I have OCD. It can be controlled. I just want people to know that so that they can understand better. When your very emotional, like how Neil was in his poem OCD it is very hard to control it. If you understand it at all you will even notice it in his other poems. He is very inspirational and very strong. To have such an extreme case of ocd, and still be able to control it and read his poems the way he does. Its. Brilliant. This man is brilliant.
When he performs a poem he is acting as a persona, and the persona doesn't necessarily have to be him. Whether or not he has OCD is not the significant. His poem, and the rest of his poems, are powerful, and that is all that really matters.
Wow, I'm the second person to comment on this video. What a privilege. A lot of people would be ashamed to share that about them, but you shouted it out not giving a crap.
This is a written transcript of "The Future" by Neil Hilborn. This is a public service, and I am in no way claiming any association with this artist, this UA-cam video, or this UA-cam channel. Forgive how long it is, but this is the way that I write lyrics for my spoken word poetry music videos about mental health awareness and various other topics on my own UA-cam channel. Enjoy! 💓 "-The worst thing about being naked, - And then being hit by a car, -Is that road rash is a problem for skin. - 'Why was I naked in the middle of the road at noon?' - I'm glad you asked, Imaginary Other Half of This Conversation. -I have no idea. -Some characteristics of bipolar disorder include dissociation, hallucinations, and fugue states, - So sometimes I wake up in places I didn't go to sleep. - So, there I am, nude, - Splayed out on a car like a slutty chicken, - Screaming about the government conspiracy to take away my feet. - Not my real feet, - Just my brain feet. - I'm about 6 inches away from the concrete when I realize, - In slow motion, - Like the exact opposite of a Rhinoceros attack, - That this was not how I imagined my life would turn out. - When I was little, I broke both ankles jumping off a roof - Because I was sure a cape would enable me to fly. - My parents attributed this to my strong imagination. - Last year, my therapist called it a delusion. -I fail to see the difference. - Also, I really can fly, - And see the future, - And make stupid people leave coffee shops with my mind.... -...43% of the time. -Sometimes I see people as colors. - This guy right here is purple, - Which means he just got a promotion... -... Or a blowjob. -A blow-motion, if you will. - The point is here's a list of things my brain has told me to do: - Join a cult, - Start a cult, - Become a cabinet maker, -Kill myself, - (So, in essence, become a cabinet maker) - Break into, and then paint, other people's houses, - Have sex with literally everyone who reminds me of my mother, - Fight people who are much 'fightier' than me, - Like the cops, - (so, in essence, kill myself). -I think a lot about killing myself. - Not like a point on a map, - But like a glowing exit sign to a show that's never been quite bad enough to make me wanna leave. - See, when I'm 'up' I don't kill myself because holy shit, there is so much left to do! - And when I'm 'down' I don't kill myself because then the sadness would be over. - And the sadness is my old paint under the new. - The sadness is the house fire, - Or the broken shoulder; - I'd still be me without it, - But I would be so boring. - They keep telling me that seeing things that aren't there is called Disturbed Cognitive Functioning. - I call it: Having a superpower. - Once, I pulled over on the 110 Freeway and jumped out of my old jeep -Because I saw it burst into flames 20 seconds before it burst into flames. -I knew my girlfriend and I would be together because she turned bright pink the first time she saw me. -I know tomorrow is going to come because I've seen it. - Sunrise is going to come, - All you have to do is wake up. - The future has been at war, but it's coming home so soon. - The future looks like a child in a cape. - The future is the map AND the treasure. - The future looks just like gravity. - Everyone is slowly drifting toward everyone else. - We are all going to be part of each other one day. - The future is a blue sky, - And a full tank of gas. -I saw the future, I did, - And in it, I was alive."
Well, some sources who know him says he does have OCD just that it isn't obvious in ways that people think the disorder is. If you watch a lot of his poetry, which I did last night when I found him because he is amazing, he references it quite a lot as well as other disorders he may have. But it's completely fine to feel that way about it, because, well poetry is a form of art, therefore it's up for interpretation/critique :)
The worst thing about being naked and then being hit by a car is that road rash is a problem for skin. Why was I naked in the middle of the road at noon? I'm glad you asked, imaginary other half of this conversation! I have no idea. Some characteristics of bipolar disorder include dissociation, hallucinations, and fugue states, so sometimes, I wake up in places I didn't go to sleep. Has this ever been a problem? My, you are inquisitive, imaginary conversation partner! And also a bad listener. See aforementioned attempt to befriend a windshield. So there I am, nude, rolling on the hood of a car screaming about the government conspiracy to take away my feet. Not my real feet, just my brain feet. I'm about six inches from the concrete when I realize, in slow motion: like the exact opposite of a bank robbery, this... is not how I imagined my life would turn out. When I was young, I broke both of my ankles because I was sure a cape would enable me to fly. My parents attributed this to my strong imagination. When I did this last year, my therapist called it a delusion. I fail to see the difference. Also, I really can fly and see the future and make people leave coffee shops with my mind 43% of the time. The point is, here is a list of things my brain has told me to do: join a cult, start a cult, become a cabinet maker, kill myself (so, in essence, become a cabinet maker), break into and then paint other peoples' houses, have sex with literally everyone who reminds me of my mother, fight people who are much... fightier than me, like the cops (so, in essence, kill myself). I think a lot about killing myself, not like a point on a map, but rather like a glowing exit sign at a show that's never been quite bad enough to make me want to leave. See, when I'm up I don't kill myself because holy shit! there's so much left to do! And when I'm down, I don't kill myself because then the sadness would be over and the sadness is the old paint under the new. I'd still be me without it, but I'd be so boring! When they first told me I had bipolar disorder, I was somehow still surprised like, "You mean not everyone sees demons and feels as though they are covered in insects several times a day?" As it turns out, seeing and feeling things that aren't technically there is called "disordered cognitive functioning". I call it "having a fucking superpower". Sometimes, I see people as colors. This guy right here is purple, which means he just got a promotion or a blow job. A blowmotion, if you will. Y'all, sometimes I really can see the future. The future, it looks like a child in a cape. The future looks like gravity. Everyone just wants to be a part of someone else. The future is a small town we're all gonna move to someday. I saw the future. I did, and in it, I was alive. My god, I was alive.
ashleypanda Hi there, can you explain "The point is, here is a list of things my brain has told me to do: join a cult, start a cult, become a cabinet maker, kill myself (so, in essence, become a cabinet maker), break into and then paint other peoples' houses, have sex with literally everyone who reminds me of my mother," to me? Please and thank you!
Can someone help me interpret this poem? I don't understand every joke he brought and why so many people say it so good. A help will be appreciated, since I wasn't born in America or other western environment.
i dont know why but i feel like lied to when the poem doesn't come from personal feelings and personal experience, unless its clearly a sci fi, historic, or something out of the ordinary
Folks assume OCD is every mental institution stereotype that's been shoved down our throats since they've been in cinema. I have OCD and my ticks and obsessions generally disappear in certain scenarios, namely when I'm drunk.
i cant quite explain how fascinated i am with him. blows my mind everytime. i love you neil!
This cutie dressed like spongebob!
Love his poetry, so beautiful as always.
This man never ceases to amaze me.
Neil, I watch and listen to you read/perform your poems daily. You inspire me. Your art devours me. Never give up.
Everytime I hear a poem by this ma I cry. It is absolute beauty. He is so strong and so poetic even when he's not so poetic.
wow.
i love the honesty.
Neil is so amazing
i'm in love whit this guy, the way he tells poetry is so powerful! it gives me chills
I think I need a Neil Hilborn video bonanza... What an inspiration to performance poetry aspirers.
THIS MAN IS MY SPIRIT ANIMAL
This is wonderful! Neil Hilborn is such a great artist!
He is wonderful I love all his work.
Oh my goodness, I can't find words for this. Like, wow.
I love you!
i just adore this guy!
I think I'm in love with this guy.
This is just so amazing. This makes me feel like I'm not alone
I watch different versions of poems and see how they're sightly different and wonder how, when, and why they were changed. But i love them either way
Your words. They are, incredible!
Beautiful my brother
I love this brilliant man!!!!
This man is amazing
Loooove him omfg
Excellent!
this just made me smile!
I have OCD. It can be controlled. I just want people to know that so that they can understand better. When your very emotional, like how Neil was in his poem OCD it is very hard to control it. If you understand it at all you will even notice it in his other poems. He is very inspirational and very strong. To have such an extreme case of ocd, and still be able to control it and read his poems the way he does. Its. Brilliant. This man is brilliant.
He gets it.
Oh wow. This is amazing.
That was very very funny, but at the very end i love how you took a serious turn. Very good
Great!
this man is GOOD!!!!!!!!!
Beautiful, thank you :D
When he performs a poem he is acting as a persona, and the persona doesn't necessarily have to be him. Whether or not he has OCD is not the significant. His poem, and the rest of his poems, are powerful, and that is all that really matters.
I think i just fell in love a little.
Wow, I'm the second person to comment on this video. What a privilege. A lot of people would be ashamed to share that about them, but you shouted it out not giving a crap.
I LOVE THIS MAN!!!! THIS GUY'S PURPLE LOL!!!!
I have bipolar disorder and this poem makes me want to laugh and cry and flail and i just love it.
This is a written transcript of "The Future" by Neil Hilborn. This is a public service, and I am in no way claiming any association with this artist, this UA-cam video, or this UA-cam channel. Forgive how long it is, but this is the way that I write lyrics for my spoken word poetry music videos about mental health awareness and various other topics on my own UA-cam channel. Enjoy! 💓
"-The worst thing about being naked,
- And then being hit by a car,
-Is that road rash is a problem for skin.
- 'Why was I naked in the middle of the road at noon?'
- I'm glad you asked, Imaginary Other Half of This Conversation.
-I have no idea.
-Some characteristics of bipolar disorder include dissociation, hallucinations, and fugue states,
- So sometimes I wake up in places I didn't go to sleep.
- So, there I am, nude,
- Splayed out on a car like a slutty chicken,
- Screaming about the government conspiracy to take away my feet.
- Not my real feet,
- Just my brain feet.
- I'm about 6 inches away from the concrete when I realize,
- In slow motion,
- Like the exact opposite of a Rhinoceros attack,
- That this was not how I imagined my life would turn out.
- When I was little, I broke both ankles jumping off a roof
- Because I was sure a cape would enable me to fly.
- My parents attributed this to my strong imagination.
- Last year, my therapist called it a delusion.
-I fail to see the difference.
- Also, I really can fly,
- And see the future,
- And make stupid people leave coffee shops with my mind....
-...43% of the time.
-Sometimes I see people as colors.
- This guy right here is purple,
- Which means he just got a promotion...
-... Or a blowjob.
-A blow-motion, if you will.
- The point is here's a list of things my brain has told me to do:
- Join a cult,
- Start a cult,
- Become a cabinet maker,
-Kill myself,
- (So, in essence, become a cabinet maker)
- Break into, and then paint, other people's houses,
- Have sex with literally everyone who reminds me of my mother,
- Fight people who are much 'fightier' than me,
- Like the cops,
- (so, in essence, kill myself).
-I think a lot about killing myself.
- Not like a point on a map,
- But like a glowing exit sign to a show that's never been quite bad enough to make me wanna leave.
- See, when I'm 'up' I don't kill myself because holy shit, there is so much left to do!
- And when I'm 'down' I don't kill myself because then the sadness would be over.
- And the sadness is my old paint under the new.
- The sadness is the house fire,
- Or the broken shoulder;
- I'd still be me without it,
- But I would be so boring.
- They keep telling me that seeing things that aren't there is called Disturbed Cognitive Functioning.
- I call it: Having a superpower.
- Once, I pulled over on the 110 Freeway and jumped out of my old jeep
-Because I saw it burst into flames 20 seconds before it burst into flames.
-I knew my girlfriend and I would be together because she turned bright pink the first time she saw me.
-I know tomorrow is going to come because I've seen it.
- Sunrise is going to come,
- All you have to do is wake up.
- The future has been at war, but it's coming home so soon.
- The future looks like a child in a cape.
- The future is the map AND the treasure.
- The future looks just like gravity.
- Everyone is slowly drifting toward everyone else.
- We are all going to be part of each other one day.
- The future is a blue sky,
- And a full tank of gas.
-I saw the future, I did,
- And in it, I was alive."
I broke both my ankles a month ago because I thought I could make an 18ft drop. I saw this and my jaw dropped
this man has a beautiful brain.
Well, some sources who know him says he does have OCD just that it isn't obvious in ways that people think the disorder is. If you watch a lot of his poetry, which I did last night when I found him because he is amazing, he references it quite a lot as well as other disorders he may have. But it's completely fine to feel that way about it, because, well poetry is a form of art, therefore it's up for interpretation/critique :)
jesus christ that was amazing
Well said Neil well said
Alguien sabe donde ver este vídeo subtitulado?????
This describes my life.
Can someone tell me why this is so amazing?
Lol no. That's the point.
It's it weird that I just cried a lot?
that ending.
He just explained about wanting to die what I've been trying to explain for months
he is amazing.
ps: did someone at around 2:31 ask: "is he gay"?
to maybe identify if they could later elope with a man as high calibered as this one :)
I thought they said "I'll take it" in response to the blowmotion
Allison Dole i heard that now haha
Holy shit that part he said about why not killing himself when he's down is straight up on point
Can someone please help me and write the text of the poem? :) My english is not good enough to understand all the words in it :C
The worst thing about being naked and then being hit by a car is that road rash is a problem for skin. Why was I naked in the middle of the road at noon? I'm glad you asked, imaginary other half of this conversation! I have no idea. Some characteristics of bipolar disorder include dissociation, hallucinations, and fugue states, so sometimes, I wake up in places I didn't go to sleep. Has this ever been a problem? My, you are inquisitive, imaginary conversation partner! And also a bad listener. See aforementioned attempt to befriend a windshield. So there I am, nude, rolling on the hood of a car screaming about the government conspiracy to take away my feet. Not my real feet, just my brain feet. I'm about six inches from the concrete when I realize, in slow motion: like the exact opposite of a bank robbery, this... is not how I imagined my life would turn out. When I was young, I broke both of my ankles because I was sure a cape would enable me to fly. My parents attributed this to my strong imagination. When I did this last year, my therapist called it a delusion. I fail to see the difference. Also, I really can fly and see the future and make people leave coffee shops with my mind 43% of the time. The point is, here is a list of things my brain has told me to do: join a cult, start a cult, become a cabinet maker, kill myself (so, in essence, become a cabinet maker), break into and then paint other peoples' houses, have sex with literally everyone who reminds me of my mother, fight people who are much... fightier than me, like the cops (so, in essence, kill myself). I think a lot about killing myself, not like a point on a map, but rather like a glowing exit sign at a show that's never been quite bad enough to make me want to leave. See, when I'm up I don't kill myself because holy shit! there's so much left to do! And when I'm down, I don't kill myself because then the sadness would be over and the sadness is the old paint under the new. I'd still be me without it, but I'd be so boring! When they first told me I had bipolar disorder, I was somehow still surprised like, "You mean not everyone sees demons and feels as though they are covered in insects several times a day?" As it turns out, seeing and feeling things that aren't technically there is called "disordered cognitive functioning". I call it "having a fucking superpower". Sometimes, I see people as colors. This guy right here is purple, which means he just got a promotion or a blow job. A blowmotion, if you will. Y'all, sometimes I really can see the future. The future, it looks like a child in a cape. The future looks like gravity. Everyone just wants to be a part of someone else. The future is a small town we're all gonna move to someday. I saw the future. I did, and in it, I was alive. My god, I was alive.
thank you so much!
ashleypanda Hi there, can you explain "The point is, here is a list of things my brain has told me to do: join a cult, start a cult, become a cabinet maker, kill myself (so, in essence, become a cabinet maker), break into and then paint other peoples' houses, have sex with literally everyone who reminds me of my mother," to me? Please and thank you!
I loved this poem however I couldn't help but notice he was dressed like spongebob.
In OCD he was over exemplifying ticks associated with the disorder to add to the essence of the poem :)
Who the hell are the three people that disliked this?
Can someone help me interpret this poem? I don't understand every joke he brought and why so many people say it so good. A help will be appreciated, since I wasn't born in America or other western environment.
What don't you get?
Yes is this very much how bipolar disorder feels for me. Thank you.
i dont know why but i feel like lied to when the poem doesn't come from personal feelings and personal experience, unless its clearly a sci fi, historic, or something out of the ordinary
It must have been...I apologize for overlooking those people :(
Well, they will realize that they have made a clear mistake and fix it in do time
Folks assume OCD is every mental institution stereotype that's been shoved down our throats since they've been in cinema. I have OCD and my ticks and obsessions generally disappear in certain scenarios, namely when I'm drunk.
Are you inside my brain?
why isn't he repeating himself like in his OCD video?
People with parkinson's. Let's respect them as they fight against it in order to come back and correct it.
I want his babies.
He is amazing but is it just me who thinks he sounds a little bit like Sheldon at the start
I have bi polar disorder and that's it, in a nutshell. Can't even tell a damn story without telling 15 other ones in it.
this poem is great and all and i love neil hilborn but he looks like sponge bob
I totally wanna marry you.
He is great, but I think he sould write like more deep problems
It's funny because... you are purple [in your avatar]
Does this guy every write anything bad?
Your words. They are, incredible!
He is amazing but is it just me who thinks he sounds a little bit like Sheldon at the start