westjett next video "Another old valorant content creator struggling ". westjett setting so low standards only he can compete with himself making fun depressed and suicidal people not cool.
you're very brave to post this Chris. this should be set as an example of how creators should portray themselves online more honestly, especially about their career path
Very instresting and insightful video man. The feeling of burnout and constantly worrying about numbers resonates a lot with me, and I want to tell you that you are not alone in this. Thanks for sharing your story and I'm glad to see you're doing better brother.
I rarely ever comment on videos, but you being completely transparent about your emotions and your adventure makes you such a beautiful person. Just keep doing you man. We love and support you!
Brother, your transparency could never be viewed as "pathetic". Welcome to adulthood. Human to human, Man to Man congratulations on reaching this level of introspectivity. You're literally "leveling up" in the game that matters most... life 🙏
Old Blacksquad viewer here... Don't stress it's ups and downs flex.. I am not necessarily saying switch off valorant but it's truly soul draining and opportunities open up in other directions always if you slowly get around to it. And man hey hope you get your mental health in order soon despite the stressing factors and please don't think it's something you caused upon yourself It's just what content creators experience.
Dude I remember discovering your channel when i was really depressed 2 years ago. I somehow found comfort in your videos no matter what the content was. I thinl I felt some kind of a connection through your depression. I kinda felt that there was someone else trying their best to fight through all the difficulties of life even though they didn't have the energy or the motivation to do so just like me. But this year was worse and i get everything you talk about; alcohol addiction, not eating well, stressing about anything, wanting to h**m yourself etc. I've been through all of that with the same time as you and that feels kinda valuable. I'm doing better, actually really good with my life lately and i wanted to say that i'm glad i had a friend like you along the way. It wasn't a regular friend you hangout or chat with but someone i had with me along the way to show me that things can and will get better if you don't give up and keep going. I love you Chris, and I wish you the best with your life and career. If you are reading this, don't forget there might be people like me who understand and follow the same road as you. So if you ever feel down again, just breathe and relax man. I promise things will get better again. Way better.
a lot of this is so relatable and I honestly didn't expect such a real and vulnerable video. I only found your content recently and I've loved your vibes so much that I watch your videos at least two to three times a day! Its understandable that its hard to see the support when all it feels like is loss. I am a very very very small art streamer and everything you described as hit me as well. Keep going, dude~ you're awsome and we appreciate this from you
I'm going through something similar in my career right now, and feeling like I can open up to people and talk about the way I feel has helped me so much. Just talking with people, sharing my experience and hearing theirs, has taken me from the darkest place I've ever been to feeling optimistic about the future. Don't be ashamed for talking about how you feel/have felt; I'm really proud of you for doing this. You're not just helping yourself, you're setting an example for your community of how pain and mental health should be discussed. My personal speculation: by talking about this, you've helped a lot of people who are in a similar place feel 1) like they aren't alone, and 2) that it's ok to open up about how they feel. Wish you the best.
no shit, deadlock is new and fresh, it's like when valorant first came out, I'm sure he was happy back then too but do content creation for that game for like 3 years and I guarantee you, you'll get burned out if you are not pacing yourself and uploading and streaming the same shit every day
@@nothinisworthit imo i don't think it's possible to burn out the same way in deadlock as you do in val due to the nature of both games. i did the math and tac shooters just end up being such huge time wasters in the long run. Even if you 13-0 a team you've spent at least 7 minutes idling in spawn before the round starts. If it's a close game just double that. Sometimes you're playing default/cutting noise/holding angles in post plant all for an engagement that lasts less than 2 minutes and you're back in spawn again. That can't be good for anyone's health, especially when content creators tend to play the same 1-3 agents max. At least in deadlock you're always active and there's less stress because you don't have to worry about getting 1 tapped and sitting out for the round. It's much more forgiving when trying new heroes/builds and you don't have to sit in a custom learning cringe lineups you can actually just learn as you play.
i saw this exact comment the other day i SWEAR! or its insane deja vu or maybe a bot has copied your comment bcs its easily applicable to any other video, thats insane
content creation is HARD and very demanding. i'm so happy you're still creating and doing your best. you're the reason i mained omen when i played valorant. 💙
You say you aren't proud to admit the self-harm, but I would be. It may sound weird, but I think the fact that you're able to come out and say all of these things shows your growth. I'm really proud of you Chris. If you ever turn back, remember who's there for you, because they would all help you.
This is one of the best UA-cam videos of all time for me! It's shows all the reasons I fell in love with the platform. People expressing their genuine selves through the highs and the lows. Thank you Chris for being vulnerable and sharing your story! I think if you keep approaching your content from this angle there's no reason to ever doubt yourself
honestly this video is what I needed with content ,the advise that you gave is timeless and I'll be rooting for the come back , I admire the bravery with the tranceparancy and wish more creators was this open about how bad content can be mentally
Mental is everything man, ingame, outgame it doesn't matter. An OG who is brave enough to give 100% transparacy and talking about his mistakes is what makes a big content creator great💪 Being honest always feels good, keep it up and best of Luck. I respect your grind🔥
thanks for opening up abt what was going on in your personal life. that’s hard to do especially online in front of an audience. MUCH LOVE CHRIS!! 🖤🖤🙏🏼 glad you doing better and been loving the vids. we support u in anything u do
I started watching you from 2020 and you are still the only streamer I watch for Omen plays. Your gameplay compilations are actually very relaxing and fun. It’s the content style that keeps me coming back. You don’t need to be the best for me to keep watching you, so I hope you find your niche that makes you happy and make content for them! Also, I love how wholesome this entire comment section is and I hope you keep coming back here to see the love and support you have from the community!
You’re a real one for sharing your feelings and self reflecting like this, you’ve always deserved the success, it just sucks that it’s come with its own set of struggles and problems, for a bit now I haven’t come by the streams or watched your vids as often as I used to but I’d love to see you continue uploading and streaming. At the end of the day after all the ups and downs you’re still a top tier human.
What a good video topic. I started streaming and making content on UA-cam as a hobby around 6 months ago, but got really serious about it half way through. I found myself spending so much time on editing videos and obsessing over views and content analytics that I started letting other goals in my life slip away. All I wanted to do was create an environment where people could watch me play, laugh together, help me improve and even play with me. I saw myself starting to loose focus on why I started streaming in the first place. I was longing for more views, constantly monitoring the view count and trying to make more and more videos. I was starting to spend so much time on those things I had no time to stream or catch up with people I already had already been playing games with. I decided it would be best to stop making UA-cam videos for the mean time, and go back to what I started my journey for (to make friends and build a community). Sadly one of my UA-cam series started gaining traction, but none of those people ever came over to my discord or followed me on twitch so I think my decision to focus on just streaming and having fun with the community was the right call. I am still just hoping people will continue to find me on twitch and eventually my Twitch and discord can be a place people can come to relax and have fun despite all the crazy things going on in everyone's lives. Thanks for the awesome video I hope you will continue to see yourself enjoying what you sought out to accomplish originally and having fun doing it.
Thank you for being so honest and open online about your struggles. Lots of what you said resonated with me. I’m glad you are doing better and you are inspirational, both as an omen main and in mental health. Hope your journey continues on a positive path!
That reflected on all of us flex, from all the backgrounds. It takes a lot to talk about it again and put it out so well. Love your videos. You were my inspiration since 2020 to be the immortal omen main I'm now. Kudos to our journeys 🎉
I had once a time when I was depressed and suicidal as well, with problems with friends, work and college, and myself as a person, not wanting to leave my room by any means, so I understand a little bit what you felt. Glad to see that u doing better, and hope u can go high places once again. Apreciate u as content creator (u made me main omen), and a person. Wish u good luck
Chris I'm a relatively new viewer and to be be honest the moment I saw you play I aspired to be like you. Watching you is really the thing that eases my day, it allows me to relax and enjoy myself. This video nearly made me cry because I could relate to so much, Youve made me realize how much I've been avoiding my loved ones. I really wish I had someone like you as an older brother. I just really wanted to thank you for having an impact on my life!!!
Man, I find myself in you.. The prime time, the downfall and all ...getting reality checks everyday to get depressed more everything is so relatable bro
content creation / esports is "hard" because theres no blueprint. no one knows what they are doing - everyone is just thrown into the mix and only the best of the best survive. related to this video a lot more than u know, we gotta play sometime again!
i started to play only omen cuz of you, i used to wait for your newest guides or any kind of omen related videos... but i got burnt out too... cuz i was playing so much... just to escape reality of my failing academics.... but safe to say i found my way back to my calling... and now my name has a prefix, Dr. What i wanna say is thanks for being part of my life when valorant meant the world to me. I hope you find your way back to content creation that you initially blew up for. cheers, felxinja, chris. I will watch you grow
honestly bro ur brave as hell for quitting that fed ex job it takes courage and uploading this video even more ur just amazing man no matter what happens in life we support you we really do (also you have amazing hair)
i dont know if you will ever see my comment but i dont care i want to say this anyways. You are one of my favorite Valorant players if not the Nr.1. I Watched every Video of yours since the beginning and it was the time where i started to play val. you inspired me to play omen and i would always try to learn from your content and from your plays. your videos are so enjoyable and i love them. I dont know you personally but i've always had the feeling that you are a very kind and fun person to be around thats why i felt so sorry that you had to go through that. you are putting a lot of effort in your work now and i really am happy to see you post this much with passion again. Thank you for starting this journey and letting us be a part of it with you. keep up the great work
aye man, i know i can say for watching your vids for years now, i think you have support man if you wanted to try other games other than valorant. I hate seeing content creators feel they are "stuck" because they are posting content for one game. We love you man and the content you bring out, we would rather you felt happy about it than feel you are stuck in a loop of never ending game play :)
The way I'm relating to this is insane, I'm in the same period of life as you are. Been following you from the release days of valorant, but I started doing so religiously lately because of your cool energy, you have also this aura of kindness that somehow makes it fun to watch your videos. This is only a tastement to the hard work you are putting to have a healthier life and a healthier relationship with gaming and content creating. You should be proud of yourself. Thanks for sharing this vulnerable side of you, my respect for you have just skyrocketed ! Will continue to follow your journey cuz I'm eager to see your healthy progress, much love Chris ❤
Holy, crap man it takes so much raw courage to post your highs as much as your lows for the internet to see. I remember watching your videos in 2020 and wanting to make those some big brain plays with the edgy shadow guy. And promptly dropped val until a month ago. After watching this, I'm so happy to hear that as much as there might be a dark voice still trying to whisper in your ear that you are strong enough, and you know that you mean a lot to people that love you both off and online, that its just that, a whisper with no power over you. Also, when comparing yourself to other content creators, at leas that I watch, you're one of the few who manages everything alone. Which has gotta be so extremely stressful in conjunction with everything else you've battled through the past years, so please get an editor and some sponsorships when you are ready. When I drop val again, but come back in a year I can't wait to see "Ultimate compilation of omen massive outplays"
No one would dare to post personal stuff like this on social media thinking what would people think about me. I’m glad you did and tbh, this video was a journey for people like me who has been on this omen journey with you since you started playing valorant and became the omen god. Love to hear that your mental condition is healthier than it was some time ago. One thing I would say is, if you feel you’ve hit rock bottom, there’s only one way to go now and that is to the top. Full support to you to whatever you post because I don’t like flexinja the youtuber but I like Chris the human behind it all. Much love brother🫂
I’ve been watching you since before twitch. I’ve been playing valorant since beta. I stopped playing for about 1-2 years after beta due to circumstances but you were the reason I started playing omen. I still remember in your old videos you put some random activity you have with your friends. There are only few streamers I watch on youtube which includes you, royal g, maxie, kaemi, etc. Idk how to explain it but I feel some kind of good energy or niceness from watching you guys. I dont get the same feeling when I watch some other streamers. So thank you for still posting the videos. I dont watch live streams too often so I’m probably not supporting you enough but I do spend more time on youtube and I’ll keep watching your videos and support as much as I can C:
been a fan since those very first "aggressive omen outplays" titles. i definitely noticed when you got bitter and vacant, which did make it hard to watch. no idea you were going through the ringer emotionally. im glad to have the positive mental flexinja back ❤
I absolutely love that you’re confident enough to make this video, even if it scared you. You never ever ever fully understand what people are going through. Thanks for sharing your story and best of luck in the days to come.
first time i ever watched someone's journey... i normally avoid it cause they are too boring but damn bro the ups and downs and the struggles u did, HATS OFF and love your content watch it whenever i get notification of your video. Last but not the least take care of your health... that's what matters the most... burning out and feeling frustrated is very common in fps games. Love you brother!!
@flexinja nah being this vulnerable is already big enough, its not just being content creator but ure giving a whole and generalized advice. Thank you Flex!!!
Loved the video! It is so true social media has made us worse from every aspect. Getting 20 likes in a video is nowadays considered bad but try thinking that 20 people come up to you (irl) and appreciate how you are doing/looking etc. You being so transparent about your thoughts makes you a great person. Don't worry Chris, EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE, BELIEVE IN YOURSELF♥😁 Didn't wanna bring other creator but I always used to wonder how NRG s0m always keeps me engaged and hooked it his streams and videos and came to the conclusion that he was just enjoying the game , having fun with friends. Everything you said in the video was truly correct and hope you get whatever you want in life. Much Love
well yeah, valorant is very stale in terms of content. devs said it themselves that esports is their main focus and putting content aside. It's dumb because if people arent attracted by the content, how are you going to keep your current players and pull in new ones?
@@en_vy exactly, it's an inherent problem with eSports titles. Siege had a problem with the amount of content released every year to try to keep the appeal and Devs couldn't keep up, up until 2020 when they started reducing but now Ubisoft must have pulled so many resources away that its still worse than it was before
Been watching since the Black Squad days I will never stop watching bro. (Even though I don’t play valorant anymore) One of the only genuine content creators i’ve watched and played with and you deserve all the success that comes your way. ❤
Hey Flexinja, im a german psychologist and I know you from the start. This video is not only brave, it is authentic and added value to a superficial world of content. If you learn and grow from your past, you will find yourself in a place you want to be in very soon. Keep your head up und stay that authentic you are now to yourself and to your followers.
Hey Flexy I've Followed You from The gold blacksquad days , To know how far you've come as a content creator I feel happy for you and even if it is stressful for you now I hope You keep Going , I always thought You were cracked at all the games wether if it was black squad or valorant . You're always gonna be that guy who is nutty at all the fps games .Keep Goingg
Been a silent viewer of yours since you started your omen career, I appreciate you being this transparent not only to your audience but to your self as well. I got emotional when you discussed about sui*ide because I was in your position years ago (I was 17 and school sucks) but now I am a new teacher and loving my life apparently. I don't know where I'm going with this but I hope and I will pray that you continue to feel better. Thank you Chris
Don't worry about the views man (easier said than done). That's when the game stops being fun. Back when views weren't involved, you just played the game for the game itself and the mastery of it. It was pure. People just want to see other people do extraordinary things. That’s why you popped off. Content creation is good but it won’t fully showcase how extraordinary of a player you are. I think if you maintained the purity in why you played Valorant, I think you truly would've gone pro, which really would've been the next step for your career like all the big streamers shroud, tarik, tenz, subroza, xqc etc. Pro play would’ve put your extraordinary skill on center stage for the whole world to fully realize. I know it’s scary but I really believe that you can do it. You have the connections and opportunities that most people don’t so why not just give it a shot? What’s the worst that could happen? Take a chance on yourself and let yourself shine. If you did, I would fly out to see you play on stage and cheer you on.
appreciate you brother, love you so much. my goal was never to go pro, but i know if i put my mind to it i could have. Valorant isn't the most enjoyable game to play in general after 4 years, but who knows, i could spark some interest in giving it a shot in the future. but again, i just don't think i have the passion to pursue it. love you man
This is super relatable, content creator aside the emotions you went through are some of the toughest to endure. This is really refreshing and I'm glad your doing better!
This Video of you being able to show us what's happening in your life and how you plan on improving yourself is amazing and should be shown to all content creators. I like the part where you said that you should be more happy knowing that people clicked and watched your video even if its for a short time.
Valorant's been a big part of my life since 2020, and you were my biggest inspiration. I started playing the game with every other agent I could find, but when I bumped into your video, saw everything that you could do with omen, I fell in love with the agent, and you as a content creator. You were and still are my idol, and I remember doing omen plays so good one time, someone called me flexinja in game and that was the best compliment ever for me. Someone called me my sensei's name, and I felt I was on top of the world. I still watch your content, and your stream, and I myself have had a falling out stage in valorant, where I felt incredibly low, would rage and self harm whenever I used to play bad, coz I felt shit about myself. I'm so proud of you for all the way you've come, and for standing out Infront of so many people and letting your heart out like this. You're my biggest inspiration, and I'll follow you to the last of your days as a content creator. Take your time, relax, spend time doing things you love, we fans aren't going anywhere!
I dont play this game much anymore, but you are one of the reasons I mained Omen and are still the only Valorant channel I watch from time to time. Glad to know you are doing better.
When I first started playing Valorant as someone who wasn't a fan of the FPS genre prior your videos about Omen and basic game knowledge really helped me to learn the game and understand it enough to where I could have fun, as well as many hours of just straight entertainment. I hate that you went through what you went through but you seem to be in a much better headspace now and I hope that continues for you. Good luck Chris and thank you for all that you do.
You’ll always be my and many people’s go to content creator when it comes to playing Omen. And you have and deserve all the support you need. Keep it up Chris
Always have loved the content! Even from the NRG content days. You were the first ever person I bought merch from and I still wear it to this day! Love to hear you’re doing better❤
Chris you are the reason why i started playing valorant in 2021, you were my favourite streamer and you are the only reason why i used to omen main in valo your plays inspired me and i thought how is that even possible . Believe me you are the same player with same potential don't push yourself that hard. The thing about valorant is rather than being the best you can enjoy every moment of it. Love you hero and more power to you
Honestly, you have always done something that other creators haven't, listening to your own needs and opening up and being brave enough to say it, we can't talk about all this without taking into account the human side. Of the people I admire most in the world, you are one of them and not simply for your achievements and notable points that everyone would say "he is someone", I have always admired you for your ability to get up Even though the fall may be hard, I will always say that no matter what path you choose, I support you, and what a good start to get up from this fall is to be self-critical and brave, I love you very much. And remember 'Once you hit rock bottom you can only do one thing, go up!!'
I'm so proud of you for putting this video out, its very tough to speak out on something like this and it takes a lot of strength and realization. I've been pretty detached from Valorant ever since deadlock came out and i'm slowly getting back into it. I've been a fan since 2021, and I appreciate this from you so much. Much love chris
hi man im from switzerland in europe and i just started playing valorant like two months ago and you were one of the first guys who appeared when i searched:good omen tips and tricks. then i started to watch your stream recordings on my way from school to home and i really like them ! stay how you are and how you feel the best and like you always say : appreciate it
You are very strong for making this video bro, like not many would realize the problem and act on it let alone make a video about it and learn from the shit you went through. Stay strong and as you said take regular brakes drink water and eat well, all the luck in the world to ya!
Hey Flex, I have been following you since the start of Valorant and I have loved watching you play! I even main Omen because of you. I am happy you have come to terms with yourself and are going on a better path. I would love to play with you sometime even though I suck lol!
I'm watching you from your black squad days , those days were gold. Eventually people have to move to other games and i still love your valorant content. Keep it up
This video helped me a lot today. There were so many things that line up with my own situation that it just goes to show you that everyone is dealing with something. I'm a 28 year old who quit my shitty logistics job for videography. I did it, but somehow roped myself into corporate editing and now I'm unfulfilled and bored again. I can hardly walk in a grocery store or go to the gym to decompress because I developed crippling social anxiety around ~25 for being SO critical on myself. As a fellow risk taker, I applaud you for being vulnerable and self reflective to such a massive audience. I've always loved your content but this was a really refreshing video.
I'm so happy you're doing better, Chris! Burnout and depression is something that can never be talked about too much, so many people are going through it silently and these kind of videos definitely help show they're not alone. Being this open on an online space definitely takes guts, and I'm thankful you did it. Just know we see you and are with you bro, I've been struggling with something similar and this video definitely helped me. I'm proud of you Chris, you're a real one for sharing this.
There is a reason why omen is my most played agent (even if he is not my favorite), you can figure out the rest yourself. Also you are the only creator I tried to reach out to(even though I know creators dont pay mind to their instagram dms). I wanted to try and cheer you up and stuff and it was hard to see you feeling down bud. But you have gotten better now and Im happy for that. Keep those spirits and take care!
I honestly thought that was going to be a joke video like the "I quit Omen" video you posted a couple of days ago and I honestly didn't expect such a real and vulnerable video. Love your content & watching it always makes me want to play Omen & playing Omen always makes me de-rank...
Bro as a (ex) content creator and league streamer myself that now plays mainly valorant, I appreciate this video a fuckton. I can relate to this on so many levels its actually insane, even tho I only had around 30K followers on twitch. It still eats away at me to this day ngl, but ur vid definitely helped give me perspective. Luv u for this vid brody and it inspired me forsure! gl on diversifying ur content asw bro ima tune in to some stream sometime!
Hey Flex! I've been following you since you were playing the beta, I am one of those viewers who only watch and never talk in the chat but I can tell that I am a big fan of you, I even tried playing Omen(It did't goes as planed! Haha) and something I would like to say is that I admire you, not only cuz you're a beast in Valorant but because you keep fighting, as a long time follower I was able to notice that were going thru a hard time and I wish nothing but good things for you as much as I was able to do so, when your merch was live I wanted so bad to get a hoddie but I wasn't able, I still think you are one of the bigges contect creator I follow, not because you're good, or because I like Valorant, or stuff like that, I think you are one of the biggest one I follow because you are you and that's all you need, yeah the plays were good in the old times and now but also you were always original, funny, cuz you always looking to be better at anything, things may not always go as planned but I am glad to see that you're still here, we love you Chris, it doesn't matter if you play Valorant, League of Legends or even if you stream a just chatting, the real ones always are here, well, except when you stream at 3:00 am when I am sleep haha! Wishing you the best!
This is super cool. I love the transparency on a sensitive topic and I hope it inspires others to be more honest and introspective with themselves. Life's hard but this shows you can always find the strength to battle back
There are numerous reasons out there on why the views are going low. And what i observed in the middle of the vid is that you are much more focusing yourself on the negative side of it. That's why it made me relieved and happy that by the of the video you realized that it's not about the consistency of the high views per content and that it's about the people who support and appreciate your videos. Nasty clips as usual. Hope you are doing good bro💪.
Been following you since the first viral omen video. U are and always will be the best valorant creator I have witnessed and after this video the respect is truly through the roof... Thanks for the videos man 🎉
Bro, this is a brave post that you should feel proud of. It takes a lot of maturity to self reflect and try to become the best version of yourself. I've always seen your content and browsed casually but today you gained a new fan. I look forward to seeing your future work!
Takes a big man to post this, I’ve been in those situations before and I feel on the other side of it now. Feels good to see other people who you’d aspire to be having gone through the same shit. Stay strong brother ❤
Hey Chris, long time, well for me it has been long since I stopped playing valo. I unsubscribed to almost all the valorant channels on yt but I am still subbed to you cause that's how much I loved your content . You were actually the first valo creator that I watched which made me become an Omen main. I just want you to know that I rll fking love you and your content even tho I'm not playing anymore. A lot of the things that you said are actually so relatable.. It's rll hard to not get burnt out of the usual boring life. But building positive habits such as working out, getting a better diet and just cutting of all the toxic people out of my life has helped me a lot. Chris I hope you can heal as soon possible. It takes time so take your time and keep pushing harder brother
I recently did a speech about my own mental health to my whole school and even that was hard so I cant picture the strength you needed to post this chris. Hope you're doing better now and enjoying the content you're creating!
My Gawd you almost perfectly described my last 3 years.. Glad you've found the strength to post your journey through the shadows. Keep growing and healing!
Bro isn’t falling off, he’s rising up. I only found you recently, but this video still hit hard. It’s crazy how you can never truly tell what someone is thinking. It’s great that you are able to open up about this, and that you’re doing well now We love you Flex ❤
Thank you Chris for sharing your story. Last time I commented on how calm you were, I couldn't even imagine what you were going through. I haven't been watching you for long, but I noticed how often you post content and thought it must be really tough. I'm surprised you edit your own content and I hope you delegate some of that work as soon as possible. I also hope you find something you enjoy doing and don't become a prisoner of Valorant. You're a charming enough person to make a brand out of yourself and not be tied to a specific game. I think people enjoy seeing you happy and calm, doing something you're genuinely passionate about. And remember, that doesn't mean we only appreciate you when you're happy. We're here for you through thick and thin, and thank you again for being so open about your experiences with your audience. 💛
It is very refreshing to hear this. I can’t possibly begin to imagine what it was like going through all that but I remember when I first found you and how cool your content was. At some point I just stopped watching you because I think I felt some of that burnout. It didn’t seem like you had the same passion for making content, but I never thought much of it then. Now after hearing all of what you’ve been through I can really empathize with your situation and understand why it seemed that way. I feel like I’m rambling but the bottom line is, it is really great to see you happy making great content again. Love you Flex
This was actually such a great video. I remember you and flights were my fav youtubers back in early valorant, my silver self aspired to be like you guys so much. As time went on I didnt watch yall as much and honestly felt bad for you seeing your fall off. Im really glad to see that you're going to be making a come back and will stay tuned❤
You are one of the few val content creator that I'm still following and you were one of the first ! GL on getting better and just do what is gonna make you happier ! I hope it's gonna get easier for you 💪
Flex brotha i didnt know you really went through a phase like that, i been watching you since a long while but never knew this. hope youre doing well nowadays, since life has been hard For me too. love ya
One thing that should be mentioned as part of your succes - althought I get that it's not a thing you'd say about yourself - is that you seem like a great guy! This video is testament.
Hey Flex! I’ve been a LONG time fan ever since 2020. You were my favorite streamer! You inspired me to play Valorant, so I’d tune in every day. I’ll never forget the day I got to play with you in customs. I even bought your merch! However, I noticed the negativity and emptiness later on, and it hurt my soul. Admittedly, I stopped watching. As someone who also struggles with mental health, I feel seen with this video. Being vulnerable is not easy, especially with such a following. The transparency in this video made me realize why I fell in love with your content in the first place. You are a genuine guy. Keep it up, Flex. You’ve positively impacted your viewers more than you know. We love and support you no matter what, even throughout the breaks! Thank you for sharing this journey, and I’ll make sure to tune into Twitch next time I see ya!❤
this was incredibly introspective of you, thank you for sharing your lessons with us. I find myself getting really frustrated when I'm not doing well and whenever I just focus on having fun playing smart and creative I end up playing really well too. i have been trying to find a good mix of playing smart and creative without trying too hard, failing and getting upset. i will take this as a more powerful reminder to just have fun and be creative in the moment and if I die just reset and try again, hopefully I could attract others who think the same way and we could all have fun and play together :) 🦔❄
By thumbnail i thought it was a westjett video
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Wait this is a flexinja vid?
westjett next video "Another old valorant content creator struggling ". westjett setting so low standards only he can compete with himself making fun depressed and suicidal people not cool.
u actually watch that cringe lord?
Same...
Bro feII of from heaven to bless us with content
much love brother 💜
noted I love you!!!!!!
you fell of too and its just cause val fell off
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noted you were so cold at siege back in the day
you're very brave to post this Chris. this should be set as an example of how creators should portray themselves online more honestly, especially about their career path
Very instresting and insightful video man. The feeling of burnout and constantly worrying about numbers resonates a lot with me, and I want to tell you that you are not alone in this. Thanks for sharing your story and I'm glad to see you're doing better brother.
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I rarely ever comment on videos, but you being completely transparent about your emotions and your adventure makes you such a beautiful person. Just keep doing you man. We love and support you!
"I'm Flexinja... or Chris."
Thanks for sharing this, Chris. Glad to hear you are feeling better.
Brother, your transparency could never be viewed as "pathetic". Welcome to adulthood. Human to human, Man to Man congratulations on reaching this level of introspectivity. You're literally "leveling up" in the game that matters most... life 🙏
Old Blacksquad viewer here... Don't stress it's ups and downs flex.. I am not necessarily saying switch off valorant but it's truly soul draining and opportunities open up in other directions always if you slowly get around to it.
And man hey hope you get your mental health in order soon despite the stressing factors and please don't think it's something you caused upon yourself It's just what content creators experience.
Dude I remember discovering your channel when i was really depressed 2 years ago. I somehow found comfort in your videos no matter what the content was. I thinl I felt some kind of a connection through your depression. I kinda felt that there was someone else trying their best to fight through all the difficulties of life even though they didn't have the energy or the motivation to do so just like me.
But this year was worse and i get everything you talk about; alcohol addiction, not eating well, stressing about anything, wanting to h**m yourself etc.
I've been through all of that with the same time as you and that feels kinda valuable. I'm doing better, actually really good with my life lately and i wanted to say that i'm glad i had a friend like you along the way. It wasn't a regular friend you hangout or chat with but someone i had with me along the way to show me that things can and will get better if you don't give up and keep going.
I love you Chris, and I wish you the best with your life and career. If you are reading this, don't forget there might be people like me who understand and follow the same road as you. So if you ever feel down again, just breathe and relax man. I promise things will get better again. Way better.
a lot of this is so relatable and I honestly didn't expect such a real and vulnerable video.
I only found your content recently and I've loved your vibes so much that I watch your videos at least two to three times a day! Its understandable that its hard to see the support when all it feels like is loss. I am a very very very small art streamer and everything you described as hit me as well. Keep going, dude~ you're awsome and we appreciate this from you
I'm going through something similar in my career right now, and feeling like I can open up to people and talk about the way I feel has helped me so much. Just talking with people, sharing my experience and hearing theirs, has taken me from the darkest place I've ever been to feeling optimistic about the future. Don't be ashamed for talking about how you feel/have felt; I'm really proud of you for doing this. You're not just helping yourself, you're setting an example for your community of how pain and mental health should be discussed. My personal speculation: by talking about this, you've helped a lot of people who are in a similar place feel 1) like they aren't alone, and 2) that it's ok to open up about how they feel. Wish you the best.
Valorant straight up holding everyone's mental hostage lmfao
AverageJonas quit and I've literally never seen that man any happier
It's their job so yeah
IKRR i used to watch flights and shazam they're just gone now tenz also retired end of an era fr
no shit, deadlock is new and fresh, it's like when valorant first came out, I'm sure he was happy back then too but do content creation for that game for like 3 years and I guarantee you, you'll get burned out if you are not pacing yourself and uploading and streaming the same shit every day
@@Dinmc123are you saying it's only normal that your job is a mental prison? Yeah, actually checks out lol
@@nothinisworthit imo i don't think it's possible to burn out the same way in deadlock as you do in val due to the nature of both games. i did the math and tac shooters just end up being such huge time wasters in the long run. Even if you 13-0 a team you've spent at least 7 minutes idling in spawn before the round starts. If it's a close game just double that. Sometimes you're playing default/cutting noise/holding angles in post plant all for an engagement that lasts less than 2 minutes and you're back in spawn again. That can't be good for anyone's health, especially when content creators tend to play the same 1-3 agents max. At least in deadlock you're always active and there's less stress because you don't have to worry about getting 1 tapped and sitting out for the round. It's much more forgiving when trying new heroes/builds and you don't have to sit in a custom learning cringe lineups you can actually just learn as you play.
I relate to your situation in a lot of aspects, this video should be a MUST watch for every CC, GL in every aspect in your life bro❤
i saw this exact comment the other day i SWEAR! or its insane deja vu or maybe a bot has copied your comment bcs its easily applicable to any other video, thats insane
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content creation is HARD and very demanding. i'm so happy you're still creating and doing your best. you're the reason i mained omen when i played valorant. 💙
You say you aren't proud to admit the self-harm, but I would be. It may sound weird, but I think the fact that you're able to come out and say all of these things shows your growth. I'm really proud of you Chris. If you ever turn back, remember who's there for you, because they would all help you.
This is one of the best UA-cam videos of all time for me! It's shows all the reasons I fell in love with the platform. People expressing their genuine selves through the highs and the lows. Thank you Chris for being vulnerable and sharing your story! I think if you keep approaching your content from this angle there's no reason to ever doubt yourself
honestly this video is what I needed with content ,the advise that you gave is timeless and I'll be rooting for the come back , I admire the bravery with the tranceparancy and wish more creators was this open about how bad content can be mentally
Mental is everything man, ingame, outgame it doesn't matter. An OG who is brave enough to give 100% transparacy and talking about his mistakes is what makes a big content creator great💪
Being honest always feels good, keep it up and best of Luck. I respect your grind🔥
thanks for opening up abt what was going on in your personal life. that’s hard to do especially online in front of an audience. MUCH LOVE CHRIS!! 🖤🖤🙏🏼 glad you doing better and been loving the vids. we support u in anything u do
I started watching you from 2020 and you are still the only streamer I watch for Omen plays.
Your gameplay compilations are actually very relaxing and fun. It’s the content style that keeps me coming back. You don’t need to be the best for me to keep watching you, so I hope you find your niche that makes you happy and make content for them!
Also, I love how wholesome this entire comment section is and I hope you keep coming back here to see the love and support you have from the community!
You’re a real one for sharing your feelings and self reflecting like this, you’ve always deserved the success, it just sucks that it’s come with its own set of struggles and problems, for a bit now I haven’t come by the streams or watched your vids as often as I used to but I’d love to see you continue uploading and streaming. At the end of the day after all the ups and downs you’re still a top tier human.
What a good video topic. I started streaming and making content on UA-cam as a hobby around 6 months ago, but got really serious about it half way through. I found myself spending so much time on editing videos and obsessing over views and content analytics that I started letting other goals in my life slip away. All I wanted to do was create an environment where people could watch me play, laugh together, help me improve and even play with me. I saw myself starting to loose focus on why I started streaming in the first place. I was longing for more views, constantly monitoring the view count and trying to make more and more videos. I was starting to spend so much time on those things I had no time to stream or catch up with people I already had already been playing games with. I decided it would be best to stop making UA-cam videos for the mean time, and go back to what I started my journey for (to make friends and build a community). Sadly one of my UA-cam series started gaining traction, but none of those people ever came over to my discord or followed me on twitch so I think my decision to focus on just streaming and having fun with the community was the right call. I am still just hoping people will continue to find me on twitch and eventually my Twitch and discord can be a place people can come to relax and have fun despite all the crazy things going on in everyone's lives. Thanks for the awesome video I hope you will continue to see yourself enjoying what you sought out to accomplish originally and having fun doing it.
Thank you for being so honest and open online about your struggles. Lots of what you said resonated with me. I’m glad you are doing better and you are inspirational, both as an omen main and in mental health. Hope your journey continues on a positive path!
That reflected on all of us flex, from all the backgrounds. It takes a lot to talk about it again and put it out so well. Love your videos. You were my inspiration since 2020 to be the immortal omen main I'm now. Kudos to our journeys 🎉
I had once a time when I was depressed and suicidal as well, with problems with friends, work and college, and myself as a person, not wanting to leave my room by any means, so I understand a little bit what you felt. Glad to see that u doing better, and hope u can go high places once again. Apreciate u as content creator (u made me main omen), and a person. Wish u good luck
Chris I'm a relatively new viewer and to be be honest the moment I saw you play I aspired to be like you. Watching you is really the thing that eases my day, it allows me to relax and enjoy myself. This video nearly made me cry because I could relate to so much, Youve made me realize how much I've been avoiding my loved ones. I really wish I had someone like you as an older brother. I just really wanted to thank you for having an impact on my life!!!
Man, I find myself in you.. The prime time, the downfall and all ...getting reality checks everyday to get depressed more everything is so relatable bro
content creation / esports is "hard" because theres no blueprint. no one knows what they are doing - everyone is just thrown into the mix and only the best of the best survive. related to this video a lot more than u know, we gotta play sometime again!
i started to play only omen cuz of you, i used to wait for your newest guides or any kind of omen related videos... but i got burnt out too... cuz i was playing so much... just to escape reality of my failing academics.... but safe to say i found my way back to my calling... and now my name has a prefix, Dr. What i wanna say is thanks for being part of my life when valorant meant the world to me. I hope you find your way back to content creation that you initially blew up for. cheers, felxinja, chris. I will watch you grow
honestly bro ur brave as hell for quitting that fed ex job it takes courage and uploading this video even more ur just amazing man no matter what happens in life we support you we really do (also you have amazing hair)
i dont know if you will ever see my comment but i dont care i want to say this anyways. You are one of my favorite Valorant players if not the Nr.1. I Watched every Video of yours since the beginning and it was the time where i started to play val. you inspired me to play omen and i would always try to learn from your content and from your plays. your videos are so enjoyable and i love them. I dont know you personally but i've always had the feeling that you are a very kind and fun person to be around thats why i felt so sorry that you had to go through that. you are putting a lot of effort in your work now and i really am happy to see you post this much with passion again. Thank you for starting this journey and letting us be a part of it with you. keep up the great work
aye man, i know i can say for watching your vids for years now, i think you have support man if you wanted to try other games other than valorant. I hate seeing content creators feel they are "stuck" because they are posting content for one game. We love you man and the content you bring out, we would rather you felt happy about it than feel you are stuck in a loop of never ending game play :)
The way I'm relating to this is insane, I'm in the same period of life as you are.
Been following you from the release days of valorant, but I started doing so religiously lately because of your cool energy, you have also this aura of kindness that somehow makes it fun to watch your videos. This is only a tastement to the hard work you are putting to have a healthier life and a healthier relationship with gaming and content creating. You should be proud of yourself. Thanks for sharing this vulnerable side of you, my respect for you have just skyrocketed ! Will continue to follow your journey cuz I'm eager to see your healthy progress, much love Chris ❤
The most honest and genuine Valorant Video in history, respect and hope things get better
Holy, crap man it takes so much raw courage to post your highs as much as your lows for the internet to see. I remember watching your videos in 2020 and wanting to make those some big brain plays with the edgy shadow guy. And promptly dropped val until a month ago. After watching this, I'm so happy to hear that as much as there might be a dark voice still trying to whisper in your ear that you are strong enough, and you know that you mean a lot to people that love you both off and online, that its just that, a whisper with no power over you. Also, when comparing yourself to other content creators, at leas that I watch, you're one of the few who manages everything alone. Which has gotta be so extremely stressful in conjunction with everything else you've battled through the past years, so please get an editor and some sponsorships when you are ready. When I drop val again, but come back in a year I can't wait to see "Ultimate compilation of omen massive outplays"
really inspiring to hear what u said in the vid much appreciated and the way you are still standing out here today right now matters the most 💜💯🤝
No one would dare to post personal stuff like this on social media thinking what would people think about me. I’m glad you did and tbh, this video was a journey for people like me who has been on this omen journey with you since you started playing valorant and became the omen god. Love to hear that your mental condition is healthier than it was some time ago. One thing I would say is, if you feel you’ve hit rock bottom, there’s only one way to go now and that is to the top. Full support to you to whatever you post because I don’t like flexinja the youtuber but I like Chris the human behind it all. Much love brother🫂
I’ve been watching you since before twitch. I’ve been playing valorant since beta. I stopped playing for about 1-2 years after beta due to circumstances but you were the reason I started playing omen. I still remember in your old videos you put some random activity you have with your friends. There are only few streamers I watch on youtube which includes you, royal g, maxie, kaemi, etc. Idk how to explain it but I feel some kind of good energy or niceness from watching you guys. I dont get the same feeling when I watch some other streamers. So thank you for still posting the videos. I dont watch live streams too often so I’m probably not supporting you enough but I do spend more time on youtube and I’ll keep watching your videos and support as much as I can C:
0:42 The Hollowknight ost, good one
man i was thinking also abt the same thing
i couldnt remember where this came from and it was driving me crazy lol ty
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been a fan since those very first "aggressive omen outplays" titles. i definitely noticed when you got bitter and vacant, which did make it hard to watch. no idea you were going through the ringer emotionally. im glad to have the positive mental flexinja back ❤
I absolutely love that you’re confident enough to make this video, even if it scared you. You never ever ever fully understand what people are going through. Thanks for sharing your story and best of luck in the days to come.
1:08 yes mate, been follower of you when you had 10k subscribers and you were Black Squad's best content creator. Stay strong!🤗
first time i ever watched someone's journey... i normally avoid it cause they are too boring but damn bro the ups and downs and the struggles u did, HATS OFF and love your content watch it whenever i get notification of your video. Last but not the least take care of your health... that's what matters the most... burning out and feeling frustrated is very common in fps games. Love you brother!!
@flexinja nah being this vulnerable is already big enough, its not just being content creator but ure giving a whole and generalized advice. Thank you Flex!!!
Loved the video! It is so true social media has made us worse from every aspect. Getting 20 likes in a video is nowadays considered bad but try thinking that 20 people come up to you (irl) and appreciate how you are doing/looking etc. You being so transparent about your thoughts makes you a great person. Don't worry Chris, EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE, BELIEVE IN YOURSELF♥😁
Didn't wanna bring other creator but I always used to wonder how NRG s0m always keeps me engaged and hooked it his streams and videos and came to the conclusion that he was just enjoying the game , having fun with friends. Everything you said in the video was truly correct and hope you get whatever you want in life.
Much Love
I think the problem is obvious. You're playing valorant.
well yeah, valorant is very stale in terms of content. devs said it themselves that esports is their main focus and putting content aside. It's dumb because if people arent attracted by the content, how are you going to keep your current players and pull in new ones?
@@harrytarded7002well tbh what kind of content could even be released with valorant lol
@@en_vy exactly, it's an inherent problem with eSports titles. Siege had a problem with the amount of content released every year to try to keep the appeal and Devs couldn't keep up, up until 2020 when they started reducing but now Ubisoft must have pulled so many resources away that its still worse than it was before
@@harrytarded7002 csgo was doing fine in that term with the variety of gamemodes and possibilities, but now cs2 is just faceit/cheater experience
this is why most channels who stick to one game always fail
Been watching since the Black Squad days I will never stop watching bro. (Even though I don’t play valorant anymore) One of the only genuine content creators i’ve watched and played with and you deserve all the success that comes your way. ❤
Hey Flexinja, im a german psychologist and I know you from the start. This video is not only brave, it is authentic and added value to a superficial world of content. If you learn and grow from your past, you will find yourself in a place you want to be in very soon. Keep your head up und stay that authentic you are now to yourself and to your followers.
Hey Flexy I've Followed You from The gold blacksquad days , To know how far you've come as a content creator I feel happy for you and even if it is stressful for you now I hope You keep Going , I always thought You were cracked at all the games wether if it was black squad or valorant . You're always gonna be that guy who is nutty at all the fps games .Keep Goingg
Been a silent viewer of yours since you started your omen career, I appreciate you being this transparent not only to your audience but to your self as well. I got emotional when you discussed about sui*ide because I was in your position years ago (I was 17 and school sucks) but now I am a new teacher and loving my life apparently. I don't know where I'm going with this but I hope and I will pray that you continue to feel better. Thank you Chris
Don't worry about the views man (easier said than done). That's when the game stops being fun. Back when views weren't involved, you just played the game for the game itself and the mastery of it. It was pure. People just want to see other people do extraordinary things. That’s why you popped off. Content creation is good but it won’t fully showcase how extraordinary of a player you are. I think if you maintained the purity in why you played Valorant, I think you truly would've gone pro, which really would've been the next step for your career like all the big streamers shroud, tarik, tenz, subroza, xqc etc. Pro play would’ve put your extraordinary skill on center stage for the whole world to fully realize. I know it’s scary but I really believe that you can do it. You have the connections and opportunities that most people don’t so why not just give it a shot? What’s the worst that could happen? Take a chance on yourself and let yourself shine.
If you did, I would fly out to see you play on stage and cheer you on.
appreciate you brother, love you so much. my goal was never to go pro, but i know if i put my mind to it i could have. Valorant isn't the most enjoyable game to play in general after 4 years, but who knows, i could spark some interest in giving it a shot in the future. but again, i just don't think i have the passion to pursue it. love you man
This is super relatable, content creator aside the emotions you went through are some of the toughest to endure. This is really refreshing and I'm glad your doing better!
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Damm… this is deep asf I’ll definitely take your advice and hope your doing better now flexninja
This Video of you being able to show us what's happening in your life and how you plan on improving yourself is amazing and should be shown to all content creators. I like the part where you said that you should be more happy knowing that people clicked and watched your video even if its for a short time.
keep the videos coming, I loved watching it back then and I still love watching your videos now!
Valorant's been a big part of my life since 2020, and you were my biggest inspiration. I started playing the game with every other agent I could find, but when I bumped into your video, saw everything that you could do with omen, I fell in love with the agent, and you as a content creator. You were and still are my idol, and I remember doing omen plays so good one time, someone called me flexinja in game and that was the best compliment ever for me. Someone called me my sensei's name, and I felt I was on top of the world. I still watch your content, and your stream, and I myself have had a falling out stage in valorant, where I felt incredibly low, would rage and self harm whenever I used to play bad, coz I felt shit about myself. I'm so proud of you for all the way you've come, and for standing out Infront of so many people and letting your heart out like this. You're my biggest inspiration, and I'll follow you to the last of your days as a content creator. Take your time, relax, spend time doing things you love, we fans aren't going anywhere!
I dont play this game much anymore, but you are one of the reasons I mained Omen and are still the only Valorant channel I watch from time to time.
Glad to know you are doing better.
When I first started playing Valorant as someone who wasn't a fan of the FPS genre prior your videos about Omen and basic game knowledge really helped me to learn the game and understand it enough to where I could have fun, as well as many hours of just straight entertainment. I hate that you went through what you went through but you seem to be in a much better headspace now and I hope that continues for you. Good luck Chris and thank you for all that you do.
You’ll always be my and many people’s go to content creator when it comes to playing Omen. And you have and deserve all the support you need. Keep it up Chris
Always have loved the content! Even from the NRG content days. You were the first ever person I bought merch from and I still wear it to this day! Love to hear you’re doing better❤
Chris you are the reason why i started playing valorant in 2021, you were my favourite streamer and you are the only reason why i used to omen main in valo your plays inspired me and i thought how is that even possible . Believe me you are the same player with same potential don't push yourself that hard. The thing about valorant is rather than being the best you can enjoy every moment of it. Love you hero and more power to you
Honestly, you have always done something that other creators haven't, listening to your own needs and opening up and being brave enough to say it, we can't talk about all this without taking into account the human side. Of the people I admire most in the world, you are one of them and not simply for your achievements and notable points that everyone would say "he is someone", I have always admired you for your ability to get up Even though the fall may be hard, I will always say that no matter what path you choose, I support you, and what a good start to get up from this fall is to be self-critical and brave, I love you very much. And remember 'Once you hit rock bottom you can only do one thing, go up!!'
I'm so proud of you for putting this video out, its very tough to speak out on something like this and it takes a lot of strength and realization. I've been pretty detached from Valorant ever since deadlock came out and i'm slowly getting back into it. I've been a fan since 2021, and I appreciate this from you so much. Much love chris
hi man im from switzerland in europe and i just started playing valorant like two months ago and you were one of the first guys who appeared when i searched:good omen tips and tricks. then i started to watch your stream recordings on my way from school to home and i really like them ! stay how you are and how you feel the best and like you always say : appreciate it
You are very strong for making this video bro, like not many would realize the problem and act on it let alone make a video about it and learn from the shit you went through. Stay strong and as you said take regular brakes drink water and eat well, all the luck in the world to ya!
Hey Flex, I have been following you since the start of Valorant and I have loved watching you play! I even main Omen because of you. I am happy you have come to terms with yourself and are going on a better path. I would love to play with you sometime even though I suck lol!
I'm watching you from your black squad days , those days were gold. Eventually people have to move to other games and i still love your valorant content. Keep it up
This video helped me a lot today. There were so many things that line up with my own situation that it just goes to show you that everyone is dealing with something. I'm a 28 year old who quit my shitty logistics job for videography. I did it, but somehow roped myself into corporate editing and now I'm unfulfilled and bored again. I can hardly walk in a grocery store or go to the gym to decompress because I developed crippling social anxiety around ~25 for being SO critical on myself. As a fellow risk taker, I applaud you for being vulnerable and self reflective to such a massive audience. I've always loved your content but this was a really refreshing video.
life is about taking risks, but sometimes the risks you take make you feel incredibly stuck. much love, keep on pushing through the shitty times
I'm so happy you're doing better, Chris!
Burnout and depression is something that can never be talked about too much, so many people are going through it silently and these kind of videos definitely help show they're not alone.
Being this open on an online space definitely takes guts, and I'm thankful you did it. Just know we see you and are with you bro, I've been struggling with something similar and this video definitely helped me.
I'm proud of you Chris, you're a real one for sharing this.
Bro just hit me on a deeper level & woke me up to some of my vices. Thank you for the openness & vulnerability. 🙏🏽
There is a reason why omen is my most played agent (even if he is not my favorite), you can figure out the rest yourself. Also you are the only creator I tried to reach out to(even though I know creators dont pay mind to their instagram dms). I wanted to try and cheer you up and stuff and it was hard to see you feeling down bud. But you have gotten better now and Im happy for that. Keep those spirits and take care!
I honestly thought that was going to be a joke video like the "I quit Omen" video you posted a couple of days ago and I honestly didn't expect such a real and vulnerable video.
Love your content & watching it always makes me want to play Omen & playing Omen always makes me de-rank...
You're the reason why I love playing Omen. We're here to support you all the way, Chris! Thank you for all the great contents.
Bro as a (ex) content creator and league streamer myself that now plays mainly valorant, I appreciate this video a fuckton. I can relate to this on so many levels its actually insane, even tho I only had around 30K followers on twitch. It still eats away at me to this day ngl, but ur vid definitely helped give me perspective. Luv u for this vid brody and it inspired me forsure! gl on diversifying ur content asw bro ima tune in to some stream sometime!
thank you, i appreciate the kind words and i'm glad i had something to say to relate to you
Hey Flex! I've been following you since you were playing the beta, I am one of those viewers who only watch and never talk in the chat but I can tell that I am a big fan of you, I even tried playing Omen(It did't goes as planed! Haha) and something I would like to say is that I admire you, not only cuz you're a beast in Valorant but because you keep fighting, as a long time follower I was able to notice that were going thru a hard time and I wish nothing but good things for you as much as I was able to do so, when your merch was live I wanted so bad to get a hoddie but I wasn't able, I still think you are one of the bigges contect creator I follow, not because you're good, or because I like Valorant, or stuff like that, I think you are one of the biggest one I follow because you are you and that's all you need, yeah the plays were good in the old times and now but also you were always original, funny, cuz you always looking to be better at anything, things may not always go as planned but I am glad to see that you're still here, we love you Chris, it doesn't matter if you play Valorant, League of Legends or even if you stream a just chatting, the real ones always are here, well, except when you stream at 3:00 am when I am sleep haha! Wishing you the best!
Seeing you grow this much is crazy headups to you bro MUCH LOVE
Just wanted to say that while I did watch your Valorant videos because you're good at the game, what kept me coming back was your personality.
This is super cool. I love the transparency on a sensitive topic and I hope it inspires others to be more honest and introspective with themselves. Life's hard but this shows you can always find the strength to battle back
There are numerous reasons out there on why the views are going low. And what i observed in the middle of the vid is that you are much more focusing yourself on the negative side of it. That's why it made me relieved and happy that by the of the video you realized that it's not about the consistency of the high views per content and that it's about the people who support and appreciate your videos. Nasty clips as usual. Hope you are doing good bro💪.
Been following you since the first viral omen video.
U are and always will be the best valorant creator I have witnessed and after this video the respect is truly through the roof...
Thanks for the videos man 🎉
Bro, this is a brave post that you should feel proud of. It takes a lot of maturity to self reflect and try to become the best version of yourself. I've always seen your content and browsed casually but today you gained a new fan. I look forward to seeing your future work!
Takes a big man to post this, I’ve been in those situations before and I feel on the other side of it now. Feels good to see other people who you’d aspire to be having gone through the same shit. Stay strong brother ❤
Hey Chris, long time, well for me it has been long since I stopped playing valo. I unsubscribed to almost all the valorant channels on yt but I am still subbed to you cause that's how much I loved your content . You were actually the first valo creator that I watched which made me become an Omen main. I just want you to know that I rll fking love you and your content even tho I'm not playing anymore. A lot of the things that you said are actually so relatable.. It's rll hard to not get burnt out of the usual boring life. But building positive habits such as working out, getting a better diet and just cutting of all the toxic people out of my life has helped me a lot. Chris I hope you can heal as soon possible. It takes time so take your time and keep pushing harder brother
I recently did a speech about my own mental health to my whole school and even that was hard so I cant picture the strength you needed to post this chris. Hope you're doing better now and enjoying the content you're creating!
My Gawd you almost perfectly described my last 3 years.. Glad you've found the strength to post your journey through the shadows. Keep growing and healing!
W video man! content creation can def be a struggle glad to see you're back on the right path
Bro isn’t falling off, he’s rising up.
I only found you recently, but this video still hit hard. It’s crazy how you can never truly tell what someone is thinking. It’s great that you are able to open up about this, and that you’re doing well now
We love you Flex ❤
Thank you Chris for sharing your story. Last time I commented on how calm you were, I couldn't even imagine what you were going through. I haven't been watching you for long, but I noticed how often you post content and thought it must be really tough. I'm surprised you edit your own content and I hope you delegate some of that work as soon as possible. I also hope you find something you enjoy doing and don't become a prisoner of Valorant. You're a charming enough person to make a brand out of yourself and not be tied to a specific game. I think people enjoy seeing you happy and calm, doing something you're genuinely passionate about. And remember, that doesn't mean we only appreciate you when you're happy. We're here for you through thick and thin, and thank you again for being so open about your experiences with your audience. 💛
It is very refreshing to hear this. I can’t possibly begin to imagine what it was like going through all that but I remember when I first found you and how cool your content was. At some point I just stopped watching you because I think I felt some of that burnout. It didn’t seem like you had the same passion for making content, but I never thought much of it then. Now after hearing all of what you’ve been through I can really empathize with your situation and understand why it seemed that way. I feel like I’m rambling but the bottom line is, it is really great to see you happy making great content again. Love you Flex
This was actually such a great video. I remember you and flights were my fav youtubers back in early valorant, my silver self aspired to be like you guys so much. As time went on I didnt watch yall as much and honestly felt bad for you seeing your fall off. Im really glad to see that you're going to be making a come back and will stay tuned❤
You are one of the few val content creator that I'm still following and you were one of the first ! GL on getting better and just do what is gonna make you happier ! I hope it's gonna get easier for you 💪
happy you're making videos like these just talking to the viewers, and you always got me watching ur videos flex
Flex brotha i didnt know you really went through a phase like that, i been watching you since a long while but never knew this.
hope youre doing well nowadays, since life has been hard For me too.
love ya
honestly so relatable and amazing how well you explained how things were, keep going
One thing that should be mentioned as part of your succes - althought I get that it's not a thing you'd say about yourself - is that you seem like a great guy! This video is testament.
Hey Flex! I’ve been a LONG time fan ever since 2020. You were my favorite streamer! You inspired me to play Valorant, so I’d tune in every day. I’ll never forget the day I got to play with you in customs. I even bought your merch! However, I noticed the negativity and emptiness later on, and it hurt my soul. Admittedly, I stopped watching.
As someone who also struggles with mental health, I feel seen with this video. Being vulnerable is not easy, especially with such a following. The transparency in this video made me realize why I fell in love with your content in the first place. You are a genuine guy.
Keep it up, Flex. You’ve positively impacted your viewers more than you know. We love and support you no matter what, even throughout the breaks! Thank you for sharing this journey, and I’ll make sure to tune into Twitch next time I see ya!❤
this was incredibly introspective of you, thank you for sharing your lessons with us. I find myself getting really frustrated when I'm not doing well and whenever I just focus on having fun playing smart and creative I end up playing really well too. i have been trying to find a good mix of playing smart and creative without trying too hard, failing and getting upset. i will take this as a more powerful reminder to just have fun and be creative in the moment and if I die just reset and try again, hopefully I could attract others who think the same way and we could all have fun and play together :) 🦔❄
I've been watching you since Black Squad and I never knew you had such problems. I'm glad you're feeling better.
Brother, that almost made me cry...im glad that you feel better now! Keep up the great work and we love you Chris dont forget that