OCD: I Think People Can Read My Thoughts
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- I think people can read my mind and hear my thoughts because of my OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder). This was super hard to post, but hopefully it opens up a wider conversation about mental health.
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I always think someone can read my mind. It makes me extremely scared that someone might be hearing my thoughts.
My as well it scares me the most someone's listening to my thoughts and mind reading technology is evolving scientists are discouring machines that read your mind
@@mohammedsuleman1941 I'm no expert, but I doubt that mind reading technology will be developed any time soon. Thoughts are just neurons firing off. There isn't actually a way for anybody to know what those neurons mean or actually connect it to figure out a thought, even if we could see each individual neuron, which is science fiction and not currently feasible in the slightest
It scares me a lot because I can tell you my thoughts aren’t very holy,but we don’t talk about that
Same
I've been researching this for a long time. People have told me that they read my body language. However, this can not be the case. People seem to know what song is in my head. People seem to know questions that I ask. I feel like sometimes I have tourettes in the mind.. I know for a fact that it's not just me because I can record myself all day, visual and audio. I'd be thinking something, not saying anything and not expressing anything, then someone would reply when it's just us 2 in that area. I can then replay the video and it is confirmed that they have just responded to my thoughts. This has happened several times, 100s if not 1000s of times. I'm tired of reading articles about schizophrenia or psychosis or simply body language. This is a real phenomenon. It seems that there's some sort of code of conduct on how to treat people like me and it seems that no one is allowed to admit that they can hear my thoughts. I assume that it's to eliminate emotional trauma, possibly suicidal events or maybe even revengful events. This would make sense and it's what I believe, although I'm still stuck left in the dark on the subject. Information on this is extremely difficult to find and seems to be covered up by excuses or false diagnosis, such as body language, schizophrenia or psychosis. I just want answers, but I assume that everyone else assumes that I can't handle the truth. I feel like much more is hidden.
I thought that I was the only person who felt like this. I am always ridiculously aware of what I’m thinking about when I’m around certain people because I have a fear that they can hear/see into my brain. 💙💚
Saaaaaame!
same! whenever I think about something, I don't want to go near of touch anyone, it's so annoying! I never thought it was OCD
Me too and constantly talking about me and callin me harsh names because the stuff I think I don't myself it disgust me sometimes. I'm too the point everyone calls me names and I don't know It's the hardest thing I've ever experienced
i think the same thing all the time!!! my compulsion is usually to apologize in my head too. i also sometimes get scared that i’m going to blurt out something that i don’t want people to hear. like sometimes i have a really awful intrusive thought like something mean or violent or homophobic/racist/sexist and i get scared that i’m going to say it out loud and not be able to stop myself. so to stop myself from blurting it out i nite my bottom lip or my put my hand over my mouth. it’s so weird but i can’t help it.
Yes they can only if someone done black magic on you. How you feel now
Holy shit, i read the title and I just went " this is a thing others have???"
I used to have this thing when i was younger where I got so paranoid about people touching me because I thought they could read my mind when they touched me. And so when I pulled away I shook myself a little because I thought that would stop that mind-reading connection. I never thought that could have potentially been OCD.
And I now have a similar thing as you do which is similar to my childhood thing. The touching part isn't there anymore for me, but sometimes I think bigoted things I don't actually believe and apologise for it in my head a lot because I'm paranoid people can actually hear what I'm thinking.
It's such a relief to finally have someone else share this experience and have an answer as to why this happens.
Alex RPB3 that happens to me in not even joking the first part I always think that if someone touches me they can read my mind that always happens to me why why what is this i never knew it was a thing
Me tooooooo
oh my gosh I had that too! I didn't want to touch anyone! I was sitting next to my crush once and I kept thinking about him and I was just like "BRAIN STOOPPP". I thought if he was close to me, he'd see my thoughts
Wow. It's amazing how we come up with very similar things and have never met each other. I had the exact thing where I thought people could read it if they touched me and if I anticipated I would need to touch someone I tried so hard to not think anything inappropriate or private. Don't have that anymore but just when I think something that would be mean or offensive to someone I always have to apologize and be like that's horrible to think that I would never think that on purpose.
Is it weird that I get this with inanimate objects? Like things that are personified in my mind. Like figures and stuffed toys and anything that I in some way give thoughts and feelings but can't communicate with me.
If it's touching my skin, I know it can't actually read my mind - It's not even alive - but feel like it can and I need to apologize either in my head or out loud.
I still have some of my stuffed toys in my bed, and I do still hug them while I'm sleeping, but there needs to be a layer between them and my skin while I'm sleeping cuz otherwise I'm paranoid that I might think/dream something offensive or inappropriate and they'll know. Even though they logically can't know anything!
That sounded like it may have been difficult to talk about openly and publicly. Thanks for sharing. People do often have misconceptions about OCD, leading to the example you said near the end. That's definitely one of the major misconceptions people have about mental disorders. Schizophrenia is another big one, since most people think it's usually "split-personalities" and visual hallucinations.
Thanks- you're right, sometimes misconceptions can be just as difficult as total ignorance
@@HeyRowanEllis Haha this is a kind of late question 😅
When you get the thoughts that others can hear what you are thinking does it feel that the person your thoughts are about can hear or that everyone around you can hear?
If this isn't too nosey
C J to me it feels like everyone can. But I also know body language is huge.
@@CJ-nv6ju it's like the whole class can hear you if you're in school. It's really scary.
I think mental illness is becoming less stigmatized, but mostly just around depression and general anxiety at this point. OCD is still talked about so little, so it's always interesting to hear people's experiences with it when people do feel comfortable enough to talk about it. Thank you for sharing this even though I know it can be scary! This is how others are going to learn.
melsig and when OCD is talked about, it would just be people mixing it up with germophobia
remember ocd is not a mental illness it derives from an Anxiety Disorder and disorders can be dealt with and even sometimes completely go away.
wow i feel so normal reading this comment section i thought everyone hated me for my thoughts
Same
Same
I've had this exact experience! I remember being on a bus and seeing a black person and thinking a racist thought, then immediately worrying that they can hear my thoughts. Instead of saying sorry i'd think of a song and start playing it in my head, trying to cover up any possible thought that might enter.
It got very intense honestly, my worst intrusive thoughts being pedophilic. I was horribly suicidal when it got to the point where I couldn't even look at a photo of a child without thinking 'you're a pedophile' 'you're attracted to them' and having an internal battle over it.
Shits hard. It waxes and wanes for me. Worse in times of stress. I often have to remind myself that it's ocd, I'm a good person, i don't really believe these things.
Hey....hey I know the feeling. Everyday it's there, alot of times I don't say things because I think who is near me already heard it from me, and I think it would be weird to say it if they already heard it. I also thought I gave strangers my personal info, and it bugs me all day, I learned that it's easier to not make eye contact with people I don't know, that's just me...
@@23jazz24 so the answer is that they can read your thoughts? Like it's this a projection thing which is caused by the eye contact with the person?
@@nuradinmohamed7351 something like that ...the over analytical mind sometimes has a series of thoughts...I'm not really sure. I'm often slow at doing certain things because I get distracted by overthinking.
@@23jazz24 I had no idea-- Thank you for elaborating on this. People need to speak more openly about these challenges.
@@K.Kitbex its funny you say that, because i only ever mentioned this subject one time about 18 years ago to my close friend. I just don't really know how to be open about it.
It's not easy making yourself "be quiet" when you not even doing or saying anything
Even as a kid I always thought the scariest thing ever would be if other people would know what I'm thinking because of all the intrusive thoughts.
I feel so much less alone after watching this video.
Me too
Same
I've been feeling that people can read my mind to... it's been really freaking me out. Glad to know I'm not alone
The pineal gland is responsible for telepathy when it is active،I thought about a solution, which is that studies have shown that fluoride leads to calcification of the pineal gland and thus inhibits it, that is, it can lead to interruption of telepathy
But where can we get fluoride? It can be obtained from sodium fluoride, from which bottels are sold on the eBay website
Only one gram of it is dissolved in water and drunk once daily I hope one of you will try it soon and tell me the result because I can't get it in my country
How you feel now
I told a mental health advisor that I got intrusive thoughts and she told me that everyone had them and not to worry about it.... Ugh.
Ugh, yes, this!!!!
I was raised around and have had many friends in the profession. Too many of them don't fully understand that they could have non-neuro-typical behavior themselves, and so unfairly and harmfully insist that someone deal with whatever that person's personal regiment to combat the bad parts, at best, or complete denial, disbelief, and gaslighting.
Well everyone does have them but it becomes a problem when people obsess over their intrusive thoughts. Other people can just kind of brush them off but people with OCD have to focus on the thought or feel bad about it or have to do something about it. It affects their life in a negative way. So if that's what is going on with you then I would emphasize just how much these thoughts affect you.
I guess it becomes a problem when they're affecting your mental state consistently. If it's easy for you to dismiss them, then that's not a problem, but that's not really what I was talking about.
Emma Popcorn PLEASE RESPOND!!! There's a man by the name of Tommy Sotomayor that degrades women more than any man on UA-cam and somehow nobody shuts him down. He's said that he wishes women were burnt alive in ovens. He's said various times he loves seeing women get beaten. He said men should hire Hitt men to kill their babies mothers. PLEASE WE HAVE TO STOP HIM.!.! Please just take the time to look him up.
Emma Popcorn Typical! 🙄 I imagine that must've felt very frustrating! Although the optimistic view to take from it, is that they were trying to make you feel less alone in that. Although that IS frustrating when you're just trying to voice your individual experience so that they may assist YOU, NOT just "everyone"!
I hope you are receiving support 🤗💌🌏
aw this is really important thanks for sharing rowan
Hey I relate to her you relate to her can you give me advice to overcome this video chat
Hello Riley J. Dennis! I love your videos!
How you feel now
Bruhhh. It's almost like YOUR reading my mind! I've never had anyone explain what I go through every day so clearly! I've basically trained myself to not really think when I'm in public because I'm afraid strangers will read my mind. I have these really repulsive and scary intrusive thoughts too. Like, I'll just be minding my own business, and my brain will go, "What if... You killed her?" Or, "What if... Your heart exploded and you died?"
I've gone through some pretty terrible things in my life, and sometimes my intrusive thoughts will suggest that I do to others what was done to me. And I just feel so awful and disgusting that I have to sit quietly and visually imagine taking the thought in my hand and stuffing it in this dark room in my head and setting it on fire, or else it'll stick with me. If that doesn't work, then I have to find a smooth surface and scratch my nails on it.
It real hinders my life, and I live in fear of my thoughts becoming reality.
they can do this its your eeg remotely
I didn't know that thinking people can hear your thoughts was an OCD thing! I have a lot of obsessions/compulsions, but I never told my psychologist about that because I thought it was silly. The way I deal with that one specifically is really unhelpful - instead of trying to communicate that I don't actually think these things, I just try to force myself not to think about it (which is about as easy as thinking "don't think of orange penguins" and succeeding). So, if I have an intrusive thought of "You want to fuck your biology teacher" or something, I'll just start repeating "CATS CATS CATS CATS CATS CATS" in my head (it's not always cats, but that's usually the first word that comes to mind). It's EXTREMELY distracting. I'll have to bring this up next time I see my psychologist.
I do the same
August it makes me feel so much less stupid when i see other people feeling the exact same as me. thank you for sharing your story
Ywah same or i just singing or writing a poem trying to switch all the negative in mind that always reapeating.....i'm so worry that ppl can hear it. But make a poem is the best healing.
bro i understand this so much i actually deadset exactly what u said is what i do, honestly a thought pops into my head being racist or sexual or something fucking stupid that i don’t even think of or would ever say just pops into my head, and i try out run the thought with a song lyric or repeat a basic word over and over again till i forget and i feel like people try get me to think my secrets so they can know them it’s so hard to deal with man i actually thought i was the only one but fuck it’s realeving to know i’m not
yesss, i think this all the time
This reminds me so much of my OCD...I have to say a prayer when I have my thoughts, but the way you said "I'm so sorry" and everything is basically how it goes. The cycle is so repetitive and beyond frustrating.
I have very severe OCD. Thanks for making this video, it's helpful to hear about your experience
Alex Delashmit I feel that. Stay strong
I never thought about being OCD and I still don't think I am, but I can relate so strongly to this, to thinking that people can hear me and the things that pop up on my mind but aren't really part of who I am.
I know this is nit-picking but you can't be OCD, you can only have OCD. In the same way that someone is not bpd, they just have bpd. What really makes the difference of whether or not you have OCD is how much the thoughts/actions affect your life. If they're negatively impacting your life in a major way then I'd look into it further but if not then you're probably fine.
Yeah that's right. It's never be part of who you really are. It just some shit that trying to destruct your life such evil do. the doctor can only diagnose the patient. But they don't really understand what the real happen to your life.
Thanks for this. Nothing worse than a horrible thought you'd never think about popping into your head and thinking the person you care about can hear it. It's torture.
One of the most comforting things is finding out your obsessions/compulsions aren’t only yours.
You're very brave for speaking about this, Rowan.
I reckon I had this when I was little but didn't tell anyone about it. Instead, I just forced myself out of the compulsions because I thought they were the problem, but then I'd just pick up another one (they'd usually happen in social situations). I don't know how but at some point they must have stopped entirely, but I still find myself picking them back up very occasionally when I feel particularly nervous/have bad thoughts. Ironically, doing these actions now just increase my anxiety though, which isn't very helpful.
Thanks for sharing, it's so important to reduce the stigma around mental health issues.
Emma Popcorn Wow I think the same thing happened with me but I keep telling myself that can't be possible because it doesn't make much sense. I mean, how can someone just "grow out of it"? But yet I can remember my younger self doing all of these bizarre things and feeling like the world was gonna end if I didn't do them.
Yes I completely get what both of you are saying! When I was in year 6 (a stressful year at the time) I had compulsions like touching the door handle 3 times before leaving otherwise my someone in my family would die. I never told anyone about it and thought the compulsions were the problem so I kind of forced myself to not do the thing and eventually the intrusive thoughts went away?
You have the same problem I have the same problem can you help me
Could you help me with my OCD I know we just met if you reply but can you help me could you send me your Facebook or Instagram
We never know how many people we know are dealing with mental health problems until we open up to them.
I developed this fear when I was in the polytechnical school. A lot of the kids there were mean and I didn't want them to think I was super weird. And somehow it came to my mind, that people might be able to read my thoughts. I started getting super scared when I had any private thoughts. It made me feel so bad.
I don't know if I can tell this my friends or family. I don't wanna seem crazy or something
They won’t think that you’re weird or crazy. The best thing that you can do is to talk. I told my family and they didn’t judge me at all. I’m now having Cbt therapy which is helping massively. You’re not alone x
I know how you feel, I was scared to being it up with my therapist today. She was understanding about it and we're going to talk about it more on our next appointment. If you tell someone, I found that talking to someone else about it helped me feel like a weight was lifted off my chest. I still fear that people can read my thoughts, but hopefully that's something I can handle later.
Oh my goodness thank you! I only realized I had intrusive thoughts a month or two ago, but the whole "people can read my mind" thing has been a burden since a really young age. It's so helpful to hear other people talk about this!
When I feel like people can hear my thoughts, I mentally run a chainsaw against a beam of steel. It fills my head with the sounds of metal being torn apart. It's a very loud and bright internal experience... exactly distracting enough. Sometimes I judge myself for using my imagination to combat that.
You know....that is a very thoughtful method . I might just remember that. I catch myself very softly mumbling and it probably sound like talking in reverse if others hear it, i really don't like doing it, the mind is a strange place
@@23jazz24 Feel Free... I actually only started that, because it's the only thing that I could ramp up to be as intense as necessary...
I'm going to try this next time it happens to me, and I'll let you know if it works for me too! X
@@kiki90887did it work ?
Interesting. I took a psychoneurological exam and I was wondering why it kept asking me if "I think other people can read my mind." Thanks for teaching me something! ❤️
I literally have the same thing. Especially about thinking things about people that I don't actually believe. My anxiety about my OCD got so bad that I literally thought people hated me for these thoughts. I have gotten so much better since then and I am so grateful, but the agony I had to endure from my mental illness is not something that I would wish on my worst enemy.
Thank you so much for talking about this. I haven't been diagnosed, but I know I have OCD. From time to time I have these horrible intrusive thoughts that are violent, racist, incestful, pedophilic and I'll get so disgusted with them it can make me nauseous. And I have to keep repeating "God forbid, god forbid, god forbid" (loose translation of a word in portuguese) in my head over and over. And sometimes I can't even be comfortable hugging my own mother (who I love very much btw) because I get this irrational feeling that if I'm touching someone they can hear my thoughts. And it sucks because damnit I want physical contact with my friends and family but it also makes me stressed if it goes on for too long.
In conclusion: it sucks
I hope your doing better.
Yea i relate to the mother one it's like if she hugs me for too long she will be able to read my mind and then know that i use swear words
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You are a hero for sharing this. Thank you so much for opening up!
It's so important to talk about this stuff, thank you for adding your voice, great video as always.
Wow thank you so much for sharing. I never realized how little i understood OCD, because my life is filled with people with many illnesses but not OCD i was honestly under the impression it was always a physical act like the clicking in threes or the cleaning
Thank you for this!! I have OCD and was diagnosed at 11 (I'm 20 now), back then it was pretty severe and I really felt like no one understood me. I wish there were as many resources then as there are now to hear other people's stories. I'm glad people who are diagnosed these days have access to videos like this so they don't have to feel so alone.
Yes!! I have regular anxiety attacks about "mind reading" I'll have a thought then panic thinking that everyone can hear it and will make fun of me. Whenever I think I get over it it strikes again.
I have disgusting and violent thoughts all the time. I know this sounds bad but I think someone who reads this can relate, when I get disgusting thoughts about my siblings or people I know I imagine myself smashing their heads in😭 o my gosh!!! That sounded bad but I don't really think I'm smashing my siblings head in but the thoughts heads in. And when I feel like people sitting next to me can read my mind I pretend my mind is in a case of lead and let myself go blank. This sounds a little weird but it's just...
Just understand that you aren't alone- I get some horrific intrusive thoughts to the point where I'll go home and spend an evening thinking about it, whether or not anyone else knew about my intrusive thoughts and leading myself to tears in despair. It's bloody horrible, have you looked into any treatment? I'm just glad I found this channel with people going through the same thing! X
You have no idea how good it feels to learn that a youtuber I adore so much like you also struggles with something so similar to me (I hope everything is going okay for you currently.)
My therapist is fairly sure I have OCD (and I’ve been trying to get diagnosed but the process is taking a long time)
When I was in the thick of it whenever I’d have an intrusive thought (most of the time horribly racist or sexist or homophobic etc mainly racist) I’d have to do this long and specific apology that I needed to do perfectly. It’s changed over time and I’ve been able to make it a lot simpler so it doesn’t affect me nearly as much as it used to and it’s easier to move on with life even if I still do the apology since it’s so quickly passing.
I’m so glad that you got the courage to share you story with people. Watching this made me feel like I wasn’t alone and that probably goes the same for many others. It feels like no one talks about the fact that ocd can revolve around more than perfectionism or germs (most people don’t even think about the second due so much generalization of the disorder anyway).
Thank you Rowan for talking about this have a lovely day!
I really love how you put that all in words and it must take a lot of guts to come out in such a simplistic way. I appreciate you.
Whenever I think something bad,gory,or just something weird I feel like a normal person wouldn’t think about I get all freaked out because I think people can hear what I said say sorry and try so hard to just make my mind go blank and it really doesn’t help and makes me even more stressed whenever I think something embarrassing and I hear people laughing around me like they heard it. I feel so distressed when this happens and I really hate it
This was very informative! Thank you for being so open about your experiences.
I can really relate to the feeling of others being able to see/hear my intrusive thoughts. When it happens, it's like I start this competition of who can dominate my mind, me or the intrusive thoughts. And sometimes this becomes a loop that gets louder, and louder, and louder as my anxiety increases. It usually stops pretty quickly but is still horrible while it is still happening.
Oh my gosh I got diagnosed with OCD at sixteen and I have the same intrusive thoughts! They aren't talked about often and it's really good to hear that I'm not alone.
Me too. And sometimes I replay peoples names in my head because I don’t how how else to think because I think people can hear my thoughts which scares me to the point where I get these intrusive thoughts like… “what if I did this to her, or him”. But in reality I don’t actually care about the person when I’m all alone it’s only when I’m in public. Like ever day I prepare for what I’m going to say next which scares me because I think that people will hear what I’m saying is about them. My thoughts have now been the opposite of what I really think like, “I don’t like this bitch”. Then saying oh she’s pretty, or oh nevermind just kidding.
Thank you for posting this. I have suffered from this issue in silence for a long time and I'm so glad I'm not the only one. I will use this to help guide me through my mental health care in the future.
GOD hearing people talk about this is so comforting because I've struggled with OCD and intrusive thoughts for a while now. I've even realized stuff I did as a kid was a part of my OCD. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder can present in so many different ways and I don't think people appreciate how scary it is to have intrusive thoughts or how time consuming things like counting can be. I almost always have to have tabs in multiples of threes. Use three products, have three drinks of water. I've been able to kind of "trick" my OCD and I've gotten better but it's still so hard sometimes.
Fuck!! The rule of three!! If I do something 4 times by mistake I do it two more times to make it again a triplet🙄🙄 it's so dumb but can't resist.😭
I have suffered for the best part of 30 years. It reached a peak in 2014 when I was essentialy house bound for 4 years. Now, I am working my way back into society and learning to find peace... However, I find myself in many wirlpools of obsessive thoughts, emotion and have to remind myself that this is Just in my head, and people don't know what is happening to me.
Thank you so much for sharing this video. It has really helped me give a name to what has been happening.
Be blessed.
Thanks for making this video I’ve also had similar intrusive thoughts occur and I used to beat myself up over it and feel like a horrible individual, but listening to you talk about it and reading through comments I feel better and less lonely knowing other people have similar experiences with this.. once a thought pops into my head it’s literally all I can think about until the next thought comes that’s equally or more distressing!
0:27 Rowan this is such a good way of describing intrusive thoughts, I never seem to be able to explain them to other people.
Thank you so much for this video. I’ve recently started to accept the fact that I have OCD. It’s been something that I think I’ve always dealt with, as I can now recognize things I did as a child that would have been symptoms. My OCD has gone through phases almost. Years ago I was horrified of germs and becoming sick. I was so meticulous about everything I did, and I swore I could actually see the germs on my hands. So I used A LOT of hand sanitizer as I was still in school and couldn’t get up to wash my hands every few minutes. Now I’ve noticed my intrusive thoughts revolve around violent things happening to me or me being violent towards myself. I only realized that I had an issue because I have that compulsion where I have to touch everything and pick what feels “right.” It was so engrained I didn’t even realize what I was doing until a friend looked at me concerned and asked what I was doing when I had spent a good 15 minutes trying to choose which pajamas to wear. OCD can come in many forms, and I feel like that’s not really discussed. So once again, thank you for sharing.
Thanks for sharing Scarlett, it's a tough road but that self awareness can hopefully bring treatment and management strategies to help you in the future
You really covered so well the important points for people to gain a basic idea of this. Thank you so much for sharing it with us!
I was just looking this up terrified that I had schizophrenia and I saw this video! Thank you!!!! You saved me from telling a doctor and possibly ACTUALLY being diagnosed with schizophrenia!
This is exactly what I have. THANK YOU so so much for making this video! I've known for a long time what OCD is, but I never knew about compulsions in your head. This happens to me all the time. I just can't stop it, well you get it since you have it too. Thanks again, this video is so important
thanks so much for this video! I struggle with obsessive thoughts too and it's really great to know that people are out there trying to change how others see OCD. especially pure OCD. Thank you. Subscribed :)
Its so brave that you talk about that! I think you are helping a lot of people with it!
Hugs xoxo
I have the same problem. But I'd rather stop these thoughts and encouraging myself that I'm just over thinking it. I have this when the pandemic starts and I did something impulsive which I really regret of doing.
I keep hearing voices that I wonder if it is our neighbors and my friends respond to my thoughts. It still haunts me and no one knows this about me having this anxiety, even my parents and friends.
I was searching about this just now if the people around me know what I was thinking through technology and was able to detect my thoughts.
I can't get rid of thinking about this. And I actually experience where my actions are affected (I can't talk and walk normally - I'm moving like a robot.) and I look scared to everyone.
From august to december 2020, I faced this. Couldn't sleep, eat and even take care of my body/self.
But now, I'm thankful that I am able to recover from this (not fully recovered?)
I'm not too anxious like before and I can talk to my friends again even though there's doubt inside me and I know that something changed from the way they treat me before and now. A lot has changed and ofc I need to accept it :‹
Anyways I'm getting better and was able to pretend around everyone that I'm still my old self who enjoys life and just go with the flow.
I thought before that I was the only one who's having this and I don't know what kind of mental problem I was facing. Please help me know more about this 😌
My parents helped me and supported me. What they know that time that I'm too depressed and anxious because of the pandemic. They don't know that I'm having this unstoppable thoughts and can hear voices in my head. (The voices had stopped already though but still happens sometimes)
P.s. sorry if my grammar is not good
Someone I love very much struggles with intrusive thoughts. Thank you for sharing this; seeing that other people have similar struggles is a huge help for anyone who deals with mental health issues
Thanks for posting this. Helped my partner and I talk through some things that have been super hard to explain to each other otherwise
I came across this video a couple years ago and clicked it on a whim. What you described was exactly what I was experiencing (fearing that people could hear my thoughts) and I immediately cried because I’d never heard anyone else experience that before. It lead me to get diagnosed with OCD and get the help I needed, so I wanted to come back and thank you for speaking out!
Your videos are so informative and honest, I love your channel so much. Thanks for talking about mental health issues, we need to reduce the stigma!
Huge respect to this person for making this video. Honestly, there is something that I have been learning and that is to just accept everything as is. One thing I believe we all have in common (or just me) is that when it is something that we are not satisfied with (like an intrusive thought) we want to clear it, so we act like we just didnt have that thought. Even after clearing that thought, another one pops up and another one and so on and so on. That is why no matter what it is I am seeing as an obstacle, I just accept it, not react and not try to change it because to me, thats how you truthfully change it.
Thank you for sharing your experience, not enough people talk about real OCD so hearing from someone directly affected by it is really educational, especially to someone like me who doesn’t have OCD (except I do experience intrusive thoughts often as well) because it helps to distinguish was is and isn’t OCD and to get rid of stigma, etc.
My god, this just blew me away how accurate my mind has been when intrusive thoughts come. Especially when I want to stop thinking about it but I can't and it just plays over and over and over. And then I think everyone around me thinks I'm crazy because they can hear my thoughts. (This next part is a little convoluted) But they wouldn't tell me they could hear my thoughts because imagine being born and everyone could hear your thoughts. That would be the worst curse ever and you wouldn't be able to live so everyone around you keeps it a secret. That's what's up with all the snide remarks and the looks that people give you.
I know this isn't real but I can't help thinking it... Am I crazy? Idk what to do
This is what I did and after some time now I’m having less trouble with this. The reason you are worried by the thoughts is because you care for other people, it means you are empathetic and that’s a good thing. And remember that the thing you DO are what matter in how others will view you, not the things you THINK. And even if others don’t act nicely or act weird to you remember that it’s not always you being the problem or doing something wrong. Just try to remember this.
This is hard to have to deal with and this isn’t scientific advice or anything just my personal way of dealing now. It’s really nice to know that other people have the same struggles btw😅
@@owand5017 I think I agree with you. I don't know how, but unfortunately this empathic feeling is what's holding me down. When most people usually has disturbing intrusive thought, I'm half the opposite. My intrusive thought are always about 'how many of them are safe?' or 'are people doing ok?'. I know it's such a pathetic behavior to think too much about it, but this is what most of my intrusive thought was. It crippling feeling of sadness and anxiousness that make me struggle. It's the feeling of the thought, not the thought itself.
And yet, the OP we replied here speech the thing that I really find the most overwhelming.
I find it really weird when most people in my life is treating me like an innocent child. When someone will say rude thing to me, there's always someone who protect me. I feel like I'm the one being treated like this on how vulnerable I am of how the fact that my mind can be watched. I feels really bad thinking about that.
God Has Freed Me From This Anxiety Believe That People Can Read Your Thoughts Trust Me Its Not True, Plus If They Would They Wouldn't Be Able To Feel Normal As Well In The First Place. God Bless You and May You Be Freed From Any Anxiety.
I feel this everyday. God, I thought I was the only one
This is exactly how I think
Thank you for this video. OCD runs heavily in my family and I never really learned much about it besides just being around my mom, my aunts and my grandfather. A lot of what you said in this video helped me to understand my family (particularly my mom) a lot better. I'll consider researching it more.
This was everything.
I had never heard anyone speak to the transparency feeling of our thoughts.
For me telling people I’m having them helps whiiiiiich isn’t something you want to do when you’re having taboo thoughts.
It’s such a cluster fuck. Thank you.
I didn’t know that people with OCD struggled with this too. I’m definitely subscribing. I can’t wait to learn more about OCD even though I don't have it. Thanks for sharing ❤️
Thank you for being willing to share some of your experiences with us. I know how hard that must be and shows how much you really care about helping destigmatize mental health disorders. I have bipolar disorder which is also both misunderstood and joked about. But i think that intrusive thoughts are even less understood and people are often afraid to talk about it for fear of judgment, so thank you for being willing to do so.
This video is so relatable to me, thanks for posting it. I literally gasped when you spoke about your "rule of three", because I've had similar thoughts. Like when I've thought of something bad, I've had to think of two good things before moving on. It doesn't bother me so much anymore, but I have the "basic" OCD of washing my hands all the time and thinking I'm not clean enough. It's hard for me to tell people about it, because I fear they would just tell me to stop washing my hands. Even if I did that, it wouldn't make the OCD thoughts go away. So I understand it must have been difficult for you to talk about this, but I'm glad you did.
Thank you so much for this video, Rowan - I’ve always thought that I was the only one that felt like this. It usually hits me harder in big assemblies at school where everyone is really quiet. It then even causes me to think that my thoughts are like speech bubbles in a comic, and that everyone can see them, and then me trying to shake away the thoughts but at the same time not wanting people to see me. Same goes for thinking my phone is going to go of, even though I’ve turned off the sound, ringer and even fully shut it off. It’s not fun 😅
Wow thank you. This helps a lot. I know It is hard to talk about for me so you made me understand more about what’s going on in my life. Please..... Definitely make more videos. I’m sure, You’ll help many others as well.
I appreciate you sharing this. It’s takes a lot of courage to share something like this.i thought I was the only one
Very interesting, I had to watch this twice to get a good grasp on how the compulsive side of the illness works but I feel like I get it now. Thanks for uploading, very informative.
Thank you so much for sharing.
I don't have OCD but this was a really important video to share, to try and stop the stigma attached to mental health
Thanks Cammie that means a lot!
Rowan Ellis No problem thank you for this channel
Hey Rowan, I've just been recently diagnosed with OCD and have the exact same people-can-read-my-thoughts obsession, and your video makes me eel a lot less ridiculous about it, knowing that I'm not alone. Thank you so much for sharing ❤︎
thank you for sharing your experience. as a fellow OCD sufferer i appreciate how tough this must be for you.
This literally happened to me yesterday that why sometimes I don’t like going to public places because I always thought people know what am thinking are what I was doing especially on the bus when your standing the bus is full and people look at you I get anxiety attacks thank you for this now I know am not alone.
You don't have to worry about that at all its not true from people being able to read your mind compared to people reading your face expressions. Trust me nobody can read minds its Impossible. God Bless You!
Oh gods, this explains so much, thanks for sharing this, it’s very good of you
thank you so much for posting this, it means a lot to me
Thank you so much for talking about this! I didn't realize the compulsions could be mental as well. I've been diagnosed with GAD and panic disorder, but the more I learn about OCD, the more I think I might have it. I have the germ/contamination thing, and I have a bunch of physical compulsions that come with that, but this video just made me think of a whole new bunch of things I do mentally that might be compulsions as well. For example, I have intrusive thoughts that terrible things will happen, and they come with the irrational fear that thinking those things will make them come true. So to calm myself, I have to tell myself those things will not happen, but without ever using any negatives, because that will make them happen anyway. So for example, if I get an intrusive thought that my best friend's plane to Japan is going to crash, I can't think "her plane will not crash", because that will make it crash, instead I have to think "her plane will arrive at the airport safely." I never thought of this as a compulsion before, but maybe it is?
Thanks for sharing this with us. I feel like OCD is one of the less talked about mental illnesses, so this is really important. Maybe, if you feel like it, you could at some point talk about your experiences of coping with your OCD (like going to therapy for it or finding other things that help).
I sometimes have what could be considered intrusive thoughts about harming myself (probably related to the fact that I used to self harm) and I always find it very distressing, so I can only imagine how distressing it must be to have these thoughts all the time / more often.
Thanks for sharing. I don't have OCD but I think it's important to talk about it so people become more educated. Myself included. Rock on Rowan!
I don't know if I have OCD. In some points of my life it does seem I have some symptoms of OCD but I don't know if that's due to anxiety maybe? And it's also very possible that I have dyspraxia but I don't know if that affects things like intrusive thoughts. I've had intrusive thoughts and I just want them to go away, I've also had obsessions and compulsions. To relief intrusive thoughts like checking if the doors are closed, checking if all electronic devices are off and unplugged and checking the cellphone alarm can be very frustrating because I sometimes do it like thrice and I know I did everything OK but my freaking brain doesn't understand it. However, if I don't relieve the intrusive thought I can't go to sleep calmed and I get very stressed. Thanks for talking about this Rowan
Same !
4:46 I have this struggle with autism.
I have autism and when I'm overwhelmed, my brain is full with intrusive ptss thoughts. The only facking thing I can do about it is constantly think 'I don't really think this, I'm overwhelmed. I don't really think this, I'm overwhelmed' And repeat that 100 times. Those intrusive thought's can get pretty ugly.
Thanks for sharing your story
Relatable. It's not the same for me but I am grateful that you'd open up like this.
Thank you for posting this! I've known that I had OCD for a very long time now but I had no idea that me thinking that other people can hear my thoughts was linked to my OCD. Good to know its not just me.
you have made feel more human in this 5 min video than every before. thank you so much
Hey! I have the same thoughts. Can we connect? Do you have Instagram??
that moment of "Oh, I know what that is, I just never realized that was what I was doing"
I've had this as well - I get these horrible thoughts about people, things I would never want to say, and then the urge to tell them. I didn't know anyone else got them. Thanks for sharing it - it helps to know you're not alone.
this is so validating to watch, oh my gosh
I read the title and immediately thought, wait, it isn’t just me? I Genuinely thought for a while that I must be going crazy or something. I have a lot of that same symptoms but i have currently not been diagnosed (because I had know idea that this was a real thing that other people have) so I never told any one. The weird thing for me is that I also feel like others know what I’m thinking, but not real people. For me, (this is very weird and embarrassing 😓) it’s anime/characters from shows and movies that I’ve watched. I know this probably sounds very weird, but that is actually what happens to me. It’s usually characters that I recently saw or learned something new about (or just a character that I really like) I’m pretty sure I have the oocd (I forgot the exact name of it) but it’s the kind of ocd where I think of things to stop the weird/disturbing/thoughts that I don’t agree with instead of physical things. But I do also have physical things I will do to stop them as well. I was wondering if anyone else also feels how I do?
I feel like this too but not for fictional characters. I hope this stops happening to you :)
Intrusive thoughts are so hard to talk about. Thanks for sharing!
I have OCD, but I’ve always thought I was the only person with fears about others reading my mind - it’s one of my absolute biggest worries most of the time. I feel a lot less alone now watching this and reading the comments. Thank you so much, and opening up about this was such a strong thing to do - hopefully, in time, many more of us will be able to speak out in confidence❤️
Thank you so so much for this video! My mum and I both have OCD and we were literally just talking about it!
The things you described were so similar to my experience, particularly the everything in 3s, although if I'm really struggling it goes to 5 then 7. I also feel that my OCD has made me incredibly paranoid, thinking that people are watching me when I'm alone or can read my thoughts. I also have intrusive thoughts of people hurting me, which can happen in public, which I'm better at dealing with now but was a huge factor for my anxiety. I'm very conscience of cleanliness but it was so much worse when I was really young, couldn't go anywhere barefoot (not even in the house), couldn't go in the sandbox, nervous around animals and things that they've touched in case it was "contaminated", this even went for things that other kids had touched. When I have a really awful intrusive thought theres usually both a physical compulsion and an internal one, generally a phrase repeated over and over again about how sorry I am and that I really don't believe/want that. Numbers are also a massive thing for me, like adding the time together until its "right", even staying up late to get it.
Some days I'm better and then others I seem to go backwards but I've learnt now that I'm not actually an awful person for having these thoughts.
Schoolwork and stress definitely seem to make it worse.
This happens to me everyday and I get stressed worried and can't stop thinking about it,it even effects my studies.
PRAYED FOR EVERYONE 🛐🙏
Thank you so much, every time I have intrusive thoughts I get so scared that my mind would ever think that. I'm so glad that a lot of people have this..
Thank you for sharing this, Rowan.
I avoid physical contact with people when fantasizing about my crush because i feel as if they can participate in my fantasy and spy on me just by touching me. But i know that this is impossible and ridiculous but i feel that way. And when i talk to myself about something which many people seem to disagree with, i explain why i believe it as if someone heard my thoughts and they need explanation why i think that particular ideology makes sense to me even when I'm alone in my house. I even thought it might be a psychotic symptom
Thanks so much for sharing your experiences! I have a similar kind of OCD and it can be really embarrassing to talk about - I think that by thinking something I can make it happen, I have to walk in a certain way, I have violent intrusive thoughts etc. I find it SO annoying when people say "I'm so OCD" because it makes me feel like I can't share what my OCD is actually like because people would probably be really shocked by the violent intrusive thoughts I have :/
I’ve never heard something that resonates with me this much ever
Thank you so much for this video! I too suffer with Pure O and was diagnosed around the same age too and it was horrible for me. In fact for a while mine linked to my repression of my sexuality and coming out actually helped decrease the severe aspect of one obsession I had, although I still suffer with OCD, I find I can cope a lot easier now.
Thank you so much for this! I understand the struggle and it sucks ❤️ xx
Thank you very much for being brave and posting. The same thing (the title), has gotten me into a lot of trouble before. When I can. I taught myself. If I'm explaining something. Normally I just blurt out, this is the way it is. But I have learnt. It pays to show your working. Like they used to say in math. I have high functioning autism
I THINK THE MAIN REASON WHY SOME PEOPLE BELEIVE THAT OTHERS CAN READ THEIR MIND IS THE FACT THAT THEY DONT COMUNICATE A LOT WITH OTHERS , IM A PERSON WHO GOT THAT PROBLEM EITHER AND I DO HATE THAT FEELING OF NOT HAVING PRIVACY , I HOPE THAT EVERYBODY WILL HAVE PEACE IN THEIR MIND
Yeah when someone looks at me I think they can read my mind depending on the person