I have lost myself along the way. Thats it, I have just completely lost myself. I end every night thinking to myself "I'll do better, I'll change, I'll try!" I Imagine what I can do different in my day to day life, and it's good changes, it could literally help me do well. instead I'm stuck, I continue drink by myself drunk, thinking it helps with my sleep, I continue to long for days that are far gone already. Lost in the past that'll never come back. I continue chasing a feeling of youth and innoncence that's lost forever, and I continue ending my nights by saying "I'll do better....tomorrow. " As I'm writing this. Its another night of few beers and music like this. Typically how I end my nights. Man, as good at it is, it fucking sucks sometimes. To whoever may read this. I hope you're doing well, and just like anybody else, you deserve to be the happiest you can be, today and tomorrow. In literally every single day, that comes your way. I believe in you.
Oh brother...please know that you're not alone in this. I can completely relate to you. I've been in a very similar situation for years and years. It's coming to an end. It hasn't passed yet, but I'm much, much better now. Please hold on. You can do it. I believe in you!
Feel you brother. Waking up feels to tiring. The Day start With tear drops and sadness. Had lost my father and a brother. Now i have to live the sadness of seeing the women i love, Mother of my son with someone else. 3 losses. My closest ones. Feel so empty. Feel so lonely. Hope one Day ill be able to show my son my Best version. Wish he could see what it is like to have his father happy. Sometimes i feel like giving up. He holds me to life, to live. Wish you all the Best.
I noticed a lot of people feel so empty. And it sucks that we have to go through things like this. I genuinely have no idea how people are able to live super happily and live their life fully without feeling so empty all the time. I’m pretty sure everyone might have felt empty at least once or even for a second. But reading through the comments is kind of therapeutic in a way to me. I can see that there are other people who feel that way and are struggling like I am. At least I’m not alone in feeling that way. I wanted to listen to this and sleep, see if I have enough energy to get up and try again. I think I’ll start with cleaning my room. I’ve neglected so many things because of how I feel that it’s all the same and there is no purpose. I saw a comment listing their daily routine. I realized we all have something that gets in the way of exploring something that might make us happy. Like school or work. Or maybe it’s a financial situation or a family situation. I think even though none of us can be there for each other physically to help, we at least know we’re not alone in suffering. I hope you all are doing ok, I’ll try to get some sleep. Keep going, we’ll make it somehow, if we don’t it’s ok, at least we tried.
@@EELFA I'm alright, just that my ears are plugged, will be going to the doctor tomorrow, or.. today, since it's almost 5AM and I haven't slept yet. But other than that I'm feeling alright. And, while I don't know exactly how you feel, I've been there - feeling hopeless, lost, and sad. And I know it might not seem like it, but with time, it does get better. So if you need someone to talk to, reach out to me. I'm here for you to vent, rant, or have someone to talk to in general.
@@Infact77 I hope everything goes well for you at the doctors. Funny thing, this playlist actually helps me sleep some. Thank you for the support, I really appreciate it and would like to extend the same offer. If you want to talk about any of your problems, I’ll be here too, and I’ll “listen”(not really since we’re typing lol) to your concerns and vents too.
Every single day i feel empty since i lost my job and my gf but reading your comment made realize that am not alone in this situation every body has his own problems and it made me feel good in way or another much love man just hang on there 🤍
Believe me or not if you are here and listening to these kinds of music then definitely you are totally different from others. And everything will be ok don't worry ❤️❤️
8AM - Wake up 12 PM - Work 8 PM - Come home, soul feeling heavier than when I clocked in 10 PM - Listen to similar tracks to this one (it will never fix my emptiness) Repeat × 10⁹⁹
Everybody feeling “empty” trust me it will pass. In highschool i was a mess of a person, but now ive changed greatly, and learned to focus on what makes life beautiful
I really needed this. It's christmas eve, my horrible toxic "family" is throwing out the only frozen food my mother n i have in their fridge (we aren't allowed to use it, if we do it's cause we sneak in like some frozen meat). We're getting threatned to be kicked out again, it happens like weekly but somehow it hurts this Christmas eve. I feel over stimulated cause now their just playing the tv loud asf, talking about us loud asf n then the neighbours are playing loud christmas music so I feel frustrated n tired. I was listening to rain music but it didnt help this time and i saw this so i figured, i'd give it a try to sleep or zone out the noise. It does help, i feel a lot calmer and i'm reading a bit to fall asleep faster.
Wake up at 5, go to school at 6:30, come home, and do nothing but feel depressed And repeat.. Over and over again, I like these playlist.. It's calming, and comfort..
i just want to put this out here i dont like talking to people about myself, i dont like to be put under the spotlight, i dont like when its about me but i am so tired. i cant escape the discomfort i feel talking to someone dear to me about my problems, i feel trapped. i am tired of working hard just to fail everytime. im no longer who i used to be. i have lost myself
im only 18 and i hate how i always pull my family back from their own goals too and i dont even intend to do it. i will never forget the look in my parents eyes that day when i fucked up the only chance to make them proud. im sorry everyone i cant do anything. i dont even recognise myself anymore and i am sorry.
I mean honestly same. Ig to help u in some way I just want u to know that your not alone. And this is life, there's ups and downs. I feel like everyone goes through this. But I hope your okay. And I wish your gonna be okay...
10 am- wake up 11- watch my little sister 12- study 12:30- clean 1-get ready for work 1:30- walk to work 9:30/10 pm- get home 1am- still haven’t been able to sleep yet… 1:30 ish- fall asleep Repeat Repeat Repeat again. And again. And again. Every day besides 1 out of the week. I feel empty. And I know people have said that on here a lot. But not empty like a soda bottle empty like an endless hole at the bottom of the ocean. Nobody knows what’s going on in there. There could be something… but then again nobody knows for sure. Btw im just some 18 year old girl that got thrown into life too early…
Wishing you can get through this difficult patch in your life, things may seem endless and eventually you feel they slowly start to become pointless, but I'm here to tell you, that it isn't. That everything you're doing has been doing others like your sister well but also yourself, because you still get up everyday and do the same things, despite going through a difficult time, not mention you were thrown in at an earlier age into this stressful and scary world, naturally, you'd only feel numb and perhaps lonely, because it seems as if this is only happening to you, and we all tend to think that way when we're so caught up in our own pain and suffering, that we fail to recognize it and judge everything based off of our own perception of it. But i think sometimes we all need a friendly gentle reminder that we are indeed not alone in this. It becomes especially visible once you begin to connect with more people online, you'll find that, in many different parts of the world, there is always someone that can relate or understand your experience, perhaps even better than you do. And you'll eventually come to realize this, if not through this message, then on your own once you reach out to some other people, just knowing that there are people whom can understand you and with whom you can talk to when your down is already quite helpful I think, so of you haven't tried this, and if you have the energy to spare in your free time to try somethings out, i do recommend giving this a try 💜 you are stronger than you think or realize, and commiting to this daily routine only proves it, so please, keep trying just a bit longer 💜 if not for yourself, try to for your sister. Take care friend. -From a fellow friend who suffers from depression
I have been working and watching my little siblings since I turned 15 lol life is no easy thing ... get yourself together at least you are healthy, have enough food to not starve on a daily basis and can sleep in a comfy bed...
It's good to suffer when you're young. Builds character - you'll come out of whatever you're going through scarred but proud of your self-acceptance, self-accountability. You'll be more resilient and unwavering in anything you do going forward. Yes, memories of past trauma will always haunt you like it does haunt me, some regrets are too difficult to look at from the flipside. Just remember, don't be too harsh on yourself... As I'm typing this, I realized I was typing it to myself, like a diary. Thank you for being vulnerable, people.
in the buzzed day of endless thoughts , these kinds of music at empty and dark nights is the only comfort i seek for even if i dont fall asleep fasteri keep listeing to these to find ease at mind
dislocated both my shoulders, i've been feeling depressed during the whole summer and i'm still sad but this type of music really helps me to relax and escape reality.
My sleep has become very important to me due to just how much it effects my day and how i function so im grateful for this playlist being able to calm me to the point of sleep.
Im just gonna leave this here so someone knows about it... but life truly is unfair, i am from a country where living is surviving, salaries are so low and the cost of living is so high, and since i was a kid i saw how hard my parents were sacrificing and workings just for us to get a decent life, i remember how pretty my mom used to look...she would go on pages and look up dresses and makeup that she couldn't afford, and i think to myself its okayy, i will study and work hard, get a job and buy it all for her, she'd smile and tell me she cant wait for us to travel and go around the world together .Ever since i was a child i never wanted this life, never have i ever felt any connection to it, having adhd can also be the reason why i feel like am staring at the whole world moving while am standing still unable to understand it, but for me, that was a reason to keep going...it was the nearest i had to a dream, buy my mom all she wants, get her to acc live outside of that home, outside of that filthy city, i want her to live the real life to travel and eat at expensive restaurants.. and have all the fun in the world, and now its my last year in highschool, everything i ever dreamt of can only be possible if i get an insanely high grade this year, and i know you may think that thats quite a hopeful thing, i though so as well, but then adhd, it doesn't help, i put an indescribable amount of work, and get nothing in return, and slowly life started to feel more and more Dark and... Empty.. because when i turned and looked at my mom, she was a hopelss middle aged lady that is no longer interested in make up, or dresses or anythings really, when i spoke with her she said she felt her life was meaningless, she was a stay at home mom who nearly even left the house she watched her dreams that were too big and too crazy die slowly as she realised that thats it for her, her age is gone and so is her will to enjoy the life she once believed she'd get, and me.... I still have a very very long road to go untill the day that i can even buy her a coffe, will she still be there, will she still want it? Will her health allow it? Will the days?... I don't know.. It seems all blurry and meaningless to me as well, knowing the only way i can make it is by doing it for me, because i may just never be able to do it for them, but that, giving up that, will mean im left in this world with absolutely nothing, no dreams, no ambitions, and not even a will to go on.. . But i look at her and i see how faded she is, it breaks my heart a thousand times and i sleep everyday grieving the pretty loud fun lady she once was, the pretty, loud, fun lady she will never be again..
hi. i know that feeling of being not able to want this life since a young age. and yes, life is not fair and can bring bad changes at any moment and actually it brings them all the time and for life it is kind of a usual behaviour. but i don't want to talk about this, i just want to share some thoughts, and maybe you will find them useful in some way. first, i think we should remember that there are always different ways to live life, nearly always more than one, they just exist as some possibility. it may be hard to find some more ways, than what you know, and maybe i myself fail this mission in my life (which seems hard for me) but i think we should remember and think about it and see if we can imagine more ways. cause they surely exist. also, life doesn't ever go the wanted and predictable way. life is always different from what we think and dream, even when somebody reaches his goals, it will find a way to correct or change the whole thing. cause it is actually what life is. you cannot just think there is you and your actions and goals. no, there is you and the whole world, and it is like, you are the first hand, and the world is the second hand. it makes everything even harder. but also, it makes everything real and meaningful and this is the reason why we have goals and dreams, it all is not about static world which would freeze around, it is about that second hand that we catch in the air by our own actions, touching the reality itself. your mother's life didn't go the way she wanted. your life and my lifeand any life, actually they all don't go the way we want. but it goes a way they and we couldn't predict. and together with unfairness and troubles it also may bring something we could never expect to have. something we didn't know about as we don't know much about the world and about living, feeling, about what meaning and reasons we can create for it. it is not much about things, after all, it is a lot about something going on around and us getting some new experience. well, dreams and goals, that all is important, and believe me, you are great at this in my opinion, as i never was so close to any😂 but, don't ignore the feelings, and the things that go in their own way that we can affect. and the ways we affect each other's lives, the way we make each other happy. do not forget what life is about, after all, don't forget the reality not in just bad ways you see it, but also in good ways, cause it is not something that is trying to do something particular to us, it is not something that knows about our goals and tries to make them impossible (although people kinda often do it to each other, and also we are just pretty weak human beings), so it just exists around. and for us it is the second hand of our life. i hope you will see it different, something that can make you curious. i hope, you can also see how much people mean to each other, and how it makes a difficult but important instrument of connection with your life. not sure i was able to say what i wanted to say but anyway😂 and also. care about your mother's health if possible. getting old means needs in better treatment. if possible, would be good to take minerals and vitamins, all, and to reduce small stresses. learn to see new good things and teach her to see. or maybe you should realize how much of her worries are about you and your sadness, who knows? take a look at everything, and again, and again. thoughts, strategies, think calm and don't forget to feel your moving in this world. don't forget to see the things and people you affect, and affect them in a great real way. and be careful, life is still hard and unfair.
Finally, a playlist giving me that refresh. I have been stuck studying with lofi, not knowing that i will be far off better with playlists like this. Thank you for this.
Deep down, you do remember, who you were. Even though you try to forget. But you mustn't supress those memories, for no matter how awful they are, they are what make you who you are. You must remember, you must be sad. It is part of the journey my friend.
He is everything to me. And I messed it up just because of my mental health. His laugh is adorable, his eyes are as blue and deep like the ocean, his brown hair that he fluffs up funny always makes me smile, and his personality is the highlight of it all. And I fumbled him, because I was merely “depressed”? My loses will forever ring in my brain and in my heart. I don’t think I’ll ever win him back again, and it’s all my fault. But it’s okay though, I’ve found peace in self solitude.
Only thing that can relax me to sleep are these types of vids. Im existing day by day anymore. No more alive than i was yesterday. Not depressed, not sad, no lost, just floating a drift with no direction or need of direction. May the winds of fate blow my physical vessel where wanted. In sentence without I or me all of you and them. An ocean of never ending direction and possibility of intimidating size. Motivation-less progress of indeterminate function or purpose. Hollow meanings and reasons made to sweeten bitter truths, lies made into beliefs forced into truths. Unwanted but needed change held back by fear and anger toward the unknown of peace through turmoil. Creativity silenced by greed and resentment transformed into complacency and intolerance. A world idea of “why be you when you can be me” or “that’s not you this is.” Idk im dumb AF. Wanna do a self uninstall sometimes.
i swear i understand this! what has help me feel grounded & connected to earth (life) is nature walks & oddly hugging a tree or leaning against ones reading a book or listening to music!
There is alot beneath the surface that has been silenced that will eventually come back up - the purpose, the curiosity, and most of all - the anger from having your inner self and creativity repressed. Don't let the illusion of meaninglessness steal your agency. When it's time - it will all come bursting out like fireworks.
Don't self uninstal You're loved and wanted Things will get better eventually even though it may take a while. I love you, Jesus loves you (shameless religion plug and I'll do it again), and you should love you. Love yourself to prove to the world that you are worth it You are important You are worthy You are strong And that you are everything they said you could never be
I...I just.....I just want too😢😢😢😢.....i just want the pain to stop in my heart-i just eant to really want to get away from all the world drama and just live alone with not hurting anymore i just want to feel like im living but feel like im hurting myself in the process of craziness in my mind i swallow myself pain,agony,suffering,hurt i just want it to end so badly that i can finally have peace within myself
I've never related more to a comment in my life, I feel you and I hope you feel better. I'm not going to share to much information, but I'm a 12 year old girl and I have had I rough life. sometimes it gets tough and you just want to give up, but don't. Keep your head up high and Push forward. I am going through tough times as well, and I just have to keep telling myself it'll all be alright, hope you feel better❤ - steffini
This gives me the vibes so much I can’t even explain it this just make me fell less broken less heartless less sad less depressed less emptiness less anxiety I kinda of feel a lil type whole again like I’m forgetting just for a second what I went through and how I feel like I’m on my last peace from letting go of me and everything else like I’m to the point I just don’t even care anymore I just want to stop my cries like I cry everyday all day but as of 2023 I just have to live with the unfair life I live in I’m so weak I can’t even cry anymore just in my head I feel hopeless stuck I feel like I’m missing out on like or something I have dreams and I feel like I’m not allowed to dream I feel nothing bm will get better we’ll I know my broken heart won’t be fixed my heart is just dead I don’t feel any more I sometimes think to myself and say why me why me but I realize that’s the wrong thing to do I’m going thrift Through this for a reason but it’s all love and Gil bless live life to the fullest go up peace
my world was black and white u were the color i changed everything for u u were healing me but as u left the colors left my freedom left peoples trust left all gone from me i have to start healing once again from scratch but this time i wanna give up but i am staying strong for my siblings not for anyone else anymore...
LOVE this playlist, well except the one with the phone ring tone... omg I was super relaxed and then a phone starts ringing!! Who the f** is this?!!! Oh, never mind... it's the song... 🙈🙊🙉
Thaaaank you!!! This ringtone sh*t ruins the whole experience. I play these when I'm sleeping and you hear a f****** ringtone out of nowhere in your deep sleep. I always go to comments to check if other people are annoyed by it but somehow you're the first person i found
This song makes me think alot about different things in life it makes me cry for some reason I , just think my things could have been different if someone truly love me for me and no regrets I seem to give my all then that's when they take andvange,,and ,,,I don't see it but I care ,and,love, causes GOD made us ,,to love not hate,to care,for one another,to help one another never hate but always love,,no matter what happens ,,,,that's all we have is one another and reamber,,,GOD our father first in every area,in our lives,,,,tell I hear from u this is ,,,, ,,,,LIONEL,,,JULIAN,,,LOREDO,,, Faith and Faithfulness,,, Always,,,,
12 PM : wake up 12:25 PM : stare at the ceiling 1 PM: mum comes home 2 PM : eat 4 PM: watch videos 6 PM : eat 6:30 PM : watch my mum leave again 7 PM : feel bored 10 PM : mum comes home (sometimes she doesn’t) 10:15 PM : watch videos 2 AM : follow mum’s instructions (if she’s home) 3 AM : watch videos 5 AM : sleep no questions asked.
I'm introvert 42 years old male... I have a real dream and want so badly escape my reality city life my toxic relationship...I want to move out to the country side... To the forest by the lake ...have little cabin...live there...I don't need anything else...no credit cards, no payments...no luxury ..no people's drama..all I need is simplicity... simple car... rustic atmospheric vibe...be present with nature...feel gentle breeze in my face... tranquility and pacification vibe... grilling fresh meats and vegetables on the open fire by the silent lake... Finally feeling life... feeling fresh start in my life... Absolutely no negativity nor negative people in my life...its just you and your True friend buddy German shepherd dog and ultimate freedom forever 😃👍🏼✨🙌🍃🌾🍄☘️🌿🌱🍀⛰️🏞️
Don't be afraid of changing your life, life is too short for us to live miserably anyways. But first think if It is what you really want or if you are maybe overehelmed and just need some time to think or rest...good look on your journey!
I’ve been building towards this goal, for years. And as I get closer, I feel like I’m falling apart. Any moment I think my world is going to collapse in on itself.
Every day I wake up hoping that I’ll feel different then the day before, I feel so empty and I don’t want to feel like that anymore. It’s like I’m trapped. I can’t have one peaceful day, something always happens. And now I have the urge to drink so I can just sleep, so I can pass out and not have the overwhelming thoughts I get every day. I’m tired. I want to be at peace
6am wake up 8am at school 15pm home , do homework if i have time 16pm music school 19pm eat at home, do homework 23pm take a shower 00pm sleep I do not have time even thinking about my emotional state ,only study study and study. im tired of all. nobody cares, i understand what all have himself life and himself problems, but sometimes i want to be a stupid child , like before. srry for not very important problems.
Your perfect your eyes your smile your nose your hair your taste in clothing your body your personality your humor your voice your smart intelligent you perfect
Story time - Part 1 - “Why are you never at home?” asked grandpa. The grandson sighed, looked at his feet, took a deep breath, and said “Your grandson is scared of how much more damage he'll cause if he does. He's scared half to death. He's scared beyond what the human mind could ever imagine. So much so that he decides to keep it all to himself, because he's scared he'll affect others if he does. Scared that people will worry about him. Because your grandson doesn't like people worrying about him. He gets unsettled by the thought of people thinking that he's helpless. Because the truth is, he kind of is, and he knows it. He likes being told what to do, because he can't do things on his own. But he doesn't tell people that, because he doesn't want to show them his true self. His weak, sad, helpless, emotional, shaken, shattered, trembling, fake, weird, true self. So he keeps to himself. He says he's "fine, good, happy, well, okay, tired, alright" because he's scared. He's not scared of you. For he is only scared of himself.” Grandpa stood there, shocked, by what he just heard. The grandson looked up at his grandpa with tears slowly making their way down his face. Seconds past, and yet no movement had been made. They stood there in silence for about 30 seconds, until grandpa went to give his grandson a hug. The grandson pushed away as his grandpa went to wrap his arms around him. “Everything I touch turns to shit” said the grandson. Tears started falling from his grandpa’s face, as the grandson walked away. The grandson went to his room, locked the door, turned off the lights, and lied in his bed. The next morning, his grandpa went to wake the grandson up, but the grandson wasn’t in his room. The grandpa looked everywhere, yet there was no sign of his grandson. He went to look in his room once more, and saw a note. The note read (I don’t know when I’ll see you again, but I love you. I’m running away, and not coming back. The time that you see this note, it’ll be too late. There is no point in looking for someone that doesn’t want to be found.) The grandpa broke down in tears, and didn’t know what to do. He wanted to look for his grandson, but he never did. He never went looking for him, but he waited for his grandson to come back home. Part 2 - Every night, he would make dinner for him and his grandson. He knew that his grandson wouldn’t be there for breakfast, lunch, or dinner, but he still made food for the both of them. Years passed, and still no sign of his grandson. He would pray before every meal he had, no matter the meal. He would shed a tear, every time he prayed. And he would read the note his grandson wrote, after every prayer. He began to think that his grandson wasn’t lying when he said he wasn’t coming back. One day, on a Thursday morning, at exactly 9:17 AM, when he woke up, he smelled something cooking. Bacon, to be exact. He quickly got out of bed and left his room. He walked downstairs, and tears instantly started falling from his eyes. He couldn’t believe his eyes. After all these years, his automatic bacon maker started working. His grandson was also there, but he wasn’t as excited to see him as he was to see his bacon maker working. (This is a joke, he didn’t care about the automatic bacon maker) His grandson ran up the stairs and gave him the biggest hug he had ever gotten. He was sobbing on his grandson’s shoulder, and they almost fell down the stairs. After laughing about almost falling down the stairs, they ended up falling down the stairs. Then they started contemplating life, and why stairs were created. His grandson started crying after remembering the goldfish he had when he was 9 died because it drowned. Or so he thought.. He told his grandson the truth about the goldfish. Although he didn’t want to, he thought it was time that he told his grandson the truth. His grandson started dying of laughter after his grandfather told him that the goldfish had testicular cancer. He slapped his grandson across the face and told him that testicular cancer is a big deal. His grandson got quiet and then apologized.
Man I feel you, my moms dad and her passed away when I was 16 years old and my sister was 8 and I am 19 now and it was almost been 3 years since they both passed and still to this day I miss them so so much. But remember your mom is in a better place and you will see her again someday…
а ведь иногда так хочется просто спокойствия... никаких машин... никаких денег... просто быть спокойным в этой жизни. мне 19 лет, я очень переживаю из-за событий, которые происходят у меня в жизни. я сейчас учусь в универе, у меня есть родители, но, к сожалению они в разводе, у меня есть старший брат, девушка, которая поддерживает меня. я пишу сюда, потому что хочу просто выговорится вам... я очень сильно устал от происходящего в своей жизни. иногда просто хочется просто лечь в кровать, включить расслабляющий плейлист и забыть абсолютно про всё и про всех. токсичные люди, жизненные проблемы и многое другое... если найдутся люди, которые могут дать мне пару советов, пишите. я буду рад с вами поболтать. в интернете нет значения, какого ты гражданства, какой у тебя цвет кожи, на каком языке ты разговариваешь. мы все одинаковые.
Tô tão cansada de tentar, as vezes só quero deitar e dormir pra sempre, e parar de me cobrar tanto. Quando eu deito na cama eu tenho esperança que essa dor acabe mas nunca acaba só piora, já fiz de tudo pra me fazer sentir bem mas nada funcionou, talvez eu tenha que ficar parada e só aceitar a realidade? Eu realmente não sei da onde que vem tanta esperança, mesmo assim não tem nenhum dia eu que eu pense em desistir, pense em morrer.. mas tudo oque eu queria na verdade é entender esse medo que eu tenho.. medo de tudo. Eu simplesmente tô exausta de tanto problema e ficar procurando a raiz de cada um pra que eu possa resolver, eu tento lutar por mim.. mas as pessoas em que eu convivo só me faz sentir cada fez mais morta por dentro. É tão difícil ..
I miss the time period of when this video was uploaded, i miss february-july of 2023 in general. It wasn’t the happiest time period for me; i was depressed. But i miss the positive memory’s. I miss my friends from this time period. I miss my hometown. I miss the food from my hometown. But everything changes. Nothing ever lasts forever, does it? I feel empty, and i have off and on for almost a year now. It switches from feeling empty to random bursts of happiness, odd is it? Everyone has something odd about that, some have multiple, and i am afraid i am one of these people. I do not feel like most people, i feel like an alien compared to others. I am either to quiet or to loud, too boring or too annoying, i never please anybody no matter what i do, though it is what it is, correct? Even if i feel out of place in human society, even if i want to die most the time, i keep on going, as the world teaches us lessons. They give us these hard things to deal with for a reason, even if it sucks. Don’t give up.
so you see, you always look depressed and streesed out, and the reason clearly is due of society and the way they think, the ignorance people is the reason why we suffer and cry everyday
Well met, traveler. You look weary and worn from your journey, but fear not, for you have found a safe haven here. For now. So rest your feet, slake your thirst, and share your tales of the beasts and monsters you've faced. The road may have been treacherous, but now you can take solace in the warmth of the fire and the company of a fellow traveler."
Guys I might've found the right girl, she's funny, I love her humor, I love spending time with her, I just don't know if it's love yet, I met her through friends online, discord, I hone just wanna hug her, so much, her personality... It's beautiful, she's silly, we live quite aways from each other, It might very be 2 year before I can meet her in person, we're friends right now, love talking to her, we're both 16, my parents are overprotective I got no irl friends or relationships, been an online student all my life, what do you think?
О май гад...я слушала это чтобы уснуть и в 50:47 я капец как испугалась Так как лежал телефон экраном вниз и я подумала что и вправда набирается номер чей-то у меня на тел😂😅
The only thing keeping me together anymore is the hope that maybe one day, someone will hear me, but, i dont think it'll happen sometimes because, people don't *talk* to me they don't *listen* they don't *care* they don't do anything for me, but it's a problem when *I* don't do something for them, maybe one day, that day ain't today but it'll happen... Right?
My boyfriend just got diagnosed with cancer in 3 places And I’m so afraid to fall asleep because I the thought of me being able to sleep in my bed and he has to be in hospital I’m a mess these days, I don’t know what to do anymore
@@DimasCreations да, возможно, но только литально к сожалению, а жизнь так прекрасна, и расставаться не хочется, вот и радует, что иногда можно собраться и расслабиться ночью в этой музыке, при этом засыпая
I know God will direct me in the right path. I can feel the times are coming close and things may be hard but they can always be worse. It’ll be ok. Sometimes what we initially wanted isn’t what we actually need. God makes no mistake in anything toward guiding us in the right direction. We have to pick ourselves back up when we fall and begin again. It’s challenging but possible. You’re not alone. Ever.
Ok, I don’t know what the heck whatever subliminal messaging this playlist is on. I fell asleep on another video and I had dream where I was escaping several rigged scenarios. I managed to wake up on what I assumed was the last scenario of my dream and I was halfway through this video when I did. I had no idea this video existed up until I woke up today and whatever is hidden in the sound waves of this playlist, it is somehow working. 😐
Thursday, October 31st. The city streets are crowded for the holiday. Even with the rain. Hidden in the chaos is the element, waiting to strike like snakes. And I'm there too. Watching. 2 years of nights have turned me into a nocturnal animal. I must choose my targets carefully. It's a big city. I can't be everywhere. But they don't know where I am. We have a signal now, for when I'm needed. When that light hits the sky, it's not just a call- it's a warning. To them. Fear is a tool. They think I'm hiding in the shadows. But I AM the shadows. I wish I could say I'm making a difference, but I don't know. Murder, robberies, assault- 2 years later, they're all up. And now this. This city's eating itself. Maybe it can't be saved, but i have to try. PUSH MYSELF. These nights all roll together in a rush, Behind the mask. Sometimes in the morning i have to force myself to remember everything that happened.
El cobarde siempre corre!!! el Valiente lucha sea lo que sea!!! Trabajo lo que sea., pero eso es para Valientes no para Cobardes., (disculpa por si escribí mal alguna palabra)., disfruta tú noche bebe❤
I have lost myself along the way. Thats it, I have just completely lost myself.
I end every night thinking to myself "I'll do better, I'll change, I'll try!"
I Imagine what I can do different in my day to day life, and it's good changes, it could literally help me do well.
instead I'm stuck, I continue drink by myself drunk, thinking it helps with my sleep, I continue to long for days that are far gone already. Lost in the past that'll never come back. I continue chasing a feeling of youth and innoncence that's lost forever, and I continue ending my nights by saying "I'll do better....tomorrow. "
As I'm writing this. Its another night of few beers and music like this.
Typically how I end my nights.
Man, as good at it is, it fucking sucks sometimes.
To whoever may read this.
I hope you're doing well, and just like anybody else, you deserve to be the happiest you can be, today and tomorrow.
In literally every single day, that comes your way.
I believe in you.
I have to believe in you.
Very well said and I also believe in u
Hey hang in there, okay?
how are you now brother?
Oh brother...please know that you're not alone in this. I can completely relate to you. I've been in a very similar situation for years and years. It's coming to an end. It hasn't passed yet, but I'm much, much better now. Please hold on. You can do it. I believe in you!
Feel you brother.
Waking up feels to tiring. The Day start With tear drops and sadness.
Had lost my father and a brother.
Now i have to live the sadness of seeing the women i love, Mother of my son with someone else.
3 losses. My closest ones.
Feel so empty. Feel so lonely.
Hope one Day ill be able to show my son my Best version.
Wish he could see what it is like to have his father happy.
Sometimes i feel like giving up. He holds me to life, to live.
Wish you all the Best.
I noticed a lot of people feel so empty. And it sucks that we have to go through things like this. I genuinely have no idea how people are able to live super happily and live their life fully without feeling so empty all the time. I’m pretty sure everyone might have felt empty at least once or even for a second. But reading through the comments is kind of therapeutic in a way to me. I can see that there are other people who feel that way and are struggling like I am. At least I’m not alone in feeling that way. I wanted to listen to this and sleep, see if I have enough energy to get up and try again. I think I’ll start with cleaning my room. I’ve neglected so many things because of how I feel that it’s all the same and there is no purpose. I saw a comment listing their daily routine. I realized we all have something that gets in the way of exploring something that might make us happy. Like school or work. Or maybe it’s a financial situation or a family situation. I think even though none of us can be there for each other physically to help, we at least know we’re not alone in suffering. I hope you all are doing ok, I’ll try to get some sleep. Keep going, we’ll make it somehow, if we don’t it’s ok, at least we tried.
hey man, I love you, alright? ❤
@@Infact77I’m not gonna lie, not very good but thank you for worrying about me. How are you?
@@EELFA I'm alright, just that my ears are plugged, will be going to the doctor tomorrow, or.. today, since it's almost 5AM and I haven't slept yet. But other than that I'm feeling alright.
And, while I don't know exactly how you feel, I've been there - feeling hopeless, lost, and sad. And I know it might not seem like it, but with time, it does get better. So if you need someone to talk to, reach out to me. I'm here for you to vent, rant, or have someone to talk to in general.
@@Infact77 I hope everything goes well for you at the doctors. Funny thing, this playlist actually helps me sleep some. Thank you for the support, I really appreciate it and would like to extend the same offer. If you want to talk about any of your problems, I’ll be here too, and I’ll “listen”(not really since we’re typing lol) to your concerns and vents too.
Every single day i feel empty since i lost my job and my gf but reading your comment made realize that am not alone in this situation every body has his own problems and it made me feel good in way or another much love man just hang on there 🤍
Believe me or not if you are here and listening to these kinds of music then definitely you are totally different from others. And everything will be ok don't worry ❤️❤️
8AM - Wake up
12 PM - Work
8 PM - Come home, soul feeling heavier than when I clocked in
10 PM - Listen to similar tracks to this one (it will never fix my emptiness)
Repeat × 10⁹⁹
Fr i never felt this empty in my life
We're going around the circle. It's endless.
U guys all got this dont ever give up
you just summed up my life. only when I think of it like you, all I can hear is "It's only Monday" from "Six Days" (DjShadow remix)
We living the same life fr, days pass by, nothing seems meaningful no more. These playlist are a reset mechanism for me now
Everybody feeling “empty” trust me it will pass. In highschool i was a mess of a person, but now ive changed greatly, and learned to focus on what makes life beautiful
I really needed this. It's christmas eve, my horrible toxic "family" is throwing out the only frozen food my mother n i have in their fridge (we aren't allowed to use it, if we do it's cause we sneak in like some frozen meat). We're getting threatned to be kicked out again, it happens like weekly but somehow it hurts this Christmas eve. I feel over stimulated cause now their just playing the tv loud asf, talking about us loud asf n then the neighbours are playing loud christmas music so I feel frustrated n tired. I was listening to rain music but it didnt help this time and i saw this so i figured, i'd give it a try to sleep or zone out the noise. It does help, i feel a lot calmer and i'm reading a bit to fall asleep faster.
omg i wish you all the best and to get rid of them asap. 😢
;( You'll find a way out and build your own family like I did. It won't rain forever.
I genuinely feel so bad bro. This is the type of story that makes me feel grateful for what I have and where I live
Wake up at 5, go to school at 6:30, come home, and do nothing but feel depressed
And repeat.. Over and over again, I like these playlist.. It's calming, and comfort..
i just want to put this out here
i dont like talking to people about myself, i dont like to be put under the spotlight, i dont like when its about me but i am so tired. i cant escape the discomfort i feel talking to someone dear to me about my problems, i feel trapped. i am tired of working hard just to fail everytime. im no longer who i used to be. i have lost myself
im only 18 and i hate how i always pull my family back from their own goals too and i dont even intend to do it. i will never forget the look in my parents eyes that day when i fucked up the only chance to make them proud. im sorry everyone i cant do anything. i dont even recognise myself anymore and i am sorry.
I mean honestly same. Ig to help u in some way I just want u to know that your not alone. And this is life, there's ups and downs. I feel like everyone goes through this. But I hope your okay. And I wish your gonna be okay...
@@Sksksldk thank you that means a lot to me. i am somewhat hanging in there but im doing better than before :) i hope ur ok too
10 am- wake up
11- watch my little sister
12- study
12:30- clean
1-get ready for work
1:30- walk to work
9:30/10 pm- get home
1am- still haven’t been able to sleep yet…
1:30 ish- fall asleep
Repeat
Repeat
Repeat again.
And again.
And again.
Every day besides 1 out of the week. I feel empty. And I know people have said that on here a lot. But not empty like a soda bottle empty like an endless hole at the bottom of the ocean. Nobody knows what’s going on in there. There could be something… but then again nobody knows for sure.
Btw im just some 18 year old girl that got thrown into life too early…
Wishing you can get through this difficult patch in your life, things may seem endless and eventually you feel they slowly start to become pointless, but I'm here to tell you, that it isn't. That everything you're doing has been doing others like your sister well but also yourself, because you still get up everyday and do the same things, despite going through a difficult time, not mention you were thrown in at an earlier age into this stressful and scary world, naturally, you'd only feel numb and perhaps lonely, because it seems as if this is only happening to you, and we all tend to think that way when we're so caught up in our own pain and suffering, that we fail to recognize it and judge everything based off of our own perception of it. But i think sometimes we all need a friendly gentle reminder that we are indeed not alone in this. It becomes especially visible once you begin to connect with more people online, you'll find that, in many different parts of the world, there is always someone that can relate or understand your experience, perhaps even better than you do.
And you'll eventually come to realize this, if not through this message, then on your own once you reach out to some other people, just knowing that there are people whom can understand you and with whom you can talk to when your down is already quite helpful I think, so of you haven't tried this, and if you have the energy to spare in your free time to try somethings out, i do recommend giving this a try 💜 you are stronger than you think or realize, and commiting to this daily routine only proves it, so please, keep trying just a bit longer 💜 if not for yourself, try to for your sister.
Take care friend.
-From a fellow friend who suffers from depression
I have been working and watching my little siblings since I turned 15 lol life is no easy thing ... get yourself together at least you are healthy, have enough food to not starve on a daily basis and can sleep in a comfy bed...
It's good to suffer when you're young. Builds character - you'll come out of whatever you're going through scarred but proud of your self-acceptance, self-accountability. You'll be more resilient and unwavering in anything you do going forward. Yes, memories of past trauma will always haunt you like it does haunt me, some regrets are too difficult to look at from the flipside. Just remember, don't be too harsh on yourself... As I'm typing this, I realized I was typing it to myself, like a diary. Thank you for being vulnerable, people.
i feel lonely but it’s nice to know you guys are out there and i’m not the only one feeling…blue, we will be okay, don’t worry.
in the buzzed day of endless thoughts , these kinds of music at empty and dark nights is the only comfort i seek for even if i dont fall asleep fasteri keep listeing to these to find ease at mind
dislocated both my shoulders, i've been feeling depressed during the whole summer and i'm still sad but this type of music really helps me to relax and escape reality.
Hope your feeling better soon man, dislocating literally anything sucks, but rn I just hope that you get better soon
thank you vm, i appreciate that, i'm working a lot on that ! @@jeriko_studios
Woa, both? How in the heck did you do that?? I 'tried' to help a doctor once put a patient's hip back in place, never again, way too painful to watch
it was... you never know what life prepare you@@Marilyns888
How yu fap bro?
My sleep has become very important to me due to just how much it effects my day and how i function so im grateful for this playlist being able to calm me to the point of sleep.
Im just gonna leave this here so someone knows about it... but life truly is unfair, i am from a country where living is surviving, salaries are so low and the cost of living is so high, and since i was a kid i saw how hard my parents were sacrificing and workings just for us to get a decent life, i remember how pretty my mom used to look...she would go on pages and look up dresses and makeup that she couldn't afford, and i think to myself its okayy, i will study and work hard, get a job and buy it all for her, she'd smile and tell me she cant wait for us to travel and go around the world together .Ever since i was a child i never wanted this life, never have i ever felt any connection to it, having adhd can also be the reason why i feel like am staring at the whole world moving while am standing still unable to understand it, but for me, that was a reason to keep going...it was the nearest i had to a dream, buy my mom all she wants, get her to acc live outside of that home, outside of that filthy city, i want her to live the real life to travel and eat at expensive restaurants.. and have all the fun in the world, and now its my last year in highschool, everything i ever dreamt of can only be possible if i get an insanely high grade this year, and i know you may think that thats quite a hopeful thing, i though so as well, but then adhd, it doesn't help, i put an indescribable amount of work, and get nothing in return, and slowly life started to feel more and more Dark and... Empty.. because when i turned and looked at my mom, she was a hopelss middle aged lady that is no longer interested in make up, or dresses or anythings really, when i spoke with her she said she felt her life was meaningless, she was a stay at home mom who nearly even left the house she watched her dreams that were too big and too crazy die slowly as she realised that thats it for her, her age is gone and so is her will to enjoy the life she once believed she'd get, and me.... I still have a very very long road to go untill the day that i can even buy her a coffe, will she still be there, will she still want it? Will her health allow it? Will the days?... I don't know.. It seems all blurry and meaningless to me as well, knowing the only way i can make it is by doing it for me, because i may just never be able to do it for them, but that, giving up that, will mean im left in this world with absolutely nothing, no dreams, no ambitions, and not even a will to go on.. . But i look at her and i see how faded she is, it breaks my heart a thousand times and i sleep everyday grieving the pretty loud fun lady she once was, the pretty, loud, fun lady she will never be again..
😢
I felt so sad while reading this😢
Hey, I know that feeling... huh... funny how people can be so alike
hi. i know that feeling of being not able to want this life since a young age. and yes, life is not fair and can bring bad changes at any moment and actually it brings them all the time and for life it is kind of a usual behaviour. but i don't want to talk about this, i just want to share some thoughts, and maybe you will find them useful in some way. first, i think we should remember that there are always different ways to live life, nearly always more than one, they just exist as some possibility. it may be hard to find some more ways, than what you know, and maybe i myself fail this mission in my life (which seems hard for me) but i think we should remember and think about it and see if we can imagine more ways. cause they surely exist.
also, life doesn't ever go the wanted and predictable way. life is always different from what we think and dream, even when somebody reaches his goals, it will find a way to correct or change the whole thing. cause it is actually what life is. you cannot just think there is you and your actions and goals. no, there is you and the whole world, and it is like, you are the first hand, and the world is the second hand. it makes everything even harder. but also, it makes everything real and meaningful and this is the reason why we have goals and dreams, it all is not about static world which would freeze around, it is about that second hand that we catch in the air by our own actions, touching the reality itself. your mother's life didn't go the way she wanted. your life and my lifeand any life, actually they all don't go the way we want. but it goes a way they and we couldn't predict. and together with unfairness and troubles it also may bring something we could never expect to have. something we didn't know about as we don't know much about the world and about living, feeling, about what meaning and reasons we can create for it. it is not much about things, after all, it is a lot about something going on around and us getting some new experience. well, dreams and goals, that all is important, and believe me, you are great at this in my opinion, as i never was so close to any😂 but, don't ignore the feelings, and the things that go in their own way that we can affect. and the ways we affect each other's lives, the way we make each other happy. do not forget what life is about, after all, don't forget the reality not in just bad ways you see it, but also in good ways, cause it is not something that is trying to do something particular to us, it is not something that knows about our goals and tries to make them impossible (although people kinda often do it to each other, and also we are just pretty weak human beings), so it just exists around. and for us it is the second hand of our life. i hope you will see it different, something that can make you curious. i hope, you can also see how much people mean to each other, and how it makes a difficult but important instrument of connection with your life.
not sure i was able to say what i wanted to say but anyway😂
and also. care about your mother's health if possible. getting old means needs in better treatment. if possible, would be good to take minerals and vitamins, all, and to reduce small stresses. learn to see new good things and teach her to see. or maybe you should realize how much of her worries are about you and your sadness, who knows? take a look at everything, and again, and again. thoughts, strategies, think calm and don't forget to feel your moving in this world. don't forget to see the things and people you affect, and affect them in a great real way.
and be careful, life is still hard and unfair.
I love you random stranger, I pray for you
7:30 wake up
8:00 go to school
4:00 work
11:00 come home
11:10 shower and eat
12:00 sleep
Repeat
Repeat
Repeat
Finally, a playlist giving me that refresh. I have been stuck studying with lofi, not knowing that i will be far off better with playlists like this. Thank you for this.
M mL p
6am wake up
8am school
4 30 am arrive home
5pm study
4 am sleep
its just how life has been recently. in a loop. an endless cycle
I know how it feels
Yeah , same for me.
Wake up: 6am
School bus leaves at 8am
School bus back home at 5:40pm
Arrive home : 6pm
Study till 8pm
Bed 10pm
Same cycle bro
Correction my bus leaves at 6:45
I hate this cycle
Deep down, you do remember, who you were. Even though you try to forget. But you mustn't supress those memories, for no matter how awful they are, they are what make you who you are. You must remember, you must be sad. It is part of the journey my friend.
i just cried reading this. thank you for helping me let it out, my friend.
@@mvrcyd I am glad I could lend a few simple words, in an effort to help fellow internet wanderers
To all of you who feel loneliness like i do and many others: Deep down life is only excisting but with love we can create meaning to it.
He is everything to me. And I messed it up just because of my mental health. His laugh is adorable, his eyes are as blue and deep like the ocean, his brown hair that he fluffs up funny always makes me smile, and his personality is the highlight of it all. And I fumbled him, because I was merely “depressed”? My loses will forever ring in my brain and in my heart. I don’t think I’ll ever win him back again, and it’s all my fault. But it’s okay though, I’ve found peace in self solitude.
10/10 had one of the best cries while contemplating
can't even cry anymore..
Only thing that can relax me to sleep are these types of vids. Im existing day by day anymore. No more alive than i was yesterday. Not depressed, not sad, no lost, just floating a drift with no direction or need of direction. May the winds of fate blow my physical vessel where wanted. In sentence without I or me all of you and them. An ocean of never ending direction and possibility of intimidating size. Motivation-less progress of indeterminate function or purpose. Hollow meanings and reasons made to sweeten bitter truths, lies made into beliefs forced into truths. Unwanted but needed change held back by fear and anger toward the unknown of peace through turmoil. Creativity silenced by greed and resentment transformed into complacency and intolerance. A world idea of “why be you when you can be me” or “that’s not you this is.” Idk im dumb AF. Wanna do a self uninstall sometimes.
I get this so much
Get out the house and go get connected to whatever moves you.
i swear i understand this! what has help me feel grounded & connected to earth (life) is nature walks & oddly hugging a tree or leaning against ones reading a book or listening to music!
There is alot beneath the surface that has been silenced that will eventually come back up - the purpose, the curiosity, and most of all - the anger from having your inner self and creativity repressed. Don't let the illusion of meaninglessness steal your agency. When it's time - it will all come bursting out like fireworks.
Don't self uninstal
You're loved and wanted
Things will get better eventually even though it may take a while.
I love you, Jesus loves you (shameless religion plug and I'll do it again), and you should love you.
Love yourself to prove to the world that you are worth it
You are important
You are worthy
You are strong
And that you are everything they said you could never be
I...I just.....I just want too😢😢😢😢.....i just want the pain to stop in my heart-i just eant to really want to get away from all the world drama and just live alone with not hurting anymore i just want to feel like im living but feel like im hurting myself in the process of craziness in my mind i swallow myself pain,agony,suffering,hurt i just want it to end so badly that i can finally have peace within myself
I've never related more to a comment in my life, I feel you and I hope you feel better. I'm not going to share to much information, but I'm a 12 year old girl and I have had I rough life. sometimes it gets tough and you just want to give up, but don't. Keep your head up high and Push forward. I am going through tough times as well, and I just have to keep telling myself it'll all be alright, hope you feel better❤
- steffini
This gives me the vibes so much I can’t even explain it this just make me fell less broken less heartless less sad less depressed less emptiness less anxiety I kinda of feel a lil type whole again like I’m forgetting just for a second what I went through and how I feel like I’m on my last peace from letting go of me and everything else like I’m to the point I just don’t even care anymore I just want to stop my cries like I cry everyday all day but as of 2023 I just have to live with the unfair life I live in I’m so weak I can’t even cry anymore just in my head I feel hopeless stuck I feel like I’m missing out on like or something I have dreams and I feel like I’m not allowed to dream I feel nothing bm will get better we’ll I know my broken heart won’t be fixed my heart is just dead I don’t feel any more I sometimes think to myself and say why me why me but I realize that’s the wrong thing to do I’m going thrift
Through this for a reason but it’s all love and Gil bless live life to the fullest go up peace
my world was black and white u were the color i changed everything for u u were healing me but as u left the colors left my freedom left peoples trust left all gone from me i have to start healing once again from scratch but this time i wanna give up but i am staying strong for my siblings not for anyone else anymore...
Life is great! Life is amazing! Spend each moment like it's your last and regret nothing ❤
nothing ever goes on the right way, yet i'm still alive hoping for things to change🖤
The ring tone😭😭
LOVE this playlist, well except the one with the phone ring tone... omg I was super relaxed and then a phone starts ringing!! Who the f** is this?!!! Oh, never mind... it's the song... 🙈🙊🙉
Thaaaank you!!! This ringtone sh*t ruins the whole experience. I play these when I'm sleeping and you hear a f****** ringtone out of nowhere in your deep sleep. I always go to comments to check if other people are annoyed by it but somehow you're the first person i found
@@ChilledRaven let's post the coment again and again 😄
This song makes me think alot about different things in life it makes me cry for some reason I , just think my things could have been different if someone truly love me for me and no regrets I seem to give my all then that's when they take andvange,,and ,,,I don't see it but I care ,and,love, causes GOD made us ,,to love not hate,to care,for one another,to help one another never hate but always love,,no matter what happens ,,,,that's all we have is one another and reamber,,,GOD our father first in every area,in our lives,,,,tell I hear from u this is ,,,,
,,,,LIONEL,,,JULIAN,,,LOREDO,,,
Faith and Faithfulness,,,
Always,,,,
2:24:58
2:26:06
Had this on all night that I missed work the very next day
We didnt find this video, this video found us 🔥🔥
12 PM : wake up
12:25 PM : stare at the ceiling
1 PM: mum comes home
2 PM : eat
4 PM: watch videos
6 PM : eat
6:30 PM : watch my mum leave again
7 PM : feel bored
10 PM : mum comes home (sometimes she doesn’t)
10:15 PM : watch videos
2 AM : follow mum’s instructions (if she’s home)
3 AM : watch videos
5 AM : sleep
no questions asked.
lowlife
I'm introvert 42 years old male... I have a real dream and want so badly escape my reality city life my toxic relationship...I want to move out to the country side... To the forest by the lake ...have little cabin...live there...I don't need anything else...no credit cards, no payments...no luxury ..no people's drama..all I need is simplicity... simple car... rustic atmospheric vibe...be present with nature...feel gentle breeze in my face... tranquility and pacification vibe... grilling fresh meats and vegetables on the open fire by the silent lake... Finally feeling life... feeling fresh start in my life... Absolutely no negativity nor negative people in my life...its just you and your True friend buddy German shepherd dog and ultimate freedom forever 😃👍🏼✨🙌🍃🌾🍄☘️🌿🌱🍀⛰️🏞️
Don't be afraid, do it ! You deserve to be happy
You will be bored after few month,
Don't be afraid of changing your life, life is too short for us to live miserably anyways. But first think if It is what you really want or if you are maybe overehelmed and just need some time to think or rest...good look on your journey!
Just listen to your heart❤
I hope you decide to manifest that for yourself.
I’ve been building towards this goal, for years. And as I get closer, I feel like I’m falling apart. Any moment I think my world is going to collapse in on itself.
Every day I wake up hoping that I’ll feel different then the day before, I feel so empty and I don’t want to feel like that anymore. It’s like I’m trapped. I can’t have one peaceful day, something always happens. And now I have the urge to drink so I can just sleep, so I can pass out and not have the overwhelming thoughts I get every day. I’m tired. I want to be at peace
6am wake up
8am at school
15pm home , do homework if i have time
16pm music school
19pm eat at home, do homework
23pm take a shower
00pm sleep
I do not have time even thinking about my emotional state ,only study study and study. im tired of all. nobody cares, i understand what all have himself life and himself problems, but sometimes i want to be a stupid child , like before. srry for not very important problems.
there is no escaping everything. at the end of the day... you can never get away, from yourself.
This
You gotta learn to love yourself man..
Finally a playlist that can help me escape this nightmare *_made from dreams_* you are a legend I can peacefully escape...
Your perfect your eyes your smile your nose your hair your taste in clothing your body your personality your humor your voice your smart intelligent you perfect
You too! Lots of love♥️
Story time -
Part 1 -
“Why are you never at home?” asked grandpa.
The grandson sighed, looked at his feet, took a deep breath, and said “Your grandson is scared of how much more damage he'll cause if he does. He's scared half to death. He's scared beyond what the human mind could ever imagine. So much so that he decides to keep it all to himself, because he's scared he'll affect others if he does. Scared that people will worry about him. Because your grandson doesn't like people worrying about him. He gets unsettled by the thought of people thinking that he's helpless. Because the truth is, he kind of is, and he knows it. He likes being told what to do, because he can't do things on his own. But he doesn't tell people that, because he doesn't want to show them his true self. His weak, sad, helpless, emotional, shaken, shattered, trembling, fake, weird, true self. So he keeps to himself. He says he's "fine, good, happy, well, okay, tired, alright" because he's scared. He's not scared of you. For he is only scared of himself.”
Grandpa stood there, shocked, by what he just heard. The grandson looked up at his grandpa with tears slowly making their way down his face. Seconds past, and yet no movement had been made. They stood there in silence for about 30 seconds, until grandpa went to give his grandson a hug. The grandson pushed away as his grandpa went to wrap his arms around him. “Everything I touch turns to shit” said the grandson. Tears started falling from his grandpa’s face, as the grandson walked away.
The grandson went to his room, locked the door, turned off the lights, and lied in his bed. The next morning, his grandpa went to wake the grandson up, but the grandson wasn’t in his room. The grandpa looked everywhere, yet there was no sign of his grandson. He went to look in his room once more, and saw a note. The note read (I don’t know when I’ll see you again, but I love you. I’m running away, and not coming back. The time that you see this note, it’ll be too late. There is no point in looking for someone that doesn’t want to be found.) The grandpa broke down in tears, and didn’t know what to do. He wanted to look for his grandson, but he never did. He never went looking for him, but he waited for his grandson to come back home.
Part 2 -
Every night, he would make dinner for him and his grandson. He knew that his grandson wouldn’t be there for breakfast, lunch, or dinner, but he still made food for the both of them. Years passed, and still no sign of his grandson. He would pray before every meal he had, no matter the meal. He would shed a tear, every time he prayed. And he would read the note his grandson wrote, after every prayer. He began to think that his grandson wasn’t lying when he said he wasn’t coming back. One day, on a Thursday morning, at exactly 9:17 AM, when he woke up, he smelled something cooking. Bacon, to be exact. He quickly got out of bed and left his room. He walked downstairs, and tears instantly started falling from his eyes. He couldn’t believe his eyes. After all these years, his automatic bacon maker started working. His grandson was also there, but he wasn’t as excited to see him as he was to see his bacon maker working. (This is a joke, he didn’t care about the automatic bacon maker) His grandson ran up the stairs and gave him the biggest hug he had ever gotten. He was sobbing on his grandson’s shoulder, and they almost fell down the stairs. After laughing about almost falling down the stairs, they ended up falling down the stairs. Then they started contemplating life, and why stairs were created. His grandson started crying after remembering the goldfish he had when he was 9 died because it drowned. Or so he thought.. He told his grandson the truth about the goldfish. Although he didn’t want to, he thought it was time that he told his grandson the truth. His grandson started dying of laughter after his grandfather told him that the goldfish had testicular cancer. He slapped his grandson across the face and told him that testicular cancer is a big deal. His grandson got quiet and then apologized.
My heart it heats this story was so sad 😭😭
Why? This is too sad. I read this out loud and my grandson, who's sitting in the room, is not well with the ending 🤣
We need a part 2
@@AzuriSully Once I come home, you'll get your part 2.
@@mankho_ yayyy
came across a pic of my moms 🕊just couldn’t believe it’s been 4 years since she left me,and I miss her.❤️🩹
Man I feel you, my moms dad and her passed away when I was 16 years old and my sister was 8 and I am 19 now and it was almost been 3 years since they both passed and still to this day I miss them so so much. But remember your mom is in a better place and you will see her again someday…
Omfg I have this playing on my projector just as background and the phone dial scared the shit out of me😭😭
Otro día más, con estas playlists de fondo, intentando no renunciar.
Woke up to this playing
а ведь иногда так хочется просто спокойствия... никаких машин... никаких денег... просто быть спокойным в этой жизни. мне 19 лет, я очень переживаю из-за событий, которые происходят у меня в жизни. я сейчас учусь в универе, у меня есть родители, но, к сожалению они в разводе, у меня есть старший брат, девушка, которая поддерживает меня. я пишу сюда, потому что хочу просто выговорится вам... я очень сильно устал от происходящего в своей жизни. иногда просто хочется просто лечь в кровать, включить расслабляющий плейлист и забыть абсолютно про всё и про всех. токсичные люди, жизненные проблемы и многое другое...
если найдутся люди, которые могут дать мне пару советов, пишите. я буду рад с вами поболтать. в интернете нет значения, какого ты гражданства, какой у тебя цвет кожи, на каком языке ты разговариваешь. мы все одинаковые.
It touched my soul at minute 29
I'm sure 90% of yall in the comments are doing far better than me don't give up brothas and sisters 🫡
Went to sleep with autoplay on and watched something other. The first thing i hearf in the morning was this 😂. Fckn scared me to hell
It's 2024 now.. My first new year alone. And well i've never felt such peace before
Tô tão cansada de tentar, as vezes só quero deitar e dormir pra sempre, e parar de me cobrar tanto. Quando eu deito na cama eu tenho esperança que essa dor acabe mas nunca acaba só piora, já fiz de tudo pra me fazer sentir bem mas nada funcionou, talvez eu tenha que ficar parada e só aceitar a realidade? Eu realmente não sei da onde que vem tanta esperança, mesmo assim não tem nenhum dia eu que eu pense em desistir, pense em morrer.. mas tudo oque eu queria na verdade é entender esse medo que eu tenho.. medo de tudo. Eu simplesmente tô exausta de tanto problema e ficar procurando a raiz de cada um pra que eu possa resolver, eu tento lutar por mim.. mas as pessoas em que eu convivo só me faz sentir cada fez mais morta por dentro. É tão difícil ..
I miss the time period of when this video was uploaded, i miss february-july of 2023 in general. It wasn’t the happiest time period for me; i was depressed. But i miss the positive memory’s. I miss my friends from this time period. I miss my hometown. I miss the food from my hometown. But everything changes. Nothing ever lasts forever, does it?
I feel empty, and i have off and on for almost a year now. It switches from feeling empty to random bursts of happiness, odd is it? Everyone has something odd about that, some have multiple, and i am afraid i am one of these people. I do not feel like most people, i feel like an alien compared to others. I am either to quiet or to loud, too boring or too annoying, i never please anybody no matter what i do, though it is what it is, correct? Even if i feel out of place in human society, even if i want to die most the time, i keep on going, as the world teaches us lessons. They give us these hard things to deal with for a reason, even if it sucks. Don’t give up.
so you see, you always look depressed and streesed out, and the reason clearly is due of society and the way they think, the ignorance people is the reason why we suffer and cry everyday
Smart Cookie 🍪
Well met, traveler. You look weary and worn from your journey, but fear not, for you have found a safe haven here. For now. So rest your feet, slake your thirst, and share your tales of the beasts and monsters you've faced. The road may have been treacherous, but now you can take solace in the warmth of the fire and the company of a fellow traveler."
Guys I might've found the right girl, she's funny, I love her humor, I love spending time with her, I just don't know if it's love yet, I met her through friends online, discord, I hone just wanna hug her, so much, her personality... It's beautiful, she's silly, we live quite aways from each other, It might very be 2 year before I can meet her in person, we're friends right now, love talking to her, we're both 16, my parents are overprotective I got no irl friends or relationships, been an online student all my life, what do you think?
Thank you, for this calming paradise it really helps 🙂
Life is like a cycle you can't find away to get through it
Sweet release from all problems ☕️
37:28 ❤ Oh my heart!
I embrace my power❤222❤Amen❤❤I love you god❤
О май гад...я слушала это чтобы уснуть и в 50:47 я капец как испугалась
Так как лежал телефон экраном вниз и я подумала что и вправда набирается номер чей-то у меня на тел😂😅
The only thing keeping me together anymore is the hope that maybe one day, someone will hear me, but, i dont think it'll happen sometimes because, people don't *talk* to me they don't *listen* they don't *care* they don't do anything for me, but it's a problem when *I* don't do something for them, maybe one day, that day ain't today but it'll happen... Right?
Goodnight ❤
My boyfriend just got diagnosed with cancer in 3 places
And I’m so afraid to fall asleep because I the thought of me being able to sleep in my bed and he has to be in hospital
I’m a mess these days, I don’t know what to do anymore
Great playlist thank you✌️
Oh I love a sleep mediatations thank you.
The phone thing scared the hell out of me after I fell asleep... this one is not for me
What track starts at about 10 minutes in? With the wolf howl? I'd love an hour of just that!
Someone asked me: -Why do you always seem to be dreaming? I say: I never was awake to begin with.
Where i can find this tracks there some Im in love
i thought all of these comments were satirical because i never closely followed Melanie 😭 but yeah, very messed up
My god, I am in love with your profile picture!
Как же иногда хочеться раствориться и просто плыть по течению ветра...
Если было бы возможно 😢
@@DimasCreations да, возможно, но только литально к сожалению, а жизнь так прекрасна, и расставаться не хочется, вот и радует, что иногда можно собраться и расслабиться ночью в этой музыке, при этом засыпая
Would love to escape 🖤
I know God will direct me in the right path. I can feel the times are coming close and things may be hard but they can always be worse. It’ll be ok. Sometimes what we initially wanted isn’t what we actually need. God makes no mistake in anything toward guiding us in the right direction. We have to pick ourselves back up when we fall and begin again. It’s challenging but possible. You’re not alone. Ever.
We need that time stamp
50:49 that scared the shit out of me wtf I thought someone was in my closet dialing a number
Good nite moon
Sit me down after a few drinks and ask what’s really on my mind I guarantee you that’s a conversation you’re not ready for
Sad it takes you alcohol to really speak your mind. So many of us would sit and listen to you even if you were sober and we wouldn't judge.
Why you trollin us with ringtones fam, it could have been so good.
Ok, I don’t know what the heck whatever subliminal messaging this playlist is on. I fell asleep on another video and I had dream where I was escaping several rigged scenarios. I managed to wake up on what I assumed was the last scenario of my dream and I was halfway through this video when I did. I had no idea this video existed up until I woke up today and whatever is hidden in the sound waves of this playlist, it is somehow working. 😐
5:41
only 2 more years til I can finally move out and away from all this bs
23:00 mins sampled for a bones song would be insane
Amazing ❤
I need 41:56 please it’s very important I know what song this is
Thursday, October 31st. The city streets are crowded for the holiday. Even with the rain. Hidden in the chaos is the element, waiting to strike like snakes. And I'm there too. Watching. 2 years of nights have turned me into a nocturnal animal. I must choose my targets carefully. It's a big city. I can't be everywhere. But they don't know where I am. We have a signal now, for when I'm needed. When that light hits the sky, it's not just a call- it's a warning. To them. Fear is a tool. They think I'm hiding in the shadows. But I AM the shadows. I wish I could say I'm making a difference, but I don't know. Murder, robberies, assault- 2 years later, they're all up. And now this. This city's eating itself. Maybe it can't be saved, but i have to try. PUSH MYSELF. These nights all roll together in a rush, Behind the mask. Sometimes in the morning i have to force myself to remember everything that happened.
Vengeance won't change the past, mine or anyone else's
El cobarde siempre corre!!! el Valiente lucha sea lo que sea!!! Trabajo lo que sea., pero eso es para Valientes no para Cobardes., (disculpa por si escribí mal alguna palabra)., disfruta tú noche bebe❤
If someone knows, please tell me what is the name of the music at 2:28:25 .... thanks!!❤😊
azure - dead end
somewhere in here is a phone dialing and ringing I swear
I always wake up to it
42:07
Girl is stalking me and stopping songs ‼️
yeah i hate the ring tone or like notifs sounds it ruins everything
Вашы видосы очен крутые❤
Sometimes i wanna. Travel alone, to Asian, or to a Noric European country and escape everything.
13:15
Why do I get to live when I’ve taken that ability away from others
Because life wants you to live. I would love you anyway. Don’t feel guilty. You will be fine. And that’s good.
damn you killed some1?
wonderful..
51mins in is the single worst possible thing to put into a long-form relaxation vid.
A fucking phone ringing-
I just need to escape from all of it 😔
I read in the comments that theres a ringtone. Anyone know where? Id like warning
50:00
How do I escape the 15 seconds ad ?
move to Russia😂