Decades ago I knew someone whose brother amputated his own finger to get pain medication. As unhinged as this guy was, I actually thought it had to be bs. (Till we saw him again, it was unfortunately very true, there was evidently a chain saw involved. ) Really messed up situation. I pray he has got some help, to get clean...
My mom's ex jumped off a roof and broke his leg, also knew a guy that shot himself in the arm for pain medication. I didn't believe it til I saw him in the sling.
That’s amazing! You are doing so well. I’ll have 4 years on April 5th (was Easter that year) and even though I struggle at times, I’m also loving every minute. I travel, I have my family back, I’ve made some good friends (non-toxic relationships with people I do Bible study with) who don’t use drugs and don’t use me. YOU ARE AWESOME!!!! Keep up the good work. I’m hoping that I will reach 13 years and beyond!! When I was in active addiction I never thought there was a way out of it! We do recover ❤
Oh my god! I have done that EXACT SAME thing!! Slamming my hand in a car door in an attempt to get pain meds from er! I cannot believe I did that to myself. Y’all please help is out there! WE DO RECOVER!!!!❤❤😊😊
In my car accident, i fractured my pelvis in three places. They gave me a toradol injection (nsaid). Sent me home with 2 days of percocet and told me to take ibuprofen after... For the 8 week healing process. This whole mess has people not getting proper pain management when its really needed.
Why the levels of self deletion are so high.... or go to way harder stronger street substances.... in so many ways this epidemic was created..... I can't even take ibuprofen. I've had many years stripped away mainly cause I couldn't even remotely function.
I was in the ER about 12yrs ago for kidney stones and there was a guy across the hall that set himself on fire to get pain meds. He ended being life flighted to a burn center with severe 3rd degree burns. I later realized it was my neighbor from down the road. He was a bad alcoholic and drug addict. He was already dealing with liver failure and almost died from an infection in his spine, due to iv drug use. I heard he ended up in a mental health facility after getting medical detox. Never heard anything after that. I remember a bunch of people in my neighborhood having issues because all of the pill mills were being shut down. People were getting multiple scripts of hundreds of high dose pain meds & muscle relaxants. It seemed like everyone in the neighborhood was getting scripts. It was crazy!
I didnt take good care of my teeth when I was young so as I got older I had to get teeth pulled sometimes. They would give me 2 scripts of norco 5's. Once I was in active addiction I would go get a tooth pulled just to get the pills. After years of doing different drugs I got clean and ended up having to get dentures. I told them about my past and I only took Tylenol after getting all the teeth pulled that I had left. So glad to be clean & sober. ❤
They don’t give anything these days and I can say that as someone who, fortunately, has never suffered with addiction. I did have a failed root canal that caused me to look like a who and had to have an emergency SECOND root canal. I was on antibiotics but only for a few days and bc there was infection I felt everything. They numbed me so many times but still it was horrible and with all the time they waited in between numbing injections, I was there for almost 3 hours before it was over. I didn’t get any pain medications and had to drive myself 2 hours back home 💀
i remember trying to do everything i could to get out of going to school due to being bullied. I put perfume in my eyes, became bulimic and even tried breaking my leg with a hammer. But my mom hated my existence, so she didn't care and made me go anyway...I remember when she mocked me in front of her friend when I said I was being bullied.
As a mom, I am so sorry for your pain. I grew up too with a mom who seemed to hate me for breathing. That made me be very protective of my own child. He gets bullied a lot, I took him out of school because it was so bad. I hope you are healing and know you are worthy of love and being treated kindly.
I hope you are in recovery for the bulimia now. On September 3, 2024, I lost my beautiful 23-year-old daughter. She had a massive heart attack caused by a decade-long fight against bulimia and anorexia. Bulimia killed my daughter and my heart absolutely breaks for anyone suffering from eating disorders. If you haven't thought about getting help for your bulimia, PLEASE consider doing so! I'm so very sorry you've had to deal with that and bullying. Nobody deserves a mother who mocks them😢 My thoughts are with you.
Im annorxic and I've messed myself up so badly and still my family fails to notice being ignored sucks ... They don't care to notice even though I look like I'm dying and feel like I am
@@KILLJOYLEVIATHAN Can you make an appointment with a doctor/counselor? How old are you? Anorexia is obviously a very serious illness...it's the deadliest mental illness there is. I beg you to look into some kind of treatment if at all possible. As a mom who lost her daughter to this, I am very scared for you.
I did that too I've never met someone else who would try to hurt themselves to get out of school and it's good but also sad to know I'm not the only one.
My mom use to hurt me and take me to the ER I remember one time the doctor gave her a prescription for Tylenol with codeine in it for me and she looked at it and said out loud “I can’t get high off of this shit!”
Ugh the stuff we did… this is something that I have a hard time with still thinking about all the stuff that I did not to be sick. Things that in my sober straight mind, I would never have done. It’s crazy when you think back about that person how they’re so familiar but yeah, they are still such a stranger. Grateful to be where I am right now.
The saddest thing is knowing how big pharma is the root of the issue and just how often they contribute to the addiction epidemic ❤️🩹 Sending you all the love ✨️💜
Dang yeah I was sick (cancer) didn't kno but I was in the er or Dr office constantly they finally start sayin I wanted pills and pills never was my thing mine was meth but yeah sayin I wanted pills upset me I stopped all Dr visits then last yr I was FINALLY diagnosed with stage 3-4 endometrial cancer 😮😢and even with that and the chemo pains I was told take Tylenol or ibuprofen 😡 I was literally in MF'IN PAIN
It’s this reason that those of Us use pain medicine legitimately can’t get the dose we require to lead a normal life. Doctors aren’t using the education they paid for and have lumped everyone into one category and it’s wrong on so many levels. This needs to change!
Well apparently chronic pain isn't really a thing.... you aren't allowed to have quality of life if you get hurt or have debilitating condition. Addicts are supposed to be able to just deal with it and then are judged so badly. They have pain contracts that can be made. But now doctors flat out won't do anything involved with that for fear of loosing their practice.
When I had all 4 of my wisdom teeth taken out after having a literal abscess infection spread through my body hospitalized 5 times for dehydration was on 3 rounds of antibiotics I literally told them my body is damn near immune to pain meds but they gave me Motrin 800 the anesthesia didnt even affect me I woke up fully aware and awake and sure enough that Motrin 800 did nothing to help. And they had to cut deep because all 4 were impacted and infected from the abscess. It was awful. This happened back around late august to September I had just had a laparoscopy august 23rd. And literally 2 days into my recovery my wisdom teeth were abscessing it was awful. And each time I was nonstop throwing up from the abscess infection I was trying not to rip my stitches from where they did the incisions it was awful. And on top of that I was having audio and visual hallucinations probably from the lack of sleep. It was horrifying. And then on top of that it felt like things were crawling on me. Worst experience of my life and truly horrifying. And my recovery time was a lot longer then normal because of how deep they had to cut I was in so much pain and I ended up bleeding all night I literally ran out of gauze and had to use tissues. I was getting blood everywhere. I never wanna go through that again. They couldn’t even give me a proper pain med. and half of them I’m allergic to but I named off the ones I could have and they still have me Motrin 800 like the hell
I don’t care- if you have an injury like that you should get the one time script in the ER. That’s what they are freaking the there for to treat people and their injuries and you do get out into the system so they can check to see if you’re a “regular.” Too many NON addicts get discriminated against because of this attitude and they are tired of being in pain for no reason. Ibuprofen 800 my ass. That’s 4 Advil for a broken bone. Please! Doctors went from one extreme of malpractice to another. You can kill people with either extreme. Don’t over prescribe but don’t under prescribe either. Just do your damn job Geez!
Yep! Part of the reason they have to "deal with so many addicts" is because they all overprescribed opioids! Then they get all pissy and discriminate when they have to "deal with addicts." Idiots.
One of my most painful memories, one of my only memories from this time in my life actually, I was 14, in the passenger seat of a beater car, with my 19y/o boyfriend’s 25y/o brother (bf was in prison), sitting outside our 🔌 house at 8am waiting for him to wake up. So dope sick (fenty DOC at this time) that I was basically a newborn screaming about any and every feeling in my body. The slightest breeze on my skin was excruciating. He was literally shushing and rocking me like a baby too no idea how to calm me until the guy answered. It was so torturous, I kicked a giant shatter spot in the windshield of the car just as a reaction to the horrible pain and panic. Idk if it was made worse psychologically because of my age, or if this is the severity of the withdrawal experience for most people on fentanyl, but holy shit. In those drug days, as a literal child with Stockholm syndrome trading sex for survival, so many unimaginable traumas happened to me. Most of them are blocked from my memory besides the simple fact that they happened. But by far, my worst trauma, the thing that has stuck with me the most and still terrifies me all the time even 6 sober years later: the withdrawal. Literal torture. If I get a cold sweat for any reason now I will go into a full on panic attack. It’s so fucked up, nobody could ever understand unless they went through it or held the hand of someone they loved as they went through it. Now that is a pain I wouldn’t wish on anyone. Thank God and our own strength, bravery and will to live because we do recover❤
I get that in this situation it was drug seeking behavior, but a broken hand needs pain meds for real. The doctors shouldn't be so scared to prescribe even to addicts in situations where it's cruel not to
I go in with tooth pain and tell them I dont want pain meds I want antibiotics and they always give me a bunch of Vicodin. 🙄 Makes me sick I cant take pain meds.
After I gave birth, all I was allowed was Motrin every four-six hours. When my SiL found out a few weeks later, she was upset for me because when she gave birth the first time, she was given more than just Motrin. She also had a harder birth and things had changed since she had her first (he’s almost 14). Had to explain to her that after the first day, it wasn’t so bad. I’ve literally had such badly knotted up muscles that they were pulling my spine out of alignment.
I never did this specifically, but I did other crazy things I’m not proud of at all. I recently hit 2 years clean and I’m in the phase of involuntarily remembering the embarrassing stuff that I did while in active addiction/withdrawal, and I cringe at every memory. I try and push the thoughts away when they come, but that’s probably not helping. How do I stop feeling so guilty/embarrassed about who I used to be and how do I stop the memories from bombarding my thoughts?
This is something that confuses me because the ER has never once offered me pain medicine, like even when I had shattered my foot. And I'm not an adict, but they offer my mom, who is an addict, everything under the Sun 🤦🏻♀️ not complaining too much though because every time I've been prescribed something after surgery I throw it up so maybe thats in my charts or something 🤷🏻♀️
I have a condition that makes my tendons especially elastic. I can dislocate my shoulder on command. Either of them. My hips as well. They'll at least give a shot of morphine and usually some Vicodin. Do those even still exist? Clean since 2012.
I’ve seen people hurt themselves to get injuries to get pain meds from the ER. Like falling down stairs and slamming their arm in a car door
Decades ago I knew someone whose brother amputated his own finger to get pain medication. As unhinged as this guy was, I actually thought it had to be bs. (Till we saw him again, it was unfortunately very true, there was evidently a chain saw involved. ) Really messed up situation. I pray he has got some help, to get clean...
@@prunellalefay Ouch.
My mom's ex jumped off a roof and broke his leg, also knew a guy that shot himself in the arm for pain medication. I didn't believe it til I saw him in the sling.
Guilty. The ER doctor gave me 3 norco 5mg. THREE. The addict in me was slapped in the face. We do recover!! 13 years and loving every day ❤
That’s amazing! You are doing so well. I’ll have 4 years on April 5th (was Easter that year) and even though I struggle at times, I’m also loving every minute. I travel, I have my family back, I’ve made some good friends (non-toxic relationships with people I do Bible study with) who don’t use drugs and don’t use me. YOU ARE AWESOME!!!! Keep up the good work. I’m hoping that I will reach 13 years and beyond!! When I was in active addiction I never thought there was a way out of it! We do recover ❤
Oh my god! I have done that EXACT SAME thing!! Slamming my hand in a car door in an attempt to get pain meds from er! I cannot believe I did that to myself. Y’all please help is out there! WE DO RECOVER!!!!❤❤😊😊
Wow this brings back some deep routed triggers for me. The amount of times I spent in the ER 😮 glad I’m out of that vicious cycle
In my car accident, i fractured my pelvis in three places. They gave me a toradol injection (nsaid). Sent me home with 2 days of percocet and told me to take ibuprofen after... For the 8 week healing process. This whole mess has people not getting proper pain management when its really needed.
Why the levels of self deletion are so high.... or go to way harder stronger street substances.... in so many ways this epidemic was created..... I can't even take ibuprofen. I've had many years stripped away mainly cause I couldn't even remotely function.
I was in the ER about 12yrs ago for kidney stones and there was a guy across the hall that set himself on fire to get pain meds. He ended being life flighted to a burn center with severe 3rd degree burns. I later realized it was my neighbor from down the road. He was a bad alcoholic and drug addict. He was already dealing with liver failure and almost died from an infection in his spine, due to iv drug use. I heard he ended up in a mental health facility after getting medical detox. Never heard anything after that. I remember a bunch of people in my neighborhood having issues because all of the pill mills were being shut down. People were getting multiple scripts of hundreds of high dose pain meds & muscle relaxants. It seemed like everyone in the neighborhood was getting scripts. It was crazy!
I’ve actually done this! Thank Goodness that’s over. It’s no way to live.
I didnt take good care of my teeth when I was young so as I got older I had to get teeth pulled sometimes. They would give me 2 scripts of norco 5's. Once I was in active addiction I would go get a tooth pulled just to get the pills. After years of doing different drugs I got clean and ended up having to get dentures. I told them about my past and I only took Tylenol after getting all the teeth pulled that I had left. So glad to be clean & sober. ❤
They don’t give anything these days and I can say that as someone who, fortunately, has never suffered with addiction. I did have a failed root canal that caused me to look like a who and had to have an emergency SECOND root canal. I was on antibiotics but only for a few days and bc there was infection I felt everything. They numbed me so many times but still it was horrible and with all the time they waited in between numbing injections, I was there for almost 3 hours before it was over. I didn’t get any pain medications and had to drive myself 2 hours back home 💀
i remember trying to do everything i could to get out of going to school due to being bullied. I put perfume in my eyes, became bulimic and even tried breaking my leg with a hammer.
But my mom hated my existence, so she didn't care and made me go anyway...I remember when she mocked me in front of her friend when I said I was being bullied.
As a mom, I am so sorry for your pain. I grew up too with a mom who seemed to hate me for breathing. That made me be very protective of my own child. He gets bullied a lot, I took him out of school because it was so bad. I hope you are healing and know you are worthy of love and being treated kindly.
I hope you are in recovery for the bulimia now. On September 3, 2024, I lost my beautiful 23-year-old daughter. She had a massive heart attack caused by a decade-long fight against bulimia and anorexia. Bulimia killed my daughter and my heart absolutely breaks for anyone suffering from eating disorders. If you haven't thought about getting help for your bulimia, PLEASE consider doing so! I'm so very sorry you've had to deal with that and bullying. Nobody deserves a mother who mocks them😢 My thoughts are with you.
Im annorxic and I've messed myself up so badly and still my family fails to notice being ignored sucks ... They don't care to notice even though I look like I'm dying and feel like I am
@@KILLJOYLEVIATHAN Can you make an appointment with a doctor/counselor? How old are you? Anorexia is obviously a very serious illness...it's the deadliest mental illness there is. I beg you to look into some kind of treatment if at all possible. As a mom who lost her daughter to this, I am very scared for you.
I did that too I've never met someone else who would try to hurt themselves to get out of school and it's good but also sad to know I'm not the only one.
My mom use to hurt me and take me to the ER
I remember one time the doctor gave her a prescription for Tylenol with codeine in it for me and she looked at it and said out loud “I can’t get high off of this shit!”
I'm sooooo sorry, honey.
That's a bd/sad situation to go through
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My GOD sigh some people should not have kids!
At least she wasn’t that bright and said it out loud. Hope the doctor snatched it out of her hand.
Ugh the stuff we did… this is something that I have a hard time with still thinking about all the stuff that I did not to be sick. Things that in my sober straight mind, I would never have done. It’s crazy when you think back about that person how they’re so familiar but yeah, they are still such a stranger. Grateful to be where I am right now.
The saddest thing is knowing how big pharma is the root of the issue and just how often they contribute to the addiction epidemic ❤️🩹
Sending you all the love ✨️💜
I always tell people to watch the TV show dopesick. It explains it so well and thank u❤️🩹
Dang yeah I was sick (cancer) didn't kno but I was in the er or Dr office constantly they finally start sayin I wanted pills and pills never was my thing mine was meth but yeah sayin I wanted pills upset me I stopped all Dr visits then last yr I was FINALLY diagnosed with stage 3-4 endometrial cancer 😮😢and even with that and the chemo pains I was told take Tylenol or ibuprofen 😡 I was literally in MF'IN PAIN
Been there done that. We do recover!!!
I had a couple teeth pulled in the back that didn't need to be pulled,not for awhile anyway,just to get Percocets back in the day#wedorecover
It’s this reason that those of
Us use pain medicine legitimately can’t get the dose we require to lead a normal life. Doctors aren’t using the education they paid for and have lumped everyone into one category and it’s wrong on so many levels. This needs to change!
Well apparently chronic pain isn't really a thing.... you aren't allowed to have quality of life if you get hurt or have debilitating condition. Addicts are supposed to be able to just deal with it and then are judged so badly. They have pain contracts that can be made. But now doctors flat out won't do anything involved with that for fear of loosing their practice.
maybe in the usa, blame raegan for that.
When I had all 4 of my wisdom teeth taken out after having a literal abscess infection spread through my body hospitalized 5 times for dehydration was on 3 rounds of antibiotics I literally told them my body is damn near immune to pain meds but they gave me Motrin 800 the anesthesia didnt even affect me I woke up fully aware and awake and sure enough that Motrin 800 did nothing to help. And they had to cut deep because all 4 were impacted and infected from the abscess. It was awful. This happened back around late august to September I had just had a laparoscopy august 23rd. And literally 2 days into my recovery my wisdom teeth were abscessing it was awful. And each time I was nonstop throwing up from the abscess infection I was trying not to rip my stitches from where they did the incisions it was awful. And on top of that I was having audio and visual hallucinations probably from the lack of sleep. It was horrifying. And then on top of that it felt like things were crawling on me. Worst experience of my life and truly horrifying. And my recovery time was a lot longer then normal because of how deep they had to cut I was in so much pain and I ended up bleeding all night I literally ran out of gauze and had to use tissues. I was getting blood everywhere. I never wanna go through that again. They couldn’t even give me a proper pain med. and half of them I’m allergic to but I named off the ones I could have and they still have me Motrin 800 like the hell
We do some stupid stuff for our addiction. Now we can make responsible ones. Looking back, what was I thinking. Sometimes we still pay for it.
This is so sad. My family member would do this, RIP!
I don’t care- if you have an injury like that you should get the one time script in the ER. That’s what they are freaking the there for to treat people and their injuries and you do get out into the system so they can check to see if you’re a “regular.” Too many NON addicts get discriminated against because of this attitude and they are tired of being in pain for no reason. Ibuprofen 800 my ass. That’s 4 Advil for a broken bone. Please!
Doctors went from one extreme of malpractice to another. You can kill people with either extreme. Don’t over prescribe but don’t under prescribe either. Just do your damn job Geez!
Yep! Part of the reason they have to "deal with so many addicts" is because they all overprescribed opioids! Then they get all pissy and discriminate when they have to "deal with addicts." Idiots.
One of my most painful memories, one of my only memories from this time in my life actually, I was 14, in the passenger seat of a beater car, with my 19y/o boyfriend’s 25y/o brother (bf was in prison), sitting outside our 🔌 house at 8am waiting for him to wake up. So dope sick (fenty DOC at this time) that I was basically a newborn screaming about any and every feeling in my body.
The slightest breeze on my skin was excruciating. He was literally shushing and rocking me like a baby too no idea how to calm me until the guy answered. It was so torturous, I kicked a giant shatter spot in the windshield of the car just as a reaction to the horrible pain and panic. Idk if it was made worse psychologically because of my age, or if this is the severity of the withdrawal experience for most people on fentanyl, but holy shit.
In those drug days, as a literal child with Stockholm syndrome trading sex for survival, so many unimaginable traumas happened to me. Most of them are blocked from my memory besides the simple fact that they happened.
But by far, my worst trauma, the thing that has stuck with me the most and still terrifies me all the time even 6 sober years later: the withdrawal. Literal torture. If I get a cold sweat for any reason now I will go into a full on panic attack. It’s so fucked up, nobody could ever understand unless they went through it or held the hand of someone they loved as they went through it. Now that is a pain I wouldn’t wish on anyone. Thank God and our own strength, bravery and will to live because we do recover❤
I get that in this situation it was drug seeking behavior, but a broken hand needs pain meds for real. The doctors shouldn't be so scared to prescribe even to addicts in situations where it's cruel not to
Exactly! 👍🏻
I go in with tooth pain and tell them I dont want pain meds I want antibiotics and they always give me a bunch of Vicodin. 🙄 Makes me sick I cant take pain meds.
If they have been in the er a lot for "pain" there is a very good chance they are red flagged. Red flag = no narcotics.
After I gave birth, all I was allowed was Motrin every four-six hours. When my SiL found out a few weeks later, she was upset for me because when she gave birth the first time, she was given more than just Motrin. She also had a harder birth and things had changed since she had her first (he’s almost 14). Had to explain to her that after the first day, it wasn’t so bad. I’ve literally had such badly knotted up muscles that they were pulling my spine out of alignment.
I never did this specifically, but I did other crazy things I’m not proud of at all. I recently hit 2 years clean and I’m in the phase of involuntarily remembering the embarrassing stuff that I did while in active addiction/withdrawal, and I cringe at every memory. I try and push the thoughts away when they come, but that’s probably not helping. How do I stop feeling so guilty/embarrassed about who I used to be and how do I stop the memories from bombarding my thoughts?
This is something that confuses me because the ER has never once offered me pain medicine, like even when I had shattered my foot. And I'm not an adict, but they offer my mom, who is an addict, everything under the Sun 🤦🏻♀️ not complaining too much though because every time I've been prescribed something after surgery I throw it up so maybe thats in my charts or something 🤷🏻♀️
I have a condition that makes my tendons especially elastic. I can dislocate my shoulder on command. Either of them. My hips as well. They'll at least give a shot of morphine and usually some Vicodin. Do those even still exist? Clean since 2012.
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Idk why I laughed but 800 mg of ibuprofen is pretty strong and it’s the best medicine for inflammation 😊
Bentyl and Zofran until you can get help
First!❤
I don't think anyone would give you massive painkillers for a boo boo on your wrist
Back in the day you'd be suprised.....they gave it out for everything...
Actually some doctors hand it out for less.
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