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@@Trevonski5 I'm not sure what you mean. She is a great "teacher" sharing her knowledge and personal experience. Not everyone will feel the same but its not right to discredit the amazing work she is doing on her channel.
Oftentimes, I can't even remember half of the things I even said and I just stay quiet. This makes it really hard for me to string a complete sentence or follow a simple conversation, which often leads to stress and confusion. My biggest coping strategy is writing poetry. This has always been a blessing. Hugs and quiet time for myself are very grounding as well. This channel has helped me feel more aware than ever about my own disorganized thinking. This is coming from someone who reads for pure escapism and enjoyment. Thank you. 💗
Holy crap. I call that “squirrel” thinking. I’m talking about something and then suddenly “squirrel!” I go off on a tangent, stop, and completely forgot what I was talking about. (Note, the squirrel doesn’t have to happen to forget what I’m talking about). Thought I was the only one.
Wow. In all my years having this illness I never found anyone so relatable than you. Your videos are professional which is something I think lacked in the "schizophrenic" community. This is really helpful and validating. I have disorganized thinking so often and usually just have to stay silent and say as little as possible to make it through the day.
Yeah.. I am diagnosed as schizoaffective but I really don't have many grand delusions so I feel very awkward when listening to other 'reality-challenged' folks talking about conspiracies... This channel is really soothing and nice, and made me realize not everyone with those illnesses *have to* talk about aliens and such.. I've been paranoid and it felt like hell so I understand but yeah... Sorry I might not make many sense right now, I'm really stressed out about finances and moving, but I'm holding on. Take care everyone, I know this crap sucks donkey balls :(
I remember feeling threatened by other people and wanting to be invisible. Whenever I spoke, other kids laughed and called me stupid or weird. Had a hard-time in school because I couldn't concentrate. Stopped cursive writing because I thought others would be able to analyze me and just wrote with block letters. Now retired, I still can't hold a train of thought without being overwhelmed by a plethora of intrusive thoughts and music. Can't sleep well because I'm so anxious. Listen to music in my head and also tap rhythms to the music. I've been diagnosed with ADD but, after finding your channel, I realize that my constant struggle to keep alive is more than ADD. What has exacerbated my situation is that I'm now living alone, physically unable to work or play golf and separated from my two children. Living is pain.
I like this. I get pissed reading “scattered thoughts” because it makes me feel like im told i dont have good thinking. I have solid opinions that really are just hard to grasp onto or communicate with others because they all transition like the ocean. Try to go catch that pretty pearl getting thrown with the waves of the sea. Writing makes it easier because you can see what was last said and follow it. Most people lose track of all bits of auditorial conversation.
Same. I avoid talking because I can't always explain my thoughts into spoken words. Sometimes when I'm having a discussion with my girlfriend I'll text her what I'm trying to say even if she's around me and it makes all the difference.
I often speak tangentially. Like I could be speaking about how one of my ancestors was on the Titanic, and then in the middle of the conversation I'll suddenly start talking about boats and then five seconds later about how vast the ocean is. I quickly jump from topic to topic and this reflects my disorganized thinking because of my Schizophrenia
@@taylorfm-tk4by Tangential speech/disorganised thinking is a symptom of psychosis. Anyone can become sychotic, but schizophrenia/schizoaffective is a psychotic disorder, meaning episodes of relapsing global psychosis are defining features of the conditions. Psychosis causes deficits in executive functioning, which is what ADHD's primary neuropsych domain is. All can have issues with exec function, just as all can psychotic episodes have (from schizophrenia, bipolar/depression, or medications) but not everyone has the chronic issues with psychosis or executive functions that schizophrenia spectrum illnessis or ADHD does.
I knew a guy, actually I nursed him in a psych hospital and he'd spend hours with his head up against the wall trying to unravel his mixed up thoughts. He had insight and understood what he was suffering from. He asked me if he died would be reborn with a sound mind. Obviously he was considering suicide and he eventually did it.
I am always writing things down... its frustrating to flesh out an idea, while I'm mentally ping-ponging in a continuous flow of stimulus that splinters my focus. And as an artist, the source of my scattered mind is the same source that jolts creative ideas. Theres a saying: " to create what doesn't yet exist, you gotta be a little mad."
Amazing. This is not only helpful for people with schizoaffective disorder. This is helpful for anyone who suffers from scattered thoughts and disorganized thinking. Thank you.
What a wonderful video! As a clinician I find your videos useful, as many people with schizophrenia are not able to articulate things as well as you are. Kudos!
I have schizophrenia, not alot of people really understand how terrifying and frustrating it really can. Being at school can sometimes make it really bad for as well because being in a room full of people really sets off alot of my symptoms.
You are amazingly articulate....I don't have schizophrenia and wish I communicated as well!! I don't think you realize how intelligent and clear you come across and can listen to you talk all day:) Keep up the amazing work!
Just wonderful, I've been looking for "how do you deal with disorganized boss?" for a while now, and I think this has helped. Have you heard people talk about - Peyackson Illustrious Preeminence - (search on google ) ? It is an awesome one off product for discovering how to get rid of your clutter minus the normal expense. Ive heard some unbelievable things about it and my cousin got amazing success with it.
Me too! Got generalized anxiety disorder and C-PTSD, I definitely have scattered thoughts, I thought it was 'just' my ADD but I'm starting to think all my issues with scattered thoughts and lack of focus is caused by my disorders.
afaik bipolar disorders are partially psychotic too? in manic stages to be exact and scattered thinking sounds like thinking disorder which isn't inherently psychotic? i'm not a psychiatrist by any means fyi
@@leiasart4610 I'm starting to think my rapid thoughts are not due to bipolar disorder but ADD, but I don't have a diagnosis of ADD yet. It's difficult to know what is what, and when I have anxiety that can also be the cause...
Laura, thank you for these videos. My twin sister has schizophrenia and I get so frustrated with her. She's disabled and cannot work. As a result, she's so down on herself and seem to think she has no value. Sometimes I get frustrated with her because it seems like she's not even trying to get better, or I feel like she's being lazy in not doing things for herself. I need reminders that she has an illness, and her disorganized thinking and negative thinking is a normal symptom of that illness. Watching your videos helps me to understand her better.
Hi Laura, I know this post is dated back months ago but if you see this I just want to say hope your sisters situation is getting better.. I am struggling with the same mental issues as your sister but have not seeked out professional help yet. Ever since I turned 19, I have the same repetitive negative thoughts about myself every single day it’s just like a switch went off in my brain . I’m now 23 and I am unable to hold down a job for longer than 3 months, I have to rely on my partner to remind me to keep up with my obligations otherwise I would be completely lost. It makes me feel lazy and worthless. I have tried my hardest to overcome this by myself but a part of me believes people in my family also show symptoms of schizophrenia but they don’t believe in mental diseases. So I think it may have been in my genetics and I just want to see a professional so I can treat it before it worsens.
She need something to be proud of even small a role model something fake, I'm a 24 year old male and I have alot of issues going to doc soon to be fully checked again it's been awhile anyway what has got me through was goals, alot of people look at self care as a chore and not as a gift... Try to lay off of her eventually she might find something that motivated her talk about her pros anything she good at, attention means alot to schizophrenics they feel ignored and lonely but have a hard time showing it or telling, inside she dying for your attention anyones and even tho you feel you give attention it's not the kind they're looking for, yes they'll upset you act like kids but inside they're as harmless as a kid just wanting comfort and silence from the negative thoughts.. I pray for you and her just keep positive and everything will work out
Michelle do yourself a favour and UA-cam "The walsh institute n c t v 17 & podcast 132 , & many more videos by Dr walsh on mental disorders ,Also Mensah medical on you tube . This will open up new options you probably never thought about . I speak from direct experience of my brother who through these honourable guys "fixed his lifelong G A D disorder Amazing stuff "obscurity doesent = no efficacy , only dead fish swim with the tide . Theres no mega buks in what they do You Will find something here Long ive the disrupters ' nearly forgot UA-cam 45 years of clinical experience treating psychiatric disorders riordan clinic Very best of luck "mental disorders are more flawed chemistry not flawed character psychiatry is the only branch of medicine who dont lab test their subjects "Where are they at . spread the news be safe tom
I’m a small UA-camr and this is exactly what I experience and it’s almost always when I’m trying to get a point across, or expound on a thought. I’ll either forget completely what I was going to say, or just won’t make any sense at all. I really want to open up about this on my channel. But scared. Thank you for educating!
That happens alot to me when I'm manic. It's soooo frustrating to not be able to finish a sentence. You are so incredible for your honesty and I can relate in some ways what you go through. Stay strong ❤️
I don't know much about schizophrenia but my impression is that the affected people are highly intelligent, super sensitive, and bright thus more vunerable than others. And in certain circumstances, things can just more easily go wrong. I assume you guys are more advanced than the average. Be proud of yourselves!
May I ask a question of you: Have you read the book "I never promised you a rose garden" or seen the movie? There is a scene in it which describes a feeling of being in and out of a fog. Does that seem authentic to you? And, finally, is there a book or movie which best describes your personal experience with your illness?
Thanks for explaining this, I sometimes have intrusive sexual or violent thoughts, there is no cure yet but there are ways to manage them, medication and spending time alone helps. Also a thing I figured out is to recognize what is causing you to think that way, understand what you are thinking and doing or how thoughts are affecting your actions.
I didnt realize I did this, until you told me about this today. My husband always would tell me what are you talking about now, when he asked me a question and I would be in the process of answering him and would skip that subject and move on to another thought. I have Schizoaffective disorder.
I don't have schizophrenia or anything, yet the past month I cannot think straight or keep track of things. Time feels quicker than usual, my sense of fear/worry is not working normal, it is way less than usual.
Hello Lauren, Yes. Hugs are fantastic and I hope you get lots of them from Rob. I am single and live alone with my cat. I hug him several times a day but sometimes he can reject me. Still I just love that feeling. Peter Nolan. Ph.D.(physics). Dublin. Ireland.
I am really touched by all these comments from people with this similar problem to mine... it can be scary and isolating at times and it helps to know I am not alone. You all seem like wonderful positive people❤️
New subscriber and I'm so glad I am. Finally, everything I was not able to articulate is being said by Lauren! I can just show these videos to my friends and family so they know exactly how my mind works. This channel is great, thank you Lauren! This symptom for me in general is the main issue that has ever held me back in my life, and it still does. Thanks to this channel I can talk to my psychiatrist properly so she can put me on the right medication. The scattered thoughts on my end never really stop. It's been suppressed to say the least, but still very much there.
My husband also gets silent. That's why the word salad is the one symptom that I don't recognize but he will go off on a tangent telling hypothetical stories. When we're fighting and I'm sharing a logical idea and get a blank response it's very frustrating and I've assumed that he's not listening just to be a jerk. The discovery of his illness is all very new.
Lauren YOU ARE A HERO!! Thank you for giving so much of yourself to help those living with mental illness! So helpful. And i want to tell you how beautiful your teeth look. Gorgeous 😃. Inside and out.
Thanks so much for this video. Psychosis is a big part of my own mental illness and I love watching your videos. To have scattered thoughts explained like this finally gives me the words to describe what I'm feeling.
@@Anthony-tw3oi I haven't fully solved this myself yet. I know that communicating that I'm not in a good mind set to have a full on discussion is best, but sometimes it's embarrassing and I don't. It's a process, there's no one thing to solve it unfortunately Therapy helps.
Took me about ten years to accept a disorganized schizophrenia diagnosis. The scattered thoughts always been the most prevalent and draining part about life, hearing someone talk about it is kind of relieving and helpful. I can definitely relate to wanting to stop talking, been a couple situations where i talk to someone and then later overhear them telling a friend or partner about how they could not understand me... Always a little frustrating and hurtful whenever that happens.
Hi, I currently have the diagnosis of bipolar disorder type 1. But after watching a bunch of your videos I feel like I really resonate with your experience with schizoaffective disorder. I tried to bring it up with my partner and he told me that I seem fine and I seem like I’ve been doing much better lately. I feel like it’s getting worse and I really feel like I’m falling deep into the disorganized thinking. I’m not sure where to go or what to do from this point- but your videos are so wonderful, so helpful and they bring me a lot of comfort. Thank you so much. I appreciate you and your channel.
Thank you so much for making this video. My son is newly diagnosed with disorganized schizophrenia and this has helped me to understand it all a bit better. Definitely going to watch the rest of your videos in hopes of helping him cope and get on track.
I get severe migraines. When they are bad I have scattered thoughts, all stimuli is overwhelming, and I have loud music in my head that I can’t stop. Much stronger than typical ear worms. It’s very scary when it all happens. I get them often enough that I can’t always just stay home so have to try and work through it. I feel very mentally unstable during these times. I can’t imagine living with an illness like hers.
I never would've guessed there'd be so many who were diagnosed like myself here. It's somehow comforting in a way, like being around those you can relate to compared to those who are normally around you.
I have experienced this today for 4 hours while talking to someone I have just met. I wasn't able to express what I was thinking or feeling, I just kept asking him to repeat or explain what he was just saying. I start to feel really insecure about the odd things I start to say, and how easily I had forgotten common knowledge. I worried I appeared unintelligent, I worried that I was, I still worry that I am. I have been diagnosed with BPD, but I have experienced scattered thoughts and some other cognitive and negative, positive symptoms of schizophrenia. These videos have helped me realize some things I was unaware that I am going through, it is a relief to have a name to it so I can express my experience more effectively. Thank you for your content
I have a friend who s like that and I actually quite like listening to him because he gives out so much information, keeps me engaged and interested, and the amount of info inspires my unexpected thoughts too.
Very good video. My girlfriend is schizophrenic and struggles with racing thoughts. As her partner i suggested meditation and jounaling her thoughts. She has improved by learning ways to slow down. I do think i will ask her to watch your video,s so she can see a perspective from someone who is also schizophrenic.
This is the most frustrating when I’m writing lyrics. I’ll come up with GOLD and then it’s gone and I’ll be crying about it and people just say I’m being dramatic but it’s like dude, you have no idea how much work I just lost
Try thinking of something to associate that thought . Like for example, when I talk and forgot what I was saying I look around my surroundings and I try to recreate my thought process in my mind. Some associates might help you with that.
Thanks so much for these video's. Finally someone I can relate to. It makes it easier to accept my schizzoaffective disorder... You deserve some kind of award! 🏆
I’m currently seeing a counsellor. Have schizophrenia in my family history. Disorganized thoughts described a lot of my life. This video feels like it’s speaking to me in terms of how I relate to what you’re saying. Kind of scared. Hoping for the best. Expecting the worst is how I’ve lived my whole life so I think I got this☺️ your vids rock
It sounds like you need to find someone who accepts you for who you are. You gotta let yourself go. You gotta love your own craziness. It's very powerful and liberating!
Good work! Keep posting such videos! We never get knowledge abt this disease from other sources. Even if u don’t have million subscribers, don’t stop making videos! This helps us a lot. Genuine comment
You don’t understand what your channel is doing for the world. No words or comment that any one of us could leave could ever touch close on what you are doing, Lauren. Stay strong. Be who you are. Respect to you and your family. 🌹
Thank you for sharing your experience! Someone I know is going through this and this is eye opening to what they may be going through with scitzoaffective gets bad for them.
Hello I’m a wife and mother who struggles with schizoaffective disorder I’d love to get some opinions on being in a relationship. And communicating affectively .
have your edacrin system checked for fault communication between your organs , neurosystems an brain Paul stames the mushroom guy has a line of brain health supplements your brain a animal mushroom so the material to fix it is consuming see him on Joe Rogans podcast it's legit Also all things that have energy emits a field in early childhood we get tuned for synaptics through Interaction and touch and bio feedback so don't be around the little ones when you peak and have a parent who is not schizophrenic stay calm well you leave the room knowing what and why the schizophrenic person is behaviors are accruing will off set fear hormones that you exreat during high anxiety moments from passing the fear to the small child I'm still trying to explain this to my partner lol we aren't planning on kids but if we do this will be the way we curb the problem for references material Check Stanford lecter schizophrenia and depression also check out the rabbit hole of endocrine system And endocrine disruptors look up Sencery processing disorder and have a nutritions see what your allergic response intensity for foods are all of you are attractive so immune system issues are the a likely cause of the brain issues + epigenetics possibly have a role to play so find out about your parents endocrine issues and prenatal fluid hormone levels because there's possible complications in brain development there and in prenatal medicine strees as well as trauma
Honestly you will be divorced and your family shun you for life with Schizo-Affective disorder, get ready to be alone with the voices for the rest of your life. Sorry but its going to happen.
MySchizoaffectivelife honestly you are a toxic terrible human being and should stop speaking entirely to everyone because no one needs your negativity 🖕
@@crissyzeta3610 Of course I am because I have been through it all before. You are just not to the point in life im at. This is how the world treats anyone who doesnt fit in.
You're not alone when it comes to gather your thoughts,acknowledgement to people,I do at times deal with those types of issues,it's very inspiring to listening,watching your video.
this used to always happen to me! all my life up until i started taking psychedlics and learned about my own brain, understanding my brain and studying body language was so important to learn how to communicate, i think the fact that i grew up learning spanish and english at the same time was the source of this
I visited a homeless shelter once. I had a conversation with a resident who had scattered thoughts. I thought he would get to the point, but after 30 minutes of conversation we had not focused on any subject. I did know anything about this disorder.
I’m amazed at your insight... my son has had disorganized schizophrenia for almost 10 years now, but he can’t see what’s going on, or even notice it... he can now say he hears broadcasting but the voices or ALL his delusions are REAL so real that he doesn’t understand any explanation of what is really going on. He doesn’t accept it or wants to discuss it and gets angry if anything is said otherwise. Please tell me how in the heck you’ve gotten to this point. Hugs are definitely not allowed by him, or he allows to be hugged but he keeps his arms opened wide. If it’s a specially bad day, he will stay in bed the entire day. He’s spent all his twenties in and out of hospitals... no improvement.
I found the random thought patterns helped with problem solving and the ability to truly think outside the box. Writing them down though, or using a Dictaphone as you run with a thought then it jumps and the next two or three ideas might not be related. At uni I was always finding (very) unique answers to problems.
John do yourself a good favour & UA-cam "The walsh institute n c t v 1 7 & podcast 132 youll be facinated Believe me i speak from experience of what this way of doing mental disorders can offer . Another "grainey utube is Dr walsh Leeza Gibbons episode best of luck enjoy youll be fine """" ""
@Smile I am sorry to hear that my friend. That is a heavy load to carry. Just try your best and never give up. Sending you a BIG HUG. If you ever need to vent, just send me a message. I do not have answers but I have strong shoulders. God Bless you.
@Smile Good attitude. Always know that YOU are important! YOU can help others at some point. YOU can help to make this world a better place! Many people suffer, we are not alone.
I experienced all this years ago...found out I had Pyroluria..got cured by taking the compounds and getting off alcohol and bud.. still so intrigued about these experiences as they are truly something else
So glad that you had a kid. You will make a wonderful mom. I believe that I have endometriosis. So I am better off without a family. Sorry if that sounds inappropriate. I grew up with parents who were inappropriate. I better off being myself. Someday I will become my nice self again.
Hello, could you make a video talking about different dissociations you might experience as a part of (y)our illness, like derealisation, depersonalization and dysmorphophobia ? That would be very interesting. Thanks in advance
The brain is a cog that rotates in perfect order until the cog is no longer observed as what it once was the brain now forms a new perspective and doubts the cog of its choice. Creating a variety of new problems with its karmatic exsistence as a whole bodily organism creating mutiny and fault. Making what was once working abandoned into a disorder of chaos. Proceeds doubts of abandonment if or rejects it if order sint restored fear causes chaos endlessly across thinkers be ware stay strong in the hallow eve.
I’ve been watching your videos for literally only like a week lol. But my ENTIRE life I’ve had these thoughts & feelings & hallucinations. I’ve never known how to voice them, I’ve never known what I was even feeling until like 2 years ago. Well after doing extensive research, I can’t say I have anything other than a misdiagnosis of BPD just yet, I don’t have an actual diagnosis yet. I have an appt with the psychiatrist tomorrow so I will go from there. But I just want to say, whatever “it” is, I relate to your videos & almost everything you experience & feel. I’m positive I have schizophrenia but I can’t say that without a diagnosis. So until then I can only say I have the schizophrenic tendencies...? & I have never felt more in reality. I’ve never been able to recognize what’s real & what’s not. I’m almost 21. I just recognized this about a week ago, but I’ve naturally adapted to these coping mechanisms quietly & just never was able to voice what I’ve felt. You are almost saving my life. I don’t know if I would have given up eventually but because of your passion to spread awareness, I think I’ve figured out what’s “wrong” with me or it can at least take me in the right direction finally, & for that I can get the proper treatment for the FIRST time in my life. I have hope. I thank you for that as well. I see how you manage it & I see that I can too. Thank you.
You are what has opened my eyes is what I’m trying to say. If I hadn’t come across your videos I don’t know if I would have been comfortable enough to speak what I’m feeling, or to be able to recognize it.
I couldn't identify this particular thought disorder until watching this video, so thank you. Derailment I suspect ties in with it as it progresses. That maybe your fear as it is mine. I don't want anyone to perceive incompetence. Pride and ego. Thanks to you (a little editing as well ) I can become competent in the symptom management . One word encompasses those symptoms though. I think the correct term for it is decompensation and I am envious of the support network you have in place. All the best for you and Rob and family. Peace
I have bipolar1 with psychosis and this video really rings true with me. I often find that I have to step back I get so overwhelmed I can’t deal with things, the universe seems like it’s coming at me all at once. Sometimes writing helps once I’ve removed myself from the “bad” situation, noise canceling headphones and quiet classical guitar music are also a favorite.
Holy shit this changed so much of my understanding about the people I know who suffer from schizophrenia. One of my friends, for a lack of a better word, exhausts me when I’m around her for more than an hour. We can start out a conversation and it’ll lose its direction within three sentences and branch off into fractal like paths. I never knew about this type of thinking but it exactly explains why I have trouble being around her for too long without being confused and tired.
I call this popcorn thoughts usually and it is almost identical to yours. I also tend to get frustrated and stop talking when I get popcorn or racing thoughts. It is so hard to talk when you can not get a couple words out without feeling like your mind is being bombarded.
I also often use shortcut words that are close enough to what i mean because i am not used to the pressure of conversations so im like “it’s close enough they can figure out what i mean”... and it’s frustrating because i like to be very accurate with words so i spend time trying to “summon” a word from my mind that conveys something in an elegant or powerful way... saying “bet” and “hell yeah” doesn’t work for me. Its hard trying to think about every single way someone can perceive a word. Then 7 words. Then 49 words.
Wow. I didn't expect to relate so much to your videos. I have some similar symptoms, and behavior. Scattered thoughts, non existent memory, and fear in social situations are the main reasons I never even finished high school. Do you get scared of certain situations for no reason. Going to doctors, dentists, optometrist. Heck, even the bank. My fight or flight kicks in, and I start shaking. I can get through it, but everything kind of shuts down. My face gets numb. My perception changes. Things seem different. I'm not sure how to describe it. Detached, and it doesn't feel real. My words don't come out right. I can't really think to answer questions. Time seems like it passes quicker, and when it's over I barely remember what happed during that. Are these sounding like schizophrenia? I have other odd things too, but I mean, this specifically. It's embarrassing, and unpleasant, and a big reason why I never go for help when I need it in any situation.
...I didn't know that this is what's happening. I very often get confused in my sentences and instead of finishing one thought, I move on to another and eventually forget the topic I was talking about from the very beginning. As a result, all my friends' conversations, arguments with people - it's all something very uncomfortable for me and them and all the time it seems to me as if I have lost my mind or a part of my brain. Because of that I sometimes start to despise myself. Sometimes I can read someone's text and I literally don't understand what the person is talking about. As a result, I don't know : is there something wrong with this person or with me? In the end, if I, it turns out, was wrong in the argument all the time, it's very... Disappointing. I feel ashamed. Especially when, without understanding the other person, I still cannot finish my thought and what, in general, I was going to say. Maybe this video did help me a bit..? Thank you.
I have been in therapy with rapid cycling bipolarism for a few years and have struggled to express EXACTLY THESE ISSUES. I have had therapists second guess what I mean because I do not really get "word salad", although I can be extremely distracted by multiple thoughts that are kind of related, but I will struggle to interweave everything coherently and become frustrated that when none of the thoughts really come to a satisfying end. But frequently I feel like I am muted by the scattered thoughts in my head and I cannot formulate a coherent expression at all. I press my lips or take a breath and ... nothing. I will show my partner this video as he often does not know what to do - but at least we both now know more or less what is happening and the best thing is to not draw so much attention to it. I like your reference to grounding, hugging can work but it can also trigger an anxious reaction. A real lifesaver is music. I know exactly which go-to pieces of music can slowly rein me in. Keyword: slowly. I might have to listen to the same piece of music repeatedly before changing it to something else, and then gradually with my own self-orchestrated Sportify concert I can ground myself. This can take a good couple of hours. And I will remain - more by force than choice, or at least that is how it feels - perfectly silent, even if my partner asks if I am OK or if he can do anything for me. In any case THANK YOU and all best wishes from Berlin :)
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What you're doing with this channel in terms of educating people is admirable.
Absolutely!
This isn't what having schizophrenia is like.
She’s trying to fake an illness that can’t be faked.. don’t worry doctors can tell
@@Trevonski5 I'm not sure what you mean. She is a great "teacher" sharing her knowledge and personal experience. Not everyone will feel the same but its not right to discredit the amazing work she is doing on her channel.
True it helps inform people so much
Oftentimes, I can't even remember half of the things I even said and I just stay quiet. This makes it really hard for me to string a complete sentence or follow a simple conversation, which often leads to stress and confusion. My biggest coping strategy is writing poetry. This has always been a blessing. Hugs and quiet time for myself are very grounding as well. This channel has helped me feel more aware than ever about my own disorganized thinking. This is coming from someone who reads for pure escapism and enjoyment. Thank you. 💗
Cat Charlie that's beautiful, & I'm really happy for you that you have found something as wonderful as poetry to help with your wellbeing!
Holy crap. I call that “squirrel” thinking. I’m talking about something and then suddenly “squirrel!” I go off on a tangent, stop, and completely forgot what I was talking about. (Note, the squirrel doesn’t have to happen to forget what I’m talking about). Thought I was the only one.
A lot of this sounds like what I experience a lot and I have ADHD and aspergers but I don’t have schizophrenia
that's awesome I found similarly writing rap works for me... or "music"... and just writing in general
How to overcome with this it is so annoying i dont feel well.😣
Wow. In all my years having this illness I never found anyone so relatable than you. Your videos are professional which is something I think lacked in the "schizophrenic" community. This is really helpful and validating. I have disorganized thinking so often and usually just have to stay silent and say as little as possible to make it through the day.
Yeah.. I am diagnosed as schizoaffective but I really don't have many grand delusions so I feel very awkward when listening to other 'reality-challenged' folks talking about conspiracies... This channel is really soothing and nice, and made me realize not everyone with those illnesses *have to* talk about aliens and such.. I've been paranoid and it felt like hell so I understand but yeah... Sorry I might not make many sense right now, I'm really stressed out about finances and moving, but I'm holding on. Take care everyone, I know this crap sucks donkey balls :(
I remember feeling threatened by other people and wanting to be invisible. Whenever I spoke, other kids laughed and called me stupid or weird. Had a hard-time in school because I couldn't concentrate. Stopped cursive writing because I thought others would be able to analyze me and just wrote with block letters. Now retired, I still can't hold a train of thought without being overwhelmed by a plethora of intrusive thoughts and music. Can't sleep well because I'm so anxious. Listen to music in my head and also tap rhythms to the music. I've been diagnosed with ADD but, after finding your channel, I realize that my constant struggle to keep alive is more than ADD. What has exacerbated my situation is that I'm now living alone, physically unable to work or play golf and separated from my two children. Living is pain.
@@cht2162Come on guys..What steps of action should this guy take. Mind or thought control, finding, seeking, and causing self peace comes to mind.
I like this. I get pissed reading “scattered thoughts” because it makes me feel like im told i dont have good thinking. I have solid opinions that really are just hard to grasp onto or communicate with others because they all transition like the ocean. Try to go catch that pretty pearl getting thrown with the waves of the sea. Writing makes it easier because you can see what was last said and follow it. Most people lose track of all bits of auditorial conversation.
Me too...i used to be so well spoken...it makes me sad
Same. I avoid talking because I can't always explain my thoughts into spoken words. Sometimes when I'm having a discussion with my girlfriend I'll text her what I'm trying to say even if she's around me and it makes all the difference.
Written communication is so much easier for me. I can follow my arguments, and link thoughts together without having to rely on working memory.
I often speak tangentially. Like I could be speaking about how one of my ancestors was on the Titanic, and then in the middle of the conversation I'll suddenly start talking about boats and then five seconds later about how vast the ocean is. I quickly jump from topic to topic and this reflects my disorganized thinking because of my Schizophrenia
ADHD causes that as well I think?
@@taylorfm-tk4by Tangential speech/disorganised thinking is a symptom of psychosis. Anyone can become sychotic, but schizophrenia/schizoaffective is a psychotic disorder, meaning episodes of relapsing global psychosis are defining features of the conditions. Psychosis causes deficits in executive functioning, which is what ADHD's primary neuropsych domain is. All can have issues with exec function, just as all can psychotic episodes have (from schizophrenia, bipolar/depression, or medications) but not everyone has the chronic issues with psychosis or executive functions that schizophrenia spectrum illnessis or ADHD does.
@@ThomasMuethingDotCom thanks mate for the explanation, appreciate it 🙏 :)
Hope youre getting the right help
I knew a guy, actually I nursed him in a psych hospital and he'd spend hours with his head up against the wall trying to unravel his mixed up thoughts. He had insight and understood what he was suffering from. He asked me if he died would be reborn with a sound mind. Obviously he was considering suicide and he eventually did it.
omg is it very sad to work in mental health?
@@yueyihe3630 yes and stressful too....but not always.
We are so blessed this channel exists. Schizophrenic like me needs this kind of channel. It's like a therapy 🙏🙏🙏 love and respect from India..
I am always writing things down... its frustrating to flesh out an idea, while I'm mentally ping-ponging in a continuous flow of stimulus that splinters my focus. And as an artist, the source of my scattered mind is the same source that jolts creative ideas.
Theres a saying: " to create what doesn't yet exist, you gotta be a little mad."
Amazing. This is not only helpful for people with schizoaffective disorder. This is helpful for anyone who suffers from scattered thoughts and disorganized thinking. Thank you.
What a wonderful video! As a clinician I find your videos useful, as many people with schizophrenia are not able to articulate things as well as you are. Kudos!
I have schizophrenia, not alot of people really understand how terrifying and frustrating it really can. Being at school can sometimes make it really bad for as well because being in a room full of people really sets off alot of my symptoms.
You are amazingly articulate....I don't have schizophrenia and wish I communicated as well!! I don't think you realize how intelligent and clear you come across and can listen to you talk all day:) Keep up the amazing work!
You're very smart, articulate and Beautiful.
This is SUCH good information. I've seen the "word salad" effect when other people have spoken before, but I had no idea what it really was.
Just wonderful, I've been looking for "how do you deal with disorganized boss?" for a while now, and I think this has helped. Have you heard people talk about - Peyackson Illustrious Preeminence - (search on google ) ? It is an awesome one off product for discovering how to get rid of your clutter minus the normal expense. Ive heard some unbelievable things about it and my cousin got amazing success with it.
I don't live with schizophrenia...I have bipolar disorder and this is something that I regularly experience.
Me as well.
same
Me too! Got generalized anxiety disorder and C-PTSD, I definitely have scattered thoughts, I thought it was 'just' my ADD but I'm starting to think all my issues with scattered thoughts and lack of focus is caused by my disorders.
afaik bipolar disorders are partially psychotic too? in manic stages to be exact
and scattered thinking sounds like thinking disorder which isn't inherently psychotic?
i'm not a psychiatrist by any means fyi
@@leiasart4610 I'm starting to think my rapid thoughts are not due to bipolar disorder but ADD, but I don't have a diagnosis of ADD yet. It's difficult to know what is what, and when I have anxiety that can also be the cause...
Laura, thank you for these videos. My twin sister has schizophrenia and I get so frustrated with her. She's disabled and cannot work. As a result, she's so down on herself and seem to think she has no value. Sometimes I get frustrated with her because it seems like she's not even trying to get better, or I feel like she's being lazy in not doing things for herself. I need reminders that she has an illness, and her disorganized thinking and negative thinking is a normal symptom of that illness. Watching your videos helps me to understand her better.
Tom Cunningham I can't find the post you are referring to?
Hi Laura, I know this post is dated back months ago but if you see this I just want to say hope your sisters situation is getting better.. I am struggling with the same mental issues as your sister but have not seeked out professional help yet. Ever since I turned 19, I have the same repetitive negative thoughts about myself every single day it’s just like a switch went off in my brain . I’m now 23 and I am unable to hold down a job for longer than 3 months, I have to rely on my partner to remind me to keep up with my obligations otherwise I would be completely lost. It makes me feel lazy and worthless. I have tried my hardest to overcome this by myself but a part of me believes people in my family also show symptoms of schizophrenia but they don’t believe in mental diseases. So I think it may have been in my genetics and I just want to see a professional so I can treat it before it worsens.
She need something to be proud of even small a role model something fake, I'm a 24 year old male and I have alot of issues going to doc soon to be fully checked again it's been awhile anyway what has got me through was goals, alot of people look at self care as a chore and not as a gift... Try to lay off of her eventually she might find something that motivated her talk about her pros anything she good at, attention means alot to schizophrenics they feel ignored and lonely but have a hard time showing it or telling, inside she dying for your attention anyones and even tho you feel you give attention it's not the kind they're looking for, yes they'll upset you act like kids but inside they're as harmless as a kid just wanting comfort and silence from the negative thoughts.. I pray for you and her just keep positive and everything will work out
What helped me is discovering the importance of race and culture for myself. It gives you a whole new meaning and respect to life
You truly are a blessing and an exception. Not many people who have been diagnosed with Schizophrenia share your ability to figure it out.
Thank you for this video. My son has schizophrenia and this helped me. 💕
Michelle do yourself a favour and UA-cam "The walsh institute n c t v 17 & podcast 132 , & many more videos by Dr walsh on mental disorders ,Also Mensah medical on you tube . This will open up new options you probably never thought about . I speak from direct experience of my brother who through these honourable guys "fixed his lifelong G A D disorder Amazing stuff "obscurity doesent = no efficacy , only dead fish swim with the tide . Theres no mega buks in what they do You Will find something here Long ive the disrupters ' nearly forgot UA-cam 45 years of clinical experience treating psychiatric disorders riordan clinic Very best of luck "mental disorders are more flawed chemistry not flawed character psychiatry is the only branch of medicine who dont lab test their subjects "Where are they at . spread the news be safe tom
Same here, she is a blessing to us confused momma's who only want to help. 💕
I am so grateful that you make these videos so I can better understand my brother ❤️ 🙏
Hugs are so grounding!
I’m a small UA-camr and this is exactly what I experience and it’s almost always when I’m trying to get a point across, or expound on a thought. I’ll either forget completely what I was going to say, or just won’t make any sense at all. I really want to open up about this on my channel. But scared. Thank you for educating!
That happens alot to me when I'm manic. It's soooo frustrating to not be able to finish a sentence. You are so incredible for your honesty and I can relate in some ways what you go through. Stay strong ❤️
You are one of the strongest people I’ve ever seen❤️, keep it up
I don't know much about schizophrenia but my impression is that the affected people are highly intelligent, super sensitive, and bright thus more vunerable than others. And in certain circumstances, things can just more easily go wrong. I assume you guys are more advanced than the average. Be proud of yourselves!
that’s really nice to hear :)
That's actually a stereotype brought on by Hollywood. I see what you're saying but that idea is a bit harmful
No, it affects all kinds of people. It doesn't happen because someone has a high IQ. Lol
It has nothing to do with IQ really
@@oliverxhmll i know its not 100% but test show that liek 50% of scitzos make more DMT than regulars
May I ask a question of you: Have you read the book "I never promised you a rose garden" or seen the movie? There is a scene in it which describes a feeling of being in and out of a fog. Does that seem authentic to you? And, finally, is there a book or movie which best describes your personal experience with your illness?
Thanks for explaining this, I sometimes have intrusive sexual or violent thoughts, there is no cure yet but there are ways to manage them, medication and spending time alone helps.
Also a thing I figured out is to recognize what is causing you to think that way, understand what you are thinking and doing or how thoughts are affecting your actions.
Millzie 2020 search up harm ocd and ocd in general, i have this and it can be managed through therapy techniques and medication (optional)
I didnt realize I did this, until you told me about this today. My husband always would tell me what are you talking about now, when he asked me a question and I would be in the process of answering him and would skip that subject and move on to another thought. I have Schizoaffective disorder.
I don't have schizophrenia or anything, yet the past month I cannot think straight or keep track of things. Time feels quicker than usual, my sense of fear/worry is not working normal, it is way less than usual.
Hello Lauren,
Yes. Hugs are fantastic and I hope you get lots of them from Rob. I am single and live alone with my cat. I hug him several times a day but sometimes he can reject me. Still I just love that feeling.
Peter Nolan. Ph.D.(physics). Dublin. Ireland.
I am really touched by all these comments from people with this similar problem to mine... it can be scary and isolating at times and it helps to know I am not alone. You all seem like wonderful positive people❤️
New subscriber and I'm so glad I am. Finally, everything I was not able to articulate is being said by Lauren! I can just show these videos to my friends and family so they know exactly how my mind works. This channel is great, thank you Lauren!
This symptom for me in general is the main issue that has ever held me back in my life, and it still does. Thanks to this channel I can talk to my psychiatrist properly so she can put me on the right medication. The scattered thoughts on my end never really stop. It's been suppressed to say the least, but still very much there.
I was literally just thinking this exact same thing as I concluded my first video ofthis channel. Definitely a new subscriber now!
A patient, supportive and informed partner is a gift. Bless you and thanks for your kind and articulate guidance.
My husband also gets silent. That's why the word salad is the one symptom that I don't recognize but he will go off on a tangent telling hypothetical stories.
When we're fighting and I'm sharing a logical idea and get a blank response it's very frustrating and I've assumed that he's not listening just to be a jerk.
The discovery of his illness is all very new.
Lauren YOU ARE A HERO!! Thank you for giving so much of yourself to help those living with mental illness! So helpful. And i want to tell you how beautiful your teeth look. Gorgeous 😃. Inside and out.
Thanks so much for this video. Psychosis is a big part of my own mental illness and I love watching your videos. To have scattered thoughts explained like this finally gives me the words to describe what I'm feeling.
Joseph check out 1st comment on this page where i outline my experience youl will find something here enjoy very best of luck
In terms of living with it.. that hope of "maybe tomorrow I'll have a clear mind" is just a fleeting impossibility, a pipe dream. =[
I had a complete breakdown over this symptom last night and found this video this morning. Its so frustrating. Thank you for making these videos.
This is 100% what happens to me with ADHD. Thank you for discussing!
iEatedAbutter22 how do you get over it
@@Anthony-tw3oi I haven't fully solved this myself yet. I know that communicating that I'm not in a good mind set to have a full on discussion is best, but sometimes it's embarrassing and I don't.
It's a process, there's no one thing to solve it unfortunately
Therapy helps.
@@Anthony-tw3oi talk therepy and getting hobbies keeping your mind distracted really
Believe me, schizophrenia is much worse and debilitating than ADHD. Don’t get me started……
@@LA-hb4ue I wasn't trying to win any mental health competition. There are overlapping symptoms, and this particular topic touched on one of those.
Took me about ten years to accept a disorganized schizophrenia diagnosis. The scattered thoughts always been the most prevalent and draining part about life, hearing someone talk about it is kind of relieving and helpful. I can definitely relate to wanting to stop talking, been a couple situations where i talk to someone and then later overhear them telling a friend or partner about how they could not understand me... Always a little frustrating and hurtful whenever that happens.
Coping with the symtoms of schizophrenia daily is a challenge your videos are really a source of strength thanks for the uploads.
Mohammed please check out my 1st commet on this page youll have good chance of fixing it very best of luck
Hi, I currently have the diagnosis of bipolar disorder type 1. But after watching a bunch of your videos I feel like I really resonate with your experience with schizoaffective disorder. I tried to bring it up with my partner and he told me that I seem fine and I seem like I’ve been doing much better lately. I feel like it’s getting worse and I really feel like I’m falling deep into the disorganized thinking. I’m not sure where to go or what to do from this point- but your videos are so wonderful, so helpful and they bring me a lot of comfort. Thank you so much. I appreciate you and your channel.
Wow, you're so courageous. Thank you for helping to destigmatize this mental illness through transparency and education.
Thank-you for another great video, you are an amazing young lady! 🦁
Thank you so much for making this video. My son is newly diagnosed with disorganized schizophrenia and this has helped me to understand it all a bit better. Definitely going to watch the rest of your videos in hopes of helping him cope and get on track.
I get severe migraines. When they are bad I have scattered thoughts, all stimuli is overwhelming, and I have loud music in my head that I can’t stop. Much stronger than typical ear worms. It’s very scary when it all happens. I get them often enough that I can’t always just stay home so have to try and work through it. I feel very mentally unstable during these times. I can’t imagine living with an illness like hers.
I never would've guessed there'd be so many who were diagnosed like myself here. It's somehow comforting in a way, like being around those you can relate to compared to those who are normally around you.
I have experienced this today for 4 hours while talking to someone I have just met. I wasn't able to express what I was thinking or feeling, I just kept asking him to repeat or explain what he was just saying. I start to feel really insecure about the odd things I start to say, and how easily I had forgotten common knowledge. I worried I appeared unintelligent, I worried that I was, I still worry that I am. I have been diagnosed with BPD, but I have experienced scattered thoughts and some other cognitive and negative, positive symptoms of schizophrenia. These videos have helped me realize some things I was unaware that I am going through, it is a relief to have a name to it so I can express my experience more effectively. Thank you for your content
I have a friend who s like that and I actually quite like listening to him because he gives out so much information, keeps me engaged and interested, and the amount of info inspires my unexpected thoughts too.
I feel like I’ve been experiencing this like it’s starting to be noticeable at work they probably think am being dumb or something
Very good video. My girlfriend is schizophrenic and struggles with racing thoughts. As her partner i suggested meditation and jounaling her thoughts. She has improved by learning ways to slow down. I do think i will ask her to watch your video,s so she can see a perspective from someone who is also schizophrenic.
You have the most coherent train of thought I've ever witnessed.
What about when you forget what you're gonna say and then you keep trying to think about what you're gonna say But you can't because you forgot.
This is the most frustrating when I’m writing lyrics. I’ll come up with GOLD and then it’s gone and I’ll be crying about it and people just say I’m being dramatic but it’s like dude, you have no idea how much work I just lost
I excessively experience thought derailment when I'm trying to communicate with others.
Try thinking of something to associate that thought . Like for example, when I talk and forgot what I was saying I look around my surroundings and I try to recreate my thought process in my mind. Some associates might help you with that.
Thanks so much for these video's. Finally someone I can relate to. It makes it easier to accept my schizzoaffective disorder... You deserve some kind of award! 🏆
I’m currently seeing a counsellor. Have schizophrenia in my family history. Disorganized thoughts described a lot of my life. This video feels like it’s speaking to me in terms of how I relate to what you’re saying. Kind of scared. Hoping for the best. Expecting the worst is how I’ve lived my whole life so I think I got this☺️ your vids rock
Thank you for sharing! My mom has Schizophrenia and your videos help me to better understand.
It sounds like you need to find someone who accepts you for who you are. You gotta let yourself go. You gotta love your own craziness. It's very powerful and liberating!
your amazing, i dont have schizophrenia but have bad disorganized type thinking , and adhd and ocd and it shows a positive way forward
My brother is a survivor. You have beautiful eyes.
I'm glad you brought this up this happens to me alot when I am big groups too. Thank you for sharing.
Good work! Keep posting such videos! We never get knowledge abt this disease from other sources. Even if u don’t have million subscribers, don’t stop making videos! This helps us a lot. Genuine comment
@soham sawant Indeed, I concur!🌟✨👑🙌💯
Excellent video, thank you for sharing 😊
This channel is helping me a ton. Thanks!!
You are super confident and beautiful. Also a Great public speaker. Thanks for the information.
These videos are great, so needed and informative, well done!
You don’t understand what your channel is doing for the world. No words or comment that any one of us could leave could ever touch close on what you are doing, Lauren.
Stay strong. Be who you are. Respect to you and your family. 🌹
Thank you for sharing your experience! Someone I know is going through this and this is eye opening to what they may be going through with scitzoaffective gets bad for them.
Hello I’m a wife and mother who struggles with schizoaffective disorder I’d love to get some opinions on being in a relationship. And communicating affectively .
Crissy zeta Check out the video we posted on schizophrenia and relationships: ua-cam.com/video/VXAv7iX0rSo/v-deo.html
have your edacrin system checked for fault communication between your organs , neurosystems an brain
Paul stames the mushroom guy has a line of brain health supplements your brain a animal mushroom so the material to fix it is consuming see him on Joe Rogans podcast it's legit
Also all things that have energy emits a field in early childhood we get tuned for synaptics through Interaction and touch and bio feedback so don't be around the little ones when you peak and have a parent who is not schizophrenic stay calm well you leave the room
knowing what and why the schizophrenic person is behaviors are accruing will off set fear hormones that you exreat during high anxiety moments from passing the fear to the small child
I'm still trying to explain this to my partner lol we aren't planning on kids but if we do this will be the way we curb the problem for references material
Check Stanford lecter schizophrenia and depression also check out the rabbit hole of
endocrine system
And endocrine disruptors
look up Sencery processing disorder
and have a nutritions see what your allergic response intensity for foods are all of you are attractive so immune system issues are the a likely cause of the brain issues + epigenetics possibly have a role to play so find out about your parents endocrine issues and
prenatal fluid hormone levels because there's possible complications in brain development there and in prenatal medicine strees as well as trauma
Honestly you will be divorced and your family shun you for life with Schizo-Affective disorder, get ready to be alone with the voices for the rest of your life. Sorry but its going to happen.
MySchizoaffectivelife honestly you are a toxic terrible human being and should stop speaking entirely to everyone because no one needs your negativity 🖕
@@crissyzeta3610 Of course I am because I have been through it all before. You are just not to the point in life im at. This is how the world treats anyone who doesnt fit in.
You are so fortunate to have such an amazing partner ❤️
You're not alone when it comes to gather your thoughts,acknowledgement to people,I do at times deal with those types of issues,it's very inspiring to listening,watching your video.
this used to always happen to me! all my life up until i started taking psychedlics and learned about my own brain, understanding my brain and studying body language was so important to learn how to communicate, i think the fact that i grew up learning spanish and english at the same time was the source of this
Mushrooms and acid are very informative for a schizophrenic like me.
@lee maxson what would you know? I've lived it. Bite me for calling me stupid and ignorant. Free your mind.
@lee maxson I learned more from LSD and shrooms then I ever did from anti psychotics. Have you tried shrooms? If not, try them and get back to me.
tHIS HAPPENS to me at night when I go to bed. As I'm falling sleep I can't concentrate on a single thought, I lose track of the previous ones.
I visited a homeless shelter once. I had a conversation with a resident who had scattered thoughts. I thought he would get to the point, but after 30 minutes of conversation we had not focused on any subject. I did know anything about this disorder.
Your channel has been very eye-opening. I enjoy my hallucinations. I see pterodactyls, little black octopusses and shadow people. I also like coffee.
Admirable n knowledgeable 🙏💜 my mind is always running with millions of thoughts. Never diagnosed, since it’s so difficult to see a psychologist!
I’m amazed at your insight... my son has had disorganized schizophrenia for almost 10 years now, but he can’t see what’s going on, or even notice it... he can now say he hears broadcasting but the voices or ALL his delusions are REAL so real that he doesn’t understand any explanation of what is really going on. He doesn’t accept it or wants to discuss it and gets angry if anything is said otherwise. Please tell me how in the heck you’ve gotten to this point. Hugs are definitely not allowed by him, or he allows to be hugged but he keeps his arms opened wide. If it’s a specially bad day, he will stay in bed the entire day. He’s spent all his twenties in and out of hospitals... no improvement.
Very informative!
Thank you 🙏 this was very informative
Thank you for your videos. They help much.
I found the random thought patterns helped with problem solving and the ability to truly think outside the box.
Writing them down though, or using a Dictaphone as you run with a thought then it jumps and the next two or three ideas might not be related. At uni I was always finding (very) unique answers to problems.
I thought I was the only one♡︎ this is really reassuring love your videos!
You speak so well and your thought comes across as very linear. Congratulations!
We have much in common and my ailment is ADHD.
John do yourself a good favour & UA-cam "The walsh institute n c t v 1 7 & podcast 132 youll be facinated Believe me i speak from experience of what this way of doing mental disorders can offer . Another "grainey utube is Dr walsh Leeza Gibbons episode best of luck enjoy youll be fine """" ""
@@tomcunningham1973 Thank you Tom!
@Smile I am sorry to hear that my friend. That is a heavy load to carry. Just try your best and never give up. Sending you a BIG HUG. If you ever need to vent, just send me a message. I do not have answers but I have strong shoulders. God Bless you.
@Smile Good attitude. Always know that YOU are important! YOU can help others at some point. YOU can help to make this world a better place! Many people suffer, we are not alone.
How do you fix scatter thoughts in ADHD
I experienced all this years ago...found out I had Pyroluria..got cured by taking the compounds and getting off alcohol and bud.. still so intrigued about these experiences as they are truly something else
So glad that you had a kid. You will make a wonderful mom. I believe that I have endometriosis. So I am better off without a family. Sorry if that sounds inappropriate. I grew up with parents who were inappropriate. I better off being myself. Someday I will become my nice self again.
Hello, could you make a video talking about different dissociations you might experience as a part of (y)our illness, like derealisation, depersonalization and dysmorphophobia ? That would be very interesting. Thanks in advance
The brain is a cog that rotates in perfect order until the cog is no longer observed as what it once was the brain now forms a new perspective and doubts the cog of its choice. Creating a variety of new problems with its karmatic exsistence as a whole bodily organism creating mutiny and fault. Making what was once working abandoned into a disorder of chaos. Proceeds doubts of abandonment if or rejects it if order sint restored fear causes chaos endlessly across thinkers be ware stay strong in the hallow eve.
Super job explaining a very common symptom. Thankyou for your wise incite.
You always describe how I feel so well I appreciate you so so so much
I’ve been watching your videos for literally only like a week lol. But my ENTIRE life I’ve had these thoughts & feelings & hallucinations. I’ve never known how to voice them, I’ve never known what I was even feeling until like 2 years ago.
Well after doing extensive research, I can’t say I have anything other than a misdiagnosis of BPD just yet, I don’t have an actual diagnosis yet. I have an appt with the psychiatrist tomorrow so I will go from there.
But I just want to say, whatever “it” is, I relate to your videos & almost everything you experience & feel.
I’m positive I have schizophrenia but I can’t say that without a diagnosis.
So until then I can only say I have the schizophrenic tendencies...? & I have never felt more in reality. I’ve never been able to recognize what’s real & what’s not. I’m almost 21. I just recognized this about a week ago, but I’ve naturally adapted to these coping mechanisms quietly & just never was able to voice what I’ve felt.
You are almost saving my life. I don’t know if I would have given up eventually but because of your passion to spread awareness, I think I’ve figured out what’s “wrong” with me or it can at least take me in the right direction finally, & for that I can get the proper treatment for the FIRST time in my life.
I have hope. I thank you for that as well. I see how you manage it & I see that I can too.
Thank you.
You are what has opened my eyes is what I’m trying to say. If I hadn’t come across your videos I don’t know if I would have been comfortable enough to speak what I’m feeling, or to be able to recognize it.
I hope you're doing well 💙
I couldn't identify this particular thought disorder until watching this video, so thank you. Derailment I suspect ties in with it as it progresses. That maybe your fear as it is mine. I don't want anyone to perceive incompetence. Pride and ego. Thanks to you (a little editing as well ) I can become competent in the symptom management . One word encompasses those symptoms though. I think the correct term for it is decompensation and I am envious of the support network you have in place. All the best for you and Rob and family. Peace
I have bipolar1 with psychosis and this video really rings true with me. I often find that I have to step back I get so overwhelmed I can’t deal with things, the universe seems like it’s coming at me all at once. Sometimes writing helps once I’ve removed myself from the “bad” situation, noise canceling headphones and quiet classical guitar music are also a favorite.
Yes yes yes this vid helped me thank you thank you thank you
Holy shit this changed so much of my understanding about the people I know who suffer from schizophrenia. One of my friends, for a lack of a better word, exhausts me when I’m around her for more than an hour. We can start out a conversation and it’ll lose its direction within three sentences and branch off into fractal like paths. I never knew about this type of thinking but it exactly explains why I have trouble being around her for too long without being confused and tired.
thank you for this content x
I call this popcorn thoughts usually and it is almost identical to yours. I also tend to get frustrated and stop talking when I get popcorn or racing thoughts. It is so hard to talk when you can not get a couple words out without feeling like your mind is being bombarded.
I also often use shortcut words that are close enough to what i mean because i am not used to the pressure of conversations so im like “it’s close enough they can figure out what i mean”... and it’s frustrating because i like to be very accurate with words so i spend time trying to “summon” a word from my mind that conveys something in an elegant or powerful way... saying “bet” and “hell yeah” doesn’t work for me. Its hard trying to think about every single way someone can perceive a word. Then 7 words. Then 49 words.
You have a very supportive partner, i wish you good health and happiness.
Wow. I didn't expect to relate so much to your videos. I have some similar symptoms, and behavior. Scattered thoughts, non existent memory, and fear in social situations are the main reasons I never even finished high school. Do you get scared of certain situations for no reason. Going to doctors, dentists, optometrist. Heck, even the bank. My fight or flight kicks in, and I start shaking. I can get through it, but everything kind of shuts down. My face gets numb. My perception changes. Things seem different. I'm not sure how to describe it. Detached, and it doesn't feel real. My words don't come out right. I can't really think to answer questions. Time seems like it passes quicker, and when it's over I barely remember what happed during that. Are these sounding like schizophrenia? I have other odd things too, but I mean, this specifically. It's embarrassing, and unpleasant, and a big reason why I never go for help when I need it in any situation.
...I didn't know that this is what's happening. I very often get confused in my sentences and instead of finishing one thought, I move on to another and eventually forget the topic I was talking about from the very beginning. As a result, all my friends' conversations, arguments with people - it's all something very uncomfortable for me and them and all the time it seems to me as if I have lost my mind or a part of my brain. Because of that I sometimes start to despise myself. Sometimes I can read someone's text and I literally don't understand what the person is talking about. As a result, I don't know : is there something wrong with this person or with me? In the end, if I, it turns out, was wrong in the argument all the time, it's very... Disappointing. I feel ashamed. Especially when, without understanding the other person, I still cannot finish my thought and what, in general, I was going to say.
Maybe this video did help me a bit..? Thank you.
Same here and thank you for you commentary about this significant topic.💖💖💖
I have been in therapy with rapid cycling bipolarism for a few years and have struggled to express EXACTLY THESE ISSUES. I have had therapists second guess what I mean because I do not really get "word salad", although I can be extremely distracted by multiple thoughts that are kind of related, but I will struggle to interweave everything coherently and become frustrated that when none of the thoughts really come to a satisfying end. But frequently I feel like I am muted by the scattered thoughts in my head and I cannot formulate a coherent expression at all. I press my lips or take a breath and ... nothing. I will show my partner this video as he often does not know what to do - but at least we both now know more or less what is happening and the best thing is to not draw so much attention to it. I like your reference to grounding, hugging can work but it can also trigger an anxious reaction. A real lifesaver is music. I know exactly which go-to pieces of music can slowly rein me in. Keyword: slowly. I might have to listen to the same piece of music repeatedly before changing it to something else, and then gradually with my own self-orchestrated Sportify concert I can ground myself. This can take a good couple of hours. And I will remain - more by force than choice, or at least that is how it feels - perfectly silent, even if my partner asks if I am OK or if he can do anything for me.
In any case THANK YOU and all best wishes from Berlin :)