Just want you to know you’re not alone, my husband died last year and my depression led me to having zero dollars and not even caring I just slept on the couch with no a/c or heat and no food except for beans and rice, I’m 30 and back living with my mom...depression is very real some people don’t understand.
I'm sorry to hear about your husband x Depression is the worst feeling in the world but you will get through this. Sounds like you have an amazing Mum too!
I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. My boyfriend died in his sleep in 2017 and I feel like a part of me died. I hope you can find some peace Angela. Sending you prayers.
Thank you for so vulnerably sharing. You have every right to shut down. There’s a wonderful book called It’s Ok That You’re Not Ok by another young widow. I wish you all the happiness in the world moving forward.
This video and your situation isn't embarrassing. It is real life. Nothing is perfect and things aren't always how we want them. Life happens and this is the universe trying to teach you something new about yours. Stay positive and start manifesting positive things for yourself.
I just wanted to tell you that when someone is that depressed it makes sense for them to have low energy to no energy and cannot find joy in things that they did before. I really wish I could be there to give you those motivational words. But I’m sending my love to you. And just wanted to let you know, I understand what you went through, and you are amazing for being able to pull through that!
I’m a landlord and this seems unreal to me. Unless they had some sort of sick clause in their lease, they legally cannot continue to charge you rent on the apartment if they are the party requesting to terminate the contract. I would consider getting some advice from a lawyer before you start paying them rent after you move out!
It's an absolutely massive company and the lease agreement was like 20 pages, so I'm fairly certain that it just is what it is at this point. I don't know how they sleep at night for real... lol.
ahreed21 are you a Landlord in LA or California? Because I know LA real estate laws are insaneeeee. So it might be a little different in your home city.
@@KalelSumisu landlords/companies frequently place clauses in contracts that are actually against the law even though they know they cannot legally enforce them, they hope that most people do not bother to fight it and just abide by the terms. It's unfortunate, but one of the many reasons standardized residential leases were recently mandated in Ontario (Canada). Used to rent with a company that forbid pets in their units even though the provincial legislation stated that landlords were not allowed to refuse to rent or to kick someone out on the basis that they had pets.
Have them show you specifically where in the lease agreement that is, because it sounds illegal. I’ve had apartments try similar things, that I’ve gotten out of because they tried duping me :/
I find that having a routine really helps stave off the depression or the anxious feeling of being unproductive. Since getting a 9 to 5 I've felt so much more satisfied with myself and my life. The responsibility of having to be somewhere and being held accountable for it is very motivating.
Nina Dees yes hard agree! I made my own routine when I was inbetween jobs to keep myself sane. I’d have a plan every day to exercise, cook, take care of my dog, clean, etc. And then replaced that with my job once I got one. The mind is a crazy thing lol
Ok but the whole apartment situation seems like some bullshit. I would read your lease agreement with them. I’d be so mad girl. But I’m sure you will be fine. Sending good vibes your way.
I love how real you are it takes a lot of courage to share so much about your life. Don’t be so hard on yourself we all are struggling in some way. You’re amazing and ily!
@@landofthorns the moment she said this apartment company is super powerful I was like BOOM Irvine company. I have never heard anything good about them.
@@KalelSumisu you are stronger then you realize my love.. this is not even a bump in the road. That apartment is bad juju.. time to move into a new positive space. It's only up from here love.
Man.. i related so hard! I lost YEARS of my life to depression.. years! I just wasted away and now i can never get them back! I turn 30 in about a year and i plan to live my 30's up hard!! Since all of my 20s i completely threw in the trash because of depression and anxiety! Also.. the thing about the closer it get to the time of the event the more excuses you think about coming up with to not go.. that is SO me!! Correction.. that WAS me... let's live those 30's up baby!!!
Kalel well just remember whenever you feel insecure, you might just be the only person in the world who feels that way and you are greatly admired and loved by many. I know that when it’s all in your head it’s hard to think like this but I hope this at least made you smile :)❤️
It depends on the state. In NY a person can literally go almost a year without paying rent (plus do all kinds of inappropriate activities such as smoking crack and having fights) before they are evicted.
They are not allowed to kick you out and make you keep paying cause you were late - like you said you went to court and figured it out. They can only do that if you like trashed the place and we’re at risk of further destroying the property even then not sure they can make you keep paying ! They can end your lease cause you were late but you are entitled to stay for the remainder of the lease !!! Also they can’t stop you from breaking the lease - thats soooo illegal omg please don’t let this slide !!!
I live in the OC and LA and there’s something she’s not sharing about this. But that’s how she is and it’s her business. Even big companies follow the landlord/tenant rules.
I lived with my parents most of my 30s. I developed serious health problems that left me unable to work a regular job. No shame in that at all. Families should help each other.
Have you ever signed a lease before...? They say it fine print you are still responsible for the payments even if you get evicted. It is a legal contract that tenants sign. It’s legal.
"Ms. Peacock won't be ~coming~ tonight" "Ms. Peacock won't be ~coming~ tomorrow night" "Ms. Peacock won't be ~coming~ any night" Damn dude rough times for my girl Peacock.... 😂
I just have to say I can really tell a difference in you. I don’t know if it’s just the way you’re carrying yourself now or what but you said in your last video that your mental health is better and it really shows. Hope you can keep it up as best as possible :)
Angela Smith ya his definitely not legal where I live (Canada) here it’s actually very difficult to evict a tenant. But maybe in California the laws favor the landlords
@@pajulkab What about the part where she has to keep paying the rent until they find someone to move in, even without a legal eviction? Wow, that's nuts. Poor Kalel. :(
Honestly, this was such a real and raw video. I love this new content your making! Love this side of you and thank you for talking about your finances and hardship its a good reminder to a lot of people that youtubers are people too. Loved the video :)
I have watched you for my entire adolescence and the beginning of my adulthood, and I’ve never watched a UA-camr I connected more with. I feel like I’ve grown and changed with you over UA-cam. Seeing you be so real about your depression really gives me solace in knowing I’m truly not alone in my feelings and my depression. I love love love your videos Kalel no matter what they are about. Right now in my life I feel stuck in my situation and watching you gives me a break from thinking. So thank you so much for continuing to be so real and vulnerable with your content.
I'm 31 and had to recently move back to my mom's house. 🤷🏽♀️ Also, I totally understand about the deep depression...I was in one in February and it was just...depressing. I spent a whole week in bed. I couldn't work because I just felt sad constantly and I only wanted to sleep because then I wouldn't have to think. Ugh. Thank God for meds and therapy.
“The wound is the place where the light enters you” -Rumi...everything happens for a reason girl, I have no doubt you’ll make it through this and come out better on the other side. Love and light ✌🏻💓
I just quit my job and only have savings until I find something better.. I was unhappy and needed a fresh start depression is always creeping in but we can stay strong ❤️
When you were talking about how you were four hours away from the event and making excuses to not go I literally hugged my phone because I can relate to that so hard I love you
I’ve been severely depressed the last year. I have health issues and had to drop out of my school and move back in with my parents in a different state. I wouldn’t leave the house for months. I wouldn’t shower for like a week and a half. I just stayed in my bed all day and didn’t communicate with people on my phone either. Totally isolated myself and I gave up veganism. I just didn’t care about anything, I had no interest in doing anything and I was so exhausted, I just felt perpetually sleepy. Yet I could never sleep well or throughout the night. Since I’ve started on antidepressants again I’ve felt loads and loads better. It’s crazy how I went from feeling hopeless and like nothing was worth living for, to having excitement about things and actually joking with my family. I understand how even though logically you know you should do something, you just don’t give a shit at all and the effort it takes seems overwhelming. Depression sucks, people have always told me to just try and change my attitude. But they don’t get what it’s like to have a sick mind that won’t let you feel anything except bad things. I was really embarrassed to have to drop out and move back home, I totally understand how shitty life can be. Hopefully you can get your apartment sorted out because that does seem extremely unfair. Just seems like they’re taking advantage
you are not alone... this is very similar to my situation as well. I have given up hope at this point. I feel like a horrible disappointment. I hope to just get out of this horror of a life I have created for myself.
nathaly o I felt the exact same way 3 months ago. But honestly for me medication has been a world of difference. If you can I suggest going to see a therapist or psychologist. Cause there is hope and I know how much it sucks to be stuck in such a negative place
This situation is WOOF, I'm so sorry they're screwing you over like this. The way you're handling it - so graceful and healthy and commendable! This may seem like an embarrassing video for you to make, but it's a huge yaaas Kalel from my point of view
I can totally relate, I've had extreme depression and lost my apartment in 2012 and was living in my car with 3 dogs. I went days without food, depression is a real thing. Now I'm working, have my own place, and a nicer SUV lol. People who have been through difficult times, appreciate small things more. We're stronger people...
I'm 28 now and currently in a 'good place' but from 21-23 I was so depressed I couldn't work at all. I was poor for those two years, sleeping in my car on some nights, living on couches. My family was so frustrated with me and I just couldn't explain why I couldn't work or simple things like shower.. I feel you Kalel. It did get better for me though.
I dont mean to offend, but is there a reason why you're still living in Los Angeles? As far as I know it's an expensive place to live and I think its important for you to have a financial plan and build an emergency fund. Ideally you should aim to have backup savings that enables you to support yourself for 6 months. This provides alot of mental security. But the only way to do this is to probably cut back on your lifestyle and live somewhere cheaper while you save up. The anxiety of not being able to meet rent in an expensive city does not help your mental health. Take care!
Taytay Queen she can easily afford it if she works. Did you miss the whole 3 months of zero work? Get the fuck out of here, you’re obviously a fake fan like why you even here?
Loved this video Kalel. Thank you for being so open all of the time and so willing to share your lows. I’m having a pretty rough year myself and am about to have my third move this year. So it was really nice to have a day with a friend going through similar stuff. ❤️💓 thank you for sharing with us
Needed this video SO much!! I’m 29 and 2019 has been the craziest/toughest year for me. So much to the point my anxiety is like next level through the roof and causing depression. I’ve been watching you forever (literally years) and I’ve never related more to you than right now. Thank you for posting this!!!!! This is why I continue to watch you, you grow and bitchhh it’s inspiring! Hahaha. Just thank you for being real and authentic. We can get through this together and we will look back and see a beautiful thing was created! ♥️♥️♥️
I'm having an awful year myself. I keep thinking "oh, when summer ends I'll get my shit together" "Oh, when September ends I'll get my shit together" and I still don't have it together. It's okay to not be okay. Sending you love from the UK.
I honestly want Kalel to do podcasts, I LOOOVE her black screen videos, they’re so soothing and relaxing and her voice is just so angelic. Like is that just me or anyone else?
Girl you’ve been my favorite UA-camr since the start. Back when you lived in the south and had make up channels and that fantasy wonderland wardrobe. Please come out with merch, I will buy it all. There’s some TRUE fans in here that want to help support you. You’ve given me content to watch for so many years plz do merch for some income. Love you!!! Appreciate you. I relate so much with you it’s insane. Hermit life 🖤
Watching this vlog brings tears to my eyes because I am EXACTLY in your shoes! It’s so difficult to explain to others why I can’t seem to get out of bed and it’s like before I fully blink my eyes it’s the end of the month and I’m stressing about rent and bills. If only everyone could understand the power that depression has over us.
Thank you for being so real. I’m 33 and still get help from my mom. She comes to visit me and ends up stalking up my pantry. No shame in a parent wanting to help their kids out. Keep your head up. 💜
2019 has not been kind to me as well. Keep your head up pretty girl! We can push through! 2020 is going to be our year! I have followed you for many years and I really appreciate you sharing your trying times because it makes you more relatable. Thinking of you during this time and sending many hugs!
I can tell you first hand that something VERY similar happened with my apartment. I was also stuck in a hard depression and wasn’t really making content and had a tough time paying on time and was taken to court over it and all. Listening to your story was like replaying the exact same thing that happened to me and it definitely made me feel less alone. It was embarrassing and I didn’t even want to tell anyone it happened. It sucks and I’m so sorry you had to go through that, but just know that no matter how embarrassing we think our struggles are, their is something out there who’s mental health can truly benefit from hearing another’s story. Thank you for being raw, open and honest. I really appreciate your content, even when you’re just chilling at home or talking about your life. I find it to be very comforting and relaxing. This is why your video do so well. People just like you for you and that’s the coolest thing. You don’t have to try to be anyone else or put in a big elaborate show to get people to watch. You just share your honest thoughts, your views, your opinions, your hobbies, your interests and your life with viewers. I love that.
Honestly this sounds like a lie. California is a leader renter protections. If it is true, you should countersue. Also consider living below your means, so in case of a rainy day you have savings. There are a lot of public spaces in Southern California you can film at, it doesn’t need to be in an expensive apartment. In Orange County that apartment would run around $3k per month. Save up girl! Sorry if this is too harsh, it’s just being logical.
Am I the only one who doesn't get how kalel can afford her lifestyle, which seems expensive, when her job is youtube and she barely uploads??? i'm pretty new to her channel does she have a second job?
Thank you so much for being so open and vulnerable about this! I have been feeling like such a failure this year almost 30 and still relying on my parents for financial help. You helped to make me feel a little bit more normal, and a little less alone. Gotta keep pushing
Depression is a life long battle. I have it and it's gone up and down throughout my life. I've been well in recent years but sometimes I get blue days, most recently this past week. I felt as you described it, like lethargic and zero energy. I feel you, more than ever. Your words reminded me that what I have isn't just all in my head. It's real, and I want to thank you again for sharing these feelings. I hope we reach a point where we can all be understanding of mental illnesses and just have compassion for one another. I wish you the best, Kalel.
I really appreciate this moment of honesty. I've been there -- I've been depressed enough that working seemed impossible even with a negative bank balance. (I'm also self-employed.) It's nice to see someone break all that "my life is perfect" bullshit and put it out there. I respect you for that. Takes a lot of guts.
I've been following you for a very long time and girl, I'm so proud of you! You seem like a completly different person and I can feel it in my bones, that you're gonna be really happy soon! Fighting
Honestly, UA-camrs who have it all and no conflicts in their lives whatsoever bore me because I find them so unrelatable. This is wayyyy more up my alley and relatable when you’re real with us
Depression can bring a lot of shame and embarrassment. And it also brings a sense of loneliness, so thanks for being so open to us and sharing your struggle. It truly helps a lot of us feel less alone. 💕
I could relate to so much of this! I've had that severe of depression before...it's indescribably challenging. & I'm always wanting to make an excuse to cancel plans & just stay home because I'm an extreme introvert! I hope your move goes well!
I love how you talk to yourself trying to stop negative thoughts and motivating yourself to get stuff done, I do that too and is actually very helpful!! ✨
I’ve not been working for 2 years now due to depression and PTSD. I’ve been broke for ages living of my parents and partner. Finally I got the courage to go onto benefits from the government to help me out. And hopefully with the help of therapy I’ll be better and ready to go to work :)
In a world where so often we are told that it is time to end mental health stigma, its shocking that a company could evict a depressed person 3 weeks late on their rent (especially for the first time). It’s really inspiring to see you rising out of this. For many depressed people this could have been the ultimate breaking point, so I’m glad that you had a support network that helped ensure that you were able to make it through. I lost 3 friends to suicide last year due to financial struggles that they felt were too overwhelming to overcome, and I hope that stories like yours help not only end the stigma on mental health issues but financial issues too. Keep shining Kalel, you’ve got this 👊
hearing you talk about being too depressed to work helps me feel less alone but also sad that you’ve had to go through it too. I know how horrible and embarrassing it feels. I’m currently hanging on to my little savings to not feel broke lol 😂 I hope everything goes well with your move!
Going through something similar, it actually is kind of comforting in a way to know you're not the only one and if you keep working through it it'll get better sooner or later. Actually really proud of you for trying to stay strong, despite not knowing you - hope the move goes ok, excited to see a new place either way and how it eventually ends up looking over time :)
I want to help you get back in a comfortable financial situation I would love to watch your ads all the way for you’re revenue and don’t be afraid of brand deals me and everyone else here that truly loves you wants to see you happy and thriving please let us help you where we can , love ya KALEL !!!!
Dear Kalel. Thank you for opening up yourself and share your problem. As many other people said before me, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I really hope that this horrible experience will open you another hopeful door for you. At least it brought you closer to your parents, and you will gain some strength and muscles in your upper body with all the boxes. From now on I’ll watch all the commercials and click on the banners from your videos. Don’t lost your faith, you will be ok. Big hug from Spain.
i wish there was a 'love' instead of 'like' button because I have related to you and your videos since I was a teen. Now an adult in my 20s and also being in this same mindset, I love how I am not alone and how I can still adore how you have grown
How do you keep your cats from clawing your furniture specifically your couch? I have scratching posts and kitty towers but they still go for the couch.
It’s sad that depression/other mental illnesses aren’t taken as seriously as physical injuries are. I can relate to this so much and you’re right, there’s no way to explain that feeling to someone who hasn’t experienced it. I’m praying that 2020 is much better than 2019... thank you for being brave and sharing this. God Bless 💛💛
Kalel! Please don't be embarrassed to share these things. You are not alone in your struggles with finances. It's very brave of you to talk so openly about it. As a viewer I appreciate the honesty and transparency, and I'm sure many people agree.
People who tried to make you feel bad for having financial problems can gtfo, honestly. It's how life works. I can't explain enough how I admire you for sharing this. Most UA-camrs make it look as if their life was perfect, so it's hard not to compare yourself to them and feel like a failure. You remind me that we're all human. Thank you 🤗
You are awesome! You did it, you went to the event, thank you for taking us on your journey! I love All you do, and you make me feel so much better. You make it okay to fail, okay not to be perfect and that is really something we could use more of, on youtube, so thank you! You Are lovely and deserve a LOT of love!
I completely understand EVERYTHING you said about being depressed & not having energy! There’s been times where I wouldn’t leave the house for days & just sleep all the time. I would be physically & mentally exhausted without having done anything. Depression is no joke & I don’t think anyone who hasn’t been through it can really understand. I’m glad you forced yourself to go to the party even if you didn’t want to go. Small things like that help. Looking forward to the new apartment.
I want you to know - I'm 24 and dealing with the same shit in Utah! Depression, shitty apartment complexes, embarrassing stupid situations... You go girl and you keep doing it!!!! Much love xoxoxo ♥️
Hey girl, I spent this entire summer not working due to depression and anxiety, and I totally feel you when you say its difficult to explain that type of thing to people. You feel ashamed and like a degenerate, when in reality its impossible to get out of bed some days. You are not alone! Congrats for pushing through. and good for you for still going to the party! Much love
no shame in this girl! we are all dealing with or have dealt with similar situations! you’re not alone. this is an important time to manifest and align with the universe! talk to your lawyer, your building is not following proper protocol. sending you good energy!
That sounds like me in my early 20s. I adore you and the fact that you shares something so personal. I hope that you make it through this struggle fast. You are a great person who is capable of great things. Anything you set your mind to. Keep us posted. -with Love, Tiffany
love you Kalel, don't be embarrassed by your struggles, we all go through them and depression is awful and I know what it can do to one's mind and body. I wish you the best of luck with your moving, you can do it!!!
love your hair and your honesty. I completely understand your situation. your mental health is always validated with us and we love you. sorry your are going through a tough time you are so strong you can do this!!
This year has been super difficult for me and I honestly feel for the first time in a long time somewhat on the up! It’s super comforting to see I’m not alone. Life is hard.. Thanks for continuing to share your story.
Just want you to know you’re not alone, my husband died last year and my depression led me to having zero dollars and not even caring I just slept on the couch with no a/c or heat and no food except for beans and rice, I’m 30 and back living with my mom...depression is very real some people don’t understand.
I'm sorry to hear about your husband x Depression is the worst feeling in the world but you will get through this. Sounds like you have an amazing Mum too!
Ally Baldwin thank you so much for your words it means a lot to me, I’m sending you love❤️
bubblesBH thank you so much, it means a lot to me❤️
I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. My boyfriend died in his sleep in 2017 and I feel like a part of me died. I hope you can find some peace Angela. Sending you prayers.
Thank you for so vulnerably sharing. You have every right to shut down. There’s a wonderful book called It’s Ok That You’re Not Ok by another young widow. I wish you all the happiness in the world moving forward.
This video and your situation isn't embarrassing. It is real life. Nothing is perfect and things aren't always how we want them. Life happens and this is the universe trying to teach you something new about yours. Stay positive and start manifesting positive things for yourself.
I just wanted to tell you that when someone is that depressed it makes sense for them to have low energy to no energy and cannot find joy in things that they did before. I really wish I could be there to give you those motivational words. But I’m sending my love to you. And just wanted to let you know, I understand what you went through, and you are amazing for being able to pull through that!
Thank you for the love and support! I'm really beginning to feel much better now!
Kalel I am so glad! I’m here rooting for you on the other side of the country!
Coco&Momo how are you sending love?
oxXRockXSugarXxo Through her words
I’m a landlord and this seems unreal to me. Unless they had some sort of sick clause in their lease, they legally cannot continue to charge you rent on the apartment if they are the party requesting to terminate the contract. I would consider getting some advice from a lawyer before you start paying them rent after you move out!
It's an absolutely massive company and the lease agreement was like 20 pages, so I'm fairly certain that it just is what it is at this point. I don't know how they sleep at night for real... lol.
ahreed21 are you a Landlord in LA or California? Because I know LA real estate laws are insaneeeee. So it might be a little different in your home city.
@@KalelSumisu landlords/companies frequently place clauses in contracts that are actually against the law even though they know they cannot legally enforce them, they hope that most people do not bother to fight it and just abide by the terms. It's unfortunate, but one of the many reasons standardized residential leases were recently mandated in Ontario (Canada). Used to rent with a company that forbid pets in their units even though the provincial legislation stated that landlords were not allowed to refuse to rent or to kick someone out on the basis that they had pets.
Have them show you specifically where in the lease agreement that is, because it sounds illegal. I’ve had apartments try similar things, that I’ve gotten out of because they tried duping me :/
I worked as a leasing agent in a luxury apartment complex in Arizona and what Kalel’s describing is exactly how we do it
I find that having a routine really helps stave off the depression or the anxious feeling of being unproductive. Since getting a 9 to 5 I've felt so much more satisfied with myself and my life. The responsibility of having to be somewhere and being held accountable for it is very motivating.
Nina Dees yes hard agree! I made my own routine when I was inbetween jobs to keep myself sane. I’d have a plan every day to exercise, cook, take care of my dog, clean, etc. And then replaced that with my job once I got one. The mind is a crazy thing lol
Nina Dees having a 9 to 5 worsened my depression and anxiety...
Routine and purpose. No matter how seemingly small, having something thag gives you purpose really helps with depression.
Sameeeeeeee
Angel Wings Me too!!! I quit my job. Just need to find a more suitable job
Ok but the whole apartment situation seems like some bullshit. I would read your lease agreement with them. I’d be so mad girl. But I’m sure you will be fine. Sending good vibes your way.
I agree it sounds like bullshit... But more like a made up story :/
Turbo Bitch fuck off
you’re the strongest, girl!! you’re gonna get through all of this hardness
please get a lawyer, I just went through something like this with my old apartment complex. they are trying to get over on you
I love how real you are it takes a lot of courage to share so much about your life. Don’t be so hard on yourself we all are struggling in some way. You’re amazing and ily!
I literally hate this company. They deserve to be called out. So next time they know how to treat people.
It’s definitely the Irvine company! I live in the area and they are notorious and powerful!
@@landofthorns the moment she said this apartment company is super powerful I was like BOOM Irvine company. I have never heard anything good about them.
Shut up. If you sign any kind of contract, then you agree to whatever it says in it. If you don't agree, don't sign it and find something else.
@@kokorox61 I don't think that's the case here.
Found the anonymous Irvine employee. 😂😂
You got this girlfriend.
You looked beautiful in that dress.. that party looked hella fun.
Hugs and love.
thank you for the love
@@KalelSumisu you are stronger then you realize my love.. this is not even a bump in the road.
That apartment is bad juju.. time to move into a new positive space. It's only up from here love.
I’ve never related more. I’m currently 35 and living w my Mom, for the exact same reason. I wish people understood depression more.
Lacieface Keep your head up! Depression is a bitch but life always has a way of working itself out.
Bruh, then why people keep having kids so they can suffer most likely the same things? Psychotic
LetsGetWeird thank you
Lacieface the economy is so bad
I’m sorry Lacie. I hope you’re doing a little better every day ✨
Man.. i related so hard! I lost YEARS of my life to depression.. years! I just wasted away and now i can never get them back! I turn 30 in about a year and i plan to live my 30's up hard!! Since all of my 20s i completely threw in the trash because of depression and anxiety! Also.. the thing about the closer it get to the time of the event the more excuses you think about coming up with to not go.. that is SO me!! Correction.. that WAS me... let's live those 30's up baby!!!
callmecristal BITCH I FEEL THIS SO HARD 😭
and how did you over come it ?
Can you show us how you keep your cats clean, the food you give them and just about how you keep your place clean with cats around
Liz Nguyen yes! I want to see her litter box !
OMG great idea
Cats keep themselves clean?
Liz Nguyen YES PLEASE I’VE ALWAYS WONDERED THIS
Oh wow I wasnt expecting this kind of response lol I have a cat and I’m so interested in how others care for them lol
Girl those bangs be looking sooo CUTE
I hate them with a passion!! But thank you! AHAHA :P
Kalel you look like living doll!! 😍 so gorgeous
I agree! so cute!
Kalel well just remember whenever you feel insecure, you might just be the only person in the world who feels that way and you are greatly admired and loved by many. I know that when it’s all in your head it’s hard to think like this but I hope this at least made you smile :)❤️
3 weeks late and they took you to court? America is wild
It depends on the state. In NY a person can literally go almost a year without paying rent (plus do all kinds of inappropriate activities such as smoking crack and having fights) before they are evicted.
She should leave California...
I seriously doubt that would be the first time she was late if they took her to court over it.
I wouldn't believe everything you hear.
You look so cute. Your skin is flawless. I love the “fair skin” + dark hair look on you.
thank you
They are not allowed to kick you out and make you keep paying cause you were late - like you said you went to court and figured it out. They can only do that if you like trashed the place and we’re at risk of further destroying the property even then not sure they can make you keep paying ! They can end your lease cause you were late but you are entitled to stay for the remainder of the lease !!! Also they can’t stop you from breaking the lease - thats soooo illegal omg please don’t let this slide !!!
Actually if it states it in the lease, they fully well can.
I live in the OC and LA and there’s something she’s not sharing about this. But that’s how she is and it’s her business. Even big companies follow the landlord/tenant rules.
Girl I'm 40 and living with my folks for a bit. No shame! 🤣😂
Shayla Ortiz If family dont embrace each other when its tough then who will?? Nothing to be ashamed of❤️
I lived with my parents most of my 30s. I developed serious health problems that left me unable to work a regular job. No shame in that at all. Families should help each other.
I’m glad all of you have family that you can rely on 🧡 hope you’re all doing well 🥰
That doesn’t seem legal… That they’re allowed to charge you, even when you’re not living there🤔 I would take that to a lawyer, girl.. just in case. ❤️
Get a free consultation. Read through your signed lease.
Have you ever signed a lease before...? They say it fine print you are still responsible for the payments even if you get evicted. It is a legal contract that tenants sign. It’s legal.
She said she wasn’t evicted so
nicole sawyer do you know the definition of evicted? It’s getting kicked out of your apartment which is what this whole video is about
Welcome to California...
It feels like a new era of Kalel ^^ It’s truly fascinating how much she can change and I don’t mean that in a bad way
"Ms. Peacock won't be ~coming~ tonight"
"Ms. Peacock won't be ~coming~ tomorrow night"
"Ms. Peacock won't be ~coming~ any night"
Damn dude rough times for my girl Peacock.... 😂
SaraRose lol
I just have to say I can really tell a difference in you. I don’t know if it’s just the way you’re carrying yourself now or what but you said in your last video that your mental health is better and it really shows. Hope you can keep it up as best as possible :)
thank you!
Is that legal for them to that? For just 3 weeks being late? That doesn’t seem legal, or fair.
Yup in Cali, landlords have all the power
Angela Smith ya his definitely not legal where I live (Canada) here it’s actually very difficult to evict a tenant. But maybe in California the laws favor the landlords
@@pajulkab What about the part where she has to keep paying the rent until they find someone to move in, even without a legal eviction? Wow, that's nuts. Poor Kalel. :(
Just 3 weeks?For some landlords its also their income, so yeah i would not be happy if my income was 3 weeks late.
@@JustJulesO It's a huge company, she said tho.
Kalel: Let's stop stalling.
Also Kalel: *starts talking about the day that she couldn't afford strawberry's*
No hate, love you Kalel! 😘🥰😍
LMFAOOOOOO
@@KalelSumisu Lol! 😂😂😂
Honestly, this was such a real and raw video. I love this new content your making! Love this side of you and thank you for talking about your finances and hardship its a good reminder to a lot of people that youtubers are people too. Loved the video :)
Omg that party is just the “murder in savannah” episode of the office 😂
Colleen McGrory my thought exactly 😂
I have watched you for my entire adolescence and the beginning of my adulthood, and I’ve never watched a UA-camr I connected more with. I feel like I’ve grown and changed with you over UA-cam. Seeing you be so real about your depression really gives me solace in knowing I’m truly not alone in my feelings and my depression. I love love love your videos Kalel no matter what they are about. Right now in my life I feel stuck in my situation and watching you gives me a break from thinking. So thank you so much for continuing to be so real and vulnerable with your content.
I'm 31 and had to recently move back to my mom's house. 🤷🏽♀️ Also, I totally understand about the deep depression...I was in one in February and it was just...depressing. I spent a whole week in bed. I couldn't work because I just felt sad constantly and I only wanted to sleep because then I wouldn't have to think. Ugh. Thank God for meds and therapy.
That sounds messed up, but in Cali, I’m not surprised. I’m glad you found a better place! Thanks for sharing!
“The wound is the place where the light enters you” -Rumi...everything happens for a reason girl, I have no doubt you’ll make it through this and come out better on the other side. Love and light ✌🏻💓
I just quit my job and only have savings until I find something better.. I was unhappy and needed a fresh start depression is always creeping in but we can stay strong ❤️
I'm a complete total stranger but I'm so proud of you for choosing yourself🏵️❤️ you are doing the right thing❤️
I'm rooting for you🙏🏽
thank you❤️
I just quit my depressing job too, now living at home and trying to figure out what’s next. We can do this 💪🏼
Bonnie Belle I love these replies ladies. Happiness and mental health are way more important as long as we can survive ❤️
Bonnie Belle my mom wants me to move home everyone needs to redirect at times even tho I don’t want to I know I needed it
When you were talking about how you were four hours away from the event and making excuses to not go I literally hugged my phone because I can relate to that so hard I love you
I’ve been severely depressed the last year. I have health issues and had to drop out of my school and move back in with my parents in a different state. I wouldn’t leave the house for months. I wouldn’t shower for like a week and a half. I just stayed in my bed all day and didn’t communicate with people on my phone either. Totally isolated myself and I gave up veganism. I just didn’t care about anything, I had no interest in doing anything and I was so exhausted, I just felt perpetually sleepy. Yet I could never sleep well or throughout the night. Since I’ve started on antidepressants again I’ve felt loads and loads better. It’s crazy how I went from feeling hopeless and like nothing was worth living for, to having excitement about things and actually joking with my family. I understand how even though logically you know you should do something, you just don’t give a shit at all and the effort it takes seems overwhelming. Depression sucks, people have always told me to just try and change my attitude. But they don’t get what it’s like to have a sick mind that won’t let you feel anything except bad things. I was really embarrassed to have to drop out and move back home, I totally understand how shitty life can be. Hopefully you can get your apartment sorted out because that does seem extremely unfair. Just seems like they’re taking advantage
What u just wrote is my situation right now. So u give me hope for a better life. Glad u are better.
you are not alone... this is very similar to my situation as well. I have given up hope at this point. I feel like a horrible disappointment. I hope to just get out of this horror of a life I have created for myself.
nathaly o I felt the exact same way 3 months ago. But honestly for me medication has been a world of difference. If you can I suggest going to see a therapist or psychologist. Cause there is hope and I know how much it sucks to be stuck in such a negative place
ugh youre so lucky you even have a family to support you, mine has always been very toxic so its been hard trying to even get in a decent mood
This situation is WOOF, I'm so sorry they're screwing you over like this. The way you're handling it - so graceful and healthy and commendable! This may seem like an embarrassing video for you to make, but it's a huge yaaas Kalel from my point of view
I can totally relate, I've had extreme depression and lost my apartment in 2012 and was living in my car with 3 dogs. I went days without food, depression is a real thing. Now I'm working, have my own place, and a nicer SUV lol. People who have been through difficult times, appreciate small things more. We're stronger people...
I'm 28 now and currently in a 'good place' but from 21-23 I was so depressed I couldn't work at all. I was poor for those two years, sleeping in my car on some nights, living on couches. My family was so frustrated with me and I just couldn't explain why I couldn't work or simple things like shower.. I feel you Kalel. It did get better for me though.
I love your transparency. It shows that you’re human and go through some of the same bs most a lot of people go through. Love you Kalel!
Kalel and Alex Wassabi, a collab I didn’t know I wanted or needed lol
Detective dude: Mrs.Peacock won’t be coming tonight, Mrs. Peacock won’t be coming tomorrow night, Mrs. Peacock won’t be coming any night.
Kalel:That’s me.
I heard uuuu hahaah
Ikigai Voyage caught that one, did ya? 🤣
Kalel When he said it, in my head I thought “me” almost at the exact time you said it! Hahaha 💖
I dont mean to offend, but is there a reason why you're still living in Los Angeles? As far as I know it's an expensive place to live and I think its important for you to have a financial plan and build an emergency fund. Ideally you should aim to have backup savings that enables you to support yourself for 6 months. This provides alot of mental security. But the only way to do this is to probably cut back on your lifestyle and live somewhere cheaper while you save up. The anxiety of not being able to meet rent in an expensive city does not help your mental health. Take care!
She lives in orange county
I just found 12 bricks That's still Los Angeles bro, and OC is no cheap please to live, real estate is super expensive
Taytay Queen she can easily afford it if she works. Did you miss the whole 3 months of zero work? Get the fuck out of here, you’re obviously a fake fan like why you even here?
THANK YOU KALEL FOR NOT MAKING ME FEEL ALONE THIS YEAR HAS BEEN TOUGH we will get thru this love you
Girl I was gonna skip tor ads but then I let you have them you’re welcome
AHAHAHA, a true friend!!
I didn’t have any ads? I don’t have UA-cam red either....hmmmm
Loved this video Kalel. Thank you for being so open all of the time and so willing to share your lows. I’m having a pretty rough year myself and am about to have my third move this year. So it was really nice to have a day with a friend going through similar stuff. ❤️💓 thank you for sharing with us
hang in there!!!
Needed this video SO much!! I’m 29 and 2019 has been the craziest/toughest year for me. So much to the point my anxiety is like next level through the roof and causing depression. I’ve been watching you forever (literally years) and I’ve never related more to you than right now. Thank you for posting this!!!!! This is why I continue to watch you, you grow and bitchhh it’s inspiring! Hahaha. Just thank you for being real and authentic. We can get through this together and we will look back and see a beautiful thing was created! ♥️♥️♥️
Ciara Sutton we got thisssss! 🥰
please START 👏🏽 A 👏🏽 PODCAST 👏🏽
YES🔥❤️
Pleaseee do a podcast!!!
I'm having an awful year myself. I keep thinking "oh, when summer ends I'll get my shit together" "Oh, when September ends I'll get my shit together" and I still don't have it together.
It's okay to not be okay.
Sending you love from the UK.
we got this!!
I’m having a difficult time this year too. Lets hope our slumps go away soon
Tell me about it!!!
Same. I said when 30 hits I'll get my shit together. I still live in my completely cluttered bedroom and cannot find a decent job. i feel pathetic.
💗
I honestly want Kalel to do podcasts, I LOOOVE her black screen videos, they’re so soothing and relaxing and her voice is just so angelic. Like is that just me or anyone else?
YES! Her black screen videos were the best. They were so soothing! I would listen to them before bed! lol
MusicDreamer good idea
Broke and depressed af club ❤️
I can’t believe you look so put together. Emotionally I would be crying to the camera if I was in your shoes.
Girl you’ve been my favorite UA-camr since the start. Back when you lived in the south and had make up channels and that fantasy wonderland wardrobe. Please come out with merch, I will buy it all. There’s some TRUE fans in here that want to help support you. You’ve given me content to watch for so many years plz do merch for some income. Love you!!! Appreciate you. I relate so much with you it’s insane. Hermit life 🖤
Good on you for pushing yourself to go out when you were feeling anxious! ♥️
It felt impossible at the start of this year, but I'm learning to push past my 1000 excuses!
Watching this vlog brings tears to my eyes because I am EXACTLY in your shoes! It’s so difficult to explain to others why I can’t seem to get out of bed and it’s like before I fully blink my eyes it’s the end of the month and I’m stressing about rent and bills. If only everyone could understand the power that depression has over us.
Thank you for being so real. I’m 33 and still get help from my mom. She comes to visit me and ends up stalking up my pantry. No shame in a parent wanting to help their kids out. Keep your head up. 💜
2019 has not been kind to me as well. Keep your head up pretty girl! We can push through! 2020 is going to be our year! I have followed you for many years and I really appreciate you sharing your trying times because it makes you more relatable. Thinking of you during this time and sending many hugs!
I can tell you first hand that something VERY similar happened with my apartment. I was also stuck in a hard depression and wasn’t really making content and had a tough time paying on time and was taken to court over it and all. Listening to your story was like replaying the exact same thing that happened to me and it definitely made me feel less alone. It was embarrassing and I didn’t even want to tell anyone it happened. It sucks and I’m so sorry you had to go through that, but just know that no matter how embarrassing we think our struggles are, their is something out there who’s mental health can truly benefit from hearing another’s story. Thank you for being raw, open and honest. I really appreciate your content, even when you’re just chilling at home or talking about your life. I find it to be very comforting and relaxing. This is why your video do so well. People just like you for you and that’s the coolest thing. You don’t have to try to be anyone else or put in a big elaborate show to get people to watch. You just share your honest thoughts, your views, your opinions, your hobbies, your interests and your life with viewers. I love that.
Honestly this sounds like a lie. California is a leader renter protections. If it is true, you should countersue. Also consider living below your means, so in case of a rainy day you have savings. There are a lot of public spaces in Southern California you can film at, it doesn’t need to be in an expensive apartment. In Orange County that apartment would run around $3k per month. Save up girl! Sorry if this is too harsh, it’s just being logical.
We’re all going through it. You’re not alone 🤗
Am I the only one who doesn't get how kalel can afford her lifestyle, which seems expensive, when her job is youtube and she barely uploads??? i'm pretty new to her channel does she have a second job?
Thank you so much for being so open and vulnerable about this! I have been feeling like such a failure this year almost 30 and still relying on my parents for financial help. You helped to make me feel a little bit more normal, and a little less alone. Gotta keep pushing
The irony of James being the one to say that😆😆
Depression is a life long battle. I have it and it's gone up and down throughout my life. I've been well in recent years but sometimes I get blue days, most recently this past week. I felt as you described it, like lethargic and zero energy. I feel you, more than ever. Your words reminded me that what I have isn't just all in my head. It's real, and I want to thank you again for sharing these feelings. I hope we reach a point where we can all be understanding of mental illnesses and just have compassion for one another. I wish you the best, Kalel.
I really appreciate this moment of honesty. I've been there -- I've been depressed enough that working seemed impossible even with a negative bank balance. (I'm also self-employed.) It's nice to see someone break all that "my life is perfect" bullshit and put it out there. I respect you for that. Takes a lot of guts.
I'm scared to even think how much that 2.5 hour lift ride cost
What happened to the telsa
@@meganmccallum4006 She was probably drinking alcohol so it's best to leave the tesla at home 😂
I've been following you for a very long time and girl, I'm so proud of you! You seem like a completly different person and I can feel it in my bones, that you're gonna be really happy soon! Fighting
thank you!!
YASSSS SPILL. THE. TEA. i havent even watched yet but im ready for the tea
how much was that Lyft drive I wonder
Honestly, UA-camrs who have it all and no conflicts in their lives whatsoever bore me because I find them so unrelatable. This is wayyyy more up my alley and relatable when you’re real with us
drop the skincare routine sis
Depression can bring a lot of shame and embarrassment. And it also brings a sense of loneliness, so thanks for being so open to us and sharing your struggle. It truly helps a lot of us feel less alone. 💕
I could relate to so much of this! I've had that severe of depression before...it's indescribably challenging. & I'm always wanting to make an excuse to cancel plans & just stay home because I'm an extreme introvert! I hope your move goes well!
I love how you talk to yourself trying to stop negative thoughts and motivating yourself to get stuff done, I do that too and is actually very helpful!! ✨
I’ve not been working for 2 years now due to depression and PTSD. I’ve been broke for ages living of my parents and partner. Finally I got the courage to go onto benefits from the government to help me out. And hopefully with the help of therapy I’ll be better and ready to go to work :)
In a world where so often we are told that it is time to end mental health stigma, its shocking that a company could evict a depressed person 3 weeks late on their rent (especially for the first time). It’s really inspiring to see you rising out of this. For many depressed people this could have been the ultimate breaking point, so I’m glad that you had a support network that helped ensure that you were able to make it through. I lost 3 friends to suicide last year due to financial struggles that they felt were too overwhelming to overcome, and I hope that stories like yours help not only end the stigma on mental health issues but financial issues too. Keep shining Kalel, you’ve got this 👊
hearing you talk about being too depressed to work helps me feel less alone but also sad that you’ve had to go through it too. I know how horrible and embarrassing it feels. I’m currently hanging on to my little savings to not feel broke lol 😂 I hope everything goes well with your move!
Going through something similar, it actually is kind of comforting in a way to know you're not the only one and if you keep working through it it'll get better sooner or later. Actually really proud of you for trying to stay strong, despite not knowing you - hope the move goes ok, excited to see a new place either way and how it eventually ends up looking over time :)
I want to help you get back in a comfortable financial situation I would love to watch your ads all the way for you’re revenue and don’t be afraid of brand deals me and everyone else here that truly loves you wants to see you happy and thriving please let us help you where we can , love ya KALEL !!!!
Dear Kalel. Thank you for opening up yourself and share your problem. As many other people said before me, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I really hope that this horrible experience will open you another hopeful door for you. At least it brought you closer to your parents, and you will gain some strength and muscles in your upper body with all the boxes. From now on I’ll watch all the commercials and click on the banners from your videos. Don’t lost your faith, you will be ok. Big hug from Spain.
i wish there was a 'love' instead of 'like' button because I have related to you and your videos since I was a teen. Now an adult in my 20s and also being in this same mindset, I love how I am not alone and how I can still adore how you have grown
Miranda Swan thank you 😘
Day officially made 😘
How do you keep your cats from clawing your furniture specifically your couch? I have scratching posts and kitty towers but they still go for the couch.
They sell a tape that you can put on your couch to prevent them from scratching it.
Double sided tape on all corners of the couch!
There is also a spray by SmartyKat you can spray on your couch to prevent them from scratching
Emily i bought all kinds of sprays but my cats don’t care lol
It’s sad that depression/other mental illnesses aren’t taken as seriously as physical injuries are. I can relate to this so much and you’re right, there’s no way to explain that feeling to someone who hasn’t experienced it. I’m praying that 2020 is much better than 2019... thank you for being brave and sharing this. God Bless 💛💛
Kalel! Please don't be embarrassed to share these things. You are not alone in your struggles with finances. It's very brave of you to talk so openly about it. As a viewer I appreciate the honesty and transparency, and I'm sure many people agree.
People who tried to make you feel bad for having financial problems can gtfo, honestly. It's how life works. I can't explain enough how I admire you for sharing this. Most UA-camrs make it look as if their life was perfect, so it's hard not to compare yourself to them and feel like a failure. You remind me that we're all human. Thank you 🤗
You are awesome! You did it, you went to the event, thank you for taking us on your journey! I love All you do, and you make me feel so much better. You make it okay to fail, okay not to be perfect and that is really something we could use more of, on youtube, so thank you! You Are lovely and deserve a LOT of love!
Binging this channel during awful recovery from spinal stenosis. Feels like I’m at coffee with a new friend. Well all day coffee but still.
All cats go to heaven, and landlords burn in Hell.
Tell me I’m not the only one who ADORES her bangs 💕💕
I completely understand EVERYTHING you said about being depressed & not having energy! There’s been times where I wouldn’t leave the house for days & just sleep all the time. I would be physically & mentally exhausted without having done anything. Depression is no joke & I don’t think anyone who hasn’t been through it can really understand. I’m glad you forced yourself to go to the party even if you didn’t want to go. Small things like that help. Looking forward to the new apartment.
Sounds like you're getting scammed. Please get a lawyer.
I want you to know - I'm 24 and dealing with the same shit in Utah!
Depression, shitty apartment complexes, embarrassing stupid situations...
You go girl and you keep doing it!!!!
Much love xoxoxo ♥️
She looks SO different
Hey girl, I spent this entire summer not working due to depression and anxiety, and I totally feel you when you say its difficult to explain that type of thing to people. You feel ashamed and like a degenerate, when in reality its impossible to get out of bed some days. You are not alone! Congrats for pushing through. and good for you for still going to the party! Much love
3 months with $0 in the bank.. at least you avoided that overdraft fee
no shame in this girl! we are all dealing with or have dealt with similar situations! you’re not alone. this is an important time to manifest and align with the universe! talk to your lawyer, your building is not following proper protocol. sending you good energy!
That sounds like me in my early 20s. I adore you and the fact that you shares something so personal. I hope that you make it through this struggle fast. You are a great person who is capable of great things. Anything you set your mind to. Keep us posted. -with Love, Tiffany
love you Kalel, don't be embarrassed by your struggles, we all go through them and depression is awful and I know what it can do to one's mind and body. I wish you the best of luck with your moving, you can do it!!!
Excited to see how Kalel designs the new apartment, she has the best style
love your hair and your honesty. I completely understand your situation. your mental health is always validated with us and we love you. sorry your are going through a tough time you are so strong you can do this!!
Kalel: I’m broke
Also kalel: I ordered an expensive dress
This year has been super difficult for me and I honestly feel for the first time in a long time somewhat on the up! It’s super comforting to see I’m not alone. Life is hard.. Thanks for continuing to share your story.