OMG......Cory......I cried.......God bless you......and Chell, you have an amazing, awesome, terrific, beautiful, loving, happy, fantastic, childlike, wonderful Dad and Mom!!!!!! I love you both and I don't even know you.....
This video touched my heart because my mother has a very similar story. Her real dad was a alcoholic and didn't want her or her brother. Her mom eventually got married to her highschool sweet heart and his name is also Larry and he is the best grandpa I could ever ask for!
Same this video made me think about my mom who yes cross the boarder and walk all the way to Nebraska to meet her brother and have a better life not knowing a single english word. She even knew how to drive just by reading, However when I think about her, it's like thinking about a stranger. Because by the time I when to school she had a tumor in her brain. Adding in that she would try to kill my dad and threaten him to leave before she call the police. Then she died in the hospital by the end of 5th grade.
Awww... I cried when he said his Dad died.... And I felt so bad when he told us about his biological father 😭 I was gonna say I was early... But's it doesn't feel right. This was a very sweet video tho, I'm glad you saw those pictures of Larry.
Dude, I am crying and this just started. My two oldest kids lost their dad at age 5 and 3. I too was advised that they were too young to go to the funeral. That is terrible advice, even young children need closure. I'm still crying, pictures like these are the most precious memories. My kids have closure now, they are 28 and 25. I was a young mother, I'm 46 now, and my daughter (28) just got married last October, and my husband, her step-dad, who is her dad in every way now, carried a picture of Amanda and Ryan's dad down the aisle with him, as he was walking with my daughter. It's a sweet memory of her wedding that only a few of us know about, but her love for her step dad increased just knowing he cared enough to find a way to include her father who could not physically be there. I'm so glad you have closure now, in the death of Larry and you can look back on your memories of your dad and remember the good times, laugh at the fun and are no longer hit with sudden grief . New life always brings healing, sometimes in ways we didn't even realize we were broken.
I can't bear to see photos of me as a kid. I think many of us who come from difficult childhoods and broken families feel this way........you are very fortunate to have finally found closure. I think you know the mourning process is over when you can look at photos of the loved one who is gone without feeling such an overwhelming amount of emotion that you have to look away. Super vlog btw :)
I am so happy you have reached this point, bless Larry for being your dad because he wanted to. You will find no boundaries in the amount you love your child , it is endless. Xxx
once again this quote makes a lot of sense "The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do.''
I feel so emotional with dad/son stories and I really don't know why, I have an amazing dad and even though I get myself crying over this. I am sure you'll be the best dad for Chell!
Really impressed with your candor here about your family history and connections. It is very hard to open up about this stuff, you're a very resilient person Cory and we love you for it.
Its been amazing to see you become a loving father to Chell. You definitely carried that trait from Larry, blood or not, he is your father. & To see you happy with your baby girl just brings joy to my heart❤️😊
Awwww that was such a lovely video. The man I call "Daddy" is not my biological Father either but he's the only one that I would ever give that title to. He's amazing. Such a lovely, heart warming video. Lee x
Cory, as someone who's followed you for a long time, (I saw your 'Realest Vlog Ever' you did when you lived back in California talking about all the people you miss) I'd just like to say I'm super happy for you that you've finally get some form of closure for that time in your life. It is a new beginning for you and I couldn't be happier. Keep up the great work, mate.
I had to wipe away tears from my eyes more than once watching this. Such a beautiful realization, such a beautiful message to send out in the world. ..especially for those of us who were around when you started talking about these things, back in California. I don't buy the "everything's changed from one day to another", but i totally buy and understand the idea and the emotions behind what you're saying, and i'm SO freaking happy for you. Thinking about anything else to say makes me tear up again, so i'll stop. Hugs and tons of love.
I'm so glad Larry was part of your life, and could teach you love. He would be so proud of you no matter what, but I think he is amazed at how far you've come in your life. I'm glad your mom could escape your father, that is a terrible thing and it can really eff you up in the weirdest ways. It appears to me that Kristen is a true stabilizing and positive force in your life. I'm glad you have your family around you, they are so good for you, and you for them. I'm so happy to hear that this big pain is healed. Live and love!
That was incredibly touching, and very moving. I'm so glad that you're in this place in life, Cory. You're an amazing dad with an amazing wife and the cutest little baby I've ever seen. I know your dad would be proud of you! I know we all are!
Cory, I am so happy that you found peace in your heart and love to fill that hole in your being. I was wondering why you didn't vlog for a while, however, I now know you needed this special week with your mom and family to yourself. nothing but respect and love for you guys!! :)
Cory, this is what "knowing"is. Some get it early in life. Some get it from an event. Sadly, some never get it until they cross over. I sincerely thank you for being comfortable enough to share it with us all. Do you feel a little taller now? Sorta like your feet are a little tiny bit above the ground? May the Creator bless your entire family, scooter!
Took me and my Father years to finally connect, and when we did, he died. Gladly my mother was a pro at being both Mom and Dad for me when i needed her to be. Great story from you!
My father was an alcoholic and never around and my mom was very abusive. I knew when I had kids it was up to me to not play the victim, accept it, and break the cycle. By doing so I have been able to rewrite my childhood through them which has been so healing and feeing. Throw your fists in the air and give a good victory scream at the world. Your hurt has been healed. So happy for you! I just love the 3 of ya! You 2 are amazing parents and doing it exactly right.
that was beautiful! I am having trouble thinking thru my tears. The pictures show a happy little boy with a wonderful father. Blessings to you and your wonderful family.
Aww Cory! I lost my step dad (main dad) 5 years ago to a motorcycle accident. That pain... So happy for you to just feel all the love you are experiencing! I LOVE your channel! Baby Chell is one blessed baby to have you two and momma and daddy!
Wow. I can tell just from the photos of Larry that he was a better guy for you. I think he would love you and your family so much if he were still here.
I'm sorry about your loss and glad you turned a new chapter. I can relate to this because I lost my beloved cat over a year ago; it took about a year to heal. I know that she'll be there in my heart; like Larry is in your heart
As a long time viewer I can say I have noticed you are completely happy and it shows! I totally understand where your sister is coming from in her anger about not ever getting to meet Larry though. I know you've talked about him before but briefly and today in this video although you were emotional I didn't see as much pain in your eyes are you talked about him. xo
Thank you so much for your Story of your live . So Sorry for your loss . Its touching my heart over and over . I wish my kids get over theire Story too one day . They went through a similar story . Glad to have them by my side and fill them up with all my unconditional love . Thank you for giving back the hope we sometimes are searching for . That helps us a lot . I hope all those drinking Dads learn one day what a mess they leave behind towards theire kids !! Enjoy Chell with every heartbeat ♥She is a happy Baby to have you both as her Parents !!
Larry was a lucky man to have you for his son. You honour him by being such a great father to Chell.Your sister's issues are hers alone. Just be there when she realises what an amazing brother she has.Love you all, blessings, Chris
Ugh the tears.. seriously. Larry sounded like such an amazing guy.. He's one of those miracle people that walk around looking to make peoples lives brighter and so much better when hard times show up. Your family's hard time was like a beacon for him to come in and make it so so so much better and happier. I'm glad he was there for you and your mom.. Much
Congrats on the closure Corey. When I lost my grandad the vicar said something that has always stuck with me. "When we lose someone who owned a piece of our hearts they take it with them. This is why we feel loss. When we accept others into our hearts they take another piece but leave a piece of their own to close the gap. When we leave this earth we join our loved ones and take back our missing pieces. There is then a piece left from the loved one left behind. This is then sent back to earth to enable a new person to fill the gap you leave behind. The cycle continues. And we all leave the earth will hearts full and touched by many." I'm not sure if you are religious. Personally I'm agnostic. But I like to believe that when I die, I will have touched many hearts as I know they have touched mine.
I have very few memories of my dad. Like 3-4 of them. He was either at work on the USAF Basses we lived at OR on a 6 month posting away from us. So I was usually asleep when he was home. They divorced when I was 3 1/2 - 4. I saw him less than a handful of times afterwards in person. NEVER got to know him as an adult. He lived in Florida and I in Ohio. And being too poor to actually visit him. Random phone calls were all that we got. So I had a huge cry when he died almost 7 years ago. I was at a Buddhist meeting talking about it, and I burst into tears that lasted a good 10 minutes of uncontrolled sobs. Shocking the members there. So I understand a little.
I'm glad you had a "dad" like Larry, Cory. I know he looking down on Chell and watching over her along with you and Kristen. May he ride free forever!!!
Now you left me sobbing on my couch!😢 So sorry for your loss but it's wonderful that you had someone like that in your life💙 Thank you as always for being so open and honest
I remember you talked about Larry years ago in a vlog. It's good that you finally have filled the "void" inside you. My dad died when I was 6, and it's still difficult to think about sometimes, but you are the best proof I have that one day I too can get the same feeling you talked about!
Cory, There has been one thing that you have done since Chell has been born, You have grown up, not physically, but emotionally. You are a dad and with this, your whole perspective on life has changed. Gone are those goofy skits that we all have watched, now is a new goody, but with you being a dad. We all are here going along for this ride!
Cory, you will carry on in Larry's footsteps, and in that way, he will never really be gone. He was a great dad to you, just as you are and will always be a great dad to Chell (and all of your future babies).
Thankyou Cory for sharing this story. It has made me feel tons better about a situation in my life. I lost my father 3 years ago and the anniversiary of his passing was last month. I usually lock myself away from the world, play his favourite music and cry all day. But this year I got out of the house, did normal things and felt okay about it. I still thought about him all day but I didn't cry, not once. Thinking back on it Ive felt guilty wondering why didn't I cry? I still love and miss him. Watching this vlog has helped me realise that I did nothing wrong. You never get over losing someone you love but eventually you come to terms with it and the pain eases into much happier memories. Loving your vlogs, sending lots of love from England to you Kristen, Chell and the fur babies :D ❤
The funny thing is, a few days ago I was watching some old videos you've posted. It's like watching a completely different person. Becoming a dad yourself helped you gain unexpected closure. That's a wonderful thing!
This is such an ode to life and healing even in the wake of something seemingly unbearable. But Corey found that way of patching himself and filling that hole through living and seeking his path by finding Kristen and having Chell. You are living proof of hope and to have shared such a special moment at that very spot where you and your mom and Larry were photographed knowing that he was there to hear the news is so beautiful. While heartbreaking that Larry couldn't physically be there, his spirit lives on whether in the Alaskan mountains, or right in your home next to his granddaughter. And Kristen, you're so supportive and sweet I just love you two together and I am so happy your paths led right to each other and I can't wait to see what else is in store for you two. Here's to life!!!
You have discovered the best part of being a Dad or Mom! You feel connected to the best of your parents. You strive to be the best you can be to you, your wife and child and you remember the best in your parents. I'm so happy for you and wish peace for all of you.
Yeah, I think I kind of know what Cory was talking about. My brother died when I was 3 and he was 4. One night he had a brain aneurysm and was rushed to the hospital where he was put on life support for a couple of weeks, before my parents decided, after the doctors recommendation, to pull the plug. The day he left for the hospital was the last time I ever saw him. I don't remember when I was finally told of his passing, but my mother told me that I kept demanding that she bring my brother back. Despite being a year apart, he and I were inseparable and completely like minded. I can recall some specific events from our time together, much like still frames from the past more than complete memories, but I know I've never been closer to someone else like I was to him. Now I am 42 and I still do not and will probably never have my closure. I know there is a distinct difference between a sibling and a parent, so I do not know exactly what Cory has gone through, but like I said, I think I kind of do.
Who started cutting onions in my house just now?! Seriously Cory, I can't imagine that kind of pain; that scar you had for so long. But being a parent myself, I feel you man. I've thought you to be an awesome dude these last 8 years I've watched your SMP films, Mean Kitty and now with these vlogs with your wonderful family! You truly have become the dad you had. Stay awesome dude!
It takes a lot of courage to sit there and talk about your past like you did in this Vlog. You have become the dad you are today because of having Larry in your life. Just to think what if he hadn't been there. So happy for you and your beautiful family :)
Not been a great year for me, just recently lost contact with someone important... but through all the shit that life threw at me, I kept smiling, I kept smiling because I always had your shenanigans to laugh at. Thanks to you, Cory, I didn't fall back into that pit I had just crawled out of.
Chell gets more and more adorable each and every time we see her. Also, Alaska is more and more beautiful with each new season that comes along and the places you show in these vlogs continue to take my breath away! You guys are living a truly blessed life! Sending you lots of love from Oklahoma!
I guess this proves it, Men can cry too. The tribute to Larry was awesome, and to know that void is filled with loving your own child and the feeling of being a dad makes it all better. I think you are going to be a lot like Larry, since he is such a father figure in your life. In a way I feel like you already are...
Oh, Cory and Kristen, thank you for sharing this story with us. You are right. Being a parent changes a body - hopefully for the better. You are all three so blessed. You love each other so much and you are loved by so many people across the globe. Your vlogs should be on school curricula, to teach young people how to treat each other. Your parents (including Larry) should be proud of you... and of themselves. As others have written, they did a great job of raising you. Love to you all.
Healing is an amazing thing. It's funny how it comes when you least expect it, but it's one of the most freeing feelings ever. Larry showed you what it meant to be a dad. And while his time with you was short, it was so impactful that it shapes the man you are today. Congrats, Cory.
Love is like a seed... When planted and nurtured and cared for properly it grows and grows! And when you have another baby, you'll wonder how you can possibly love it as much as Chell. But magically, it's almost as though you gain more love to give and have and feel! I LOVE this vlog!
Lost my father this past November. It tore me up more than anything ever has. I kind of just put a wall up and didn't let anyone over. I was doing bad in school while trying to cope with the grief and it was just a battle that couldn't be won. Or so I thought. Seeing you get through what you've experienced, it gives me hope that this stuff will heal in certain aspects. You're a true inspiration to many, and I'm so glad you share your life with me and everyone else. Stay golden dude!
Awesome inspiration, I just landed in Alaska last night and feel pumped to go build my grandparents cabin now more than ever. Family is everything, love you guys
It's amazing what babies can do and how they can help heal the pieces that were broken. My son did that for me. The day after he was born we lost my grandpa, my Papa, the man who was there for me through thick and thin. Jaxen helped heal the immense hurt, quickly.
What a lovely, poignant story to share with the world. I'm so elated for you, Kristen and Chell. I DID cry... I also want to say that Chell is looking more beautiful as the days go by. I find myself wandering through the baby departments remembering all the things I bought for my daughter and wanting to buy them for Chell. Warm hugs to you all.
I'm a silent viewer, but that was SO emotional for me to watch. My father was also an abusive drunk. My first memories in life are very similar to yours. Fortunately my mother remarried and my stepfather raised me as his own. I consider him my dad. He's amazing and I'm so lucky. Love, no DNA required :) I love watching your vlogs guys. Hello from Manitoba Canada :)
Cory, I'm not sure how I missed these vlogs, but this one made me cry, so hard. I'm still crying in fact. My biological father was abusive too. But he was abusive with me. I was his little girl, and he did things to me, that no child should ever have to live through. Sadly many have, and do, and live in fear, and in silence, every day. I am so thankful to my mom, for getting me, and my brother out of that terrible situation. My mom wasn't able to keep it together, for very long, after she made him leave, as she had been one of those children who lived in fear, and in silence, back when she was a child, also. With what happened to me, all of her abuse came flooding back to her, and she had to send us into the care of other people, while she went through extensive psychotherapy. My brother and I had many people who cared for us, from our church. And one couple who was not from our church. That couple, and a few others, I still call Mom & Dad. I can understand the pain that you were/are in, and also, the same pain, that your sister has. I never knew my "dad"... because all he ever was to me, was a monster. My brother had him for 6 years, before I was born, and he had a great early childhood. Even after I was able to tell my mom what was happening, it took 2 years, and me telling her again, that it was happening, so, my brother had a father for 12 years, and I had a monster for 6. He still resents me, for taking that away from him. I don't even think he realizes what that resentment stems from, but I do. My brother hates our father, and he resents me, because before me, life was fine. He did not have the amount of therapy that I had to go through. I went for 9 and a 1/2 years, sometimes twice a week. He would go once a month, and he felt like he didn't really need to go. He never dealt with his resentment, and his feelings of anger toward our father, or toward me. So, he and I have a very strained relationship. I hope, that one day, it gets better. But idk, what the future holds. He thinks I'm his stupid little sister, and that my insight is a load of crap. I think he's an amazing man, husband, and father to his own children. He is also a police officer, like our one Foster Dad, and he puts scumbags, like our real dad, in prison, not EVERY DAY, but often. That's one of the main reasons he wanted to become a police officer, in the first place... so that he could make a difference in the lives of others, when he felt like he couldn't make a difference in the lives of his own family. I'm so proud of the man that he has become, in spite of the man who sired him. Our Foster Dad made a huge difference in my brother's life, and helped to mold him into the man he is today. I'm so glad that you had Larry in your life. And I'm sorry that he was taken from you too early. ((Hugs, all around))
absolutely LOVED this video. I could feel the emotion and it gave me chills! I lost my dad when I was 4 and the little memories I have of him will be cherished throughout my lifetime. its nice looking at old photos. And with the videos you're making now, Chell will cherish those when she gets older.
I loved this, Cory!! Thank you for sharing! I was starting to tear up when you were showing pic of Larry. So sweet. When I was 18 my mom passed away. For me the tears come and go at different times. So maybe this time you didn't cry but maybe the next time you look at them you will. Thank you again for sharing your stories about Larry!! God Bless you all!!
Do you know what's interesting? This vlog didn't make me cry. As a matter of fact I've never smiled more during a video. This makes me happy and really happy for you guys!
Larry looked like a fun, silly, and awesome dude. I'm glad he was able to show you what a real dad is and does (including gettin' spankin's sometimes) while he was on this Earth. My heart goes out to your mom because I'm sure she was devastated by Larry's death. I think she did what she thought was best for you. I'm so happy for you and all that you have accomplished in the last few years. You are so blessed to have Kristen and Chell. They are blessed to have such an attentive, caring, loving, devoted, silly, fun, and awesome husband and dad!!! xoxo
Thank you for sharing this. I and my brother went through something very similar. When my father died (of cancer) I remembered the phone call from the hospital but I was not allowed to go to the funeral either so I too never had the closure which followed me for years - my brother was told by an uncle that "he was the man of the house now so he had to be strong for our mom and me" that was probably the cruelest thing you could tell an 11 year old boy who had just lost his closest friend. I had a hard time for years but he had it so much worse, as he never got the chance to mourn for our dad. I feel that when he had his daughter he too was able to heal some and before he died we too had reached a point where we could communicate with each other and actually have a good relationship but he suffered depression for years. Cory, I am so happy for you and Kristen with that beautiful baby girl - I know from personal experience having children is the best.
Thankyou for sharing, Chell will always have Larry watching over her. Maybe you could write a heartfelt letter to your sister and explain how you feel, you could even enclose some photos of your beautiful daughter. She won't be mad at you she's just upset at the situation
Thank you for sharing this with us. I hope that you and your sister will be healed in your relationship and that your sister will find peace regarding her own pain. I know it can happen.
OMG......Cory......I cried.......God bless you......and Chell, you have an amazing, awesome, terrific, beautiful, loving, happy, fantastic, childlike, wonderful Dad and Mom!!!!!! I love you both and I don't even know you.....
Agreed. 😢
well said! X
+Tracy Edwards agree😭😭😢😢😥😥😪
I'm just saying, not to be rude, but you forgot Kristian
+Kill Zone Outdoors Re-read it, and you'll find that I didn't forget Kristen, alias "Mom".....
Larry lives. You're him, and he is you. You are the same kind of dad. Chell is going to have such an awesome life!
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This video touched my heart because my mother has a very similar story. Her real dad was a alcoholic and didn't want her or her brother. Her mom eventually got married to her highschool sweet heart and his name is also Larry and he is the best grandpa I could ever ask for!
Same this video made me think about my mom who yes cross the boarder and walk all the way to Nebraska to meet her brother and have a better life not knowing a single english word. She even knew how to drive just by reading, However when I think about her, it's like thinking about a stranger. Because by the time I when to school she had a tumor in her brain. Adding in that she would try to kill my dad and threaten him to leave before she call the police. Then she died in the hospital by the end of 5th grade.
So happy for you. Everybody deserves to be loved.
Awww... I cried when he said his Dad died.... And I felt so bad when he told us about his biological father 😭
I was gonna say I was early... But's it doesn't feel right.
This was a very sweet video tho, I'm glad you saw those pictures of Larry.
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Me too😭😭😭😭😭
Only Corey can say who his father is/was... biology is nothing compared to love, care, protection etc...
Dude, I am crying and this just started. My two oldest kids lost their dad at age 5 and 3. I too was advised that they were too young to go to the funeral. That is terrible advice, even young children need closure. I'm still crying, pictures like these are the most precious memories. My kids have closure now, they are 28 and 25. I was a young mother, I'm 46 now, and my daughter (28) just got married last October, and my husband, her step-dad, who is her dad in every way now, carried a picture of Amanda and Ryan's dad down the aisle with him, as he was walking with my daughter. It's a sweet memory of her wedding that only a few of us know about, but her love for her step dad increased just knowing he cared enough to find a way to include her father who could not physically be there. I'm so glad you have closure now, in the death of Larry and you can look back on your memories of your dad and remember the good times, laugh at the fun and are no longer hit with sudden grief . New life always brings healing, sometimes in ways we didn't even realize we were broken.
I can't bear to see photos of me as a kid. I think many of us who come from difficult childhoods and broken families feel this way........you are very fortunate to have finally found closure. I think you know the mourning process is over when you can look at photos of the loved one who is gone without feeling such an overwhelming amount of emotion that you have to look away. Super vlog btw :)
So happy for you Corey. I'm sure you've already made Larry proud by being the amazing dad that you are and are going to be to Chell!
Kristen and Cory are such amazing parents chell is blessed.
I am so happy you have reached this point, bless Larry for being your dad because he wanted to. You will find no boundaries in the amount you love your child , it is endless. Xxx
That was so beautiful. You will always have the memory of your step dad. Thank you for sharing
once again this quote makes a lot of sense
"The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do.''
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That's awesome Aaron!!
heh, its funny because when i was going through a bad depression, that's exactly what i was thinking too...
EHP i identify with that
I feel so emotional with dad/son stories and I really don't know why, I have an amazing dad and even though I get myself crying over this. I am sure you'll be the best dad for Chell!
What an incredible tribute to your dad. I'm happy to hear that the void in your heart has healed/is healing.
Really impressed with your candor here about your family history and connections. It is very hard to open up about this stuff, you're a very resilient person Cory and we love you for it.
This Vlog man...now that's what I call beautiful!
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My heart goes out to your family for all you've been through. Hopefully you and your sister can smooth things out. How precious Chell is!
Awwww :'( Thank you for sharing that story and part of your life with us!
Ohh the feels! Larry seems like a great dad & you're gonna be a great dad to Chell
Its been amazing to see you become a loving father to Chell. You definitely carried that trait from Larry, blood or not, he is your father. & To see you happy with your baby girl just brings joy to my heart❤️😊
I am sorry that you lost your dad. My dad was my stepdad too. I am sorry. I am crying for the little boy that lost his dad. Hugs to little Cory.
It is awesome that Chell will have her heart filled from day one. Loving ourselves and accepting ourselves is life.
Who's cutting the onions in here!!!😭
a big one!!!!
Me... 😢
Me!!!
i was going to ask the same! Cuz damn, thats not only a big onion, thats an international one!
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Holding back tears in the service center of a Ram dealership. Thank you for sharing this. Larry was a incredible man. Beautiful tribute to him.
Wow Cory! I had no idea about your past. Thank you so much for sharing and being so transparent. I love your family.
Awwww that was such a lovely video. The man I call "Daddy" is not my biological Father either but he's the only one that I would ever give that title to. He's amazing. Such a lovely, heart warming video. Lee x
Cory, as someone who's followed you for a long time, (I saw your 'Realest Vlog Ever' you did when you lived back in California talking about all the people you miss) I'd just like to say I'm super happy for you that you've finally get some form of closure for that time in your life. It is a new beginning for you and I couldn't be happier. Keep up the great work, mate.
I had to wipe away tears from my eyes more than once watching this. Such a beautiful realization, such a beautiful message to send out in the world. ..especially for those of us who were around when you started talking about these things, back in California.
I don't buy the "everything's changed from one day to another", but i totally buy and understand the idea and the emotions behind what you're saying, and i'm SO freaking happy for you. Thinking about anything else to say makes me tear up again, so i'll stop. Hugs and tons of love.
I'm so glad Larry was part of your life, and could teach you love. He would be so proud of you no matter what, but I think he is amazed at how far you've come in your life.
I'm glad your mom could escape your father, that is a terrible thing and it can really eff you up in the weirdest ways. It appears to me that Kristen is a true stabilizing and positive force in your life. I'm glad you have your family around you, they are so good for you, and you for them. I'm so happy to hear that this big pain is healed. Live and love!
Thank you for sharing that with us. Very powerful stuff.
Yup👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻
That was incredibly touching, and very moving. I'm so glad that you're in this place in life, Cory. You're an amazing dad with an amazing wife and the cutest little baby I've ever seen. I know your dad would be proud of you! I know we all are!
Cory, I am so happy that you found peace in your heart and love to fill that hole in your being. I was wondering why you didn't vlog for a while, however, I now know you needed this special week with your mom and family to yourself. nothing but respect and love for you guys!! :)
Thank you so much for sharing, and it's great that you had the chance to reflect and realize how far you've come.
The feels flow deep with this video. Great video. DANG IT, CHELL IS SO ADORABLE!
Cory, this is what "knowing"is. Some get it early in life. Some get it from an event. Sadly, some never get it until they cross over. I sincerely thank you for being comfortable enough to share it with us all. Do you feel a little taller now? Sorta like your feet are a little tiny bit above the ground? May the Creator bless your entire family, scooter!
Took me and my Father years to finally connect, and when we did, he died. Gladly my mother was a pro at being both Mom and Dad for me when i needed her to be. Great story from you!
My father was an alcoholic and never around and my mom was very abusive. I knew when I had kids it was up to me to not play the victim, accept it, and break the cycle. By doing so I have been able to rewrite my childhood through them which has been so healing and feeing. Throw your fists in the air and give a good victory scream at the world. Your hurt has been healed. So happy for you! I just love the 3 of ya! You 2 are amazing parents and doing it exactly right.
that was beautiful! I am having trouble thinking thru my tears. The pictures show a happy little boy with a wonderful father. Blessings to you and your wonderful family.
Aww Cory! I lost my step dad (main dad) 5 years ago to a motorcycle accident. That pain... So happy for you to just feel all the love you are experiencing! I LOVE your channel! Baby Chell is one blessed baby to have you two and momma and daddy!
I remember you talking about Larry the first time a few years ago, seeing you now tell the story in a completely different way is amazing.
It's amazing how so much happiness can come after so much sadness
You were deeply inspired by Larry. Very heartfelt video. Now history repeats itself and YOU are a great dad.
Crying like a baby lol ( I love you guys! 💖💖💖)
This isn't a "laugh out loud" moment.
+Alistair Harris I wasn't laughing at them I was laughing at myself. Jeeze lighten up
I'm crying...
me 2!
Me toooooo
Me 4th
Me 5th :(
not me.
So, you're Living Like Larry? xD
DudeLikeLarry!
+LordManhattan xD
+LordManhattan lol
😂😂😂
Wow. I can tell just from the photos of Larry that he was a better guy for you. I think he would love you and your family so much if he were still here.
I'm sorry about your loss and glad you turned a new chapter. I can relate to this because I lost my beloved cat over a year ago; it took about a year to heal. I know that she'll be there in my heart; like Larry is in your heart
Having your own child is unlike anything else in this world. That kind of love is pure and raw and instinctual.
As a long time viewer I can say I have noticed you are completely happy and it shows! I totally understand where your sister is coming from in her anger about not ever getting to meet Larry though. I know you've talked about him before but briefly and today in this video although you were emotional I didn't see as much pain in your eyes are you talked about him. xo
Thank you so much for your Story of your live . So Sorry for your loss . Its touching my heart over and over . I wish my kids get over theire Story too one day . They went through a similar story . Glad to have them by my side and fill them up with all my unconditional love . Thank you for giving back the hope we sometimes are searching for . That helps us a lot . I hope all those drinking Dads learn one day what a mess they leave behind towards theire kids !!
Enjoy Chell with every heartbeat ♥She is a happy Baby to have you both as her Parents !!
Larry was a lucky man to have you for his son. You honour him by being such a great father to Chell.Your sister's issues are hers alone. Just be there when she realises what an amazing brother she has.Love you all, blessings, Chris
Ugh the tears.. seriously. Larry sounded like such an amazing guy.. He's one of those miracle people that walk around looking to make peoples lives brighter and so much better when hard times show up. Your family's hard time was like a beacon for him to come in and make it so so so much better and happier. I'm glad he was there for you and your mom.. Much
Congrats on the closure Corey. When I lost my grandad the vicar said something that has always stuck with me. "When we lose someone who owned a piece of our hearts they take it with them. This is why we feel loss. When we accept others into our hearts they take another piece but leave a piece of their own to close the gap. When we leave this earth we join our loved ones and take back our missing pieces. There is then a piece left from the loved one left behind. This is then sent back to earth to enable a new person to fill the gap you leave behind. The cycle continues. And we all leave the earth will hearts full and touched by many."
I'm not sure if you are religious. Personally I'm agnostic. But I like to believe that when I die, I will have touched many hearts as I know they have touched mine.
I have very few memories of my dad. Like 3-4 of them. He was either at work on the USAF Basses we lived at OR on a 6 month posting away from us. So I was usually asleep when he was home. They divorced when I was 3 1/2 - 4. I saw him less than a handful of times afterwards in person. NEVER got to know him as an adult. He lived in Florida and I in Ohio. And being too poor to actually visit him. Random phone calls were all that we got. So I had a huge cry when he died almost 7 years ago. I was at a Buddhist meeting talking about it, and I burst into tears that lasted a good 10 minutes of uncontrolled sobs. Shocking the members there. So I understand a little.
It's so fantastic to hear that scar has been healed. I'm so happy for you.
I'm glad you had a "dad" like Larry, Cory. I know he looking down on Chell and watching over her along with you and Kristen. May he ride free forever!!!
Now you left me sobbing on my couch!😢 So sorry for your loss but it's wonderful that you had someone like that in your life💙 Thank you as always for being so open and honest
I remember you talked about Larry years ago in a vlog. It's good that you finally have filled the "void" inside you. My dad died when I was 6, and it's still difficult to think about sometimes, but you are the best proof I have that one day I too can get the same feeling you talked about!
Yet again Corey you keep reminding me why I watch your videos, One day I hope I can be like you.
Cory, There has been one thing that you have done since Chell has been born, You have grown up, not physically, but emotionally. You are a dad and with this, your whole perspective on life has changed. Gone are those goofy skits that we all have watched, now is a new goody, but with you being a dad. We all are here going along for this ride!
Cory, you will carry on in Larry's footsteps, and in that way, he will never really be gone. He was a great dad to you, just as you are and will always be a great dad to Chell (and all of your future babies).
Cory: glad to see that you are striving to become the father you were lucky enough to have, even if you could only borrow him but for a while.
Letting the tears flow. Cory, you are a great dad and Kristen is a wonderful wife and mom. God bless you all.
Thankyou Cory for sharing this story. It has made me feel tons better about a situation in my life. I lost my father 3 years ago and the anniversiary of his passing was last month. I usually lock myself away from the world, play his favourite music and cry all day. But this year I got out of the house, did normal things and felt okay about it. I still thought about him all day but I didn't cry, not once. Thinking back on it Ive felt guilty wondering why didn't I cry? I still love and miss him. Watching this vlog has helped me realise that I did nothing wrong. You never get over losing someone you love but eventually you come to terms with it and the pain eases into much happier memories.
Loving your vlogs, sending lots of love from England to you Kristen, Chell and the fur babies :D ❤
How is Chell doing? Is she ok? I love her. Hugs for Chell please?
She's doing great.
Watch video to the very end.
Even more tears, I saw that.
Thank you for sharing. Sorry for your loss. R.I.P. Larry. You helped raise an amazing man
The funny thing is, a few days ago I was watching some old videos you've posted. It's like watching a completely different person. Becoming a dad yourself helped you gain unexpected closure. That's a wonderful thing!
Very beautifully received, Cory! Both of you will do wonderfully for and with Chell! The best to you and Kristen!
This is such an ode to life and healing even in the wake of something seemingly unbearable. But Corey found that way of patching himself and filling that hole through living and seeking his path by finding Kristen and having Chell. You are living proof of hope and to have shared such a special moment at that very spot where you and your mom and Larry were photographed knowing that he was there to hear the news is so beautiful. While heartbreaking that Larry couldn't physically be there, his spirit lives on whether in the Alaskan mountains, or right in your home next to his granddaughter. And Kristen, you're so supportive and sweet I just love you two together and I am so happy your paths led right to each other and I can't wait to see what else is in store for you two. Here's to life!!!
You have discovered the best part of being a Dad or Mom! You feel connected to the best of your parents. You strive to be the best you can be to you, your wife and child and you remember the best in your parents. I'm so happy for you and wish peace for all of you.
Yeah, I think I kind of know what Cory was talking about. My brother died when I was 3 and he was 4. One night he had a brain aneurysm and was rushed to the hospital where he was put on life support for a couple of weeks, before my parents decided, after the doctors recommendation, to pull the plug. The day he left for the hospital was the last time I ever saw him. I don't remember when I was finally told of his passing, but my mother told me that I kept demanding that she bring my brother back. Despite being a year apart, he and I were inseparable and completely like minded. I can recall some specific events from our time together, much like still frames from the past more than complete memories, but I know I've never been closer to someone else like I was to him. Now I am 42 and I still do not and will probably never have my closure. I know there is a distinct difference between a sibling and a parent, so I do not know exactly what Cory has gone through, but like I said, I think I kind of do.
This is why I love Cory and Kristin so much
Who started cutting onions in my house just now?!
Seriously Cory, I can't imagine that kind of pain; that scar you had for so long. But being a parent myself, I feel you man. I've thought you to be an awesome dude these last 8 years I've watched your SMP films, Mean Kitty and now with these vlogs with your wonderful family! You truly have become the dad you had. Stay awesome dude!
It takes a lot of courage to sit there and talk about your past like you did in this Vlog. You have become the dad you are today because of having Larry in your life. Just to think what if he hadn't been there. So happy for you and your beautiful family :)
Not been a great year for me, just recently lost contact with someone important... but through all the shit that life threw at me, I kept smiling, I kept smiling because I always had your shenanigans to laugh at. Thanks to you, Cory, I didn't fall back into that pit I had just crawled out of.
That made me so very touched , Larry was a wonderful person and he lives in your heart on.
you know, I smiled. I cried but I also smiled. What a wonderful dad... and how lucky your daughter... .you are going already a wonderful dad.
Chell gets more and more adorable each and every time we see her. Also, Alaska is more and more beautiful with each new season that comes along and the places you show in these vlogs continue to take my breath away! You guys are living a truly blessed life! Sending you lots of love from Oklahoma!
omg I'm in tears this is a very special moment just like when chelle was you have a beautiful family
I guess this proves it, Men can cry too.
The tribute to Larry was awesome, and to know that void is filled with loving your own child and the feeling of being a dad makes it all better. I think you are going to be a lot like Larry, since he is such a father figure in your life. In a way I feel like you already are...
Oh, Cory and Kristen, thank you for sharing this story with us. You are right. Being a parent changes a body - hopefully for the better. You are all three so blessed. You love each other so much and you are loved by so many people across the globe. Your vlogs should be on school curricula, to teach young people how to treat each other. Your parents (including Larry) should be proud of you... and of themselves. As others have written, they did a great job of raising you. Love to you all.
Thank you for this AMAZING tribute. You're both wonderful parents. ❤️
Healing is an amazing thing. It's funny how it comes when you least expect it, but it's one of the most freeing feelings ever. Larry showed you what it meant to be a dad. And while his time with you was short, it was so impactful that it shapes the man you are today. Congrats, Cory.
Love is like a seed... When planted and nurtured and cared for properly it grows and grows! And when you have another baby, you'll wonder how you can possibly love it as much as Chell. But magically, it's almost as though you gain more love to give and have and feel! I LOVE this vlog!
Lost my father this past November. It tore me up more than anything ever has. I kind of just put a wall up and didn't let anyone over. I was doing bad in school while trying to cope with the grief and it was just a battle that couldn't be won. Or so I thought. Seeing you get through what you've experienced, it gives me hope that this stuff will heal in certain aspects. You're a true inspiration to many, and I'm so glad you share your life with me and everyone else. Stay golden dude!
Awesome inspiration, I just landed in Alaska last night and feel pumped to go build my grandparents cabin now more than ever. Family is everything, love you guys
Cory, that was very heart-warming, I'm tearing up. So happy for you!
God bless you & your beautiful family! Such an amazing and wonderful story!!
It's amazing what babies can do and how they can help heal the pieces that were broken. My son did that for me. The day after he was born we lost my grandpa, my Papa, the man who was there for me through thick and thin. Jaxen helped heal the immense hurt, quickly.
What a lovely, poignant story to share with the world. I'm so elated for you, Kristen and Chell. I DID cry... I also want to say that Chell is looking more beautiful as the days go by. I find myself wandering through the baby departments remembering all the things I bought for my daughter and wanting to buy them for Chell. Warm hugs to you all.
You're not allowed to make me cry Cory!! Your family is so beautiful!! This was a great vlog!! Chell gets more and more beautiful every day!!
I'm a silent viewer, but that was SO emotional for me to watch. My father was also an abusive drunk. My first memories in life are very similar to yours. Fortunately my mother remarried and my stepfather raised me as his own. I consider him my dad. He's amazing and I'm so lucky. Love, no DNA required :) I love watching your vlogs guys. Hello from Manitoba Canada :)
Cory, I'm not sure how I missed these vlogs, but this one made me cry, so hard. I'm still crying in fact. My biological father was abusive too. But he was abusive with me. I was his little girl, and he did things to me, that no child should ever have to live through. Sadly many have, and do, and live in fear, and in silence, every day. I am so thankful to my mom, for getting me, and my brother out of that terrible situation. My mom wasn't able to keep it together, for very long, after she made him leave, as she had been one of those children who lived in fear, and in silence, back when she was a child, also. With what happened to me, all of her abuse came flooding back to her, and she had to send us into the care of other people, while she went through extensive psychotherapy. My brother and I had many people who cared for us, from our church. And one couple who was not from our church. That couple, and a few others, I still call Mom & Dad. I can understand the pain that you were/are in, and also, the same pain, that your sister has. I never knew my "dad"... because all he ever was to me, was a monster. My brother had him for 6 years, before I was born, and he had a great early childhood. Even after I was able to tell my mom what was happening, it took 2 years, and me telling her again, that it was happening, so, my brother had a father for 12 years, and I had a monster for 6. He still resents me, for taking that away from him. I don't even think he realizes what that resentment stems from, but I do. My brother hates our father, and he resents me, because before me, life was fine. He did not have the amount of therapy that I had to go through. I went for 9 and a 1/2 years, sometimes twice a week. He would go once a month, and he felt like he didn't really need to go. He never dealt with his resentment, and his feelings of anger toward our father, or toward me. So, he and I have a very strained relationship. I hope, that one day, it gets better. But idk, what the future holds. He thinks I'm his stupid little sister, and that my insight is a load of crap. I think he's an amazing man, husband, and father to his own children. He is also a police officer, like our one Foster Dad, and he puts scumbags, like our real dad, in prison, not EVERY DAY, but often. That's one of the main reasons he wanted to become a police officer, in the first place... so that he could make a difference in the lives of others, when he felt like he couldn't make a difference in the lives of his own family. I'm so proud of the man that he has become, in spite of the man who sired him. Our Foster Dad made a huge difference in my brother's life, and helped to mold him into the man he is today. I'm so glad that you had Larry in your life. And I'm sorry that he was taken from you too early. ((Hugs, all around))
absolutely LOVED this video. I could feel the emotion and it gave me chills! I lost my dad when I was 4 and the little memories I have of him will be cherished throughout my lifetime. its nice looking at old photos. And with the videos you're making now, Chell will cherish those when she gets older.
You didn't cry... but I did. I am so happy for you. Now, you are a GROWN UP!
CHELL IS ONE LUCKY LITTLE GIRL!!!
I loved this, Cory!! Thank you for sharing! I was starting to tear up when you were showing pic of Larry. So sweet. When I was 18 my mom passed away. For me the tears come and go at different times. So maybe this time you didn't cry but maybe the next time you look at them you will. Thank you again for sharing your stories about Larry!! God Bless you all!!
Do you know what's interesting? This vlog didn't make me cry. As a matter of fact I've never smiled more during a video. This makes me happy and really happy for you guys!
Larry looked like a fun, silly, and awesome dude. I'm glad he was able to show you what a real dad is and does (including gettin' spankin's sometimes) while he was on this Earth. My heart goes out to your mom because I'm sure she was devastated by Larry's death. I think she did what she thought was best for you. I'm so happy for you and all that you have accomplished in the last few years. You are so blessed to have Kristen and Chell. They are blessed to have such an attentive, caring, loving, devoted, silly, fun, and awesome husband and dad!!! xoxo
Thank you for sharing this. I and my brother went through something very similar. When my father died (of cancer) I remembered the phone call from the hospital but I was not allowed to go to the funeral either so I too never had the closure which followed me for years - my brother was told by an uncle that "he was the man of the house now so he had to be strong for our mom and me" that was probably the cruelest thing you could tell an 11 year old boy who had just lost his closest friend. I had a hard time for years but he had it so much worse, as he never got the chance to mourn for our dad. I feel that when he had his daughter he too was able to heal some and before he died we too had reached a point where we could communicate with each other and actually have a good relationship but he suffered depression for years. Cory, I am so happy for you and Kristen with that beautiful baby girl - I know from personal experience having children is the best.
Thankyou for sharing, Chell will always have Larry watching over her. Maybe you could write a heartfelt letter to your sister and explain how you feel, you could even enclose some photos of your beautiful daughter. She won't be mad at you she's just upset at the situation
Thank you for sharing this with us. I hope that you and your sister will be healed in your relationship and that your sister will find peace regarding her own pain. I know it can happen.