I understand you perfectly. I already have a bunch of recorded clear dreams with my love. After each such dream, I always have a literally wet pillow and I cancel ALL plans for the day, and listen to all his favorite songs all day.@@Meowwgii
Oh, it's on Coffee House! Bravo. I heard a Conan Gray song on Coffee House that reminded me of this....and so I had to search for this. Because I had to hear it again. Bravo.
"after all of these years i still cross your mind" the double meaning of thinking about them but also trying to forget about them by crossing their name like a scribble, as well as the religious connotation of a cross (your pen must have been on fire 'cause holy shit the writing)
devastating. i want another song where they find their way back to each other and fall in love. please and thank you. actually no, i need an entire movie made out of this song.
This song reminds me of what it felt like to fall in love in the most ridiculous, nonsensical way. When it all just happens on its own and you don't have control over yourself anymore. You just feel the person in a way you'll never be able to understand.
I recently came out as aro/ace and I spent years crushing on people because I thought it would make me normal and likeable but everything makes sense about why I never truly liked someone. I think my first love was real but due to my identity, we broke it off. It hurts to see cute people now because one side of my mind says yes and the other says no I don't know what to do. It makes me sick to see cute people and I don't know why, I feel broken. I want these people but thinking about them makes me hurt. Anything physical is just a burden, I constantly want to curl up into a ball and cry about why I'm broken and why I can't be normal. This is just a dump and I'm sorry if you read through this expecting something.
I got your message last night around 1:00 You're getting married and you want me to come You miss me a lot and the wedding's next month I think you were drunk, you spelled "wedding" wrong I used to break wishbones and pray that you liked me And went to away games to pretend I liked fighting You'd scan the crowd for my face with your eyes Maybe I was in love or you were just nice Mmm a rush kinda like the old times After all of these years I still cross your mind Or maybе you thought you'd reach out to be nice But why'd you invitе me in the middle of the night? Do you remember when you thought your dad was dying? I ran to your house in the middle of the night When you found out he wasn't, caught in the moment I kissed you and then you got quiet You could've hurt me, it would've been easy We were that age where boys started being mean to be mean But you took my hand and asked me to dance To nothing and never brought it up again Mmm if I saw you what would I say? Would we act like we can't see that nothing's the same? We used to make fun of kids marrying young But it's not as funny when it's someone you loved Mmm I wanna call you with a hand in my pants And let you say drunk little things you'll regret But I'd just be the reason that somebody cries But then why'd you invite me in the middle of the night? I'll never know why Cause I'll never reply So you can just stay nice In the back of my mind
pardon me as I play this song on repeat for a few hours to contemplate a lot of my own unresolved feelings -- and please don't mind the crying sounds, I promise they're cathartic and necessary.
Oh and not to advertise someone else song, but boys will be boys by Ryan Robson has the same vibe of song you might check it out. Both are beautiful and meaningful song.
I really started to love this song but the most clever part for me is the last few one because there is that reality of how "straight turning" queer people having their desire unfulfilled turn to their exes
“You spelled wedding wrong” that whisper deep tone just sent me with chills
Welp, that was devastating
Update: she asked me to be her maid of honour🙃
@@friedlemon5172 I am so sorry honey. I hope you find happiness
God this song sounds like what being gay as a teen feels like.
i relate to this so hard, especially the sudden kiss, i still wonder why he didn't hate me for it, instead he just hugged me
Some people are just nice..
@@julianroman3268OOF. PAIN
Some are nice. Some maybe desire back but are afraid 😢
“BUT then why” …. Crying forever
20 years later, my heart still skips a beat when I unexpectedly see my high school crush.
PLS. My childhood crush who I last saw in 2020 still appears in my dreams. I sometimes fear I’ll forever feel sad about not being able to date him…
I understand you perfectly. I already have a bunch of recorded clear dreams with my love. After each such dream, I always have a literally wet pillow and I cancel ALL plans for the day, and listen to all his favorite songs all day.@@Meowwgii
Heard this on Sirius XM Coffee House tonight ... what marvelous lyrics!
Same!!!❤
I did too and looked it up!
Oh, it's on Coffee House! Bravo. I heard a Conan Gray song on Coffee House that reminded me of this....and so I had to search for this. Because I had to hear it again. Bravo.
breaks my heart in the best way
what a heartbreaking yet all too real song. how can life changing love just be gone, yknow? its so weird how it happens.
well that simultaneously made and ruined my day
"after all of these years i still cross your mind" the double meaning of thinking about them but also trying to forget about them by crossing their name like a scribble, as well as the religious connotation of a cross (your pen must have been on fire 'cause holy shit the writing)
devastating. i want another song where they find their way back to each other and fall in love. please and thank you. actually no, i need an entire movie made out of this song.
I would love to read a book that feels like this song. Pls recommend😭.
A Little Life- Hanya Yanagihara
I LITERALLY CRIED WHEN I HEARD YOUR SONG ON TIKTOK NOW I LISTEN TO IT NON STOP ON SPOTIFY 😭 I LOVE YOU AND YOUR MUSIC 😭
Every single release is just so ridiculously good
0:44 This is the thing that scares me of making a move...
Not being able to deter kindness to love is something that disturbs me everyday
A random Facebook page posted a screenshot of this song from Spotify, and here I am, listening to your song...
I searched this and found it. Heard it initially on tic Tok, I think. I love it so much. And now this little video. Too perfect.
Your voice and music is sooo comforting and tender
This is one of my favorite songs of all time. Its so saddd 😭
This song reminds me of what it felt like to fall in love in the most ridiculous, nonsensical way. When it all just happens on its own and you don't have control over yourself anymore. You just feel the person in a way you'll never be able to understand.
This song popped up on my TikTok feed a few months ago and I listen to it weekly, just thought you should know it haunts me and I love it
this is my favorite song.
I’ve been listening to this constantly since it’s been released, I love this soo much ❤
It is the song that is currently warning me to not keep faalling for someone whose age is nearing the one you usually gets married❤. I love him sm
You're so brilliant... Let us cry🫂😭
IM CRYING ONCE IN A WHILE THROUGHOUT THE FILM😢
I recently came out as aro/ace and I spent years crushing on people because I thought it would make me normal and likeable but everything makes sense about why I never truly liked someone. I think my first love was real but due to my identity, we broke it off. It hurts to see cute people now because one side of my mind says yes and the other says no I don't know what to do. It makes me sick to see cute people and I don't know why, I feel broken. I want these people but thinking about them makes me hurt. Anything physical is just a burden, I constantly want to curl up into a ball and cry about why I'm broken and why I can't be normal. This is just a dump and I'm sorry if you read through this expecting something.
such a gorgeous second verse !!
i swear this song is my favorite thing ever
I have never ugly cried to a song like this before, ugh.
Oh. My. God. This song is so beautiful. Kevin Atwater, you drop bombs like they're hot. Please release an album
I stumbled across your videos on instagram about a week ago and I haven’t stopped listening to your music ever since. Your music is amazing!! :)
saw this on tiktok and ive been waiting for this to release
I rarely have anything nice to say,. but this time I will make an exception. This is beautiful -- it's a masterpiece.
Welp, I’m in tears now. Thank you friend.
this is beautiful
I love your music so much
I got your message last night around 1:00
You're getting married and you want me to come
You miss me a lot and the wedding's next month
I think you were drunk, you spelled "wedding" wrong
I used to break wishbones and pray that you liked me
And went to away games to pretend I liked fighting
You'd scan the crowd for my face with your eyes
Maybe I was in love or you were just nice
Mmm a rush kinda like the old times
After all of these years I still cross your mind
Or maybе you thought you'd reach out to be nice
But why'd you invitе me in the middle of the night?
Do you remember when you thought your dad was dying?
I ran to your house in the middle of the night
When you found out he wasn't, caught in the moment
I kissed you and then you got quiet
You could've hurt me, it would've been easy
We were that age where boys started being mean to be mean
But you took my hand and asked me to dance
To nothing and never brought it up again
Mmm if I saw you what would I say?
Would we act like we can't see that nothing's the same?
We used to make fun of kids marrying young
But it's not as funny when it's someone you loved
Mmm I wanna call you with a hand in my pants
And let you say drunk little things you'll regret
But I'd just be the reason that somebody cries
But then why'd you invite me in the middle of the night?
I'll never know why
Cause I'll never reply
So you can just stay nice
In the back of my mind
pardon me as I play this song on repeat for a few hours to contemplate a lot of my own unresolved feelings --
and please don't mind the crying sounds, I promise they're cathartic and necessary.
HE CANT MISS❤
SO UNDERRATED!!!!!!!! it deserves millions of views
Busy, I have plans, Bonding with this song, Busy Engraving it Into My Soul
welp that made me cry
your song pushes me to write again, a whole story forming in my head. sending consensual hugs. :)
you are just so talented i physically cannot comprehend it
INSANELY BEAUTIFUL OMGH
This song hit so deep
Omg i didnt know this has been out for so long!!😭😭😭😭
It’s so good 😭
song + video is hittin you heardd
Please imma cry
so fucking obsessed with this
The song, the lyrics, the cinematography are 🔥
Well.... That was life-changing..
IT'S AMAZING 😭😭
I just saw a reel on IG and had to find the rest of the song. This is amazing story telling. I could see this as a short film
This is absolutely mind-blowing 💙
My favorite song rn
Outrageous songwriting
Found you on my TikTok fyp. This song is incredible. Great work!
Amazing work per usual
I’m not crying your crying 😭
THIS WAS AMAZING!!! GO KEVIN!!!
So so good
crying, sobbing, pulling my hair out rn
Love this😊
this made me clutch my pearls. Good job!!!
The last part made ackkk🥺 2:43
HEEEELP!!!!!!
this is so beautiful ong
perfection
ЭТО ПРЕКРАСНО
Maybe I was in love
my eyes are sweating
"and went to away games to pretend i liked fighting" the lover was a hockey player BET
THATS WHAT IM SAYING
Much better than ttpd or midnights
Oh and not to advertise someone else song, but boys will be boys by Ryan Robson has the same vibe of song you might check it out. Both are beautiful and meaningful song.
i was in love and you were just nice ❤️🩹
Came from Tumblr - someone posted the TikTok there. This is beautiful 😭
Its so good!
why is this relatable?? (im only 16)
damn...
It would be dope if you would put this on Bandcamp my dude
this song sounds like Aristotle and dante discovers the secrets of the universe
Good enough lyrics to be someone's discord bio SARDONIC
absolutely devastating, expect to hear from my therapist immediately
I might ask you for therapy because this song is gut wrenching!!
tuning/tabs? 🥺
Did you replace the song? If I remember the early I listened to the song the gain is quite low. And now the volume is normal to loud.
I really started to love this song but the most clever part for me is the last few one because there is that reality of how "straight turning" queer people having their desire unfulfilled turn to their exes
I want “him” to find this song
😭😭😭😭😭
It feels like you're trying to say something that didn't get out. Like you said a lot but had "mucher"
Ouch. This one hurts ://
Here cause of chloe grace moretz insta stories
yeag
I’m so glad he didn’t reply :( it would have been the most bizarre torture to go…
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bro😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭