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Please stop telling her " things happen for a reason". Thats the last thing a mother needs to hear after losing a child.
Please.
jaclyn camacho I was told that so much after mine, and I just wanted to scream “that doesn’t make this better or easier!” The best thing I believe anyone can do is let the parents grieve and go through their emotions. So many times, like Rachel said, you feel alone and silent.
Sweetheart *please* don’t force yourself to be on here or any other social platform. Take your time grieve properly and come back to us when you are ready.
Nobody Important maybe she just needs to share. My manager left her job and we never saw her again. She went into seclusion. A video to relate to might have helped a bit you know??
Agreed. Take your time if you need, but if you need to talk Rachel we all are hear to listen and help you through this tough time!
Tammy you may be completely right! But I’m just concerned about her feeling like she has to make videos when she’s really upset. Course it’s her decision and maybe working helps, I just want her to get better
Maybe this is her way to help with healing. Some don't understand, but maybe this is not what she felt like she had to do, but wanted to do. No judgement, just love and prayers.
Having had an early miscarriage myself I was surprised I didn’t have a more emotional, sad reaction such as this. I didn’t blame myself and knew how common they are for women. I felt guilty for not feeling more sad. Just wanted to let other women know it’s ok if you don’t have this kind of reaction and it’s ok to have this kind of reaction. Everyone handles it differently. Very sorry for your loss.
Absolutely! Everyone's feelings are valid, and no one should be judged or feel like they weren't "sad enough" if they miscarry.
So sorry for your loss ! I think some of us , maybe even subconsciously, in knowing it is a possibility maybe dissociate emotionally. I personally do not see anything wrong at all with that reaction. My DH and I are presently trying to conceive and I am already talking myself into not getting my Hope's up too high. It's a defense mechanism . Be gentle with yourself and just know however you feel is valid .
I’ve been through 2 early miscarriages. The first one was definitely devastating, the second one though I wasn’t..repeated what the doctors told me that there was nothing I could of done, it’s common, etc and moved on. Both times I felt like polar opposites, my close family knew the first time. The second time was just my fiancé and sister. We waited 3-4 more months before trying again and now I’m 20 weeks along. You never know how you’ll react, and I think it doesn’t really matter. It’s hard on everyone regardless
I have had 6 miscarriages. For some, my reaction was very emotional and others I felt very disconnected. I didn't really feel sad and I felt bad about it. We all mourn differently. Even when my mother passed away, for a while I felt very disconnected and I didn't outwardly show emotion about it. It's like it didn't feel real. I kept expecting to see her again eventually.
I had the same reaction as you, it really sucked, but I wasnt upset, and felt so weird about not being upset. I felt like a piece of sh*t for not crying. Everything happens for a reason, and in my case, I think it happened because I wasnt ready, I was 17 and in school, had a poor diet, was being stressed out by school officials threatening me BC they were told to by the rich kids parents who were bullying me... It was horrible for me to go through all that, and that situation was so stressful and was VERY bad, I couldn't imagine going through that AND being pregnant. I didn't know I was pregnant until the miscarriage, it would have been different if I knew I was a mom, and then lost the baby. I didn't know I was a mom until that point.
I'm so sorry Rach. I'm wishing nothing but peace and care for you and your family. 💗
Dear Mrs.Rachel, I am eleven years old, but when I saw this my heart absolutely broke... I just wanted to let you know that everything will be ok, I will be praying for you and your family. Thank you for sharing this news with us. Anyway, I will definitely be praying for you and I love you so much, and thank you for always making me laugh and smile, I love you so so much and God bless you 💖💖💖🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️💛💚💙💜
This is so pure. We love u
Ameila Greig I just wanted to compliment you on your very sweet and mature comment. Sad that this happend but I think it's beautiful that someone who is so young left such a sincere and comforting comment. I'm sure Rachael loves hearing this. Much love to you.
Mrs. Bridgette Warner thank you so much💖💖💖
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Amelia Greig, you have a beautiful soul!
You and Chris will always be parents of 3. Even though one is in heaven, they’re all your children. Prayers go out to you and your family. My heart breaks for you.
That’s what my mom always says too. Her first pregnancy was a miscarriage. She always wanted 5 children. After my little sister was born her and my dad decided to stop (she was #4). My mom was struggling with not having anymore. Then she came to the realization that she has five children, she just haven’t met the oldest yet.
I couldn’t agree more with this comment - my brother and his wife have 2 angel babies and 2 toddlers.
Of course they grieved but they will always be a family of 6
Haley Brewer same:(
Now will be parents of 4
Here's what not to say: "At least you got pregnant" "You have a child or children ". Rachel, I'm so sorry for your loss (and your family's loss). I can't begin to know how you are feeling. Your feelings are valid. I'm sorry you feel so alone. I know this was hard for you to share. You are loved by so many. I hope in time the pain lessens. You are strong and brave. I wish I could help in some way. *hugs*
What also not to say: "You're going to get pregnant again" or "You're young, you have plenty of time."
I heard these so often and i wanted to punch everyone in the face.
If you don't know what to say, don't say anything.
Mrs.M I'm so sorry. You're absolutely right, what was said to you was incredibly insensitive and inconsiderate. I'm sorry for your loss *hugs*
@@pumpkinscorner394 Thank you. I think people say stuff like that because they don't know what else to say.
Except for my boss at that time. He always said :" Sooo... are you pregnant yet?" and he thought that this was funny.
Oh well... my miscariage was 2004, so i'm pretty much over it. ☺ But these comments are so mean... there's no chance to forget them.
Mrs.M May I please punch your boss? What an awful thing to say! I’m sorry for your loss :(
I HATED people that wouldn’t say “it happens for a reason” and “the lord has a plan”. At one point I looked at someone and just said “really. My baby died for a reason?” - what really upsets me is that people would NEVER say anything like that to someone who lost a child or anyone for that matter that lived and then died. But because my baby never lived it’s ok to say those things? It’s been 5 years and I am now the mother of two beautiful twin boys. I like to think for me it happened because I was supposed to have my twins not a singleton, but I still feel sadness when I think of my baby.
I saw this video pop up in my phone notifications and my heart sank. I am so heartbroken for you. It's something that hits home for me. I have had 6 miscarriages (out of 7 pregnancies, 1 living child) and the doctors can't find a reason why. So I know that feeling of your body betraying you. It is so heartbreaking every single time. I want to hug you and cry with you. Definitely take your time for yourself and your family. Like with any loss, the pain will never fully go away, but it will get easier. Thank you for sharing this. We are always told not to share early pregnancies because of what could happen but as you said, miscarriages are super common and it's not our fault. We shouldn't feel like we have to keep quiet. We should be able to celebrate the life we carried, no matter how long or short that life was. I am sending you so much love and healing energy, hun.
my love, hope and support are with you and every other women that deals with this. it is horrible, no matter how many times is does or doesnt happen. i could feel the pain in this video. thank you both for sharing. you are both beautiful and strong women!
My mom had the same amount of miscarriages as u and i was the only baby who had lived
My sister has been through miscarriages, still births and death hours after birth.
I feel you and hope your enjoying every moment with your beautiful little child and honouring (I KNOW you are ☺️) all of your other little souls
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@@rhi.p.9571 That's so heartbreaking. I actually had a dream last night I lost one of my 3 living daughters and I'm mentally still reeling from it. I can't stop kissing and snuggling my daughters... even my oldest rainbow baby, who's 9. I can't imagine and don't ever want to lose them and it's really hard when you have a history of so much loss (I also lost my mom unexpectedly when I was 18 and my grandpa unexpectedly when I was in my mid 20s. My grandma dies less than a year later. My brother, my only other family member outside of the family I created, is estranged due to drug use and violence) you feel like you could lose the people you love at any time and it's the scariest thing ever. I admit to being the mom who checks my girls and makes sure they're still breathing throughout the night... at 7 months, 2 years, and 9 years old. They're my miracles and I will never take for granted.
@@mereljanssen5794 @merel janssen Thank you so much! It has made me so much more grateful for the 3 living daughters I have now. Sending love and light your way 💜
I’m so, so sorry, Rachel. 😔
This is the kindest most sympathetic comment section iv ever seen on UA-cam. You are so so so so sooòo brave talking about your awful heartbreaking experience. Super glad you have such a great support network around you at this horrific time. Sending love from the country under down under xoxo stay strong honey, you got this x
I’m so sorry for the loss of your precious baby. I too suffered a miscarriage and almost right away I then had an ectopic pregnancy which resulted in a cancer called choriocarcinoma. The devastation of losing not only one but two babies was very difficult, and I was one of the silent ones. Thank you for being so real. Oftentimes UA-camrs don’t seem like real people. One day your rainbow will shine through this storm. God healed my body, and the cancer went away with no treatment, and now I have a beautiful 6 week old baby girl. So now I have an angel on earth and two in heaven. They’re probably playing with your little angel. You’ll always think about your angel with sadness, but with Gods help you will heal 💕
it took me 5 days to get the strength up to watch your message. This is because it has been 9 years, 1 healthy baby girl later and I STILL to this day am broken over the loss of my baby boy. He was lost at 5 months. This for those that are a bit confused; this means that I had to have him as a stillbirth. Therapy, meds, support, all the love I could stand and I still have a hard time not losing my cool when I remember him and that time. I believe that my postpartum; when I had my darling rainbow (a living child after many miscarriages) girl was made SO much worse by his loss and no one seeing the pain and fear of losing her. everyone always tells me that I am not alone and I am loved and it is not in anyway my fault and that is not the "higher" power punishing me for my sins or wrongdoing. however, as a woman, I still grieve and fear that i did something wrong. YOU are not alone, but you feel alone. we all process it differently. THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT. Do not shame or be ashamed about how you process or not process that loss with yourself or other. Remember just because I do not KNOW you, does not mean I can not love you!
Freya Mistwalker thank you for everything you said. I believe you. I'm sending you so many good vibes and wishes.
Freya Mistwalker This is about Rachel, not you, but I’m sorry for your loss.
I gave this video a "thumb's up" not because I like the content, but because I'm proud of you for being able to talk about this openly. It's important to raise awareness for this issue, which is so taboo to talk about for no reason. Your grief is just as valid as anyone else's who has lost someone, and you deserve to be able to talk or not talk about it if you want to. I hope you feel empowered to do and feel whatever you need to do and feel right now.
I had a miscarriage a few months ago and I’m still healing. I’m praying for you, I know this is one of the hardest thing to deal with. Love you ❤️
Nicole Perry-Bagsby so sorry for you’re loss ❤️❤️❤️
Im sorry for your loss.. :(
Nicole Perry-Bagsby 😘💙
I'm sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry for your loss :(
I’m so, so sorry for your loss. Sending 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻for you & your family. God bless you
This poor poor women. She is so sweet and is an amazing mother. As a women that has gone threw this 4 times I know how hard it is, and when the doctor tells you that there is no heartbeat it is just the worst thing in the world. I know that I already commented and that I might be writing to much. However Rachel is such a good person and she is so nice, its such a sad and trying time when someone loses a child. Honey you will always be a mother of 3 babies. I know that right know it hurts and that it never will end. I want you to know that there are amazing support groups out there that will help you thew it, THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!!! Whenever a women loses a child the most important thing that they need to know is ITS NOT YOUR FAULT!!!!! I know that you don't really know me and that you live in Canada but I am here for you. This is terrible and it's going to be hard but you are a strong and a beautiful women and I know that this will heal. I love you
rachel, please don’t feel forced to make videos during this time. we all understand that this is a hard and sad time for you. take as much time as you need, a week, a month, but when you do come back, i hope you are able to feel your best💕💕💕❤️❤️❤️❤️
I completely agree. Take all the time you need. We're all thinking of you and your family ❤️
Just wish we could all somehow line up to give you a hug!
I’m sure I’m not the only one watching and tearing up with you because We are all human and feel pain and sadness the same. Some may not understand motherhood or the loss but we can perceive the pain you are in and just wish we had the power to help you feel better ❤️
My rainbow baby will be 8 months this weekend. He is my sunshine after the rain.... you are not alone. The pain dulls for the most part, but it will strike at weird times! Just remember that your baby will never know the suffering of the world. He/she only knew the most loving place in the world and that's your womb. ❤
After two miscarriages in a row we are now expecting our first baby girl 💕 praying for you!
I almost never comment on UA-cam videos, but really wanted to leave you a comment on the off chance you saw it. I miscarried once at age 18, with a baby I wasn’t prepared for and wasn’t sure I wanted, and it was still a completely horrible, traumatizing experience; after the miscarriage I found out that I will almost certainly never be able to bring a baby to term naturally. I’ve since made my peace with never becoming a mother. But your deep love of your children shines through your every word - and you are such a beautiful ray of sunshine of a human being, it completely breaks my heart that you are going through this. It’s physically painful, it’s mentally horrible, and it’s deeply emotionally traumatizing. Thank you so much for speaking out about this. So many women who have suffered a miscarriage, or are going through it now, or may go through it in the future will be so comforted and helped by your words, and with your willingness to talk about the terrible grief and pain that ensues. We all love you, we are here for you, and your family and friends will hold you up even when you are falling down. Thank you for being so open - your words will help not just one woman, but thousands. Sending healing and love your way.
Sorry to hear Rachel. I lost my baby due to miscarriage the day I was getting on a plane to meet my in laws. My husband was told he couldn’t have children due to exposure to chemicals in the military and we even had him tested before we started trying and got the same results, so the baby was our miracle baby. I felt like a failure, like I took away our only chance to have a baby. We ended up getting pregnant again, once again a miracle with how low of levels he had, luckily I am super fertile and now she is almost 4. Our first baby will always be in our hearts. I hope you find your way and know you are never alone.
Sending you and your husband so so much love and support during this time Rachel ❤️❤️❤️❤️
My heart truly breaks for you. 💔💔 Your loss is valid. It’s ok to talk about it!!! It’s ok to cry, be mad, etc. You didn’t loose a pregnancy, you lost your baby!!! Time doesn’t make it better and your grief is necessary. Your strength is beautiful!!! Know it’s not your fault!!!! You ARE a beautiful mother!!!! As a woman, whom has had 4 miscarriages myself, it is truly heartbreaking.... Your Angel baby will always know your love and it’s forever beautiful 💗💙 YOU TAKE ALL THE TIME YOU NEED. Hugs and love are with you so so much 💗💙💔
Please feel free to take time off. Your subscribers totally support you in that.
Also, one thing that has helped me cope with miscarriages is getting something as a reminder of them. After my second my sister sent me a willow tree figurine and it stays somewhere where I can always see it. Just a little representation of that baby.
I had a miscarriage around this time last year and I did suffer silently. I wish I had, had the courage to share my experience at the time and i truly appreciate you reaching out to others who may be going through the same thing. Miscarriages are extremely lonely and painful, so again, thank you for having the courage to speak. ❤ It really is a comfort to know you are not alone.
Praying💕 The Lord knows you're hurting. Trust Him and let Him love on you. He makes everything better. Sending love and support your way!
I’m so sorry Rachel.
My husband and I lost our first daughter at 41 weeks. We went to the hospital for a stress test which turned into an ultrasound showing her heart not beating. I was the same as you all the way through labor, refusing to believe she was gone. Miracles happen, she could still be alive right? This was 16 years ago. I’m writing this to tell you our tradition. Every year on her birthday we celebrate by releasing a dozen pink balloons at the time she was born. She is still our daughter, we still love her, and think about her. We still cry at our lost. It doesn’t make sense and it doesn’t need to. I wish your family solace and your mind finds peace.
Laura Engel I’m so sorry that happened, but I think it’s really sweet and amazing that you still celebrate your daughter’s birthday
Oh Laura!!! I'm sorry!! I can't imagine.. my heart is broken for you.
I’m so sorry for your loss and admire your strength ❤️💔
Oh Laura you are so brave, I’m so so sorry for your loss 💞
Laura Engel those balloons are killing birds.
I don’t comment often and I’m sure there is little chance you will see this. I found out I was pregnant 4 days after my husband deployed to Afghanistan(I was estimated 5 weeks at that point) and then at 11 weeks I went in for an ultrasound and they found that my baby had no heart beat. I had to have the surgery as my body wasn’t doing it naturally. I had to go through it alone while my husband was devastated and stuck in Afghanistan. They called in his Chaplin and superior to be with him. But I was left to go through it alone. I say this because I’ve never told my story. I thank you for using your platform to speak about this. So many of us feel like we can’t talk about it. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. Take as much time as you need to mourn. We will be here when you are ready Rachel. We all love you so so much.
I'm so sorry. I don't know you, but I'm sending you love. 💕
Praying for you. May God comfort you during this time!
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Rach, I have only been subscribed, watching and keeping up with your videos for maybe less than a year. I know there are many others who have been following you for even longer and who feel much closer to you, but even in less than a year, you are one of those influencers who is just so incredibly real that your personality comes out so strong and if you make me feel like I know you, I can only imagine how you have made your other followers, ones you’ve had for years, feel so close to you. Without communicating with not even one of your other followers, I know this breaks their hearts as well. I also know that many woman go through tough, unimaginable situations like you are right now (I, myself, have not - I have one beautiful, amazing little girl and two “step” children, a 9yo girl and 7 almost 8yo boy - I’m not married, yet). But my fiancé’s son wrote a Halloween story for school and called me his mom and my daughter his little sister - let’s just say I was shown this story by his kids and had to run upstairs because I started and couldn’t stop crying, of course, happy tears. This is one thing I see with you and your story - I, as well as many others, have seen/watched videos of other influencers with similar, along the lines of pregnancy, if not the same story you have just shared, but to me ( AND THIS COMES AS NO HURTFUL COMMENT TO ANYONE ELSE I’VE WATCHED ) you started this video crying and ended it crying, while keeping it together as best, and may I say, better than I would have ever been able to, and that is true emotion - it is the real you and that’s what I LOVE about you. It’s true love for someone, your baby, you’ve lost, you are 100% human and as one of your followers, I appreciate your willingness to just be human [in no matter what type of video you post], to let your true feelings just out there. Crying - I hate and can’t do it, unless literally forced, to do it in front of anyone, I can’t imagine how hard it is so make an UNEDITED video, just sitting down and sitting still, and having to talk about what you have just shared. You have strength, courage, love for everyone; not just family and friends, but for everyone out in the world supporting you. I also don’t believe anyone could have your love, strength and courage without you having people standing behind you and supporting you with that same love, strength and courage, most of all the people CLOSEST to you - your family and friends. That’s when you know that, I don’t think it’s something many woman who go through it get over, ever, but they learn and understand ways to live life differently, better even, having gone through it - but really because of the people you have beside you. I rarely ever post comments, but I just couldn’t help it. I felt I needed to let you know how awesome you are and how, when I’m having a bad day, gosh, your videos, your sense of humor ESPECIALLY, make me escape from whatever it is I need to escape from for a little while. So you escape, for as long as you need, but know we will ALL be here for when you’re ready to come back! Love, prayers and wishes to you and your WHOLE family.... and, of course, to your baby boy who will be watching over his Momma forever.
When this video came out, I was pregnant and my grandmother had just been diagnosed with terminal cancer... At the end of November, I lost my first pregnancy. I remember trying to watch this video and a coworker told me not to be paranoid and not watch this kind of stuff. I wish I had so I understood what it was like and what it would feel like. I'm so sorry you lost your baby... Your story really is very similar to the experience I had, I remember all of these same feelings. Thank you for sharing.
I’m crying for you. I’m crying for my many miscarriages, especially my last one. I’m crying over the day that I was told I needed to go on continuous birth control pills in order to shut my ovaries down due to cysts that could become cancerous. I knew I’d never get the chance to have another. I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this. I’m so, so sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry Rachel. My heart dropped when I saw the title for this video. I am sending prayers and hugs.
I’ve havent heard many people speak out on this topic or talk about what they went through I’m glad you shared your heartbreaking experience and showed people what you go through and let them know they’re not alone ! I wish you and your family the best please take care of your self ❤️❤️ I just wanna give you a big hug stay strong beautiful
Rachel, I watched this video when it was uploaded and 2 weeks later found out that I had experienced a missed miscarriage at 12 weeks (my first pregnancy). I cannot tell you how much insight and comfort this video gave me in knowing my feelings were valid. I'm just starting to feel like myself again, and happy to see in your latest videos that you seem to be healing too. Know that sharing your story has helped others, and that you are never alone in this! xoxo
I just had one too last weekend. It is so hard. Praying for peace for you and your family. ❤️
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@@emc5807 You're a terrible human being. I get that trolling is the only way you get attention, but this is NOT the place to do it.
Amy Clements 😘 better than you sweetie
So sorry to you and your family.
@@emc5807 what is wrong with you? Is there nothing better you could do with your free time than hurting people? Always easy on the internet right? Imagine people treating YOU like this. Be kind
Take as long as you need Rach. Nothing is more important than your healing process. We will be here when you’re ready.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. You bring so much joy into this world. Sending you love and light.
I sadly imagined that was the case when you said you were in hospital. I'm very sorry for your loss. A big hug to you and Chris
P.S.: please, take as much time off as you need
I’m so sorry to hear this but it’s so nice for everyone who goes through this to not feel alone. I had one many years ago before I had my twins and I still think of it often. No one ever talked about miscarriages when i had mine and I wished people had Bc I felt so alone.
It's actually astounding how little miscarriages are talked about. Especially because sadly, as many as 15% of confirmed pregnancies are estimated to end that way. It's a terribly unfortunate thing, but nothing to be ashamed of. I think this comment section shows that there is a shift to lessen the stigma. And I really hope that's the case - so that women no longer have to suffer quietly as you or my mother did. Lots of love to you and your twins!
Oh Rachel. I am so sorry. I will be praying for you lots, girl! 💕💕💕
Having been through this myself, multiple times, my heart goes out to you & your family. Thank you for sharing your story 💞
Now watch this back and really listen. You’re giving wonderful advice. I hope you’re taking it to heart too. You did nothing wrong. Your body isn’t broken. Your heart is surely broken. Be patient with yourself. Love yourself. ❤️❤️
So beautiful written
I am so sorry that you and your family had to go through this. Please take as much time as you need, we will wait for you and completely understand. I love you so so much and my heart goes out to you Rach!
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I’m so sorry for your and your family’s loss. Thanks for doing this. As an OB RN, I can tell you that THIS VIDEO will help at least one other person. May even save a life. Very brave. Hugs.
Wow, just wow you are such a beautiful soul to share this heartbreak. Thank you for taking the time to talk to us. Heal yourself before feeling any guilt about this situation. Sending love and prayers for you. Xxx
I’ll see UA-camrs come out with videos announcing really sad news and my heart aches for them. Of course it does, you’d have to be heartless to not care. But seeing this video title paired with rach’s username.... my heart just dropped. You are such a beautiful and genuine person and I wish for this horrible aching to pass for you as soon as possible. It seems the worst things happen to the most lovely people. It also somehow makes them even more lovely and kind and strong and just the truest form of good. If you need time away, take it without a drop of guilt. If you want to continue, we will be here supporting you as always. Stay strong rach
Rachel. We love you and we’re all here for you. We’ll understand any time you need to take off. I’m so so sorry for your loss.
I’m so sorry!! I had a miscarriage this past June. So my wound is fresh... i understand what you are going thru. I’m sending you love and hugs!!!
I am so sorry for your loss, and wanted to say thank you for making this video. I lost my first baby about 3 months ago (at 8 weeks). Your video is one of the most healing things I've experienced through this pain. Thank you for letting your scars bring healing to others. Miscarriage is such a silent grief--partly because of the shame and partly because it's just difficult for anyone to understand if they have not lived it. I needed to hear the words you spoke over yourself. It's not your fault, and my loss is not my fault. It's just the price of living in a broken world. Please know that it's ok to hurt over the little one you never met. Take time for yourself and time for your family. Give yourself grace when you break down at the movies, in the baby aisle, or when a friend announces their pregnancy/birth of their baby. It's ok to not be ok for a while.
This totally breaks my heart.... I've been diagnosed with infertility from my doctor. This isn't a pain I ever have to endure. I never would've, like, known how frequent a miscarriage happened, or how bad it can be, how painful... Until I came here. Rachel, if you see this, I am so sorry for your loss. My (now broken) little heart goes out to you and to Christopher and Julia and Luke and your family and friends. I really can't imagine what kind of pain you must be in... I'm in grieving for you. I think all your fans, the whole subscriber base, is with you. Wishing we could all hug you, hold your hand, let you cry on our shoulders as much as you need. We all love and feel the loss of little Michael. I just... I'm so sorry. My heart really goes out to you. I dont know if you guys are religious, but I pray for your beautiful family. I love you Rachel, I hope for the best.
Take as much time as you need to heal your body and soul. We are here for you now and we will wait until you feel the time is right.
I just want to hug you 😭😭 I’m so so sorry you’re having to go through this. We all love you ❤️
my momma has always wanted to have a baby with my stepdad, but she knew that it probably wasn’t going to happen after complications with my little brother. last year, a week after her 42 birthday, momma found out she was pregnant. we were all confused, but so excited. we went to washington dc for christmas that year, and on our 4 day, momma started having stomach pains. we spent 3 days going from the hospital in a foreign place, to saying at the Air BnB, to finally leaving. on our way home we stopped for dinner, and momma went to the bathroom and passed the baby, but the toilet was automatic, so momma watched her baby flush away. every woman in my life at this point as suffered a miscarriage, and i’m so proud of you for posting this video. momma still gets sad, momma still cried over little baby shoes, but she’s a million times better than she was. you’re so brave for putting this out there. you are not alone. you are loved. you are wonderful.
Oh Rachel I’m so sorry. My first pregnancy was a miscarriage at 8 weeks. So true that it feels so lonely, but also so true that it’s amazing how once you start talking to people about it you realize how common it is, so many women suffering in silence indeed. Please take all the time you need to grieve and take care of yourself ❤️
Rach, I lost my daughter last year to a surgical error and had a miscarriage just before her. Your videos have helped me cope with that loss in ways I can't thank you for. I wish this wasn't a hurt you were experiencing, truly. You heart is so good and it shows through everything you do. Heck, you're even trying to support US with advice in your time of need. We all stand by you, and we will wait as long as you need. 💗
Ooooh no sweetie 😞 I send you all my love, tenderness and positivism to help you go through this battle ❤️
Sending you so much love and light 💕 I am so sorry. Your baby will forever be with you just know that. 🙏🏽
Rachel, I have always admired and loved you but coming out and being so honest truly shows how amazing and strong you are. I'm so sorry for what happened, I cant imagine. I am sending you a big hug from Colorado.
I love you so much Rach. Don’t you forget how special, beautiful, and amazing you are. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain you’re going through... sending all our love from the UK 🇬🇧💖 please- take the time to grieve. Don’t worry about your subs; we will be here for when you’re ready to come back. We all adore you so much, and we’re so grateful you’ve opened up to us about something so personal. I love you girl, take care of yourselves. Em xxx
Love you so much Rach❤️ You take as much time as you need to recover. I can only imagine how hard this must be for you or for anyone. Stay strong. We all love you and pray for you and your family.
I’m so sorry to hear about your loss.. take all the time you need to come back to UA-cam. And thank you for being so real. You’re in my prayers ♥️
Rachel, you don't need to jump right back into things if you aren't ready. We understand and you can take as much time as you need. We will always be here for you. Baby Michael is in our hearts.
Noo even the title broke my heart. :'( My thoughts go out and to you and your family.
I am so sorry for your loss! Prayers for you and your sweet family! 💗
I am so sorry for you and I admire you that you chose to speak about this issue and support other women! You are amazing and strong person and you are going to get through this!
I truly believe the saying “you’re as sick as your secrets”. I had three miscarriages, and I’m so grateful to have my healthy daughter. I didn’t get over the trauma until I started opening up about it. You then realize how many brave women around you have also suffered the same loss. Rachel, you are so courageous for opening up about this, and you will be helping more women than will ever know. Thoughts and prayers 💗💗💗xo Lauren
TheHonestBeautyReview strength and love to you 💙💙💙💙 for your loss
TheHonestBeautyReview same hear I had a lot and now I have a heathy son and daughter my boy is 16 and my daughter is a 11 everything happens for a reson and I thank god so much for the blessing he has given me
God bless you and daughter. Love hearing stories about different strong women! All love to you 🧡🧡🧡
TheHonestBeautyReview beautifully said.
Wow what sweet comments. This is what I LOVE about this community! Thank you Rachel for uniting us all
Omg no, I’m so sorry that you went through this 😭 Just know we love you so much ❤️
You didn't watched yet!!
HeyItsMya I am so sorry sweetie! Praying for you and your family
Sorry for you loss. May God bless you with a beautiful child in the future.
I see I commented on this video 2 years ago, because I was sobbing hearing about your loss. Now I am watching this video, because I am going through the same myself. Thank you so much for it. I know it's silly, but I do feel supported listening you saying it's not my fault.
I’m sorry for ur loss stay strong ..
We love you!
And we support you!
May your healing be wholesome. 💕
I can't even watch all of this Rachel... I am so very sorry! My heart breaks for you. I pray you feel free to take time for yourself - we aren't important - you are! Praying and sending hugs.
Oh honey, I am so, so sorry! Crying for you right now and sending healing vibes. 🙇♀️🙇♀️🙇♀️
So so sorry for your loss!!! ❤ thank you for sharing your story and this terrible news. It's never easy!!!
Thank you so much for sharing this and I’m so sorry for your loss. I had a miscarriage in 2016 at 11+6 weeks and it was absolutely devastating. Hearing from others who had been through it was a big help to me. The pain will fade but of course you’ll never forget your baby.
I’m now 14 weeks pregnant with a rainbow baby and still nervous but excited and grateful too.
You will be okay xxx
Laura Clark I read yesterday that a mantra to adopt for pregnancy after a miscarriage is "today I am pregnant." I knew that there were problems with my pregnancy before I lost my baby and I tried to focus in enjoying my pregnancy for as long as I could. Regardless of the outcome. Meditation has also been a HUGE help in dealing with uncertainty then grief.
Wishing you the best. ❤️
Rachel,
First of all, I want to express how deeply sorry I am that you and your family have to go through this. We lost our son Connor back in 2016 due to a medical condition I developed. I always say the loss of a child is like being part of a club that no one wants to join, but once you’re there, you automatically connect with those who have gone through something similar.
I related to so many things that you said in this video. I also felt like my body had betrayed me, but I had to constantly remind myself that it was not my fault. Everything you are feeling is valid. Be sad. Be mad. Grieve. Let yourself feel it all, as painful as it is.
Three UA-camrs that I follow have announced a miscarriage in the last month. THREE. It goes to show how common this is. I am so PROUD of you for talking about this in your darkest days. For myself and everyone else who has gone through a loss, I say thank you. We will be here when you get back with virtual hugs! 💙💙
This absolutely broke my heart. I’m praying for you and your family. You are incredibly strong for sharing this. Take time for yourself, don’t worry about us
Wow... Just wow! I'm truly sorry for your loss. The fact that you're able to share and care enough about others at this point of your grieving process just further amazes me. You're truly a strong, beautiful and amazing woman. I'm convinced this will definitely be of help and support to others. I too suffered miscarriage it was years ago..28 years ago to be exact. It was with twins and I lost one early in pregnancy and the second one at 6 months so the grieving felt like it went on forever. It felt unreal and like you said like your body is betraying you. I have two grown sons whom I love and am very proud of, but I still often think of my girls that I never had a chance to know. It's definitely something you will carry with you but it is also this experience that will help you to help others as you already are! I will keep you and your family in my prayers. The best piece of advice I could give is take your time sweetie... Don't rush into having to do everything! You need this time. Love you for all you do!!
Love and prayers
Dawn
So sorry for your loss! I have been there 4 times myself and you just take as much time to grieve, don't rush yourself. Sending hugs and positive vibes your family's way!! Take care!! 🤗💖
As a woman who has lost two babies it’s important to say that no woman should blame herself for her baby dying. Keep talking about your thoughts and feelings. Light a candle for your baby. Get a necklace with the baby’s birthstone. These are things I did that have helped me.
I’m so sorry. It’s just not fair. Take your time and remember that grief is not always linear. You’ll have ups and downs and don’t ever let anyone tell you how long or how much you should grieve.
I’m so sorry rach, this is horrible and no one should have to go through this. You’re not alone! You have a great support system with your family and with us.
I am so sorry for your loss lovely. I had a missed miscarriage last July and you’re right, it is the most painfully lonely experience I have ever been through. Keep talking to your loved ones and be kind to yourselves xx
Thank you for having the courage to share this. I'm so sorry for the grief and pain you are experiencing with this loss 💖
Oh Rachel I am so so sorry for what you and your family are going through you take all the time you need don't worry about us we here always for you we love you and we wish all of you well I will pray for you and your family and for Michael you take care of yourself God bless you and yours love Lisa from Boston
I want so badly to fly to Canada, hug you hard for a long time, and make you a cup of tea. I'll be praying.
I am so, so sorry for what you're going through and what your family is going through. Prayers and thoughts to your family that the pain passes soon. I can't fathom what you're feeling and what you're going through. This can't be easy so you're so strong and brave for this.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending you love and hugs and positive vibes. Thank you so much for being open about this and talking to us about this. It’s a very hard thing to be open about but I can’t tell you how much this means to us that you are talking about this. Sending you so much love and hugs.
Everyone of us following you. It s not really the content we love. It is you. We love you. We are all over the world and we send you love, support and we will be thinking about you and your family.
Thank you for sharing your bright personality in the good and bad times. ❤❤❤❤❤
I have also suffered a miscarriage. It was awful, painful, devastating, and I felt so much guilt even though I knew I shouldn't have. I saw my baby's heartbeat and lost the baby a week later. I had no idea how common it is because no one talks about it. I now have a beautiful 3 year old boy who was born a micro-preemie, but is thriving now. I still think about my first baby all the time. I will always be emotional about it and I do tell people. In a way, it was comforting to hear that it had happened to other people, so I share my story. Sending you a virtual hug. I know all the feelings you are feeling and they hurt so bad. Take some time for yourself, grieve, and hug on your babies. ❤️
Sending you so much love and strength Rachel we’re all here for you💛
So very sorry for your loss. Wishing you and your husband peace and strength during this devastating time. ♥️
The most helpful advice I was given was to name the baby, So you can properly grieve the loss. We wrote letters for the hope's and dreams we had for baby, and my apology that they didn't get to join us, and had a burial for the letters. It takes time... sending love
This is true. My first and only pregnancy ended in miscarriage at the 11 week mark. Its wasnt til about 10 years ago that we gave our unborn baby a name and it hasnt taken the pain away but its a bit easier to bear.
@@tuesdayhager1753 I'm so sorry for your loss
I would think that would make it harder. Besides you can't name it if you don't know if it was a boy or a girl.
Mandy G I agree. I knew that my 1st loss was a girl so we named her and I feel more at peace with that loss as weird as that sounds.
I agree with this. I named my baby Angel, given that i never got to find out the gender and he/she is my angel now.
oh honey, unfortunately miscarriages are more common than people think... I totally feel your pain... I had one... and it is a very difficult time.. Please take the time off and grieve BUT please remember - there's a tomorrow! God will bless you with more children, i'm sure! Your very own "rainbow baby" :) Please remember that.
I’m so sorry for your loss. You are so strong for telling people what you’re going through. Everything will get better with time. I love you and you’re videos ❤️
I'm so sorry. I'm glad you're talking about this. Love and blessings.
I’m so sorry, Rachel. ❤️ This is heartbreaking...absolutely, take your time to grieve. I’m sorry for your loss.
Who the hell is down voting this video? Obviously no one “likes” the subject matter but a thumbs up is a show of support for what Rachel is going through. 52 people should be ashamed of themselves.
Rachel, I’m so sorry that you are going through this. There are no words to make this better, but you will get through this. I don’t think the loss & the pain will ever go away, but you will heal. And you will expand your family if you still want to, when it’s supposed to happen. Give yourself time. And don’t blame yourself. I know that’s easier to say than do... but unfortunately these unfair things do just happen in life. There does not need to be blame.
I will pray for you and your family (including your little baby in heaven).
ToBeFetching asshats, that’s who does stuff like that
ToBeFetching well said, and I feel the same way.
i’m so so sorry to hear that you had to go through this, rach. it must’ve been so tough, but the fact that you are so strong and powerful amazes me. You’re strong, you’re amazing, you might always feel deeply hurt if anyone brought this up, such a thing can never be easy to let go off, but always remember that you are strong. And we are always, ALWAYS, here for you. Thank you for everything, I idolize you.
Take your time to heal. I'm so sorry for your loss and so grateful that you are reaching out to share your story.
I feel conflicted on giving this a thumbs up because obviously I'm so, so sad for you, Rachel. You are love and light personified. Your radiant personality and vulnerability with your followers has made you feel like the closest of friends to me. I wish I could bring you tea and give you real hugs. I am sending you so much love. I know too many people who have experienced miscarriage and other sad pregnancy outcomes, and I truly wish no one ever had to experience this. No one can advise you when to feel what emotion and how long it will take to feel like you have processed and get to your normal again. When you are ready, those who love to "visit" with you will be here. ❤
Carrie Meadows then just do neither. Not hating but I hope you understand that the beginning of this comment isn’t exactly necessary or suitable