Benzo Stories: D Foster

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  • @Davesboxingchat
    @Davesboxingchat Рік тому +5

    Well done man. I'm around 5 months free of tapering from a mammoth dosage. Its still painful daily but slowly seeing light through the clouds

  • @tommyt7441
    @tommyt7441 3 роки тому +32

    Hell on earth. Haven't left my room/house in 3 years.

    • @snafu22
      @snafu22 3 роки тому +11

      Same here. Haven’t left home for 42 mths. Still debilitated and non functioning. This is ludicrous that this is possible from a medication.

    • @cduby1424
      @cduby1424 3 роки тому +4

      Im really giving up hope that im ever gonna get better,32 months for me.

    • @_blew_a_fuse_7372
      @_blew_a_fuse_7372 3 роки тому

      @@cduby1424 know the feeling does anyrhing out there help ya or.just make it worse ?

    • @cduby1424
      @cduby1424 3 роки тому +2

      @@_blew_a_fuse_7372 Lately it seems like its just staying the same, minor fluctuations, I still can enjoy things, best not too concentrate on the things that are the worst, it will make you feel worst, I think Im superman but Im being beat up, but I guess thats the story for me.Long hell road surviving.

    • @sangeetalambh6389
      @sangeetalambh6389 3 роки тому

      Tommy T how r u now

  • @kencabeen7786
    @kencabeen7786 Рік тому +9

    Thank you D. The most evil drug ever invented, by a long shot. Benzo withdrawal makes quitting heroin, fentanyl, and the rest look like a walk in the park on a gorgeous summer day. It's the most horrifying experience one can endure, and I see why so many people choose to just stay on them indefinitely. My heart goes out to all who are courageously battling this monster. Just remember, it will get better, but the only way out is through. God Bless you all.

    • @freddumee
      @freddumee Рік тому +1

      One of my worst symptoms are intens shaking and cramping legs and feet 17 hours a day now for 25 month's. Will it ever stop?

    • @kencabeen7786
      @kencabeen7786 Рік тому

      @@freddumee I don’t know. My best suggestion would be to do everything you can to make it so your body and mind can heal and recover. Good diet, exercise, practices to promote mental, spiritual, and emotional health. The human body has a tremendous capacity to restore itself to good health if we do the best we can to get out of its way. I wish you all the best for your recovery.

  • @tinalapoint9294
    @tinalapoint9294 Рік тому +4

    I'm sorry to hear that, I am sending you love, as I am tapering off 12 years of valium aka diazapam. 10mg down to 6mg in 3 months. Today is 2-23-23 I've got 6 more months left to taper and am writing a book called Don't Benzo Me!!! Love you and everyone 💗 be well

    • @donna6165
      @donna6165 Рік тому +1

      All the best to you on your taper and the book. 💖
      4 years and 3 months Benzo-free for me, so grateful. It was brutal, but w/d and recovery are possible.

    • @rudyferrell
      @rudyferrell Рік тому

      Have you looked into ttfd ? It heals the brain. Lithium orotate will help too.

  • @iamnemo8479
    @iamnemo8479 3 роки тому +14

    I tried tapering, it made everything worse, the rebound has made my dosage go up, I went through the tapering and put up with the sheer hell, but those pills found my one weak spot and hit it, I know those pills own me because the anxiety it created was a million fold greater. Never again, I wouldn't be able to survive that kind of hell again.

    • @christiegranzenbair1764
      @christiegranzenbair1764 2 роки тому +1

      I would cut sugar eat clean. Take anti inflammatory herbs and most importantly borax. Also get rid of any parasites and worms and I bet that would change your experience and life. Also de is important. But it needs to be taken between meals and pills. God Bless

    • @kencabeen7786
      @kencabeen7786 Рік тому

      I totally relate.

    • @mellopez1859
      @mellopez1859 Рік тому

      It’s always that first week that is pure hell , maybe 2 -3 weeks u feel just like ur out in space , some bad pain , but it does get better , but yes that first day u go full blown / hell , u just give in , I worked while quitting a 6 mil a day habit went nuts for a month , paranoid as shit , claustrophobic at times , but I did it , problem is I went back to it like a fool thinking I had beat it and it was ok to start small again … dumbass shit I did . But this time it’s only 1 mil a day I believe a short tapering saves u from the suffering of a long taper , cause ur gonna suffer the same no matter what , it’s doable , just got to be ready

    • @mamasimoneau
      @mamasimoneau 7 місяців тому

      ​@@christiegranzenbair1764 none of that helps Benzos withdrawal. NOTHING helps.

  • @annes.7390
    @annes.7390 3 роки тому +2

    Thank you for all your support and knowledge!
    We’re great full for you and all your guidance 🥰‼️

  • @martin68250
    @martin68250 3 роки тому +5

    Thanks for everything you do D. I am now down to 1/16 mil of Clonazepam day. After slowly redosing from 2 mils a day a year ago. emotionally I am almost back to normal. But I still get extremely agitated at times. It was hell for months. You don't realize how dependent you are on benzos until you start to taper off of them. Take it, slow everyone, out there....very slow....

  • @shirleypeterson-rp3tq
    @shirleypeterson-rp3tq 5 місяців тому +1

    5 months into my tapering off Ativan it’s been a different experience.

  • @garysimone4977
    @garysimone4977 Рік тому +1

    D podcast are a must must watch

  • @barbaraleonard81
    @barbaraleonard81 3 роки тому +7

    Been there, done that. It can be done. Was on lorazepam for 25 years. So wrong!! Been 'clean' for about a year. Fired my doctor who also had me on Paxil for 25 years. Take it slow, very slow.

    • @barbaraleonard81
      @barbaraleonard81 3 роки тому +1

      I reach a point with the lorazepam being such a tiny pill I took to crushing it and diluting it with 10 cc of water and continuing the reduction slowly that way.

  • @stardustring
    @stardustring 8 місяців тому +1

    Omg stomach distress. And you give a man Klonopin.

  • @xy-qy2yg
    @xy-qy2yg Рік тому +1

    You have a very calming and warm voice

  • @christiegranzenbair1764
    @christiegranzenbair1764 3 роки тому +13

    Benzos are hell. Not everyone can withdraw safely. That’s an incorrect statement. I am getting my life back after 8 yrs Benzo free. It ain’t no joke. My close friend after 3 yrs Benzo free went back into withdrawal could not handle it and commit suicide.

    • @Doctor-Stoppage
      @Doctor-Stoppage 3 роки тому +1

      My condolences. 😓

    • @kostasvalanidis7560
      @kostasvalanidis7560 3 роки тому

      What symptomps you have all this years?

    • @juandavidmonroy8792
      @juandavidmonroy8792 2 роки тому +2

      I'm almost 48 months benzo free, I still have a lot of pain in my head and neck, dizziness and strange sensations but my stomach has been very bad, the doctors can't find anything for me and they just want to give me antidepressants that I won't take, it's a pain terrible mainly in the solar plexus and other parts of my abdomen that cause me anxiety and fear. I hope this goes away completely, I have struggled a lot and I still do not see my recovery. does anyone identify? do we all really heal? (I know that some take more years than others), any hope ????

    • @sangeetalambh6389
      @sangeetalambh6389 2 роки тому +1

      @@juandavidmonroy8792 how r u now my frd did u feel depersonalization I quit alc take zolfidem 10 40days then quit again drinking after few months then quit and ttake clonnazepam and qutipen for sleep only 15days then quit353 days sober now quit smoking in 2020 now do nott feel my legs broken sleep 6 7 hours daily how many years u take benzos my frd ple ans

    • @syntholshoulders1842
      @syntholshoulders1842 Рік тому

      are you better .?

  • @lauriina85
    @lauriina85 Рік тому +1

    Hi and thank you for you video.
    I have asked you about my brain lock and suffer it all the time.
    I have option to go to my country's best rehab center to two months taper but it is still rehab center and I have bad experiences of one rehab and hospital. I have done crossover with Ashton manual from klonopin to diazepam and tapered it over two months to 35 mg (from 60 mg) of diazepam and I have also 20 mg of temazepam wich I want off.
    I fear everything. I don't understand normal life and am so exhausted mentally and psysically. I can't go anymore even for walks, I forced myself earlier (I love to exercise) but am too anxious to see people and dogs (this hell started when I lost my dog). All I can do is go to the store to get food with my mom and I cry in the car that I'm in constant hell, suffering and feeling depersonalization and derealisation and disconnected from people and enviroment and my loved ones. I can't see my partner. I'm so alone and depressed, I know I have chemical depression and depression that I can't be with anybody because I tell my panic and hell all the time to my loved ones.
    Next week I will have the last 5 mg drop and then bit more little amounts. I would have seven months to taper this way at home. I would like to go to rehab and get there out of me quicker but I don't know how to survive it and how to cope in rehab (I'm not an addict, have dependency) wich is not most comfortable place. And I know that the Ashton way is better for the brain. I'm so torned because I know as long I have these drugs in me I won't heal from brain lock (hopefully it is not permanent, I fear it everyday). Did you have problems while you were tapering to be social and did you have to at any point isolate? I am normally so confident and social and this is awful to be alone. My partner is waiting me but I mies him so much and can't be with him.
    Did you have terror waking ups? I fear all day waking ups because I feel like I die in that second and can't take one day anymore like this and realise I'm still stuck with this drug and so sick and in pain and constant fear and fight or flight state.
    I am glad you handled so long tapering. I wish I can do it too but at least seven months to taper and everyday I want to kill myself but can't. I fear there drugs, they have shown their power and I want to get off of this shit and have my depression away and have my functional brain back. I would have a great life ahead. Thank you.

  • @louisebam1466
    @louisebam1466 2 роки тому

    Thank you D. I'm still hanging in.. Tapering is the Hardest thing.. Wow. Keep well and lots of good whiches 💞🕊️

  • @rickgrimes9098
    @rickgrimes9098 3 роки тому +4

    Well fuck I got off Benzo's rapidly cold turkey in rehab and watching these video's is only giving me more anxiety.

    • @christiegranzenbair1764
      @christiegranzenbair1764 2 роки тому

      Then live. No worries! God Bless you!

    • @abbyolivia
      @abbyolivia 2 роки тому

      How are you now

    • @mellopez1859
      @mellopez1859 Рік тому

      Serious , we need positivity , I know it’s hurts as hell to get off , I’ve done it dealt with it , it was rough as hell for a month but got better , my biggest mistake was that I got back on after I was fine , I’m an ass , but I know if I did it once I know what’s coming , by the way it was Xanax the first time 4-6 mils a day I stopped cold turkey ,, now it’s .05 klonipins 2 times a day which I guess , if I jumped off 6 mils I can def jump off .05 trying to taper at .75 the once a day .05 then jump , cause I believe the long taper makes no difference , ur gonna go thru physical hell at .05 or even .0001 .

    • @mellopez1859
      @mellopez1859 Рік тому +1

      Dude u do u ! Check out the positive stories , u will be good , I popped those x like 6 mils a day and jumped off .. I suffered a month , then all got waaaay better .. try and put ur mind right , the more fear the more hell u will go thru , trust me , the fear factor and horror stories are not necessary , we as I wrote , we need positive stories , the aftermath , it’s like a soldier living in the jungle being hunted by the enemy for 6 months , boot camp ….

  • @MonacoRocha
    @MonacoRocha 2 роки тому +4

    took klonopin clonazepam for 15 years 0.5 at bedtime.... tapered for 19 months... 10 months off...

    • @abbyolivia
      @abbyolivia 2 роки тому +1

      How do you feel now

    • @MonacoRocha
      @MonacoRocha 2 роки тому +2

      @Joe Tomlin Hi Joe.. Hang in Bro.. IT WILL GO AWAY... Eat Right No Booze Smoke or SUGAR.. EXERCISE HOT BATHS... COLD SHOWERS OUT OF BED IN MORNING.. WIM HOF BREATHING IS THE BEST BRO.... PATIENCE IT WILL HEAL 100%. GOOD LUCK....!!!

    • @mellopez1859
      @mellopez1859 Рік тому +1

      That’s what I’m talking about , POSITIVE !! Congrats ur a soldier

  • @mikestephens7270
    @mikestephens7270 3 роки тому +9

    Withdrawing caused anyone out there to have extreme burning neuropathy in their feet? I have had it for two years and cannot put on shoes or socks. Only ice packs. Could this get better? Thanks

    • @Walsh25
      @Walsh25 3 роки тому +1

      Why not try Gabapentin non addictive - not scheduled drug good for Nerve pain especially neuropathy It will help with burning feet 😓

    • @aimlessintopeka
      @aimlessintopeka 3 роки тому +5

      @@Walsh25 Gabapentin is very addictive.

    • @kylegreen8531
      @kylegreen8531 3 роки тому +2

      I’m almost 4 months off now after a 9 month taper and I still have burning feet as well. I often have to put ice packs on my feet. I hope this will pass for us soon!

    • @mikestephens7270
      @mikestephens7270 3 роки тому +1

      @@kylegreen8531 I have asked many different benzo “groups”whenever I find them and nobody has said they have the same symptom until you. Many have burning, but not of feet and so intense they are on ice too. I am SO sorry you’re going through this! It complicates healing and coping ability. I would so love to go for a walk! Get well soon, Kyle!

    • @joeymarino7
      @joeymarino7 3 роки тому +1

      I have .5 mg of Valium left to taper. I have red burning feet ( my feet pool with blood upon standing. I am mostly in need for 2 years between bouts exercise to lessen muscle loss. I this side effect dissipates in time after the ☠️ is removed. Somehow, that story was not reassuring the narrative that we all heal.
      But, I will stay hopeful. Good Luck warriors.

  • @aimlessintopeka
    @aimlessintopeka 3 роки тому +2

    I just finished a 5 year taper off 2 mg. Not easy but by the time I finished, I felt pretty good. One lingering we sx is burning feet, it comes and goes. I used a water micro taper. Just don't rush it. You can't get an accurate dose if you don't dissolve the tablet in a solvent and benzos are not water soluble.

    • @mikestephens7270
      @mikestephens7270 3 роки тому +2

      You did a five year taper off of 2 mg. of what?? I have burning feet and am very curious and concerned about the length of tapering and the duration of not being able to wear shoes or socks, living on ice packs. Thank you for any information.

    • @mikestephens7270
      @mikestephens7270 3 роки тому +1

      Thanks so much for your prompt reply. I have a very complex story, as do most of us. I really feel for you dealing with this and surgeries. I’m just learning how to find others and learn from them. Again, thanks.
      At the beginning of my taper according to Ashton. Started at 20 mg. crossover from Klonopin to Valium. Maybe we’ll talk again.

    • @mikestephens7270
      @mikestephens7270 3 роки тому

      Willpower

    • @Walsh25
      @Walsh25 3 роки тому

      @@mikestephens7270 try Gabapentin good for burning feet not drug

    • @tommyt7441
      @tommyt7441 3 роки тому

      What's micro taper exactly?

  • @mikestephens7270
    @mikestephens7270 3 роки тому +8

    Has anyone out there developed extreme neuropathy while taking or withdrawaling

    • @jeffgalaska9277
      @jeffgalaska9277 3 роки тому +1

      Yes. N it will go away

    • @mikestephens7270
      @mikestephens7270 3 роки тому +1

      Jeff Galaska Thanks for replying. I’ve asked and nobody has either had this symptom or answered me. You’ve given me some hope.

    • @wiseman3750
      @wiseman3750 Рік тому +1

      Yes. It hasn't gone away. Nerve damage was explained to me by a neurologist; he said it was idiopathic, could not find the cause. I knew the cause but it's pointless to tell the physician.

    • @revaliddiard-bowen8
      @revaliddiard-bowen8 4 місяці тому

      Thanks for the …hope!

    • @revaliddiard-bowen8
      @revaliddiard-bowen8 4 місяці тому

      Not much said about neuropathy during …or after. Been searching for any hope.

  • @pm7225
    @pm7225 3 роки тому +1

    D good work that you do!!!

  • @bhadresh1135
    @bhadresh1135 Рік тому

    Do u prefer valium to shift or klonopil taper slowly ,as ashton method suggested to shift to diazepam (valium)

  • @_blew_a_fuse_7372
    @_blew_a_fuse_7372 3 роки тому +2

    Im 2 years out im getting worse death seems like only option left any hope is lost

    • @cduby1424
      @cduby1424 3 роки тому +2

      That thought has crossed my mind so many times but maybe Im not suffering enough to push me over, but Im still living through it, going on three years, Sept 2021. But as far as withdrawl it goes way back years and years, from other drugs when I was younger. But the benzo door out was the exit door into HELL. Been left here sence.

    • @Q1776Q
      @Q1776Q 3 роки тому +6

      Took me about 2.5 years until I started to feel better.... and now at about 5 years I am 100% healed. You will heal too!!! It was very very bad for a few years. I was convinced I would never get better..... but very very very slowly.... I did. And so will you. DO NOT GIVE UP!!!

    • @_blew_a_fuse_7372
      @_blew_a_fuse_7372 3 роки тому

      @@Q1776Q appreciate it man

    • @cduby1424
      @cduby1424 3 роки тому +2

      @@Q1776Q Man It will be something I dont know how I will comprehend, So bad I want this over, I feel like this is it no turning the page life as I knew it before is over. I really down deep inside appreciate the outcome you say will become a reality. I will also tell everybody how I have healed. When the time comes!

    • @Q1776Q
      @Q1776Q 3 роки тому

      @@cduby1424 Beleive me...I was EXACTLY where you are ...or worse. Every day was absolutely terrible..... I was a shell of a person with every symptom in the book... hopeless..... but little by little it got better.... It got No better for about 2.5 years.... then very very slowly I go back to my normal self. It was beyond hell constantly.... I slept most nights 1 or 2 hours many many nights of zero sleep and when I did dose off... I would be jolted awake over and over in pure terror.... I could fill pages with all the symptoms..... mental and physical.... but THEY ARE ALL GONE. And I guarantee yours will also go away..... I don't know how long it will take.... but you will heal from this.

  • @jareddaniel5508
    @jareddaniel5508 3 роки тому +6

    The horror stories! Why stop them if your going to suffer and never get better? 3 yrs stuck in bed?? 6 yrs and still recovering? Phhh at some point you just have to chalk it up and live.

    • @jeffgalaska9277
      @jeffgalaska9277 3 роки тому +2

      But how do you do that? Get back on something that could potentially kill you the next time some doctor wants to play God?

    • @Walsh25
      @Walsh25 3 роки тому +5

      Wish that easy really wish would in heart beat what there not saying is we hit tolerance - which is withdrawl while your still in it but the 2 or 3 a day your taking aren’t working anymore your body goes into withdrawal it’s awful while still on -now you hv to go to doc and pray they will up your dose which 98% won’t ever - benzo are scheduled drug doctors are being threatened with there license - so if you can go up alittle to get out of withdrawl it don’t last long - you hit a wall again your in withdrawl it’s awful trust and believe if we could go back we would after about 6 months of hell would hv but by that time your well on your way to getting it out of your system - not everyone detoxes or with-drawls - that bad but all these people your seeing & hearing are all most likely hitting a wall as well if they could of most would of stayed on - but psych starts playing with your mind you end up not well at all you need to just get off that’s why we can’t just keep going ❣️

    • @BzInfoCoalition
      @BzInfoCoalition  3 роки тому +4

      If doctors understood the risks and protected their patients, sure, this could be an option. As it stands right now patients are forced to stop abruptly without their consent, especially as they age. Isn't it better, if possible, to have SOME control over the speed you come off?

    • @mellopez1859
      @mellopez1859 Рік тому

      Serious

    • @garysimone4977
      @garysimone4977 Рік тому

      ​@@BzInfoCoalition it's a mess personally I wish you focused your limited resources on help us in PAWS ETC TO FIND PROTOCOLS THAT DO WORK BIND nice term but don't help the 1000s suffering

  • @thedelacruz
    @thedelacruz 3 роки тому +2

    12 years!! Insanity...God bless you.

    • @Khrystal-wl6kz
      @Khrystal-wl6kz 3 роки тому +1

      31 years on klonopin 2mg for me
      Nurse practioner started tapering me in September. I couldn't handle her large cuts so I'm micro tapering and holding. She doesn't approve of that method so I'm hiring a new doctor who specializes in the Ashton Manual before my pills run out.

    • @jeffgalaska9277
      @jeffgalaska9277 3 роки тому

      @@Khrystal-wl6kz whats that doctors name?

    • @thedelacruz
      @thedelacruz 3 роки тому +1

      5 to 6 years they had me on 6 mg xanax (2mg 3x a day ). Then one day they just stopped me. It was hell. Went through a lot. Took me over a year to stop having issues and that's after 37 days detox with anti seizure meds.

  • @artinmardoian1762
    @artinmardoian1762 2 роки тому

    Just because you had problems and are anti benzos now you think everyone shou foll suit.why weren't you. For 12 yrs.i take benzos and will continue makes such a difference in my life

    • @BzInfoCoalition
      @BzInfoCoalition  2 роки тому +7

      Wanting informed consent and competent care is not "anti-benzo". We are not concerned with your benzo consumption.

    • @fionafrench3765
      @fionafrench3765 2 роки тому +7

      If you are happy to be on benzos and plan to keep taking them why are you concerned with other people sharing the fact they have been harmed by them? No one is interfering with your own healthcare decisions.

    • @michele2855
      @michele2855 Рік тому +3

      I pray you never have to stop. Or that the drug is never affected by supply chain issues 🙏🏾

    • @donna6165
      @donna6165 Рік тому +2

      Pay now or pay later. It’ll come to collect, tragically.

    • @mellopez1859
      @mellopez1859 Рік тому +1

      Amen to that !!!!!!! Shit will def stop working , did 13 years and they just do not help anymore ,, unless I od on it , I went from 8 mils to 1 in 1 month and feel no different , soon from 1 to none and soldier it out , done it before , but I screwed up not because I felt bad , I was fine ,, but because I figured it would not hurt , oops , I was wrong . Nothing last forever …