Dear Eva, I never ever leave comments, but I'm a longtime viewer. I just wanted to send my greatest amount of love. My greatest mentor/inspiration (my mom) also bore a stillborn child. I was her miracle baby that came after. My mom passed a while ago. Watching your old videos helped me in my grief and seeing your journey provided me hope in my darkness. And I hope this message can provide you with some solace now: You are not alone. You are loved. My beloved bore this too. She somehow ended up being a very vibrant/happy/passionate -about-life senior. Please give yourself all the time and grace. Sometimes the unexplicable happen to very very good people. Your journey is not over. Olive lives with us all. Much much love to you.
Never clicked so fast, I never thought I can open up about my personal grieving until I found you in youtube. To have a precious scar in the heart, it pains and softens the soul at the same time... like a two-edge sword. Hope your days get brighter and allow yourself to smile, to plan for the future, to make life worth living. I've been trying journaling lately, people say it helps anyway, sending you love.
Sending you lots of love Eva.My heart is breaking for the two of you and it's so powerful that you're sharing everything with us despite how challenging this experience is for you. You've had such a challenging few years and I hope you're able to be patient and kind to yourself through your journey. I hope you're feeling supported and loved even though you no longer have your mom. Thank you for being so open and honest with the community you've built here. We love you!
I don’t respond to many videos but I have watched yours for years. I didn’t know exactly what to say except that watching your pain and heartache made me cry for you and your family. There’s nothing anyone can really say or do to make the hard ache go away but please no that your loss it’s felt by someone who has lost a child as well. Watching your pain and hearing you talk about it it’s so very brave of you because I still can’t. I know everyone says it will get better with time I don’t know if that’s true losing a child is something you never get over. I read somewhere that you never really get over a loss you just learn how to cope better with it. My prayers are with you and your family and take the time you need to grieve and lean into it. I wish I had the courage to go to a support group when I had my loss. Watching you go made me think I can finally do it now.
dearest eva my loving thoughts are with you and alen as loss and grief is such a difficult process that sadly will always be with you (as sadly you lost your lovely mum and wonderful little girl so close together...)..you are doing amazing just one step at a time as each day is different....i lost my daughter when she was 13 and then 10 months later i lost my mum too so i feel the deep pain you feel....17 years have now passed and grief and loss does get very different and you will find the strength to find a future with a new normal for you and your husband alen...much love carolxx
I wish I could take your and Alen's pain away, it's just too unfair what you have had to go through. Your little YT community is wrapped around you three so tight. We love listening and learning about Olive, thank you for sharing Eva. Sending so much love and strength to you x
The grieving process is a gradual process and you have to take it one day at a time. You are very brave and strong. I know your mother is with your baby and is watching out for her and i know your mother is proud of you. Our loved ones that have gone on just want us to be happy while we are here in this existence. The Lord is with you always. It is truly hard to talk to people when we are feeling grief and just as they don't know what we are going through, we don't know what they have gone through either. I don't know if this helps, but people care.
Eva, my heart goes out to you and Alen during your time of immense grief. I couldn’t help but be reminded that we should be kind to all those we see and meet as we never know what they have gone through. Your courage to go out and take one step at a time when all you may want to do is stay home is a big step. One hour at a time, one step at a time, one day at a time. I hope it helps you to make videos - if not and you need time - we all understand and support you.
Darling Eva, my heart truly aches for you, life can be so damn cruel 😢. Second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour. Time is a healer. Lots of love to you both xx
Eva, I know how hard this is, as much as I can know. I'm finding it so emotional, but also so proud of you , to see how you are coping with this , you are doing everything right- even if you still feel like so much is wrong. You must continue to be SO kind and tender to yourself, give yourself time outs, as well as pats on the back for the steps you are taking. You know, I wasn't sure if I really understood what you felt, (how can I?) and then I had some kind of dream or watched something and suddenly I got a terrible pain in my stomach imagining your situation, I really felt so intensely grieved and in pain- just imaging your feelings, and I think I could relate to how HUGE this is - on a sort of visceral level. So each time I see you taking these steps, I really get, as much as I can "get" -what a task it is. Sending you big love and hugs... Alen too.. Keep on with your gentle task of healing. xox
I am so glad you are being kind to yourself and taking things slow. I lost a dear friend suddenly last January and even though a year has passed, the weight of the loss is still there. I think it will always be there. I was finally able to eat lunch at a place me and my friend went to this month. Some of my other friends told me to just throw myself into my work right after my friend died but that wasn't the right path for me. I needed to take my time and grieve instead of throwing myself into long work hours. Thank you for sharing your feelings and ups and downs with us. You are so brave Eva. I know Olive is so proud of her mummy. xoxo
I really wanted to give you a hug Eva. The feelings you mention regarding going out alone I fully understand. I lost my mum last summer and I’m still having issues with social anxiety. I think all you can do is take one day at a time and try not to look too far ahead, as you said be kind to yourself. We are all here for you. Sending you much love x
Have you thought about going to therapy? I think it would be super helpful in processing everything you’ve gone through with the death of your mom and Olive. I’m sending you a big hug.
I think of you guys everyday. Others have said it all but I just wanted you to know we all are praying for you and Allan. I think I once heard your Queen say”Grief is the price we pay for love” Olive will always be a part of your heart. I have followed both you and Allan for years. I remember one video that really made me think “What a sweet couple”. It was NewYears Eve and you cooking something for him. It was so precious and you guys looked so happy. Please be kind to yourself Eva. Love from Arizona US .( We aren’t all nut jobs over here :)
Oh Eva. My heart goes out to you. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain of losing a child. My prayers are with you and your sweet family ❤️ I’m new to your channel - I found you whilst searching for videos about grief. I lost my mum in May and it’s been the loneliest, most excruciating experience of my life. Please know that you’re not alone in this world. Thank you for being so strong and for giving others the privilege to hear your story. Sincerely, Emma
I think your doing all the right things to help you deal with everything, it’s something that takes a long long time before you feel more yourself again, be kind to yourself if you don’t make those steps and have to start again. I can remember not having anyone to talk with and out of fear refused additional help, I’m not sure if they do it now but I remember thinking someone should check up on the mother after she goes home from the hospital, make sure her body is healing and check on her mental health etc. I think knowing what other mums are going through and some of their coping skills would of been so helpful, no internet back then. I’m also a introvert and nothing panics me more than speaking in front of strangers, Im so glad you both had the courage to go, so glad you found it helpful in some ways. Sometimes we feel like we are the only ones having these thoughts and feelings. I can remember rambling to a shop assistant as I was buying some items to remind me of my baby about my loss, I can also remember clamming up when ask if I had children as I didn’t want to upset the person who asked. I think that sharing your thoughts and feelings will ultimately help another women who comes across these videos, so they know that they are aloud to take time and be kind to themselves. Xxxx
Eva the up and down feelings are as far as I know from my own experience of recently losing a child, part of the grieving emotion. You are doing well to be pushing yourself out into the world as much as you can tolerate for you and for Alan. I too am a grieving parent and I just hope this virtual hug reaches you.
Share what you feel comfortable with. You can tell us you aren't OK and we will know that's the situation. If you don't feel comfortable talking about some things that's fine. We just want you to feel like your videos are a safe space for you xx This is still such early days for you. Be kind to yourself.
Grief is a total rollercoaster. My feeling is that Olive & your mom are together. Know she’s with you mom ~ safe & loved. Your two angels together forever until you meet them again. Be kind to yourself. I’m glad you went to the meet up with others who have gone through the same journey it’s nice to have others who are on a similar journey to you. I wish I could reach through the screen and hug you. Sending you strength and to Alen too.
Eva, Olive and Alan you guys are in our hearts and prayers we love you and know that we are all here for you. You need to take as much time as you need to cry and grief take it little by little❤
I had a mc with my first and my mama has also been passed since 2016. It would have been easier if I had my mom to talk to. I do find myself talking to my dad more, but it cannot replace my mom. Us mama-less mamas definitely have a different kind of struggle. #hugs
You have been through it!!! Since I can’t be kind to you in person, please continue to give yourself grace. 💐 Do you fully realize that putting out these videos is a sign of great strength! It doesn’t matter how long it’s taken, you’ve succeeded! You 2 may not be ready yet, but eventually, do you think a trip to a place you both felt comfortable and happy in the past, would be nice? Maybe in the fall, a nice sunny place without too many people. Big hugs to you both.
Thank yoy ❤️ we have thought about going abroad possibly in September or October. We haven’t been on a plane since 2019 so gotta build ourselves up to that for now xxx
I found your channel yesterday cause we are on holiday in Berlin, and you came up , been seeing a few vlogs and I really wish I could give you the biggest varm hug .. Im here to stay .. hugs from a dane.. there are no words for such a loss...
I found her channel years ago because they went to Copenhagen. I can’t remember if I’d already gone on my 1st trip yet, or if I was just missing Copenhagen. Eva is such a sweet, hopeful soul. She’s had a hard few years, but her spark will brighten again, and curiosity in everyday things and travel will see her through.
I’ve been a subbie for quite sometime, but I don’t think I have ever commented before. I wish I had some words of comfort, but I know there are none. Just know a stranger across the world is thinking of you, crying with you, you are not alone. Sending love ❤️
Dear Eva, you can be so proud of yourself. You are doing the best you can do: little steps and being kind to yourself. Days that start rough can be lithter in the afternoon. It is ok to be angry, disappointed, to cry. But It is also ok to smile and laugh and not feeling bad for it. Emotions come and go in waves, they will come but they will also go. When you talked about your mom, I immediately had a picture of her in my mind how she was holding Olive. Maybe it is helping if you imagine that your mom takes good care of her until you join her someday. She is not alone. Sending you lots of love and empathy!
Big hugs Eva, take things slowly don’t try to achieve too much to soon. I find listening to you so helpful in my own grief from losing my husband in May, totally different I know but my daughter went through stillbirth 7 years ago so I do have some experience of what you are going through, she did go on to have another son and although he will never be a replacement he gave a focus again. Take care xx
Eva I am so sorry for your and Alens loss of Olive, I’ve been a long time viewer and my heart is broken for you both but thank you for being so brave to share such a personal part of your life to support others that have similar happen. Olive will know what a wonderful loving mum you are to her and how much she is loved xx
I wish I could take away your pain, it is heartbreaking you are going through this agony. You will never stop grieving your precious Olive and I am sure you wouldn’t want to, but in time I promise, you will find joy in life again.nI am so very sorry for your loss
I hurt for you. I had a scare when I was pregnant and the feeling that gave me was so scary and made me panic so much. That was from a scare... not when you 2 have been through. Time will show you how to live again.... not to forget but to live once more. I want to hug you .... that is from the heart of a mom. I lost my mom at 22. I am now a grandma of 8. You are doing really good slowly getting out. Take baby steps and be kind to your self. Biggest hugs Olive would be so proud just as you are so proud of her. xxx
Oh Eva, remember there is no limit to grieving. I have lost my mother in April of 2022, so I understand that part. I know you and Alen are doing the best you can, and doing all the right things (whatever that is). Take one day at a time, one moment, one step and eventually, you will find yourselves again x I know the pain of losing your precious Olive will never disappear and eventually your sadness will bring you comfort xx
Eva and allan sending all my love. Take your time, dont push yourselves and take everyday ad it comes. If you plan something and cant do it, dont feel bad or guilty. Just go with your feelings. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Grief is such a personal thing, you mum is with you in your heart I'm sure of it. You're so brave, I wish I could give you a hug and just be there for you. We are all here for you xx
thanks for sharing your life and your grief with us, Eva. I can't imagine the loss, but you mentioning the different types of grief you were experiencing helped me to grow my own understanding of what hardships child loss can bring on parents. I just want to say this is incredibly brave and vulnerable for you to share, I hope you are able to get encouragement from making these videos and from the community you have here as well.
I know how difficult it must be to talk to people who don’t know your story. But if I may make a suggestion, maybe tell a stranger your pain. Tell them about Olive. I believe everyone we meet is not by accident. Maybe they need to hear your story, maybe you need to hear theirs. Only a suggestion. Sending you blessings, love and hope for a better tomorrow ❤️
Eva, it's so immensely strong and generous that you're continuing to share your story with us, so that we can know olive through you, and now we will always know her
You’re doing the very best you can. Take it one hour at a time. It’s all you can do during such an incredibly difficult and traumatic period of your life. Olive is your daughter and although she is not with you she is not lost, she is in you and is part of you. You were her home and you always will be xxx
I am so sorry Eva about losing Olive. I can’t imagine the pain you and your husband are going through. Thank you for doing the video to help others. Sending you lots of love ❤️
I thought i was never one for talking things through or sharing, but having lost my husband 2 and a half years ago, and becoming increasingly isolated i discovered a supportive forum which has introduced me to a growing number of friends who have helped me to socialise again.
Oh Eva, grief is such a roller coaster! My loss happened suddenly and traumatically, and just as I was starting to get to the point you are at now, the pandemic hit! I felt like I was caught in an endless limbo. On the one hand, I didn’t have to go out and interact with other people, but that created its own problems, in the long run. (I’m working on it!) But there were no distractions available, so that was pretty rough too. You are doing a great job, whether it seems like you are or not, believe me, you are. Baby steps, and you are so wise to know that it’s important that you push yourself, but not too hard or too fast. Your supermarket analogy is a good one; now that you’ve done it a few times it doesn’t hold the fear for you. Gradually it will be like that for more and more things. I feel your pain and sadness, and I can only say I am behind you 100%. Sending you lots and lots of hugs ❤️❤️
Hi Eleanor, I had similar experience when my mum died. It was very sudden and traumatic and then a couple months later the pandemic hit. It’s hard to go through a pandemic when you’re in flight mode already ❤️ sending you love too
Eva… I feel the steps you are going through although horrendous are normal in grief and the fact you understand this is a step in itself.I’m so glad you went to the support group… I found it a great help for as long as I needed it… it’s not always for everyone but I felt the same… it also made me feel not so isolated. You are dealing with shock as well as grief…. You are talking… when talking to camera and I hope with all my heart this helps even if it’s just for the time you are doing it. Sending you lots of love and we are listening 💖💖💙
I can’t say I know how you feel, but I lost my husband in 2020, then my only brother in December 2021, and I just had my moms funeral yesterday, she passed July 5th. I know I need therapy, and I’m going to look for a therapist. I don’t know wheat to do with my self. My heart aches for you. You are in my prayers.
Sending lots of warmth and comfort your way. Anxiety dreams are devastating to wake up from and, for me at least, feels like you're starting the day a step behind when the first few steps forward are already hard enough. It's just about seeing how each day goes, well done for moving through the motions each day.
When you explain your experiences of grief, loss and feelings it makes total sense. My experience of Grief is that it always feels like a constant background painful ache then waves of debilitating pain and sorrow that are totally overwhelming . I think you are right to be compassionate to yourself. You have had so much to endure it is bound to be extremely difficult. I found cruse bereavement support invaluable. They didn’t take the grief away but helped me express all the feelings. I felt heard. Take care both of you. Xxx Think of you both all the time.
Eva you are pushing yourself way to far , it’s very early days and if you feel better staying at home so be it , do not force yourself to do anything….. take things day by day xxxxxxx
What a cruel, shit hand you got dealt. It’s absolutely horrendous to watch let alone experience. Your precious beautiful girl should be with her mum and dad …I’m so sorry…
Just a suggestion- go to the country. Get out of the city. Be in quiet. Be in nature. Take walks. Keep a journal. Read a book. Listen to music. The city might just be too much for you right now. God bless you and Alen.
Dear Eva, I never ever leave comments, but I'm a longtime viewer. I just wanted to send my greatest amount of love. My greatest mentor/inspiration (my mom) also bore a stillborn child. I was her miracle baby that came after. My mom passed a while ago. Watching your old videos helped me in my grief and seeing your journey provided me hope in my darkness. And I hope this message can provide you with some solace now: You are not alone. You are loved. My beloved bore this too. She somehow ended up being a very vibrant/happy/passionate -about-life senior. Please give yourself all the time and grace. Sometimes the unexplicable happen to very very good people. Your journey is not over. Olive lives with us all. Much much love to you.
Maybe I sound simplistic Eva, but in my heart I truly believe your mum and Olive are together🙏🏻
I was feeling this way too. And that Eva's mum has a part of Eva with her, in heaven
Never clicked so fast, I never thought I can open up about my personal grieving until I found you in youtube. To have a precious scar in the heart, it pains and softens the soul at the same time... like a two-edge sword. Hope your days get brighter and allow yourself to smile, to plan for the future, to make life worth living. I've been trying journaling lately, people say it helps anyway, sending you love.
Sending you lots of love Eva.My heart is breaking for the two of you and it's so powerful that you're sharing everything with us despite how challenging this experience is for you. You've had such a challenging few years and I hope you're able to be patient and kind to yourself through your journey. I hope you're feeling supported and loved even though you no longer have your mom. Thank you for being so open and honest with the community you've built here. We love you!
thank you xx
I don’t respond to many videos but I have watched yours for years. I didn’t know exactly what to say except that watching your pain and heartache made me cry for you and your family. There’s nothing anyone can really say or do to make the hard ache go away but please no that your loss it’s felt by someone who has lost a child as well. Watching your pain and hearing you talk about it it’s so very brave of you because I still can’t. I know everyone says it will get better with time I don’t know if that’s true losing a child is something you never get over. I read somewhere that you never really get over a loss you just learn how to cope better with it. My prayers are with you and your family and take the time you need to grieve and lean into it. I wish I had the courage to go to a support group when I had my loss.
Watching you go made me think I can finally do it now.
dearest eva my loving thoughts are with you and alen as loss and grief is such a difficult process that sadly will always be with you (as sadly you lost your lovely mum and wonderful little girl so close together...)..you are doing amazing just one step at a time as each day is different....i lost my daughter when she was 13 and then 10 months later i lost my mum too so i feel the deep pain you feel....17 years have now passed and grief and loss does get very different and you will find the strength to find a future with a new normal for you and your husband alen...much love carolxx
I wish I could take your and Alen's pain away, it's just too unfair what you have had to go through. Your little YT community is wrapped around you three so tight. We love listening and learning about Olive, thank you for sharing Eva. Sending so much love and strength to you x
The grieving process is a gradual process and you have to take it one day at a time. You are very brave and strong. I know your mother is with your baby and is watching out for her and i know your mother is proud of you. Our loved ones that have gone on just want us to be happy while we are here in this existence. The Lord is with you always. It is truly hard to talk to people when we are feeling grief and just as they don't know what we are going through, we don't know what they have gone through either. I don't know if this helps, but people care.
Eva, my heart goes out to you and Alen during your time of immense grief. I couldn’t help but be reminded that we should be kind to all those we see and meet as we never know what they have gone through. Your courage to go out and take one step at a time when all you may want to do is stay home is a big step. One hour at a time, one step at a time, one day at a time. I hope it helps you to make videos - if not and you need time - we all understand and support you.
Darling Eva, my heart truly aches for you, life can be so damn cruel 😢. Second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour. Time is a healer. Lots of love to you both xx
I feel the same, just want to give you a hug, Eva. Xx
Eva, I know how hard this is, as much as I can know. I'm finding it so emotional, but also so proud of you , to see how you are coping with this , you are doing everything right- even if you still feel like so much is wrong. You must continue to be SO kind and tender to yourself, give yourself time outs, as well as pats on the back for the steps you are taking. You know, I wasn't sure if I really understood what you felt, (how can I?) and then I had some kind of dream or watched something and suddenly I got a terrible pain in my stomach imagining your situation, I really felt so intensely grieved and in pain- just imaging your feelings, and I think I could relate to how HUGE this is - on a sort of visceral level. So each time I see you taking these steps, I really get, as much as I can "get" -what a task it is. Sending you big love and hugs... Alen too.. Keep on with your gentle task of healing. xox
I am so glad you are being kind to yourself and taking things slow. I lost a dear friend suddenly last January and even though a year has passed, the weight of the loss is still there. I think it will always be there. I was finally able to eat lunch at a place me and my friend went to this month. Some of my other friends told me to just throw myself into my work right after my friend died but that wasn't the right path for me. I needed to take my time and grieve instead of throwing myself into long work hours. Thank you for sharing your feelings and ups and downs with us. You are so brave Eva. I know Olive is so proud of her mummy. xoxo
I really wanted to give you a hug Eva. The feelings you mention regarding going out alone I fully understand. I lost my mum last summer and I’m still having issues with social anxiety. I think all you can do is take one day at a time and try not to look too far ahead, as you said be kind to yourself. We are all here for you. Sending you much love x
Have you thought about going to therapy? I think it would be super helpful in processing everything you’ve gone through with the death of your mom and Olive. I’m sending you a big hug.
Eva .. I think you’re one beautiful amazing strong mother . sending you all love keeping going!! ❤️ Eva 💙Alen olive 💚
I remember that feeling of not wanting to speak to anyone. I just wanted to put my arms through the screen and hug you.
Oh, Eva…. I’m crying with you. Love and God bless.
I think of you guys everyday. Others have said it all but I just wanted you to know we all are praying for you and Allan. I think I once heard your Queen say”Grief is the price we pay for love” Olive will always be a part of your heart. I have followed both you and Allan for years. I remember one video that really made me think “What a sweet couple”. It was NewYears Eve and you cooking something for him. It was so precious and you guys looked so happy. Please be kind to yourself Eva. Love from Arizona US .( We aren’t all nut jobs over here :)
I have no words for what you and Allen have been through. Big hugs for both of you...
Your descriptions of grief are so so helpful. You are a powerful person. Thank you for making these Eva xx
Oh Eva. My heart goes out to you. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain of losing a child. My prayers are with you and your sweet family ❤️
I’m new to your channel - I found you whilst searching for videos about grief. I lost my mum in May and it’s been the loneliest, most excruciating experience of my life. Please know that you’re not alone in this world. Thank you for being so strong and for giving others the privilege to hear your story.
Sincerely,
Emma
Dear Eva, sending all my love to you and Alen. ❤❤❤
So glad to see an update - thinking of you! Xx 💕
I wish I can give you a hug. You’re not alone xx
I think your doing all the right things to help you deal with everything, it’s something that takes a long long time before you feel more yourself again, be kind to yourself if you don’t make those steps and have to start again. I can remember not having anyone to talk with and out of fear refused additional help, I’m not sure if they do it now but I remember thinking someone should check up on the mother after she goes home from the hospital, make sure her body is healing and check on her mental health etc. I think knowing what other mums are going through and some of their coping skills would of been so helpful, no internet back then. I’m also a introvert and nothing panics me more than speaking in front of strangers, Im so glad you both had the courage to go, so glad you found it helpful in some ways. Sometimes we feel like we are the only ones having these thoughts and feelings. I can remember rambling to a shop assistant as I was buying some items to remind me of my baby about my loss, I can also remember clamming up when ask if I had children as I didn’t want to upset the person who asked. I think that sharing your thoughts and feelings will ultimately help another women who comes across these videos, so they know that they are aloud to take time and be kind to themselves. Xxxx
Eva the up and down feelings are as far as I know from my own experience of recently losing a child, part of the grieving emotion. You are doing well to be pushing yourself out into the world as much as you can tolerate for you and for Alan. I too am a grieving parent and I just hope this virtual hug reaches you.
Sending you a very big hug back Sharon, I’m so sorry to hear you recently lost your child ❤️
I'm glad the support group was helpful and I can't even begin to imagine hard it is to do anything outside of your home. Much aroha to you and Alen xx
Eva I’m sending you all the hugs
Big hugs for both you and Alan. Wish we could take your pain away.
Olive lives in both your hearts...each beat is Olive .
Share what you feel comfortable with. You can tell us you aren't OK and we will know that's the situation. If you don't feel comfortable talking about some things that's fine. We just want you to feel like your videos are a safe space for you xx
This is still such early days for you. Be kind to yourself.
I'm so so sorry this is so heartbreaking. Your doing your best that's all u can do.
Much love to you. I like to think of Olive with your mother in heaven.
Grief is a total rollercoaster. My feeling is that Olive & your mom are together. Know she’s with you mom ~ safe & loved. Your two angels together forever until you meet them again. Be kind to yourself. I’m glad you went to the meet up with others who have gone through the same journey it’s nice to have others who are on a similar journey to you. I wish I could reach through the screen and hug you. Sending you strength and to Alen too.
Sending you so much love 💕 I’m sorry you are going through this.
Dearest Eva. Sending you so much love from Sweden, I wish I could give you a hug!
sending you, alen, and olive all of my love 💗
Love to you both.. you have each other . Im homeless with nobody so just have social services...I know you ll get through this..
Sending you strength and a hug. Hope things soon are better for you.
YES, LOSS IS SO PAINFUL, UNFAIR, BEYOND WORDS....YOU ARE NOT ALONE. SO MANY PEOPLE CARE AND FEEL SO AWFULLY SAD. SENDING LOVE AND SUPPORT YOUR WAY❤
BEAUTIFUL OLIVE IS IN OUR HEARTS NOW AND FOREVER❤
Eva, Olive and Alan you guys are in our hearts and prayers we love you and know that we are all here for you. You need to take as much time as you need to cry and grief take it little by little❤
Sending you so much love xx
I had a mc with my first and my mama has also been passed since 2016. It would have been easier if I had my mom to talk to. I do find myself talking to my dad more, but it cannot replace my mom. Us mama-less mamas definitely have a different kind of struggle. #hugs
Always sending you hugs - thank you for being so brave and sharing x
You have been through it!!! Since I can’t be kind to you in person, please continue to give yourself grace. 💐 Do you fully realize that putting out these videos is a sign of great strength! It doesn’t matter how long it’s taken, you’ve succeeded!
You 2 may not be ready yet, but eventually, do you think a trip to a place you both felt comfortable and happy in the past, would be nice? Maybe in the fall, a nice sunny place without too many people. Big hugs to you both.
Thank yoy ❤️ we have thought about going abroad possibly in September or October. We haven’t been on a plane since 2019 so gotta build ourselves up to that for now xxx
I want to give you sun in the fall and winter. Ok, I’m thinking Portugal, somewhere. It’s slower and people are more kind.
I found your channel yesterday cause we are on holiday in Berlin, and you came up , been seeing a few vlogs and I really wish I could give you the biggest varm hug .. Im here to stay .. hugs from a dane.. there are no words for such a loss...
I found her channel years ago because they went to Copenhagen. I can’t remember if I’d already gone on my 1st trip yet, or if I was just missing Copenhagen. Eva is such a sweet, hopeful soul. She’s had a hard few years, but her spark will brighten again, and curiosity in everyday things and travel will see her through.
@@Nubianette I feel her and what a wonderful Human she is ♥️
@@dianamelsen6762Yes, I have so much respect for her.
@@Nubianette I follow her from the beginning when she was into luxury love her.
I’ve been a subbie for quite sometime, but I don’t think I have ever commented before. I wish I had some words of comfort, but I know there are none. Just know a stranger across the world is thinking of you, crying with you, you are not alone. Sending love ❤️
Dear Eva, you can be so proud of yourself. You are doing the best you can do: little steps and being kind to yourself. Days that start rough can be lithter in the afternoon. It is ok to be angry, disappointed, to cry. But It is also ok to smile and laugh and not feeling bad for it. Emotions come and go in waves, they will come but they will also go. When you talked about your mom, I immediately had a picture of her in my mind how she was holding Olive. Maybe it is helping if you imagine that your mom takes good care of her until you join her someday. She is not alone. Sending you lots of love and empathy!
Big hugs Eva, take things slowly don’t try to achieve too much to soon. I find listening to you so helpful in my own grief from losing my husband in May, totally different I know but my daughter went through stillbirth 7 years ago so I do have some experience of what you are going through, she did go on to have another son and although he will never be a replacement he gave a focus again. Take care xx
SENDING YOU BOTH LOTS AND LOTS OF HUGS. YOU ARE NOT ALONE❤
Just sending you, Alun and Darling Olive my love
Your tears break my heart. Big hugs sweet girl. I'm gramma age. So wish I could give you a hug in person. You're strong. Alen too. Love from Texas.
Eva I am so sorry for your and Alens loss of Olive, I’ve been a long time viewer and my heart is broken for you both but thank you for being so brave to share such a personal part of your life to support others that have similar happen. Olive will know what a wonderful loving mum you are to her and how much she is loved xx
I wish I could take away your pain, it is heartbreaking you are going through this agony. You will never stop grieving your precious Olive and I am sure you wouldn’t want to, but in time I promise, you will find joy in life again.nI am so very sorry for your loss
Just sending you so much love and light. You’re doing incredibly well. You have so much strength ♥️
I hurt for you. I had a scare when I was pregnant and the feeling that gave me was so scary and made me panic so much. That was from a scare... not when you 2 have been through. Time will show you how to live again.... not to forget but to live once more. I want to hug you .... that is from the heart of a mom. I lost my mom at 22. I am now a grandma of 8. You are doing really good slowly getting out. Take baby steps and be kind to your self. Biggest hugs Olive would be so proud just as you are so proud of her. xxx
Oh Eva, remember there is no limit to grieving. I have lost my mother in April of 2022, so I understand that part. I know you and Alen are doing the best you can, and doing all the right things (whatever that is). Take one day at a time, one moment, one step and eventually, you will find yourselves again x I know the pain of losing your precious Olive will never disappear and eventually your sadness will bring you comfort xx
Eva and allan sending all my love. Take your time, dont push yourselves and take everyday ad it comes. If you plan something and cant do it, dont feel bad or guilty. Just go with your feelings. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Grief is such a personal thing, you mum is with you in your heart I'm sure of it. You're so brave, I wish I could give you a hug and just be there for you. We are all here for you xx
Continued prayers and love ❤️ 🙏
thanks for sharing your life and your grief with us, Eva. I can't imagine the loss, but you mentioning the different types of grief you were experiencing helped me to grow my own understanding of what hardships child loss can bring on parents. I just want to say this is incredibly brave and vulnerable for you to share, I hope you are able to get encouragement from making these videos and from the community you have here as well.
Lots of hugs, Eva and Allen.
I know how difficult it must be to talk to people who don’t know your story. But if I may make a suggestion, maybe tell a stranger your pain. Tell them about Olive. I believe everyone we meet is not by accident. Maybe they need to hear your story, maybe you need to hear theirs. Only a suggestion. Sending you blessings, love and hope for a better tomorrow ❤️
Eva, it's so immensely strong and generous that you're continuing to share your story with us, so that we can know olive through you, and now we will always know her
You’re doing the very best you can. Take it one hour at a time. It’s all you can do during such an incredibly difficult and traumatic period of your life. Olive is your daughter and although she is not with you she is not lost, she is in you and is part of you. You were her home and you always will be xxx
You are doing really well, just try and take it one step at a time, you have been through a hell of a bad time, take care x
Just sending you both love.
I give you a big warm hug, crying with you when you tell us how you feel.
I am so sorry Eva about losing Olive. I can’t imagine the pain you and your husband are going through. Thank you for doing the video to help others. Sending you lots of love ❤️
I thought i was never one for talking things through or sharing, but having lost my husband 2 and a half years ago, and becoming increasingly isolated i discovered a supportive forum which has introduced me to a growing number of friends who have helped me to socialise again.
Oh Eva, grief is such a roller coaster! My loss happened suddenly and traumatically, and just as I was starting to get to the point you are at now, the pandemic hit! I felt like I was caught in an endless limbo. On the one hand, I didn’t have to go out and interact with other people, but that created its own problems, in the long run. (I’m working on it!) But there were no distractions available, so that was pretty rough too. You are doing a great job, whether it seems like you are or not, believe me, you are. Baby steps, and you are so wise to know that it’s important that you push yourself, but not too hard or too fast. Your supermarket analogy is a good one; now that you’ve done it a few times it doesn’t hold the fear for you. Gradually it will be like that for more and more things. I feel your pain and sadness, and I can only say I am behind you 100%. Sending you lots and lots of hugs ❤️❤️
Hi Eleanor, I had similar experience when my mum died. It was very sudden and traumatic and then a couple months later the pandemic hit. It’s hard to go through a pandemic when you’re in flight mode already ❤️ sending you love too
@@EvaInTheCity you are so right. I’ve found such truth and authenticity in your posts, Eva. We just go forward however we can. ❤️
Big big hugs to you two.
Eva… I feel the steps you are going through although horrendous are normal in grief and the fact you understand this is a step in itself.I’m so glad you went to the support group… I found it a great help for as long as I needed it… it’s not always for everyone but I felt the same… it also made me feel not so isolated. You are dealing with shock as well as grief…. You are talking… when talking to camera and I hope with all my heart this helps even if it’s just for the time you are doing it. Sending you lots of love and we are listening 💖💖💙
Thank you Jan x
Sending you both so so much love ❤️
I can’t say I know how you feel, but I lost my husband in 2020, then my only brother in December 2021, and I just had my moms funeral yesterday, she passed July 5th. I know I need therapy, and I’m going to look for a therapist. I don’t know wheat to do with my self. My heart aches for you. You are in my prayers.
I am so so sorry x
Lots of love to you two!!! xxx
I am sorry Eva that you are going through this. I wish I could do something to help you. All I can say is that you are in my thoughts.
There are no words, just sending you both my love ❤❤❤
Sending lots of warmth and comfort your way. Anxiety dreams are devastating to wake up from and, for me at least, feels like you're starting the day a step behind when the first few steps forward are already hard enough. It's just about seeing how each day goes, well done for moving through the motions each day.
So much respect! I wish i could send all the luck from the world to you!
Sending love. So sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you guys.
♥️ sending love
🤗 Sending LOVE for you Both My Friend 💌
Sending so much love to you and Alen 💚
When you explain your experiences of grief, loss and feelings it makes total sense. My experience of Grief is that it always feels like a constant background painful ache then waves of debilitating pain and sorrow that are totally overwhelming . I think you are right to be compassionate to yourself. You have had so much to endure it is bound to be extremely difficult. I found cruse bereavement support invaluable. They didn’t take the grief away but helped me express all the feelings. I felt heard. Take care both of you. Xxx Think of you both all the time.
Right back at you Eva ❤️.
u will find peace again. u will find ease again. and u will find hope again. i am sending u and alen love and prayers.
Sending you so much love Eva!
Hugs to you both. 💔
Dear human that's reading this, we may not know each other, but I wish you all the best in life!✨
Lots of Love 😘😘😘😘😘
Lots of love to you both XX ❤️
The best is the next step. no ifs because they will hold you up. X
Eva you are pushing yourself way to far , it’s very early days and if you feel better staying at home so be it , do not force yourself to do anything….. take things day by day xxxxxxx
I love you eva want to cudde you so much your very strong my heart aches for you love you swèthesrt xxx
What a cruel, shit hand you got dealt. It’s absolutely horrendous to watch let alone experience. Your precious beautiful girl should be with her mum and dad …I’m so sorry…
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Just a suggestion- go to the country. Get out of the city. Be in quiet. Be in nature. Take walks. Keep a journal. Read a book. Listen to music. The city might just be too much for you right now. God bless you and Alen.
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