the feeling of isolation.
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- Опубліковано 16 лип 2024
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song list:
00:00:00 Gilsw - Loser
00:01:42 antent, swerve - i don't feel anything
00:03:48 Atrixx - Anxious
00:06:13 Otixx - Comeback
00:08:22 øneheart - apathy
00:10:19 Isaiam - Higher
00:12:51 Last Ryte - I Hope I Never Come Back
00:15:59 shibíre - drowning
00:18:07 bonjr - if it_s real, then i_ll stay (slowed)
00:21:54 Lesiw - Distance
00:24:24 Gilsw - Winter
00:26:48 harris cole _ aso - safe now (slowed _ reverb)
00:28:54 Atrixx - Falling Stars
00:31:42 Gilsw - That's okay
00:34:02 reidenshi - open world
00:36:08 Lesiw - Cold morning
00:38:25 øneheart x reidenshi - snowfall
00:40:28 metahesh - silhouette
00:42:21 Slowx - Save Me
00:44:43 psyike - fondest memories
00:46:54 girl 159 - among moonlit shadows
00:48:47 navod wije - tranquility boost
00:52:20 Evening Ocean - Midnight Slips Away
00:56:39 Paul K - Aphantasia
01:01:14 Angus Zen - Sound Sculptures - The First Contact
01:05:18 The R0cketz - Spectacle
01:09:49 De Arma - Shadowstreets
#sleepmusic #sadmusic #sadmood #sadplaylist #snowfall #chillmusic #depressionmusic #3am #playlist
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I am translating this message through a translator and I want to tell you that I am grateful to you, grateful that you select good music. You are the best stranger on the internet
Awww thank you so much my friend 💙 I appreciate your honest words. Where are you from
@@navo159 I apologize for the late reply, I am from Kazakhstan and live in the historical city of Turkestan
@den-9hard Your English is impeccable, even if you're using a translator.
@@den-9hardyou r so lucky for ur location man. Holly lands. Tanri Turk u korusun!
This is a really sweet message
Dear person behind the screen,
you're still human
there's nothing truly worth dying over
I'm proud of you for making it through the day
i know it's hard, and maybe you think that you're just a nobody
you're inhumane
you're hopeless
but i just want you to know
you'll always be my special person
goodnight
Thankyou...this will be my last night and minute, second, hour on earth...i love you dear person behind the screen❤i hope im happy in my next lifetime..
@@Itzzzdami I hope it's not too late, but if you are still there, you can still be happy in this lifetime. There's still hope here; hopes may not always come true, but it's still something worth living for, just like the hope I have that you are still there behind the screen. You too are my special person... and someone else's special person.
@@Itzzzdami Please choose the other path. I hurt like my heart was ripped out but I won't give in, we can lose a chunk of ourselves sometimes but it will grow back I promise. You can remember what was lost with a broken smile eventually but it's not worth all that you are.
It's a few lines that don't mean anything, BUT my eyes got cloudy, so
Thanks bro
Thank you! I really needed this ❤
I m so deep in my depression. I have no Hope. But i still go to gym. Maybe lift Can save me.
I fall. But i don't gonna give up. I gonna try again, and again and again till i die.
Love u all.
Never give up Friends ❤
and again. Give up your emotion. Turn to apathy. Maybe seek meditation. That really help me in disconnecting with people and leave a room for myself to improve. I did all those stuffs in silent and have become much better ever since. The sun is always there man. Don't give up. You can do it.
You can do it. I believe in you. Good luck:)))))) ❤
Never give up, God loves You ❤️
Solveing an inside problem with outside solutions. That's you're issue.
Keep lifting brother I’ll do the same and check in time to time love man keep
Your head up
I've always found it strange that I'm not one to shy away from isolation. I label it as just being introverted, but many people misread it as me being shy, antisocial, or even rude. But the truth is as much as I enjoy other people's company, there is nothing I enjoy more than being on my own. Going at my own pace, not having to worry about someone else's problems or needs.
I often wonder, will I ever find someone else who I enjoy being with as much as I enjoy being on my own?
For now though, I'm happy and content watching the world go by from the park benches where I can sit for as long as I wish.
realest comment I’ve seen in my whole fragile life
I think all of us understand that feeling of feeling very lonely when surrounded by people and feeling happy and at peace when there's no one around
this is exactly how i feel and yet I've never sat down and really processed it the way you've described it
Yes I miss me. For decades, I had sacrificed myself for others. Now that they have reached their "dreams" I'm here all alone having nobody, not even myself cuz I had forgotten about.
Reconciling with my own self again won't be a short journey, even after years, I'm barely knowing myself again
Don't worry, you'll find yourself
whoever you are internet person that ill never meet, i wish you the best on the last part of your journey, im alone now 13 years..i find it easier to live with me than with another human..ive become to seperated from humanity...i would love to reconnect but people scare me..they are tooo loud and to my paranoid self seem to always want something..so as i say...i wish you all the best on your journey..peace and love...
@@che_guevara67 guess I found a same soul lingering here, in this part of the internet. Wish you all the best my brother/sister. I have had my luck of being a lone wolf, and it's the best feeling ever (also suffer from severe social anxiety, typing comment like this took me a huge amount of thought). Was typing my story to share with y'all but suddenly something cut off my chain of thought so... guess it's gonna be a while for all my thought to recollect again
I wish for you all and myself too....to may we all find that strength we need, desire, and deserve✨🍀....stay strong, chin up and keep going guys....everyone...all good people.
Suerte 🍀🍀🍀
I miss me, the me that was happy, that could go around and have fun, the me without depresion, without emptynes, without being lonely. I guess I'll just vibe with this playlist
A few months ago I got broken up with and also found out that people I thought where friends weren't. I unadded them to see if they would reach out. Months passed they didn't so I blocked them. Learn they never liked me and honestly hated my guts. Now I find it hard to trust and hard to want to make friends. I keep myself locked in my apt unable to leave. When I go out in public to pick something up I break down crying. I lost my job since I can't stop crying. Honestly I may just end up homeless in a month or two its hard to keep my head up. its hard to trust anyone, it feels like everyone judges me. If I do become homeless well that's just it most likely the end of my story and I will just walk around and find a place to just rot at. I wish I had good friends and I wish I could believe people care for me.
Hopefully things get better for you man
You will find people.
I wish you the best and remember to never give up! ❤️ You can do it 💪
Знаешь совсем не зная тебя я бы хотел встретиться поговорить о чем нибудь найти общий язык, просто чтобы ты понимал что всё куда лучше чем кажется, и сделал бы это просто из искреннего желания помочь, я давно ни с кем не дружу все кто являлись для меня якобы друзьями растаяли так что я вполне тебя понимаю, да черт побери я всех понимаю и очень об этом жалею... Не та способность которую я хотел бы иметь
Or maybe this is a chance the universe is giving you to find you're self again, maybe it needs you to be alone for this phase of your life for you to realize you're love's the realest you're ever going to find. I'm sorry for this though i went through sth like this a few years back and to be honest I found peace, joy and MYSELF(still finding) in solitude. Don't lose hope just cause someone didn't see value in you, Always remember YOU are VALUABLE, ALWAYS have been and ALWAYS will be
только благодаря таким плейлистам я могу чувствовать себя лучше, отдохнуть от своих навязчивых мыслей, от тревожных мыслей, от людей, тут я могу чувствовать свободу, умиротворение, тут, я как дома, мне настолько знакомы эти песни, они будто до боли родные, хотя слышу я из впервые, настолько они описывают все мои эмоции, чувства, настолько каждая песня уникальная, я хочу остаться здесь, тут никто не осудит, не обидит, косо не посмотрит, а наоборот, посмотрит с сочувствием, бережно обнимет, и скажет, что не все ещё потеряно, что он верит в тебя, что всю ещё наладится, и не нужно вешать нос раньше времени, незнакомцы в комментариях настолько родные, настолько у многих тут сходятся мысли, ситуации, все тут, как одна большая семья, где каждого ценят, принимают, и любят. и это поразительно,многие комментаторы помогли мне осознать многие вещи, понять, что решить можно любую проблему, будет нелегко, страшно, непонятно, но всё получится, автор, огромное спасибо за такой невероятный и комфортный плейлист, здесь мне уютно и хорошо ❤
вау, что говорит русский, это вау, я говорю это потому, что не знаю, какую жизнь ты ведешь, но твои слова меня удивили...
Это переведено переводчиком, поэтому я не могу точно сказать вам, что я хочу выразить.
и действительно. музыка - самое невероятное, что в сложные минуты поможет сплотить наши сердца в похожих ситуациях, забыться от проблем в повседневности. здесь можно быть собой и не бояться ошибиться, ведь музыка не скажет, что уйдет. я рада, что тут вам встретились приятные люди, с которыми вы смогли поговорить. даже пару слов могут иметь огромное значение для всех нас
a few years back, i was so numb to everything i literally just dropped everyone like they were bad habits. no goodbyes, nothing. i watched them attempt to reach me, for what seemed like the first time in a while, but something told me "its because they -need- you, not want you".. and that was it. since then ive just been fading in an out of things, slowly finding a way to reconnect with other people
same here man, benzo withdraw has turned my life into a hell, a lonely one also
I'm so lost broken. Given up the fight and come to terms with the fact that this is it. I have no one. For anyone out there struggling just know your not alone with this. Life is so tough
смирение приходит и уходит, в отличии от желания более существовать, которое я не помню в себе со времён самого раннего детства-
I lost everything. I lost myself, my friends, my pet, my motivation, and even my grandparents.
I feel empty again, why? everything was fine until that day you showed up at home again. Desperation and fear invade my being and destroy my soul from the inside. I hate myself. I hate you.
I would like to disappear so that someone could look for me once and for all, but let's be honest, if no one looks for me while I'm here, even less will they if I disappear.
I want to die but death terrifies me, I don't understand myself and it's ironic to think about leaving everything behind when I simply want someone to stay by my side.
Today a boy said he wanted to be like me when he grew up... Poor boy. I no longer know who I am, I don't understand what's the point of living if I don't even feel alive.
Maybe just maybe I should finish it all at once, I know I don't have the courage to do it. But the loneliness and the cold of the evening is killing me little by little.
I do not know what to think. I do not know what to do. I do not know who I am. I'm lost.
Who I am?
You're always yourself and no one other. I know this might not be the best words to say and I'm sorry for everything that happened to you. Life is hard, not gonna lie, And sometimes it seems like it leads nowhere when you are so lost that you believe that the real you no longer exists. I know this feeling! And I know it's hard. Sometimes you have to wait and work on yourself for a very long time, but the main thing is not to give up. In fact, no matter what you are at different points in your life, it's still you. It's just that you change and only over time do you notice what you've become. I also lost my past self. Life is full of surprises, and even if it seems that the end is near, you need to look into the present with hope. Don't give up, friend. I really hope you'll find that one special person that would stay by your side no matter what. But for that, you'll need to move on with your life. All suffering has its end. Please choose the one you won't regret. Good luck, dear stranger.
You are you, brother/sister. Some kid want to become you, that mean you must have been respected. There is some aspect of you that make you respectable. Maybe that is what you was created for. You won the great race after all, among the many that never make it. If you ever think of ending everything, thing of it's like this: "why should I end myself while all those others still laughing and living out their life happily? Isn't it not fair that only I have to suffer? Why shouldn't y'all come with me to my own hell?"
Then create a bang. Whatever it is, it will prove your existence. You existed for a reason. People have to grind that into their minds. Start the bang in silence. Big Bang come from a dead universe, and universe for all we know have died many time, then explode again and again. Embrace the darkness and let it be your grinding set. Best of luck to you man.
This is so serene. I don't know how to explain it. A bunch of random internet strangers coming together to create some sort of congregation of past and current traumas. I wish that everybody who sees this recognizes that somebody out there cares.
I'm often reminded of the fact that there is no god, no answer and no being saved, it's both terrifing and comfoting, no-one will come and save me but no-one can tell me how to live
figuring out that last part myself, If there even is an answer
Eu não sou da igreja, mas costumo frequentar e posso dizer uma coisa. Pode parecer irreal, mas realmente existe alguém observando você, mesmo nos dias sombrios que você só pensa em desaparecer e fugir de tudo e de si mesmo. Se você quiser uma resposta é buscar mesmo por isso, você obterá. Creia nisso, creia por mim e por você
I like u
@@NacasNoran that makes one of us
We take it.
sometimes you just need to take a step back and realize how far you've come instead of how far left you have to go. you are going to mess up, and you are going to make mistakes and you aren't always going to get it right. but, you are human. it happens. it's okay.
i usually never comment, but I appreciate you all truly. I believe I am no better than anyone else. I believe we are equal. We struggle with the same problems, universally. Jesus really has helped me. God bless you all. Through adversity you find character. One of my favorite quotes of all time from Greg Plitt
La verdad espero que toda la gente que esta pasando por un mal momento mejore, no lo digo como una extraña del internet (o sea lo soy), lo digo como una persona que leyó gran cantidad de los comentarios que se tomaron el tiempo de redactar y mostrar que les hace daño ya que se q a muchos le cuesta comunicarlo a conocidos como familiares, amigos o hasta terapeutas, y quieren ser escuchados, comprendidos (no digo que sea el caso de todos pero si de una gran mayoría).
Estan pasando por un momento tan dificil, enserio espero que se sientan bien y tengan una vida plena en un futuro cercano, que la vida les sonría, por el momento intenten disfrutar los pequeños momentos de felicidad que aunque sean breves son importantes para ver lo importante que es la vida. No se rindan, por favor, no lo hagan.
No se si los ayude, pero tienen todo mi apoyo, etoy orgulloza de que sigan enfeentandose a algo tan jodido como vivir.
Thank you for everything you wrote. I am grateful to you and God that there are people like you. You are wonderful❤
i love you all, internet strangers. isnt it funny how we feel so alone but under the comments of these videos we see people like us? i am trying to stay positive, and i cant guarantee i will continue to keep trying forever. most likely i will eventually break, but until that happens, i will give my all, so that once it does, i can at least say that i tried so, so hard while i was here. and you can do the same. if nothing else, at least try. and it gets tiring i know it does but you just have to keep at it. i care about you, you are not alone, i love you.
Okay love ? Then hear what i upload
Este aislamiento me está ayudando a crearme, a mejorar, a sentirme mejor.
Todo tiene su recompensa al final y mi recompensa es mi mayor anhelo.
:))
I was always alone, but in 2022 everything changed when a girl appeared in my life... we were in a relationship for 2 years... I was no longer alone, I had someone else with me, but unfortunately she left me and I was alone again , the good thing about it all is that I love my own company again
я не общалась давно ни с кем, из за обстоятельства теперь мне страшно общаться с друзьями и мне плохо. Я уже неделю как не общалась с ними, меня злит моё поведение, но я не могу им написать, у меня начинается тревога как только об этом подумаю. Я боюсь они разочарует меня вновь, заставят почувствовать себя одиноко когда и без них я страдаю одиночеством и мыслями само.бийства, плохого настроения длительного времени.
Я каждый день много чего делаю чтобы пробудить эмоции в себе, но просыпаюсь и снова подавлена. Родные злятся вокруг, но я не могу ничего поделать с собой, я не могу контролировать беспричинную злость к ним или мрачное лицо. Какой тупик, мне не с кем обсудить проблему и попросить совета
Я понимаю тебя. Очень часто переживаю подобное и в моменте не могу справиться с этим чувством. Ругаюсь, отдаляюсь от близких. Друзей уже давно нет. Как с этим справиться, я так и не поняла. Единственное, что поняла: в нашей жизни случаются моменты "темноты", подавленности и отчаяния. Это закономерно, как времена года, и наверное нормально, ведь это наши чувства. Часто я возвращаюсь к мыслям об этих периодах, когда мне радостно: это дает мне ощущение, что я не зря выдержала "темноту" и теперь вижу и чувствую то, что меня радует, что позволяет мне чувствовать себя живой.
Поэтому когда я вновь впадаю в апатию и злость, я наоборот возвращаюсь к мыслям о том, что это не бесконечно и на том берегу меня ждет новое и прекрасное. Нужно лишь выдержать, укрепить свое терпение.
Я хочу, чтобы и ты для себя поверила в это. Все будет. Держись❤️
жалко что такое случается:(
но так же хорошо что это не постоянно:)
удачи,терпения и здоровья вам:)
I want you to imagine this ight
You are forced into online school because your mother is high risk and if you get sick from inperson school she could die
You live in a dangerous area so you cant even go out for a walk or run because you risk being shot or worse
You live in a poor household so you cant even do anything with your own family
no jobs near you are hiring til you're 16 and you're currently 15
this typa life is very lonely and isolating you lack a social life really only having 5 friends who are always so busy you rarely get to hangout with them. The only time you really leave the house is to go out to stores so you're forced to be a homebody. You've been living this life since covid started and you're getting exhausted you know things will start getting better in a year but that's in a years time you kinda want to end it but you're trying to hold on because you know things will get better even if its a year from now. oh and to make shit worse you are dating a girl and forced to do long distance 5 hours apart and you rarely get to spend anytime together and you guys are texting everyday but the texting is so ass since you both lack lives you have nothing to talk about
this has been my life for the past 4 years.
I feel the same way for some of this, covid really screwed everything up and i just want my life back again. I dont care if i have to start from scratch, been thinking a lot lately every now and then about just packing up and just leaving when a certain time comes around. But dont forget tho, you are still YOUNG… u still got time to change things. Im 27 as i write this right now, i aint ever got with any girls ever as i always got the “lets be Friends” as for living online bc of what is happening to your mother, i know the exact feeling, ive lived that way when covid first came around due to my Grandpa getting Cancer and passing just over a little over a year later during covid lockdown.
Ill finish this off saying “You got this, dont give up”
Real
Just keep moving forward, don’t not give in, for the moment that seem so bad that you feel it’s necessary, just remember and I know it’s hard. Picture your most favorite weather, picture yourself outside in the sunlight, you live to see tomorrow and that’s it. Everyday isn’t even granted and they’re are people who are truly suffering, so ask yourself are you just in your head or is it really the end of the world because if it’s not then pick your head up and dust yourself off even if it hurts, prove it to the little person that your stronger than what they can even imagine….
How long has it been? I lost myself countless times to the point that i no longer remember who i am, i am just empty.... I feel nothing but loneliness, am empty husk of a person.... Why do i even bother to write anything? I am just alone.
The fact you're writing mean you still there, a soul on earth who want to leave a milestone for someone coming across to see. You are there. You existed. I know of your existence. We may not know each other but I have read your comment, therefore proving that you existed. Keep going man. The light is ahead of the tunnel.
We are all here, together.
"Hello old friend..."
"Who? What?...."
"It's okay relax, I'll guide you once more."
"I remember.... I failed.... I'm sorry..... 😢"
"Don't worry, to be honest, I didn't even want you to succeed this time.
You failed at plan B, now, I want you to return to plan A."
"What's plan A?"
"You tell me, I'm but a mere persona created to assist in weaving dreams, created by a person long gone, caught between life and its threads.
I can weave whatever you want, but you must be the one to dream it."
"Can't I do this without you.... you ruined everything!"
"That's what you said last time."
"And this is how it ended....
If I tell you the truth and I follow you, I'll be alone...."
"You lied to me before....."
"And that too, ended ..."
"Right. So; welcome back old friend.
I'm so sorry but we'll have to spin this one with extra thick thread.
You better not lie, I want to be able to vanish after this."
"I know you will... dreamweaver
I know who I am... XXXXX"
I have come to realize I helped write other people's stories more than my own but can't stop trying to help everyone even if they did me wrong. I know I promise never to let someone go through what I did . I know I love unconditionally care but I sometimes want to go back to 6th grade were no one existed , it was just me in a save corner alone . Sometimes I want laughter to fill the air but for now I want safety away from the real world back to my books and silence. I want to go home.
Yo también me echo de menos... No soy consciente del momento en que el viejo yo que solía reir, tener sueños, ilusiones y esperanzas, quería hacer cosas y ser alguien se esfumó. Llevo tanto tiempo vacío y perdido en la distimia que ni me recuerdo, cada vez esa imagen va quedando más lejana y atrás en el tiempo... Un tiempo que ya nunca vuelve.
Gracias Navo por otro tracklist de medicina para el alma.
Tú comentario es tan real. Estoy pasando por lo mismo hace mucho tiempo atrás sintiéndome de esa manera, se me hace imposible vivir así...
@@ch3erly es una lucha cada día y paso a paso. Ponernos una máscara e ir a la rutina laboral, fingiendo que todo está bien delante de todos, pero el agujero que tenemos dentro cada vez se hace más grande y dificulta más todo. Intento llenar el vacío y las carencias emocionales apenas sin éxito. Hay momentos que consigo disfrutar de algo, son pocos, pero la anhedonia se ha ido apoderando cada vez de más cosas que antaño me apasionaban y generaban placer y felicidad. Aún así quiero pensar que encontraremos el camino y un poco de sentido, aunque sea en un pequeño remanso de paz como son estos playlists y sus comentarios, donde siempre encuentro a personas agradables y sus experiencias, alejadas de la toxicidad que impera en casi todas las redes sociales y el ruido mental que provocan. Un abrazo compañer@.
@@ch3erly te entiendo, la anhedonia se va apoderando cada vez de más facetas de nuestra vida y placeres y aficiones que antaño nos apasionaban, y aunque a veces conseguimos disfrutar de pequeñas cosas y momentos, el vacío siempre vuelve, como si estuviéramos rotos, nada se queda ni consigue llenarnos y cada día cuesta más encontrar un sentido a todo. Al menos podemos encontrar pequeños remansos de paz en estos playlist y en sus comentarios, donde siempre encuentro a personas buenas y sus experiencias, lejos de la toxicidad que impera en internet y del ruido mental que genera. Un abrazo compañer@
Gracias...
Estos comentarios y playlist me hacen sentir reconfortante el tan solo hecho de saber que no soy la única persona que se siente de esta manera, así que tengo una razón para seguir aquí, no rendirme por todos aquellos que si lo hicieron aunque a veces solo quiero desaparecer lo sigo intentando una y otra vez.
Tú tampoco te des por vencido y no pierdas la esperanza!!
@@ch3erly gracias a ti también por tomarte el tiempo de responder y compartir tu experiencia y sentir. Cuando necesites expresarte y que alguien te lea/te escuche, aunque sea un extraño de Internet, cuenta conmigo, en caja de comentarios o DM. No vamos a rendirnos!
Cada mayo me quedo solo, digo, completamente solo y esto es debastador para mí. Además de ser primavera es el mes de mi cumpleaños y cada año es más difícil pasar por ello.
Sé que la vida pasa, que las personas llegan a enseñarnos la vida pero me pregunto ¿por qué diablos no podré quedarme con nadie? ¿Por qué siempre en estas épocas me toca ver siempre como atardece? Y llega esa sensación de querer compartir con alguien esos rosas y azules del ocaso.
No sé si el siguente mayo sea igual, solo puedo decirle a quien lea esto que aprecie cada momento de la vida, cada brillo, cada risa, no sabrás cuando la noche llegará por ti. Vive con intensidad el presente
Happy birthday friend 🎉
@@shadyguystoned5057
Gracias hermano:)
Espero te encuentres muy bien y si va mal la cosa solo es una noche oscura, volverá el sol.
Happy birthday!💐
No sé si ya fue o si aún no ha sido, pero felicidades amigo. Cumplir un año más, aunque la vida y la soledad a veces nos pese, debería ser siempre un motivo para celebrar. Espero que encuentres tu camino y personas con quien compartirlo, que te aprecien y valoren, para que esos futuros meses de mayo puedas verlos desde otro prisma. Un abrazo hermano.
Espero que encuentres tu brillo, y que el próximo Mayo sea excepcional para ti. Te deseo mucha felicidad y éxito en tu vida:)))
In reality, words don't change minds, they mend hearts
I really miss one person.
Last year he loved me immensely, but I did not take this relationship seriously. this was my first relationship
we broke up
but this year I started to feel like I was missing it. I miss. I like him.
We communicate, but much less now. our communication lacks that same spark and flirtation. we're just friends
but I really want to return all that love again. I felt loved. and now I’m ready to give him all my love and care.
It’s a shame that the past cannot be returned. I cry every night because of this. I constantly imagine that if I met him, I would throw myself into a hug and not let go.
I'm sorry. I am very sorry that I treated you so stupidly. I love you, Cris.
Self isolation and crippling loneliness go crazy/j
I have done things I am not proud of. I have said things I wish I could take back. I have dreams I wish I could achieve. I'm always there for others, comforting them and caring for them when I can't even comfort and care for myself. I want nothing more than to make people happy because I cant ever make myself happy. I miss the days where I couldnt give two shits about what the next day could bring me because I would just smile it away. Nowadays I worry if I'll break down and yell at someone again or hurt someone with words I try to hold back. I want to go back but all I can do is go forward.
I miss me too. I've been forced to change so much by "friends" and strangers, as well as my own family and I go to therapy every day. I wonder how old me is doing? I can't find them, I hope they can find me.
songs like these always give me a feeling of nostalgia for things long passed :)
I like this music, nostalgic.
It is complicated to be in these situations where you are all alone and have no one to support you the saddest thing is that I help people I support them in everything I can I make them happy I ask them how life is going but I do not know why no one does the same for me, I do not know if I did something wrong or something I do not know because life is so difficult with me the only thing I ask is someone to support me as I have done with all the people, being a good person is useless, I am no one for anyone. I am writing this with this perfect music that is the only one that accompanies me at this time of the night unfortunately like every day not even a good night message. If anyone reads this I wish you luck in everything, I send you a big hug and I want you to know that you are not alone.
I was a God believer once.
Throughout my childhood, I’d give my tears away through prayer, and believe he was always there to listen. Now that feeling of childhood comfort is gone, and I am left empty and cold inside, knowing it’s not real - it never was.
Though I’ve always felt something was there. Maybe if it isn’t God, it’s the energy flow of nature on earth. That comforting feeling that maybe earth itself is listening.
That's a beautiful way to look at it
it will always be real, its listening, because you are listening
The old me has a wild dream , a dream that i create and build something out of creativity that makes people in awe , not knowing how tough the world is and how hard the obstacle is. And now i'm just a person who has little to no motivation left , telling myself that "I should've done better before" like who knows how many times. But when i found myself that i was also happy at the same time doing my business , it brings my motivation little by little , i can say that i'm a disappointment to my younger self , but doing the same thing doesnt really mean happiness , and i think my younger self would also do the same thing since being solitary is where you can find peace and quiet but also very lonely
You are the only one who can express such loneliness.I subscribed to your channel.
I am not fluent in English, so I am using a translator to tell you.
What a beautiful and wonderful playlist that you’ve made 🫶 it’s so good and I really enjoyed listening to it 🍀 Thank you for sharing it with everyone ♾️
Tired of finding a way to be different because in all my life, I spent my time walking into the wrong rooms. We learn how to walk as a child. And as an adult, we remember. But I wish I were a kid again so I could count numbers and not the troubles I have now. I've always thought everything was a dream but I was wrong, It's real because it can destroy you. To grow, you must change. And to change means to abandon what you had. Tell me, should I grow? or should I stay? I wish I had that much strength to pick a choice, because everytime I did, I've thrown all the chances for something beautiful. Now I'm all alone.
Am I finally free? Or have I been abandoned?
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
Great playlist as always frfr
What's giving up? it doesn't exist in our dictionary.
Stand proud of yourself , you'll and always be a special one.
You can't just give up on your life.
You still have many things to do , right?
Your big dreams....you still want to achive it , don't you?
Your family...
Your friends...
What you think about how they'll react when you are gone?
We can't give up yet.
There is still a lot to go...
C'mon! Let's continue.
You can't give up yet...
на самом деле я любила одиночество, я не боялась остаться одной. для моей друзей это всегда звучало эгоистично, ведь они экстраверты, но я никогда не чувствовала стыда за то, что я интроверт. слушая этот плейлист, я никогда так не расслаблялась, я чувствовала свободу от людей, ощущение того, что никто не трогает тебя и ничего тебе плохого не говорит, я просто радуюсь этому. у меня есть друзья, парень, но иногда хочется побыть от всех вдали
It's such a beautiful music
Tomorrow we will run faster...stretch out our arms further...and one fine morning
So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly, into the past.
Thank for helping me doing something I was struggling to do. Now im feeling better...
Nice bunny, i will take your soul
I don't even know if i am depressed, I am built on disappointment, but i've always had hope, well mostly always, lately i have given up hope, it's a sad place to be when hope is gone, you are alone, you feel isolated, a spark is still there somewhere in you that wants to hope again, but 98% of you stops that hope, because hope has only brought you suffering, no higher being is gonna save you, no universe is gonna make something appear or give you that thing that you truly desire or feel like you deserve, hope only brought you disappointments, you are ok financially, you are ok with your family, you got a roof over you head, you don't have friends. You know they will disappoint you, unless they already did, yet you crave someone to trust, someone that has your back no matter what happens, no one really does. You crave emotional connection with one, intimacy, you want to feel the love again, yet you can't sometimes you are stopping yourself from that, another time is just, again, - false hope - You don't understand what's happening, you feel like you've fallen, you were good, kind, loving, now you are nothing, you feel emptiness, but the kindness in you never really leaves, it lingers, you still see people needing help, you truly want to help but you're afraid, afraid that they are going to harm you, use you, what do you do? nothing. You look at your parents, you feel like you want to show them how much you love them, yet you can't you are distant, you are cold, why is that? why aren't you aligned. You listen to people's problems, you feel their pain, you truly feel like you understand them, yet you can't do anything, you wish you could, but you just can't. You feel lost, you are lost, and that's fine, because when you ask yourself, lost from what, lost in what, what does it mean to be lost, you can't answer, then you think that everyone is lost. The world is lost, and that's how the world keeps spinning, lost like you are, lost like you friend, lost like everyone else, we just do everything we feel like we should do to survive, but are you really lost if you didn't lose the survival instinct, hell are you lost if you've still got your instinct?
I've always missed myself, I never knew who I was, who I am?
Who am I?
Ohhhhhh
With every part of my soul i hope that you will find someone that truly will always be there for you
just to let you know, you arent alone, there is people out there who will understand you ( just like me fr)
Are you still pain?
…maybe? i’m not sure. i don’t think i ever won’t be, but at least i’ll know that i’m alive? What about you?
@@rainbowphrog for you pain means you are alive?
@@That_one543 if i’m not in pain it feels… suspicious. And it’s always temporary. Being in pain is normal, it’s a hum in the back of my mind or deep in my gut that reminds me there’s more to do… i live for the good times but get anxious if they last too long. Did i answer ur question right? Ik i can be a little confusing 😅
No, I'm guilt and I feel shame.
@@rainbowphrog I feel that when I am surrounded by people I can be fine, but when I am alone I feel empty... as if something was missing, after all, there are certain problems that I still couldn't solve...
love it, ty
Hace mucho tiempo que no sentía una necesidad de comentar pero agradezco mucho y de corazón todos los comentarios que leí esta noche, me hacen sentir que queda esperanza y buena voluntad que me acompaña a mi y a quienes llegaron a esta sección de comentarios
Se que no estas pasando por buenos momentos y quizás no hablas lo que estes sintiendo PERO a quien halla llegado aquí le envío un fuerte abrazo y todo mi cariño, por que te aseguro que la pena tiene un fin y lo que vendrá después será mucho mejor, aguanta un poco mas el tiempo demostrará que la tranquilidad que sentirás valdrá la espera
Te quiero mucho y de corazón quiero que te sientas mucho mejor
Stranger Atmosphere at 4Am ☻🖤🥀💤
Oh to the childhood that i never had, i just wish i could explore the world without the danger of death or Hurt i wish the world was innocent and i never got soo tired as i'm everyday, that i could find comfort in interactions with other beings and had time to Learn things i found wonderfull insted of usefull, that i didn't need to feel good enough to live in society to feel productive enough but just live for the sake of living. Oh,To the childhood i never had, how do i miss you? If i never had you?....
a situation that could no longer be the worst.
No time to waste my time.
make-or-break time.
At the end of the day , am I really human?
I can’t communicate properly with others
I can’t show the emotions that i am feeling and I can’t show others that i understand their emotions, they think i dont care
I can barely find true interest in regular things
I can’t sustain deep relationships
My future is hazy and I don’t know what im doing
Even with my family, i am alone and i feel incredibly bad for my parents who i barely engage with
My parents never teached me how to live other than being a good person
I have no one to look up to
My father and my mother sadly arent fit to be so ( im so sorry)
Everyone i care about deep down thinks im useless, I know im not, I wish i could tell them
I know that swisscide is not an option, it never is and i never consider it simply because i know others would get hurt by it and i dont want to cause any sorrow, especially not to my mom
Man, IDK why im writing this
I just need to find someone who will finally love me and show it
But we will get thru it ig
I know I can make it
Anyone can, always
"Hey, promise me you won't leave me until we get marriage!" ... now you the one who leave me :)
Ham burger cheese burger big mac whopper with ice cream
it's been a while, and a lot of things have happened in my life. almost had weather like 2013 luckily nothing happened i finally got a new phone i finally get too relax
i just went to school to signing the petition of farewell school. after i signing the petition, i saw everyone socializing friends and i dont have any, and im really cried after i saw everyone have friends except me. i need to vent
I lost her. All of our friends sided with her in the end too. I have nothing left. 10 years of my life just tossed away in a matter of months. Every day is a struggle to wake up. I don't want to sleep, because I still see her and those moments we spent together in those dreams. I pray I don't wake up. I pray I don't have to face tomorrow, that God will take me in my sleep, that I don't have to keep hurting and thinking all of these awful thoughts.
But I am still here. I don't know why. I'm too weak to end it myself. But nobody will do it for me. I don't want to do this any more.
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
I miss me fr. I dont think ill get my old self back and i dont like this new me at all. I wish i could go back in time and change everything that made me end up the way i am.
Шедевры.
I know that all these comments will be the last thing I ever see. Each time we sleep, who we are is just a program that is turned off, ready for an almost identical copy to arise in the morning. When I was younger I used to stretch out the hours, knowing that I'd fall apart in that inky blackness.
Despite this, I am not afraid, you should not be afraid. You're not expendable, neither were they. We wake up to the chorus of thousands behind us, and thousands to come, we are I, we are the past, present and the future that we're working towards. This is why I can say that I love me, and you should love yourself too.
I dont know if i can become somethi I wasnt born as and still am not. People are so judgemental to other people, there is so much that to me makes sense and is valid but to others they describe in deragatory words. Like, being a person doesnt mean that there wont still be those that think lesser of you. But, i guess thats not my hangup, not why i want to become a person. Having those that do respect you, do reciprocate, have reasons to respect you and want to seek you out. Its fantasy, but its calming to daydream about. Being able to take it easy, and stl having someone to talk to. REALLY, talk to. Conversations with people are just say words and they respond if they feel like it. It feels as personal and emotion as character ai. Like im not talking to a person, im talking at them, ans they are humoring. Its not a conversation, im using them. They are getting nothing valuabke or enjoyable about it. They feel nothing from it, from me. The conversation only happened because I forced it.
I see others with friends. Every day i pray, subconsciously, conciously. Im putting money, good fuel, and suffering into improving my shell. I have to refrain from indulging in the angry thoughts I have. I pray something will indulge them for me. I dont like people.
At this point in only 19 years of life, I've long given up. I'm running through the motions; with a shot motivation and no real dream to catch outside of a one in a million shot. Around 4 years ago, finished a nasty divorce between my parents and that's probably where my "Life" could have probably be considered over. I am going to be honest, I may be in a casket at 25. Not because of some freak accident but because I don't see the point in moving on, I just don't. If I don't hit the one in a million shot, there's probably no way I can see myself through college. My parents themselves are the reason I'm like this, and the only one left can't see that at all because I've gotten too good at hiding my emotions. I just got into an argument with my aunt, the sister to my dead father about going to visit to his grave and how I can't. I will not say to them that I don't see myself past 25 unless a miracle happens. This day is one where I'm vulnerable so I'll pour everything out.
I'm a 19 y/o college student, addicted to food and some other shit that's NSFW as a way to find something I like. I'm someone who isolates myself to a point where I think it is an oddity if people see me without headphones on. I have no real skills that employers will want so unto the free market if I even make it I'll probably be dead to a blood disorder I have that I need either insurance or thousands of Dollars to take. So, maybe no one hears my empty, empty cry into the void but that's all.
I miss you too ❤
Forget and dream
I miss who we were before that night.
The truth is I don't miss her i miss the me before she came into my life
Real...
I don't really know how to write in English, so I'll go through a translator.
Honestly, I feel tired of all this going on around me. A little earlier... Okay, a year ago, in winter, in December or November, I felt so awful. Wanted to kill myself, huge social anxiety. I was afraid. Really afraid... What a shame that no one then and still doesn't understand, especially parents or relatives.
-Go to the store.
I'm sorry, Mom, I can't. I'm afraid of making a mistake, afraid of meeting someone. I'm afraid of these people, what if they do something to me?
I'm afraid of this life. I'm so tired of it.
No, I have friends. Even if it's on the internet, it's good for me that they don't see my face or voice (I think they are... horrible, I don't like my face or voice.) Yes... I love them, even if it hurts sometimes. I want to tear up at my own attachment and worthlessness. But I can't. I feel like I don't have the strength to do it anymore.
I feel better now. At least I was able to tell my mother in a message. Didn't help much. Huh. It's ironic that she... Well, “forcibly” dragged me to my least favorite place. Ooh, school. I don't like to be there because of the anxiety and nerves..
I'm so tired, I'm afraid of you, my friend. I'm afraid to say anything to you, whether you'll judge me or make fun of me. I trust you more than anyone, I'm just as afraid. I just think I'm tired of my obsession and whining.. Still, I'm going to him first. I want comfort, warmth, just a little bit.
I still think there will come a time when I'll be alone again. I don't feel safe at home... There's drinking here sometimes. Shouting, swearing, sometimes someone hits someone or throws objects.... I'm so sick of it.
My head is throbbing, now, I have suicidal thoughts less and less often. I don't know if it's because of the medication my psychiatrist prescribed me or.... the shrink? Maybe. But I don't feel any different. Yes, I laugh, I feel joy, but it still feels empty. No meaning, no purpose, no nothing.
I also really want a hug. No, no, not with my mother or some drunken man... I want that hug, that friend again, to feel safe, warm.
Night delirium. I feel isolated.
People and especially adults tell me I'm so put together for my age, that I've figured things out that took them until adulthood to figure out
I don't think that they comprehend that if I didn't let myself think, if I didn't let myself reflect or admit things to myself in my years of isolation, I would have genuinely lost my mind. it's like spending every single hour of every single day one-on-one with someone that you're keeping secrets from. If you don't tell them, it is *going* to end badly. When you've got only yourself for company, you get sick of being at odds with them.
I would not wish those 4 years of my life upon anyone, but I will not deny that it made me who I am. I still quite enjoy being on my own now, but unlike back then, I have a choice in the matter. And I'm happy with that.
To whoever sees this, hope you're doing well. And if you aren't, well that's okay too. I have faith you can figure it out
el aislamiento voluntario de una mente saturada.
лучший канал
its a fine day
awesome
Thank u for writing in Arapic ,, iam EGYPTIAN❤
у меня осталось 16 дней до совершеннолетия и это невыносимо плохо, потому что мне не следует доживать до такого большого (для меня) возраста. маленькая я разочарована в нынешней себе. а упущенное детство не вернуть. не вернуть не по той причине, что нельзя путешествовать во времени, просто нельзя вернуть то, чего не было
맞아. 난 혼자니까. 너는 친구들로 가득하고 나만 없어. 그래 나만 버려졌어.
today i was talking to my friends and i catched myself talking about some of the worst trauma of my life like it was gossip. its crazy how dissociated i am from it. i was giggling as i told them how a p3do who stalked me for 3 months showed me all the CP he has on his computer and his favourite spots in his room to m*nsturbate. and thats the tip of the iceberg, he did horrible things to me. i really need to talk about it with my therapist, i think it fucked me up more than i though.
*They think* we are stupid.
They think we are dumb.
They think we have no feelings.
They think we are always happy.
They think we understand their jokes.
They think their jokes didn’t hurt.
They think their jokes are funny.
They think we are overreacting.
They think we have some anger issues.
They think making fun of someone is good.
They think we are not telling the truth.
They think we are telling lies.
…
*We think* they are stupid.
We think they are dumb.
We think we have feelings.
We think we are always fake smiling.
We think jokes like those are bad.
We think their jokes hurt our feelings.
We think their jokes are hurting us.
We think we are overreacting.
We think we have lots of issues.
We think making fun of someone is heartbreaking.
We think we are being honest.
We think we are telling the truth.
???
*I think* im stupid. *I can’t solve a simple question, that’s okay.*
I think I’m dumb. *It’s kinda true.*
I think no one cares about my feelings. *It’s okay.*
I think I’m smiling a bit too much. *I should stop.*
I think they went too far with their joke. *It’s fine.*
I think their jokes won’t hurt. *It’s just a joke. Right?*
I think their jokes aren’t funny. *But i have to laugh. They’ll hurt me.*
I think im overthinking. *It’ll go away.*
I think i have some anger issues. *It’s gonna pop out of my mind soon.*
I think making fun of someone is good. *It’s just a joke.*
I think im telling the truth. *It takes time for them to believe.*
I think im telling lies. *It takes time.*
I think I have no friends. *I have some fake friends. It’s the same as having friends.*
I think I listen to vent music too much. *I’ll get rid of it in the future.*
I think I look at too much blood and gore. *It’s kind of entertaining..*
I think I have to hide something I don’t need to. *It’s only one time they’ll make fun of me, right?*
I think I have too many secrets. *I’ll show them when I’m older.*
I think I’m a spoilt brat. It’s fine. *I’m the youngest anyway.*
I think I won’t have a date. *Well, it’s too sexual anyway.*
I think I am lazy. *I lay in bed too much.*
I think I have social anxiety. *I got this at such a young age..*
I think I am crazy. *Why did I laugh when I almost broke my leg..*
!!!
*you think* no one is stupid.
You think no one is dumb.
You think everyone has feelings.
You think we are sometimes happy.
You think we sometimes don’t understand their jokes.
You think their jokes can hurt someone’s feelings.
You think jokes are sometimes funny.
You think we need some rest.
You think we need to calm down (the good way).
You think making fun of someone is extremely bad.
You think we are being honest.
And what happen tommorow ? It's leg day 💪
Disconnected from everything around
You only have so many hours remaining. Use 'em wisely.
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge, hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
--Diamond Dragons (book I)
i cut my finger with my soda can bro this sucks
IM IN CREDIT RECOVERY 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏😮💨
I've always been indecisive. And today i learned why. My friend group is slowly but surely falling apart.and today, my boy bsf got kicked out l ket's do 'c' for him,) C was my bsf since the start of 5th grade.and my other friends, (we'll use A, S, and J,) were the one's who, semi hate him, so they wanted him kicked out. And i agreed but didn't want C to know, so when they were going about to tell them i go:"keep my part out of this, i don't want to lose anymore friends." So S goes:"it's eith you choose J or C." So i was stuck thinking about it the whole day, I'm still thinking about it, i don't know what to do...
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
Ehhhhhh, pense que era un video sobe el aislamiento jaja, me timaron, pero estoy muy satisfecho
I MISS YOU TOO ❤
Damn
Ta buena 👍
If only it remained a feeling… How different things‘d be;
Silent Hill core
if the lord exists, he must really hate me.
I wanna find myself
honestly im so lost in life, so alone
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
I need success
Then do something
@@Ozzy-worsttaste im struggling 👑
Chustova is the most vile thing in our life, they give hope, they give pain, they bring us to the edge of the abyss, an abyss from which we often cannot escape. Chustova this is the biggest disappointment and the essence of everything
مين تشوستوفا؟
Im sitting and waiting for the sunset alone... My girlfriend and i were in a realy good relationship but now we had an arguement a big one and we decided to take a break.. We used to watch the sunset together we even watched the sunrise's sometimes. I feel alone and cant sleep for the last 3 days, might be my last days.. who knows
So sorry for my english please dont judge im a little tired and cant really text perfect rn
@@stealthgamer290 Your english is ok don't worry, listen I'm kinda going through the same thing right now so I might know what you feel like, these are not your final days my friend, you must stay strong, even if it feels like the end of the world better days are ahead and trust me they are coming, you are not alone
47:04 that was bad, the playlist was doing great, and i was loving it, but this song was a bad choice
Recently i reilized i was groomed by my bestfriend when i was in the fourth grade
I'm so tired today. I wrote to the girl I like a couple of minutes ago. We have a bad relationship and I feel so bad now, my jaw is shaking from nerves. I feel insignificant
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
@@supravietuitoriblog547 Thank you so much! U really helped me. I hope you're okay
I feel alone
Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?
im in love with you.