I still stay awake all night overthinking everything crying stressing out over the past but I tried being present with myself and I noticed a lot of things the flowers that bloomed next to my window the beautiful canvases I spent hours painting and drawing my childhood stuff animals and my little sister growing fast the cold relaxing breeze from the air conditioner the books I spent hours reading my body and how I feel actually beautiful for the first time in ages and my mom who spent hours cooking and cleaning and taking care of us my dad that spent late hours working at night so we could see him when we wake up I also got courage to open Minecraft and explore my old worlds with my brother I opened Roblox and I called my best friend that I haven’t seen in a week and played old Roblox games the day ended and I felt proud of where I am how I look the people around me most people look at the dark side of life and forget about the good side even if life gets rough you deserve a break ❤
Reflecting over the past 30+ years... despite my solid, unique, and most arduous efforts and achievements... I don't believe the evidence shows that I've made the *least* amount of difference. However, that's not really in my direct control; it takes TWO to tango, suckah! 💪😎✌️ Yer only influential if others PERMIT and acknowledge it. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ -- Diamond Dragons (series)
*3 AM THOUGHTS* It was 3 in the morning. I jolted awake. The whole town was sleeping, as I stared into the darkness. I forgot to close the door to my bedroom, and the hallway looked as if it was an endless abyss. I turned on the lights, and my eyes stung. My breath was shallow, and I cursed under it. Why this hour? The rain outside was incessant, the window binds crackled against the delicate glass surface. It might have been a thunderstorm just a little bit earlier, and I swear I could hear faint roaring in the distance. The air was a little bit too cold, as I adjusted my position on the bed and I still shivered under my blanket. It was as if, I was alone in the world. My thoughts began racing endlessly. What if, what if I I just disappear from this world tonight, without any trace? Would anyone actually miss me? Would it be a tearjerker, tragic story, or simply a sensational headline? Would anyone other than my parents feel like a dent was left in their heart? What could have happened, had I not been born into this world? Ironically, 3 AM is always the *perfect* time to dwell on these destructive thoughts, and it was as if, the world was telling me, that I would be alone, at the end of the day. And it did not make feel better, that I was actually not alone. It just hurt me, that this was a pain that I did not bear on my own. If I said these thoughts out loud, it would break the hearts of many. “You are important,” they would say. Yet I just could not stop. Nothing could stop my overflowing thoughts. It was probably the illusion of the endlessly long hallway, and the melancholic rain. In about 4 hours, the sun would appear, and I would forget that I ever felt this way. But then again, I would wake up at 3 AM, the thoughts racing endlessly, a vicious circle I did not know how to put an end to. I turned off all the lights, and went back to sleep. Hoping that I would not wake up at 3AM, but I know it was just futile. It will be 3 in the morning. I jolt awake. The whole town is sleeping, as I stare into the darkness.
i had a friend, her name was janet. we were 7. we always played together. but she always drifts away cause of work. one day when it was her birthday she just somehow disappeared in the party, i just thought she was still sleeping, but everyone left the party. i checked her room and she wasn’t there. she turned 12. i was already 13. she’s no longer a child, but i’m still childish. so she just left me and went to new mature friends? i can’t change, that’s what god made me like. it’s like where she faded away from me. is she touch starved? is she in a bad mood? am i really an over thinker? i’m trying to not be over dramatic but i love you to whoever is reading this. and for janet, my dear friend who left me, i don’t care about you anymore. your really some pathetic ignorant person who only cares about the looks, or the more mature people. see you can see all those different personalities wandering around the surface of our beautiful earth, but your ugly heart has just a different sensation. you can have fun in many ways but i think this is just torture to me. before you left me, i already prepared gifts. i bought you an extra birthday cake. i ate that cake alone. doesn’t feel the same anymore. you’ve just faded away like a pencil erasing a mistake. your the mistake. your randomly avoiding me at all times. just go and don’t bother me anymore. don’t say sorry to me, say sorry to my heart. i love you to the people reading this again. your special. needa hand? of course, we can be moots!:)
I am starting to see the end of my journy through this life, sadly apart from a few happy events which never to last very long, i am so tired now i hope there is some peace at the end of this journy...
Reflect, oh, sentient ones. Recite the hex of final vows. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ -- Diamond Dragons (series)
Years ago I lost the girl I loved. She died in an accident. Even now still after all these years, I still love her, and I miss her and grieve her. Since she died I felt lost and adrift in the world. Like a ghost drifting through the world, without a clear purpose, disconnected from the world itself. So many times I wished it would have been me, and really just wished that somehow I could hold her in my arms again. I am still grieving her today, somehow despite everything unable to move on. She was my sweet fox, and I miss her so much. I would trade the entire world, just to see her one more time. 😭 She felt like my other half. 😭😭
Lost her in 2021 along with my first child In a car accident while i was the only one to make it believe me i feel you completely just trying to fill a void that’s never going to be patched hope you get better soon ❤
@@Wifijumper I am so sorry. I know how devastating it feels. That there is just nothing you could do. I felt so helpless. I was meant to protect her. So I know how it feels. How it is like a void that is never going to be patched. And thank you. You too! ❤
Every circle begins with its end. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ -- Diamond Dragons (series)
Lembre-se que tudo é ilusão criada na mente do TODO, logo partiremos para o infinito e veremos novos universos, viajaremos até o fim dos tempos. Somos eternos, pois eterno são os sonhos.
Shout out to Travis, Jacob, Jamie, Lucca, Lukas, Kevin and Bradley I know there is a very slim chance youre reading this but i hope you bois are doing well - Ayden
Every circle begins with its end. The real question is, though... will you *recognize* when you pass beyond the zero-crossing point? Must give us pause. Reflection is key. 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ "Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again." 🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨ -- Diamond Dragons (series)
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I still stay awake all night overthinking everything crying stressing out over the past but I tried being present with myself and I noticed a lot of things the flowers that bloomed next to my window the beautiful canvases I spent hours painting and drawing my childhood stuff animals and my little sister growing fast the cold relaxing breeze from the air conditioner the books I spent hours reading my body and how I feel actually beautiful for the first time in ages and my mom who spent hours cooking and cleaning and taking care of us my dad that spent late hours working at night so we could see him when we wake up I also got courage to open Minecraft and explore my old worlds with my brother I opened Roblox and I called my best friend that I haven’t seen in a week and played old Roblox games the day ended and I felt proud of where I am how I look the people around me most people look at the dark side of life and forget about the good side even if life gets rough you deserve a break ❤
I know this is annoying or you hear it alot but, the world is genuinely a better place with you in it I'm so proud of you, whoever you are.
You have an amazing soul🩶Im so glad that you are here :3
I love you a lot random stranger, thanks for being born
Real
Reflecting over the past 30+ years... despite my solid, unique, and most arduous efforts and achievements... I don't believe the evidence shows that I've made the *least* amount of difference. However, that's not really in my direct control; it takes TWO to tango, suckah! 💪😎✌️ Yer only influential if others PERMIT and acknowledge it.
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
-- Diamond Dragons (series)
*3 AM THOUGHTS*
It was 3 in the morning. I jolted awake. The whole town was sleeping, as I stared into the darkness.
I forgot to close the door to my bedroom, and the hallway looked as if it was an endless abyss.
I turned on the lights, and my eyes stung.
My breath was shallow, and I cursed under it. Why this hour?
The rain outside was incessant, the window binds crackled against the delicate glass surface. It might have been a thunderstorm just a little bit earlier, and I swear I could hear faint roaring in the distance.
The air was a little bit too cold, as I adjusted my position on the bed and I still shivered under my blanket.
It was as if, I was alone in the world.
My thoughts began racing endlessly. What if, what if I I just disappear from this world tonight, without any trace?
Would anyone actually miss me? Would it be a tearjerker, tragic story, or simply a sensational headline? Would anyone other than my parents feel like a dent was left in their heart?
What could have happened, had I not been born into this world?
Ironically, 3 AM is always the *perfect* time to dwell on these destructive thoughts, and it was as if, the world was telling me, that I would be alone, at the end of the day.
And it did not make feel better, that I was actually not alone. It just hurt me, that this was a pain that I did not bear on my own.
If I said these thoughts out loud, it would break the hearts of many. “You are important,” they would say.
Yet I just could not stop. Nothing could stop my overflowing thoughts.
It was probably the illusion of the endlessly long hallway, and the melancholic rain. In about 4 hours, the sun would appear, and I would forget that I ever felt this way.
But then again, I would wake up at 3 AM, the thoughts racing endlessly, a vicious circle I did not know how to put an end to.
I turned off all the lights, and went back to sleep.
Hoping that I would not wake up at 3AM, but I know it was just futile.
It will be 3 in the morning. I jolt awake. The whole town is sleeping, as I stare into the darkness.
💙
19:06 This video really helped me relax in the dark. Now I no longer feel anxious in the dark. I actually feel at peace. It means a lot to me :)
I don’t want much …. But the person reading this comment may bless with happiness, love, health & fortune
Absolutely the safest spot ever! 🛡🔥
i had a friend, her name was janet. we were 7. we always played together. but she always drifts away cause of work. one day when it was her birthday she just somehow disappeared in the party, i just thought she was still sleeping, but everyone left the party. i checked her room and she wasn’t there. she turned 12. i was already 13. she’s no longer a child, but i’m still childish. so she just left me and went to new mature friends? i can’t change, that’s what god made me like. it’s like where she faded away from me. is she touch starved? is she in a bad mood? am i really an over thinker? i’m trying to not be over dramatic but i love you to whoever is reading this.
and for janet, my dear friend who left me, i don’t care about you anymore. your really some pathetic ignorant person who only cares about the looks, or the more mature people. see you can see all those different personalities wandering around the surface of our beautiful earth, but your ugly heart has just a different sensation. you can have fun in many ways but i think this is just torture to me. before you left me, i already prepared gifts. i bought you an extra birthday cake. i ate that cake alone. doesn’t feel the same anymore. you’ve just faded away like a pencil erasing a mistake. your the mistake. your randomly avoiding me at all times. just go and don’t bother me anymore. don’t say sorry to me, say sorry to my heart.
i love you to the people reading this again. your special.
needa hand? of course, we can be moots!:)
You know it's gonna hit hard if it starts with rain on my window
I am starting to see the end of my journy through this life, sadly apart from a few happy events which never to last very long, i am so tired now i hope there is some peace at the end of this journy...
Reflect, oh, sentient ones. Recite the hex of final vows.
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
-- Diamond Dragons (series)
Years ago I lost the girl I loved. She died in an accident. Even now still after all these years, I still love her, and I miss her and grieve her. Since she died I felt lost and adrift in the world. Like a ghost drifting through the world, without a clear purpose, disconnected from the world itself. So many times I wished it would have been me, and really just wished that somehow I could hold her in my arms again. I am still grieving her today, somehow despite everything unable to move on. She was my sweet fox, and I miss her so much. I would trade the entire world, just to see her one more time. 😭 She felt like my other half. 😭😭
Lost her in 2021 along with my first child In a car accident while i was the only one to make it believe me i feel you completely just trying to fill a void that’s never going to be patched hope you get better soon ❤
@@Wifijumper I am so sorry. I know how devastating it feels. That there is just nothing you could do. I felt so helpless. I was meant to protect her. So I know how it feels. How it is like a void that is never going to be patched. And thank you. You too! ❤
Take a seat my friend, i can tell you what it feels like..
Well, my days are now being counted.
Every circle begins with its end.
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
-- Diamond Dragons (series)
🤍🤍🤍 Best playlists out there
Sounds, is good..💙
I have a dream and I'm sure i can do it but something is taking me away from it !
Porque me gustan estas 🎵 ❤
Lembre-se que tudo é ilusão criada na mente do TODO, logo partiremos para o infinito e veremos novos universos, viajaremos até o fim dos tempos. Somos eternos, pois eterno são os sonhos.
Fight it 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
Shout out to Travis, Jacob, Jamie, Lucca, Lukas, Kevin and Bradley
I know there is a very slim chance youre reading this but i hope you bois are doing well
- Ayden
Every circle begins with its end. The real question is, though... will you *recognize* when you pass beyond the zero-crossing point? Must give us pause. Reflection is key.
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins. Upon my chariot, heart and soul's fate revealed. In time, all points converge; hope's strength resteeled. But to earn final peace at the Universe's endless refrain, we must see all in nothingness... before we start again."
🐲✨🐲✨🐲✨
-- Diamond Dragons (series)
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