you need to do! 😊❤️💙 you are a great mom and thats all that matters! I know its hard to shut off your thoughts, because i have the same issue but, try to shut it off and out. You're doing great! Your son is great! Be easier on yourself and enjoy it as much as you can! ❤️❤️
Dearest Shannon, just remember that it’s ok to not be ok sometimes. I’ve raised 4 children and now have the pleasure of grand babies. The way of the world makes us all question/doubt ourselves - growing older, life changes, body changes, stretch marks, children, messy homes, not dirty but messy and family are all blessings that we sometimes forget to stop and embrace, lots of us are guilty too of looking backwards,how it was, but living in the moment is the best therapy, and remember it’s ok to look back, but look back at all the good and how far you have come, remember it’s ok to not be ok sometimes, we are not machines, sending strength and you do amazing hugs to you and your precious family ❤❤❤❤ and look forward to being a granny one day like me 😉😉
I feel the exact same way sometimes. The best thing I find is being able to talk to someone that brings me up and can talk through my anxieties and make them make sense. I feel this way about going back to work and sending my son to daycare.
I’m sure I’m just another drop in the water, but I’m happy to be another drop in the Shan body of water 😂. You’re still one of my fav UA-camrs after all of these years and every video you put out brings me joy! ❤
Love you so much Shan!!! YOU ARE ENOUGH, YOU ARE AMAZING, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!! Keep going , We are all rooting for you Beauty 💖✨
side note : THAT MAKEUP LOOK AT THE END 😍🙌🏻!!
I love you so much Shan!!! 💗 Been watching you forever, I think postpartum is so hard and you’ve always exercised consistently. Having that change in routine can be difficult, but I know you’ll get back to it! I promise everything is going to be okay. Thank you for your vulnerability and authenticity always! 💕💗😘
Dearest Shannon, you are not alone. You are beautiful and strong.
Mental health does not discriminate and you need to take care of you. Your people will be here for you. We support you and we want the best for you.
People who make nasty comments and don’t do what you do and do not have children will never understand how challenging it is to keep up with life.
Sending you positive vibes, hugs and support.
We love you.💜
Thanks so much for opening up shan! Its so refreshing seeing somebodys house a little untidy because nobody’s house is clean 24/7 especially if you have a partner and a child 🤣 thanks for always being real
omggg the muffins take me back to shannon's feijoa muffins!! omg omg nostalgia
Man I’m so late watching this but wow. I get these weird anxiety vibes too. It’s so awful. I feel like mine is always brought on by poor sleep, bad food and hormones. You’re not alone.
You cant be everyone's answer be good too you first ,no one is perfect you are a classic example of life real life no filters stay strong girl ,the blues will pass so keep being you ,you have a beautiful family Hamish and Porter keep doing you take care a long life supporter x
I always say talking when anxious helps a lot
Everyone has anxiety… I find it helpful when I’m feeling like that to try to quiet my mind by shutting out the outside world. I also highly recommend self affirmations. I basically have to give myself a pep talk in the mirror everyday just to get through it. ❤
Despite what your anxiety is telling you, you are worthy and you are loved.
Also the amount of pressure some viewer's put on content creators to be surrounded by perfection is ridiculous. We are all HUMAN. Everyone is allowed to have a dirty coffee machine.
We love you for all the ways that you're perfectly imperfect. Tell your anxious mind to stfu because you are a ROCKSTAR. ❤
I hate days like these. They're the worst. They say no one is as hard on us as we are on ourselves, and that's very true. I'm glad it looked like you were feeling better by the end of the video! 💗
We get older chook, and it is a bit depressing at times and trust me when I say u r not alone. No matter what u have, or what you achieve, life just be exhausting sometimes. I truly love ur journey from practically a baby to a beautiful mum with a gorgeous family. Mum life is a new chapter and it gets very overwhelming at times. Not really sure what I'm trying to say except i love u n the realness cos it helps us too, i love your voice now btw you've grown up in front of us and I am really proud of what you've become and you should b too xxxx
I think winter time the emotions can catch up on you more the weather is often bad and I can find myself feeling gloomy and sitting around over thinking or if it’s been a few weeks of unwell with my health issues it’s easy to start to have the anxiety and depression take over. Talking bout it does help and finding little things to do to feel better.
Don’t feel you have to justify anything to others, you are still learning as you go with Porter as he gets older and that’s ok. I think you are doing really well and don’t be too hard on yourself. You have achieved a lot over the years and now you are a parent you might not do as much but it doesn’t make you any less of a person.
Hope the weather is good down there the sun is out today in New Plymouth. Enjoying your vlogs and other videos have a good weekend 💖💖
Thank you for opening up ...your not alone in your feelings...we care about you...your amazing ❤
Hey Shan just remember you are perfectly you! You are beautiful, you are strong, you are a great mum and it’s okey if you have right days, you are only human. You keep doing you and we will keep backing you xx
Feeling very meh from a pretty nasty cold, so hearing the advice that we're still valuable no matter how productive we are was a much wanted reminder.
Going through exactly almost word for word what you’re going through. Not fully blaming it on being a mother bcuz I have insomnia but still becoming a mother is 100% a huge change in life. I just also have to say you look and sound so young like you look 23 no cap💯
Hello I get you I'm the same as you I had a mini stroke through it I have anxiety and depression I feel lost and just so tired so tired. But I push past it and make the day what I'm saying is your not alone you want to vent gohead we're here for you.
I’m newly pregnant and I’ve just been having crisis after crisis. I feel lazy and like a quitter, but I know it’s just these damn hormones thinking the worst of myself. Sometimes you need to realize it’s your brain being unfair, acknowledge it and just look forward. Some days you’ll feel like the worst person, but the next you’re completely fine. That’s just life ❤
Aw Shan i never cry at videos but i cried when you did. I really felt your heart ache. You're amazing and doing such an amazing job in all your roles as mum business owner & content creator and a wife! I can really relate to your emotions and sleeping. I was at a doctors appointment and he said being a women is difficult as your hormones and emotions are so complex. It helped me understand in a weird way its okay not to be feeling tippy top every day. Stay strong you're amazing and not alone ❤❤ your videos have helped me through some seriously difficult times so thank you so much i hope my comment reaches you❤❤
Hey Sharon.. Sorry, to hear that you were struggling with your anxiety. I hope that you're feeling much better. As a woman who struggles with anxiety and OCD I just want to say thank you so much for sharing. I am sure there are so many people that can relate.
Shan I’ve been watching you since forever!! We have a baby girl who will be one in 2 weeks. I went from being a full time healthcare worker here in the US and now I’m a stay at home mama. I’m so so great full we are able to do this, but I’ve had a difficult time as well. My anxiety and the pressure of having the house always perfect since I’m at home was making me feel awful. You’re not alone, love always!!
Can relate so much ❤ you're not alone
I am so sorry you feel like this. Thanks for sharing such a vulnerable time. I am a new first time mum and I am pregnant again and feel every emotion under the sun. You are not alone ❤
So sorry to hear youre feeling abit down. It looks like you are doing an amazing job. Just a bad day not a bad life!! ❤❤❤
Girllllll I have felt like I’m not good enough and not attractive and shit lately just numb and emotional I feel you!! So nice to know someonelse is feeling the same I mean not really but it’s nice to relate with someone ❤ thanks love you
I can relate to this so much so Thankyou for sharing and making me feel less alone in these feelings x i have had anxiety really badly lately and been through this not sleeping well and feeling not enough, i also have a toddler so totally feel you on that as well! I've just restarted my working out journey as well and feeling better already ❤
Thank you for sharing this. I needed this today! I too woke up and have “chosen violence” ( not violence of course but a feeling of not myself) I am 3 months PP and feel like I have had a random trigger of PPD. I feel like the only reason I smile is my baby. The rest of the time I don’t know what I am doing. I feel like a shell of my former self. But, in the same breath I know this will pass. It’s part of my journey and if this is a byproduct of having my baby girl I would do it a million times over. This is baby number 3 for me and went through it with all my babies hence why I know it will pass. I have an amazing support system and am blessed
Aging can be scary, I am 30 and it was an adjustment that's for sure. Being young and dumb is fun, it's weird looking back at the carefree times
I like the term “reasonably okay” it’s a nice way to reframe success 🙂
I can’t help with the eggs but there are these really good extendable piles that come with a brush and you can connect the hose to them, I think they’re considered a house/ window hose brush. Might work to help clean them!
Thinking of you, anxiety is difficult as faaarkkkk!!! Your emotions and feelings are totally normal and valid💗
Ps hair looks goooorg!
You have got this Shan! It’s totally normally to have an emotional day! Take care of yourself and your little family ❤
Is this hormonal as well Shan? I struggle with anxiety, too, but at the time of the month, it can ramp up? As for working out don’t beat yourself up about it, just get back a little at a time. If we think of how far we have to go, it can often seem like a huge mountain to climb. I too do exercise for my mental health, I live in Wales and go hiking, I never lookup when there's a big climb, I purposely look down, because if I look up and see how far I have left to go it makes everything so much harder and I feel like I won't make it. I hope this makes some sense 😂❤ I just wanted to also add you are doing a great job, all you need to do is look at your son, he's thriving, healthy and happy, who cares about baby mess or any mess for that matter he's the most important thing right now Xx
Hang in there. You are amazing!!!
I am exactly here with you babe. My bub is nearly 2 and I'm in such a similar rut. It's so damn hard juggling everything with a baby- work, gym, friends and wanting to be the best version of yourself for your precious child. It's hard. And you're not alone. I find it weirdly triggering to see myself pre-bub, almost like I'm grieving her, even though I love motherhood. Man, it's a vibe. A very confusing vibe 😢 thinking of you xxxx
I feel this so hard today - this post covid world is a tough one to navigate. Definitely not the same as before. You're doing great Shan! 💖
Than, you for being so real and vulnerable. Remember the only people you need to worry about or listen to are Porter and Hamish. Lastly, your home looks normal. My mother-in-law always critiqued my home and when my husband and I had children she went off the rails. I finally told her if she wanted to clean my house she was more than welcome to. She learned in that moment my kids and husband are the important. I guess I am saying fuck the coffee machine!
Love you Shannon❤❤❤❤❤❤
You’re a super star. I just found out I’m 4 weeks pregnant and I already feel anxious and so scared of doing something wrong during my pregnancy
Ive been re watching your videos from your pregnancy.
It's weird you said about watching old footage of yourself, I was looking back on yours Chloes and Lauren's channels for inspo, and I noticed how bouncy and energetic you all were. So they probably notice it too. There's absolutely nothing wrong with changing , maturing and evolving through the years. It's also ok to feel nostalgic as well and feel all the feels. We all do it. You've worked so hard and never given up on giving us continual content, which is amazing in itself. Take care of yourself and take time for yourself, self care,love etc is so important. Xx
I have been experiencing very similar things as well. I haven't been sleeping well, haven't felt as motivated like I was like a couple weeks ago. I have been feeling the not good enough stuff as well, I'm a solo mother and I have health stuff to deal with and oh my gosh it has been rough lately. I don't know if it's just because of winter or what but yeah, had a good cry about things and talked to my sister and felt better. Today was a much better day and I got a lot done in comparison to recent days. Hope you start feeling better too, it is a struggle at times being a parent but it's so rewarding as well. Ignore the shitty comments, clearly they just don't know what it's like
I think those eggs are lawn grub eggs x make sure they don't fall on the grass it takes ages to get them if they get in the grass theu eat everything we had them so bad after we built our house ,
I don't know if this will help but Shan when you were crying I couldn't help but think how beautiful you looked! Sending you love
Sending a lot of love 💕💕
Shannon you dont know how special you truly are and it really hurts me and im crying when you feel like that bc you have doneso much for my life. When i was feeling anxious or when i was feeling sad, i would watch you and you would make me feel better! When i was lonely with my friends, i watched you and you just seemed like a girl i would want to hangout and be friends with. Your just as pretty now then you were then! When you were triggered by your old self in a video, did you feel sad bc you miss the young shannon or do you miss your old life? We all change drastically as we get older and you have aged gracefully. Ive watched you grow and transform as a humane being. Your more then enough, people adore you, we love your personality and we love the way you look. You look better then ever! I have a big nose and i envy your small one. You inspired so many woman to feel good about themselves by feeling and looking our best with make up. I truly care for you shan and your bot alone bc all of us struggle with anxiety and our mental health. Its a battle everyday for lots of people. Your not alone. Shannon make exercising a priority. I know for a fact it would help not only release endorphins but your anxiety will go way down!! You need to go back to exercising bc thats when you feel so good about yourself and your more positive. When your feeling that way go to the gym! You can do it!
You are wonderful and the best mum to Porter 😊
Don’t even worry about your house work lol mine gets done in the weekend if I feel like it after a working week !
You're a mum, you're you, a wife and you work.
My mum had anxiety hers was so bad that she couldn't walk even with meds. Its not to be taken lightly. Talking to someone helps and it depends on how bad it gets you might need medication even for a little bit.
Can totally relate to the anxiety, my baby is about the same age as yours and it’s been hitting me hard lately. I’m speaking to a doctor to try and get some help because it’s taking a toll on my life 💗 we are trying our best as mums and that’s all we can do.
I fully understand how you are feeling. I'm going through the same thing. I have 3 kids and I feel like iv lost myself. I don't know who I am any more other then a mum. The mental load of a parent and partner is full on. We know Hamish is an amazing partner tho so that definitely helps.
I think ur amazing. Have watched you since ur clubbing GRWM days and have grown through the years with you ❤ but totally get where ur coming from. I found old photos of myself back in 2016 and I smiled and silently cried.. because I looked so different back then. I looked skinnier, younger etc. And 2016 felt like it wasnt that long ago, even going back to 2012, 2014. Omg those were the eras! I felt like I was a completely different person and it made me feel sad, now I'm a mum and do mum things. Wouldnt change it for the world tho ofc. Anyway just wanted to comment and say you look gorgeous and are aging gracefully! Thanks for talking about anxiety, i have it everyday and sometimes cry randomly and i dont even know why. Our brains are funny lol. Porter is sooo cute and got so big btw! U slaaay motherhood!! 🥰❤
Thank you for sharing. ❤❤❤❤❤
My prayers are with you ❤
vogue botique is amazing for blonde hair
I get what you mean. I have a ten month old and have on and off depressing phases especially when looking back at old pictures and videos. Seeing how I've changed after childbirth.
Just recently gotten back into the gym it's definitely helped. When you were talking about how crappy you were feeling I was thinking maybe you going back to the gym might help as it helped me you then you went ahead and said it 😅 xx
hahahaha its magic aye. makes you feel so much better mentally
@@shaaanxovlogs yep exactly. Hard when you have a fetus running around but gotta make the time 👍
It looks like an egg casing, but I don't know much about the fauna in NZ. Geez I hate seeing you down, but as someone who's suffered anxiety and depression for 40 years I can assure you it will pass. Your hair looks amazing! I am amazed at how much Porter has grown, watch little videos of him to give your ❤ a lift.🥰
I can relate. A year ago I started practicing mindfulness meditation to calm anxiety and have a base, and that's been a huge help. The book "30 Days to Reduce Anxiety" by Harper Daniels helped me a lot. I do about 10-20 min a day, without it it's hard to find my balance and then it spills over into my home.
Omg… the eggs made my skin crawl. I want to evaporate rn 😭😭😂
HAHAHAH sorry
omg sameeee
I got the trvl as my main stroller and so far it seems great. Only downside so far is how small the basket is
Hey shan , thanks for sharing nobody is perfect you got this 👌💯
You don’t even want to know the last time I cleaned my coffee machine 😂 You are enough Shan, we love you! I would imagine that basically growing up on UA-cam gives you a real sense of imposter syndrome when you watch your videos again. Hang in there! ❤
Shan, give yourself a break. It's heartbreaking to hear you feeling this way. This last year and a half was brutal, with Covid, problems with shipping and receiving, the isolation, going through your first pregnancy then having such a horrific and painful birth, on top of moving house with all the stress and work that goes with that, not to mention the cost when the world came to a standstill because of Covid and then to go through all that trouble trying to remove losers from your grandparents' house after they trashed it. Then, because of all those stressors having to sell that home that held so many wonderful memories.
You are still that same person in your older videos, the only difference is the stress and experiences since then. Shan, YOU are YOU, and your value isn't in anything that can be measured in a video, old or recent. You are doing very well, you're starting to look yourself again and everything will be ok. You are extraordinarily beautiful naturally. You know how to take care of yourself and will never let yourself go. Your value as a person has only increased as you now have your number one fan growing and blossoming into a fine little man.
That said, some days suck. Edpecially when we can't pinpoint a reason, in fact that adds guilt which makes it feel worse because we feel like we should be appreciating our lives and loved ones. That feeling can be paralyzing. I hope you feel better soon, girl, don't be so hard on yourself, most people would have thrown in the towel before they got to your level of success. You are a very hard worker, you're talented and creative and no one feels great about their appearance after their first born. I hope you can see the you that we see. A kind, warm and generous spirit who's highly intelligent. You are you, Shan and no one can take that from you!
Sending loves and hugs from Seattle. 🤗❤️
Shan i need to see Zeus please😂 Don't worry about the house they get messy its that way for everyone! You are both amazing parents and sometimes even mums need a break ok! ❤❤😊
Hi Shan! Hope you're doing well ❤
A dirty coffee machine doesn’t matter ! Or toys on the floor etc life happens you have a baby that is thriving you are doing amazing ! Give yourself some grace it takes awhile also to find you again after having a baby ❤
Ah moth eggs. Such a cool pattern
Don't worry so much take 1 day at a time.
I just come across a photo on Fb of the same things you have on your window! And apparently they are vapourer moth eggs
Ur gorgeous babe and doing an amazing job ppl should keep there negativity to them selves u have nothing nice to say don’t say it at all 🙏🏼❣️
Hey girl, I have Hypothyroid and I didn’t realize for the longest time that I had it. It made me have a lot of the symptoms and it still does to this day with medication! Have you ever been checked to see if you have hypothyroid? I feel like you have in one of your previous vlogs… but I can’t remember. But regardless, you’ve got this girl, you’re a good mama and you’re a tough woman! You’re just going through it right now. Just do things that make you happy.❤❤❤❤
yup im on medication for it haha
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