“i’m tired of booktube” & other assumptions about me
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- Опубліковано 26 лип 2024
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needed to film something chill this week and i promised you all i’d do another assumptions video, so here it is! i’ve been wanting to talk about some of these topics for a long time now so i hope you all enjoy this chatty video!
also i filmed this while running on 3 hours of sleep so please excuse how tired i look throughout this video 😩
thank you to everyone who sent in assumptions, i appreciate you very much 💓
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thank you so much for watching 💛
re: you still wanting to be a part of booktube - i can't wait to see new content from you in the future that reflects who you are now and what you're interested in now!
re: friendship breakups - i'll be ur friendship rebound
Cindyyyyy my queeennnn i love you!
cindy....😭🥺 i’d be honored
bestie, when are we hanging out??
Cindy showing her sweet inside under her fantastic cinical outside is the greatest thing of this day.
Not the collab we deserve but the collab we need...
May I please join this friend group? 😎🤠
Hearing a person of my age talk about how they've never dated and not express crippling shame because of that is everything to me ❤ Hope you're having a great day ^^
there’s no shame at all in not having dated 💗
How old is she again?
@@aeh5109 she’s 25 now i think?
My assumption: Hannah deserves the world. This is correct🌼✨
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You ain't never lie
Yes!!!😚😚
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That’s not an assumption it’s fact
“Have I ever dated anyone? No. But I give great dating advice” okay but why is that such a mood
I always feel such a warm sense of comfort watching your videos, and im so glad you’re making videos that you want and that reflect your interests and growth💕
My assumption: Hannah is a precious human. And yes, I am right. 😌💖
ily 🥺💓
“do I give excellent dating advice? yes, have I ever dated anyone? no” girl same
imagine being cool enough for your name to still be your name backwards?
Ok can we just TALK about her LED bookshelves like Miss Gurl styling.
yessss
Yes Hannah Is Styling! Those bookshelves are ✨
I feel like a lot of people can relate to losing friends during this pandemic, myself included, and it does really hurt and make you feel lonely. There were a good amount of people I could talk to about anything and count on, but now I feel very lonely too. But don’t worry, we’re not alone ♥️
U have magic words
"..people never talk about how painful it is to lose friends. Especially the friends you've had your whole life.."
I felt that😞
Same, same...
@@silviag.s.9894 omg I love your pfp. It's so cute!
@@trisblackthorn1122 Thank you so much! 💜
@@silviag.s.9894 :)
I am still a bit confused: does she mean losing her friend cause they're dead or because they have betrayed her or something?
I relate so much to the part about losing friendships and yes, people generally should value friendship a lot more and how much it hurts to lose some friendships, sometimes even more than a breakup with a romantic partner.
I also lost a friendship last year and although we didn't know each other for too long, it took me about 6 months to really get over it to a point where I wouldn't constantly think about it.
"It's not worth it. It's not life. It's not living. This is living and this is worth it." Yes Hannah!! Thank you!
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don’t you just love when you come onto youtube for no reason and one of your favorite youtubers posted within the last 5 minutes. that’s what happened to me. but imagine that happening with your all-time favorite youtuber. also happened to me :)
my assumption is that you're an icon and a star ⭐💜
🥺 were all stars here, it’s our own little galaxy
(I’m sorry that was so cheesy lollllll)
@@AClockworkReader ahh that reminds me of mikrokosmos
It is true that friendship break up hurt on another level. I stopped being friends with one person six years ago and still sometimes grief is so overwhelming. I feel like I can’t breathe. More people need to talk about this because sometimes we don’t feel like this loss and this trauma is important enough and that so WRONG. This pain never truly goes away...
“Because this is my channel, and everything’s about me.”
-Hannah 2021
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I started crying when you talked about feeling isolated because I relate so much. Thank you for being so open with us
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Her voice is so relaxing 😌✨
I totally agree with you about the loneliness and losing friends this past year. I lost someone I used to call a best friend and it was a really hard thing to go through.
i’m so sorry you had to go through that ♥️
sending lots of love
As someone in recovery from disordered eating, hearing you talk about it makes me want to happy cry, not only that you're feeling better but that it's possible to get better and to not obsess over food.
I feel like losing and re-assessing friendships right before/during lockdown has been even more painful than usual because quarantine is already incredibly isolating but then when you start losing the only connections you have it feels like everything around you is crumbling. Plus it’s hard to meet new people who may turn into friends during this time. It’s difficult but at least we can find solace in fictional characters 😂 me and my book boo thangs are just chilling in the meantime
You have such a warm aura. When I’m stressed and lonely or scared about life, sometimes I just go to your channel to watch your videos because you’re so kind and calm. I wish we were friends- we have so many interests in common!
I have “had” a eating disorder and when you talked about it I cried.😭😭 Hannah thank you. Thank you. I am doing better because I found you on UA-cam. You deserve the world!!
The friendship part hit me so hard. I also had a friendship breakup last year and it shattered me, I isolated myself from everyone even other close friends because of the fear that breakup instilled in me. I hate this but it'll work out for the best, just some patience and healing.
"lately i have been incredibly stressed" such a mood, but seriously though, i hope you're okay :))
i am!! just trying to get enough sleep loll
I love how raw and honest you are ❤️
I also went through a friendship breakup, and it's SO hard. I'm glad you brought it up because, as you said, it isn't talked about.
Yup, losing friends or growing apart really sucks and I feel like everyone goes through it a little bit as they get older. It's understandable, things change, people change, priorities change but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.
I'm so glad you're doing better in terms of your eating disorder, I'm so proud of you and you should be too!
What you said about losing friends... Couldn't agree more!
Your channel was the one who got to me into reading books I discovered booktube because of you.. I am so glad your posting more...Your fantastic 🤩😊
This exactly what happened to me!
Same lol
I'm in a similar state with my eating disorder, it's barely present anymore. I even stopped going to therapy last month. I really appreciate you talking about it.
ahh im glad we're getting all sorts of content like this that you seem to enjoy doing
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Thank you for talking about your experience with your disorder. I have an OCD disorder. It's obviously different from yours but when you described how it comes under stress and other times is exactly like my experience. I also never thought I would get to the other side. It really shows you the strength and power of what mental illness over someone. But also the power of human perseverance to strength and love to push through and live their lives.
"Video will be up in a few" equals refreshing Hannah's channel until the magic appears
thank you for talking about friendship breakups! i went through one at the start of the pandemic with someone i told practically everything to, and losing her was one of the hardest things i had to deal with. it took me 4 months to get to a state where the thought didn't bother me every day, and 8 to get to the point where i barely think of her. friendship breakups can be so painful and they should seriously be addressed more often. i hope you're doing better now
I've been a silent viewer of yours for a while, but I don't really watch "personal" content from booktubers like Q&As or vlogs (really just here for the books lol).
This video auto-played while I was doing my nighttime skincare and the next thing I knew it was done. I was so drawn to everything you were saying. You are an incredible human, Hannah! You've got a new subscriber!
P.S. Your voice is sooooo calming, too!
As a person who has lost friends (mostly due to them changing in some not so healthy ways), I’ve had to start looking at it as people are meant to come into your life- some for a season and some for hopefully longer. I’ll cherish the times I had with them, because at that time it was fun and good. I just have to remember them as the person in those memories..
This video was perfection!
The way I connected to the loss of friends this past year made me feel not alone.
Ending with the dancing was the cherry on top of an already amazing banana split lol
Yes losing friends is way worse than a freakin relationship for sure.
Not always true. Depends on how strong your emotional connection and bond was with either person. Mine is stronger with my boyfriend than my former friend who just stopped being friends with me because we’ve outgrown each other. Still sucks but losing him since he’s also my best friend would be way worse.
@ Reversi That's true, I feel like romantic relationships are valued over any other relationship these days. Friendships have heartbreaks too and they sometimes hit harder
I've basically lost all my friends over the past few years due to them leaving me when I became chronically ill, I even lost friends I've known my whole life and thought would never leave me but they did and it hurts so much! And I get how you feel about trust and how you're afraid to let people getting back into your life
I’ve been in great romantic relationships and really bad ones, but nothing has broken my heart more than my friendship breakups. It’s created trust issues and self-worth doubts. And you are right, it’s not spoken about enough.
Your thoughts on this topic made me feel seen and less alone, so thank you😘
This may be random and I may be a few days late watching this video and I never commented on your videos ever but you Haliey and Zoe who I follow faithfully on UA-cam, made me pack up the courage to pursue someone who’s a book nerd and love booktube and have kinda the same interest. Where I come from there is not a lot of people who are interested in books and other things. Even though I haven’t had success yet I just wanted to thank you guys for always giving me courage. I know you don’t know me at all, but since losing my father at a young age, born with sickle cell (which is a blood disorder in the hospital more then home) and losing my mom to cancer while being the only child, I want to thank you and thank you guys for getting me through the dark times, for getting me through being in the hospital and pain, and to have courage to get through things. You guys are the best. And just thank you for all that you have done. I don’t have social media so sorry for the long post. Stay awesome, stay amazing and stay beautiful. P.s would you mind telling the other girls I mentioned in this post that I said and that I thank them as well. If not I understand. I hope I get a response from you but I know your a busy person but I hope you do read this at least. Thank you once again
thanks for the distraction - I’m still on my chain of iron hangover :,)
Literally watching this made me smile so much. I hope you continue to make what you want ☺️
THE QUEEN HAS POSTED ❤️
I can relate so much to your words on “recovery”. I have so much time now to think of other things, to be at peace, to be happy, to learn and laugh and even be sad about other things. It makes me want to cry of joy. I’m so proud of you. Keep going.
i love how open you are 🥺growing with your content is so important! i love all the videos you posted a few years back and i love it all now, keep doing what makes you happy! ♡
I just love your calm and relaxing personality 😌💕 It always puts me in a good headspeace
I’ve lost friends in the past year too so I understand how hard it is! It helps watching this and reading the comments to know how so many other people are dealing with similar situations
Youvoice is so healing and comforting... I listened to this video while drawing and I feel relaxed now
Your channel was one of the first I ever watched on booktube and you have continued to inspire me! Can’t wait to see any new content you put out that reflects your changing tastes and just who you are now! 💜💜
You are literally like a big sister to me and I’m sure others feel the same, you are so unbelievably strong and to see you grow has been such a pleasure🌻🧡
I am so happy you are doing better with your ED!!!!!!! I’m so proud of you! I know that not every day is a good day, but you can do it!! 💕💕💕 from one anxiety guy to another
Yep - the pandemic has really enabled us to slow down and consider which friendships are actually important to us. You are not alone with that. Plus as you age, you find that your social circle starts to get smaller. There’s a great saying “friends for a season, friends for a reason, friends for life”. As you lose some friendships, it will make way for new people to come into your life.
Your dancing skills are just *chefs kiss* also i absolutely love your reading vlogs, especially your recent ones, they've been fantastic and just seeing someone else scream over a book makes me feel like seen somehow, idk.
I just wanted to say thank you for talking about the friendship breakups, and how much hurt they can cause- it's something I never see talked about, and recently, I've been through a few major friend breakups, and hearing you talk about this really did make me feel like I wasn't so alone- so thank you!
i am so happy to hear about how you're feeling now in regards to yourself and your body. you are genuinely so beautiful and we have ALWAYS seen that in you, even when it's so hard to see it for yourself. so so proud of you hannah- you give me hope
i cant even explain how emotionally intelligent and introspective you are. im so glad ur doing better, it makes me so happy
You're so incredibly beautiful 🖤 I'm so happy that you are posting more again. I obviously don't know all the comments you get but I feel like you have a really supportive and positive community where you can make new and book unrelated content but everyone still loves you and everything you do (ar least I do)
i love your videos so much and i’m so happy for you. friendship breakups are hard we’re here for you😔🤍
I experienced some friend breakups this past year too, and it’s definitely a feeling that should be exposed more. I would argue it hurts just as much or more than romantic relationships. And anyone that has experienced that this year, you’re valid and seen, and things will get better. Hang in there ❤️
I can completely relate to lingering thoughts about having an eating disorder. I suffered through the same thing about 6 years ago and those thoughts are still there, but getting to a place of contentment is so worth it! Glad to hear that you are reaching that peace!
Thank you so much for talking about friendship breakups, seriously so relatable 😕 it’s been years and I still struggle making friends because you just loose trust after loosing people that you thought would always be there😔 hugs💓
I love how comfortable you are talking about these assumptions. It is fun to get to know you a bit better each time I watch a video of yours. You’re the best 💓✌️
Hannah, thank you for posting! I appreciate you and your content so much. You opening up about friendship breakups hit me very close to home, and I wanted to share something a good friend once told me: pain is the price of love, and even though you mourn the loss of a friend that you once were close to, that loss in your life can be filled with new love. New experiences. We can’t diminish the pain we feel from it, but we can be hopeful, too. You’re a lovely person, and anyone would be extremely lucky to have you as a friend! I’m sorry you feel lonely, but know that you’re never truly alone❤️
Hannah gussing about her name is so wholesome.
Hannah, just wanted to tell ily🥺❤
Seeing you in a better place mentally makes me sooo happy!❤
It's such a peaceful experience to watch your videos. I can never explain how much calm I feel after watching you speak about anything. I always wish that we could have been friends in real life.
Stay strong and take care, Hannah! 💜
I remember you posting that video about your ED and how I was so heartbroken for you and now seeing you just getting so much better and literally glowing?? no I'm not crying you are and that dance was SO CUTE AHHH
Hannah you are wonderful. We can definitely see that you are working hard. You have already said that you are working on something big. You deserve all the love in the world. Please don't beat yourself up. Personally speaking I get happy and excited with anything you post. Love you❤
Edit: Her dancing was sooooo cute😍😍
Hannah you are so inspiring. I also know what it’s like to struggle with ED I’ve had many ups and downs, and lately I’ve come to the realization that I am perfect just the way I am. I love your UA-cam and can’t wait to see what you do in the future.
hahahah that dance was so cute Hannah. I can’t wait to see new videos from you!
I can relate to losing friends. I slowly lose contact with a few of my friends since last year, but same as you I feel it already started even before the pandemic. I feel like the most painful one is the one that there’s nothing wrong with the friendship, but we just dont have anything in common anymore and just slowly growing apart. But I do believe that people leave so there’s more room for new people to come into your life ❤️
what you said about your ed really touched me. you are truly an inspiration and i hope to be where you are one day! so happy you're doing better xo
I love you so much Hannah!!! I discovered Booktube because of you!! You were the one that brought me back to my first love: Books!! I forgot how much I used to read and how much I love it 🧡🧡🧡
I can totally relate to the isolation feeling and losing friends- it is so so hard and it hits you at random times, all the memories that you shared, it hurts that it went down this way. I hope you are well and will recover from the loses. I wish everyone the best of luck, we can get through this ❤️
I’m so glad to hear you are doing so well 💓🥺
I have known you for 4 years and you are the reason i got into booktube..book world in general and you have changed my life for the best and i cant thank you enough for that. And all these years through all your ups and down u still remain one of my favriout person. You are beautiful and strong and kind and I adore you , you have given so much to this community. And you deserve the world♥️Never give a second thought to people assumption. Like reading is for fun to enjoy not to impress somebody u dont post doesntbmean you dont love reading! God save these dump people🤦♀️
I just get this boost of serotonin when I watch your videos!!!!
you’re such an inspiration for me, thanks for everything 🤍✨
You talking about your eating disorder made me cry. I have only just began feeling better after my own eating disorder and everything that you said about it is 100% how I felt and it’s so lovely to hear someone talk about the things that I cannot express without glorifying this horrible, horrible disorder. Not that you need it, but I am sending you lots of love and strength to keep going!!! 💕
"Your eating disorder is not worth it"
My new life quote. I don't have an eating disorder, but I have other consuming thoughts and this.... I really needed this 🥰
I just want you to know that you are my first and my favourite booktuber. I love the way you talk, you express your own opinion, the way you try best. I always think that you are a wonderful person, and yes you are.
And everything will be fine...just be happy.
you're so beautiful inside and out, always stay happy.
Honestly your tangent about friends, I really felt that. It was really comforting to hear that someone else felt the same way and I'm sorry you've been going through such a hard time. Also, I've always been a big fan of your videos, and as for the thing about trying to find your place on booktube, I'm super excited to see what kind of content you'll create in the future. I think most of your subscribers subscribe for you as a person, and I think I speak for all of when I say we'd watch videos of you boiling water so long as you were in it.
Great to learn more about you ❤️ losing friendships is definitely hard but you're not alone in this!
Aww, I've just started watching your videos. You have such a lovely demeanour and very interesting things to say. I'm also in ED recovery and I like how you say that the thoughts never go away. It's incredibly tough and i hope you're giving yourself credit for how far you've got
Hey Hannah,
I feel you are happier and better(mentally) compared to 2020, and seeing this, I kinda feel happy. Seeing you working hard, motivates and inspires me. So, thank you so much for making content and honestly, all the new videos you are trying in 2021 are great.
xoxo
Vedangi
feeling lonely and like you have no one to talk to is how i’ve felt for so long! that’s why i left booktube for awhile. i’ve been desperate to come back for months, but it’s scary and difficult. but your videos always inspire me to be better. thank you for your honesty, Hannah. i’m so glad you’re not going anywhere & i can’t wait to support you for the rest of my life. 💞
i can totally relate to how difficult and earth shattering friendship breakups can be and how nearly impossible it is to open up to people afterwards. I am so glad to see you are doing better because Hannah deserves all the good things
went through the same exact thing with friends this year. a definite side effect to the whole working on yourself thing. you’re not alone.
Yes I completely agree with your thoughts on friendship and how it hurts so much to grow distant from friends. People definitely don’t talk about or acknowledge that enough.
I love how honest you always are with your emotions in your videos and how deeply you feel things. It’s what always keeps me coming back to your videos and finding so much comfort in them. 🤧
Also I loved your boy with luv dance! lol 💜
Thank you so much for just being you Hannah. I loved your makeup.💕
Last time I was this early, we were still in lockdow- oh wait
queen you're absolutely right about being in a reading slump, i've been in one for months. everyone does. even the people who question you abt not reading books. anyways, you look gorgeous. i love you.
I think it's so cool that you want to make videos that you feel like making. I'm here for whatever makes you happy honestly.
HANNAH YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOUR CHANNEL!!!!!!!!!
The ending dance is everything 🥺❤
OMG I've never been this early to anything in my life. We're connected, girl. I literally opened youtube and this video had been posted 25 sec ago. Holy shit
So good to hear from you! May many good things keep coming your way -- and keep up the good work, girl!