Sexual Assault Survivor Shares Her Story After 5 Years of Silence
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- Опубліковано 16 жов 2024
- CONTENT WARNING: The following is a detailed story of rape as told by the survivor, Madison, as part of an initiative with Ulzi Stories. Visit stories.ulzi.com to learn more.
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“I was not a virgin, but that night I lost my innocence” wow that hit hard for me. Godbless you. Your so brave. Well done. You are so so strong. I’m not sure what else I can say but I wish you the best and healing. This was so honest and completely heart wrenching
@Vicente Donovan bro wtf
Amen 🙏🏾
No matter what way you tell yoyrself, you lost your V-card that night
shes clout chasing
This gets me so angry.
I'm close to someone who had this experience, still affects her.
It's heart breaking.
@kimmy sander it's heart breaking...it has made a deep wound and trauma.
#metoo Every summer. A family friend. It started when I was 9 and ended when I was 12. My bed almost every night being touched in ways I’d never thought about. being lied to. He told me that it was his way of showing affection and love. He told me never to tell because he wouldn’t be able to come back. His bed. He forced me on him. Rubbed himself on me. He tried to take off my clothes. Parents please educate your children. I didnt know what was happening or that it was bad. Please please please educate your children. And not just the girls.
sariah cook definitely not just girls
I’m very sorry this happened to you.
It started when i was 3 and my dad still did it till i was 5 and he said that to me to and he kept touching me over and over everynight i remembered everynight i would think here we go again
I have a friend that her son got raped by a stepgrandfather and he is suffering a lot from that and he does not want to talk about it. His grandmother told him that it was not true. But he was molested from a baby with diapers till 5 years old and then his mother got married to a British man who also molested him. till he was 10 or 11, I think he is having problems holding a job or finding a woman who loved him and he wishes so much to have children and have a family....
@@cloudyskies2729 so sorry to hear what you have gone through, I pray for complete healing and recovery
@@roserose3510 reading the story, breaks my heart.. I hope that he finally find someone who would accept and love him unconditionally
It's been 13 years now and I have not yet got the courage to share my story with anyone
You should share, maybe we can share together... my email is gsxr.queen4evr@gmail.com my name is “Lin”
I'm sorry, you should tell someone
Hey honey dont be afraid. U must tell someone.. If might make u feel better 😊u r a strong person 💓stay strong 💓
@katende Hidayah It took me 16 years before I have finally shared my story.. It helped me in many ways... try to share your story, it may also help you in the healing journey.
I was abused by a family member, I’m 41 and never told a soul until this moment. Wow, that’s why I’m so protective over my kids, now teenagers , I don’t allow them to spend the night or to anyone’s home without me there. They think I’m an over protective mother, but I just know what demons are in this world and they may appear to be a saint but behind closed doors they are not. God bless you love , your comment just made me realize my own pain. Thank you for sharing-
Tears. Tears. So strong.
I am 16 right now and imagining what she went through at my age is so scary. Knowing men are out there doing this to a strong women and let it break them shatters my heart. I want all women to know we have a voice and we should speak about these horrid things that happen. Because if we don’t then it will keep repeating and repeating over and over again. It’s sad that as a women I have to fear when I’m in public alone. If a man talks to me and he’s older I’d assume the worst to protect myself. This world has created something dark. I shouldn’t have to think a man is going to use my innocence for his benefit and pleasure. But with human trafficking and rape, men are scary. To know I’m a 16 year old who can’t fight off a man if I tried. This story opens my eyes to this world and how is women can make a difference. These men who do this to women and children should go to hell
Well, try not to worry not everyone is out to get you. No human should have to experience the pain, but try to have faith in our fellow civilians.
Please take care of yourself. I am a victim of sexual assault last summer and now I am pregnant. I decided to keep the baby while I'm still studying as 2nd yr college student.
Don't let ur guards down. Trust no one.
I’m 16 too and these exact thoughts run through my mind every time it’s dark and I’m walking outside alone, or if I’m near any unfamiliar man, or if I’m even remotely far from my family and friends in an unfamiliar environment. It’s unfortunate. I’m not an anxious person and I don’t have any anxiety but the first thoughts in my head in situations like these are “what if?” Or “how would I escape” etc. It’s just the reality of being a teenage girl
I went through it at the age of 3 you i know what being touched sexually feels like
@@cln-ns2ci im so sorry
Wow you are an amazingly great storyteller, i got chills the whole time i was listening to your testimony... I hope you read this and hope that you are happy forever and ever. Much love from Bosnia ... I wish you or any other human being never had to go through that horrible experience...
True Heroine I feel so bad about this
Thankyou girl, I had a similar experience and it feels so good to just cry it out. I was 15 and my best friend permanently displaced my trust, she told him to do it. It’s hard, crying yourself to sleep every night, not letting the ones you love close to you. I’m 16 now and I have a court case on the 22nd July, I pray to god justice is served. Rape is unjustifiable, no matter who you are. All victims of rape have a voice, you just need to learn how to use it. God bless you survivors 🙏
I am so sorry for what you went through, I’m praying for you. You are a strong person, I believe you can win. Whoever your friend was doesn’t deserve someone like you. I’m praying for you, good luck.
Thankyou girl, I hope you prosper ❤️
*God but I'm truly sorry for what you went through and I pray God heals you from any sort of wickedness planned upon you!
When people say 'other people have it worse than you so just move on' as a response when you tell them about the rape, it's like saying 'other people have it better than you' and no, Mom, it doesn't make it any better.
This breaks my heart.. I really hope you don’t feel this was your fault. You are strong.
And I also hope.... that this guys pays.
The amount of emotions I've felt while watching this. YOU ARE SO STRONG! To see you smile was the best thing! Much love!💝
I really wish I had the power an strength to speak about mine but everytime I try I cry an wanna throw up an go into panic mode
You are so wonderful to be able to talk about that it’s happened to me twice an I thought after the first time it would be so much easier to escape the second one but it was harder an still to this day I can’t even look at a guy without thinking he’s going to be next 😓😓
I'm sorry, hope they go to jail
I am so sorry sorry you are going through this. Do you have any suggestions on what to say when a victim is having a PTSD Episode? So I can help other victims?
am i the only one who loves her voice?
wierdlol
I believe you. I was molested by my friend’s uncle. He got me drunk and I couldn’t move and I didn’t really care to because I was so tired. I just wanted to leave. But I couldn’t stand and he was on me. It was a horrible feeling. I blocked it out for a long time but a week ago I got drunk again and it all came back. I’m terrified. But I’m gonna report him and if he does it to another woman I will have her back. I will testify. He will get what’s coming to him. I’m sick of these people getting away with everything. If you’re a survivor I want you to know that what happened is not your fault. I know it doesn’t feel like it now but you will be better. You are not broken. Do not let them win. I believe you.💕
Ben Smith 13 years old.
You are so brave! I sooo relate...I was 17 and now 38, I remember every detail as if it was yesterday. It was the most traumatising experience of my life, one that I could not bring myself to discuss, until just recently. I’m now finding the courage to speak about it little by little. I hope to one day be able to finally speak about what happened to me in a full length video. 🙏🏽
I hope you were able overcome your experience.
I just can’t wrap my mind around what he did that night. I’m astonished. how could somebody who claims to love me ever do something like that to me. I was so young and he said he would never do anything like that because he had a friend his best friend, went through something similar and I believed him!!!
My brain is shooketh. I watch videos like this randomly but it still shocks me as to how people could do such a thing and completely shatter someone's life. It's horrible and disgusting. It's inhuman. I hope rapists rot in hell because they don't deserve to see even the light of day. It shakes up the victim to a point where they can't be touched for months. To a point where they can't get up and move. It's sickening. The video reminded me that all of the horrible experiences we've had shouldn't be used as an excuse to stop. But it should be a motivation and strength to strive and fight not for yourself but others as well. It shouldn't hold you back because if you stop, then you won't ever be able to move on. We should take tiny baby steps atleast, to fight and keep going. No one should ever have to go through such a traumatizing experience. Ever.
I can’t believe he would do that to me. I am physically disabled and I can’t run and he is a lot bigger than I am but regardless he broke me and years later I am still trying to put myself together again. I ask myself over and over again what I did wrong. Other people tell me that I did nothing wrong and it was not my fault but I just can’t stop trying it was my fault I had to have done something wrong.
I’m here for you 💜
I always crying to hear this people Stories ,,I m Nabeel I was raped in age of 7 ,,Now i m 25 bt still suferring from Anxiety i feel very lonely
I want to leave this massege here;
He beautiful,
I want to say that you are strong, powerful and amazing.
Whatever you do keep in mind that people don't define you.
I may not know who you are, but that doesn't stop me from telling you that you are amazing and strong.
From: Sharon
I was raped at the age of 9 and now I'm ten and I'm really depressed and I got abused by my mom and got raped by my stem-grandpa and I lived a terrible life I hate this life and I tried to suicide my self
@@theahlpa6790 there will be a day of happiness and a personin your life that would make u feel worthy
@@theahlpa6790 please, please tell someone you can trust. a teacher, your principal at school. or call abuse or suicide hotline. please. your life is precious and you have a future
the ahlpa hugs. It gets better. It’s so difficult but with all the scars you will make a beautiful life
I was 11 its been 3 years i wish i could say something anything...... i'm still frozen I don't know how i don't know how to stop the cuts get deeper every day the memories replay every second i'm not aware the mental hospitals are more violent then the pain i feel when my own mother calls me a whore for what happend to me..................help me someone anyone.
Sahra 07 if you need someone I’m here.
Everyone needs someone who understands what you’ve been through.
@@daniellemiller6370 thank you
@@urmother923 I'm here to help you plz feel free my sister Sahra btw are u from East Africa?
Only God can help you there, I know a girl that was sexually abused and then raped at age 9 but God has healed her and gave her life and hope, He can do it for you too, God bless you.
Wherever you are, I hope you safe and well. I cannot express my gratitude in hearing your story. For someone else to articulate the things I couldnt admit let alone express.
Thank you Maddison
This story made cry . How someone can be this evil 😢😢
Please read till the end.
I got goosebumps while hearing this heartbreaking story.She is so strong to be able to tell this story is such a great way and letting us into her heart and into her pain so that we can all be educated and are never put in a situation like this .
People just don't understand how much this can hurt and break people who were in a situation like that.😭
We should never be silent 🤐. We need to learn how to speak up and show people who are in this situation that it is not the end and that they will just become stronger because of this.😁
Please like, if this story empowered you as much as it did to me.🙂
And remember: don't be afraid to speak out and that way you can make a difference 😊😉
If you actually read till the end: Thank you for reading this and I hope that you may try and make the world a better place.😁
@Dalson R.R thank you for those words i really need those words it's been 20 years sense i was raped by a family member that trusted..... I scared 😨 for telling my friends because i have a feeling that they are going to judge me
I understand you, thank you for sharing. After 20 years I’m now brave to speak about it.
Thank you for having the courage to share your story.
this absolutely broke my heart! you are so strong and i am so sorry you had to go through that
Madison, I am in awe of your courage in sharing your story. I honor you on your healing journey and wish the best for you. You are a great inspiration to me.
Wow you are a courageous and beautiful woman! Very talented. Secrets keep us sick. What's done in the dark will be exposed. God says "vengeance is mine." You are a sister soldier. God bless you.
#metoo It was my own brother. I was 12 and it lasted until 14. I'm almost 28 years old and I've just become alright admitting this to myself.
I'm sorry, how much older was he, did he go to jail
So sorry to hear this, I pray that healing flows through you more and more each day.
@@bensmith8957 He's 17 months older, and no I haven't gone to the police, although I think I should.
@@queenchiomaofficial ♥ more everyday
@Whosjimianyway how are you now? how was your healing journey?
As a sexual harassment victim, this is too hard to watch but I'm so happy to see her in public speaking out... Thank you! I'm really inspired
This was hard for me to watch as a harassment victim myself 😢
I feel you. Every night I still struggle to sleep in peace, and I wish I had her courage to speak up but I can't.
Thanks you’re strong like the rest of us ❤️takes a strong person to share with everyone what you’ve been through 🖤
Much love and respect for you and all survivors who see this ❤️
Thank you
I floated up above him and went somewhere else above
I just cryed and had , and still haver, no words but, Brave Young woman. Thank you for sharing only for the benefit of others. THANK YOU.
I WAS PHYSICALLY ASSAULTED WITH EXTREME VIOLENCE.IT IS TEN YEARS NOW AND I STILL HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO FIGURE IT OUT OR COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND WHAT REALLY WENT ON.I WAS ALSO DRUGGED AND PHYSICALLY ATTACKED WHILE UNCONSCIOUS AND I STILL CANNOT PUT INTO PROPER WORDS WHAT WENT ON BECAUSE IT MAKES NO LOGICAL SENSE.AS A SURVIVOR I CAN EMPATHISE WITH YOU MADISON.I SPENT TWO WEEKS IN THE HOSPITAL UNDER MEDICAL TREATMENT FROM SEVERAL SPECIALITIES UROLOGY MAXILLO FACIAL EAR NOSE AND THROAT OPHTHALMOLOGY AND INTERNAL MEDICINE.I CONTINUED TREATMENT FOR SEVERAL MONTHS. I HAD VISITED THE HOUSE OF PEOPLE I KNEW FOR SEVERAL YEARS.THEY HAD CHANGED TOWARDS ME UNANNOUNCED.
Im sorry 2 hear that
You are helping so many others by sharing this. What an amazing young lady you are. I hope finally he sees what he has done and so do others that have committed the same disgusting, vile assaults xxx
I wish I had the bravery to share my stories of rape...
I am so so so incredibly, unbelievably sorry for what you and others have had to go through, and I know that can lose meaning as so many people say it, but we all mean it with every fibre of our being. You are amazing and so inspiring for getting through this and telling your story, but honestly, the thing that made me realize truly how amazing and incredible and strong you are was when you smiled. Right after telling a story that brought me to tears, a story that must torment you without rest, you smiled. And that is incredible. You are a queen, an inspiration and someone who has strength and will and so many different, amazing quality that only people who have been truly blessed will get to meet. Do not feel guilt, or shame or embarrassment. All of this goes to others that have been through the same traumatising thing. It is not your fault and it is not shameful to have someone else violate your body; that shame is the assaulter's shame to carry. You froze, and that is a natural response. You are not weak. On the other hand, you are undoubtedly, unbelievably strong. And now you will live, and you will love, and you will heal and unfreeze and build your life again, because that monster will not win your life. You lead your own life, and you will prove that monster wrong. You will prove that you are capable of fixing yourself. If you can remember what your assaulter looked like, you could maybe try to report him to the police so that he never does the same thing to anybody else. He will look different now, but police can work with what you tell them. If you have any proof, that will help too. He thought he had triumphed over you, but you have triumphed over him. He took your innocence, but you will take his freedom. I hope you find a method (e.g. counselling or therapy or a hobby or talking to someone) that helps you heal. I am always here if you need to talk, and remember: so many people are supporting you and we all believe in you, we all believe that you can do it. You are a queen and remember this comment every day, when it feels like it can get too much, to remember how amazing you truly are 👑💕. Love yourself with everything in you, because you are worth all that love. You've found the key, now free yourself and fly as high as you can, and live.
Love, L.
Thank you for sharing. So many people can relate to this story including myself. It’s something that stays with you the rest of your life
It took me about 6 years to fully tell my story too, it’s terrifying, sending Madison all my love ❤️❤️ xxxx
That’s so horrible, I can’t even finish watching this
It was my own uncle. I still remember every effing minute details. The series of abuse continued for years. Yk being a child, that to a shy, introverted kid, when you don't even have the idea of what good & bad touches are, it all felt so wierd but okayish. Sounds rather funny, right? I know it does.
I still remember us being such a close knit family, my uncles being almost like a fatherly figure; it was my happy place there. I felt safe. But little did I know that it was going to be the worst ride of my life, making me hate my body, gnawling every bit of my hope, shattering me in a way where I still am sensitive to touches, afraid of men. I never want my childhood ever back again. The incidents be like:
While I was in class 4, I along w my younger cousin sister, before going to bed, was having a lil chitchat. We were lying on the floor, when he entered. He sat beside me. And it all felt okay. Cuz he was someone we trusted, I trusted wholeheartedly! Soon enough he joined into our convo and while doing that, he started touching me. That was the FIRST TIME EVER I felt sumn weird. But then again, he was my own uncle! He continued doing that, went all the way downwards, slided his fingers inside my underwears and touched me so erroneously. And believe me, ALL I FELT WAS TICKLISH! I did no+ knew it wrong. I was forced to believe that what he was doing was all right. He even used to appreciate me with a demonic smile! The series went on for months. I still knew that it was his own way of showing affection towards children. And that I should never be telling my parents about it. :)
The second big thing happened when I was in my 5th standard. There was this occasion of a get-together before my sister got married. It was a joint family. All of us were super excited. After lunch, us cousins, along w my uncle, were up in the second floor, playing carrom. All elders were downstairs. So while we were playing, he was teaching us how to play it. While doing that, he again sat beside me. In front of everyone, he touched by back. But all were younger than me. His own children were even there! No one knew what was happening! Then again, his erroneous touches. Makes me want to puke even today! Then I remember somehow after all games, I was left alone in the room w just by myself. I kinda took a nap. I got awake by the sound of his voice. A very aggressive voice. I saw him strolling round the room very harshly. Didn't understand what happened. Again closed my eyes. Then the very next moment, he asked me to open my eyes. And I still remember his exact words: "Open your eyes, I've got something really tasty for you!" "What uncle? Chocolates? Candy?", asked I, quite innocently, smiling. "No, but something delicious.", he replied. And the very next moment I opened eyes, I felt something sticky liquid being poured all over my face. Before I could even react, his penis was hanging over my face and that smile if his! I felt disgusted immediately. Everything felt so wrong. I tried to jump off the bed and run but alas! I couldn't. He grabbed me and shut the door. Threw himself upon my already half dead body. I felt weak, helpless. I was frozen. I tried to scream. My voice got choked. And after that all I can recall is a person standing naked and inserting something back into my anus. Aaaand that pain! The worst. Terrible! I was lifeless. It continued for a few secs maybe. Yes, I lost my innocence there. I was no longer a virgin. A 10 year old girl wanted to die right there. After he got finished, he told me I was a good girl. He threatened me w his smiling. I didn't know what to do, how to react, who was I. All I knew was I HATED MYSELF. I DID SUMN TERRIBLE. I WAS THE WRONG DOER. He opened the door and I went out of the room. Quite silently. So that nobody knew. No, I didn't cry either. All of a sudden, I felt myself a 50 year old. I went to the bathroom, washed my face. Went downstairs. Could hear the elders having their talks. Laughing. Enjoying.
My mom was there too. I couldn't say anything to her that poin+ if time. I was in shock. I was in trauma. I couldn't talk. Seeing my uneasy, the elders assumed maybe I felt sick for having so much food! :))
Later, a day later, when I opened up and my family got to know this, they got angry maybe. At least I would like to blv so. They assured me. But solved the matter through 'private chats!' after all, family prestige! There are things which should not get out in the public eye! Private matters should be solved through private chats!
Then? Well nothing! I've been battling with depression and panic attacks ever since. I'm 18 now. He still comes to our house occasionally. I lock myself in room during that time. Cuz everything happened that day was normal. :)
Oh girl! I don't even have the right to say this to someone who have undergone such inhumane things, but I feel you. I understand you. You're a strong girl.
Stay away from him as far as possible. Let everyone in your family be concerned when he comes to your home next time. Be brave. Stand up for yourself. You're a courageous girl. Don't feel low. Speak up. Otherwise it's easy for depression to come along the way.
I'm not really good at expressing things. I hope you're doing well now. ❤️
@@bini1809 Thanks for checking and yeah am doing well these days. You kind hearted soul! :") 💚
This make me so angry and hurt at the same time😢
It upsets me even worse when it comes to the part of "private chats"
May that monster have weak erections all his life and have that demonic smile turn into tears when he meets his fate.
I hope you're doing okay😞 well not entirely, but taking it step by step of course ❤️
I can't belive what it feels like to be you! We're the same age and I'm so proud of you, God bless you sister, stay strong 💪🏽 💖
I hate it when people ask why it took so long. They should be glad they will never know.
Bless your heart & your strength.
I do not have the same courage as her to tell her story. It took everything for me to tell CPS about me. I broke all over after years of silence when I finally got therapy. I finally told the full extent to my therapist through my tears.
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so sorry that happened to you. You’re strong and brave ❤️
It took me 9 years to tell my story
Your amazing I could never explain my story like that...
you’re strong. this is painful to listen to. this was not your fault
Why do rapists always said "do u like that" I don't know if they're trying to be persuasive or what. But I hope Madison you're better now. I hope I will one day...
I know what it feels like. I still remember the dirty beddings, the pain still lurks in my head, couldn't walk coz he damaged my pelvic I'd only crawl in the middle of nowhere, I had never support such kind of weight before. I had no one to help me out. It was one of the worst nights of my life. And I still have the resentments and most especially towards God, I was only from Bible studies. I wish this was a punishment from clubbing or some crap. I won't forget how he was forcing and crushing his way into my innocence. Then I promised myself to die with it ... Used my semester fees to get treatment, I curse that night forever. I hate the fact mommy came to know about this year May, 2days before my birthday,,,,3yrs later when she read my diary.... It broke her heart. I know I should be over it but am still stuck in that harsh past😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
It's ok . You're not wrong. It's natural for you to feel that way. Never ever feel like it's your fault coz it never was and never will. ❤️
I'm so sorry. Please find someone that can help you get all of your emotional pain and anger out of your heart. As a mother, I send you my love 💕
Thank you! You have made a difference in the lives of many. I am so proud of you for sharing!
I am pained watching this. Sickening how common this is becoming :(
Vivian Sahara unfortunately this has been happening since beginning of time
This is horrific, how can u wake up in that state, that is horrible
It has taken 29 years and I still don’t share much
God bless you honey. Thank you for sharing your story. So many of us have one. This Grandma loves you and will be praying for your continued healing
I’m absolutely sobbing. This women is so strong I’m so proud of her.
Thank you for sharing your story. I am a survivor of sexual assault. I am too scared to share my story. God bless you, you are so beautiful, brave, and strong!!! You are a warrior!!!
Mad about his sheets? he should be in prison. Wth
Why do these animals think they have a right to our bodies? So sorry for your trauma. I hope they rot in jail and hell
You are very sweet and brave. The devil , the tyrant must be killed with heavy stones.You are still innocent. May God shower all the happiness you wish.
I can relate to this. I'm so sorry anyone has to go through this. You are so strong for telling your story. I haven't made it that far yet mine was 5 months ago.
Im sorry, hope he went to jail
@@bensmith8957 no I couldn't remember details because of being drugged by him so the cop said there wasn't enough evidence
Wow! I can't imagine what she went through at the hands of that monster
You are an absolutely incredible young woman. You are so strong and so brave and I am honoured to hear your story. Thank you so very much for being such an inspiration to me and so many others. 💕
I'm so sorry. Two years was long enough for me :( he didn't even get punished
Thank you for sharing your story
I woke up with sperm dribbling down my thigh, I asked him if he had sex with me while asleep. He said he didn't want to wake me up and just helped himself. From that day something died inside me. We were on a holiday and didn't want to spoil it. 3yrs on, I am struggling with flashbacks, unable to cope and function. I started sleeping with my clothes on, opting to sleep on the couch many times. He still doesn't feel any remorse and tells me I am crazy, it didn't happen, yet I relive the experience daily. I am in therapy just to try and find closure. I now know a sleeping woman cannot consent to sex and what he did was wrong. I feel disgusted in my own body and hope one day the memories can disappear and not hurt me daily 😭😭😭
I still haven't reported it, I feel it's too late and he will get away with it.
I watched this 3 years ago. And I searched it today, cuz I needed courage
I should have just seeked for therapy and counseling, rather than reporting it to the police. For I now fear for my life more then ever before 💔
All my prayers go out to you, your a strong person who endured evil behaviour. Bravo for telling your story and it is helping me to remember many evil moments from my past. Thank You so much Madison.
I just don’t get how ppl can think it’s ok do something so terrible to someone and how that person violated her in one of the worst ways possible and then go on with their life like nothing happened. And i feel so sad for her that she had to suffer alone and not tell anyone.
Did you ever report him...or is he still doing it to others? They feel entitled...so probably not stopping.
My God, you poor precious beautiful creature. I have been there but I could never word it as delicately. I hope you heal, I hope the rest of your life repays you the way you deserve
What an amazing strong women! Thank you for sharing your story heartbreaking but inspirational.....This year it will be 18 years I’ve been silent. I was only 15 & he convinced me it was my fault & my mother has always been dismissive of anything I said when I was a teenager so I didn’t want to further embarrass myself by telling her and getting laughed at or hurt because I’m not being believed
18 years later I know it wasn’t my fault & therapy is a start
i was 10.. i was raped by my brother. it happend over 2 years. i only recently told my mum
i lost my virginity to my brother...
@@miawood3219 I doubt any combination of words I chose to write here is able to bring you enough confort. But yeah you should listen to this ua-cam.com/video/TMkw2ttKnrM/v-deo.html
I'm sorry, I hope he went to jail
Bravo for sharing.
You are loved! You are a warrior my dear!
We must not let him continue his abuse.
He must be stopped. Keep speaking out Madison!
There beasts in our homes and on the streets must be stopped.
I hated the bruises and blood taking a shower hurt mentally n physically
#MeToo
i can relate to the story as i recently experienced the same thing, the person i called my boyfriend forced himslf in me
Im sprry that he did that to you the same thing happened to me i was 18 yeah i was a late bloomer but i went to this guys house he to chill a a movie tv but my ve i wore tge wrong close i had shorts on and a spaghetti strap shirt and we layed there watching a movie and the he just kissed me and i kissed back abut then he lifted me on too of him and was trying to put him slef inside me and i wouldn't let him so while we were kissingnhebundid my short thr flipped ovevr to be on top of me and he ripped my shorts and panties down and i sadyed no and he told me tbe quiet and n relax he had me pinned tothe bed by wrists and him on top of me between my legs so i could do anything cause he had his whole body holding me down and he forced him self inside me ! And I have never had sex so I didn't know if that's how it was supposed to be if the guy takes the control and you know I didn't really know what it was supposed to be like and while it was going on all I can think of is I didn't want to do this I don't want to do this and I was too afraid to say anything because I didn't want it to get worse and so basically I just laid there in my head and pretended like it wasn't happening even though I could look over his shoulder while he was on top of me and see what he was doing and I feel everything I still tried to pretend like it wasn't happening and and and it did and I regretted that for a long time and not really telling people I just told people that yeah I lost my virginity but I didn't tell them who but how it went down and since then I've had a problem with guys I don't trust them and usually they just try to use you for sex and I've also unfortunately had times where as a teenager partying and everything I mean like I said I was 18 when I lost my virginity but I guess like ready to be into the twenties partying and everything there had been things that it would happen like I'd be too drunk so I go to lay down somewhere hidden away from everybody to try to fall asleep and I've woken up with somebody on top of me I was laying on my stomach and they have my arms pinned down and they did what they wanted I also had somebody Roofing me and rape me so I've been through those experienced quite a few times it sucks I can't believe that there's that many guys out there who are like that whether they think they're being like that or not but but it's I just never really knew what to do and the guys that I was with you know with permission I just wanted somebody to want me to love me to care about me and so I made some bad choices when it came to men but the ones who Force themselves on me or take advantage of me there people that I never would have thought would do that and I do have PTSD and intimacy issues and sex issues due to all of the stuff that I've been through and this was a very short summary of all of the stuff I've been through!
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I haven’t finished listening yet but I’m hoping you say you went to the police and he went to prison.
Thank you for being brave enough to tell your story thank you for inspiring others to come forward thank you for being strong enough to make it through I'm sorry that happened to you
I tried to go to the police. They took my sheets and my clothes from that night. I don't remember any of it. I was so drunk but, I know he hurt me. I hope you're OK. I appreciate you sharing your story. You're going to be OK.
“Where was I when I needed me most?”
Man it happen t to me over over over for7 years from 4 family members n I'm now 63 years old male Hispanic now I cry day n night seeing psychiatrist I was 6 thru 12 r 13 I'm screaming in side my brain tell god why me n at birth my mommy threw me in trash (crying) n ever since I hate men I can't stand myself in front of mirror 43 years ago help me god please I want t to go home heaven with my father Jesus christ
Joe, I am so sorry that you are going through this. You are not alone!! Just reading the comments alone will allow you to see that you are surrounded with people who understand. I am one of them. Please reach out to me if you need to talk. I'm on Twitter @becki_p20
So sorry to hear that.
Ur own family members did that to you?? Damn, that's heart wrenching.
Let God in, He will help, raise your arms and shout for Him, He is waiting for you. God bless.
Your so strong for speaking up cause nice people like you need to be protected
a few months ago my best friend took advantage of me. we are both queer women and for the past few months I thought that excused her abuse. i recently cut her from my life but still struggling to understand how to cope with this at only 15.
I’m so sorry. Definitely doesn’t excuse her abuse. Have you ever thought about reporting what happened? Are you in therapy? Please ask if you have any questions and live in the US. I’ve been through csa as well
I'm sorry that happen to you💔😥
Any survivors out there, don’t be afraid to come forward, you don’t have to tell us the name of the person who assaulted you, just tell what happened. It will make you feel better, and have people around you to support, love, and care about you. I believe you, and you are valid.
Knock knock? Your site doesn’t work, who owns this amazing story?
This video makes me want to tell someone about my story.
You can tell me i am here for me u i have been in #metoo i can understand
I fell so bad for you I was 7-9 and he was 15-17 I remember everything and to this day I still have nightmares and have never told anyone
Thank you so much for sharing. I have only just been able to find the courage to share my own #metoo story on UA-cam as well.
You are so strong for telling your story. I just want to tell you that you are amazing and so so strong.
thank you, i needed this
Such a strong woman, and as a survivor myself the only thing I can say to people who blame or try to 'see' the gray area is this: " educate yourself on the trauma response of rape victims" "educate yourself on enthusiastic consent" educate everyone on what sex is and what rape is".
These people too afraid to tell their story have been conditioned to please, to fawn to their power abusers and anyone who is not supportive
My heart is absolutely broken for you! I’m so sorry you went through this! Wish I could get you justice so bad!! Again I’m so very sorry
As a multiple SA survivor from ages 15 until 30 (I am now 45), I can say that it still hurts but I can see colors in the black, grey, and white now. I can breathe clean air from stale. I have 2 children from my SA and it was very hard after that to cope and be a mom, gf, wife etc but I managed. I didn't give up. I refuse to give up! I still get triggered, but I no longer have nightmares. I had one failed marriage because of my traumas but now I have a partner who understands. Just know it gets better...it might take a short time; it might take a long time...but it will.
I was thinking about opening up to my bf about my sexual assault bc I feel that I will not be judged. But after I told him I’ve done drugs before he went off on me mad and angry.
Amazing video. Very inspiring. Thank you.
When I was 13 my friends older brother tried to touch me, attempted to rape me and strangled me. I’ve never told my parents, it’s been 4 years.
I'm sorry, did you ever tell your friend
I wish I could talk about what happened to me, but I can't.
It's been two months, nothing has changed.
@@rebekahkiwi2965 You are not alone, start little by little. I’m trying to do the same. ❤️
How can I become a member of the Ulzi community?
i've been sexually assulted by two men. im 14. i've been slient for 6 years.. never plan on telling my family, i still cry about it i still have to see the men that did that to me & for them acting like nothing happened that day. it hurts really but everybody who has I pray your okay! & may God bless you all!
Sounds like what happened to me, but I was discredited and retaliated against for reporting with military and police and church and school and doctor involvement in the cover up.