I am genuinely so happy for you! The right meds really can be life changing (they were for me too!), and you deserve the feelings of happiness and stability they are bringing you.
I've been watching you since the very beginning of ex fundie diaries and I'm SO happy to see you doing well. ❤ You deserve to thrive and be happy. I'm so proud of you for being brave and stepping up for yourself like that.
I'm so glad you took this step. I've been on Paxil for 10 years and it has done a load of good for me. And it's like you said--It doesn't make the depression/anxiety go away completely, but it does give you enough energy to do what's necessary to improve your mental state. And sometimes that's really what makes the difference! I wish you continued health and healing
Lexapro works well for an old friend of mine and I'm so glad that it works for you. Hearing success stories about what works for them is heartwarming af.
I love all of these comments in your feed!!! I had a very similar experience with Lexipro after getting hit by a car as a pedestrian and having knee and shoulder injuries. I experience depression, and have since puberty, but had always managed it through exercise, talk therapy skills until then. But the constant pain that wasn't responding to physical therapy was so debilitating. I couldn't even "see" how overwhelmingly depressed I was. Until a new physician asked me the last time I felt even a moment of joy. And I realized I hadn't been feeling anything close to joy for more than I year. We agreed that day to start Lexipro, at 2.5 mg and slowly ramp up over 2 weeks to 5mg, do 5 mg for a month, and then I could choose to ramp back down if I wished. It was transformative and saved my life and eventually my marriage to my spouse for whom loving with my living with intense depression and pain was debilitating as my caretaker. I felt my whole self vibrating with remembering and understanding and re-experience as you shared your story. I'm so excited for you, so proud of your hard self work because I deeply enjoy your content and your perspectives and whit and artistry and unabashed gentleness to other humans and animals. Thank you for choosing to share them. You're a gift!
I'm so so glad they're working for you! My brain needs anti depressants too and the difference with having them vs not is night and day. There's just no room to do self improvement and work on skills and tools when you're struggling just to survive.
I also am so happy to be on Lexipro! No side effects and I feel so much more "normal". I was the opposite of you as in originally seeking it out for anxiety, not my depression. When my doctor mentioned that I scored high on their depression survey, I explained that I was so used to being depressed that I hardly noticed. It was the extreme anxiety that I could no longer manage alone. So happy that you have found a similar positive effects!
I’ve felt that way about lexapro for 20 years (maybe 15? I can’t remember when I started it. I’m 30. lol). Last summer I fell into a deep depression and had to increase the dosage because my body had gotten used to the current dose. But amazingly enough, after doing that, it’s still doing its job perfectly. ❤
I remember your video when you were picking the medication up and I'm so glad to hear this has been such a positive experience and it's working so well for you!
I very much enjoyed your first channel ex-fundie diaries. I found this channel recently and am enjoying your new content as well. Thank you for sharing your life!
I’m so happy that the medicine is working out for you and that you’re able to feel proud of yourself, because you deserve it so much! Even just in this video you seem lighter and freer and that makes this random internet stranger really happy to see. I also think it’s great that you’re sharing your story of a relatively easy transition onto the drug. That was what happened to me too, and I think it’s a real shame that the potential for side effects loom so large in our discourse around antidepressants because they really are something that only seriously affect a minority of people. It’s good to know that side effects are something we know about and can handle, like by trying different antidepressants; but I wish we also emphasized more to people that they might not have significant side effects at all. I take Zoloft, and what I tell everyone is that to me it’s been a very “gentle” drug. Not really any side effects, and also it doesn’t make me feel like I’m stoned or anything like that. It’s just like it clears away some of the grey fog so I can see the world in color again. It doesn’t feel mind-altering; it feels mind-clearing.
Hi, Elly! Thank you for this video. It was integral in me finally (after much back and forth and many years) trying an SSRI. I've been on it for 2, almost 3 weeks. Thank you thank you thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. You helped people... you helped me!
I’m so glad you’ve experienced improvement. You are definitely brave, no doubt about that! Your openness & sharing of your journey is helping so many people. ❤
I tried a lot of different meds, so it wasn't the first med that helped. But the one that helped, it really helped. I have a friend that needs that same help but she says she is on "too much" medication already (but they are for her autoimmune stuff).
I’m curious what the experience is between people taking antidepressants after depression caused by genetics vs depression caused by emotional trauma. I’ve had Tourette’s Syndrome since the age of 5 plus ADHD so obvious that they diagnosed me as a girl. I had to take antidepressants for ADHD since stimulants would make Tourette’s worse, so taking them for depression didn’t seem like a big deal for me. But it makes me curious for people who’ve suffered PTSD and for whom genetic symptoms are unclear.
They scare me, that initial first weeks I feel like crap and stop. There has to be a better design in the future as I cannot afford to feel worse when I’m already feeling horribly depressed. I cat afford to feel agitated and more depressed after taking them
They take time to work. Struggle through it. I think you’ll be happy you did. That stuff will go away after a short while and you’ll feel better than ever I bet
They should scare you, they are not for everyone! Feeling worse before you feel better is a lie! You should start feeling the clouds lift a little each day otherwise you take a risk and falling into a worse depression with a drug that doesn’t work with your body and mind. There are other kinds of antidepressants other than SSRI’s.
I am so happy for you! The clip of you in December honestly looks like a different person. I’m also pretty jealous, as I am stuck in a bad situation and every psychiatric medication I’ve tried has spun me out of control 😢. I keep fighting, but my goodness it would be nice to have an effective med to help!
Oh man, I had those same feelings of feeling like I was going to carry my thoughts out even though I totally did not want to. It was so bad I went to a psych and he said it sounded like OCD or, obsessive thoughts. Sure enough, my antidepressant totally helped me out of the hole..I feel so much better now..
Day 2 on Bupropion 😊 i am hopeful for treatment in a way i have never been. My life is more stable now i just need to get the chemicals in my brain to work right then ill be a thriving human.
I GAINED 30 POUNDS IN 3 MONTHS on Lexapro, I had no sex drive, was flatlined to the point of no laughter, no tears, just FAT and dead inside. Was on it for one year dealing with grief, I was a walking zombie. Glad it worked for you but it definitely DOES NOT work for everyone.
Just like with any medication, it is hard to know whether it will help until you try. I hope one day there's a way to tell what will help a specific person. Antidepressants have helped me so much, but certain ones gave me terrible side effects.
Funny that some antidepressants allowed you to feel all the things - hope, joy, and freedom - that Christianity promises, but doesn't actually deliver.
Happy for you, well done! I'm autistic, so the idea that antidepressants are a simple medical necessity for some slotted very easily into my brain, but I'm aware that *Lot* of people have hesitations for various reasons. Which inspired this song that I hope you'll enjoy: ua-cam.com/video/OG6HZMMDEYA/v-deo.htmlsi=-saahi6duFhx5MdJ
I love that Crazy Ex-Girlfriend song SO much. It’s a funny message because on one hand, they’re not a big deal, but on the other hand, they can be lifesaving for those who need it. ❤
I am genuinely so happy for you! The right meds really can be life changing (they were for me too!), and you deserve the feelings of happiness and stability they are bringing you.
These drugs are just little better than placebo and cause disasters.
Good luck
I am so glad they are working so well for you!!
I've been watching you since the very beginning of ex fundie diaries and I'm SO happy to see you doing well. ❤ You deserve to thrive and be happy. I'm so proud of you for being brave and stepping up for yourself like that.
I'm so glad you took this step. I've been on Paxil for 10 years and it has done a load of good for me. And it's like you said--It doesn't make the depression/anxiety go away completely, but it does give you enough energy to do what's necessary to improve your mental state. And sometimes that's really what makes the difference! I wish you continued health and healing
Lexapro works well for an old friend of mine and I'm so glad that it works for you.
Hearing success stories about what works for them is heartwarming af.
Your new upload schedule is amazing! I hope this channel gets some more ❤. Your diary style videos always give me a really good feeling.
I love all of these comments in your feed!!! I had a very similar experience with Lexipro after getting hit by a car as a pedestrian and having knee and shoulder injuries. I experience depression, and have since puberty, but had always managed it through exercise, talk therapy skills until then. But the constant pain that wasn't responding to physical therapy was so debilitating. I couldn't even "see" how overwhelmingly depressed I was. Until a new physician asked me the last time I felt even a moment of joy. And I realized I hadn't been feeling anything close to joy for more than I year. We agreed that day to start Lexipro, at 2.5 mg and slowly ramp up over 2 weeks to 5mg, do 5 mg for a month, and then I could choose to ramp back down if I wished. It was transformative and saved my life and eventually my marriage to my spouse for whom loving with my living with intense depression and pain was debilitating as my caretaker. I felt my whole self vibrating with remembering and understanding and re-experience as you shared your story. I'm so excited for you, so proud of your hard self work because I deeply enjoy your content and your perspectives and whit and artistry and unabashed gentleness to other humans and animals. Thank you for choosing to share them. You're a gift!
It's not antidepressants, it's antidepressants AND ME.
This is amazing 🧡
My heart sings to see the joy and life in you grow and shine 💚
oh so beautifully said; thank you!
I'm so so glad they're working for you! My brain needs anti depressants too and the difference with having them vs not is night and day. There's just no room to do self improvement and work on skills and tools when you're struggling just to survive.
I also am so happy to be on Lexipro! No side effects and I feel so much more "normal". I was the opposite of you as in originally seeking it out for anxiety, not my depression. When my doctor mentioned that I scored high on their depression survey, I explained that I was so used to being depressed that I hardly noticed. It was the extreme anxiety that I could no longer manage alone. So happy that you have found a similar positive effects!
I’ve felt that way about lexapro for 20 years (maybe 15? I can’t remember when I started it. I’m 30. lol). Last summer I fell into a deep depression and had to increase the dosage because my body had gotten used to the current dose. But amazingly enough, after doing that, it’s still doing its job perfectly. ❤
I remember your video when you were picking the medication up and I'm so glad to hear this has been such a positive experience and it's working so well for you!
I very much enjoyed your first channel ex-fundie diaries. I found this channel recently and am enjoying your new content as well. Thank you for sharing your life!
I’m so happy that the medicine is working out for you and that you’re able to feel proud of yourself, because you deserve it so much! Even just in this video you seem lighter and freer and that makes this random internet stranger really happy to see.
I also think it’s great that you’re sharing your story of a relatively easy transition onto the drug. That was what happened to me too, and I think it’s a real shame that the potential for side effects loom so large in our discourse around antidepressants because they really are something that only seriously affect a minority of people. It’s good to know that side effects are something we know about and can handle, like by trying different antidepressants; but I wish we also emphasized more to people that they might not have significant side effects at all. I take Zoloft, and what I tell everyone is that to me it’s been a very “gentle” drug. Not really any side effects, and also it doesn’t make me feel like I’m stoned or anything like that. It’s just like it clears away some of the grey fog so I can see the world in color again. It doesn’t feel mind-altering; it feels mind-clearing.
What’s so bad about feeling stoned all the time
@@user-vw2jq3to5enothing, if it’s what you want and you have a lifestyle that accommodates it. But it’s something lots of people prefer to avoid.
This has cheered up my whole day 🙂
Hi, Elly! Thank you for this video. It was integral in me finally (after much back and forth and many years) trying an SSRI. I've been on it for 2, almost 3 weeks. Thank you thank you thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. You helped people... you helped me!
I’m so glad you’ve experienced improvement. You are definitely brave, no doubt about that! Your openness & sharing of your journey is helping so many people. ❤
So happy for you!
I tried a lot of different meds, so it wasn't the first med that helped. But the one that helped, it really helped. I have a friend that needs that same help but she says she is on "too much" medication already (but they are for her autoimmune stuff).
I’m curious what the experience is between people taking antidepressants after depression caused by genetics vs depression caused by emotional trauma. I’ve had Tourette’s Syndrome since the age of 5 plus ADHD so obvious that they diagnosed me as a girl. I had to take antidepressants for ADHD since stimulants would make Tourette’s worse, so taking them for depression didn’t seem like a big deal for me. But it makes me curious for people who’ve suffered PTSD and for whom genetic symptoms are unclear.
SSRIs have always given me the ability to enjoy an anxiety/depression free life and achieve everything I need to do day to day.
I'm glad to hear you're doing so well.
I’m on my second day and haven’t had side effects ! I hope this helps me as much as it’s helping you ❤️❤️❤️ thank you so much for sharing ❤️❤️❤️
Your beautiful inside and out, i just startted lexapro a week ago hoping it helps me also ❤
They scare me, that initial first weeks I feel like crap and stop. There has to be a better design in the future as I cannot afford to feel worse when I’m already feeling horribly depressed. I cat afford to feel agitated and more depressed after taking them
They take time to work. Struggle through it. I think you’ll be happy you did. That stuff will go away after a short while and you’ll feel better than ever I bet
They should scare you, they are not for everyone! Feeling worse before you feel better is a lie! You should start feeling the clouds lift a little each day otherwise you take a risk and falling into a worse depression with a drug that doesn’t work with your body and mind. There are other kinds of antidepressants other than SSRI’s.
I take it for my anxiety and it has given me the space to work on it in therapy.
I've been on Lexapro for almost a year for my anxiety and suddenly I'm buying my first house, medicine is amazing!
You will get better
I am so happy for you! The clip of you in December honestly looks like a different person. I’m also pretty jealous, as I am stuck in a bad situation and every psychiatric medication I’ve tried has spun me out of control 😢. I keep fighting, but my goodness it would be nice to have an effective med to help!
Thank you so much for sharing ❤️
Maybe it's the parasocial relationship talking, Elly, but I'm really glad you're still with us.
Oh man, I had those same feelings of feeling like I was going to carry my thoughts out even though I totally did not want to. It was so bad I went to a psych and he said it sounded like OCD or, obsessive thoughts. Sure enough, my antidepressant totally helped me out of the hole..I feel so much better now..
Which ones do you take?
@@justmadeit2 they first started about 2020 so at that time I took Prozac. Prozac was the main one for ocd at that time. It worked well for me.
I’m on day 10 of 10 mg. The side effects are killing me. I’m light headed and dizzy most of the day.
I’m so happy for you ❤️❤️❤️
Day 2 on Bupropion 😊 i am hopeful for treatment in a way i have never been. My life is more stable now i just need to get the chemicals in my brain to work right then ill be a thriving human.
Wellbutrin? Keep us posted
Why you drink it at night?Did you try 10 mg?
I GAINED 30 POUNDS IN 3 MONTHS on Lexapro, I had no sex drive, was flatlined to the point of no laughter, no tears, just FAT and dead inside. Was on it for one year dealing with grief, I was a walking zombie. Glad it worked for you but it definitely DOES NOT work for everyone.
Same for me. It was like hell trying to get off of it, but I finally beat it.
@@shoutuckerdidnothingwrongi agree with you, trying to stop these medications are real struggle, you will be feeling worse than when you started.
Agreed!! Same for me!
Have you ever heard about PSSD?
Just like with any medication, it is hard to know whether it will help until you try. I hope one day there's a way to tell what will help a specific person. Antidepressants have helped me so much, but certain ones gave me terrible side effects.
Watching your videos makes me wanna start vlogging again....
Only 5 mgs did that?
Im starting tomorrow. Does it cause weight gain.
No
How's it been
@@katemelly5368 I quit after 2 days. I dont believe its good for my health. Its just symptom management
@@katemelly5368 i didnt continue
I did Lexi pro and turned me into a zombie. I am on Wellbutrin now
❤❤❤
Wow 5mg that’s all honestly I started 5mg as well 😅😂 but only because 10mg was kicking my Aa
I am a better human when I'm medicated.
You deserve happiness. It just sucks that you were born into a cult that told femme-presenting people the exact opposite. ❤❤❤
Funny that some antidepressants allowed you to feel all the things - hope, joy, and freedom - that Christianity promises, but doesn't actually deliver.
The Bible actually promises that Christians will suffer in this life. The prosperity gospel has tricked you, and for that, I'm sorry.
It’s easy getting on them and Hell coming off
Happy for you, well done!
I'm autistic, so the idea that antidepressants are a simple medical necessity for some slotted very easily into my brain, but I'm aware that *Lot* of people have hesitations for various reasons.
Which inspired this song that I hope you'll enjoy: ua-cam.com/video/OG6HZMMDEYA/v-deo.htmlsi=-saahi6duFhx5MdJ
I love that Crazy Ex-Girlfriend song SO much. It’s a funny message because on one hand, they’re not a big deal, but on the other hand, they can be lifesaving for those who need it. ❤