Former Police Officer Opens Up About his PTSD
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- Опубліковано 5 сер 2021
- My Brand New Book 'Hotel Tango 23: Responding To The Unknown' is available now: amzn.to/3zUwbqg So what is a typical day living with PTSD like? In this video, I talk about mental health and the PTSD that forced me to retire from the Police. I discuss what it's like living day to day with PTSD, the terrifying night terrors I suffer and also the stigma that mental health sufferers are burdened with.
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😦 wow. Ben i hope this channle helps you good luck man
We youtube people are the happiest when you are happy. We don't mind if you don't read every comment, often we reply to each other anyway. We don't expect you to answer each of us. We do not even expect regular content. What we expect: you to be happy.
Our greatest joy is when you are well.
You've got friends family and 52,800 people behind you bud
If I could Ben , I'd personally take all your mental health , just to see you be you .
I've dealt with depression for over 5 years and it slowly gets better , it's like adding 1 grain of rice to a pan , after a while , it's done and classed as a finished meal .
But it's that process of adding one by one something that makes a difference.👍
@@jeane1889 that I 100% agree with
As a trainee counsellor and a human being, this account is absolutely eye opening. You sir are so bloody strong and incredibly inspirational. You are not letting this pin you down and beat you. Even slow progress is progress - you are obviously moving in the right direction. Never lose sight of how far you’ve come - and how far you will go! ❤️
Even if it’s only 40 minutes each way🖤🖤
Teared up at the “I can’t see the future, but the next 40 minutes looks bright”! My father has PTSD and I have struggled with mental health and as long as those 40 minutes are bright that’s enough! Look for little wins and soon you overcome it. To quote my dad “life is shit, but it’s the little wins that make it worthwhile”
I'll never know why people flock to famous people like the Kardashians when we have real hero's like Ben, such an inspiration. Keep up the good work mate!
Because a lot of people are shallow, vein and materialistic
He's not a hero but an egotistical glory hunting thrill seeking prick .
PTSD seems to hit the strongest people the hardest. When it’s overlaid with fight or flight triggers, that is totally debilitating. Literally destroying years of life for a previously happy successful person. The sad thing is, you don’t realise it’s PTSD unless someone points it out. Total respect to you for talking about your experiences, which is one of the hardest things to do.
Bless you mate, your helping soo many different people by doing this.
I'm so glad Ben found an outlet in YT, I think he's so brave talking about his battle with mental health.
He is blessed in having a partner who clearly loves and understand him, keep writing those post it notes Mrs x
The thinking of suicide and the thoughts that then combat them has just given me the goose bumps that only comes from someone who knows exactly how that feels. And the later thoughts have ultimately (thank god) been my saviour. Thank you Ben for constantly making me feel more normal 🙂👍 All the best as ever mate.
Ben, you have such a supportive wife! She sounds like an amazing woman. As a fellow sufferer, I know the importance of having a strong and supportive partner. These people are the true heroes!!!
"I don't smell and taste blood as much as I used to". I have my ups and downs, but the next time I'm struggling I'm going to remember that line. Keep grafting - you're doing so much good.
Big up to Ben
For sharing it and not bottling up
And share his experience
Not only that
He gives advice
Is this a poem ? Just the writing structure is .. different!
@@serenityinside1 wasn’t ment to be rkid.
I’m just dyslexic and it helps me
Reread it so it makes sense
The comment about being in the shower to think about suicide then to think of how to overcome that is something similar to what I do in the morning.. Sending best wishes Ben, keep smashing that ptsd into submission.
Night terrors combined with sleep deprivation - the worst thing I experienced after a handful of bad jobs in close succession as a paramedic. The strength you show in talking about this is incredible Ben!!!
I never really comment on anything, I just watch in the background but after seeing your honesty, vulnerability and passion, I just have to say that what you are doing is amazing. I watch all your videos (football hooligans is my favourite!) and I am reading your book. Thank you for sharing your experiences and I look forward to anything and everything else you do.
I recognise so much myself, I have CPTSD, my sister leaves snottograms out for me too, my bedroom is always a mess in the morning and I get through lots of duvets and pillows, always covered in sweat and blood in the morning. I do the shower thing myself, I have a cat now, and looking after it has helped. You are so lucky you have a partner, I am doing it all on my own and without medication. Coping mechanisms I can share in private, drink and drugs are a no no. One I can share is a commentary drive in the car, it helps my head so much. Good luck you are a great bloke.
Hi Ben, hope your day has gone well for you today. I have been diagnosed with complexed PTSD and what you have said there in 15 minutes i HONESTLY hand on heart understand about 95% of that but I don't know how to explain it myself after 5 years of living a nightmare life some kind of sense now makes sense. I probably know that will make sense to you. THANKS FOR SHARING YOUR THOUGHTS AND YOUR STORY.. all the best for the future...
It takes a strong person to open up about their mental health. By you Sharing your struggles with PTSD so many there are so many who can gain from your story. I am so sorry you are having to go through this. Thankful you have the support of your family and friends. Your partner is a great asset for you. Thank you so much for sharing. It helps me to understand more about PTSD.
Hi Ben you explain PTSD in ways I can't so I get my wife to watch you to understand more of what I am going through with that and anxiety. I am a serving dog handler and relate to everything you chat about love these vlogs keep up the good work 👏
Without a doubt, this channel is helping a lot of people. I don't suffer from mental health personally, but I do get down now and again. You have this uncanny knack of giving me a kick up the arse and telling me to get a grip. It works 👍
Although I don’t have PTSD myself, I can relate to needing the energy (mentally) to get out of bed from time to time. I sometimes feel like I wish the world would go away when I’m in bed and not wanting to wake up at times ❤️
You are amazing; what you’re doing via this channel is equally so. My brother served in armed forces and has PTSD. I’ve suffered personal loss of a partner who committed suicide because of his mental health and PTSD.
I have seen both ends of fighting and losing the battle. Thank you for educating, for caring and being compassionate.
Thank you for posting this Ben.
Thank you for this. ❤️
Good on you for sharing this
Keep doing the videos Ben it’s an inspiration
Love the videos keep going fella
Ben, well done on everyday. This whole series is so inspiring
Bless you, you are such a strong person talking about this x
Ben, you are a massive inspiration to all those who are as struggling with mental health issues. Being ex military, I see mental illness in our veterans and serving members weekly. May your battles be short and your war nearly won. stay strong by lad, thank you for your openness and honesty and brilliant videos.👍
So much respect for the men and women who protect us. I couldn't even begin to imagine the things you must have seen and experienced. I was told I had PTSD from something that happened to me when I was 18. I honestly don't know how I would cope with the things you guys must go through. God bless x
Massive inspiration. Him and all of the countless others not yet speaking out
@@pho3n1x19
And that's the thing mate, it's imperative that we keep speaking out and having this conversation within families, between mates, at work and nationally.
The leading cause of death for men aged 18 - 49 is suicide and/or unintended overdose.
Guys are three times more likely to take their own life then women, and that's a testament to the strength of women as they are far more likely to open up and share their thoughts, feelings and pain, and thus recieve the support many of us blokes shun.
We've lost far too many fathers, sons, brothers, uncles, husbands, boyfriends etc. It can't be allowed to continue like this.
@@residentelect well said
Thank you for your service. I can’t imagine what you’ve seen & been through but you are real heroes ❤️
Another brilliant video Ben , well done , and well spoken mate .
Keep up the good work Ben
Well done Ben on ur videos u are helping so many people , I’m so glad ur taking the baby steps to reach ur goals on recovery xx
You are an inspiration Ben, thank you dearly for speaking about this.
Thank you so much man 👍
It takes real courage to talk about mental health. My Dad served for 19 years in the Ambulance Service, and I know he found it very difficult to talk about what he went through. You are amazing, getting up and facing each day should never be underestimated, ever.
You are a kind soul. I hope you can find peace.
How do you deal with the times people forget that you aren't the same as before the trauma, depression and anxiety? My family are the worst for this. I'm trying to move forward and you help, thank you!
Excellent channel, never ending quality 😎
Thank you for sharing, thank you for being so open and honest , thank you 🙏
Thank you Ben.
Im still watching this most days to remind me x ben you lot have helped me so much x
Ben you are such an inspirational person, I myself suffer mental health issues but your videos are up lifting when it comes to a hidden illness. It shows that you have a great personality and things will get better for you, It shows by the subscribers that there is alot of support out here that take an interest in what you have been through.
Great description.
Thank you for all the years you spent on the force. You’re the guys who come running when we need help, and now you’re separated from all the arseholes you had to deal with, you’ll see just how many normal people appreciate you.
Doing a great job Ben much love
Keep doing it Ben! Video are mint
You are a massive inspiration to a lot of people are suffering Ben. Keep fighting that good fight mate.
A true inspiration thank you for everything. Massive support and thank you from myself and my other half.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts Ben. I truly appreciate it, and hope you can get better and heal
you are so brave to be able to talk about your issues so openly
So raw and real. Painful but important to listen to. I have HUGE respect for you. Thank you
This is a great UA-cam Channel. I am fortunate enough not to have had an actual mental health issue but I know people who have and people who are sadly no longer with us but this is a great reminder that mental health issues can affect anyone at anytime. Don't stop educating people on this and reminding us how important it is.
You are so strong mate, hope you realise how strong you are. You will be inspiring so many people, you have no idea.
Top lad Ben. Keep getting stronger, you can do it!
Thanks Ben, this is helping me more than you can imagine 👍
Such an inspiration Ben. Loving all the vidoes and can't wait for more there are so interesting and eye opening. Thank you.
Respect to you Ben! Legend!
Found this really sad. Keep going Ben, time is a healer!
Thank you. Hearing you talk has hit me hard, but in a positive way. I've only just this year been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, Avoidant Personality Disorder & PTSD after 30 years of fighting my local health authority, telling them I'm not "right" - hearing you talk about night terrors, post its, panic, tears, suicide & the push back to try & live normally proves that it's not just me, I'm not on my own. I'm not quiet about my mental health struggles & talk very openly about what I face & have found that some people who previously told me they cared & it didn't matter, have mysteriously disappeared from my life. You sure learn who your real friends are don't you?? Thank you for being so frank & open about the difficulties you face, stay strong & all the best, Jojo x
Every bit of respect to you Ben
What a brilliant explanation 👏🏼👏🏼
Well said, once again you’ve smashed it. Good work.
Your a great man Ben stay strong your get through this
These short but powerful clips are absolutely class! I love listening to you and always look out for a new one when I’m on here. Keep up the hard work mate, we’re all behind you 💪🏻
A very helpful account and a lot of courage to lay it bare like that. All the best to you on the journey.
I'm in awe of your honesty and strength. There are so many things you say here that resonate. Stay strong, stay safe.
This sort of thing is why, I've subscribed to this channel, having battled far too many overwhelming mental health conditions and suicide attempts myself. Watching this is a breath of fresh air. So many fake accounts showing the fun and glorious sides of life, but this is just so real and honest and I have no doubt that this is going to save many many life's.
Do NOT stop!
I wish you knew how amazing you are, thank you so much!!
Thankyou for being so open and honest about your own mental illness Ben. I’ve struggled with my own issues especially after losing my mum and twin sister Jane to cancer and having what I can only describe as survivors guilt. To go and get help seems the hardest thing in the world as you feel like you’re going mad and might be judged, but with good friends, Doctors, councillors and sometimes medication you can slowly get back to living a happy life again. You’re a top bloke Ben so Thankyou again for sharing your experiences with us all.
Night terrors are terrifying, you truly feel like you're going to die. The daily battle to overcome that desire to hide away in bed, put your feet on the ground and start your day is so hard to describe to people who've never experienced it. Thank you for explaining it so succinctly Ben, you are doing awesome!
Rally amazing and inspiring mate! Please make more content! Keep up the good work!!
That anxiety mind fog is something I never knew existed, until I got sick the summer before last. Mine came on for a strange reason. After years of abusing my mind and body with booze, shit food, lack of exercise and what not, I started exercising loads and living cleanly, but got so into it I lost four stone in 12 weeks and something just snapped (I have quite a bit of trauma from stuff that’s happened in my past) and I can remember standing in the supermarket, and I couldn’t remember a single thing I needed. Nothing. Just a blank
Called the doctor out; finally (I lived in malta at the time, and private meant they would come to work). And she checked my blood pressure and, despite outwardly being the healthiest I’d been in years. Target weight and very fit, my blood pressure was 180/120. Her face dropped like a stone and she sent me straight to hospital.
Two years later and I have some kind of anxiety linked to blood sugar, is the best way I’ve managed to understand it. But it’s not a “mental” anxiety in so much as I’m consciously depressed or even worried. I’m the happiest I’ve been in years (still have nightmares etc). But unless I regularly exercise, and don’t go more than a few hours without eating something small, I get pounding headaches and my memory goes to shit.
Sorry for over sharing. I doubt anybody will ever see this. But it does help me, watching your channel. Knowing that these things are very real and not a figment of my imagination.
You keep at it mate I’ve seen it and can relate
Not oversharing at all. let it out.
@@gc5384 thanks brother
@@Simon-ui6db 💙
You're a top man Ben, it's great that you are able to talk about mental health. It helps you offload, and it let's other people see they aren't struggling alone. Much love buddy.
Ive found it really eye opening watching your videos, keep up the amazing work 👍
yh keep doing it ben! your an amazing human being!
KEEP DOING THE VIDEOS!!! Such a genuine person and channel. Thank you for giving up your time to do the videos...and the crew behind the cameras. MASSIVE THANKS.
Truly an inspiration. Stay safe 👍❤
You describe it so perfectly and conscisly. Hugs, Ben 🤗
Thank you for sharing this, there's so much I can relate to and it helps to know that we're not alone in dealing with these things. Wishing you good health and happiness x
Proper legend, a lot of what you have said certainly makes me stop and think. Just bought your book, thank you Ben.
I have so much respect for you. Your a proper guy.
Well done Ben. Stay positive. Your story really resonated with me. I wish you all the best for the future and recovery. Stay strong bruv.
I always love it when another video comes out huge respect for being able to make videos like these ones, imo your an inspiration Ben and these videos are amazing keep doing you man 💪🏼👍🏼
I have a genuine respect for you as a person as well as all you have done and are going through Ben.
It helps to hear someone talking about the same kind of feelings you are going through and hopefully it helps you being able to talk about them to us the viewers
Thankyou for sharing this and wish you all the luck in the world. Despite your struggles you are truly inspiring as a person and a great role model.
You are a top bloke Ben. Please keep making the videos as they are helping a lot of people. I send from the bottom of my heart, the very best with your mental health and I hope it continues to improve.
Ben I hope by doing what you are doing is helping yourself as much it clearly help s others I hope each and every day you continue to get stronger
Massive respect to you Ben I really appreciate these videos it certainly helps when the down days come you make everyone with mental health feel strong and say yes you know what I actually can do this today I can achieve these goals so massive respect and thank you for being so brave
Talking about it and getting things off your chest is the best way to deal with alot of problems. I have huge respect for your self for coming out and speaking about the issues you face on a day to day bases. It's definitely opening people's eyes to how bad some people suffer with mental health.
My presence on UA-cam always seems to be as a viewer so whenever I do comment, it’s because I truly have felt touched.
Whenever your videos pop up in my feed I can’t seem to click faster. You have a way of telling stories thats just so captivating. You can be hilarious and classically British but also so real and raw. You’ve what I and a lot of other people have been missing from our lives here on UA-cam or any medium of consumption.
Keep getting yourself better. Don’t feel like you need to keep this up for us at all. Keep being your true self and stay happy my friend
Thanks for being an inspiration for us Ben, I love your content and it really is changing my perception of what people go through on the other side of the fine line of mental health.
Really brave... thank you.
Ben, I’ve been hooked on your stories since the very first one and think that your honesty and no ego attitude is beyond amazing!
This week I’ve been lucky enough to have completed a mental health first aid course and referenced you and your channel a few times to our group due to how insightful your life has been and is. Keep up what you’re doing mate, absolutely smashing it and your following is testament to your strength!
Your support system is everything, but who couldn’t love you Ben 💜
Dude your a legend. I personally find that the people to delete, block or blank you when they find out about your struggle with mental health is struggling themselves and are afraid they will be found out.
If your ever doing a trip to Ireland on the motorbike let me know we have a small social group of fellow emergency service personnel from all agency's who do random spins on the bikes your more than welcome to tag along.
Stay strong man better days ahead.
Truly eye opening account Ben. Your mindset and devotion to yourself, your family, and you recovery is truly exemplary. From the bottom of my heart Ben, I wish you and your family peace and love.
Good on you Ben! Not only are you healing on a day to day basis, your doing it while educating people on a very serious stigma that's a reality for yourself and a lot of others out in the world. Solid effort, thank you.
The shopping experience is the most relative thing I’ve ever heard in a long time, from a fellow sufferer for many years you’re doing amazing mate, busy mind always helps me but doesn’t solve the issue. Thankyou for being so open ❤️
Totally get you ben, I struggle on a daily basis and I get told to try push myself ,but it's hard. Watching u and listening to u I know I'm not only one suffering x
I could only watch 4 mins in ish. Mostly all you’ve said is nearly identical to my life situation. I’m an ex soldier. Didn’t know what I was like is linked to mental health issues. Most days I don’t leave the house or I go out late at night, less people around. Thanks for this, opened my eyes.
Look after your metal health, don't be afraid to face it. Respect for your service, now do the same for yourself, and look after yourself.
@@richardmoore9874 Cheers bud 🙏