Stephanie has such a powerful story that needs to be shared more as people struggle with mental health the world over during such a tumultuous year. I would happily sit through ads to support her share it.
Here's the thing about 2020: self preservation is key. Just about everyone I know has encountered at least one major traumatic event, myself included. If you decide to not post a video again for a year, it's fine sis. Take care of yourself. I quit a whole job this year (as a physician coincidentally) to take time and refresh my mind and spirit. Secondly, as a doc, make sure they are checking FREE T4 levels. Regular T4 can be erroneous because it's more to do with protein binding than actual thyroid function. Also, while there's no evidence supporting plant-based diet directly, I always tell patients to try anyway. People ofren have great results with it, including in their moods. Wishing all the best for you 💜
Such great advice, and from one physician to another I hope you’re doing well and you continue to take care of yourself. Happy to have Stephanie back and to know she also took time to take care of herself.
I so much appreciate your comment. I was telling my daughter today that T4 alone doesn’t tell the whole story but for some reason not all doctors ask for the free T4. I am not in the medical industry but I know this from an endocrinologist.
Yes! Thank you! I have a naturopath who finally did that test and it revealed so much more than the typical ones that my endocrinologist runs each visit. I was put on a low dose of a thryonamine medication for a few weeks and it made a huge difference to my health! We regularly check my levels now to see where I'm at. I appreciate that other doctors are doing this too!
At 25 I was hit by a drunk driver. My friend with me was pregnant so we all decided to go to the hospital just to be sure. I had a little neck pain but nothing crazy. When I got to the hospital they did an x ray. They found that there was a weird shadow that they couldn’t explain on my neck which led them to do a CT scan. At that point they thought I had a fractured neck which completely shocked me as I wasn’t in much pain. The results came back and they told me that I had a lump on my thyroid. For most of my early teens and 20s I struggled with my weight anxiety depression and a variety of other issues. Since my dad passed away when I was 16 and I chalked all of those emotions up to that.I knew absolutely nothing about my thyroid either. I went in to do a fine needle biopsy with 50 needles and it turned out that I had thyroid cancer. I could not believe it. The doctors told me that this is part of the reason that contributed to my weight gain and all the mental health issues that I was having. The most frustrating part is that I sought treatment for medical providers throughout my life that I was struggling with my mental health. I even saw a dermatologist because my face was breaking out and horrible rashes. All I kept getting was it’s hormonal it’s hormonal. Or they threw benzos at me. I ended up hav Having a full thyroidectomy when I was 26. It’s taken some time but everything has leveled out, no more anxiety, no more depression, no more benzo’s. Although the cancer was terrifying I felt like I finally got the answer I needed. I wish doctors talked to more women about thyroid cancer as it is one of the leading cancers in women. I normally don’t share my story as I don’t want any sympathy but more educate women on advocating for yourself with your medical providers. A simple blood panel would have alerted them that something was off but they didn’t do it and I fully trusted them. That tumor had been in my throat and it had grown to 3 inches it had been there since I was 17 years old, Which was nine years. Because it was never found the Cancer cells spread into my neck and up the back of my neck towards my brain stem. Although I hate to say it I’m grateful for the girl that decided to drink too much and get into her car that night. She saved my life. I just wanted to pass the message to anybody that is feeling not like themselves to not rule out medical conditions. make sure you advocate for yourself. Doctors are humans as well and they can become complacent. These things happen every single day. Advocate for blood work know your body and listen to it.
Jesus. I totally relate around thyroid, but my deal was Grave’s Disease. Truly thought I was losing my mind. I wish you ALL good things. Light love prosperity education and a safe environment .....
You don’t have to apologize for suffering just because other people are suffering. You can feel compassion for the pain of others and also feel compassion for yourself and your own pain. How you feel is valid, and taking care of yourself is important. I’m praying you have a positive breakthrough soon 💚
Sometimes I just feel bad because I know there are people that have lost a lot more or are panicking about how to feed their kids, so I should feel grateful, but you are right. I am still allowed to have my own issues. Thank you for your kind comment ❤️
@@MsStephNic Yes you are allowed your own issues, despite others well-being or the state of the world. I have been disabled since age 23 and I am 48 now (car wreck). It is what it is. My youngest aunt had thyroid issues as a teen (she's mom's sibling; family of 10 kids). She had radioactive iodine treatment and never was on medication after that. She is in her 60s now and never had an issue after her teens. It was discovered early by the family internist. So that's always good if you're there early.
Who talks sht about Stephanie Nicole? She is literally like the single only UA-camr who isn’t straight pure drama. I don’t even think I’ve ever even heard one single comment about her in something negative or anything like that. Hope you’re doing well Stephanie. It’s nice to see you !! Take care xo
Nurse for 20 plus years here. You are so well educated and informed about your situation. This is by far the most transparent youtube video I have ever watched. You are articulate, strong and such a fighter. You got this girl. Remember all those things you were talking about are circumstantial and will come and go. Your health is the most important thing in the World
Says a lot about the state of the world that everyone feels the need to preface personal updates with "sorry for talking about myself" You do you boo. Stay strong and keep doing right by yourself. Edited to add, "privileged" or not, holy sh t girl you have been THROUGH it. And without health insurance. Im so sorry you had to deal with all this. Blessings to you 😘
“I’m disappointed when I wake up.” Heard. Heard. Heard. Your job for the last few months has been to not die and to not give up. And you’ve succeeded. It’s no small thing to fight through the medical system and advocate for yourself. It’s exhausting and daunting and terrifying to live in that space of not knowing and the omnipresent anxiety that comes with it. And then to absorb every frustration that would be hard normally but compounds exponentially when under this kind of strain. It doesn’t feel like you’re a badass. But you are. It’s taking a lot of effort, and I’m proud of you. For whatever the fuck that’s worth.
100% agree beautifully said!! We love you and want you as a person to be ok. We will wait. Its hard so just know that you have us as SUPPORTERS not just subbies. Love u
Woah girl you’ve been thru it. Glad to see you doing well and now you are stronger with knowledge. Crazy right? I’ve had several crazy medical things that have take a wild route to get to the surface. I’m glad it was not worse. Take care my dear!!
hahaha. I go on & on & on. When I was a kid the teachers used to write on my report card that I was a "motormouth" & I always had my desk moved next to the teachers so I couldn't talk in class haha
That’s a crow.It’s a warning call.That one is a lookout.If any of the other crows on the ground were to be injured or killed while it’s on watch the others will gang up and beat the shit out of it.Its job is that important.
I'm usually a silent viewer. I'm so touched by how open and honest you're telling your life update. I really hope you're doing okay and get better soon. Nevermind about filming. You need to focus on your health and yourself. 💜
Thyroid stuff messes with every system in your body. To go though it for the first time in the midst of losing your sense of home, having your life in storage, employment unrest and a pandemic is huge! Take care of yourself. Do what needs doing to get to tomorrow; then do it again and again. Hugs and good thoughts.
" My mind...It's not possible that anyone cares because I feel like the person they got to know doesn't exist anymore." So much of what you said is the voice of Chronic Illness, Autoimmune Disease...the invisible diseases....the diseases or syndromes that make people say "You sure do look good for such a sick person." Stephanie I'm so sorry you're trying to deal with the unknown, it sucks so badly. I have an idea, how about using your platform to educate people about "invisible illnesses"? Continue to talk about your feelings and how difficult it is when friends "just don't get it". You're a wonderful speaker, use what you have and make it golden.
Hey Stef, it’s Sarah from high school. I have my own therapy practice in MA. Sorry to hear about all of this. The thyroid stuff can be so connected to the mental health symptoms so hopefully you can find someone who understands both. Thyroid issues run in my family (I managed so far to escape it) so it is never an easy road. Take care of yourself
As an Australian the U.S. health system gives me anxiety and it doesn’t even affect me. Hope everything works out for you Stephanie, thank you for being so open. I have been meaning to get my Thyroid tested for Hypothyroidism for awhile and this has made me move my ass and get it done.
I am SO grateful for Medicare. Too many people whinge about the Australian Public health system but we are SO privileged and often take it for granted. There seems to be a mentality of entitlement in this country and I fear how we would all cope should the rug be pulled... (like, JobKeeper - a very flawed system that kept me (and well, most) afloat, I am incredibly appreciative but our children’s children will still be paying the price 😬)
Same! So grateful it’s all free in New Zealand as well! My mother had 18 years of many different cancer treatments.. all free. Would be horrified to think how much it would have cost in the USA.
You said the words that I couldn’t find to express how I’ve been feeling since June, I lost my job, health not going great, boyfriend cheated on me and found out he has a daughter as a result, I’m 42 yo and live in a country that has not many opportunities, specially for women around my age, worried about my 65+ parents, just like you said, sometimes I don’t want to wake up 😞 I don’t know when this is going to end and I don’t know how much longer I can endure this, so my heart goes out to you Stephanie, we’re going through similar things in life, I felt your pain and your words were my own.
Carli I can relate to some of what you said but not all of it. You can keep going, look how far you’ve made it already. I can promise you that with time, pain will never go away, but you’ll find ways of coping. The darkness can’t remain forever. I’m sending both you and Steph lots of love and light 💜
Carli things won't always be this way. Years from now you'll look back with your gorgeous, loving, wonderful husband and think wow I made it through some really tough shit. Nothing can stop me now...
I’m so sorry this happened to you. If it’s any consolation, my dad is in a similar situation, my mom had an affair and left us a few years ago, and even though it was hard at first, we’re doing well now. It takes time, but it does get easier to deal with.
Oh, I'm a MD in Sweden and what you went through with the overmedication in your youth, that by itself is a major traumatic experience! Not every trauma is a car crash. In regards to your friendships, another way to view it is that your current you will act as a filter among your friends and the best ones will stay and if anyone responds negatively then they can become an acquaintance. Also, the words you expressed comes from fear of not being accepted when you don't deem yourself worthy. You are always worthy! Best of everything!
I’m married to a physician. I also have an auto immune disorder that would’ve killed me last year if not for an amazing doctor who listened to me. I have seen specialist who are absolutely against “restrictive diets.” It seems they feel like you can’t be on a restrictive diet AND still have medical care. It’s not helpful to have that viewpoint, but here’s what I can tell you. I have really loved the low fodmap diet. Key word is low not none. The doctor who saved my life introduced it to me. I will also have to be on meds for the rest of my life, but the combo of both has given me a better chance at avoiding a flare-up. My husband has seen how this diet has helped and is now a believer. It absolutely doesn’t hurt to eat better, but it DOES hurt when a physician isn’t willing to discuss alternative solutions (injunction with their care). I wish more docs referred patients to dietitians who specialize in these disorders. I think “diet” just triggers something in some physicians, when in reality it’s just a way of fueling your body. Luckily you’re a strong woman who knows how to stand up for yourself and I’m so glad you’re on your way to healing. You’ll get there I promise. It’s a major process and will take time. I wish you so much luck. Certain diets absolutely are worth trying and everyone’s body is different so hopefully you can find one that works for you!
As a Canadian, this was so hard to hear. It makes me so sad that doctors will have to mention price when making decisions that affect your health. So glad you are pushing through this, and were able to make it work financially. Just extremely hard to hear that this is something people have to go through. It’s absolutely unbelievable to me. Good luck with your health journey, I am rooting for you!!
I turned 46 on Wednesday, and I'm also in my second year of law school to help fix our country. I'm so glad to see you. Oh honey, you are still the same person we all care about. You are a real person with all the flaws and baggage that comes with being a real person. That is PRECISELY why we've always loved you. Ten years ago, I was homeless and addicted. As I already said, today I'm in law school. We never know what the world is gonna throw at us. All we can do is control how we respond to each disaster life presents. You have more insight than most, and I know you have the strength to get through this. If you don't believe in yourself today, know that I believe in you. Be kind to yourself, appreciate the little moments of happiness you can find, and know that this too shall pass.
I want to go to law school as well. You're an inspiration. I'm 25, a college dropout immigrant living in Europe. I'm saving your message because you're so right about everything. Much love ♥️
This video probably saved my life. I watched this video about two month ago right as I started getting sick. I was going to the doctor but no one knew what was wrong. I’m not skinny and therefore carry weight all over. After watching this video I just decide to check my neck cause the symptoms sounds similar. I had a growth on my thyroid that was fast growing. The doctors had assumed I just had asthma. Thank you for sharing your story and literally saving my life. 🥰🥰🥰
I have Graves’ disease, and in the beginning I felt so hopeless/helpless. The doctor that treated me had a horrible bedside manner, and I had no one by my side.. I was in my early 20’s. I’m 34 now. I relate so much to everything you said.. even now with the anxiety and depression. I just want you to know that I admire you so very much. Thank you for taking the time to make this video. It’s crazy that you posted because I was just thinking about you a couple days ago. Funny how that happens. Love you, girl ❤️
I was diagnosed at 20 and had my thyroid out a few months later. Thyroid disease is so so hard. Graves has been a curse and a blessing. Stay strong, fellow graves warrior
I just wanted to come here and offer some love and support. I was diagnosed with cancer earlier this year and I can tell you that waiting for test results is excruciating. It was so hard for me to talk about it to anyone so I applaud your strength in this video. After having a hysterectomy my cancer is gone, but so is a big part of me, and it has affected my mental health more than I expected. 2020 has been a shit year but I have full faith for a better 2021. I will keep you in my prayers!
This video is exactly why I love Stephanie Nicole. Always real, always transparent, always raw. From the outside looking in, Influencers are always perceived to have perfect lives but this video made me feel so much less alone. Shared struggles unify us. Glad you’re back and wish you only the best from here. ♥️♥️
Sounds like you’ve been dealing with a lot over the past the past five months... Not usually sure what’s the “correct” thing to say in circumstances like this, so I’m going to say this; be gentle with yourself... You are doing the best you can. Also, to the persons who have disliked this vid, may God bless you and your family 🍀...
I noticed you have your nails back! I hope small things like that are making you feel a little more like yourself. I’m a researcher by profession and LOVE the thought and depth you put into your videos. Continue to get well both physically and mentally. Happy early birthday!
I’ve never commented before but this was one of the most accurate/realest explanations of what it’s like living in these times for people with mental health struggles. Thank you.
The American healthcare system is great for research, but a complete nightmare for "care". It was a shock to experience when I got out of the military, but everyone I know has struggled with it as well. Peace be with you, Stephanie--and I hope things continue to heal in all areas of your life.
That's because they put money over care. Hence, they've been stretching out their staff to take more and more patients (to save money) all the while, each patient gets less personalized care because it's nearly impossible to give each patient the amount of attention they need. And that's my rant for today.
@Allison Marie I’m American, I was married to a Canadian and lived in Ontario for 8 yrs. I had a few good and mor bad experiences with socialized medicine.i know prescription drugs are not covered, either is dental care or optometrists.
@Allison Marie I know, right! I'm Australian and couldn't comprehend what it must be like to have to worry about your health AND money. I recently had a total hip replacement and all I had to pay was $1000 total. Everything else was covered.
Our American healthcare system is great for research if it is funded by a large drug company and it is a drug to benefit males. Not so much for Females
My daughter was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s at 23. It was actually discovered like yours. Huge lump on her neck. They ran her blood tests 3 times, because her numbers were so bad,they said she should barely be able to walk. One nodule is wrapped around 2/3 of her thyroid. They immediately wanted to remove her thyroid. She couldn’t wrap her head around being on medication the rest of her life, so she has been doing the elimination diet for 3 years now. It will swell back up every once in awhile(when she has too many cheat days!) she has also suffered from anxiety from a young age. I do not believe there is only one option, or treatment.
That is nice to know she has been doing well with the diet. I am definitely going to keep trying that while monitoring my levels. It can't hurt. Thank you for sharing ❤️
there is a healing process happening now that the medical community does not speak about. It has very strange autoimmunetype symptoms- I speak about it often in my playlist healing and love you and yours
Just because many people are in worse spots than you, doesn’t mean your suffering isn’t valid. You’ve had a hard time in the last few years! I’ve always appreciated your honesty and your lack of “sneakiness”. You have a lifetime subscriber here! :)
i have hypothyroidism and celiac disease as well as general anxiety disorder and depression. getting my diet, thyroid, and mental health under control have helped me tremendously. I take so many medications and supplements for a 28 year old, but honestly- I will do and take whatever I need to to feel “normal.” things will get better- it just takes time, unfortunately.
I feel like I almost lost my friend. I’ve always identified with you since I discovered you. I guess now is as good a time as any to tell you how much you’ve inspired me, how you’ve helped make me more confident (knowledge is power... wut?!?! Lol), how much you’ve taught me, and how much I admire you. We are similar in age so I truly appreciated being talked to like an adult and the level of personal engagement you’ve shown since I’ve been following you. You’re such a force of nature and I know that you will come thru all this brilliantly. My warmest thoughts and strong good vibes are with you always. You have support when ever you feel the need. Sending you all my love from Memphis, Tennessee. 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
I suffered from hyperthyroid for several years, went into remission. My husband has an autoimmune disease called scleroderma. We’ve both benefitted from anti-inflammatory diets. Don’t let the doctors dissuade you; you need to be your own advocate. I’ve missed your videos. Sending you love and healing vibes!
Depression and anxiety are symptoms of Hashimotos. I have struggled with depression and anxiety all my life, but the hashimotos ramped them up to a new level. I was diagnosed in April. I am doing so,so. Stephanie, I am wishing you the best. Just hold on, a second, a minute, an hour, a day at a time. I think most of us who have lived with depression, know that if you put in the work, eventually it gets better. Even when it doesn’t feel like it ever will. It will get better.
Yep, anxiety and depression ARE symptoms of hashimotos. I‘ve never suffered from any of it until I was approximately 19 y/o. I‘ve got all the bloodwork done „Nope, you‘re healthy“. Yeah. Right. That‘s why I am always tired, barely can get out of bed and still can‘t sleep. Hashimotos runs in my family, so I knew what to look for. Unfortunately most doctors don‘t. This went on five more years. To the point where I sat on my couch, the washing machine kept making noises („get your stuff, laundry‘s ready!“) and I just could not find the energy to get up, walk a few steps and get my laundry. I felt so anxious all the time. Like ALL the time. I finally found a great doctor a few years ago who just did some bloodwork, looked at my thyroid via ultrasound and knew immediately. And let me tell you: Just like the symptoms gradually got worse without you noticing until a certain point they WILL get better again. I‘ve been on medication for almost four years now and I don‘t see any problem in supplementing something that my body fails to produce. I mean - I also take magnesium and other vitamins. 🤷♀️ Anyway - All the best to everyone on here who has to deal with hashimotos (and has on top of that to deal with comments like „oh, it‘s just your thyroid - how bad can it be?!“) and keep an eye on your allergies! I‘ve developed a lot of them since being diagnosed and on top of that a histamine intolerance. Which is just great. Not. Again: Just the best to all of you! You got this!
I like your content, have relied on your opinion for years. But more than anything, you as a person, honest and transparent and always real, is what I miss the most. Hang in there, know that your strength is in keep going. You are awesome! Wishing you a speedy recovery ❤️
Lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, & “other autoimmune diseases here 🙋🏼♀️ Anti-inflammatory diet helps so much. Terrible Drs are very common but there are also great ones and once you build your team, it’s a relief. I keep a document on my laptop & I add bullets to a word document after every visit and take a printout with me wherever I go because it’s hard to remember everything. I also add updates on meds so that’s good to keep all the Docs updated on too. I follow you on Instagram and I’m going to send you some info on there. Your feelings are absolutely valid & the timing is nerve wracking. Have faith Steph. You’ve made huge progress already. Do anything and everything that makes you feel like your old self that is actually in your control. It helps you not to lose Yourself completely. Take good care.
That is so true about the doctors and building a team. I was taken into the hospital for a blockage 5/9 and was in ICU for a month. I remember absolutely nothing about that part of my life. I had to learn to walk again among a million other things. Once you get your docs lined up and I mean doctors that you can talk to and you ARE the boss NOT them. If they get all pissy about being questioned I fire them. Anyway, much luck to Ms. Stephanie who I only watch on You Tube. My stepson does own a townhouse in Santa Monica and happens to be an ER doctor. So you never know about paths crossing. It is so good to share because you nevver know who you may help.
Appreciate the transparency 💕 For what it’s worth, the Stephanie in this video is the same Stephanie I’ve always seen. You are still you, from my through-UA-cam view point. Wish you well and know that this too shall pass.
I was diagnosed at 33 with both Type 1 and Hashimotos, prior to that I had never really had anything medically go wrong besides anxiety, although I had been diagnosed early in my teens with both PCOS and endometriosis, which I know now can lead to development of autoimmune disorders. My mothers side has history of autoimmune disease, which I wasn't aware of... now I clearly am and 5 years later I am doing just fine, with about 30 pounds of weight gain that is very difficult to get rid of, but I am alive, and I am thankful for that. I am glad that you are taking care of yourself and doing better, it's very difficult to drag yourself out of that hole sometimes.
I had Graves Disease when I was 18 and had the radio iodine treatment. It’s so true how your thyroid affects so much of your body. Here I am almost 13 years later and I’m still dealing with medication issues and lasting side effects. I hope you get answers soon. Please continue to take care of yourself mentally as well. And don’t feel bad for doing what you need to do to survive. We’re all here rooting for you! ❤️
I am twice your age Stef, and I don’t have time nor interest in b-s and that’s probably why I like you so much, you don’t b-s. You’re an amazing woman and I applaud your complete, direct honestly. Well done girl, be well, be strong, be you.
Good god. I think most people who have an unknown health problem (myself included) can relate to the panic and dread of going through countless appointments of trying to be diagnosed, trying to find out how to deal with it, then the actual appointments to treat your issue, and follow ups. Then there’s all the medication that goes with that. I really feel for you Stephanie! You’re one of my favorite youtubers, I’m wishing you strength and endurance to get through this and the mental capacity to get through covid
Thank you for being so open about your journey with mental illness and medication. Learning from incredible people like you gives me a lot of hope for my future. Wishing you the best of health Steph❤️
We don’t care if you are recording in the dark with a flashlight and your phone, we are just glad that you posted and shared!! So many of us share In what you are going through! ♥️♥️♥️ Oh and turn on your ads, post your affiliate links and I will click and watch them all!!
This truly has been one shit show of a year. I lost my 15 year old childhood dog last month myself and it’s so hard to see how others can feel your pain and sit in it with you. I know these are just words on a screen but you are someone that so many people, including myself, look up to and have so much regard for. You are strong as hell and you will get through this. You are so brave for sharing this with us and I am 100% feeling for you, with you and sending you so much love and positivity. Thank you for being so authentic and badass through all the years and social media/internet bullshit. ❤️
Oh Stef, I’m so sorry you’re going through all this. I was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s 15 years ago. Just want you to know that I’m very familiar with your struggles and that you’re not alone!
Yes, when I saw her video a few months back I no she was going to say that! My youngest son has Hashimoto’s and sodas my grandmother. It’s been particularly difficult for my son because he was diagnosed at seven or eight years old and it seems like it’s been harder on him, all the hormonal stuff as a preteen. It’s like he was going through puberty and elementary school. I just felt so bad for him. Anyway, Steph, you look amazing as usual! I love the outdoor video! Glad you’re ok😉
I've struggled with hashimoto's for 40 years and continue to suffer. Autoimmune diseases are kind of difficult to treat.i have 3. But there are good days and bad days and there is always hope
I too have been living with Hashimoto’s for a number of years. I’m so sorry you are going through this. For me, dealing with Hashimoto’s for me is a constant process. Doing lots of research has been helpful for me because the amount of “mixed messages” I have received from different doctors is maddening. But you are a smart capable woman, and you are going to figure this out.
It is SO good to hear - and SEE - you again! You were supremely missed ... and just so you know - you look wonderful. Stephanie, you have done amazing research for all of your videos on products. Yours were the most informative ... and so every moment up to now with all of that research & videos has prepared you well for this time now. Research, research, research your condition ... no other doctors are going to know you better than you know yourself & your own body. I have the same conditions as you, and became very frustrated with doctors who responded with tests & prescriptions for a number of drugs. I needed to find a practitioner that would partner with me in my health. I'm fortunate, as I have now stabilised both issues. I wish you many blessings on your return to good health ... all the very, very best & we look forward to you keeping us posted! xxx
Cannot imagine what you have been going through, medical stuff is always so scary. I had a somewhat similar case of having a cyst on my stomach that was the size of a small melon and kept getting asked by people how I hadn't noticed, but as a big girl, you just don't notice things like that, it was a harrowing experience and I'm always worried about it returning as I have a family of people who have cyst issues, especially ovarian. It takes a different kind of strength to not jump into traffic when you feel like nobody is giving you answers, stay strong
As someone who went through health issues during the beginning of Covid including the threat of having an autoimmune disease and is still going through these health issues I feel for you so so much. Thank you for sharing your story. And take it a day at a time, the world is crazy right now and experiencing health issues on top of it is like the straw breaking the camels back. I’m thinking of you and so glad to see a video from you.
I’m sorry you’re having to go through this & even more so through a pandemic, I’m glad you were finally able to get some answers, you’ve definitely been missed but your health is for sure way more important. Hope things get better, will be keeping you in my prayers.❤️
When you said you're disappointed when you wake up... that spoke to me. I'm so sorry you've been going through all of this, especially with everything going on right now. I'm thinking of you and have missed seeing you on my feed. I really wish you all the best x
This felt like catching up with a girlfriend I haven't heard from in a while. ❤️ My goodness you've had a heck of a year! I'm so sorry you're going through so much with your health. *Sending big hugs* I'm so glad you're getting help, I hope you're able to see the psychiatrist soon. The exercise will help, I totally get the struggle of having to drive somewhere to take a walk, I don't feel safe walking in my neighborhood. I hope you're able to keep taking steps for your mental health, do whatever gives you sanity. If one of those is making videos, do it, if making videos hurts you then step away and know that the people who care about you would rather you take care of yourself however you need to. Coping with so many life changing things, it will be a learning curve to find things that bring you joy so that your life isn't swallowed up by the problems (I know it's even harder right now with covid). I haven't been through what you're going through, but I do understand the struggle of not letting your mind focus on something horrible and life changing constantly, the anxiety and panic attacks, ect and making you sick mentally. I'm terrible at accepting help from people as well, I'm learning. I hope you're confiding in someone, maybe finding a workout buddy. Please do take care of yourself!!
Stephanie, look up protracted withdrawal from benzos and it’s affect on thyroid. I had a very similar situation. Not with the thyroid but many other things you mentioned. I am well now but it took a long time. Even if you stopped taking them long ago it can still be affecting your body. My heart goes out to you. That is a lot to go through and all at once and during a pandemic. Wishing you the best. Many doctors don’t seem to be familiar with protracted withdrawal from long term, high dose benzos. They are really just learning now. Prayers and love 🙏❤️
Diet makes a huge difference, supplements make a huge difference, and exercise makes a huge difference. Some of the things that helped me were vitamin D3, ashwaghanda, magnesium glycinate, and cortisol pro. Also, if you have any metal fillings, I would have them replaced. Take one day at a time, be kind to yourself and you will see the light at the end of the tunnel..
You don’t have to justify your suffering. Everyone, no matter the worldly privilege, has spiritual, mental, and physical pain. It’s good to see you are well.
I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis in 2003. My latest DMT is an infusion that used to be given for Leukemia and has A LOT of side effects. Prior to starting it, I was told I have an increased risk of melanoma and thyroid cancer. My uncle has had melanoma twice in the last 10 years so that is what I was primarily concerned about. I live in FL and love the sun, but I have given it up and am the palest I have ever been. I have to have monthly labs for the next 4 years. In September 2019, my labs came back abnormal for the first time since starting the infusion in January 2018. My TSH, T3, & T4 were all extremely out of range. My endocrinologist diagnosed me with Graves’ disease in November. Come Christmas, I was so hypo and thought I was dying. She diagnosed me with Hashimotos and put me on levothyroxine. I bounce from one extreme to the other literally every month. She recommends I do the radioactive iodine, but I can’t bring myself to do that yet. I’m still holding onto hope that by the end of my required monitoring in 4 years that my thyroid will go back to how it was prior to my infusions. Everything you said you have thought or feel, I have too. I’ve suffered major depression and anxiety since before being diagnosed with MS in 2003. I’m 39 y/o now and this whole thyroid issue has completely defeated me. Just went through my 2nd divorce and am trying to give my kids the best life possible. That’s hard to do when my body fights me every minute of every day. Hearing you tell your story truly comforted me. I would never wish any of my health problems on anyone. I’ve never known anyone who has any of my conditions so when I hear you have been going through the same thyroid rollercoaster, it made me feel like I’m not alone in this crazy life. I don’t know why I’m writing all this. You probably will never read it. I want to say to hang in there, and you’ll get through this. I also know the uncertainty of everything makes it impossible to believe that though. Sounds like you have a great group of friends and family to be your support. You’ve got this. I believe in you. 💕
Just wanted to say I’ve been there my MS started in 2001at 31 with blindness and spiraled out of control to the point where I was left wheelchair bound an very suicidal and anxious . Today after battling with MS and fibromyalgia(diagnosed later) I am in a totally different place. My vision came back ,not completely but 90% better than before ,I’m out of the wheelchair and on a cane and the fibromyalgia I just deal when it comes. The doctors even thought I had another autoimmune disease that affects my muscles I won’t bombards out with the details . Even though our journey is different, I said all that to say just hold on sister dear hold on and have faith, it can and does get better. I had to learn how to be selfish and create a new normal for myself. Please know you’re not alone and I love you , you are amazing and strong and you will get through this and come out the other side victorious and better and the best version of yourself. 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾
New subscriber but you’re one of the first beauty bloggers I watched years ago! I have a chronic illness - idiopathic hypersomnia (a sleep disorder). I have also suffered from depression and anxiety since I was a young child. When my chronic illness presented, I did the same thing and put it down to my mental state, as did my doctor. It finally got so bad that I was unable to function - the underlying chronic illness was out of control and wreaking havoc on not only my body, but my mental health. I had my doctor brush off my concerns in a similar way to the specialist in your story and I too remember bawling my eyes out and feeling so defeated. I didn’t understand how I could go on anymore with no hope to solve the problem. When you are in a poor mental state, experiences like that are SO defeating! It is hard to work up the energy to get out of bed, let alone make medical appointments, do copious amounts of research and make changes to your daily routines/diet without the proper support. Plus living with a chronic illness can feel as though you are fighting a battle you will never win, which is depressing and exhausting mentally. I still struggle with that to this day when I am going through a “rough” patch with my illness. I was lucky that I had a great psychologist who heard my concerns/despair and encouraged me to continue to seek answers - I now have a diagnosis and care plan (although it is always a work in progress for me when it comes to diet and exercise - good on you for making the effort and taking the initiative). It sounds like you have surrounded yourself with a strong team of health professionals and friends (Keegan sounds like a godsend). Thank you for sharing your story and I hope the results of your second biopsy are as good as possible and you can move forward with your life and health. I will be here as a subscriber when you come back - I look forward to a positive life update and lots more makeup/beauty content. It’s a long road, but this too shall pass. Sending love and positive vibes ❤️
There will always be someone in a worse situation than us, but that doesn't mean that these feelings are not valid, it's our own life that is a mess in these moments. And you are absolutely right, when it rains it pours, but situations like this: when we feel tired, depressed, overwhelmed, wanting to give up and rot away, are a season in life, temporary. As long as you get help, even when you feel it's impossible to feel better, things will work out. I kept saying 'we' because I understand those feelings too well, and we need to push through. You're a fighter, you'll overcome this.
I wear my thyroidectomy scar now as a reminder of how much something small can mess up our lives. Trust your support system and yourself now that you are being active in your own care! I'm sure you have seen in your research, thyroid issues, including Hashimoto's, affect our mental health too, so don't be too hard on you considering what you have going on! Glad to "see" you back on here for a minute!
You are so much more than just your outer beauty. You take your time, and be there with the people how give you love & are there for you. You've allways been the strongest, let someone else be that for now & take some time to just take some comforting. Blessings allways.
Take care of yourself girl. I was diagnosed with Graves disease and was told there was nothing that could be done other than meds. The low inflammation diet changed my life. I saw a functional medicine doctor and through supplements and low inflammation diet I have been able to get my antibody levels down and get off all medication. You are in my thoughts and prayers. ❤
Health issues are so scary. I can relate to the feeling like a zombie. When I went through something last year, it took me a long time to get back to "normal". Finding old/new things to get excited about has helped me feel more like a whole person. You are strong and you can get through this! ❤
Take care of you. Everything else will follow. When it rains it pours, for sure. Within a 5 year span , my sister was diagnosed with breast cancer, my husband had a near fatal heart attack, my sis lost her battle with cancer. A year after that my mom’s health declined, I was taking care of her with the help of my three sons and she passed in November 2009. 6 weeks later I was diagnosed with breast cancer. We do what we have to do to survive. Feel the feelings but don’t set up residence there. Rest. It’s so important. I wish you all the best. 🙏🏻💚🙏🏻
I started out watching this video saying oh I’ll just watch about 20 to 30 mins, just to catch up with you. But I literally couldn’t stop watching. Thank you so much for sharing, I’ve had my own encounter with intense anxiety a little over 2 years now, and still going through it. But I couldn’t imagine also going through such a health scare. I’ve always admired your transparency in your videos and your strong spirit that comes through on camera and even watching this video although you don’t feel yourself, I was still able to feel that person. Be as vulnerable as you need to be during this time, sending love your way ❤️❤️
My daughter has this same problem. Her lump turned out not to be cancerous. I hope that you are taking care of yourself and resting as you need to. Don’t be ashamed or afraid to take the time you need for yourself. Welcome back.
I'm a medical professional and can sympathize that some physicians are not blessed with the ability to explain things in layman's terms in a way that can best steer you in the right direction - for whatever reason. Not everyone is created equal, including doctors! I sent you a message on Instagram. Best wishes and HappyBDay! 💗
From one sick person who is the exact same age and in the exact same position as you- thank you for sharing. It’s so cheesy but all I keep telling myself is “health is wealth” when I feel I’m under achieving or judging myself for my current situation. 🧡
Have it! Diagnosed 27 years ago. It impacts a lot of body systems. You will get it under control and then bam your numbers get out of whack. It is a journey. I was misdiagnosed with depression, perimenopause, etc. It gets better.
I don't care how long your videos are I can watch the entire thing. I love all of your videos sponsored or not. The hate you receive always confuses me. You've been thru so much!! You're a survivor girl! And your ability to be aware of other struggles that don't affect you while dealing with everything you're dealing with makes you a true gem! The world is short on ppl like you Stephanie and I'm happy your back.
I agree with you, I have never understood why people get upset about Steph's sponsorships. Or upset about anything, if that's the case, why bother? I don't watch people I don't trust or that bother me. Also, I agree she's a gem!
Last spring I was diagnosed with Graves' disease and the doctor who diagnosed it told me that I would have this for life, for 1 year I was taking medicine and until 2 months ago I went to a new doctor who changed my medicine and now the tests that I just did this week, they came out normal !! Don't give up, dealing with the thyroid is exhausting but don't lose hope
I will keep you in my prayers. I have been dealing with cancer (neuroblastoma) for 23 years now. Staying positive and keeping positive vibes will bring you through your troubling times.
You have been going through SO MUCH, and there’s no need to apologize for your absence. We all have been trying to deal with new life changes due to Covid-19, and adding in health issues is no joke. I’m proud of you for working on getting your mental health back to a good place, and also for advocating for your own physical health. I wish you nothing but the best, and hope that you’re able to find what medications and lifestyle changes work best for you.
Hey Stephanie, I just want to say that I'm so sorry you're going through all this stuff right now. I truly empathize with your situation and I couldn't imagine dealing with all of those issues at once. I also deal with anxiety and panic attacks along with depression as well as some other chronic pain stuff and I really relate to your situation and my heart goes out to you. I'd also like to say that whatever content you put out I'm here for and if you don't feel like posting that's fine too. You're health and well being mentally and physically should always come first. You have such detailed and incredibly researched and edited content in the beauty community. I'm not just saying that either. You are the one who got me into skincare like no other, I would watch your videos over and over again and I really appreciate all the work and effort you put in. Thank you, Steph. I know you'll get through this tough time. I know I'm not alone when I say I'm rooting for you and hoping that you feel better soon.
Doctors don't always know everything, not even specialists. If YOUR BODY is telling you to try something, try it. Few things are in our control, what we put in or on it do make a difference. Doing what you can to feel your best, even if it isn't a cure, is a way you can help the doctors, help your treatment, feel in control, and feel even a little better. I study my health conditions, and try supplements that have been shown to help. If I feel better, then it's working for me now. You have a good grasp of what works for you, you are an adult, and you are the one who has to live in your body. You need to be your own advocate. If a doctor is disregarding you or your ideas, you have the right to fire them, get another opinion, etc.
You may feel defeated, but you aren't. It's so good to see and hear you again - you look great, by the way. Keegan is a gem, and I'm glad he is there for you. Please know you have a lot of people rooting for you, and here for you whenever you decide to post. Sending you all the love, healing, and happiness in the world. 💜💖💝
This is the first time I'm on your channel, I was just passing through but I felt the need to stay and listen to what you're saying I'm hearing strength, awareness, love for self first. These are the qualities that are important for you to take care of yourself and to recognize when your physical and mental health are in need of extra support. I feel that I needed to connect with you. Thank you for sharing
So good to see you, Steph. Although my heart breaks to hear of the heavy load you've had to carry, I admire you so much. Sending you all of the good and healing vibes. ❤
My daughter, now 19, developed Type 1 diabetes at 14. Then at 15 came Grave's disease and an increase in her psoriasis. However, after treatment, she's conquered Grave's. All of this during my battles with the kinds of breast cancer. We have survived. Keep strong. You can do it.
The state of healthcare in America is why I refuse to have kids. I'm going through it right now with out-of-pocket dental bills. Nice to see you back on UA-cam though, missed your videos!!!
Hi Stephanie!! Im soo glad to see you back in UA-cam. Im not sure if you have come across Dr. Mike Okouchi (he used to work in LA but has moved to Hawaii) But he is just amazing. Im currently on his Gut Restoration diet and it has helped my autoimmune issues soo much. Our bodies are amazing but its soo disappointing to see specialists not believing in the importance of diets and gut health. I hope that you recover! You are amazing xx
Prayers for you...I’m a physician so I know the medical field can be hard to navigate. Psychiatrists just prescribe so I would still recommend getting a psychologist to talk and work out things and help you to redirect your thoughts/thought processes and figure out who you are now - meds won’t touch that part ❤️
Damn Steph. I’ve been following you for what feels like forever. I missed you so much! My heart broke watching this. I saw many pieces of the Stephanie I’ve gotten to love over the years. Even though this may change you, you’re still you. Love ya!
You're one of the people I admire still the most here in this platform. I understand things here also work differently BUT you most certainly will have my subscription just as many thousands others. Some things we have no way of controlling and we're just caught up in the moment it starts hitting but you'll be and feel better I'm almost positive of that. You're strong too, however this might positively impact you, a LOT of us are here sharing experiences, relating in ways, and reassuring you you have our positive affirmation and thought. And views. Can't express enough love that I'm sending. U GO ✨
Stephanie, no need to worry about disappointing us. This has been a truly tough season but the good news is that it will pass. Your accomplishments far out way any shortcomings. Just really happy to hear your voice and there is no complaint from me regarding how long the video is. ❤️🕊
It is actually very common to get cysts in or on any body organ and people can either have a disease or not that correlates with that same organ. I’ve seen it countless times in Urology. But if you want to try a certain diet, I’d try it and see. Even if a physician doesn’t believe that it affects anything doesn’t mean you can’t try it. Given it doesn’t affect anything in a negative way.
Stephanie please know that you always have a ton of support and people who wish you well. You never know where you can find an answer or valuable resource. Wish you nothing but the best on your path to healing your mind body and soul.
i’ve had doctors pull up google to figure out what’s going on with me. at the end of the day get your tests done, blood work and do your own research as well! wishing you the best steph! ❤️
“I’m disappointed when I wake up in the morning...’’ that hits home. I am thinking of you and have missed you greatly ❤️
I love your videos too Mel!! I totally agree. That sentence made me tear up.
Queens supporting queens ❤️❤️
That’s a feeling I know all too well.
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Girl, next time monetize this and put a bunch of ads in it. We’ll happily watch to support you.
Stephanie has such a powerful story that needs to be shared more as people struggle with mental health the world over during such a tumultuous year. I would happily sit through ads to support her share it.
Saying you can’t be sad because others have it worse, is like saying you can’t be happy because others have it better😊 take care of yourself!
Here's the thing about 2020: self preservation is key. Just about everyone I know has encountered at least one major traumatic event, myself included. If you decide to not post a video again for a year, it's fine sis. Take care of yourself. I quit a whole job this year (as a physician coincidentally) to take time and refresh my mind and spirit. Secondly, as a doc, make sure they are checking FREE T4 levels. Regular T4 can be erroneous because it's more to do with protein binding than actual thyroid function. Also, while there's no evidence supporting plant-based diet directly, I always tell patients to try anyway. People ofren have great results with it, including in their moods. Wishing all the best for you 💜
One of my favorite comments of 2020, and also ever!
Such great advice, and from one physician to another I hope you’re doing well and you continue to take care of yourself. Happy to have Stephanie back and to know she also took time to take care of herself.
Agreed, and nicely written. This touched my soul. 💕
I so much appreciate your comment. I was telling my daughter today that T4 alone doesn’t tell the whole story but for some reason not all doctors ask for the free T4. I am not in the medical industry but I know this from an endocrinologist.
Yes! Thank you! I have a naturopath who finally did that test and it revealed so much more than the typical ones that my endocrinologist runs each visit. I was put on a low dose of a thryonamine medication for a few weeks and it made a huge difference to my health! We regularly check my levels now to see where I'm at. I appreciate that other doctors are doing this too!
PS - your fans and followers will be here when you’re ready. Do not worry about us!!
Thank you so much, Amy ❤️
Tis truth
At 25 I was hit by a drunk driver. My friend with me was pregnant so we all decided to go to the hospital just to be sure. I had a little neck pain but nothing crazy. When I got to the hospital they did an x ray. They found that there was a weird shadow that they couldn’t explain on my neck which led them to do a CT scan. At that point they thought I had a fractured neck which completely shocked me as I wasn’t in much pain. The results came back and they told me that I had a lump on my thyroid. For most of my early teens and 20s I struggled with my weight anxiety depression and a variety of other issues. Since my dad passed away when I was 16 and I chalked all of those emotions up to that.I knew absolutely nothing about my thyroid either. I went in to do a fine needle biopsy with 50 needles and it turned out that I had thyroid cancer. I could not believe it. The doctors told me that this is part of the reason that contributed to my weight gain and all the mental health issues that I was having. The most frustrating part is that I sought treatment for medical providers throughout my life that I was struggling with my mental health. I even saw a dermatologist because my face was breaking out and horrible rashes. All I kept getting was it’s hormonal it’s hormonal. Or they threw benzos at me. I ended up hav Having a full thyroidectomy when I was 26. It’s taken some time but everything has leveled out, no more anxiety, no more depression, no more benzo’s. Although the cancer was terrifying I felt like I finally got the answer I needed. I wish doctors talked to more women about thyroid cancer as it is one of the leading cancers in women. I normally don’t share my story as I don’t want any sympathy but more educate women on advocating for yourself with your medical providers. A simple blood panel would have alerted them that something was off but they didn’t do it and I fully trusted them. That tumor had been in my throat and it had grown to 3 inches it had been there since I was 17 years old, Which was nine years. Because it was never found the Cancer cells spread into my neck and up the back of my neck towards my brain stem. Although I hate to say it I’m grateful for the girl that decided to drink too much and get into her car that night. She saved my life. I just wanted to pass the message to anybody that is feeling not like themselves to not rule out medical conditions. make sure you advocate for yourself. Doctors are humans as well and they can become complacent. These things happen every single day. Advocate for blood work know your body and listen to it.
Wow that a wild & amazing story! I'm happy you're here to tell it
Sending you love
Jesus. I totally relate around thyroid, but my deal was Grave’s Disease. Truly thought I was losing my mind. I wish you ALL good things. Light love prosperity education and a safe environment .....
You don’t have to apologize for suffering just because other people are suffering. You can feel compassion for the pain of others and also feel compassion for yourself and your own pain. How you feel is valid, and taking care of yourself is important. I’m praying you have a positive breakthrough soon 💚
This comment is EVERYTHING! Thank you so much because there are so many people who need to hear this, myself included. Hugs 💜
Sometimes I just feel bad because I know there are people that have lost a lot more or are panicking about how to feed their kids, so I should feel grateful, but you are right. I am still allowed to have my own issues. Thank you for your kind comment ❤️
@@MsStephNic Yes you are allowed your own issues, despite others well-being or the state of the world. I have been disabled since age 23 and I am 48 now (car wreck). It is what it is. My youngest aunt had thyroid issues as a teen (she's mom's sibling; family of 10 kids). She had radioactive iodine treatment and never was on medication after that. She is in her 60s now and never had an issue after her teens. It was discovered early by the family internist. So that's always good if you're there early.
I think so many ppl need this PSA. I know I did. Thank you.
Who talks sht about Stephanie Nicole? She is literally like the single only UA-camr who isn’t straight pure drama. I don’t even think I’ve ever even heard one single comment about her in something negative or anything like that.
Hope you’re doing well Stephanie. It’s nice to see you !! Take care xo
Yes her and Jen Luvs are the only people that dont do drama
Losers do 😂 and Morphe
I know she gives the most reliable reviews. 💜
Yup! Her and Wayne Goss!
Oh thats because she is mature and not a child
Nurse for 20 plus years here. You are so well educated and informed about your situation. This is by far the most transparent youtube video I have ever watched. You are articulate, strong and such a fighter. You got this girl. Remember all those things you were talking about are circumstantial and will come and go. Your health is the most important thing in the World
Says a lot about the state of the world that everyone feels the need to preface personal updates with "sorry for talking about myself"
You do you boo. Stay strong and keep doing right by yourself.
Edited to add, "privileged" or not, holy sh t girl you have been THROUGH it. And without health insurance. Im so sorry you had to deal with all this. Blessings to you 😘
“I’m disappointed when I wake up.”
Heard. Heard. Heard.
Your job for the last few months has been to not die and to not give up. And you’ve succeeded. It’s no small thing to fight through the medical system and advocate for yourself. It’s exhausting and daunting and terrifying to live in that space of not knowing and the omnipresent anxiety that comes with it. And then to absorb every frustration that would be hard normally but compounds exponentially when under this kind of strain.
It doesn’t feel like you’re a badass. But you are. It’s taking a lot of effort, and I’m proud of you. For whatever the fuck that’s worth.
Very well said.
Thank you so much for your encouraging & kind comment, Angelina. Means more than you know ❤️
100% agree beautifully said!! We love you and want you as a person to be ok. We will wait. Its hard so just know that you have us as SUPPORTERS not just subbies. Love u
I’ve never related to an influencers “life update” like I did just now! Your vulnerability is beyond admirable. Thank you for sharing!!!
Woah girl you’ve been thru it. Glad to see you doing well and now you are stronger with knowledge. Crazy right? I’ve had several crazy medical things that have take a wild route to get to the surface. I’m glad it was not worse. Take care my dear!!
That bird is rejoicing you're back, too.
“Brevity is not one of my strengths” 😂 that’s why we love you
hahaha. I go on & on & on. When I was a kid the teachers used to write on my report card that I was a "motormouth" & I always had my desk moved next to the teachers so I couldn't talk in class haha
That’s a crow.It’s a warning call.That one is a lookout.If any of the other crows on the ground were to be injured or killed while it’s on watch the others will gang up and beat the shit out of it.Its job is that important.
Omg, birds... They are really something else
Yep! I love them. They are loud as hell, but so cool.
I knew it was a crow but I’m fascinated to learn the details about the calling, thank you!
This is an example of the internet being cool. Thanks for sharing this.
I'm usually a silent viewer. I'm so touched by how open and honest you're telling your life update. I really hope you're doing okay and get better soon. Nevermind about filming. You need to focus on your health and yourself. 💜
Thyroid stuff messes with every system in your body. To go though it for the first time in the midst of losing your sense of home, having your life in storage, employment unrest and a pandemic is huge! Take care of yourself. Do what needs doing to get to tomorrow; then do it again and again. Hugs and good thoughts.
" My mind...It's not possible that anyone cares because I feel like the person they got to know doesn't exist anymore." So much of what you said is the voice of Chronic Illness, Autoimmune Disease...the invisible diseases....the diseases or syndromes that make people say "You sure do look good for such a sick person." Stephanie I'm so sorry you're trying to deal with the unknown, it sucks so badly. I have an idea, how about using your platform to educate people about "invisible illnesses"? Continue to talk about your feelings and how difficult it is when friends "just don't get it". You're a wonderful speaker, use what you have and make it golden.
Hey Stef, it’s Sarah from high school. I have my own therapy practice in MA. Sorry to hear about all of this. The thyroid stuff can be so connected to the mental health symptoms so hopefully you can find someone who understands both. Thyroid issues run in my family (I managed so far to escape it) so it is never an easy road. Take care of yourself
As an Australian the U.S. health system gives me anxiety and it doesn’t even affect me. Hope everything works out for you Stephanie, thank you for being so open. I have been meaning to get my Thyroid tested for Hypothyroidism for awhile and this has made me move my ass and get it done.
I am SO grateful for Medicare. Too many people whinge about the Australian Public health system but we are SO privileged and often take it for granted. There seems to be a mentality of entitlement in this country and I fear how we would all cope should the rug be pulled... (like, JobKeeper - a very flawed system that kept me (and well, most) afloat, I am incredibly appreciative but our children’s children will still be paying the price 😬)
I live in the US and have insurance and it still gives me anxiety!
It’s the absolute worst
Same! So grateful it’s all free in New Zealand as well! My mother had 18 years of many different cancer treatments.. all free. Would be horrified to think how much it would have cost in the USA.
You said the words that I couldn’t find to express how I’ve been feeling since June, I lost my job, health not going great, boyfriend cheated on me and found out he has a daughter as a result, I’m 42 yo and live in a country that has not many opportunities, specially for women around my age, worried about my 65+ parents, just like you said, sometimes I don’t want to wake up 😞 I don’t know when this is going to end and I don’t know how much longer I can endure this, so my heart goes out to you Stephanie, we’re going through similar things in life, I felt your pain and your words were my own.
Carli I can relate to some of what you said but not all of it. You can keep going, look how far you’ve made it already. I can promise you that with time, pain will never go away, but you’ll find ways of coping. The darkness can’t remain forever. I’m sending both you and Steph lots of love and light 💜
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Carli things won't always be this way. Years from now you'll look back with your gorgeous, loving, wonderful husband and think wow I made it through some really tough shit. Nothing can stop me now...
I’m so sorry this happened to you. If it’s any consolation, my dad is in a similar situation, my mom had an affair and left us a few years ago, and even though it was hard at first, we’re doing well now. It takes time, but it does get easier to deal with.
Oh, I'm a MD in Sweden and what you went through with the overmedication in your youth, that by itself is a major traumatic experience! Not every trauma is a car crash. In regards to your friendships, another way to view it is that your current you will act as a filter among your friends and the best ones will stay and if anyone responds negatively then they can become an acquaintance. Also, the words you expressed comes from fear of not being accepted when you don't deem yourself worthy. You are always worthy! Best of everything!
I’m married to a physician. I also have an auto immune disorder that would’ve killed me last year if not for an amazing doctor who listened to me. I have seen specialist who are absolutely against “restrictive diets.” It seems they feel like you can’t be on a restrictive diet AND still have medical care. It’s not helpful to have that viewpoint, but here’s what I can tell you. I have really loved the low fodmap diet. Key word is low not none. The doctor who saved my life introduced it to me. I will also have to be on meds for the rest of my life, but the combo of both has given me a better chance at avoiding a flare-up. My husband has seen how this diet has helped and is now a believer. It absolutely doesn’t hurt to eat better, but it DOES hurt when a physician isn’t willing to discuss alternative solutions (injunction with their care). I wish more docs referred patients to dietitians who specialize in these disorders. I think “diet” just triggers something in some physicians, when in reality it’s just a way of fueling your body. Luckily you’re a strong woman who knows how to stand up for yourself and I’m so glad you’re on your way to healing. You’ll get there I promise. It’s a major process and will take time. I wish you so much luck. Certain diets absolutely are worth trying and everyone’s body is different so hopefully you can find one that works for you!
Can you share the doctor your seeing
As a Canadian, this was so hard to hear. It makes me so sad that doctors will have to mention price when making decisions that affect your health. So glad you are pushing through this, and were able to make it work financially. Just extremely hard to hear that this is something people have to go through. It’s absolutely unbelievable to me. Good luck with your health journey, I am rooting for you!!
most humans in history didnt have medicine at all, overprivilieged canadian at her best.
I clicked on this AS SOON AS I got the notification. I’ve missed you. ♥️
Same 😊
Ditto!!!! 🥰🥰🥰
Me too!
same, dropped everything
I turned 46 on Wednesday, and I'm also in my second year of law school to help fix our country. I'm so glad to see you.
Oh honey, you are still the same person we all care about. You are a real person with all the flaws and baggage that comes with being a real person. That is PRECISELY why we've always loved you.
Ten years ago, I was homeless and addicted. As I already said, today I'm in law school. We never know what the world is gonna throw at us. All we can do is control how we respond to each disaster life presents. You have more insight than most, and I know you have the strength to get through this. If you don't believe in yourself today, know that I believe in you. Be kind to yourself, appreciate the little moments of happiness you can find, and know that this too shall pass.
Feliz Cumpleaños belated, and kick ass in school, Boo! Awesome attorneys exist, but we all could use more integral solicitors across the board. 🤘🏼😘🔥
I know this isn’t directed at me but those words give me hope. Thank you.
Congratulations on 10 years sober! What an amazing accomplishment. I'm very proud of you. I wish you the best in law school!
I'm proud of you!!! I don't know you but I'm glad to hear this and I wish you the best in school.
I want to go to law school as well. You're an inspiration. I'm 25, a college dropout immigrant living in Europe. I'm saving your message because you're so right about everything. Much love ♥️
This video probably saved my life. I watched this video about two month ago right as I started getting sick. I was going to the doctor but no one knew what was wrong. I’m not skinny and therefore carry weight all over. After watching this video I just decide to check my neck cause the symptoms sounds similar. I had a growth on my thyroid that was fast growing. The doctors had assumed I just had asthma. Thank you for sharing your story and literally saving my life. 🥰🥰🥰
I have Graves’ disease, and in the beginning I felt so hopeless/helpless. The doctor that treated me had a horrible bedside manner, and I had no one by my side.. I was in my early 20’s. I’m 34 now. I relate so much to everything you said.. even now with the anxiety and depression. I just want you to know that I admire you so very much. Thank you for taking the time to make this video. It’s crazy that you posted because I was just thinking about you a couple days ago. Funny how that happens. Love you, girl ❤️
I have had a doc with a bad bedside manner and it can throw you for a loop but I replaced that heifer.
I was diagnosed at 20 and had my thyroid out a few months later. Thyroid disease is so so hard. Graves has been a curse and a blessing. Stay strong, fellow graves warrior
I just wanted to come here and offer some love and support. I was diagnosed with cancer earlier this year and I can tell you that waiting for test results is excruciating. It was so hard for me to talk about it to anyone so I applaud your strength in this video. After having a hysterectomy my cancer is gone, but so is a big part of me, and it has affected my mental health more than I expected. 2020 has been a shit year but I have full faith for a better 2021. I will keep you in my prayers!
This video is exactly why I love Stephanie Nicole. Always real, always transparent, always raw. From the outside looking in, Influencers are always perceived to have perfect lives but this video made me feel so much less alone. Shared struggles unify us. Glad you’re back and wish you only the best from here. ♥️♥️
Sounds like you’ve been dealing with a lot over the past the past five months... Not usually sure what’s the “correct” thing to say in circumstances like this, so I’m going to say this; be gentle with yourself... You are doing the best you can. Also, to the persons who have disliked this vid, may God bless you and your family 🍀...
I noticed you have your nails back! I hope small things like that are making you feel a little more like yourself. I’m a researcher by profession and LOVE the thought and depth you put into your videos. Continue to get well both physically and mentally. Happy early birthday!
I’ve never commented before but this was one of the most accurate/realest explanations of what it’s like living in these times for people with mental health struggles. Thank you.
The American healthcare system is great for research, but a complete nightmare for "care". It was a shock to experience when I got out of the military, but everyone I know has struggled with it as well. Peace be with you, Stephanie--and I hope things continue to heal in all areas of your life.
That's because they put money over care. Hence, they've been stretching out their staff to take more and more patients (to save money) all the while, each patient gets less personalized care because it's nearly impossible to give each patient the amount of attention they need. And that's my rant for today.
@Allison Marie I’m American, I was married to a Canadian and lived in Ontario for 8 yrs. I had a few good and mor bad experiences with socialized medicine.i know prescription drugs are not covered, either is dental care or optometrists.
@@TazzyZee14you mean in the US or Canada?
@Allison Marie I know, right! I'm Australian and couldn't comprehend what it must be like to have to worry about your health AND money. I recently had a total hip replacement and all I had to pay was $1000 total. Everything else was covered.
Our American healthcare system is great for research if it is funded by a large drug company and it is a drug to benefit males. Not so much for
Females
My daughter was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s at 23. It was actually discovered like yours. Huge lump on her neck. They ran her blood tests 3 times, because her numbers were so bad,they said she should barely be able to walk. One nodule is wrapped around 2/3 of her thyroid. They immediately wanted to remove her thyroid. She couldn’t wrap her head around being on medication the rest of her life, so she has been doing the elimination diet for 3 years now. It will swell back up every once in awhile(when she has too many cheat days!) she has also suffered from anxiety from a young age. I do not believe there is only one option, or treatment.
That is nice to know she has been doing well with the diet. I am definitely going to keep trying that while monitoring my levels. It can't hurt. Thank you for sharing ❤️
there is a healing process happening now that the medical community does not speak about. It has very strange autoimmunetype symptoms- I speak about it often in my playlist healing and love you and yours
Just because many people are in worse spots than you, doesn’t mean your suffering isn’t valid. You’ve had a hard time in the last few years! I’ve always appreciated your honesty and your lack of “sneakiness”. You have a lifetime subscriber here! :)
i have hypothyroidism and celiac disease as well as general anxiety disorder and depression. getting my diet, thyroid, and mental health under control have helped me tremendously. I take so many medications and supplements for a 28 year old, but honestly- I will do and take whatever I need to to feel “normal.” things will get better- it just takes time, unfortunately.
I am happy to hear you have got some relief. I am also willing to do whatever I need to. Thanks Rachel!
I feel like I almost lost my friend. I’ve always identified with you since I discovered you. I guess now is as good a time as any to tell you how much you’ve inspired me, how you’ve helped make me more confident (knowledge is power... wut?!?! Lol), how much you’ve taught me, and how much I admire you. We are similar in age so I truly appreciated being talked to like an adult and the level of personal engagement you’ve shown since I’ve been following you. You’re such a force of nature and I know that you will come thru all this brilliantly. My warmest thoughts and strong good vibes are with you always. You have support when ever you feel the need. Sending you all my love from Memphis, Tennessee. 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
I suffered from hyperthyroid for several years, went into remission. My husband has an autoimmune disease called scleroderma. We’ve both benefitted from anti-inflammatory diets. Don’t let the doctors dissuade you; you need to be your own advocate. I’ve missed your videos. Sending you love and healing vibes!
Depression and anxiety are symptoms of Hashimotos. I have struggled with depression and anxiety all my life, but the hashimotos ramped them up to a new level. I was diagnosed in April. I am doing so,so. Stephanie, I am wishing you the best. Just hold on, a second, a minute, an hour, a day at a time. I think most of us who have lived with depression, know that if you put in the work, eventually it gets better. Even when it doesn’t feel like it ever will. It will get better.
Yep, anxiety and depression ARE symptoms of hashimotos.
I‘ve never suffered from any of it until I was approximately 19 y/o. I‘ve got all the bloodwork done „Nope, you‘re healthy“. Yeah. Right. That‘s why I am always tired, barely can get out of bed and still can‘t sleep. Hashimotos runs in my family, so I knew what to look for. Unfortunately most doctors don‘t. This went on five more years. To the point where I sat on my couch, the washing machine kept making noises („get your stuff, laundry‘s ready!“) and I just could not find the energy to get up, walk a few steps and get my laundry. I felt so anxious all the time. Like ALL the time. I finally found a great doctor a few years ago who just did some bloodwork, looked at my thyroid via ultrasound and knew immediately.
And let me tell you: Just like the symptoms gradually got worse without you noticing until a certain point they WILL get better again. I‘ve been on medication for almost four years now and I don‘t see any problem in supplementing something that my body fails to produce. I mean - I also take magnesium and other vitamins. 🤷♀️
Anyway - All the best to everyone on here who has to deal with hashimotos (and has on top of that to deal with comments like „oh, it‘s just your thyroid - how bad can it be?!“) and keep an eye on your allergies! I‘ve developed a lot of them since being diagnosed and on top of that a histamine intolerance. Which is just great. Not. Again: Just the best to all of you! You got this!
I like your content, have relied on your opinion for years. But more than anything, you as a person, honest and transparent and always real, is what I miss the most. Hang in there, know that your strength is in keep going. You are awesome! Wishing you a speedy recovery ❤️
i cry when i'm scared too (and have anxiety). your description of tilting a chair too far or missing the step is spot on. *hugs*
Lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, & “other autoimmune diseases here 🙋🏼♀️ Anti-inflammatory diet helps so much. Terrible Drs are very common but there are also great ones and once you build your team, it’s a relief.
I keep a document on my laptop & I add bullets to a word document after every visit and take a printout with me wherever I go because it’s hard to remember everything. I also add updates on meds so that’s good to keep all the Docs updated on too.
I follow you on Instagram and I’m going to send you some info on there. Your feelings are absolutely valid & the timing is nerve wracking. Have faith Steph. You’ve made huge progress already. Do anything and everything that makes you feel like your old self that is actually in your control. It helps you not to lose Yourself completely. Take good care.
That is so true about the doctors and building a team. I was taken into the hospital for a blockage 5/9 and was in ICU for a month. I remember absolutely nothing about that part of my life. I had to learn to walk again among a million other things. Once you get your docs lined up and I mean doctors that you can talk to and you ARE the boss NOT them. If they get all pissy about being questioned I fire them. Anyway, much luck to Ms. Stephanie who I only watch on You Tube. My stepson does own a townhouse in Santa Monica and happens to be an ER doctor. So you never know about paths crossing. It is so good to share because you nevver know who you may help.
Appreciate the transparency 💕 For what it’s worth, the Stephanie in this video is the same Stephanie I’ve always seen. You are still you, from my through-UA-cam view point. Wish you well and know that this too shall pass.
I was diagnosed at 33 with both Type 1 and Hashimotos, prior to that I had never really had anything medically go wrong besides anxiety, although I had been diagnosed early in my teens with both PCOS and endometriosis, which I know now can lead to development of autoimmune disorders. My mothers side has history of autoimmune disease, which I wasn't aware of... now I clearly am and 5 years later I am doing just fine, with about 30 pounds of weight gain that is very difficult to get rid of, but I am alive, and I am thankful for that. I am glad that you are taking care of yourself and doing better, it's very difficult to drag yourself out of that hole sometimes.
I had Graves Disease when I was 18 and had the radio iodine treatment. It’s so true how your thyroid affects so much of your body. Here I am almost 13 years later and I’m still dealing with medication issues and lasting side effects. I hope you get answers soon. Please continue to take care of yourself mentally as well. And don’t feel bad for doing what you need to do to survive. We’re all here rooting for you! ❤️
I am twice your age Stef, and I don’t have time nor interest in b-s and that’s probably why I like you so much, you don’t b-s. You’re an amazing woman and I applaud your complete, direct honestly. Well done girl, be well, be strong, be you.
Good god. I think most people who have an unknown health problem (myself included) can relate to the panic and dread of going through countless appointments of trying to be diagnosed, trying to find out how to deal with it, then the actual appointments to treat your issue, and follow ups. Then there’s all the medication that goes with that. I really feel for you Stephanie! You’re one of my favorite youtubers, I’m wishing you strength and endurance to get through this and the mental capacity to get through covid
Thank you for being so open about your journey with mental illness and medication. Learning from incredible people like you gives me a lot of hope for my future. Wishing you the best of health Steph❤️
We don’t care if you are recording in the dark with a flashlight and your phone, we are just glad that you posted and shared!! So many of us share In what you are going through! ♥️♥️♥️ Oh and turn on your ads, post your affiliate links and I will click and watch them all!!
This truly has been one shit show of a year. I lost my 15 year old childhood dog last month myself and it’s so hard to see how others can feel your pain and sit in it with you. I know these are just words on a screen but you are someone that so many people, including myself, look up to and have so much regard for. You are strong as hell and you will get through this. You are so brave for sharing this with us and I am 100% feeling for you, with you and sending you so much love and positivity. Thank you for being so authentic and badass through all the years and social media/internet bullshit. ❤️
Oh Stef, I’m so sorry you’re going through all this. I was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s 15 years ago. Just want you to know that I’m very familiar with your struggles and that you’re not alone!
Yes, when I saw her video a few months back I no she was going to say that! My youngest son has Hashimoto’s and sodas my grandmother. It’s been particularly difficult for my son because he was diagnosed at seven or eight years old and it seems like it’s been harder on him, all the hormonal stuff as a preteen. It’s like he was going through puberty and elementary school. I just felt so bad for him. Anyway, Steph, you look amazing as usual! I love the outdoor video!
Glad you’re ok😉
I've struggled with hashimoto's for 40 years and continue to suffer. Autoimmune diseases are kind of difficult to treat.i have 3. But there are good days and bad days and there is always hope
I too have been living with Hashimoto’s for a number of years. I’m so sorry you are going through this. For me, dealing with Hashimoto’s for me is a constant process. Doing lots of research has been helpful for me because the amount of “mixed messages” I have received from different doctors is maddening. But you are a smart capable woman, and you are going to figure this out.
It is SO good to hear - and SEE - you again! You were supremely missed ... and just so you know - you look wonderful. Stephanie, you have done amazing research for all of your videos on products. Yours were the most informative ... and so every moment up to now with all of that research & videos has prepared you well for this time now. Research, research, research your condition ... no other doctors are going to know you better than you know yourself & your own body. I have the same conditions as you, and became very frustrated with doctors who responded with tests & prescriptions for a number of drugs. I needed to find a practitioner that would partner with me in my health. I'm fortunate, as I have now stabilised both issues. I wish you many blessings on your return to good health ... all the very, very best & we look forward to you keeping us posted! xxx
I don't have the same Illness but what you are saying is 100% truth!
Cannot imagine what you have been going through, medical stuff is always so scary. I had a somewhat similar case of having a cyst on my stomach that was the size of a small melon and kept getting asked by people how I hadn't noticed, but as a big girl, you just don't notice things like that, it was a harrowing experience and I'm always worried about it returning as I have a family of people who have cyst issues, especially ovarian.
It takes a different kind of strength to not jump into traffic when you feel like nobody is giving you answers, stay strong
As someone who went through health issues during the beginning of Covid including the threat of having an autoimmune disease and is still going through these health issues I feel for you so so much. Thank you for sharing your story. And take it a day at a time, the world is crazy right now and experiencing health issues on top of it is like the straw breaking the camels back. I’m thinking of you and so glad to see a video from you.
I’m sorry you’re having to go through this & even more so through a pandemic, I’m glad you were finally able to get some answers, you’ve definitely been missed but your health is for sure way more important. Hope things get better, will be keeping you in my prayers.❤️
When you said you're disappointed when you wake up... that spoke to me. I'm so sorry you've been going through all of this, especially with everything going on right now. I'm thinking of you and have missed seeing you on my feed. I really wish you all the best x
This felt like catching up with a girlfriend I haven't heard from in a while. ❤️ My goodness you've had a heck of a year! I'm so sorry you're going through so much with your health. *Sending big hugs*
I'm so glad you're getting help, I hope you're able to see the psychiatrist soon. The exercise will help, I totally get the struggle of having to drive somewhere to take a walk, I don't feel safe walking in my neighborhood. I hope you're able to keep taking steps for your mental health, do whatever gives you sanity. If one of those is making videos, do it, if making videos hurts you then step away and know that the people who care about you would rather you take care of yourself however you need to. Coping with so many life changing things, it will be a learning curve to find things that bring you joy so that your life isn't swallowed up by the problems (I know it's even harder right now with covid). I haven't been through what you're going through, but I do understand the struggle of not letting your mind focus on something horrible and life changing constantly, the anxiety and panic attacks, ect and making you sick mentally. I'm terrible at accepting help from people as well, I'm learning. I hope you're confiding in someone, maybe finding a workout buddy. Please do take care of yourself!!
Stephanie, look up protracted withdrawal from benzos and it’s affect on thyroid. I had a very similar situation. Not with the thyroid but many other things you mentioned. I am well now but it took a long time. Even if you stopped taking them long ago it can still be affecting your body. My heart goes out to you. That is a lot to go through and all at once and during a pandemic. Wishing you the best. Many doctors don’t seem to be familiar with protracted withdrawal from long term, high dose benzos. They are really just learning now. Prayers and love 🙏❤️
Diet makes a huge difference, supplements make a huge difference, and exercise makes a huge difference. Some of the things that helped me were vitamin D3, ashwaghanda, magnesium glycinate, and cortisol pro. Also, if you have any metal fillings, I would have them replaced. Take one day at a time, be kind to yourself and you will see the light at the end of the tunnel..
You don’t have to justify your suffering. Everyone, no matter the worldly privilege, has spiritual, mental, and physical pain. It’s good to see you are well.
I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis in 2003. My latest DMT is an infusion that used to be given for Leukemia and has A LOT of side effects. Prior to starting it, I was told I have an increased risk of melanoma and thyroid cancer. My uncle has had melanoma twice in the last 10 years so that is what I was primarily concerned about. I live in FL and love the sun, but I have given it up and am the palest I have ever been. I have to have monthly labs for the next 4 years. In September 2019, my labs came back abnormal for the first time since starting the infusion in January 2018. My TSH, T3, & T4 were all extremely out of range. My endocrinologist diagnosed me with Graves’ disease in November. Come Christmas, I was so hypo and thought I was dying. She diagnosed me with Hashimotos and put me on levothyroxine. I bounce from one extreme to the other literally every month. She recommends I do the radioactive iodine, but I can’t bring myself to do that yet. I’m still holding onto hope that by the end of my required monitoring in 4 years that my thyroid will go back to how it was prior to my infusions. Everything you said you have thought or feel, I have too. I’ve suffered major depression and anxiety since before being diagnosed with MS in 2003. I’m 39 y/o now and this whole thyroid issue has completely defeated me. Just went through my 2nd divorce and am trying to give my kids the best life possible. That’s hard to do when my body fights me every minute of every day. Hearing you tell your story truly comforted me. I would never wish any of my health problems on anyone. I’ve never known anyone who has any of my conditions so when I hear you have been going through the same thyroid rollercoaster, it made me feel like I’m not alone in this crazy life. I don’t know why I’m writing all this. You probably will never read it. I want to say to hang in there, and you’ll get through this. I also know the uncertainty of everything makes it impossible to believe that though. Sounds like you have a great group of friends and family to be your support. You’ve got this. I believe in you. 💕
Hugs ❣️
WE are reading it .... very helpful info here- TY🙏🏻
Just wanted to say I’ve been there my MS started in 2001at 31 with blindness and spiraled out of control to the point where I was left wheelchair bound an very suicidal and anxious . Today after battling with MS and fibromyalgia(diagnosed later) I am in a totally different place. My vision came back ,not completely but 90% better than before ,I’m out of the wheelchair and on a cane and the fibromyalgia I just deal when it comes. The doctors even thought I had another autoimmune disease that affects my muscles I won’t bombards out with the details . Even though our journey is different, I said all that to say just hold on sister dear hold on and have faith, it can and does get better. I had to learn how to be selfish and create a new normal for myself. Please know you’re not alone and I love you , you are amazing and strong and you will get through this and come out the other side victorious and better and the best version of yourself. 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾
New subscriber but you’re one of the first beauty bloggers I watched years ago! I have a chronic illness - idiopathic hypersomnia (a sleep disorder). I have also suffered from depression and anxiety since I was a young child.
When my chronic illness presented, I did the same thing and put it down to my mental state, as did my doctor. It finally got so bad that I was unable to function - the underlying chronic illness was out of control and wreaking havoc on not only my body, but my mental health. I had my doctor brush off my concerns in a similar way to the specialist in your story and I too remember bawling my eyes out and feeling so defeated. I didn’t understand how I could go on anymore with no hope to solve the problem. When you are in a poor mental state, experiences like that are SO defeating! It is hard to work up the energy to get out of bed, let alone make medical appointments, do copious amounts of research and make changes to your daily routines/diet without the proper support. Plus living with a chronic illness can feel as though you are fighting a battle you will never win, which is depressing and exhausting mentally. I still struggle with that to this day when I am going through a “rough” patch with my illness.
I was lucky that I had a great psychologist who heard my concerns/despair and encouraged me to continue to seek answers - I now have a diagnosis and care plan (although it is always a work in progress for me when it comes to diet and exercise - good on you for making the effort and taking the initiative). It sounds like you have surrounded yourself with a strong team of health professionals and friends (Keegan sounds like a godsend). Thank you for sharing your story and I hope the results of your second biopsy are as good as possible and you can move forward with your life and health. I will be here as a subscriber when you come back - I look forward to a positive life update and lots more makeup/beauty content. It’s a long road, but this too shall pass. Sending love and positive vibes ❤️
There will always be someone in a worse situation than us, but that doesn't mean that these feelings are not valid, it's our own life that is a mess in these moments. And you are absolutely right, when it rains it pours, but situations like this: when we feel tired, depressed, overwhelmed, wanting to give up and rot away, are a season in life, temporary. As long as you get help, even when you feel it's impossible to feel better, things will work out. I kept saying 'we' because I understand those feelings too well, and we need to push through. You're a fighter, you'll overcome this.
I wear my thyroidectomy scar now as a reminder of how much something small can mess up our lives.
Trust your support system and yourself now that you are being active in your own care! I'm sure you have seen in your research, thyroid issues, including Hashimoto's, affect our mental health too, so don't be too hard on you considering what you have going on!
Glad to "see" you back on here for a minute!
You are so much more than just your outer beauty. You take your time, and be there with the people how give you love & are there for you. You've allways been the strongest, let someone else be that for now & take some time to just take some comforting. Blessings allways.
Take care of yourself girl. I was diagnosed with Graves disease and was told there was nothing that could be done other than meds. The low inflammation diet changed my life. I saw a functional medicine doctor and through supplements and low inflammation diet I have been able to get my antibody levels down and get off all medication. You are in my thoughts and prayers. ❤
Health issues are so scary. I can relate to the feeling like a zombie. When I went through something last year, it took me a long time to get back to "normal". Finding old/new things to get excited about has helped me feel more like a whole person.
You are strong and you can get through this! ❤
omg, healthcare cost in the US is insanely expensive. The thyroid panel here costs 20-25 USD....
Take care of you. Everything else will follow. When it rains it pours, for sure. Within a 5 year span , my sister was diagnosed with breast cancer, my husband had a near fatal heart attack, my sis lost her battle with cancer. A year after that my mom’s health declined, I was taking care of her with the help of my three sons and she passed in November 2009. 6 weeks later I was diagnosed with breast cancer. We do what we have to do to survive. Feel the feelings but don’t set up residence there. Rest. It’s so important. I wish you all the best. 🙏🏻💚🙏🏻
I am so sorry to hear about your sister & your mother. You will kick cancers ass! Hang in there! Thank you for watching & for your comment❤️
I started out watching this video saying oh I’ll just watch about 20 to 30 mins, just to catch up with you. But I literally couldn’t stop watching. Thank you so much for sharing, I’ve had my own encounter with intense anxiety a little over 2 years now, and still going through it. But I couldn’t imagine also going through such a health scare. I’ve always admired your transparency in your videos and your strong spirit that comes through on camera and even watching this video although you don’t feel yourself, I was still able to feel that person. Be as vulnerable as you need to be during this time, sending love your way ❤️❤️
My daughter has this same problem. Her lump turned out not to be cancerous. I hope that you are taking care of yourself and resting as you need to. Don’t be ashamed or afraid to take the time you need for yourself. Welcome back.
I'm a medical professional and can sympathize that some physicians are not blessed with the ability to explain things in layman's terms in a way that can best steer you in the right direction - for whatever reason. Not everyone is created equal, including doctors! I sent you a message on Instagram. Best wishes and HappyBDay! 💗
From one sick person who is the exact same age and in the exact same position as you- thank you for sharing. It’s so cheesy but all I keep telling myself is “health is wealth” when I feel I’m under achieving or judging myself for my current situation. 🧡
Have it! Diagnosed 27 years ago. It impacts a lot of body systems. You will get it under control and then bam your numbers get out of whack. It is a journey. I was misdiagnosed with depression, perimenopause, etc. It gets better.
I don't care how long your videos are I can watch the entire thing. I love all of your videos sponsored or not. The hate you receive always confuses me. You've been thru so much!! You're a survivor girl! And your ability to be aware of other struggles that don't affect you while dealing with everything you're dealing with makes you a true gem! The world is short on ppl like you Stephanie and I'm happy your back.
I agree with you, I have never understood why people get upset about Steph's sponsorships. Or upset about anything, if that's the case, why bother? I don't watch people I don't trust or that bother me. Also, I agree she's a gem!
Last spring I was diagnosed with Graves' disease and the doctor who diagnosed it told me that I would have this for life, for 1 year I was taking medicine and until 2 months ago I went to a new doctor who changed my medicine and now the tests that I just did this week, they came out normal !! Don't give up, dealing with the thyroid is exhausting but don't lose hope
I will keep you in my prayers. I have been dealing with cancer (neuroblastoma) for 23 years now. Staying positive and keeping positive vibes will bring you through your troubling times.
You have been going through SO MUCH, and there’s no need to apologize for your absence. We all have been trying to deal with new life changes due to Covid-19, and adding in health issues is no joke. I’m proud of you for working on getting your mental health back to a good place, and also for advocating for your own physical health. I wish you nothing but the best, and hope that you’re able to find what medications and lifestyle changes work best for you.
"A nightmare in general" is 2020's yearbook quote
Hey Stephanie, I just want to say that I'm so sorry you're going through all this stuff right now. I truly empathize with your situation and I couldn't imagine dealing with all of those issues at once. I also deal with anxiety and panic attacks along with depression as well as some other chronic pain stuff and I really relate to your situation and my heart goes out to you. I'd also like to say that whatever content you put out I'm here for and if you don't feel like posting that's fine too. You're health and well being mentally and physically should always come first. You have such detailed and incredibly researched and edited content in the beauty community. I'm not just saying that either. You are the one who got me into skincare like no other, I would watch your videos over and over again and I really appreciate all the work and effort you put in. Thank you, Steph. I know you'll get through this tough time. I know I'm not alone when I say I'm rooting for you and hoping that you feel better soon.
Doctors don't always know everything, not even specialists. If YOUR BODY is telling you to try something, try it. Few things are in our control, what we put in or on it do make a difference. Doing what you can to feel your best, even if it isn't a cure, is a way you can help the doctors, help your treatment, feel in control, and feel even a little better. I study my health conditions, and try supplements that have been shown to help. If I feel better, then it's working for me now. You have a good grasp of what works for you, you are an adult, and you are the one who has to live in your body. You need to be your own advocate. If a doctor is disregarding you or your ideas, you have the right to fire them, get another opinion, etc.
You may feel defeated, but you aren't. It's so good to see and hear you again - you look great, by the way. Keegan is a gem, and I'm glad he is there for you. Please know you have a lot of people rooting for you, and here for you whenever you decide to post. Sending you all the love, healing, and happiness in the world. 💜💖💝
This is the first time I'm on your channel, I was just passing through but I felt the need to stay and listen to what you're saying I'm hearing strength, awareness, love for self first. These are the qualities that are important for you to take care of yourself and to recognize when your physical and mental health are in need of extra support. I feel that I needed to connect with you. Thank you for sharing
❤️Take care of you, I’m sending positive thoughts. Don’t worry about posting, we are with you for the long haul.
So good to see you, Steph. Although my heart breaks to hear of the heavy load you've had to carry, I admire you so much. Sending you all of the good and healing vibes. ❤
My daughter, now 19, developed Type 1 diabetes at 14. Then at 15 came Grave's disease and an increase in her psoriasis. However, after treatment, she's conquered Grave's. All of this during my battles with the kinds of breast cancer.
We have survived. Keep strong. You can do it.
The state of healthcare in America is why I refuse to have kids. I'm going through it right now with out-of-pocket dental bills. Nice to see you back on UA-cam though, missed your videos!!!
dental bills led me to get a part time job at McDs for a year. Fortunately I enjoyed it but still, it's so stupid.
Rely on the Supreme Creator for provision not anyone else
This made me so emotional. I just want to give you a big hug steph.🥺❤️ Stay strong, you got this!
Hi Stephanie!! Im soo glad to see you back in UA-cam.
Im not sure if you have come across Dr. Mike Okouchi (he used to work in LA but has moved to Hawaii) But he is just amazing. Im currently on his Gut Restoration diet and it has helped my autoimmune issues soo much. Our bodies are amazing but its soo disappointing to see specialists not believing in the importance of diets and gut health.
I hope that you recover! You are amazing xx
Prayers for you...I’m a physician so I know the medical field can be hard to navigate. Psychiatrists just prescribe so I would still recommend getting a psychologist to talk and work out things and help you to redirect your thoughts/thought processes and figure out who you are now - meds won’t touch that part ❤️
Damn Steph. I’ve been following you for what feels like forever. I missed you so much! My heart broke watching this. I saw many pieces of the Stephanie I’ve gotten to love over the years. Even though this may change you, you’re still you. Love ya!
You're one of the people I admire still the most here in this platform. I understand things here also work differently BUT you most certainly will have my subscription just as many thousands others. Some things we have no way of controlling and we're just caught up in the moment it starts hitting but you'll be and feel better I'm almost positive of that. You're strong too, however this might positively impact you, a LOT of us are here sharing experiences, relating in ways, and reassuring you you have our positive affirmation and thought. And views. Can't express enough love that I'm sending. U GO ✨
That's a crow. it sounds like he's wants to be your co-host lmao
A crow-host...
Crow Host
Stephanie, no need to worry about disappointing us. This has been a truly tough season but the good news is that it will pass. Your accomplishments far out way any shortcomings. Just really happy to hear your voice and there is no complaint from me regarding how long the video is. ❤️🕊
It is actually very common to get cysts in or on any body organ and people can either have a disease or not that correlates with that same organ. I’ve seen it countless times in Urology. But if you want to try a certain diet, I’d try it and see. Even if a physician doesn’t believe that it affects anything doesn’t mean you can’t try it. Given it doesn’t affect anything in a negative way.
“I can eat wood and air” I love how you express yourself!
I feel like my old friend is back! I'm not crying, it's autumn mist...
Stephanie please know that you always have a ton of support and people who wish you well. You never know where you can find an answer or valuable resource. Wish you nothing but the best on your path to healing your mind body and soul.
i’ve had doctors pull up google to figure out what’s going on with me. at the end of the day get your tests done, blood work and do your own research as well! wishing you the best steph! ❤️
Me too... sometimes you really do need to do your own research and advocate for yourself