Thank you for sharing your story. When I became pregnant with my beautiful boy, my cat knew before the test was even positive. He sat on my stomach/ovary area. Animals, especially cats, know all. I was also induced and they made me wait 14 hours, having contractions EVERY MINUTE and I had to wait until I was at a 9. The epidural eventually quit working and I ended up having a c section after 20 hours of labor. Luckily all went well and we were blessed with our beautiful boy, now almost 10 months old. Breastfeeding has gone extremely well for me, but agree, fed is always best! Again thanks for sharing sweet Kim ❤️💜
Sending so much love to u auntie Angel and everyone who is living or has lived this.Thank u so much for sharing your story.I can’t even imagine the amount of pain and grief.
I’ve had two losses myself. I have a healthy 6 year old son and I feel really lucky to have him. All the things you said are so true. Sending so much love to anyone going through loss out there.
I cannot put into words how much your soul, energy and personality speak. And it’s so pure, so healthy, so open. Thank you for sharing your story! I’ve just sent this to amazing friends of mine that have had loss and infertility battles. From what they’ve shared, they feel so alone, because rarely are people brave enough to say “I’m with you” and you did just that. You are an amazing woman and I already love all your videos as a subscriber, but today is an added appreciation layer of just who you are, after everything you endured. I hope with every ounce of energy I have that you are just blessed beyond belief. Thank you for being real, in a world where it rarely happens or is rarely shared. ❤️
It takes a certain strength and grace to tell that story and with humor. You are a great storyteller by the way and any one you wan to tell I am all ears 👂👂👂.
your daughter is the same age as me! and although your story is full of hardships, it was also filled with love and kindess :) your life is truly being lived
I recently starting following you about a week or two week ago. I love your personality and your videos are very enjoyable. But I’m so happy for you that y’all finally were able to have a beautiful and healthy baby. You’re a strong and beautiful woman/mama. ❤
Thank you so much for making this video! You are an amazing storyteller, and I love how you are still able to maintain your sense of humor despite such a heavy topic! I've held off on watching this video for a while because anything pregnancy/ fertility/ baby related is a triggering topic for me, but I finally had the mental strength to click on your video today and I'm so glad I did! Hearing you speak so openly about your experience and struggles and hearing that you had a happy ending brought me to tears and gives me hope. My partner and I have been trying for a baby for about a year now and I still haven't gotten pregnant yet. It feels incredibly isolating, everyone around me is either getting pregnant on accident or getting pregnant within the first few tries and I just feel so alone. I'm seeing new pregnancy announcements daily and I wish I could just be happy for people and not also feel this immense feeling of sadness and jealousy and self hate and dread. It's hard for me to even be around pregnant women and babies because I want a baby so bad and its so hard seeing other people living my dream and knowing that it might never happen for me. Whenever I mention anything about my fertility struggles to people, they talk about how easy it was for them and suggest things like cycle tracking, ovulation monitoring, eating healthy, taking prenatal pills, etc, and saying things like "once I did x and y I got pregnant immediately". And I'm like "I've been trying for so long, you think I haven't already tried all of that and more yet lol?". Or they'll tell me that I should go to a fertility clinic, which I would love to go to, but it's incredibly expensive and our insurance unfortunately doesn't cover infertility. I agree with you 100% on how people shouldn't make unsolicited comments about babies/ pregnancy. Whether you want kids or not, I don't see any situation where unsolicitedly commenting on it to others is appropriate. My parents and in-laws are always asking us when we're going to have a baby, and I always make excuses like "oh we're not ready yet" when on the inside I just want to burst into tears, because if it were up to me I'd be pregnant by now. For Christmas my MIL (who is otherwise the sweetest woman ever) got me all this baby stuff, and when I asked her why, she told me that hopefully it'll convince me to want to have a baby soon. That pretty much ruined my Christmas, because again, I want a baby more than anything, and I wish I had a choice in the matter like she seems to think I do and like so many other people do.
Sweetie please let your in laws and parents know you are struggling and do not need advice just support. Your MIL will feel very guilty about the baby gifts (she should). There really is no shame / this shouldn’t be a secret - I wish you strength and support
@@Angelonmyshoulder Thank you so much! You are right that I should probably tell my parents. The main reason I haven't told them is because of shame. I feel like lesser of a woman, like something is wrong with me, like god doesn't want me to be pregnant because he thinks I'd make a bad mother, etc. Even though logically I know that none of that is true. I don't see other women who have fertility struggles that way, so I have no idea why I see myself that way. The other reason I haven't told my parents is because I'm afraid of disappointing them and making them worried and sad. As for my in laws, my partner and his brother don't have a good relationship, my partner is no contact with him, but his mother still talks to him. The problem is that his mother is not very good at keeping secrets, so my partner is worried that she might slip up and say something about our fertility struggles to his brother, and then his brother might use it to try and hurt us.
Thank you for being willing to be brave and tell your story. I didn’t go through all that you did but I can’t relate to some of this (took me awhile to make sure I was in the right headspace to watch this one). I am sure your ability to be vulnerable and share has touched many who thought they were alone. Thank you for being you
Hi Aunty angel sorry to hear about your heartache but after all that heartache you and your husband's miracle came true you heard your rainbow daughter miracles do happen and thanks for sharing your story ♥️🌈
Thank you for sharing your story. It's such a brave thing to do and fertility should be spoken about more openly. I had my son through IVF and he was 8 weeks premature. Everyone's journeys are so individual but alot of things really resonated with me. Women are amazing and that maternal strength to keep going is so strong. Thoughts going out to everyone who is struggling right now. You aren't alone ❤
Thank you for sharing your experiences. We're part of a community no one would choose to belong to, and I'm just learning to be more open about my own loss. If anyone is in the Sacramento, CA area and has experienced a miscarriage or infant loss, please look up Sharing Parents. It's an amazing support organization. Maybe this year you might make a video for Wave of Light, an international recognition of baby loss. Thank you for starting this important conversation, Auntie Angel. You and all your children are in my thoughts.
Thank you for sharing a very personal experience from your life. I am currently pregnant with my first. I’m so sorry you had an anesthesiologist who had the audacity to say what he said. He’s probably that one doctor that the whole L&D unit hates. ( I used to work in a hospital, there’s always that one that everyone can’t stand) I’m so happy that you got your baby angel after all you’ve been through. ❤
I suffered a loss in October, the first time I ever experienced that. It was the first time I ever saw my husband cry. We both wanted that baby so bad. Even though I knew he was hurting, I still felt so alone during that time. I feel like it’s been made into such a taboo topic that women never talk about even though it’s more common than we realize. I’m so thankful you shared your fertility journey, including your losses - it makes me feel like I’m not so alone❤ thank you for sharing with us - it opens up a space for us to know we aren’t alone❤
Thank you for sharing this. I had two losses and years of trying. During my second pregnancy I had a little dog that would lay on my belly (he has since passed😢). One night he just kept scratching at my stomach and whining. I knew in my heart that the baby was gone. We eventually were blessed by adoption 😊.
This was such a heartwarming and touching video, Auntie A! As a younger person, I feel so lucky to be able to hear stories like these from women of other generations. Your honesty and guidance are more valuable than you can ever imagine. Thank you for sharing them with us :) Side note: You are a FANTASTIC storyteller! So funny and sharp and energetic. I could listen to you ramble on all day. Love from North Carolina!
Hi Claire I too shared those feelings of shame but once I started admitting it to others that feeling started leaving me. Your MIL may slip up and say something but if the brother says something than he’s a dick (sorry but he would be) and that’s on him - my dear, the support is needed I promise just be strong that you do NOT need advice (you’ll get it anyway) this is something your partner could really help with. You are not on this road alone I promise you!!!
Really enjoyed this. I have been through an ectopic pregnancy as well, luckily mine was caught before it ruptured. I lost one tube in the surgery but now i have a happy two year old
Omg!! When I got my epidural they did not turn it off during my contractions that would have been so useful I had no idea when they were happening and they kept yelling at me to push 😭
My mom was also older and had trouble conceiving when she had me. Her in-laws would bug her about when they were having a baby and eventually my mom said, “are you willing to pay for everything?”. Apparently I was asked if I wanted a sibling and my response was very negative 😅
Wow it's great to hear stories like yours😊. They shouldn't be kept as a secret. My mom has 4 grown kids now and I am the oldest almost 38 in July. She actually had two miscarriages. My mom got married at 19 and had me at 20!
wow. first of all you are an amazing storyteller. you are an incredibly, incredibly strong woman. to go through such a difficult journey, and to still be as kind and loving as you…that is strength. it’s very inspiring. it makes me think about myself and how i can sometimes be outward with all of the anger i have inside of me. it shows me that it is possible to overcome that. thank you for sharing and being so open with us. it helps us more than i think you know 🫶
I think it's so brave of you to share this with such openness and honesty ❤🫂 As indescribably painful as this must have been to get through, I'm so glad you made it over to this side of things. It's truly a gift to be a small part of your journey - you're such a comfort to so many of us.
i haven’t finished this video but thank you for sharing your story i know it’s probably not easy but please know you’re helping so many people by sharing this much love to you 🤍
@@Angelonmyshoulderi just finished the video and i admire you even more now! you and my mom were pregnant at the same age and im 2 years older than your daughter… once again thank you for sharing your journey 🌈💗
I’m at 6:19 only😖 but sorry in advance for all the remaining and for the previous 💔😢❤️🩹 7:44 🥹🥺😭 8:21 I’m crying myself 💔 8:47 Baby Angel 👼🏻 is a MIRACLE 😭 10:34 buf 😖 12:2112:24 😂😂😂
Thank you so much for sharing your story❤❤ I’m currently having problems with my menstruation and I tried to talk to ladies in my family but no one’s had any similar experiences to me so I felt very alone, hearing just you talking about your cycle issues in the beginning is really helpful to not feel alone 🥹💕
Sweetie please reach out to your local health dept - they will have resources - you are absolutely not alone in this. You can also find a gynaecologist who can help you.
Thank you for sharing your story. When I became pregnant with my beautiful boy, my cat knew before the test was even positive. He sat on my stomach/ovary area. Animals, especially cats, know all.
I was also induced and they made me wait 14 hours, having contractions EVERY MINUTE and I had to wait until I was at a 9. The epidural eventually quit working and I ended up having a c section after 20 hours of labor. Luckily all went well and we were blessed with our beautiful boy, now almost 10 months old. Breastfeeding has gone extremely well for me, but agree, fed is always best!
Again thanks for sharing sweet Kim ❤️💜
Thanks Abby - I really appreciate you
@@Angelonmyshoulder I appreciate you!! You’re awesome ❤️
Sending so much love to u auntie Angel and everyone who is living or has lived this.Thank u so much for sharing your story.I can’t even imagine the amount of pain and grief.
Thank you so much
I’ve had two losses myself. I have a healthy 6 year old son and I feel really lucky to have him. All the things you said are so true. Sending so much love to anyone going through loss out there.
Thank you
Thank You Kimberly 🤗🤗🤗🤗 for trusting us with this Personal Journey 🥰🥰I thank the Lord 🙏🙏🙏 that He Blessed You and Your Hubby with Your Daughter 😊😊😊😊😊
Ok this comment touched my heart so much - muchos gracias mi amiga (did I get it right?)
@@Angelonmyshoulder Yes You did Amiguita 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
I cannot put into words how much your soul, energy and personality speak. And it’s so pure, so healthy, so open. Thank you for sharing your story! I’ve just sent this to amazing friends of mine that have had loss and infertility battles. From what they’ve shared, they feel so alone, because rarely are people brave enough to say “I’m with you” and you did just that. You are an amazing woman and I already love all your videos as a subscriber, but today is an added appreciation layer of just who you are, after everything you endured. I hope with every ounce of energy I have that you are just blessed beyond belief. Thank you for being real, in a world where it rarely happens or is rarely shared. ❤️
I can not tell how much this has touched me / I pray your friends realize they are not alone and you are a very good friend to them / big hug
This is probably my favorite story I've ever heard thanks for sharing I know its probably hard to share this type of stuff!
It’s better to talk
Thank you for sharing your journey, fertility should be openly talked about so much more! ❤❤
Absolutely!! Thank you
It takes a certain strength and grace to tell that story and with humor. You are a great storyteller by the way and any one you wan to tell I am all ears 👂👂👂.
Thank you so much!
your daughter is the same age as me! and although your story is full of hardships, it was also filled with love and kindess :) your life is truly being lived
This comment really touched me. Thank you
I recently starting following you about a week or two week ago. I love your personality and your videos are very enjoyable. But I’m so happy for you that y’all finally were able to have a beautiful and healthy baby. You’re a strong and beautiful woman/mama. ❤
Thank you so much!!
Thank you so much for making this video! You are an amazing storyteller, and I love how you are still able to maintain your sense of humor despite such a heavy topic! I've held off on watching this video for a while because anything pregnancy/ fertility/ baby related is a triggering topic for me, but I finally had the mental strength to click on your video today and I'm so glad I did! Hearing you speak so openly about your experience and struggles and hearing that you had a happy ending brought me to tears and gives me hope.
My partner and I have been trying for a baby for about a year now and I still haven't gotten pregnant yet. It feels incredibly isolating, everyone around me is either getting pregnant on accident or getting pregnant within the first few tries and I just feel so alone. I'm seeing new pregnancy announcements daily and I wish I could just be happy for people and not also feel this immense feeling of sadness and jealousy and self hate and dread. It's hard for me to even be around pregnant women and babies because I want a baby so bad and its so hard seeing other people living my dream and knowing that it might never happen for me.
Whenever I mention anything about my fertility struggles to people, they talk about how easy it was for them and suggest things like cycle tracking, ovulation monitoring, eating healthy, taking prenatal pills, etc, and saying things like "once I did x and y I got pregnant immediately". And I'm like "I've been trying for so long, you think I haven't already tried all of that and more yet lol?". Or they'll tell me that I should go to a fertility clinic, which I would love to go to, but it's incredibly expensive and our insurance unfortunately doesn't cover infertility.
I agree with you 100% on how people shouldn't make unsolicited comments about babies/ pregnancy. Whether you want kids or not, I don't see any situation where unsolicitedly commenting on it to others is appropriate. My parents and in-laws are always asking us when we're going to have a baby, and I always make excuses like "oh we're not ready yet" when on the inside I just want to burst into tears, because if it were up to me I'd be pregnant by now. For Christmas my MIL (who is otherwise the sweetest woman ever) got me all this baby stuff, and when I asked her why, she told me that hopefully it'll convince me to want to have a baby soon. That pretty much ruined my Christmas, because again, I want a baby more than anything, and I wish I had a choice in the matter like she seems to think I do and like so many other people do.
Sweetie please let your in laws and parents know you are struggling and do not need advice just support. Your MIL will feel very guilty about the baby gifts (she should). There really is no shame / this shouldn’t be a secret - I wish you strength and support
@@Angelonmyshoulder Thank you so much! You are right that I should probably tell my parents. The main reason I haven't told them is because of shame. I feel like lesser of a woman, like something is wrong with me, like god doesn't want me to be pregnant because he thinks I'd make a bad mother, etc. Even though logically I know that none of that is true. I don't see other women who have fertility struggles that way, so I have no idea why I see myself that way. The other reason I haven't told my parents is because I'm afraid of disappointing them and making them worried and sad.
As for my in laws, my partner and his brother don't have a good relationship, my partner is no contact with him, but his mother still talks to him. The problem is that his mother is not very good at keeping secrets, so my partner is worried that she might slip up and say something about our fertility struggles to his brother, and then his brother might use it to try and hurt us.
Thank you for being willing to be brave and tell your story. I didn’t go through all that you did but I can’t relate to some of this (took me awhile to make sure I was in the right headspace to watch this one). I am sure your ability to be vulnerable and share has touched many who thought they were alone. Thank you for being you
That’s so kind of you thank you
Hi Aunty angel sorry to hear about your heartache but after all that heartache you and your husband's miracle came true you heard your rainbow daughter miracles do happen and thanks for sharing your story ♥️🌈
Thank you so much
@@Angelonmyshoulder you are very welcome ♥️
You are so strong and brave for sharing such personal experiences. I’m sending love and positivity your way
Thank you so much
Thank you for sharing your story. It's such a brave thing to do and fertility should be spoken about more openly. I had my son through IVF and he was 8 weeks premature. Everyone's journeys are so individual but alot of things really resonated with me. Women are amazing and that maternal strength to keep going is so strong. Thoughts going out to everyone who is struggling right now. You aren't alone ❤
Thank you so much your words are so appreciated
Thank you for sharing your experiences. We're part of a community no one would choose to belong to, and I'm just learning to be more open about my own loss. If anyone is in the Sacramento, CA area and has experienced a miscarriage or infant loss, please look up Sharing Parents. It's an amazing support organization. Maybe this year you might make a video for Wave of Light, an international recognition of baby loss. Thank you for starting this important conversation, Auntie Angel. You and all your children are in my thoughts.
You are in mine my dear! You are not alone and I’m so honoured that you shared here !
Thank you for sharing a very personal experience from your life. I am currently pregnant with my first. I’m so sorry you had an anesthesiologist who had the audacity to say what he said. He’s probably that one doctor that the whole L&D unit hates. ( I used to work in a hospital, there’s always that one that everyone can’t stand) I’m so happy that you got your baby angel after all you’ve been through. ❤
Thank you so much - i appreciate it so much. Yes even the nurse said he was a jerk
I love your voice so much, it's so soothing ❤️❤️
Thank you so much
I suffered a loss in October, the first time I ever experienced that. It was the first time I ever saw my husband cry. We both wanted that baby so bad. Even though I knew he was hurting, I still felt so alone during that time. I feel like it’s been made into such a taboo topic that women never talk about even though it’s more common than we realize.
I’m so thankful you shared your fertility journey, including your losses - it makes me feel like I’m not so alone❤ thank you for sharing with us - it opens up a space for us to know we aren’t alone❤
Oh sweetie you are not alone I promise!
Thank you for sharing this. I had two losses and years of trying. During my second pregnancy I had a little dog that would lay on my belly (he has since passed😢). One night he just kept scratching at my stomach and whining. I knew in my heart that the baby was gone. We eventually were blessed by adoption 😊.
Animals have keen senses. Thank you for sharing
This was such a heartwarming and touching video, Auntie A! As a younger person, I feel so lucky to be able to hear stories like these from women of other generations. Your honesty and guidance are more valuable than you can ever imagine. Thank you for sharing them with us :)
Side note: You are a FANTASTIC storyteller! So funny and sharp and energetic. I could listen to you ramble on all day.
Love from North Carolina!
You are a doll!! Thank you so much!!
Hi Claire I too shared those feelings of shame but once I started admitting it to others that feeling started leaving me. Your MIL may slip up and say something but if the brother says something than he’s a dick (sorry but he would be) and that’s on him - my dear, the support is needed I promise just be strong that you do NOT need advice (you’ll get it anyway) this is something your partner could really help with. You are not on this road alone I promise you!!!
Really enjoyed this.
I have been through an ectopic pregnancy as well, luckily mine was caught before it ruptured. I lost one tube in the surgery but now i have a happy two year old
Thank you so much for being here
Thank you for sharing this with us ❤
Thank you
I know exactly how you felt and how hearing the word spontaneous abortion works on the mind
Thanks so much
THANK YOU For Sharing!! 💖💖💖💖😊😎👍
Thank you for watching!!
Omg!! When I got my epidural they did not turn it off during my contractions that would have been so useful I had no idea when they were happening and they kept yelling at me to push 😭
Communication is key
Love from Ireland ❤
Lots of love to you
My mom was also older and had trouble conceiving when she had me. Her in-laws would bug her about when they were having a baby and eventually my mom said, “are you willing to pay for everything?”. Apparently I was asked if I wanted a sibling and my response was very negative 😅
People need to keep inquiries to themselves!!
Wow it's great to hear stories like yours😊. They shouldn't be kept as a secret. My mom has 4 grown kids now and I am the oldest almost 38 in July. She actually had two miscarriages. My mom got married at 19 and had me at 20!
Privacy is important but no one should feel like they can’t about something that is painful
Hello ❤❤❤❤I Watch you in France
Bonjour! Merci !
@@AngelonmyshoulderWell done 👍
What is it about these anesthesiologists lol?!? Always so very pleasant 😒 🙄
I’ve only had an issue with that one
wow. first of all you are an amazing storyteller. you are an incredibly, incredibly strong woman. to go through such a difficult journey, and to still be as kind and loving as you…that is strength. it’s very inspiring. it makes me think about myself and how i can sometimes be outward with all of the anger i have inside of me. it shows me that it is possible to overcome that. thank you for sharing and being so open with us. it helps us more than i think you know 🫶
You are very kind thank you
Hi friend
Hi to you
@@Angelonmyshoulder thank you
I think it's so brave of you to share this with such openness and honesty ❤🫂 As indescribably painful as this must have been to get through, I'm so glad you made it over to this side of things. It's truly a gift to be a small part of your journey - you're such a comfort to so many of us.
I’m so grateful that you are here
i haven’t finished this video but thank you for sharing your story i know it’s probably not easy but please know you’re helping so many people by sharing this much love to you 🤍
It’s something that people should be able to talk about
@@Angelonmyshoulderi just finished the video and i admire you even more now! you and my mom were pregnant at the same age and im 2 years older than your daughter… once again thank you for sharing your journey 🌈💗
I’m at 6:19 only😖 but sorry in advance for all the remaining and for the previous 💔😢❤️🩹
7:44 🥹🥺😭
8:21 I’m crying myself 💔
8:47 Baby Angel 👼🏻 is a MIRACLE 😭
10:34 buf 😖
12:21 12:24 😂😂😂
Thanks but my story does have a happy ending
@@AngelonmyshoulderTHANKS GOD
@@AngelonmyshoulderI’ll Finish later, I’m touched 🥺❤️🩹
Thank you so much for sharing your story❤❤ I’m currently having problems with my menstruation and I tried to talk to ladies in my family but no one’s had any similar experiences to me so I felt very alone, hearing just you talking about your cycle issues in the beginning is really helpful to not feel alone 🥹💕
Sweetie please reach out to your local health dept - they will have resources - you are absolutely not alone in this. You can also find a gynaecologist who can help you.