Baby girl...I understand the madness - the madness of thinking "I've got to lose some weight" while knowing that your bones could break and you need your cushion....and the madness of thinking "You look good" as meaning "the anorexia isn't WORKING"....it's as mad as it can be....and I just want you to know, I get it. I ADMIRE that you recognize your sensitivities to "triggers" and I admire that you know when it may be time to take a break or stop reading your comments. Recognizing our triggers and protecting ourselves from them (as best we can) is a step towards self love. Do whatever you need to do for YOURSELF! Love Always, G
Hi dear. I want to scream NOOOO when I hear you have to lose weight! I have watched you for years and notice you only put out videos when you are extremely thin but to lose weight is a big mistake. You are already too thin and as each year passes the body can handle only less and less abuse. I know this, I am 52 years old and have had anorexia since I was 22. I have learned to "live" with this affliction but I am always at an anorexic bmi, I just won't go any lower (as much as I want to) because I know at my age it will kill me. I have had to endure the comments of "you look well" or "you look better" and it triggers like only the few of us can know, but I had to find a way to live with it because if I lose any weight I will die - and I really want to be around for my 3 grandkids. Believe me, it has not been easy and living with just being 'very thin" but not "deathly thin" like I once was is a constant battle but you CAN do it! Please don't lose anymore weight; it's going to kill you and you are too beautiful inside and out to lose. If you can, please rethink this! I have so much empathy for you!
TO ALL OF YOU... EACH AND EVERY COMMENT AT TIME OF WRITING THIS... I Read all your comments and it brought me to tears- like I said in above vid- A simple couple of words i.e. "Looking Good" or words to those effect...I should be beaming to have people say those things about me. I guess it's because I HAVE been having a personal struggle and doubt about my own body image (The Anorexic part of me has) and so 'Lolita' was happy to hear it but Anorexia just jumped all over it and went crazy! And to be honest, it has frightened me as I thought I may have made a deal with that part of me and kinda levelled, as in, ok- Anorexia is happy as it HAS me but I'm happy as I've learned to live at this level and get on with it to the best I can but NOOOOOOOO..... It's gotten one over me again and it took me by surprise but how brutal it has been this past week especially and well, I want to thank each and every single one of you. I WILL come back, God willing, I always do. BUT-Because I pride my Channel on trying to promote positivity for those of us living with this disease/Eating Disorders/Complex Mental Health issues, I want to be in a better head-space. My Carer is back from holiday today so she'll soon sort me the fook out .BIG LOVE n HUGZ TO Y'ALL XXXXXXXXXX
LolitaIsDead76 oh sweetie. Breaks my heart to hear you saying all this and know you're angry and upset. But you havent let anyone down. We r all rooting for you. And we will be there when you want to post again. Whether it be in 1 year, 1 month or 1 day from now. Trust me those of us who know what it's like understand very much how a comment that is meant to be kind ends up being triggering is a very self-destructive way. I only hope you can rest a little from that self-harm. Because you are worth and deserve love. Only love. Please please try to take care of yourself. I know the illness is powerful. But we want you here xox
Ive had anorexia for 14 years, and find those comments in any context terribly hard too. Anorexia IS an illness but the difference between letting anorexia win and fighting against it is overiding those thoughts with rational ones.
No apology needed huney-you have the psychology of it down. . I know il be living with this the rest of my life and dealing with it daily. I drank for yrs and now sober 25 or so yrs and iv had to work on it daily. Starting the day positive was a challenge, but i had to do it and still am. My grown sons would look at me and think nobody was home. And the worry i put them through-so many er visits, guessing games with my health, just BS. My hubby got to the point either get help or else and my grandbabies-Emmas15 months and Brantley will be 3 in dec. I dont want them to see me look this way, no way to explain it. I watched your video and sometimes you just gotta BREATH. You dont have to take my suggestions, but i think some quiet time in nature would help. I birdwatch, its fun and relaxing. Just remember YOU ARE LOVED HUNEY SO GRAB THE BULL BY THE HORNS AND BE ALL THAT YOU CAN AND KEEP ON KEEPIN ON🤗🌹🌞 So give youself a timeout and we will be talkin soon. And i love you to dear!!!
oh honey. Please know that you are so very loved by so many here and that none of us feel you've let us down! I think it's a safe bet that everyone who follows your videos just want you to be at peace and will always be here when/if you feel ready to come back.
Im sending love your way and i hope that you one day soon realise how important you are to this world and the people who love you, as well as find the strength within you to regain back your life from this terrible disease. ❤️️
words can have so much power, and to people they way not even see what you see but i reakon you are brave and i respect you so much. Eating disorders are so dangerous and i have so much happiness for your open and honest approach. i hope your break from your channel gives for a new insight. you are not weak,….you are putting yourself on the top of your priority list, thank you for giving me and others so much hope… but its now time for you.
V Lizzy, I think you have said exactlt what I'd have said if I were someone else watching this update vid, made by someone I've followed on this Channel for a while..... Massive love and thanks and for your kind, loving honesty. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
It's strange how you can feel so strong about someone you never met in real life. My heart goes out to you and your loved ones. I will think about you and I so hope that we someday can be able to enjoy your videos again. You are such an amazing person. Please take care, please survive this f-ing illness. 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
I respect that those words can be a trigger for you and sorry to hear that it has affected you. People can mean your looking well as you have a spark about you! And they/ i don't necessarily mean anything about your weight. Sometimes we find it hard in what to say as we want to be positive for you and show our compassion through our comments with nice thoughtful words. Looking well can mean a range of things! Anyway take care of yourself be safe. I'm sorry if you have misinterpreted my comment I'm only human and I don't always say or use the right words. All that I wanted to do is send positive vibes and I hope ppl here find it in their heart not to be too harsh and judgmental on us using the word 'well'... We can only learn from our mistakes. X
Shar B sweetheart, I promise you that YOU CAN NEVER say anything but helpful, lovely and 'keep it real' stuff... To be honest, I'm ashamed that I let what WERE lovely comments, into the Anorexic brain, twist everything n make my ever living-on-the-edge life even more dangerous... Through people being kind!!! I really hate myself for this but not anyone of you guys...... NEVER. You're all super xxxxxx
I get it,someone a few days ago asked me how i went from anorexic to eating like a pig...well..i have them a lodgical explaination and to me thats saying that with a bmi of sixteen im not very spiritual but matirialistic since i have the long old thought to be dead anorexia miribilis,havnt fasted in ten months but im considering it again make it to fourty?not so certain
Sorry you feel so bad. I don't know what to say. You are right this is no way to live your life. I think I am one of the few who follows your channel who doesn't have an eating disorder, plenty of other disorders! but not an ED. I may have said "you look well" but I was referring to the outfit you were wearing, I thought it was a given that you need to put on about 5 stone before you look "well." I'm not sure if it was me who said it. Maybe your channel should be for people with ED's only? I follow quite a few people on youtube but never BECAUSE they have an illness, mental or physical, but because I like them, an example being Chantal's Eating Show, she is lovely and warm-hearted and kind and she gets take-away food that we don't have in the UK! She is trying to lose weight but that is irrelevant to me, pretty much everyone is either trying to lose weight or gain weight, I don't actually know anyone who is happy with their weight. I have noticed that you take the comments extremely seriously and often get upset when someone leaves a comment that I, personally, find quite inoffensive but it's your channel and you are entitled to feel upset. Take care of yourself xxxx
I sooo understand how you feel. When people make those comments i just want to fuckn scream at them. For me the " oh you looking good= oh you got fat." Any little comment that they make. Are they expecting me to say OH THANK YOU for pointing that out, you have no idea what you just did to me and my brain. Watching you in this video made me cry. I am so sorry for you. You dont have anything to apologize for! I feel like you are a friend to me. I hope everything goes good for you. Thinking of you!
Pam Mahon it's hard for other people also sometimes people can't find the words and try not to be too hard on people. Maybe they didn't realise such comments can be a trigger for you. Our interpretation of certain words is different from yours, mine and others. People are going to make mistakes as no one has written a book on what to say to someone with a eating disorder. Tc x
Baby girl...I understand the madness - the madness of thinking "I've got to lose some weight" while knowing that your bones could break and you need your cushion....and the madness of thinking "You look good" as meaning "the anorexia isn't WORKING"....it's as mad as it can be....and I just want you to know, I get it.
I ADMIRE that you recognize your sensitivities to "triggers" and I admire that you know when it may be time to take a break or stop reading your comments. Recognizing our triggers and protecting ourselves from them (as best we can) is a step towards self love. Do whatever you need to do for YOURSELF!
Love Always, G
You sweet soul, I hope one day you find peace. Much love and blessings 🤍
Hi dear. I want to scream NOOOO when I hear you have to lose weight! I have watched you for years and notice you only put out videos when you are extremely thin but to lose weight is a big mistake. You are already too thin and as each year passes the body can handle only less and less abuse. I know this, I am 52 years old and have had anorexia since I was 22. I have learned to "live" with this affliction but I am always at an anorexic bmi, I just won't go any lower (as much as I want to) because I know at my age it will kill me. I have had to endure the comments of "you look well" or "you look better" and it triggers like only the few of us can know, but I had to find a way to live with it because if I lose any weight I will die - and I really want to be around for my 3 grandkids. Believe me, it has not been easy and living with just being 'very thin" but not "deathly thin" like I once was is a constant battle but you CAN do it! Please don't lose anymore weight; it's going to kill you and you are too beautiful inside and out to lose. If you can, please rethink this! I have so much empathy for you!
TO ALL OF YOU... EACH AND EVERY COMMENT AT TIME OF WRITING THIS... I Read all your comments and it brought me to tears- like I said in above vid- A simple couple of words i.e. "Looking Good" or words to those effect...I should be beaming to have people say those things about me. I guess it's because I HAVE been having a personal struggle and doubt about my own body image (The Anorexic part of me has) and so 'Lolita' was happy to hear it but Anorexia just jumped all over it and went crazy! And to be honest, it has frightened me as I thought I may have made a deal with that part of me and kinda levelled, as in, ok- Anorexia is happy as it HAS me but I'm happy as I've learned to live at this level and get on with it to the best I can but NOOOOOOOO..... It's gotten one over me again and it took me by surprise but how brutal it has been this past week especially and well, I want to thank each and every single one of you. I WILL come back, God willing, I always do. BUT-Because I pride my Channel on trying to promote positivity for those of us living with this disease/Eating Disorders/Complex Mental Health issues, I want to be in a better head-space. My Carer is back from holiday today so she'll soon sort me the fook out .BIG LOVE n HUGZ TO Y'ALL XXXXXXXXXX
LolitaIsDead76 oh sweetie. Breaks my heart to hear you saying all this and know you're angry and upset. But you havent let anyone down. We r all rooting for you. And we will be there when you want to post again. Whether it be in 1 year, 1 month or 1 day from now. Trust me those of us who know what it's like understand very much how a comment that is meant to be kind ends up being triggering is a very self-destructive way. I only hope you can rest a little from that self-harm. Because you are worth and deserve love. Only love. Please please try to take care of yourself. I know the illness is powerful. But we want you here xox
Ive had anorexia for 14 years, and find those comments in any context terribly hard too. Anorexia IS an illness but the difference between letting anorexia win and fighting against it is overiding those thoughts with rational ones.
No apology needed huney-you have the psychology of it down. . I know il be living with this the rest of my life and dealing with it daily. I drank for yrs and now sober 25 or so yrs and iv had to work on it daily. Starting the day positive was a challenge, but i had to do it and still am. My grown sons would look at me and think nobody was home. And the worry i put them through-so many er visits, guessing games with my health, just BS. My hubby got to the point either get help or else and my grandbabies-Emmas15 months and Brantley will be 3 in dec. I dont want them to see me look this way, no way to explain it. I watched your video and sometimes you just gotta BREATH. You dont have to take my suggestions, but i think some quiet time in nature would help. I birdwatch, its fun and relaxing. Just remember YOU ARE LOVED HUNEY SO GRAB THE BULL BY THE HORNS AND BE ALL THAT YOU CAN AND KEEP ON KEEPIN ON🤗🌹🌞 So give youself a timeout and we will be talkin soon. And i love you to dear!!!
oh honey. Please know that you are so very loved by so many here and that none of us feel you've let us down! I think it's a safe bet that everyone who follows your videos just want you to be at peace and will always be here when/if you feel ready to come back.
Im sending love your way and i hope that you one day soon realise how important you are to this world and the people who love you, as well as find the strength within you to regain back your life from this terrible disease. ❤️️
words can have so much power, and to people they way not even see what you see but i reakon you are brave and i respect you so much. Eating disorders are so dangerous and i have so much happiness for your open and honest approach. i hope your break from your channel gives for a new insight. you are not weak,….you are putting yourself on the top of your priority list, thank you for giving me and others so much hope… but its now time for you.
Hey sweet Lolita
V Lizzy, I think you have said exactlt what I'd have said if I were someone else watching this update vid, made by someone I've followed on this Channel for a while..... Massive love and thanks and for your kind, loving honesty. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Omg, this breaks my heart...I hope you have good people around you...
Poor dear woman, love yourself sweetheart. You are deserving of love.
It's strange how you can feel so strong about someone you never met in real life. My heart goes out to you and your loved ones. I will think about you and I so hope that we someday can be able to enjoy your videos again. You are such an amazing person.
Please take care, please survive this f-ing illness.
💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
I respect that those words can be a trigger for you and sorry to hear that it has affected you. People can mean your looking well as you have a spark about you! And they/ i don't necessarily mean anything about your weight. Sometimes we find it hard in what to say as we want to be positive for you and show our compassion through our comments with nice thoughtful words. Looking well can mean a range of things! Anyway take care of yourself be safe. I'm sorry if you have misinterpreted my comment I'm only human and I don't always say or use the right words. All that I wanted to do is send positive vibes and I hope ppl here find it in their heart not to be too harsh and judgmental on us using the word 'well'... We can only learn from our mistakes. X
Shar B sweetheart, I promise you that YOU CAN NEVER say anything but helpful, lovely and 'keep it real' stuff... To be honest, I'm ashamed that I let what WERE lovely comments, into the Anorexic brain, twist everything n make my ever living-on-the-edge life even more dangerous... Through people being kind!!! I really hate myself for this but not anyone of you guys...... NEVER. You're all super xxxxxx
thinking of you always 💚
You Are Loved🤗
I get it,someone a few days ago asked me how i went from anorexic to eating like a pig...well..i have them a lodgical explaination and to me thats saying that with a bmi of sixteen im not very spiritual but matirialistic since i have the long old thought to be dead anorexia miribilis,havnt fasted in ten months but im considering it again make it to fourty?not so certain
Sorry you feel so bad. I don't know what to say. You are right this is no way to live your life. I think I am one of the few who follows your channel who doesn't have an eating disorder, plenty of other disorders! but not an ED. I may have said "you look well" but I was referring to the outfit you were wearing, I thought it was a given that you need to put on about 5 stone before you look "well." I'm not sure if it was me who said it. Maybe your channel should be for people with ED's only? I follow quite a few people on youtube but never BECAUSE they have an illness, mental or physical, but because I like them, an example being Chantal's Eating Show, she is lovely and warm-hearted and kind and she gets take-away food that we don't have in the UK! She is trying to lose weight but that is irrelevant to me, pretty much everyone is either trying to lose weight or gain weight, I don't actually know anyone who is happy with their weight. I have noticed that you take the comments extremely seriously and often get upset when someone leaves a comment that I, personally, find quite inoffensive but it's your channel and you are entitled to feel upset. Take care of yourself xxxx
I sooo understand how you feel. When people make those comments i just want to fuckn scream at them. For me the " oh you looking good= oh you got fat." Any little comment that they make. Are they expecting me to say OH THANK YOU for pointing that out, you have no idea what you just did to me and my brain. Watching you in this video made me cry. I am so sorry for you. You dont have anything to apologize for! I feel like you are a friend to me. I hope everything goes good for you. Thinking of you!
Pam Mahon it's hard for other people also sometimes people can't find the words and try not to be too hard on people. Maybe they didn't realise such comments can be a trigger for you. Our interpretation of certain words is different from yours, mine and others. People are going to make mistakes as no one has written a book on what to say to someone with a eating disorder. Tc x