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I tried to conceive for 6 years. Including with doctor assistance and prescribed infertility medicine (which had my hormones WILD). Nothing worked. Took 100 pregnancy tests and obsessed about it like how you are. And since I have PCOS, I've never even had a consistent period 2 months in a row, so I can't use that as a "am I pregnant?" kinda thing. I gave up and gave it to God, but faith without works is dead, so I researched and came across ways to help with PCOS on UA-cam and saw people talking about keto. Did keto for 3 weeks before I gave up because my sweet tooth is CRAZY😂. Lost 13lbs, but more importantly, I got pregnant😭. Now, I'm 2 kids in. Glory to God! Don't give up Queen!
Hallelujah ❤
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No season is ever wasted. While I’m waiting for my turn for marriage, I’m preparing and believing like it’s on the way. I started buying stuff for my husband and our place. Start looking at baby clothes, picking out baby names, etc… it will happen for you sis and congratulations in advance for your blessing
@@itsjustjanice2986 thank you!! 🩷🩷
Waiting on God is never a waste of time. Trust His timing!
@@sonhg7951 agreed 🩷🩷
Hannah prayed till she appeared drunk. Knock and keep knocking. Ask and keep asking till you get your answer. 💙
@@shonta111 yes!! 🩷
Amennn!
YOU WORKED CMON🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾
God will always be good regardless of how we feel.
Facts
I remember I had this pregnancy test from dollar tree when everything was $1 and not to mention it was out of date, it showed positive results and I was like “what do you know you’re a dollar and expired” 😂😂but I was pregnant…nine years of trying, a expired dollar test showed me God’s plan for me and my husband❤
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I just came to say this ! I will never spend over a 1.25 for a pregnancy test again . They are accurate .
Aaaaaaaaw I love that 🥰
@@tenmil6069 ahh i love ittt!! I literally have ONE left in the box that is expired. Bought a box of 50 on Amazon for like $12. I feel like that’s gonna be the one 😂
@@OnlyOneJess I am also guilty of taking pregnancy tests before my period is even due cause I needed to know riiiiiiiiggggghhhhhttttttt away. I also know the soul crushing and heart sinking disappointment over and over again. Hugs, God will answer your prayers.
One of my favorite story is Elizabeth and Zachariah. Bible says they were righteous, walked in obedience and blameless. In their waiting, they served faithfully in the temple...he was a priest.
The priesthood was divided into 24 courses. He was of the 8th course...8 as we know is the number of new beginnings. It happened that it was his week to perform his duties according to how they chose weekly duties. That week, one day while serving he had an encounter with the angel.
It was their appointed time. They were the couple God called to birth John the Baptist and he had to be born at a set time in order to be the forerunner for Jesus.
It's easier said than done but God can be trusted. Even when we don't see it, he's working.
@@kaleidoscopickeisha2566 thank you 🩷🩷
Please continue sharing your truths, there is no perfect Christian we all sin and fall short of the glory of God. transparency is humility!
Jess I am going through the EXACT same thing !!! It’s been 3 years!!! But I trust and believe in Gods plan. The other day God told me to stop asking and just focus on him! He told me he will answer my prayers when the time is right and I believe he will do the same for you! Praying for you !!! ❤️
Wow tfs ❤
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@@NaturalDee24 thank you!! Praying for you as well for your miracle 🥹🩷🩷
“stop asking & just focus on Him” yes I needed this.🥹
Just finished Bible study and the topic was, Trusting God.
1. Pray
2. Praise
3. Hold fast to the word
4. Have someone you can connect with for encouragement and stand with you in faith.
5. Remember there is an appointed time.
Hey Jess ❤❤❤🫂🫂🫂
@@kaleidoscopickeisha2566 thank you sis! 🩷🩷
My husband and I tried for 9 years to have a successful pregnancy. Two miscarriages and a premie who died at a month old had me angry and not praying anymore. I realized that I wasn't ready in His eyes to be a mother, not even a pet parent. I have a wonderful 22 year old daughter now. The Lord is preparing you for all that you desire and deserve. ❤
Gosh I can’t relate so much to you. Mine is not pregnancy but feeling so stagnant in life and not feeling anything but trying to keep faith and be joyful in the Lord.
I feel u. Same. Dnt even av any direction. May God come through 🙏🏾
You not alone🙏🏽
@@jestrinaackah praying for direction, peace and purpose for us!! Our greater is coming 🤍
That’s me with my marriage journey. I get tired of praying about it and not wanting to make it an idol in my life but yet feeling why it’s so easy for everyone else. I will pray in agreement with you for that beautiful healthy child that you desire.
It's coming and baby Wallace is coming soon. Just when you stop stressing, God will start blessing. Just believe. Love you girl
Felt this. I hated when people would say to me “you should stop trying” 🙄 or to not stress and it’ll happen. Like that’s not how that works. Having babies is so much harder than people think but if you’ve never had the struggle you have no idea. Finding community was honestly the only thing that helped me
Yes exactly this is seriously least favorite thing to hearrrr
Jess, stay strong and keep trusting in the Lord. Don't question God's plan, I've been where you are, we tried for ten years, and then God blessed me and my hubby with our hearts desire a son. I say this to say everything is on God's plan and time not of our own. Love you, girl 🎉🎉
@@angelacopeland2809 thank you!!!! 🩷🩷
We love how everyone in the comments is giving scriptures and bible stories on faith and waiting, yall giving me stuff to read. God bless you all🙌🏾🙌🏾❤️❤️
Well I’m 35 Jess and I’ve come to learn that we always want what we don’t have. That’s literally life. I’ve cried because I desperately want what you already have and that’s a loving husband. Instead I got the kids and raising them alone. It’s sucks but I truly believe I will have my husband one day and you will have your baby. We will both look back on this and realize that we were worried about nothing. You got this babe 🤗 🥰
@@tierramakeupconfidence774 thank you!! 🥰🥰🩷🩷
Amen 🙏🏽
Wow my 42 year old grown self loves me some Jess!!! I love your vlogs! Guuuurl your time is COMING and when it does... your community is gonna go bananas!!!! 🙌🏾❤️❤️❤️
Okay I'm with you... I'm 41 love her
@@natnatnoi lol ahh thank you so so so much!!! 🩷🩷🩷
@@vickie1st love youuuuu!!
@@OnlyOneJess Oh my gosh you read my post!! 😭 My day is made!!!! Love you so much! I really mean it! Been watching you for years and this season you're in is unmatched to any other and so much good is coming your way! I'm genuinely excited for you Sis! ❤️
Girl same 42 too
21:11 Jess I remember you expressing feeling the same way about not being married. You literally were saying the same things. Like I know it's coming but Lord when?!?!
Look at you now sis...look at you now💍👰🏾♀️Maybe your "lesson" is to just live in the present. Enjoy the Now. I know it's hard sis but try not to plan around something that hasn't even happened yet lol. Just Be!! Hugs!!❤❤❤❤❤❤
For some reason it always happen like that for people who is plannimg it. U gave a good advise to jess, she needs to just enjoy life and not fo us on it so much coz when u do it wont happen.
Girl do not let this folks who act like they are perfect keep you from being honest or being a vessel for what God has to say! People really be acting like we are not all human and NO ONE is PERFECT or above forgiveness. If that was the case Jesus would’ve had to die for us. Keep shining and keep being you! Praying for you to get everything you are praying for in your season of waiting! (I’m waiting too and it’s hard but He is still Good!) 💕💕💕
Girl yes keep praying about the same thing, I look at it as a surrendering every time u mention it to God. Also remember He hears your prayers & sees yours tears.
Thanks for sharing such a vulnerable moment with us.
Praying for you guys in this season. 🙏🏾 💕
I love how candid you are and you are helping people while you wait for the manifestation of your prayers.
Whew! When you are confident you serve a God who can fix anything, but the mountain hasn’t been moved and you feel like your prayers aren’t being answered, that is the hardest faith walk to endure. God hears our prayers, but the waiting season is just not fun. Having crazy faith one moment then questioning everything the next moment. Be encouraged. Thank you for sharing your heart and l’m looking forward to helping you celebrate your breakthrough. ❤
Yesss this is exactly how I’m feeling! Some people aren’t understanding and just saying to stop doubting but I can’t imagine anyone going through a waiting journey and never having a season of doubt. Thank you for making me feel human with your understanding lol I appreciate you!
I waited 6 years... and it was definitely the right time when God answered...accomplished much while i waited. It was hard to keep the faith but at the point of wanting to give up i still had to wait. When i just left it up to God he finally answered and this year i had my first baby. Side note...the week we decided we wanted to look into IVF....pregnant. During the waiting season i started putting baby stuff in my online shopping cart as well.😊
Ah I love that for you guys!! Praying everything is going well with you and your new bundle 🥰🩷🩷
I completely understand what you mean when you feel irritated by people who haven't experienced fertility challenges giving advice. It is such a challenging season. My experience (though my challenge is different) has stretched my relationship with God and the lesson I've learnt from him is: (1) we cannot idolize our desires (2) the goodness of God doesn't change (3) (the hardest lesson/question for me) will He still be MY God if this never happens for me? This experience is a journey and I pray that whatever God is doing in you privately and in your quiet moments, you will continue to trust Him. Sending love ❤
Jess...while I don't know exactly how you feel...I identify with you. It's my desire to be a mom too.
I expressed my frustration to God and He gave me a dream the same night.
I dreamt that I was in a Waterpark with my cousins and we had all these amazing plans for the vacation. Right when I was about to go down one of the slides, another woman who was pregnant was going down another slide. I was comparing myself to her and I wished that I was where she was.
Then she came down the slide, walked up to me and told me how painful it was for her to go down the slide. She said she wish she had what I have. Then she said, " Enjoy where you are right now,".
Hi Jess. I was so discouraged that by the time pregnancy number five came, I wasn't even interested anymore. I was tired of the disappointment from previous miscarriages. My husband encouraged me to take a test nearly two weeks after a missed period. Idk what I thought I was gonna w/o period but I was too scared. Anyway, this time it worked out, four miscarriages later. It was hard, emotional and scary journey. It wasn't perfect bc sometimes I was mad at God but then I had make a decision that I wanted Him and would always want Him even if He gave me a baby or not. In my waiting, I just sought Him and no longer prayed (well off and on) about it. I just focused on God and my little miracle came out of no where EIGHT years later. God will do it for you just hang there. Focus on Him and go on about your life while He's working out the details❤
Amen God is Good All the Time ❤ Can't wait to see the beautiful baby God Will bless you with. It will happen in Jesus Name
thank you sissss
Amen
God always has better plans for us u might want a baby but maybe God wants y'alls to hv twins ❤
Amen
Amen🙏🏽
Jess, I love you. You're TTC story is very similar to what I am going through as well. I'm married, 31, finances are intact! But no baby. Lord, what is going on??! 😅 It is HARD. It is. I'm not going to tell you how long we've been trying either because I don't want you to put that on you because you tend to overthink but sis, even in all of the waiting, It is a daily practice to telling myself how good God is. I MUST because I never wanna seem ungrateful. My life is GREAT. & God is so good & his favor is flowing throughout my life. Don't get me wrong, I have my emotional breakdowns here & there. People I know having babies & not even trying. But even through this, God is still good. & I'm grateful, regardless the outcome. I am grateful. Love you Jess. Please keep the transparency open & honest. I know you have some that wanna talk smack & what not but sis! Let this long message be a reminder that you do have real supporters who really benefit from your story. ❤Because we appreciate the realness. Nothing & no one is perfect. Once people actually accept that, there would actually be more happier people living among us 😊
When you want to pray about your desire to have a child next, first start by asking God what He wants to accomplish with your children. Align with God's desire for your children first.
I've said this before, but God giving you a child is not about you. It's about Him giving you a new life that you can raise in the right way and advance His kingdom. Shift your perspective.
Jess hon I know exactly how you are feeling… I was married for 6yrs before I got pregnant…so don’t be discouraged hon God will do it just continue to trust in time and purpose ❤❤
Same here...
@@anettmitchell4981 thank you!! 🩷🩷
True story...but it's long....when we were trying for a while and not getting pregnant, I did a bunch of research on Google lol, and decided on a few things.
1. I downloaded an app called fertility friend.
2. I bought a digital thermometer and started charting my temps.
3. I bought a pack of OPKs.
This taught me things about my own body that I didn't know, like
1. I do not have a "standard" cycle length. My cycle is actually shorter than the textbook 28 days.
2. I do not ovulate on day 14 of my cycle. In fact, when we finally got pregnant, I ovulated on day 18 of my cycle.
3. I have a short "luteal" phase of only 11 days.
I also learned that the excruciating pain I felt every month was me ovulating.
Maybe you could try something like this and learn your body for a few months.
Also... 😂 I learned that boy sperm swim faster and die quicker than girl sperm, so we "tried" daily earlier than the day of ovulation to give the girls a fighting chance. I'm just saying that's what we did....and we got pregnant that same month with our daughter..😊
One more thing...I never wait till I miss my cycle to test. Eveytime I've been pregnant I tested on day 9 of my 11 day luteal phase, and it was positive... so there's that ...
Praying for you sis.
I appreciate your vulnerability. I pray God answers your prayers. Stay strong Jess. God can do all things!!
This was me exactly 5-6 years ago Jess, and today we have a 4 year old girl and 2 year old twin boys, despite many deterring doctor's reports. I was even booked for a surgery to "clear" my uterus but found out I was pregnant 4 weeks before the said date. I know now why God wanted us to wait but it wasn't making any sense back then. What can I say that you don't already know? Keep hope alive and in its time it will all be beautiful ❤ 🤗
Stop telling her to “enjoy her husband”. She is enjoying him. Respectfully, she don’t need y’all speeches on that. She’s allowed to desire children and it hurts. Y’all are being insensitive to her feelings and I’m getting upset lol. Cus don’t play with her. She literally found out she was NOT pregnant again and you all keep saying “just enjoy your husband”. Not much empathy in these comments. 😂I don’t even comment on UA-cam videos but listen ….
Omggggg yeasssssss!!!!!!!!! All of this babes #supercosign
Yesss!!!! It makes me so frustrated when someone is bothered by something or desires something and people will invalidate their feelings by telling them
To focus on xyz . Stop that! You never know why or what someone is going through to make them desire children, marriage, etc.
Jess is so funny “my elbows are itching I’m pregnant🤪” 😂😂😂
Currently in the same boat. I am 31 and my husband and I have been trying for 3.5 years. I know that God is so faithful and so loving and He is a promise keeper... but when you see that first hint of not being pregnant... it is hard. Something I am learning is that God is making me in the process of waiting. We always say "delayed is not denied" but in reality, God isn't delayed, we are just ahead of His perfect timing. In the season of waiting, I am deciding to wait with peace. I know that God will perform I will not stress and worry and fret in the waiting - just for him to still perform, but I've missed his peace. I want the peace and the prosperity. He is not delayed, you are not denied, you're being made into the image of Christ. I am praying for you.
Wow Sis even in your moment you found the words to encourage someone else! I just Love you! I’m in my waiting season right now…some days I just feel like God has put me on the back burner because he just so tired of me 😂😂😂 I know he’s workin on it even if I ain’t! It’s already Done! God bless! You are winning You don’t loose until you quit! We got this!!!💗💗💗
I never comment but felt to today …My waiting season wasn’t for the same thing, my youngest is 15 I am not trying to have children but my waiting season God had me to be a support to others going through. So in the midst of a prayer I was looking to have answered and going through my own storm God had me to be there for others. I had a family friend pass away I helped his sisters through that process. I had a friend who had to take a medical leave from work, I was there to talk her through that time. Like things were happening around me and God directed me to focus on others. I held this scripture near and dear to me “At the right time I the Lord will make it happen” Isaiah 60:22. Keep trusting and believing. ❤ you and your content. Praying with you that God will fulfill your hearts desires.
15:15 honestly I feel like this episode is so relatable to me. I’m currently struggling to convince. I’m also now super aware of my body and hype myself up when I interpret a pms symptom to a pregnancy one. I will legit google what I’m feeling to see if it’s a pregnancy sign. The problem is legit every pregnancy sign is also a period sign. I will literally pray at night pleading with God to just give me a hint to tell me when it’s going to happen. so I can stop feeling this pain. It’s like a constant heartbreak and feeling like a failure. Especially as a wife who knows their husband wants and will be a great father. But all I can do is trust is God. We got this because God got us.
Tfs I'll keep you in my prayers💕💕
Amen🙏🏽
God's grace is sufficient. "Singing...If I never get that house, that car, or be a superstar, if I never live the life I thought I should, Lord I'll be satisfied with you."
I’ve been trusting God for something and this week I was questioning whether I was being repetitive, but this scripture came to mind !🙏🏾Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you” (Matthew 7:7
God is good all the time and all the time God is good! Praying He answer your prayers soon❤
Oh Jess.. you’re not alone. I literally ask God same questions... y must I suffer when I’ve done the right things and he said ‘be fruitful and multiply’ . It’s crazy how with all the emotional ups and downs we still have to pick ourselves up n power on. It’s been 6months of active trying, I turn 34 in a few weeks .. I wish you the grace and blessings... you want babies, you ll have them. He is still God!
For all the women TTC, you must remain strong in faith🙏🏽
Not me crying with you! I’ve literally been tell my friends that I must be in a waiting season with marriage because NOTHING has been working out lately. We are going to trust God together because he didn’t give us these desires for nothing. It’s coming!
Lord I thank you for continuing to strengthen us in our waiting season. Help us to be reminded of and stand firm in your promises and to feel your love for us. In Jesus name, Amen❤
In the same boat as you. My husband and I have been trying for a couple of years and God hasn’t allowed it to happen in the physical realm just yet. I say this to say that you’re not alone and you’re not crazy. At some point I stopped trusting my body because I started to feel like I was “crying wolf” if that makes sense. I think our bodies desire pregnancy as much as our minds/hearts do! ♥️ Love you, Jess. We will reap a harvest and we will soon rejoice. Believing God for your family and mine♥️
When I feel down, I cast down those doubt/fears and then I’ll do something in faith for our future baby 😊
I'm only half way through the vlog and not trying to have kids (maybe you come to this realization by the end) but what I will say is the same thing you have said when people ask you about waiting on their husband/wife. Enjoy this season (of just you and the husband that you prayed for). Life is going to be so different when you have kids. Those silly moments you have in the house. The getting up in the middle of the night to just go get food, those wifely duties you've given yourself before he gets home, how you vlog and events you can freely go to will all change once the baby arrives. So enjoy this season of just the 2 of you because when you have kids while it's a beautiful journey it's a completely different one. You'll be great parents in time but enjoy the practice and the time to yourselves❤
Sooooo true, first time mom here of a 3 month old. It's so different WOW.
Definitely enjoying our time together, the waiting still hurts tho.
Lovely point however I believe that it’s fair to just be considerate with her desire to have kids. I know your comment wasn’t meant to be taken in a negative light, but often times it may come off as invalidating someone’s desires and feelings when comparing how they should enjoy life married or single before kids. It takes away from that pain and desire that they may have to conceive. As someone, who has a daughter and another on the way yes I would say it’s a lot and a quiet life is better at times, but I do my best to not focus on that when someone shares their journey on difficulty to conceive. Everyone knows what they desire and understand the responsibility of children, so it’s important to simply encourage ❤their journey and be sensitive to the idea that when they are struggling in that period of life hearing “enjoy your husband” isn’t the best. Remember we don’t understand that journey because we have children❤so remember to be mindful of words. In the same way, if you lose a family member and mourning you probably wouldn’t want to hear “it was God’s will” yes that is true however allow a person to mourn and feel what they feel without the extra.
@@tyeishabernice thank you for saying this 🥹🩷
@@OnlyOneJess of course 😊thanks for being transparent and sharing your journey with us
Jess, I went thru the same thing you did....I was married going on two years with no conception. I cried and cried but guess what? Father knows best. I finally conceived after trying a whole year. So just whistle while you wait, weeping may endure for a night but joy cometh in the morning. Keep the faith.
I recognise myself so much in you. So many pregnancy tests and still no baby after a year of trying. But I trust in God, we'll have our blessing one day!
When you were looking at yourself in the mirror… I felt that feeling so hard you don’t even know!!! I have been feeling so defeated lately but mine is for a totally different reason I’m in a stagnant and uncertain phase of life where I am seeking direction for career, where to live, future decisions etc. and I feel like I’m not getting any answers. So although our waiting seasons are different I can totally understand that feeling and I just wanted to cry with you. It’s so hard and it gets harder to pray because it starts to feel useless even though in my heart I know it’s not useless but the constant waiting just gets harder and harder to deal with . 😢😢
Jess thank you so much for having the strength to be so transparent about your fertility journey. It is so helpful to others who may be going through similar situations❤
Thank you 🥹🩷
You are helping so many people by talking openly about struggles with fertility. So many of us have gone through this. Thank you so much for using your platform for this ❤
Thank you! 🩷
The timing of this video though truly nothing is coincidence! I was just sitting in my bed crying & asking God why im waiting all of these years! I feel you sis its hard to explain the pain cuz no one will understand the exact pain & struggle if they didn't experience it. Waiting is one of the hardest tests ever, everyone will say be patient, God has his own timing but they dont know the pain, the disappointment, seeing everyone getting it so easily but you're not, no one will understand unless they go through the exact test. Mine wasn't about pregnancy but about waiting for over than 10 years because of an inability to travel. Tried all the earth's possible solutions, people told me to find other ways but none of them worked. It hurts to see everyone i know moving out from the country yet I can't for reasons that are only in Gods hands. Then realized its not in my hands and maybe the only thing i need to do right now is to let go and luve day by day. After all of these years i still catch myself crying and feel disappointed cuz sometimes it feels like God is not answering my prayers. Its a hard journey but we got this ❤ Maybe he's preparing things better than what we wished for 💕
I’m feeling the same but towards my job search after college. I’m currently doing a fast to get more clarity and understanding from God and honestly it’s really helpful. Keep standing you got this!
remember Matthew 24:13
Quite honestly, I already see you holding that little bundle of joy and cuteness. 👏🏾IT'S 👏🏾ALREADY👏🏾 DONE.💃🏾 As you said: from day one God has heard you🙏🏾 It's giving "blessed beyond measure".
I appreciate you showing your vulnerability. I'm in my waiting season as well. I'm going through sooo much change and it's extremely uncomfortable!😢 I feel impatient and like I'm "bugging" God for praying about the same things. I can relate with this part of your journey. I just encourage you to keep pushing forward and seeking Him. I'm right there with you sis! ❤ I'm praying for y'all and I know your blessings are coming but in His timing.🙏🏽
If you know, you know!!!! It’s sooooo hard as we wait but God will bless us with our miracle babies. Xoxoxo❤
@@m.a.keitcount2849 excited for us both! 🩷🩷
My heart understands the stress of prayers unanswered. My saving grace truly was therapy. That secondary voice truly helped to give me clarity and perspective. God is with you 🙏🏾
That vulnerability part 😮💨 child! I completely understand! I’m in this same season right now I was so disappointed when my period came 😭😭. My dad messaged me and asked me if was pregnant and my grandma messaged my boyfriend and asked him if I’m pregnant because she’s been getting signs. And I hate it because I get ideas that I might be and then I do the test and I’m not 🥺 I’m just praying and waiting on Gods timing. I hope it works out for us girl ❤
My mom had me at 38, it was a surprise because she believed her tubes were tied. I obviously don’t know how much longer you’ll have to wait but I have faith that it’ll happen for you Jess❤ hope yo baby comes around February like me 🥰 a love child frfr 🎉
Jess! I struggled with conception and every month I felt that disappointment. Everything you are saying is a natural response. God wants to meet you in you grief. So allow yourself to grieve. I'm not going to tell you how long we waited but we conceived through IVF on our first cycle and our blessing is 3years old. I didn't understand why He made me wait, but now I understand and I am grateful. Keep trusting Him. With every negative test. Trust Him. With every period trust Him. He's faithful but His knows you
Thank you for being vulnerable with us! We are walking thru this with you girly! We will cry with you, we will wait with you, and we will celebrate with you when it comes! Don't lose faith, don't lose your hope. Like you said,God has us waiting for a reason so we gotta tune our spiritual awareness to see what He's focusing on. Much love ❤️ ❤❤❤
Hi Jess, I feel exactly what you’re going thru and tears are coming to my eyes because I am waiting on the Lord also and I sometimes have the same questions, do I pray the same prayer or start thanking him for what I have prayed for. What I have learned and the Lord has affirmed is, pray once and receive what you’ve asked for, believing that you’ve received it, Mark 11:22-24. Anytime you have the thought to pray the same, add thank You Lord for I have received it, find the scriptures that speak to fruitfulness and children being a blessing etc; decree and declare that God has blessed You to be fruitful and multiply, and it is with the fruit of your womb and your area of gifting etc … I hope you receive what you’ve prayed for abundantly above all that you’ve asked or think. Be blessed in the Lord.
Thank you so much for being vulnerable with us. I’m also in a waiting season and this was very encouraging.
Girl, Thanks for your honesty. when Vicky logan was going through this tough time. She always said, we are alllll waiting for something. You are not alone. This earth experience is full of waitingggg. It get supper annoying. I am not waiting for the baby part, but I am waiting and glad to see im not the only one.
Jess it took me 2 years after trying to conceive a successful pregnancy. I got discouraged at one point. I definitely understand the annoyance. I am trusting God to give you and your husband y’all hearts desires.
Everything you have is everything I don't but still hoping and having faith for,the only thing I have is a kid-that I wish I brought under different circumstances but hey this is life. I love your girl and you are obviously going to conceive, we'll be here rejoicing with y'all ❤
I love you Jess and I'm praying for you to have a breakthrough❤. God's got you. He sees and knows🙏🏾. Ain't nothing wrong with feeling sad and disappointed🤗.
When IT’S THAT time Jess, we’ll all rejoiceeee with YOU! LOVE YOU GURL ❤ God’s delay is NEVER a denial! Sending you love hunny ❤
People need to mind the business that pays them. No one is perfect, but GOD! No sin is greater than the other. Sin is sin. Praying for you, girl 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
I understand exactly what you're going through, I'm Jamaican too I got married when I was 30 got married to Jamaican. Which is a whole another story but I was excited to start the process of starting a family at the time. I was like okay Lord I'm ready for my babies I only want to I am ready but that didn't come. Little did I know that it was because God knew what I didn't. So he used me to come to this country. And I never got pregnant which is a good thing because if I had children with him I would have been stuck with him in my life. So now being 40 months away from being 41 and still no babies, No husband And it's like I want to marriage I want my husband I want my children but you don't see any hope of that happening. Especially when you're fighting depression and just try, To do what you need to do to live life It feels hard really hard but hang in there. I'm not sure if being a mother is part of my story, I still want to be I'm the aunt that took care of all of my sibling's children's. But right now all I can do is just sit and wait Keep praying and wait to see what God has planned.
What a story!!!! Im so sorry this happened to you ❤.
I commend you and Jonathon for you guys realness and honesty. I remember being 17 and seeing you also be vulnerable about wanting to be married and I was so happy to see your prayers answered after all that time of waiting. Your time will come again with the blessing of a child . And The blessing of showcasing this is helping me and for my future. I’m 24 now and I desire to get married and I’ve never had bf but I can’t seem to find anyone genuine these days and then I remember your story and it gives me strength in being patient and open to it may not happen when I want it to. Which sucks lol, but my timing isn’t Gods timing and I have to just maybe focus on bettering myself in the time being. That’s been my goals lately to take my mind off of it lol
I just love watching you! Your personality sparks so much joy! 😊 I always get excited when you upload 😊
ah thank youuu!!
Same here!!! ❤❤❤❤❤
I appreciate your vulnerability so much! And it was so on time. I have been waiting on something for months now, and today felt like such a setback. I kid you not, I wanted to ask God if He hated me, because what are we even doing here? But God is always good. Even His "wait" has goodness written all over it. ❤
Jess, I completely understand how you feel and no one can understand it unless they’ve been through it. I have an embarrassingggggg number of pregnancy test videos in my phone just in case one of them ended up positive. 😅 Yesterday was one year that found out that I was pregnant with our little bundle of joy. My pregnancy test the week prior to this, was negative. 😮💨 Don’t lose hope, it will happen for you. Sending love all the way from Barbados. 🇧🇧 ❤
Praise him through your pain and hurt!!! ❤❤
Lost my brother a couple of years ago...had to Praise Him through it!
It works!!!
I know exactly how you are feeling. I went through this as well. Continue to trust the Lord and continue to fulfill your purpose . ❤
I don't know if you will read my message but I'm messaging anyway. 1. After getting pregnant, you'll look back at these videos and wonder why you were this stressed and laugh. 2. I know you are excited to get pregnant, but you need to relax your mind and body. 3. I am assuming that you did some research on ovulation and so forth. This will help you moving forward. 4. There is something called TISANE, and what it does is clean out your system. Every person in the Caribbean knows about it and it gets you pregnant without even trying. Take it for 3 weeks and boom. 5. And this should have been number 1, God already knows what we want, especially if we are praying for it. Never stop asking, and when you do, tell him why you want it. Sorry, this is long but I believe you will get pregnant. I've been silently watching your videos over the years, and I am so proud of you.
The Most High God will bless you with the desires of your heart sis! Keep glowing and growing while you wait, soon come❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I love you Jess ❤️🙏🏾 and I am praying for you & Know that God hears you & your prayers…You got this !
Father God thank you for Jess and Johnathan. Thank you for keeping them and their marriage. I pray that during this season of waiting that you would give them peace and wisdom. That you will prepare them for the blessing that you promise to pour onto them that they will not have room enough to receive. I pray for the support system around them and that u will also give them wisdom and knowledge. Thank you for the testimony that will come from this season. In Jesus name I pray.
Amen 🙏🏿 ❤❤❤
For those who aren’t in this situation really don’t know. I felt your tears and prayers and frustration. ❤ please continue to share with us.
You are not alone and this is exactly how I feel about finding love. Like God what is it! And I definitely understand about not making plans in preparation for what you want in the future. The waiting season is just dramatic lol thank you for sharing.
We do struggle in many areas as Christians.But God is still God all by himself.
Jess it will happen exactly when it’s supposed to happen. Like you said, God heard you the first time, 2nd time, 5th time! I’m so glad you are documenting how you feel during the wait, so you can look back and see how God was working. Ask God how you can serve Him during this time, ask Him to continually mold you into the woman/wife/mother He needs you to be, and ask him to give you patience, and just draw closer to Him. It’s a journey, it’s frustrating, but God is walking with you every step of the way. I’m definitely praying for you! 🙏🏾🙏🏾
Jess you said it right. Some ppl are not ready for the real bit there are those of us who understand the struggle while on this faith/ Christian walk and desperately want that authenticity 👌🏽
You’re not wasting time but I’m so proud of you living in your “now” & acknowledge your feelings. Your bundle of joy or bundles of joy are coming. Trust Him always like I know you do. 🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️❤️
Jess. Im sending you so much love ❤ Your vulnerability is amazing and I pray that you are blessed with the desires of your heart. You're going to be an amazing mother. Your faith in God in the midst if it all is so beautiful to see and not a single tear of yours will be wasted. He's going to turn it around for your good.
Hey Jess ❤️ I'm a fellow ttc mama and I kid you not I felt deep in my heart the end of June was my month but that didn't happen and my cramping that month was crazy but what I've been doing is watching a lot of videos of women in their waiting season it has been such a comfort even in my tears and questions I'm praying you have your babies soon 🤍 in Jesus Name 🙏🏾
I use to watch those too and then I fell off! I need to get back on it, they were extremely encouraging! Thank youuu 🤍🤍
No worries beloved 💕 I did too and had to get back into it especially Christian women it made me look at this time with more faith because last month honeyyyyyyy the tears the tears lol 😆 but GOD IS GOOD. We will make it thru 💕
I’m glad you were able to speak your TRUE feelings. So many times we have to present the edited versions of our emotions. And just say “God knows best,” and of course He does. But right now and in this moment we’re upset and we don’t understand why- and that real.
Also have you thought about having a meetup with your followers locally? Until you can do the travel with your followers.
I definitely understand what you mean about praying and not really getting answers. Like right now I’m seeking god about jobs,companionship,and school. It is definitely hard and I quote the same scripture about pray without ceasing but it’s like I get tired about praying about the same things. But I believe that the lord was trying to let me know is that will you only pray because I will give you what you want or because you want a divine relationship with me.
In this season learn patience. Learn what living in the moment is. Learn love of self. Learn who you are in Him. Learn unity that He set forth you both. He has you and I know for sure that the most precious gift he can bless you with is for you. Take some Geritol and prego vitamins that helps the fertility
Thank you for sharing Jess. I 1000% felt and heard you when you talked about the praying continuously but you feel like you’re bothering God by praying for the same thing over and over. But you know he heard your prayer already. Lol
My pastor preached today: There is strength in the struggle and after there will be glory!
God timing is different from our timing, your time is coming ❤
Jess, I love you and I love how God anointed you to walk this journey, along with the courage to share it with us. That’s it. Thank you for being you 🧡 it feels good to know I’m not crazy on this side of the screen, feeling appreciated because someone out there gets it
Man o mannn. First of all there is truly only one Jess and that really is your power, thank you for your vulnerability and honesty with your tears, we see your heart in those tears to help others who are believing in God for things, and guidance, knowing that he is faithful because we’ve experienced that faithfulness over and over again but wondering what his will specifically his, even if we know it’s for our good.
Girl I will def keep your in prayer and ask that God reveal to you what this season means for you and your family. Stay encouraged and know that that God work that he has started in you will come to pass in whatever form he knows will be best for you. Sigh at times it really feels like “ God just let me know, I know you say that perseverance needs to have its good work but my father can you give me a clue por favor?”. I don’t have an answer but ask you said in the beginning God is good and his plans for you are for your good even when they don’t feel good. Take comfort in knowing that you are not alone if your confusion and frustration, that our Heavenly Father sees your tears and as you continue to avail yourself to hear from him through events, through people, through etc he will speak to you as he has in the past. Have a wonderful week hun
Edit: literally pressed play to continue watching only for you to say everything I was thinking. You really are rockstar in your own lane. Your story has uncomfortable as it is to go through it truly going to be a testimony to many. Hmmm Lord please don’t let this be an Elizabeth situation, except only in the glory that will come after. But let me continue watching yes
some people are always going to be bright and some people actually mean well but either way what I do no for sure is that you’re right about being selective with what you share but also know that the mature people who are growing in their faith and picking up their cross daily from a imperfect at times but sincere place appreciate your realness. You’re using your story to empower others to know that yes I understand you’re still struggling with this. Your stance that “ I still have my moments to but depend on the God who can truly help you and live life with like minded people in the meantime so you can stay on the right path” approach to speaking to your followers is needed and appreciated
After salvation, which happens to our spirits, is the transformation process (renewal of our minds /souls). This transformation becomes evident in our everyday human experience because of the life of God in us ❤
Please keep sharing your realness😭 that’s what I love most about you and your channel. Especially on this Christian walk?!? It can feel like you’re the only one, like hellooo?? Is anyone else struggling as much as me😭 but to have people like you who are bold enough to share your vulnerability even in the slightest, is so admirable😢 I can’t imagine what it must be like to be on these platforms where people say such horrible things. But please know from little old me, you and your husbands transparency has been so valued and appreciated, especially when it comes to living out this faith🥹❤️
Hi Jess,waiting is so hard. I can relate to this but from a different place. I turned 30 been single for 3 years and the list is long of things that i think I'm doing right as a Christian. I get similar moments where i just cry myself to sleep,I'm even tired of praying about the same thing. In as much as I'm pursuing my dreams, when i look at the people around me i feel left out. Was mad at God but i prayed about it and decided to just live life. I keep on wondering what I'm not doing right but I've made peace with it. Once in a while i find myself in your situation and just cry it out.